#it’s really hard. i feel like most friendships fade with the natural ebb and flow of human existence

[drops-of-universe]

Missing the way someone used to be is such a restless type of longing. it’s not love or hatred. it’s just forever living with the gap in your life they once filled and won't ever again because they aren't that person anymore

[fairycosmos]

damn ur post about childhood friends hit hard... i still think and dream about one of my old best friends i feel like i missed out on a life long friendship, it’s so hard to let go of that nostalgia

:(( it’s such a restless type of longing. it’s not love or hatred or betrayal. it’s just forever living with the gap in your life they once filled. i’m sorry you can relate, man. i know it’s really hard. i feel like most friendships fade with the natural ebb and flow of human existence and it takes something really special to find someone that will grow in a way that is compatible with your own growth but…..i suppose we can always be grateful for the time we got to spend with them. the memories that we can look back on and hold close to our hearts. they might feel bitter sweet but they’re a reminder of how lucky we were. i guess the friendship worked so well and there was so much love simply because both people were who they were at the time, though. it’s sad, and it’s allowed to be, but the bond you formed will always live on in your past. and it’ll always be a part of you. i think the subconscious mind is so sensitive and carries so much that we thought we’d let go of long ago. i’m not sure if there’s a solution for that or if it’s something we should quietly accept until it begins to smoulder and flicker out, and we can manage it a little easier. i think it’s healthy to grieve the friendship you feel you lost, and to not rush that process or expect too much from yourself. so many people are going to walk in and out of your life, so many people will love you. the ones that leave are just visitors, but we still get to experience part of this lifetime with them, and that’s enough. but yeah, nostalgia permeates every part of my world too. lately i feel totally doused in it. i dream of people i haven’t actively remembered in years. it’s so weird. reminds me of this quote:

“I hope that in the future they invent a small golden light that follows you everywhere and when something is about to end, it shines brightly so you know it’s about to end. And if you’re never going to see someone again, it’ll shine brightly and both of you can be polite and say, “It was nice to have you in my life while I did, good luck with everything that happens after now.” And maybe if you’re never going to eat at the same restaurant again, it’ll shine and you can order everything off the menu you’ve never tried. Maybe, if someone’s about to buy your car, the light will shine and you can take it for one last spin. Maybe, if you’re with a group of friends who’ll never be together again, all your lights will shine at the same time and you’ll know, and then you can hold each other and whisper, “This was so good. Oh my God, this was so good.”