#it's true i exist here and it's not linear

[faggotryandtransjesterism]

the ds9 pilot is insane. they went into the writer's room and decided the introduction to this series needed to be a long form exploration of the nature of grief

[anthropwashere]

She pestered an aunt I don't think I've seen in over 20 years to text me to confirm I received these Crucial Amazon Pajamas, amazing

Was briefly baffled by a package I didn't order appearing today and had my suspicions, but blocked voicemails from Mom confirm she bought me pajamas? I'd have preferred if she used that money to pay back whoever she owes most recently. But. Well. She sent 'em.

Honestly Amazon pajamas are a huge step up from the last gift she sent me like 5 years ago that had me genuinely freaked out wondering who the fuck was anonymously sending me soft pornography

[fairyminnie444]

okok I "freed myself" from another limitation and I had to come here to tell you and talk a little about it

I promise this will click for you too and set you free. That’s all you need to stop wavering AND APLLY.

Our belief system = I've talked a lot about this here and now I've realized it

There is a subtle but powerful difference between believing and knowing.

• Believing still carries a sense of effort or doubt, as if you are trying to convince yourself of something.

• Knowing is absolute, it is acknowledging the truth without question. It is like knowing that the sun will rise tomorrow – you don’t have to think about it, it is something natural and unquestionable.

Worry and fear are directly linked to the belief system, which is nothing more than a structure created by the mind to interpret the external world. But the true “I”, your consciousness, is not affected by these beliefs. It is what remains constant, regardless of the fluctuations of the belief system.

In-depth explanation:

1. Worry and fear as beliefs: When you feel fear or worry, this comes from a mental pattern, from a “program” that was installed by experiences, culture or learning. It is not something inherent to your being; it is just a temporary construction.

2. The “I” is constant: Your consciousness, the “I am”, does not need to believe in order to exist. It is the basis of everything. You do not need to “believe” that you are alive; you simply are. This state of existence is what creates reality.

3. Detachment from beliefs: When you understand that beliefs come and go, and that they do not define who you really are, it becomes easier to detach from them. You realize that you don’t need to fight beliefs or fears – you just need to return to the state of knowing that your consciousness is the only truth.

4. Truth does not depend on belief: Just as you don’t need to believe that the sun exists to see it, your consciousness does not depend on belief to create. You imagine, feel, decide, and that is enough to shape your reality.

Beliefs can be useful or limiting, but they do not have the power to change the essence of the “I”. The “I” – your consciousness – is the absolute truth, and does not need validation. When you understand this, all worries and fears lose their power, because you know that none of these define who you are or what you can create.

The belief that you need to wait for something to happen is just another limitation imposed by your belief system. It’s rooted in the idea of ​​linear time and cause and effect, but this perspective is not absolute.

Waiting is an Illusion

The idea of ​​“waiting” for something to happen implies that you believe you are separate from your desire. However, in conscious creation, everything already exists in the now. If you know something is yours, there is no waiting—you simply live in the knowledge that you already have it.

Understand that Linear Time is a Belief

Time, as we see it, is a mental construct. Consciousness does not operate in linear time; it is timeless. When you understand that your internal state creates your external reality, you realize that “waiting” only happens because you are still stuck in the logic of time as a requirement — there is only choice and recognition that what you want is already yours.

How to achieve “knowing”?

1. Decide that it is real: You don’t need to “reprogram” anything or convince yourself. Just choose that your imagination is the only truth. The decision is the key.

****2. Recognize the simplicity*******: This is not a complex process of belief. You feel it is true because you know that your consciousness creates it. There are no “ifs” or “buts”.

3. Let go of belief: Belief is useful for those who still need logical support, but knowing transcends that. It is understanding that your imagination is the cause and 3D is the effect.

4. Practice detachment: Knowing is calm and relaxed. You don’t need proof or signs. You just know that what you have chosen already is.

5. Avoid complicating things: Don’t confuse your mind with the need to “feel more” or “believe more.” Knowing is simple: “I choose it, therefore it is.”

If you already know it is true, belief becomes irrelevant. There is no effort. Everything flows naturally, because external reality has no choice but to reflect what you know internally.

THATS IT!!!! 01:11

[californiannostalgia]

Something that my therapist said today stuck with me.

America has never been a white country.

This got me thinking. The United States are fundamentally different from Europe. First there was Native people. And then came the immigrants, and European slavery of African people, and immigrants, immigrants, immigrants.

It is very hard to claim ownership to the American identity when so many of us, despite how long we've lived here, do not feel welcomed. Yes, the United States is a center of colonialism. But it is also one of the first postcolonial states. We're not going to have the linearity of European history. We do not serve a king. Monarchy has no place here.

There are always going to be people who go too far, because immigration and exploitation has been what created America, and all immigrants are a little desperate and all exploited people are at the very least angry. It's not something that goes away, even with generations. But it matters that America as a nation-state exists in spite of that. It matters that our defining stories start with "Despite of".

I don't have legal citizenship and I probably never will. But that doesn't stop me from saying I had a home here. That doesn't make it less true that I am a person from here. I am American in the way I smile at people behind the counter in the immigrant-run deli that sells nice sandwiches. I am American in the way I think about personal boundaries and make everyday efforts to try to exist with different people.

There is such a huge spectrum of ways to be American. Evangelical Christianity is not the definition. Rich white suburbia is not the norm. The people in power right now have no understanding of what it means to be American. We live on unceded land, in cities built by enslaved people and impoverished immigrants. Everything of note that was achieved here happened "in spite of."

America has never been a white country.

[zipyolip]

If you’re confused about LOA (Law of Assumption), read this:

I think some of you are a bit confused about the Law of Assumption, so I really recommend reading Neville Goddard’s teachings. Not to say that the info on social media is inaccurate—because you can easily grasp these concepts through fellow creators’ interpretations and explanations.

At its core, the law is the idea that whatever you assume to be true is true. When you use affirmations, you’re reminding yourself and affirming that your desires are already yours. The reason affirmations work—no matter what tense you use—is because the intent behind them is that you have them or will get them. Time isn’t real, so when you say you will get something, it’s the same as saying you already have it.

A Simple Analogy: The Book of Reality

Here’s an analogy I came across from a creator (unfortunately, I don’t recall their username) that really stuck with me:

Our current dimension (the 3D) is bound by space and time. It’s like being inside a book—you have all these pages (space) to write your story, and you can flip back and forth between them. Time seems linear to us, so we’re just moving forward through the pages.

But the 4D—the dimension of Time or Imagination—is the whole book. When you use your imagination, you’re flipping through the book however you like. You’re aware that the book exists, with a past, present, and future, and that it may eventually end (physical death), or for immortals and fairytale creatures, it could end with a happily ever after.

Flipping through the book is like revisiting your memories. When you imagine your future, you’re actively creating it. This is why, as a kid, you were encouraged to dream big. The more you dream big, the more amazing experiences you bring into your life. Why? Because you are what you imagine.

The Mandela Effect & Revision

Ever heard of the Mandela Effect? When you look back at a memory and “edit” it, the memory changes entirely. This is why revision works. The Mandela Effect is likely just people recalling a past reality where something was true, but no longer is.

Remember, we’re always shifting because we’re always making decisions, affirming, imagining, and creating.

Final Thoughts on LOA

The main point here is that some of you may be taking your affirmations too literally and getting caught up in perfectionism. That’s the root of your stress if you’re feeling any.

When I don’t shift, I don’t freak out. I know that, in my book, I’ve already shifted. In the 4D, it’s already written. Maybe I haven’t gotten to that page yet, but I know it’s there.

Let me put it this way:

The main character in a book spends the entire story looking for the love of his life. The author makes sure they get together at the last page. You can’t say they don’t get together, because you already know they will. You checked the last page!

Stress and cry all you want, it won’t change your fate. Shifting is written in your book, and once it’s written, there’s no way you won’t experience it. Just like the main character’s journey—full of ups and downs—he never gives up, because his heart is the biggest thing about him. And eventually, he finds his love.

Do you get it? There’s no way you won’t shift. Not even if you give up on shifting. You could even repeat to yourself, “I want, I want,” just like the protagonist who is searching for his love. The intent behind his desire is this:

✨ He will find her. ✨

Personal Note

I’ve always preferred keeping things lowkey, anonymous, and undercover. As a kid, I just wanted to live a normal life—on some Saiki K shit. Born abnormally smart in an immigrant household, a lot of my skills drew attention I never wanted.

This reality’s obsession with monetizing everything doesn’t align with my beliefs. I just wanted to enjoy my hobbies and have fun in peace. I wasn’t researching because I wanted something out of it—I just genuinely loved to learn.

As a kid, I was smart—not to fill some quota, but because I had that endless curiosity every child has. I loved to research and experiment, but I didn’t want to be famous or exploited. So, without realizing it, I manifested myself to be dumber, just so I could enjoy a blissfully ignorant childhood with kids my age. It was fun for a while.

But now, I see what would be even more fun—being smart in a society that values free thinking instead of punishing it.

The truth is, many people in this reality are conditioned to believe their dreams are out of reach due to external circumstances—poverty, racism, and other systemic barriers. Feeling helpless in the face of these challenges isn’t stupidity; the real problem is that these circumstances exist in the first place.

We should only hold onto ideas that uplift and empower everyone, not ideologies that keep people down. There’s more than enough space for all of us to thrive.

[verflares]

adding onto this but i did in fact play and beat skord hd last year and it wasnt even hard like not even a little bit. i even first tried all of the minigames that made me cry from frustration when i was like 12. kind of humbling honestly

I’d be interested in hearing your apparent strong opinions on other Zelda games

i used to think skyward sword was too hard and nearly gave my wiimote bitemarks trying to pass the lumpy pumpkin harp minigame in 2011

[ivyblossom]

Lessons in Story: Artificial Intelligence

Artificial intelligence is not an element of story, and yet here we are.

I'm aware that AI is bad for the environment. So's tumblr. That's all true. I'm also aware that AI scrapes copyrighted material like google does. I'm aware of how it steals art for its knowledge base without compensating artists and uses is as a model and replacement for skills. That's bad. I'm not going to address any of that here.

I have been observing how people talk about using AI in various parts of their writing process at the same time as I'm been trying to understand my own process and the obstacles I'm facing, and these two topics have oddly collided.

As I've said previously, my background is in some kind of woo woo where narrative comes out in one whole piece. So the fact that writing is many different and iterative pieces is something I had to figure out in my own bizarre way, but at the moment I now understand the basic process to be in these four general stages:

dreaming/planning (coming up with characters, ideas, goals, worlds, etc.)

outlining (not to say that this isn't many sub-stages, all of these steps are big catagories)

writing (actually putting words into sentences so your story exists)

Editing (revising, restructuring, polishing, etc.)

Are there more steps that I'm not accounting for? Those are the stages as I understand them. You can move back and forth through these stages throughout the process, so it's not necessarily linear, though it could be. For me, the key has been embracing the fact these are all radically different activities that require a completely different headspace, different skills, sometimes different tools, and a different perspective on narrative. That has been freeing revelation, because I was trying to do most of it at the same time.

But here's what else I've learned:

Dreaming/planning: this is a zero consistency space when it comes to how close or how far away you are from your protagonist. Are you feeling what they feel, or are you 30,000 feet up looking at the task they have in front of them and the path they're going to take? Or are you somewhere in between? Kind of all of the above at different points.

Outlining: in my experience, this can and should include emotional through lines, but outlining usually focuses on the 30,000 foot view. I have personally never written an outline that didn't miss critical details because of the 30,000 foot gap between me and the protagonist when I outline.

Writing: this seems like the very closest and most intimate you get with your story and your protagonist, right? This is where you live through it with them in extreme detail. There is no distance between you and them, you have to use a telescope to see 30,000 feet up. I find I have to revise my outline in small ways because I often underestimate or overestimate what something's going to feel like on the ground. This is like a micro-discovery phase: not plot discovery, emotional and intimate detail discovery.

Editing: I'm not an expert at this, but so far I feel like it goes back to being extremely inconsistent. It's either very close in a different way, or 30,000 feet up, or various in-between levels, depending on the type of editing or revision. And sometimes it's none of those, it's completely outside looking at how many times you use the word "feel" or whether your verbs and nouns agree.

Right. So people try to insert AI to do the graft for one or more of these stages.

AI in stage 1: I've seen some folks talk about using AI to get ideas for stories. I don't understand that, ideas are the easiest part of this process, as far as I can tell. Life's a rich pageant, maybe that's not universally true. Now, having AI to help you refine an idea, I can see that. Especially if you ask it to point out tropes and cliches as you go. Is that bad? Is that cheating? I dunno.

AI in stage 2: I've never seen anyone say they do this. If you have an amazing and complete story idea and you want to shaped into a 3 or 5 act structure, or a hero's journey, etc. I'm sure AI could do that, but that's mainly just typing. That's like AI as workbook. Is that cheating? I dunno. Does an AI generated outline help you? Or do you just skip the thinking that would have created the details of your story? Hard to say.

AI in stage 3: The wildest version of using AI in the creation of fiction, and there are whole subreddits for it. This is the people who are constructing novels scene by scene by telling AI to write it for them to their specifications and then "heavily editing" the result. So they are ostensibly doing stage 1, 2, and 4 themselves, and are outsourcing stage 3, the hard graft. Though I'd be very surprised if they aren't also using AI for stage 4, but let's assume they aren't.

Stage 3 is the only part of writing process that is protected by copyright, so it's a weird one to outsource. It's also the stage, in my experience, where you do micro-discovery, the in-the-moment scene details and the actual, living emotional experience of your story that you can't completely capture in outline. So if you just animate your outline without living through the story with your characters, it's always going to feel emotionally 30,000 feet in the air, I think. Right? If you feed AI an outline, that's what you'd get. i think doing this is just avoiding doing the most intimate and immediate discovery process of creating a story, and I don't think that serves the story or the writer (or "writer").

I'm intrigued that people think you can do this and it makes sense. You'd have to believe that the writing process is simply describing the contents of your outline, but I don't think that's true. It's like trying to get from the twelfth floor to the first floor by skipping the stairs, the elevator or the escalator and just leaping into the air assuming you'll land just fine because those intermediary systems are just time-wasters anyway.

I've read some arguments that using AI for stage 3 is something people with disabilities need to get their stories out into the world. As a neurodivergent person, I think that's short-sighted and is a disservice to those stories. I'm pretty sure it's just skipping the work of living through the emotional through line of the story and just not making all the little decisions and constructing the tiny details that go into the telling of a story. That's a heck of a missing staircase. Outlines aren't stories. Skipping the writing part means you're missing 2/3rds of the discovery, and therefore 2/3rds of the richness and depth of the story. How does that serve disabled voices? I don't buy it.

AI in stage 4: the one that looks innocuous but is actually dangerous. Dumping your work into AI and having it fix everything for you. This is a bad idea. Dump your work in there if you want to, but have it tell you what it's finding that needs adjustment so you can make decisions about it yourself. Copying and pasting out of an AI engine means you aren't making decisions about it, you're deferring decisions to a machine. That's the fastest way possible to erase your own voice. I can see getting it to flag things it has questions about, but taking AI advice on your writing is way too trusting.

I think this is especially dangerous for writers who don't have confidence in their own voice. AI's voice may seem like a better chose to them, and that's really sad.

I have more to say about AI, but this is more than enough for now.

[piratefern]

that's was Long and great explanation you can actually wrote a wattpad book of it! And I actually like the storyline it's really great and really felt bad for scp 049 :( honestly it was too much for poor birdie TvT

And yea why bother! I will like to read scp 035 one too ☆(≧∀≦*)ﾉ Thanks for taking my questions ( ˘ ³˘)♥

YIIPPEEEEE, thankyou so much :’D

alright with dyo, we’ll need some context too, in the sense that you will need to be aware of the original lore for Alagadda so id recommend reading the wiki if you haven’t already)

(Another note is that my version of Alagadda’s time doesn’t work linearly, so in this sense, it is entirely possible to enter alagadda during any time it exists, and exit to earth in a different era than when you left. It explains how the culture is affected by different eras in time, and this will be also important narratively!)

(He is originally from Alagadda as per the usual lore, except in my au he wasn’t banished to earth, and instead took refuge there, fleeing execution from the ambassador and other lords.)

In my au, dyo has a toxic sibling relationship with the other lords, ontop of this he’s also the shortest and the runtiest of the few and so was picked on, which lines him up to becoming the hanged king’s favourite as he was the easiest to manipulate.

Originally working as the jester for his king he is killed by a peasant uprising (as per the original lore) and is brought back to life three days later, offering his king a cup filled with the blood of his enemies gifted by the brothers death.

The lore follows the original story line from here in which he invites a bird like doctor to the palace to cure him of his influence of the hanged king (remember how time in alagadda isn’t linear? Yep, thats hasel! He finds a broken passage to alagadda after the point in which he has left dyo and just before the foundation finds him. He researches it and fixes it, hoping to find the “cure” for the vine on the other side)

Hasel doesn’t recognise dyo’s old form as the black lord and dyo at this point is yet to even meet hasel, and so neither of the two realise that they were intwined from the beginning.

after being cured by hasel and attempting to fight the influence of the hanged king, his execution is plotted against him by the other lords and the ambassador, and so, he escapes to earth.

yet, in my au the lords and the ambassador are still after dyo, but are unaware of his ware-abouts, Dyo destroys the portal which in turn wipes his entire memory, hoping that it will never be rebuilt again.

But didn’t hasel rebuild the portal? Uh oh! He did! Meaning he had unintentionally both freed and doomed his lover. Not only that, but the foundation had been tracking the signal that the portal had been omitting, causing the capture of both the portal and hasel! And, of course, the foundation would absolutely never destroy it!

On another note, sometimes memories of Alagadda will seep through the cracks, instances from the past that dyo forged reflect memories from his childhood and experiences in Alagadda.

Dyo landed in ancient Greece, and genuinely believes he is from there. He believes that he was a balatro (roman jester) for the king, and was fused to his mask by the ancient Greek gods as a punishment for stealing the golden wreath from the king of Rome.

However, it is evident that this story isn’t true, at the time Rome had a consul system not a king, and despite the fact Rome had capitulated Greece they didn’t share the same gods despite their similarities.

He makes his way through life, but aware of his immortality he drowns himself in alcohol and lavish parties. He doesn’t get close to anyone as he knows that they will one day die and that he will not, causing him to build bad behaviours, appear overtly cocky and confident, a tendency to avoid rejection as a side effect and a need to convince himself that everything is alright.

So! Imagine dyo, an immortal being, avoiding close relationships with anyone he meets and putting up a persona to avoid anyone liking him, finding another immortal being!I

He grows incredibly attached to hasel, for the first time in almost two millennia he doesn’t have to be alone anymore, he can finally learn how to open himself up and build on his issues and break down his persona.

But this causes abandonment and attachment issues, so you can imagine how he must have reacted when hasel leaves!

He can’t handle this, and embarks on a journey to find him again, this journey spanning over a century from WW1 to present day, in which he is also captured by the foundation and placed in the same facility as hasel… and the portal!

They are given their numbered codes 035 and 049, but with dyo being so close to the fixed portal he gradually begins to remember his past…

So yeah thats all im up to so far :3

i haven’t written anything past the foundation and the portal plot, but technically in the original draft i made with my partner a couple years back they escape with the help of Laurence (106). They learn to mend their broken relationship and also learn how to get along with laurence despite his creepiness, but that part is all old stuff so i might rewrite it. But the fact hasel leaves at WW1 was important, as this is around the time Laurence becomes anomalous, so it ties their stories in too :3

[airysong]

Hi there!!! I recently finished hfjone (ur videos on airy got me back into it! I watched a little of it back in highschool but never finished your amvs really got me back into the story and unlocked a new fixation!) I'm wondering how you feel on airys death :3! Thank you so much for your time have a wonderful wonderful day!!!!!!

(also side question that doesn't really apply here your hc that Amelia is related to airy is killing me how do you think that shed react to finding out her captor was family tysm again!!)

hello. i am going to sound crazy when i say this but i’m glad airy died (or… double died) i feel like that absolutely needed to happen. in a way he was freed from the temporal cement of that forest and now he finally has room to develop himself elsewhere. by that i mean he is in a painfully reverberating vacuum of Self and he is going to have to face the consequences of relying on an asinine gameshow and a flimsy computer to be the core of his identity. he is going to have to be someone besides airy. because who is airy without ONE? i believe dying and getting thrust back into “the waiting room” (by the way, isn’t it interesting how airy was the only one in the show to call it the waiting room?) is what will ultimately serve as a ‘rude awakening’ for him.

as for the second question… it’s a tad complicated. because you have grief, you have confusion, you have love, and all of those very strong things are going to have to pair with resentment. airy is of course going to do ev’rything he can to obscure his identity from his niece because he’s too spineless and cowardly to confront the fact that he’s hurting someone he loves (or that he’s hurting anyone, for that matter) but perchance if amelia somehow discovered his true identity (or… lack thereof…) i don’t think it’d be as simple and linear as betrayal. there would be betrayal felt, yes, lots of betrayal, but beneath that would exist extreme sorrow because unlike liam she actually KNEW airy. she is witnessing a disfigured and murky shell of someone she loved and trusted, someone who’d been there for her in the most tumultuous years of her childhood. i’d imagine it’d be terribly, TERRIBLY conflicting for her. like ok here’s an analogy because i’m addicted to analogies: like if you were super attached to a certain tree as a child. then the tree dies somehow. you miss it deeply, but when you’re grown and elsewhere you notice your area is gradually beginning to be taken over by ferocious and superfluous vines. you run back to that old place and you realize the tree became host to an invasive species of vine and has destroyed ev’rything around it. you are in shambles over ev’rything being destroyed, but also, the tree itself is destroyed. and despite the tree being the source of destruction, you are absolutely broken for that damn tree. hope that makes sense, i’m short of time right now.

[justajsworkshop]

k, so i've been ruminating on the levels of creation today, primarily the first two and how this impacts how i affirm/imagine.

at the very top, we have the father: the great I AM, the divine mind, the void, source, etc. whatever label you want to use for it. this is pure is-ness: it just is. it's ultimate reality. it's all moments, all possibilities, all things superimposed over each other—everything everywhere all at one. it's existence itself, total unified fulfillment, perfect and unchanging. this is what we mean by "creation is finished." everything already exists but only in pure potential.

the only way for god to know itself as god is for god to become aware of itself and boom: we have the first manifestation of ultimate reality, the son of god, your I AM awareness. this is the second level of creation. the great I AM just is, whereas your I AM awareness is aware that it is. because in order for awareness to exist, it must be aware of something, and your I AM awareness is aware of being. it's pure beingness.

there is only one moment, one thought, one being—the great I AM—that we are experiencing from infinite vantage points. the passing of time, moving through physical reality, my fingers typing away on this keyboard, they're are all shifts in awareness to create the illusion of a linear horizontal experience within ultimate reality: it's the appearance of change in the changeless.

and the more i contemplate on this, the more i realize, understand, and accept that we've already been given everything. the kingdom is ours because we are one with the father; we are one with ultimate reality that is already all things, all moments, all possibilities. but again, these all only exist in pure potential until we choose what to call forth into our awareness, and we get to shift our awareness through this one moment in infinite different ways.

it's our free will to choose or not choose a certain experience for ourselves from the infinite menu that is god: all things, all possibilities, all potentials. not only does god always say yes to everything, but god already said yes to everything by giving you all that it is. this is why in the parable of the prodigal son, the father says, "son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours."

your I AM awareness cannot be separated from the greater "I". this is the paradoxical nature of awareness jesus referred to by saying "the father and i are one" but "the father is greater than i."

when you're saying it's already done, it's already yours, it's already true, you're not lying or stating anything untrue or unreal. that reality/moment where your desire is fulfilled already exists, and by affirming/imagining—i.e., choosing—you're putting your awareness on this fulfilled state and declaring it as yours.

in my personal experience of conscious creation, i have never manifested faster and easier when i drop all trying. the more effort i put into manifesting, the more i separate myself from what's already mine because i'm implying that there is a process or performance that must be accomplished for manifestation to take place.

and this is when manifesting feels hard and difficult to me. obviously i am desperate for immediate results because i want a reward for all the work i put into it. but what i'm doing is asking god to commend me for all my hard work when my excess effort actually boasts a lack of faith in what's already mine.

manifesting is simply being aware of your desire, and all we are is awareness. it's suppose to be effortless because it is effortless since fulfillment just is.

now when i affirm, i am affirming with the assumption that it's already been given to me (because it has), and that god has already said yes (because it has). i affirm without concern for conditions, time, appearances, or really anything to do with the physical experience because the physical experience and i are one just as i am one with the father.

it's all just one being here, and that being is you. i recognize that the physical is just the tiniest possible slice of ultimate reality and that all other possibilities are mine in an instant because it's all happening at the same time anyway. by affirming/imagining, i'm calling forth my desired experience and claiming it as mine.

repetition doesn't manifest: awareness does. and when i repeat affirmations, it's only to remind myself of what is already so, so i may keep my awareness on my desired end even when the physical limited self is trying to tell me otherwise. i let that physical self be as they are. i let them fear, i let them doubt, i let them exist without trying to change them, but while also maintaining a greater awareness and understanding that i am more than what my physical organs perceive, and what they do perceive is one of limitless possibilities, all of which are available to me in an instant with a single decision.

as i posted earlier today, it's not that conditions/circumstances don't matter or that you have to ignore them. i recognize that no condition or appearance—no matter how bleak or alarming to the physical self—can possibly limit the limitless being i truly am: god.

because through god, all things are possible. through me, all wishes are granted, all paradoxes are unified, and all fulfillment just is.

there is nothing to change. there is nothing to fix. there's only your desired experience to choose. choose it over and over and over again. because we're already persisting no matter what; you might as well persist in fulfillment.

[napolonio]

Do you accept asks? It's okay you can just delete this if you don't. So I've been detaching from ego and at times I feel at peace, then the ego is triggered and I'm back to being anxious. I think I'm expecting this "special" experience to happen like this euphoric feeling, cause I know that I'm not the ego, or whatever it thinks or feels, but I guess I'm expecting the thoughts and feelings to stop completely. And they're still here. Which makes me feel like I'm not detaching correctly lol. Do you mind sharing how you were able to let go of your ego for good? Thanks!

See, I think that many of us will continue to make use of a body, concepts and live in a world of perception, so really, ego will still be there in some shape or form. What you really need to realize is that you are not it.

To understand ego is to understand time. Through life when we operate as a body, we learn concepts, we learn rules, we learn structures, and that's how ego gets shaped. It is used to navigate life. You know that if a car is driving at high speed, you should not cross the street, that's ego. You have learned social qeues so that you can interact with others, that's ego. "If ___ happens I should do ___". It's a literal program. Now, all ego knows is illusory, because it's the past, it no longer exists. You see life through the past, you aren't really in the now, so really what does ego know? How can ego be helpful in the now if it only operates based on something that does not exist?

Say you were betrayed by a friend. What does the ego do? It feels like its sense of identity has been menaced, so it has to defend itself. It internalizes this experience, it keeps the memory and uses it as its favorite accesory. Friends are fake, you're unlucky and everyone betrays you, you need to keep your defenses up. Not only are you giving yourself this identity, but also your friend, perpetuating the whole story thinking that keeping such memory alive in the now, will bring you a different future and keep you safe in the present.

You wouldn't dare forgive your friend. They deserve your cold stare and hatred. What if you thought about forgiving them? Forgiveness not in the conventional way, but in a new meaning. Forgiveness being an act of correction. What forgiveness really is, is the realization that the betrayal was illusory, it was never real, your friend is innocent. Your ego would feel so frightened by the sole idea, it will feel so vulnerable and unprotected. But you can't really stop identification with your own identity, while also keeping alive the menacing stories you have of seeming others. They're not separate from you and how you see them, directly affects you.

As long as you keep alive your labels of this world, its people, the body, you will still continue to need that ego that created this world. It will keep you bound.

The reason why I think mentioning other people is important, is because seeming others is one of the reasons ego exists. Ego sees others as an enemy. You can let them close, but not too much. As long as you keep stories of others, it will have an effect on you. You can't get rid of your own stories and keep others' alive. Because imagine again your betrayer friend, say you think you successfully "let go of your ego" and the friend comes into frame again, you still hold their story, what will happen? What you mentioned in your ask, ego gets triggered, and what does it bring back?? Correct, your identity of being an unlucky person who has fake friends.

This applies for everything you have learned about this world, society, science, objects, history, all of it. None of it is the now. Continuing to see life through those lenses, is to keep the past alive.

So, to conclude ego=past learnings. If you realize all is now, ego becomes useless. If you trust and surrender to your true nature, you can learn to live as God/imagination/consciousness, and cease the contract with the ego.

It's not linear. Personally I'm not a huge fan of trying to rush things, I enjoy patience. Which brings me to my favorite ACIM quote "infinite patience, brings immediate results".

Also, something fun that not everyone on here might be a fan of, challenge yourself to do things you don't usually do because it's soo "out of character". Say you ask for dark coffee every day, now choose the craziest drink in the menu you can think of. Say your bed sheets are always dark colored, buy a bright colored one. Do/say something that makes you cringe. Dress in a way you would never 😈. It's very funny, I do it every day lmao. Challenge your perception of self. If you feel like you can't, start by imagining it. Imagine yourself doing out of character stuff. You'll see you'll naturally stop being the character.

Disclaimer: as I mentioned at the beginning, most likely you will continue to make use of a body, therefore don't put it in situations of danger. It still has to eat (because I've seen some people asking about eating in imagination 🥴), it can't fly, don't cross the street without looking both ways. This work is mental, so don't feel the need to prove something in the "physical", that's very foolish to do, considering that you probably are still attached to the body and your concepts of it and of this world. Meaning it can be endangered if you try to defy those concepts.

[fairyminnie444]

I saw the manifestation/law of assumption hot takes by @stateswscarlet on Twitter and I agree with some of it, but since I no longer have an account about it on Twitter, I want to talk about what I found contradictory here because it bothered me a little to read it, so I want to leave my point/opinion here on my blog.

obs: btw about her warning to "keep scrolling", since she is a coach on a subject that I have a blog about (loa) and that was posted on public twitter, I gave myself the right to respond to something that bothered me

nothing against her or her content as it's the first time she's appeared on my TL. I just want to give my opinion as it was something that caught my attention in a bad way.

This is absolutely contradiction. You do not “depend” on the Law because it is the basis of reality. Everything that exists already follows this Law, whether the person is aware of it or not. It is like saying that someone “depends” on gravity to walk.

Furthermore, the Law liberates, it does not imprison. When you understand that reality responds to you, you take control instead of feeling hostage to the external world.

The question is not “to do or not to do”, but rather where the action comes from. If it comes from desperation and lack, it is useless. If it comes from the absolute certainty that you already have something, then any action will be natural and inspired.

And the truth is that you don’t have to do anything if you don’t want to. Your physical appearance only reflects the identity you have already assumed. If your identity is unshakable, things simply happen.

This view comes from those who believe that reality is fixed and that there is an absolute “right and wrong” in the universe. But in reality, everyone lives within their own reality. Just because someone is already in a relationship in your current reality, that doesn’t mean that’s the case in your desired reality.

You’re not “taking” someone from anyone else, because in your reality that person is already with you. External circumstances are just a reflection of what you assume to be true. If you truly assume that you are with that person, then that is the only truth that exists for you.

This is YOUR ADVICE (and I’m not saying that I don’t agree) but it’s not a hot take on manifestation/loa. It doesn't make sense to say "you can't fix them" and say you can manifest anything despite the circumstances, that's VERY contradictory.

Anyway, I haven't read any more of her content and I don't know how she teaches (?) idk the law in her way. I just wanted to give MY opinion on MY blog specifically about these "hot takes" because I thought that yes, they are limiting beliefs and they are being passed on.

People who still operate at the level of doubt and linear logic always try to find flaws, but the truth is simple: reality responds to what you assume to be true. Period.

[blindbatalex]

bruins hrpf recs from the server #5

Hello again! The theme for this week was ✨ a fic that broke your heart ✨ Below are our recs:

rec lists so far: || week 4 || week 3 || week 2 || week 1 ||

A (Little) Slice of Heaven by Anonymous || willypasta || 11,541 words || reccer's notes: this fic rewired my brain. I read it months and months and months ago and I have yet to recover. 11/10 I come back to it way more than I probably should

(and i’ve got a plane to catch) you drove me all the way back by @fvcking-damage || mcgryz || 2,862 words || reccer's notes: this is some self-indulgent mcgryz angst i wrote a couple of years ago, idk what i was writing out with this one but. yeah

and turns to dust by adjacently || Jordan Eberle/Taylor Hall || 2,130 words || reccer's notes: i can eat taylor hall angst for breakfast, lunch, and dinner

between your love and mine by @blindbatalex || willypasta || 6,360 words || reccer's notes: This is a story about trying to reconcile two sides of your identity that are at irreconcilable conflict with one another, and what having your wings clipped like that at a young age does to a person.  I certainly broke my own heart while writing it.

dancing by @rasksmoustache || marcheron || 1,111 words || reccer's notes: This fic is so vivid and visceral and sad, it permanently altered my brain chemistry.  Unrequited (but is it really?) marcheron which gets the feeling of loving someone and being just a little too late so so well

Done & Undone by @ghostgeno || marcheron || 14,428 words || reccer's notes: 2023 Game 7, the aftermath. Fair warning: I don’t reread this very often because of how effectively it puts you in Brad’s headspace immediately after the game, in brutal, excruciating detail. And yet. And yet. If you feel like being taken apart and then put back together, if you want to feel all the loss and tenderness and love that remains despite the loss, read this fic.

good at secrets by @fridgefishwrites || prefix boys; mcgryz || 4,017 words || reccer's notes: this fic meant (and means) so much to me because it just gets what trying to live your life and build something beautiful while faced with unrelenting homophobia is like.  I love the non-linear narrative and the prefix boys but it was always Matt who stole the show for me in this story

like a stranger by blindbatalex || marcheron || 13,142 words || reccer's notes: not a fic alex hasn't read before (sorry bud) but i'm Obsessed with fics where the characters talk past each other and the angst compounds and this fic is a perfect example of that, amongst other things!!!

make no apologies by @sphesphe || marcheron || 3,757 words || reccer's notes: Brad gets himself suspended before the Winter Classic and Patrice takes it harder than he thinks he should.  He plays it off as fine, things happen, just be better Marchy but it isn't true. He's angry. After the game, Brad stops by, they have a talk and lo and behold, feelings emerge! (And much more!)

Sixth Borough by bookhousegirl || Jimmy Hayes/Frank Vatrano || 3,067 words || reccer's notes: The third in a trilogy of fics featuring this pairing. This is a very quiet little vignette featuring two former Bruins who were not stars and did not end up experiencing great success in their time here. It exists entirely in the gray of adult complications and disappointments, and refuses any easy catharsis, and is beautiful for those reasons. For those of us who cared about the Bruins in the (relatively) dismal era between 2015-17 it may come across as a tiny time capsule; for everyone else, I hope the delicate way it honors the hopes and dreams of those who don’t become hometown heroes, who don’t get the happily everafter ending, stays with you.

Westward Expansion by bookhousegirl || Jimmy Hayes/Frank Vatrano || 3,625 words || reccer's notes: Jimmy stares out vacantly at the coaster climbing the track. “Just because we’re from the same place doesn’t mean we’re from the same place.” When Frank takes Jimmy to Six Flags, he expects it to be a fun day, showing Jimmy all the rides he used to love growing up. Jimmy is distracted though, melancholy because Frank has so much promise and Jimmy took so long to get to where he is.

Wolverine Feed by @sphesphe || swaymark || 10,659 words || reccer's notes: fic that makes me ill each and every time i think about it

[sluggishcognitivetempo]

"quietly hands you this post with a warm cup of tea and soft lighting" ☕✨

if your brain sometimes feels like a radio tuned to too many stations at once—where moods, thoughts, and reality blur into static—you might be navigating schizoaffective disorder. let’s talk about it with gentleness:

🌀 schizoaffective can feel like:

emotional storms (depression/mania) + reality glitches (voices, paranoia, or uncanny visions)

whiplash between "too much" and "too little" (energy, sleep, connection)

the crushing weight of stigma ("am I 'crazy'?" spoiler: no, you’re fighting battles others can’t see)

isolation that aches (even when people are right there)

but here’s what’s also true:

you’re not a diagnosis—you’re a person with layers, dreams, and the right to heal.

small steps count. resting counts. asking for help counts.

why this workbook? the Schizoaffective Disorder Workbook is a judgment-free zone to:

track symptoms + triggers (with compassion, not shame)

ground during dissociation (DBT/CBT tools for "reality checks")

navigate meds + therapy (advocacy scripts included)

reclaim your narrative (because your story is yours)

healing isn’t linear. some days will feel like rewiring a live circuit—but you’re still here, and that’s courage. 🌱

#Schizoaffective #MentalHealthRecovery #YouAreNotAlone

(P.S. If today feels heavy, remember: your existence is a quiet rebellion against a world that underestimates you. Keep going.)

[lionheartedmusings]

i saw a post earlier that q!tubbo is the only "moral" character even after purgatory and it's kinda kept me awake, not because i don't agree with the sentiment (i do) but because the idea of morality as intrinsically important in fandom / character analysis is fascinating to me, *especially* when we're talking about the morality of someone who's basically just spent two weeks in some eye guy's budget hunger games.

first off, while i fully agree that by the end of this q!tubbo *is* a character that tried at every turn to be kind and generous even to his own detriment, how does that make him more or less "moral" than q!phil or q!fit? he still killed, the same as them. he still strategized to beat his friends, has blood on his hands — why is he marked above x, y, or z in the moral scale?

well, one could argue that he did what he did for his team, for the eggs, and because he was forced to when he was put in the game in the first place, yeah? it's not his fault he's in this position, and he's doing his best to survive it. i personally think that's totally valid and justifiable, but it leaves a huge elephant in the room.

what about everyone else?

i'm going to use q!bad as an example because he's my main pov, and before i go into this analysis i want it known i'm very much playing the devil's advocate and illustrating a point — i am not saying his actions are "good". good? good.

okay. so, q!bad. here we have a non-human father who was told by his missing child to win regardless of the cost, or whomever he had to run over. he had to win. is it immoral then for him to take that to heart and play the game the way it was presented? is it immoral for him to kill for his child, or to be determined to win even in detriment of others? to want to use the same strategies in the battlefield that everyone else would, even if they're not kind or polite?

i don't fucking know, because morality isn't linear — this situation *isn't* linear bc if people will go on the record saying they would kill for their child and are praised for it, what makes q!bad's actions in the universe he's existing in any different?

you can even say that by some perspectives, q!tubbo extending so much kindness to his competitors over and over again was at times (or could've been) detrimental to his team ergo their childrens' lives and yet he still did it. is it more moral to save children or be nice to someone else?

my point being, i feel that the morality argument while very very interesting is kind of irrelevant bc when push comes to shove, characters aren't compelling bc they have more or less morals — i genuinely think a lot of media / character consumption has *actively* been harmed by everyone's need to have the thing they enjoy be "good" or "moral" or "right" bc if it isn't, what does that say about us?

the answer to that one is: absolutely nothing, but man do i think sometimes people in fandom feel guilty if they like or prefer an immoral or grey character vs a "stereotypical" moral one.

anyway, all this to say that i think by the end of purgatory, q!tubbo is the character that was most true to himself and his values from start to finish, and it's been a great watch. is he the most morally correct? eh. who the fuck knows.

[legobiwan]

"I've heard the myths but didn't want to believe they were true. This really is THE BOOK OF BILL." "...his book has one purpose: to conjure Cipher's voice into its pages. To communicate with the Triangle...even after his death."

I have...questions...as to Ford's reported timeline here and how it relates to the events of Weirdmaggedon and Bill's eventual incarceration/forced institutionalization in the Theraprism.

We know the Theraprism exists outside of time. But if we're thinking in a linear manner from Ford's point of view, it gets a little wild. Here's Ford, who hears all these "myths" about Bill's book and how Bill would try to communicate after death. But Ford has learned about the "mythology" before Bill's death and the book wasn't written until (from Ford's point of view) after Weirdmaggedon so how could he have heard myths about it in the two-week time span between the Weirdmaggedon and the kids going back to California?

Because the word "myths" implies old stories, not some intergalactic rumor mill of two weeks ago. But the book can't be old, again, from Ford's point of view, because the events that preceded it weren't all that long ago.

I doubt Ford is using the wrong term here. He's a stickler for precise language, even if he sometimes uses that precision as a veil to obfuscate the truth and bend the narrative to his favor.

This leaves us with some interesting possibilities.

At some point, Bill told Ford about his backup plan in case things went awry and Ford's just covering for himself. I'd give this maybe a 20% chance of being true, not because I don't believe Ford is incapable of manipulating his own self-narrative at this point (he definitely is and I honestly think half the intention of his "warnings" to the reader are aimed at himself as a kind of confessional). But I don't think Bill would have given away that info to Ford, if he even entertained the idea at all that he could be "killed" in this manner.

The Oracle brought this up to Ford during his time in Dimension 52 as a warning. I give this 50/50 odds, as she used to be a Henchmaniac and is...well, an Oracle. Seeing the future, or some murky version thereof, is kind of her thing.

Timey-wimey shenanigans. I find this to be the most intriguing. As stated above, the Theraprism exists outside of time, so I guess it's possible for Bill to have created the book in past, present, and future and for its legend to have eventually made its way to Ford. Does this mean what happens in the Theraprism can affect the past, present, and future of the realities its residents (tried to) shape? If Bill succeeds in therapy, how will that change Ford's timeline, both past, present, and future? At what point in time will Bill reincarnate and in which reality? Or was this a one-off of Bill being able to shunt his book through some kind of reality portal? Or, or - if Bill escapes - not outside the realm of possibility - when exactly would he escape to? Can he create another offshoot dimension where he repeats his go at Weirdmaggedon, but learns from his mistakes? Can he do the same with Euclydia? Are there other Bills or is he it?

Anyway, there's some great fodder for AU fic ideas here (time loop fans, this one's for you), but that line's been bothering me for a few weeks now and felt the impulse to talk about it.