#it's a surprise i think... i BELIEVE...? well theres an inkling of wondering so i guess im not spoiled just YET. and don't you dare spoil me

[kerorowhump]

thinking about ep 35 again because i rewatched it for natsumi's birthday and i find it interesting that kururu goes out of his way to defy keroro's orders to try to find out what gift natsumi would like. that's so awfully nice actually, in a fun chaos inducing way which is exactly his style

[siodymph]

“The Before and After”

Hey there @pirably ! I’m so sorry this is getting to you so late! I can’t thank you enough for participating in the gift exchange, and I hope you enjoy my take on your prompt!

Feel free to read your story under the cut or over on my ao3!

“I can’t believe you!”

“What?”

Sighing, Stanford took a deep breath. His neck was starting to feel pinched from looking up at so long. “I said I CAN’T BEL-”

“I heard what you said! What’s not to believe?”

“Just… Everything about this! There’s no way this is safe!”

There was a long pause as Stanford waited until he finally heard Fiddleford respond. Voice echoing out from somewhere near the top of his gigantic creation.

“… Probably not!”

“Then why do you insist on working like this? Why put yourself in life-threatening danger!”

“Cause!” Fiddleford called back, huffing. “I work best directly with my hands. And there’s no way I could tip this darned thing over without risking it all breaking! All for some shiftin’ wires!”

“You could build something to help gently set it down then stand it again!” Stanford tried to add.

“Ugh! But that’d take even more time! Not to mention I’d have to build that first!” Fiddleford yelled. “Now hush up! I’m trying to work here Stanford!”

If someone were to see Stanford at that moment, they probably would have said he was pouting. But Ford would take to his grave if he had to. “I just want you to be safe…”

“I’m harnessed to the swing, which I rigged up myself! Checked the pulleys and everything this morning! I’m the safest I’ve ever been!” Fiddleford called out one more time. “And you’re one to talk! Where was all this fussing over safety when you were in Dr. Jenret’s class and you almost poured acid on yourself?”

Stanford could only smile and shake his head in response. As always Fiddleford was able to win him over when he least suspected it. As inevitable as it was, it still caught Stanford off-guard. Growing up there had been no one like that in his life. If he ever got into arguments or debates with kids they’d always either eventually concede or just completely give up. Or they’d just hit him out of annoyance. If it was his brother he’d do a combination of the last two.

At least Stanford used that excuse as to why after knowing the man for years now, he still managed to surprise him when they got into debates.

To this day Fiddleford was probably the only person he knew who could get him to shut up and see things from a new perspective.

So now knowing there was nothing he could say Stanford decided to just sit back and watch the show Fiddleford was putting on. The man may be stubborn as a mule, but he was equally as cunning and brilliant, and he certainly made a performance out of his larger-than-life projects.

There was no denying Fiddleford’s brilliance. He had the most engineering and mechanical skill out of anyone Stanford knew. Even better than himself, which was something he seldom admitted to anyone. But it was the truth. Fiddleford Hadron McGucket was by far the best of the best in the world of robotics. And anyone who said otherwise was wrong.

Just being able to watch Fiddleford work was a treat itself. As his creation came together it quickly collected height. So much so that he soon had to resort to rigged swings and climbing equipment to finish the job. As he worked up off the ground like that Stanford couldn’t help but think of those old photos from the 1940’s of construction workers building the first skyscrapers. So high off the ground, only a pair of overalls and a utility belt for protection, and yet seeming so at ease. There was almost a beauty in how effortless Fiddleford made it seem. A grace he had while swinging from rig to rig, climbing up the structure with his hands and feet.

But when the light hit his face just right and Stanford could see Fiddleford’s hair shine golden, body covered in a thin sheen of sweat from his hard work, Stanford knew in his heart his feelings for the other man hadn’t changed at all.

He found he’d only grown to love Fiddleford Hadron McGucket even more...

Two hours later, Fiddleford came swinging down. Overalls covered in a layer of grim, hair frizzled and frumpy, face red and sweaty, and a satisfying smile that just looked ethereal on Fiddleford’s face.

“How’d it go?” Stanford asked as he ran back over from his own work to meet him. Handing the other man a towel.

“Pretty good I think!” Fiddleford sighed gratefully as he started to wipe off his face. “Got that wiring all straightened out! Now all that’s left is testing her out!”

“That’s wonderful! We should test it now!”

“You know Stanford it’s a good thing I like ya so much.” Fiddleford said with a tired smirk. “Been up there all day, and as soon as I get down you want me to keep on working!”

“You know you want to see your new invention just as much as I do!” Stanford replied. “Don’t even kid yourself Fidds.”

Chuckling to himself, Fiddleford went over to his work bench and grabbed the remote control he’d built for this his invention. He let his finger hover over the main controls before looking towards Stanford.

“Hang onto your butts…”

All at once, the remote buzzed and the colossal machine burst to life. Inbetween metal panels, there was a bright green glow. Panels began to bend and shift. Massive wings unfurled from either side of the robot. For a moment the creature turned its head to look at its master. Green eyes glowing with a light that feuled it from within. Then after Fiddleford pressed another button the remote buzzed again and the creature tilted its head back at gave out a massive prehistoric screech that made Stanford’s entire chest rattle.

“Not too bad for someone who said they were moving onto computer-work only, huh?”

Stanford looked up at the massive mechanic pterodactyl in awe. “Fiddleford… Fiddlford that was nowhere close to ‘not bad’. That was… That was amazing!”

“Aw shucks,” Fiddleford mumbled.

“No, I mean it!” Stanford continued. “This is a piece of history in the making here. This won’t just change the world of animatronics, but the entire world of robots and engineering itself!”

“You really think so?” Fiddleford asked.

“I know so!” Stanford tried to contain some of his excitement, sometimes he could get rather loud when he got carried away. “And Fiddleford? I couldn’t imagine this being made by anyone else but yourself. You really did a… a fantastic job here. There’s no way you won’t take first place in Dawngrove next week!”

“Aw, I don’t care about none of that.” Fiddleford sighed as he turned off his robo-dino. “I’m only doing this for lil’Tate. He’s the one who asked me to do all this after all.”

“And I’m certain Tate will adore this too.”

“I hope so...” Fiddleford said with another sigh. Looking back up at his incredible invention. ��Ever since me and the missus split I feel like I haven’t seen him as often. When we are together I gotta make it mean something. For the both of us.”

Gently, Stanford took Fiddlford’s face in his hands, pulling him away so they were looking eye to eye.

“Believe me Fiddleford, next week Dawngrove’s Robotic Royal will be a day no one could ever forget!”

Leaning in closer, Stanford kissed him. And closing his eyes, Fiddleford could feel himself relaxing.

Slipping away. If only for a few moments...

 ~~~

 Sometimes it truly amazed Fiddleford how everything was coming back to him.

At least physically if not completely mentally. He was still working on that.

He counted it as a small success though when Stanford showed him a massive mechanical pterodactyl and he got the inkling of a sensation that he’d seen it before.

Raising one hand up, he touched one of its massive wings. It felt rougher than he’d expected it to. No doubt the metal had eroded some after years of hiding it away in such an abandoned place.

“I know I’ve seen this fella before…” Fiddleford pondered out loud, still lightly rubbing over the metal as if that would help him reveal the answer. He knew he’d made robotic pterodactyls before but this one didn’t seem as familiar. It definitely wasn’t the one he made for revenge after his retirement-party-fiasco. “Did we make this together?”

“Not really, I just watched.” Stanford answered. “You made this one on your own. It was for this competition out in Dawngrove California.”

“Dawngrove…” Fiddleford said slowly.

“Yes, does that town sound familiar at all?”

Fiddleford hummed a little before shaking his head. “It ain’t there right now, but it’ll come back. I can feel it rattle’n around in there.”

Stanford seemed a little disappointed, but decided to move on. “Well you and I brought that in for a robotics competition. A battle royal actually. You ended up getting first place. Your ex-wife and your son even came and we all cheered you on.”

The mention of his son brought a smile to his face. The details over everything were hazy but he always knew who Tate was. “He would have been around eight or nine right?”

“Yes, he was nine!” Stanford said.

Fiddleford chuckled at the thought. “He was such a little squirt back then. Always hiding under that big mop of hair…”

Stanford grumbled as he looked around. He wished he had more photos from that day. In his experience with Stanley photos help jogged Stan’s memory the best. Unfortunately he didn’t have any photos from that day. He was however able to find a few newspaper clippings he’d held onto from that day. Carefully picking it up the fragile paper so it didn’t disintegrate, Stanford brought it over for Fiddleford to see.

“Look here,” Stanford pointed to the main picture under the headline ‘Super Scientist and Father Wins Grand Prize with his Dynamic Dino!’ where there was a black and white photo of the Pterodactyl back in its golden years. “If you look towards the bottom near the pterodactyl’s feet you can see a few figures. That’s me on the right, you on the left, and you’re holding Tate in the middle of us.”

The article itself was so damaged it was illegible. But Fiddleford could just make out their figures Stanford was pointing to in the picture. The picture was so old the image had begun to fade some too, mostly on the left side. His whole body was faded out. But with enough focus he could just make out Stanford and Tate’s faces. Both were beaming at the camera. Grinning with pride. Fiddleford realized they’d been proud of him.

“You two sure seemed happy…” Fiddleford said with a sigh.

“And we still are.” Stanford continued. “You have no idea how happy I am to be here with you. To have a second chance at making things right with you. With everyone.”

Fiddleford nodded but didn’t look up from the picture. As if trying to memorize their faces in case this memory never came back to him. When he didn’t focus as hard he could almost recall some things. Mostly phantom feelings. Like holding a giggling Tate close to his chest. Or swinging up on a rig, shouting to Stanford down below. Walking hand in hand with both of them…

“I’m happy I get a second chance too.” Fiddleford replied softly.

Eventually they’d seen everything they could and together, hand in hand, they walked back out of that old warehouse back into the world. They’d been in there reminiscing so long they’d missed sunset. It was already night and the moon hung low in the sky, darting out from behind trees as they walked.

Stanford’s six-fingered hand felt so warm in Fiddleford’s own. How he’d spent all those years alone, Fiddleford didn’t know, but now that Stanford was back in his life he knew he couldn’t bear to go back to the way things had once been. The world had changed so much, and they’d both changed so much with it. But Fiddleford could feel it in his heart that what they had between themselves was still as special as it was back then.

And when the light hit his face just right Fiddleford could see Stanford’s hair shine silver, and his eyes practically sparkling under the moon, Fiddleford knew in his heart his feelings for the other man hadn’t changed at all.

He found he’d only grown to love Stanford Filbrick Pines even more.

[abundantchewtoys]

HS Epi: Meat p11 reaction

Is the resolution of the Masterpiece really going to fall in between pages about Jane & Jake's fake date?

Maybe not. Maybe we'll see something from John's perspective first, inside the house juju. Giving himself the retcon powers. Coming to terms about some things. But I suspect he won't be able to contact anyone. At least, it would surprise (and entice!) me if someone contacted him while he's hidden away so remotely in there... Speaking of contact, how did John intend to have read anything inside the juju without his glasses or contacts? You can only spend so much time squinting.

I also wonder what they'll do when they're let out. I mean, they haven't become any better at fighting, and LE has. John won't zap his friends, Vriska and Davepetasprite^2 away to confer in a more secure location, right? Assuming he still has his retcon powers by the end of his stay in the house juju.

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"That’s that, you think. Your glasses are broken forever, and you totally fucked up and underestimated young Lord English. Rose should have known better than to trust this to you alone." Well, I guess having a mental breakdown is one way to pass the time. I'd rather he had some sort of breakthrough instead, though. As for the glasses... Maybe a non-final death will restore them? Or by ascending to his Ultimate Self god tier. Whatever that'd do to his personality...

"Rose, Rose... your smart, amazing friend Rose, you can almost hear her voice now.

> Listen closer, jackass." ... Ah, so Reload Rose and the others can still talk. Their jails neighbour each other after all - they represent the four blocks of the house - but I didn't think it'd be enough for them to confer. Though, I rather think they're limited in what they can do in here, right? Unless... Unless by being in the house juju, they can influence some things inside the plot, still put some things in place so some time loops are fulfilled and stuff is prepared for bringing down LE!

Pretty sure they're barred, narratively, from performing a jail break, though. :P

Ya know, I've talked about the sentiments behind the narrative prompts before, and I just now realized that the kind of intruisive, inflammable language they use are a throwback to Homestuck's narration, since now that we have this POV-type story, the language there in is more shaped towards the person in question.

"You’ve only realized right now that your cell has walls, because it’s awfully bright in here. It’s so white that nothing in the cell is casting a shadow. Looking around, you realize there is no apparent source to all this bright light, making it hard to tell where the floor ends and the walls begin." Oh, I figured it was dark for him, but yeah, the house is white. Maybe the jail cell looks to each as what their idea of being imprisoned in a house-shaped object should be like, and proportions of the space go to match that? Hence why John can't yet tell the floor from the walls, he's got only an inkling of an idea. :P

"JOHN: yeah, i’m here. ROSE: Oh, thank goodness. Everyone’s accounted for then." Hah, John spaced out while the others reconnected. Nice. I'm interested to see what ideas Rose will bring to the table.

So it all comes back to four kids, standing idly in separate rooms, huh. :P

"Are you okay? JOHN: what? ROSE: Are you OKAY?" Okay, either the walls muffle the sound of John is like "this situation does not warrant the use of the word 'okay', rose. 'okay' is definitely not how i would describe us being right now."

"JOHN: i think so. i can barely hear you though.

You can hear a thud from Rose’s corner, like someone slumping against the wall in relief. Well, that’s what you’re doing at least." That's pretty much all she needed to hear right now.

"DAVE: this is kinda dorky to say out loud but i dont DAVE: feel... time" ... They're cut off from all their aspects now, are they? That'd just make them ordinary people. :/ Or maybe it's in reference to time outside of the juju passing way faster, relatively.

"DAVE: thats not just me right you guys feel it too DAVE: or dont JADE: yeah JADE: i mean theres obviously space inside this box but i cant do ANYTHING JADE: its like im blind" ... Okay, so I'm left to wonder. Would the egg sword and Jade's First Guardian powers still be usable? I'm assuming Dave had it out, so even if their sylladexes are inaccessible they might be able to do something.

"The noise outside the juju grows. Something sharp and metallic splinters above and rains down on the top of the chest." That isn't something to do with the pirate party finding the chest in the dreambubbles... So then, what? Did the B2 kids do something with the chest after exiling (excorcising? ... INcorcising?) Caliborn into Lil Cal?

Blaperile has a good point. Do all the soul splices inside Lil Cal experience this in the same way? ... Do all the soul splices in LORD ENGLISH experience this in the same way?? In the sense that the mobster is just a prison they can't escape or influence?

"ROSE: What did my future self say it was we had to do? JOHN: erm... she never rea—" Oh this is going to be so embarrassing.

"The metallic noises rain down harder, drowning out Rose’s attempt at being loud." ... It's that the noises are metallic, otherwise I was almost beginning to think it was more like the white noise. And that would have made me think of the Scratch. That would sure be something though, if the B2 kids initiated a Scratch of Caliborn's session. Actually, what if that was how Alternate Calliope's timeline came to be...

"JOHN: NOW I CAN’T HEAR YOU! JADE: TRY USING LESS WORDS

The length of the silence coming from Rose’s corner communicates just how difficult a task that is for her." Pfffffffff. Incoming character development for Rose: being concise.

"JADE: WHAT????? JOHN: I KNOW IT’S ALL A BIT ABSTRACT, BUT... JADE: NO, I JUST CAN’T HEAR YOU! DAVE: JOHN YOU SUCK AT YELLING JOHN: UGH!" Pfffff, I thought John would be better at yelling coherently, being Karkat's counterpole. ... Blaperile points out the similarity with Karkat sucking at whispering. XD

"Now you understand defeating young Lord English was never supposed to happen. Not the way Adult Rose was implying it would. You surmise the other four teens remaining outside the juju were the ones meant to be tasked with his defeat." It just sucks that John has to come to these admittedly wrong decisions by himself and couldn't have been given more information to work with.

"And judging from the cacophony still emanating from beyond the walls of this house and its confining chest, they are taking the task seriously." Okay, so the B2 kids' fight is still going on. Still unsure what the metal sounds could be about though. Aside from Dirk hacking at the chest with his unbreakable katana.

"But what does this mean for the four of you?" John, don't lose hope, you said it yourself, you'll be unloaded... some time.

"You try to picture what’s going on in the battle outside, but it’s not easy.

> Use your imagination." Of course, the house juju's powers run on imagination! :P No, wait, he's just going to give us his idea of the proceedings of the rest of the Masterpiece. Sadly, he doesn't have any clay at hand. :P

"The coolness of the action in your mind’s eye is belied by the actual sound effects booming all around you, which you can only describe as vaguely stupid." Welp, guess the bar of wedgies is still being cleared only marginally.

"There’s a lot of hysterical screaming, which, if you’re not mistaken, is coming exclusively from the male combatants. ... Well, Dirk IS living and breathing anime. :P

"Almost as if an outrageous bubble of pure Hope were enveloping the stage, is how you would describe it if you didn’t mind sounding ridiculous." Hah, John still doesn't believe in the application of Hope.

"Then you hear... it can’t be. Horses?? No, not simple horses of flesh and bone. These horses are metal, if we’re to believe they’re horses at all." Oh! Right, Arquiusprite summoned those Metalhoofs. Well, that's what I picture they were, Caliborn represented them with metal horse figures... But perhaps he even created robo-centaur butlers and the like. *shivers*

"You figure no one will ever truly know what’s happening out there. You doubt anyone would even be able to handle how incredible the raw, unfiltered account of this teen brawl actually was, so it’s probably for the best." Welp, and we were doing so well just now. :P Eh, it seems the battle unfolded pretty much exactly as foretold, only with some of the more stupid details removed, curtousy of Caliborn's impatience with stupidity. Which in this case might not have been entirely bad. :P

"you overhear Dave from one of the rooms below you, raising his voice to speak to either you or someone else." Right, they are not all on the same level, since it's a house-shaped prison. Uh, but wasn't Dave supposed to be in the part of the house with the extra window? It's been too long, I probably misremember. Oh, wait, yeah, they went through the fourth wall via one of the bottom panes, and it stood for Dave. Never mind.

"Once more you ruefully reflect on these teen versions of your friends, and all the questions they must have for you. For each other. What would you even say to them?" The responsibilities of an adult, John never expected they'd be this hard. He must be growing more appreciative of what his Dad went through with him without even knowing it.

"You’re not even sure you could handle it, if you were Teen John. You’d have too many follow-up questions, which Adult John is in no way prepared to answer." Still, I wouldn't mind a little one-on-one between Johns. A John-on-John, I suppose. In a serious way, nothing from the animes.

"Would you tell them about Terezi..." Oooh, does he suddenly get an idea, thinking of Terezi? Can't say I think they can do anything to contact her from inside here. Hmm, but earlier, Blaperile thought about what the B2 kids could do with the juju chest, whether they might try to get the others out. That's assuming Caliborn didn't captchalogue the thing, though. Still, it would be something if they could defy what's been foretold and unload the house early, maybe load it with a real surprise for LE.

"For some reason her name feels like nails in your heart. Makes sense, you guess, cause there’s a lot of sharp letters in it. She had sharp teeth too, and sharp elbows. Sharp words." Ahhhh, so we get to see what black romance feels like to John. Looking pretty sharp, apparently. Still, her sharp intellect could've come in handy here. It's a good thing chances are good they'll meet again, I'm sure post-victory Terezi has an important role to play yet.

"Terezi Pyrope was a sharp girl, and maybe what these sharp feelings are trying to tell you is you miss her more than you realized." Well, John has already acknowledged his feelings about Roxy, guess it's time for the other side of the two-headed coin now.

"She wouldn’t have let you neglect relationships with certain friends for so long that you missed whole chapters of their lives. She wouldn’t have put up with you moping around with the salamanders for so long. She would have kicked your ass for being such a loser about everything. She would have poked you in the forehead and called you insufferably lame and told you to pick up the damn phone. You would have called her a weirdo and pretended you hated it, and maybe you would even have believed you hated it. But now, sitting here in this little white cubicle, contemplating your regrets, you don’t think you’d have hated it much at all.

Would you tell the teens that?" Oooh. Very good point, actually. Even if John really only knows that version of Terezi from talking to her on two separate days separate by three years, she had a real impact on him. Granted, they also kept contact on WhatsApp as well in Universe C, but during the session was when their interactions bloomed. It'd probably be a stretch for Meat to end with John retconning the post-victory timeline to include Terezi on Earth, with him, right? After they defeat Lord English first, of course. Oh, right, she was there for two years before leaving... somehow. I kind of forgot. Still, five years would've made a difference in where John ended up by the start of the epilogues.

"JOHN: am i... depressed??" ... Well. Well, as far as growing self-awareness goes, this might be a very big development! Yes, it does seem that John has become listless on Earth C. Mostly it seemed to have to do with the absence of his Dad. But maybe he'll have other ideas about that, like his misfortune in matters romantic.

"as it turns out, you are really fucking depressed. You’re just a giant, wet meat sack of self-involved misery, and all that big, wet, meaty ooze drips out your mouth every time you open it. All the time and space in the world isn’t making it better. It’s something you should have been doing for yourself, instead of waiting around for things to get better." Wow, John. I suppose things will get a little harder for him, now that he's realized this about himself, but I hope he'll find a way soon out of this mess. And so, that's what he's been doing on Earth C, just waiting for things to get better. And no-one picked up on it, not even the other people close to him that bordered on depression before? Like Jade? He really alienated himself...

"Well, screw waiting! It’s boring as hell! You are JOHN EGBERT, after all, immortal CREATOR OF WORLDS, the one and only man ever to completely transcend the partitions of CANON ITSELF. You’ve got these powers, remember?" Well THAT's a sudden surge of RESOLVE if I've ever seen one!

"You hold up your hands and form a rectangle with your fingers and reach outside yourself, outside canon, to the place your retcon powers come from. You focus. You strain. You contemplate with all your might a place you can zap to, any place but here." There's no place like home, there's no place like home! :p Kind of wondering if he'll succeed though. He might be cut off from his powers. But if not, canon is his oyster.

"You wait. And wait. And wait and...

Nothing happens.

You slump back down against the wall" Welp! He tried.

"JOHN: THE ONLY WAY OUT OF HERE... JOHN: IS FOR US TO WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO LET US OUT. JOHN: SORRY GUYS. ROSE: OH." Anyone up for a game of "I see I see what you can't see"?

"JOHN: ALSO... JOHN: I THINK I MIGHT HAVE DEPRESSION?" Well, at least they won't have a lack of stuff to be talking, sorry, yelling about. Rose might be partially delighted to pick at the brains of an adult John, in fact.

[mywritingandramblings]

She was a Raging Ocean

So here is a big little thing I wrote.

Her first memory of using her quirk was bitter.

Ochako was four when she first discovered her quirk. She activated it on a red ball she was playing with and she immediately threw up. On her hands and knees she looked skyward at the ball floating far away. She couldn’t move until it left the atmosphere, but even after she was still. With her stomach tied in every direction and her small body shaking Ochako wondered if she too would disappear. Sometimes she catches herself looking skyward for something lost. She wonders how many things she’ll lose.

Katsuki first memory with his quirk was accidentally blowing up a mailbox. His mom was furious but the children of the neighborhood were amazed. He had never felt such pain and violence flowing through him and it gripped at his hands and left him paralyzed. The other children were amazed and he was proud.

She buries herself in hero training after the incident with the yakuza. Nothing is enough to fill the emptiness in her stomach that screams if only she did something different. She catches Bakugo during his nightly training, but they both have a quiet acceptance to leave eachother alone. She thinks somewhere inside he might understand the feeling she’s trying to bury.

The next time she faces the league of villans she feels prepared. She’s furious that the man that can destroy tried to touch Deku and she grabs bakugou by the shoulder and screams for him to throw her and he doesn’t hesitate as she activates her quirk on herself and flings her towards the enemy. She surprises him as she catapults full of rage into his side. She’s quickly pulled away by Sero’s tape as he screams how crazy that stunt was what if he touched you, but she couldn’t care in the moment she just needs this feeling to go away like she’s drowning and falling at the same time and maybe if she punches enough it’ll disappear. The man looks her in the eyes for the first time and she’s never hated someone yet understood them all at once. Did he feel the same thing as her. That ocean roaring inside.

“I’ll be coming for you”

They disappear

He said it to the crowd, but she has an inkling it was directed towards her.

Bakugou scowls and grabs Ochako by the shoulder “Don’t pull stupid stunts like that. You’re smarter than that.”

Ochako’s cheeks flush, but she doesn’t have time to dissect the new emotion that lays atop the other ones swirling violently inside of her.

The next time the league of villans show up is when she’s alone and she knows the truth of his statement. They catch her after she had been doing training of floating train cars leaving her quirk exhausted. On the empty railroad tracks she fights, but Dabi puts up a ring of fire and Himiko keeps attacking with her knife and Ochako has never felt more tired in her life. Shigaki is standing on the sidelines and she swears he would be smirking under that disgusting hand. His eyes loom over her whispering the answer the sinking feeling surrounding her.

Theres a shot and through the fire Bakugo comes running . He’s wearing civilian clothes so his blasts are more condensed but he quickly distracts Himiko. Shigaki steps towards Ochako’s heaving body

That’s enough

She knows whats going to happen next. She starts running towards Bakugou. Until she’s crashing into his back

“Watch it” He yells but as he turns he sees her body fading away’ URaraka”

She disappears. He pulls the object she had stuffed down his belt. It was a tracking watch.

Katsuki had never felt more sick in his life.

She had known this would happen.

He goes to the school and finds Aizawa sensei they go to the principal. Heros are called meetings are set up to try and locate her. No one else is told. Katsuki is furious. She had brought it up to the faculty and they had told her their would be no reason she would be taken. They had pushed away her fears to the point that she kept a tracking device on her. Things he had noticed about her started to make sense. She had started to frequent the late night gym at UA where he found solace. She seemed to be working harder than her usual self and he would bet it was because of this.

He wouldn’t tell anyone but he also had started to catch her floating on the roof. It was another place he frequented after the kidnap. He went there to cool off and to be alone. The first time she came storming up there he was about to yell at her but she quickly activated her quirk on herself and pushed upwards. He was mesmerized by her flight upwards. Slowly cascading against gravity. He just began to wonder how she planned to come down when she released her quirk and began free falling. She let it go on until she was extremely close to the roof and then activated her quirk again and floated down. It was terrifying to watch and yet breathtaking. Bakugou was always propelling himself around with his quirk but he could never get that level of control over his own flight. It started to become a habit catching her floating and falling. He knew it wasn’t a training excercise but didn’t think it was his place to ask about it.

Now he wished he had. The tracking device didn’t work until she had been gone a week. Then it popped on and everyone went into action. Bakugou was only allowed to go because it was the only way to keep him shut from the classmates who believed she was visiting family.

Uraraka had been put somewhere underground. Shigaki came by often and he was the only one. She tried to escape but every attempt was stopped by him.

“Have you figured it out yet?”

“Stop talking in riddles.”

He took her hand and cut along her pads.

“It’s a shame this won’t stop your quirk, and I don’t think you’ll join us, but you really don’t have another choice” Ochako would spit and gnaw at him until he would stop touching her. She hated how it made her feel. Like she was drowning in her quirk. He would try and convince her that her family would thrive and that the world didn’t need heroes but choas and lots of it, but she would tune him out and think about free falling on the roof of UA. How full it made her feel.

It took her a week to find a way out of the underground hide out. Shigaki was there when she reached the surface, but she knew it was only a matter of time before people came for her. She knew Bakugou would be there.

“You’ve made the wrong choice.”

“Is this the part where you monologue at me because I’m really done with that villain cliche”

“No this is the part where I kill you.” He reached out to her and she activated her quirk on herself to float out of reach, but he disappeared and reappeared behind her. His hand slide around her throat and grasped.

“My quirk is pure destruction. I give and end to things, but as you can see it doesn’t work on you when your using your quirk.” She started struggling against his grasp until she pushed herself away and was floating higher up. “You’re my foil. The perfect enemy for me well until I become something else. I was excited to meet the person destined to destroy me, but all I found was you. Deku is a better option then that. You’re just hollow.”

She felt like she was going to hurl. She released her quirk and tried to keep her composure

“That’s why it makes you so sick to use your quirk because even your body is rejecting what you put inside of it. Your quirk doesn’t make things float it makes them into nothing just an afterimage. That’s why I can’t destroy them and that’s why you’ll have to die.”

Ochako can’t see the black portal opening behind her or the knife being stabbed in her back but she did something reckless anyways and plunged her hands together and activated her quick causing the knife to miss her heart but only just. She toppled over as Shigaki whispers “Hey at least you can fly now.” And she wants to cry. How can he know that ever since she saw that red ball float away she felt empty. Every time she made herself float she felt like drowning and it was only those pure moments of falling that she felt real. Now she has a knife right under her heart and she wonders if she should just float herself up and up until she too disappears.

Bakugou’s voice is the thing that brings her back

[shadeslayer]

still thinking about this tbh like im surprised and disappointed theres not more to find about howard and abuse and manipulation

like theres the part where hes attached at the hip and at some level in love with the man whos always abused jimmy and does up until the end and how that is most of the lens howard has when approaching jimmy (my best friend/love of my lifes stupid pathetic lazy younger brother) and how that shows one of the dynamics of abuse, esp within families, where outsiders will stick with the person they like the most and accept that version of events rather than try to understand whats going on objectively. and yes jimmy treats him badly (and thats almost completely driven by unaddressed frustration at howards enabling of chucks abuse of him) and nm the reason howard has good reason to hate jimmy for that. but the thing is he doesnt hate him for that he hates him for being what chuck always told him jimmy was, which he makes VERY clear in the latest episode. and idk how people didnt pick up on that when he immediately brought up chuck in the first conversation, even in his conversation starter, and then repeatedly brought up chuck over and over when he knows full well chuck hated jimmy, their relationship was horrible, and that chuck is jimmys dead brother

BUT EVEN ASIDE FROM THAT? hes treated kim like shit. he always has. hes targeted her for being friendly with jimmy and hes targeted her for being Not Chuck and hes targeted her for being a woman who wants to climb the ladder in his business. hes played hot and cold with her constantly, hes called her into meetings with a smile in order to berate her on a personal level and humiliate her, hes given her shit jobs to try and make her quit or at least so he doesnt have to see her. the way he treats her at work honestly makes me think of very cruel and emotionally manipulative ways that my friends and my partner and even i have been treated at work, and that usually made us feel unsafe being female presenting, visibly queer, or non white in the workplace

hes a sexist piece of shit who cant see past the stars in his eyes for chuck, and uses chucks opinions as an excuse to berate and humiliate kim for nothing more than the crime of being friendly to her coworkers. no wonder his marriage was in shambles

his entire speech in the last ep is just.. bluster. its nothing. its him parroting chucks views the way he always has (and even expounding on them with the bitterness of chucks death) and its him posturing to know whats going on and know "what they really are" and then its made immediately clear that he doesnt have an inkling of who they are or what they do

the entire court district knows that saul is in the pocket of the cartel, that he is the new big cartel lawyer. he knows from the PI photos that saul has been taking on a huge onload of clients of cartel members recently, so even if he hadnt heard the gossip hes seen it with his own eyes. but when a strange man breaks into jimmy and kims house in the middle of the night with no warning and saul and kim both look terrified and beg him to leave, he doesnt understand it. im sorry howard but you shouldve known, point blank. you DID know, you just didnt want to believe it

hes not lovingly clueless or heartbreakingly naïve. hes a privileged white man whos never not been in a position of power and authority and has always had the power to make his own decisions. he truly does not care about his clients, he does not care about justice, he does not care about the life and death that his job is to litigate. he kept pushing sandpiper despite the fact that many of the clients would die before they saw anything come out of it, bc of his choice to not settle. he made irene sit in a wheelchair in order to manipulate the meeting to his advantage, and refused to explain it to irene and instead expected her to do as he said without question. clifford was right in everything he lectured howard about, after the meeting

howard has never lived outside of a very privileged bubble, even in his bad times, and it shows through in the way he targets kim as a woman, the way he targets jimmy as "low class, criminal class," the way he accepts chucks word at face value and respects him as an equal, same with cliff (showing the only people he respects as equals to be other white men with authority and power), the way that even when hes dealing with the cartels newest favorite lawyer he thinks he is untouchable and his PI wouldnt be in danger and that he himself would never actually be hurt and that even when faced with a man with a gun to him he thinks he can weasel his way out of it

"oh, looks like im in the middle of something" - howard has always played this card. hes always played that oh hes just in the middle of it all and he hasnt done anything wrong hes just an innocent bystander! as if he isnt an active enabler and helper in abusing jimmy, in targeting kim and kneecapping her career repeatedly for no real reason other than a personal grudge, in taking sandpiper itself. howard wants people to think hes a passive actor, an innocent bystander. maybe he even believes it himself. but he is ANYTHING but

new bcs ep fucks so hard. i was upset abt howard and then i watched the full ep and saw the manipulative stuff he railed on them with and was like oh i remember why i hate you. die mad about it then