#it’s somehow a privilege to be such a visably autistic 7 year old who had daily meltdowns in the classroom | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

getoheaven · 2 years ago

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don’t like the vibe of this at all. i feel like this would assign me “girl autism” because i’m like a stereotypical people-pleasing pussy at birth autist except i got diagnosed as a little kid & got mistreated by medical professionals as much as any other person seeking an autism diagnosis. in fact, my having a diagnosis fundamentally did not influence the way i grew up as an autistic person lol it literally just meant i had a word i was too ashamed to use as a kid because it was like putting a target on my back for my peers, who already treated me bad because i behaved “weird”.

#i’m sorry for ranting it’s just like. ‘girls’ (in scare quotes because they just mean afab lmao) get diagnosed in childhood too #and our early diagnoses often don’t make a lick of difference to the way we were treated or what we did/didn’t internalise about ourselves #i think there’s a real divide in the ‘community’ where some people seeking a diagnosis as adults/teens act like those of us #who got diagnosed as kids had a better deal than them…#it’s somehow a privilege to be such a visably autistic 7 year old who had daily meltdowns in the classroom #that your parents are told they have to go through the almost 2-year process of going through the NHS to get a diagnosis #and after all that all i ended up with was debilitating anxiety from masking anyway #ugh. yeah i feel so privileged having the same material consequences of living as an autistic person as any undiagnosed 20-something #toadposting #autism tag

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