#its 12 in the morning and im delirious but

[herethereverywhere]

blood in the bayou truly is jrwi’s tragedy. like you go in knowing there is no world in which this horror story ends for all of the characters are introduced to. and then the boys have the audacity to go hey. here is a brother. here is a son, and a friend, and someone who has been at war with himself for as long as he has been alive. here is one of the monsters. here is one of the monsters, and he is scared of everything, including himself. here is a legend. here is someone who is committed to a fulfilling life for the people around him. here is the only character that will consistently have some level of optimism in this story. who, against all odds, believes in all the chances a person could need and loves his friends. here is the story where they all die at the end, and here are the characters who have so much ahead of them who occupy it. and they were fucked up for that.

[bear-cubs-art-things]

it's 1 in the morning I'm going delirious

anyways!! Lemme tell ya abt my comp!!

So, we placed 3rd in our class at pre lims (first round basically), with no caption awards sadly (recognition for music and visuals- look it up)

BUT WE MADE IT TO FINALS!!!

We placed 6th out of 12 finalist bands, which, for our band, is GREAT. We finished in top 6, an improvement from last year (score wise, better than first comp). I'm leaving I'm great spirits, and all the bands that competed were AWESOME 🔥🔥

Im happy, I'm FUCKING EXHAUSTED ITS FUCKING SUNDAY IVE BEEN UP FOR NEARLY 24 FUCKING HOURS

Im so ready to sleep, and I'm going to sleep hard and with great enthusiasm about the competition ^^

[methcheese]

watching daredevil isnt enough i need to fuck matt murdock

[starsailorstories]

It’s Friday, im quarantined, I’m drinking, remember 3 years ago when I got fired and wanted to be a music journalist, here is why Neko Case’s Middle Cyclone is my most emotional album of all time

1. This Tornado Loves You - encapsulation of the experience of neurodivergent womanhood. The feeling of trying to communicate love and tenderness desperately from within your perceived inherent chaos and destructiveness. When I was 19 I was in a consultation with a professor bc I was weeks behind on a project that I was just delirious with enthusiasm about and she said with a mix of admiration and exasperation “you’re a dervish of creativity” and I thought of this song and how hard it gets me

2. The Next Time You Say Forever - “the next time you say forever, I will punch you in your face. Just because you don’t believe it, doesn’t mean I didn’t mean it” has anything ever understood the experience of emotional abuse harder than these two lines? Don’t think so!!

3. People Got A Lotta Nerve - an iconic single, a perfect riff, a beltable chorus about the wildness within.

4. Polar Nettles - this song is really overlooked and it’s a shame because it’s possibly the best lyric, from a purely literary standpoint, that Neko’s ever written. The bridge sends shivers up my spine every time, and I’ve had it in heavy rotation for over a decade now.

5. Vengeance Is Sleeping - I used to play this song in high school when I was home alone and my dog would howl along with all the long notes. It always makes me feel both nostalgic and free.

6. Never Turn Your Back On Mother Earth - Neko & her regular band know how to finesse a cover, and this, right in the middle, ties together the album’s themes of untamed femininity, unsustainable people-pleasing, and the consequences of environmental devastation.

7. Fever - this tight, weird little song is emblematic of the gothic romanticism that hangs around the corners of Neko’s originals. With relatively little lyrical and musical information, this catapults you through innocence, beauty, terror and grief. It’s a relationship reflected in a raindrop. It’s an almost perfect work of narrative poetry with a musical accompaniment that follows it like a master cinematographer’s lens.

8. Magpie to the Morning - I first heard this on a plane, on the little in-flight media menu. I listened to it 12 times, just to be sure of what I’d suspected the first time. And then I said, “yes, this is my favorite song now.” I learned to play its 3-ish chords on band-room practice piano, on ukulele, on guitar, on cell phone tuner app. I have sung it literally thousands of times. Whenever I need refuge, comfort, validation, a friend, an OUTLET, top of voice, it’s been there for me. I don’t know if it’s the simplicity, the rawness, the beauty, yeah it’s all of that. It’s perfect!!! It’s perfect!!!!!! I’m not even going to fuck around with saying it’s an objectively great song. It’s just a feeling and it matters!!!

9. Prison Girls - this song’s meaning has evolved gradually for me over the years, and in many ways, like “Fever,” it’s this perfectly realized gothic moment, every element making felt this particular reality of the modern world. The instrumentation is masterful, the lyrics evocative, the composition gradually reveals its own strangeness over several listens. One of the best songs of the 2000s from an objective standpoint IMO

10. Don’t Forget Me - the soul-stabbing clarity of Neko’s voice is on full display here. Also: six! Pianos! In! A! Barn!

11. The Pharoahs - maybe it’s about the timing, but this song IS yearning to me. In a different mood, it’s comp het. Shit’s wild.

12. Red Tide - I’ve written before about how in awe of this song I am. At a time when the discussion of ecological catastrophe was still a niche alongside feel-good neoliberal tree hugging, this complete, detail-by-detail work of art stabbed you in the gut with a symbolic vision of the coming apocalypse. It’s a brutal way to end an album, and yet it isn’t another reiteration of the banality of evil. It’s impossible not to feel. It’s a call to catharsis followed by action. It’s a beautiful, desolate wakeup alarm.

[incorrectchoniberonicaswangs]

hey baby won't you look my way (you can be my new addiction)

Chapter 6: because i also want to be rawed by alice cooper in that dress

Chapter Summary: Nobody has a normal sleep schedule, Jughead helps Betty with her totally-not-real issue, the Lodges and Coopers are really gay, and Archie has some scary (but still important to the plot) tendencies.

Notes: mayorlodge: hermione acoop: alice Also, just for clarification, both Hal and Hiram are out of the picture (mostly because it's convenient to the story but whatever). This is a long-ass chapter, so... have fun?

ao3

Wednesday, 12:00 AM

gays united

wannabett: IM BACK!!!

wannabett: as in i finally got my phone back!! im alive again!

nopeaz: you got your phone back at exactly midnight??

wannabett: yep!

hbicheryl: i dont understand you coopers

veroffica: cheryl, you're technically a cooper yourself.

veroffica: and even if you weren't, the blossoms are even worse.

hbicheryl: ugh

hbicheryl: technicalities

spillthefogarTEA: do any of you... actually go to sleep at a reasonable time??

wannabett: no

nopeaz: nah

hbicheryl: nope

veroffica: ha, no.

jugheadalones: definitely not

hisshissmotherfucker: no

goingtoheller: not a chance.

spillthefogarTEA: yeah, me neither

spillthefogarTEA: just checking

hisshissmotherfucker: normal sleep schedules are for the weak

hisshissmotherfucker: natural selection only the dumbasses die

hisshissmotherfucker: im the dumbass

nopeaz: same

jugheadalones: rt

hbicheryl: ^^^^

wannabett: ^^^

wannabett: so

wannabett: yall wanna talk??

hisshissmotherfucker: about how i just realized that fangs and bettys ship name would either be bangs or fetty?? absolutely

goingtoheller: bangs?? can we seriously talk about this?

nopeaz: when you said fetty all i could think of was fetty wap

hbicheryl: no we are NOT doing this now come back to bed and go to sleep RIGHT NOW topaz

nopeaz: as you wish, dear

[nopeaz is offline]

[hbicheryl is offline]

jugheadalones: well i need to get my beauty sleep so i can look my emo self tomorrow, so goodnight

[jugheadalones is offline]

spillthefogarTEA: okay i have to admit that we all should get some sleep, but @sweets we are circling back to bangs and fetty later

goingtoheller: ^^

hisshissmotherfucker: i cant help that all my best realizations come when im delirious from lack of sleep but if you say so fangs

[hisshissmotherfucker is offline]

[spillthefogarTEA is offline]

wannabett: nobody wants to stay up and talk? :(

goingtoheller: i might.

veroffica: i will too.

goingtoheller: nevermind, i'm going to sleep! have fun! ;)

[goingtoheller is offline]

wannabett: i guess its just us

veroffica: want to move this convo to a more private setting, then?

wannabett: sure thing

12:13 AM

wannabett + veroffica

wannabett: hey v

veroffica: hey, b.

veroffica: congrats on finally getting your phone back, btw!

wannabett: i missed you

wannabett: i mean i know that i was only absent for one day and i still managed to call you once

wannabett: but it felt longer than that. more significant

veroffica: i know what you mean. school was hellish (at best) without you there, especially with cheryl being, well, cheryl. i know that she's not half as bad as she used to be, and that toni's helping her to be a kinder person, but sometimes she just doesn't know when to back off.

wannabett: about that, did i ever thank you for standing up for me so vehemently? because i appreciate it

wannabett: you didnt have to but you did anyway

wannabett: and thats what i... uh,, really like about you!!

wannabett: hold on a sec i have to go my moms calling me!

veroffica: at 12:18 am?

veroffica: aaaand you're already gone.

12:18 AM

wannabett + jugheadalones

wannabett: hey jughead quick question

jugheadalones: i did mention earlier that i was going to go to sleep right??

wannabett: please this is really important

jugheadalones: fine, go for it

wannabett: okay hypothetical situation here

wannabett: say this one girl (lets call her lili) has this best friend (lets call her cami) but at one point lili almost says "and thats what i love about you" to cami

wannabett: what does that mean?? is it just a normal platonic friend thing??

jugheadalones: so, this is all strictly theoretical, correct?

wannabett: yes obviously any and all resemblance to real people is purely coincidental haha

jugheadalones: then id say that lili might actually have more-than-platonic feelings for cami

wannabett: do you really think so??

jugheadalones: yep

wannabett: so in this purely made-up circumstance... what should lili do?

jugheadalones: i think that lili should seriously consider telling cami about her feelings for her

jugheadalones: she just might be surprised by what cami says back

wannabett: okay thank you jug

wannabett: for your help on this definitely fake thing that clearly did not occur with undoubtedly nonexistent characters

jugheadalones: sure thing betty

jugheadalones: just next time dont wake me up at midnight

[jugheadalones is offline]

12:23 AM

wannabett + veroffica

wannabett: hey im back

veroffica: finally! it took you long enough!

veroffica: what did your mom want?

wannabett: huh?

wannabett: oh yeah she wanted me to... wash some dishes

veroffica: at 12:18 in the morning??

wannabett: yep its all part of my punishment for getting detention

veroffica: i thought your punishment was just being grounded for one day?

wannabett: well theres also a list of chores that i have to do for her that she can cash in at any point

veroffica: no offence betty, but is your mom satan?? that sounds awful!

wannabett: none taken, she indubitably is

wannabett: and im used to it by now

veroffica: still... i wish i could do something to help.

wannabett: let me move in with you

veroffica: what??

wannabett: thats what you can do to help! i could move into the pembrooke with you if your mom says its okay!

veroffica: i don't know, b... don't you think it's kind of a big step? and what about your mom?

wannabett: what about her? polly didnt ask mom when she moved in with you

wannabett: i understand if you dont want to, but just think about it for a second

wannabett: it would be like having a sleepover every night!

veroffica: i'm still not sure...

wannabett: plus ive been wanting to get closer to you and this could be just what i needed

veroffica: well, i'm on board! i just have to text my mom, she's on a business trip.

12:29 AM

veroffica + mayorlodge

veroffica: hey mom, can betty come live with us?

mayorlodge: does this have any particular reason, or did betty just finally realize that her mother is a bitch?

veroffica: mom!!

mayorlodge: what? i went to school with alice, and she wasn't half as bad then as she is now. i blame hal.

mayorlodge: in fact, she used to be a southside serpent!

veroffica: i know, mom. betty told me.

mayorlodge: leather jackets, flannel... she was gorgeous.

veroffica: if you weren't my mom, i would say 'go for it,' but since you are, i'm going to say 'gross' instead.

mayorlodge: don't give me that. you know as well as i do how easy it is to fall for the cooper women.

veroffica: what are you implying?

mayorlodge: mija, I want you to answer me honestly: do you or do you not have feelings for betty?

veroffica: i... i don't know.

mayorlodge: think about it. and in the meantime, betty can stay over.

veroffica: thanks, mom!

mayorlodge: on one condition, though--alice approves. i don't want to be getting calls from the police because she thinks i'm illegally harboring one of her children.

veroffica: but betty's mom would never agree to this!

mayorlodge: then convince her otherwise.

mayorlodge: goodnight, mija.

[mayorlodge is offline]

12:35 AM

veroffica + wannabett

veroffica: she's in!

wannabett: yes!!!

veroffica: there's one thing, though...

wannabett: oh no

veroffica: your mom has to give her consent.

wannabett: shit

wannabett: stupid minor laws!

wannabett: i guess ill go ask her

wannabett: but im going to do it over text i dont want to be near her when she flies into a rage

veroffica: good luck! please don't die, i'll miss you too much!

wannabett: ill try v

12:38 AM

wannabett + acoop

wannabett: hey mom

acoop: Betty? You do realize that we live in the same house, right?

acoop: Also, what do you want and why are you texting me at this hour?

wannabett: ummmm

wannabett: can i go stay with veronica?

acoop: The Lodge girl?? At the Pembrooke??

wannabett: yes

acoop: For how long?

wannabett: indefinitely

acoop: I'm going to talk to Hermione and then I'll get back to you on this.

wannabett: wow that sounded a lot less like a no than i expected

acoop: Don't push it, Elizabeth.

wannabett: what i meant to say was thank you mother for this incredible opportunity!!

acoop: I haven't agreed yet, Betty.

wannabett: i meant thank you for considering this. it means a lot to me.

acoop: ...Of course.

acoop: Now, you should get some sleep while I consider this further. I'll get back to you later.

12:41 AM

acoop + mayorlodge

acoop: Is this Hermione?

mayorlodge: yes... alice?

acoop: You still have the same phone number from back when we were in high school.

mayorlodge: alice, it's the middle of the night. why are you texting me?

acoop: I have reason to believe that our daughters are going down the same path we once did.

mayorlodge: so you see it too?

acoop: Yes. The two of them are as close as we were back in high school, and we both know where that led.

mayorlodge: i don't want veronica to get her heart broken like i did, but it isn't like we can stop them.

acoop: I'm not talking about this with you right now.

mayorlodge: then when?? ever since we broke up, you've been saying you 'don't want to talk about it,' but it's been DECADES, alice.

mayorlodge: and i thought that i was okay with having no resolution and no explanation, but then at the sodale project opening i saw you in that goddamn red dress, and it all came back to me.

acoop: I'll admit that I regret giving into my parents' wishes and breaking up with you, but it wasn't like there were any other options.

mayorlodge: there are always other options.

acoop: So you're saying that you would've agreed to run away from Riverdale with me, riding around from town to town on my motorcycle?

mayorlodge: ...i would've liked that.

acoop: ... Really?

acoop: It doesn't matter anymore, though. What matters is now. We may not be able to stop Betty and Veronica from falling in love, but we can make sure that we don't end up pushing them apart like our parents did.

mayorlodge: exactly.

acoop: Which is why I want to give Betty my blessing to move in with Veronica.

mayorlodge: you do??

acoop: Why does everyone seem so surprised by this?? I do have a heart!

mayorlodge: trust me, i know.

acoop: Actually, on that note, I was wondering...

mayorlodge: yes?

acoop: When you get back in town, would you like to get a milkshake at Pop's with me, for old time's sake?

mayorlodge: alice cooper, are you asking me on a date?

acoop: Yes I am, Hermione Lodge.

mayorlodge: well, all you had to do was say so.

mayorlodge: i get back on friday. i'll see you then and we can figure out if we still have that same explosive chemistry we used to.

acoop: It's a deal. And if the date just happens to make it back to my house... Well, we'll have it all to ourselves.

mayorlodge: i like the way you think. goodnight, alice.

acoop: Goodnight, Hermione.

[mayorlodge is offline]

1:02 AM

acoop + wannabett

acoop: You can stay with Veronica for as long as you want.

wannabett: really?? thank you so much!!

acoop: Just make sure that you've cleared out by Friday night.

wannabett: why, do you have a hot date?

acoop: The hottest.

wannabett: i was kidding mom!!

acoop: Well, I wasn't.

wannabett: ugh tmi

acoop: Have fun at Veronica's!

[acoop is offline]

1:04 AM

wannabett + veroffica

wannabett: my mom is cool with it!!

veroffica: are my eyes deceiving me, or did alice cooper actually allow her underage daughter to move out??

wannabett: its insane isnt it? she said that she has a date on friday so that might be why shes so mellow

veroffica: hmm, do you think that it's one of the hot dads of riverdale™ or some new contender??

veroffica: maybe... one of the hot moms of riverdale™ (lesser known but just as hot)?

wannabett: whoever it is they seem to make her happy so i approve

wannabett: also i really hope that they dont break up and return my mom to her former angry state

wannabett: so lets take advantage of this while we still can!

veroffica: i can have smithers drive us over to your house tomorrow after school and then we can pack up your stuff! sound good?

wannabett: sounds great. i can't wait, see you tomorrow v!

veroffica: ditto, b.

[veroffica is offline]

[wannabett is offline]

2:28 AM

beronica shippers

spillthefogarTEA: guys i was just talking to archie and he told me that he has some hot tea to spill about our favorite oblivious wlw!! can i temporarily add him to the chat?

hisshissmotherfucker: why were you talking to andrews hes an asshole

hbicheryl: archie isnt an asshole hes a dumbass

hbicheryl: youre just jealous sweet pea

hisshissmotherfucker: why would i be jealous of ginger troy bolton??

hbicheryl: uh because youre jealous of anyone else who spends time with fangs??

nopeaz: ooh yes expose him baby

spillthefogarTEA: as much as i appreciate sweet pea not wanting me to talk to archie and choni trying to find ulterior motives in everything he says, i still need an answer to my question! can i add him or not?

hbicheryl: im all for learning whatever "heterosexual" nonsense b&v have gotten into this time

nopeaz: ^^

spillthefogarTEA: sweets?

hisshissmotherfucker: hes a fucking NORTHSIDER

spillthefogarTEA: please? for me?

hisshissmotherfucker: ...fine.

spillthefogarTEA: great! im also going to add jughead and kevin while im at it because they are both also beronica shippers in their own right

spillthefogarTEA has added jugheadalones, goingtoheller, and arch to the chat

spillthefogarTEA: for those of you who dont know--jughead and kevin--archie has some fresh beronica gossip, you in for listening?

goingtoheller: hell yes, lay it on us.

jugheadalones: i supoose since im already awake and probably too invested in their relationship

jugheadalones: but the next time these two do something interesting, it better be at a time when im NOT TRYING TO SLEEP

hbicheryl: lmao doubtful but sure

spillthefogarTEA: archie, please begin your tale

arch: so i was sitting in my room lifting weights when i saw, with my super-good eyesight, betty texting veronica

arch: and through my undoubtedly-impossible-and-kinda-creepy observance, i noticed that betty is pulling a polly!!

goingtoheller: she's pregnant with one of the blossom twins' (by now, it's just cheryl though lmao) twin children??

arch: no...

jugheadalones: shes been sent to the sisters of quiet mercy?

arch: no

hbicheryl: shes given birth to my children and has given them horrendous names like juniper and dagwood??

arch: no!! this is too hard to guess, so ill just tell you. she wants to move in with veronica at the pembrooke!

nopeaz: what did she say?? "hey, i want to live with you, but like, platonically"??

arch: um essentially

arch: but then i observed something that is both MUCH more shocking and a significant development!!

arch: mrs cooper and mayor lodge used to be dating, mayor lodge is gay for mrs cooper in that red dress that she wore to the sodale opening, and theyre going to a date on friday!!

arch: the end! have fun gays, gotta go!

arch has left the chat

goingtoheller: well, that is... a lot to process.

hbicheryl: i relate to hermione lodge

hbicheryl: because i also want to be rawed by alice cooper in that dress

nopeaz: id feel threatened if i didnt also know that alice cooper is also essentially your great cousin in law

hbicheryl: oh darling dont you know that incest runs in the family?

hbicheryl: jason and polly, my mother and my father... and thats just the tip of the iceberg

nopeaz: im concerned again

hisshissmotherfucker: so to summarize the lodges and coopers are gay for each other and archie has freaky good eyesight that is not humanly possible but is necessary to the story because it helps add important info to the plot??

goingtoheller: when you say it like, it sounds like we're characters in a book.

hisshissmotherfucker: honestly i always thought of myself as more of a character in a fanfiction for a bad cw show

2:38 AM

jugheadalones + wannabett

jugheadalones: ive just been informed by archie that you are planning to move in with veronica

wannabett: what the hell?? how did archie know that??

jugheadalones: he said he saw your texts from his room

wannabett: damn his terrifying and freakishly good eyesight

jugheadalones: so... this wouldnt happen to have anything to do with lili and camis mythical dilemma, would it?

wannabett: nahhh of course not

jugheadalones: well, if you ever do need to talk, im here for you, okay? i may not be good at giving relationship advice, but ive been told that im a good shoulder to cry on.

wannabett: whenever i need help ill make sure to talk to you first, but im really okay now. thanks jug.

jugheadalones: ofc

[jugheadalones is offline]

[wannabett is offline]

Notes: Alice and Hermione have too much sexual tension to have not dated in high school, and the flashback episode pretty much only proves it. I mean, did you see Alice when she was younger?? That whole look screams lesbian! Anyways...

Comments validate me!! You can leave 'em here or at my ao3 account, lgbtqshipper, where pretty much all I do is complain about Riverdale and how I wish that it was gayer (so nothing different).

In the next chapter, Betty will finally be forced to answer for her sins oblivious homosexuality ft. Choni sexts (again, but I swear, this is the last time)!!

[lovingai]

i have nothing better to do :)

1. i like to learn how to do traditional art, like watercolors and i want to be able to paint on a really big canvas but i suck right now. im just aiming to get better with various mediums

2. i can speak two languages fluently, spanish being my first language and english my second obvi. im learning chinese in school so i can understand and speak a little bit of that but i am not fluent at ALL

3. the last book i read? damn um i cant remember i think it was the It

4. i would love to visit greece or cuba

5. top five fictional characters? in order from greatest to great,

thor odinson

eddie brock/venom

charles xavier

newt scamander

max rockatansky

6. something i miss from my childhood is probably the fact that i was friends with everyone and everything. also the MINISCULE AMOUNT OF WORK WE WOULD GET IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL I TOOK THAT FOR GRANTEDDD

7. i wish i was able to perform physical activities better and actually enjoy them like sports but i just dont like them (except futbol/soccer)

8. interesting fact: delirious was the first guy from the group i ever found, i discovered him through seananners and ive been in love ever since

9. i have two which is physical science and 2d/3d design

10. pluto even though its not considered a planet (its colors are so pretty)

11. i admire frida kahlo and its just because. she was such an inspiring artist like who doesnt admire her??

12. cockatrice because its a chicken with a dragon body whats not to love. also good mythical morning

13. depends on what conspiracies :)

14. ethereal is my favorite word even though i dont use it often because it reminds me of angelic and "good" things

15. my obsessions? LMAO you know them (marvel, dc, bbs, hp, the alien series, upgrade, the list goes on and on)

16. piano

17. i constantly degrade myself while drawing and compare myself to more experienced artists

18. pokemon plushies, funko pops and tiny glass animals

19. what if my face didnt look like a baby's

20. my favorite fairy tale would probably be little red riding hood. if greek myths count then i love all of those too theyre really interesting

21. have never dyed my hair and im planning on keeping it that way

22. id love to be able to speak french

23. i know how to lay awake at night and not be able to fall asleep easily

24. the most important change to the education system? giving students the freedom to learn and do what they want instead of having them sit through six hours of an adult speaking and drilling useless information into their heads that they dont even care about

25. cried over the fact that i failed a quiz and then wanted to rip out my own hair after seeing that other people passed and i was

outsmarted

Ravenclaw Ask Game

Gryffindor | Slytherin | Hufflepuff

1. Do you have a passion project? What is it?

2. How many languages can you speak? 

3. What was the last book you read?

4. Where in the world would you most like to visit?

5. Top 5 fictional characters?

6. Something you miss from your childhood?

7. What skill do you wish you had?

8. Tell us an interesting fact

9. What was your favourite subject in school?

10. Favourite planet?

11. Which historical figure fascinates you and why?

12. Favourite mythical creature?

13. Do you believe in any conspiracy theories?

14. What is your favourite word?

15. Do you have any obsessions right now?

16. Do you play any instruments?

17. What’s your worst habit?

18. Do you have a collection of anything?

19. What’s your biggest ‘what if’?

20. What is your favourite fairy tale?

21. Have you ever dyed your hair? Is there a colour you’d like to dye it?

22. If you could learn one language overnight, which would you choose?

23. What’s the most useless thing you know how to do?

24. What’s the most important change that should be made to your country’s education system?

25. Most ravenclaw thing you’ve ever done?

[waitinginthedarke]

Existing

A BTS/ Kim Seokjin Fanfiction

Summary: He looked like an angel, and spoke like a singer. Next to you, a university student surviving on 5 hours sleep a night, and holes in your shoes, he seemed to have it all. But at the end of the day, you were both just Existing. You just cant help but think, it might be more fun to Exist together…

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12 Chapter 13Chapter 14 Chapter 15 Chapter 16 Chapter 17 Chapter 18 Chapter 19Chapter 20 Chapter 21 Chapter 22 Chapter 23 Chapter 24 Chapter 25Chapter 26 Chapter 27 Chapter 28 Chapter 29 Chapter 30 Chapter 31 Chapter 32 Chapter 33

Chapter 33

JIN

It became routine so quickly.. the way she’d leave in the morning, all smiles and giggles as she skipped out the door in one of his shirts that were too big for her and only a pair of tiny denim shorts to retain her modesty, the soft kiss she’d set on his lips that told him she’d be back without him every having to ask the question causing his heart to flutter each and every time, but it didn’t ever effect him as much as when he’d finish practise and she’d be waiting for him to come home.

It differed every day. On the days he’d told her he wanted her to stay over at the dorm, he and the boys would usually return from practise with some king of full buffet waiting for them and her wearing his apron and being almost entirely covered in varying flours and sauces- not that that every stopped him from greeting her happily by pulling her in for a kiss. On other days (the days she’d had work, or had spent the day researching universities or jobs) he’d return to the dorm to find her passed out on the couch, still too shy to wait in his room because he shared it with Yoongi, and she didn’t want to upset his routine of arriving home and crashing into bed to immediately go to sleep, but nonetheless looking like some siren sent from God to make all his dreams come true, the pure beauty of her making him smile each and every time.

And then some days…like today…he’d arrive at her dorm, having sensed the stress in her messages that he’d been receiving from her, where he’d be bombarded by her throwing herself at him the minute she opened the door to his face, before allowing himself to be pulled through to her bedroom, where everything would become a little…less…stressful…

…some days he’d crawl over you and claim you as only his…or other days, like today, he’d end up on his back, your legs on either side of his hips, and his hands clutching securely to your own as you bite the tip of your finger cheekily…rocking ever so slowly where you were impaled on his length.

You loved the way his face screwed up in need and want as you teased him, a thin sheen of sweat having settled along your shoulders after you’d spent the last half an hour working him up, only to continue to edge him as you stare down at him beneath you, the sight having your chest tingling with mischievous glee.

‘Beautiful…don’t tease-‘

‘I think you look the most handsome when you’re like this.’ You say, going for off-handed, but being unable to stop the grin from stretch your face as you roll your hips against his at that moment, losing a gasp in the process as you feel him move within you, but not reacting quite as badly as Jin who forces his head back into the pillows and strains his neck as he groans lustfully, his grip on your hips becoming tighter but so much sweeter too.

‘Honey, don’t push me…Im so worked up right now im afraid I’ll be too rough with you.’ He pants as he steels himself, careful lowering his gaze to you as he waits for an answer, only to let out a groan that rolls into a chuckle when he sees the way you were watching him with a cute smirk.

‘Damn it I wish that smirk didn’t make me so easy….although I’d give you the world if you smiled at me like that for the rest of my life.’

Its just as you roll your hips again and giggle as you pull his hands from your hips to trap them either side of his head so that he didn’t bruise you too badly that he speaks, what he says initially causing you to grin and circle your hips a little more, until the double meaning sinks in.

‘What?’ you ask quietly, freezing in place with your face right in front of his where you were leant over him to keep him pinned down, the smile slipping like lightning from your expression so that you simply stared back at him blankly.

‘What do you mean ‘what’, beautiful? You’re the most incredible person in the world and I love you more than anything- everytime you smile I-‘

‘Wait! Don’t say it again!’ you say quickly, letting go of his hands to cover his mouth so that he couldn’t repeat the words that had caused your heart to thunder in your chest, the movement accidentally causing you to rock on him again, but for Jin it was the end of his restraint, and before you know it, he’s suddenly switching places with you as he pins you to the mattress, kneeling over you with your thighs laying on his bent knees as his hands rest just next to your shoulders.

‘Beautiful…does the prospect of me wanting to spend the rest of my life with you scare you?’ he asks quietly, the tone of his voice suddenly bringing your attention to the darkness, and silence of his room, the loaded question answering his question before you could even speak a word, and yet the minute you see the glimmer dim in his eyes slightly, you’re grabbing onto his shoulders and pulling him down; closer to you.

‘Its…I’ve just never imagined this…’

‘This?-‘

‘I never thought I’d find someone I love- a best friend who makes me as happy….as you do. …But I guess…I only just realized that-that by you telling me you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me…that I feel the same…I’ve felt the same for a while now.’ You murmur, not wanting to speak too loudly in case you cut the tension in the room which seemed to be surrounding your limbs like wire; piercing your skin if you move too much, with the unknown of his response.

Rather than saying anything, its his breath against your lips that reveals his trembling, response, your eyes flickering over his face as you try to assess if it was a good or bad trembling, before you’re drawing air sharply into your lungs as he thrusts into you once again, the precarious position you’d been locked in having been forgotten as you’d been lost in what he’d said…

…but now he definitely had your attention.

‘Marry me.’

His voice is rough, matching the impact of his hips as he thrust into you with slow, forceful strokes. At first you couldn’t answer him because of how overwhelmed you were with the feeling of just how perfectly he seemed to fit inside you, but as soon as your brain could process what he’d said, your threading your fingers into his hair and pulling to try and get his attention- even though you were the only thing he could possibly think about in that moment.

‘Wha-…what do you mean, ‘marry me’?’

‘I mean, Marry me, Y/N…let me keep you forever-….let me enjoy every second…of every moment…of every day, with you….let me grow old with you….let me-‘

‘But…we’re so young-‘

‘I’m not saying…marry me now….im just saying…promise me…promise me,…that one day….one day you’ll marry me…that you’ll promise to be mine forever…just promise me that.’

Your head was pounding in the most wonderful way, trying to match the rhythm of your heart as the beat raced your blood through your veins, the way he continued to desperately make love to you like he’d never have another chance almost tearing you up with how stupid he was; with how much of an utterly, deliriously, ridiculous romantic the man you’d learned to love was.

The feeling of his lips on your neck as he slowed down momentarily in wait of your answer, his fluffy hair tickling your chin as your arms locked across his shoulders, fingers digging into his flesh as you both pant alternatingly, only made the smile on your face grow around your shivers, the restraint you could feel in the bulging muscles of his thighs as they pressed against yours having a delirious giggle escaping you as you gently nuzzle his head up till he looked at you, his movements coming to a complete stop as you look him in the eye and see the tension awaiting you…

…before seconds later he’s throwing you into the palms of heaven.

‘You’re so stupid sometimes….of course I’ll marry you.’

(T.B.C)

[kira1982]

1-7, 12, 23-25

1. describe your idea of a perfect datehonestly it really depends on my mood. like if we follow wherever the wind goes and don't feel too abrasive, thats when the dates the best. but honestly especially dinner dates, just cuz my boy goes crazy after hes just got done scarfing down a twice his stomachs capacity of food and i love him when hes delirious 2. whats your "type"?when it comes to first meeting, i love people who are eccentric and not afraid to be so. the more so the better honestly. but as i get to know someone, i love people who are soft and gentle. also femininity for all genders is 👌🏼3. do you want kids?honest to god YES i think about it A LOT i think about teaching them all these lessons and playing with legos and how magical id make the world for them. i love children even though im really nervous around most of them i just love the spark and the sunshine of being young4. if you do, will you adopt or use some form of child birth?Uhhh thats a toughie actually. cuz like. both would be cool because, im cute, my boys cute, wed prob have cute kids. HOWEVER im small as FUCK and probably couldnt do so swell in growing another human PLUS theres so many children that need to be adopted soo idek this is an issue for 30 year old me5. describe the cutest date youve ever been onOh my god i don't even knooow ummm alex and i dont go on dates much because were cheap but. yesterday we walked down to the undeveloped culdisac in my neighborhood and looked over the prairie area at the graveyard and the huge radio tower by my house and sat on the road and talked about tumbleweeds i think. then when we walked back i think i was singing the entirety of never gonna give you up by rick astley in a high pitched voice and alex was like "ladies and gentlemen the singing baby!" and i wanted to pick sunflowers but they all had bugs in them. ALL OF THEM! it was very very nice6. Describe your experience having sex for the first timeOh my God. Lemme think. Sooooo it was this time (august) last year and alex and i were home alone at his house and i just remember me laughing at how weird the condom looked and him being like stop cuz it made him lose the boner and basically we just did it in missionary for a little bit and we were both really shaky i think so we stopped without cumming but overall it was a really nice experience i love him7. morning time gay or night time gay?MORNING i love how beautiful everything is in the morning even though i feel so fucked when i wake up early enough to see the sunrise. i love the dew and the cool air12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someone?Since ive been dating the same person for 2 years im gonna turn this into friendships but - Basically if theyre a dick. in any way. if theyre unnecessarily rude to me or sarcastic or condescending at all im like um Nope yall dont need to be this negative and THEIR SENSE OF HUMOR is SO important to me if it doesnt align i just cant do it omg23. have you ever been in love?i truly do believe i have experienced being in love and commitment in the most serious sense but also im in love with so many things in so many dif ways... im in love with the way i see birds and rabbits pass by me and the way all my friends laugh and all of the sunflowers i see blooming on the sides of the roads... dont even TALK to me about love i am MADE of oxytocin24. have you ever been heartbroken?i mean claire didnt like me back when i liked her in 9th grade so i think so 25. how do you determine if you want to be WITH someone or just plain BE someone?Tbh its both i dont even try to make the differentiation anymore like ill be w/ someone and all of their traits not only make me want to spend more time with them but emulate them as well so we can both be good. im sorry that im turning all these platonic i never experienced casual dating dkfjdkTHANK YOU for sendin me all these questions Bruthur

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So let me tell you about my “Sleep Study”…

From September 28, 2011 at 7:40 AM

So I get to the hospital at 8:50PM. Had to be there by 9 and me being me I try to be on time and for the most part am usually early.

I fill out the typical paperwork and change into a pair of shorts and a tank top to sleep in.  “Bob” comes in and starts to tell me about the electrodes he has to put on me to record my sleep.  Oh no biggie…  HAH!

Now you would think that putting these little electrodes on would be a piece of cake… no such luck!  First the guy takes measurements of your head, then takes a red marker and marks where he wants to place the electrodes.  I swear he was like a 3 year old with a marker coloring on the walls!  Umm ouch!  That’s skin!!

Then they stick the little metal ends of the electrodes in goo. Goo is the only way I can describe this! Then they place them on your body and with the palm of his hand he smashes them down, I swear he was trying to push them under my skin!!!  Then as if that’s not enough, they cover each one of them with at least 2 pieces of tape.  I had two on each leg, one at the corner of each eye, one on my forehead, one at each temple,one behind each ear and 2 on each side of my jaw.

Then I had at least 6 on my skull. Same nasty goo and tape in my hair. That’s nice… Cant tell you how bad it hurt when he was coloring with that marker on my skull!  This is just un-natural!  No one colors their skull with a marker!

Then I had a small microphone taped where my thyroid USED to be. This is to pick up snoring, talking in your sleep, etc.

They I had 2 little stickys for the heart monitor stuck on my chest and one on my side.

As if that’s not enough, they put an elastic belt around the top part of your chest, armpit to armpit. This is to measure your breathing. Really? Who the hell can breath now??

Then they place one around your waist, just as tight. What this is for??? I have no freaking idea, nor do I think I want to know!

Wait, we are not done!!  Then they place this little device across your face. The only way to describe it is, if you have ever been in the hospital and had to have oxygen, the little thing that goes in your nose, well this was pretty much the same thing except instead of plastic or rubbery ends that go in your nose to administer oxygen, these are two metal wires. Why?  Why to measure the temperature of your breathing obviously! WTF?  This is in your nose and the sides are looped over your ears and oh yea…TAPED ON YOUR FACE!

Finally they place the little finger monitor on to measure your oxygen as you sleep.  Or lack there of from the straps that are crushing your lungs!

This all took at least an hour to put into place! The man looks and me as he is doing all this and says, “The goo in your hair will come out very easy if you shower in hot water. Really?  So in the morning, Im to get in the shower when I get home and scald myself to get this crap out of my hair. Hmm sounds reasonable!  Then as he is putting the last 37 pieces of tape on my face he says, “A lot of people say, how am I supposed to sleep with all this crap on me? He says, don’t worry, you’ll sleep, our beds are very comfortable.”

I get into bed, he hooks everything up to the computer and as he is walking out of the room he says, Goodnight.

So I’m lying in bed thinking…I just drove to a hospital, at 9PM to sleep and I’ve had an hour of torture before hand. Yea this is relaxing.

So I look at the clock and its now 10:30. Way past my normal bedtime.  And I lay there…and I turn this way….and then the other way.  The tv shuts off at 11 and Im still awake.  Ive got tape ripping hair out of my head, Ive got two belts strangling me, two wires shoved into my nose and that damn thing on my finger.

Did I sleep?  Well…lets see. The tv went off at 11 and I was still awake.  I remember looking at the clock and it was 12:10AM.  Then I remember it being 1:15AM.  Must have slept cause the next time I looked it was 3:05AM.  The next time I looked it was 4:34AM and finally at 5AM the nurses come in and say in a nice pleasant voice, “Lou Ann..its morning…and im thinking to myself ”THANK GOD”!!

So I sit up and they start to remove all these items. I’m pretty sure I’ve lost some skin off my legs and face from the tape and more then a few hairs from my head!  While they are doing this one lady says, you didn’t sleep much. You tossed and turned all night. Hmm Imagine that.  Then one lady says, I like your bunny. I didnt say nothing at first, Im thinking...what bunny? Thats a strange thing to say haha.  Then it hits me and I realize she means my tattoo..which I politely respond with...oh thanks...but thats a deer.  She must be more tired then me! haha

They ask if I want to get a shower.  No thanks; I can do that at home. So she gives me a washrag so I can wash off my face. Got rid of the goo and the red marker. When I come back to my room she says to me, ….Wait for it…..wait for it…you will want to wash your hair at least 3 times with shampoo when you get home. Really? 3 times?  I’m pretty sure I don’t want my hair to look like straw…and with shampoo? Really? Compared to what? Dish soap? Toothpaste?  What would I use to wash my hair with other then shampoo?

Then she gives me, what tasted like the best cup of coffee EVER while I fill out forms to describe how well I slept. Ummm I didn’t.

Finally I am done with everything and I can leave. As I’m walking down the hall the lady says to me, “Thanks for filling out the paper work and have a great day.  Oh and if they need you to come back they will call you.”  Say what?  Come back? Are you freaking kidding me?  There is no way on Gods green earth I would do this again!

So to all you people who told me, “its not so bad” and you know who you are haha, I have one thing to say…. LIARS! Haha

Anyhow, I was home by 6AM, got my shower, melted the goo out of my hair and am now working on coffee #3 trying to wake up before my day starts.

Today would be a perfect day for a nap, however I have to drop my car off at the dealer to get a part replaced at 9AM. Then my brother wants to go to lunch. By time I get home it will be time to take Taylor to cheerleading.  Then when I get home at 7 I have to finish dinner.  Ill either be in bed by 8PM or be so tired Ill be delirious and not be able to sleep.

Hopefully my little story has made at least one of you chuckle or even smile... but what ever you do...if you have to have a sleep study...dont let anyone tell your.... "its not so bad".  BULLSHIT! haha

Oh yea..I forgot one thing....  Good ole Bob puts on the TV, sets the sleep timer and puts the remote somewhere on the back of the bed and leaves the room after shutting the door behind him.  He put on the History channel...which is fine, I love the history channel...but the show was called "TopShot".  Im sorry I dont need to watch 4 teams of men trying to prove they are better then the others by way of their shooting skills.  Really?  Cause this who experience hasnt been nightmarish enough!  Now I have to try to sit up enough to find the damn remote to change the channel!  And yes Taylor...I put on American Dad! haha