#it's the autism innit

[adorablegorilla]

Ellis. Honey.

Why are you wearing your scarf like that.

[azrakaban]

Overwhelmed - Theodore Nott x Reader

Summary: Theo's overwhelmed, and you're the only person who can 'fix' that

Theos POV for now, yours later!

Theodore Nott had a lot on his mind. Homework, friendships and pretty much everything under the sun seemed to have it out for him, which sucked ass. 

As he picked up his bag, wincing at the texture of his clothes rubbing against him, Theo left the library. It feltl ike walking out of a bubble and into a whirpool, and everything felt like it was swirling around him. Sounds hit him in a rush, a gaggle of girls laughing, the Weasley twins sniggering at their latest victim.. and then an angry Mattheo storming towards him. 

"Theo, dude, what the fuck? Why weren't you at practice?" Mattheo looked mad, and Theo felt a horrible sensation in his gut. He'd missed practice studying. The library was a sanctuary for him, he'd needed the break, but hadn't remembered the consequences for his hour and a half of peace. 

"I'm sorry. Lost track of time." Theo replied, avoiding eye contact with his best friend. He wasn't sure when him and Mattheo had become friends, he had just seemed to appear beside Theo like a mosquito and never leave. Before him, Theo had had problems making friends. Then Mattheo made Theo his 'problem'. And suddenly Theo had friends, kaboom. 

Finally daring to look up at his friend, Theo immediately lookied away again. Mattheo wasn't angry anymore, just disappointed. Somehow that was worse. 

"I get it. Just could you maybe.. turn up next time? It means a lot to me, I don't want Potter beating us his first year as captain." Mattheo shuddered. 

"It's your first year as captain too." Theo said pointedly. 

"I know, and I need my other beater on the pitch, kay? Be there next time." Mattheo clapped him on the shoulder, making Theo wince, and kept walking. 

Theo sighed, walking on towards Slytherin common room, catching Blaise at the door. 

"Hey man, Mattheo's looking for you." Blaise said absent mindedly,tapping shoulder and walking past him with his nose buried in a book Luna had given him on Nargles. Theo winced at the touch again, mumbling a thank you as he got inside.

The touch. Practice. Laughing. It was getting in his brain, swirling around his thoughts, pricking him with tiny needles, he kept walking, he got touched again, and now a girl was asking if he wanted to go to hogsmeade and he was looking at her blankly and saying no, and it was all too much and then he was moving faster, getting up into his dormitory where it was safe and calm and-

"Hey Teddy!"

Your POV

Your boyfriend was stood in the doorway, staring at you like a deer in headlights as you laid on his bed. He made a noise almost like a whimper before he dropped his bag, strode over to you and lay his head down in your lap, his face crumpling. 

You ran your fingers through his hair, lightly scratching his scalp in just the right way. You lay there like that with him for a while, waiting for him to speak, if he wanted to, your jeans slowly getting wetter, but you didn't mind.

"Too much." He finally whispered, eyes closed. You withdrew your fingers, worried you'd pushed him too far. He shook his head, putting your hand back in place. "Not you. Never you. Everything else." He whispered. 

"okay bubs." You whispered back to him. "Can I touch you?" You murmured, not wanting to upset him. He thought for a moment and then nodded. You leaned down and placed a small kiss on his temple. He looked at you blankly. "That was a kiss." He said flatly.  

"Yes. Was it okay?" You asked him, not forcing him to make eye contact. He pondered it.

"Yes." He sighed, lying in your lap. 

"Y/N, I'm sorry you have to put up with this. I wonder if there's a spell to make my head not like this, not all fuzzy and confused and tangled-" You gently placed a finger on his lips. 

"Theo, I like you like this. If you want to ifnd a spell for you, then that's okay, I'll help you, but don't change because you feel guilty. Okay? The right people love you anyway. I do. Okay bubba?" You kissed his temple again, and Theo frowned. 

"I hate autism." He folded his arms. You shook your head. 

"I think you hate feeling overwhelmed, not being autistic." You said softly. 

Theo nodded. "Theo, it makes no difference to how much I love you, but I think it's aweosme how you can sit down for hours and just focus in on something, whether it be a textbook or a doodle you started in class that you want to develop. Okay? I love you, silly." You smiled. 

Theo looked up at you and nodded. That would be all you got for the rest of the evening, but you didn't mind. He was still your Theo, and you wouldn't have him any other way.

A/N: Did I decide not to mention that Theo was autistic at the start of the fic? Yes. Did you feel angry or betrayed when you found out he was? If you're secretly or not so secretly thinking yes, then I hope you take a good long look in a mirror before your decide to keep reading my fics. If autistic people make you uncomfrotable for an undescernable reason, then I hope you re-evaluate your morals. 

A/N: THE HAPPIER AUTHOR NOTE! Happy day one of FICTOBER u guys! This is probs the longest thing I'll write for it, but we'll see. love you all, thanks for reading! 

[xrosevoidx]

the fear(?) with reblogging scott the woz stuff from Non Wozzers is theyll see my blog and assume im just batshit jerma stan level crazy into this white dude but i need to clarify scott the woz is the guy but also the show. like seinfeld. its a whole scripted thing. they referenced the scarlet letter while using a wii game as an extended metaphor for how sexuality is viewed in society. terry lesler shot a cop.

[dandelionjack]

happy valentine’s day just watched all of us strangers. anyone else here understand grief is love persevering. and love has the power to conjure ghosts, to shape them and give them form and meaning. and happily ever after doesn’t mean forever. it just means time. a little time

[alliumsduo]

Halloween costume but i'm dressed up as ctommy and i have a c!dream plush and i dropkick him into oncoming traffic

[sexy-sapphic-sorcerer]

I just told my coworker "sorry I'm insane" after accidentally infodumping again and she said "don't worry, I'm insane too". but she's crazy in a 'I went through my boyfriend's wallet and stalked his ex wife's company' kind of way and not a 'here is a powerpoint presentation I made about joan of arc just for fun. do you want to see the one I made about merlin?' kind of way

[socialcarcrash]

IS GERARD WEARING LIPSTICK THIS IS A CATEGORY FIVE GENDER EVENT

[neurodivinity]

Pre-frontal cortex: Hi! I'm the part of your brain that blocks out socially inappropriate behaviour to help you live in a society

Autistic people: sweet! I'm glad to have this

Pre-frontal cortex: wait a second I think everything in your whole personality is socially inappropriate actually

Autistic people: care to explain why??

Pre-frontal cortex: idk Man, just Is. Lemme limit your actions to several Extremely Basic and Polite options that express zero Inappropriate Personality whatsoever

Autistic people: *already tensing up, forcing eye contact and making body as physically small as possible* oh okay, thanks :)

[thefruityaquarius]

my tumblr is like the definition of neurodivergent

i forget it exists for months and then i show up one night and infodump for like way to long

[vesperione]

LOOK all im saying is if by some fucking miracle dread weight and the cinderellas castle digital ticket drops on the exact same day, i will exclusively combust because what the actual fuck.

[loriache]

kabru definitely IS human, like i dont doubt it for a second. i mean his parent isnt a fucking bee lmao it’s atavism or smth like milsiril suggests.

but there is such a big part of me that thinks about the parallels with the winged lion he has, his deep sense of alienation and fear of being a monster, and wants to explore what it would do to his psyche if he had to reckon with a monstrous origin or monstrous traits

there are so many options. made into a chimera… something wrt his origin…. personally im partial to some setup wherein he is the result of a demon wish in the vein of the winged lion offering to Give Marcille Children. the dungeon in utaya went through a lot of lords. it probably wasnt where he was born since his mum ran away from his dads family but you could finesse that part. it would evoke the succubus - incubus - demon connection and also explode his self image. also the demon totally would give you a child with a trait that isolated you from your support network

but like idk if this jives thematically….. i just don’t know….. but it’s a fun Imagination Palace. it would really put kabru in the torment nexus, but i think he could grow through it. laios would be So Jealous lmao

[exalt1ora]

being in the show i’m in rn is like. the best theatre experience i’ve ever had and i hope it never ends. but also. my starkid brainworm is like screaming crying at me to focus on the mission and binge every single video on their channel inside me there are two wolves

[zalktis]

Woof DoGraham, my beloved

[azrakaban]

hii, could i possibly request a reader x autistic!theodore or a theo with autistic traits? (few facial expressions, trouble with tone, stims, might not recognise flirting, things like that). i’m on the spectrum myself, and it’s comforting to imagine a kinship with fictional characters.

completely understand if you can’t/don’t want to, have a lovely day <33

Hi love! I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get back to this, life hath been hectic lately. In answer to your request, I'd love to do it, but I don't really have much experience with male autistic people, as autism tends to show up differently in each gender and person. As someone on the spectrum myself as well, I would however be happy to write an autistic!reader x Theodore one shot? I'll do my research into autism in guys, but if I find it too challenging, would this be okay?

Love and thanks for the request, remember to eat and drink <3

- Azra

[spaciebabie]

You say you don't understand how people simp for monty and yet you simp for springtrap (heavily light hearted)

oh no i understand why ppl simp for monty, i just dont lol

like objectively hes an attractive character, but he just doesnt do it for me

[quirrelmorts]

love that i will watch starkid for 12 hours even when it isn’t because of a livestream. i don’t plan on stopping