#it's 10am now and honestly i still don't feel like i slept enough
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nobodybetterlookatme 2 months ago
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I don't care if the texts are about what you're eating for dinner, I'll take all the crumbs I can get !!
LMAO yeah okay here you go. And upon reading them this morning it wasn't that funny so idk why I was laughing almost hysterically last night about it ahskalslal
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barnesandrogersfanfics 4 years ago
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Ocean Eyes - Part 12
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A/N - Finally an update!! i promise to not leave it as long for the next part.
Please like/comment/reblog, it gives me incentive to write quicker if i know people are actually enjoying my madness 馃挄
"You okay?" Chris asked suddenly making me jump, i thought he was asleep! He was currently wrapped around me acting as the big spoon.
"Jesus christ! You scared the crap outta me!" I chuckled quietly feeling stupid that he made me jump so bad.
"Sorry dahlin" he chuckled close to my ear "but are you okay?".
"Yeah just can't sleep, I've got so much going through my head i can't switch off"
"Its not because you're in here with me is it?"
"No of course not, this is actually just what i needed. I've missed laying in your arms...." I had caved and agreed to stay in Chris's room tonight, no funny business just sleeping. I felt Chris smile before pressing a kiss to my neck.
"I've missed this too. So what exactly is it keeping you awake beautiful? Talk to me..."
"Honestly? The whole thing with Brian.... how did he find me here??".
"I have no idea, but its very creepy!.... then again we shouldn't really be surprised, he had a habit of always knowing where you were. I got bad vibes off that guy the second i saw him".
We had called the police to report Brian but they couldn't do much about it as he technically hadn't done anything wrong, they said to call them again if we saw him around anymore.
"I don't understand why he's doing this! Its not like i led him on or anything, I've never shown that man any interest. I barely even talk to the guy!"
"He's clearly unstable"
"It scares me Chris...."
"Hey, i won't let him hurt you.... i already warned him to stay away...." Chris said through gritted teeth.
"What?...."
"It doesn't matter...."
I turned in his arms so i was now facing him "yes it does, what do you mean you warned him to stay away?"
"The day Scott and I came to get you and Mason to bring you here, you remember how he kept going on about where you were going and when you were coming back....then he asked you to dinner?"
"Oh yeah, you kinda snapped"
"Yeah.....I told him nicely to stay away from my family, that you were unavailable and uninterested.... that he should move on. I said if i found out he was harassing you still id make his life hell" he looked a little sheepish as he confessed to what had been said between the two of them.
"Well I'm guessing he didn't like to be told to stay away huh?"
"Apparently not. But lets not worry about聽 him right now, you need to sleep"
"Ive been trying...."
"Come here" Chris said and rolled onto his back pulling me close until i was laying with my head on his chest, his hand stroking up and down my back. Back strokes were my weakness and he knew it! "You'll be asleep in no time" he mumbled pressing a kiss to the top of my head. And he was right, with the steady thumping of his heart and his fingers stroking my back i was a goner.
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I woke up alone, the bed already cold meaning Chris had been gone for a while. I reached for my phone on the bedside cabinet, it was nearly 10am!! I quickly got up and headed to the bathroom to pee and check how bad i looked. Once i was done i headed downstairs to find Chris, Mason and Scott.
"Hey" Chris smiled at me as i entered the kitchen, he was sat at the dining room table in front of his laptop.
"Hey, why didn't you wake me up?"
"You looked too peaceful, besides you didn't get to sleep til late"
I nodded walking over to kiss him "thank you" i smiled running my hand over his bearded jaw "you're the best".
Chris pulled me down into his lap and deepened the kiss until i had to pull back enough to catch my breath and we both laughed.
"Where's Mason?"
"Walking Dodger with Scott, i gave him breakfast and helped him get dressed before they left"
"He wasn't any trouble was he?"
"Not at all. He's like the best behaved kid I've ever met"
"He has his moments don't be fooled" i chuckled thinking back to some tantrums id witnessed over the years.
"I don't believe you, that kid is an angel"
"You just wait and see Evans" i laughed before getting up and walking into the kitchen so i could get a coffee and some toast.
"So um, I've got to do an online interview tonight with Jimmy Fallon" Chris followed me into the kitchen.
"Okay" i nodded.
"I just thought id let you know i'll have to disappear for a while"
"Thats fine, Mason will probably be in bed by then and i'll just stay in the living room watching a movie with Scott"
"Now i feel left out" he pouted.
Later that day we all went outback and played some Wiffle Ball to pass the time, Chris and Scott getting competitive again.
"Mom I'm tired" Mason said wrapping his arms around my waist and cuddling up against me.
"You wanna go take a nap before dinner buddy?"
"Yeah"
"Come on then" i picked him up and he rested his head on my shoulder "guys Mason needs a nap, i think you've worn him out"
"I think i need a nap too!" Scott laughed.
"Well I'm gonna make a start on dinner, you have time for a nap if you wanna"
Walking back up to the house i started struggling with Mason, he was getting too big for me to carry around now! My baby was growing up too fast!
"You want me to take him?" Chris suddenly asked, i nodded and come to a stop before passing a sleeping Mason over to Chris.
"Thanks, he's getting heavy" i said sadly.
"No problem"
"I hate that he's getting too big for me to carry him when he's tired"
"I know but its okay, I'm here to help now"
"Who's gonna carry me? Im exhausted!" Scott added making us laugh quietly so we didn't wake Mason.
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The evening flew by, we all had dinner then sat and watched Toy Story with Mason. When it came to bedtime Mason insisted that Chris read him a story and of course he couldn't say no. Once he was asleep Chris headed to his office to get ready for his interview while Scott and I headed to the living room to find a movie to watch.
"Sooooo....." Scott said dragging it out to sound scandalous as he wiggled his eyebrows at me.
"What?"
"What?.... don't you what me Missy! I know you spent the night with Chris! So come on spill the tea sister!"
"You're ridiculous you know that?" I rolled my eyes at him and laughed at how comical he looked right now.
"Like i care" he shrugged "come on! Tell me what happened"
"Sorry to disappoint but nothing happened we just slept"
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah, we're taking things slow"
"And who's decision was that?"
"We both said we don't wanna rush it"
"But you suggested it right?..... hey I'm not judging you for that" he quickly added when he saw me look away sadly.
"You're scared you're gonna get hurt again aren't you?"
"Wouldn't you be? I just wanna make sure we're gonna be okay, that its more than just sex. We were always good at that, the emotional stuff.... not so much"
We were halfway through the movie when Chris rushed in asking Scott to join him for a game that Jimmy Fallon wanted them to do.
"Really? I can't just leave Y/N on her own....."
"Go i'll be fine" i chuckled.
"Sorry dahlin, i hate leaving you on your own.... we wont be long though 15/20 minutes tops.
"Go do what you gotta do, I'm fine here watching this" i nodded to the TV.
While they were off doing the interview
I texted my mom and Hannah to check in, they were doing good all things considered. I quickly settled back in to watch the rest of the movie but was interrupted again by multiple message alerts on my phone. I looked to see it was Hannah blowing up my phone.
When i opened the thread i gasped, my heart was racing so fast.... i felt sick as my eyes landed on one thing in particular....... the headline!
"CHRIS EVANS HAS A SECRET FAMILY!"
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samuel-is-an-idiot 2 years ago
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Tomorrow I'm going to a doctor appointment. This is my first doctor appointment that isnt to renew my allergy and pain relievers prescriptions in a few years. I mean I've gone a few times for colds because immuno-deficiency (and I had physical therapy once a week for 7 years and 'normal' therapy for 3 but that didnt count like this does) but this, this is big. This is the big scary monster I've tried to keep in my closet since I was 14 and stopped seeing doctors that every 2 or so weeks try to answer the million dollar question: "What the fuck is wrong with Sam" it's been 4 years since I stopped asking for help about specific things that are wrong and remain wrong because I HATE this. I despise this because I was suffering for years, I still am, I had (and still have) nights where I woke up screaming in pain as I felt like my nerves were being torn out of my limbs and doctors couldnt find anything and some even told me I was lying. That the pain I was feeling was impossible.
I hate this, yet here I am going back. Tomorrow 10 AM I'm opening the fucking closet and letting the monster out because I cant do this anymore. 3 years ago one of my 'weekly' doctors told me that I should get checked out for CFS, I was 15. I had just gotten out of seeing Doctors, the ones that pick and probe and test and either look at you like you're a fucking mystery, a liar or some kind of circus freak, either look at you with absolute pity because they don't know and they know you're hoping that someone has an answer for your parents and you've been spending your school time and your free time in waiting rooms and RMIs. I know she (the doctor that told me to get check for CFS) talked to my mom or something but the timing was bad. Really REALLY bad as Covid hit and my mom was a hospital worker. So she must have forgotten. But I didnt remind her and I didnt see that doctor again after lockdown. I just tucked it as far and as deep as I could into my brain so that I could live a normal life AWAY from hospitals.
I fucked up. I was a 15 years old who hzd been mistreated by years and years of doctors and bullying and I ignored the one thing that is now affecting my life to the point where I dont believe I can actually do the job I want to do anymore. I fall asleep standing up if I sleep less than 7 hours a night, 8 hours is barely enough to keep me going through the day and 9 or 10 seem to be the right number but even then if I do "too many" activities I just might as well have not slept in fucking weeks. So when I dont have an alarm in the morning I sleep for longer even if its later in the night, because OF COURSE this bullshit doesnt affect the fact that i have insomnia... I could spend Hours talking about all the ways my exhaustion fucks me up but it would just fuck me up more and its making me fucking sick. Everything exhausts me and nothing allows me to rest anymore.
And still. I dont regret waiting for 3 years for help. I dont want or have regrets for those 3 years because the past is the past and all that and honestly those years were bad. But I met some amazing people and I did some good things and helped a few friends and thats good for me. I honestly dont know how much different things could have been if I had been diagnosed or had been pulled back into the medical version of the Wheel of Misfortune or whatever. But now I'm going back. I'm going back because I cant take care of myself on my own anymore and I need help. I've always needed help but now more than ever.
So I'm openning the closet tomorrow at 10AM and either that monster will help me either I'll be torn to shreds... again. Nothing I cant fix again and there's always the chance it will actually help me for once...
TLDR: local young adult about to face off with teenage years bully in a match for a diagnosis and medical assistance!
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