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[sapphoismymuse]

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What’s your 7th song on Spotify wrapped and what does it say about your future??

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Marjorine x reader pt 7

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Warning: Transphobia, swearing, deadnaming

Background: Marj comes out to her parents which does not go over well.

Status: Ongoing

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Seeing how close you were getting to Kenny made Marjorine's blood boil. It shouldn't...god why did it? Oh yeah because she was stupidly in love with you but basically told you no. Why can't she just be normal? She's been awkwardly avoiding you for days now. Hoping that she could speedrun the whole healing process.

She needed to do this and needed to do it fast. So she did something she didn't think she would. As her parents were downstairs watching tv Marjorine walked downstairs in a dress. Her hands were shaking and she could feel her heartbeat in her throat.

She wanted to run upstairs but the thought of you losing interest in the time it would take her to figure this out scared her more than her parents. She took a deep breath and walked in front of the tv and faced her parents.

"Butters get out of the way." Her mother said with a frown.

"Why are you in that dress. Take it off." Her father said crossing his arms.

"I-I...." She started feeling her confidence drop. She took a deep breath and looked up at them. "I'm a girl. No more Butters. No more Leopald. I want to go by Marjorine."

Her parents stared at her for a second trying to process what she had just said. Her mother stood up and walked over to her. Marjorine looked at her and within a second she felt a sharp sting on her cheek. She touched her cheek and looked at her mother as her eyes filled with tears.

"Get out."

"B-but"

"Get. Out." Her mother repeated.

Marjorine wanted to say so much but at that moment nothing came out. She looked back at her father who sat on the couch looking down at his lap holding his head in his hands.

"D..dad?"

"You heard your mother Leopald." Her father muttered.

She stared at them hoping they would break and say they were sorry or that it was all some sick joke. She knew they hated her....that she wasn't the child they would have wanted but this? Why? Why didn't she see this coming?

She quickly rushed out of the house taking nothing with her. She didn't know where she was going. She just knew she couldn't be there for much longer.

You were home sitting on the floor with Kenny doing your science homework. He was always better at this than you were.

"What the fuck even is gravity?" You said with a groan throwing down your textbook and falling back, laying on the floor

"Sometimes you say things that make you sound so stupid it's actually crazy," Kenny said with a chuckle as he flipped through pages in his own textbook.

"Yeah well this one girl said we don't even need it."

"And you shouldn't be getting your information from mentally ill people online and stick to just asking me for help."

"Yay, so I get to choose between mentally ill people online or mentally ill people in real life."

"I would respond but the voices in my head are telling me not to," Kenny said making you laugh softly.

Suddenly the peaceful environment was cut off by Kenny's phone going off. He pulled his phone out of his pocket seeing Kyle's name pop up. He answered and held the phone to his ear.

"Hey dude what's up?" Kenny said into the phone as he kept his focus on his book.

Within a few seconds, you noticed Kenny dropping his book and his face going pale. You sat up and looked at him confused.

"O-ok dude slow down I- let me put you on speaker," Kenny said taking the phone away from his ear and putting it on speaker. "O-ok repeat what you said."

"It's Marj! Her mom just called mine freaking out saying that something happened and that Marj was hurt and that they couldn't save them or some shit she wouldn't tell us what happened and now they aren't returning our calls and.."

The minute the words cut through the air you felt as if all time had stopped. You sat there as the blood flowing through your veins ran cold. You could hear Kenny and Kyle still talking but it sounded so muffled in comparison to the ringing in your ears.

Dead? That can't be possible you just saw her yesterday. You texted her not even a few hours ago. She can't be. She couldn't be dead.

Kenny gently shook your shoulder trying to bring you back into reality but you couldn't focus on anything but the thoughts clouding your head.

When did you end up at the park? God, it's fucking freezing. Why was it always snowing here? Why are your feet and legs so cold. You looked down seeing your legs and feet turn red as the cold snow burned your skin. You looked behind you seeing your own footsteps in the snow. God you wish this mental breakdown happened when you were wearing something other than shorts.

You dropped down to your knees not paying any mind to the stinging on your skin. Dead. She's dead. Were the only things you heard in your mind as you looked out at the pond reflecting the moonlight on the frozen layer of ice.

You started crying which quickly turned into sobbing which then turned into screaming as you pounded your fist on the ground. You hadn't known her for long but....dead? She was so bright so happy so....beautiful. What happened? Why? Why weren't you there? To tell her you cared to tell her you loved her.

You felt a large hand on your shoulder and looked up seeing Kenny. He was horribly out of breath and holding your shoes.

"Kenny I..."

"I know. I loved her too." He whispered putting down your shoes.

"I don't understand." You choked out through sobs.

"Me either...Look Kyle's on his way so he can tell us everything he knows but it doesn't seem like...." Kenny started before looking off to the other side of the lake.

You followed his gaze seeing a tall figure across the frozen lake. They had short blond hair and a yellow dress. You know that dress. You made that dress.

"That's my dress! That's her dress!" You yelled rising to your feet and running towards the figure.

"Y/N wait!" Kenny yelled but it was in vain as you ran across the icy lake. You stumbled and fell down a few times but that wasn't stopping you.

Marjorine looked up seeing your figure running towards her. How did you know she was here? How did you know she needed you right now? Fuck that didn't matter not now. She was just as stupid as you were at that moment because she rose to her own feet and ran towards you.

"Marj!"

"Y/N!"

You both yelled out after each other. Once you two were close enough you grabbed hold of one another. You both sobbed into each other's shoulders. Nothing else mattered. Nothing. She was alive. That's all that mattered.

"Y/N! Get off the ice!" Kenny yelled.

You pulled away from Marjorine and your eyes widened as you heard ice beneath you and Marjorine begin to crack. You grabbed her hand and started running off the ice with her.

"Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck why did I think this was a good idea?" You said in a panic as you both tried to make your way off the ice before it gave out.

Just as you two were in arms reach from Kenny the ice gave out causing both you and Marjorine to fall through the ice.

A/N: So so so sorry this didn't come out when scheduled I didn't want to release it before I was done writing it and I didn't want to rush. I just want to say. You all are valid and I'm sorry if you don't feel accepted by those in your life. You deserve so much love and to feel comfortable in your own skin. And if no one else shows you that love just know I feel that love for you. Thank you for reading and I love you all 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

[ursogoldenn]

october 3, 2024 dear diary...

i liked today!! i woke up a little later so my brother got all mad at me for using the bathroom to straighten my hair because he needed to shower but thats on HIM because he always showers at 7:15 and if hes late then i just start my hair because it takes at least 30 minutes. but yeah the morning was fine, then i went to history and OMG OK so the teacher rearranged the tables into groups and said sit wherever and make your own groups. so i only really have one friend in that class so we sat together at one table and NO ONE JOINED US??? SO WE DID IT WITH JUST THE TWO OF US INSTEAD OF 5-6?? it honestly made it easier and everyone in that class is lowkey rude but STILL. anywayyy then we decided that we wanted to go to france because we're learning about french history right now and i just really wanna go there 😫😫 also marie antionette's last words were apologizing to her executioner for stepping on his foot and that makes me rlly sad... OK ANYWAY then i went to leadership which was fun, nothing eventful. then i had spanish and i was so scared because that class we use our computers all period and mine was so low and i was scared it was gonna die and i was gonna get in trouble but I SURVIVED :) and thennnn i went home and did a little homework but im planning to do most of it tomorrow. because we dont have school tomorrow and i am going to be SO productive i just know it. i have to be for my own sake... but still. and yeah! today was fun, ive been listening to the playlist that may made of masie peters songs and i fear im in love with her and her music... in love with her in a girlkisser way ykwim. ahh idk its so fun to finally be (semi) comfortable calling myself bi because omg girls are so pretty??? also i think im slowly developing my type in girls. because i have a very obvious type in guys but idk abt girls yet. but like masie peters has the same vibes as my crush so if that makes sense...? also glasses on anyone of any gender is 😍 anywayyy yeah i didnt write one for yesterday but in my defense i was speedrunning an english assignment due at midnight then went to sleep.

looking forward to: forcing myself to be productive tomorrow proud of myself for: finishing the spanish assignment in class song stuck in my head: youre just a boy (and im kinda the man) by masie peters

[elytrafemme]

HIIII MARE!! HOPE YOUR DAY'S GOIN GOOD!! Uhhhnmmm random q: what's the last song you listened to?

Make sure to gulp down some water. Ily <3

hi!! trying to speedrun all my homework i didnt' do today bc i was writing before i write some more so i'm doing ok :3

uhhh well i did just listen to the entire MONTERO album (and LOVED IT) but i'm now just looping my favorites playlist. just skipped some songs but i'm settling on "bells in santa fe" by halsey. hits diff every time

just took a gulp! ily2 <3