#it's just sad and so fucking miserable
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I sometimes think about men have almost the same rights, body autonomy, freedom in every country while for women life looks so different from country to country or at least from region to region.
In some countries you're forced to cover your head, in others you're prohibited from covering your head and in other countries you can wear/not wear what you want. You can have an abortion in that country but not this one. You can get education, degrees and have paying jobs in most countries but not in others. You can go to a doctor if you need to but there you can't because women aren't allowed to become doctors and women aren't allowed to see a male doctor..
I sometimes think about how shitty the country i live in is but then i think well at least i can get an education and go to a doctor.. i shouldn't have to be grateful for those things..
#it's just sad and so fucking miserable#feminism#equality#freedom for iran#iran protests#arab women#womens rights#womens liberation#male privilege#taliban#just a rant#👑
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the tradwife movement is the same as it has always been - back in the kitchen, back to breeding - it just has better branding.
when i was younger, i hated pink. i was not like other girls. this is now something i'm embarrassed of - this was not me being a "girl's girl."
but it was expressing something many of us felt at the time: i literally wasn't what girlhood was supposed to be. this is a hard thing to explain, but you know when you're not performing girlhood correctly. it isn't as easy as "i liked x when girls liked y" - because there were other girls that liked x, too - but i never figured out exactly the correct way to like x, or to be interested in y.
now there is the divine feminine. this is the same rhetoric it has always been: women are biologically driven to like pink and ribbons and submitting to our husbands.
the problem is that the patriarchy found a better PR team. because yes, actually, i want every woman to have the choice to be a homemaker. i also want her taken seriously for her legitimate home-making labor. i want her to be recognized as also having a job, just unpaid. i want men to have this opportunity, too.
but it is no longer "i made this choice and I love it." instead it is a sixteen-paragraph rant about how selfish it is that my generation isn't having kids. instead it's long videos about how if you feed your children processed foods, you're going to kill them. instead it is "this is what womanhood is supposed to be. i feel bad for any other choices you're making."
the shame spiral is just prettier. it is large houses devoid of personality. it is the implication: if you don't have this, you aren't happy. the solid, everlasting assurance: women are actually supposed to be submitting. this is the default. this is the natural state of things. all other attempts inflict suffering.
but you can no longer say i'm not like other girls. you can no longer reject this image completely. you cannot find it revolting, even if you know that the underbelly is toxic and festering. sure, it is the same repackaged patriarchy. but the internet does not have shades of grey. you should support and reward other women! your disgust is actually internalized misogyny. not because you are seeing a vision of yourself the way they're trying to train you to be. not because you feel her ghost pass within an inch of your earlobe. not because your father will eventually ask you - why can't you be like her?
because they figured out how to make it beautiful: women will sell other women on this idea, and we will find the singular loophole in feminism. sure, she's shaming you in most of her videos. sure, she implies that a different life is obscene. but she just wants you to be happy! you'd be happier if you were listening!
and the whole time you're sitting there thinking: i'd actually just be happier if i had that kind of money.
#spilled ink#writeblr#warm up#this is an incredibly difficult idea to express#but i basically keep watching the same timelooped interaction:#someone makes tradwife content where she's like ''i think it's SO sad when ppl don't have kids EW''#and then the response is ''... go fuck yourself? i think ur life is miserable and bad ?"#and instead of being like ''oh we are all under capitalism huh''#the response is like ''you CANT say that. she made a CHOICE. she is ALLOWED to have KIDS and be HAPPY#unlike YOU who is UNHAPPY bc you don't have KIDS.''#like .... these are people who will throw the first stone. and then when you lob one back#they ask why you're so violent. they tell you that you're a bad activist.#and you're like. PARDON????? you implied being a woman meant i need to submit to my husband???#and they're like - well it's just my belief. so what if i'm invalidating your entire identity.
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but genuinely I will never stop thinking about the museum scene. like it's upsetting in all the obvious setup-to-the-plot-twist ways, but more than that: the quietness of Steve’s presence vs. the booming grandiosity of the exhibit itself. The question of whether he had been previously (my guess would be yes) and if so, what a morbid, ghost-like ritual to perform just in order to cling to your memory, to remind yourself that it was real. What a blunt, reductive manifestation of not only everything you’ve lost, but the fact that your life and memory have become so entrenched a part of the public domain to the point that you’re viewed as about as much of a person as any one dusty item in that exhibit; the fact that you can’t access any of your world outside of yourself unless it’s through about a dozen second-hand, funhouse mirror narratives not only entirely co-opted by war but also tailored to fit a certain purpose. This one very public fucking horrific way to keep torturing yourself is one of your only remaining tethers to what you remember of your life. I mean. jesus christ steve
#i am so fucking sad.#and also: does he ever get any of his stuff back? has anyone kept any of it even? would the smithsonian even allow him access considering#it might be labeled to have historic value and since there’s zero precedent or protocol for someone coming back from the dead?#but even just. the paperwork and hassle of all of that.#I don’t think anyone likes having to deal with a departed’s estate#let alone when it’s /your own/ estate seventy years in the fucking future AND in the possession of a museum or otherwise lost to time#anyway.#max.txt#max’s miserable marvel rewatch
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the wild symbrockiness of it all is absolutely not lost on me in venom the last dance trailer when we get that statement from venom that ends with ...has found us (following a spectacularly pregnant pause) coming after the beautiful: “eddie, MY HOME...”
#*inhuman screeching*#EDDIE IS HIS HOME GUYS#seriously#the noise i made#tom hardy#i fucking love you#symbrock#venom#venom the last dance#venom tld#venom trailer#venom spoilers#eddie brock#mcu#i'm honestly soso sad this is the last monsterfucker movie from thee most chaotic of all chaotic af duos#i just love them so much#ultimate pathetic miserable failure of a man × giant slimy cop killing handsy af alien boy#my beloved <3#eddie x venom#forever!#happy pride 🌈
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Hey, do you guys remember that agony//ghost thing the FNaF lore has? Yeah? Cool
Do you guys know any of the synonyms to agony there are? Like, suffering, torment, throes, and the like? Yeah? Cool
Are you guys familiar with my Quiet Throes au//fic thing? Yeah? Cool
Agony ghost Bloodmoon. They torment the hell out of the bastard, and hang around Solar sometimes. But mostly stick around Ruin, staring at him, messing with his things, throwing stuff at him, and generally making his life miserable (as it should be)
Tw for the images below: implied suicide attempt, referenced character death, and implied torture//sa
#this was genuinely fun to think through#is it tragic? yeah very much so#is it cathartic? a bit I guess#they get to torture the bastard so that’s a good thing#tsams#sams au#sams bloodmoon#sams bloodtwins#sams solar#sams ruin#tsams au#Quiet Throes in Pooling Oil#au variant#which by the way technically already existed? I have been thinking about the different ways the story could’ve gone in—#—and the twins dying was one of the first things that came to mind. it would be very fucking sad and tragic and definitely wreck Solar a bi#—but they’d get a nice tomb under a tree near that place the first ones saw that blood moon in#but just today I was thinking about classic FNaF when suddenly#agony ghosts#and throes *is* a synonym for agony…#tw sui attempt#tw character death#tw implied torture#get his fucking ass Bloodmoon#wreck his shit#*make him pay*#(and just imagined ghost BM and Jack 2v1ing Ruin in making his life miserable. how lovely ^w^)
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Do you think if Curly could still speak clearly, would he try to communicate with the crew/Anya/Jimmy? I know it's unlikely he would say something, realistically, he is in too much pain to talk and in no state to think clearly, but still
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I actually have a bit of experience with burn pain! I was accidently boiled (scalded) as a child and remember some of the experience.
The pain was not so debilitating or mind numbing at first. It's like the initial contact is numb and then it's like horrible mainly because of the exposure it causes to nerves and such. I do remember that while it was hard to think, I could focus, mainly on wanting the pain to stop, who was around me and where my parents were. I clearly recall fighting in the ambulance because I was in pain and didn't want people to touch me. I was pretty freaked out and in a similar postion to Curly (i was doped the hell up and theres like a picture of me wrapped liked a mummy smiling super hard). Curly is clearly cognoscente enough to track people with his eyes, stifle himself after Jimmy starts abusing him and to start panicking when Jimmy brings out the knife at the table.
I think the issue is he likely can't talk. His jaw is likely broken or somewhat damaged and he has no lips which means it's gonna be inherently harder to form words and sentences. That all said, we know his vocal cords are relatively intack as he can scream and laugh and audibly cry. You can still make sound without intact vocal cords but they would sound inherently different than what Curly is doing in game.
If he could talk I think he would still be in so much shock and grief he'd just blame himself or be desperate for comfort. He blames himself and would be apologizing for letting the ship crash. I think through the way he talks about it would tip the others off that it wasn't him. He's likely repetitive and repeating things in a similar vein before he ran in to the cockpit: "I should've-"s and "If I only-"s but mainly also not wanting Jimmy around him or actively being quiet around him. I don't think his sentences are super coherent and he knows that but he's understandable. I think he'd try hard to answer questions but depending on whose asking him and how, it's all a matter if he can handle the stress.
I don't think his psyche is broken but the dude is probably having like PTSD flashes, dissociating harder than before the crash and so hopped up on pain killers his mood is shifting drastically.
#i do say water scalds are less damaging and more superficual but still they are very painful just somewhat easier to heal from#i had third degrees and other than discolration and some sensitvity on my face i healed fully but this is less about the healing and the#physical pain cause it hurt bad anytime i moved too much but it just felt like one big painful fucking itch like you want to rip what littl#skin left off like a scab#but yeah hes talking to them but it just sounds like half sentences cause he cant form them or realizes what he's saying and it#it either hurts to finally admit how upsetting or sad it is or he's finally understandin jsut how bad he messed up and how miserable he was#in his life to allow someone like Jimmy to do all this and affect his head so bad#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#ask#anon#curly mouthwashing#captain curly
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human(?)formers wavewave teehee. um don't hit readmore if u don't like some RLLY scribbled gorish (‼️) anatomy. nothing rlly detailed, tumblr takes my quality of already low quality art & gargles it with pebbles & rocks so it's not like. terrible but. ( the gore, not my art LOL) but still! hiding it under here just incase! take a peek if u like
tortured genius, literally, LOL -- read in soundwave's monotone
#'they sans undertaled the senator sir.' i whisper into bill clintons ear#hes like a mix up of different bodies kinda and a little bit of him#but he has a big deer skull with what was his stretched flesh burned over & taped onto it for good measure#it also has lil human teeths embedded into the skin but um quality. died so. now theyre just blobs LOL dont even look for them tbh#he has some random duplicates of parts in places they sometimes shouldnt be like multiple spinal columns#but hes missing a heart#ppl seeing shockwave in transformers is like when nosferatu showed up in spongebob to flicker the lights for no reason#meaning it's just the regular ol thing for unbothered king soundwave#just stare up at this giant hulking looming mass of decay and infested rot & smile#as his voicebox soundbox boombox at his neck says in the most deadpan autotuned tone#' shitwave . '#and shockwaves leans over. bugs falling his frayed crevices. and says#' dont be so harsh on yourself shitwave.'#and then they fucking kill each other#and then make out#monster fucker?#nuh uh. monSTAR fucker !!#starscream throws up and megatron thinks abt how he fumbled optimus for this sad miserable life#i dont wanna clog the tags anymore than i already have so ill maybe make a post abt their designs more indepth lates maybe#transformers#humanformers#cw: gore#maccadam#soundwave#shockwave#wavewave#sketch#tf#tf cyberverse#tf earthspark
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We both were chosen by this destiny…
Why did it have to be us?
#sorry this is soooo low energy i’m rlly down rn#hero’s purpose#loz#oot#ganondorf#link#maybe the symbolism would have been better if i did oot zelda and impa with koume and koutake#or if i did skyward sword zelda and impa with demise#but this felt Correct anyway#truly the dialogue in episode 5 is still just. chewing on it. chewing on it. chewing on it.#treating spirit of the hero as an extension of the curse that strips link of his empathy and autonomy is sooooo sexy#that it’s all morally grey that no one is correct in this conflict and there is no hero and villain#just used children groomed into a life of compulsive bloodshed at hylia and demise behest#god#hylia just Using Him against his will as he starts to crumble and ganondorf losing his humanity for his tenderness#the recognition of each other as terrified miserable children seconds before they’re both killed. it’s so sad#bro idk major link is just a genius he’s a genius#it’s so fucking compelling and depressing and i really wish the mutually morally grey landscape would be acknowledged canonically
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dennis needs a mental health day
#lil sketch#ngl in my head i wanted to make him look a lot sadder#but i can't figure out how#i will tho#i'll make him so sad and so miserable#just watch me#i love him so fucking much#iasip fanart#dennis reynolds#iasip s16#iasip
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started watching link click this is actually so sad i am actively losing my mind oh my gooooood wuaghgughguhrsklckmlak cheng xiaoshi and qiao ling siblingism is soooo important to me........
#i cant stop crying#literally just finished episode 5 im so miserable rn#cheng xiaoshi#link click#shiguang dailiren#theyre so siblings im losing my mind#these past few episodes r just so fucking sad#this is so sad#i hate time travel actually
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every day i struggle to make choices
#i should invest into some kind of education but cant make up my mind#mostly because options suck#i cant do trades unless my body sucks less which is sad because id love to be an electrician#cant even think about getting a pilots license cuz im not passing the med cert#i think id rather die than be a med assistant actually#working clinics at all makes me nervous tbh but probably where im headed in the short term#surgical tech would be cool but i cant do a Real program while working full-time#which is what limits most of my choices#i need to find more paid training programs i guess#if i had to pick a miserable but fulfilling job id go into education itself#but the teaching profession has always been in a downward spiral esp as of late#i dont want healthcare because i hate seeing dysfunctional glorified murder machines grinding around and around endlessly#acute care sucks id rather be in an icu for function but then im depressed because our patients are always dying#it was better as a phleb but this hospital doesnt have phleb and like i said im nervous about clinics#but i need to fucking commit to outpatient phlebotomy i think :/#the most fun ive had at a job ever#i wish i had more widely applicable skills but i cant be an emt/para even just for the training#because half of it is unpaid and the other half you pay for#and again#a job NOTORIOUS for being exhausting dangerous and traumatizing#if i was 17 again and wasnt escaping the tar pit of my mother id go for an english degree and i wouldnt even regret it#thinking about school in terms of a job i have to have forever vs for the sake of learning is so different#id like to know everything. i wanna read and write forever. and do research and have real technical skills that help people#im still riding off of the high of getting 5 ccs off of an oncology patient who desperately needed a port#they were able to run like seven tests off of it#i had to use a couple ped tubes#she only had to get poked Once and barely noticed it bc the doc team came in and im so happy i made her admission that muvh easier#labs are so miserable#checking back on the blood and seeing all of the results came through made me more pleased than anything else in the world
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i honestly think the stress of my job is bad for my health tbh
#txt#negative#today someone came in & started racist hassling the other people just waiting in line#& yesterday i was Also having trouble calming down after work just like i am now bc a different person came in and started losing her shit -#-abt something someone else did#its like customer service but everythings heightened =_=#im gonna wait until the spring and then if im still tense & miserable after my vacation then im gonna quit#SPEAKING OF im. regretting inviting this friend of mine along on this vacation sooooo much. which fucking sucks bc i adore her but like;;;;;#she & i are two vastly different people when it comes to travel like shes way more detail focused & strict than me which i. super -#-appreciated when we went to montreal. but now we're going to asia & she. knows nothing about asia so it feels like she's relying on me to -#-patch the holes in her strict framework which i like. wouldnt be doing at all if it were just me 😀 i am a pathologically chill person when-#-it comes to travel. and now im like. im gonna be away from this stressful job & need everyone with an anxiety disorder to stay minimum 5ft#-away from me until i come back. except i will have one such person right next to me the whole time 😀 WHICH AGAIN SUCKS BC I LOVE HANGING#-OUT W/ HER IN LIKE LITERALLY EVERY OTHER SITUATION. LIKE;; INCLUDING OTHER TRAVEL SITUATIONS#ugh sorry i had to get this out of my system. i think im just sad my Fuck Off To Asia fantasy is becoming less that & more of a chore#shes also gonna be dependent on me for part of the trip bc i speak chinese & she doesnt. which like. i thought would be a necessary -#- unpleasantness for a greater good time when i was thinking to invite her.#i cannot stress enough how this is regret toward myself & not spite toward her.#its like i packed my most beloved tank top to go on a ski trip ya feel
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Honest to god if your entire criticism to aang and his final decision to spare ozai is "it's boring!" then I think you should stop watching ATLA and better yet stop talking about aang character in general.
Because I know you'd whole argument just miserable to listen to, your whole point of view to the world is miserable, lack of whimsical and joy, may one day you found that again for now, shut up.
#aang#This fandom is almost 20 years old and people still don't know how to tag too like damn y'all just sad at this point#I hate fandom discourse but this argument just TIRING to listen to anymore cuz it's the same old bs#It's so old and repetitive like shut the fuck up!#If you can see the ending as something hopeful than I don't trust any of your judgement cuz you're miserable!#Anyway fuck you if you hate aang I'm so serious#*can't#atla#Pro aang#venus rant
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#idk i just. it would be so much easier to do Anything if i had any idea what amount of love is acceptable to show to other people#hanging out with people! talking to them! doing activities together! i like all of these things and i like the people i do them with#but it's always so hard to figure out where The Limits are#i know other people often aren't nearly as open to affection and closeness as i am#and i Very Much Do Not Want to make anyone uncomfortable with unwanted advances#i'm not sure how to communicate 'i will not get any closer than you wish me to' without the message coming across as 'i wish you didn't#come any closer to me'#because i feel like that's what i'm doing most of the time! pushing people away so they know i'm not trying to offend their personal space#and then i end up feeling miserable and left out and abandoned because no one gets as near me as i wish them to#idk idk just feels bad man#and like as much as i crave physical intimacy with people this also applies very much on emotional distance#generally i'd like to be a lot closer to the people in my life in every sense of those words#and i don't know how???#giving a compliment or offering a hug or inviting someone to a thing always makes me feel like some sort of monster#clumsy and unwanted and clueless about their horrid existence that is barely tolerated#why aren't there any clear rules to these things i could learn! so i could Fucking Communicate with people!!!#euuogggggh i'm just tired and frustrated and sad and haven't slept properly and it's been a long week at work#i think i'm doing better than what it sounds like here#maybe#sussitalk
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No you don't understand. Jack Skellington wrapped his bony hands around my heart with these parts of his lament:
Yet year after year, it's the same routine And I grow so weary of the sound of screams And I, Jack, the Pumpkin King Have grown so tired of the same old thing
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Oh, there's an empty place in my bones That calls out for something unknown The fame and praise come year after year Does nothing for these empty tears
#IT'S THE WAY HE SAYS IT#so much passion for ''and i jack!! the pumpkin king!!'' and then the weariness of ''have grown so tired of the same old thing''#GENIUS. RELATABLE AF.#and then he starts sounding really upset when he sings ''the fame and praise come year after year. does nothing for these empty tears''#and again relatable!! like without relating it to a desire for a change/something new (though that is also relatable!)#but yeah!! when people praise you but it doesn't touch you and you're just fuckin sad and miserable!! yeah!! fuck yeah skeleton man!!#Jack Skellington#Jack's Lament
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Cannot believe at this late stage of my life I'm becoming a Gabriel fucker. Local mean jock doesn't want to be evil now, he wants to be loved. I'm slightly annoyed they didn't make Beelzebub more unhinged because the "plot" should have been at least half about them fucking up shit on an absolute rampage trying to find Gabriel, a thing everyone assumes they are doing to fry him with hellfire so they can kick off the war in a way that's advantageous to hell, BUT ACTUALLY!!! true love.
#I do love evil love!#but more than that it's like... the terrible emptiness of heaven and hell?#absolutely no one has been having a good time!#they're just middle management admin suckers doing a soulless job no one else understands#they don't even care about earth! six thousand years of#mommy promised that if you all sit down and shut up we can have another war when the humans are dead#as a form of enrichment for their underlings#and they're just going along with it because that's the grind#incidentally I enjoyed how childish the angels were this season my pet theory is that they and the demons also have free will but no one#noticed so they've all just been making themselves miserable enforcing corporate culture and plotting each other's downfall because it#didn't occur to them to do anything else#gabriel and beelzebub realizing there's more to life and they can simply say fuck it and make something good between them#implies other angels and demons can do the same! as does Muriel obviously#like they are torturing each other. in much the same ways that humans are torturing each other#sad for Aziraphale and Crowley they care about earth & humans#which is a real problem they have that Gabzebub do not#and also that Crowley is in denial about how much he wants to be good and Aziraphale is in denial about just so many things and also#committed to being an ass about it.#these are problems that Gabriel and Beelzebub do NOT have because they are goal oriented and keep their eyes on the prize#good omens spoilers
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