#it's a bittersweet feeling

[a-dreamersjournal]

In the silence of December.

11:30 PM, December 1st.

The beginning of the end.

Most people start counting down to the new year on New Year’s Eve, but my countdown has already begun. My clock—or rather, my heart—is racing, the ticking growing louder, like a drumbeat marching me toward the end. I need to hurry, to capture what remains of this year, to salvage its scattered fragments slipping through my fingers like grains of sand.

Time to lay my heart bare again, to place it on the table and dissect it. To search for the reasons why it still hurts—why it never stopped hurting, not once, all year long. What was I seeking so desperately? What was I chasing after with such fervor?

What was my purpose? What was my excuse for trampling over my own feelings, over and over again? Tell me, December, why are you here already? Isn’t it too soon for you to arrive? Aren’t you a few months early?

Where is my August? September? October? They vanished like whispers in the wind, their promises trailing off into nothingness. And November—where, oh where, did November go? The months I counted on slipped away like autumn leaves, leaving me bare.

Where are the moments that were supposed to mend me? Didn’t you promise me last year? Didn’t you say that when you returned, you’d greet me with warmth and a smile?

Instead, December, you knock at my door like a thief in the night, cold and unyielding, stealing what little hope remained. You, with your frosty breath and quiet whispers, have taken so much.

But perhaps you’ve given me a gift as well, the gift of endings—a chance to start anew. Tell me, December, would it be okay if I slowed down for a moment to catch my breath? To inhale the brisk, cold air and let it soothe my racing heartbeats?

If I surrender to your eerie silence and stillness, would you become gentler? If so, then please, hold me. This time, instead of grasping at the invisible hands of time, I will release my desperate need to control the ticking needles of an everlasting clock.

And I’ll carry your chill as a reminder, engrave it deep within my heart and soul, to remember that perhaps the missing months weren’t lost, but resting beneath the snow, waiting for me to unearth them—waiting for me to embrace them unconditionally.

For December is winter’s lullaby, and after the frost comes spring. And so, I will wait—patiently, with the quiet hope that renewal, though distant, is never too far off.

[sarahjtv]

My Hero Academia is Officially Ending and I'm Fucking Coping 😭

So, it was officially announced early today, June 24th, 2024, by Shueshia and mangaka, Kohei Horikoshi, that My Hero Academia/Boku no Hero Academia will officially end in 5 chapters on Chapter 430. The last chapter will be released at the beginning of August after 10 years of publication in Weekly Shonen Jump magazine if all goes well.

I woke up to this news. I'm sitting here on my laptop typing this as a way of coping tbh. On the outside, I'm numb and stunned. On the inside, I'M SCREAMING, CRYING, THROWING UP, MOURNING LIKE I LOST A LOVED ONE WTF 😭

*sigh* But, this was going to happen eventually. It was only a matter of when. When Horikoshi said that we would have more epilogue to cover, I thought "Maybe he'll give us 10 more chapters!" Turns out it is 6-7 chapters instead... In Horikoshi's defense, 6-7 chapters are much longer than what most mangaka have given us for epilogues to their stories. I'd rather have him give us 5 more chapters of an epilogue than rush it in 1-2. Plus, if possible, we could potentially get 19-20 pages per chapter which might be just enough to wrap everything up. And since final chapters of manga tend to be longer than usual, we could get extra pages in the last chapter to finish everyone's arcs and the story properly.

Still, it's so wild to see a series I have loved for years and have such a strong attachment to end as I am following it. I have been a part of many fandoms before and have stuck around them for years (Pokémon, Supernatural, Doctor Who, Breaking Bad, and many more), but it's not often that I've been there there to see a series come to it's conclusion. Sometimes that can turn out well (Breaking Bad) and other times I've seen it end badly (Supernatural; only read about it and it was not great. I bounced after season 13? and I am so sorry to the fandom). My Hero Academia is one of the very few series I will see through to the end.

I'm really coping here, honestly. I've been a fan of My Hero Academia since 2018. I first heard about the series randomly through the internet, but I didn't fully introduce myself to it until I listened to a cover of The Day on YouTube (I forget the artist, I'm so sorry). I thought the song was so cool and that led to me listening to more covers of MHA OPs (Peace Sign is still GOATed btw). This eventually led me to the manga and the anime where I became truly immersed in the series. I started reading the manga around the Joint Training Arc (I think) which was definitely an interesting time to read the manga because the chapters where so short due to Horikoshi dealing with health and I think moving conflicts at the time. It was still an enjoyable arc and enough to keep me interested in reading from the beginning. I want to say I started the anime around season 3?, but I started at the beginning and worked my way up from there. "Shoto Todoroki: Origin" was the episode that finally solidified my love for the series and is still my favorite episode of the series.

To say that MHA has an important place in my heart is an understatement. (⚠️Warning: very quick mention of suicide) I was very sad and depressed in the latter half of 2018. My life didn't feel like it was going anywhere and I was close to giving up entirely. (⚠️ ). Finding and loving MHA during that time honestly might have saved my life. As strange as it sounds, it was one of the few things that brought me genuine happiness at the time. I had something to look forward to every week and it was thrilling. I still remember debating whether Deku or Shoto was my favorite character. Shoto took the top spot in my heart, but Deku is a very close second 🩵💚.

Seeing MHA end is heartbreaking, honestly. I'm watching something I truly love come to an end. We'll still have the anime, movies, and spin-off series to keep us busy for the next few years, but the manga that started it all is coming to a close. It feels so, so surreal. God, is this how the Haikyuu fandom felt when it’s manga ended? My hope is that this fandom can be kept alive long after the series is over. The MHA fandom DEFINITELY has it's flaws, but it also has a lot of good in it too. I have seen incredible art and fanfics come from this fandom. I have laughed and hyped up some of the best moments of MHA with people who love it too. I know that the fandom is collectively mourning its end and I know we'll all cry bittersweet tears when it ends. If anything, I am glad to see Kohei Horikoshi end his momentous story on his own terms. I hope it ends up being one of the best manga endings in recent Shonen Jump like how Haikyuu's was. I think Horikoshi can do it. Regardless of how it ends, My Hero Academia will be one of my favorite pieces of fiction. I am really glad to be here to celebrate it.

[riddlingwife]

high school is over now

[ndcgalitzine]

I can't believe there are only 7 posts left of MA2023 😄😭

[ladyimaginarium]

okay so. y'all know the cult i& was talking about a few months ago, the ones who basically said that god was literally the most important thing and that we were always being watched and basically told me& indigenous spirituality & anything nonxtian is demonic? more & more allegations have been propping up in the last few months especially on reddit & tiktok & now i& don't feel so alone.

[angriff-zur-wahrheit]

The funny thing is that when I finally accepted that I couldn't go home, I began to realize that Canada might be able to give me the same feeling of home. I guess it's an inevitable stage for for every exile. You just accept it. Like obeying gravity.

I start to picture how to live here in the future.

[blackthorndryad]

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[jupiter-suggestion]

consider the sperm whale and the squid. an ancient rivalry that dates back millions of years. we know the whales eat the squids. we know the squids do not make it easy for them. we know this because of the scars the whales carry, scars on the outside of their body, and on the inside as well. how badly must you want something to endure wounds inside your mouth? inside your gut?

consider the whale, who is harmed by what sustains her. consider the squid, whose flesh is soft and delicious but refuses to go down easy.

[hinamie]

in spite of everything, I had fun <3

[dangeroustaintedflawed]

[calmao666]

We meet at the appointed place

[avenoirn]

brothers, wherever we are

[conjuring-ghouls]

Listening to some Green Day songs I haven't heard in ages. It's taking me back to 10 years ago.

[beaulesbian]

ARCANE 1.08 || 2.01

[lotus-pear]

"feels like we could go on for forever this way.." (x)

[itsajollyjester]

"No I've got it!"