#it's honestly more Kira than light but whatever

[bookwormbynight]

Do you think either L or Light being a woman would change the story in anyway?

It definitely would. 100%.

Let's see... Taking away the context of the people writing the story, (Ohba and Obata very obviously fucking HATED women and did not try to hide it 😭) and attacking this only from an in-world perspective...

Let's start with L. What I've always taken is that he doesn't have a particular attachment to the idea of gender, gender roles, gender expression, etc - he doesn't pay any particular attention to his appearance and I'm fairly certain his neutral clothing is the way it is simply because he finds that the easiest and most comfortable. However, I think he's perfectly comfortable with being perceived as a man because he is cisgender, just kind of detached from it. (I would take an argument from others about apathetic nonbinary L tho.) This would probably translate if he'd been born female. I don't think, at her core, she would act any different at all, but she would likely be more aware of her sex thanks to the fact that everyone else would pay more attention to it. The fact that L was male automatically removed barriers that female L would have to face. It would probably take longer to get Watari to listen to her than it did in canon, she would probably allow people to assume she was the wrong gender and not correct them for ease's sake when she contacted people as L through the voice filter, and when she met the Task Force face-to-face, she might spend a hot second fielding weird awkward bullshit, because the Task Force knew and trusted her before, and this doesn't really change who she is, but it would definitely shift their perception at least a little and that dissonance likely wouldn't be handled tactfully. If she acts the exact same as canon L, though, which I imagine she would, whatever 'fears' would be generally dissuaded fairly quickly and she would have their respect due to the relationship they had already built, just like what happened when they saw canon L's appearance, although the Task Force would likely end up assuming she's a lesbian even though she isn't. (This would also probably mean that she's equally as subject to accusations of perversion as canon L.)

Light would be. SO FUCKING AWARE OF HER GENDER. Canon Light is 100% a very cisgender gay man with a good heap of lightly gay-flavored perfectly in-line gender expression, publicly adhering to gender roles as best he perceives them, and a disdain for the opposite gender. Female Light would have a double whammy of suspicion and dislike of the opposite gender (now men), and also internalized misogyny. How nice <3. She would likely go out of her way to be much more publicly sweet and demure, downplay her confidence much more than canon Light bothers to (so as to not be seen as a bitch), and have a good heaping of bitterness about her 'societal restraints' (that she's consenting to be stuck in because she'd be one of those 'play nice and eventually they'll respect you' motherfuckers). She'd probably honestly go for playing Kira even quicker than canon Light does, simply because her future prospects are not as bright as her male counterpart's and she would be very frustrated about that and this would be an outlet, and while canon Light was NOT afraid to murder a rapist on sight, female Light might end up even seeking them out when looking for 'the worst of the worst' (I doubt canon Light did), because she would now be a part of the population that lives under that fear, and those actions might skew her statistics. I think the face-to-face introduction of L into her life would fucking rock her world.

Moving to the topic of sexualities and romantic subtext, I think Light would be a gender-conforming femme closeted lesbian (I like to think she would have a particular weird thing about boobs and that would be the only thing that sticks out about her to her friends, because aversion to sex with men is not considered particularly notable in women in this patriarchal society - which fucking baffles me but whatever). If Misa's still a girl, I can't decide if she would decide that she's in love with this Light, or rationalize her devotion as more of a platonic thing, but since she would be part of the gender Light trusts and relates to more, even though she hates how vapid Misa appears (internalized misogyny + superiority complex!), their relationship might end developing to more closely resemble canon Light's relationship to Mikami. If Misa's a guy, their relationship would stay the exact same, just with the assumed gender roles swapped, and the imminent threat of Misa getting down on one knee and proposing to Light out of the blue at any time (and also maybe being more overtly sexually aggressive because society would have let him feel entitled to that). I personally think canon L is bisexual and as such female L's sexual bullshit would not have changed in the slightest.

The way Light is treated by the Task Force might start derailing the story when they begin to intertwine. Also I would not at all be surprised if male!Misa tries to babytrap Light by poking holes in the condoms and switching out her pills because he thinks she, a female with biological urges, will grow to appreciate what he did. (She will not.)

[animeyanderelover]

It’s been eternities since I’ve written for Death Note. I actually did a request of L and Light falling in love with the same darling but honestly, that’s been so long ago and my skills since then have improved quite a lot so I’ll just do it again.

Tw: Yandere themes, toxic relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, stalking, clinginess, manipulation, delusional mindset, gaslighting, sadism, threats, violence, abduction, isolation

Falling for the same darling

Light Yagami & L Lawliet

✍️​🍰​You'd have to be someone either involved in the Kira case or someone who is close to Light which would make you automatically a victim to L's observation. After all you could be an accomplice of Kira if you were to be someone who Light trusts a lot. Whatever the case is, you will get dragged into this one way or another with those two fighting over you because they will absolutely not share you. Whilst I would say that L would actually be the one who would fall faster for you, especially if you give him lots of sweets, he is the slower one in realizing his own feelings. So whilst Light takes longer to gain an interest in you if he shouldn't have known you much prior to L's involvement, he would be the one to notice his own feelings as well as L's equally big interest in you. It's obvious that the detective has formed an attachment to you as he constantly clings to your side as soon as he sees you and even insists on sharing his sweets with you, not to mention the slight blush he has on his face when you do something that makes his heart flatter.

✍️​🍰​Before Light can even begin forming a plan though, L realizes his own feelings too. It took him only the tiniest bit longer because he has never been in love with someone before and the constant isolation due to his identity having to remain a secret have caused him to not be very in tune with his own emotions yet funnily enough he has noticed Light's interest in you before he fully noticed his own. Now that both of them are on the same page though and both of them are aware of that. From that day on both of them start another warfare behind your back as neither one of them wants to expose themselves to you and to the other just yet. It's still too early. So a lot of hidden blackmailing and subtle manipulation is involved as both of them play tug of war without trying to alarm you just yet. Light and L are constantly testing the other one out as they both start getting more involved with your life.

✍️​🍰​Light initially might have a bit of an advantage over L who has still to figure out how to handle his romantic and obsessive interest with you. He's charming, handsome, intelligent and knows how to flirt with and court someone. So he uses this experience in an attempt to get closer to you as he is a master of acting and tries to manipulate you subtly into listening to him and acting to his liking. He has more freedom than L most of the time as he has a life outside of working together with the police force and L to expose who Kira really is. L is because of the case sometimes more limited as he doesn't spend as much time outside as Light does and especially if you are also in college like Light is, he is aware that the boy has a lot of time he can spend with you. If that is the case he tries to interfere as much as he can by either keeping Light busy or using another cover to just squeeze himself in between the two of you as much as possible. He's like a really pesky leech that refuses to unlatch from you.

✍️​🍰​Your opinion of Kira is important to both of them as they constantly question you about your opinion about him and your own definition of justice as both of them try to manipulate you to agree with their own thoughts. Light has to be a lot more careful than L though because differently from L who makes his dislike towards Kira obvious, Light would potentially expose himself to the detective if he were to admit that he supports him. L might even go as far as showing you pictures of the victims of Kira to mortify you and Light is on the inside always seething as he instantly scolds the black-haired man for his insensitive behavior towards you. Light uses his chances in exploring L's far more obvious awkwardness around you as it is obvious for him that the detective doesn't really know how to behave around you. That leads L to coming over as weird and creepy at times when his dark eyes feel like daggers about to pierce through you, obsessively watching your every move.

✍️​🍰​Despite Light's advantage when it comes to behaving like a normal person around you, L has far more influence than he has. He can easily get his hands on all sorts of information about you and can stalk you by getting all camera footage or even going as far as installing a tracker on you. L is able to keep an eye on you even if you aren't with him whilst Light has to bicker with Ryuk until the Shinigami eventually agrees to stalk you for a bit for Light's sake and in return the boy buys him his beloved apples. Light is fully aware that L could probably take you away by framing you for something within an hour and the only reason he hasn't done it just yet is because he is determined to catch Light in his lies, partially by even using you a bit. I can't exactly deny that both of them sort of explore you to get under the skin of the other one since you're currently their weak spot. They keep their dislike above each other hidden when you are around but as soon as you turn your back to them, they look at each other in discontent.

✍️​🍰​The involvement of Misa is a double-edged sword for both Light and L due to her own obsession with Light. She gets extremely jealous of you because she wants Light for herself and he had to suppress the urge to slap her or even just outright kill her since she possesses the Shinigami eyes and because Rem has also threatened to kill him if anything should happen to her. He is forced to keep her on a tight leash and tell her that she is his only one even if her touch makes his skin crawl. Whilst L is obviously cautious of her because she might be the second Kira, he also explores Misa for his own advantage as he uses her as some sort of cheating code to keep Light busy and hog your attention and time for himself whilst leaving Light silently losing his mind whilst trying to deal with Misa. Tension grows as time passes on though and things start to escalate as Light as well as L start putting you in dangerous situations only to rush to your rescue as your personal hero to earn your trust and gratitude all whilst being the ones who are responsible for it anyways. It doesn't matter who you choose, in the end the one who wins this war also wins you.

Fyodor Dostoevsky & Nikolai Gogol

🍎​🕊️​Surprisingly enough a pair that could work somewhat together although don't just get all comfy because of that. Nikolai already has a weird fascination going on with Fyodor whilst Nikolai is possibly the only member in the Decay of Angels and the only person overall that Fyodor sees as more than just a pawn. The one major problem this interest that both of them share for you initially is Nikolai's desire to free himself from his own emotions. He expresses his wish to Fyodor that he wants to kill you too to free himself from the binding chains that tie him to you and that is one of the few times where Fyodor actually threatens the clown to kill him if he should ever try to end your life. Nikolai can't lie tha he enjoys the fact that he can actually get a reaction out of Fyodor, as subtle as it may be and in an almost weirder sense does he think that the friendship between Fyodor and him deepens as he sees both of them as chained to you because of their shared interest in you. What a wonderful experience this is~

🍎​🕊️​Nikolai is the one who will one day just appear in your life and get in contact with you with his eccentric personality whilst Fyodor remains for now in the shadows and watches everything closely. It's likely that he has made a deal with Nikolai to prevent the clown from possibly ending up killing you by telling him that he'd give him a chance to kill him later as soon as both of them have secured their hold on you. From the very first moment with you, Nikolai is very social and open around you in his own weird ways. Despite his somewhat eccentric ways though, he is actually fun to be around and likeable due to his own quirkiness. He can joke with you and make you laugh and shows you some magic tricks too to keep you entertained all whilst gauging you for every facial expression you can give him. He wants to see everything you have to offer from your joy and laughter to your tears and your sorrow as he sometimes doesn't care when something terrible happens to you as his eyes are glued to your face, gleaming with sadistic joy and fascination.

🍎​🕊️​Whilst Nikolai takes for now over the part of spending time with you and getting to know you personally, Fyodor takes over everything from behind the scenes. He gathers the information about everything else in your life from your family to your friends to your job to your entire past. Both of them exchange intel about you every night over a cup of tea. Most of the time it is Nikolai just gushing and rambling about everything he could observe whilst spending time with you as he switches back and forth between having a sickly infatuated smile on his face to a scarily sadistic grin as he wonders how you would react if he were to kill someone you love in front of you or if he would hurt you. Fyodor just listens calmly to him as Nikolai talks and talks and talks about you, recalling everything about in accurate detail before Fyodor eventually has to interfere or else the white-haired man might talk for hours about you. Nikolai just gets so very easily lost in thoughts of you.

🍎​🕊️​Nikolai doesn't think about stopping Fyodor though when he starts slowly crushing everything you have so carefully built and established in your life. In fact he supports his bestie with this deed as he gets to enjoy you slowly unraveling in front of him each and every day as your life slowly falls apart. He has seen you already expressing joy, surprise and confusion but he has never witnessed you giving him a face full of despair so he sucks your every expression and sound up like a dry sponge with an utterly fascinated and happy grin on his face. The fact that you get freaked out when you notice the smile on his face as he leans closer to you, his gleaming eyes scrutinizing your face closely and carefully to engrave this memory in his mind just like he has done with everything else you've done, doesn't really bother him. Instead he starts questioning you how it feels to lose everything as he chooses to give you some of his quizzes, his scary behavior slowly pushing you away from him. By now it is far too late already though.

🍎​🕊️​You are put in a literal cage by Nikolai's desires as he could spend hours staring at you in it, his hands clutching tightly the bars as a frenzied look appears in his eyes as if he is about to pounce on you every moment now. How does it feel to be a bird without freedom now~? Do you feel the same sweet torment as he does? Or are you just in plain misery? Whatever you feel, he's sure it'll be entertaining. As crazy as it sounds, you almost prefer Fyodor for a while as he is much more calmer than Nikolai as he's the one who actually gives you some information instead of his partner who just toys with you and keeps you on edge all of the time. Sometimes he even apologizes for Nikolai's eccentric and overbearing and if he would have any heart left inside of him, he might even sympathize with you because he is all too familiar with Nikolai's antics by now. If you thought that you were suffering before, you're in a world of pain now.

🍎​🕊️​It is Fyodor who has to establish the boundaries though as his friend is far too volatile as he is guided by his emotions more often than Fyodor. Fyodor and Nikolai obviously both share a sadistic streak so there are times where both of them enjoy your torment and pain together with Nikolai being the more vocal one in expressing his joy over seeing your misery whilst Fyodor is just silently drinking in the sight of your pain. Fyodor knows when to stop though as he punishes you for the most part only until he's broken you and freed you from human's sinful nature, even if he might still sometimes be a bit sadistic. He's composed and controlled but Nikolai struggles with holding back at times as he seems to go back and forth between his behavior. Sometimes he acts like the Nikolai you once knew, all funny and joking with you, and other times he has his hands wrapped around your neck, squeezing until you see black spots dancing across your vision. His feelings have reached a weight, a gravity that pulls him down and even he doesn't know anymore at this point how to feel. He wants to kill-No, he doesn't...But he wants to be free...But can he really...?

Jouno Saigiku & Suehiro Tetchou

♦️​🌸​God, this is going to be so messy because those two just don't get all too well along. They're disagreeing always about something even during their duties and the tension only sharpens as soon as both of them develop an interest for the same person. Saigiku is the first one to notice because of course he can sense Tetchou's quicker heartbeat when around you and all the other sounds from his co-worker's body that go crazy as soon as you are around. In that moment to Jouno feels like this is the worst thing that could have happened to him because from all people it had to be Tetchou. The Hunting Dog doesn't want to share his darling with anyone but especially not with such an hopeless and idiotic optimist such as Tetchou. Now, Tetchou is certainly slower to realize everything that is going on. Chances are that he might be even a bit oblivious to his own feelings at first but seeing how Jouno tries to get involved with you certainly pushes him to notice his own feelings as well as Jouno's mutual obsessive interest in you.

♦️​🌸​He knows what Jouno is like so Tetchou doesn't trust you with his fellow Hunting Dog because he has a strong desire to protect and coddle you as much as he can. Saigiku on the other hand is just a sadistic bastard and he doesn't want you to suffer or to feel any pain because of him. So Tetchou makes it his personal mission to protect you from Saigiku as he tries to glue himself to your side as much as he can. Jouno's involvement is funnily enough the trigger that pushes him to reveal his own unhealthy feelings more to you. He's suddenly overprotective and clingy as he tries to get you to listen to him because he tells himself that he knows what is best for you as you don't know how cruel Jouno can be. Because Jouno is as often with you as he can, Jouno decides to step temporarily back and just observe from the sidelines with a displeased expression on his face. What should he do about Tetchou's pesky behavior?

♦️​🌸​Both of them are somewhat limited though, much to their dismay. Both of them are part of the Hunting Dogs after all and the growing tension between the both of them is palpable and that becomes quickly obvious for the other Hunting Dogs as well. They glare at each other, Jouno's words are snarky and aggressive as he constantly provokes Tetchou and tries to get under his skin whilst Tetchou constantly warns Jouno to not do anything with you through clenched teeth as his hands form into fists. There were a couple of times where it almost looked like the situation would escalate and both of them would just fight but eventually Fukuchi gets involved and forces both of them to sit down together with him. Let's talk to each other, okay? Despite those friendly words, he as a threatening and displeased aura around him due to their immature behavior and so both of them are forced to admit what their problem is.

♦️​🌸​Fukuchi looks somewhat bamboozled as he realizes that the main problem is that two of his subordinates have just gotten quite attached to the same person whilst Teruko is laughing her ass off in the back and tells both of them that she'd like to meet the person who made both of them act this way. The old man quickly regains his composure though and reminds both of them that they are Hunting Dogs and that they have a duty to fulfill and that does not include constantly brawling and looking like they're about to kill each other. They have too much value as Hunting Dogs for the government so they wouldn't be thrilled either if they were ever to find out that there is such internal conflict between Tetchou and Jouno. Fukuchi decides to give both of them a chance to figure this out themselves though before he or the government get involved because they can not afford to have those two possibly drag down the efficiency of the Hunting Dogs because of their feelings for you. Either they work this out themselves or you have to leave the picture via Fukuchi or the government.

♦️​🌸​It's a threat that both of them know will become reality, they know better than to underestimate Fukuchi just because of his sometimes questionable antics despite his age. So Jouno approaches Tetchou not long after and whilst the dark-haired man doesn't even want to look at Jouno, he listens as Jono forces the idea of a cooperation out of him. He'd rather nail his tongue on the wall than do this but now both of them have been pushed in a corner with no real other way out. It isn't even the government both of them are worried about, it's more the lingering threat of Fukuchi and the likely involvement of Teruko since she is extremely loyal to her captain that manages to keep both of them on some sort of leash. They argue still though as Jouno wants you locked away and isolated and Tetchou disagrees as he still wants you to retain some right for freedom. Both of them ultimately can agree on moving you into an environment that both of them can supervise more closely. If an enemy would find out about your connection to them after all, this all could get very bloody and troublesome.

♦️​🌸​Honestly, if it wouldn't be for Fukuchi who manages to have some amount of control over them, both of them would have gotten into a lot of serious fights by now. They can never agree on anything when it involves you besides brutally murdering everyone who dares to hurt you. Tetchou is too lenient and weak for you in Jouno's mind and Jouno is too uncaring and sadistic in Tetchou's mind. They can literally not stand to be in each other's presence and so both of them have to be left alone with you because it would end in another huge conflict if they would try to share you whilst in the same room. The relationship is restricting and suffocating because both of them bring the worst out in each other as their behavior escalates. Jouno grows even more possessive and controlling over you whilst Tetchou grows all the more overprotective and clingy. You probably still prefer the dark-haired male though because he at least knows how to express his emotions around you whilst Jouno still struggles to be more vulnerable around you and your preference for Tetchou does not help him to be nicer.

[caramelarchive]

╾ Assorted Box of Headcanons

like a box of chocolates!

for L (strawberry chunk white chocolate swirl), Light (orange tang dark cocoa drink), Misa (chocolate mint icecream parfait) and Matsuda (chocolate mousse + full milk cream) I have moved to my main @lawlietscaramels please follow there for new content!

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L: strawberry chunk white chocolate swirl

I think L's actually very prone to getting freaked out by jumpscares and unexpected loud noises. For this reason he hates horror movies and thunder. If he happens to experience a fright like this, he'll either go very very still and start trembling, OR he will jump ten feet in the air, drop whatever he's holding, and curse loudly.

I don't think L swears much outside of that, actually.

if you wear glasses he'll just put his hands on your face at any given moment to push them up your nose because the lenses aren't even in front of your eyes any more and what is wrong with you.

he would not kiss you if you have recently eaten something that does not contain heart-attack levels of caffeine and sugar.

yeah he's actually pretty germophobic.. at the same time man will straight up forget to have a shower/shave/brush his teeth.

well actually for that last one he just eats peppermint candy and calls it a day.

When L's handcuffed to Light, they sleep in the same bed. Well, usually L's still working, but he actually does a lot of things in Light's side of the bed. Like eat his food. especially crunchy crumbly food. petty ass.

if you can manage to sit on his lap while he's in his 40% frog pose you can stay there.

you will be used as a stress ball.

feed him sweets. he'll melt once he's distracted from work enough to realise your fingers are pressing the candies into his mouth

what lovely hands you have perhaps you should put them in his mouth

L loves the rain but I think he would prefer experiencing it in a small garden rather than a rooftop. or just in a driveway. the rooftops are just too high. he can see everything and it makes him feel small at a time he wants to feel at one with the whole world.

I'm seriously debating over whether he can square dance you drunk or if he has three left feet because it's one extreme or the other

his wardrobe looks like Homer Simpson's.

sigh. I kind of feel like L is often too busy to shave and usually has some degree of stubble. if you don't like it help him shave please he'll die kiss you

L probably has a lot of burner phones but no matter how you contact him, even in person, you're only allowed to call him L or Lawliet when you are completely completely definitely alone and you'll usually have to whisper. whisper in his ear and lick his neck he will literally shiver

anyway the point I was ACTUALLY going to make is call him lollipop (sweets. and sounds like Lawli-pop)

likes to just stare at you. no emotion in those pretty bottomless grey eyes of his but his internal monologue has suddenly switched to describe everything he likes about you.

big sucker for kisses. no time. :(

Light: orange tang dark cocoa drink

Okay but Light, when he isn't Kira, would actually be the sweetest boyfriend alive. Now yes I know he's portrayed as bored and apathetic but if he fell in love he would fall HARD!! to the centre of the earth!!! in his confession he might even propose getting married and raising 10 kids!!

honestly this kid shuts himself off from other people as much as L does, the only difference is that he's easier to get to. be his friend. ask about him.

sigh he'd buy you flowers.

he's got such a goofy laugh he sounds like a baby hyena or something.

Light is the kind of guy who would have the weirdest dreams. like "my entire class from high school went to a water park and I uncovered a cult that was plotting to kill me and sacrifice me to the teacher and-" if you let him explain in detail it's going on for hours.

every time L eats his food on Light's side of the bed, Light cuts his nails on L's side of the bed. petty ass #2

he would not like an "orange tang dark cocoa drink."

I feel like the best way to meet Light would be through the school's debate team. I started thinking about this when watching the musical (it wasn't a debate team but it WAS a debate)

omg if you managed to BEAT him?

who is this. he must know immediately. and also you were wrong back there- you hang out in the library? why hello there

his favourite food as a child was dinosaur nuggies. he thought they were made from dinosaur meat.

he still loves dino nuggies

okay as for when Light IS Kira. some of this is for if you have a relationship beforehand, some if you meet after.

you're actually one of the few people, along with Sayu and to some degree his parents, who he REALLY doesn't want to tell in case you hate him. but at the same time would you like to be the first angel of the new world?????

so he tries to figure out what you think of Kira. God or the Devil?

please love him. please don't hate him.

and let's be honest even if you don't think much of yourself you'd be much better help than Misa, who cut her life in half anyway.

I think Light's the kind of guy who, if he did perchance meet you as a detective on the Task Force would condition you to like him with a neat little psychological trick we like to call POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT.

you get something you like every time you see him and soon enough you get excited to see him!

at the same time he's constantly making you question whether Kira SHOULD be caught, all Inception style.

you'll love him. or you'll die. jk! (he's not)

Misa: chocolate mint icecream parfait

when she was little she wore rainbow clothes. real 180 when it turned to black black black.

loooves the beach.

sand! sun! swimming! bikini modelling! seashells! surfboards! sexy men with no shirts on! LIGHT WITH NO SHIRT ON!!!!

Misa has a really large collection of earrings of all types. kittens, the solar system, swords.

If you're friends with her she'll eventually pull you along to a modelling gig. No matter how much you protest, it will eventually happen. You'll just be there. Just pray Misa didn't forget to check the schedule and today is lingerie day.

she has 4000 photos on her phone, 3500 of which are selfies and 1750 of which have you in them.

her favourite Pokémon is Stufful!

Misa loves making origami and had a couple hundred paper cranes hanging from the roof of her bedroom when she lived with her parents.

This girl's FAVOURITE thing to do is hold hands. She would never let go if possible. Paint her fingernails and do her makeup, she'd be utterly devoted to you forever and ever. She'll do the same for you if you want.

Has a great singing voice!

Loves flowers. she reminds me of sunflowers in particular. give her bouquets. she'll put them everywhere and watch them slowly die with a smile.

Out of all food "types" I think Misa would like pastries and bakery food the most.

Her favourite letter used to be "L" but then she met L and it immediately became "H". "L" is now number 26 on the list.

Misa has the biggest collection of unused stickers and stamps to ever exist. She thinks they're really pretty.

if you're dating her or even someone else, DOUBLE DATES. anywhere and everywhere. parks. movies. restaurants. she will show up in your bedroom at night.

dressed up as the grim reaper for the past 5 Halloweens straight. only ate candy in pink wrapping.

she's a little like a cat in that she's prone to just knock coffee over paperwork or press her hands all over your keyboard. but, like a cat, she's too adorable to be angry at.

pick her up. spin her around. kiss her.

Matsuda: chocolate mousse + full milk cream

got really excited when Misa started talking about Pokémon but realised she just liked them because they're cute.. sob! he just wants someone to play Pokémon Go! with him!!!!

a very good chef. more actual meals than pastries etc though.

ughhhh his chicken parmigiana tastes like HEAVEN. the salad on the side is LIQUID GOLD.

just a silly little man who takes four tries to tie his tie properly every morning.

he can walk on his hands *bites lip sexily and accidentally breaks the skin, gets an infection and goes to hospital*

sigh he's so pathetic I love him

but goddamn. you guys remember that episode Matsuda overheard the Yotsuba meeting?? When he got his colour like L and Light AND HIS EXPRESSION???

sometimes he has unintentional moments like that, so serious and cool.

If you were dating him during the Kira case he'd ask L to help him erase every single record of your name to protect you. if L didn't agree the first time he'd make sweets with you to give to him. Matsuda is as cunning as anyone when he needs to be, though he hates doing it and can usually get along with puppy eyes.

"you really don't have to do that" when you tell him you love him or kiss him or just smile at him. he's too nice for his own good.

please coach him out of people pleasing.

I think he'd be really into camping actually!! can you imagine him in a silly little hat sitting around a campfire and toasting s'mores and damper?

His ENTIRE face lights up when he sees you. He thinks he's slick about hiding his crush from you but he really isn't.

he would just die if you had time to cuddle and watch a movie together one night. little kissies and calling him cute and really in general not watching the movie, just cuddling

He'd be the best friend EVER. super supportive and funny and generally just great. he'd make you soup if you got sick. he would hold your hair out of your face when you threw up. and then he would probably have to throw up too.

sorry that got a little gross dhbdbd

uhh Matsuda only drives Mazdas. he thinks it's funny (the name of the car came from the surname Matsuda). I think he'd like blue cars.

he likes to decorate the Task Force for the holidays to bring cheer and raise morale. he's the one reason nobody's gone insane yet (except Light but that couldn't be helped)

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𝖎𝖋 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊𝖉 𝖎𝖙 ˏˋ⋆˖⁺˖⁀➷ 𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖊 𝖗𝖊𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖌 + 𝖋𝖔𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖜

[beyond-justice-009]

is there anything about light yagami specifically that makes you connect with him, or is it a general interest in death note?

I’d say both honestly! I adore his character in more ways than one, and I think a lot of people misinterpret him due to the anime’s portrayal of him- which is fair enough, until you read the manga and find he’s not some psychopathic monster.

He’s full of expressions that the anime deprives him of (the same goes for Near, he was a lot more playful in the magazine version!) and you can really tell that he’s constantly trying to look normal, if we completely ignore Kira entirely- he’s been like this his whole life. He wants to be the perfect son, the perfect student, and one day, the perfect police officer.

So when he ends up killing someone with the death note, he can’t live with himself- how could he have made such a horrible mistake? His hands were soiled - that is, unless he made a world where it wasn’t a mistake anymore. He could still be right, still be good.

I also feel it’s worth bringing up this post that’s stuck with me for ages-

This. This is why I love him, why he resonates with me so much.

People forget he’s not just human, but he’s a kid. He’s a kid who had his childish worldview cemented in his head by external factors beyond his control, and he was never allowed to grow out of them- if he did, he wouldn’t be righteous anymore.

And that’s also WHY he feels like he’s the one who has to do all of this. His hands are already soiled, he’s already been tainted by evil. The least he can do is try to prevent others from having to make the same mistake, the same choice- which means getting rid of the people that you’d have to make that choice against. Which is also why he didn’t give up the death note- Ryuk would find someone else, someone less selfless, and he’d be responsible for whatever damage that new person would do because he turned it down. It doesn’t matter if he’d forget the death note, because he’d still have that itching feeling buried in his head, that something isn’t right.

Now don’t get me wrong, I love L, too (though certainly not as much as I love Light) and I love the Wammy’s Orphanage and the general implications of raising a child investigator- but there’s one thing - and ONLY one thing - that separates L and Light.

L has the support of the police, the justification of the law, and Light does not.

If it were L who’d decided to start doing this, everyone would be excusing it like “oh well it’s his job, he just decided to be more efficient about it” or covering it up entirely. The government hates when you do their job better than them.

Anyway I’m definitely getting ahead of myself here- I think I’ve explained myself pretty well. Thank you for the ask! This was refreshing.

[mailjeevasfan]

hi thsi is the first rime i ever did this request thingy, so sorry if i did it wrong or someyhing ☹️

..but mayeb some just some gwnral dating matsuda or mello hcs 🤭

thank u for ur req! you did just fine 😁 i think i may have done something similar for these so apologies for any repetition (i kind of just ended up rambling icl)

-matsuda and mello x gn!reader

-matsuda/mello relationship hcs

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matsuda relationship hcs ❦

-whilst matsuda was working in the task force, things could be quite hectic. given that you guys living together, sometimes it’d be a pain as he’d have to stay overnight at work. sometimes he would even have to stay away from home for longer than that. however, he would definitely text/call you as much as he was able to and bring you some sort of gift as an apology. like flowers or something pretty romantic like that. even if you reassured him that it was fine, he’d still feel obligated.

-this is also kind of linked to the incompetence he’s led to feel after being unappreciated a lot at work. you have to reassure him often, but you ofc don’t mind. your comfort is honestly what keeps him going

-you guys live a very comfortable life after the kira case is closed. right after the meeting with near, matsuda was distraught and you did everything you could do make things better for him. once again, having you around was what really kept him going

-ok that was all kind of sad let’s have some happiness now

-matsuda always makes time for you no matter what. you guys are always going out for dinner or just chilling and watching a movie or doing whatever but he always makes sure he spends time with you

-he loves rom coms and a bunch of snacks with you. you have attempted to show him a variety of horror movies but he just clings to you

-i do feel that matsuda would be a dog lover and would love to have one. however he probably loves most animals so whichever pet you wanted would be perfectly fine for him. i guess he’s kind of a golden retriever boyfriend on his own anyway

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mello relationship hcs ❦

-things can be a struggle with your relationship very often. mello has certainly got a lot going on and as much as you want to help him, there are a few things that hold you back. he doesn’t want to accept help from anyone but he also doesn’t want you associated with the danger of his job. however, if he really is in desperate need of help, he would trust you. this is somewhat of a comfort to you because you know that you’d be there in a heartbeat

-you would typically go out fairly often for food or whatever before the explosion, but after the incident mello was very very hesitant to go out. his insecurity also took a toll on his general mood and therefore affected your relationship. you managed to help him through this and become more comfortable with himself

-although mello is a serious person more often than not, you do encourage a lightness out of him every now and then. (although he’d never admit it in a million years)

-you guys hang out with matt and play video games sometimes and he gets competitive of course, but it’s a more laid back and humorous kind of competitiveness which is nice to see

-i can also imagine mello being drunk at some ungodly hour and dancing around the kitchen. he INSISTS that you join him

-when mello isn’t wearing his usual clothes, he’s probably wearing a band t shirt and joggers. you frequently steal these t shirts and especially love to wear them when he’s away for a while

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[totes-tubulardude]

Not Star Wars but I mentioned a while ago a sibling g/t story and I finally wrote out a lil bit of it!

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The sound of sirens had long since faded by the time Luke began to slow down. He didn’t stop moving until the lights from the city were pretty well and faded from the night sky, this far out into the sticks no one was moving around this time of night. 

Uphead was what looked like a shed structure, considering that he couldn’t see any lights or any cars near it he assumed that it was empty. The perfect place for right now. 

In his arms, Kira was still expect for the occasional shudder, he hoped it was from the cold outside. She was smaller than she was supposed to be, or he was larger than he should be, she didn’t weigh much to him right now which was good considering how far he’d run to get them away. 

Sure enough, the large shed was empty, save for a few boxes and tool cabinets. 

He let out a relieved sigh as he set his sister down. 

Kira stumbled a little as she got her feet underneath her. 

Normally she came up to mid chest in height, right now she barely cleared his stomach. He wasn’t even trying to be bigger than he should be, this was just happening. 

“Are you okay?” He asked her.

She stared up at him before nodding hesitantly. He let out a sigh of relief. There had been so much happening before, he’d just grabbed her and run the first chance he’d gotten. 

Everything was so messed up now. Those men had come for him, they’d wanted him for whatever this ability was. The thought of what had happened caused him to shoot up a few more inches.

Not good. 

Luke paced back and forth, dragging his hands through his hair roughly as he tried to gain some semblance of control over his emotions. It wasn’t going very well considering that his skin felt like it was growing tighter and tighter. 

Finally, he sank down onto the floor, putting his head between his knees to quell some of the nausea he was feeling. He was honestly still trying to wrap his head around this whole situation, which was not particularly helping calm him down. 

All he knew right now was he was on the run, he had his ten year old sister with him, and he had little to no control over these abilities. He should be working through his junior year of high school not dealing with this!

Oh god, he was on the run. From some weird government agency that probably wanted to experiment on him or something. 

He felt himself shoot up a little in height and suddenly his knee collided with something. There was a thunderous crash as he knocked over one of the tool cabinets, sending it careening into some of the boxes and causing Kira to scramble out of the way of falling items with a small shout. 

“Crap, Kira are you okay?”

He was large enough now that he could reach his hand over towards his sister without getting up. That certainly wasn’t bizarre. 

Kira flinched back slightly from his outstretched hand and pushed herself away from him a little, the loud sound of the crashing items still ringing in both of their ears. Luke froze. 

Even in the dim light of the LED lantern, he could see the fear in her eyes. Holy shit she was afraid of him. 

Any semblance of control he had shattered. 

Luke groaned as his body swelled in size and he brought his hands up to grip his head. 

This wasn’t good. He was supposed to protect his sister, not terrify her. 

His feet slid across the floor as he continued to grow. Shit this was probably scaring her more. That thought sent another wave of panic through him which only seemed to increase his height faster. 

Luke tried desperately to calm down, but nothing was working. All he could think about was how fucking scared he was and how scary he probably was to Kira.

His left hip hit something, causing it to topple in a much quieter cacophony. 

Shit, shit shit. 

His back pressed against the wall suddenly. Luke lifted his head out of his hands and turned to see that he was indeed now large enough to have reached the wall. The ceiling was nearing the top of his head as well. 

Before the thought of that could send a wave of panic through him, he forced himself to take deep breaths in through his nose and out through his mouth. Slowly but surely he felt himself start to calm himself down enough to slow his growing. 

He took up a large amount of the floor now and he tucked his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around his legs as he continued to breathe. Kira was near the other wall watching him, she was both too far away and now too small for him to make out her expression in the dim light. That might be a good thing considering that he was just now getting himself back under control. 

Luke shut his eyes and focused back on his breathing. Finally he felt himself stop growing, just before his head would start brushing against the ceiling. 

He let out a long sigh of relief. 

Suddenly he felt a small pressure on his arm, making him jump slightly. Luke blinked his eyes open and looked down to see Kira resting her hand on his forearm. He froze once again. 

Holy shit she looked absolutely tiny next to him now. 

She reached up to place her other hand against his arm too, it felt like she was trying to tug him slightly. 

“I’m fine.” He said quietly, but his voice still rang out in the space. “Sorry for scaring you earlier. I’m um… trying to figure this out.”

She pushed at him imploringly. 

He furrowed his brows and carefully lowered his right arm down towards her, not entirely sure what she wanted from him. 

“Look,” He mumbled as she seemed to inspect him. “I don’t have, like any control over this ability. For now you probably should stay away from me.” 

She looked up at him with imploring confusion. 

“As you just saw, I can’t really control this.” He explained. “I don’t want to accidentally hurt you. I’d stay away from me until I have more control of this… not as dangerous.”

She continued to stare up at him with one of her looks that made him feel like she was staring right into his soul. He dropped her gaze and rested his chin on his knees.

Luke hoped she understood what he was trying to explain. 

The reason that agency was probably after him was because he was dangerous. Seeing what he’d done to that building and how easily Kira had almost been hurt moments ago, he found that he suddenly didn’t blame them. He’d want a freak like him locked up in some facility away from people he could hurt. 

Luke’s head jerked down when he felt a new pressure on his arm. His eyes widened even more when he saw that Kira was scrambling up onto his forearm. 

“Wait Kira-” She crawled up to the crook of his elbow with surprising ease. “W-what are you doing?”

She looked up at him before waving her arm, motioning towards his still bunched up legs. He continued to stare at her with no small amount of fear and did not move a single muscle. One small move and he feared that he send her tumbling off of him. 

Kira let out a long suffering huff before scrambling up his arm a little more and making as if to hop into his lap. 

“What the-”

Luke quickly unbunched his legs and brought his left hand up under her to support her as she landed on his stomach. 

Holy shit he could support her with one hand. That wasn’t terrifying at all. 

“Kira I don’t think this is a good idea.” He said, unease making his voice waver slightly. 

In response she sank down on his palm, letting her back lean against his stomach and her feet dangle over his hand. She settled back before patting his finger and looking up at him. 

“I trust you.” She spoke softly and simply. 

Luke melted almost instantly at that. 

He slowly brought his hand up by his chest and wrapped his right arm around his middle. 

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Misa's intelligence has nothing to do with the quality of her character. I say this because a lot of her haters talk about how "dumb" she is, while many of her fans argue that she's basically a genius. I believe she's in an average field intelligence-wise, with some weaknesses and some strengths, which totally works for her character.

And honestly, I find it… weird how it sometimes, from both sides, sounds like it depends on her intelligence how much of what Light did to her was deserved.

Also, yes, she's the second Kira, but I don't think that how good of a character she is depends on how similar she is to Light, either. She's not worse for having different goals, nor would it be more fair to her if she killed Light and assumed his role, or whatever.

I personally think it's interesting that she's much more chaotic than most of the main characters. Could they have written her better, more respectfully? Absolutely. But yeah, I think you're doing her a disservice by constantly comparing her (or her role in the story) to Light or L.

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

Bonus points if you include a topic. ( IE. shipping, roleplaying, ect. )

[persnicketypomelo]

Yooo!!! Your writing is so wonderful!!! If u don't mind, little old me would like to ask...... For a headcanon or scenario of a yandere L from Death Note??? No pressure, of course! Keep being amazing!!! ~☁️

He is my favorite character in that whole show! I would love to write for him--thank you for suggesting; I honestly wouldn't have thought to do that by myself ❤️

Thank you for reading and being sweet!

I suppose I should be listing the dark themes I include before the work, so I guess I will do that now

kidnap, obsession

Yandere L x Reader

It is nearly impossible to know what goes on inside the strange, black-haired man's head

Incredibly smart and observant, but retaining a childish craving for sweets and hatred of footwear

Perhaps he meets you as a detective trying to unravel the massive dilemma of Kira, or perhaps just a civilian with more observational abilities than is good for you

Whatever the situation, I think he would taken with you more so if you're able to reflect his witty and spontaneous intelligence to some degree

His methods might seem extreme to some, but he does what he must in order to unravel the truth

L does care about those on the force, though demonstrated more through his actions than his words

I think this is how would you know he has taken interest in you

Ryuzaki would indulge in his growing obsession with you by testing you

Your reactions, instincts, and problem-solving abilities fascinate him

Although it may seem unusual, kidnapping you may not be too far out of his realm of possibilities

Even if he doesn't, you will have to get used to being constantly surveyed by him

That is, if you are even aware of it

Watching you is a source of light entertainment to him, like watching junk televison

L wouldn't intentionally be a creep, though that doesn't make his obsessive behavior any better

He feels he can be closer to you only by learning everything about you

For that reason, you might end up feeling like a lab rat

If he ends up kidnapping you, he will test your capabilities of escaping the confines he has set up for you

He knows you can't escape him, but it fascinates him to see you try, to see you improving and earning from your previous each attempts, to try to peer in on your thoughts...

You would only know how truly and terribly obsessed he is when he calmly and unpassionately explains to you his feelings

Or by the fact you are locked up

He is not someone who is keen on verbal or physical affection, but he likes holding you

Hearing your breathing and heartbeat make him feel at ease

L knows his feelings for you are illogical and morally unsavory, but he does not all that much care

Perhaps in the pursuit of justice, a few immoral actions can be overlooked along the way

[bleachbleachbleach]

Tag Meme

tag whoever you want to get to know better!

Thank you for the tag, @bendingwind! Responding here instead because my anime-heavy answers felt more relevant to B3 than whipplefilter.

I will no-pressure tag @dreaming-about-seireitei (idk why it won't let me tag you?? so I hope you see this if you want to do it!), @the-sage-libriomancer, and @paniniwrap, because you are my most recently-followed blogs~ I will also tag anyone who sees this and wants to do it, because I can guarantee you I want to read your responses!

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Three ships: Three ships I have written recently: Kira/Rose monsterfucking; Hinamori/Hitsugaya (rather, Kira developing minor negative feelings about Hitsugaya because IT’S A LOT, HINAMORI. Like I’m your bro, he assures her, but it’s a lot); Renji/Rukia, if only the dominoes would fall the right way, which at the moment they are not, for dumb work reasons and also their dumb coworkers.

First Ship: I dunno, Gabrielle/Xena?

Last song: I didn’t listen to any music today, so I guess by default… the 4th ED for Haikyuu?

Last Film: …Muppet Treasure Island, I think? Wow, I sure am getting an A+ in answering questions!

Currently Reading: In This World of Ultraviolet Light by Raul Palma, which is a collection of short stories that tend toward the skrunkly, the macabre, but are also just incredibly truthful. He gave a reading of “Stand Your Ground” last year, and it was so excellent I think it was THE best thing I read all year. It was the kind of story that makes you really want to write, because it’s so good and he’s so good.

Currently watching: We’re rewatching Haikyuu again, in a perpetual cycle of rewatching Haikyuu!! We just finished the Seijou/Karasuno rematch, which was an INCREDIBLY emotionally taxing experience, because I want Karasuno to win but I also want Oikawa to win, and the fine details of that match are overwhelming.

I was swapping anime recs with a friend on LJ the other day, and she was like, “Wow, we have such similar tastes! That’s so rare, as varied as anime can be.” And internally I was like, IT’S BECAUSE YOU ALREADY TOLD ME YOU HATED LONG SERIAL BATTLE SHOUNEN. ToT Nah. I mean, she did say that, but I was intentionally reccing her things I liked that I thought she would also like. XD It’s just that I thought she would like them for the fanservice and the angst, and I like them because of the like, folding tables. (I love you Seijou folding table and banner on the ground.)

I also have 20 minutes left of the series finale of Reservation Dogs, but I don’t want to say goodbye just yet.

Currently consuming: Faildinner, which is distinct from girldinner because it’s when you feel very smart about making dishes that do a good job of using up last week’s leftover ingredients, only to realize you’ve made a tomato-based potato/squash dish and a balsamic vinegar-based chicken dish, which is already ACID ON ACID until you realize you also made a shchi recipe that included SAUERKRAUT.

Currently craving: JUSTICE. Not to be overly dramatic. At work today an adult child said something innocently intended but honestly kind of fucked up and I am so mad about it. It’s not remotely his responsibility to know our ranks or employment histories, but he assumed my colleague was older and more experienced and that I was learning from her, because he could “see the similarities in our teaching style.” Which, I just wanna say, EXCUUUUUSE ME???? I actually have years more experience than her??? I don’t know how old she is but we’re functionally the same age. But she just came back from maternity leave, and those similarities in our style are because I DESIGNED. THAT COURSE. And I gave it to her and told her she was welcome to keep whatever and change whatever, because she just came back from maternity leave and she should get all the shortcuts she needs. But the course is similar to mine because I MADE IT. Like, what a bizarre set of assumptions to make. Again, doesn’t matter, it’s not his business, there’s no reason that’s information he should have or care about, but omg, definitely not over it. Thanks I hate it!! /end rant

[empressofthewind]

14 + 18 for meronia and 10 + 12 for mattlight pleeeeeeease <3 ^_^

Thank you for these!!

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14. Do they enjoy PDA, or are they more private with affection? (Meronia)

My God. Neither of these two have any concept of boundaries. The only saving grace for the public is that Near rarely leaves the house, so the opportunities are limited for him to be a menace outside of his own headquarters/in front of his own staff; but god forbid Mello decides to bring him out for the day, everyone around them is going to bear witness to the most horrifying display of PDA and general bizarreness. Imo Mello has a constant, crippling need to show the world that Near is His, and Near would not be bothered enough about social norms to stop him. If Mello had agreed to work with Near in the first place, I’m convinced they would’ve made out in the president’s office.

18. How do they care for each other when one of them is wounded/sick? (Meronia)

I'll do this one in two parts!

Wounded - given how gentle Near is, I imagine he'd actually be very good at treating an injury, minor or major, without causing Mello too much additional pain. Post-Kira case, Mello would likely have acquired some decent first aid skills from his various serious injuries incurred over the years, so he'd also know what to do in a situation like that. I think they're both be pretty concerned when the other is wounded, and would express this in different ways - Near by checking in on him and asking standard medical questions about his level of pain and other details regarding his injury, and Mello most likely by berating him for ending up in whatever situation got him hurt.

Sick - in my (slightly deranged) opinion, I feel like they are so co-dependent that they wouldn’t be able to stay apart even when if of them has a highly contagious illness. So if one of them gets sick, they both get sick. I think Mello would be better at caring for Near given that he'd be looking after Near even when he's healthy, so he would make him warm soup and buy him the relevant medications if necessary. In the same vein, he'd be fairly self-sufficient when he himself gets sick, and I also think he'd be pretty resistant to help even if he needs it. He'd encourage Near to stay away from him and insist that he can look after himself. If he's especially unwell, I imagine Near would enlist the help of an independent third party. The idea of him inviting over Rester or Gevanni to take care of Mello is very amusing to me hgdhgsjd as I do NOT think anyone involved (other than Near) would be even remotely pleased about this arrangement.

10. Do they share any hobbies or interests? How do these things bring them together? (Mattlight)

Canonically they are both into video games to some extent - Light plays Mario Golf with Ryuk, and I’m sure I do not need to cite references for Matt’s interest. I could see them both getting pretty competitive, even with casual games, and I can imagine Light getting somewhat worked up over this, but I think Matt would be pretty effective at calming him down. I am also convinced that Matt would rope Light into some minor delinquency - in my mind, they would only get together in a non-Kira AU, and I think the version we see of Light at the beginning of Death Note could be swayed to get up to a little mischief. The shared experience of committing a crime together and getting away undetected would, in an odd way, bring them much closer. Also they would smoke weed together. SORRY.

12. Do they have a difficult time when separated from each other, or are they fairly independent? (Mattlight)

I honestly can’t imagine these two being particularly clingy? They’re both pretty independent and I feel like they’re the kind of couple who want each other rather than need each other, if that makes sense. They’d for sure think about each other when they’re apart, but I can’t imagine either of them struggling to function at all.

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For this ask game :-)

[just-a-living-meat-thing]

I heard you wanna talk death note?

So I just finished the anime (read the manga a while ago), and it’s got me thinking about Matsuda’s theory from the manga’s epilogue.

(The theory iirc is that Near won because he “cheated” and used the Death Note to control Mikami so that he wouldn’t check the fake notebook.)

Do you have thoughts on this? Like on one hand it sounds plausible but on the other hand it’s Matsuda suggesting it lol.

Ooooh I honestly haven’t heard that theory before!! I’ll be honest I haven’t finished the anime or the manga bc I know Light dies in the end and that makes me so so sad lmao like I know he’s evil but he’s just so… gahhh he’s such a bringle blompu to me if that makes sense, like I don’t want the series to end. I also dint know that much abt Near (I love him but seeing him is painful to me bc he reminds me of L, just more depressed and apathetic) so I can’t say for sure.

What I can say is that I personally wouldn’t put it past Near to do that. He wasn’t trying to catch Kira as part of some game like L was, he was trying to catch Kira bc it’s his job, and (imo at least) as some form of avengement for the ppl around him that Kira killed. And it was probably also to “prove” himself to be worthy of being the next L, I think. So I wouldn’t put it past him to “cheat” at the game, since his goal is to win it at all costs, whereas L’s goal was to study it—like a particularly challenging video game, the win is only rewarding if you beat it without cheating. So to me it makes sense for Near to simply cut to the chase instead of prolonging the game any more than he had to.

And tbh I personally think Matsuda is more observant/analytical than most ppl give him credit for. Like yes he absolutely is an utter buffoon but I think he’d know a lot about tropes in stories (since he’s known to be an avid tv-watcher) and how characters work. Not to mention he’s been on the Kira Case from the beginning and was able to work around Soichiro, Light, and L for a good long while, so I think his deductive reasoning skills have probably improved from being around them so often for so long. I think his empathy plays a part in this as well, so he’d probably be able to step into Near’s shoes and go “yeah, that’s probably what I’d do if I was a super genius with a grudge”. Not saying that he’s correct or smart, but I think sometimes he gets onto something.

But also Mikami was known to be very… methodical and precise and in control. It’s strange to me to think that he wouldn’t check the death note, so perhaps there was some tampering by Near. However, if Near truly wanted to end the game so bad, why not just write Light’s name into the notebook? He may not have hard evidence or a confession, but he knows for absolutely certain that Light is Kira. Why mess around with Mikami when he could just end Light right there and then?

On the other hand, he could be using Mikami as the ultimate tool for revenge against Light—forcing him into a state of humiliation, exposing his true face out into the world for everyone to see, making sure his downfall is as messy and as painful as possible. Refusing to play along with Light’s rules, refusing to play the game, refusing to be another “L” for him. Ripping the rug of delusion out from under him, not even allowing him to have his self-denial as comfort.

Personally I kind of dislike this theory bc I think Light kind of got himself caught? Unintentionally of course, but I’m a lawlight shipper (romantic, platonic, queer platonic, whatever, anything works) and I personally hc that Light kind of just gave up after L died. Like he had a goal he worked towards and genuinely wanted to come to fruition, but a lot of the fun inherent in the high-stakes challenge he had with L was lost.

But I also do like the theory bc it adds some very interesting characterization to Near that I enjoy. So idk my feelings on the matter lol, I think it’s very plausible Near used the death note, but idk for sure. I think it’s up to the individual to decide for themselves whether or not it’s actually true. Either way, it provides some very fascinating insight into Near’s psyche and how his brain works

[dykelawlight]

director's commentary for solid and full pretty pls? i'm obsessed with the way you write l and light and mikami's dynamic, it's so good <3

WUAGHGGHGHH KICKING AND SCREAMING THANK YOU!!!!! They're my very most treasured and beloved AU <33333

My commentary for Solid and Full is honestly that it was NOT supposed to be 6k words long, it was NOT supposed to be the first work from this AU I actually published, and it was NOT originally going to involve some of the harder BDSM elements actually put into action, but it just kept spinning out away from me like it knew where it wanted to go so I was like WELL OKAY and just kept typing until I came to a stop.

I also think this one is really hot because in my other works in this series, which are all incomplete, I haven't really gotten to explore Light actually doing switchy stuff yet because so much of the AU is about the deeply unhealthy way she and Mikami interact as a D/s couple with L refereeing. So it was really fun to bring her to heel a little bit and imagine the kind of attitude she'd throw at L before having it disciplined out of her. Their relationship is so interesting for me to dig into being as it is that Light is a nasty little ex-Kira who sort of longs for what she can barely recall of doling out justice and being worshiped as a god (Enter Mikami Stage Right) but also frankly likes to cook her partner dinner when she's not working late at the intelligence office and enjoys being snuggled while wearing cozy pajamas.

Mikami and Light's relationship is also soooo fucking cop4cop in a way that as a public interest lawyer literally makes my eye twitch to write. I didn't get to probe that here really but they both think it's sooo hot that the other one arrests people and puts them in jail. Cannot stand them.

FINALLY I have to say that this concept popped into my head so freaking immediately as soon as I saw "toys" was a prompt, like!!! One of my favorite things about this AU is the like troublingly hot way in which Mikami is always trying to push her own limits in terms of kink (in a way that makes me scream and cry given her manga-canon history of being subjected to intense violence by her peers) and Light is always more than happy to let her, even if she's fully aware that whatever Mikami thinks she's able to do is something that would be actively harmful to her. I almost hate writing L as the adult in the room but I also love that like...she loves Light deeply and is also aware that Light is a horrible little viper who needs to be reined in around people who are suggestible and inclined to fall under her spell. L and Mikami have an otherwise almost businesslike relationship, I'd say, and are both completely aware that they're only connected through Light, and Mikami honestly has her moments of intense hot jealousy and sorrow about L's entire existence and the fact that she's the center of Light's world, but their kink relationship is so fun for me to write. Especially contrasting the gentle dominance Mikami needs to keep this shit even a little emotionally healthy with the rough handling Light can tolerate and often deserves!!! Get her ass!!!

[askthetaskforce]

Hi! Catching Kira must be super timeconsuming. What do each of the members' families/partners think of them being gone all the time? Good luck catching Kira by the way!

Matsui: Ah, what a good question, better directed at my fellow task force members, haha! It is super time consuming, but I wouldn’t have it any other way, because what is life without a purpose? And what purpose is there of more amazing proportions than catching Kira?! I honestly prefer it to being home. I live alone − I’m afraid I don’t have a romantic partner, haha, and my family is… I don’t really talk to them much about anything that isn’t the basic ‘How have you been doing, have you been eating well’ questions… (I have been eating well…) We’re distant enough that I prefer a meeting with L to an awkward family dinner. Then again, because our phones always have to be off during meetings with L, sometimes I’ve gotten my mom or my grandma asking me why I wasn’t picking up their calls… Anyway… I’m just honored and happy to be here! 

Mochi: Um… Not sure what to say. Hello, Mochi here. I am another member of the task force who doesn’t have a wife or children to go back home to. I can’t imagine how difficult that is. I haven’t told my family I’m working on catching Kira, and I don’t think they’ve noticed. I asked my mother if she’d noticed me working longer hours and she said I always work hard. ‘That’s my son,’ she said… 

Ryuzaki: You are supposed to be Moji, Moji. What is this ‘Mochi’ business?

Matsui: Sorry, Matsui here explaining. I forgot Moji’s codename and I only remembered ‘Mochi’, because um, let’s say someone that we know calls him that way, and

Ryuzaki here, interrupting Matsui. Okay. That was enough of an explanation.

Moji: I don’t mind Mochi, but Ryuzaki has told me I should be Moji, as it is more serious. I am Moji.

Aihara: My turn now? Well, great question. It’s really difficult. I’m starting to have too many arguments with my wife over it to be able to count them… Working with L means what we do is top secret, so I can’t explain my absences to her and my small daughter. It would only put them in danger if they knew what I’m doing. I would urge you all to consider that when you post online about how ‘cool’ Kira is. 

Matsui intermission: Surely our followers aren’t doing that, Aihara!! 

Aihara: Sure. Anyway. I need my family to live in a world without Kira, and that’s why I do what I do.

Matsui: People like Aihara are really inspirational… I really can’t relate to this whole ‘having a family to take care of’ thing… Speaking of which, I’m passing this to chief Asahi…

Asahi: Like I’ve told Matsui before, I am not anyone’s chief in the context of the task force. But yes. It’s hard. I have a wife and two children myself. Lucky for me, my wife is an angel… 

Matsui: No offence to Aihara and his wife, eh, chief? No, sorry, sorry. He’s telling me about he didn’t mean that at all, obviously he didn’t. Leaving him to use the computer and shutting up now!!!

Asahi: Like I was saying… My wife is an angel who insists on granting me kindness and understanding that I understand less and less the more time passes and I neglect her and my daughter. My daughter isn’t as young as Aihara’s, but let’s leave it there and not mention any identifying characteristics… But what I mean is she understands more than a younger girl might, and sometimes I forget she is strong too. She will complain, but never too seriously; she stops when she picks up on the fact that I can’t do anything to help not being home for another long stretch of time. I raised my children to withstand the difficulties of life, and they haven’t disappointed me. And, deep down, I think my wife is the same as me.

Light: Ah, hello. I definitely don’t have a wife and children either. I think Matsui already mentioned that I’m young? So much for avoiding identifying characteristics, right? Haha. I’m joking. Anyway, I do have a family, even if it’s not that kind of family… But whatever difficulty is derived from being away from them is nothing I can’t withstand. We have to do what we have to do, right? I was always taught that; there’s really not much more to it.

Though I miss my little sister.

Matsui: I think the chief, sorry, Asahi, I think Asahi finds it harder than he lets on, and so does his family. Me and my family definitely aren’t the type to withstand difficulties with quiet honor or whatever − what a dream! haha! My grandma wishes… 

L: ‘My family and I’, Matsui.

Hello. I have just been told by Matsui that, apparently, people would be interested in how ‘L’ personally feels about this question; him, and not any intermediaries. Therefore… L here, disappointing you all with the answer that family is no item to me. Especially when it comes to catching Kira. This is the end of my communication. 

Matsui back here real quick to say: I do wonder about L’s family… Um, and Ryuzaki’s. And Watari’s… who doesn’t want to say anything either about how he feels about the question. Says he’s busy… I guess being in the ‘L’ circle means there’s no room for family? Do you guys think you have to give up all your earthly attachments to BECOME L, or something? Kidding!! Just kidding!!!

Signed, the task force! Thank you for your good luck, by the way! We’re feeling it already!!!

[j-graysonlibrary]

The Xiang Chronicles: Book Two Chapter 3

Title: The Xiang Chronicles: Book Two

Author: Jay Grayson

Word Count: 98k

Genres: Fantasy, adventure, drama, LGBT+

Available on: my website

Synopsis: With another Xiang in the mix, for the first time in history, Pangu decides to reevaluate his methods and his place in the world. Along with taking his little sister Heidi as his last disciple, he also chooses to take the more political path in his efforts to end the discord throughout the land—particularly within Terra. (And gaining favor from the handsome Lord of Ultimos does not hurt.)

Heidi butts heads with everyone in the group, save Raine, and tensions are higher than ever. There are failed love confessions, in-group fighting, and demons from Kira’s past but that all comes to a head when they meet a servant of Shakti who is more than what she seems.

Could it be that the Mistresses of Shadow are more nuanced than previously believed? Or that the strict dichotomy between light and dark are, perhaps, a touch exaggerated? That and more begin to plague Pangu’s mind and his faith wavers…

Full chapter 3 under the cut

Chapter III:

An overwhelming sense of déjà vu came over Kira as he sat by the campfire and cut vegetables with one of his knives. His eyes remained locked on Pangu and Heidi as the Xiang unlocked his sister’s abilities in preparation for her training.

“You know, the last time I saw you staring like this, it was me you were staring at,” Baiya said from his spot beside him.

He was right, of course. That was why the scene was so familiar. Kira had also glared daggers at the man when Pangu had removed his blockage, back when he was distressed over his appointment to disciple. But, he did not want to verbally agree with Baiya so he cut his eyes to the side and pointed his knife at him.

“I still look at you like this.”

Baiya snickered and pushed his hand away, not at all afraid of the possibility that Kira would stab at him. “You like me.”

“Ew. I do not.”

“Whatever.”

Kira grimaced and went back to cutting vegetables, tossing the chunks into the pot for a stew. “You know, I thought your addition changed things too much but this is going to be insufferable.”

He did not turn to look at the Agni disciple but he heard him sigh. “I don’t particularly care for Heidi either. But, like you and Raine said when Pangu picked me, it is his decision, not ours.”

“I didn’t even think him picking me was a good idea,” Kira grumbled but then laughed at himself. Truly, other than Raine, Pangu really had, consistently, made bad choices.

“It was not. You are a menace.”

Kira threw his elbow over, jabbing it into Baiya’s ribs. He retaliated with a slap to his arm which quickly escalated into a series of slaps where Kira dropped his knife and went all in on the fight.

“Do you two ever stop?” Raine’s voice broke them apart though Kira threw one final smack.

“No,” he answered honestly.

Raine shook his head and set down the skinned and gutted deer. He had been off by a creek preparing it for dinner. While Pangu did not eat meat, the rest of them were free to and in cases where vegetables were slim, most if not all went to the Xiang while they had to find something else to eat. It was not one of those cases but Raine wanted to make sure they had enough food with an extra mouth to feed.

“Are they almost done?” He asked and glanced to Pangu and Heidi.

“No idea,” Baiya said, “They have been over there for a while though.”

Through the brush and behind a waist high shrub, Pangu held his sister’s hands and traced the energy through her body. She had a large number of blockages, similar to Kira in some regards, as if the energy had been jostled or moved at some point but then abandoned.

He knew it was different than his second disciple’s situation since, he now was aware, retroactively, that Kira’s strange blockages were due to him being a Chaaya. Heidi’s case was something else entirely and he was certain he knew what it was—he was just nervous to confirm it.

Pangu swallowed down the lump in his throat and squeezed her hands. The cosmic energy rushing into her from the spirit realm was helping to smooth things out and she was, no doubt, feeling a difference already. “There should be a light sensation that fills you…”

Heidi’s brow furrowed and she tightened her grip on his hands. “I feel it…it’s so strange…but sort of comforting.”

As he had expected, Heidi took his proposal with little fuss. She suspected he was offering it out of some sense of guilt or even pity but when he insisted, she agreed.

“I want to ask you something but I do not want you to be upset by it,” he started off softly and waited for her to open her eyes and make contact with him. Purple met green and he asked, “Did you try to use any element when you were growing up?”

Heidi retracted her hands and frowned. “Why would I have? I knew you were the Xiang, not me.”

He heard her words but her energies told a different story. Her blockages—where they were and how they pooled together around the limbs, especially in the elbows and wrists—let him know that she had tried to expel or force something at some point. Often times, kids who play pretend would have similar blockages but they would fade and even out over time but with how intense they were in Heidi, he worried that she had been “practicing” for most of her life.

She would never admit to that so Pangu dropped it. “Right, sorry. It must be your work that draws your energies to your arms so extensively.”

“Can you tell a lot about a person based off of where their energy congregates?” Heidi asked, sounding less irate and more curious.

Pangu could have sighed in relief. But, instead, he smiled. “Yes, actually. But, other than you four, I try not to pay much attention to other people’s inner makeup. It is a bit invasive, I think.”

“Oh. And here I was thinking it could help you see if someone was lying or cheating.” She gave a lopsided smirk.

“Probably but I would have to sit with them for a while to determine that.” Pangu did not want her getting the wrong idea out of the conversation so he added, “Even then, there would be a good deal of guessing and assumptions.”

Heidi shrugged a little in disappointment. “Oh well. So, when do I start to move shit with the wind?”

Pangu chuckled. “After dinner.”

Training Heidi would be a feat and Pangu could already feel it in his bones. She had great potential and her resonance was high but he knew she would be impatient about her results. If she did not accomplish greatness after the first lesson, she would likely lash out or sulk over perceived failures.

So, Pangu took great care to dump on the positive reinforcement. Yet, when she could not keep a leaf in the air on their walk in the morning, his insistence that she was doing well only served to frustrate her further.

“I am not getting it! Stop saying that I am—it’s not true!” she snapped when the leaf fluttered to the ground.

“Hey, don’t startle the horses,” Kira scolded and gave his stallion a pet on the side of his face. It was not only the volume of her voice but the rogue and volatile energy pulsating off of her that made the horses uneasy.

“Oh, excuse me,” Heidi retorted with a dramatic scoff, “So sorry to the poor horses.”

“Heidi,” Pangu brought her attention back. “Focus.”

“I am trying,” she kept her voice lower but her teeth were clearly clenched.

“You are doing well. It is going to take a few attempts to get it. That is normal.” He was sure he had said the same thing at least ten times since starting the exercise.

Heidi snapped her head back to look at the rest of the disciples. “How long did it take each of you to figure it out?”

“Hours,” Raine answered.

“Days,” Baiya added.

Kira frowned. “None of your business.”

She smirked. “Why? Did it take you a week or something?”

Raine answered for him. “He only took a few hours to make progress. And, Baiya, so did you. It simply took you longer to maintain fire, not create it.”

“So I should have it by now?” Heidi’s face fell into frown.

“No,” Pangu sighed and said, “You are keeping the leaf in the air for a while so you are right on track with them. Just stop trying to force it. The harder you try, the less likely you are to succeed.”

“That is true,” Raine agreed. “I made more progress when I relaxed.”

“Relax?” she echoed and looked up to the trees overhead. With her hand raised up, she bent her forefinger and a leaf popped off of a branch and floated down. Her eyes focused in on it and she moved her hands to almost cup the leaf but she was careful not to touch it. For a few, sustained, seconds, she kept it hovering between her hands. With an excited inhale, she pulled her hands away and allowed the leaf to fall. “I did it!”

“See?” Raine smiled at her.

She grinned back and then turned to face Pangu. As she tucked her hair behind her ear, she said, “Maybe Raine should teach me.”

“He helped Baiya too,” Pangu responded rather than take her obvious bait for a fight. She would need him for more complicated elemental techniques but for the basics, Raine was a perfectly acceptable teacher. And, if it kept her in a good mood and willing to try then he did not care in the slightest.

“Really?” She kept shifting her eyes back to Raine. “Is he always this helpful?”

Pangu could not help the smile that came to his lips when he thought of all Raine had done for him and the others. “Yeah, pretty much.”

The moment of peace was, however, ruined by a loud snap in the woods to their right. It was too heavy to be a squirrel or rabbit but not heavy enough to be a bear. Pangu could feel in the air that a human was coming upon them and his instincts told him it was no friend.

He was not the only one to notice either as both Kira and Baiya turned their heads to the side. “We are not alone,” Baiya announced quietly.

The horses began to whine and one of them leapt up onto their haunches as a stampede of footfalls came their way. Pangu could not count them all but they were fast and, in moments, they were swarmed by large, hairy bodies.

A foul smell clouded the air as at least ten wolves jumped out from the wood line, all leaping and biting. Pangu raised a shield around them and the horses before the wolves could reach them. Kira began to block the animals with chunks of earth jettisoning upward. Raine retrieved his trident and stepped out from the barrier to dispose of the beasts.

Many had run around to the other side, possibly thinking there would be a weakness or entrance behind Pangu. They met the same resistance there, however, though the horses did not realize they were safe inside of the bubble. Kira had to sink their legs into the earth to keep them from running, even if it distressed them further.

Heidi held her axe out in front of her and looked from one wolf to the other, ready to blast them back with air if she had to. Their fur was matted and some patches were missing. Each wolf had a look that was beyond feral in their eyes and she spotted one with a hanging jaw, only attached by a string on sinew.

“What in the world…?”

Raine had started to notice some of the same oddities as had Pangu. “They are dead,” Pangu announced once he pieced everything together.

“That they are,” the voice of the mystery visitor rang out as he emerged from the trees. With a hood over his face and his arms out in a grandiose gesture, he chuckled. “I bet you did not expect to see me again, Xiang.”

Kira narrowed his eyes as he flung a wolf to the side with a particularly forceful spike of earth. “Who are you?”

“Who am—? Are you serious?” The man balked and quickly removed the hood over his face. He looked between each of the disciples, save Heidi, with expectance. When no one said a thing, he threw his arms up. “The necromancer?! The new Chaaya!”

“Oh, that is why the wolves are dead,” Raine said and stabbed one through the chest. He certainly felt less bad about hurting them now that he was aware they were all controlled corpses. Baiya and Heidi, similarly, started to cut down and blast away, respectively, the bodies closest to them.

“I remember you,” Pangu stated and snapped his fingers, incinerating the remainder of the wolves, burning the only tools the man had to combat them with. Even when the necromancer whimpered at the second death of his pets, Pangu continued, “Where did you go when Kira sent you off into that black hole?”

The man, Ziyi, if Pangu recalled correctly, deflated completely and huffed. “Off the coast of fucking Enlil.”

“Huh.” Kira tapped a finger to his chin. “That is interesting.”

The necromancer pointed at him with some renewed vigor. “Do not do that again.”

“I wasn’t going to,” Kira countered and rolled his eyes. But then he looked up at the tree over the man and found a few vines hanging from the branches. With a growing smirk, he reached out with a thin strain of miasma and connected with the vines. One in particular—a thick, sturdy tendril—was infused with miasma and shot down, wrapping around the man’s ankle in a flash.

Pangu even jumped when the necromancer suddenly flew up into the hair and then hung, upside down, from the tree. He swiveled his head to Kira. “Did you do that?”

“I did.” His second disciple smirked.

“I could have done it with more training,” Heidi mentioned as she walked closer to the hanging man. “So what do we do now? Whack him with sticks?”

“No.” Pangu said before freeing the horses from the earth. They were still spooked but they had calmed down enough to not run off. He turned back to Ziyi and set his hands on his hips as he regarded him. “I am sure someone will find him out here. Especially if he screams loud enough for help.”

“Pangu,” Baiya said with a laugh, “How diabolical.”

“Maybe he will think twice before trying to attack us again.” Pangu returned to his horse and started to lead it once more down the path.

“One could hope,” Raine seconded and joined him.

Kira exchanged a more cynical look with Baiya as they both knew the “Chaaya” would continue to hunt them down until one of the two of them killed him. Still, his situation was quite funny so Kira poked the necromancer in the chest, making him sway helplessly just so he could have a cheap laugh.

“Stop that!” He flailed, helpless to do anything else.

Baiya crossed his arms and stepped closer. “While I hesitate to agree with Heidi on anything, it could be fun to hit him with a stick. At least a few times before Pangu notices we are lagging behind.”

“Do not hit me with anything!” Ziyi shouted. “I will stalk you in the shadows of night, kill you painfully, and make a plaything of your corpse!”

The disciples glanced at each other again, a moment of consideration lingering in the air between them. Pangu, Raine, and Heidi were nearly out of sight. If they did take matters with the necromancer into their own hands, it was possible it would end here.

But then Kira just pushed Ziyi again, making him swing with more vigor.

“Oh, come ON!” The man practically whined which, in turn, caused the Terran disciple to snicker like a sadistic child.

Baiya rolled his eyes, dramatically, at the display but he was smiling too. If, of more realistically, when it came down to it, he would snuff out the necromancer. But, until then, he would abide by Pangu’s judgment and leave him to hang there for a bit.

He and Kira hurried away from the scene, rejoining the group before they were missed. The smirk on Kira’s face, once they caught up, cracked and faltered.

His eyes went to the back of Raine, almost like an instinct, but beside the first disciple there was Heidi. She looked up at him, having to crane her neck to a surely uncomfortable angle, and she smiled from ear to ear with a literal skip in her step.

 “Did you see me shove one of those wolves away with air?” She asked him, obviously proud of herself, “I did what you told me to and let it come natural.”

“Did you? Sorry, I did not see but I am happy for you,” Raine replied with a smile of his own.

Maybe he was just humoring her but Kira could see that the expression on Heidi’s face was genuine and he knew what it was. It was unmistakable and it made his stomach churn.

[jiishwa]

since i finished death note recently i just thought I’d share some of my overall thoughts about the series under the cut, yknow, just for fun or whatever…

•firstly i really wanna talk about misa’s character. i honestly feel like she was such a waste, being as she was kind of the only long term main female character, i really wished she would’ve been like dumb and obsessed with light as an act but been super smart and cunning behind the scenes. i wish she would’ve been a more even match for light and used her “im in love with kira” act as a way to just get closer to him and observe him so she could play him, and light thought she was easy to control and manipulate all along so he wouldn’t have seen any eventual betrayal coming. just thought that would’ve been a cool plot twist. all that being said, i still wouldn’t say i hated or even disliked misa as a character, i just wish she would’ve been more complex because i think that could’ve been way more interesting (and we love to see a girl be evil lol).

•one of the things that kind of did get on my nerves, however, was that i felt there was just waaaaay too much mind reading and 5d chess. like, at times, i felt like i was just skimming over super wordy sections (and it’s not because i don’t like words. reading books, aside from manga, is actually one of my biggest hobbies. i love words) because they would eventually become confusing for me, especially when two “masterminds” were going on about how they’d been playing each other all along and i would just be like “ok. im lost. also how could you both have foreseen and predicted that much? anyway…” and i felt like it didn’t leave much room for any real plot twists since, well, we always knew what everyone was thinking. Even when they reveal the final “gotcha” moment at the end there almost wasn’t any pay off in that for me because the entire series I’d gotten used to people finding new crazy ways to one up each other.

•team matsuda let’s gooooo!! i absolutely loved matsuda and im so glad he got to make it to the end! i really thought light was gonna get away with killing everyone before somehow getting caught but im glad that wasn’t the case in the end. matsuda was like the task force’s resident golden retriever, he was the only hope in all that darkness sometimes and i just. matsuda was my favorite character that’s all i have to say.

•i feel like maybe this was sort of the point, but i think light is probably the most unlikable “protagonist(?)” I’ve ever read like. i dunno. i just see him and my brain goes “yeeeeesss king, give me nothiiiiiiing” like on one hand i feel like i have no opinions on him but on the other if i saw him in the street id probably wanna sucker punch him just for being such an arrogant dick all the time lol.

•there was too much time in the middle where it felt like nothing was really happening. Like specifically after L’s death where everything just takes place in their secret hideout. not gonna lie there’s a good portion of the middle that was pretty boring to me and I wish we could’ve maybe seen some things from other peoples perspectives or i dunno, gotten some flashbacks or something to learn more about certain characters but that’s also probably the part of my brain that’s like “obsessed with lore” and wants to know “useless” information just for fun.

•i did not expect L to die that fast. like i knew he would die, eventually, but i definitely thought it was gonna be more towards the end than only halfway through (and maybe that’s why what followed for a while after that was sort of boring to me)? i dunno, but i definitely enjoyed L as a character more than light.

•i thought Near was just ok. i would’ve sort of liked it for light’s main adversary after L to have had a different approach/personality than L. Part of me is sort like “why get rid of L just to replace him with someone exactly the same?”

•I would’ve really liked to know what happened to misa and light’s mom and sister after his death. since they wouldn’t have been told he was kira since those who were still alive who knew swore to keep kiras death a secret, i would’ve liked to know what kind of cover up story they were told, what their reactions were, and where they ended up after the fact. also would’ve liked to know what ryuk was up to too. those final few pages showing all those people who still worshipped kira (i think that’s what that was supposed to be right?) felt sort of out of place to me but that’s just a small nitpick.

•as much as i have my criticisms though i really did enjoy finally getting around to reading death note, since it’s basically considered a classic at this point, and at the very least I’ll enjoy some of the memes a little more lol.

[jjnghe]

getting hit on by someone they're completely uninterested in | (luno)minaries

no erina and kaguya. obviously.

a man, not older than his twenties, walks up to her. it was evident from the scent of alcohol on him that he's had quite a drink. "hey, gorgeous." he then settles beside her, wrapping an arm around her shoulders with a smirk. somehow, he's sober enough to find the audacity to speak. "you're looking real pretty sitting alone all the way here. say, why don't i take you home?"

she nervously, yet gently, pushes him away. god, she's honestly terrified of her current situation-- why'd this happen when she's alone, of all times? "i'm already seeing someone." is all she says in response, cautiously shifting herself away from his position. if the man presses any further, she'll immediately take her leave.

MASAMI, kira, anzu (she is MY oc now)

-

she flat out ignores the man at her side, trying her hardest to tune out every word that comes out of his loud mouth. 'he's seriously getting on my nerves,' she thinks, 'when will he leave?' she especially emphasizes her sheer disinterest by paying mind elsewhere, such as her phone or her surroundings, as if the man was never there.

this goes on until he eventually gives up on his attempt at swooning the woman, and once he leaves, she lets out a long sigh of relief. she's never coming here-- never again.

homare, AIKA, tsubaki

-

she laughs. her first reaction is to laugh, and it baffles him. the man's stunned; he just stares at her in incredulity as she continues to giggle like he just told her a joke. right when the laughter dies down and she finally takes a look at him, as if a switch had been flipped-- the light in her eyes dims, revealing a cold stare. a shiver runs down his spine from the duality, and heavens pray, the next words may be the last he'll hear.

"oh. you were serious?"

TSUBAKI TSUBAKI TSUBAKI, kotoka, kaede, aika

-

a tight grip on his wrist stops him before he could even make a move. he winces in pain, and is met with a fake smile from the woman he approached. "don't even think about doing it." she would advise. the glint in her gaze obviously mocks how pathetic the stranger looked, despite him acting all 'cool and suave' towards her just seconds before. the man then nods vigorously in fear, as his entrapped hand started to lose its colour from how much she squeezed his wrist. they say violence isn't the answer; but anyone would agree he was lucky enough to come out with just a broken wrist.

HOMARE, KAEDE, beverleigh

-

"hmm. you're hitting on me?" she muses, her gaze examining him from head to toe for a moment. scoffing, she crosses her arms. "you reek of beer, your hair's unkempt, and that's fake leather you're wearing." each comment (more like insult) she makes comes as a jab to the man's ego, much to his chagrin. she grins in 'innocence', and goes on. "you're a cheap guy, obviously not my type. you won't last a day in my world." she stands up to leave, sassily brushing off whatever his arm left on her shoulder.

"oh! and by the way, i have a boyfriend." she says, not turning to look back at the man. sarcasm then leaks through her tone. "his name's yuki, you both should meet someday."

BEVERLEIGH