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vamptastic · 4 months

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im just very irritated about it all rn cos my siblings r now constantly making fat jokes bc of some tiktok trend and my moms doctors r on her about losing weight again which means shes on me about it too. my sister (who is a similar height & body type to me) keeps talking about how shes scared of gaining weight to me too and it's like i do sympathize, cos yeah if i had the option to not gain weight in the first place i would've taken it, but it's also tiring cos she's obviously using me as her standard of her Bad and Ugly prospective future. ive gotten to the point where i can at least her this stuff without spiraling and having my self esteem tank and adopting unhealthy fasting habits again but itd still be nice not to hear it all.

#i need to talk to another fat person honestly like #it's just the toll of being the fattest person in the room where everyone else gets to be like #a virtuous skinny person trying their best and you're like an idol of hedonism #when i talk to other fat ppl it's like sure would nice to not have ppl think im of inherently less value bc of my weight!#like they actually understand it and can commiserate about topics other than I need to start having an eating disorder so i can be thin #bc they've tried it and realize it doesn't fucking work in the longterm #bleh idk what to tag with #ed mention #weight mention #i guess. ik i have mutuals w similar issues n i don't want to set smth off there

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