#it's been a year but ig
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while all the deaths are tragic in their own way (except morally depraved julian lol but that tracks so i love it) and all pretty well done and shown to us in bits and pieces so we can fill it out ourselves which i FROTH - i think the captain's reveal hits the most because of everything that came before it. 5 series of build up, showing us how he's by the book, a strict adherence to schedule kind of person, with a deep, almost fanatic respect for the military and its rules and ranks and files to the point it's a huge part of his identity, and then - spoilers - we're shown that he died defying all of it, breaking in to an esteemed veteran event, stealing the rank of some other officer to blend in, lying about his valor, just to be close to the person he loves, placing himself in a situation so personally, intimately, individually custom-catered to be as mortifying as possible for him that it literally killed him. and he wasn't even able to say the one thing he wanted to say before death took him. he died, and now he grips the baton his love gave him forever, wearing the badge he stole that serves as a reminder of his deceit that fateful day, eternally on the edge of confession. his name revealed to us finally from the whisper of his beloved.
#literally sick#ghosts bbc#bbc ghosts#bbc ghosts the captain#the captain#pulled no punches with that one#mary's we knew from second one it was tragic but this slow reveal? numbed me for days#laughing MANIACALLY and then sobbing hysterically#i love all the characters but this one tried to punch me in the face. and i appreciate that.#also love his relationship with kitty!! he's so soft and willing to learn for his adopted daughter and i cry again. might do a second post#ghosts bbc spoilers#bbc ghosts spoilers#it's been a year but ig
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It's the fact that so far Armand is the most inhuman monstrous vampire still walking the earth that we as readers have met. And yet we see him fall hopelessly in love with the most ordinary human man.
#yes im drunk postng leave me alone#armandaniel#devil's minion#armand#daniel molloy#ig ore how much of a weird freak daniel is and appreciate how armand is essentially reconnectinf with his humanity in this moment#iwtv#i love you queen of the damned#yeah sure its a short chapter but the impact has been felt for over 30 fucking years#i love you armand and daniel i fear i will carry you with me for all of my days#amc iwtv#interview with the vampire#the vampire armand
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#sorry post canceled it was annoying me#ALSO ive been here for 8 or 9 years and never had a twitter sorry for being a kpoppie and using oomf ig#og tags were ->#no one is making you look at the prevā¦.#im just letting my oomf kno i want to kiss them w tongue 4 being funny and smart in the language of girlbloggers whatās so bad abt that -_-
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is it just me but it feels like five got dumbed down and nerfed the most in terms of his powers? Five didnāt see Ben steal the marigold, he didnāt figure out the CIA was part of the keepers but Luther did? What? No hate to Luther at all, I love that oaf but it doesnāt feel like FIVE!
Not to mention he was the ONLY one whose powers werenāt working or he couldnāt use to his advantage? Like what? Five? FIVE??? He shouldāve figured out the teleporting thing. He shouldāve figured out the subway. One opportunity I think the writers didnāt use is as the seasons progress five gains a deeper understanding of time travel and heās able to figure it out more and more, so it comes full circle from s1 when he got stuck in the apocalypse because he didnāt understand time travel, but they donāt do that!! Like is this the same five who figured out what the sigil was in the s3 finale?
One reason I loved five was his intelligence but it doesnāt feel like it in s4
#also like. his snark was gone#he was calmer which you could say was because of its Been 6 years#but like. they donāt show us what happened in those 6 years#the umbrella academy#number five#five hargreeves#this is a half assed post bc my thoughts are kinda jumbled up sorry lol#he was just more. passive this season? less proactive?#and less observant#like it was Lilaās idea to stop Ben from going on the mission#and thatās fine. but it didnāt really feel like five#if they let him figure out time travel the plot would be over if#ig*
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Peter Capaldi as the Twelfth Doctor 8.02 Into The Dalek
#dwedit#doctor who#dwgif#timelordgifs#tvedit#scifiedit#twelfth doctor#peter capaldi#s8#into the dalek#mine#my gifs#these have been marinading on my laptop for almost two years somehow. good time to post ig#the range of a man... overdramatic INTO DARKNESS vs silly billy NO IM INSIDE A DALEK#and all that in the midst of trying to teach a dalek goodness. babeyyy i love you
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My only Morro predictions
Secret third option: he just doesn't show up at all. The leaks were wrong, everyone was wrong, he's not even in the script notes, mass deception.
Awful hand writing transcriben under the cut:
1. Hey guys, MORRO here to show you how even good, or the people we look up to make mistakes BUT ALSO to remind you that the mistakes of the student aren't also the master's and that relationships between LEGOTM are complicated .
2. So glad we are on good terms after that one special everyone watched anyways I'm here to bully this stinky loser teacher Mcvisions into an accurately depicted panic attack bcz hes stupid dum dum and even HE couldn't break the cycle
#ninjago#the everyone jab is directed at me i have not watched day of the departed#i do not know why#every year halloween comes up i say ill do#i dont#its been four years#atp im just assuming whatever he did was so funny it made everyone like him again or smth idk#how do you think he will react to Wu being uhhhh ādepartedā#ninjago morro#morro wu#morro#berry art#ig#took like five minutes#ninjago spoilers#i guess....?#ninjago leaks#i need more people to makr noise about him#or something#maybe is becahse ive been busy but i need to know Morro nation is not dead as well you cannot become him please#this will get....#2 likes
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- HOZIER, Francesca
#interview with the vampire#iwtv#amc interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#iwtvedit#loustat#louis de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#sandushengshou#iwtvsource#tvedit#my gifs#*#i'm back ig#it's been 3 years since i made proper gifs
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happy pride
#yes i posted these last year but they got deleted i guess ?#actually a lot of my posts have been removed lol#theyāre on twitter ig#gay#gay guy#gay men#gayboy#gay man#repost
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based on a convo with my brother
#i use year pretty much exclusively but my brother says the writer#i guess the writer makes sense bc you dont have to memorize all the years#but i think the year gives it more context than the author#though ig there are runs where you have to say author bc the run has been going on for so long#like ill usually say 'starlin's batman' bc its technically like 400 issues into batman (1940)#i also usually say 'marz green lantern' when i talk about kyle's gl run#bc even though its gl 1990 kyle doesnt show up until issue 50#and it basically becomes a different book when marz takes over#idk im curious what everyone else thinks
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Paper doll Rollo!
Hehe his hat is detachable- I really wanted an excuse to make his ahoge and show it
Oddly enough for my first paperdoll (Iāve made paper children before), I just gotta recreate one of the most complex designs for some reason idk why??? Rollo was meant to be practice and goddamn did struggling on him force me to problem solve- I do hope to make Rook and Cloche <3
[Process] (In the form of IG stories + ramblings)
#August is me rollo posting while I can ig#ššš Iām sorry Iāll try to make rook stuff soon#cut me some slack Iāve been drawing the same character for 3 years straight I wanna try another flavour-#itās been too long since Iāve done traditional art aside from sketches-#most complex paper child Iāve ever made smh#my kindergarten ass actually loves cutting and pasting stuff for some reason-#but itās so messy šš#cat scribblez šø#twisted wonderland#twst#twst fanart#twisted wonderland fanart#twst glomas#glorious masquerade#twst art#twisted wonderland art#twst rollo#rollo flamme#paper dolls
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I enjoy this fandom's overwhelmingly wholesome portrayal of the clones as individuals and as a community but ngl their upbringing on Kamino would foster a ton of toxic attitudes that I'd like to hear more people's takes on.
I think esp where mental health and performance issues are concerned the vibes would be RANCID. Again I love wholesome clones, and I'm not saying there wouldn't be any of those, but the Kamino cloning facilities are exactly the sort of environment that produces ppl who say shit like "everyone is doing this, why can't you?" or "just be normal" or "stop being depressed". Imo this kind of thinking would have a big impact on aspects of clone culture and community (since there's no such thing as a community without problems like that).
Imagine literally having the same DNA as everyone else but you're failing at something that millions of people with your exact "hardware" have perfected before. Both your creators and your own brothers just place all those "default" expectations on you. And how does that translate to the battlefield? You simply cannot show weakness bc at home, that would make you an inferior product, and on the job it would jeopardize your mission and everyone around you. You'd be stuck in an endless cycle of "man up and get your shit together" and more exploration of that would be fascinating I think.
Overall I'm advocating for more clones that kind of just turn out to be bad people bc it's not like goodness is coded into their genes. It's not like they were raised to be sweet and goofy, but a bunch of them just choose to become sweet and goofy people despite everything. Food for thought
#if the clone wars had been like. 10 years long and if the show was better written#we could've gotten a slow crawl of the clones sort of detoxing from that. or more exploration of clone culture ig#but alas#we gotta do that ourselves <3#tcw#clone culture#meta
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my mom just asked me if we like luke castellan and she doesn't know whats about to happen so i just nodded and said "yeah. yeah we like luke." because there is no way in hell i'm spoiling this for her.
#pjo#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#luke castellan#lightning thief spoilers#ig#the books been out for like eighteen years
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Balloon Shell 2.0 BETTER AND ROUND if you knew the previous one, NO YOU DIDN'T it was an illusion, YOU DREAMED IT
#its going to be a keychain too!#this was the first thing that i wanted to be a keychain#its been years#So many years#opening a shop at the end of january 2025#destiny 2#destiny ghost#destiny#ghost shell#ghost#d2#destiny the game#also thanks to the FIVE people that followed IG and BS
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shuichi posting
#my art#fanart#strawberridraws#danganronpa#drv3#shuichi saihara#character design#don't ask me what possessed me to make this#(its the game grumps play through. the demons have officially returned)#all my aus and head canons bouncing around at maximum velocity rn..#technically this is part of my āthe tragedy was realā au / towa kids au#but shuichi (in that au) was kinda just like#what he is on the tin#aka a nice dude taken under his uncles wing post parent death (tragedy) (they were on vacation and got caught up in one of the worst areas)#in my au its like. imagine a weather map with hotspots; that's how the tragedy worked#so shuichi lived in a less effected area but with the rise of infected people (like zombie apocalypse style) (and animorphs brain worm styl#as you cannot tell who is effected by despair and to what extent unless they choose to reveal themselves)#there was a hugeee uptick in crime and shit so he started working with his uncle early on#eventually his uncle went missing (I think its not super hammered out) and he went to investigate#which is when he runs into his like Gang of pregame ppl#(Kaito maki Kaede)#and later some others (towa kid gang [kokichi gang but with drv3 kids] island gang [angie kork n amami])#ANYWAYS its a thing...#ik its been like 3 years since I first posted about it but u can't control the brain worms ig#and I just wanted to do a redesign lmao
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The doors to Olympus are sturdy and strong, given everyone's preferences for drama and slamming said doors open and sending them cracking into the wall whenever the opportunity arises. Which is why it's a surprise when they creak open during the once-a-decade pantheon meeting; less so because no entity worth their salt would take so long to open the doors, and more so because everyone who is anyone is already there.
But if everyone is being honest with themselves- which no one is, usually- these gatherings are boring enough that the bland conversation is dropped immediately in favour of craning their necks to catch a glimpse of whatever is coming to relieve them of their boredom.
When the doors finally open however, several of the pantheon murmur in surprise.
"Odysseus," Athena whispers, wide-eyed as she pushes herself off her throne to her feet. It is him- in the king's garb he was buried in but the face he has when he reached home, hair till the shoulders and speckled with grey, face oddly blank. His feet are transparent.
"What are you doing here, sceptre?" Poseidon booms, hair the color of a stormy sea. Zeus, beside him, looks reserved, observing the ghost with something approaching curiosity- eyes flicking to the lightning scars on his daughter's face and back. "Your time has long passed, and Hades-"
"It is a temporary agreement," Odysseus says curtly, barely sparing him a glance as he approaches his patron. "Athena."
Her armour clinks as she steps forward and the gods all twitch, trading glances. Owls are silent creatures- to have her aspect so affected to make noise was... uneasy to say the least. She even holds herself different than usual, something like confused delight shining in her eyes. "How did you-"
"Did you sleep with my wife?"
The throne room is silent. Several jaws drop.
Athena straightens back up, blinking in surprise. She looks a bit shifty, some of the nymphs closest whisper to each other, which- well, almost every single god present owed some part of their existence to the mere story of Odysseus loving his wife.
Would he fight his own patron goddess over it in front of Mount Olympus, though? He certainly was unbalanced enough; Athena herself looked rather uncertain of her odds, even though-
"Are you addled in death, King of Ithaka?" Artemis drawls, looking amused. "Did you forget that your own patron is celibate? Whatever rumor you-"
"No, I-" Athena says suddenly, shifting her spear to her other hand. "I did."
Artemis chokes on her breath and several assorted divine beings gasp in shock and the rest shouting for explanations, although everyone is nearly drowned out by Aphrodite's loud, "WHAT?"
Odysseus inhales sharply and pinches the bridge of his nose. "I cannot believe you."
"She asked-" Athena starts, only to be drowned out by the din of various beings screeching and shouting about the scandal.
"ATHENA!" Hera hisses, peacock tail fanning behind her sharply as she pushes herself up. "Explain yourself!"
Athena half-turns to face her, face creased in a frown. "Mother, I-"
"LET ME REPHRASE!" Odysseus cuts in loudly, and the shouting settles down into silence. He walks to his patron, eyes blazing. "I cannot believe," he throws his clenched fists wide as he growls the last word, "-you took Penelope to bed-" Athena surprisingly stays still as he reaches her, mouth falling open as he grabs her by the chiton to yank her down, uncaring of the gasps of horror from all around as he snarls, "-before you ever kissed me."
And then Odysseus grabs Athena by the face roughly and kisses her.
This time Aphrodite's shriek cannot be escaped by anyone.
"Aphrodite, please," Zeus says a few moments later, wincing as his throne reforms around him, stained oddly pink. Quite a few minor entities have discorporated, and the ones nearest to her are still trying to regenerate their hearing. "Control yourself."
Their eyes land back on where Athena has dropped her spear- dropped her spear, Ares in the corner seems to be having some minor hysteria over this, well warranted- and is also on the floor, still being thoroughly kissed by that insufferable, mannerless hero of hers, perched on her stomach to reach. Zeus inhales in fury, Poseidon close behind him as the shock wears off, lightning crackling around his fingers as he opens his mouth to shout- of all the indignities-
"If you two ruin this for me," Aphrodite thunders, warping in front of them and glaring. "I will make you both regret it."
Both gods visibly blanch at the threat, taken aback for one brief moment. Threats from Aphrodite are far worse than any of her more violent siblings, at the end of the day.
Zeus visibly gathers himself just as Athena's helmet clatters to the floor, and he gains a second wind immediately, eye twitching as he spreads a hand to the spectacle in the middle of the hall. "WHAT MANNER OF DISRESPECT IS THIS? TO BARGE INTO OUR MEETING AND THROW ONE OF THE OLDEST GODDESSES TO THE FLOOR LIKE A COMMON WENCH-"
"Zeus," Hera says quietly. Everyone falls silent, although it's not quite enough to stop the two tangled together on the ground. She clears her throat, which finally seems to get through to Athena, who had finally seemed to have gotten over her shock enough to reach out, hands hovering over Odysseus hesitantly. Still, at the noise she seems to remember herself, pushing herself up on an elbow and dislodging him enough to break their necking. He pouts at her, but Athena's eyes are too glazed over to notice, heaving for breath.
Hera opens her mouth to speak, crown manifesting on her brow as she steps in front of the throne, but closes it as the door rattles again.
This time, the spectre shimmers with a faint hint of scales that comes with a freshwater nymph's heritage and excited whispers starved for drama explode across the room as the Queen of Ithaka steps into the room, skirts hitched in her hand and panting as if she'd been running.
"Your Graces," She bows respectfully before entering, Spartan princess through and through, until she catches sight of her husband and Athena, the former of whom seems to have taken the opportunity to start kissing the wisdom goddess again, fingers in her curls.
"What are you doing?" She snaps, rushing over. The entire courtroom holds its breath. She slaps her husband upside the head, making him yelp and move back to shoot her a betrayed look. Athena looks even further dazed than before, cheeks red. "Argos has more manners than you! No wonder Lady Athena wanted nothing to do with you- ah, hello, darling, by the way."
"Penelope," Athena murmurs hoarsely, and the Queen of Ithaka leans down to kiss her as well.
Odysseus chuckles, then jumps with everyone else as Hera slams a hand down on the throne elegantly, cracking it to the base.
"Ah, goddess-" He says, clambering off Athena to bow.
"Silence," Hera interrupts, holding up a hand, eyes cold. "You will not say anything to me apart from an explanation. My agreement for your release from Ogygia was due to the assurance that your marriage was one of the truest I have ever witnessed, conveyed by Athena herself when bartered with all of us to let you go. Tell me, was it a ploy? Because from the disgraceful looks of it, this seems to not be the case in the slightest."
Odysseus frowns, face twisting in confusion. "Athena bartered with...?" He turns to look at his patron, who stares back, unspeaking. His eyes flicker to the lightning scar over her right eye as Penelope traces it with horrified eyes and a gentle thumb, and understanding seems to dawn.
For a moment, rage seems to fill him, glaring with a hatred towards Zeus that everyone whispered later wasn't met by the god king with anger, but a flicker of remorse- before he visibly throws it away behind Athena's old smile and bows.
"God-queen," He says formally, gracefully. Hera twitches a bit, and they'll all talk later about how odd it was to so clearly see Athena's younger mannerisms in the man, down to the curl of the letters. "My marriage to Penelope has never been false, never been broken, this I promise you." He takes Penelope's hand and squeezes it for emphasis, and she raises them as acknowledgement. "But... can you not argue that Athena has been part of our marriage all this time? From its start, where she advised me on courting and her on what to look for, to the twenty years she spent with both of us- me on the battlefield and Penelope in the court; to say nothing of how she helped raise our son and lived in our palace in the days after. And is she not so unbearably beautiful that even my Penelope couldn't wait-" He shoots a glare at her, which Penelope returns with a smile. "-when the chance was presented? How can you fault us for disgrace, after being so long apart from our wife?"
Hera raises both eyebrows at the impudence, the kind of disbelieving expression that hides a warning to tread carefully. "So you claim to be both married to Pallas Athena?"
"In every way that matters except legality," Odysseus says, fearlessly. He is dead, after all, what much can you do to a shade that they didn't already put him through when alive. He is sort of worried about Athena, though, as they both help her back to her feet, Penelope busy whispering compliments and updates and endearments in turn- she's not usually one to be quiet in face of a problem.
Hera tilts her head. "Ah, but you see. I need the legality, if I am to finally-" A helpless, excited smile pulls at her lips once, twice, before unfolding into a bright grin, peacock tails unfolding to their full wingspan. "-finally arrange for a marriage for my eldest daughter who has not once- oh finally, I can hardly believe this day has come-"
"I do not like the way you grabbed her, Sacker of Troy," Ares steps forward as Hera starts ranting half to herself, half to an equally loud assemblage of joyful entities about wedding arrangements, eyes narrowed.
Odysseus barks an incredulous, loud laugh, gesturing to Athena with a slightly crazed look in his eyes. "This lady has broken- and I do not exaggerate- every single bone in my body before I saw my sixteenth year. I have punched her a hundred times in the face when she taught me how to fight. We'll survive, thanks."
"That is fair," Ares steps back, hands raised.
"What duties will you provide as spouses, Ithakan Queen?" Hestia questions, stepping forward.
"Oh, the same we did when we were living," Penelope huffs a laugh. "Keep her busy, make her laugh, be of mild frustration to her, love her well, worship her-"
"I do not. Need to know," Hestia closes her eyes and raises a hand to cut her off, stepping back. Around them, the din catches speed and volume as no further objections arise, excitement spilling into the air.
"What is happening?" Athena says faintly, looking around as if she was just waking up.
"-oh, and we can get out the decor once more! Hebe, Aphrodite, loves, do you remember where we kept the fountains-"
"-finally, a reason to celebrate! Call them all out of hiding-"
"-can't believe this is finally happening, oh sister, what songs should we-
"Why am I getting married," Athena says with much more alarm and horror. She turns to Odysseus and shakes him by the shoulder, eyes wild. "What did you do?"
"Nothing!"
"How is this nothing? Do you have any idea the headache-"
"Athena, sweetheart, will you consider changing into that beautiful piece you made for the ceremony?"
Creakily, she turns her head to Hera, disbelief pasted across her face. "Mother," She says slowly. "They are both dead."
"Oh, I'll make a deal with Hades or something, you hush!" Aphrodite leans forward and snaps, before her irritation melts back into a manic joy. "Oh, what paint shall we do?"
Paint, Athena mouths, looking afraid for possibly the first time since her conception.
Penelope laughs and tugs on Athena's hand to make her turn, tucking dishevelled curls behind her ear. She wonders if the goddess knows how beautiful she is when she's flustered. "Take us away," She whispers. On Athena's other side, Odysseus leans against their patron with a besotted, helpless smile as he stares up at her, her helmet and spear in hand. She'd missed Athena like a limb, missed her deep laugh at night when they'd discussed the day's court, the dry jokes, the hands over hers as she weaved- but Odysseus wasn't himself without her, happy though they were in Hades' lands together, all of them.
"I'm-" Athena wavers, then looks around once more at all the excited screaming, something unreadable flashing in her eyes. Almost against her will, her eyes fall to Zeus, who is sitting silently and staring back at her. Poseidon looks like he still wants to start a fight, but clearly by his wary looks below can tell he will be heavily outnumbered by the overexcited crowd to not try, but Zeus just stares back at her, face blank of any emotion.
"We ask you formally this time," King Odysseus says, walking in front of her to take her attention away, holding onto her hand. His voice has strength in it, drawing the eyes of the murmuring crowd, but he's deaf to it as he stares up at her.
"Will you be our wife?" Queen Penelope asks, joining him, watching their beautiful patron shudder for breath she does not need as her eyes flick to one of them and then the other.
"Yes," She whispers and cheers erupt all across Mount Olympus.
"Finally!" Odysseus complains, and then pulls her down once more to kiss her, all three of them fading at the edges as one of the generous gods present there- who seems to realize that they're not very inclined to stop anytime soon- thankfully teleports them away into a nice room with a large bed.
"Finally," He whispers as he breaks apart to lay her down, cupping her face, voice heavy with the longing of a full lifetime and more. Penelope circles to the head of the bed and starts undoing Athena's braid, staring at them both lovingly.
Later the ones closest will murmur, as the silhouettes faded away, that tears had slipped from proud Pallas Athena's eyes as she placed one hand against Odysseus' cheek, trembling.
"I missed you," She will whisper back, and all three of them fade away to their own story, yet to be made.
#sorry athena ur not immune to the āwhen will u get marriedā mom speech#anyways i believe in demisexual athena amen#epic the musical#odysseus#penelope#athena#odypen#you know the eyes w spirals in anime thats athena after being kissed by her bff within an inch of her life on a regular tuesday#hera#woman is on CLOUD NINE she will literally kill anyone who gets in her way this time. the wedding is gonna be great.#aphrodite#< also going crazy shes been trying to matchmake her sister for a thousand years now#ares#< extremely conflicted. has never felt protectiveness for athena before this moment . also he wants eye bleach.#hestia#āHOW WILL THEY MAKE A HOME IN THE UNDERWORLD WHAT HEARTH-ā#zeus#athena hasn't spoken to him since god games.#also tbc pen Didnt know ody and athena were Not Like That. she was convinced day one that they were a package deal.#and the two of them had literally Never considered it even though it was the norm! but once he finds out that Penelope did ody casually#just like. figures out a way to get to mount olympus from hades and storm in to plant one on her#athena x odysseus x penelope#< ig?? whats the ship name#to anyone who sees this vision. join me.#odyath#penath#odypenath#my fic
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and the smell of camphor dancing in the wind.
ā¦ info: he didn't know he'd lose you so soon. (come back, please. even if it is just for five more minutes.)
ā¦ featuring: alhaitham.
ā¦ warnings: angst, character death (reader), heartache, 1.2k words, somewhat proof-read.
ā¦ notes: i cried so goddamn hard writing this. why is my first work after hiatus pain. why did i pick up the angst wip. but!! i'm writing again, so that's good. (more notes at the end.)
he didnāt know that it was your last day together.Ā
he didnāt know that the smile you gave him that afternoon, your eyes sparkling like sunlight upon the serene waves of the ocean, would be the last heād ever see. that the playful light in your gaze would fade so very soon, slipping through his fingers like sand.
he didnāt know that last night would be the last time he held you close while you drifted off to sleep. he didnāt know that today would be the last time heād wake up with you.
he didnāt think heād lose you like this.Ā
he didnāt think he wouldnāt be able to save you from that blow.Ā
āplease, please,āĀ he begs, both to you and to whatever force that is just barely holding you together. ājust stay with me for five more minutes, please. until i can get you somewhere.āĀ
the rain soaks him to the bone, clothes and hair sticking to his skin. your lips stay motionless, eyes shut.
āwake up, please,āĀ he bargains. āyou can have all the five minutes of extra sleep you want later, i promise. justāāĀ his vision blurs, and something shines on the ground before it is gone, swallowed by damp earth, lost amidst drops of falling rain.Ā
desperately, he tears off parts of his traveling cloak to staunch the bleeding. deep inside, he knows it is futile. he knows your wound is too great. he knows what lies ahead. but he cannot help but press the cloths to your wound and pray.Ā
please, please tell me itāll be okay.Ā
please stay with me, beloved. iāll read you all the books in the world. iāll sleep in with you everyday, even if we end up whiling away our time.Ā
please. stay. stay with me. i canāt lose you yet.Ā Ā
āā just wake up, beloved.āĀ
by some miracle, your eye flutters. just a bit. just enough to set hope ablaze, just enough for the grip on his heart to loosen a tiny bit. he buries his face in your shoulder, resting his head against your neck, uncaring of the blood that stains his clothes. your blood. on his clothes. his hands. everywhere.Ā
no. no. this canāt be happening.
he feels you strain beneath him, your unwounded arm gently, weakly brushing his back. he jolts upright, eyes trained on your face. you send a frail smile his way. he clasps your face softly as you nuzzle into his palm.
āalhaithamāāĀ
his full name. archons, how long has it been since you called him that?Ā Ā
āā take good care of yourself, okay?ā you tell him, chest heaving, your fingertips touching a tear on his cheeks. āi love you. so much.āĀ
those are the last words he hears fall from your lips. he presses a kiss to your forehead, to your eyelids, and to your cheeks and to your lips, over and over and over until he feels your breath slow, hoping theyāll say what he knows he cannot manage to choke out.
i love you.Ā
he stays there next to you for who knows how long, holding you until the rain slows and a faint rainbow smiles in the sky.
until he canāt smell camphor anymore.
ā
every person has their curiosities.Ā
theyāre just the little traits that set them apart from others, the things that make them tick just a little bit differently, the things that make them, them.
for instance, someone may be obsessed with collecting tiny furniture, while another eats the crusts off their sandwich before actually consuming it. someone may have an affinity for the most niche aspects of linguistics, while another can accurately predict the next raindrop that slides down a window pane.
after all, no two people are exactly alike, are they?
alhaitham knows heās got his fair share of these curiosities himself. his aversion to soup and all things that resemble it, to name one. and with you, heād noticed two things.Ā
number one: the scent of camphor that seems to linger on every inch of your person.Ā
heād caught whiff of it almost immediately the first time you met. you were but one of his juniors in the akademiya, filled with bright-eyed curiosity and anxiety to match. you had tripped over a stair and bumped into his table in the library, bringing the mountain of books in your arms crashing down.
and with subsequent coincidental meetings, he learnt that the subtle scent of camphor dancing in the air meant you werenāt far away.Ā
you were, unfortunately, one of the poor souls who seemed to be cursed with constantly recurring minor illnesses, and almost always walked about with a stuffy nose. and so, you always carried a small disc of camphor in a handkerchief, as well as in your pocket.
you swore up and down, left, right and center that sniffing the vapors helped make breathing easier.
āitās my grandmotherās remedy, alhaitham! camphor always works wonders. well, that and eucalyptus oil.ā
alhaitham may not know the validity of your claim or the legitimacy of the cure, but he knew to never, ever question a grandmotherās remedy. that, and heād much rather refrain from starting a back-and-forth about something so small.
and number two: your neverending pleas of different variations of ājust five more minutes!āĀ
āfive more minutes, āhaitham. please.ā youād whine grumpily when he woke you up to start your day. ālet me sleep in for five more minutes.āĀ
āfive more minutes, habibi,ā youād ask when he put down the story youād requested he read out to you before bedtime. āread me the part where she finds the music box?ā
āfive more minutes, baby,ā is what youād tell him when he asks how much longer youād take getting ready. āyou canāt rush perfection!ā
those five more minutes were never five minutes long.Ā
but heād always, always indulged you and those pleading eyes of yours. as stoic as he appeared to be, you lived in his heart. of course he could never deny you anything under the sun.
ā
alhaitham remembers that silly little song you sang over and over, the one youād learnt from a kid in the bazaar. heād taken you to see one of nilouās performances, and, friendly soul that you were, youād struck up a conversation with some of the eager audience members before the play.Ā
āoh, how i wish i was a bird flying free,
iād see the world, every mountain and every sea!
oh, how i wish i was a cloud in the sky,
wouldnāt you like to wave to me as i pass by?ā
youād hum that rhyme on every idle afternoon.
loss is inevitable. he knows that, with how logical and rational and straightforward he is. heād lost his parents, but he was far too young to remember. heād lost his grandmother, but she passed in her sleep of old age, serene and wise.
but you? he didnāt think youād leave him this soon. a singular wish sits in his soul, making its home in his bones.Ā
a wish that youād come back, somehow.Ā
he wishes you gave him five more minutes, just as he always did.Ā but he knows that you couldāve given him five more hours, five more days, five more years and five more decades and it would still not be enough time spent with you.Ā
a blue feathered bird comes to perch on his shoulder, interrupting his musings just as he raises his face to the sky. he sees the heart shaped cloud that floats idly above sumeru city.
Ā he thinks of the rhyme again, and something in him tells him to wave. and so he does. a scent so familiar lingers, faintly brushing his nose in the wind that picks up.
āalhaitham, it's time to go.āĀ kaveh calls his name softly.
Ā alhaitham doesn't move. āfive more minutes,āĀ he says, echoing your favorite phrase. āi smell camphor in the breeze.āĀ
ā¦ extra notes: my alhaitham characterization for this fic stems from how i believe that when alhaitham is attached, he's attached. so i focused more on that, and less of all that rationality and whatnot. this one loves deeply, yk?
that camphor thing is a real grandma remedy in our household (my mom would tie some in a hanky and put some under my pillow and still to this day reminds me to do it when i'm sick) which is what originally sparked the idea for this
when i'd initially started this wip, i didn't expect it go this way. usually i write with my brain, but i think i wrote this one with my fingers working faster than i can think hsjhsj so sorry if it's kinda out of place lmao but yk what? i'm happy with it still even though i feel like it doesn't have my usual quality.
thanks for reading.
#āš#ć» nouveau livre ĖĖĖ#astronetwrk#genshin x reader#alhaitham x reader#genshin impact x reader#genshin impact x you#alhaitham x you#genshin x you#emotional blabbering ahead in the tags beware#this is hitting me in a place i didn't know existed hjsjs#like. i haven't lost anyone but i have lost my life as i know it?#this past year was full of so many endings and i've been struggling in some way everyday#like i didn't know that the last time i saw my friends would truly be the last time we ever saw each other#i didn't know that i'd be bidding goodbye to my parents as i left home through an airport#ANYWAY ENOUGH DUMPING. ig i'm just telling you to hug the people you love tighter and cherish every moment you spend with them#time goes by really quickly and you don't know where it'll go#ily guys#ew barf feelings </3 /j
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