#it's about the parallelsssss

[magnetothemagnificent]

Captain America and Bucky #621, art by Chris Samnee and Bettie Breitweiser (2011)

Bucky locking eyes with his first kill

Avengers/Invaders #8, art by Steve Sadowski, Patrick Berkenkotter, and Inlight Studio (2009)

Bucky locking eyes with his future self

Captain America: Sentinel of Liberty #6, art by Carmen Carnero and Nolan Woodard (2022)

Bucky locking eyes with Steve

[id in alt text]

[altcvnningham]

good enough welcome back alt cunningham

[darklight-owl]

Castthrone. I lovethem.

Girl who has forgotten her past and is afraid of what she might find when she remembers x girl who is trying to move away from her dark past and become better. They see the best in each other they are a pillar of strength for one another. Do you see. Do you see my vision.

[bidokja]

don't mind me just *froths at the mouth*

[brilliantfantasticgeronimo]

the giggle - thoughts and reactions (part 1/2)

fourteen breaking up from the dance- w/ the toymaker-> "do you see why i broke with him?"

kate going to hug fourteen feels very appropriate sdlkfj kate is like 14 aka barerly holding it together lol distincly not Having Had A Good time for a while. Esp avoiding any serpents...she’s just 1 scandal away from a malcolm tucker "this job has fucked me in every hole of my fucking body" meltdown")

"no change then, there" rtd making all his rtd1 era political subtext into text lol

oh…. so kate is just 1 mind-funker away from becoming an immigrant-hating, disabled-hater, bravermanish AnCapp ........................ interesting to know (put a pin on that tbh. I feel we may finally get the antagonist!kate of our dreams (my dreams) in this era)

shirley being so "is it offensive? Well, borderline..." and "absolutely no need" and "don't make me the problem" feels kinda like... "oh we can have a have a badass disabled character but she can't actually impose herself or be an inconvinience in any way" ://

like damn in that exchange with kate, just have a "we'll talk about it later" line. From a non-political / strictly narrative-pov, that would give us a bit of a flavor for their relationship as well.

"can't you give everyone a mask?" "imagine trying that" the thing is. russel.......... they did very much give everyone a mask, DSFKLJ like *some* made a big noise and sure it's alarming for "what that means" but like... most ppl did in fact mask up sldfkj that was a very significant thing that happened, in fact.........)

the old archengel network~~

CANON WEST END MELANIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rtd taking "but no one watches television anymore!" people and giving them the middle finger <3 iconic

nah we were already mad dr. you're not that important

"that's righteusness! that's human!" but let us seeeee the effect. same problem as the first special. we're too much in the doctor's pov. let me see the *outside world* pov. rtd1 used to be so good with this :/

"you have my permission" autocracy? in MY dr. who? is more likely than u think

(what separates 14 from 10 is that like.... 11-12-13... they could all be quite ruthless, but those post-10 doctors didnt waste time with bs. they just Get On with the autocracy w/ no pretenses lol) (it's growth (tm) but at the same time........... oh, yeah, we're on a waters of marsy / ghost light-y path lol)

"hello" "hi" T.T so cute!!! i love them

"good old sabolom glitz" what an oxymoron lol

"I've got nothing. My family are all gone" oof. timeless child parallelsssss

also melanie if u want a family u just need to adopt a bunch of orphaned, supernaturally-enhanced teenagers. it worked for SJ!!!

kate WILL hire all your ex-girlfriends doctor and there's nothing u can do to stop her

"all this time and you didn't mentioned her" i mean tbf. i love melanie but .not mentioning sj *is* more alarming than not mentioning melanie sdlkfjsdklfjsd

"you're wearing yourself out" YEAH THAT’S WHAT I’VE BEEN SAYING

companions marathoning doctor who thru the doctor's head is always so clara coded

we can't have 10.000 …….. but we can have this “the first man picked up a rock” monologue.

(tbh actually......... i always thought it was very fitting for The Story of dr. who that the very first serial and is a historical about "the day friendship was invented" , so them invoking that rn feels very fitting. The toymaker, as a the Doctor’s Fun House Mirror Of The Day reframes that day (that story) as the day *murder* was invented. )

thie flashbacks make the toymaker serial look so much better than it is lol the land of stories serial >>> toymaker serial

"you never tell me to do that" he does actually jjkjkkklk all the time.......

"that's what unravels me, all the laws I cling to, gone" for The Theme…. → overcoming trauma is about accepting the irationality and injustice of it happening. It’s necessitates accepting that life can be fundamentally Unbalanced and not Karmic.

this ep is fun but is like.... idk some of 14's speeches here. Him being so clear-headed… it feels bit gratuitous? Unearned? this "im always so certain" as well... which *shouldnt feel like that* since we've had 13 seasons (40+ seasons*) of development before this. but idk it still feels like... too much too sudden?

"take away the toys... what am i? what am i now?" the kids aren't all right.mp3

maybe i'll save u!!! aaaaa TOT

(for all the talk about "i say things like that now" the doctor doesn't actually says she loves donna *to* her face here...)

“games don’t have a memory, every game starts from scratch” tbh that’s what watching the show is like sometimes lol even for us ~reconcile everything~folks… at some point u do gotta take each week as its own thing.

the giggle in my head………… // the drumming…?

lol the "i thought i was clever" puppetry imaginery and the twisting of the ten-era"help me" motif.. c'mon toymaker is just ur avarage fan fiction writer. u are valid my dude!! join AO3!!!

[vilonnie]

nooo you don’t get it it’s about the ren-ann makoto-akechi ann-akechi akechi-yusuke yusuke-ren ann-makoto ren-sumi sumi-akechi akechi-futaba makoto-futaba haru-yusuke makoto-ryuji ryuji-futaba sumi-makoto sae-ren ryuji-akechi yusuke-makoto parallelsssss… duh. obviouslyyy.

[wench-and-jezebel]

The Musketeers Reaction: A Rebellious Woman

Jezebel (@typicalopposite) reacts [with occasional asides by Wench (@scripted-downfall)]

[Starting out with both Athos and Flirt; a good start for both of us]  Whooop whoooop!!

Le gasp

Oooooof, poor girl

Well shit, she ded

Oooop!

Men.  😤😤

[Bruh, this woman going for the Musketeers for why]

“As sane as you and me. Or me anyway” 🙂

Oooop plot twist

Ooooop!

Tantrum?  “That allowed?”  [*simultaneously* "Is that allowed?"  Louis sounded so confused ;aldskfj]  😂😂😂

Ew men!  Well, man! But still

[For an episode that started with Athos and Aramis, they haven't been in it much :(  (just wait tho)]  Ooop… You said that and they appeared 🙂

Ooooooop… Tantrum!  [tbf, wouldn't you throw a tantrum if some dude wrote a pamphlet saying some other dude can have you killed?]  Fair!

["That's very, very shocking"  Sir, your Twelfth Doctor is showing]

Bruh.  Your wife.  [*simultaneously* Also.  SIR.  YOUR WIFE.  IS RIGHT THERE]  !!!  LIKE HAVE YOU EVEN EVER LOOKED AT HER!?!  (Flirt has)

Oooop ["Probably only mental vacancy"  Biatch]

Poor Athos is getting heart eyes and his wife is just standing in the background

[Forget beauty; trauma's apparently the flirting style to choose]  Ma’am’s gonna get ded

😖😖😖 [Ah, yes, have a *bone*]

Oooop!  Now Athos has heart eyes!  Er, heart lips?  Heart everything

Ma’am that’s gonna get you DED  [not saying that he's concerned about this, but]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Ooop!  Ooooooop!!

[Do you see what I mean, btw, by the Cardinal's scheming and misguided but not completely, totally evil?  Like, he's definitely better than this dude]  I do!  [He's actively like.  Okay, whoa, I said she was insane, I didn't say "deal with her firmly", is she reallyyyyyy a heretic?]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

["I'm sure his face was a picture when you kissed him"  Yeah, but Milady don't care at alllllll] 😂😂😂😂

😦 OOF [ngl, he's got a point… She kinda needs to consider the consequences of what she's doing.  I have so much analysis about this ep, oml]  LOL  But also ☹️☹️☹️☹️ oooof

😂 Mentally he’s like say no say no say no

Ack, would not want to be alive back then

"It ended badly?" "You could say that" He says with a smile

[She just ran smack into him ☠️]

Well damn BY HER HAIR ☹️☹️

[The bookssssss]  😭😭😭😭

[His face tho]

Oooop the fingers!  He goes "four girls" and holds up his fingers and they literally are all pointing in different ways

[Someone's pissedddddd]

“Take this… but like… I want it back”  [*simultaneously* Sir just gave away his gift from the freaking Queen]

“We all gotta accept our fate in life.”  Everyday I wake up poor with a bunch of attitude filled hellions I think the same thing, chick 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

– – –

Jezebel: I can’t think of much to say… but Athos was giving the star lady the smoulder. Putting Flirt to shameeee!  Then of course it all went to shit

Wench: Ma'am, I honestly don't get how you watch this and are like.  *shrug*  Not much to say.  (All affection possible, to be clear.)  But like.  I'm watching it and I'm like.  HOLY FUCKING SHIT OH MY GOD THE PARALLELSSSSS

Jezebel: Cause Athos is your beloved not mine 😂 

Wench: Yeah, but you didn’t see the Aramis one either

Jezebel: Ok yeah no I didn’t 😂

Wench: Anyway, go on, say the parallels you’ve come to see

Jezebel: I’m not good at picking up parallels 👀 until they are pointed out. Or I know to look for them. And I mean… damn you!  Just say them then, wench

Wench: Well, you’ve got: privileged noblewoman who has an idealistic view of the world and acts in the way she thinks is right accidentally getting people hurt in the process contrasted with Athos, who we know was a nobleman, and who was a bit naive/idealistic when he fell in love with Milady, and who got Thomas killed as a result.  Which, to my mind, is why he takes her to the morgue. Is it harsh?  Yes.  But it's the same wake-up call he got when his brother was killed, and he knows where Ninon is heading if she keeps on her path.

Jezebel: And ahhh. Yes so that’s again a lot deeper than the parallels I assumed you meant, which were: strong independent woman?  Enter Athos heart eyes.  Woman may be deceitful?  Aaaaand now she’s ded.  Enter Athos broken heart eyes

Wench: Well, with the exception of the ded bit (because I’d not spoil something like that during midpoint, for shame!), that basically is the second parallel.  (I had this already typed up before you sent that, so pardon the repetition, BUT.)  You’ve got: Athos fell in love with Milady (a fierce, independent woman) and trusted her, and she ended up being very much not who he thought she was and killing his brother as a result.  Fast-forward a great many years of self-loathing, guilt complex, and abstinence, and you’ve got Ninon (a fierce, independent woman) with whom he’s at least entertaining the idea of something happening, and he trusts her word that the girls aren’t there, and he finds out that no, actually, she lied to him.  Which is (part of) why he’s so angry right now.  And I'd wager another part of that is internally motivated because it's a second time that he lets himself put trust in a potential romantic interest and gets burned for it.  (*snort* literally.  Wait.  WAIT.  LAKSDJFL;KADSJFLKADSFJLKADSJF  That's funny!!!  Tell you during endpoint)

Jezebel: Ok lol

Wench: Anyway.  Those are the parallels.  Respond at will

Jezebel: Except Milady killed the brother herself and Ninon just taught the girl to think for herself and she acted out on it foolishly.  Which, yes, the blame still can lead back to Ninon but I don’t think it makes her a bad person. Sooooo team Athos and Ninon for me 😂  Unless she is only in this episode and then never mentioned again… Then team fuck you writers 😂😂

Wench: You'll see what happens.  Though, I will say... It did kinda seem like she encouraged the note thing?  "Oh, lemme write this for you and then tell you that the Queen is a sympathetic ear *wink wink*" is kinda.  Active.  And, also, like I said... a lot of it is a matter of trust.  She gave her word, he kindaaaaa vouched for her (but, more importantly, bought the lie), and then it turned out to be false

Jezebel: Fair!

Wench: I interpret it as: He thinks her goal admirable, but also thinks she's going about it the wrong way.  She asked for his trust and abused it.  Etc.  Also, I'm sorry... I like Aramis; you know I do... but he annoys me sometimes.  He acts like he knows all the details of a situation a lot of the time when he just... doesn't?  And I feel like someone with eyes could see that?

Jezebel: No you’re right 😂😂😂😂

Wench: So, like, in the episode where they go back to Athos' estate, he keeps picking fights and worming for more information and even bringing up the vaguely bitchy "how many servants did this place have?" and stuff without reading the fact that This Is a Serious Development.  He's actively opening up to them a bit, in an extremely painful way, precisely because he does care about Porthos, but Aramis is just being. Annoying. Or in this episode with the "she was protecting the girls, not deceiving you."  Yeah, that's true.  And intellectually, I'm sure Athos gets that.  It changes nothing about the emotional side.  And Aramis doesn't know about Athos' past, so you'd think he'd have a bit more care/curiosity and a bit less judgement

Jezebel: Yeah that’s fair!

Wench: I mean.  They've known each other for like.  Five years.  Minimum

Jezebel: Trueeee! *Sigh* Dammit Flirt! You’re making me look bad for liking you

Wench: I will say... Anne (Milady), Ninon, Sylvie (not that you know her yet, but still).  Buddy's got a freaking type ☠️ 

Jezebel: 😂😂😂😂😂 executed

Wench: Ma’am.  Shut up (aff).  Anything else for midpoint?

Jezebel: I’m good if you are 🙂

– – – 

Ooooop you sure ma’am?

“This is family business” *Hand raised aggressively* Oh no

Ooooop

Cause women do have brains and thoughts of their own 👀

Ackkkk I couldn’t have livedddd back thennnnn  [*You* couldn't have?  Ma'am, you don't like conflict; you might have hated it, but you'd be physically fine.  I'd be burned at the stake as a heretic in a fucking millisecond]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Oooooop she poisoned ittttt  [Where’d you get that from? alskdjf]  The way she held the cup ☠️

[Once again: the truly wonderful state of trials at the time]

Now I know she poisoned it

Oooop!

[His expression 😭]

Seeeee I hold grudges ☠️☠️☠️ so I will struggle liking Milady if she ever isn’t the bad guy anymore.  Maybe she’ll leave without a reformation arc but like.  Nah

[HER SMIRK!  What a bitch alksdjf]

How has it been proven  [As I said… courts are great]

Respect for the queen!  Proof she has a good heart, too, ‘cause her husband has been goofily eying Ninon all episode

“What will I do if he dies?!”  DIE!  You will die!

Ooooop… Poor queen

Ma’am, what does it matter if she was Aramis' girl?  YOU ARE MARRIED  [Ma’am.  You act like the sanctity of marriage means anything.  Literally two seconds.  After you were just talking about how you couldn't survive.  The lack of autonomy.]  It was a joke Wench shush

[Portamis' side-eyes alskdjf]  😂😂😂😂  ["How do you know about Madame de la Chapelle?"  "Her whole life is a lie"  Bravo, Athos, that's very clear.  Very informative.]  Right 😂😂☠️☠️☠️☠️

Sweet lord this man

“You think I poisoned him?”  Yep

40!?!?  Sweet lord  [Good news…  She can follow the path of all wives these days and just.  Affair]  😂😂😂😂☠️☠️☠️☠️

Why would he willingly drink out of another glass of water after that

Ooooof ☹️☹️☹️  [Ah, yes.  I'm sick.  Let me fondle this bone]  A KNEE BONE  [*Ah, yes. I'm sick. Let me fondle this *knee* bone]

And I’m a jealous bitchhhhh 👀

😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

[To be fair, she didn't only betray her own sex.  She betrays dudes more regularly, in fact]  Fair… She’s just a betrayer of all things  [Yup!  Also… I'm sorry, but I do kinda love Milady.  In a love-to-hate kinda way.  She's just so delectably... morally fucked]  😂😂😂😂 You would ma’am!  [I always loved Irene Adler too]  Evil loves evil 😤😮‍💨  [Rude :(  I feel attacked]  Because you are ma’am 🙂 (aff)

And sir you will be going to hell for a lot more than just your relationship not being intact

[Athos is.  Very Determined]  He is!

Buddy… He said open his mouth, not lean in for a kiss  [Portamis banter]  You too Port

[ATHOS, STOP TOUCHING IT IF IT’S POISONED]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  [I KNOW YOU'RE NOT BIG ON SURVIVAL BUT STILL]

Oh the priest guy poisoned it

☠️☠️☠️☠️ Mood, Port  [Because the Cardinal is the only one who can call off her death and he wants to save her alsdkfj Duh]  … true 😂  God, to be alive during these trials

My dude why did you look?!!?  You.  Idiot.

[Damn, Athos, you speed-running the rescue]

Ack the intensity

Athossss  [Also, more parallels here I'ma talk about in endpoint]

["I'm not a cruel man.  Just a practical one."  Like I said: true neutral]  Very practical

Well damn  😦  [I mean.  She do be alive tho]  That’s true… But also, that’s so unfair  [Indeed]

[Buddy, that be called blasphemy]

☠️☠️☠️ They go… we can hear you

[I love Peter Capaldi.  And his accent is awesome]  Yessss

[Oh shit more parallels]

And sad Athos again… Well, damn.  Buddy can’t catch a break.  [Ma'am, this is one of my favorite characters; happiness is exceedingly fleeting for them]  ☠️☠️☠️

💔💔💔💔  [Poor Constance]  Damn ☹️☹️☹️

[OH SHIT IS IT THIS SCENE?  OH SHIT IT'S THIS SCENE.  d'Artagnan.exe has stopped working… "I love you.”  *blue screens*  “I mean... respect and admire"  "Say it again?"  "I respect and admire you?"]

👀👀👀👀👀👀

OMG!!!!  Awwwwwwww  [This can't possibly go wrong] She is marr- fuck it, I ship ‘em  [Ma'am has a het ship?!?!?!?!?!  WHOA!!!  (Yes, I recognize that I'm one to talk... shut up)]  😂😂😂😂 I love it tho! That was adorable!

– – – 

Jezebel: Omg! 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 this was just an emotional roller coaster! Poor Athos! 💔💔💔💔  Like 🥺🥺🥺 buddy deserves to be happpyyyy! And it just gets ripped away from him! Like for once (and you know I like Aramis more 😂 but still) the heart eyes was aimed at him! And then it’s just like… nope. Nuh Uh! Not happening. She’s exiled now! And by the cardinal… the one his wife is working with! ☹️☹️

Wench: Not that he knows that, I don't think.  Or does he?  I can't actually recall

Jezebel: True, but WEEEE know 😭  I don’t think he does

Wench: Poor buddy

Jezebel: I don’t think he would have tried the little he did to save the Cardinal if he had 😂😂

Wench: Nah, he would.  You underestimate his sense of duty/honor.  It's like when he had to apologize to the Duke of Savoy… That was exceedingly humiliating, especially given the Duke's responsibility in the Savoy betrayal, and the fact that he felt his duty outweighed his sense of honor/pride is telling.  Also, there would have been no other way to save Ninon; the Cardinal issued her order of execution, and he had to rescind it.

Jezebel: True!! I keep forgetting they needed him for that ☠️☠️☠️

Wench: And, finally, I do think there's a degree to which having the Cardinal helps.  Because he's the King's right hand, essentially.  His advisor.  And a) it'd make France appear weak to have the advisor to the King be killed, especially by an emissary from Rome.  And b) he does help the King on a lot of things.  We tend to see his scheming side, but, again, at least this incarnation actively helps when it suits him.

Jezebel: Yeah his flip flopping gives me whiplash 😂😂

Wench: :)

Jezebel: And nooo, but Athos!  Buddy straight up gone on his knees and begged 🥺🥺😭😭😭😭

Wench: And, just gonna remind... Athos was a nobleman.  Pride and honor are bound to be pretty damn important.  It's why the whole duty vs. love thing with Milady shook out the way it did; he had to do his duty, not just because of the King's ruling, but also because of his own sense of right and wrong... but it's tearing him apart because he did actually love her.  (Kinda does, in some ways.)  And he might hate himself as a result, but his honor still means a lot to him.  Like in "Commodities" where the guy asks, "How do I know you won't betray me?" and Athos' response is a vaguely insulted, "I'm going to pretend I didn't hear that."  All of which makes clear how significant this was by putting that supplication into context.

Jezebel: ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

Wench: Thank you, thank you... I'm here all week!  Follow me for more painful analysis.  (And it's not JUST Athos analysis, to be clear.  I pay attention to the others too.  Like the Savoy thing.  But like.  Athos be interesting!  I have put him under a microscope like a bug)

Jezebel: Also ack! I just feel so bad for himmmm ☹️☹️☹️

Wench: alskdjflaksdjflksadf  Now you understand why he is my beloved

Jezebel: Athos be just your type of angst… The tragic hero that can never be happy!

Wench: a;lskdjf;lakdsjf TO BE FAIR!!!  (And this isn't too spoilery)  That isn't FULLY true for Athos

Jezebel: Which part, first or second?

Wench: *whistles*  Or… Well.  I guess I can say.  The second.

Jezebel: Aight so the first implies enough 😂😂😂

Wench: Hmph

Jezebel: Anyway! I’m sorry I don’t think I will ever like Aramis and the Queen, unless they start having more scenes together to build a relationship. It’s just feels like purely lust rn. And this isn’t me just shipping Flort talking lol  Which is also why I was like Hmph about her being jealous

Wench: They do have more later

Jezebel: Fair ☠️ But idk I just don’t like it ☠️☠️ But I do like her, so let that be said… She is so sweet and I feel bad for her 💕☹️ just not enough to ship her and Aramis  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

Wench: Okay, but you haven't actually said why you dislike it… I, personally, think Aramis is an idiot for it, but I'm fond enough of them both that I'm on-board.  As a passing ship that I don't obsess over but don't dislike

Jezebel: (Can you tell I’ve been writing I am not using my nickname 😤😤😤😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨)

Wench: asdlkfj

Jezebel: Well mainly just because I don’t see it. Other than he saved her and she gave him a necklace ☠️☠️  But also the thing about Aramis being an idiot! Which it sucks because you should get to be with the one you love and she was forced into a loveless marriage

Wench: You do realize he's been protecting her for years, right?  Just because they only recently started interacting, doesn't mean there's not history of some kind.  (Which is actually what's so insulting about the pilot episode.  The King doesn't even know who Athos is despite them being there for years as some of the best in his regiment.  So the Queen has likely interacted with them to a decent degree)

Jezebel: That true and fair! But I’m reacting to what I see ma’am! So Hmph 😂😂😂😂😂

Wench: Anyway, moving on. Milady thoughts?

Jezebel: I don’t likeeee herrrr 😤😤😤 lol!  But also I think I missed why she was even in the place with Ninon in the first place 🤔  Or did the Cardinal send her after the death?

Wench:  She was gathering dirt on Ninon to get her to stop.  He wanted someone in there getting information, basically

Jezebel: That’s what I thought!

Wench: Also, going back to the Athos/Ninon parallel from earlier: Both end up giving up their money/lands/etc in response to tragedy, basically rewriting their lives/identities, and moving somewhere where they continue preserving their ideals but to a less obvious degree.  And I was laughing about the "got burned for it" earlier because both relationships literally end in fire and flame.  Milady burns down the la Fere house and Ninon is almost burned to death.  

Jezebel: 😖😖😖😖😖😖😖 trueeeee

Wench: And then there's one final parallel (that occurs to me right now)... From Milady's POV, Athos intervened (extremely spiritedly) on behalf of Ninon and called of the execution, but had not been willing to do so for her.  Obviously this isn’t full fair, since a) Ninon’s actions were only considered criminal because they were inconvenient, not because they were actually harmful, thus he would have done the same for anyone and b) he’d been living with the guilt of killing Milady for long enough that the situations aren’t comparable (e.g. he might have been able to think that he could take comfort in Milady’s execution being his duty the first go-round, but he knows that he can’t by the second go-round).  But there ya go

Jezebel: True so you see why she’s upset… not that she deserves to be upset but you see it 😂😂

Wench: I understand why you don't like Milady, but I do think it's important to note that she does have a rather sympathetic story.  I know things that make her even more sympathetic from later in the series, but you know some of it already... If you look at it from her perspective, she's spent her whole life shoved into the role of criminal to survive, and she keeps asking for someone to understand.  And every time, she gets rejected, and she's back to being a criminal, but she just wants someone to understand.  To recognize that she's not as bad as what she's been forced to do.  But she also tells herself she doesn't care about that --- she tries to force herself to not care about that --- and years of having to survive some way or another have worn down her morals.  So she's in this loop.  

Still Wench: She's a street criminal but she finallyyyy finds a way to be happy, a way to love and be loved in return... and then Thomas finds out about her path and snaps, threatens to tear her life down, and she can't bring herself to trust that Athos would be able to (in terms of emotion or in terms of the law, it's a mix of both) see past that, so she kills him.  And this betrayal/murder is what truly drives Athos away (except not even that, because he clearly still loves her in canon), but she sees it as just more proof that she is a criminal, will be a criminal, and can't be loved because she's a criminal.  And then she goes and gets a job from the cardinal where, guess what, she's once again committing crimes for the sake of survival.  But she's still so desperate (much as she doesn't want to admit) that she even goes to a confessional to try and get absolution, and the priest rejects her --- condemns her for her actions despite the fact that God is supposed to be forgiving, tells her she's unforgivable --- so she gets pissed.  

Jezebel: Oh gosh that’s a lot ☠️☠️😮‍💨 I was like what happened 🤣🤣🤣🤣 

Wench: Her entire life is a cycle of trying to survive, and then every time she tries to live --- to be recognized as not having much of a choice, to be seen as more than what she's done --- it gets snatched away.  So she steels herself, goes on with what she has to do, and the cycle repeats.

Jezebel: Yeah, I can see that once you say it. Like with Sam!  My biggest flaw in being a reactor is I don’t look deeper than what I’m seeing (and I’ll miss parts 😂😂☠️☠️) but once it’s pointed out I can really see it!

Wench: Anyway… anything else?

Jezebel: I think that’s all I have!

[libartz]

I was watching an episode of star trek Voyager (season 7: Repression) the other day just because it was a Tuvok episode, got to the opening credits and then suddenly, guest starring-

As in Erandur(and half the dunmer in Skyrim)’s voice actor?! I mcfreakin lost it. It took like half the episode for him to appear again and then he did and I was like omg it’s really him. He was playing the main villain and generally existing as an intimidating hallucination, and it slapped.

The illness continued when it got to a flashback of Tuvok being strapped on a table by him and he was going on about how Tuvok would be the perfect subject for his mind control, and I was noticing Erandur parallelsssss

[a-wild-things-rambles]

*walkes out the brainrot discord channel covered in blood w a shellshoked look on my face* yea mu innitial thought wernt lying the paralels and diffences between bucky coming back and jason coming back really are interesting[<- STEVES UNENDING FAITH IN THE MAN BUKY WAS VS BRUCE ALREADY HAVING GIVEN UP ON JASON, THE GUN SCENES HAPPENING IN REVERSE IN CAP WITH STEVE READY TO SHELD HIMSELF IF BUKY IS TO FAR GONE VS JASON NOT HAVING A PLAN FOR IF BRUCE SHOOTS HIM, BUCKY KILLING INNOCENTS AND STEVE STILL FORGIVING HIM, JASON NOT EVEN CONFIRMED KILLING A GUILTY MAN AND BRUCE LOOSING FAITH]

[thotfuss]

i have been waiting to see u lose ur mind over doctor sleep and the shining parallels because they are INCREDIBLE

THEYRE SO GOOD I haven’t talked abt dr sleep on here enough but it was so fucking GOOD literally I was listening to the soundtrack earlier today and I feel like that Elmo on fire dot gif every time the fucking overlook theme hits. Fucking incredible

[stagefoureddiediaz]

hang on we got athena saving bobby and vice versa (i think one time one of them was in civilian clothes im not sure) we got chimney going to save maddie in taking of dispatch in civvies we got buck saving eddie in civvies now we got hen saving karen in civvies the parallelsssss

yup so many parallels - its making me a bit insane and feral Nonnie!!!

I'm trying to think of the Bobby and Athena ones - Bobby came for Athena when Jeffery attacked - but they were both in uniform and when Ethan shot bobby in 4x14 she was in both her uniform and in turnouts. I guess she kind of was in civvies when she killed Jeffery in season 5 but that wasn't really a save in the same way live we've had for the others - I'm probably missing one - brain is whirring away from the promo for next week - we don't have enough time to prepare ourselves!!!!

I am very much stuck on the Hen doing compressions in the back of the ambulance - and the parallels not only with Eddie and Buck, but also thinking about the mother who died giving birth and then came back to life - Hen didn't give up then - even though hope had faded and I'm excited to see how they play it because the act of her saving Karen in the back of the ambulance is going to make her realise that she can do more by being a first responder than she could as a doctor - because she gets the chance to provide the life or death stuff before the doctors do - Its going to give her a few realisations. I also wouldn't be surprised if she looked into being a field doctor - in the UK we have doctor paramedics - who are fully qualified doctors who go out in ambulances (and helicopters) to treat in the field - getting life saving care to people faster - its something Hen would excel at and would be an interesting thing for the show to explore!

[incorrectolivia]

headcanon anon with a new one.

imagine in s3, the chocolates are brought up again, like casually. like ricky is doing a fitting with kourt for the musical (parallelsssss) and they're just aimlessly talking. maybe kourt brings up how ej is trying to figure out something to do for gina and she's talking about how funny yet endearing it is to see him try so hard. ricky just gives her a tight smile and nods along. kourt doesn’t notice how he’s uncomfortable and continues by asking him what he would do for her if he was in ejs position, since he’s knows how close they were. ricky reposed why saying that with gina, it’s the thought that counts and she would love a big gesture. kourtney laughs and goes like the chocolates? rickys taken aback (does his classic wise eyed, blink thing) and asks how she knows about that. kourt explains that gina mentioned the whole chocolate debacle during their sleepover. something about how her heart melting when she thought it was him. ricky’s sort of shocked and smiles a little, “she said that?” kourt realizes that she probs shouldn’t have said all that as it was tea spilled during girls night and quickly adds, yeah but it ended up being her mom so… and ricky’s still lost in thought and just nods and says “right, her mom.” the episode continues as normal and we’re all sitting there like “damn, that’s it? brought up the chocolates just for the heck of it again?” the screen goes black, presumably signifying the end of the episode, but THEN, a scene appears on the screen again. we see someone running down the steps of the caswell porch. we see gina answer the door and pick up the chocolates. we see her look around before receiving the text from ricky and smiling. then the camera pans to ricky hiding and looking at her. he smiles as he tucks his phone into his back pocket before skating away.

WOAH WOAH WOAH!

[outlawsandcircles]

I am having doubts, Becho could potentially be the ending...I just don't see how Bellarke could happen with Echo still alive and in love with Bellamy. This episode gave me hope like if Echo dies, but she didn't so...here we are. You think it could still happen?

Absolutely! I have never doubted that this is were the story is headed and I never thought they had to or would kill Echo to make it happen. I believe Echo is way too attached to Bellamy I mean look what she was about to do, so her journey will be about finding a balance without Bellamy. I believe our boy has had some time to think while we was stranded on this snow planet and I honestly do not believe he was thinking about Echo or dreaming about her or possible talking to her to stay sane because this show loves its parallelsssss. Do you?I mean really? Really? Hang in there it’s coming my friend and it’s going to be so worth it.

[clarkesablake]

As Promised...

I rewatched the episode this evening and quickly typed out my rereactions in chronological order. Please like this post if you’d want to see it again next week. It’s probably slightly messy, because I’ve never done something like this, but it was fun, and it’s a good insight into my inner monologue. I’ll also get better as the season goes on. Ik I love reading stuff like this on other people’s blogs. 

Overall, I liked the episode. It was slightly underwhelming, because we already knew most of what happened, but it was cute, and I’m excited for the story this season. (and, as someone who has never actually said or believed this before: It really is Our year Blarkes!)

·       Clarke looking at maps, nice callback to s1, #1 earth skills student

·       “at least I don’t have to swim” I didn’t think about the fact that she was at Becca’s house, the ocean dried up, makes sense

·       She’s so freaking pretty I’m sorry wow

·       I always assumed she wouldn’t even try to dig up the bunker until after 5 years, I didn’t realize she’d try to join them at all

·       I’m wishing we saw some of her first moments/days after praimfiya

·       Is it a coincidence that the rubble collapsed after she looked at Lex.a’s throne? I think not lol.

·       “how the hell am I gonna make it 5 years?” they did a good job conveying how hopeless her situation seems, and how long that time really is when you’re alone

·       MAYA AND JASPER ghfbgrkeu I’m so sadd, I’m sooo glad she’s getting to mourn

·       I hope Monty gets to read his letter

·       “realll cheerful clarke, ignore me” loll this cracks me up, so relatable, coping humor

·       “I’m proud of you” *insert sobbing* she thinks she’s gonna die, she Loves him

·       These landscapes are really cool!

·       Her eyes are so blue

·       Idk who she’s thanking for the rain, but I love seeing her smiling at the little things abt earth such as rain, it’s a lot like s1 really when they breathed real air for the first time and the delinquents celebrated the first rain

·       The radiation storms remind me of acid fog in s1 too, I wonder if they’ll continue to be a thing, probably not after 6 years I guess

·       SO the solar panels are destroyed, why does the rover work later in the episode? I’m kinda confused about that

·       Sidenote: the wandering through the desert reminds me of Holes

·       It’s really difficult to watch Clarke breaking down like this, but how much she’s fought thus far shows us that she really does want to survive deep down, it’s just hard

·       Is it weird that I smiled when she killed the bird? I strangely enjoy going back to the basics of survival, finding resources, again, like s1. I had missed that aspect of earth being just earth, nature in its purest form, beautiful and terrifying

·       She’s being reborn in the water <33

·       I love Madi’s little village, I hope they use a lot of that set

·       “God this would be so much easier if I knew you were alive, If I knew I was gonna see you again” GAHHHHH

·       “Positive thoughts Clarke,” gfeuwcvke I love it

·       I even missed Trigedasleng what even

·       Baby Madi is adorable and terrifying

·       It’s an interesting thought that Madi was trained to avoid the flamekeepers and that’s why she was never found, I love little details like this!

·       I would love hearing her talk more about her childhood and parents

·       Okay It’s great that Clarke’s using medical skills again, but she didn’t clean the wound, and she most def should have lost her leg from infection without sterile equipment

·       Madi in the window like a horror movie actually made me jump

·       How many times will they use the same tree shot from the pilot lmao

·       Clarke is lucky Madi didn’t stab her w/ that spear tbh

·       “child from hell” lollllllllllll

·       Clarke’s not the only one good w/ kids, I love how she left the drawing without saying Anything

·       She’s also hella good at manipulating people (in this case it’s in a good way)

·       Little Madi’s smile awwwww

·       Clarke looks so Good in her tank top and w/ the fish Madi taught her how to catch, she’s gonna have so many more Grounder skills now!

·       Still wondering how they fixed the rover

·       Also confused as to why Clarke wants Madi to speak only English (other than for the purposes of the show)

·       “Do you think they’ll come back too?” Because priorities <3

·       Triple G: Green’s green goop <3 + Make algae not war, Te Amo Monty

·       Emori being happy and joking w/ the others and being excited about spacewalks and defending her new friend Raven this is Everything

·       I’m also glad they made a system to avoid talking about the time, and considerate because of how hard this is on Raven

·       I was so surprised by the whole Murphy being separate from the group thing! But it makes sense. I still love him SO much. And despite him struggling a little bit rn he’s still a smiling adorable idiot

·       “you’re not worthless Murphy” SAY IT LOUDER FOR EVERYONE IN THE BACK

·       “We make decisions as a team here” Emori has grown so much I can’t

·       Dropship Parallelsssss

·       “All of them” Clarke’s first instinct = ALL the guns, Bellamy would be so proud

·       Madi hiding in the whole is a Clear Octavia parallel this is gonna be so Interesting

·       “Only choice” ((((ALSO AN OXYMORON BY THE WAY))))

·       Zeke is beautifuul and smart, ((((((((((JUST LIKE RAVEN REYES AHHHHHHHH))))))))))))

·       I wonder if we’ll learn more about the two other non-violent offenders

·       “for starters cause she’s a kid” GOOD REASON thx reasonable man, it’s unfortunate you died

·       “There are no good guys” a dangerous rhetoric to teach a kid Clarke, there might be consequences for that in more ways than one

·       Just let Monty be HAppY, he just wants to be safe and w/ the people he loves

·       I don’t really get Marper but I’m so glad she’s there for him

·       I love Raven and Emori friendship!

·       Murphy knows he done fed up something good he’s just too proud to deal w/ it rn

·       Murven <333 I’ll take them how I can get them, and I love that she doesn’t put up with his bs

·       Ik I’m supposed to be mad at bech.o but I love seeing Bellamy happy and hopeful and smiling and having someone there to support him (plus do yourself the favor of appreciating his kissing skills and imagining Clarke there)

·       Octavia looks terrifyingly beautiful oh my lands