#its 4:30am so im rambling

[applestruda]

Yippie, one project down out of two

[jamiethebeeart]

[turnaboutstar]

I finished turnabout serenade it wasn't as mid as I thought it would be it was actually fun I saw people say it's like big top two but it's better than that case and even that actually had some good moments imo (just like the parts with franzsika and edgeworth etc) like that was interesting!!!and maya was pretty fun in that case but yeah despite most of it feeling like filler and max and ben existences I still think it's better than the first case of that game that's my least favourite it was so annoying imo anyways them playing the video a bunch of times was getting a little annoying but I think with how weird 3d klavier looked it kinda made it more funny than annoying and I think it wasn't that bad of a set up to the next one I'm so excited to play it but turnabout corner was definitely less fun than this one

[blackvail22]

9/24/23 — 1:10am

theres a lot that happened within the past two days its insane. on the 22nd, i had to train this new associate for the whole day. he's rlly nice, and he's fun to talk to. he caught on really quick! im excited to work with him

also, that same day, i got back with my ex!!! it could be a dumb decision (because this is the 3rd time) but i really want things to work out. again, no one is going to know besides you... and... my coworkers, but thats different

the coworker that gave me his number, he gave me a note at work that says "im awkward so i dont know how to say this out loud, but i like you" and then taped a soda tab on it (it was the "hug" meaning one, which... i dont like but could be worse). so! ive told the new associate i have a boyfriend. im going to tell them i have a boyfriend, but im telling those im closest to at work that its because i dont want my worker to hit on me anymore

if he keeps going after that, i have to report him. im not letting someone get away with that, not this time.

i have to start standing up for myself... im just scared because of that teenager who got killed because she rejected her (adult) co-worker, im afraid its going to be me. this is the reason i dont like hearing abt death.

on another note, back to abt my boyfriend....

im writing this as soon as i ended the call with him. i miss him already. i wonder how and why my brain changes how i react to things because of a label. i feel so clingy. i want to talk to him more. he does make me happy, and i hope i make him happy too

oh, i also bought this candle... its supposed to "smell like london" and it says the scent is "afternoon biscuits and tea" so thats nice. i bought it to think of you, nd its nice that the color of the candle matches my room

oh last thing ! i took my permit drivers test and i passed it! feels so surreal because i never thought i was ever gonna end up driving but here we are lol

anyways i like this song

6:06am —

dude i couldnt fall asleep until like 4:30am and my mom woke me up at 5:30, screaming at me to find something i didnt have!!! i found it! and it was in her bag, a place she didnt look (because she only looked one place!!!!!!) at least i can sleep now, but idek if i can do that because i feel awake now. im going to sob. FUVKKK I HAVE A HEADACHE AND SINUS PAIN NOW IM GOING TO CRY DUDE. and the fact that she walked up the stairs to scream at me (she never walks up the stairs)???? ooo. im so mad bro! like im going to wake up whenever i have my alarms set and im going to punch a wall because i cant sleep without getting interrupted. IM PISSED TF OFF NOW bevause i havent had adequate sleep since my last off day (a week ago) and i dont have a lot of sleep for tomorrow because i have to wake up at 6am for an appointment thats 2hrs away. sure, ill sleep in the car, but with my mom? she wont let it happen. and i dont have another off day untl thursday, and i cant sleep in for that one either becahse i have another goddamn appointment in the morning. like, is this what being an adult is? being harrassed by coworkers, never having enough sleep, never able to fall asleep.... it cant be cause those all haopened when i was a teenager too. stuck in that cycle, though, and i cant wait for that cycle to finally end.

bad things always tend to happen to me. is it because i bring bad energy? AHHHHHHH i just need to scream cry

i am going to try to sleep now. I've rambled on for way too long

11:17pm

been incredibly sad today. i think it was my lack of sleep, or maybe it was my mom yelling at me and waking me up. still, my heart feels so ... heavy. i cant help but feel bad for people who love me. if i was them, i would choose anyone else to love endlessly. im undeserving of it all, anyway. i dont feel happy tonight. i hope tomorrow's better. i dont know what changed and made me feel this way because when i woke up and went to work, everything was fine until half way through my shift. it didnt really effect me, but them saying "oh, fun's over.. [my name]'s in a bad mood again.. everyone get away" keeps playing in my mind. it didnt affect me then, so i dont know why i keep thinking about it

i just want to fit on my roof and look at the moon, but its been rising really early so i dont think ill be able to see it now. ill watch some livestreams from space of the earth/the moon instead. something to comfort me while listening to music. i havent been able to watch any videos all the way through recently.. havent even been able to watch those gaming streams i like. hopefully ill feel better before i go to sleep

[ummmuhhidk]

fuck god ugh i have to make the poll. poll time bitches !!!!!!!!!!!!! do it do it answer it pleasepkeasepleadpwleasepleaae

and i guess tell me whatever elaborateing you want in the tags i WILL read it all i prommy. dont make me regret that. or do idc i cant control you anyways im foing to sleep also look at tags of original post its just me rambling its funny w/ the context of the time it was which was/is like 4:30am. im very tired

girl help im trying to fight the urge to consume problematic media

[ofcowardiceandkings]

im really happy with how consistent im managing to get their faces and bodies even in draft sketches like the storyboards too , i used some of the initial art to check proportions against after the fact to see how i did while i was resizing the drafts to print out and i got So Close basically every time :'3

achievements this year: can draw Limk and Zel reasonably consistently and im happy with them easy peasy 👌

gotta take the little wins

[chocolatecakecas]

Nono shut up you don't understand, they're husbands. H U S B A N D S

[orochislayer]

so in addition to that >$1000 dollar catering order right before close (stiffed the driver again btw) one of our employees couldnt make it in, so it was just me, the manager, and a couple drivers the whole night

anyway guess who just got off work an hour late lmao

[yourlocallosernamedgreenookie]

hhhghhnbnhgnhg

[ohdeerymeee]

Here I am at 4:30am brainstorming ideas for a kinda superhero universe I'd like to do something with. One with several different webcomics (or something) in a shared universe. I want it to be a blend of magic, supernatural, and almost cosmic horror.

But I don't think I have anywhere near the level of focus to pull it off, so I want to do a different webcomic first, to test the waters and practice... All the skills I'll need for something like that.

Maybe I'll do it eventually. I need to do a lot more brainstorming for my first comic, I have the beginning and ending planned for it, but I still need at least a skeleton of the rest, I keep reimagining it. And character designs. And environment designs.

So I have three webcomic plans just bouncing around in my head.

I don't know where I was going with this, oops.

[reilliane]

modern au where genshin boys(or girls; becaus ei havent chosen who.) calling your number after awhile. their phone rings(and so does an untouched phone buzz.)before theyre sent to voicemail— “.. hey.” they start out after taking multiple breaths.

“i- i know it’s been awhile since i last called, but, i missed you.” *and whole heartbreaking one-sided convo because spoiler alert: your dead. :() “you, you uhm, havent been picking up lately..”

-🦧 i dont write, i draw— god gave me 1 skill and 1/4 of another. anyway, i cried last night at tjis because im cruel and the only person who really suffers is me becauss j can never relay these kinda angst-ideas/thoughts to another person without it alwayseaving my mouth (thumbs??) as smth not sad because of how i word tiis ok im rambling its almost 1:30am goodnight— morning?

Omygo MC's dead- again 😨 AHDAJHDAAHHAJDHAJDJJ

That's sad fr- this kind of angsts with living people clinging onto those who have passed- my heart, ugh, hits me good. Like good.

Also oh dear 🦧 :(( I hope you're doing nicely now and have let out all that angst so you can recover! Chin up! As for skills, they can be honed, don't give up! You'll get extra better with practice, that's a given! We all start from 0.

(My first writing shuck is so cringeworthy I'm 🤪 doesn't help that I had my writer origin story at Wattpad JASHDJHD but in my defense, Wattpad was still so much better then-)

[nala-and-prince]

im !! so !! exhausted !! choir and theater are so draining and i have an all city choir clinic tomorrow from 7-4 and i have to be at school at 6:30am ☹️ and the other day i realized that since im in show choir im in my schools glee club which ……… n e waze i have a state competition next week too and then for show choir we’re going christmas caroling in like a month or smth like that WHICH IM SO EXCITED FOR but before all that we have our last football game which is kind of sad): if i make it to area im going to have to compete until i make it to state which idek if i want to do it im just rambling now but this semester is so stressful and this week was awful but its wtv also rehearsals for the musical start idek when so thats exciting

[mandarinenschaeler]

sad

[starlit-dreaming]

work related stuff

tl;dr -- i’m kinda enjoying work, but its very draining on me since i havent had this much exercise since i worked at my first job which is over 1 year ago and a couple of months now. also my supervisors deadass keep moving me all around the place??? while the other new workers in my group have only been in one area as opposed to 3-4 areas

ramble/rant ahead for those curious about my first 3 days at work

okay so here’s a lil bit of backstory and setup

during this week, i had my orientation for my new job at the post office (which lasted around 3 days). there were 4 different work groups related to the company -- drivers, support, clerks, and mail handler assistants -- MHAs, aka the job i signed up for

during orientation, i befriended a dude who i’m gonna refer to as T, and on the first day of training/work i befriend a girl who i’ll call R

day 1 of training/actual work -- a lot of walking around; i was placed in the area that’s referred to as the “docks” with R, and its basically the place where parcels and mails gets loaded onto trucks. the docks area that i was in mostly focused on cargo that was probably gonna end up going to other cities in my state, unlike the mail that was going to board planes to get to places.

now, i knew that as an MHA, we were most likely going to end up working in a bunch of other areas of the plant. so i wasn’t too surprised when me and R were being moved to an area that i affectionately refer to as the “conveyor belt area” when really it’s just a machine conveyor belt sorting the mail into bins based on the area codes. its was pretty simple work, but it required a lot of walking. thankfully it didnt require me to push heavy carts onto a ramp into a truck or anything -- overall, a fun first day

day 2 of training/actual work -- more walking around, more lack of communication between the daytime supervisors. R and i were no longer working in the same place -- she was learning something new, and i was learning something. vaguely.

so i was told to stick to a different supervisor for my day 2 work. before that, i was learning how to put regular boxes filled with letters/simple mail onto a different conveyor belt. thrilling work, clearly.

anyways, i stick with the other supervisor. who brings me over to this area where people process the mail more closely (as in, we’re actually looking at the local area code on packages and mail and putting it into the bins with the same area code). and the dude tells me to just stick with this one girl. now, this was fine for a while

until it was 11pm and the girl i was sticking around with left. but that was fine, there were 2 other guys who showed up and we were getting things going

and then it was 2:30am and the machine (which felt like how i imagine airport conveyor belts to look like ngl) was shut down and suddenly it was only me, the area code bins, and the packages in the bins waiting to get sorted

i was, basically, completely alone for 30 mins. and i wouldnt say it was terrible, but this is a fact: i’m new and the scanners wont accept my card because i’m new

so i find someone willing to let me scan their card, and im slowly going through the mail thinking about wanting to go home

by 3am, the overnight crew starts showing up and immediately get to work and i know none of them, but what matters was that i went home

day 3 of training/actual work -- i started at the docks, but the area i was in was slow so i got moved to placing boxes of letters onto the conveyor belt from day 2, and i pretty much went back and forth from that to the docks. thankfully, the supervisor of the lovely conveyor belt area, as i affectionately call it, told me at the beginning of my shift that i’m supposed to head over there at 11pm and that i’d be staying there til i went home

now, as im walking through the building with my bag and coat (note: it took me 5 minutes just to reach halfway across the plant), i run into T who was working in an area that i’m unfamiliar with. we saw each other earlier that day when i had to go pick up a scanner, but this was our first conversation since the few minutes before we started our first day

we exchange pleasantries. i tell him that R and i have been running all over the place, and that we were both mainly at the docks or the conveyor belt area

and he tells me that the supervisors have only been keeping him in this one area

which is when i start feeling very much annoyed at how R and i have been running around the plant for the past few days like a headless chicken, and the other new MHAs dont even have to rush through all that shit when we’re supposed to be in training for 2 weeks (i think)

anyways so we say our goodbyes, with me telling him that he looks like he hasnt aged in years, and then i leave the building after 3 minutes

another thing, btw. so on day 1 the evening supervisor asked me and R about which days off we’d like to have ideally, if the schedule allowed for it. i asked for wednesdays off. low and behold, when R and i are finally added onto the schedule, they give me R’s requested day off, and they give R my requested day off. now, i’m willing to ignore that cause to be fair supervisors have a lot of shit to do and have to remember a shit ton of names

so i’m not too torn up about it, but when i got off work earlier and just found out that it was only me and R thats being made to run around? yeah, that did Not help my mood

thankfully, it was resolved since R and i told our supervisor that it was supposed to be the other way around

regardless, now i’m just happy that i don’t have to spend countless hours on my feet

i actually have to invest in a fanny pack, maybe a new pair of work shoes, and some cold compresses. i’m pretty sure that i’m also going to need a compression sleeve for my leg -- i know that it’s unlikely but sometimes it really does feel like my right leg is gonna snap like a twig just for walking for hours. and some ankle compression socks or whatever, mainly just so i can wear it when i’m home

[noblueskies]

Here's something else

Well this is fun it's now almost 4:30AM!

This is on and it's kinda depressing from old memories but it's nice. I've just woken my parents up by crawling up the hallway to get to the bathroom BC I needed to go to the toilet but I was loud and I didn't mean to be it was just the boots and if you've ever been up in the night then you've 'tip toed' places and as I've explained I can't even stand so that was made hard and crawling was loud so don't try that if you're thinking of using it. I've solved a couple of puzzles and now idrk what to do but listen to music and vent about how I hate but also like paracetamol extra and I'm really sensitive to caffeine before you say I'm a lightweight I'm not a coffee drinker I prefer tea and yeah it's not fill of caffeine so I have no tolerance. But yeah I'm sat in bed listening to Spotify and thinking about how I'm missing more school but you know what screw it is mean there's nothing that I can do about it now and I'll end up catching up later I'll be fine it'll just be a heavy Saturday. Also I forgot to say earlier if it is what the spine surgeon suggested then it could take surgery which really is not good BC even though it's not very invasive it still is a little invasive and it has its risks and if I didn't get it with the NHS then that'll be very very very expensive BC you know it's pricey private but well worth it BC I need to get this sorted by it's knocking the shit out of me at the moment. Oh well I guess this is all I can do for the moment. Bless my dad he's been on the phone lots and trying to get me the next appointment ASAP but idk how long it'll be we should get a phone call tomorrow (today but if I fall asleep it'll be tomorrow BC it's 4am in the morning 12-11-19) and ooh it's A's birthday!! Yeah I should text him.

Anyways where was I oh yeah basically the person we saw first privately was a spinal surgeon BC we thought it was to do with our spine but here's the kicker... It wasn't so now we have been reffered to the next person and today we found out that he doesn't deal with children which is really weird bc im 15 and fully grown almost as a man well my feet are fully grown at least. But yeah so now we're trying to get to another person who can help but that's the story so far and if we could have done anything quicker we would have. I got my MRI on a disc also it came when I was ill Friday last week which is really cool they look awesome and I also have my feet which I haven't seen anyone about yet so yeah if there's a orthopaedic Doctor out there who reads MRIs and deals with children that'd be awesome but yeah it's specialist and it's annoying BC I'm slightly worried that we won't get someone to see me quickly but it should be ok it will be ok. I feel sorry for the people around me more than me I'm literally being waited on I'm experiencing what it is like to be my bother right now that's funny (he never does anything) but still it's a lot of pressure on my family and ontop of all this since close friends are going through a tough time and that's going to be a bit overwhelming for everyone but it should be ok I mean worst case scenario I'll just wheel around the house and help out where I can but it's really hard to do that because even though I live in a bungalow which is amazing can I say and some of it is more open planned it's also really awkward to get into my room, bathroom, utility room, spare room and out of the house that's one thing I really miss that I cannot do normal things that other people can you really don't realise the amount of things I can't do anymore. I was ok with sitting out of PE or doing things that wasn't running (4 months ago I could easily stand and walk mostly) but now I can't do that at all it's just too bad. I can't go into town to meet people and for the most part they have to come to me. I haven't left the house in 3 days since I went to a party and that was hard with the codiene - also there's an update on that I'll say in a minute yeah an update within 3 Hours of rambling but I just forgot to say I'll explain in a minute - but yeah I was shattered like almost falling asleep on the sofa shattered which for me is impressive BC I used to not sleep well and I got by with lots of sugar in my system.

Now back to the medicine/drugs. The medicine I'm taking isn't fully effective BC codiene is not an anti inflammatory which isn't what would help tarsal tunnel (js all of my symptoms fit it and this was before I heard of it I'm not saying it is it it just gives me a smidge of hope that this shit show might soon come to a close) so it'll stop me feeling shattered if I stop taking those but I can keep my naproxen and amitriptyline so I might trial that BC I feel like crap with or without the painkillers but feeling tired is rubbish also so I'll just give it a go. I hope there's no withdraw from codiene like ik I'm not addicted but just wonder BC it's really strong. Oh well it'll be fine I'm sure. I'll continue this rambling soon.

[kaiuhs-blog]

i want them all tick tock

Send “✆” for a MORNING text.

[ junior year of high school, 2011 ] [6:05am] kaia ➝ teagan: hey ur awake right[6:08am] kaia ➝ teagan: TEAGS U BETTER BE AWAKE[6:08am] kaia ➝ teagan: U SAID U WOULD DRIVEM TO SCHOOL TODAY[6:08am] kaia ➝ teagan: TEAGS I DEADASS DON’T HAVE A RIDE ITS TOO LATE FOR ME TO TAKE THE BUS[8:04am] kaia ➝ teagan: fuck u i walked n hitch hiked w a soccer mom on the way .

Send “” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

[ sophomore year of college, 2013 ] [2:14am] kaia ➝ teagan: i know graham is ur boyfriend and all and ur in love but i just miss the days where it was just us and you weren’t busy with him all the time. he’s a nice guy but there are times i can’t help but feel like he’s stealing you away from me [2:15am] kaia ➝ teagan: i just miss it when it was just us two against the world why did stella have to come along and steal u awayERROR! TEXT MESSAGE NOT SENT! REVIEW THE MESSAGE AND TRY AGAIN!

Send “☎” for a RUSHED text.

[11:43pm] kaia ➝ teagan: TEAGSKISDT HEL PME[11:45pm] kaia ➝ teagan: THEYP ULELD ME UPT O THE ROOF[11:46pm] kaia ➝ teagan: TEHEY WANT TO PUSH EMIRNTO THE POOL[11:47pm] kaia ➝ teagan: HELPTEAGS U KNOWI CANTEHANDLE HIEHGTS HELP

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

[3:43am] kaia ➝ teagan: teagan whdy are u stilul my friend aure u srue u aren’t sjust pretending[3:45am] kaia ➝ teagan: we'sre best frmiedns buat sometimehs i feel likhe we’re just irdfting atrap[3:50am] kaia ➝ teagan: i dalways supporlt and deefdn u but whenevre i need yu i feel likce ur never thjere[3:51am] kaia ➝ teagan: i just want ym best firend 

Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text.

[10:57pm] kaia ➝ teagan: why don’t u two should just have an honest fuckign convo like normal people.. i’m always going to be on ur side but it’s been months and i just want u guys to fucking resolve this properly already

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

[2:21am] kaia ➝ teagan: help me graham’s drunk again[2:22am] kaia ➝ teagan: he’s doing such weird things n keeps rambling [2:25am] kaia ➝ teagan: HE’S A FUCKKING MESS HELP ME TEAGS IDK WHAT TO DO[2:27am] kaia ➝ teagan: SHOULD I JUST LEAVE HIM DRUNK ON THE BEACH

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[ junior year of high school, 2011 ] [9:30am] kaia ➝ teagan: SO IT TURNS OUT I HAD A POP QUIZ THIS MORNING AND I MISSED IT BC I WAS LATE BC SOMEONE!!! OVERSLEPT[9:34am] kaia ➝ teagan: WHY COULDN’T U JUST WAKE UP ON TIME LIKE A NORMAL PERSON [9:35am] kaia ➝ teagan: THE TEACHER WON’T LET ME TAKE THE QUIZ EITHER BC I WAS LATE WHAT TH EFUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO[9:35am] kaia ➝ teagan: I HATE YOU SO MUCH U KNOW U WERE MY ONLY RIDE TO SCHOOL TODAY

Send “@” for a SCARED text.

[5:31pm] kaia ➝ teagan: DUDE TEHRE’S FUCKING FROG NIT HE HOUSE[5:35pm] kaia ➝ teagan: OH YM GODITS JUST HOPPING [5:36pm] kaia ➝ teagan: I SWEAR TO FUKCING GOD IT JUST SMILED AT ME1!!!!

Send “&” for a LOVING text.

[4:03pm] kaia ➝ teagan: hey i just wanted u to know htat i love u[4:06pm] kaia ➝ teagan: thanks for sticking by my side through all these years even though u totally could’ve but i mean u probably stayed for the money or wtvr :/[4:06pm] kaia ➝ teagan: anyways… thank u for being my best friend ig….

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[8:59am] kaia ➝ teagan: hey so like…….where tf did u disappear off to last night[9:00am] kaia ➝ teagan: u were gonna watch that video of jude’s lapdance but u just stood up n walked off are u good were the aliens contacting u again[9:02am] kaia ➝ teagan: is that why u just got up all of a sudden were they trying to telepathically speak to u

Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.

[1:15am] kaia ➝ teagan: HEY RMEMEBER HOW PEPPY THE HAMSTER DIED???[1:18am] kaia ➝ teagan: BUT PEPPY HAD A DAUGHTER W PENNY THE HAMSTER[1:19am] kaia ➝ teagan: WELL PENNY THE HAMSTER’S DAUGHET JSUT GAVE BIRTH IM A GREAT GRANDMOTHER!!!!!! IM A GREAT GRANDMA!!!! FUCKS YEAH

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[1:48pm] kaia ➝ teagan:  According to all known lawsof aviation,  there is no way a beeshould be able to fly.  Its wings are too small to getits fat little body off the ground.  The bee, of course, flies anyway  because bees don’t carewhat humans think is impossible.  Yellow, black. Yellow, black.Yellow, black. Yellow, black.  Ooh, black and yellow!Let’s shake it up a little.  Barry! Breakfast is ready!  Ooming!  Hang on a second.  Hello?  - Barry?- Adam?  - Oan you believe this is happening?- I can’t. I’ll pick you up.  Looking sharp.  Use the stairs. Your fatherpaid good money for those.  Sorry. I’m excited.  Here’s the graduate.We’re very proud of you, son.  A perfect report card, all B’s.  Very proud.  Ma! I got a thing going here.  - You got lint on your fuzz.- Ow! That’s me!  - Wave to us! We’ll be in row 118,000.- Bye!  Barry, I told you,stop flying in the house!  - Hey, Adam.- Hey, Barry.  - Is that fuzz gel?- A little. Special day, graduation.  Never thought I’d make it.  Three days grade school,three days high school.  Those were awkward.  Three days college. I’m glad I tooka day and hitchhiked around the hive.  You did come back different.  - Hi, Barry.- Artie, growing a mustache? Looks good.  - Hear about Frankie?- Yeah.  - You going to the funeral?- No, I’m not going.  Everybody knows,sting someone, you die.  Don’t waste it on a squirrel.Such a hothead.  I guess he could havejust gotten out of the way.  I love this incorporatingan amusement park into our day.  That’s why we don’t need vacations.  Boy, quite a bit of pomp…under the circumstances.  - Well, Adam, today we are men.- We are!  - Bee-men.- Amen!  Hallelujah!  Students, faculty, distinguished bees,  please welcome Dean Buzzwell.  Welcome, New Hive Oitygraduating class of…  …9:15.  That concludes our ceremonies.  And begins your careerat Honex Industries!  Will we pick ourjob today?  I heard it’s just orientation.  Heads up! Here we go.  Keep your hands and antennasinside the tram at all times.  - Wonder what it’ll be like?- A little scary.[1:50pm] kaia ➝ teagan: why the FUCK DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENIND I JUST WNAN TEXT IN PEACE 

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[2:24am] kaia ➝ teagan: sometimes i feel like we’re not as close as we used to be when we were younger. i know we’ve been best friends for such a long time and life is bound to do that to people, but i feel like you only hang around me still because of this whole stupid pretending to be the benefactor situation. back in sophomore year, when you were with graham i was completely thrilled for you, of course i was, he made you happy and you’re my fucking best friend! but then you guys started falling deeper and deeper in love, and then suddenly all of our study sessions and nights together trying to cook became coffee runs with him and weekends out in the city with him. suddenly i wasn’t your best friend anymore, but he was. [2:25am] kaia ➝ teagan: and then when you two broke up? i was heartbroken for you guys, how could i not be? he made you so so happy and you guys were so perfect for each other. but then i finally had my best friend back. even though we’ve gotten a lot closer again then before, i still feel like you only come running back to me because it’s what you’re used to. i feel like i’m only your best friend because we’ve been best friends for so long and it’s just something you’re used to, and i don’t want to be someone you rely on just because it’s like a routine.