#it's about stef being a shitty parent

[jellazticious]

not a lot of sheriff love in the world (for various reasons to be fair); i would love to hear more thoughts on stefanos family if you have them 👀 ?

I don't know how to tell you this...

As sweet as Sugary Spire is, the dynamic with Stefano and his dads are the polar opposite with Pascal and his dads

Also under the cut, it's me throwing shade at Sugary Spire

For one, 90% of the SS characters are so dry in canon that it's hard to tell what their characteristics would be. It's so ironic that Rosette has five times the appearances compared to Noisette and yet I do NOT know her fucking personality. Most the Sugary Spire stuff posted are generic TROPES cuz no one knows how to write them, the only person who makes SS art and make it interesting is Heinzlike

Pizzano is kinda the only character who has a decent foundation with his traits. But the rest?? You're on your own LMAO

Like I don't even know what Sheriff does of imma be honest and my bucko Beefy has trouble writing Joan (Jude) also because of that. Me and him are doing EXTENSIVE RESEARCH about what the devs themselves provided of Sheriff and Gumbob and like???? THERE IS NOTHING

And so far all we got was having Sheriff be a shitty parent cuz of how cold and distant he is. It's so ironic that he's supposed to be Pepperman in Vigi's role but has none of Pepperman's charm nor that hospitality Vigi has. Like Vigi may have a resting bitch face but we are still shown that he's got a kinder side. Sheriff however? He's just perpetually pissed on every sprite he has.

Candied apples will give birth and straight up walk away just like Doof's parents jsksndkdkd

Secondly, with that being said, yeah Stefano has a shitty kinda divorced family. His ass is a one night stand love child cuz Pizzano rizzed the fuck out of the Sheriff cuz he did not want a speeding ticket. (also btw, regular Pascal is also an accident, the more you know sksksksksk)

Pizzano pays for the child support 😭

I'm so sorry I can't take this seriously jsnsndnd Sugary Spire has zero writing despite the visuals being so fucking developed it's hilarious. Like I'm so sorry, I never got into SS because I thought it was so boring and I was right now that I've looked into it. How did they make Pizzelle so stale??? How do you manage that???

But yeah ultimately, Sheriff is hella cold at Stefano, maybe even disappointed when he reminds him of Pizzano but like, he still kinda cares? It's just so hard to deal with a kid who's just so impulsive and stupid but like, he'd still show up when Stefano is deep shit. The feeling is mutual on Stefano's side. He plays hero in a musketeer outfit because it's a reminder that he still looks up to Sheriff

Pizzano on the other hand, he acts Stefano more like a super fan than a son. Like yes he cares but not in the way you'd think. They're the same level dense and stupid but not that Stef minds it, he does enjoy spending time with his fun dad more. But again, not to discredit Pizzano's genuine love tho, he is just so shit at showing it and hella busy with uhhh whatever he's doing. Is he a showman like Noise??? I don't knowwwwwwww

But yeah in Stefano's adulthood, Sheriff kicked him out his house, Pizzano let's him bunk in his place and maybe hired him as a stage hand/prop maker so he can have a reason to have Stef stay.

He made his costume and his weapons but he's still a little shit that he just does not want to share his props. Most of them are fake but that sword is jery much real and metal

Lmao the only reason why I was able to write Stefano was because he's a lone wolf who does not need the influence of the other characters

Oh one last thing, Stefano's full name is not as long as Pascal's. The sole reason why it was that long to begin with was because of Pepperman. But since Sheriff did not have that same pop nor wanna deal with Stef, it was Pizzano who did the naming. He is also called Stefano because there is no "Pascallis" in the full name.

Paciano Stefano Royales Creampuff

[getbeyondthebooks]

About Stef and Brallie

I need to start by saying that I love Stef, normally . She’s so awesome and I would love to have a mom like her. But if I was Brandon? If I was Brandon I would have honestly married fucking Cortney if it meant being away from her. And I hate Cortney. 

Let me explain. 

In season one, when Callie is still a new addition to the family, a girl that wasn’t supposed to stay in their house for more than a few weeks, a year at most, Stef reminds Brandon that foster siblings aren’t allowed to engage in a romantic relationship. Brandon isn’t interested at the time, he’s still with Talya, but he’s “an horny teenager” so better safe than sorry, right? Right. Fine. Legit. 

As we know, Brandon can’t really help falling for Callie after that. He knew he couldn’t, sure, but he probably thought that they could wait and sooner or later Callie would be out of the house, and it’s not like he could just erase his feelings. That’s not how feelings works. Also, it’s not like Callie was blameless here. She kissed Brandon after knowing that she was going to get adopted, remember? Sure, in season 3, during the interview she says that she wanted to fuck the adoption up before something else fucked it up, because she was scared. Doesn’t seem like a good way to fuck it up to me - if Jude hadn’t walked in on them they would have probably never been discovered and then what? I’d like to ask her. Also, we knew from her conversation with Wyatt at the hospital before then that she already had feelings for Brandon too, she just didn’t think she deserved him (to quote Wyatt, she was “too fucked up”). But at the wedding she says that she knows what she deserves now - meaning Brandon. She felt safe because she finally had a family who wanted her, she thought for the first time that she deserved everything everyone else deserved. To love who she loved. But Jude walks in on them and she runs away. 

Brandon confesses to his moms that he kissed Callie, which - btw - it’s his first fucking mistake. He didn’t kiss her. SHE kissed HIM. It’s interesting because he keeps saying that it was him, even during the interview in season 3. I don’t know if he wanted it so much that he remembers being the one instigating it, but this mistake plants the first seed of distrust in Stef, who probably can’t help making parallels between her son and Liam, since, you know, Brandon says Callie ran away because of him, when she actually ran away because of what Jude said. 

The moms forbid Brandon to go see Callie but he doesn’t listen. He loves her and he doesn’t want her to believe that there’s nobody out there for her anymore. And - let me point it out - he was right. She needed to know someone was still there for her, even if she had run away and was high risk and whatever. So yeah, seeing Brandon was what she needed. But Stef doesn’t trust him and she gets him a restraining order, like he’s stalking Callie, like that beautiful hug never happened (and for all we know, Stef might not know it happened). 

Brandon doesn’t care. Brallie keeps meeting secretly. Stef doesn’t know. Eventually, they both realize that Callie needs a family and Brandon backs down and lets her go. Because he loves her. So much. And he wants her to have all she needs. And she needs a family more than she needs him. Fyi, this it’s his most beautiful act of love. 

After the first break up it seems like Brandon is the only one hung up on them. He’s hurt, he can’t forget. I don’t blame him, since he has to see her everyday. He tries. He’s vulnerable at this point and Dani keeps planting ideas in his head. That he should get her back before she gets adopted and stuff. Things blow up during the winter ball and everything Stef ends up hearing is “I realized today that you didn’t lead me on. You just never felt the way I did. What you needed, what you wanted, it was never me,” which, AGAIN, makes it look like his feelings aren’t reciprocated, not really. She doesn’t know that Callie followed him before he got into the cop’s car to tell him that what she had said about Wyatt wasn’t true - meaning that she still loved him too, since she told him that lie just so he could forget about her. But she doesn’t want him to at the end. 

Things are friendly between Brallie later, up until the GU fund riser. Callie kisses Brandon when she discovers that Robert isn’t gonna sign her adoption papers. Later - in season 3 I think - she tells the girls of GU that she did it because she thought she was giving up Brandon for nothing. Meaning - she still loves him. Brandon tells her that he doesn’t want her to give up on her dream (they promised each other, right?). Stef doesn’t know that they let each other go again, for the second time. 

Callie doesn’t take it well. She asks him if it’s because of Lou. Brandon breaks up with her. Again. 

Season 3, Brallie’s adventure in Mexico. Stef finds a pregnancy test and the first thing that comes to her mind is “you don���t think callie is pregnant with brandon’s child, do you?” How did she even go there?? All she knows at this point is that Callie and Brandon kissed once. Which makes me believe that she can see that something is still going on between them but doesn’t want to acknowledge it. 

Brallie has sex. It’s consensual. And they break it off again as soon as the adoption gets through. 

Callie tells the moms the truth and everything Stef can think about is “Brandon took advantage of the fact that she was vulnerable”, when, honestly, it was about “giving up Brandon for nothing”. 

Stef confronts Brandon about it and she doesn’t listen, won’t listen to him. She accuses Brandon in all the ways possible and never asks Callie about her feelings. At this point, Stef only knows that Brandon is in love with Callie, she never heard Callie say that she is in love with Brandon, she doesn’t know that Callie almost went to live with Robert to stay with Brandon, that she wanted to put his keyboard in her apartment, that she was the first to say I love you. 

For all season 4 Stef treats Brandon as some sort of predator and he can’t stand it, obviously, and stays with Cortney. The only person defending him is Mike, who sees the same thing happening with AJ. Stef keeps taking Callie’s side. 

And it makes me so angry. She doesn’t know the whole story, never cared to sit her kids down to ask them honestly about it, never took the time to talk about it with Callie! When Callie said they had sex, Stef brushed it off like she didn’t even want to know about it and went to bite B’s head off for it instead. She told him in 03x08 that she could see that she hadn’t been there for Brandon about Callie and she could see now that he was heartbroken, but after that? Did she do anything to be there for him? She didn’t. She kept accusing him, suspecting him, blaming him. To the point that she can’t even see Brallie in the same room together without getting tense. 

I’d like to say that I don’t blame her 100%, since she doesn’t have the whole picture, but I can’t because it’s her fault she doesn’t have all the information she needs in the first place! I blame her for being a shitty parent to Brandon, for playing favorites, for being judgmental and closing her eyes and not listening when literally EVERYBODY knows Brandon and Callie are a thing after 0.5 seconds in their presence. Sophia didn’t even need to see them together to know that Callie was in love with him! Like, seriously, Stef decided not to see what was going on, she ignored her kid like he’s some kind of rapist, did NOTHING to comfort him when he couldn’t go to Julliard (and yes, he was to blame, but not even a hug??). The only person that honestly stopped for a moment to ask him how he felt about it is Callie! And then you’re surprised he’s in love with her? Please. Brandon literally helped everyone in that house and Stef treats him like he’s a criminal. 

So now I hope she’ll get scared every time someone points out that Brandon and Callie look like they’re dating and not like siblings, because she had it coming. 

She told Mike that he couldn’t play favorites between Brandon and AJ, but that’s exactly what she has been doing with Brandon and Callie. She keeps choosing Callie over him. So Mike had it wrong, it wasn’t because of Callie that Brandon wouldn’t move back home, it was because of Stef. 

I can’t believe nobody is calling her out about treating Brandon like shit. Sure, Brandon isn’t perfect and he made his mistakes, but not everything is on him. Callie is as much to blame as he is, and yes, she’s dealing with other drama, but it can’t always be “good old Brandon who has to take it up the chin”. It takes two to tango. It’s just easier to blame Brandon than acknowledging that she should have taken Brallie’s relationship seriously when Brandon told her about it the first time instead of taking a fucking restraining order against her son. Brandon was right in 03x08 - she humiliated him. And she’s STILL doing it. KEEPS doing it. 

I’d divorce the family too if I was him. No shit. 

[bates--boy]

Peter was just about done with work that day, cleaning the bottles for the infant animals when his phone buzzed in his pockets. He shut the sink off, yanked off the wet rubber gloves, and pulled his device out of his pocket. “Oh!” he chirped, seeing the name of the sender.

         [Naseem] Yo, Pete, it’s Naz. Was wondering if you have plans for lunch today? 

         [Naseem] I wanted us to do some extra rap practice and maybe go over the lines between Troy and Stefan before our big night

          Peter turned to sit back against the lip of the sink, hugging one of his arms across his torso as he typed. 

          [Peter] i have a half-day today so i’m free once i clock out at twelve.

          [Peter] i’d be happy to buy you lunch if you haven’t eaten yet. i know a great place to get a bite to eat.

          [Naseem] Bet. My break’s half past noon. See you at your work?

         [Peter] fine by me! see ya!

          Smiling at the screen before shoving his phone into his pocket, Peter finished cleaning the rest of the bottles, went to the changing area to wiggle out of the waterproof overalls, and then to the employee area to punch out at the time clock and fetch his hoodie and his copy of the stage play from his locker. He looked down at the practically beaten-up book, some pages curled in, corners folded, colorful tabs poking out of the pages: pink for Josef’s spoken lines, blue for Troy’s; green for Josef’s songs, yellow for Troy’s. Slightly crinkled from the times Peter shoved it into his bag to carry at all times, or when he had his quick bursts of sleep while reading over the thing.

          With a quick cleaning at the employee basin, Peter made a brisk walk back to the grounds, heading to the entrance area. He sent a quick message of his location and waited with the play lying open, quietly murmuring Josef’s verses. Soon, the familiar deep blue XC60 rolled onto the lot, with the Nigerian, Palestinian, and Swedish flags painted across the back. Naseem climbed out and waved as he strolled over, a leather messenger bag slung over his shoulder and his copy of the play rolled in his hand. When he drew close enough, Naseem said, “Wow, it’s been a while since I last came here.”

           “Ah, so you probably don’t know about the new aerial arts performance they have here,” Peter grinned as they walked back to the conservatory grounds together. 

         Naseem shrugged. “I have. And I’ve been meaning to come check it out, but, you know. Schedule..”

          “Well, the next time you’re free, come on over! I can even sneak you in for a show!” Peter nudged his shoulder against Naseem.

           “How are you gonna--” Naseem stopped once he saw the coy grin on Peter’s face. “Lemme guess: you’re the star?”

          “One of them.” Peter bobbed his shoulder and looked away in faux modesty. He giggled and patted Naseem’s arm. “Come on, I know a great picnic area we can practice in.”

          Peter and Naseem took the stroll to the benches, dodging giggling little kids darting everywhere to get to the next animal enclosure that caught their eye, and the wandering animals that escaped their habitats, mainly small bird and marsupial species. After Peter bought them both bottled smoothies at one of the snack kiosks, they settled at a table near the wooden fence post, drawing annoyed glances from passersby as they sat on the tabletop instead of the benches.

         “Which scenes do you want to practice today?” Peter asked before pulling a long draught from his bottle. “We can just do a couple so I can treat you to lunch.”

          Naseem skimmed the pages he had marked, going back and forth and shrugging. “Ones that have our characters singing so we can work these vocal cords. Let’s start with...” he consulted his shorthand notes. “Act III, scene 4. So, my character comes up to yours.”

          Naseem clambered down the picnic table, took a few steps away, and stomped back. The chills Peter felt may or may not have to do with the complete switch of energy Naseem made. Even his green eyes flared with fury.

          “Why the hell did you do that to Josef?!”

          Peter sighed as his character did, shifting on the table and leaning forward on his knees. So cool and unaffected, to the point of almost being despondent. Peter still couldn’t figure this Troy out, but he spoke his lines.

          “I didn’t do a thing to him, Stef.”

           Naseem crossed his arms and tilted his head. “Oh, really? So when he said no to that stage deal because ‘his mom’s gonna die alone in their apartment while he’s out singing for pocket change’, that wasn’t you?” Peter had to pause here, as Troy struggled to find an excuse. Naseem threw up his arms. “God, what is wrong with you?! What kind of a friend are you?!”

          “A realistic one.” Peter’s tone remained calm, stoic - a stoner too mellowed out to get worked up.

          Naseem rolled his eyes. “Yeah, right. Realistic. Jo finally had what he needed right in his lap, and you couldn’t even be supportive of him because you’re realistic. That’s bull crap, even for you.”

          “You can say whatever you want about me, Stef, but of all these people feeding him these wild dreams --” Peter swept his hand about, gesturing to a figurative crowd while a few eyes turned their way. He pointed to his own chest. “--I’m the only one looking out for him.”

           “No, looking out for him would be helping him with this. He has a chance to get a better life, but you don't want that for him!"

          "I don't--?!" Peter gave a scoffing laughing and rolled his eyes. "You're so far off, it's funny!"

           "Yeah? So all this time you kept telling him to don't do it, it's not because you know you're wasting your own life being some bum mad that you lost your trust fund and you're angry that Josef can make it?"

          "No!" Peter's voice started to boil, Troy's cool, arrogant façade starting to crack and chip. His free hand curled into a shaking fist.

          "Then why? Why are you being such a shitty friend?!"

          Out of the corner of his eye, Peter could see a uniformed figure walking up to them, parents trying to distract their kids from the argument.

          "Because this would break him just like it almost did me!"

          In a blink of an eye, and a sudden flush of heat on his cheeks, Peter was on his feet, too, feeling Troy's despair as he and Naseem were practically nose to nose. For all the anger, the anguish, and the overprotective adrenaline Troy was supposed to feel at that moment, Peter channeled the underlying heartache and exhaustion; he sounded tired.

          "Like it did my sister."

          "Er, excuse me," the uniformed man said when he came close enough, a hand reaching out to them. "Is there a prob--"

          Naseem stared at Peter for a breath. "Your sister?"

          Peter gave a soft, sad laugh. "Oh, that's right, I never told you about Anna, did I?" He silently filled his lungs with air.

You don't know the story of a boy and a girl Mommy pleasers destined to dominate the world

           The worker looked between the two men, casting an especially long glance at the singing one. "...What?"

Born to hold the dreams that Mommy tucked away Cause she got bare footed and pregnant Waiting on her someday

          The worker furrowed his brows. “What is--” he spotted the open scripts in their hands and lowered his own hand. “Oh... okay...”

         Peter felt a tickle of a grin almost appearing on his lips, amusement almost breaking his character. Almost.

Commercial deals, toddlers on every single ad Barely out of diapers, and we’re out there selling fads Taught to walk so we could tap dance and do a twirl And hold our hands out for all the gold, silver, and pearls

Yanked outta school when the lime lights calling us Daddy got you a gig, so you better not fucking fuss! Tuck in your gut, tilt up your chin, chest out and sing You’re gonna make it worth taking this diamond ring

What you do with heavy makeup and cameras flashing? Swallow cotton and pinch our cheeks red to stay dashing Seeing enemies in friends looking for a ladder to climb Trying to bring you to ruin when they find the right time To strike, like vipers on the hunt for your big juicy kill And the only way to stop the cracks is a tiny yellow pill

A tiny yellow pill A tiny yellow pill A handful of tiny yellow pills Until her heart went still

          Naseem slowly started to unfold his arms, his character Stefan hit with a world-shattering realization. “Oh...”

          Peter turned his face away. “Yeah...”

         Naseem shook his head and sighed. “Man, I’m... I’m sorry. But, see, here’s the thing...”

 I had never known you were crushed this hard Ruled by your fears, beaten, tattered, and battle scarred Now that I think it, so much shit start to make sense Is this why a little stage work gets you so incensed?

I hate that for you, all this pain you’ve been burdened Chasing a high and identity that doesn’t leave you hurtin’ But it’s unfair how you hurt Josef with your sister’s ghost Breaking a dream for someone else’s overdose

What does it do for the person on the other spectrum Piss poor, tryna get meds for his ailing, dying mum When even his close friend is robbing him of a dream Cuz he can’t stop himself from falling apart at the seam? Still blinded by phantom lights, suffocating at the gills? What about Josef’s mum little pills?

Her little pills Her life saving pills If she don’t get hers, then her heart will stand still.

          This was the part where Peter is stunned into silence, indignant, hurt, scrambling for more excuses, still trying to cling to the death of his sister -- the crux of Troy’s listlessness and indifference. But then a loud cry rang out around them.

          The crowd of mere picnickers grew during their rehearsal, it seemed, now cheering and clapping and whistling, someone even going “You tell him, baby!”

          Stuttering, Peter looked towards Naseem and exchanged smiles with him. They stood closer together, held hands, and took a bow.

          “Thank you, thank you!” Peter called out, waving to the cell phones held out. “If you want more, purchase tickets for Inner City Lights before they sell out!”

          “Written and produced by Gunnar Didig!” Naseem added, calling out the website to purchase over the hooting and whistling.

[mvtteo]

YES, i know i’m so late to the game - pls fight me :/ - but i’m here now & i cannot wait to write w/ all of u & love on all of u, etc !! i’m stef btw !! ok now on to the stuff yall came here for.

☆★ [ tommy martinez + he/him + cismale ] ☆★ did you know that [ matteo de la cruz ] has lived in erie for [ two months ] now? the [ 26 ] year old [ dealer / uber driver ] is known to be [ loyal ], yet [ calamitous ]. which is fitting considering they are a/an [ scorpio ]. whenever they pass by on the street, i can hear [ save me from myself by louis the child ] blasting through their headphones. they remind me of [ a flickering street light in an alley, dirt stuck under your fingernails & a meme that isn’t funny anymore ], and it really wouldn’t be erie without them! [ stef, 21, est, she / her ].

( TW : drug use, abuse, violence )

FORMING

from toronto originally ! he’s only been in erie for about two months ( and who KNOWS how long that’ll last ... more info on that below )

he grew up in a single parent home ( his biological father SLAMMED the door in his face at 4 years old & never returned ), of course a part from the revolving door of ‘ new daddy’s ’ his mother would introduce to him as he grew. money was tight but they made due, a working/lower class family living in an area of the city that was known as a spot tourists shouldn’t visit. 

a lil bit about his mother : emillia vargas ! she took odd jobs when she could & that’s how she put food on the table. that, or her boyfriend of the month dishing out from his wallet. sometimes it was shocking - to have food in the fridge - when at least half of her paycheck was sent to a dealer on the corner. she was from a long line of addicts & didn’t make it to the other side. matteo’s earliest memories are of needles — and the worst was the silence afterwards. their relationship is COMPLICATED to say the least. for some reason, despite everything, he still cares & checks up on her. probably because she’s the only family he knows. or the guilt trip & manipulation she’s thrown his way — that, too! anyway. they don’t talk often & she’s still at the same house up in toronto.

father : the man left when matteo was just four. fighting was constant ( so perhaps it was due to trouble in paradise ), but matteo was too young to really comprehend why he left & he hates pondering on it - even though the lasting effects are REAL. 

anyway. his mother did have her fair share of boyfriends, trying to fill in that void - but to no avail. some of these men were dangerous, some using emilia, some married already, others abusive & controlling, addicts themselves ... needless to say, no one really stuck. and matteo definitely had a part in that too, being spiteful, causing fights or fighting back. things got pretty bad @ his place & the neighborhood knew whose house those red & blue lights always visited.

SPEAKING of his neighborhood, one great thing did come out of it & that was not too far around the corner lived @luzzamaya​ , matteo’s BEST FRIEND / ride or die / partner in crime. he practically lived @ her house, looked up to her father as the male figure in his life & they’re still two peas in a pod today :~)) ... but more on that later too ...

matteo grew up QUICKLY - not really in the way of caring for himself ( bc his actions would in fact prove the opposite ) but he often hung out with people way older than him ( not really wanting to be home after school, etc ) & he began diving into the world of drugs early on. def the kid your parents would’ve been 👀👀 about. YALL CATCH THE DRIFT OK ... moving on.

IMPORTANT BLURB TO HIS STORY (TW : mention of gang violence )

so he was always in the wrong crowd / hanging with kids older than him / he got involved with drugs etc really young. he started selling drugs lowkey around high school + the town and was a lowball dealer until he continuously proved himself + being more closely tied to this GANG ( the suppliers ), we can call it La Línea bc i looked up active gangs and this one was made from corrupt / retired police officers so i was like .. YUP ! so he’s currently affiliated, not initiated bc that prob means killing someone nd he’s like miss me w that, fool. but as he’s grown his relationship with them + has continued selling (drugs, weapons .. contraband etc), they want him in bc they trust him. giving him more & more duties. and it’s not like he can say NO bc they’re all strapped + can literally ruin/end his life ?? or ruin/end the lives of the ppl around him? SO as another gang (aka a MAFIA) that is trying to step on la linea’s territory … ( maybe it had bad consequences, someone from la linea being thrown in prison or dead ). SO they trust their outside dude matteo (since he’s not super recognizable to the mafia since he’s not u know . FULLY in la linea) to work a plan to take DOWN this mafia. how ? buy ratting them out to the police. a literal snitch smh. the only bad thing is now … someone from the mafia traced the words back to him. their leader is now in prison & has sent “”soliders”” to come after matteo nO MATTER WHAT. he’s gotten threatening calls // he’s been forced into fights // held at gunpoint which was his FINAL straw of being like ..  I GOTTTA GO

soooooo now they’re ( him & luz ) are in erie :~). 

also i’m thinking he got involved w the gang bc originally he owed other low-level dealers money + was like trust me on this. i’ll do whatever u ask. nd is a loyal ass hoe. plus all of a sudden he was making DOUGH selling product + had a following / a lil bit of a “”community”” that he’d never rly had before

PERSONALITY / HEADCANONS ( idk how to label - just some more info )

he’s not a horrible dude but a LOT of people would argue that he is. and his actions might seem like he is. but ... he’s learning :,)

sarcastic as hell

has an infamous smirk ok ... super careless so yall are gonna see that a lot

has a rooted issue with authority figures & hates when anyone tells him / offers him / suggests to him what to do

despite seemingly coming across as a meanie, he could also be considered the life of the party. not in the sense of being gregarious, but more so having FUN. drowning out 

immature as hell 

has definitely dealt to his mother before :/. a low, even for him, but. that’s a complicated relationship

his hair is constantly a mess

STREET FIGHTS FOR MONEY $$$ or when la linea previously made him. he tries not to do it TOO often but sometimes he’s just gotta ya know ?

has some shitty tattoos - minus the ones done beautifully by luz of course !! a few to cover some scars :|

assume scruff on his face at all times

has been struggling with sleeping through the night, nervous abt getting caught & will often just walk around @ 3pm for a smoke

loves reggaeton 

bilingual but hardly speaks spanish :/

WANTED CONNECTIONS 

a SPONSOR from AA/NA

a COP / law enforcement that takes him in for dealing

or even a bystander that calls in authorities for him dealing / stealing / anything illegal ...

someone he DEALS to

someone who OWES him money

a FLIRTATIONSHIP 

a ROOMMATE

a BARTENDER/CONFIDANT @ his go-to watering hole

a GOOD INFLUENCE who is aware of his addiction 

a PASSENGER in one of his uber rides

someone he got into a CAR ACCIDENT with

they hit him in the middle of the night // or hit his car ? or vice versa ?

someone he had a BAR FIGHT with

next door NEIGHBOR

ENEMIES

always wanted to do a homewrecker plot tbh

a revenge plot ?

someone he’s met from a DATING APP

a COUSIN

another CLUB RAT

ok i’m literally open to ANY connection u think of. it might be easy to come up w/ those in-depth ones while brainstorming tg but above are just a few ideas :,)))

[anarcoqueer1994]

Hsmtmts: Everyone is a little Queer

So my brain is fried from this concert so I promise to work on the story (@milo-melon) but for now this is all the kids but like no one is completely cis or straight.

Ricky: Trans-boy, heterosexual and hetero-romantic. Both parents super supportive obviously. Been openly trans for as long as he can remember.

Nini: Cis-girl, pansexual but tends to lean towards heteroromances(but isn't strictly hetero-romantic). Had a crush on Kourtney when they were younger but what queer kid hasn't crushed on their best friend.

E.J.: Cis-boy, biromantic, and bisexual. Trouble in past on holding onto anything more than a fling and is still figuring out how to be in a healthy relationship.

Gina: Genderqueer fem but is okay with she/her pronouns(or they/them), bisexual and bi-romantic. Wants to form a real caring relationship with someone, still working on how. Parents very disinterested in her life unless she is winning something or being the best.

Kourtney: Cis, pansexual and pan romantic, tends to lean towards leans though. Is polyamorous.

Big Red: Cis, bisexual, but aromantic. Not into dating but not against hook ups.

Ashlyn: Cis-girl, lesbian (homosexual and homo-romantic). Isn't super out, mainly bc her parents had made shitty off handed comments about their nephew the first time he dated a boy so she doesn't want to tell them. Carlos knows is always ready to be her beard.

Carlos: Cis boy, gay(homosexual and homoromantic). Never came out just kind of existed as being queer and his family has been really supportive.

Seb: Non-binary masc but prefers they/them, pansexual and pan romantic. Hasn't come out parents yet, thinks their family would be supportive but part of them is worried it would change things. Has had a passing crush on Carlos since they were in the 7th grade but it intensified when they were working on the show.

Natalie: Trans-girl, lesbian (homosexual and homo-romantic). Big lesbian energy, used to be super shy before publically transitioning now has the biggest energy in the room.

Kaden: Trans-boy, bisexual and bi-romantic. Tends to be more demisexual.

Stef: Gender fluid, asexual and but bi-romantic. Love androgynous aesthetic.

Rico: Cis-boy, pansexual and panromanric. He and Stef are together. Is polyamorous and Stef is consented to that.

Tonya: Cisgirl, bisexual but hetero-romantic. Is a bitch and doesn't care about pretending to be otherwise.

[latinalesbi]

So Stef and Lena clearly foster another kid and I think he goes to the wedding too. Wouldn’t he not be allowed to go out of the country as a foster kid? Do you think they adopted him since the wedding is taking place a year from the finale?

That’s a really good question. I know that to take them out of the state I would need permission, not sure about going out of the country but they would need passports etc. The child they foster/adopt is black, he will be on the trip.

Anonymous said:                                                                      All these interviews from the producers seem very confident the rest of the cast will appear in the spinoff every so often. Do you think they’ve got an option on them or some sort of contract? I imagine those dumped will be off auditioning for other jobs so it’s a bit confident of them telling everyone that imo.             

I think it’s bravado. What else is Hayden supposed to be working on? Everyone who can get employed will get employed. There’s no reason for fake loyalty.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I had a dream that Stef and Lena got a really nice love scene. Wish we had gotten one.             

I had a dream that I kept trying to tune into it and I just couldn’t manage it. I think it was trying to tell me something.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I don’t think I’ll ever not be bitter about how Stef and Lena/sherri and Teri were treated in these past few seasons. That behemoth scene wasn’t worth squat! We didn’t even get a love scene but we had to see Brandon grind on grace?             

I never will be over it. I will never be over how we got treated as fans. I didn’t see a behemoth scene. I saw a nice scene with a less than spectacular ending. I know Sherri doesn’t lie. I expect she shot a love scene. It’s just that it was cut.

Anonymous said:                                                                      mini meet the parents reunion at the gala last night     

I wouldn’t really know. I know Robert was there.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Jude/Lena scenes are my favorite after Stef/Lena. I loved the nail polish parallel so much             

Like, I wasn’t that impressed. They were cheap shout outs. I wish they’d written something new instead of a rehash. Especially because I don’t like Jude again, he was a complete dick up until that moment.

Anonymous said:                                                                      So Brandon is in LA. Jude is studying in LA. The girls spin off is in LA. Those two as actors I think would be happy popping in and out. Though I’m guessing Brandon is the 3rd member of this new  progressive show. 🙄 The moms coming in being background characters every so often makes me all kinds of sad.             

I hope they won’t appear. I hope they aren’t even mentioned. What is clear to me is that those two, Brandon and Jude are recurring at best. The interviews make it sound like that.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I’m conflicted! On one hand I would LOVE LOVE LOVE a mom’s spin off, on the other hand I almost don’t want Sherri and Teri to work with those people again. They dumped them initially pure and simple. The love fest from the producers for the moms that has followed has made things better but thats the truth, they willingly dumped them. The family dynamic is everything. They didn’t appreciate what they had until it was too late.             

I feel you, especially after the lack of a love scene. I don’t think that they should be limited by censorship and by people who don’t want to write for their characters anymore. They’ve changed the characters so much because they are bored with them. Instead of writing Stef, they’re going to change her completely because even writing Stef for three eps is a chore.

P.S. There’s no spin off. Notice that Bradley isn’t mentioning it anymore? His leak to Perez got people to shut up. Goal accomplished.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Joanna in one of the interviews seems awfully certain they will all appear in the first spinoff at times. We know nothing really but I just can’t see Teri doing it. Things have obviously improved on set, time is a healer and all that crap but my personal opinion was she has just been being professional. She never refollowed any of the four she got rid off after the announcement. Plus I’m pretty certain her and Sherri will both get other gigs fast.             

She’s going to say that to try to get people to watch. I am hoping Sherri and Teri get busy as shit and can’t make it. The worst scenario would be one there without the other. They shouldn’t boost that show with a guest appearance. They don’t deserve that boost. I agree about Teri. If the hatchet was buried... where’s the refollow? You think she wants her heart stabbed over and over while those idiots gloat over their spin off.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Everything will die down now until the summer. The moms spin off will be conveniently forgotten. I’m assuming they’ll start to film the other spin off soon and that will take the forefront of twitter/insta chat. Creators: ‘We want it too’ bull you do. You got a load of heat for your decision and are playing with the viewers emotions. If it doesn’t happen that’s just pretty cruel and mean to those who are obviously excited about it and being given false hope.             

The spin off talk is already conveniently forgotten. Now they can say we tried, you saw the Perez post. It’s like, listen Brad, we all know that’s your bud. One of the few in the press that wrote about your shitty dinner theater. You leaked him some bullshit and now you can play it off like you tried. It is cruel. Never forget that, it’s cruel.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Sorry I didn't mean you should wtite, I just meant you can and have. It was a frustrating finale. It is time to call it quits when fans can remember the core beliefs and traits of characters even when the writers can't             

Sorry, lol, that was my stress talking. I think I agree with you. Yeah, it’s funny, but since when has Jude even hinted at emo-ness? I mean, some Jude expert can fill me in.

 Anonymous said:                                                                      When Lena was laying on the bed with the Spicy Times Newsletter , I had a moment I got soooooo nervous OMG . I thought the writers were really gonna take it THERE and have her read it ... to Stef .... OUTLOUD . My heart was hollering at that 😂             

We’ll never get that lol. That would have been gold. I never felt the tension in that scene because I watched babymoon and I remember that was around the time Stef got a stick up her ass.

  Anonymous said:                                                                      Why do you think Stef's asked Lena to marry her so many times now ? For Sherri , that's technically her 7th " proposal " at this point - 3x when she played Vanessa on Sunset Beach . Once when her husband proposed in real life . 3x with Stef . I love it so much 😭             

It was her assignment? It’s cute and those two sell the shit out of it but... i mean come on. I am married about the same time as those two and we only had one proposal, “I think we should go get married before election and it becomes illegal.”

 Anonymous said:                                                                      what happened to ana? did the actress refuse to come back on the show or did they write her off? 

They couldn’t bother to write for her because you know Aaron, ximena, core family members. And you got lucky, they flashed her in the finale! This question was asked before the finale fyi.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Maybe instead of two spinoffs they should've fought for a sixth season to properly end everything for everyone 

Exactly. That’s what they should have done. It should be over. One for all and all for one.

[justanoutlawfic]

I just read your post u made abt how Ross has no right to be mad at Carol & Susan but yes he does. He was literally with carol for 10 years?!?! Can u imagine how hard that must be? And then the child that HE had with carol, Susan wants to name. Like wtf? She has no right to that child.

Okay, so I can imagine that Ross would be hurt that he had lost Carol, that he had lost someone that he loved.

But there’s a difference between being hurt and being an asshole. He was homophobic and treated Susan like crap. Even if she wasn’t the child’s biological parent, it was clear that she was going to be in the child’s life. He should’ve grown up and tried to co-parent. Because can you imagine how he would’ve felt if Carol had said regarding Rachel “She can’t be involved in our child’s life at all?” He would’ve thrown a fit.

There are a few shows that handled this plotline extremely better. Look at The Fosters. Stef and Mike had Brandon. Stef came out as a lesbian and married Lena. It was clear that from day one, Lena was going to be more than just a “step-mom” to Brandon. Mike even once made a comment about Lena not being Brandon’s parent, but he later apologized and the show’s narrative has shown that Lena is his third parent. Despite not giving birth to him. They work, as a team, to figure out what’s best for him.

Same with the show Grey’s Anatomy. Callie and Mark have a daughter together. Mark instantly starts working with Arizona to make sure that their daughter will be co-parented well.

So, yeah. Ross handled the situation wrong. He has a right to be hurt, but he tried to take that hurt out on his son. Rather than figuring out how to best co-parent with Susan and Carol, he acted like a huge asshole. And then in the end, we see that he was actually a shitty dad because Ben stopped being mentioned around the time Emma was born.

[jacobmellor]

Chapter 4

What was once seen as a bit of a challenge, an opportunity to show that there may be a different way of thinking or doing had recently been getting me down. I spoke to mum about it and her response was perfect, “most stuff is pointless really”

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lib7w9AdDMY

9 months ago I left my bicycle in Da Nang, central Vietnam. That was me leaving my normal. I was stagnant, progressing through places but not really progressing personally.

Stepping out into the unknown was a really amazing step. Me, Jethro and Felipe rode our shitbox motorbikes costing a maximum of $200 across the country together. Each one a Chinese fake, bald tyres, oil leaks, broken lights, broken fuel gauges, dodgy speedos. They were constantly falling over, breaking down, making strange noises, running out of petrol. Locals gesturing they were going to explode any minute, laughing at us as they pulled out of the service station on their real Honda Waves. Well these shitboxes carried us all the way through that amazing country. Through the scorching heat, the torrential rain, over mountains, along bone shaking roads and survived an actual fucking tornado. Every second was priceless.

And upon arriving in Hanoi I quickly stumbled across a group of crazy awesome likeminded people and rented a big mad house together. A family of travellers. We hosted other travellers, ran a free community English class from the living room and taught English in kindergartens for a bit of money. Together we enjoyed everything that wonderful city has to offer.

With the cost of living so cheap and the wage for teaching English so good, we had time to do or not do. Anything, everything and nothing was possible. Sampling tasty food, playing music, painting, busking, yoga, going to festivals, trips to the islands, finding skyscrapers to climb, joining a football team, taking photos, going to circus, we did it all and more. But the centre of our world which we always enjoyed returning home to was our roof terrace. THE ROOF. Coming in from those manic streets you were instantly transported to a tranquil ish bubble surrounded by air cleaning plants and the smell of drying clothes and marijuana. The walls, tables, doors, and hanging clothes were all covered in our art and any space in between was filled with Jerome’s chilled music. Freedom. The little cherry on top of it all was Hien, our incredible Vietnamese housemate full of traditional culture and fire. At first it was a struggle to cope with our western ways but soon she blossomed into this inquisitive lover of life, opening a business teaching Vietnamese to expats, telling her parents she didn’t want to get married, yet, and trying simple things we take for granted like drawing or watching and dancing to live music for the first time. She lived in the room beneath, always keeping us in check. Check Check!

Around Christmas time everybody had made plans for something else, it’s not something to do forever, that Hanoi life, the city as I said is manic. And polluted. I was seeing family in Australia, Stef was hitching and busking back to Italy, Askar was going to Thailand to carry on his amazing journey of travelling without money. Vika and Yura back to Russia to make music, Xsenia and Pavel would carry on busking and travelling around Asia. Nick to Ukraine to meet a girl he’d met in Hanoi, Daniel to Perth to see family, leaving just Jerome and Hien in the house. But before leaving we all spent Christmas Day in Hiens home town, met her family and enjoyed a big dinner together. It was a perfect way to finish.

On the plane to Australia I cried knowing that I would see my family for the first time in 3 years, but also because I was leaving my newly found family and Masha, the woman I’d fallen in love with behind.

My mum and dad, are older, greyer but still the same people at heart, it was surreal to see them after so long. A few weeks spent relaxing, eating and just hanging out with the folks like normal. I’m very lucky. I’m also so thankful that they are happy knowing I’m happy, I couldn’t ask for anything more. It wasn’t so sad leaving them again, just sad to leave those avocado, poached egg, smoked salmon on toast breakies in the cafe.

I hitched from Sydney to Melbourne and back again and then up to Newcastle for a tree planting job. All the time planning on returning to Vietnam and Masha. I asked Daniel to come and help with the job seeing how he was in Oz, he needed money and it would be nice for him to learn how to plant. Just like that, we were planting 15,000+ native grasses by hand, the perfect job for one of the most inspiring families I’ve ever met. I’d been introduced to Paul, Tanya and sons over a year earlier when with Russ. We stayed at their house a couple of nights but never had the chance to fully get to know each other. Paul is working in construction, but has always challenged himself with amazing/insane adventures, living on the edge, sometimes even falling over the edge, but it doesn’t matter, he smashes through everything with his can do attitude and refusal to fail. After his wife died of cancer, he rode his bike to the very northerly point of Australia and kayaked, fucking kayaked to Papa New Guinea. Aaaaaand raised a shit ton of money for charity in the process. Wow, and then there is Tanya. Like us she is definitely a traveller at heart, hitching Europe and Turkey in the, I think 80’s, maybe 90’s. She’s not old old! One of the most open minded easy to talk to people in the world, she fuelled a love for horses by working in stables in different countries. After realising professional riding wasn’t for her and just going with the flow she now sculpts for a living and has life size bronze works on display across Australia. Being creative and doing what she is passionate about! If these guys aren’t an example of following what you love and achieving everything you put your mind to, I don’t know what is.

I’d booked my flight back to Hanoi from New Zealand, because first I wanted to hitch on a boat and do a bit of cycling in real nature before returning to Masha and Hanoi. And I guess this is where that feeling of pointlessness has come from. I couldn’t find a boat and things haven’t worked out with Masha. I’m not really used to things going against me, I’m used to things being hard, I can deal with that, but all of a sudden my dream of sustainable travel seemed up in a big fossil fuel guzzling cloud of aeroplane smoke as I bailed and flew to NZ. The fact the relationship ended multiplied this feeling ten fold, I felt lost. Instead of doing what I’d done previously, enjoying the journey for what it was, riding the waves, embracing the challenge, learning from the mistakes, going with the flow, smiling at the punctures or the breakdowns, or the bad weather, shitty road, lack of food. I got down.

I was riding but not riding, my head was stuck up in that cloud. But New Zealand is so bllllllloody beautiful that it’s actually difficult not to live in the moment when your surrounded by so much breathtaking scenery. And then I met cyclists Ryan and Dee, an awesome friendly couple from England, with the positive vibe returning I’m starting to find apples everywhere, and people are giving away the best tastiest pinkest peaches you can imagine. I stayed a few nights with a girl who loved to bake. Scones, banana bread, apple + blackberry pie, a loaf of bread and then leaving and discovering a home made quiche she’d woken up early to bake and put with my lunch. Last night I stayed with a family of 6, the dad Chris had cycled from the top of the north island to the bottom of the South Island. 3000km along rough trails in 22 days. Their 3 teenage daughters outwitting me in every conversation and then waking up this morning to watch their 11 year old average sized son devour 8 weetabix, his response, “I do a lot”. Needless to say, I feel good, I feel high on life. I already thought I should write a post whilst I was riding into town this morning. And then waiting for me was a message from a profile I’d made on a boating website months ago, I have just received an email asking if I want to crew a marine biology sailing yacht to Fiji and back.

I’m not saying that being positive or living in the moment had anything to do with the boat, it didn’t. The thing on the boat may never even materialise. I’m just saying that everything is always alright in the end, so no point getting down and worrying about it. You are doing what feels right, that’s all that matters.

So yes most stuff is pointless, my pointless thing is to challenge misconceptions and push boundaries, what’s yours?

[kelmcdonald]

Misfits of Avalon Writer Notes Chapter 3

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Misfits of Avalon Writer Notes Chapter 3

Page 79 – 82

To push Kimber’s captions I had her think a lot more. She generally has a lot more she is sitting on. It’s why she is the one who ends up asking the important questions.

Also once again I like drawing/toning fire.

Kimber’s frustration with the team subside around when she starts talking to Elsie more. But that rough start I thought would be a good contrast as the two of them become friends.

Page 83 – 85

Rae’s entrance is 100% cool anime person. I was definitely thinking of when Sailor Uranus first appear. Does something cool and then takes off.

Her cool animeness is what makes Kimber get a crush on her.

Page 86 – 87

Kimber is the most interested in their adventure. This I figured would be good way to seperate her from everyone else on the team. But she’s not mature enough to think of a way to win Elsie and Morgan over her than yelling at them.

Another big thing I did with Kimber’s captions is she talks herself up more and repeats her thoughts to show she’s very unsure. It’s why I tried to make her small in that last panel to contrast her telling herself “I can COMPLETELY handle it.”

page 88 – 89

When I designed Kimber’s room I kept two things in mind. What did her mom put there and what did Kimber put there? I wanted it to be obvious when you looked at the room who decided what. So all the big stuff, the bed, the dresser, the curtains, those are from mom and are frilly and flowery. Everything smaller and temporary is from Kimber. So the posters and dresser nicknacks are goth and fantasy based. Stuff I remember for sale at Hot Topic or posters from magazines. This way you are ready for the conflict with Kimber’s mom before she even comes in the room.

Also the fact that Kimber’s mom doesn’t take her to the hair appointment herself and that Kimber can just leave her house without her mom realizing shows how much attention and hands on parenting she is getting. It should make the earlier thoughts of I can only count on myself make more of a picture.

page 90 – 91

Sometimes it’s hard drawing expressions on Cu. I don’t want to go to cartoony or he will stand out compared to everyone else. This scene I looked at a lot of sad dog pictures. I wanted him to look uneasy while Kimber was turned from him and then stiff up when she looks his way.

Again I tried to make Kimber look small as she is all alone to think about what is next.

page 92 – 96

In the diner I managed to get 6 of the 9 kids in Elsie’s family. Two kids at the counter, Billy, and the other two waitresses are Elsie’s siblings. This scene maybe should have been more pages.

Elsie’s non-reaction to her mom’s shouts is to show this is her normal. I think we all have something about our family that we grew up thinking everyone does but then realized is weird as we got older.

The customers leaving and Kimber’s caption are supposed to be the contrast to Elsie shrugging it off. I maybe should have given this another page or so to show Kimber’s face. Her parents don’t yell much, so this is extra scary for her. I only really managed to get a good look at Kimber’s face in page 94’s panel 2.

And speaking of not examining something shitty your parents do, Kimber isn’t immune and definitely picked up some body shamming opinions from her mom.

Kimber pouting wanted her to be really folded up in herself as she is defensive from Morgan making fun of her. I had Billy have a chat with her to just bring him up again in a minor way and so we got a good look at the bandage on her hand. Also cause I thought it would be funny if their King Arthur kept accidentally helping him.

Page 97 – 101

The librarian is a cameo for my former roommate Stef who was the one that told me the correct dewy decimal number for King Arthur stuff.  Also, I put in this bit to make the connection between Emain Ablach and Avalon but also cause Irish words are hard to spell if you’ve only heard them.

I was careful with Rae’s dialogue here.  Notice she doesn’t let Kimber use any of the books first, she just offers the ones she isn’t immediately using.  She also covers her notes/map as soon Kimber brings up the night before.

They are little hints that Rae is 100%. But Kimber misses it cause she is too busy being impressed by Rae.  I also wanted to build up Kimber’s crush thoughts about Rae over the series. So right now it’s just she’s so cool.

Page 102 – 104

Character’s logic needs to follow a logic, even if it’s not the same as the readers. The toast jelly bit is supposed to be Elsie misheard tots jealy and then justified it to her self why toast jelly makes sense. So Elsie logic.

I had Morgan mockingly ask and prop Kimber about her plans repeatedly to make Kimber more defensive. That way it makes sense when she responses angrily to Elsie asking the same questions sincerely in book 2.

All through this chapter I try to push Kimber as the outsider to Morgan and Elsie who already know each other. Pushing the age difference which a sex joke that goes over Kimber’s head would be a way to do it without resulting to them actively mocking her again.

Page 105 – 108

This whole fight you can see they are attempting teamwork but failing. Like Morgan does pull Kimber out of the way of the falling giant fish.

Page 109 – 114

Morgan is the only one who isn’t immediately on board with Rae.  She’s the one that notice Rae hasn’t put herself at risk. She is also the only one who picked up on Rae’s subtle dig. Sometimes being distrustful and jaded can be good?

Then we see them successfully use teamwork. I had fun drawing these action bits.

Page 115 – 118

Elsie does her victory dance again while Rae is quickly headed out. I like the gesture of Elise putting her arm around Morgan and then getting pushed away.

Rae’s expression as she looks over all of them when Elsie suggests a team up is one of her few slip ups in book 1. There is one other.

The last page here, I use this layout once per book when dealing with Kimber and Rae. This first time it’s happy Kimber watching Rae leave.

[latinalesbi]

I hope the writers realize with this Tess' storyline that they can write stories for Stef and Lena and still have people being interested in the show. Stef and Lena deserve stories from each part of the seasons. season four was innaceptable. Except for the second wedding (Lena's parents storyline was lame and same for that "we may lose the house" one). They need stories about them as a couple. The writers should make that a priority.

The house story could have been fantastic but instead of playing up the angst, they decided to fixate on Callie’s shitty stories and wrap up the house in one episode, complete with second wedding. One episode as story for Stef and Lena is unacceptable. It’s insulting. I mean, play up the angst over the divorce a bit. They could have done so much, I had so many plots in my head about them pretending to be separated, etc. I don’t understand because no one had one second to worry about the divorce. Stef and Lena deserve story, the show is better when they have story. Their stories should always be about their marriage. Marriage is hard and to see them work it out is beautiful.

Anonymous said:                                                                      If that little sexy time in the kitchen doesn't include Stef saying that Lena's the only one that's been her girlfriend I think my head might explode.  Cause now I'm looking at it like Lena is being possessive in that scene and that's hot. And  I don't know why this is so important to me, but it is.             

Girl, oh man, that’s fantastic. You’re the only girlfriend I’ve ever had and you know that.” My head would explode. Lena is completely jealous and possessive and she needs reassurance and Stef will give it to her after dinner. I think it’s hot too.

Anonymous said:                                                                      The dinner with Tess calls for a sweet Momma moment in bed after

We get after dinner straddle. It’s as good as I get.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I like Ximena. Hopefully she won't turn out to be a bad guy. Just a cool friend that she hasn't meet through the system. She seems like a BA tho.            

Bad ass? I gotta ask cause I am old. I don’t think she’s going to turn out to be a bad person at all. She’s a college student though and INS is going to the school, she was as an actor my choice for that particular story. I am going to say she’s not in that. I think she’s going to be conflict for Callie. We’ll see since it seems Mariana joins the roller derby team.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Random question that came to me: Are we still in the same year as season 3? This time line confuses me and if we are does that mean Lena, being 40, was born pretty quickly after her parents got married (since they had there 40th anniversary). I hear a lot that Lena is born 3 years after her parents married but the Fosters either screwed this timeline up a lot or implying it was shotgun wedding. Just wondering, love your site.             

I don’t know that I recall ever hearing how long after her parents marriage she was born. Where was that? It would def seem like Lena turning 40 was not long after the 40th anniversary and that would make that a shotgun wedding.  They have changed things to suit their timeline before, but these 2 eps happened too close. Thanks for your kind words.

Anonymous said:                                                             ��        I thought Sherri & Kamar adopted Geronimo but Teri said in that interview that she has the dog at home?!!             

Not long after that, there were some instagram posts, that indicated Teri was still looking for a home for Geronimo. I think it didn’t work out with the kids. And I guess Teri decided to keep him or couldn’t find a home for him. Anyway, Teri was off twitter and that seemed like private info so I didn’t post.

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Also, I can't fully process this whole Tess scene at the end of the episode tonight! I'll have to watch it over and over again, but HOLY FREAKIN' WOW!!!!!!! Can't wait til next weeks dinner!

It was awesome and Teri played the shit out of it. Just so much said, you knew there’s a history instantly. I know Stef is going to tell Lena, it looked like she wanted to tell her right then and there but thought better of it. I don’t think Tess is going to tell her husband.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I can't with Gabe. Honestly? I'm glad Stef put her foot down, yet why did she give in in the end? It's a double standard! I was so proud when she stood up to him! And I was so proud when she said to get out! How many times does it need to be screamed, "You don't belong here, Gabe!!!!"            

Gabe is such a loser. I mean he can’t even take care of himself and he thinks he can parent. He knows better than Stef and Lena. Asshole. I am glad that they made it clear, Stef and Lena don’t want him there, they didn’t invite him. They’re keeping him for Jesus and only that. If people sympathize with this dude or think he was right, I don’t know what to do. It’s embarrassing that he doesn’t know when to leave. Who would stay where he’s not wanted? Where’s his pride. I would say, I am going to go get a job and an apartment and help Jesus that way if you allow.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Soo good, that we see Stef annoyed by all the bio parents. It was about time!!  and can we talk about Tess? I'm so excited for next week and for the storyline in general             

I’ve been pissed with Stef about this since that shitty episode where she told Lena that they should let Timothy in because the more the merrier (within the context of Robert). We can talk Tess, that’s the kind of angst I can deal with. Questions? Clearly Tess has not talked to her husband about whatever that was. I found it curious she wanted to move out of town. This should be really interesting. She’s a bit of a snob, I am happy about that.

Anonymous said:                                                                      We get behind the scenes footage and deleted scenes, but did we ever get bloopers? It might be fun to see the cast not being able to hold back their laughter or having fun on set.             

I would love that but they have never shared that with us. I think Joanna said maybe one day.

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Maybe I'm a rarity, but I have to say that as a 40 year old female I'm still looking for sex on a pretty consistent basis. Life may get a little more hectic as you get older, but the drive is still there. I think people in Hollywood tend to forget that about females. I think that might be the most frustrating part about the lack of sexual situations between Stef and Lena. I'm not saying that they have to show them having sex on a consistent basis. But just implied would be good.

I am certainly not suggesting that a 40 year old woman wouldn’t have a high sex drive. I don’t know if you’re single. It is a often the case that being in a long term relationship makes sex more challenging. Ironically for me, it was way more challenging in my first long term relationship than it is now. Still, I get that part of the show. I don’t like the way sex is always an issue. They have only ever had sex just because ONCE that I can think of and that’s when Lena put on the cop outfit. That’s not ok. It’s not a healthy representation. I blame Joanna for this.

Anonymous said:                                                                                      I'm willing to bet about a $1.75 (because I'm just a poor educator) that the pic we got today will be about the only clip of Stef and Lena we get in the promo on Monday.  What's your call?  The fact that the clip of Brandon and some random chick, that wasn't even in the first episode, made the cut for the last promo gives me 0 hope for anything even remotely close to promoting the Mamas.  *sigh*             

I would not be surprised. I was happy to get that one pic of them. I am pretty sure that pictures is from episode 2.  I hope the promo is less focused on Callie because I am sick of her. I had a dream that the premiere was extremely devoid of stef and lena. It was very upsetting. That’s sad.

Anonymous said:                                                                                     Do you think would be upset about Callie ?  Like blame herself or something ? She looks said in that pic. Not that it has to be about a Callie.             

Like I said, it seems to be from episode 2. I think she might blame herself a bit. I mentioned before that she probably should feel bad. she knows what Callie is like and should not have involved her in her case at all. Could be about Jesus. Ultimately, I like that Lena is just supporting her. I love

 Anonymous said:                                                                                 Every episode, which only a few exceptions, makes it seem like this season is going to once again be The Callie Show.  No.  No thank you.  I'm good 

Well, I’ll put up with it but I won’t love it. Callie with Aaron isn’t doing it for me. Aaron is an ass. Callie was callous with AJ.

Anonymous said:                                                                                     Hey did we ever figure out where Lena grew up. We know she went to Berkeley college but did she grow up near there? I don't think Lena grew up in CA but maybe I'm wrong. I don't think they told us but was making sure I didn't miss something. Asking for writing, thanks.            

Not really but she went UC Berkeley (not Berkeley college) and I believe her mom is a professor there, so we can probably assume she grew up in the bay area. That is my head canon.

Anonymous said:                                                                                 Have you read "Only Love can hurt like this " on fanfiction.. heads up don't !             

I think I know which one you mean and no worries. I never would. It’s not labeled correctly and that’s my biggest beef with it. You want to write shit and shitty stories, fine but tag your shit couples. Don’t try to trap shippers into reading shit.

Anonymous said:                                                                                 When you thought you cannot ship Teri & Sherri more, there are these "feed your wife" with birthday cake videos, and the deleted one, which is everything, the way they look at each other, and Teri's tongue ;) I cherish their friendship everyday, love them!             

I do too, and Sherri saying, thank you for being born Teri Polo is everything. And Sherri ate that cake straight from Teri’s mouth lol

Anonymous said:                                                                                    After seeing Sherri's Instagram message to Teri where she called her an empress I vaguely remember her calling Teri her queen multiple times in the past. Do you remember that?  Because it's been really bothering me the last couple of times that Kamar has called Sherri his queen and that might be why.  😂😂 And I really want to know what was said in that video with no sound. That tongue action....  I don't know how Sherri resists. I mean, I'm not gay either but even I wanted to kiss her.   😂😂😂            

I felt like Sherri wanted to be a little extra. Everyone overuses Queen, for Teri, so she went above and beyond and said empress. She also went above by not saying my love, but “my magical love.” People swear to me that in the tongue video you can see sherri say something like “my girlfriend.” lol I have no idea. I love how Sherri does not even blink or shy away from that wandering tongue.

Anonymous said:                                                                                      Oh my god... Teri is so HOT! Come on, is it wrong of me to find her so sexy even when I have a girlfriend!?             

Nope, these are healthy fantasies lol. I have a wife and I can think these two are hot. I think she knows I have a thing for Sherri lol

Anonymous said:                                                                                          I feel like we are going to get another season of the kids being around their BF/GF more than their family. That's totally normal with teens. Not wanting to hang out with their family as much. But we need some family scenes.            

Joanna says family but then she says we’ll have immigration, human trafficking, etc. I don’t think they know how to let go.

Anonymous said:                                                                                       What's going on in 5x07? I know you don't think it'll be good but why? Also, an rhetorical question, but why the fuck is gabe still around in 8?!!!             

I hate Gabe. I don’t know why he’s there at all. 7 has Gabe I think and the kids running around, Callie off somewhere with aaron, yawn. It does have Lena and her parents so I hope the focus is on that, but half the episode will be callie and aaron getting closer and I am already bored.

Anonymous said:                                                                                     Do you think monte sent the tweet about her and Lena in season 3 ep 9 ?             

That’s an unresolved question. When you sit down and think about it, who else would do it? Sally? Who the fuck would plant that seed in her head? Only one person... Monte.

  Anonymous said:                                                                                Sherri looks beat in those new pics.  Definitely doesn't look like the face of someone who just had a relaxing time with her hubby for their anniversary.  I'm just saying....                 

Well, i don’t know. She looked fine in all the birthday videos.

Anonymous said:                                                                                  Seriously, there's just something about Kamar that is off.  I just can't put my finger on it.  He's such an odd dude.  And such an egomaniac.  And he has muscles, but his frame is very feminine.  There's a pic on his or Sherri's Instagram where he is crawling in the boys play tunnel, and his bottom half is out and I thought for SURE it was Sherri.  But it was him. Hey, to each their own.  But honestly?  My gaydar pings like crazy whenever I see him.  And it's not usually wrong.             

You’re not the first to talk to me about gaydar though. It’s like I tell people, just because I like Stef and Lena doesn’t mean I have to love everything that Sherri and Teri and Brad and Peter and Joanna do. I am not that fan. I am not going to see Brad’s show because it’s not my thing. I won’t go just because it’s fosters’ related. Anyway, point is. I am glad that Sherri loves Kamar, but I don’t have to :) Just like I refuse to watch Teri’s last movie, no matter how good she was in it. I can’t think of a more offensive movie.

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Tonight's ep was so uninteresting in my opinion. I don't care about Callie's story. Period. I wish they would just stop with her dramatic ass already. You brought up an excellent point that all of the season finales have had something to do with her. It's redundant. No real good mom moments either. I want Monte gone. I'm not looking forward to this finale nor am I looking forward to next season. Unless it really is similar to season 1. I might just watch your videos instead of the whole show.

Callie’s story is beyond repair. It’s ridiculous. I actually laughed when I saw Kyle come in with his tear tattoo lol. And Brandon is stupid he doesn’t know what that is. Anyway, when he told callie what he did, I laughed, laughed, laughed. Ok and they have pretty much spoiled what happens to her. It’s just ridiculous. They cannot get rid of bad characters, at all. Monte needs to be gone gone. I am looking forward to the break honestly. Next season, bleh. I am not feeling it. They say season 1 but all I see is shit being set up for next season. Absolute shit, Nick’s dad the baddie, Gabe living in the house, and Callie being trafficked. I am complete-ist though, no one need worry. I will continue to make the highlights.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Horrible episode             

Agreed. The twins were the only mildly interesting thing but it’s all setup for ana and gabe redemption so bleh.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Other than a handful of scenes, this season had been disappointing IMO. Fan fiction is the only saving grace I have. I can't wait for your fic to be posted.             

I would have to agree about the season as a whole. It’s a big disappointment. Jesus is the only one with anything personally interesting.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I actually liked Brandon for a bit tonight. Only for a bit though. While he was talking to Jesus.             

Me too. I want more of that, more family. If Jesus has to break down and be honest, better his brother than Gabe.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I love how they're trying to make us like/feel bad for Monte. Um no way! That bitch is a horrible person and she needs to go! But the actress is married to a director or something right? Which means we'll be seeing Monte again. Ugh.          

It’s certainly not talent keeping her employed.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Stef's makeup-less eye in that one scene bothered me. The Fosters rarely has those goofs.             

Ooh, which one. I am honestly gonna say I missed that but I was distracted.

Anonymous said:                                                                      They seriously wasted almost ten minutes (maybe more, wrote this 20 min in) on Diamond. I get it's an important story to tell but it's not The Fosters' story to tell. This show was never about birth parent drama or pimps or wrongly convicted teens. It really feels like they have a jar with every social issue they can think of and every season they pull out a few. This show has lost its way.             

I get it. They’ve always chosen to tell stories with side characters, but they haven’t done a good job with either Kyle or Diamond. They just haven’t made us care at all. They want us to get excited to see a character that has been very duplicitous so far. I wish they’d stop doing issues like this. The last thing I want is Callie trafficked.

Anonymous said:                                                                      The Aaron stuff honestly confuses me because I can't tell what the show is trying to accomplish with it. Like, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to think. The last few episodes gave me the impression that we're supposed to like him, but I don't because of his totally unnecessary, shitty treatment of AJ - which he never apologized for. He's a jackass. If the show wants me to like him, why make it hard by  introducing him as an asshole who is needlessly rude to people for no reason?             

That’s another character. They want to make people unlikable and then somehow redeem them. I don’t know why but by the time they do that we hate those characters. He treated AJ like shit, and if Callie decides to date him, I hope someone treats him like he treated AJ.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Wait, who are the bi characters on the show?             

Monte.

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Have you seen the new sneak peeks? I can't seem to find them

Put them up for you!

Anonymous said:                                                                      Raise your hand if you’re still reeling over that kiss last night!!!!! Ahhhhh! But really, could that have been any hotter? Don’t tell me Teri and Sherri weren’t getting hot themselves!             

I don’t even know what to do with myself. I literally should go to bed in half hour but still processing. I can’t wait for the weekend. Um, well, I mean, it’s hard to argue with that because once again, no directions. Just go for it. Love on each other.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I’m just still so in awe. I was thinking recently how I would love for them to just go for it (kissing) one day, but concluded that it would most likely never happen. But I was wrong. So wrong.  Last night they just went for it!  That moment when Stef opens her mouth and her lip is pressed against Lena’s teeth?  Good God!  Has there been any confirmation on tongue?  Because I’m still not sure…             

Honestly, i never thought we’d get another just go for it kiss since 18 was there but with much less context. This was one was like.. yikes and it got hotter, they just wanted to get closer to each other. And sherri and teri are so much closer now and it shows. Oh, you know, TV kisses with women are not really about tongue, but there was passion, so much of it and I can’t argue with that. And I just love that we have been whining about the kisses being hidden and not lingering. And Bradley wanted to get all angles on this kiss (he listened) and he wanted to linger. His solution 360 camera, and linger on that moment as long as possible. One take, that was it because of the rain.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Why do I get the feeling Stef probably always has scratches on her back from Lena? Lol            

  Anonymous said:                                                                      Oh please write something! You are one of the only ones who can do it justice!            

Can we talk about this, because um, shit. Lena … girl, I mean I know I tend to write her like very sexual but um. Ok, yeah I might be getting inspired and thanks to my friend Jessica I have a beat on the beginning.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Someone has 2 make a slo mo video of that kiss right!!! :)

Um, yes, that someone will probably be me. I already have the 1080 so probably tomorrow. I should be home in the afternoon.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Since the producers gave the Stef and Lena fans what they wanted I think they are going to give Brallie fans what they want now             

I don’t know. I think that it’s not really where the show is headed. Brad talked about how he likes where the family is right now. He also talked about how Callie should have replied to AJ’s line about being a black man. They wish they had changed it and might include it next season. It just means that AJ and Callie continue to have a close relationship. Also, Brandon just got another kiss at his Mama’s wedding. I liked that.

Anonymous said:                                                                      Somehow , I always watch this show and find myself trying to distinguish between what is Teri vs what is Stef and what is Sherri vs what is Lena . Last night’s episode … Brad said he just let them go free with it .. again . I just melted into nothing . I can’t tell . I don’t know . At all .             

Good issues. I do the same. Like, how can you separate them when they make it so hard to do. Bradley saying they are in love with each other. I know it’s not this specific type of relationship, obviously. However, it’s very convoluted.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I love AJ being a protective BF. I just wish Callie could accept that. He cares about her. She’s never really had anyone to protect her. So I don’t think she can handle it.        

 Anonymous said:                                                                      I don’t know if I should feel bad for Callie or not because all this stuff she’s going through is her fault. But she’s so way she is because of her past. Why haven’t they talked about that.            

AJ is the only boy who isn’t blinded by Callie to the point where they start to make shitty decisions just to keep her happy. He’s grown weary of this and I think putting his hide on the line was the last straw. I know Brad wants us to find sympathy for her, that’s fighting the way she wished someone had fought for her. Still, something in the story telling makes her very unlikable.

Anonymous said:                                                                      I finally saw the latest episode. At first I wasn’t really into Sharon’s wedding drama story. But the end completely made it all worth it. And the episode made me like Will. I don’t want him to be a main character or anything, (I mean, a cop’s mother marrying a much younger anarchist, that sounds like sitcom) but once a season in an obligatory Sharon episode wouldn’t be bad. I thought it was refreshing that the gay couple got the wedding and the str8 couple remained happily unmarried.

Stef and Lena’s wedding was amazing! And what a nice surprise! The vows made me laugh, Lena’s own vows were touching and Stef’s response made me laugh again. Then kissing happily in the rain

I can’t say I was feeling her crisis, but they had teased it so I knew that she was having second thoughts. I had expected her to go through with it though. I am ok with Will, but I don’t want him around a lot lol. I can live with him being around with Sharon. I loved the twist, because these couples were choosing or not choosing marriage for very different reasons. It’s interesting though because Sharon can say all she wants but she does view the chains of marriage as somehow permanent. IT’s the way that Stef felt about marriage because Lena broke her down. You can see how much of that attitude was passed down to Stef and also after her experience with Mike.

It’s ok that Lena’s parents weren’t there because the rest of the family was there and Mike wasn’t there :) That for some reason I loved. The Callie story doesn’t make a lot of sense. Callie is not smart enough to be helping anyone. She just digs a bigger and bigger hole.