#it's a bit of a shock to the system
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i wish i knew more queer women who were very into their careers
#i've always struggled with gender and while i've settled with being Just Me i can't deny that i was raised on the belief that i would be a#homemaker and upon figuring out that i dont want that and i actually want a#pretty high profile career i'm really struggling#i'm a very veryyy femme lesbian and the way that my relationship is set to work in the future means i won't be the one to carry a kid or#stay at home. and i love that because i know who i am in that regard and my strengths Do lie in career and working#but i struggle with it too because as a person who didnt figure out she was queer until she was 20 and thus thought she'd have the#heterosexual experience of marrying a dude & carrying a kid & not being a huge career person for years#it's a bit of a shock to the system#i really struggle with overcoming gender roles that i've grown up being indoctrinated into believing and still thinking of myself as a good#& kind & nurturing person despite not wanting to be the stay at home mother#i wish i wiiiiish i knew more queer women who went through this realisation and came out the other end of it because it's harddd for real#valentina talks#i never realised how deeply how i grew up and the society i faced drilled into me that being a career woman & gay & taking on a more#traditionally “male” gender role was Bad and made you Wrong TM
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glasses
#I was suddenly struck by how superficially similar Edgeworth and Kristoph are lol#which led me to thinking the first time pheonix sees edgeworth wearing glasses might've come as a bit of a shock to the system lol#ace attorney#pheonix wright#beanix#miles edgeworth#7 year gap#wrightworth#narumitsu
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Day 2: Timeloop / Xiao Qi and Jiu Ge
I am cringe and I am not even free
Feel free to reuse this idea but 24 hours are not enough for me to finish an entire comic. I could have taken the simpler prompt but nOOOOOO timeloop is too tempting. Past me why are we like this
#svsss#shen jiu#yue qingyuan#qijiu#qijiuweek2024#the basic idea for this was that both yqy and sj remember each loop#the loop started after their individual deaths in PIDW and resets them to close to disciple era#aka the time Yue Qi was in the caves and SJ presumably got away from the Qiu household or was already with Wu Yanzi#I imagine the first few loops they qi deviated so hard from the shock that they didnt even make it like 1 hour in the loop before beingrese#and then had a few loops just fucking around and finding out#eventually they realise that the other has the memories of all loops and so begins the talks and figuring how tf they can get out of this#maybe they resolve their issues with the promise or not your choice tbh#they try different plans and methods#but they keep dying (read: SJ keeps dying first and YQY either dies or sewerslides not soon after) and getting reset with no end in sight#until the last pages where the svsss timeline begins#SJ got replaced with SY and the system isn't letting YQY join him in death or smth nor letting him do anything about SY being there instead#And due to their closeness from being immensily tired from all the loops#YQY notices it immediately but can't do anything about it#the bonus for SY is that this timeline was very kind to LBH & co - 79 figured by now that keeping him in the sect and happy was their best#bet at staying alive - or well at least for longer#I'll continue this storyline in one of the future prompts of this qijiu week#btw the one with the cliff is just the whoopsie daisy timeline where SJ accidentally falls into the Abyss trying to keep LBH from falling i#79 had a bit of a good laugh about that one#cw death#cw violence#cw blood#cw angst
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it's funny i feel like tango split the energy from the creature that was decked out in half this season. the factory has the mechanical majesty, the twisting wires, the sense of a multitude of parts coming together to make something greater than any of its pieces, and of course, the insane redstone programming. meanwhile, ALL of the haunted energy went to the mail system. that thing is so so haunted. it already ate joe hills once. could not possibly be more haunted. together, they make "yep, tango tek is sure still at it" in its strongest form and i couldn't be more happy,
#hermitcraft#tangotek#bonus points for the mail system having the spirit/hauntedness of decked out: pearl and etho are also the masters of it#bonus points for the factory having the physicality of decked out: i haven't caught a tango stream in a bit. but i would be SHOCKED -#- if he doesn't have to carry party poppers to fly around in there lol.
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A reactionary comic about rereading a fic that I recently recommended that was way darker than I remembered, lol. I still love it for how they pretty much drive each other crazy, but that word choice and the consent issues... *cringes* At least there are valid warnings beforehand, and the first fic was pretty PG. Sorry. *laughs sheepishly*
#drawn by me#my fancomic#sort of a review of a fanfic#Death Note#lawlight#self portrait#Light Yagami#L#aggressive making out#it's just that I'm usually seen as maybe a couple steps below wholesome and felt weird about my recommendations after rereading them#and it was on fanfiction.net so they don't have the in depth tagging system that Ao3 has so there is a bit of blindness#but still thank goodness the author did provide warnings and actually recommended people skip certain chapters#L and Light are NOT nice to each other in Concerto in D Minor to say the least#that and Violins Light are still very influencial for me and for inspiring my love of these two driving each other to the edge of madness#and *spoilers* they don't even have sex in it! the majority of the explicitness is just from violence and non-consensual... torture touch?#it also follows my weird trend of starting off kind of silly to more serious when it comes to tone#and of course driving Light into a horrible crisis~#sorry for my lack of artistic activity. I'm still in the process of drawing the next installment of my fancomic#but I did wanna do this as a psuedo apology for my recommended fics. I was honestly shocked by how dark/brutal it gets lol#I do still recommend them if you can handle it. It’s honestly not the darkest thing I’ve read lol
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who am i to deny schmuel when it comes up
#immediately after santa fe was a little bit of a shock to my system#but i would never x out XD#SCHMUEL#jeremy jordan#tl5y
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Hate having adhd went to go work on my fallout modpack, got distracted while going to disable the steam overlay, ended up in the points shop, went to go edit my profile, decided to change my pfp, found a buried folder I forgot existed, found some old Veneer art I forgot existed, spent 45 minutes looking at all the old photos, STILL HAVE NOT TOGGLED ONE SIMPLE OPTION THAT SHOULD'VE TAKEN 30 SECONDS AT MOST
#I'm shocked I have these drawings scanned on my pc I don't remember doing that I must've done it before I left in case my mom threw all my#Art out again#Anyway at age 12 I was writing a better '3 merpeople go on land to find a 4th one that has been disguised as a human all his life' story#Than Ma/ko Merm/aids EVER did so uh. Take that Jonathan#God it sucks so bad that kid me would've LOVED MM if it just DIDN'T HAVE THE STUPID GENDER WAR BULLSHIT#Literally the entire first and second season is just. So fucking stupid. I wrote a God damn essay about how they fumbled Erik's story SO BAD#I don't even LIKE Erik BUT THEY DID HIM SO DIRTY#THE CHARACTER POTENTIAL AND WRITING COULD'VE BEEN BETTER THAN ZANE B. S1 OF H2O BUT THEY THREW IT AWAY AND FOR WHAT!!!!!!!#Seriously you're telling me a kid who was abandoned his entire life for being male didn't have a bigger impact on the pod than FUCKING ZAK?#That plot twist of 'oh actually Zak was a merman all along' was 100% so they could guilt free write Erik out#Instead of like. Having him face his actions or redeem himself in like. Any way. He just fucks off. THEN the pod is like lol Zac were sorry#We're sorry for literally not doing anything to you because you were privledged enough to have a mother who was super ultra powerful#So you were never really affected by our actions until JUST now. Unlike that other fuckface Erik who suffered his whole life alone#Also then in s3 there are STILL no mermen in the pod. Not even little mermen babies. No kids and teens they've welcomed back n apologized to#NOTHING#God. Mm pisses me off dude#AND I STILL HAVENT TOGGLED THAT FUCKING OPTIONS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#Cruddy rambles#God I'm not done I'm sorry fallout can wait YOU ARE TELLING ME THE GUY WHO TELLS US HOW SHITTY MERMAN BABIES R TREATED BY THE POD. IS NOT#THE SAME ONE THE POD APOLOGIZES TO IN THE SEASON FINALE BECAUSE THEY WROTE IN A SHITTY PLOT TWIST?#AUUUUUUUHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG#It's so bad. It's so fucking bad. It's so needlessly gendered and for what. They could've just had 2 rival warring pods#What pisses me off the most is that s3 (4) completely pivots and never really follows thru with the s1 and 2 story arcs#The writers just kinda wash thsir hands of that because 'hey the pod said sorry to zac' BUT THEN NOTHING ACTUALLY CHANGES!!!!#Maybe instead of having a constantly rotating cast of characters s3 (4) could've instead focused on Ondina and Erik's relationship a bit#Maybe have Ondina tell him she wants to just stay friends because she can't trust him. Have him IDK grow and change as a character?#Maybe so you can show kids nobody is born evil and we all need support systems and healthy relationships to grow and become better people??#THAT would've been a GOOD FOLLOW THROUGH#But no instead u just write him out of the show and never show any OTHER mermen who were exiled being welcomed back#Like u had Ondina becoming a teacher... Why not have Zac become a teacher for all the new mermen who were just recently welcomed back??
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not going to lie i feel very nervous about the idea of starting this internship even though it's not set in stone yet.
i just want to do well if i manage to get it.
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recent things
#With the heatwave combined with being ill for like an entire week it seems I've lost like 16 days this month#where I basically did barely anything... grrr.... The passage of time... My Enemy...#Now that I can finally hold down food and stuff I'm feeling a little better mostly and my sickness has probably passed. But I still#feel weird a little bit like.. some lingering weakness or something. I think I'm just already having so many Problems at all times even in#my 'Normal' state that whenever I get sick or something my whole system is thrown off for a while lol#I'm supposed to be writing like 2000 words a day still ghbjhb... I've had multiple days of maybe 1000 - 1500. And a lot of days#where I write maybe 20 - 300. I've still been chipping away at the same single quest dialogue for all 20 something#days this month so.. AUGH.. Though that also counts the 16 days I did nearly nothing but be sick and overheated#I finally edited that whole big sims video I wanted to post!!! but now there's an issue with it ... T o T#My fault for still almost exclusively using windows movie maker in 2024 lol.. but HHHHhh.. It's like every once in a while randomly#a fully edited video will not be able to be exported. so evil for this to happen to my first sims build tour in a while. but alas..#ANYWAY... I have been slowly working on little things here and there.. in my little scraps of time.. Wishing to be fully productive at#some point. Maybe I can finally finish and post some things soon. like costume photos or sims videos and etc.#BUT HEY.. that solitaire thing is crazy to me.. I don't think I've ever finished a challenge in under 20 seconds#before. huzzah.. tripeaks squad.. OH.. and an image of#curly tail boye.............. he..... I took him to the vet for a check up and he seems surprisingly okay for a 16 year old. except he has#a mild thyroid issue or something so I'll have to give him medicine. But every time he goes in I'm always expecting them to be like#Sorry. Your Son Is Truly Doomed. or etc. so I'm always shocked when he's fine... a strange boy with many strange behaviors#so I can never tell if he's just Being Weird or if he's sick or soemthing ghjbjh#Also the bad thing about never ending summer heat is that when it IS finally cool for a few days. I don't want to do ANYTHING. It's like wh#n it's hot I feel too sick to do anything. And then when it's cooler I'm like 'OUU the first cool day in WEEKS.. i want to just relax and#fully ENJOY the coolness..'' So it's always constant warfare with my body like.. NO ..we cannot SLEEP. We must utilize this small patch#of Non Heatwave to finally be productive and finish things while we don't feel sick. But then it's like ''ohoho...to lay in the cold air of#the morning restfully.. i shall have a little nap with a blanket on for once.. perhaps.. tee hee'' Always at war with the Tired Sleepy#it seems. AAAANyway...... grr............ slowly finishing things. still usually missing my target writing goals..#Hopefully will have some actual art or costumes or something to post soon. Fumbling through the summer weather as usual lol
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Hey guess what. In 16 days I'm gonna be getting on a plane and flying to [country redacted] and sitting on a beach with my pals for a couple days.
#tho i did look up the temperature there yesterday and it was 29 C with like 85% humidity#which will be a bit of a shock to the system after winter in northern europe#obviously im happy and excited about this#but also im trying to wrap my head around uprooting my entire life again and saying a bunch of goodbyes and losing all my hard won routines#and then going home in like 6 weeks and having to figure out like. the rest of my life. cuz im graduating from my (first) bachelor's degree#at least i know absolutely for sure as of today that i have a job for the summer? so that's something.
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ps i could be way off here but the impression i get is that ye olde nobility complaints about "oh no, too much royal favouritism" are usually really just complaints about "too much royal favouritism not directed at me personally" aren't they?
#your whole system of government depends on the whims on That One Guy why are you SHOCKED when he has whims you don't like?#this is a flaw in the system & i find it sus that you only get mad about this when you're not the ones being favoured.#it seems a bit like the wars of the roses owes a lot to richard of york getting mad at not getting enough nepotism jobs?#and sorry but if robert dudley can flirt his way to power i'm sure you can too lord whoever-you-are.#one or more of your sons has to be hot enough to attract the monarch right? come on this isn't rocket science!#history shitposting#but also i am right about this
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Ummmmmmmm ok listen hear me out wait wait shhhh listen. Ok. Remember how the other day I unearthed and exposed my twst fankids chart I made with my friend like 2+ years ago. Well too bad bc I was thinking about it for a while after and how I was missing the beloved riddle/azul combo -> I always loved how heartslabyul and octavinelle both have trios of besties that are composed of a housewarden, vice housewarden, and a guy who is neither of those but always by their side and basically an honorary co vice house warden anyway 😌 -> a second gen trio would be so cute -> I already like riddle/azul and trey/jade (there was already a trey/jade kid on the chart but my friend made her. And I wanted to make a fresh trio as a specific unit) -> furthering my agenda that cater and Floyd should hang out -> also….
I think the concept of cater/floyd could be potentially REALLY funny and shocking to their peers and tbh also themselves lol. And who am I if not a curator of Sillies 🧍
#I don’t even know how to begin tagging this 🧍 ummmm#azurido#treyjade#…. I don’t know what cater and Floyd are called.#flokei probably lol#twisted wonderland#twst#cereal tries to draw#twst oc#twst fankid#I’ve been marinating this concept since yesterday lol#I doodled out a bunch of ideas first#then lunch break today I drew this#VERY FAST BC I WAS RUNNING OUT OF TIME!!!!!!#and my neck started hurting so bad but I had to get it out of my system!!!!#anyway I think riddle and azul specifically#would be so shocked about cater/floyd they would nearly pass out lol#riddle: cater we neee to get you to a hospital you are unwell#azul: i am already calling an ambulance#please it would be so funny#maybe they’d do it for the bit at first and then actually fall in love like the fanfictions#idk don’t think too hard about it LOL ok ummm#I have not named their children yet or decided dorms but#I was thinking about that and their dynamics. teehee#but I’m busy I have to go back to work no more doodling rn bye !!!
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For the next two days I'll be trying my best to finish up the queue and hopefully requests will be back up soon!!! Thank you so much for your patience!!!
#So the break is going to be a bit shorter than expected because I don't actually have to finish the schoolwork!!!#Because we're getting held back either way#/nav ^v^ just still a bit in shock....;w;#but yay!! i can't wait to get back to helping systems!!! :D
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Thinking about rare happy moments for Gabe
Gabe and Alex dancing by a camp fire at camp forlorn hope- It's night after the reclamation of Nelson, so there's general sense of jubilance in the air. There's some sappy song playing through the tinny speakers on Gabe's pipboy. It starts off as a ballroom style dance, but a combo of the uneven ground and Alex's lack of experience leads to some stumbling. Gabe takes himself off guard with a laugh, the first in years. Then settles his head on Alex's shoulder, they stay like that, close, spinning and swaying until the campfire has burned down to embers.
#oc x cannon#Oc: Gabriel#I gotta give my boy a little bit of joy just a little#too much in one go would be a shock to his system#That would be the first night in a while where Gabe is truly calm and happy
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Having spent basically all of my life in an area with very good transportation and walkability (kinda not really) has kinda fucked up what my concept of normal when it comes to travel as someone who basically relies wholly on transportation and walking. Like if I have to wait over a certain amount of time for the train I feel like just blowing up the whole station I get so pissed off
#shoutout to Toronto for the transportation system because I would not survive anywhere else#walked to a Marshall’s while spending time in Pennsylvania for a bit and walked on the side of the road for like an hour I was LIVID#because not a single bus? not even a sidewalk? very scary#went to another city and waited an hour for the bus once I was in shock and disbelief#like damn at least allocate funds into some walkability or something#if the grocery store is longer than a 15 minute walk I can’t do it
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one of my friends from college is the best I love her but she's just so richbrained yet believes herself to not be.. like be real u went to a private school that was eight grand a year 😭 i can't deal with the things that come out of her mouth sometimes as much as i cherish her. this other lad in the year ahead was saying to her before that he wouldn't have been able to go to college if he didn't get a scholarship and she was like repeating this to me like WOW. 🤯 really makes you think 🤔 never met anyone like that 🫶 like WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNN
#also she like loves to defend private education like there's this one thing she said that always sticks in my mind it was like#everyone would sent their kids to a 'good' aka private school if they had the chance... like don't u think it's a little bit crazy#that a good education should be through a 48k paywall. In ur case. Interesting like. but what do I know i only went to a deis school 🤯#it's si funny though whenever I talk abt getting out of my bubble as in interests n like cishet normativity they're all like so true#but they specifically mention being around poors likr they're like different economic backgrounds... 'Im so used to my south dublin bubble'#like yes girl we can tell. you're shocked by the fact I didn't understand the dublin public transport system at first or know what KPMG is.#anyways.
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