#it's almost 1 am

[silverpiwon]

Jiung in the Harmony Adventure EP.13 | P1H Show 2

[rosetterer]

this is why you shouldn't write after an evening shift

[mystically-yours]

good night everyone <3

[jacky-rubou]

some late-night thoughts about my suicide ford au down here if anyone's down to listen. warning for the obvious mention of suicide.

sometimes I think about how genuinely upset I made Mabel at the news while Dipper's reaction was more low-key and I decide that there was a reason underneath the obvious ones. of course Mabel's upset, she just learned one of her grunkles committed suicide (or at least was planning to). then my mind wanders and here you go.

Mabel was exponentially more outwardly upset at the news because she barely even had a chance to interact with Ford before they left. Leaving Gravity Falls, she had the expectation that she'd be able to bond more with him in the next summer. and now she barely even knew him before he decided to leave them all behind forever. it was a very bitter feeling to have all the chances to bond with him before he died but just... not, and all because she didn't care for nerd stuff.

also, Mabel seriously struggled with guilt after Weirdmageddon on its own. But Ford's suicide made that every bit of worse since she felt that her giving up the Rift to Bill ended up domino affecting everything until it ended at the absolute tragedy that was Ford's suicide. A part of her felt irrationally responsible for Ford's choice to end his life, as if her being upset at Dipper staying and feeling hurt or left out was the only reason Ford's guilt pushed him over the edge and that she should've hidden it better to spare his feelings. That handing over the Rift directly killed her Grunkle. It would take therapy and a visit from a Ford in her dreams to get her out of this mindset.

Ford shot himself in the head for a heartbreaking reason. He devalued his intelligence and mind, believing his intellect was what lost him his family and friends and that he wasn't actually that smart anyway. So he destroyed his mind so permanently and completely with his energy gun to symbolically mirror Stan's sacrifice but guaranteed permanent this time.

watching atots and seeing them as kids would make a world where Ford kills himself in the end feel so much more tragic and bittersweet.

in the same vein as the previous point, time travel shenanigans happening with young kid Stan and Ford travelling forward to see them as sixty something year olds but only seeing Stan around. Eventually kid Stan and Ford would ask about Ford's disappearance and old Stan didn't want to tell them he killed himself since they didn't deserve to be in despair over their future. it slips out anyway.

anyway, that's probably enough and I'm too tired to think of any more things. bye or until I see how undecorated this place was with utter confusion <- sentence written under the influence of sleep deprivation so I'm keeping it for posterity since even now it seems like nonsense. (help me I'm barely awake and rambling about it)

[thatoneredditto13]

Okay so I know I just finished Vrains I think earlier this month, right? Well...

Now imma watch it subbed. Bc I just feel like it.

I primarily watch the dubs because I only speak English and since I like watching Yu-Gi-Oh while doing other stuff, it's easier for me to keep up (also it's just stupidly funny and I just love it like that, even though I know other than that it's just objectively worse in every way-)

I've watched things subbed before (ie the Ark Cradle arc in 5Ds and a couple episodes from Pokemon Journeys when it was still airing) but never a full series.

So uh...yea. Probably gonna start within the next few days.

[sea-of-machines]

I can't sleep because I'm gay

[aestherin]

once i finish these papers i'm throwing a party

[yanderepuck]

Uhhh somno threesome with WHOMST????

[wastelandbaby7]

Lowkey thinking about getting am eyebrow slit.

Thanks D&P.

[oh-three]

The need to go to bed vs the desire to read another fifty pages in a book.

[amiracleilluminated]

it was cool for a couple of hours but now i just sound like marge simpson and im still freezing without heating

[bobfloydsbabe]

I should be sleeping, but instead I'm creating the masterlist for Eccentric Professor Bob and setting up the taglist form. No regrets.

[subtlefires]

actually. im really and truly going back to all the things i loved when i was 12-15 years old. it's so good? i feel like something has come full circle

[coconurt]

OKAY WRITER ASKS!!

*Plops down here*

2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 9, 13, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19 (Ehehe), 21, 22, 23, 27, 29

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK, BESTIE!!!!!

2. Do you read/reread your own fics? Yeah, sometimes!

4. How many WIPs do you have right now? 4 active ones!

5. What’s a fic idea you’ve had that you will never write? Uhhh not sure. Probably something spicy lol

6. Are there any fics from others you reread all the time? Weelll, not really, but the last fic I reread was we'll make it, i swear by taizi on ao3

7. How many ideas for fics do you have right now? Two! The one I'm working on currently, and the other raphsandra one I told you about :3

9. Do you write every day? If you wrote today, share a sentence of what you’ve written! No, not every day! Just when inspo strikes lol. *looks at the 1.1k I just wrote tonight*

~Leo's heart performed an uncomfortable twist in his chest. He instinctively reached behind his back for his swords. They weren't there. His- his katanas, they were gone-

"Easy, my child. You are safe," came a soft female voice from behind him.~

13. How much planning do you do before writing? None whatsoever. I have an idea, it kicks me in the gut, I write it down before I forget about it. Ya know how it goes~

15. How do you come up with titles for your fics/chapters? I usually use song lyrics. cuz. ✨ aesthetics ✨

16. At what point in the process do you come up with titles? When I hear a good song lyric that fits the fic lol

17. What’s something you’ve learned about while doing research for a fic? That plaster and fiberglass are not necessarily the best way to patch a turtle shell >:3

18. What’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?

~That was really it. His friend, his teacher, his everything was gone forever. Doomed to die separated from his family, trapped alone with a monster, just so the rest of them could live.~

The fic

19. Give us a small teaser from one of your WIPs. Ehehe you get TWO teasers bestie :)

~"Are-" His voice cracked, and he started over. "Are they okay? Raph and Mikey and… and Donnie, are they-?"

Karai dipped her head, once.

"Would you like to see them?"~

21. Have you ever deleted an entire scene after spending hours laboring over it? If so, why? Yeah probably. I'm too tired to remember a specific one tho :P

22. Do you know how your fic will end before you start writing? Yes. When I first have an idea, the beginning, middle, and end kind of flash through my mind in the course of a few seconds lol

23. How do you choose where to end a chapter (if you have multi-chapter works)? I've never written anything with more than one chapter! Kinda want to tho...

27. Is there a fic you were nervous to post/share? Why? Probably the very first one I posted to tumblr here! Why? Cuz I was a nervous newb lol. I didn't have any reason to be tho, I got a few nice comments and it meant the WORLD to me

29. Share a bit from a fic you’ll never post OR from a scene that was cut from an already posted fic. (If you don’t have either, just share a random fic idea you have that you don’t plan on getting to.)

~Donnie and Mikey were already with him, trying their damn best to stop the blood seeping from the gaping wound on Raph's plastron. Leo skidded to a stop, dropping roughly to his knees as his blood sang harshly in his veins.~

[usmsgutterson]

the only things motivating me to be productive at all right now are the fact that I might be able to get an energy drink, slushie, coffee or milkshake tomorrow (haven’t decided) my excitement for the holiday event, and the fact that I have friday off. 

I was expecting this week to breeze past me,, it hasn’t, BUT, I might also make myself tea because tea is good and drinking it is like injecting dopamine into my bloodstream. 

[parsnippety]

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