#it's honestly the besfriendism of it all

[poppyfamily]

the trio ever

[slutforsjy]

One-time thing | s.jy

- what kind of girlfriend who lets their lover take someone else's virginity? it was all fun until someone goes beyond their limit

Pairing: fem! reader x Jake Sim x fem! reader's best friend

Genre: angst, SMUT

WC: 6.6k (not proofread)

Warnings ⚠️: hard/soft dom! jake, virgin bestfriend, cuck y/n, reader watching her bestfriend get fucked by her boyfriend, y/n's besfriend is sometimes called h/n, voyeurism, cucking, cheating (?), jealousy, unprotected sex, pet names, making out, oral sex, fingering, dirty talk, pussy slapping, choking, spitting, hair pulling, multiple sex positions, creampie, breeding kink, JAKE FUCKS READER'S BESTFRIEND!, and cums inside her without your permission!

a/n: i was so hesitant to post this because of the plot so please read the WARNING! I've warned you enough so if you don't like this genre/theme please don't read it.

This is NOT your typical smut! This might be triggering to some so please read the warning and synopsis first!

Today’s your besfriend’s 21st birthday and you decided to treat her in one of your go-to places to unwind and have fun.

“hey” you call out to her while looking at the group of men across the table. “you’re 21, aren’t you like trying to get laid or something?” she almost choked from your question making her stare at you in confusion “oh please there are a lot of fine men in our campus” glancing back at the man who’s shamelessly eyefucking the two of you.

she just rolled her eyes and sighed in defeat “i’m not just giving my v card to anyone, especially to that weirdo”

“you’re boring” a message popped up in your phone and it was your boyfriend saying ‘i miss you’

It’s late in the night and he’s probably looking for you. They had a practice earlier this day and you couldn’t come because you had to accompany your bestfriend to get wasted. You missed him so bad already, even after he just railed you at the bleachers right before their practice.

You open the message only to see a mirror selfie of him sitting at the couch shirtless, manspreading, veiny hands gripping his boner through his grey sweats, with his tongue out. You cursed silently, salivating at thought of him touching himself as he waits for you to go back home and fuck each other til the next morning.

You heard the woman beside you gasp but she was quick to look away when you notice that she’s looking over your phone as well.

You glared at her raising one of your eyebrows. All she did was to whisper sorry’s as she just continued to chug the rest of the drink trying to get away from the embarrassment.

Oh you know her too well. You know she’s attracted to your boyfriend. Who isn’t?

“He’s so hot right?” you asked bringing your face closer to her. She became tensed and responded with ‘huh’ acting like she didn’t hear you.

“My boyfriend” you showed her the image so that she could have a better view. You stared at her watching her expression. “let me tell you, he fucks like an animal” you giggled, alcohol running all over your body. You’re so lost in your mind that you kept on teasing her and asking her questions you might regret. “do you wanna fuck my boyfriend?”

She was silent.

she just shrugged it off and grab her bag not uttering any words. You see her took her phone out to try and book an uber so you two could call it a day. The two of you are under the influenced of alcohol especially you, that you just voice out everything that goes in your mind. “come on, i’m not gonna be mad…. just be honest”

“i honestly wanna see my boyfriend fuck a girl in front of me… that’s hot” you’re friend can’t believe you right now, while you’re just laughing at the thought of it.

Once you calmed down you ask her again “so what do you say? i know you want t-“

“yes i want your boyfriend to fuck me like an animal” you stopped at the sudden confession. She thought that you’ll be mad but instead you just smirked and let out a laugh finding her cute.

“good answer” you winked at her as you grabbed her hands walking your way out of the bar.

-

The ride to your shared apartment with jake took you 20 minutes. The ride was silent being the radio the only source of noise as your friend is dumbfounded. Stunned from whatever conversation you just had earlier. “h/n, i’m gonna go now” you tapped her bringing her back to reality as you bid goodbye before getting out of the car.

Before you could open the door, your boyfriend did it for you as he was just waiting for you from the window. You are welcomed by his embrace, throwing yourself in his half-naked body. You rest your head against his chest when the image he sent to you earlier came across your mind.

“i missed you” he whispered kissing the top of your head. You look up to him and pecked his lips. “i could tell every alcohol you drank tonight” he chuckled lifting you on your way to the bedroom.

You’re dizzy and couldn’t think straight as of now. But you know where this is going, with how your boyfriend desperately suck on your neck leaving marks on it.

He lays you down the bed and immediately removed his sweats. You smirked seeing him not wearing any underwear. He then moved closer to you massaging your thighs as he leaves open mouthed kiss on your face down to your chest making you grip his hair.

You’re so lost that you didn’t realize how quick he removed your jeans leaving you with your laced panty. He stares at it for second before glancing back at you.

You’re tired and he can see it in your eyes. so he wasted no time pulling your panties down to your knees and start inserting his cock in to you in one go.

You whined to him placing both of your hands at the back of his neck bringing him closer to you. “don’t worry, im gonna make this quick… ahh” he groaned as he fasten his pace while using his thumb to rub your clit so you could cum faster “i fucked you earlier at the field…how are you still so tight…. ahh” he can’t form his words straight as he’s reaching close to his orgasm

“babe please im close” the tightening of your walls is enough for him to go crazy, and enough for him to cum. as you felt his warm seeds fills you up making you moan from pleasure, as you cum around his cock not long after him.

“thank you babe” he kissed your forehead and quickly pulls out lying down beside you.

The two of you cuddled each other not minding the uncomfortable feeling brought by the stickiness and sweatiness of your bodies. You just want to seize this moment and talk about how each of your days went. He talked about his training and how he missed staring and looking at you every time he scores a goal. You can’t help but say sorry but he is quick to say that he understands it because it was your bestfriend’s important day.

Speaking of your bestfriend, you suddenly remembered the shitty question you asked her earlier. You can’t help but be curious on how will your boyfriend react if you tell him that your friend wants to be fucked by him.

“babe…” you called out to him shifting your position to see his face. He hums staring at the ceiling.

“are you willing to take someone’s virginity” he scoffed looking at you and let out a laugh from the most random question. “what? i already took your v card babe” he pecked your lips “why? you want another round? i was holding back because you look so tired but i can give it to you“ he quickly positioned himself on top of you staring directly in your eyes with a smile.

“no jake calm your dick” he sighed in defeat and go back to his original position. You fixed yourself on his chest again before telling him the truth.

“i thought it would be hot if you were to be my bestfriend’s first….” your boyfriend isn’t dumb, so he gets what you meant by that. He knew about your bestfriend. He would be lying if he say she’s not attractive and hot as well. Silence filled the dark room as you feel jake’s chest goes up and down faster than the usual.

“what do you say” you broke the silence while rubbing the outline of his abs as you wait for his answer. Part of you wants him to disagree but more part of you wants him to say ‘yes’. He grabbed your face and made you look at him “are you okay with that?”

Hell yeah! You’re not blind not to see how he looks at your bestfriend every time the two of you hangout at the living room. You know how he purposely walks around the apartment without a shirt to flex his body and show off not only to you but also to your bestfriend.

You paused. You know you’re still influenced by the alcohol and you know you shouldn’t be making decisions. but for the sake of your own satisfaction “yes, i always thought it would be hot” you hid your face on his chest again shy from your weird kink.

You always thought about it tho, your boyfriend railing another girl in front of you is something you think about all the time when you’re alone touching yourself. You imagine how he would ruin the woman in front of you. It’s weird. You’re weird. At this point, you’re actually not helping your friend get their first experience, but you’re doing this for your own.

-

Your class finishes at 3 pm and you immediately went to your bestfriend’s classroom to fetch her. You look over the window and call out to her as she fixes her things.

She gave you a confused look as the smile in your face never leaving you. “why are you like that” she asks walking by your side.

“remember last night?” you stopped her movement and drag her to a place where there’s less students around

“what about last night?” you gave her a minute to think about what you talked about last night. Her eyes frightened as she gets what you’re trying to say.

“what? i thought that wasn’t serious-“ you cuts her off and pull her to get to your car “jake’s waiting”

-

As usual the car ride was dead quiet. You look at her every time the traffic light would turn red and you see how her face turned red as well. She’s nervous, not only because it’s her first BUT it’s her first with YOUR boyfriend!

“hey, relax” you said to her without looking away from the road. “everyone agreed to this, YOU want it, Jake agreed to it, I want it” you said giving her a quick look of assurance.

You’re both now in front of your apartment and you turn to your friend once again “girl relax, just enjoy it. Look it’s the finest man who’s taking your v card today” you exclaimed trying to hyper up. It’s true tho, not everyone experienced jake to be their first. He wasn’t your first and you regret it.

“Jake babe?” you shouted calling him as soon as you entered. You let your friend sit at the couch first as you roam around the house looking for your boyfriend.

You entered your room, you see there jake in school uniform lying down in his stomach scrolling through his phone. “babe” he jolted when he heard your voice getting up from the bed.

“oh is she there?” you nodded. He scanned himself in the mirror and fixed his clothes and hair. “why are you so worked up” you chuckled before opening the cabinet in front of you. “she’s waiting, go to her now, im just gonna look for someth-” he didn’t let you finish and went outside immediately shutting the door behind him. “don’t scare her!” you shouted before continuing to look for the camera.

It took you a while and when you came back you saw the two of them at the couch, your bestfriend sitting on top of your boyfriend’s lap clashing their lips together. She is pulling his hair while he’s holding the back of her head tilting it from left to right to deepen the kiss. You’re slightly shocked at the desperation of your boyfriend leading the heated kiss as you saw his tongue wandering all over her mouth.

Their kiss is getting wetter and messier that they couldn’t care less about your presence. He is grabbing his ass making her grind on top of his clothed cock. The sounds of their wet lips clashing and the lewd sounds they’re making is so hot that you can’t help but just watch them. They’re so messy with it that you see your friend’s chin and cheeks glistening from their mixed saliva.

“jake wait” she paused, catching her breath. But jake won’t stop going after her, biting the skin of her neck, jaw, ears, and quickly pecking her lips with mischievous grin on his face.

You chuckled, rolling your eyes seeing your boyfriend so desperate and needy “hey enough of that, go do your shit now”

You noticed how your friend lets out a sigh of relief that she can finally breathe properly.

You placed the camera at the side table, setting it up trying to get a better angle and lighting. Jake requested it last night that you record the entire thing. You don’t know for what reason but here you are.

“come here pretty” you were taken a back at the sudden pet name making you turn to him and raise your brow.

But jake didn’t seem to notice it as he pats his lap and massages his cock while licking off the excess saliva all over his plump and swollen lips.

you see how your boyfriend’s cock grew each time he massages it while eyeing down your best friend who’s now in between his legs.

This horny mother fucker! you knew he wanted to fuck your best friend.

Once the camera is settled, you sat into the chair in front of the couch where jake and your friend is.

“have you sucked a dick before?” he asked grabbing her hands and making her touch and squeeze his growing boner. Jake flashes his eyebrows while staring directly at her lips trying to flirt with her while flexing his cock against her small hands.

“she’s virgin jake, no one and nothing has ever entered or even touch any of her holes” you rolled your eyes growing impatient.

jake cursed silently and clenched his jaw at that information. He quickly looked at the large tent formed in his pants signaling her to open it. “go see what’s inside baby, it’s all yours” and winks at her

‘Baby? wow. You never called me that’

You watch your bestfriend slowly unbuckle and unzip his pants. Jake lifted his hips so that she can pull it in one go proudly displaying his long and veiny cock. You watch her reaction and you didn’t miss how she gulped at the sight in front of her.

She looked at you and cocked her brows as if she’s asking for your permission.

“Go girl it’s all yours” you reassured to her as she turns her attention back to your boyfriend who’s just staring lustfully at her.

“go easy on her babe, she’s afraid of huge things choking her” you said making jake put a smirk on his lips. He cupped her cheeks and told her to get started “don’t worry baby, i got you, now put that pretty lips in a good use yeah?” he held her chin up and gave her quick peck on the lips to calm her down.

You started to feel hot. You massages your breast and slightly pull your skirt up and starts working on yourself. But as the scene in front of you starts to become boring with all these cringey shit, you click your tongue and rolled your eyes in annoyance.

“bestie that shit won’t kill you” she turns her head to you, nervousness evident from her face.

jake held her chin making her turn back to him once again. He tucks her hair behind her ears and gave her a forehead kiss saying “it’s gonna be fine pretty, i’ll take care of you” he smiled spreading his legs wider and move his hips closer to her face.

“come on baby, open up” he taps his cock on her lips before putting it in. You just watch there as she starts sucking off your boyfriend. Jake’s hand guiding her head slowly. You can see your boyfriend’s face being so turned on staring intently at your friend. Knowing him, you know he wanted to buck his hips so bad and fuck her throat to oblivion.

Receiving a head from you is definitely one of his favorite. You stare at him watching how he fights the urge to fuck her throat. You can’t help but laugh seeing him breathe so heavily, trying so hard to compose himself.

“fuck, i need to eat you out now” he pushed her head off of his cock and look at you

“can i babe?” he asked for your permission and you quickly responded with a yes “go do everything that will make her feel good, we can’t make her first sex experience boring”

“fuck” jake cursed at your approval and hurriedly unzip his hoodie and unbutton his uniform. You see your bestfriend watch him as he strips himself in front of her. You chuckled at how thirsty your friend is.

She can’t leave her eyes from your boyfriend’s hot physique, not when it is fully displayed in front of her. She finally got a closer look of it and most importantly she’ll finally be able to get a taste of it.

You’ve known your friend for so long - even before you met jake. You basically grew up liking each other’s tastes. So it’s not surprising for you to see her drooling over your boyfriend as you always catch her staring at his body during their practices. You would always invite her to watch their training after classes and she never even once declined your invitation knowing that jake will be there running around the soccer field shirtless. You even caught her capture a photo of his sweat-covered body and shamelessly zoom it in on his bulge. You can’t blame her tho, jake is hot and is the hottest guy in the campus.

“like what you see baby?” he scratches the back of his neck flexing his firm biceps and chest. Your friend look away and hides her face making you let out a sarcastic laugh “oh come on, don’t act like you don’t eye fuck him all the time”

Jake stares at her biting on his lips seducing your bestfriend “take off your panty for me now please” he ordered before laying down the couch resting his head at the edge.

You look at your friend as she took her panties off while looking at jake shyly. “girl, he’s seen almost everyone’s pussy in the campus, don’t be shy”

She was about to put her black underwear in her pocket when jake immediately grabbed it and shamelessly sniffed it in front of you.

“damn, calm down babe” you laughed out loud, finding the action of your boyfriend funny “you’re acting like you’re the one who’s virgin”

he gave you a silly smile and tossed the underwear anywhere in the room. He averted his gaze to your friend who’s seemed lost and doesn’t know what to do

“come here baby, my cock needs you now” he pouts tapping his legs

“go lay down on top of him and face his cock” she looks at where your boyfriend is, his body inviting her. But she’s stuck in her place not knowing what to do.

“watch” you bring yourself to jake and hopped to the couch. You show her how to do the 69 position.

You’re now face to face with your boyfriend’s dick, coated from your friend’s saliva. You grab it and deep throat him in one go making him moan and roll his eyes to the back of his head. You felt him lift your ass up and lick at your clothed pussy. “ugh…fuck jake!” you let out a high pitched moan, taken aback by his sudden action. You turned to him to see a sheepish smile and lolling his tongue out.

you rolled your eyes and turned back to your friend to ask if she gets it now.

she weakly nods her head unsure if she can do it. She examines jake’s figure as she makes her way to the couch.

She positioned herself on top of the guy, placing her knees on both sides of his head. Jake immediately forced her to sit down on his face and she gasp when she felt your boyfriend’s tongue against her bare pussy without a warning. She lets out a weak moans grabbing the head rest of the couch for support as jake starts eating her out.

She is crying for help from you when jake pushes her down and shuts her by stuffing her mouth with his cock.

She’s gripping the cushion beside her almost ripping it. You can see how much distracted she is as she can’t even continue to suck your boyfriend’s length due to his aggression in her cunt.

You turn to look at jake getting pussy drunk and basically lapping and making out with her cunt. He played with it together with his finger, using it to spread and open her pussy wider. He stares directly at it and spat before sucking on her clit.

“jake relax”

“sorry can’t help it, it taste good” he hummed. You rolled your eyes again before looking at your friend still struggling to compose herself from the strange feeling.

“hey, are you okay?” she shakes her head. She can’t handle the stimulation and the overwhelming pleasure she’s feeling from your boyfriend. You know she’s seeing stars. You know she’s feeling in heaven. She couldn’t totally talk right now, not when the guy below her is eating her out like a hungry dog is all she could think about.

jake is spreading her pussy lips with two fingers while guiding her hips to grind it against his tongue. You look at your friend hiding her face in jake’s pelvis, eyes shut, moaning and grunting against your boyfriend’s cock, still so overwhelmed and over sensitive. She kept on shaking her head crying, trying to lift herself away from jake “it’s too much ahh…”

But Jake hold her still, his grip on her hips is so firm keeping her sitted in his face. “relax baby, i know you like it… you’ll get use to it… now suck my cock please” he whined, his cock twitching and begging to be sucked.

jake is so needy! you see how your boyfriend desperately suck on her clit while inserting his long finger. You heard her muffled moans due to her mouth being stuffed full by your boyfriend’s cock. Tears are falling down from her face as jake started to slowly buck his hips upwards. You see how his cock unintentionally go out of her mouth not knowing if its due to his messy and unsteady thrusts or it’s just your friend who can’t suck a cock right.

She paused for a moment grabbing the cock away from her mouth as she moans out your boyfriend’s name “ughhh jake wait… ahhh” you can’t count how many times she screamed jake’s name but it’s understandable. Jake’s tongue work will definitely bring you to heaven.

You knew it wasn’t okay when you suddenly hear her screamed out the loudest scream. you quickly take a look at your boyfriend only to see him being drowned by the liquid spilling all over his face. But being the horny and nasty motherfucker he is, he is quick to catch it using his tongue slurping all of it.

You see your friend crying and shaking from the sensation.

You grabbed the camera and zoom it to your boyfriend lapping all over her pussy as he helps her ride her orgasm. She’s begging jake to stop from how his tongue is still moving against her sensitive pussy.

jake pauses for a bit to catch some air and stare directly at the mess made by your best friend “so fucking good” he said licking his lips and giving her pussy one long lick before letting go of her. “you taste so fucking good baby”

Jake gave her no time to recover and forces her to get up “get up baby we’re not done yet” he spanked her ass and gave it a squeeze

you looked at your friend lying on her stomach. Face fucked up, messy hair, and swollen lips, all because of this horny motherfucker in front of you.

You made eye contact with him and try your best not to laugh at the current state of your best friend. But he only smirked and winked at you. ‘This horny bitch’

“baby get up now” your boyfriend says in a silly tone while stroking his dick

“are we going to do the….thing?” your friend weakly asked, voice strained from an intense orgasm “do you have condom?”

jake came closer to her “no baby, im gonna need to fuck you raw” he whispered

“NO!”

they both looked at you. Silence filled the room, clock ticking being the only sound. The three of you stared at each other for a minute until jake broke the silence.

Of course you know your friend wants it! She’s a slut for your boyfriend! But jake?! You didn’t expect it!

He didn’t listen

jake didn’t listen. he lays her properly and peppered her with soft kisses on forehead, down to her jaw, sniffing her neck, biting her skin softly, quickly sucking on her nipples, kissing her tummy down to her inner thighs.

Damn, your boyfriend is so down bad, but he’s so caring and gentle with her. He’s always rough with you.

Do you find it hot? You hate to admit it but YES

Do you wish it was you? Definitely, Yes! but you don’t know why you’re anticipating what will jake do next. You don’t know why you want to see jake ruin her. Part of you want to be in her position right now but at the same time you don’t know why you find it so much hotter with your friend lying under your boyfriend. Maybe you’re a female cuck. Finding it hot how jake is so eager and desperate to fuck her. You find it so hot that you didn’t realize you were touching yourself again.

You got to your senses back when you hear the woman the beneath your boyfriend whimpering. Jake grabbed his fat cock rubbing it against her slit. You can see jake’s chest goes up and down hissing as he continues to tease your friend’s hole.

“gonna breed this fucking pussy” he whispered tapping his cock on her folds making her squirm and whine

“please…” she cried out feeling the heavy cock constantly hitting her. She’s arching her back pushing her core closer to your boyfriend’s cock.

“oh you like that hmm?” he asked leaning down to bite her lower lip

“you want me to fuck you while my girlfriend watches us?” he chuckled as he looks at you

you’re froze, you don’t know what’s going on in your mind and you’re letting your boyfriend fuck your friend WITHOUT protection. You only agreed to it but you never said he would have to do it without condom! It’s driving you insane, it’s making you mad! but your pussy says other wise. You feel hot at the thought of it. Is it okay with you? No! But You want to see it.

“such a whore” he slapped her dick once more against her folds collecting all the juices using its head

“babe look” he knows you’re getting jealous but he also knows you want to see him fuck your best friend. He asked you to look at him as he aligned his leaking cock to the pussy beneath him, still rubbing it with his tip. “can i fuck her now babe?” He looked at you with so much desperation. His gaze went down to your aching pussy being touched and penetrated by your two fingers.

“oh look at that, two sluts begging and so needy for my cock” he cooed teasing the both of you

“keep touching yourself while i fuck this pussy yeah” all you did was nod, too stunned to even oppose to his idea

“are you ready baby?”

“jake please i wanna feel you so bad”

“call me daddy” he gripped her jaw forcing her to open her mouth. He collected a good amount of saliva in his mouth and stick his tongue out letting it fall straight on to her tongue.

“swallow it” he commanded, you saw how her throat moved indicating that she really swallowed it. Jake leaned down humming as he lick over her tongue “good girl”

“please daddy” she moaned massaging her right boobs while locking eye contact with your boyfriend

“fuck me….ruin me…. daddy” she flirts back

“you’re gonna crave for my cock once you get a taste of it” he slapped her pussy making her whimper

“such a slut for letting me take your virginity huh?” he slaps it again

“i’m gonna be the only one fucking this pussy, understand?” he slaps it for the last time earning a nod from her

you didn’t know but that turned you on so much that you squirted just from hearing the two dirty talk with each other

jake laughed when he heard you scream out of pleasure “oh look at that” you were the last person he was expecting to cum or squirt that fast. But can you blame yourself?

he turn his attention back to the girl under him still not pushing his tip inside “i’ll make you squirt like that baby, you want that?”

“yes daddy.. fuck me now please” she reaches for his cock but jake was quick to tap her hand and slaps her folds for the nth time “you wait! you don’t want me pounding that hole do you?”

He quickly look over to you to check if you’re still fingering yourself.

Jake grunts as he slowly penetrates your best friend’s hole. Jake literally had her crying already just from the tip. “fuck baby let me in” he hissed clenching his jaw as he fights the urge to thrust all the way in. You know that your boyfriend wants to shove his whole cock. The veins in his neck being more prominent. Your best friend on the other hand is crying from pain.

“baby can you relax for me please” he leans down to kiss her forehead caressing her cheeks.

“slowly please” she cried out gripping on your boyfriend’s biceps

you see how her hole being split open by the girth of his cock and it turned you on much that you inserted your third finger to your hole this time.

They both moaned in unison when jake slowly pushes his cock all the way in. She lets out a pained moan arching her back and gripping onto the couch. Once he bottom out, he caressed her face once again wiping off the tears falling from her eyes and pecked her lips. “shhh.. it’s okay baby, you’re okay” and shooting her with a reassuring smile

it’s your first time seeing your boyfriend like this. So gentle that you can’t help but feel jealous.

“tell me if i can move” You were expecting him to turn his attention to you as he waits for your friend’s signal. But he didn’t, instead, they both stayed in that position with your boyfriend kissing all over her face waiting for her to fully adjust to his size.

Once he get the green light, he started slowly but making sure that his tip hits her cervix. he’s thrusting so slow that you’re able to watch in detail how his cock disappear into her hole every time he bottoms out. The sound of their wetness makes you crazy. You hear each sound made by his cock going in and out of her. They’re keeping eye contact with each other and you swear it was the hottest thing ever.

they were both moaning lewdly with every time jake hits all the spot inside her, and every time your friend clench around his cock. Jake hissed holding her hips still and stopped moving

“fuck baby if you keep doing that i won’t be able to control myself and cum right now” he said slowly trying to pull out and push it back in. He’s using two of his fingers to split her open because her tightness is driving him crazy.

their moans never stops. Jake arches her back and start moving faster this time.

the sound of their skins slapping, the groans and grunts made by your boyfriend and the whimpering of your friend is music to you ear.

you never stop touching yourself inserting 3 fingers in the same speed of how jake fuck your best friend. He looked at you when you made a needy sound

“look babe she’s taking me so well… fuck”

jake grabbed one of her leg and put it in his shoulder and started thrusting faster this time.

You’re mad but you’re so turned on at the sight of him. Head thrown back, his biceps are full of scratches, sweat dripping down his face down to his chest and abs. He’s so hot. They’re both hot

“you’re so tight baby girl” he pushes his hair up chewing on his lower lip. He’s staring at your friend’s abused pussy smirking, proud, seeing how it spreads so widely.

when jake gets bored in that position, he puts her in a mating press. He gently brought both of her legs to his shoulders and leaned down bringing himself closer. He angled his hips and you can see your friend crying from how deep and hard this position allowed your boyfriend to pound into her hole. She’s screaming loud as ever feeling the cock tearing her apart.

you can see jake losing his control, he doesn’t even look at you and ask for permissions. He clearly wants to do it in his way.

he grabbed the back of her head and start making out with her again. He wasted no time swallowing your friend’s moans and screams, almost eating and licking the entirety of her face from desperation.

he pressed her leg even more to her face and fucked her faster and deeper. You can see and hear each pointed thrust your boyfriend made.

he looked at you movements not stopping “can i cum inside her” he hissed feeling how her walls grips her cock becomes harder and tighter.

You don’t know how to respond so you just stare at him still pleasuring yourself.

“jake please” you heard your bestfriend whine trying to get your boyfriend’s attention by clenching her pussy once again

you heard jake gasp “ahhh fuckk… I know baby girl i know” he started to move again. You watch them as they become more bolder and bolder as if you weren’t there.

“ride me” he quickly grabbed her by the waist and sat down without pulling his cock out

“move baby girl, show her how good you ride my cock” you saw how jake bit his lips and lick the side of her neck while staring at you.

Is he purposely making you feel jealous?

his hands gently massages her hips as he guides her up and down his cock

“fuck baby girl, you’re taking me so well…. still so tight” he throw his head back against the couch and puts both of his hands at the back of his head displaying his pits. You notice how jake watch her ride his cock and keeping eye contact with her with his mouth open while encouraging her to do better.

“good girl” she uses jake’s chest as a support beginning to fasten her movement above him.

you can see how jake reacts, whole body twitching signaling for his close orgasm “you see how deep you take me baby hmm?” he grabs her hair and forced her to look at the bulge forming at her abdomen “such a good girl for me” he pulls her hair back and starts sucking on her neck. Your friend throws her head back giving more access to your boyfriend. His mouth went down to her breast sucking on its nipples simultaneously.

he grabbed her waist and halts her movement. with both of his hands he starts moving by himself, punishing your best friend’s already ruined hole. He fucks into her really fast and hard making her grip in to jake’s hair strangling him for being so rough. She brings her self closer to jake, boobs bouncing and touching your boyfriend’s nose as jake continues to try and reach his orgasm

“ahh… im gonna fuck you full, m’gotta make you pregnant” his movement from below become impossibly faster as successive moans escapes his wide open lips

you’re crying upon hearing him say those words but still finding the scene in front of you so hot as you’re fingers move faster too

“im cumming too jake” she utters weakly as jake continues to pound her from below

“fuck yeah cum with me baby”

“cream my cock….fuck….ohhh…..ahh….” a long groan escaped his lips as he finishes with few more pointed thrust. He threw his head against the couch, hands never leaving her hips as he made few more slow and deep thrust onto her making sure that he fucks all of his seed inside. Your friend in the meantime couldn’t bring herself to talk or even make a sound as pleasure took all over her body, cumming for the second time with your boyfriend.

“so good, so fucking good baby” he said catching his breath. Your friend fell down on jake’s body panting and crying in the crook of his neck

he came a lot that you see some of it drips out of her hole

“fuck this pussy” he bucked his hips once again making her jolt

you heard jake cursed and made a long groan as your friend clenched around him upon hearing those words. “how are you still so tight baby? didn’t i fuck you well enough?” she lets out a small chuckle weakly slapping jake’s chest.

They just laugh it off as jake traces the skin of her back and rubs it gently, planting kisses at the side of her head. “you did so well baby, you think you can squeeze my cock for the last time hmm?” he pouts making your friend laugh again “jake stop”

they stay in that position for a while as your boyfriend requested her to cockwarm him. He looks at you while he’s brushing her hair softly who’s now asleep against his bare chest.

He looked down your dripping pussy. He didn’t notice that you already came by yourself. You can’t help but feel jealous and neglected. You look away from him and made an excuse to leave the room.

You weakly smiled at him as you fix yourself and make your way to your shared room to clean up and get a rest.

jake’s eyes followed you as you slowly disappear from his vision. He felt bad, he really did. especially after that bittersweet smile you gave him earlier.

He lifted the weak woman on top of him and slowly pulls out his flaccid cock and lays her down the couch. He can’t help but smirk at the sight of her pussy dripping with his cum.

But he push that thought away and proceeds to clean her up.

He made his way to your room. He needs to make things up to you. He needs to make you feel that he loves you more and that his cock will always crave for you.

It isn’t his fault tho, you were the one who requested this.

And

It was just a one time thing right?

or NOT

[lalaangeldust]

𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲'𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡 𝐨𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮

𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 & 𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐬

[ 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 ] : none :)

[ 𝗳𝗲𝗮𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 ] : kaminari denki // bakugo katsuki // sero hanta

𝐤𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐫𝐢 𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐤𝐢

ah yes, the bakusquad's resident pretty boy

he would definitely be the most obvious about his crush

two words: shitty flirting

horrible pick-up lines and just overall bad flirting

he pulls through sometimes though ( with sero's advice ) and his ego inflates through the roof if he can get you flustered and blushing

but if you give him the same energy, he will immediately combust

all function out the window

congratulations, you broke denki

none of your possessions are safe when denki is within the vicinity

shirts, hoodies, skirts, hats, jewelry, hair accessories

if he can grab it, he will have it

he has worn / stolen everything in your closet at least once, if not it is most definitely his goal

it does not matter if he fits it or not, he will make it work

he has no shame

but one time he stretched out one of your favorite skirts and it tore a bit and he felt soooo bad

"it not my fault i have a fat ass, y/n"

but he brought you to the mall on a date with him to get a new one, so it's all works out ;)

denki honestly just lives to make you laugh

every time he's the reason you're laughing, it makes his chest puff up so big

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON MF TICKLING

if you two are close, he will without a doubt start a mock wrestling match and it always turns into a tickling fit with you pinned underneath him and wailing

but do NOT under any circumstances tickle him

he with shriek like a girl and accidentally activate his quirk

you nearly died

HE FELT BAD FOR THAT TOO

he's also just so infatuated with like- everything you do????

it doesn't matter how mundane you think it might be, as long as you're doing it, denki is so enthralled watching whatever it is you're doing

it's rather endearing

in all honesty, he'd probably blurt out he likes you outta no where while in the middle of a convo

he lights up every time your name is so much as mentioned

or- or

he'd be day dreaming, completely lost in his own world and someone would come up to him and ask him what he's thinking ab cus he looks basically dead to the world

still in a daze from being abruptly brought back to reality he'd just dreamily sigh, "y/n~" without even realizing

mans was SO embarrassed afterwards

face was beet red

*frantically looks around to see if you heard him or not*

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bonus: love languages!!

physical touch // giving

words of affirmation // receiving

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𝐛𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐠𝐨 𝐤𝐚𝐭𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐢

he's so emotionally constipated

that's not to say we wouldn't know he'd have feelings for you

he's actually pretty emotionally intelligent, and would be very perceptive of your emotions contrary to popular belief, he's just oblivious to his own feelings and emotions

he'd just ignore them

try his best to ignore you

key word try

but he always gives in and he'd make up dumb reasons to come bother you like-

he'd barge into your dorm while you're studying and he'd be like

"y/n i need a pen,"

"oh? uh ok, here you can have this one," you hand him a pen that you happened to have tucked behind your ear

"no not that one,"

...????

"can't you go to momo and ask her to make the pen you want..?"

bakugo starts to get grumpy at this point lmao

"no, she doesn't know how to make it,"

"well, what pen do you want..??"

bakugo hesitates cus he doesn't wanna admit that he doesn't actually want a pen, he wants to be with you

"that one," he lamely points at a beat up tinkerbell pen that you've had since you were like twelve

"really?? out of all the pens you choose that one?"

"shut up and just get it"

"... you can grab it,"

he goes and grabs it and goes to walk out the door without a word and right before he leaves he leans back and looks at you

"i need a pencil"

"OH MY GOD BAKUGO"

he kept the tinkerbell pen btw

like denki, bakugo would steal things from your dorm and not just anything, things that are actually inconvenient to misplace

he'd take your bobby pin container or your favorite brush so you'd come to him to ask where it went, he'd give it back ofc but not without a fight

he'd act totally clueless and he'd wait till you actually start to get pissed to tell you where he actually put your thing

so back to how he'd actually be very aware of your emotions

he'd notice the smallest changes and can always tell when you're upset but he wouldn't exactly know how to help you

so instead of using words, he'd use actions

you had a really bad day and he walked you to your dorm and when he came in he's like

"shit, your dorm is a fucking disaster, how do you live like this," you scowl at bakugo cus like- wtf i'm rlly emotional here you're not helping

he scoffs and bends down to start picking up your shit

"seriously, i have no idea how you find anything in here, nothing is organized" and he'd just keeps grumbling like an old man while completely cleaning and reorganizing your room

dont you dare try and help him though, he will yell at you

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bonus: love languages!!

acts of service // giving

quality time // receiving

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𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐚

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE

sero SCREAMS besfriends to lovers troupe

like- you two are already practically dating without even realizing it

the romantic tension

you guys banter and flirt with eachother so often, you both have no idea whether you're serious when you jokingly call the other sexy or not

the oblivious idiots troupe

sero makes everything a competition

not nearly to extent as bakugo would, but still goes a bit over the top

he'd use anything as an excuse to show off for you

one time, like the spiderman fanboy he is, he challenged you to see who can hang upside down the longest without passing out ( literally the stupidest idea, sero, you're going to loose braincells )

sero won, obviously and he takes full advantage of bragging rights

everyone says how denki's the flirt and whatever but NO

sero is the biggest mf flirt and denki got his game from him

so with that being said, you are not safe

HE IS A BULLY

he respects boundaries of course but that doesn't mean he's not gonna try and test his limits a bit and mess with you

he's always trying to get you flustered

god forbid you're shorter than him because he will tease the shit outta you for it

when you two train together, mf goes on overdrive ESPECIALLY if you two happen to be sparring together

he'd hover over you and lean his face in ever so slightly while your talking to him just to get a rise outta you

TILT YOUR HEAD UP WITH ONE FINGER

"could you repeat that? i'm having a hard time hearing,"

SHEEEEEEEE

but you also make fun of him for being tall, so it checks out

whenever he says some slick shit you're just like-

"I'm sorry, what? That's funny coming from someone who's above the national average height. you're disgusting, tall man; shrink perhaps" ( if anyone knows what tiktok audio i'm referencing, i'm in love with you )

hope you have your casket ready because sero's gonna slaughter your ass for that shit

ok but one time while you two were partnered up for hero training, you got on his nerves and he tied you up and left you hanging and the mf just left

maaaan were you livid

15 minutes

15 minutes you were left up there while sero was doing god knows what

you gave him the silent treatment for the rest of the day and sero was genuinely distressed cus he didn't mean to make you so mad

but lucky for him, he always knows how to get you to smile no matter how sad or are or how angry you are with him

he shoots you a piece of tape with his handwriting on it

he made up some stupid, horribly written poem asking for your forgiveness and he's just looking at you the entire time you're reading it with an exaggerated pout

how can you say mad at him?

on the topic of him sending you notes on his tape

he'd totally leave pieces of his tape in really obscure places in your dorm or even under your desk

they'd be really stupid messages too like-

"you stink"

or a really random inside joke you two have that makes literally no sense but even just the thought of it makes you laugh to tears

he'd also leave little origami figures he made with his tape in random places for you to find too

or he'd just give them to you

you have a shelf specifically dedicated for the things sero has made for you ( and he's really touched you actually keep all his shitty arts and crafts projects )

in conclusion, sero is the best and he is my favorite and i'd die for him

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bonus: love languages!!

gift giving // giving

physical touch // giving and recieving

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If you guys want, i can elaborate on their love languages in another post! <3

𝒇𝒊𝒏 . ✩

[omegaversetheory]

I got an idea and idk what to do with it honestly so here you go Omega denki really good friends with alpha shinso and ya’know their dynamic so somewhere along that Denki is tired of waiting for him to court denks so que running into ‘long lost’ late bloomer besfriend (alpha)fem, not really denki just says that cause last time they really saw each other was when they were in middle school (went to different schools cause she beat up four alphas for messing with denks) and she had to move away so she went to meet him at the school gate and she just hugged him really letting herslef drown in his scent and decides to spend the night at his place, it’s the weekend. So boom present they’re catching up and getting close again. Denks invite her to a party and her shitty omega come to acting so royally spoiled and mean to the others and even denks as if the world revolves around her and denks best friend is tired like exhausted that she can’t be mad and just breaks up with the omega and she leaves going home without saying anything to denks or the others and her shitty omega doesn’t even care she was just in it for the money and denki is taking advantage of her broken heart to make them fall in love with him and even going as far as waiting for his best friend to be in the middle of their heat and he acts all innocent and ends up straddling the alpha, grinding against her forcing needy growls out of them. Then out of pure yandere tendencies marks the alpha, only convincing her in that state that if she marks him then he’ll let them use his cute little hole however they’ll like and is just high off the power he holds over her and I also think he’s a switch but a power bottom

wow! I'll just leave this here then!

[nymp21]

Secret Crush

You’re the youngest Danvers (Alex biological’s sister) and you move to National City to study. What will happen, when you’ll find out you have a crush on one of your teacher. And that teacher is Lena Luthor herself. Your sister besfriend.

Gifs are not mine

Pairing : littledanvers reader x Lena Luthor

Warnings : English is not my langage and eventual smut later in chapters

Part 1

  You were currently eating your breakfast with energy when Kara came of the bathroom. She was making up her hair. « Are you sure you don’t want me to drop you at Uni (Y/N) » « No thanks Kar’! I will go there by bus. It will be more normal than being drop by Supergirl flying » you laughed. « I meant by car » she responded, rolling her eyes. You were leaving with your sister for one week now and you could say Kara was very cool !That’s why you pick your super sister when you had to choose where to live during the semesters of your degree. And because Alex was living with Maggie so…technically you didn’t have much choice. You were preparing a master degree both in litterature and business (you wanted to be an editor.) and National City had got the best college to finish your studies. Today was the first day of the semester, and you knew you would have so much works to do to succeed and pass. « Anyway, do you need something for lunch ? O can make you a sandwich » « With butternutt ? » « Of course ! Who do you think I am ? » she said with an amused smirk. You smiled at her response : « you’re the best sister but don’t say that to Alex, she will be mad at me. » She chuckled and started making your food for lunch then she gave it to you. You took it, thanked her and grabbed your bag. « See you later Kara » you said. « By sweetheart… call me if you feel nervous or anything » « Kara i’m not a kid who is afraid of the first day at school anymore. » « Maybe, but you’ll always be our little baby danvers » she said with a smirk. You groaned and closed the door behind you when you heard her laugh. She is such a dork. _________________________________________ It was the last course of the day. Your firsts were very interesting and you find yourself doing some research at the Library between two of them. You were so concentrated, you didn’t see the time fly and you were late. So you ran in the corridors of the college, cursing between your teeth for being such an idiot ! You opened the door of the room, where were sitting the others students who stared at you instantly. You were quite shy in public so you felt embarrassment rushing through you. « Well ! Welcome to business course. Glad to see you know punctuality. » You turn you head to your right, to see the most beautiful woman you ever met. Her eyes piercing as hell were as blue as the see that you could drown in them. Her hair was perfectly made, and her lips were as red as a rose. She was breathtaking, and you didn’t know how to make words. And you were blushing with shame as you heard some of the other students chuckle at her ironical comment. « The cat got your tongue ? When we are late, we apologise. »she said. And you seemed to come back from your starring « I’m sorry I was in the library, I didn’t see the time. » She starred at you with a strange smile on her lips and you felt more uncomfortable. « Well, Miss I’m happy to know that you seem to be a good student by already making research at the libraby. » You heart skipped a beat. Her smile were so intimidating and… sexy. What!? Stop thinking with your hormone (Y/N) ! She is your professor for godsakes! « You can sit. As I was saying to your classmates,I’m Lena Luthor. I will teach you business course this semester. » Holy shit ! Your professor was Lena Fucking Luthor ! Not only one of the most intelligent woman of the city… even the world -You have read all her articles and you admired her - but also Kara’s best friend ! She was supposed to present her to you tonight at game night. She had said : « I’m sure you will like each others. You have so much in common . Yeah… the college for example. Man this will be so awkard ! Plus, you didn’t imagine that your sister’s best friend would make you blush so hard. She was very intimidating in her black dress and high heels. Your shyness was showing as you set at a free chair trying to be discrete. « As you may know, I’m the CEO of L-Corp which means I can handle a society. » she continues as if nothing as interrupted her. « So I expect you to be as serious as possible this semester. I will show you any mercy. » If her smile could make you think she was kidding, her eyes were dead serious. Then she began her lesson, with some definitions. You were happy no one were paying attention to you and, you show yourself very attentive, because you didn’t want to make her say any other comment about you. She was very passionate and interesting as you could imagine. Kara was right when she said she may seem cold at first. She seems so indeed. But when she talked about her job, she has a bright smile. The two hours spent like it was ten minutes and then you were getting out the room, deep in your thoughts. How would you do to avoid game night ? Because you couldn’t do game night with your professor right ? This situation was making you uncomfortable and stressed for an unknown reason. Well, you were not a relaxed person and this would be awkward. Plus she made you blushing and you hoped she didn’t notice it ! Yes she was very intimidating and you were very very embarrassed in front of her. —————————— The doorbell rings and Kara opened the door as you put the chips in a bowl. You didn’t succeed to avoid game night. Kara was good at convincing you with her puppy eyes and her « please, please, please,please,please,please » so annoying you were obliged. You sighed as you put the plate of pizza on the table, with the chips. Luckily for you Lena Luthor hasn’t confirmed her presence tonight. Apparently she wasn’t sure she could come. Kara was upset bit you were relieved and hoping she wouldn’t make it to game night. But you were stressed anytime the doorbell rings. Winn was already there. You liked him. He was your favorite nerd. You had many things in common and he was like a brother to you. « Hi Winn ! » you heard « Hi baby danvers ». And you feel Maggie kiss your cheek. « How was this first day in College. » « Great » you responded. « Just great ? » she frowned. « She didn’t say much to me earlier. Maybe she found a boyfriend or a girlfriend and it was love at first sight» said Kara ,bringing the wine Alex had give her on the table and smiling at you. You rolled your eyes. Kara and Maggie were constantly teasing you about a potential boyfriend/girlfriend. The Did want to see you with someone. This was quite annoying, and they knew that. « Maybe some wine will make you talk » Maggie said with a smirk. « Oh no Sawyers I forbid you to get my sister drunk tonight !» told Alex as she embrassed you in her arms. « Hi sweetie. Don’t let them tease you. » « I don’t. I just plan to bit them at the game tonight. » « You wish baby Danvers. I improved myself since last time and you’re not ready for my skilled in monopoly. » You laughed. Maggie was a total looser in monopoly because she didn’t like the game. But you appreciated the effort she maid to try to win. You knew she wouldn’t make it. You were unbitten at this game. But in opposite she was an absolute killer at Jungle Speed and Kara was the queen of the time’s up. « How can you improve skills at monopoly… it’s nonsense » comment Winn. « (Y/N) is just better than you. Accept it. » You smiled wild at the comment and out your tongue at your sister’s girlfriend. 

“So childish” She replied. 

Then you heard Lena came in the apartment. Honestly, you didn’t know why you were so embarrassed. You didn’t know if it was because of her humiliated yourself in the morning, because of her finding out that you were her best friend’s little sister or because of the strange feelings you had around her. “Hi Kar’. Sorry I’m a bit late.” “Not at all !” your sister replied. “Plus we were teasing (Y/N) about her first day at National City College today. She didn’t tell that much” GREAAAT ! Thanks Kara. You felt Lena’s gaze fell on you and you refused to look at her. But you clearly heard her smile in her comment : “Is that so ? Well I can tell you that she was late at business course today.” Ok now you were blushing hard. And you saw confusion in your sisters eyes. Confusion that vanished as Lena added : “I Know it, because i’m her professor. We met today, although she didn’t tell me she was a Danvers.” This time you looked at Lena, and to your surprise she was smiling warmly at you. “So nice to meet you (Y/N) Danvers !” “Oh hum nice to meet you Miss Luthor.” “Please call me Lena.” “All right... hi Lena.” And then, Game Night began. You first played at Uno, Maggie won with a big satisfied smile. Then you started the serious game : The monopoly. The game lasted one hour and half and at the end, there were just you and Lena. You were surprised that you didn’t feel awkward anymore. On the contrary you were concentrated on the game and motivated to beat your sister’s best friend. But she had the same motive. This was tense until Lena took your last streets and you didn’t have any more money. “I... lost ?!” you said at disbelief. “I knew you couldn’t win tonight Baby Danvers !” told Maggie. “Oh shut up !” “ To your defense (Y/N) you played well and wisely. And as your teacher I couldn’t lose could I ?” You looked at Lena which blinked at you with a smile. You blushed at the compliment and you didn’t see that Alex noticed this but she didn’t tell anything. Then you helped Kara store the room. You decided to do the dishes. You were washing the same bowl for like 2 minutes, lost in thoughts. The evening went better than you’re expected. Lena was very nice and you enjoyed played with her. You almost forgot that she was also your professor because she didn’t act like she was. You admired her more than before. She was very smart, her warming smile was so beautiful. You became to realize that you were crushing hard on her... Oh God, why ! Later everyone was leaving. You waved at Winn, took Maggie and Alex in your arms as they left the room. Lena was the last to stay. “Well, it was very amusing Kara, as always.” “Thank you for coming. I’m glad you could meet (Y/N). It’s crazy that you’re also teaching her business. I hope you’ll tell me if she causes you some trouble.” She was kidding of course. You were quite serious at school and she knew that. Lena smirk at you. “Oh she’ll behave I swear. But I’m glad she is my student. She is smart.” You blushed hard at her comment et they smiled at you. “Yeah, She is.” Kara responded. “Well I gotta go. See you later Kar’” She enlaced your sister et then came to you. “See you at college (Y/N) hope you won’t be late this time, or I’ll have to punish you.” She said with a smirk and then kissed you on the cheek. The teasing and the kiss made you so dizzy as she left. Yep you were crushing hard. God you were in trouble.  

[seungyovn]

take my jacket

prompt: 12/100 ways to say i love you. “Take my jacket, it’s cold outside” requested by @yohaans​

pairing: yohan  x reader

genre: besfriend!au, mutual pining, fluff

word count: 1758

warnings: alcohol consumption

The volume of the thumping bass in the next room was loud enough to muffle the voices of everyone around you, making you feel even more alone than you were already. Your grip tightens on the cup of lukewarm beer in your hand as you scan the room for any sign of your best friend.

It didn't take long to find him as the sound of his laughter drowned out the ringing in your ears. He was surrounded by a group of friends and girls looking at him like they wished they were more than friends. Each one of them laughing at what you could only imagine was one of the five terrible jokes he had in his repertoire.

He was one of those magnetic types. The kind of person you can't help but be drawn towards. Yohan was kind, honest, silly, and every time he smiled it made your heart turn into a gymnast and start doing back flips instead of beating properly. Everyone loved him. So tonight's scenario wasn't unfamiliar to you. Not that you minded, you hated making small talk. You spent so much time in your head worrying that you would say the wrong thing that by the time you finally settled on your words, the conversation had already moved on to a different subject.

So you stayed behind, choosing the quieter corners of the room until one of you sent the signal that you were ready to go home.

"Who are you staring at?" the question makes you jump like a child who had just been caught with their hand in the cookie jar.

You turn on your feet to find Seungwoo staring at you with a knowing look on his face. You had been caught.

"No one." you mumble, taking a sip from your drink in hopes to avoid having another question thrown at you.

"When are you going to tell him?"

You shake your head. "It's not like that."

"Sure." your friend responds flatly.

"Seungwoo, we're best friends."

"But you're in love with him."

"I love him, but I'm not IN love with him." you lie, though neither one of you believe a single word that just came out of your mouth.

Seungwoo was about to say something, when Yohan suddenly appears out of thin air. Your best friend walks up behind you, resting his chin on his shoulder. The sudden contact makes it almost impossible for you breathe. And Seungwoo gives you a look, raising an eyebrow into his hair before excusing himself, leaving you alone with your best friend.

"I'm ready to go home." he tells you.

You nod. "Let's go."

The two of you say your goodbyes and you pretend to not notice the wink Seungwoo sends your direction once he realizes who you are leaving with.

The cool autumn air was a stark contrast to the body heat of the party. The evening breeze sends a chill down your spine, wishing you had worn an actual jacket tonight.

It only takes Yohan a couple blocks to realize you had pulled the sleeves of your shirt around your fingertips.

"Are you cold?" he asks as the two of you cross the street towards the neighborhood you both lived in.

"I'm fine." you try to not make it obvious that your teeth were chattering as you spoke.

Yohan gives you the look he always does when you lie and as soon as the two of you are safely on the sidewalk he stops to take off his jacket.

"Take my jacket, it’s cold outside.” he insists, holding out the material so you can easily slip your arms into the sleeves.

"Thanks." you mumble, unable to look him in the eye.

The two of you walk in silence for several blocks, something that seldom happened when the two of you were together. You steal a glance at him, wondering what was on his mind. Whatever it was, it had him deep in thought. His eyebrows were furrowed as if something heavy was weighing on his mind.

"Do you like Seungwoo?" he breaks the silence with a question that catches you completely off guard.

"What?" you stare at him wide-eyed, unsure where the tone in his voice is coming from.

Yohan steps off the sidewalk and heads towards the playground of the park the two of you spent most of your childhood climbing over. He takes a seat on one of the empty swings.

"I just see the two of you together every time we go out, and I was just wondering." he explains.

"No, I don't like Seungwoo." you take a seat on the swing next to him. "He and I are just friends."

You think you hear him mumble "just friends" under his breath, but you can't make it out.

Neither one of you starts to swing harder than gently rocking your feet back and forth, digging a hole in the sand from the pressure of your toes. Something had shifted tonight and you weren't exactly sure how or why. But whatever was the reason, you hated it. You hated the unfamiliar silence that seemed to be growing by the second.

But as if Yohan could read your mind he asks you, "Do you remember when you pushed me off the slide?"

You turn to look at the faded yellow plastic slide he was staring at.

"You deserved it." you remind him.

Yohan laughs. "You were the one who kissed me!"

You nodded. "I was double dog dared to kiss you! I couldn’t say no! I was so embarrassed that I didn’t know what to do!"

“So pushing me off the slide was the only thing you thought of?”

You try to defend yourself. “You were the one who immediately made gagging noises like you had just ate a slug!”

"I dare you to kiss me again." he blurts out, making the both of you stop swinging.

You stare at him blankly. "What?"

He gets up from his swing, stepping in front of yours. His hands wrap around the cold metal chain, keeping your swing steady in front of him. "I dare you to kiss me again."

You cannot deny the way every cell in your body starts to function at 100 miles an hour. He is staring at you, or your lips, you can't tell because you are too nervous to look him in the eyes. But the way he is staring at you makes it seem like the world has come to a stand still, and the two of you are the only ones moving.

You take a deep breath and reach upwards towards the rosy cheeks of your best friend. He doesn't wince as your cold finger tips make contact with his skin. You close your eyes, trying to muster up all the courage you have in your body as you pull his face slowly towards yours. Your breathing stops as Yohan's lips make contact with yours. A mixture of chapstick and the faint taste of whatever drink he had been sipping on throughout the night.

It didn't last long, as you were too worried that once he came to his senses he would realize that he was kissing you, his best friend.

The two of you part, breathless and unsure what this means for the two of you and your friendship. Yohan takes your hands into his, pulling them off his cheeks and holding them tightly.

"That was nice." he admits shyly.

You can't help the giggle that escapes your throat at his words.

"Why are you laughing?" he pouts, sticking out his bottom lip.

"Because you're cute!" you ripped off the emotional band-aid. "And you're smart. And so talented that I honestly still can't believe someone like you exists. You always listen to me when I'm feeling down or upset. And you make me laugh when I text you at 3 AM in the morning and say I'm feeling sad. And I don't know I-I-I-I just-" you start to stutter.

"You just what?" he asks, taking a step back and pulling you from the swing. His arms wrap around your waist and you stare up into his dark eyes and don't know how to say it. 

Or if you can say it.

Yohan waits for you, patiently.

"I think I’m in love with you" you gather up the courage to say how you feel. "As more than a friend."

He stares back at you, a small smile creeping across his skin. "I think I’m in love with you too."

You kiss him again, making sure that you weren't dreaming. Yohan smiles against your lips and you can't help but smile back as the two of you part.

He let's go of your waist. "Can I walk you home?"

"You already are." you remind him, making Yohan roll his eyes.

You start panic as you begin to cross the playground in silence, neither one of you sure what to say or what to do with your hands. Out of the corner of your eye you see him looking at you out of the corner of his eye. The eye contact makes each of you laugh. breaking the ice and returning your relationship to normal.

“So when did you know you couldn’t resist me?” He taunts, leaning his shoulder into yours playfully.

You give him a look and warn him. “Don’t make me take back what I said!”

He pouts. “Please don’t!”

You shake your head. “I would never. It feels too good to have if off my chest. But why didn’t you say something?”

Yohan shrugs. “The same reason you didn’t say anything. I was scared. You’re my best friend and I didn’t want my feelings to change our relationship. But when I saw you with Seungwoo tonight I couldn’t take it anymore. I had to tell you or I thought my heart was going to explode.”

“I know the feeling.” you squeeze his hand as you turn the corner onto the block of your apartment building all too soon.

The two of you walk to your front door in silence, neither one of you wanting the night to end. 

"Well.." you let your voice trail off as you stop in front of the lobby doors.

"Well...." Yohan repeats, rocking back on his heels.

"Thanks for walking me home." you drop your gaze, staring at the laces of your boots.

"Can I do it again?" he asks. "But after a real date this time?"

You can't help but blush as you nod your head.

A smile spreads across Yohan's face. "Cool, I'll text you."

"Okay." you nod again as he starts to back away from your door.

You watch as Yohan makes it a few steps before he turns around and lightly jogs back to you.

"I almost forgot!" he reminds you, and without thinking you lean forward to kiss him goodbye. 

"That was nice, although that's not what I meant. Well, I mean, I realize that I forgot that too." he starts to fumble over his words nervously after he pulls away. "But you're wearing my coat."

Your eyes widen and you take off his jacket, "OH! Right! I forgot. Don't catch a cold!"

He laughs as he pulls on the jacket, "I think it's a little too late to be worried about that."

He quickly pecks you on the lips. "But it was worth it."

[creambunnie]

For the best

you tapped your foot as you glared at your boyfriend, Haechan , who was laughing with your girl classmate . you , Haechan and your other classmate, Seungyeon, were assigned as a group for a class research. you were pissed. no not because your boyfriend was talking to another girl. no you were not that childish and petty. you were pissed because everytime you tried to suggest your ideas or opinions, Seungyeon would interrupt you , cutting you off completely. what you were really pissed about was that Haechan didn't even defend you. he smiled apologetically to you and listened intently to Seungyeon's words. you were also aware on how Seungyeon smirked here and there when she got your boyfriend's attention all to herself.

you honestly didn't care and could handle this well if it was a one time thing. the problem was, you had sat in the same cafe 3 times for the group discussion which went the same as today. you would always be cut off and you would be glaring at the both of them who were obviously flirting with each other more than discussing for the project.

you quickly stood and 'accidentally' slammed the table, startling the two flirts.

"i'm just gonna go to the ladies for a while,". you excused yourself. Haechan gave you a soft smile and nodded while Seungyeon rolled her eyes at you for interrupting her conversation with Haechan.

you went out of the cafe and decided to go to your bestfriend's place which was technically Haechan's house too.

your besfriend, Jeno, was Haechan's housemate. he was the one who introduced the two of you to each other. you've been ranting to him about Haechan's behaviour during discussion and told him about your insecurities. Jeno tried his best comforting you and you really appreciate his help.

Jeno opened the front door seconds after you knocked. "he messed up again?". you nodded to his question and entered the house. Jeno sighed and went to the kitchen. "drinks?". you shook your head as you placed your bag down. Jeno smiled softly and went to the sofa, sitting next to you. you scooted closer to Jeno and rested your head on his shoulder. you draped one of your arms on his stomach while Jeno wrapped an arm around you as he played with his phone . you felt the warmth that you've been craving for after your older brother passed away. Jeno was like an older brother to you and he protects you like how a brother does. your relationship was like a simple siblings relationship. there for one another though you guys always argue over petty things.

Jeno looked at your phone when he felt it vibrate a few times. he was about to ask you to pick up your phone but he noticed that you fell asleep. he quickly took your phone and answered the call before the vibrations wake you up.

"hey babe? where are you? why aren't you replying to my texts?". Jeno heard Haechan's voice from the other line.

"oh Haechan. yeah she's here. i guess she's just tired. yeah come back hurry, she is just taking a nap. alright, see you.". Jeno hung up and sighed. Jeno carressed your shoulders as you curled in closer to his chest. Jeno didn't want his bestfriend to get hurt. He didn't want his friend to be hurt too. he sighed for the nth time and hoped for the best.

once Haechan reached home, he stood still in front of his girlfriend who was literally cuddling his housemate. Jeno didn't seem bothered by his stare and woke you up calmly.

"hey wake up. Haechan is back.". Jeno said gently as he tapped your shoulder. Haechan smiled when he heard you groan as he found it cute. but his smile dropped and his fists curled when you buried your face into the crook of Jeno's neck and mumbled. "5 more mins". Jeno chuckled and pulled you off him gently as he stood up. Haechan was thankful for Jeno's actions or else he would have punched him in the face.

you opened your eyes slowly only to see your boyfriend staring at you. you wiped your eyes and was fully awake as if you haven't been sleeping for the past half an hour. your burning heart made it hard for you to think about sleep.

Jeno cleared his throat before excusing himself. "i'll be in my room if you guys need anything.".

Haechan nodded and sat beside you once Jeno was inside. "is everything okay?". Haechan asked softly. you rolled your eyes and stood up . you ignored him totally and went straight for the front door. Haechan quickly ran towards you and grabbed your wrist to stop you. "what is going on babe?!". you scoffed and turned to him. "what is going on? stop acting dumb Haechan! you know well what is wrong.". Haechan sighed and looked at you coldly. "is it because i talked to Seungyeon?". you pulled back you wrist and shook your head in disbelief.

"you know well that i don't mind you talking to other girls. i am not that petty and childish to get jealous over shitty things. heck, even your tablemate is a girl! did i get mad ? no!". you paused to take a breath.

"you. you didn't even defend me when Seungyeon bullied me! you listened to all her words--".

your words were cut by his. " i didn't want her to feel left out , that's all! i didn't want her to feel like a thirdwheel with us.". Haechan explained calmly as if what you said before didn't bother him. you closed your eyes and took a deep breath.

" really? didn't want her to feel left out but it's okay if i am put aside? it is okay that my opinions are not being listened? it is okay for a classmate to bully me like that?boys are really boys huh. you didn't even notice that she was giving me looks. you know what? Seungyeon is going to be so happy right now.". you paused to muster up all your courage. Haechan looked at you, confused with what you were going to say next.

"you're available starting this very second. go on and flirt with her all you want without having me as a burden.i'm breaking up with you Lee Donghyuk.".

Haechan knew he messed up bad when you stopped calling him by his nickname. Haechan shook his head and grabbed your shoulders. "no! i can fix this! i like you not her! please babe, please don't do this.". you pushed him away and wiped a tear that fell on your cheek.

"no. she is a bully. not to me only but to many more. and you. you're her accomplice. i don't associate myself with such people. people who took my brother away from me. i lost half of my heart already. i'm not losing my other half. not to someone like you. we are done Lee Donghyuck. now and forever.". it hurt you to say those things but you believed it was for your own good. you quickly ran out of the house, not giving Haechan a chance to say anything. Haechan was frozen from your words. He wanted to chase after you but his legs gave away. he was on the floor, clutching his chest while soft sobs echoed the living room. Jeno went out of his room softly and sighed when he saw his housemate. he quickly went beside him and patted his back to comfort his friend.

*it's for your best Haechan* Jeno thought as he felt like crying himself.

you didn't attend the next discussions. you decided to just do it on your own though it might affect your grade. you were more willing to act this way rather than hurt yourself and Haechan more.

"this is a very good research y/n. but I cannot give you higher than a C because rules are rules. this was supposed to be a group project hence one of the criterias is teamwork. i really love your project but i am very sorry.". your teacher said as she handed you your grade for the project. you smiled and thanked her. "it is okay Mrs Moon. it is what i deserve anyways. thank you.".

you went back to your seat and saw a glimpse of Haechan. he looked guilty when he heard the conversation between you an the teacher. he knew you've always worked hard in everything and try your best to get straight As. but because of him, your grade was affected. you ignored his stare and kept your graded assignment.

and that marks the end of your school semester as summer break has begun. you quickly packed your bag and ran to the school entrance as usual after your break up. you didn't want to bump into him. it's been about a month since then. he would text you and call you everyday since the break up but you of course ignored everything. you blocked his number and asked Jeno to tell Haechan not to bother you anymore. you wanted to heal. you wanted to move on. people might say that you're petty but you take your relationships seriously especially after the death of your brother. who commited suicide after his 'friends' stabbed him in the back. and especially because you never felt anything like when you were with Haechan before. Haechan has a very special space in your heart. till now. but you didn't want to ruin your precious memories with bitter ones. hence it was better for you to break up with him before more bitter memories were created, overflooding your precious ones.

~

you decided to apply for a job at a small cafe. a cafe owned by an elder couple. the cafe was small and didn't have a lot of customers but that was all you needed. peace. calmness.

you were serving your regulars when a new yet familiar face entered the cosy cafe. you held your head down and greeted the customer softly. you completed the regulars' orders before taking the next customer's order. "it's my first time coming here. my friend told me that the food here is good. but would you recommend me anything?". you nodded your head and pointed to the fudgy chocolate cake. you knew he loved chocolate so much. he always has a bag full of chocolates in his bag. he smiled and nodded. "i'll take that then and a cup of americano.". you keyed in his orders and quickly prepared them. he took his orders and went to a table nearest to the counter where he could see you work. you only sighed and pulled your cap down to cover your face while doing your work.

it was finally time to close the cafe. but he was still there. reading your shared favourite book. you took a deep breath and went up to him. "i'm sorry but we are closing the cafe now.". he looked up from the book and smiled. your breath hitched. the face that you have been missing and at the same time avoiding was looking straight at you right now. "can we talk a bit?". Haechan asked.

you knew this was coming. you knew you can't run from this forever. "sure,just let me clean some stuff up,".

the two of you were finally sitting opposite of each other, face to face. you looked at your fingers all the way. you didn't want to face him. not after hurting him. but you still believed he deserved it for hurting you too. you felt warm fingers wrapping themselves around yours. oh how you've missed his warm hands. "do you still like me?". he asked calmly. you kept quiet for a while before looking up to him with teary eyes.

"of course i still like you, Lee Donghyuck.". you replied.

Haechan smiled and squeezed your hand that he was holding. he was about to celebrate when you stopped him by pulling your hand away from him gently.

"but we are not meant to be with each other. i like you. i love you. but we can't be together. i want to thank you for all the precious memories that you've given to me. i would like to also apologise, for hurting you with my words. i was hurt too but this is the best for us. please, don't try and fix something that is already broken into pieces.".

Haechan gulped, restraining himself from crying. "i really messed up bad huh?". he said as he stood up quietly. "i wish the best for you. i hope you would find happiness someday.....

i love you.".

Haechan said before going straight to the door.

you watched his back walk without turning to look at you again.

*this is for the best. this for our best.* you thought as you wiped your neverending tears.

pics credits to the rightful owners💕

[honey-andtea1889]

Hi babes. Can you write something about you fall in love with your besfriend!harry. But he has a girlfriend and when he know that you love him, he stay away from you. And he regret that because he also love you. Angst and happy ending pls. Thank you.

This took forever but here it is!! I hope you like it love bug! ♥️♥️

You and Harry were the best of friends. You two have been inseparable since you were in primary school, hell your families thought you’d be married once you got older! Though you both kept denying the rumored romance, you couldn’t help to develop a little bit of feelings for Harry. You didn’t tell him out of the fear of ruining the friendship and boy was that a mistake.

Your feelings grew with age. You didn’t know how to really express your love for your best friend without feeling like it would be weird and the feeling only got worse whenever Harry got a girlfriend. It would hurt you every time you saw photos online or hear him mention her name on your phone calls while he was on tour. It was a lot to take in, but you had to support him no matter what because at the end of the day, he was your best friend and you wanted him to be happy.

Harry had called you earlier in the day saying that he was going to stop by and visit before visiting his girlfriend, Amber. You rushed around your small, London apartment, picking up any mess that was made before your best friend arrived. As you set a kettle of tea on the stove, you heard the front door open and a booming voice through your home.

“Y/N!!” Your best friend yelled, walking around in search of you. “Harry!!” You squealed and ran to his embrace. His hugs were always the best. They could calm you if you were feeling panicked or make you feel happy when you’re down. His green eyes met up with yours as he smiled down at you. His eyes would always have you swooning whenever you looked into them. It took everything in you not to look down at his perfect pink lips, yearning for the feeling of them on yours.

“How’ve you been pet?” He asked. You blushed at the nickname he gave you, pulling away from his warm hug to walk into the kitchen, with Harry hot on your heels. “Alright I guess. Been working a bunch and been hanging with some friends here and there. How was tour?” You asked, grabbing two cups down from the cupboard. Harry went on about how he sold out arenas and how all of his fans knew every word to his songs, he even performed two new songs that you were blessed to hear before he ever sang them.

You knew this job was the world to him. From the beginning, you always loved how he went on about performing on stage and writing music for his fans and so on. It was his passion, his excitement for this job was what made you beam with joy. You’ve never seen anyone with the amount of love for a job than Harry with being one of the world’s biggest singers.

You smiled as he continued, sipping on your tea. The overwhelming excitement in the room lead you to say the thing you’ve been hiding from him for years. “Harry, I’m in love with you.” The words leaving your mouth didn’t process in your brain until after you had said it. Your eyes widened and you covered your mouth as quick as possible. Harry stopped his story and just stared at you. “You…you’re what?” He whispered. You stood still in your kitchen with your hand still covering your mouth.

“Y/N..I-I have a girlfriend…you-you can’t-“ “I know you have a girlfriend Harry. I know. You think I wanted to go all these years-“ And that’s when he lost it. “Years?! You’ve been in love with me for years and you thought NOW was the time to tell me?!” Harry yelled, standing up from the barstool he was sat in. You shrunk at his big voice. This isn’t the first time he’s yelled at you like this. You’ve gotten into fights but it didn’t change how much him yelling made you feel small and hurt.

The first fight you two ever had was about how your ex boyfriend was treating you when the two of you were together. It was an emotionally abusing relationship and Harry wasn’t okay with how the guy was treating you. You argued in the favor of your ex and ended up not speaking to Harry for at least three days. You, however, knew this argument was totally different. You could almost see your friendship crumbling in front of you and that broke your heart more than it already was.

“I didn’t know how to tell you!” You yelled back. Harry scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Oh but you have the confidence to just blurt it out now?? What about Amber, Y/N?! Huh???” He continued. You can see the frustration in his eyes and that wasn’t what you were expecting when you told him your biggest secret.

“Harry, I’m sorry to say this, but Amber doesn’t really matter right now.” You explained with an aggravated sigh. That triggered something in Harry that made him go ballistic. “Are you fucking kidding me?! This could possibly ruin my relationship with her!! You know I finally feel like I found someone who is right for me but you have to come in and be selfish. Why do you do that?!” Harry yelled. Your eyes begin to tear up but you avoid his hard gaze.

“You know what Y/N…” he started. You looked up at his angry face. Even when he was mad, he still looked absolutely perfect. His tight jaw, scrunched face, natural pout, and the once soft happy green eyes that were now hard and full of anger, still had your heart thumping. “I’m done..” he said. With that, Harry grabbed his coat and left without a single word.

Once the front door closed, your sobs could be heard on the other side of the world. Your lifelong best friend, the love of your life, left you without a second thought. All because you decided to finally express your feelings to him.

Harry didn’t feel any better. As he got in his car, he began to cry. The realization of him deciding to cut you out was the hardest thing he did. Harry had been confused about his feelings lately. He saw you as his best friend and didn’t want to destroy that friendship but at the same time, he felt something with his current girlfriend. But his feelings for you were starting to get in the way of his relationship. The relationship he claimed to be happy in.

Harry drove home and sat in his driveway. He didn’t know if he was ready to go in and see Amber. He was very emotional. The amount of confusion and anger and even sadness going through his head was too much to handle at the moment. Maybe this was a good thing? Maybe the time apart will help with everything and things can go back to normal?

Harry wiped his face. Finally getting the strength to leave the car, he slumped to his house. “Babe?” Amber called out. Harry flinched at that word. “Yeah..I’m home.” He sighed. He met his girlfriend in the foyer of his home.

Amber was very pretty. She was tan with big brown eyes. Her long brown hair ended in the middle of her slim figure. You could definitely tell she was Harry’s type. Usually when Harry saw Amber, his heart would skip a beat and the smile on his face would brighten up. Today was different. Harry sort of felt confined with amber. He felt suffocated and he couldn’t go to you to get away. That’s what killed him the most.

-MONTHS LATER-

You’d been getting your mind off of not seeing Harry. It’s been hard honestly. The first week alone was miserable. You cried almost everyday, you couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, even watching TV shows were a nightmare because they reminded you of the happy times with Harry. The guilt of admitting your feelings to him was eating at you. Harry had gotten a new number or blocked you or something because when you tried calling to apologize, the dial tone would cut out. That only broke your heart more.

Things got a little better. You were promoted to executive manager at your job, which was very much needed since the bills and rent for your apartment had been through the roof. You’d been seeing your family a little more but not too often due to your new position at work. You even ran into Anne and Gemma during your lunch break. It was an awkward encounter at first but the three of you kept it brief.

During this time, you didn’t hear from Harry. He didn’t even call you on your birthday. It was very hard to survive without your best friend but you were slowly managing.

Romance-wise there was no one. You felt like you couldn’t go out and find someone because Harry was still on your mind. Everything he said that day had made a permanent wound that you didn’t know how to fix. Of course there was the occasional one night stand but again, that wasn’t something you really wanted.

Harry, during this, was a wreck. Him and Amber had a huge falling out and it ended with him expressing his love for you to her. After Amber left, Harry found that drinking became his new best friend. He kept thinking about you. How you and him would watch reruns of your favorite shows, how you would go on about a plot line of a story you read, how you both would sing along to the radio when you went on trips. He was a mess.

Harry really did miss you. The amount of times he’s wanted to call drove him crazy but he felt as if you both needed the time apart. He wonder d how you were doing and if you found someone yet. Secretly and quite selfishly, he was hoping you didn’t.

He realized that he loved you after the first week of not speaking. He came to his sense after he saw his mother and sister.

Now how to go to and explain everything? He’s not quite sure how to do that. Maybe go to your job and hope for the best? No, that’s too creepy. Maybe show up at your apartment? No that’s weirder. He didn’t want to impose but he has already waited months to get his feelings figured out and didn’t want to wait years to tell you.

Harry decided to be a creep and find you at work. Was it going to be creepy? Yeah a bit, but he had to see you. Harry rushed to throw on clothes and hopped in his car. He raced to the building, almost speeding.

Harry was excited. He finally has the chance to tell you how he feels and not have to question anything about it. He was getting the chance that you took but he denied.

Once he got to your job, Harry practically ran inside. He went to the front desk and saw Jenna, the receptionist and one of your friends. “Jenna” Harry started. “Is Y/N in?” “Um yeah..she should be in her office.” Jenna hesitated. Jenna knew what happened with Harry. She was the one who helped you through the first month they’d went separate ways. She was a little surprised to see Harry here. She thought he wanted nothing to do with Y/N after the fight, but she figured she was wrong.

“Y/N? Hi it’s Jenna. I have someone here to see you, should I send them back?” Jenna’s voice rang through the phone. “Okay, he’ll be down shortly.” She hung up. “Her office is down the hall, first door on the right.” Jenna instructed. Harry nodded and bolted to her office.

There he stood. Right in front of her office. He was nervous just being in the same vicinity you. His heart was racing. He couldn’t bring himself to knock on the door. God, what if you didn’t even want to see him? Harry was starting to second guess this but then-

“Harry?” You said. You were surprised he was here. You honestly weren’t expecting to see him of all people outside your office. He looked a little different from the last time you saw him. His hair grew a bit and he had some facial hair slightly sprouting amongst his chin. He was still very handsome, but something caught your eye. His once happy green eyes held sadness and regret.

“Hi..um..sorry..I just…” Harry sighed. “I needed to see you.” Your eyes widened a little bit. He wanted to see you? He was the one that ended everything, why would he want to see you?

You scoffed slightly. “Why? You were the one who said that you didn’t want to see me. Why do you all of the sudden need to see me?” You said, accidentally throwing an attitude. Harry looked at the floor. “I..I wanted to say that I’m so sorry for treating you the way I did and abandoning you when I should’ve listened.” He started.

“These past few months, I’ve been dreading saying the shit that I did. I’ve been caught up in my own sorrow to realize that maybe I felt the same way. After the first week, I wasn’t myself. I felt like I’ve lost a huge part of my heart and I could do anything. I ended up realizing that I love you as well. I didn’t know how to express it and I was drowning in confusion and stress that I didn’t even bother to think about my feelings for you or how I made you feel that day. But Y/N…I love you. I know that probably doesn’t mean anything now but I love every ounce of you and I feel like such an idiot for ever thinking that shutting you out was a good idea.” Harry said, slightly wiping his tears away.

You were baffled by his confession but really touched. He loved you as well? How long has this been on his mind? What happened with Amber? So many questions filled your head and you didn’t know where to begin but your actions once again took over.

Your lips crashed into his, taking in the moment. Both of your lips moved in sync, creating a slow but passionate rhythm. You pulled away after a few minutes of kissing the love of your life to take a breath. Both of you were panting and giggled at the sight of how you guys were.

“Do me a favor?” You asked. “Anything for you love.” Harry smiled, holding you close. “Don’t ever pull that shit again.” You laughed, playing with the thin brown curls at the nape of his neck. Harry chuckled and pecked your lips. “Never again babe.”

[glittergothqueeen]

Again.

So I have been into like a faze where a lot of thngs can actually happen and I still only will blog about it here when I feel like its the moment or when I actually have time. I have been very busy latley and ugh.  I have a lot to write about. So there was a party / Rave last weekend. You guess correcly he was there and he was actually going to be playing. You see I actually really wanted to blog about this because it was like a phase or changing moment in my life where I just literally did not give a flying fuck , and yes it was payback night.  

      Weeks ago his bestfriend called me , and I think at this point when I reffer to “him” it’s my dumb ass ex bf. Honestly it might seem crazy how I always some how manage to write some shit about him but this was like an important climax in my life. So his bestfriend had insited for me to go, my friends are mostly all from el valle de Mexicali, so I know if they are actually going to come to a party all the way over here to the city , well its legit a big party. So I had been doubting forever if I should go or not. I thought it was pointless and actually didnt want him to seem I wanted to see him or something. You know , I hit up my besfriend she was down to go and was actually going to sleep over at my house. The day comes I get my bitch make up on , and ofcourse comfy clothes cause hello, its a damn rave. So we get there like at 12am and sweet lord my stomach dropped to my fucking feet when I felt all the vibes. Honestly I felt like such a coviditot because Covid is not over , and you know it-s still a damn deal to go out and be exposed. I saw a lot of people , and one of my ex bfs friend that hit on me months ago with his gf , I saw him , I saw everyone but I was with my friends minding my buisness. When I saw him but ignored him . It was pretty kick back there was a lot of people,drugs , alcohol, you name it , it was there. It wasnt till the moment I was walking outside and I almost bumped into him I looked up and there he was this fucking guy who literally was in control of everyone of my damn emotions at a point of my life and for many years, I didn’t wanna seem so damn disrespectful so “Hey Orlando, how are you” came out of my mouth. We said our hellos , he smiled at me , that damn fucking smile , that fucking smile. I kept my bitch face on we talked for less than a minute and there I walked out , his friend stared at me and I could feel just the tension. I walked outside with my friend and she said I handled it like an adult and she was proud of me. 

    So  I know this plays a big role in this whole story but there is a guy. A guy who has been following me on instagram for months I would say like 2 years and well honeslty I though he was a fuckboy for some reason , we had like a conversation of wanting to meet up someday or go out but its just one of those things that never actually happen. Earlier that day of the party I had messaged him to see if he wanted to go , but I didnt think he was actually wanting to go.  So while in the rave this guy comes up to me and hes like “Hey do you know who I am ?” and yes , it was him. I had totally forgotten his damn name I just knew he did Graffiti. So I was like “The graffiti guy?” he laiughed we talked for a bit but he was like with some friends. Yes the devil started getting ahold of my soul and I had an idea. My ex was standing at the door way , and I went over where this new guy “the graffiti guy” and he started talking to me I went outside right where mt ex was at and I started talking to my new Instagram guy. I just saw Orlando looking at us and then I walked away. I wanted him to know I was over him , and have him notice I can get someone hotter than him. I did the same in the rave and danced in front of him. I felt like an Euphoria moment and yes I was Maddy. 

So this guy never left my side and he actually kisssed me , I was so damn suprised because I was not fucking expecting that , like no please dont do that. It was not even like a make out kiss , it was like a 3 second peak kind of kiss. I smiled and just avoided making any emphasis. Not sure if Orlando saw that. 

It was 4am and my friend was so sleepy so we decided to leave , I said good bye to my new Instagram guy, and I actually said good bye to Orlando we talked for a bit and for once I felt such a peace , I could tell in the look in his eyes he was just on some trippy acid shit or some damn drug because of his eyes. He said I hope you take really good care and he gave me the biggest hug ever. He hugged me and I felt the peace I wanted from his end as well. 

[this-is-j-voice-blog]

why...

someimes i dont know why i tell people my problems or how I'm feeling. it just makes things worse for me. i love to talk to people like when something is bothering me. i like to tell them how im feeling. like with my boyfriend, jeremiah, when something is bothering me i like to tell him how i feel. he use to handle it really well but now it just seems like he doesnt care. me and him hardly talk. i mena we’ve been together for three years we dont need to talk 24/7 but you know he became my besfriend. hes the one i love to talk to. i love gossiping with him and if i could i would text/talk to him all day everyday about everything. and thats how it use to be in the beginning. theres so many things wrong with us but we’ll just talk about this first. 

lately our talks have been boring for quite awhile now. it just small talk tbh. he will tell me hes busy but then talk to all these people online. like why cant you talk to me. i miss the way things use to be and thats another thing wrong with us. but the talks are what i miss the most. i dont want to just talk about my week when i see him on saturdays bc thats reslly the only day we will see each other. i wanna know what photographhy jobs he has lined up that day. i want to know how his day went and what his favorite car was to shoot that day, because he works at a delarship taking pics of cars and thats both his passion. but we’re really good when we’re together. its just during the week we have alot of problems. i honeslty think because i dont have his attention during the week. half of this... well most of this is because he works at a delarship and at home. so realisticly he doesn't get off of work till like 6:00pm. he also has his own little photography business so hes constantly on social media dming people and posting shit. then he has church. which is every tuesday, Thursday, and sundays. but thursdays he has school now so hes out being a photographer. im the type of person to want reassurance he doesnt really give me that because of all his stuff he has. and im not gonna lie he does do a lot for me. like honestly when we are with each other hes the best ever. but away its like. i just want all ur attention. all the time. i know he cant give it to me all the time but just for a couple hours. i miss talking to him. and thats something that he doesnt get. that all im asking for is a few hours of ur attention. but he never wants to talk or hes busy but all these people who want a photographer he will dm and talk to. i support him i dont want to come off as i dont because he is where he is now bc of me and you can ask him that and he’ll say the same thing. but in all that where does he have time for me. when is he just gonna ofiicaly get off work and spend time with me. its always constant “sorry i was busy.” or hes up posting online while im still left on delivered. can you guys see where i am at. i just feel llke its not about me anymore and he has all this other stuff to worry about and im just in the way.

i cant leave him well because i love him. hes everything to me and honeslty i think i would be ded right now if he never came iinto my life. when we’re good we are really good. i cant let him go....

[cipokleherberna]

How we end up with each other

It was Friday, in our highschool we have an event where we goes out to the nearest buildings to gather trashes and just basically clean up the whole place, and every month we got picked randomly, we got like 4-5 people per class, and she was there

I was always a shy kid, and never really talk to anyone, especially we were just like the first month of highschool, pretty much still being strangers to each others (or at least i think), and i see that sophie was pretty playful with each other, she talk with everyone else there, and she always talk with everyone who has positions in the class so i thought shes kind of unreachable

But, surprisingly, she came towards me and probably think about talking to me since nobody was, and she did, she talked to me, i remember her first question was, 'do you think that today is hot ?' i never get that kind of question before, she's doing pep talk ? with me ? i wasnt really falling in love with her, i still got a crush on a girl in my Junior Highschool Classmate that time, which of course i couldnt never tell because she would freak out by the fact that im a lesbian

and i think we got along pretty much, she likes talking with me, we have so much things in common, like how we ended up in that highschool because we didnt get accepted in our first choice, how we hate hot days, that we think the clothes our school made was terrible and other things

we talked and talked until we got back to our class, we have separated seats, so we had to stop talking, and i think after that happened, i saw her talking with the other kids, in the same fashion that she talked with me, so what i thought that we had something special was maybe wrong, she is a person who do that to anyone.

BUT at the same time, she suddenly Adds me on Facebook, i didnt tell her that i had facebook, well maybe, anybody has facebook back then so i thought 'well she might be just list every student in the class and adds them one by one, but then she chats me 'Hey, berna, its me, sophie'

and i was really shocked 'Hi, did you adds me just by sudden ?' and yeah she added me not because of the reason i thought, she adds me because she wants to talk with me more, she said im fun to talk with.

i was really happy that day, i thought, she is my first friend, and we are friends.

so closer to mid semester, we became really close, me and sophie have our own circle of friend, but most of the time, its just me and her, some classmates even teases us that we look like a pair of balls (as in penis), always stick together, and yeah, the more i knew her, the i realized that i fell in love with her.

and then, one day, i ask her something that might sounds unsual, but looking back at how close we were, we pretty much talk about unsual stuff all the time, and its pretty safe to ask ; what she thought about lesbians.

surprisingly, she said 'i used to have a friend, who was lesbian, had a crush on me and ask me to be her gf' and of course i asked 'who was it ? whats your reaction ? did you get disgusted by it ?', and she said 'shes a girl from a different class, but we were close, honestly, i think the reason she asked me to become her gf is because i kind of flirted with her and give her confidence to open herself, she was cute and i think if i was a guy, i would fall in love with her'

and i said 'does that mean that you had a girl crush on her at least a little too ?', and she started to become shy and said 'well, dont tell anyone.. yes, i think i did' and then i got shocked, i think that was unreal, so she really try so hard for me to keep it as a secret, and so i asked 'did you go out with her then ?' and she said 'no, i was running away, i wasnt ready for that, i thought lesbians was pretty bizzare to me at that age, and i also was having a big crush on a guy'

but i think, over the years, she might learn that it wasnt really that bizzare anymore, i think she's more open minded about it, which in itself, is a pretty great achievement to have that mindset on such young age in this country.

so i said 'do you have a crush on me ?' jokingly and she said 'stop haha im embarassed', maybe i was using a bit too much joking tone that she didnt answer them seriously

and because of that conversation, i started to open up myself too, a week or so after, i said to her 'what if im a lesbian ?' and she said 'what ? really ?? youre a lesbian ??' and i said 'yeah, i am, since i was little' and then she was shocked, but she didnt ran away, or making distance with me, instead she asks 'you must be keeping it silence your whole life, arent you ?' and i said 'yeah, this is the first time i open myself' and she replies 'why ?' and i answer 'because youre the closest friend i've ever had'

so she ask embarassing questions like do i have crush on any girls on the class, do i always gets bothered when boys flirted with me, do i tell my parents about it

well after that reveal, she didnt change, she still look at me as her best friend

and, there i was, saying to myself 'she is perfect' and i am determined to ask her out

so, almost at the end of the semester, i made a video, which is a way to express my feelings to her, i said everything on that video, and i sent her the video through her e-mail which afterward i think i made the worst mistake, and after a while, she replied 'are you sure that you felt those ? meet me at (the mall beside our school) and say it to me directly'

and i was panicking, i have to ask her out directly ?! i didnt know that it would turned out like that, i think i have ruined our friendship

so, the day after, we meet at the food court, and i started talking to her, and just basically said 'i like you, do you want to be my girlfriend ?' and then even that i have given up on what answer she will give me, i still want it to be a yes, and the answer was... 'can i just 'try' ?'

i was confused and asked her for explanation, what she meant by that was she want to just try being my girlfriend, since she never did it before with a woman, and if it didnt worked out, she can abort it anytime

i was kind of bummed out, but i guess if i wanted her, i have to give her the best thing i could give, and so i accept that and yeah, we became lovers.

since then, we act like besfriends, but i became her 'boyfriend' figure for her, i am her girlfriend after all, and at first she was really not into it, and by that i meant, she didnt look like she liked me, she cheats on me, she ignores me and everything, and i will tell the story of my struggle of being her GF, in the next post.

[jeronemalangen]

AHMM

I just wanna Rant today..

1. I found out that he is already seeing someone and he honestly told me that he’s gonna risk it and i was shocked as fuck cause i honetly didn’t expect that and yup it fucking hurts. 

2.I wanna be really happy for him cause after all i spent 5 years and 6 months of my life with him and it wasn’t that bad and most importantly he’s the father of my child but why should i? when i also know deep down that i felt betrayed and i wasn’t over it. so why be a martyr?

3.You know what’s fucked up? EXPECTATIONS AND FAITH. I really thought i could change him cause I’ve given everything there is to give especially love, support, trust and something i thought he valued which is FAMILY.

4.I’ve watched celeste and jesse forever and i was crying like fuck cause i was hoping that our closure would be like theirs. and when celeste asked jesse “why didn’t you changed for me” my heart was hurting cause i know i have the same sentiments as her like why the hell didn’t you change for me.

5.I should be happy beacuse this summer all my lies that only he knew would be done because I’ve finally made it and he promised me that he will be there for me on that special day and now i have to celebrate it alone with bitterness cause i will only remember those broken promises. #jokesonme 

6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOUCHE BAG. its your birthday today and as much as i hate it and as much as i hate you, hope you had a good one and i hope i crossed your mind today. 

7.You know what’s hard seeing our baby and knowing that at an early age we are no longer a family and for now i think we have failed her. 

8.God knows how much ive given you and it was really exhausting to love you but for what its worth I NEVER GAVE UP ON YOU EVEN WHEN THERE ARE TIMES THAT I COULD JUST LEAVE ESPECIALLY AT YOUR DARKEST MOMENTS BUT I STAYED cause i promised you and i promised myself that i will be the rock of this family but you left anyway.

9. I’m not saying that i was the ideal girlfriend and that i was perfect because i know that i am far from that. I get mad at you when i feel like it and i keep on questioning you when i should have just trusted you and i keep on bringing back issues we’ve already solved and worst of all i’ve hurt your pride so many times but despite all that you also knew that i was always the one chasing you and i was the one who was always there for you for countless times. I MAY HAVE AN ATTITUDE BUT MY HEART WAS ALWAYS WITH YOU I DEFENDED YOU AND I LEFT MY COMFORT ZONE FOR YOU EVEN ENDED A FEW RELATIONSHIPS JUST FOR YOU, ALL IM SAYING IS THAT NO ONE IS PERFECT YOU OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW THAT CAUSE GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH IVE PUT UP WITH YOU BUT MAYBE  IT WAS ALWAYS ONE SIDED WITH YOU AND ME. ME BEING THE GIVER AND YOU THE TAKER.

10. I am not okay with everything that’s happening and I am not proud of the person you are becoming but you are not my problem now. Our relationship will always be a reminder for me that giving your all to someone and expecting that they will reciprocate that kind of love is bullshit. You taught me the hard way but i know myself, One day this will all be gone the anger, the questions and everything will make sense again. We will always have a connection through our baby and i hope that she will not experience a dad that will only disappoint her so my only prayer for you right now is to be the father that she deserves and as for you and me, I know that eventually i can look at you and be civil or even be friends with you but you have to prove yourself first. 

11. on an unrelated note, I don’t cry anymore when i see places or things that reminds me of you and i know even if you deny it that a part of me will always stay with you and likewise for me and that’s not a bad thing. We’ve said goodbye for so many times this past few months but now is different because you’ve broken that one rule and now there’s no going back. 

12. I’m new to this set up because it's the first time that someone left me and what’s worst is that he was also my besfriend,. I will miss the really weird things between you and me like your fetish on feets and smelling my hair before i take a bath but I’m relived also that I am starting my new life without you I’m leaving all our baggages in the past. I will move on from this cause i know myself and i also know that someday someone will make me believe again and i hope that someone will share my values and weirdness cause all i want in life is a family i can call my own and a love that feels right.

#J&BFOREVER #FEELINGCELESTE&JESSE #ULOLNIYAFORNOW #BYE

[pocky-girl-scenarios]

Here's a few.. 32, 34, 71, 74, 83, 85, 88, 103, 107, 108, 109, 115, 151, 154, 171, 175, 177, 179, 192, 225, 235, 243, 252, and 255. Sorry if it's too much!

Don’t worry about it anon! You’re fine. :) 

32- What talent do you wish you’d been born with?Hmmm... Probably singing.

34- Are you nice to everyone?I’m pretty nice to everyone. Only those who’ve hurt people i’m close to / love i’m not nice to pretty much. 

71- What’s your favorite color?It’s a tie of black and green. 

74- What are your favorite books?Warriors (the cat ones XD), Cirque du Freak, and game of thrones to name a few.

83- What is your favorite flower?Rose.

85- What is your favorite season?Winter.

88- Which mythological creature are you most like? Why?Ummm... I’m not sure? But my favorite are faries. lol. 

103- Where would you go on your dream vacation?Not to be “one of those” but honestly Japan and South Korea. 

107- Do you prefer to be friends with boys or girls?Boys

108- Who is someone you never tire of?I’m not sure on this one. Usually, when im dating someone, it’s that person. 

109- Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?yes. 

115- Say 5 facts about your besfriend(s).1- One i’ve known since 1st grade, 2- one’s family is all from Ohio (we live in NC), 3- one of them I don’t think i’ve ever met in person, 4- One is like my sister and goes to UNCA, 5- one of my besties is more or less a fuckboy. XD

151- What turns you off?BJ’s and Hj’s to put it simiply. XD

154- What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?Say they’re taking me on a road trip. 

171- Do you forgive betrayal?Never.

175- A description of the person you dislike the most.They’re about 5 foot, ‘blonde’ hair, attention seeker at my school, and i used to be friends with them until they came to my school and started to insult all of my friends and talk shit about them. 

177- How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?Girlfriends- 2 Boyfrinds- 7.

179- You’ll love me if...you feed me and deal with my kpop obsession. 

192- Do you like watching what type of movies?Horror.

225-If you were the president, what would you do?Make aboritons legal, approve gay marriage / do anything for LGBT rights, and legalize weed. 

235- five words/phrases that make you laugh. “How you knowww.”, “-iiiinnnnnggggg” (inside joke with me and a friend because of BTOB),... idk any others. XD

243- One of the hardest moments of your life.Probably when my parents split. I was already suffering from major depression and anorexia. and it got worse.

252- Do you hate anyone?Yup. 

255- What’s something you hide about your personality?I don’t know if it counts as my personality, per say, but i do hide the side of me that is there when my depression and all flares up.