#it's 3 am y'all this game is gonna drive me insane

[nutelloona]

I got so fucking humiliated at the skull cavern rn I straight up closed the game without saving omg

[jojotichakorn]

for the game - phum 🤲

you said i should do all of them, which is insane, but also thank you weeeee ✨🫶

i'm gonna put the headcanons under the cut though, y'all can send asks with other characters (& emojis) from here

🏳️‍🌈 a sexuality headcanon

i personally definitely headcanon him as gay.

🏳️‍⚧️ a gender headcanon

a good ol' cis boy.

😇 a headcanon about their religion/lack thereof

hmmm... i'd imagine he's probably not religious, because he was shipped off from thailand at a really early age, and no one was socialising him and really involving him in the culture oversees either, so religion probably just kind of naturally passed him by. at this stage, i also can't imagine when he would discover it later in life on his own either.

🧸 a headcanon about their childhood

well 💀 horrors beyond our comprehension, basically. tbh, we know quite a bit about it, but just to solidify, i think 1) his parents and oldest brother genuinely never called to talk to him; 2) fang did call almost every day, but it got to this slightly weird juxtaposition of like "oh, you're calling me, but then if i start complaining about the horrific situation i'm in, you shut me down", so it wasn't Great, 3) the distant relatives he lived with did not care about him at all, it was truly unimaginable levels of neglect; 4) he had zero friends and the "i cried every day" thing was not an exaggeration.

👻 a headcanon about what scares them

well, we know about heights. for some reason, i also think darkness. that's if we're talking specifically classic fears. if we're talking more psychological - definitely fear of rejection and abandonment.

👽 a headcanon about a weird quirk of theirs

i do not think he sleeps with his plushies, that's not really their function. they are a comfort item during the day and also just a special interest on their own, as a collection.

💤 a headcanon about their sleep

i actually think he has a really hard time falling asleep, specifically because he isn't used to feeling safe, and that's also why he wakes up at the smallest sound.

🦾 a disability headcanon

autism in the biggest boldest letters.

💝 a headcanon about their love language

i'm gonna be honest, it's all of them equally. he is very acts of service, he starts driving peem around everywhere almost right away, he exchanges food with both peem and fang, so they wouldn't eat what they don't like. crossing over into gift-giving as well, he bought peem a bunch of seafood even though he doesn't eat it because they were at sea and peem would have wanted to eat it, he buys peem stuff all the time tbh, he pays for toey as well. quality time is also up there - he follows peem around everywhere and doesn't mind just sitting there in silence while peem works on his art. physical touch, of course, he can't stop touching and kissing peem. finally, words of affirmation, he is really good at compliments and just talking about how much he loves spending time with his friends etc. like i always say, his heart is the size of a skyscraper, and he has so much love to give.

🫂 a friendship headcanon

he still has a really hard time making friends and i think it will take him a long time to actually start hanging out with his new friends from peem's friend group separately and not when everyone is invited.

💔 an angsty headcanon

his self-worth is incredibly shakey, it's truly like a game of tumble tower, when you can see that it's gonna fall on the next player's turn. and i think that, though it will get better, especially if the family thing is resolved correctly, it will genuinely take decades to deal with it fully.

🪢 a headcanon about their family

his parents are gonna get hit by a bus that will be driven by someone who looks suspiciously like me :)

📓 a headcanon about their hobbies

i think he definitely has a hobby that involves a lot of reality-escaping. probably not video games, because i can't remember seeing a good pc/console at his apartment. i am leaning more towards books and/or movies/series, something like that.

👗 a headcanon about their clothes

he does not really care about fashion rip 😔

🔪 a headcanon relating to fighting/violence

unlike fang, i actually don't think he was ever that big into it. he ended up in a couple of fights anyway, because of fang, but he himself is very 👉👈

🌟 a headcanon about their desires/wishes

i think he wants kids, but is afraid he is going to make a terrible father, because he hasn't really had any good examples of parenting throughout his childhood.

🥇 a headcanon about what they’re best at

perhaps a slightly weird answer to a question that's probably leaning more towards skills and achievements, but i'm gonna say taking care of people. he is very attentive and loving, he is genuinely just incredibly good at the small gestures and remembering things about other people and giving the right gifts and saying the right thing at the right time, etc. etc.

🍫 a headcanon about food

he eats a very limited amount of food, which is also why fang can only cook spaghetti - he learned to cook it specifically for phum, and phum just kept asking for the same thing every day. i wouldn't be surprised, if he isn't actually allergic to seafood as well, but just says that, because it's easier than explaining that he eats exactly seven foods and nothing else.

🎭 a headcanon about what they lie about

his exact feelings about his parents. i think he's been shamed a lot for feeling the way he does towards them, so he keeps making things up and skirting around the conversation, so he wouldn't have to directly say "i do not want to see them anymore".

❤️‍🔥 a romantic headcanon

he is extremely romantic in my opinion. i think he believes in soulmateism and true love and the whole shebang. i think he watches lots of romcoms and has probably seen every mlm storyline in existence, dreaming of his own gay little relationship. he has all the proper romantic gestures down to a fine art too, obviously.

💄 an appearance headcanon

yes, he did dye his hair that shade of brown to look more like a teddy bear. slash srs

🖕 a headcanon relating to anger

anger is his mortal enemy. he has a lot of it pent up inside (understandably so), but he thinks it's a very ugly feeling he is "not supposed to feel", so he suppresses it. whenever he feels angry, he just kind of goes inside his shell and leaves the situation.

😺 an animal related headcanon

he is a cat person (hence, peem).

😬 a headcanon about the worst thing they’ve done

straight up the agreement he made with peem at the beginning.

😭 a headcanon about the worst thing that happened to them

being abandoned by his parents at five years old.

😶 a random headcanon!

he isn't as close to toey as he'd like to be, because he is 1) autistic and 2) not particularly well-socialised, so he has a hard time really understanding what social rules to follow for their particular relationship. in his head, he definitely considers toey his younger brother and would absolutely just spoil him rotten and hang out with him a lot, but not a lot of that gets actualised in reality, because he's a little afraid of making any sudden big moves or actively saying that he feels about toey the same way fang feels about him.

[rambleonwithrosie]

150 Followers. Feel free to take this and use it yourself.

Okay so if you've been following me you know that at every milestone of 50 I go and answer 50 questions. So this time they're all gonna be Queen/Classic Rock specific and y'all are all welcome to take these and make asks out of them or reblog/copy with your own answers.

Favorite Queen member's solo album? Strange Frontier by Roger Taylor

Who of the band would you call to help you fix a flat tire? John, he's a dad and a diy guy, as much as I wanna say Rog I just don't want to deal with a drama queen when I'm having my own drama but I've seen him under the hood of a car so I've no doubt he probably knows how

What do you think Brian May smells like on am average day? Very woodsy, like pine needles and some light but expensive cologne

How would you kiss Freddie? On the cheek like a good friend I just can't get into his looks enough to think about kissing him any other way

How would you kiss John? Well if we're talking long haired fluffy John I'd probably psst at him to come around the corner and then give him a kiss and see what he does

How would you kiss Brian? Very carefully otherwise @squeezemylemon is gonna kill me so probably the sweet quick chaste type kiss

How would you kiss Roger? (My moment has come) I would walk up to him and grab ahold of one of the necklaces he wears and just pull his lips down to mine and crash mine onto his wrapping my arms around his neck kissing him for all I'm worth or less dramatically if we were just sitting on a couch or something I'd just lean my head up off his shoulder and press a gentler sort of kiss to his lips and see where he takes it after that

If you were going to date one of their kids who would it be? Felix, I'm partial to brunettes usually (Roger and Luke Skywalker are my exceptions) and he seems pretty cool and has done a lot of different things which would be interesting to talk about

Favorite gif of your least favorite band member?

10. Most recent Queen photo on your phone

11. Favorite piece of fanart?

I can't pick just one. I also don't remember where I found these and if you know the artist I'll happily tag them in the most. The artbis most definitely NOT mine

This is mine

12. Queen song that makes you want to cry? Love of My Life

13. Which band member would you pick to keep an eye on you at a party so you don't get too crazy and make it home safe? Brian probably, I would say John but I feel if he's drinking he'd be less than no help

14. Who's flat would you ask to crash at? I have reasons to want to say Roger's but banging aside I'd probably pick Freddie he was generous and funny and would probably do his beat to cheer me up from whatever circumstance had made me not have a place of my own to stay

15. Who would you want to teach you to play an instrument they play? Well I genuinely feel I'm best suited for drums so I'm not just saying Roger because he's my dude. Plus he could teach me the most instruments anyways considering as he knows drums, bass, electric, and keyboard.

16. If you could spend a day with Freddie what would you do? I'd just want to sit and have tea and talk and maybe go shopping later hear his advice and crack some jokes

17. Favorite solo song by a Queen band member? As far as written by goes, it's probably Let's Get Crazy or Happiness by Rog bit overall it's gotta be Rog's version of Racing in the Street *chills*

18. Favorite live performance?

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19. Whose singing voice do you like best? Roger Taylor (nothing against Fresh he's amazing)

20. Whose speaking voice do you like best? Again Roger Meddows Taylor for the win

21. Write a snippet where you're holding hands with your least favorite band member.

Freddie had never been to an amusement park before, hadn't wanted to go really, but John had begged him to come along and then left him with Aston to babysit while he dealt with his actual children. It wasn't that she had anything against Fred it's just him tagging along on her elbow was keeping her away from the drummer whose attention she wanted. They got onto one of the rides and she saw how pale Freddie was looking and felt sorry for him. It wasn't his fault that he was being a third wheel or that the drummer was off on one of the more dangerous rides that Freddie was not about to get on.

"You can hold my hand if you want" Aston joked looking over at Fred.

"Really?" He asked a little relieved. The two of them chuckled and to Aston's surprise Freddie's black nail polished fingertips interlaced through hers and he looked a little more at ease for the comfort of human contact.

"It'll be fine" she grinned and then the ride took off and the black fingernails damn near dug into her hand in panic.

22. Write a snippet where you're fighting with your favorite band member.

They had been living together for just over two months and despite not knowing how to boil an egg Roger somehow found a way to get into the kitchen and put things in the wrong spot. He came home from the stall.

"Where is the paprika?" She leveled at him before he had scarcely shut the door.

"The what?"

"Paprika, Rog, the spice that I was going to use for the supper I was cooking us, but I can't ever find anything in this kitchen" Aston said muttering as an afterthought "thanks to you."

"What was that?" Rog said coming over to her and looking darkly with his blue eyes.

"Just tell me where you put the paprika and we'll be fine" she sighed.

"I didn't fucking touch anything in your stupid kitchen" he glowered going to the liquor cabinet.

"Well I still can't find it" she huffed.

"Not my problem" he said swigging straight from the bottle.

"Well if you want dinner it kind of is" she retorted.

"I'll get something out" Rog said dispassionately.

"Fuck you" she muttered and went back to banging through the cabinets in search of the missing spice. She was on her knees with half her body in a lower shelf looking in the back and growing hotter for Roger showing no signs of caring or helping. She smelt the dish starting to burn on the stove and tried to crawl out, raising her head up and whacking it on the shelf above. She let out a round of oaths.

She went over to the stove and moved it off the heat halfway between tears and screaming.

"I'll order something" Roger said standing up.

"I can fucking cook!" She shouted "if only I could find the things I need when I need them."

"Well don't yell at me about it" Roger said and brushed past and out the door.

Aston collapsed onto the floor sitting with her back to the cabinets and started crying. She sobbed into the kitchen towel. So much for her cosy dinner at home with Rog. She was so distraught that she didn't hear the door open and close. She felt her fingers clutching the towel pried open and looked to see a bottle of paprika put into them. She turned her teary red eyes up to Roger's face. He pulled her to her feet and held her in his arms. Softly stroking her hair and planting a gentle kiss to her cheeks.

"Come on, I got us reservations, you can cook your thing tomorrow if you still want to" he looked down at her smiling and put a kiss to her nose and grinned at her in his arms.

23. Favorite picture of Brian

24. Favorite picture Roger

(Well it's one of many favs)

25. Favorite picture of Freddie

26. Favorite picture of John

27. Best song to slow dance to? One Year of Love

28. Best song to make out to? I'm In Love with My Car

29. Best song to drive to? Breakthru or Don't Stop Me Now

30. Best song to strip to? Tear It Up

31. What era of the band would you like to hang out with most? I wanna say mid to late 70s. I'd rather not have to hang out with them during Hot Space 😂

32. Favorite song on your favorite album? Rock It (Prime Jive)

33. Least liked song on your favorite album? Probably Play the Game

34. Who would you want to take care of you if you were sick? I feel Brian would be the most knowledgeable but I'd probably prefer Fred just cutting up and maybe grabbing the aspirins and whatever else was needed. I just don't feel Brian would be funny enough to cheer me up. And Rog I just don't know how good he'd be at taking care of someone

35. Who would you want to go driving with? Roger. Duh! So many reasons!

36. Who would you pick to spend a lazy (non-sexual) afternoon with? Well not that I'm just into Rog for the sex, he'd still be my first pick because laughs. But second would be Brian.

37. Rate how thirsty you are for each band member? Freddie 0/10. John variable between 0/10-6/10. Brian 2/10-4/10(red special is factored into Brian). Roger 1000/10 (cars aren't factored into Rog otherwise I'd break my phone adding zeros to that 1000)

38. Least favorite Roger song? Sheer Heart Attack

39. Favorite Brian song? Sail Away Sweet Sister or Dragon Attack

40. Least favorite Freddie song? Body Language and Get Down Make Love

41. Favorite John song? One Year of Love or If You Can't Beat Them

42. Are you excited for the Bohemian Rhapsody movie? Yes. Not insanely. But moderately excited yes

43. Is Queen your favorite band of all time? No. They're in my top 3 but The Moody Blues were my childhood and are so unique and very special to me

44. If you married your crush from the band where would you go on your honeymoon? The beach. Hopefully the Pacific Ocean. Probably some nice private beach just to have space with each other and I love water and he loves boating and stuff.

45. Who has the nicest butt? While I prefer Rog's ass I must admit John possesses the superior booty

46. Who has the best smile? Roger. Hands down and not just because he's my main man all around it's literally made of sunshine

47. Who would you go to if you were scared? Roger. I don't get scared so if I did I'd want someone around to make me laugh my fears away

48. If you were going to be in a crime fighting/super hero duo with one of the band, who would it be? John. He's sound and sensible and so long as he can handle my forceful personality and not write any DISpatches raking my bad behavior and rash decisions we'll get along

49. Do you listen to Queen daily, or at least multiple times a week? Yes especially if you include their solo works

50. Have you written any Queen fanfiction or made any fanart? Yes. Fanfiction galore. Some has yet to be posted but when I do it will be on @drummerinthecupboard

[blueeyedbesson]

Taking You: Chapter 29

29: Hooked

Series Masterlist Masterlist

"I can't believe there's already a 20 year old in your band." I laughed as Jonah sipped his coffee like an adult. "Wow. So mature."

"And in less than 2 weeks, we'll have 3 19 year olds." he smiled.

"You guys are getting so old."

"Out of the 8 of us at the house, you're the third oldest. So, you're old too." he laughed and looked into his cup. "Awe. It's gone."

"Ha." I giggled.

"Don't laugh. This is a serious matter."

"Okay. Whatever you say, Marais."

"Jack, your sister is being mean to me again!" he shouted out to Jack, who was upstairs in his room.

"Get up and walk away, Jonah. Come on. You're 20 years old, for crying out loud. I should not have to intervene between two people who are older than me." I heard him laugh.

"He's got a point." Corbyn laughed as he and Aubrielle walked into the living room.

"Shut up. I know he has a point." Jonah smiled as Aubrielle sat next to him. "But your girlfriend was being mean to me again."

"Not his girlfriend." I stated.

"Right." he smirked and dragged out the i sound. "But you're getting back together, right?"

"No. And I'm done having this discussion." I replied before getting up and walking out of the room.

"Sorry man. I tried." I heard Jonah say to Corbyn. There wasn't much to do in the house so I went up to my room. It's been a while since I went on YouNow so that's what I did.

"Hey guys. I'm sorry I haven't been online lately or uploading new content but we've been really busy." I greeted. For the next hour, I played games with the viewers and told some stories. As I neared the 1 hour mark, I was about to sign off until Corbyn appeared at my door.

"Abby, can we talk?" he asked quietly. I nodded and he came in.

"What's up?" I asked.

"I'm sorry Jonah asked you that earlier."

"It's okay. It wasn't really a big deal."

"I know but I asked him to do it, just to see if you'd be open to the idea of us possibly happening again."

"Corbyn, you know that'd be a bad idea." I sighed. As much as I wanted to be with him, I knew I couldn't. I have to have some time to myself before I jump back into a relationship. "I'm sorry."

"It's okay, I guess." he sighed and looked up at me. "Don't do that."

"What?" I asked.

"You're biting your lip. I hate when you do that. It drives me crazy." he chuckled and continued looking at my lips.

"Oh shit. Sorry." I stopped and a blush crept up onto my cheeks.

"Don't be." he smiled and before I knew it, he was kissing me. I quickly returned the kiss but realized that I was still live.

"Um...Corbyn?"

"Hmm?" he asked as he pulled away. I pointed to the laptop in front of me & his eyes widened. "Oh shit. You're live?"

"Yup."

"Hi guys." he smiled and awkwardly waved to the screen. Hundreds of comments came flying onto the screen. Lots of fans were going crazy over that kiss.

"What he actual hell?!" I heard Jack yell from his room. Seconds later, he and Gabbie were running into my room.

"I knew it would happen eventually." Gabbie did a little dance.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Jack asked.

"Tell you what?"

"That you're back together." they both said.

"We're not." Corbyn and I answered at the same time.

"What? Why?"

"Because I don't want to get back together. Contrary to popular belief, I'm happy being single."

"Yeah. It's best not to push it guys. She's clearly not into me as much as I thought." Corbyn sighed and walked out of the room.

"Wai- Corbyn, come back." I tried getting him to come back but it was no use. That boy was already gone. "I'm sorry guys. You got excited for nothing." I said to the viewers, as well as Gabbie and Jack.

"Damn it." the both sighed and left the room. I signed off and closed the app. How did everything just turn upside so fast?

~~~~~~~~~~

"Logan's throwing a surprise party for Jack's birthday and wants to know who he should invite. Any suggestions?" Aubrielle asked as  she plopped down on my bed.

"Who cares." I sighed.

"What's wrong with you? You were excited about your brother turning 19 like 4 hours ago."

"How do you not know? I thought it was everywhere."

"Thought what was everywhere?" she asked.

"I went live earlier and Corbyn came into my room to talk. Then we kissed and lots of fans were posting screen recordings."

"Awe. That's cute."

"Jack saw and assumed we were back together. When I got upset about it, Corbyn left the room sadly. I felt like I hurt him."

"He'll get over it. You shouldn't feel pressured to be in a relationship anyway."

"Thanks." I smiled and looked over at the blonde girl sitting on my bed. "But you know what?"

"What?"

"Maybe Corbyn and I are meant to be together & we should get back together."

"Of course you're meant to be together. You're Arbyn for crying out loud. But that doesn't mean you have to rush back to him. You're meant to be together so it'll happen. You just gotta let it happen naturally."

"You're right. " I thought about it and smiled.

"I know I'm right. I always am."

"Thanks by the way."

"You're welcome." she smiled and sat up. "Now, who should Logan invite to Jack's party in less than 2 weeks?"

~~~~~~~~~~

~Jack's POV~

"Do you think we ruined their chances of getting back together?" Gabbie asked. I looked over at her and sighed.

"Oh god. I hope not. Corbyn makes her happy & I love when she's happy. I know she wants to be with him but maybe it's hard for her to go back to him, considering how the ended in the first place."

"Yeah, maybe." she sighed and wrapped her arms my body. "We're not going to end, are we?"

"Of course not." I kissed the top of her head and just stood there, holding her as close as I could. "You and me, we're solid, baby."

"Good. Because I'd go insane without you & I'd definitely miss the girls."

"If we ever broke up, you know you can hang out with them whenever you want."

"I know. But wouldn't it be weird seeing me all the time?"

"Not if we don't make it weird." I looked down at her. "Why are we talking about this?"

"I don't know. I guess I'm just scared. Some of the strongest relationships, like Abby and Corbyn, end up breaking up. Sometimes it's inevitable."

"I'm never gonna let that happen to us. I love you."

"Awe, I love you too." she smiled and placed a kiss on my lips. "I can't believe you're going to be 19 soon."

"I know. It's insane."

"You're gonna be an old man."

"No, babe. Jonah is the old man."

"True." she giggled and I took a minute to admire her. "What are you doing?"

"Admiring you and wondering how I got so lucky."

"Oh please. I'm the lucky one." she smiled and hugged me tighter. "You're my entire world, Jack Avery."

"And you're mine, Gabriela Gonzalez."

~~~~~~~~~~

~Belle's POV~

"Whoa. Did you see Abby's live?" Zach asked as he walked into the kitchen.

"No. But I saw a bunch of your fans post screen recordings of it & I heard them having a conversation earlier. Apparently, Corbyn got really upset & it's been a few hours since he and Abby have said a word to each."

"That sucks. Because I loved them together. Arbyn were my parents."

"I thought Jonaby were your parents?" I questioned him.

"Oh yeah. They are." he chuckled. "But I did love Arbyn a lot as well."

"Yeah. Me too." I smiled. "Even though I wasn't really around for their relationship."

"They were good together. And it's pretty obvious that they're still in love with each other.

"Right?" I looked at him. "I wish they never broke up at that party."

"It all started because Jonah was seen with Tatum, causing him and Aubrielle to break up. So Jonah turned to Abby for consoling & that pissed Corbyn off. He thought she was cheating on him with Jonah so he cheated on her with Christina and BAM. It was like break up central."

"We're not gonna be like them, are we?"

"Hell no. Never."

"Good." I smiled up at my favorite person in the whole world and wondered how someone could be this perfect.

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abbyavery: throwback to a simpler time in my life. when i was really, REALLY happy.  i'm still happy now but knowing i hurt you, kills me. you're my best friend & i love you so much ❤️

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[castlehead]

beauty seems to be really funny most of the time and i like dat.

this idea that sends pop definitions of beauty running for the hills makes for some

quality distance, if only one step back.

what if i had any idea who i was but could see into everybody else

phone home cheeky cosmic touch m8 gonna think this is too easy

yeah but not let’s feel this way without before examining ourselves

for anything fake about it first parting from the idea that there wasnt anyway

and then parting cuz that knows so much

that part of me knows so much abt what do you call it extreme fear of maudlin

i run naked thru the grass singing abt yesteryear

                        ...There’s a move in social situations I like to call, “around the sun” whereby you wait for the game to end to play music, or wait patiently for one plan of another to say its peace so you can say yours. I like to take it to a more extreme level and say, turn down the fuckin tv, I want to listen to a thing I find beautiful.

SONG ONE : like the earth

1. Sit back and dream of clouded metaphors Reveal the schemes that we devised Back in the day, when ur hands were small And the WORLD splayed out colorfully Before our eyes

(chorus)

Take ur thronging bussloads of the living dead Take all the lifetimes of a million busy heads Ur sly intellectuals that laugh in the dome The only place, the only place is in the peaceful tones Of singing birds perched on ascending wires, like notes

2. Caught u up past three, sitting on the porch I woke up from a dream that I immediately forgot That seems to happen a lot, especially if previously I torched a dutch and passed the fuck out But from the ether of my dreams I heard, from the scope of reality I heard you shout

(chorus)

3. The sun and the moon both live in a box And the box is a square made out of lead And the square lies motionless in ur head Like a body on the rocks

Watch the hour tuck away into an evening A day nestled in afternoon light From the beginning In ur mind that made all minds the same The twilight creeping across ur paper brain And I can only burn and burn and burn

And I can turn round like the EARTH And I can be a sphere like the EARTH And I can stitch up the nations With fear, like the EARTH

(chorus)

                        ...people who call it a false flag just don’t wanna think it’s their own who bomb, if it can’t be a towelhead.

SONG TEW : the rainbow

The sinister rainbow blinks over the clover And the dawn is a monster in my brain I'll take a picture before this song is over And I’ll fix u in a wheel to keep me sane

Don’t break out the gin for the old lady creepers Smoke until the blur makes ur head float around I live in hades, burn my tongue on the heater When I lick this heaven ill taste yur sound

(chorus)

What Im saying isnt deep What Im stealing isnt cheap But I know that if i play it loud and long That this song in my head will instead Form a beat

Like a stranger in the rain Slowly driving me insane There's a fork in the road And I dont know whether Or when, all this shit will come together In the end

2. I got a stupid friend who lives in a pause He takes life from the tiger’s jaws, and prays

That life begins again, after it is over And the rainbow shines like a dream, in a daze

Ill take u thru the eye of the needle Ill breathe a testament to ur false gods Ill tell the truth, and contaminate the evil And zap u like a lightning rod

(chorus)

3. Dont you know that the rainbow is the world? Dont you know that the news is already told? Im gettin too old to be unfurled Im seein the rainbow in my mind Im waking up for the daily grind Im singing useless things for useful people The rainbow is not evil, its kind Dont u know that the color kings rattle like a marble In a tin can? And the rainbow eats the darkness like a mother Without a son? Dont u know that u can never be a man? And the rainbow drags across the empty land And the rainbow drags across the empty land

(chorus) (chorus)

                        ...the only division is classical and romantic. all else is contributory to these two. postmodern, modern, no. romantic. it all follows the romantic objective. one is ruled by the time at which it occurred, and the other is ruled by the mechanism of breaking from any present time.

SONG THREE : an ending that promises to begin again

1. A legend sleeps in yur head somewhere You take yur trembling hands And grope for mine, like a bum for spare Change... You cant explain

This strange perdition that engulfs Yur position in the sane... And the trouble of the pulse That leads a broken synapse Up into my eccentric brain... Theres a clot in my neck And the ruins of time Keep me from being able to find A comfortable spot to rest

(chorus)

Im stuck in erasure--a constant exposure To the elements still provides me with eyes To see bad karma writhing in my spleen And I wonder if ill dream While the whole WORLD is awake Will I be the manufactured figure, Will I be fake?

Or will I take these petty abstractions And roll them up into a ball And put them in my pocket Just to feel the reason stall In my throat... Is life a puzzle, or a joke?

2. The life you led one sunny afternoon Is the life you never led again... I can appreciate the reasons For why you did not blend Like a chameleon in the room But cant discern the seasons Of the moon

Yur whispers prosper, loud Like a passionate apostle And the lords are proud of ur Painting on the wall... That skritter of an evening gone Is enough to scatter colors When the sky finally falls, And the lords are like the brothers Of what lorded over them... Take these idols and shatter them... The racket in my brain is loud And does not end And does not end And does not end, even when the jig is up Cuz ive gotten fucked by time: Its an ending that promises To begin again

(chorus)

                        ...Nobody starts an Apollonian, and only those are Dionysian who have the capacity for restraint needed to confer the Apollonian chariot, tho some die without a revision of the vision etc. some die restraintless

SONG FOUR : chauncey ames and the case of jenny preston

1. Chauncey loved the flowers Chauncey loved the trees Chauncey smelled the wind And knew that he was free

Chauncey took a cab home Chauncey felt the air flow Thru the window He paid the driver extra Just for keeping him From being alone... Back, once again To the place that he had left Long ago

In fact, it had been years and years and years Since the man had seen walls Not fortified in concrete... In fact, it had been years and years and years Since this man had put to rest That lying cheat

(chorus)

Chauncey was a killer That was his disease Got off on manslaughter: Fingerprints on a pair keys Got him twelve years For offing someone's daughter Even tho she was eighty three Cuz no matter how old u are Everyone Is a daughter or son To someone

2. Now he's out, but he has his fears... Maybe people will not like him For his past It is unclear Even after all the facts Had been presented... Whether Jenny Preston Was murdered, or just had a bad fall Onto a bed of broken glass They found her in the hall At the head of the stairs, flat on her wrinkled ass

(chorus)

Chauncey was a man of few words But in the end he was unheard His eyes were petrified In delirium His arms shook As he held the gun He took aim On the good book Instead of his brains just to prove a point His neck is craned His eyes like coins That shine their milky matter On the barrel of a luger

(Chorus)

                        ...doubt any of y'all would live up to the wit/confidence/sardonicism y'all judiciously sculpt for hours on the book of face.

SONG FYVE: my summer home

1. This is food for thought Write it down in chalk: The chimney puffs From the fire in the fireplace And erupts in a black plume And with luck The old man Balances a spoon On his nose He sits inside a room As the room grows Smoking from a pipe While its raining outside And the light Is waning, slowly waning, outside

My fingers and my toes Are numb to the bone And I will have my wish To swim with all the fish In the sea of my mind In time ill find A little spot in the country Somewhere peaceful and secluded Ill save up all my money And hope im not deluded And hope that I can find a place Thats nice, a lush spot For a good price

(Chorus) Do you feel that I feel you? Do you feel that you feel me? The time is right to live again To let the atoms wiggle In our spherical galaxy That seems to have no real end But the one that we assume Is reality, and soon We'll eat up all the doom

2. Concentrate upon a single understanding Dont let the sisters on the throne Rage in the dome And find out that this trip Needs more planning to exist

The sky is silver and the universe is green Ill show you things in this world That you have never seen Things that have been waiting So long to be unfurled Things for boys and things for girls Without an explanation Ill bring the nation together And hold it by a tether Show you things for boys And things for girls

(Chorus)

                        ...for example i would never be able to muster the cognitive stones to say all of this, in order, amongst the company of people, even friends

SONG SIX : notion

#1 im in the middle of this phrase Stuck between the lines Bless these simple chains I'll see what I can find In my simple mind To lead to some way out The drip, drip drip of water From the trippy rusty spout Keeps me awake I'll explain that to ur daughter The world is fake The world is miles away:

Chorus: Put a notion on the river And see it travel downsteam Suspended on liquid creature dreams I sweated thru the fever And, between the middle of this phrase Passed all my days in solitude And grew weaker, as the days Passed on in solitude

You can call me daft You can say im frozen In technicolor time That im stranded on an island In the middle of the ocean But I dont have the spine To wiggle thru the shaft And give you back This simple notion

#2 I gots a paper boat Lofting on the water It travels down ur purple throat And dissolves in the water

I set a fire just to see if it could think And I questioned the venom Just to see if it could blink Nonsense on the edge Of the bullshit day Chillin on the ledge, you shape the clay And drive the screws on down And drive the screws on down

I thought of you, thought of you And I felt like a clown

(chorus)

#3 I crawl out, I crawl out I crawl out of bed I walk down the hall To turn the notion into thread And whisper rumors to the dead Sometimes I try to talk And my voice drops Sometimes the vague paralysis Defies analysis And you are left sitting on a chair In a yellow room That is a technicolor tomb Without a door, confined and spare, I crawl, I crawl I crawl out of bed And walk down the hall And fall and fall and fall Into the creation of sound Until I hit the ground And everything is mother night And the imperfections in yur eye Spangle in the strange notion of the twilight

(chorus) (chorus)

                         ...the broad concept of subjectivity has as much to do with a detailed exegesis of one tenet of it as death itself with the specific way we die

SONG SEVEN : collected and connected

You're a sharp one You're a dumb one You got nobody But the people in yur head

And everybody is connected But you aint connected to them Yur a ghost, on the interim While the fringes die out You live them out To the last splinter Until it is winter And the trees are all white with snow And the blue wind blows

Yu spend twenty minutes Feeling for the lightswitch In a room made out of figments That you shovel into a ditch And bury, along with all yur Dangerous ambitions And as you drive away, you feel The religion Of yur memories corrupt u And yu reel

CHORUS. Cuz everyones connected Everyones collected Into the same intangible organism That lives life in the schism Of ur teeth I watch ur lips move And cannot hear u speak I pick up on the clues and watch the pressure leak Until all of it is used And nothing much is left To be abused

Everyones connected by a string That trembles across the space Of every living thing The fractions of my face illuminate in the light I shake when i sing I am a yellow kite Mangled in a tree Forgotten by the breeze I am a thing, wafting in the breeze But I have begun again, my friend, Just by following the string Follow, follow the string

#2 Two days ago the WORLD was made of angles I opened my eyes to the lost ways And came upon a shallow swale The brush and branches tangled And the rays of the sun, barely Coming thru the jail Of the scary fray

Dont you think that yur fellow men Would like to lend a hand? And dont you think That this desert you have crossed Only gets u more lost Until u arrive at the brink Of the sahara, and find A single, solitary house Where a mumbling old man Is confined

(CHORUS) (CHORUS)

i always dress nice when i have no place to go. otherwise i look like a sweaty coked up hobo. its my chic, paranoid hobo chic. my comportment u say? quirky to the acquaintance, somewhat sad to the friend, an endearing mix of both with a dash of worry to the best friend, and an embarrassment to the significant other. im usually the life of the party bc i bring drugs so people are forced to tolerate my horror of a personality.

rejection is a rare and beautiful flower my time is spent tending it my life wants it to be a gift i water the flower it sits next to my bed it is next to a lamp littered under the lamp are dead ladybugs ladybugs are all over my house but if i am not meant i am not meant and i cast my line of poetry here trying to figure out if it was meant to be there wonder exactly why what is innumerable can be rare and think of lots of things

[brothalynchhung]

2018 overview

goddddd im so late lol i didnt forget about this blog I'm just active on my other account also I'm never uhhhh home and I'm so busy now god i feel like I'm losing myself and my youth hood from not updating here fml life got me fucked up

ANYWAYS 2018 was fucking crazy what the hell how did so much shit happen in one year

in the 2017 overview i talked about regretting and trying to make up time and ohhhh bitch.... looool

anyways lets start:

2018 immediately started with some bullshit

literally started 2018 turning up LMFAOOO

so it was a good start 

spent new years w old friends some shit ill never do again

hotel room bullshit, eating out, running around outside, late drives listening to early 2000s music

OMG the hotel jesus i remember now i started 2018 on that trash ass app

talking to weirdos

being liked by over 2000 people?

wow what fucking redemption from middle school and high school 

but like... i learned all men are fucking losers LMFAOO

had two weird ass “dates” aka not really since i dipped those things quick aFFF lmao

fuck my old dumb friends for encouraging me to do that shit lol

was funny tho so who cares

this time (january) last year i was

broke

depressed about gl, no job, hating school

i was sooo depressed like 2018 until june i was literally just depressed and borderline suicidal cuz not having a job and being broke as shit was stressing me out so much

i tried so hard to get a job anywhere but for some reason it wasn't working???

i met(?????) that bitch HB LMAFOOOOO

godddd that fucking 5 hours 3 am call

all that weird obsessing and calls we used to have LMFAO he was such a fucking hoe why did i even waste my time

AND I STILL HAVENT MET HIM IRL YET LMFAOFPJEWIOGHERUGHESU EXCEPT FOR THAT ONE TIME I SAW HIM AT CU AND EUIRHGEUISHRH INSANE

but yeah fuck him for calling me too thick but THANK YOU GOD THANK YOU SO MUCH

highly he was one the best things to happen to me in 2018?

he called me thick i got cheesed and 

I LOST 15+ POUNDS IN 2018 

honestly after years of saying ill lost weight ill lose weight I FINALLY FUCKING DID

god 2018 was honestly year of the grind

gym every single day

rip school gym LMFAOOO i lost all my weight there god bless

oh yeah i became vegetarian!! and now I'm vegan LMFAO plot twist?

JESUS REMEMBER WHEN HB SAID MY VOICE TURNED HIM ON I CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYGERYISEGHUIEHEIOS LMFAOOOO FUCK HIM THANKS FOR INSPIRING ME TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BE SEXY SO I CAN STUNT ON ALL U UGLY ASS MEN

anyways he weirdly kept on trying to hit me up even after he called me too thick infront of the boys (to which they still defended me shout out boys) fucking loser... i shut him down lol

ntcntcjkjkntcjkntcjkjk lol

brockhaamptoonn

threw up from that night i got too drunk LMFAO what an experience never again

i turned up too much in 2018 -_____- i don't even like it wtf

was a lot of fun tho like thats what i wanted right? reclaim my time i lost in hs/early uni because those hoes we don't speak of

i really didnt do shit other than obsess over being broke depressed and missing gl in the beginning of 2018 sooo.. lets just... fast forward? god what a weird ass year

and going to the gym everyday

counting calories

i need to start doing that shit again cuz I'm actually terrified i might be 120 again after fucking dubai

my old ass friends who i basically used to make up for my regret and reclaim my youth from high school was basically all of the beginning of 2018 . yes thanks for the memories thanks for helping relive my past that i lost . thanks. ur appreciated it was fun

but fuck y'all cuz y'all never had anything in common with me and y'all r embarrassing and boring . i was the exciting and better one 

also fuck y'all for letting me down . after y'all fucked off i got successful 

when i obsessed over that ugly weird guy in my phi classes and then i saw him up close and he was UGHLYLYYK GHU AND WEIRD AF 

and he was on my tip crazy with his weird low key fetishing internally racist bullshit LMFAOOO

i think the fuck not

he's still in one of my classes now i gotta spend the whole semester avoiding him IFNWFUWifhqfuwighau

god

discovered my love for white rabbit

finally finished that lonely ass semester

went straight into summer school w/zainb

love her ass lol

wait was 2018 the year i ran into that weird at the mall who tried to kiss me withing 10 minutes of meeting me at bubble tea? LMFAOOO WHAT A FREAK GOD 

my fucking life fam istg

watching hxh ugh best time ever

got a job!!! 

GOT ANOTHER JOB!!!

TWO AT ONCE and one of them was so crazy good for my career 

to the point where I'm STILL in contact with them

seriously getting a job changed the year for me so much

got out of my bad depression starting making money

straight grind

work gym 

BOUGHT EVERYTHING I WANTED.

LITERALLY EVERYTHING

ALESIS . STUDIO SET UP . LOEWE BAG. AND MORE EVERYTHING I WANTED AND I LOST WEIGHT

like i accomplished everything????

its like the beginning of the 2018 year was me gearing up and mentally readying myself for when i fiINALLY GOT A JOB and then i accomplished everything i wanted

yo i was working 3 jobs and that catfish hip hop class 

LFMAOOOOO THAT HIP HOP COURSE OMGG LMFAOEJGUIE ICONIC

i killed that shit lmao😂

met that weird ugly kid that was talking all this bullshit about us being the same and him thinking he had a chance w me LMFAOOO okay sure there

all cuz of fucking r and her high school esque bullshit

honestly fuck her LMFAOO i don't wish her anything just fuck off after all the bullshit since middle school you put me thru 

her and her ugly ass bf i had to deal with god I'm so happy she's out of my life

used you to make up from lost time 😂 i don't need u anymore Im at peace with myself BYE 

i don't even feel sentimental when i was run or i need u like i finished the book and i closed that shit and i feel better like i got so much closure this year

sister got married suwhoooo 

weird encounter w dal? tf? girl bye you've been dead to me since 2012 LMFAOO

so much people i really don't give a fuck about

honestly in 2018 i just lost all my fucks and only focused on me 

it gonna stay like that

made so much new friends i cant even name them all 

love all my work friends club GANG

chilling w hec and crew gang gang

oh yeah that taurus bitch i got confused feelings over and wasted my time 

cut his annoying ugly weird ass off lol but whatever lost time reclaimed it was very 2011-13 esque

got rid of everything from my sunken period thank god

got rid of so much shit

the closure/transformation was real

anyways uhhh so yeah so then fall semester started just continued working and gaming 

 lowest i got was 113 but idk wat i am now :( I'm so scared i really don't want to be over 115 but I'm like always bloated so I can never check I'm so sad rn

cut off annoying friends fuck them i have new better ones and i love myself

jjkjkjkjknctncjtkcktn lol 

good music good book watched so much movies

I SAW BROCKHAMPTON JCOLE THE GORRILAZ THE INTERNET DELASOUL AND BLOOD ORANGE LIVE!!! BITCH WAT THE FUCK ALL IN ONE YEAR

toronto trip!! mil trip!!! all on my own fucking amazing

end of 2018 was so good omg 

ran into 2% jfc

drunk called 2% lMFAOOO god just said sorry for nothing lmao i just want gl I'm clinging on to anything

OH YEAH that ugly broke bitch who wasted my time and objectified me yeah fuck him 

if he didnt do that disrespectful ass shit i wouldn't have called 2% ugh god

never using that trash app ever again 

ended 2018 in dubai 

YSL LOEWE ALL ON ME???? YES BITCH 

didnt feel like a failure in dubai stunt on everyone

ended this year amazing

really looking forward to 2019

looking forward to losing weight -____________- still

looking forward to money

accomplishing goals

getting closer to gl

FINISHING FUCKING SCHOOL FINALLY 

just happiness.. 

I'm happy. 2019 I'm ready lets fucking go. gl lets go . I'm on my way

went from broke hopeless no job depressed to thriving beautiful UP TO 4 JOBS everyone can fuck off

[survivor-kalymnos]

Ep. 8 - “I’m not sure if I’m just in a really good place or if I’m a clown.” - Michele

Michele

I’m completely blindsided about getting zero votes.....like I thought all of Eliza’s votes were coming my way. Can’t wait to live another day

Sasha

fuck me running. that's it. that's the confession.

Lenny

Okay. Like wut? So elle did that and I was shook. She probably has another one. Given her performance in the game. Then Rain tells me that they don’t actually have an idol. Just took two tylenol. Hopefully this headache from this round goes away soon so I can be fresh for tomorrow

Sasha

I honestly should've just voted van out because I agree with the reasons that cranjes and dusty turned on him for, but I before I thought about it too much I told van I'd vote for him even though I knew it wasn't a good idea and I didn't want to go back on it because I was a Rat in the second to last game I was playing and I didn't want to tell van I'd vote with him and then vote for him and look where the fuck that got me

Sasha

also I voted with van because he was one of the only people who would substantially fucking interact with me this round but anyway. like shit, y'all, some of y'all could've done more than the blandest small talk, okay?? (and yeah, I could've too but it's not like they gave me much to work with)

Sasha

on a calmer note, why the hell am I letting myself get this worked up when two rounds ago I could barely be assed to make a single confession

Dusty

Tribal went well! We flushed out Elle's idol, and in turn pissed off Elle and Sasha. Especially Sasha. Ive tried explaining to them but they're just getting more upset, so I'm just going to let it be until the next time i need to talk to them!

Frank

I’m fucking pissed about tribal last night. Like I was not in the majority plan and people who I thought were my allies felt like they didn’t need to tell me what was happening and also just not go with a smart plan and get rid of someone who wants you out, instead they got rid of their own ally like idiots. I swear Cranjes and dusty are some of the worst players because they would rather keep people against them then those with them and that’s just ridiculous. And now Van and Elle are gone, two people I could actually trust so my game is quickly going down the drain. I have to move forward strong though because I can’t afford to do anything else.

cranjes

people are mad at me that i flipped on van. to that i say, oh well. it’s the game. i’m not comfortable with my position in the game but i know there are people with bigger targets of my back then i have. my job now is to amplify those targets.

Michele

Submitting this on our off day. I think getting rid of Elle was the right move, and really drives in that actions have consequences. Enjoying this do nothing day by submitting my application for The Circle and reading a book.

Sasha

I love doing touchy subjects when I don't know shit about shit

cranjes

i just have to figure out how to get through this round completely unscathed. i know making the jump last tribal really put that blinking “hello the bitch is playing” radar on my back and it makes me nervous as all hell. i was between a rock and a hard place and i jumped to the side that had my back more in the long run. seeing how elle just vanished i think i made a good choice although that was a different sorta situation. however, i know sasha is scorned. i also know that rain knows that we were going to vote em out before van went like super name jumpy. both are a threat to my game because they recognize the fact that i wronged them somehow in someway. i need to stick with the franco’s and the dustys and the elizas because they are threats. i’m not gonna look as menacing beside them as i would beside worm or sasha. so idk what i’m gonna do this round.

Dusty

So with Van gone and Elle leaving the game the trains demeanor has shifted. People are aware somewhat of whos working with who. And from my view I see sasha and frank the most distant. They were both very upset about the last tribal. Which you think would mean oh easy let’s take out of them no worries. Buuut my good buddy Cranjes told me that Frank has an idol! So we just vote Sasha! But what if he catches on, and because they only have each other, it’s likely he would use an idol. Also I found a cursed idol in the hunt and to get rid of the disadvantage i decided to tell the whole tribe. So everyone knows I have an idol and in the challenge I was voted a much player than everyone realizes. So I will be watching my back twice as hard this week! Thankfully me and Eliza have the super idol in our back pocket. I’ve also been talking to Lenny rain and worm to get closer with them. I need their votes this week in order to take out sasha or frank, possibly with a split vote. But i do really like each of them and would like to work with them moving forward but unsure how long I can do that without setting off Eliza Franco and Cranjes against me

Michele

I WON TOUCHY SUBJECTS!?!?!?!?!

Michele

This game is playing out like a Best Friends Race. I’m not sure if I’m just in a really good place or if I’m a clown. Cranjes is growing on me a lot and my main targets are frank sasha and newly lenny. Also I think I have Timmy narrowed down to worm or frank but I hope hes frank bc I wanna beat him(timmy) and I’m not losing to frank haha. Would be awkward if hes worm because I consider Worm one of my closest allies. Glad I have a little bit of a break for now to play around.

cranjes

i just have to figure out how to get through this round completely unscathed. i know making the jump last tribal really put that blinking “hello the bitch is playing” radar on my back and it makes me nervous as all hell. i was between a rock and a hard place and i jumped to the side that had my back more in the long run. seeing how elle just vanished i think i made a good choice although that was a different sorta situation. however, i know sasha is scorned. i also know that rain knows that we were going to vote em out before van went like super name jumpy. both are a threat to my game because they recognize the fact that i wronged them somehow in someway. i need to stick with the franco’s and the dustys and the elizas because they are threats. i’m not gonna look as menacing beside them as i would beside worm or sasha. so idk what i’m gonna do this round.

cranjes

so the plan is to split the vote between frank and sasha. i need frank here. so i told frank to play his idol for himself. i know frank would be on my side. sasha would not. so i’m keeping frank and yeeting sasha. although my alliance wants frank out. scandalous.

Franco

touchy subjects is so fun. i've never gotten villain of the season so that's new for me. I also got both "who thinks they're running the game" and "who's ACTUALLY running the game" so that's pretty iconic. I thought this round was gonna be easy and chill, because last round was absolutely batshit insane. BUT i thought wrong!! miss eliza has a crackhead plan that I'm kinda living for!! She wants Cranjes out, which I?? am scared of but I like. he's so scary in this game. he seems way too comfortable and sure that he's gonna get what he wants. i'm also still shook up by our argument last round. I'm not convinced he's not still trying to get me out soon. sO! We set up a fake plan with Cranjes and Dusty to split votes on Sasha and Frank. Those are the public targets everyone knows about. BUT. There's a secret plan for me, eliza, Rain, and Worm to vote Cranjes out instead. Splitting the votes makes it easier for us to get that majority we need without letting too many people in on the plan and risking a rat. so yeah! exciting! stay tuned!

franco

OH ALSO I THINK I FORGOT TO WRITE A CONFESSIONAL ABOUT MY IDOL??? yeah i found another idol hehe. SO. There's so many damn idols. Cranjes has one, Dusty has one, I have one, Frank has one, I have a legacy advantage, and Eliza/Dusty has a super idol. jay why are u like this

cranjes

so the plan is to split the vote between frank and sasha. i need frank here. so i told frank to play his idol for himself. i know frank would be on my side. sasha would not. so i’m keeping frank and yeeting sasha. although my alliance wants frank out. scandalous.

Frank

I’ve been hearing that my name is going around so womp. Cranjes is definitely actively working with Eliza and Franco as well as dusty and those people are gonna end up with a majority soon because people trust them even though they’re the biggest threats. I’m voting Franco tonight and going to try to make sure he goes. I’m gonna talk to Sasha since their name is also going around and I want them to be safe as well.

Eliza

Dear diary... After talking to cranjes a bit more I’m 99% sure I clocked him, but speaking of cranjes he has far too much control in the game right now. He wants to do a 5-3-2 split on frank and Sasha and then whoever they voted for. Well I put together a group of four and got numbers lined up to make a 4-3-2-1 split with cran going home. The group is rain, me, Franco, and worm. I think that this is best especially since our group of four is all close with different people so we get intel from all sides! I’ll fill in more details later

Worm

So I think it's time to let you into the mind of a worm. So these last few days have kind have been an eye opening experience since we've merged. Because the last few days have been kind of chill so people are really gonna try to keep up with relationships that they want to go deep with. That means that people you aren't really wanting to work with aren't gonna be at the forefront of your mind. The only reason I'm saying that is because during the time between Van leaving and the results of the immunity challenge, no one has really reached out to connect with me, only me to them. It lets me know that I'm not really anyone number or really even anyone's number 2. I think in most of their eyes I'm just a loyal number that they can us to get majority and make big moves. Which I'm okay with right now. This point in merge is usually the point where larger threats go after one another to try and gain control of the game. With me not coming off as a power player then I'm gonna us that to my advantage and integrate myself into peoples plans more. Eliza came to me today and told me that she wants herself, me, Rain, and Franco to vote Cranjes. I'm totally okay with this cause I was saying his name last round and Eliza confirmed my thought of him ignoring people that he doesn't want to work with. I think anyone that is doing this strategy is just shooting themselves in the foot so I'm happy that its the reason why he is getting out. The alliance between the four of us (the Plastics) is something I'm not sure about in the long run. I know that being in a tight 4 person alliance is probably the best thing for me right now but I know all for of them hold more power in this game than I do and have a great chance of winning. My plan is to stick it out with them this round cause I know by us going against the original plan they are gonna piss people off like Lenny and Michele. I think they are looking too far ahead and are gonna harm their games socially. I want to emphasize the crack at final 8 or 7 and start knocking the three of them out. I have info on all three of them that I think would get people to mistrust them and vote them out. I kind of want to have Michele be the head of the snake during that so then she becomes a target and gets taken out before final 3. I know Franco keeps preaching that we need to take out the people that he sees as sheep/coasters/goats (like Sasha and Frank), but what I've learned through orgs is that whenever a role like a goat or a threat is taken out a new one is going to take there place. If I go along with all their plans then i feel like I'm going to fall into that role of a goat. I have suspected the three of them being close from the very beginning so being in alliance with them has risen my suspicions to basically fact. I think they think I don't know what they are trying to do but this isn't my first org. I just want them to keep thinking the are pulling the wool over my eyes, but reality I'm a wolf in worm's clothing.

Sasha

Frank says that people are trying to split the vote between him and me, which the split is probably just idol paranoia. I don’t really give a shit how it plays out tbh. I haven’t really talked to others about the vote, and honestly why should I at this point. I don’t know how to salvage my standing in this game at this point so someone vote me out and be done with it

Michele

Eliza and Dusty i think organized this vote but hey no harm to me Rain- Elle was removed for sending triggering+r rated messages to the tribe chat for the challenge as well as violating the Jordan pines clause. - This is good, because I was going to flip on her anyway. - Touchy subjects time! I tie for winner, but random.org chooses Michele. Yay Michele! - Cranjes thinks the vote will be 5-3-1 frank-Sasha-??? -Vote should actually be 4-3-2-1 if it goes to plan, which I double it will, sending Cranjes home I don’t trust Michele. Also I got most likely to be betrayed by my allies? Yikes. Can’t trust anyone.

cranjes

sasha just makes me nervous. idk what it is. like i’m convinced they have some master manipulator plan hidden and on file waiting to strike us down. at least i know that if idols fly it’s gonna be franco’s name? i hope at least. idk.

Eliza

Dear diary... I lied, details won’t be coming later this round. They will be coming next round tho

cranjes

sasha just makes me nervous. idk what it is. like i’m convinced they have some master manipulator plan hidden and on file waiting to strike us down. at least i know that if idols fly it’s gonna be franco’s name? i hope at least. idk.

lenny

For touchy subjects, I was given  “who is on the bottom but doesn’t know it?” and I too, voted that people saw me that way. That doesn’t necessarily mean I agree. I am being very intentional with my game but I am getting nervous because that makes me an easy target. I hope I can try and get more allies, but seeing how popular Eliza and some others are in the game, I am not feeling to good about it. I've just been trying to be low-key but I think people are mistaking that for weakness. I don't know how to change their minds. Especially with the OGNera people, I think once they tried to vote me out the first time, they are probably really confident that they can do it again and I think they know I feel that way. It is not a pleasant feeling because I've worked super hard to stay in and be a good ally, but I don't really know if people really respect me as a player. I guess I am just feeling a little lack of confidence this round :/

Dusty

The plan is a split vote between Sasha and frank. But as always I’m nervous there will be a flip. Let’s hope it goes well!

Lenny

Probably going to get sent home :(