#it's like girl don't u see the harm in that???? tf???

[ca-suffit]

my inbox got *so* quiet the last couple days but then I noticed something interesting.

almost everything was about sam or lestat again

then look at how virginia is posting now

and this

this side has always needed to pretend this is about something else so they don't have to talk about fandom racism. some of the asks I got might have been real but the timing of this feels sus. trying to get me to talk shit about sam but when I didn't post anything for days u decided to get the gossip rolling urself? that's what this is lol. faked outrage to stir the pot. u have to subtly aim at black fans again and also go deeper into ur weird parasocial sam reid feelings so u feel important and loved. wtf.

didn't u all send sam a fan art book and other stuff ur always being loud about cuz he mentioned having it in interviews a few times? don't u visit him on sets and tell him u luv him all the time (I've seen the posts lol). he's fucking with u so u will watch the show more and react just like this lol idiots.

the last fangs psa post also tried to pretend it was about this

the craziest thing about this tho is that after she was done aiming at the black and brown fans, she posts a big part about this white guy *with a lestat icon* but.............now it's about race??

isn't it weird how they can't keep to one story lol. it's all about hating lestat except for when u can't use that against a white lestat fan u wish would stfu so u pull the "I'm black" card instead and then reveal u have no friends lol.

this has never been about lestat or sam. it's an excuse because they don't have the range to speak about why lestat being judged for his ignorant white shit feels uncomfortable to them (especially if they want to fuck him, cuz I'm p sure fangs does). they get off power tripping on telling white fans it's okay to do racist shit if u hate the "right" ppl. her and keybearer are the first to do dumb shit to alienate themselves but blame everyone else for it. then cry to white fandom for hugs because they know how easy it is to get white ppl to feel good about shit if u stroke the fires of antiblackness in them. nobody is kicking u out of spaces unless ur doing some fuckshit but white ppl only hear "I'm black and ppl are being mean to me :(" and then rush to do the most racist shit ever because u just gave them a "good" excuse to do it. if a lot of black ppl are defending a white person who talks about antiblackness and ur the only black person saying that's wrong? u are the one who is the problem! especially because fangs and keybearer are both *not* american and nearly everyone from "this subset" is......and that is also the show's focus, that is louis' struggle! not to mention how fangs got upset about *this* in the cap but then had no issue pulling out talk of the fucking palestine genocide on a black american fan, to say that black americans don't suffer oppression. is this the real reason nobody likes ur bitch ass, mayhaps?

them being unable to let anyone know peace because of their own bad feelings is the most annoying thing. the show hits u over the head with the "memory is a monster" thing. we *know* we're gonna be seeing different versions of ppl and events and that's alot of what makes it interesting and fun. it's insane u keep pretending we're ignorant to this, as if u *also* haven't been crying for years now about "wait until lestat tells his side!!!!" we have fucking heard ur annoying asses jfc. WE KNOW.

but u have these ppl who can't hear a word against their fav without pulling out the books and showing u some sad lestat passage to change ur mind. girl shut up idc?? can't u let ppl like things as they come gd. what's the harm in enjoying the journey. u assholes are always saying ur so smart but then u have tantrums that the show isn't on book 12 already and ppl don't luv lestat enough yet. who tf cares? he's literally all the tags are whenever a 2 second clip shows up in any S2 thing rn, what are u even complaining about.

fucking crazy that this is louis' story but the focus is always on why isn't lestat getting more attention, why do ppl hate lestat, why is everyone mean to lestat. nobody frames it like that because then u'd v easily understand how stupid and racist this shit rly is. when u speak up in defense about any black character they literally accuse u of being the woke mob but ok lol. "did u listen to what jacob *a black man* said about the character being a crazy liar, sweetie??" (example 1, example 2) this shit is so obvious.

[rayasland]

I'm sorry but your post about Aging Up characters delegitimises hundreds upon thousands of fanfictions across all fandoms and is a ridiculous ask. You're basically asking all fans to only write about the adult characters in NSFW situations - even if the teen character is now an adult in the fic??? So we can't explore how the teen now struggles with life as an adult, including new adventures or settings, because its somehow problematic??? I can assure you authors aren't picturing kids when writing Aged Up fics, the point and the intent is to explore how they'd function in different/challenging situations, not if their homework needs to be in on time. I understand your intent- you're coming at this topic from a place of worry- but bullying fanfic writers is just going to silence all forms of fandom. We're cannibalising each other enough as it is, and your words are doing more harm than good

uve completely got it all wrong. ur saying u understand but ur sending this long ass paragraph and that says otherwise. im actually getting pissed.

how is bringing attention to smth thats been happening for a while now gonna be labelled as “bullying..?” a bit confusing. im not forcing no one to stop writing abt minors, if u wanna live ur life writing about kids despite knowing its pedophilic, do as u wish. like i said im 1. bringing to light how wrong it is 2. seeing how many ppl will agree. im not bullying anyone either so idk wtf ur on abt. all i can say abt that is that u must be real fucking sensitive if u think that was bullying bro. cannot wait to see how u react to real life bullying!

i cant even lie how u gon write a paragraph of pure yap😭😭

its okay to write kid characters experiencing real life things that could happen to literally anyone(non-sexual), i never said u couldnt. whats not okay and what i completely disagree on is blatantly writing porn about them. "i understand your intent!" mm sure, and i understand what you’re saying is that its okay to write them having sex?? bc it's something that they can "explore as an adult"? you’re okay with a child experiencing that? regardless of whether they're real or not??? honestly you’re js trying to justify ur weird ass behaviour and its as clear as day. also… tbh, why r u acting as if sexual activities are the only ways a minor aged up as an adult can explore or wtf that means??? pretty sure theres a million other ways so maybe get ur mind out of the gutter.

tf was the point of that message? that why you asked anonymously? bc YOU YOURSELF know posting that is pedophilic behavior disguised behind ur so called moral ambiguity by bringing in other shit that only justifies writing porn about A CHILD??

u wanna be dramatic about "bullying fanfic writers," "cannibalizing each other," and my words doing more harm than good? how about you get a fucking life you self righteous pedophile. like okay, sure fine we'll let it slide. and then we should let real-person fictional literature porn about a child slide. and then we should let porn videos and drawings of little kids slide. and then we should normalize minor + adult relationships so that everyone can have a chance regardless of their age because experiencing something is better because it makes both parties understand!

in all forms!! incest, pedophilic, power imbalances, rape from randoms on the street, in our schools, in the transports, out in public, in private, in our homes, when we're young! when we're old! when we don't know what's between anyone else's legs! they a boy? they a girl? they both? they none? even better! honestly if ur reading that kinda shit and r actually getting off to it, please seek help. and if u STILL after reading all this have no idea why its not okay, use google or read the comments and reblogs on the actual post and go talk nonsense at them bc im not going to be responding to whatever bs u have to say in response.

[rewcana]

this whole ordeal of people on here accusing users who feel unwilling / hesitant to vote in the upcoming presidential election as ops is so funny and silly. notice how the majority of these people are also not saying anything about gaza and palestine.

it's one thing to point out the dangers in not voting (yeah we get it) and a completely other thing to equate voting with something to do to save people. and not voting as condemning the "bad guys" to win.

i understand that people are rightfully worried about how many fascist policies conservatives have been passing at state levels across the country. but, accusing folks who feel like they can't in good conscience vote for someone who is approving millions of dollars of aid and weapons to enact genocide to be psyops for the gop is just.... like what? yes even if the people are aware that under a republican president, that genocide would continue and or worsen.

this is the thing about election years that really pisses me off is how people will completely hold off on criticizing the fuckin president and accuse folks who are criticizing a genocidal monster of being psyops. like oh yeah we have to put all of our criticisms on hold because it might make people not want to vote UwU.

"if you criticize the usamerican democratic system you are a psyop" "if you tell people not to vote you are a psyop and secretly conservative" "if you say you're not voting you actually want trump to win" etc etc etc. meanwhile these same people aren't stressing the importance of more local or state level elections.

i guess i'm just tired. election season completely erases any nuance to discussions of politics. the only conversations that people are having are "not voting = morally bad person and also you're a conservative/ fascist probs lol". and a lot of people really think it's actually as simple as that. there are tons of people who know all the complexities and different factors of this upcoming presidential election and still aren't going to vote / are not sure they're going to vote. and just vehemently shaming those folks / calling them ops doesn't actually get anyone anywhere.

the choice to vote or not to vote is deeply deeply personal. especially if you have a personal relationship or direct connection to the severe inhumane harm and straight up genocide that the current president has and is enacting. if you are telling people who are sharing updates about gaza and palestine every day who are so disgusted with the usamerican politicians' roles in the terrorism and genocide who say they are never going to vote for biden that they are secretly conservatives and don't care about the future of usamerica or whatever then how about you just shut up for a bit.

also this new thing going around warning people to not criticize taylor swift because the trump folks are doing a hate campaign against her or something is so utterly stupid. oh yeah this blog with like 60 followers is gonna make biden lose the election and doom usamerica because they shared how taylor swift is suing the person who keeps releasing all the data about how frequently she uses her private jet. and also they are obviously a psyop and doing work for the GOP.

i understand that people are paranoid about ops in online spaces and honestly i think that's a very smart instinct to have. but making sweeping generalizations about arguments that have existed in leftist spaces for as long as they have existed unequivocally meaning that those folks are operatives is so damn frustrating. politics are deeply personal and if you can only make broad generalizations and decry anything that doesn't fit your moral view as an agent trying to steer you wrong then you really need to take a step back and interact with folks not on online spaces more.

and for the record before anyone calls ME an op, i do intend to vote for biden. i was hesitant about it but decided to because of the crusade against lgbtq rights and also because of biden's initiatives to improve public transit and start new public transit projects. both of those issues are incredibly personal to me which is why they pushed me to the point of deciding that i would vote. i understand that you are worried about this upcoming election and you want to make sure people vote for your "right candidate". but accusing everyone who disagrees with you as being an operative isn't even close to the way to do it. and also asking people to look away from the horrific ongoing genocide to just "vote blue!!!!!" is actually quite harmful. i'm voting for biden and it's going to be very difficult for me to do so because i feel incredibly morally wrong considering a vote is an endorsement of a horrific person who has committed many human atrocities and is funding genocide. and i am not going to judge folks who can't put that disgust aside to vote and i'm not going to shame those folks if biden doesn't win.

if you really truly believe leftist politics are as simple as "if you don't vote in the presidential election you are a secret conservative operative" than i am BEGGING you to gain some perspective. not everyone who disagrees with you is an op, friends. there is nothing morally wrong with criticizing a deeply flawed political system, YES EVEN DURING AN ELECTION YEAR!

[mercury-viennazu]

Listening to Songs With My Brain!!

Ep. 1: Micheal In The Bathroom

I am hanging in the bathroom at the biggest party of the fall

THE PARTY'S HOT HOT HOT ITS TIME FOR BIG FUN BIG FUN-

THIS IS MODERN FEMINISM TALKIN-

WHO'S READY FOR MY HALLOWEEN PARTY-

Wait what was I doing? Oh yeah, sad gays

I could stay right here or disappear

No one derves to be forgotten~ No one derves to fade awayyyyy

And nobody'd even notice at all

Wow this music is cool

I'm a creeper in a bathroom 'cause my buddy kinda left me alone

Oof same, I feel you, Michael.

But I'd rather fake pee than stand awkwardly

Or pretend to check a text on my phone

NOW YOU CAN DO BOTH!!! AT THE SAME TIME!!!

Everything felt fine

When I was half of a pair

Oop here come the breakup memories. FUCK U K YOU IGNORED ME *angry growling*

And through no fault of mine

There's no other half there

Yo what if I could fly?

Now I'm just

Michael in the bathroom

MICHAEL MAKES AN ENTRANCEEEEE

Michael in the bathroom at a party

Forget how long its been

Must be the weed at the party

I'm just Michael in the bathroom

Michael in the bathroom at a party

No, you can't come in

Watch someone come in and be like AAAAAAAAAAAAA

I'm waiting it out 'til it's time to leave

If you've done that and you know it clap your hands *clap clap*

And picking at grout as I softly grieve

What the fuck is grout

*looks it up*

OOOOH THE HOME DEPOT WEBSITE

P R I S M

LOAD YOU STUPID TAB

Grout- Wikipedia

OH SO ITS THE STUFF BETWEEN THE TILES

*clicks on Glue*

L o o k i t ' s t h e h i s t o r y o f g l u e

I'm just

Michael who you don't know

Yo this is a good meme opportunity

Michael Mell or smth Idk never seen him

Michael flying solo

WHAT IF I COULD FLY

Michael in the bathroom by himself

All by himself

Nuuuu Michael don't worry I got you bestie

I am hiding,

Constantly

But he's out there

Just ignoring all our history

Memories get erased

Okay but what if the SQUIP made Jeremy forget some of his memories with Michael and that's why he didn't feel bad about leaving him and he never knew about the memory erasure and that's why he doesn't realize Michael is hurt. Additionally, if the SQUIP can see, hear, and control everything that Jeremy does then why did he not just made Jeremy forget Rich mentioned Mountain Dew Red in The Play? What if the SQUIP wanted to be killed? What if he realized how much harm he was doing and he just wanted to erase everything?

And I'll get replaced

With a newer cooler version of me

Okay but like, Jeremy's an asshole. Honestly Michael is one of the coolest guys in the entire thing. I'd say the least cool person is Chloe. Michael has all of these things he likes and is very passionate about and Chloe's entire personality is quite literally "Hot Girl." Honestly get your shit together, Jeremy. Michael deserved much much better.

And I hear a drunk girl

Singing along to Whitney through the door

*screeches* I WANNA DANCE WITH SOMEBODY

"I wanna dance with somebody!"

And my feelings sink

Cause it makes me think

Now there's no one to make fun of drunk girls with anymore

Why tf were you making fun of drunk girls in the first place, FOR GOD'S SAKE MICHAEL

Now it's just

Michael in the bathroom

Michael in the bathroom at a party

*arm motion thingy*

I half regret the beers

Michael in the bathroom

Michael in the bathroom at a party

As I choke back the tears

Not the only thing you'll be choking on

WHY THE FUCK DID I THINK THAT NOPE ABORT ABORT UNDO UNDO- You can't undo who you are

I'll wait as long as I need

'Til my face is dry

Or I'll just blame it on weed

IM CALLING THE POLICE *microwave sounds*

Or something in my eye

Like your eyeballs???????

I'm just Michael

And I'm just Azu

Who you don't know

Michael flyin' solo

Michael in the bathroom by himself

Knock, knock, knock, knock

They're gonna start to shout soon

Fuckfuckfuck

Knock, knock, knock, knock

Ah hell yeah I'll be out soon

I'm not crying you are

Knock, knock, knock, knock

It sucks he left me here alone

IM NOT CRYING YOU ARE

Knock, knock, knock, knock

Here in this teenage battlezone

LEAVE HIM ALONEEEE

Clang, clang, clang, clang

I feel the pressure blowing up

AND WHEN THE HIGH SCHOOL GYM GOES BOOM WITH EVERYONE INSIDE *duck sounds*

Bang, bang, bang, bang

WE'LL PLANT THIS RUBBLE ON THEIR TOMB EXPLAINING WHY THEY DIED

My big mistake was showing up

Honestly

Splash, splash, splash, splash

SPLASH SPLASH SPLASH SPLASH

I throw some water in my face

And I am in a better place

Throwing water in your face is actually one of the best ways to relax. I do it a lot during volleyball cause I often get random body dysmorphia or insecurities so yeah! Instead of drinking water consider....THROWING water

I go to open up the door

But I can't hear knocking

Anymore

Let's think about that one fic we read where ALEXANDER FUCKING HAMILTON knocked on the door

And I can't help but yearn

For a different time

What's better the future or the past? Or maybe the present but I just can't appreciate it because I'm too caught up in thinking about what will go wrong and I can't concentrate on what's going right....

And then I look in the mirror

Uhhh...don't do that

And the present is clear

*imagines legit fucking gift*

And there's no denying

I'm just

MICHAEL IN THE BATHROOM

... at a party

Is there a sadder sight

Yes, many

Mmmmmmmmm

Michael in the bathroom at a party

This is a heinous night

*looks up definition of heinous*

I wish I stayed at home instead

OOOHH HERE IT COMES

Watching cable porn

HERE IT COMES HERE IT COMES

Or wish I offed myself instead

Wish I was never born

*screeches* OR WISHED I OFFED MYSELF INSTEAD WISH I WAS NEVER BORN

I'm just Michael

Who's a loner

So he must be a stoner

Rides a PT Cruiser

Google Search: PT Cruiser

Google Search: PT Cruiser colors

Google Search: cool vanilla

Google Search: cool vanilla hair

Google Search: cool vanilla hair dye

God, he's such a loser

No ur not bby

Michael flying solo

Who you think that you know

Michael in the bathroom by himself

All by himself

All by himself

Awww the music is going down

When all you know about me

Is my name

Yes, Michael Mell

Awesome party

I'm so glad I came

Ik Michael, ik

Oh boy that was long oof

[kiyokoxd]

My OC I think

LMAO I AM LAUGHING SO HARD WHILE WRITING THIS

THE BACKSTORY SEEMS SO FUNNY TO ME SO I HAD TO CHANGE IT A LITTLE TO MAKE IT LESS EDGY AHKJSD 🏃‍♀️

I AM WARNING YOU DON'T READ THIS I DID THIS SHIT FOR FUN BUT HERE YOU GO @missrown

Kiyo (help me give a last name to this idiot)

Gender: Yall thought they were a woman, jokes on you my nb ass said no 🤸‍♀️

Age: 18

Affliction: Armed Detective Agency

Sexuality: Pansexual

Ability: Copycat – fucking OP but um, once they see a person they can transform into them and if they touch them once then they can use their ability whenever they want if they know how to control it (not Fyodor's or Chuuya's corruption).

– Might seem easy at first but their talents come at use here too, they're really good at acting and were learning psychology so it's easier for them to act like the other person and really get under other people's skin, literally. Also they get tired if used too much

Hair Colour: Black with a very small streak of white

Eye Colour: Black naturally but they turn red sometimes

Height: 5'5

Relationship: Close with everyone in the Agency – Ranpo and them had a love-hate relationship at first but now it's fine, Dazai and Kiyo do be best friends and Atsushi is dating them bcz I am fucking lonely <3, also very close with Yosano, Kyouka and Kenji, Tanizaki and Kiyo are slightly awkward but yes. Also knows Chuuya and Akutagawa nicely, Akutagawa respects them bcz of their ability and their friendship with Dazai but also it's bcz they're literally dating his enemy so yeah?? Chuuya's just concerned bcz 'why tf are you friends with that dumbass? you deserve better-'

Personality: Almost like Dazai, that's why they besties bitch and almost unpredictable, if Ranpo was honest even he couldn't understand the things going inside their head sometimes. Kiyo comes out as a playful, kind and happy being but struggles with many things and often only acts this way so they can understand other people's weak points, just in case if they end up using them, they have something to hurt them back. A strong believer in karma except they think karma doesn't come on it's on and you need to do it by themself, basically you can say they're really good at manipulation woo?? But yeah soon has a soft spot for ADA and realises they won't leave Kiyo like others?? ://

Backstory: (trigger warning for many things we i said we edgy today)

Uh.. More sensible version

oh shit, still edgy and funny asf so have fun laughing

So like they were some weird experiments – satanic stuff yknow so yEAH that's where they get half their ability from you can say. First they could only copy abilities but now wOoo we have uh, transformation

Soon they're rescued from the cult and the head of the escape thingy and them kinda have this lOvE thing

So yeah uhhh, then betrayal bcz that girl ends up using kiyo so wow what a weird love story

t r a u m a, again??? what the fuck is happening idk LMAO

soon kiyo kinda hurts them and escapes, only to find the agency

Kiyo takes a lot of time to fit in and ends up hurting them too in order to push them away and yeah

They don't go away and Kiyo's kinda confused, bcz all their life they had to be the one who gave things in the relationship, not take

Atsushi and Dazai kinda help them in their own ways while Kiyo helps them

drama drama

a silent voice attempt woo

uh yeah and now we're in the present or some shit and now Kiyo's trying their best to be a better person <3

also relapses once with the weird mental health shit when they see their "ex" but yknow, fuck them ig 👍

this bitch also has bpd and uses self harm as some coping mechanism so they gotta stop that, like, s t o p I am sorry for making it more awkward by adding this part

BHAHASAD IT'S DONE LMAO WHAT THE HELL WAS THIS

INSPIRED FROM GACHA MOVIES?? AKHAHSD

[pokefanbri]

https://www.facebook.com/104057744428568/posts/156998459134496/?sfnsn=mo&d=n&vh=e

Fucking told him its a huge red flag if someone doesn't get rid of their apps. Multiple apps. Smh 😠 "oh yea i don't use them anymore" proceeds to use fb dating app" for real come on bro!

Some comments of the post:

"If you have to be checking up on your Partner then you shouldn't be with that person.. Idk how people have time for all this .. love yourself and know your worth.."

"If you're in a serious committed exclusive relationship you should not be on tinder. That's how I met my fiance and as soon as we said we are gf and bf and exclusive we both deleted it. Honestly if I was her I would have broken up with him too"

"a person also has a right to trust their gut feeling and check things out if something's not feeling right. Knowledge is power"

I've already discussed this but this news clip further validates my point of the topic, nothing more. I could call him out on hs bs further with detail, but I won't....yet, out of respect even though he probably doesn't deserve it. Til he reaches me & apologizes for everything he's done, i can say whatever tf I want & i could make a whole damn list.

Its the events of this what happened that started our downfall to begin with cuz i didn't trust him & he didn't even try to gain it back just left it as is when I could've turned my back right then & there, no apology either. Didnt apologize much actually, not even when i last saw him. But from then we spiraled & he got bored of me. I wasn't giving him what he wanted in whatever way & he wanted to find more. Closed himself off from the beginning & that created his boredom 😒

Would've had a blast together like a normal fucking couple if he was less closed off, & wouldn't have felt the need to do shit behind my back.

I'll stop talking about it for now, I have the anger & urge to keep going but I wont...actually no Screw it im pissed 😡 but ill keep it light. Its just not fair, I did so much for him but I was disrespected in different aspects of the whole relationship. Fuck! I've talked about the positives alot cuz i do love him..but the negatives are such bs too.

I want a good ass sincere apology for all of it so I can forgive him & move on, ive already apologized myself even though I dont think I should have to 😒. Didnt even give me a straight answer for the breakup, it was always a different excuse when I know he just wanted to pursue other women without me around im not fucking stupid. His own toxicity was too much even for himself & I was in the line of fire, to where i was the toxic one? No fuck that its unacceptable, he always lied when it came to covering his own ass.

For all i know he's watching me squirm & taking pleasure in all the pain I'm going through over him cuz he likes the attention. But no I actually don't think so on that one he's still good & ill give him credit where its due. But I gave him all the attention he wanted/needed & still wanted more from someone else. Really dude fucking really!?

Man up & own up to your mistakes, speak to me where I can actually hear ur voice speaking back to me with sincerity. We'll apologize together. Yea ull be pissed about this, but after u get over it & calm down. Give in & call me, granted when ur ready, & open up for once in your damn reserved life. Itll help us both with more closure & may even take a weight off our shoulders if we just talk it out, no arguing...since we're done there's no point anyway..a friendly non judgment zone cuz idc, i won't think of u any less.

U confused me during & especially after the relationship cuz i didnt know who u really were, i know the good cuz that's what u allowed me to see, ive accepted the bad that I knew already & from what ive learned...i accepted u regardless.

I always forgave u & not cuz im passive, cuz forgiveness is what the Bible teaches.. ive forgiven u & myself the best i could especially with the last things ive showed u, (accept this part cuz im pissed rn & standing up for myself, ill delete eventually maybe if u ask cuz nobody wants to be seen any less of a person. but I can make it alot worse, calling me the mistake was the worst thing u ever said to me & pointing out your faults so u can be better throughout the relationship was my only toxicity to u) we actually never really fought except the 1 time, just argued a tiny bit rarely about little things.

Ive tried using every ounce of my courage to show u how much im sorry for any wrong ive done. but its up to u now to make things right. U know me, ive always said that u can talk to me about anything. I want to be able to trust again & move on whilst staying friends. What else do u have to lose, might even have a great heart to heart convo dude to dudet

Everything ive ever said up to this point lies all my Questions. But here's most of the list, we both were equally in control of the relationship. Maybe u didn't want me to? But doing everything I had to for myself & the household, what u & ur parents wanted of me & just me being me cuz i had to, u had your own part to play & did provide...but did u actually not want me to cater to u if it were a sign u were lazy or something? Like did u not feel worthy of me? What is it u think is my "addicting personality" that isn't fixable on the surface? What is it really that u didnt like about me? This is why i don't have closure, u left me like this, confused as well as wanting more since u held back so much. Was that on purpose to give me even more false hope & want me to pine over u? Did u ever or do u still, love me at all? What did u want from me & out of the relationship, what was the purpose of it from ur perspective & why do u think i couldn't give that to u? What did i lack that u felt compelled to not tell me so I could improve & vise versa so we both could improve? Why wouldn't u allow me to help u become a better man when (I shouldnt have to btw), its exactly what u wanted but maybe didnt see it? Do u realize your own faults even as u do them? Lol. Like i genuinely want to know as much as the good ive seen, cuz to be better the more open of a person u are the more u understand yourself too.

Unless claiming u want to be a better man is part of ur alluring charm in love bombing process to land a caring girl on purpose lol...god I hope not, that would just mean u rinse & repeat like a for real narcissist 🤔 seriously tho look into that im not even kidding, im asking cuz i care. Im pissed now but 1 thing is that im trying to not put ur behavior against u cuz maybe u can't help it, its just the way u are, all ive seen & experienced points to maybe 50% of u lol. Ive always suspected narcissism, a real psych problem that might be worth looking into. But yea 1 of the reasons especially why im so forgiving & trying not to put it against u, why i still care despite u being a dick lol. I chose to look past it, all the time & up to now cuz I understand what its like to have psychological ailments. The worst part about it is most dont realize it, so i encourage u to do some research & self reflection & admitting it to urself are the 1st steps. Okay? There's different kinds & levels to being 1 too, i found that fascinating. bryan is definitely a different type, ur more lighter than that...definitely not the worst which is the physical harm type. Trust me its worth finding out more about yourself, just dont use it to ur advantage in a bad way but i trust u to do right & grow. Not sure a discarded supply (ie me) has ever tried telling a narcy what they might be for the benefit of their own self awareness 🤔,idk if its ever been done, but theres a 1st for everything? U can find alot on it in quora digest alone but Google is also ur friend.

You always were worth every effort of mine to help u in any way to be happy, & i was most happy when u were. U mean alot to me still, its the effect u had on me, I was under ur spell lol its hard to rid myself of it still, not sure when it'll pass. I chose to see it as a gift rather than a curse, that ur effect on me is still so strong when I shouldn't give a damn. If u really are a narcy, then I understand & don't put alot against u cuz its just the way u are & i need to accept it, but if it somehow helps u to help yourself cuz of it, then whats the harm? But, even in doing this or having my socials public for u...maybe just feeds into what u want...i still dont care, I want u to see how bad or good im doing without u in my life, so u know im okay at least. U promised friendship, least I can do is allow u to keep tabs on me too we spoke of, on my end of things.

The 18th of June was the last time i saw u. It'll soon be a month ago in about a week & a 1/2 & your birthday would mark 2 months. Cant believe we couldn't even last through to that 😔

Mark my words playa I will be contacting u on that day lol. Can't ghost your homie forever sweetie