#it's now 7 ish in the morning thank god i didn't post this last night because there were loads of spelling errors.

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hs3 spoilers - first listen through thoughts

okay so. literally just stream of consciousness as i listened. these are out of order from how i listened bc i'm messy.

daydream the start of this reminds me of a bollywood song lmao. wtffff love me like you pay me AAA OK paid for it. something to dream about aw this is a really sweet song. not sure what the fuck was going on with that line at the start though had me thinking it was another fuck beards song. HUH what if it's like. a commentary on celebrity - we (fan's) pay for it and ask for all of their (celebs') love, parasocial relationships a thing to dream about ect, also how 1d was marketed to be dream bf's. hm i like that interp gonna roll it around in my head some more.

just keep driving GOD. it's about the miscommunication or the lack of communication we want to push it aside and just keep driving, the thingy about clouds withheld dark stuff AAA again not communicating. defenseless say's hi. it's also capital W wierd sir what is this your shopping list? fr tho feels like the beauty papers video ad? i'm sure there's some hyper specific connection for each one can't wait for the fbi larries to find them.

sattellite AFJDSF about isolation and it's affects and wanting to be there for someone even when you physically can't and distances growing between people and overcoming those because they always end being pulled to each other. spaces an this are very distant cousins. Vibes are amazing sonically very cool

daylight kitchen mention harry astrology bitch confirmed blue bird GOOD GOD? again always being there with/for someone even when you physically can't like. babe we get it. bicycles again? YOU ARE THE ANTIDOTE. but also that thingy about cocoa (?) idk what that's about, cut out my middle (butterfly???) you don't have time for me forced to be apart bc of other obligations? and missing someone basically? mildly confused by the exact lyrics but the vibes 10/10 and the chorus is again so sweet and so so soft i love it.

little freak hlbluegreeners. kitchen again. it's about the COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP SHIT SJFKF. adore u vibes in that you don't need anything from them just content to think about/adore them TRACK SUIT PONYTALE MAKE FUN OF ME RED WINE AND A GINGER ALE. birthmark i'm confused? feet first line that's very too young of u. yes ankle broke joke.

love of my life news = media narratives/ scrutiny they aint a fan of it. who tf is johnny. GOD THIS IS GORGEOUS, HOME 1D lost till u find it. didn't want to leave him behind. okay dunno where ur lying when you fly vs little freak. coordinates very cryptic sir. love love love this song he sounds so good his voice is so rich it's a thick comforter being wrapped around you

late night Sexy intro TRUMPETS share a single bed :) CHANGE ALWAYS YOU literally thee louis parallels CHANGE AGAIN gimme a call, THE AMOUNT OF TIMES HE WANTS TO BE THERE FOR HIS PERSON. EVERY OTHER SONG. i love this song there's nothing left to say reminds me of sleepovers with a friend and saying the things you can only say in the safety of night like dreams and hopes and plans and confessions. and also about being gay what more do you want.

cinema ugh. this feels. blatantly stunty and in a album Full of love songs it's the only really sexualized one idk. i'm sure someone with a big enough brain will find some sort of non stunt interp which i'd love to hear

boyfriends i mean i've already talked about it love the joni vibes and half a world away lyrics and i'm sticking to my original interpretation

grape juice wow a bop from the start. also Loud whispering harold. hideaway from the rest of the world hmm. kinda confused about i got over it, what is it? something old and red idek hat this is but. long term relationships and also bc my mind is prisoned rn red ofmd fabric thingy :) paid more than i did back then? there's Something here i just can't grab it rn. what is 'it'?? i'd assume the obv answer is love but that doesn't rlly fit with the prior lines. so you need the person even though it's getting harder to do so/costs you more. GARDEN PLACES WE'D BEEN say this is about gemma i dare you. I DARE YOU. i'm so old and wise mumbles. grape juice blues hmm drunk reminiscing, dunno precisely what's the deal but it's a bop

mathilde made me cry. anyway it's about the found family, the terror of leaving it behind in search of something better. okay this song really hits for various reasons. and like yes found family is so often inherently queer but this just even more obvious. yah maybe i;m projecting but it really feels like so much of the advice i see older queer folk give younger ones. hmm bring sun to the darkest days hmmm. lights up. i'm crying again. tea and toast nice domestic. you don't have to go home it's about making a home you want and belong to when the one you came from wasn't truly a home to begin with. start a family that will always show you love could this be any more clear. mathilde bc it's like matilda?

sushi restaurant green eyes hm, is it about him? no? egg i think there was one other egg mention. was this a fic or was there a thing about hl getting ice cream and one of the orders was with flakes? idk. i'm hungery why so much food? blue bubblegum. go broke?? i don't knoww. oh the just a little taste cause i love you babe Vibes. OH GOD it reminda me of oh i really hate you right now i hate my brain. green tea. sorry why so much blue green imagery Why. scoobadoobydoobboopboo!!! i'm not gonna get lost i'm not gonna go broke OHH was there first someone speaking to him? abt artistic integrity vision? eat the stars i approve. Oh yet another commentary on celeb culture? like literally a taste of the high life people are insatiable ect ect. i don't really think so but maybe?

ok obv don't take this too seriously even in terms of how i interpreted stuff it was just whatever popped into my head and it's like. 3:30 am now. kinda feel like doing some analysis on some more of these so we'll see.

[anya-grace]

Two beautiful people sent me an ask about my rivetra actors au, and boyyyy let me tell you, it was so fun making them again 😍 thank you to the pretty souls who asked this! 💘

The first actors au were from season 1 and 2, this one will focus on the filming of season 3 until the last season :) here you go!

more rivetra actors!au headcanon (some are nsfw-ish)

- Let me get straight to the point: lots of sex. Car sex. On-set sex. Dressing room sex. Name it.

- Both of them are aware that it was unprofessional, but there was a time when they did not see each other for more than a month because of their (especially Levi’s) busy and conflicting schedule, so when Petra surprised him on set, the frustration and longing just piled up and they had sex.

- Then it became a habit.

- And this habit, of course, didn’t go unnoticed by the other casts and even crews of the show. Armin heard them once, and the poor boy made a mental note to never ever come close to Levi’s room again.

- The older casts are fine with it since, you know, normal adult stuff. But for the love of the three Walls, can you lovebirds tone the moaning down? People are trying to get some sleep wtf.

- Levi’s make-up artist had to deal with the pain of covering his hickeys (courtesy of Ms. Petra Ral) every shoot. The ones on his neck, especially those near his adam’s apple were the most visible. And since Captain Levi rarely wore a cravat in season three, part one, it made the work harder for the make-up artist.

- As compensation, Petra always bought a special souvenir for Levi’s make-up artist whenever she flies overseas for her theater shows.

- For the premiere of season 3, Levi took Petra as his date on the red carpet. It was the first event they attended publicly as a couple.

- It was a big milestone for their relationship because they are both public figures. And we all know what happens when celebrities publicize their relationships, it is prone to issues and controversies.

- And you can very well guess that Levi Ackerman showing off his beautiful girlfriend to the press was big news. As big as the AoT premiere even.

- During the air of season three, Levi became more famous and he attracted many overseas fans as well as international actresses because of his brilliant scenes with Kenny.

- Although Petra is not the jealous type, she admitted that somehow it affected her when other international actresses expressed their admiration towards Levi. Some even said that Levi is their type and they are looking forward to working with him in the future.

- When Levi sensed this, he immediately headed to his IG and posted a picture of Petra with a very cheesy caption lmao. Forgive him, he's new to this kind of relationship.

- Did I mention he also posted a picture of them kissing in front of the Eiffel tower?

- Only a few know this, but the real Levi is one clingy boyfriend.

- He is very touchy when it comes to Petra. He just really loves holding her. Sometimes he just randomly hugs her, caresses her, nuzzles her. He just loves having skin-to-skin contact with her.

- His love language is actions and gestures.

- His favorite gesture to do to Petra is a back hug with his arms under her boobs. It was a soft gesture and it wasn't sexual in any way...until it did.

- More than half of their sex started with Levi touching Petra’s underboobs tbh.

- Sometimes Levi thinks that he's neglecting Petra and more than once he considered quitting the show business for her. But then he’ll see her smiling at him, and she tells him that she's very proud of what he’s doing and that she's happy that she gets to support him with doing the things he is really passionate about and just… all he could think of that time is that he wants to marry this amazing woman.

- He is also supportive of Petra’s theater actress career, of course. And he hates the fact that he needs to hide whenever he watches one of her shows since people eventually gather around him asking for an autograph and he feels that it’s rude for Petra. This is her moment and he doesn’t want to ruin it for her.

- Hence, his all-black and mysterious get-up whenever he watches her show.

- AoT season three was a huge success and plans for season four are already on the move. Casts were given a long break before the shooting began again and both Petra and Levi took this as a chance to bond together.

-Petra's favorite thing to do with Levi is playing with animals. She has a soft spot for animals, and she wanted for them to adopt a pet but she knew that the poor animal will only be given less attention because both of them are always busy.

-When Petra's theater world tour ended, she and Levi started living together. They didn't have the chance to do it before since they were both busy.

-Them living together is probably the height of their relationship. They fought, they had sex, they laughed, they played, they bathe together. They did everything together and it was a beautiful experience.

- For their third anniversary, Levi booked a vacation on a private island for a week. It was also their last bonding because Levi is going to start filming again for season four in less than a month.

- They did not communicate with anyone during that one week. It was just them, and they made the most of it.

- Mornings were spent for morning sex and breakfast in bed. Afternoons were for swimming, sleeping, cuddling, hugging, kissing, and every activity they could think of doing. They explored the island, they petted stray animals, they dived into the ocean, they build sandcastles, they ate different dishes, they had sex in caves and while swimming on the beach, they climbed trees, they bought souvenirs, and most importantly, they took many pictures together.

- Evenings were the most romantic of all. They had sex in the darkness of their own room while they hear the ocean waves crashed to the shore outside and as the sea breeze cooled their sweat-slicked skin. They took the time to explore each other’s body like it’s their last (because it will be in a matter of days).

- On their last night, Pet cried while they’re having sex. Levi’s face was buried on the crook of her neck and she was moaning one moment, and then the next she’s sobbing like a poor little baby.

- She said that she’d gotten used to life with Levi always by her side and she didn’t want it to ever change. Levi comforted her. He petted her hair, and he said that it’s going to be okay. He kissed her head, then her hair, her face, and her body. Then they had the most emotional and meaningful sex of their entire life.

- Levi started shooting again for season four. Petra, like the past seasons, visits him as much as she can. It was hard adjusting to this type of life again, but she’s a strong woman. And besides, she’s going to start rehearsing for another theater show again.

- They need to undergo medical check-ups before the casting and she found out then that she is pregnant with Levi’s baby.

- It freaked her out. She and Levi never talked about babies before since they’re busy with their careers, and their relationship has always been just the two of them.

- Levi was out of town for the shoot, and she didn’t want to tell him the good news on the phone so she patiently waited until he got home.

- He was greeted with a fancy dinner, and a “Welcome home, Daddy” by Petra. Levi thought that it was her being cheeky and naughty at first, but when dinner ended and she ran for her life to the sink, that’s when he started getting worried. And when Petra showed him the positive result in her medical check-up, well, let’s just say that on that day, Levi Ackerman received a good reminder of what he did to her on their vacation months ago.

- But seriously, he was seconds away from calling his manager and dropping his AoT contract just so he can take care of Petra and their baby. Petra said that it was fine, and she doesn’t want him to quit.

- Levi apologized to Petra many times because he wasn’t there when she discovered it, but she assured him that it was alright and it wasn’t his fault. God, he’s with the perfect woman.

- Since Levi is a big shot in the industry, he demanded control over his schedules. Honestly, he wanted to be at her side 24/7. He wanted to see her belly swell as months went by. He wanted to be the one to satisfy her midnight pregnancy cravings. He wanted to kiss her face and her belly first thing in the morning.

- He convinced Petra to move temporarily to the Ackerman family house where Levi’s parents are staying. Kenny and Mikasa also lived in the same affluent neighborhood. He had doctors, and helpers, and bodyguards hired for Petra. But she said that she’s too uncomfortable with many people around her.

- Petra and Levi’s mom build a bond of their own. She’d gotten to know more of Levi through his mother’s perspective. The older woman showed her Levi’s teenage room, his past awards, his photos, his audition tapes that weren’t out for the public, and she fell in love with him more.

- They had a super private wedding with their relatives and closest friends. Petra was six months pregnant by that time and season four is planned to air three months from now.

- So, you know about that one holy Rivetra panel where Petra is looking back to Levi? The reason why the scene was not in the actual show was that she is pregnant. That’s why the directors are forced to use old scenes from season one instead.

- Despite all the efforts of being private, paparazzi and the media still caught wind of the secret wedding, and rumors about Petra being pregnant started circulating over the internet. Levi shut down these rumors every time someone attempted to question him in his interviews.

- When the shooting ended, Petra was already eight months into pregnancy. As per tradition, the cast and staff held an after-party, but Petra was surprised when it became a baby shower for her instead.

- The baby was supposedly due in the third week of December, but Petra’s water broke around the first week instead and she started her labor. She ended up having the same birthday as their healthy baby boy.

- The baby was named River Ackerman. He was named after Levi’s role where he won the Best Actor Award when he was seventeen. It was also a tribute to Levi’s role in AoT since his name was sometimes spelled as ‘Rivaille’ on many occasions.