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Pluto Aspects

Sun/Pluto: Dark sense of humor, attracts jealousy through the ability to learn quickly and be talented at many things, seductive, private life/double life, prefers to be in relationships, controlling, self critical, importance on achieving success and public recognition, denial about how social you actually are, obsessive, bouncing back from hardship unscathed, masking true feelings, lover of luxury, worrier, carrying the burdens of many, leaders, strategic, good at balancing multiple careers/streams of income, can work long hours, wiling to sacrifice for future gratification, beliefs being questioned/questionable, operating best with routine, helping the exiled, quiet power, domineering, leading others to the promise land, rags to riches, sharing nature, being taken advantage of, learning self worth, noticing the subtleties, standing in your power, alchemizing, appreciation of scents, restoring the balance and bringing justice, protecter, connection to night creatures, reverence.

Moon/Pluto: emotional rollercoasting, rough tides, tsunamis, delusions, misunderstood, living in the past, victim mentality, feeling intruded upon, enticing, protective, human lie detector, causing shock value with your thoughts, okay with not being everyone’s cup of tea, attracting stalkers/stalking others, a lot of haters and obsessive ppl, determined, my way or the highway, always on the go, quick witted, forgiving, misguided anger, easily triggered or triggering to others, a safe space for authenticity, youthful looking but quickly matured, problem solvers, appreciates luxury, high expectations, stressing yourself out, very strong ppl, the rock of their family, liking drama, needing to be more careful with the words spoken, lucky breaks, nurturing, creating a home that feels beautiful and comfortable, beautiful smile, soft spoken mesmerizing with your cadence, taking care of the things you own, making the old look new, hard choices, a few more restarts than most, word is bond, direct communication, seductive aura ✨

Venus/Pluto: Insecurities being obvious to others but hidden from yourself, ppl pleasing, nurturing vibe, great reader of social cues, bully/bullied, learning to understand and love your body, freedom through movement, talk of the town, being projected on a lot, resilience, cup half full mentality, big mama energy, ungratefulness, ppl trying to manipulate you through financial means, getting things taken away from you as punishment or literally being stolen from, independence, personality that grows on you, attracting jealously based on being the opposite sex’s ideal, player/overly devoted, values the connection to family, the type to plan the family get togethers, prefers to be coupled, generous and great at gift giving, hair that attracts idolization, fierce eye contact, ppl wanting to experience you without worthiness, personal space being important, careful with the people you shake hands with, being exactly what you want to be, near death experiences, night owl, protecter of children and the poor, solo traveler, taking no shit, knowing that it’s okay some bridges need to be burnt 🤷🏽‍♀️, child like innocence, friendships that stand the test of time, health conscious, healing others through food/herbs, high society, rockstar lifestyle might not make it.

Mars/Pluto: Okay with being cut throat, intimidating, power hungry, holier than thou, superiority complex, triggering insecurity in others while just existing, putting in work that will stand the test of time, legacy is of importance, it ain’t nothing to cut bitch off, knowing how to wow ppl, the defuser of situations, protecters of the weak, chameleon, popularity, rememberable first impressions, quick thinkers, great lovers, career focused, pressure to succeed, feeling you have to always be on your p’s & q’s, controlling lovers, the person others vent to, attracting ppl that feel entitled to your body/possessions, love/hate relationships, social butterfly, observant, bound by nothing, living in the moment, making the best with what you have, animal lover, would benefit from slower living, ingenuity, fashionable, hard headed, ppl trying to silence you, sprinkle sprinkle no bread crumbing is tolerated, lucky items/totem poles, optimistic, teaches lessons on how to be discerning, secret exposer, substance abuse, attempts to hold you back through evil eye, tunnel vision, seeing what needs to be said and saying it, willpower matched with child like vigor, friends and lovers that are protective over you, respected in your community/field, interested in the benefits of all, easily multiplying what you already have, water to wine type of vibe, relaxing when the work is done, knowing when to take breaks, shining bright in dark places.

Mercury/Pluto: realism view point, harsh truth, so relatable, knows better but learns the hard way, passionate speaker, musically inclined, before their time, emotional highs and lows, forgetful/selective memory, dark humor, appreciates the shock value, curse words are like icing, different just to be, thinking outside the box, creating lingo other ppl use, over explaining, paranoia, defending the vulnerable, saying what everyone is thinking, whistle blower, lovers of knowledge, constantly reinventing yourself, conspiracy theories, quick witted, solitude, dating outside of your race, cult leaders, judgmental, biting your tongue, pathological liars, self righteous, polarizing, sweet talkers, accent, making complex subjects sound easy, self critical, creating a lot of opportunity for yourself, taking journeys without a destination in mind, getting to the root of the matter, hard to reach, wise beyond your years, very knowledgeable about niche things, big dick energy, viewing something from multiple perspectives, feeling short on time/waisting time, organized, thoughtful, pouring into others, lending a helping hand/attracting those that want to help you, having to be extremely patient, smoking cigars for enlightenment, stuck on ppls mind, noticing the underlining factors, honesty off the charts, sending warning shots attacking, feelings of overwhelm by choices, defending your stance, being victorious against all odds, just so rememberable.

Jupiter/Pluto: importance on self image, Beyoncé- upgrade you, relating to others though music, greed, great investors, a need to be in first place, critical of themselves and others, perfectionism, requiring patience, materialistic, condescending, over indulgent, substance abuse, bad mouthing others, attracting leeching personality types, look but don’t touch, a lot of ppl have witnessed your transformations, co dependent, persistent, preferring not to be around the bush, learning when to walk away, big personality, topic of conversation, having to rebuild yourself repeatedly, opposites attract, quick manifestations, repeating yourself a lot, sustainable living, being able to balance many things at once, bringing offerings, community leaders, hard earned respect, learning discernment in friendships, solo travels, mentorship, feeling isolated, knowing how to use what you have, tongue like a sword, guiding the youth, transforming the mundane, unique style, taking the road least traveled, freeing yourself from sorrow, seeing the good in anyone, comforted by your bed, the same thoughts on repeat, warrior spirit, connection to horses.

Asc/Pluto: having your items end up in the lost and found, escapist tendencies, prioritizing relaxation, messy room, starting a new project before finishing the last, ppl misjudging your power, manners, sob stories/lack of accountability, fashionable, stand out in crowds, unique style, noticing the little details, valuing peace keeping, don’t mind switching things up and experimenting, self employed, viewed as lucky, ppl keeps tabs on you, being at the crossroads, rumors about your body/hygiene, protecters of their family, collecting antiques, building from scratch, learning to stay the course, loves celebrations.

Chiron/Pluto: learning only when the pain has gotten so bad, feeling like your always falling short even when you have what you perceived to want, intense feelings and relationships, what’s done in the dark coming to light, dismissive, ppl indulging in your hardships, helping others through your struggle, leading by example, survivors, learning boundaries, developing antonymy, life starting one way and ending up much differently.

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Meeting of the Nerds | Spencer Reid

summary: after joining the BAU 10 months ago, you still haven't met any of the members of Agent Hotchner's team- until now. A quick introduction with BAU's certified genius Spencer Reid leads you two to find out that you have a lot in common. Could your nerdy connection lead to more?

contents/tw: season 4 spencer reid x fem!bau reader; an elevator; one brief mention of depression and racism; mentions of indigenous groups of people; anthropology; psychology; the uk; university; nerds nerding out

word count: 1.5k

a/n: i've been in college studying psychology and anthropology for a few years now (not at Oxford lol). I thought the two areas of study would be an interesting combination for a Criminal Minds character, which is how I came up with this story. I mention the Kānaka Maoli because that is the group I've studied the most for my anthropology work. I know that not everyone is interested in anthropology or psychology, so I'll cut back on how often I talk about anthro/psych in later chapters. Hope you enjoy!

From a young age, you’ve always been interested in understanding why people do what they do. Specifically, you were interested in knowing how being a part of different cultural groups impacted the psychological reasons why people do what they do. So, after graduating from high school at age 14, you went to the University of Oxford in the UK to study psychology and anthropology. You spent your time doing homework every night, doing excavations in the summertime, and after years of hard work, you finally graduated with master degrees in psychology and anthropology. And there was only one place you wanted to work at… the BAU.

You have been working at the BAU now for over 10 months and you still haven’t met everyone in the unit. Due to your unique qualifications, the FBI created a specialized job just for you. You received your own office, you have your own job title, and you get called out to help BAU teams whenever you’re needed. Most days you stay in your office doing your own research work but if a BAU team calls you for help then you’re on the first flight out to wherever they need you. You’ve helped teams with cases in South Dakota, New Mexico, Alaska, and Hawaii. So far you’ve helped every BAU team with a case except for one- Agent Hotchner’s team. 

Agent Hotchner’s team is known around the unit as being the best at their jobs. They catch the unsubs a majority of the time, they work well together, and they are always willing to risk their lives to help the victims. Sure, you’ve seen them around the building once in a while, but it’s always been from afar. You’ve never had the chance to speak with any of them because of their busy schedules. They’ve never requested your help, and you can’t lie - it’s made you a bit intrigued. How does this group of agents know everything that you know about different cultures and the psychology behind why they choose to do the things that they do?

You stepped into the empty elevator, pondering the question: who are these geniuses? You pressed the button to leave the lobby, and as the doors begin to shut, a brown bag slips through to stop the doors from fully shutting. 

“Sorry.” A soft voice says while stepping into the elevator and quickly pressing the button above yours with a part of the bag. As the doors go to close the man looks over at you for the first time but swiftly looks away. You saw his face for a brief second but you instantly recognized him.

“You’re an agent on Agent Hotchner’s team, right?” You say. But quickly realize that you seem like a stalker so you try to save the conversation, “I’ve seen you around the building before.” Yep…that totally makes you seem less crazy…

He looks at you with a surprised and confused expression on his face, “I’m Spencer Reid. And yes I work as a Supervisory Special Agent on Agent Hotchner’s team.” 

You introduce yourself as the doors open to your floor. As soon as you mentioned your job, Spencer remembered exactly who you were and how excited he was 10 ½ months ago when he found out that you had gotten hired at the BAU.

He had read a few of your academic studies over the years because he thought that your psychological anthropology perspective was fascinating. However, after you got hired, he saw you from afar and was terrified to speak with you. What if you thought it was strange how invested he was in your studies? What if you wanted to be left alone, and that’s why you aren’t on a BAU team? Why would someone as gorgeous as you waste your time talking to someone like him? The thoughts plagued his mind back then, but now you were standing in front of him, and he wasn’t going to miss this opportunity. The two of you exit the elevator together to speak for a little longer before clocking in for work.

“I read your research study that you released last year about how the Kānaka Maoli have been dealing with racism and depression by finding pride in who they are. It was a fascinating read! Your other paper about…” Spencer continues to ramble on about your academic research studies that are about various indigenous groups of people and the psychological effect that their culture, and the reactions from others, have had on them. 

You stare at him in wonder as he rapidly speaks. Nobody has ever cared this much about your work before, and it was the first time that you felt truly seen. You interrupt him as he rambles, “I've been wondering why Agent Hotchner’s team hasn’t been needing my help. I’m assuming that it’s because of you.” You smile at him as he catches his breath from talking so fast.

Embarrassment flashes over his face and he grips his bag tighter, “Sorry. I can go overboard sometimes when I’m talki-” 

“No! No! Please don’t apologize!” You put a hand over his, “I’ve never had someone be this interested in my work before. I’m flattered. I’ve just been wondering why your team is the only one that I’ve never been asked to help out before. And considering you’ve been able to recite my work word-for-word I’m assuming that you have eidetic memory.” You gently pull your hand away from him and begin to fidget your hands together in front of your waist. 

A slight blush rises across his cheeks, “Yeah, I-I have eidetic memory. Most people don’t know what that is.” He smiles and begins to fidget with his bag. 

“I studied it in one of my psychology classes when I was in university.” You watch as his face creates a puzzled expression.

“University?” His eyebrows raise slightly, “Not college? Where did you go to school?” He questions.

You begin to smirk at his confusion, “You’re a part of the Behavioral Analysis Unit of the FBI so you can probably figure out where I went to college at.” You purposely enunciate the word ‘college’ in order to throw him off.

He smirks but carefully begins to watch your facial expressions, “You said university first and then changed it to college afterwards. But it sounded less natural when you said college so I’m assuming that you went to a university.” He pauses to watch for any microexpressions, “Universities are all over the world but they are predominantly found in the UK. You work at the FBI so you most likely went to a high-ranking university. I know that you studied psychology and anthropology but I don’t know if it was at the same university.” He thinks for a moment, “I know that Cambridge, Oxford, and St. Andrews all offer those programs. Is it one of those?”

You try, and fail, to hold back your smile as you say, “Possibly.” 

He notices the inflection change when you said the word ‘possibly’ which tells him everything, “I read a research paper of yours that was about Danish culture and you mentioned how you did an excavation there while you were in school. The Oxford Anthropology and Archaeology department did an excavation in Denmark about the same time that you would’ve been in university. And every time I’ve mentioned the word Oxford in this conversation, you blink an extra time. So I’m guessing that you went to the University of Oxford.” He smiles triumphantly at you as your mouth drops open in awe.

You quickly adjust your mouth, “That was one of the most impressive things I’ve ever witnessed.” And one of the hottest - but you couldn’t tell him that. 

Suddenly, his phone buzzes, and he reluctantly reads it. He sighs, “I’ve gotta get to my team. A new case just came in.”

“Oh, can I have your number?” You dig through your bag and pull your phone out, “Ya know, just in case your team needs me or something…” 

His face lights up, “Yeah! Here, put your number in.” He hands you his phone and you hand him yours so the two of you can exchange numbers.

You add in your phone number and even take a quick selfie for a contact picture. You didn’t have time to make yourself look too pretty but you’re only getting his phone number for work purposes. Right?

 After a few moments, the two of you exchange your phones back and he sees the picture you took of yourself. He smiles while looking at it but quickly changes his facial expression before you notice.

“Can I message you even if I have non-related work questions?” He asks as he turns to press the button to call for the elevator.

You smirk, “I had a good time talking with you so…” You pause just to make him wait, “I wouldn’t mind that.” 

Ding! The elevator doors open, and he steps inside. “It was nice to finally meet you.” He presses his floor button.

“You too!” You say as the doors begin to shut. After they’re fully closed, you look at your phone and re-read your co-workers phone number. It took 10 ½ months, but you finally met a member of Agent Hotchner’s team - and he just so happens to be the most attractive person you’ve ever met.

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Somebody's watching me : AK!Jason x reader

Request: AK! jason hears y/n’s name from his opponent and just goes nuts like he goes home looking for her.

A/N : the requests is a little twisted, as usual, but I hope you'll still like it anon :D

***

It was gone.

His old life was gone.

And with it, everyone he knew before.

All that was left was revenge, hate, rage. And this unstoppable need for killing someone, destroy something, wreck havoc on every single person who did him any wrong.

Bruce.

Fucking Batman.

He was the Arkham Knight now.

Nothing more, nothing less.

Focused on building his position so that no one, no fucking one, would ever hold any power over him.

And if that meant keeping tabs on everyone under his watchful gaze so be it.

And if that meant putting some pressure on everyone who dared to do as much as step a toe over the line, so be it.

And disturbances?

Defnitely not something he was about to allow.

And now he was holding a gun to one of his goons head.

"What did you do?" he hissed, his voice distorted by the helmet

"Sir, I --"

"What did you do?" Jason repeated pressing the metal more into man's head.

"I-- I disobeyed--"

"You disobeyed. And do you know what happens to people who disobey me?"

"Sir, please this is--"

Jason shot in the air and the man almost fell to his feet.

"It was-"

"I'm not going to give a warning shot again"

"I was-"

"I'm gonna count to three now. One."

"There's this girl."

"Two."

"Her name is Y/N."

"thr-- what?"

"She is very distant family, but --"

"Shut up!" Jason yelled, his face twisted with rage, not that anyone could see his expression hidden under the metal. "Shut the fuck up you hear me!" it took him two steps to be in front of the man, yanking him up by the collar and pinning to the wall with brutal force, half-chocking him "you ever do as much as think her name again and I'll kill you and put your head on a stick as a warning to anyone who dare have a thought of himself. YOU HEAR ME!?"

"y-ye-yes..."

"now get the fuck out of here!" the man was violently thrown on the floor, getting up as fast as he could and rushing out the door. It was truly a miracle he lived to tell the tale, cause Arkham Knight was not known for his leniency.

But Y/N.

Someone from his past.

More than someone.

A girl, a woman, he was once in love with.

A woman, whose name he forgot in the pursuit after Batman.

Or rather - tried to forget.

She was the only one who ever got him. The only one to accept him fully, with all his flaws.

His Y/N.

His Y/N who betrayed him just like anyone else. Who forgot him. Who moved on without giving as much as a single thought to him when he was lost. Who was never looking for him.

His Y/N.

It;s been years since he heard anyone mention her. Years since he swore to never get manipulated again.

And then.

Just a few letters mixed together. Just a few sounds.

And she was right behind his eyes, just like he remembered her. Because even his dark side refused to let go of the rememberance of their time together.

Her laugh. Her smile. Her eyes and freckles from the sun, as fleeting as the summer days they were spending together. Her calmness, care and tenderness when she was patching up his woudns, tiredlessly putting on bandaids and stitches.

Fuck!

He didn't need that.

Just another phase of brainwashing. If not from his capturers than from his own men.

Hell no.

He was going to say no to the past life once and for all.

Hunting her down, wherever she may be.

See her for the last time.

Pour hatred in his heart, destroying all the remaining piece of useless softness and caring he carried in his soul.

Burn the last link connecting him to the past down.

***

She was spending the night in her old apartment. Sitting by the same desk, with the same lamp, in the same posture she ever did.

One leg half bent and folded under her ass, the other hanging loose in the air.

"You're going to end up with numbness..." he muttered to himself, watching her from the opposite rooftop.

Obviously she couldn;t hear him, but something made her raise her head and look outside the window while simultaniously changing the position.

Jason smiled despite himself.

His heart skipped a beat and sudden warmth spread in his chest.

Only for a second though, since he rememembered why he was here in the first place.

Look at her.

So fucking good.

So fucking calm and happy, while he-

fuck!

traitorous bitch.

Maybe it was her plan from the very beggining. Conspiring with Batman only to get rid of him, so they could both be free of the burdening presence of a man once known as Jason Todd.

Y/N...

Regardless of how sweet her name may have tasted on his tongue he would rather cut it off than fall down that rabit hole again.

He was cold as ice. Brutal. Cruel. Ruthless.

And it was not going to change because he saw her.

Not in the million years.

She was the reason of his fallout. She should have stopped him from going on that stupid mission. She should have made him stay, showed him she cared enough to keep him grounded.

It was all her fault that that after being captured all he could think about was how she was going to survive without him. How her heart would break into million pieces, instead of figuring out a way to free himself.

It was all her fault that he became the Arkham Knight. Cause inhumanity was equal with survival. And survival meant living. And living meant keeping his legacy.

So yes, he hated her.

He hated her, because every single thing he did and every little thing done to him was because and thanks to her.

She was the reason of him getting on top, but also the person responsible for his failure as a person.

She was nothing.

She was everything.

And for the first time since capturing, torturing and tranformation Jason felt conflicted.

Y/N...

His Y/N...

Not his anymore...

***

When some force made her stand up and come to window all she saw was a blink of metal on the rooftop. And since she spend half of her life with vigilantes, it was easy to realise that this must have been one of them.

But the silhouette of a running man couldn;t have been Dick nor Tim nor any other hero she would recognise.

And despite herself, she felt a shiver running down her spine.

Someone was watching her.

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the new episode is great and all but yall are missing so much from this panel and as a self proclaimed flower simbolism enthusiast I will be breaking it down for you

CALENDULA FITS HIM PERFECTLY

and not just cuz it's a yellow flower, most yellow flowers symbolise positivity, but calendula just FITS THE BEST with it's various symbolism across different cultures

Calendula can bloom in a big range of conditions and are considered fairly hardy so they can also symbolise resilience and strenght which fits Chase really well.

In some cultures, they are also assosiated with grief and rememberance, which again fits Chase, with the loss of his father and him still going to visit his grave and still crying over it.

Not to mention how 'cinderella' and 'calendula' look similar as words.

Now onto hyacinth and how perfectly it describes Buddy and how it might describe him into the future...

We saw plenty of his jealousy in this chapter and the fact that purple hyacinths SPECIFICALLY symbolise seeking forgiveness, we can assume something with Ex Libris going down in the future, based on the many theories connected to the 'dreams by night' chapter and Buddy having to redeem for it

Also how the vampire guy talked about how Chase could never compare to a hyacinth?

I might be reading too much into it, but it might as well symbolise their relationship and how there's still a wall between them or to show off their Sun/Sunshine and Moon/Grumpy dynamic

Now, as for Deacon hyacinth, could also represent him with his jealousy for main characters and seeking forgiveness in this arc for what he did in the book of Deacon.

Tho blue hyacinths represent sincerity, I don't know how much it really fits him since I don't see it as a strong trait of his and think hyacinths are here to represent Buddy, I thought I should still put this out there.

I'll find you a flower Deacon.

Anyway, that is all from me. As soon as I saw this panel I went crazy over the flower symbolism and to think no one seemed to pay attention to it - I had to make a post

Thank you so much Punko for giving me something to hyperfixate on and consume every part of my being with for the next several weeks instead of studying

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Does Ianthe Have a (Deadly) Disease? [Theory]

This is a theory which occured to me last night (while I was half asleep), but the more I think about it, the more sense it seems to make! Could Ianthe have a - possibly even deadly - disease? The following post will be a collection of hints my brain collected under the rubric "possibly connected to Ianthe's birth". (While I'm still not sure if all that is connected to her womb situation btw, that's just the collection title.) In this post I will talk about her Mysterious Anaemia, her Weakness (TM), her Knowledge about deadly diseases, her view on the Death, and the reason(s) her parents "risked intervention". So let's go!

The Mysterious Anaemia

The first thing that strikes me as odd in this context is... Ianthe's anaemia. Ianthe canonically has anaemia. Gideon calls her "the anaemic twin" all the time, and (what's of course the more telling hint, since Gideon has actually no clue of medical things) she is really as pale as the dead. Actually, she must have a really severe kind of anaemia, because she is described as having skin the color of "canned butter" and mustard".

(For your rememberance: this is what canned butter and mustard look like:

)

I know, it's easily to forget, and fandom artists almost never show her that way but it IS no exaggeration. White people with severe anaemia really look like that.

And it can't have diet reasons (if she doesn't have some kind of eating disorder). Harrow says that "she couldn't actually be anaemic based on her diet" (Yes, Harrow apparently doesn't know that anaemia can have other causes as well. Maybe because of her lacking knowledge about The Flesh):

Anaemia can actually have two reasons (strongly simplified):

Wrong Diet

It can be the symptom of an other disease

(Next to the obvious thing: blood loss. I actually considered if she could maybe do some permanent necromancy, maybe connected to Corona - but I doubt it, since Harrow could easily look through the Protesilaus thing, and would probably notice it.)

That's a pretty strong hint that she could have some kind of (deadly?) disease.

The Weakness (TM)

The second hint is not only a hint to that Mysterious Disease, but also another proof for the anaemia. It's the corporal weakness Corona explains (and declares to be casual necromancer Weakness):

I know nothing about you, but... To me it sounds (even for a necromancer) oddly "weak". I mean, that's of course only assumption, because we know nothing about specific about necromancer-strenght. (I mean, even Harrow can hold her arms up long enough to paint her face.) And sure, Gideon mocks Harrow all the time for the fact that she can't swing her two-händer... But that's an overmanshigh sword, which is probably even twice as big as Harrow, Ianthe's hair is surely lighter. And it's also an oddly specific (AND therefore probably true) example.

And it's also a symptom of anaemia:

But maybe it's a symptom of the Mysterious Disease as well?

PS: Another interesting thing is that Corona - apparently! - doesn't know about the exact symptoms of anaemia. It could be that she doesn't know about the (suspected!) disease as well.

PPS: As a person who made A WHOLE POST about the possibility of Ianthe having ADHD I should know that she fulfills another symptom of heavy anaemia named decreased attention. (My theory still stands though! Although there may be overlaps of "symptoms", there are still some things about her I can only explain to me with her having ADHD.)

PPPS: Her fucked up sleep rythm is also an indicator for heavy anaemia. (As well as for ADHD btw.)

Knowledge About Deadly Diseases

Another thing which strikes me as odd is her knowledge about deadly diseases. And I'll admit, indeed, at first, it seems as if she'd know nothing more than necromancer gossip.

But Palamedes chronically underestimates her. And a little later, "Dulcinea" mentions a secret of the Seventh House, connected to the "perfect death". She says this:

That could of course be a lie... (Especially since the context she says it in - about how she apparently want to have animated Protesilaus -is definitely not true lol) But it could also be true! Just because Cytherea lies about her identity, it doesn't mean that she lies all the time about everything. (I mean, it IS strange that a whole House would build up its reign on a family of shortliving people with blood cancer, if it does NOT bring any necromantic advantange, isn't it?) What offers the interesting question if Ianthe knows that secret of the "perfect death" as well... (And therefore more than Palamedes here!)

But a topic about which she certainly knows more than Palamedes - or anyone else in the room - is thanergy transfer. And she seems - for some reason - to think that an thanergy transfer of a person as sick as "Dulcinea" was possible. Even after she's been "corrected" by Palamedes before:

Why does she think that? And why has she even knowledge about this case of thanergy transfer? That's an oddly specific and very strange nerd theme - at least for a perfectly healthy person. (And regarding the fact, that she is - unlike Palamedes - NO "medical" necromancer, and therefore doesn't need that knowledge for her "job".) I find the study of such cases to be a very strong hint to her own health.

PS: I don't know how I should put that, it's also obviously no main point, but while we're on Gideon the Ninth: I find it interesting that she never discriminates Cytherea for her disability. I find that interesting, because it IS something you could expect of her. (Since she is not very sensitive with Harrow's mental health in HtN.) And we even have someone who does it: Silas. She does not. I think it wouldn't be so strange if she had a personal relationship to it. (But maybe she's only afraid of Cytherea... I mean, I understand, she is creepy as hell!)

Pain Tolerance

One other thing that makes me think of Ianthe as having some disease is her absurdly high pain tolerance... We see it in the whole second book! For example in the scene where she stabs Harrow's, but also her own hand:

She doesn't even flinch.

And here another example: I mean, obviously she feels pain during the whole arm scene, cutting off an arm, and letting regrow it is apparently a process which is very painful and which even she perceives...

(Although her reactions are of course, uuuum, interpretable. But she feels SOMETHING, okay?) BUT we have an other scene which pretty much implies that she has thought about cutting of her arm herself, and look if it regrows:

(I mean, she takes Harrow serious her. It looks to her like an acceptable option.) My point is, that you need an incredibly high pain tolerance to even CONSIDER that... (To be fair, she hasn't much choice here, but together with the other things I can still see a pattern.)

And that lets me think of something @thanergetic-hyperlinks reminded me of, when I mentioned her pain "resistance" for the first time. PAIN PATIENTS can in fact develop a higher pain tolerance. And... without the context I probably wouldn't think about it, but now I do... could Ianthe be one?

Dying as a Skill Issue

One thing that's actually pretty obvious about Ianthe is (as soon as you've noticed it once) that she... seems to think of dying some kind of Skill Issue. We see it for example in her reception of Abigal's death:

Abigail didn't die because Cytherea murdered her, but because she brought her husband. Because she did something wrong. And Ortus OBVIOUSLY didn't die because he was murdered as well, but because he was too sad.

She leds back dying to a lack of personal qualities. Dying is for suckers.

This idea is... a little bit strange to be honest, and it makes me think... could Ianthe believe that, because she has...a serious problem on the dying side? Because she's facing it, and fears to fail? Is that the reason she wants to become a Lyctor so desperately? (And maybe even some kind of God?)

She was Allowed to Survive

Let's come to the last point! This is about a talk Ianthe and Silas have in Gideon the Ninth. They talk about Ianthe's womb situation, that she'd been about to die, and that her parents risked "intervention". Silas then basically asks why her parents didn't let Corona "kill" her, because that would have made necromantically much more sense than saving her. (Rude, btw)

(Btw, now that I read this scene again I see that there's something super-off with the way Ianthe says that. Either she's lying here or she is hiding something. In any way it seems to be a VERY unconvenient theme for her! It reminds me very much of the Gaslighting scene - only in regard to the vibes.)

And I don't believe for a single second, that her parents did it for her. The Idan monarchs seem to be quite awful people. The main reason why she was allowed to survive is probably that her father wanted a Necromancer Pair as power symbol. The Third is all about show, and they did probably prefer the gleam of two twin necromancers over one more powerful one. (To their luck actuall, because whatever Corona did, it obviously didn't give her the expected powers.)

But I can't help but wonder... if the Mysterious Disease played a role as well? Especially regarding the fact that deadly sick people apparently have a reputation as "the perfect necromancers" among necromancers! Was there any reason to assume, that Ianthe would be especially powerful? Either because of a side effect of her birth situation? And/Or because of... the "promise" of a deadly disease? Why did her parents risk intervention? Silas doesn't seem to think it was a good idea...

Conclusion

Does Ianthe have a (possibly even deadly) disease? I'll be honest... It's possible. There are circumstances which are definitely suspicious, and her desperate wish to become immortal is definitely remarkable. I feel as if we'd miss an important piece. But maybe there is no disease! I wouldn't know, I'm neither a doctor or a biologist! (If you are, please share your thoughts if you have any, I'm genuinly interested) Maybe it all is some necromantic thing that hasn't even to do with our real world at all. And I don't know if it's connected to her birth, although I find a few hints to be there for that as well... To conclude, maybe Ianthe has a deadly disease, it's definitely suspicious, I love her, I love you, thanks for reading, mwah :3

[vitaminseetarot]

Pick a Bird: Your Next Romantic Getaway 💞🦢

*･ﾟ✧Masterlist | *･ﾟ✧Ko-Fi

Hey y'all, welcome back to a new pick a card reading. This reading is all about a possible rendezvous you and your special date or partner will have during the most pleasant time of year. Why Pokémon? I am strongly tempted to do a series of nostalgia themed pick a card readings, from different games and series, and similar looking birds showed up in my 3D card deck, so why not start with the classic trio?

[*this future person refers to someone romantically special and significant in your life. This PAC is for anyone single or in a relationship, and also LGBT+ friendly.]

Pick which legendary bird Pokémon calls to you. You can also view the 3D bird cards below to choose your pile:

Pile 1 - Articuno / Blue Bird ❄ Pile 2 - Zapdos / Yellow Bird ⚡ Pile 3 - Moltres / Red Bird 🔥

Pile 1 - Articuno ❄

3 of Swords, Queen of Cups, Knight of Swords, XII Hanged Man; 14 - Grace, Desert - Vision Quest, 30. Mimicry, Patterns - be your own witness, Forget-me-not - Rememberance

With your cards, I see your next romantic outing will feel sentimental and quaint. This pile is more focused on the depth of the connection that's made right away, so I'm seeing a date that is quiet and laid back. From the 3 of Swords, it looks like you haven't been crazy about the last few dates you were on, or of missed opportunities in the past. Your cards are saying to leave the previous experiences aside, since your date may actually relate to some of what you've gone through. You may also feel rather jaded about the dating scene in general, but this date will be like a breath of fresh air for you. Try going into this encounter with a forgiving, clean slate mindset, and they may be easier to approach and vise versa. I'm getting that there may be some awkward silences at the start, but to persist as it's merely a surface level freeze. Your next date may be a little on the shy side, perhaps just like you, and may just need some encouragement. If you're both shy, parallel play may be something you choose to do together to start. No matter what you choose to do, this date will be one to remember for years to come.

Your date is a sensitive soul with the Queen of Cups, yet erudite with the Knight of Swords. They possess a poetic mind yet are always down for a rousing trivia game. They enjoy being intellectually stimulated by the great books yet can't help themselves but fall into Youtube rabbit holes. A dumpster truck may roll by yet they see a song to compose in it. They have a bit of refinement in them, even if they prefer wearing plain clothing. But the scientific brain doesn't take away from their inner romantic heart, it just adds to their complexity. This person is very thoughtful and polite, I'm even seeing them bringing you a small wrapped gift on the first date! Moreover, they want to know what's going on in your world, so don't be surprised if they poke around with a few questions as they're eager to get to know you better. This person will likely let you be the one to decide where to go, as they appear to be fine with just hanging out and doing their own thing.

For date ideas, I'm seeing a lot of cafés in this pile, so it may start out as small and casual. Lunch or dinner may also likely be involved. Whether you go somewhere humble or sophisticated, it's also where you will feel more free to express yourself from the heart. The place does not seem to be as important in this pile as much as the nature of the conversations you will have. I'm getting My Dinner With Andre here, so when I say long conversations, I mean looong. You will find a reason to talk to them for potentially hours, so hopefully this café will stay open late for you two! If you are spiritual, they may be inclined to discuss those topics with you in depth. Otherwise, I'm seeing a lot of nostalgia here, and they'll likely be the same age as you, so you'll get to reminisce the good old days with them. You could talk about the same things over and over and neither of you will get bored. You may even find it within you to confess things to them that you normally wouldn't feel comfortable exchanging until after you've seen each other a few times. They just have a way of making you feel comfortable enough to open up more.

If you're feeling more active, you and your date may decide to do some sightseeing, especially if there are interesting monuments or statues that would make for breaking the ice with them. You two may stroll through flower gardens, picking up ice cream along the way, enjoying peaceful sunsets next to them before gazing up at the stars. I sense education is a strong theme here, so your date may actually take place at school or in a library, where you share a study session or extracurricular together, taking time out of practice to spend moments with each other. You may be drawn to art galleries or museums where you can quietly observe with your date. With Mimicry, I see your date could have very similar interests to yours, so creating a fun activity centered around that will gradually bring you two closer. They will bring out more cerebral and curious nature in you, and your conversations could spark new understanding and ways of perceiving things. They'll leave a strong emotional impression on you, and you them, that will stick long after the date is over. Something about the way they softly speak, especially to you, that leaves you begging for a little more. Cheers, pile 1!

Pile 2 - Zapdos ⚡

XIII Death, VII Chariot, 3 of Pentacles, XX Judgement; 26 - Joy, Mountain - Strength, 44. Scavenge, Insight - bright ideas are coming, Jonquil - Power

Okay, so this group is all about the great outdoors. I can't see your next romantic getaway being cooped up inside. I'm seeing a real getaway here, an emphasis on travel. New sights, new sounds. You want a date that isn't just good, it's transformative, where you feel different coming back home than you did when you left. That's a pretty tall order, but your date is adventurous enough to try. I feel like there's something you might have put on your bucket list to do someday, for example, and should your date find out what it is, they'll be very tempted to do it with you. Always wanted to visit a historic landmark or theme park but never had a reason to go before? They'll want to go through all the excitement with you, even if they've been at that very place a million times. If they're from another culture, they'll enjoy sharing their cuisine and expanding your taste palate. Seeing you light up with bliss will make them enjoy it like it's brand new, too.

This person is likely super energetic and a little intense, so don't expect them to sit still with a meal for too long. Eventually, they'll get itchy to find the next thing to tackle. Even if they seem distracted, they are 100% on board with having you there next to them for the ride. It's just that I'm picking up so much hyperactivity with your date in particular, so make sure you two find ways to stay preoccupied the whole date. The positive side of having the Chariot here is that they'll want to get you out there in the world without straying too far out of your comfort zone. They're ever shifting in moods but also emotionally aware of how important personal boundaries are. It's all about gentle encouragement here; this person will help you get out of your shell in a way that doesn't feel so overwhelming, so you feel safe enough to explore different things to do with them. They may seem a bit standoffish at first glance, but will quickly prove their nonjudgmental, compassionate voice. They will go at your pace and be patient with you as well as others (being nice to waiters is a green flag).

Enjoying nature seems to be the first choice when it comes to this pile, although for many reasons I don't really recommend hiking in the back woods as a first date option. A small local mini golf course may be a better option for nature lovers. I would suggest finding a place close by where you can enjoy scenic views in public, like a tourist stop where they have those lookout binoculars (not actually sure what those are called lol). Boardwalk piers are a sound choice as they offer food, ocean views, and fun in one place. I'm also picking up something about a scavenger hunt here, though it may be in the form of going out shopping for strange antiques. (An adult scavenger hunt sounds fun, ngl ;_;) You may also feel inclined to scavenge through haunted or abandoned places within reason. There is a desire to check out unusual places, like streets in town with unique graffiti displays or playing a murder mystery game. A few of you may be horror fans who want to get thrills through watching a movie or trying out an escape room.

Music is also showing up here, with the girl's harp in Joy and the angel's trumpet in Judgement. I'm getting that some of you would enjoy attending a music festival or rock show, maybe even at an underground venue. If you and your date both play music, your next getaway may involve sharing a deeper bond through composing and playing together. You may inspire each other creatively through this collaboration. This is somebody who could definitely get you into a band or genre you would have never tried before were it not for their influence. They may also talk you into singing karaoke or taking dance classes with them. If this isn't music it could be some other kind of art, but I'm getting that you'll feel the urge to create something with them, like spending a day at a local paintbar. If you're up for it, go for it! They'll bring out a more bold and confident side of you who isn't afraid to take a little chance to express their artistic voice, and they'll fall for whatever you show them. Even with all this noise and activity, there will still be plenty of spaces of silence for creating a peaceful connection with them. Rock on, pile 2!

Pile 3 - Moltres 🔥

10 of Cups, VIII Strength, XXI World, 5 of Swords; 6 - Freedom, Dreamtime - Creation, 3. Anticipation, Higher Ground - rise above the noise, Geranium - Virility

Your next lovely outing will be invigorating and filled with excitement. I'm seeing city lights and hearing laughter. With 5 of Swords, your romantic outing may start as a friend group but dwindle down over the night, creating a shared space for you and your date to connect. The two of you will eventually slip away from the pack and find your own fun thing to do together, even if that means having one drive the other home. A single humble little drive or intimate conversation by the bus stop could prove more titillating than having multiple dinner dates on the schedule. Some of you may choose to wander through the expanse of the cityscape, meandering through unseen parks and finding unique hole-in-the-wall boutiques in places you thought you knew. Your date will be drawn to your spontaneity and wanderlust, or they will find a way to bring those qualities out in you. On the spot, the two of you will find ideas for where to go next, and not one minute of the night will get dull.

What I like about this date is their openness toward you; with the Strength card, they are gonna be down for whatever you feel like doing and enjoy it as if it were their plans all along. Feeding pigeons at a business park? Sure! they'll say. Trying on random clothes they'd never wear in a million years? They'll do it if it means they can do it with you. They know these moments of serendipity open a new dimension of wonder and merriment as it does yours. Perhaps you've wanted to date someone who expands your horizons and lets your curiosity run wild. A movie and dinner isn't bad per se, but it's the random sequences in between that form stronger memories. You don't want to see what they look like dressed and planned for the occasion, but when they're at their most improvisational. A date filled with pleasant surprises and random moments of joy will bring healing when dating as a whole begins to feel scripted and rehearsed. Happiness doesn't wait for a happily ever after when it can come today, and your date will know that too.

I'm getting a lot of hints for theater in the Anticipation card, next to Dreamtime. A good date idea may start as a theater show. Theater offers more variety and chances of interaction with the audience. Take them to see Rocky Horror, make sure to bring toast. A concert may be equally as engaging for the two of you, especially one that has you two dancing and screaming the whole time. You may also look into outdoor theater, as the Freedom card suggests with its lush grassy fields. There may be some adrenaline seeking here, so you may go indoor rock climbing or go-kart racing. Axe throwing sounds scary, but it's easier than it looks and a lot of fun. If you're looking for a random place to go and they ask you for suggestions, try the park. You and your date may travel to a city for a day trip and then just decide to go to a park after visiting something else and discover an incredible monument or festivity out of nowhere. It may end up being the best part of the day. So you never know what you may find while walking about in the evening.

For other date suggestions, I'm seeing house parties and nightclubs, where you come with friends initially. Some of your friends may not be too crazy about you leaving them behind for a date, so make sure boundaries are established with your friends before going out so you're all on the same page. They may not be mad at you, just checking in on you to see you're okay and safe. Finally, sport games may be another area of interest for you and your next date, especially if you bring mitts with the intent on catching any stray baseballs. You two would be the kind of date that would make silly faces up on the screen at the games if you were featured, or at least your date dreams of it! If you're on the beach and you see a volleyball net, challenge them to a game as they would love to see your competitive side! Of all piles, this is the only one where I see unplanned and on-the-spot trips and activities being arranged. If this feels outside of your comfort zone, you may feel called to choose a different pile, but it could also be that your future date will bring out this carefree and spontaneous character in you. Stay safe and have lots of fun, pile 3!

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2025, @VitaminseeTarot ™

[borfungus]

HI I really like your tangible form designs for the Expressions and the Universe! The Universe especially I thought was really cool with the multiple arms reaching from the void, they really do look godly, like from Hindu mythology! If you have more to share about your designs I'd love to know :)

I tried to keep this short. I failed! MAJOR isat (and also, Slay the Princess) spoilers ahead!!

The Universe-

I have a couple paintings I've done so far featuring 'The Universe' as several disembodied blue hands coming from the void (here and here cw for blood on the first one!)

I took the phrase 'The Universe leads, we can only follow' rather literally! The Universe is an outstretched hand, The Universe is a tight grip, The Universe pushes and shoves and leads and holds.

The phrase "A wish in one hand, dirt in the other" also came to mind! Basically, wishing can only do so much, and you need to apply practical action to reach your goals. There's somewhat of a double meaning if you apply this idiom to Wish Craft. Intention is important, yes (for example, all of Dormont wishing for Vaugarde to be saved), but Siffrin's wish had the power to set off the events of the game because he knew the correct ritual/actions. Also, Siffrin's wish gave them the ability to get what they wanted (to stay with their family), but their lack of action (telling them about the loops) kept them stuck. His Wish was just not enough. And so, this paragraph about an old idiom basically to explain that I picture the Universe holding the Wishes in it's hand, taking the leaves wished on, throwing the shooting stars, and taking the wishes to where they need to go for the wish to be fulfilled.

And it's TOTALLYYY not because I finished Slay The Princess a few weeks ago and saw parallels between The Shifting Mound and the Universe....and I also just liked her design with the arms...thats TOTALLY not the reason (it's at least, not the ONLY reason! Everything above is also true!)

I have to be completely honest now, I totally didn't even think of the Hindu god connection. I will have to do more reading/research on that because I don't want to inadvertently draw something too similar to that (I am so white! I don't know anything about it! It's not really my place to!) without being properly informed!! Thank you for bringing that up lol!

The Expressions - ok this is a lot

This one is based on some Odile dialogue!! (thank you ISAT Script Project thank you thank you) That post was the first time I had drawn The Expressions as a tangible being, but I had the idea clunkin around in my head for a while after I finished the first Universe painting. We know like so little about The Expressions, so I'm going off of these Odile lines;

{ID: Odile: Well... in Ka Bue, you'd burn the body and take the ashes to a Gemmaker to transform them into a diamond, but that won't be easily feasible, will it...}

Gems seem to be pretty important in Ka Bue culture, and I'm making the logical leap that different gems have different meanings. Diamonds seem to be related to rememberance, grief, death, end of life, etc. You're made into a diamond when you die, and this is important enough that there is an entire profession surround it. SO basically- Gems = Important

guess who's about to make another logical leap! ! ME

{ID: Odile: GEMS ALIVE, Isabeau}

We giggle and goof and laugh about crab and stars and crabbing and blinding but I don't see! a lot of people talk about the Ka Bue explitive gems! Each of the 3 country's choice swear ties back to their religion. Crab being a reference to carsinisation/carsinization (Everything becomes a crab, and it seems to be against the Change belief for everyone to be the same) , The Universe religion is all about Space and Stars and the Space between us etc etc, and we've already established gems are important in Ka Bue culture! This is potentially a fun Ka Bue version of "Sakes alive!", which is sort of like "For God's sake" / "Goodness sake". It's funny but, what if, we take it a little too seriously hmmm? What if, in Ka Bue, they really do consider, Gems to be Alive? Isn't it quite interesting how they are then turned into diamonds at death? Is it the belief that people's Spirits continue to live on in diamonds?

I can't find the specific dialogue about there being thousands of Expressions, but Odile explains that there are Expressions for everything, and you can choose which ones you want to pray for at a time. Odile has a few she mentions she prays to - "The Expression of Search, the Expression of Writing, the Expression of Creator Craft, and lately, the Expressions of Battle and Victory" I belieeeeve the gems Odile wears on her glasses are the Ka Bue way to Pray to the Expressions. It seems like gems are the connection between humans and divinity in Ka Bue, I'm going to make the assumption these are NOT diamonds, I'm not sure Odile would wear the remains of someone as,,, an accessory. That doesn't seem like her

So different types of Gems, are potentially, connected to different Expressions? What if each Expression is represented by a specific Gemstone? (In real life, there are only like 300 types of gemstones, but, but, but MAYBE!! The CUT!!! Is also PART OF IT! ok)

So each Expression is represented by a different Cut and Color of Gemstone. I'm going to connect these Point Cut Quartz? to the Expression of Creator Craft. It's the same shape!! As the gem decal!! on her book!

So ALL OF THAT TO SAY OMFG, that is why I made em different Gemstone types and cuts. Each individual gem is an Expression.

(also, i tried to tie it to Expressionism as an art movement, but I think I didn't do such a good job at that.)

THAT WAS SO LONG!!! I got carried away! hope that answers that LOL

[khristie16]

The Fast and Forbidden

Charles is a famous F1 driver with everything one could want: fame, fortune, and fans. But he is missing one thing. Being his new personal assistant changes everything for both of them.

— chapter 3 An unspoken connection builds up and seeing you half naked gives a top to it, right after your date with another guy

warnings: sexual tension, invading privacy (not the intention), charles is chuckling the charles out of him

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I haven't seen Charles for two days. We haven't even spoken. Right after our shared time behind the piano, his brothers came to his apartment to pick him up for the squash that was apparently delayed. I snapped from my sitting position and awkwardly disappeared, resulting in forgetting about the clothes I wanted to laundry. I felt weird. Torn apart. What the hell happened there? I was still overthinking the whole scenery, me and him playing together. Me and my feelings and him and his words. What the hell was he talking about that I am his boat in whatever ocean it was. My frustration grew extremely and I was mad about everything and I did not know where it came from.

After ruminating on the sofa I had bought two days ago at this new and absolutely with nothing in apartment, I had to buy at least few decent things to it. It is not like I care about it much, I'm not gonna stay here for most of the time and I definitely don't call it home. One thing came to my conclusion. I will go on a date. I don't know how or when yet, but I need to go on a date instead of thinking about the weirdfest that is happening between the two of us. What I didn't know though was the fact that Charles ignored me on purpose. He was cursing himself for saying what he said and he didn't know why he said it. It was like that day, that moment he was someone else. He doesn't do these sweet nothings. He isn't like that. And so he ignored YN as much as he could.

On the way to Japan, the ride was quiet. Charles had his AirPods all the time and all I could do was draw some stuff in my notebook. This is actually the only time where my mind doesn't lead. I don't think and that is when I like it the most. That is when I remembered I wanted to go on a date. I decided I will install these trendy apps that are viral nowadays.

''There you have my keys, we are still in separated rooms, but still.''

He nodded in agreement of hoping that I have some common sense and I know what he implies. As I am grabbing the keys from his hands on the corridor in this fancy hotel in Japan, I don't bother to say anything to him. As I turned around to walk to my apartment he said ''I don't need you for today, you have a free time''

I took a deep breath and encouraged myself to go even faster.

Give me your name and I will give you my last name

These guys hereeee. Ugh. Now I remember why I stopped finding my 'match' on these apps. These guys are cringe asf and the only thing they care about is the color of your panties, not your name. I chuckle as I scroll some more on the sofa in the luxurious living room that I roll my eyes at. Anything that reminds me of Charles is annoying. Luxurious cars, clothes and even hotels are annoying because of him. I fumed and threw the phone next to my lying side. My vision goes blur and black as put my hands over my eyes and try to just breathe. Just when I get into the moment, I receive a notification.

It is some guy called Patrick. I looked at his profile and I have to say I was slightly amused. A nice handsome guy, who is appearing normal. I accepted his offer and in one minute I receive his message.

When I saw your face I could not look away:)

I'm not gonna lie, it did flatter me.

Good for you you didn't:)

I'm Patrick. Not from here, as i see you are not from here either I'm YN. I'm just visiting for few days. Better to make it rememberable

I don't know what this guy was but he intrigued me and I accepted to go on a date with him. I put myself together very nicely and went on a date with him. He picked me up in a luxurious car (Charles) and greeted me with a beautiful smile. I had to give him credits for how handsome he is IRL. ''Hello you''

I have to chuckle as I make my finish line to him. ''Well nice to see you too''

I smirk at him and look him in the eyes. Brown eyes. Simple. Nothing complex. Not like Charles's eyes. *(internal grunt)*

''What's wrong?''

He asks me genuinely with frown on his face. I shrug it off with a mild smile that it is nothing, just that I am cold. He raises his eyebrows but don't comment it. Instead he opens the doors for me and I sit down, ready for the adventure of what this date will bring.

The date itself was very nice, a simple dinner with a beautiful view on the city underneath us. Patrick is very casual and calm guy, well mannered and well spoken. There was nothing wrong with him, yet, I felt shallow. I did not feel alive. I thought to it it is because of my shitty mood from earlier. More of someone specific. I checked my phone to see if I am not needed but nothing came.

''I see there is something bothering you''

I lift my gaze and look at Patrick. I give him apologetic smile and take my phone away.

''Just work''

He gives me a knowing smile but he doesn't know it is not the job itself but the person behind it. And I hate myself for letting that happen. I don't want to feel like that, especially with a decent man in front of me. We go back to our conversation and as the time goes by, I finally managed to forget about Charles.

Patrick talked to me about his life, how he started and how it lead him to be where he is now. I genuinely liked to listen to him and it was certain that his guy know what he is doing in life. He has a goal and it appears no struggle take him from it. Unlike me.

When he asks me about my life, I keep it very simple. I don't want to tell him how I lost everything I could, everything I had for the last twenty years known to my life. And there are few things that I am passionate about. one of them are chocolate desserts and so I call for one, to keep the attention from me and my 'old' life.

On our way back to a hotel I stay silent and let my mind wander wherever it wants. Patrick from time to time asked me about something but it looked like he respects my quiet time I need for myself. It is hard to talk when my body is met with so much food to process!

''I know I enjoyed it, I hope you did as well YN''

I smile at him and I cannot lie that it wasn't enjoyable. I give him a light nod with a smile.

He helps me out of the car and then we stand facing each other.

''Can I see you again?''

I look up to his warm brown eyes and melt for a second. They remind me of all those people in my life that I love so much. They are so welcoming. It makes me so vulnerable that I say yes.

I slightly chuckle and keep smiling more to myself than to him. He takes a strand of hair from my face and put it behind my ears.

I see someone familiar on the left and my eyes wander there to see Joris with some other men. My body immediately goes tense and I search for him. But he is not there. Weird.

''You know them?''

I forgot about Patrick at all and my eyes widen at his sudden presence. ''Oh, uhm, yes, they are from work.''

I go back to look at Joris who is watching me closely as well.

''Oh, I see.''

I put my focus back to Patrick and give him a smile. ''Thank you for the date, I enjoyed it.''

He just nodded and kissed my hand with a promising look of a second date.

Right after I left the place in front of the hotel building, I lost track of time and focus on outer world that I just blankly stared on the wall in front of me. As the wall split in a half and opened for me, I blinked from the intrusion and get out from the elevator. I blindly walked to my apartment and opened the doors.

Darkness. Weird, I swear I left the lamp on. As I shrug it off, on my way to the bedroom I semi half get off the dress that were suffocating me the whole time after I ate the delicious chocolate dessert. That is why I get from having a sweet tooth. As I groan with the zipper in my lower back a light hits my senses. I blink many times in order to adjust to the surrounding and when the blurry lines make a form I see Charles staring at me expressionless. I stood there like a thief caught red handed and what gets me moving is his eyes lingering on my exposed chest and stomach.

I immediately cover myself and run to my right, even though I don't know what is there.

''Oh my god, i'm sor-'' ''-I'm sorry, I'm sorry!''

As I lay my back on the wall behind me I struggle to breath as my breathing became shallow. ''I-I thought this is my appartment. I'm so sorry''

All I hear is a chuckle and I frown at the reason for him to chuckle at all! I swear this guy just pisses me off.

''It's okay. What about I give you some space and wait in the corridor?''

I hum back in approval and get back in the dress so I don't walk half naked! With a grunt and victim mindset I get out the bathroom and straight to the door where is Charles waiting. There is a hint of amusement in his eyes and small smirk forming on his lips.

''It's not funny''

He chuckles even more and make few steps to me.

''I have to admit that I am glad I gave you my keys''

I stay watching him closely, with a smirk on his face, with my mouth parted a little at his sudden words and my eyebrows lift up. When I become aware there is silence between us I shut my mouth back again and roll my shoulders back.

''It's not gonna happen again''

I said it more with a threatening undertone and reached for the knob to leave this place. His place.

All I hear on my way out is ''What a shame''

[moontheoretist]

There is something that intrigued me in 3.3 HSR update.

During 3.3. Flame Reaver says "Cycles can't be broken" "World must be reset" and "It must be me" which implies that someone is working towards breaking the cycles (in this sense it's implied that Chrysos Heirs are doing so as Flame Reaver is opposing them) and that there is a high possibility of them being broken. While at the end of the quest when Phainon is about to offer the last coreflame to the Vortex, Lygus says "The author of each epic, as the prophecy has foretold, stays their pen at this point" which means that this is the moment at which the epic repeats as nothing new is written by the author and the only way onward is to go back and re-write everything again. And then Cyrene appears accompanied by Lygus musings that "Yet this time, will an epic with endless cycles turn a new page?" which implies that Cyrene's presence affects the possibility of breaking the cycles by implying that she can force continuation of the epic rather than starting it again.

Which means that all this time Flame Reaver's behavior was targeted. I didn't realize it before until now but he barely ever appears. And in all instances he appeared so far he had a specific target in mind. So why was he in Aedes Elysiae before? What was his goal? With everything we know now I can confidently say he was there to remove Cyrene from the board and ensure in this way that he will collect all of the Coreflames and will be the one to reset the world so the cycles won't break. But he is too corrupted, he miscalculated and didn't take into account that his actions may be circumvented by a new variable.

And that variable are Nameless and Mem.

I already saw people making theores that Cyrene is the "author of this world" and that she is essencial for the Amphoreus' story. No matter if the theories turn true or false, the fact stays that Cyrene IS important because of many reasons. She designated Phainon as the Deliverer, she has more than circumstancial connections to Mem, her design reminds people a lot about Elysia and March 7th and she was in the "Nameless Faces" trailer, appearing as timeless support for us. And now she literally appeared out of nowhere, alive at the last straight.

She is no ordinary girl that's for sure. Anyway.

At the start of this quest Lygus gave me an impression that he would rather prefer Nameless to leave (he still kind of does with him saying that he will be the ultimate reader of this epic). Before he didn't act as if we were as huge problem as Herta and I assumed that he allowed us to enter Amphoreus because he didn't think Nameless' presence can change anything. But now I think that it's possible we entered without his approval, using some form of backdoor that Black Swan exploited. She as the agent of Rememberance is definitely better equipped to access Amphoreus than Herta who needs to use (for a lack of a better word) a terminal in order to access it and at the terminal she has met Lygus who is in some form an admin / gatekeeper to this entire thing. But it turns out we are far more important than even Herta. Funnily not only our presence is part of the prophecy but our involvement seems to have boosted the chances of cycle breaking, and according to last conversation with Phainon and his letter to us, it's implied we not only made a lasting impact on his psyche and possibly helped him deal with his emotional issues a lot and find a resolve to continue but also may yet have to break the rules to save this world in a better way.

Which is exactly what I thought would happen.

I dunno how you but that moment when TB uses their power to "break apart" Castrum Kremnos in Nameless Faces trailer implied to me that our role is to break the rules and re-write the tragedy of Amphoreus.

Kind of like a fanfiction writer who can't accept how it all ended.

Hopefully that means we can still save everyone. (Assuming all those anonymous Chrysos Heirs portraits are not there for decoration I think Hoyo will go the optimistic route, reset the world and that way we will be allowed to meet every other Chrysos Heir we didn't meet yet).

TBH Phainon's words at the end of the quest gave me a bit of a fright, he really did sound disillusioned and ready to do "everything it takes" to save everyone. I think even music around him started glitching to show that something is wrong, but then when Cyrene appears music changes into a hopeful tune which further solidified my hopes as well.

[billpottsismygf]

Doctor Who: Wish World

That was absolutely mad and I adored it! I spent the whole episode wondering what the hell was going on, but absolutely on the edge of my seat. All the cast were on top form, but Ncuti Gatwa in partular played it to perfection. I also adored the visuals, which were so beautiful but also incredibly creepy. The strange bone structures, the alien number crunchers, the 1950s aesthetics to go with the 1950s sensibilities, the frightening conformity of rows and rows of identical mugs.

I love the way it comments on regressive ideologies. There's been a real theme of that this series, with both Al and Conrad, but here it goes way beyond that. The Doctor/John Smith saying that Kate wouldn't have to work if Ibrahim married her, that terrifying moment when John Smith's queerness is under scrutiny, Shirley and her village of the dispossessed. The fact that those who don't fit into this oppressive ideal of a "perfect" world are both ignored and capable of seeing past the deception is so apt. I loved Ruby's role here as well. She immediately stands out as not fitting aesthetically with John Smith and Belinda's perfect white picket fence 1950s-style life, and I'm so glad she got to work with Shirley and her cohort.

Archie Panjabi is great as the Rani. I haven't finished watching the character's backlog, but it's interesting to see her so adept at the newfound magic of the Whoniverse, given that her whole thing has historically been hard science. I don't have much of an opinion yet on her bringing back Omega other than perhaps this is oversaturation of bringing back random Time Lords, but I'm willing to be convinced. Currently he's just a name I recognise. I've seen Rememberance of the Daleks (which involves the hand of Omega), but perhaps I ought to check out The Three Doctors for more of a grounding. I do also wonder why the Rani wants to bring him back, but hopefully we'll learn more next week.

I'm still intrigued by the Captain Poppy of it all. Is there more to her than we think? She seems able to see through the wish world when the adults around her can't, and the Doctor's final line is that 'Poppy is real, don't you know what that means?', which does suggest that there's something going on, but I suppose we'll have to wait to find out. Could she be connected to Susan's return? Is she somehow really the Doctor's daughter? Regardless, it was nice to see another brief flash of Susan on the TV!

Rogue also got a cameo, of course. How did he a) know what was going on and b) manage to get through? Will we get an answer for that at any point? Who knows! I'm on record as not being the biggest enjoyer of the episode Rogue, but I do like his character, and despite my complex feelings about the Doctor's feelings for Rogue, I adored what that whole thing brought to this episode all about conformity and queerness and difference from the system. I wonder if we'll see him next week or if he'll just remain in the hell dimension until the next time Jonathan Groff has some time to spare for Doctor Who.

This whole episode was fascinatinly weird, and I'm sort of sad that next week will probably more of a standard episode with the big bads of the Rani and Omega etc. Even if part two doesn't live up to its set up (which isn't unusual), this was so good that I'm really glad it exists just on its own merits! As always, I'm incredibly sad that this series is already coming to an end next week, but at least it's been a good romp and I can't wait to see how it wraps up.

Small things

That first shot of John Smith turning off his alarm was very Rose Tyler in Rose, and I loved it.

That Doctor Who book looked a bit too Harry Potter adjacent for my taste, but I did love that the author was I.M. Foreman. What a wonderful little detail!

It's also yet again framing Doctor Who as a story. Another running theme for this whole era!

Was that Susan Twist again in her get up from The Devil's Chord? I'm too faceblind for this!

That scene between Conrad and Mrs Flood was strangely sweet and I couldn't help sort of feeling for Conrad.

We finally got to meet some of Belinda's family! Not her dad yet, but it was nice to meet her mum and her auntie.

[daughterofheartshaven]

Okay fine actual proper episode breakdown of lucky day.

I was sure the 2007 thing was gonna be a whole episode and am kinda frustrated that we didn't get that. Like come on, we could have done something cool like Rememberence there

The flashback to Ruby travelling with the Doctor was neat. I appreciate them putting a definite place in the season for that.

But on the other hand... THIS IS BELINDA'S SEASON OTHERDAMNIT I want to see Belinda the character who I like is Belinda can we actually get something with Belinda I want Belinda

I had a moment of wondering if we were gonna get autons. When are they bringing back the autons!

Look I get that the Redacted crew wouldn't have worked for this episode, but given how we opened, I started ranting at the tv about this and then had to explain to the non-EU fan I was watching with what Redacted was.

ooooooh romance i don't care actually

I like how Lousie Miller (I'm sorry her name is too close to Lucie Miller to not be funny to me still) has integrated with Ruby's family. It's a nice touch.

I really like how the Shreek functions in the story, from a biological and logistical perspective

I mean I'm looking for this at this point, but... a Ruby-centric episode that has a heavy political focus and a crucial story beat at a rural pub? This still feels like a rehash of last season

I really like Kate's characterization and focus. I will say that. Sad we didn't get any Mel, tho.

If Ibraham and Kate have an explicit romantic anything tho I will kill someone. Kate would not date her subordinate.

Okay I think they put enough emotion and whatever into the scenes to make it work, but what actually was Conrads plan here? Like, why did what he did make UNIT look bad? They responded to a potential threat like it was a potential threat. If you want to go at them for being overzealous and not having civilian oversight, the episode would still work and make a lot more sense. But accusing them of lying about aliens... like I can kinda see that I guess connecting into the point I made above, but it's still weird and indirect and I feel like I'm making the connection instead of the episode. How does you faking aliens make it look like UNIT was faking aliens?

I was suspicious of Jordan the moment he was introduced. Like if he's not gonna be something, why introduce him? If you're gonna do the Mike Yates thing do it with someone we've already seen.

I did like the bit where Conrad had applied to UNIT but Kate had forgotten about that. Felt very real.

Was nice to see Shirley. They didn't give her a ton to do, but I still appreciated her being there.

Kate unleashing the Shreek on Conrad... it, well. It makes sense for her character to me, but I think that's because I've seen an underhanded side to her that is mostly Big Finish's creation. Curious about how people who haven't listened to Big Finish UNIT took that.

THAT BEING SAID, Kate releasing a fucking monster on anyone should not have gone down well with the public.

The speech from the Doctor at the end... well, I liked him learning about Belinda through Conrad. It was a nice tie-up of that. That being said, how did he learn about Conrad? Like seriously, when did that happen? I don't feel like that one is gonna get an answer.

Ugh. Okay. Mrs. Flood. She worked better when she wasn't showing up every episode. Also this implies Conrad will show up later, which... like... he's so tailored to this episode that I don't see him working well outside of it.

Yeah I don't think I liked this. I can see what the episode was trying to do, but it shot itself in the foot by making UNIT as sympathetic as they did. ALSO WHY IS BELINDA BASICALLY NOT IN THIS FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. I WANT BELINDA.

[pinkmoonastro]

“IT GIRL” natal alignments

an attractive young woman who is perceived to have both sex appeal and a personality that is especially engaging.

Moon/Venus The emotional world is expressed in a pleasing way. You understand what a person needs without them having to communicate it with you. Very expressive with love nature your ok with expressing it to the world.

Mercury/Venus *Major Indicator* This is the most common aspect with popular attractive women. People relate to you through the way you communicate. They love to hear you talk even if it’s about basic things. Watching your social media just to see what your up too. This placement gives you a sexy rememberable voice.

Sun 10th Your personality is easier to read your view points may be more agreeable to the mass so it’s easier to create relationships. You enjoy being likable and agreeable. You know how to present yourself in a way that will get the best desired results. It may also be very easy for you to get jobs people may feel like they know you even if they don’t.

Sun/Asc loves being the center of attention and people enjoy giving you the attention. This aspect makes a person come across as very interesting with a busy life. People enjoy being around you because of your childlike bubblyness that just expresses whatever you want when you want. Others feel more confident being around you because of the confidence you exude.

Sun/pluto polarizing, magnetic and alluring is how I would describe this. Others have a curiosity about you. You may keep a lot of your thoughts and personal life to yourself and people pay attention to your life closing because they want to learn things about you. Everyone listens when you speak because you probably stay to yourself and don’t contribute in group conversations as much as others. The real appeal here comes from people not being able to have access to you.

Sun/neptune giving hope to the hopeless. You see the bright side to anything and make for a great person to share with. You listen and give the best advice you can. Your mind is very creative and others love when you share your visions with them. You can provide many creative solutions to problems.

Asc in libra you enjoy a simple life living the lap of luxury you prefer to keep a light hearted nature. You’re like a spa in human form.

Asc in Sagittarius you make the plans for your friend group because you know how to create the fun. Others love your spontaneity and ability to make friends with anyone. You have the gift of gab and it’s very charming.

Asc in Aquarius you’re really funny in a random who thinks of that kind of way. You don’t mind bluntly telling the truth and you shock others by doing that. People view you as someone that doesn’t mind sharing the information you know. You’re willing to try anything once and it’s inspiring.

Asc in Pisces you can adapt to any environment. You know how to connect with many types of people so you attract a lot of opportunities to you. The way you express your emotions has an addictive quality about it. Attracting people with your rawness in emotion or expressing emotions in a creative way. You know what to say to soften anger in others.

Moon in cancer your caring nature is easily felt. People feel at home around you. You know how to make others feel welcomed. You don’t put much pressure on others on how to behave and that allows them to drop their guard with you and just be.

Moon in Virgo reliability is a virtue you have. Reliability builds the foundation to long lasting relationships because trust is so important. You hold support to a high regard and that allows you to build sturdy relationships and that’s make people want to offer you the same support in return.

Moon in Capricorn being blunt and bout your business is what wins people over. Its refreshing to hear someone speak their mind so freely. You accomplish goals you never speak on and people are amazed when they see what you've been creating behind closed doors. This placement also gives clean girl aesthetic. Also you probably love black clothing.

Moon in Pisces Dreamy ofc, with a quirky sense of humor. You don't mind laughing at yourself so its easy for people to let their guard down around you. You look approachable and usually are. There is so many ideas in your head and people love to hear them. Your very self motivated and it rubs off on the people around you. Because you don't have ulterior motives and its easy to see in you, its very easy for you to make friends quickly.

Venus in 9th Redefining what love looks like, you may be unconventional in expressing the way you love but it cant be denied that you do love. People admire the way you can blend in with many different groups. When you travel people can wonder how you got to have certain experiences in a country you just got to.

Venus 10th You meet traditional beauty standards. Being conventionally attractive brings in attention from a mass amount of people. People love the way you dress and copy your outfits. This is the girl that is saved in a lot of Pinterest boards.

Venus in 11th Popularity comes to you easily. People see you and want to be your friend. Venus hear gives you the gift of gab. Your voice is disincentive and draws people in. You come across friendly and bubbly full of energy and fun.

Venus in 12th Mystery is how you captivate. People unconsciously try to get your love and attention. Your personal life is private and people feel like you live a interesting secret life, rather that's true or not its assumed and they want to get close to you because they see not a lot of people can. They want to know what happens in your world.

How many did you have?

[my-star-war-sblog]

I CAN'T be the only one that thinks the way lightsabers look when the Jedi swing them through the air looks really beautiful, so hear me out.

Lightsaber dances.

It's a century old tradition in the Jedi order, and a popular hobby for the younger members of the order.

The dances involve either moving your lightsaber in specific ways to make forms and visual tricks with the saber. The movements themselves are based off (if they aren't already) acctual fighting techniques.

The tradition has multible functions. For one, it's orcourse the fun factor for everyone. The Jedi doing the dance and the people watching them. Lightsaber dances are also often used to teach the younglings the basics of lightsaber fighting in a fun and active way. And even for older Jedi it still serves as a nice and light training in terms of concentration and swift movement since you gotta be aware of your blade at all times inorder to produce the best visuals.

If you do them with a partner they serve as great exercise for getting intune with the other since broth parties have to look after the other and themselves to not bumb into eachother or mess up the steps as they perform.

And last but not least, they also serve as a sort of rememberance and honoring ritual. Jedi incorporate and mimic fighting stances and attacks of those they either wish to honor or remember into dances and perform them for those they made them for.

Since usually it takes a lot of concentration to do these dances it's a way of saying "look, I did all this because I deeply respect you. And I also build in movements like yours to show that I pay attention to you and care about you."

Some lineages even have their own dances, each generation adding their own move to it. Each Jedi takes pride in being able to show the history of their lineage. It also serves as a connection between the generations at the temple.

Each padawan learning their lineage dance and adding to it can say that he made this with Jedi long before them and will have made it with Jedi long after them too.

Then when the war starts and Jedi start to form close bonds with the clones, it's only natural they add them in the dances.

Ofcourse there are no lightsaber stances or techniques the Jedi can mimic to put into their dances. So they do their best to mimic the movements of clones when their fire or advance.

[thewardenisonthecase]

oc as flowers

tagged by @flowersforthemachines

I really like flower symbolism so i decided to do all 3 of my girlies

Anneliese Cousland - Lotus flower

I really like the lotus's symbolism of rebirth, strenght, resilience and the whole rising above the murky water/mud without staining. I spoke before about how killing the Archdemon was somehwat of a death for anneliese - the final death of the girl she was before origins, and the birth of the woman she now is. She went through a lot in a very short period of time and she was able to come out on top and she now has a future ahead of her. it may be hard but she'll fight whatever comes her way. (also. i love drag race and i remembered anetra's songs which is lotus and the lyrics include 'But my story doesn't end /With me fading away, away, away / I will climb To the light like a lotus/ and i'm like that. is anneliese)

Elizabeth Hawke - Forget-Me-Not

So, forget-me-nots are actually my favorite flower due to their symbolism so of course im gonna find a way to put them here and its with Elizabeth. I was talking once to some friends about how one of the ways she uses to cope with the grief of losing her family is that she has to live because she's the only one who'll remember them and considering this flower is associated with rememberance, it felt fitting (also, elizabeth is scared of being forgotten, this is why the freaking tale of the champion is important to her so it all circles back). Forget me nots also represent long lasting connections, true love and fidelity and I think that also matches well with Elizabeth and her relationships with both her friends and with Fenris.

Asala Adaar - Poppy

The poppy is heavily associated with sleep, death and also rememberance and for asala, i think it makes sense. The sleep part I'm lowkey associating with her depression post trespasser because for her, it manifests very much into wanting to rot in bed while she sleeps all day, unwilling to do anything. Death part is a little more symbolic because during DAI, Asala struggles a lot internally due to the death of her as a person to become a symbol that she never wanted to be (and also because unironicaly she spends a lot of time in dai believing they'll kill her). Also, poppies are associated with peace too, which is what is asala is seeking after the game ends - she just wants some peace and quiet and for the world to be good again. The poppy also can represent those that were lost during the inquisition (namely carver and some of the valo kas members). its kind of a tragic flower but considering i have cried because of asala's story before, it feels fitting. (also asala may or may not be dead in the chantry hates them worldstate)

no pressure tagging: @viina-art @cacturne @fadeling @championofthefade @sha-brytols @lottiesnotebook @casino-lights

[tireditaliannsstuff]

Himaruya and flower language pt.2!

In the latest France illustrations there are three different types of flowers:

Desclaimer: This whole post is made of assumptions. If you have other ideas feel free to share them with me!

The first two are the ones you can see in the bouquet: Carnations and forget-me-nots.

Carnations symbolize love, devotion, and fascination. Assuming their color (probably a light one) they could either mean deep and passionate love (Red), pure love and grace (white), capriciousness and unpredactibility (purple).

(I also read that they were traditionally used for funerals of loved ones in France but I'm not really sure about this).

Forget-me-nots (obviously) represent rememberance.

The third flower is the lily.

The lily, also called fleur-de-lys, was used in the French coat of arms.

In the language of flowers lilies mean love, ardor and affection. Lilies are also one of the most commonly used flowers at funerals.

Personally, I find it very interesting how all these flowers have a connection with death/funerals. Let me know what you think about this!

[ghostofashina]

I think it's ironic we know about Messmer's flames more than what we know of him, there is little to no focus about his inner feelings, what conflicts he might have or what he thought of other characters. Because as much as i love the idea that Messmer befriended an alburniac, that's add another depth to his character but i think Rellana would be enough to establish a connection between Caria and Messmer without messing the timeline so much. I don't dislike fromsoft storytelling but i feel they did fumble this time because even most of the npcs are so one-dimensional; Leda has no depth beside being insanely obsessed with Miquella and making her whole personality about him, Romina story feels shallow, what's the point of the rot in her lore? Why she is even a main boss? I feel we really didn't learn any much of the story of the dlc, and the little we learnt greatly contradict the established lore in the base game.

It feels truly odd. Because he seemed to be... very charismatic besides his grumpy look? Like, the DLC shows us how many people followed Messmer with free will and how they held him high. Despite the rebellion of his soldiers, you have Rellana, Gaius, even Radahn to show us he was not a hateful person (ofc ignoring his crimes and stuff). So it would be really interesting to see this charismatic dear friend in contrast to the resentful and bitter man we find, but unfortunately we don't have access to this, because Messmer serves only one purpose and they don't tell you any more than "he was a loyal hound".

I too believe Rellana was enough bridge to connect Messmer and the Carian Royal Family, and I think it would've made the timeline less messy. Gaius being there and being an albinauric makes everything more confusing. And he feels so out of place. Unlike Rellana, he feels like a field boss transformed into a rememberance boss, since if you don't go there, his existence makes no difference.

This time I also feel they dropped the ball :/ I know their lores was always vague, Bloodborne is one of my favorite games, but even Bloodborne being so dense and vague, it's not this mess. And unlike Bloodborne, Elden Ring had a established story through GRRM's mythos and help. And I doubt George would go the same path they chose.