#it's also hard to explain how i cannot bring myself to consume billions content despite the fact I Know I Can often without That much pain..

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we’ll just have to see How It Feels when billions s5 (part 1 lol) actually hits and i have to deal with the fact that i hate to even Think about consuming billions content outside of the [compilation of Just Winston’s Billions Content], even though technically i had to consume billions content outside the compilation just to create the compilation, and i felt Genuine Anxiety over [it’s saturday night bitches here comes a billions episode] whether it was a rare “and winston will be in it” saturday or a “he won’t be in it so i don’t even have to Look at it” saturday, and this time it will be 100% winston saturdays, and i Dread this, yet i was somehow able to endure even Most of billions eps in the past, b/c it always seems more Unmanageable when you’re thinking about it until it’s actually happening currently and you’re handling it, but usually that’s re: more dire things that [an episode of a show that’s kind of cursed and i kind of hate it] but i can’t explain the complexities of my relationship with billions except that it distresses me all of the time and at the end of the day i’m really just trying to look at the quant while safely assuming that canon will only cause me further suffering