#it’s not like wanting to do these things for ur butch is wrong it’s the

[cowboyjen68]

Hi!!

I just wanted to ask some advice from one butch to another.

I recently got my dream job of being a warden on a nature reserve (and i love it!), while interacting with people there I get called a young man very often (i am 18 lol) and it gives me euphoria to know im masculine enough to even pass as a man. I've also had some volunteers ask if I was a man or not (despite my feminine name).

But recently I got called a "lady" outside while out with my mother. It drove me INSANE I cried alot.

Don't get me wrong I do identify as a woman but I hate being seen as a lady.

I've even thought about using he/him pronouns recently and changing my name but i'm too scared to as most people won't understand bc im still a lesbian.

Is this strange?

ps love u and ur blog lots xx

This is an easy answer because I was 18 once and looked enough like a teenage boy that I got "hey sport" and "hey young man" all the time, especially when in my work clothes. I worked for The Mayor's Youth Corp in Iowa City in the summers of my 15th and 16th year. Mom and Dad let me get a work permit AND bought me a used Datsun Pickup so I could drive myself the 20 miles there and back each day.

I was a volunteer with the Corp of Engineers youth from 14 to 16 and Dad knew I was super excited about this job. Mom was not thrilled that I wanted to cut my hair but my "grand mullet" was really hot under the hard hat in the summer heat of Iowa. (in the 1980's boys and girls had the short in front long and permed in back look) We compromised and I cut the sides really short. (photo of my me at 16 in my uniform for reference)

Using "he" would never have occurred to me because "EWWW Boys". This is not to say, however, that I hated being mistaken for a boy, on the contrary, it felt good. When someone thought I was a young man it meant they treated me as such. They didn't talk down to me, I knew they assumed I was capable and willing to get dirty. I knew unconsiously that along with the mistaken identity came many perks. This was nothing I analyzed but little girls see very early on the difference in treatment they recieve from their brothers, male cousins and neighborhood boys. This difference leads us to become negotiators to control our circumstances and not entittled to treatment based on our skills and actual personalies.

When an adult recognized me as a boy, even for a second at first glance, I knew I didn't have to prove myself. They, for an instant, assigned to me words like "strong, capable, demanding etc". No negotations required.

When someone realized I was a girl they literally had a change in their face. They smiled at me, softened their voice. When I was called "young lady" or "Miss" it always seemed to be backed my the worst assumptions (in my mind anyway). Lady is steeped in all kinds of traits I didnt want assigned to me. "quiet, weak, likes to dress pretty"OR "motherly, submissive, meek" Nothing good in my teen brain, that is for sure. Lady felt so OLD, so married to a man and reliant on him for survival, so polyster pants and ugly flats and scratchy blouses with a flower imprint. NONE of these things are inherent to being a woman or even socially forced on us but that is not how things work sometimes. Words that describe people get stereotypes and myths and traits attached to them all the time. Woman and girl are no different.

I can tell you, the best feeling in the world when I was in that job was when my supervisor, who damn well knew I was a young woman, trusted me with all the same tasks as the boys. Who valued my opinions and abilities equally to the young men. He took time to teach me what I didn't know, just like with them and didn't assume I couldn't or didn't want to learn things on the job. He didn't shame ANYONE for not being strong enough or for getting tired or needing a break.

Don't let the assumptions of others force you into another box of conformity. You don't need a boys name or to use any pronouns you don't feel connected to just to please others. In fact, none of that effort will change perceptions of those around you. I can promise that one day being called Lady will just be another word that you can hear and know it does not change your personality or your interests or control the hope you have for your future. What does waste a lot of time and energy is trying to adjust things in your life to fit incorrect or snap assumptions about you as a person. You can never control the thoughts of those around you but what you can do is stop worrying about it and enjoy YOU.

You have a job you love and are sure to thrive in. You are solid in your sexuality and love of women, you are in a unique position to possibly change the perceptions of others when they think of "young women". Your interactions with the public are sure to effect the assumpions of at least some people when they think of young women and their roles in our society.

Congratulations on your new career and I bet you rock that uniform.

[user2718273]

Terrorheads r always dunking on goodsir for the moral absolutism & then having absolutely no nuance in their own conceptions of good & evil. Like when goodsir finally snaps & poisons the mutineers ppl are like "oh see hes a bad person cus he couldnt forgive them cus he only thinks in black & white!!!!" but like bro. If somebody kidnapped u and forced u to carve up your coworkers' bodies for consumption u would not feel too friendly toward them i think. Or just how ppl talk abt goodsir in general. Like yeah he believes in colonizer shit, he was raised by colonizers. Every1 on the ships believes in colonizer shit i fear. But he gets more shit abt it than anyone else bc theres this weird conception that its worse to try and do good and get it wrong than to just straight up act out of vanity or greed. Not that goodsir should be absolved of anything, but its weird how ppl have so little empathy for characters whose desire to do good is tainted by ideological conditioning. Like bro i hate to break it to u. We all have ideological conditioning. If u act like thats some inherent moral flaw and not the inevitable product of living in a society and absorbing that society's beliefs, u will have a very hard time recognizing it outside of tv shows where people are just characters.

Also theres a difference between having no empathy for franklins men bc ur pissed at them and having no empathy out of principle. I feel like theres some recognition of personhood that comes w putting someone on the receiving end of a human emotion like anger, whereas if ur just like "logically i know colonizer bad, so empathy for colonizer = bad," ur putting them on a subhuman level out of the reach of emotion. U dont feel anger or empathy for them. U never find out what u feel toward them bc without accepting the possibility that u might reach muddy, nuanced, morally frustrating conclusions, theres no wiggle room to feel what u feel. But then u never get to feel the anger either. U cant understand things from either side bc once u start trying to sort everything into concrete moral categories, then ur not understanding individuals, ur defining variables, and everything becomes theoretical. I feel like thats part of the reason why when ppl put the expedition on the level of the subhuman, they often elevate the netsilik to the superhuman. Like ppl have a weirdly hard time conceptualizing that silna has complex motivations & is capable of developing complex relationships w other characters? Theyre just like "oh wow shes being so nice to goodsir, she must have stockholm syndrome or be wayyy too forgiving." Cus if u imagine franklins men as having one pure and self-contained nature that opposes the pure and self-contained nature of the netsilik, then theres no way they can genuinely interact. They can only touch each other under the guise of something else. Silna must not adequately understand goodsir's role in the fuckery ripping up her world. Which is ridonkulous to me bc her first interaction w him was when his party shot her father & then goodsir prevented him from dying on the ice. Like. She is not under any illusions that this man isnt part of the hurt and destruction. She just finds a way to care abt him anyway. Not bc she's some fountain of forgiveness, but bc despite the things she must hate about him, there are also things she loves. Same w crozier. Idk if she feels affection for him in the same way she does goodsir, but she def doesnt just save him bc shes a saint. She feels anger and bitterness just like any other person, and if she wanted to, she couldve left crozier to die like des voeux. Personally i think she saved him bc he was the only one left who had seen what she'd seen and she didnt wanna have to bear it alone but idk. She had her reasons. Anyway goodsir is literally a butch buttom so the wokes cant even get her. #She positionality on my moral puritanism til i absolve

[did-sm1-say-catfish]

s2 ep5??

FUTURE EP??? OMG!! ---

IS THAT A BUTCH LESBIAN??? no its js valerie 

its so sweet shes still close with her dad ---

AND THE FENTON HOUSE IS STILL THERE YEYYAYY ---

who tf is that

thats not danny what

nonnonononon ---

messing with the past??? hrm ---

danny going evil cuz of the test is so real ---

danny, getting ghost breath: GET OUT OF MY ROOOOMM!!! jazz: danny, we’re in the kitchen jazz, seeing the ghost: BUT IF YA WANNA BE ANNOYING IM GONNA LEAVE!!!  danny: jeez wtf

thats what you call complicated by avril lavigne ---

Ghost: I AM BOXED LUNCH!! DAUGHTER OF THE BOX GHOST AND THE LUNCH LADY danny: uhmmm. ew ---

burger guy: guys noooo dont run away from the danger in our storeeee we swore an oath to protect the nasty sauceeeee workers: for minimum wage?? hell nah brother ---

sam and tucker: who was that u were fighting? danny: boxed lunch, daughter of the box ghost and the lunch lady sam and tucker: yikes danny: i was thinking ‘ew’  ---

wait clockwork’s design is eerily similar to one of the ancient all powerful ghosts from the ghost king tale ---

jazz, to her friends: guys i cant decide bewteen harvard yale and stanford helppppppppp *her friends walk away* jazz: what could i have possibly done wrong??

babe wake up new reaction pic just dropped!! ---

danny, about to cheat: im just gonna take a peeeekkk tucker, to sam: shouldnt we stop him? sam: we’re his friends, not his mom. still wish he wouldnt but  danny, getting ghost breath before he can look: aww shit here we go again tucker and sam: WHEWWWW oh shit no we meant OH NOOOO A GHOST ---

skulker and technus combined: HAHA WE’RE GONNA KILL U TEE HEE tucker: is this ew or yikes?? ---

lancer, to jazz: ur brother stole my test answers!!!  jazz: how would he do taht???!!! lancer: well idk but if he suddenly gained the abilities to go invisible and go thru walls it would prove my theory jazz: uhmmmm ---

dannys powers short circuit and he falls down: AHHHHHHHHH danny, grabbing hold onto a flag pole: oh wow this actually works i thought for sure it would *breaks* AHHHBREAKKKKSKJNJDHNBFHJ ---

tucker, short circuiting technus-skulker: tee hee

them grabbing onto a flagpole: ohh yayyyy the flagpole thing actually- *breaks* AHHHHHHHHHH ---

NOOO THEYRE GOING TO THE FUTRUE

see you in the future yeahh e yeah e yeahhhhh ---

clockwork: see, for me, time moves forwards, and back and- why am i bothering? yall are fourteen ---

tuck throws the medallions onto them??? boy has serious aimmmm ---

THEYRE DEAD IN THE FUTURE???? DANNYS PURE GHOST???  ---

he put the time medallion in danny????? ---

“strange how highly combustable condiments can ruin your future”

yeah evil danny, i agree ---

evil danny in the past???snbjdfiojhfbknd

evil danny: NOW WHOS UP FOR uhhh what did we use to do together?? UHM! VIDEO GAMES AND RAGING AGAINST THE MACHINE??? ---

awwws shes (jazz) finally telling him she knows!! except its evil danny. you ruined it evil danny i wanted my sibling moment!!!!! ARGHH ---

the future ghosts are literally just plaing monkey in the middle with regular danny  ---

dANNYY DID THE SCREECH

danny: my voice is changing?? great im going thru evil puberty ---

OMG EVIL DANNNY IS A COMBO OF HIM AND VLAD?? ---

HES BALDING. HASJDHBGHJHBGHSJKJNM ---

CLOCKWORK MY BUDDDYYyy ---

AWHBEJBHGVSHVSGHJN JAZZ AN DDANNY TALKN ABOUT AHBWJNHDBHJHVFSJ I LOVE THEM SMMMN SIBLING BONDING ADORBS JKABHGHDJFHGHIOSKJBH ---

evil danny stil exists!!!! OMHGGG ---

well. that was a rollercoaster. i now know where all this evil danny hype comes from and yk. i dont really like him all that much. but, hell, maybe i'll change my mind.

[hockstetters-overbite]

omg i actually loved your headcanon post would you be able to make one about specifically henry dealing with having feelings for another guy?? love ur stuff!!!

I'm gonna try my hardest here! This'll definitely be fun since I really do like yapping about Henry so lets hop right into this!

Tw for: Mentions of homophobia, bullying and just Butch bowers in general ig

Henry Bowers dealing with a crush on another guy!

Henry definitely struggles with internalized homophobia due to just the time period that the book/movies are set in and the fact that Butch is definitely not an ally in any sort of way

Henry is definitely one to try to bottle his feelings up and push them away because we all know Butch would beat him silly if he even thought Henry looked at another guy in a romantic way

He would definitely cope with his feelings by trying to bully or beat up the person he likes and just trying to be homophobic which we all know is true just because that's how he seems to be in the source

If Henry were to express his feelings in any way, which would be extremely unlikely and rare, it would definitely be subtle-ish

It would be very mundane things like saying that you don't look as stupid today as you usually do, or that your handwriting on the homework he took from you was nice and neat, easy for him to read

It'd definitely be strange to receive such outlandish compliments from Henry of all people and he knows that so if he's still on the fence about letting his feelings be known he'd probably follow it up with calling you a slur or just hitting you, he can't let people "get the wrong idea" about him

If Henry did actually pursue a male lover he would keep it on the downlow because he doesn't want Butch knowing because Butch would either kick him out of the house or kill him, hell, maybe both

now if it was modern day, Henry would probably leave his dad to rot, say fuck it, and pursue a male partner since of course being gay in today's day in age is seen as normal (because it is)

He still wouldn't be too outwardly affectionate but it'd be easier to get over the internalized homophobia

Another one done! Keep em comin' guys! These are real fun to write lol!

[stellewriites]

Skittering into your inbox to ask a Very Important question about butch!Soap.

In terms of her experience with religion, where do you want her character to go? Because seeing your anon ask from the other day, and the convo we had has unlocked several ideas within me (and yes, I am projecting as a queer religious person).

Soap (not sure what the 'girl' variation of her name would be, so I'm just gonna stick with Soap/Johnny cuz why not) who grows up looking forward to Sunday mass with her family. Hates the itchy, puffy dresses something fierce, but the cadence of the hymns and the smell of incense and the ritual of it all calms her.

Soap who, upon realizing her adoration for women has gone beyond the platonic, finds herself dreading Sundays. The hymns sound louder, seem to make her ears ring. The incense, once comforting, now closes her throat. More than once does she excuse herself to the bathroom, coughing and choking on seemingly nothing.

Soap who finds herself in a weird place. Torn between two worlds, she wonders if she'll ever be able to return to the faith of her youth.

Soap who still wears the rosary her mother gifted her. Who still prays before going on missions. Who still recites the rosary while thumbing through the beads before she sleeps.

Soap who still feels a connection to the Divine despite it all.

These are just my lil thoughts, please feel free to add your own! Idk where you want to take her character, but that's completely your business!

birdy it’s like our brains are connected when it comes to these girls i’m so serious

(to answer ur question in this one her friends call her johnny as her preferred name/nickname, but her family call her johanna even tho she’s not keen)

ok so!! just a huge hell yes to Everything you said,, i’m writing this one with the mindset that she’s moved away from her family, lost the habit and a lot of the love of going each sunday. mourns the comfort and familiarity of it tho.

maybe she sticks to going during the holidays or pays a random visit during the year if she’s scraped too close to death at work, but for the most part her main connection is the cross she wears around her neck and the rosary beads she keeps in her bedside drawer - i was originally thinking of the cross being an heirloom, but after reading yours i like the idea of it being a gift and the rosary beads having been handed down from her gran.

she’d go more often but the scant looks she’s gotten from the few people there when she walks in - messy mullethawk, grafted trousers, nipple piercings visible through her shirt - had gotten to her more than she’d like to admit. whether she’s imagining their scorn or not is up to the reader; whether she’s trying to find excuses not to go to save herself from living the rejection she felt growing up and realising she liked women a second time over.

i like the idea of her keeping some of it in her day to day like you said; prayers on an evening or on a mission or over a good meal, i’d think she’s pretty open to admitting when she’s wrong and apologising to her close ones after going to confession as a teen too. small things that helped form her decisions.

cw: sacrilegious themes, using johnny’s faith as dirty talk

buuttttttt i also think her lack of traditional connection to her faith and her mixed feelings/two sides pulling at her means she plays a little fast and loose with it too - finds it hot when her partner talks dirty and brings up religion when they’re fucking. masochist to the bone, she enjoys the bit of guilt she feels in the pit of her stomach just as she’s about to cum

[brucespringsteen]

Hi, do you have any beginner tips for lifting/getting into the gym? I no longer want to be a scrawny waifish butch and instead wanna be able to pick up my gf and look like mid 80s Bruce… If you’re comfortable talking about it I’d love to hear if you have any tips… I’ve been researching and have learned that diet is a huge part in building muscle but as far as the gym goes I’m lost… I’m honestly mostly just nervous because I have no clue where to start and don’t want some dude to help me (nothing wrong honest help I’m just shy and get embarrassed)… Thank you!!!

hi king 🤝🏻

im so happy 2 talk about this cos im in my musclebound era again

disclaimer what i know is a mix of what i learned from my dad and reddit threads LOL and my own trial and error. weightlifting really is the gayass journey of all time 💪🏼😋

first gonna keep it real with u ive lost a lot of muscle mass from stupid life events n being sad lol but im actually getting back into a routine for the first time in over a year. so i haven't properly lifted anything heavier than the 15lbs dumbells i got at home 😂 when i was once able to press more than my weight ✊🏼😔 BUT form is so much more important than lifting heavy. u will get better results lifting at a weight that you can control and build up lifting heavier over time 👍🏼 which i can go more in depth about how to do that. good form is so sexy and makes u feel and look so badass

u might find more eloquent lifters out there who talk about the mind and muscle connection and visualization. it's really cool stuff that connects practicing mindfulness as u workout which is what makes weightlifting so meditative to me. this will also help u maintain good form and i think nourishes a healthy mindset toward working out/yourself in general

n you are definitely right about diet playing a huge part. don't worry about bulking/cutting when ur first starting out, most important thing is making sure you're getting enough protein. if u are iron deficient i would look into taking a supplement! dont know all the science but iron keeps ur oxygen flowing better, so your stamina can be down if ur iron count is low. my mindset about diet is the simpler the better and u should never be miserable lol. i will never give up beer & pizza & a good time 🫡

second most important thing is sleep. make sure u get enough.

1. back/shoulders and biceps

going to the gym can be a little scary, but that's where having a routine helps so much 🧑‍💻doing one of those dynamic workout routines u find on an instagram reel every now and then can be fun and i recommend it. BUT doing a random workout Everytime u workout will make it difficult to see results. doing the same workouts is how u can see ur progression better and focus on good form. im talking about learning the basics of benching, squatting, and deadlifting. 😜✌🏼

if u can, i would aim a routine of 3-4 times a week. I kept it like this:

2. leg day and abs

3. chest and triceps

what helped in staying consistent w going to the gym was having a set time where i would go. ritualistic

4th extra day: fun cardio like interval training or boxing. OR if i was feeling like i just needed a chill day a slow incline walk on treadmill/outside😊 then do some really intense stretching/foam rolling

here is an example of a chest/tris day

The 3 "T's" stand for tiers starting with the most difficult exercises, so I could use most of the energy I have on it.

To elaborate further on how to see progress: say this week you're able to bench press 60lbs. Next week you try 70lbs on your last rep and it's kinda hard. The third week, you bench 60lbs again, and it feels a little easier now. The fourth week, you're benching 70lbs on your last two sets. By the fifth week, you find you're able to do your entire workout with 70! Etc repeat etc

when i first started i kept one of those tiny composition books w different workouts and id also keep track of how much i was lifting when i reached a new pr/mile time/etc. u can also just keep this in ur notes app. but i found having the paper in front of me was more efficient than continuously looking at my phone and fighting the urge to check apps in between sets lol. also if i was getting texts id have No Idea which just helped me reinforce the gym was Me Time

before u buy into a gym membership tho, take advantage if they have a free trial. u can find what time is least busy/if the vibe fits for u.

another tip. put a photo 1985 bruce on ur wall trust me this will help.

I can go more indepth about specific workouts or if u got other questions, lmk!

U got this!

[possibilistfanfiction]

(1/2) Yeah absolutely, I get what you mean with Ava just being blissed out by Beatrice. I guess I phrased it wrong, not necessarily about directly comparing B to a bro, but it's more like, I wonder if Ava - in the same way that Beatrice is allowed to explore her identity - if Ava allows herself be introspective and examine her own attraction and ~types, so to speak. But maybe it's not needed?

(2/2) Like is Ava in the gog so on the other side of identity acceptance that she can just be ~present with B and isn't really hung up on a needing to further explore herself within the relationship? Like that natural freedom she has to her helps her make peace with concepts comes to her much faster and more naturally than B? (Also thank u for ur time u legend)

ok i'm not Entirely sure what this is getting at but just to clarify a few things that i think it's asking:

1 ava's experience of/with queerness is profoundly different than bea's. i don't think that ava's ever struggled with being queer any more than she's struggled with not having the access to experience everything she wants. for ava, desire is so integral to her ability to experience what life is ('i want to live') without systemic, more than any, limitations, & so it makes sense that queerness would just be a part of how to fully access pleasure & want & love & safety. (there's so much more in here about how if ava had been given care & access then being disabled wouldn't have taken away any huge degree of pleasure from her life, but that's for another day! whew.) bea's experience with queerness is one of fear, of it being 'a flaw,' one that made her feel not valued, not worthy. so even just within their characters, i don't think that ava's exploration of queerness is internal so much as it is just... getting to feel the things that come along with love, especially queer love. bea's is allowing herself to be who she is, in whatever way that may be or look at the time. also, ava is white, & bea is Asian, & there's cultural & systemic harms that come along with intersections of identity (including ava's disability too, of course). so i think ava's queerness is an external exploration, in a way, & bea's is just like. letting herself feel anything at all, & then working for that to be positive.

2 listen... ava isn't on love island lmao.

she liked JC, maybe even loved him in a way, & then Fell IN LOVE with bea. even if she did have 'types' (which is like... beyond a little laugh, kind of weird in most cases), i really just do not fuck with the idea that masc of center women, especially butches & dykes, are in the same category as cis men. butches & dykes are like... god tier (so are femmes, y'all know i love u!). but like, even if ava DID have types, bea with short hair & a good pair of pants isn't anywhere close to JC in any categorization?? maybe if ava was like hmm soft butches?? hot.... bea, tasha cloud.... awesome. but bea & a boy. no. i think ava's 'type' is just people who show her patience & kindness & are funny & smart. beyond that, she's just glad she's hot & they're hot

3 there are so many ways — infinite ways!!!! — to be butch! & they're all beautiful & they're all hard to come to! i think i write abt bea's queerness bc a) i love writing abt being butch bc i love being butch lol; b) being butch is abt private decisions you have to make, all the fucking time! how do u want ppl to read you as a woman/dfab person who isn't a trans man but like... doesn't feel like a CIS WOMAN? do u feel safe to be masc? what does androgyny & masculinity look like TO YOU? butchness for me is actually so fucking soft, & wonderful. i don't picture (or write) bea as a stone or hard butch; there's a comfortable breath of an in-between there: cottons & linens & soft hair & clean skin, a big bed, a little mascara, the very rare suit but not often, & only for events. it's on purpose, bc i think ppl often have a p reductive view of masculinity & butchness, & femininity & femmeness, & all the gentleness that exists in being a dyke kind of gets lost. it's just... not femme. there are so, so many ways to be soft butch especially. & those are all decisions that have to be made all the time. like it is constant &, while having a partner who is truly just along for the ride is helpful, my wife being supportive of me hasn't made those decisions on my behalf. i have to make them, every day, every time i get dressed, every time i put on a watch or shoes, even just to like... go to the store. it rly is smth u are constantly figuring out, even without like hyper-homophobic parents fucking you up as a kiddo. so yeah, i think, if ava wants to try anything w appearance, bea wouldn't care at all, she would be just as happy. but like... the essence of being a dyke isn't abt appearance so much as it is everything, & aesthetic is just a way to reflect who you are. & i know i've written this, very clearly lol, but bea's queerness (& ava's, & anyone's) has absolutely nothing to do with who they date, or marry, or love, or fuck. being queer is a politic, an expression, a way of existing. being a dyke is those things in spades, with a very, very special orientation toward liberation throughout history.

4 w my life partner, & my friends, all i care about is that they're happy. like legit. are ur material needs met? do you feel loved by me? -- if those are both good strong yeses, then like... we are good. i cannot imagine loving my partner less if she wanted to do literally anything aesthetically other than maybe like... a giant face tattoo or something lol. but exploring expression? i would never feel less than proud or brave. do i have favorite stuff? of course! do i think my friends sometimes make decisions that are not the cutest possible? of course! so do it! bc i want to! bc i want to try. & so yeah, i don't think ava would ever think less of bea, & i don't think bea would ever think less of ava. it's not like, a lack of care abt being physically attracted to someone, it's like... u love that person, & their body is gorgeous. ava's disabled, too, so u know there is profound care that bea shows & has to grow into as that changes & shifts too!

anyway i still don't know what this was rly asking lol but... butches/dykes should not be in the same category as cis men at all ever lol; ava & bea are just horny & in love. rules of thumb

[assarivanguard]

fuck you *transes your tav* because I am Who I Am

and you're so Fucking Real for that. we stan a consistent woman

okay so a while back you reblogged a post, this one to be exact, which lit a small fire under me

kohara is a little bit of expression about my Gender Woes, but (cult)ure shock was obviously not directly about kohara, so this fic is

originally i wasn't going to touch this entire topic with a 10ft pole because of the nature of how kohara would choose to present -- she thinks of herself as a woman, but Not Like This. she's gnc, but due to the nature of how she (and i) want to change our bodies, i didn't want to deal with the whole fetishizing chaser allegations, nor tread on other people's experiences of being transgender, and other bullshit i do Not have the energy for. especially with the accursed f*ta kink thing

it especially doesn't help that a huge chunk of this is smut, like i'm writing pure fucking filth. (but if i got the body i wanted, i'd be so fucking ecstastic it'd roll right over into confidently horny, lbr.)

but seeing that post i just. got the confidence to go for it -- it's my character, it's the story i want to tell, yeah her gender doesn't 100% make sense or fit into a neat box but that's kohara baybee!

it helps that nocturne is a great anologue as she is "traditionally" transgender and she's being Very Supportive of her big butch gf for the fic

as a bonus, have the opening paragraphs (not yet edited as i'm still writing):

It didn't start as a realisation. A sudden epiphany of something being wrong, and knowing exactly how to fix it. None of the sort. It was gradual, a slowly increasing feeling of wrongness, so gradual it'd sooner kill her in her sleep than be detected. Kohara knew she was incredibly butch, found comfort in her skin when dressed more masculine. She was born a woman -- but had never felt truly a woman. Not in this form she currently had. She supposes she really never had time to think about herself like that in detail. Becoming orphaned by Sharrans, becoming an ordained Selûnite cleric, travelling the Sword Coast, defeating the Absolute… it was only now, enjoying her cottage life with two beautiful girlfriends and more animals than a druid grove, that Kohara began to feel off. Maybe she always felt off.

[salaciousslut]

Done! Also do you have a favorite tequilla brand? Just curious! 🫣

Technically i have freckles all over my face but i only really count the ones that are darker and in a line under my eyes and over my nose, the other ones aren't prominent enough to call them freckles imo. And i'd feel more than lucky if you did worship me, sweetheart<3

I would love to take you to the gym with me, it honestly helped me with my depression as well! And of course i'd watch over you sweetheart<3 i wont lie, i love to go after dark bc theres less people. And i had the same problem but now i catch myself and try to stand straighter. I mostly lift weights when i work out so I know my posture improved due to needing to have a straight back to lift. Plus its super fun imo!! I miss the gym so bad but i hate going alone. I also miss feeling sore, im a bit of a masochist so i love feeling sore the day after working out🤭

Dont apologize for giving me info<3 organization's overrated anyway. Ive found that girls with glasses tend to be my type🫣 you literally sound so pretty sweetheart<3 i knew i wasnt wrong calling you a pretty princess<3 im kissing the tip of your nose and your forehead rn🥰 you are literally so cute, puppy coded too🥺 ive never had crawfish it seems yummy but im not sure if i should try it! Shrimp ceviche used to be my favorite but then i developed a shrimp allergy to uncooked shrimp and around 17 i had to call it quits bc it stopped being worth it to risk it. Im still pissed but at least i can still eat shrimp its just gotta be thoroughly cooked, not just get cooked through the acidity of lime juice like its sucks so bad i just miss ceviche so bad. Ohh just a butch latina and a pretty asian girl what ever will they do hehe<3 and i knew but not cause you told me 🫣 your dni made it obvious, like yeah im just now saying hey but ive been aware of you for a little bit now🫣 also please lemme be ur body pillow one day<3 savory is good!!! Whats your favorite kind of snack?

Also thats adorable, youre just a cute little puppy that has to get off once a day to function her best<3 i mean if i were stressed from school i'd probably need the same thing🤭

tbh im not too picky about my brands, as long as it gets me drunk, then im happy!! also tequila makes me take my clothes off oopsies i think i should warn u about that!! but if im buying for myself, i typically will get espolon bc i feel like its yummy and reasonably priced!

yes i love feeling sore after a workout!! i am also a bit of a masochist (omg who knew)!! but ive never lifted weights before. all the dude bros scare me and i feel like im always being judged but if we went together i know u would take care of me!! i like aerobics and like calisthenics (i had to google how to spell that word) and love yoga sm!! the burn of stretching feels amazing!!

hehe i am very puppy coded! i used to think i was more kitten coded but now ive grown and realized puppies are sooo fun!! so much energy and just wanna be cherished and loved!! which is everything i want!!

nooooo thats so sad that ur allergic to ur fav food :(( i love ceviche but at least u can still tolerate the cooked version. i know its not the same but its still something!!

ohhh i forgot that i put that in my dni, people are so weird about race here smh i just gotta cover all my bases so i can have fun on this website!! but aww we would look soooo cute together

im a sucker for chips. u know how they say all bi girls do is lie and eat hot chip? yeah all i do is eat hot chip hehehe. not so much lying but hot chip very much so. i also loveee chips and salsa and chicken wings and yeah all the fun savory stuff i guess!!!

hehe cumming is like a lil treat!! a reward for myself for being sooo good you know? but it would be a million times better if someone else was making me cum rather than myself 😳🫣

[bronanlynch]

if ur still doing the character meme: reinhard lotgh?

yessss thank u I have many thoughts abt him

Sexuality Headcanon: has never once been attracted to a woman ever in his life. tbf not sure he's ever knowingly been attracted to anyone who isn't kircheis. everything else is just. well he really wants another want to be a worthy rival/nemesis in a way that isn't not kind of erotic but like. it's not Just erotic it is also very much abt wanting to die in battle to a ~worthy opponent Gender Headcanon: so like. in canon I do think he's a cis man especially considering how strictly gendered the empire military is and he doesn't seem to have much space in his brain left over for exploring his gender. however I do sometimes enjoy rotating trans possibilities in my head and I am compelled by the thought of transmasc reinhard bc I think that. given his ambitions he knows that he needs to be in the military, which means he needs to be/pass as a man (and also given what happens to annerose I think he has specific motivation to not want to navigate the world as a women), and I do enjoy stories abt people who crossdress for plot reasons and then decide that they're trans actually A ship I have with said character: he and kircheis sure are in love A BROTP I have with said character: I am obsessed w his weird complicated friendship w hilde, how she's the closest thing he has to a friend but he doesn't fully trust her bc he doesn't fully trust anyone, her going against his orders to save his life at the end of season 2 and him thanking her but not being able to forgive him, their inevitable lavender marriage, their "butch hitting on a twink she thought was a butch" energy, A NOTP I have with said character: uncomplicatedly romantic het4het reinhard/hilda I guess? extremely important to that dynamic to me that they are a gay man and a lesbian. like I can't really see him properly dating anyone other than kircheis but like. I'm certainly not opposed or immune to any of the homoerotic potential of his relationship w like. reuental or whoever A random headcanon: I think it would be fun if he and kircheis used to cut each other's hair. y'know. the intricate rituals of it all. the intimacy & vulnerability, etc etc. trusting someone else to shape ur appearance and therefore ur public image. and that's partially of why he grows it out after kircheis dies General Opinion over said character: he's so beautiful and so sad and so terrible and I want to study him like a bug. love that he's like. not wrong that the aristocracy is bad except unfortunately he's so much a part of the society that created him that he doesn't have any other way of dealing with it except with more militarism & imperialism & autocracy which does not fix anything in the longterm and will lead to his inevitable and tragic downfall. and also I think it's funny when he makes policy decisions that help the people without seeming to actually like. especially care abt that and everyone is like "oh wow maybe dictatorships are good actually." but yeah in general I love it when characters are tragic and gay and fucked up. and also I cannot wait to see the continually unfolding consequences of letting a 24-year old with a death wish become the most powerful person in the galaxy

[clitorises]

I hope this isn't weird but thanks for existing. I'm a very subby butch and I always feel less masc for admitting that but God. Ur blog is doing things to me. It's a nice reminder that there are femmes that would love to see me pleading on my knees

A) not weird at all, you’re an absolute gentleman and B) there’s nothing masculine about domination and nothing feminine about submission. I was caught in that circle for a really long time when I was younger, feeling like I HAD to be submissive in order to be desired by butches, and then feeling like if I was dominant I HAD to present more masculine.

To be honest, sometimes it still hurts my feelings that many butches seem to want tiny, cute, submissive femme pets. I spent a while trying to be that, but I’m not. I’m tall and I won’t compromise on wearing heels, I’m elegant and sexy and not particularly cute, and I’m mean. I’ve made my peace with that, but I understand the feeling of being in the “wrong” role for a community you want to be part of.

And for the record, I’m sure you’re very, very sexy on your knees.

[transfemlogan]

Sorry 4 this sideblog being tss related & yet i continue 2 not talk abt sanders sides. Anyway:

I dislike how... ppl try 2 make queer labels like... ""more inclusive""* but end up completely shoving queer ppl who r under those labels out bcuz they dont fit their view of what is "valid"**

Like. Using transmasc in place of trans man. Not every transmasc person is a trans man (for example, transmasc lesbians exist) & not every trans man is a transmasc***. You're actively excluding people, because you're trying to be "more inclusive".

Or like, people who rephrase the gay label as "male-aligned person who likes male-aligned people". There are gay men who are not ""male-aligned"" (ME! IM AGENDER). Or like "masc-aligned person who likes masc-aligned people". What about gay men who are not masculine? (ME! IM A FEMME) What about people who are not gay men, but are masc aligned (like transmasc & butch lesbians?) Are you including those in your definition, too? Are you excluding femme gays who like other femme gays, because you view gayness as an inherently masculine thing?

Or like. "Non woman who likes non women" what about bigender or genderfluid gays who are women and are also gay men? Are you excluding people who don't fit inside your little box of what gender should be?****

Idk its just... so wild 2 me. Concept: stop trying 2 define labels & just let people use what they want ur so annoying.

*this post is not abt mspec lesbians or gays . do not argue abt mspec lesbians or gays "not being valid" underneath this post. ill lose my mind.

**i do not think validity is something queer people should worry abt. who cares if ur "valid", what matters is you exist.

***do not tell me this is wrong. I am a trans man who is not trans masc bcuz my trans-ness isnt centered around my masculinity, it's centered around my femininity

****yes you can be bigender & genderfluid & identify as a gay man.

[lanawinterscigarettes]

yes you both are beloved…i just call everyone affectionate terms 😖

oh!! afab reader that's gn ! (im glad you liked my hcs..they are so fun to share i have so many ideas swirling in my head all the time!!!!) i just have so many thoughts about alpha serena and blair..their dynamics would be so fun. im almost done with s2!

someday i will be sliding into your dms with my discord username.. 💗 (star anon you too maybe we can be moots there sometime <3)

my type is also not butches haha…im androgynous looking myself a bit but still on the femme side slightly. but im not high femme. my type though is always confident high femme..

you sound like you are extremely queer and I just want to reassure you again that it's okay that you are even if you read all of these things and hear these things from people around you. I hope some day you can feel safe and okay to be who you are!!!

aeron its true I literally have the notifications on for ur blog dhshffn I LOVE talking to you guys 🙂‍↔️

i have kissed 6 people and they were all mostly awful..probably bc i wasnt emotionally attached or attracted to them

It feels nice to be called by an affectionate nickname hehe 🥰

I LOVE your headcanons so much omgg 😫 I know I've said this before but you're always welcome to send in your ideas to me 🫶 (and I'll make sure to write the fic with a gn afab reader at your requesting hehe)

My dms are always open for when you do ☺️

I don't even know if I have a type tbh, like every time I get involved in a show or something I tend to have a crush on every single one of the characters 😭 (my type is people who are nice to me probably idk)

Idk if that was directed towards me or not but I hope star anon's able to find happiness and acceptance with who they are someday even if they haven't yet 💞 (and if it is directed towards me then thank you, you're so sweet to say that 🥺)

Omg really? That's literally one of the sweetest things ever 🥺

Yeah that's kind of what I'm waiting for, like I haven't had the opportunity to kiss anyone yet but I want it to be special the first time I do it, even if that sounds really corny haha

Also I got your request for the njbc christmas fic btw!! Thank you so much for sending it in 🥰 one quick question though, you want it to be a poly fic with the reader right? I just wanna double check so I don't get anything wrong <3

[queermarzipan]

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

BEST. SURPRISE. EVER.

BTW

I LOVE YOU ASMI I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

SOOIGJLCFGOOOOO

R o b e r t d e n e i r o

R O B E R T D E N E I R O

i'm dying. i'm actually dying

Russel T. Davies

Russel T. Davies

ily asmi

i'm laughing bc this is incredibly obvious to ME but that is EXACTLY THE SAME RHYTHM so i am in fact delighted that you knew that

Yes this is true. Twelve is the lesbian and thirteen is idk pansexual or something idk. some sort of extremely niche microlabel i feel. not 'lesbian'

YOU WOULD THINK WOULDN'T YOU but no the master just really is that much of an ego-full person. he chose the name. like every time lord gets to choose their name and he called himself the master. & honestly there is also some sort of BDSM thing going on where the master REALLY LIKES the doctor using their name. and they're also both firmly in 'I Can Fix Him' territory about each other. fucking hell

MISSY MY FUCKING BELOVED ISTG I'M SO MAD THAT THE ONLY MASTER ARC THAT HAD HER BE LIKE FIXING HERSELF WAS WHILE SHE WAS A WOMAN AND THEY HAD THAT CLEAR DELINEATION THEY MADE BTW 'THE MASTER' AND 'MISSY' & I'M JUST. I LOVE HER. YOU FUCKING GOT ME. W H Y

the fucking bigeneration i was READY TO CRY & then they gave me the BEST GIFT OF ALL FUCKING TIME WHOVIANS EVERYWHERE CHEERED ISTFG

i also fucking sobbed but that's not the point the point is it fixed me

i love how little catherine knows about doctor who. every interview they do where david and catherine are together and something factual about the lore comes up david turns to catherine like "👀😇" i fucking love it

the QPR is the realest thing ever istFG it's so much stronger than stobin it really is and i'm biased towards stobin bc they're my FIRST PLANTONIC SHIP but omg they knocked it out of the park. the doctor 7 donna. forevermore. in the brains of people who have gone insane

THE FUCKING. KILLS HER. FUCK

HE KILLS HER

TO SAVE HER LIFE

BUT HE STILL KILLS HER

AND HE HAS TO CARRY THAT

FUCKING HELLLLLLLLLLL

this is what the 60th anniversary fixed in me btw. this pain. the cracks r still conveniently there & reopen when i put myself back in time within the canon

why would i do that you ask

obviously

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pain

donna

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^see. totally reasonable

the original show had shitty effects and so does the new one and everyone loves it. if u genuinely think the shitty effects of dw are something to overcome u r made aware that u r incorrect. we love our ridiculous procreate ass living bin and obviously plastic mickey. go watch avengers if u want GOOD cgi

this is profoundly accurate & also neutral which is smart bc having not watched the show u would ABSOLUTELY not be able to adequately defend your position to avoid having ppl come up to ubto ""explain" why ur wrong.

that said.

tentoo is the best ending rose tyler could have possibly had it tied in with themes in school reunion & impossible planet & family of blood & also fucking army of ghosts & doomsday & no one can ever change my mind. i fucking love it to fucking pieces u can pry the metacrisis from my cold dead hands

HE'S CALLED TENTOO BC HE'S ALSO TEN IT'S A FUCKING PUN IT'S THE BEST PUN EVER I LOVE IT

NuWho is one word & New Who is two words. Expeditiousness is the friend of all. this is the fandom that uses full-on numbers to refer to versions of a character lke the infamous "you can like 11 better than 10" post lmao u expect us to keep two words we could conpress into one??

THE TARDIS SHOULD ABSOLUTELY IMPLEMENT RIBBONS FOR SEATBELTS IF I EVER GET TO WRITE FOR THE SHOW THAT'S MY FIRST FUCKING SUGGESTION. I'M FUCKING LOVING THAT. also the tardis😍😍🩵💙🩵💙💙🩵💙🩵🩵

he does indeed. bridgerton episode

the ninth doctor is sometimes a butch lesbian and sometimes something unknowable & i think it was the unknowable version that was bobbing his head. he fucking rocks also ur absolutely right he has so little rizz. he can get it

truth. nothing more to say

very very queer. nothing more to say

david tennant and catherine tate had SO MUCH FUN during that episode istg i love them so much

the sexuest person is indeed a head. apparently he was supposed to be in a certain story arc & he'd have his head chopped off and that's why he's a head but they couldn't get him. so now we just simply have to assume that he got into a beheading predicament at some point

the Meep's pronoun is the definite article. easy mistake to make. the Meep is always "the Meep". friend shaped because evil subterfuge :,[

.....uh........ idk asmi idk lmao

WAIT OH MY GOD IT'S CASSANDRA YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT CASSANDRA I'M GOING TO EXPLODE THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNYYYYYY

*strolls into tumblr and falls on my face pretending I haven't been missing for like a month I was out getting the milk hello maggots*

Doctor Who But I've Never Watched It 2.0

For those of you feeling deja vu YES I HAVE MADE POSTS ON DOCTOR WHO BEFORE OKAY but back then I was a young uneducated lad, just a fresh blossom unfucked by tumblr. Now I am surrounded by you lot and by god do y'all love Doctor Who. And I am Educated. My DW virginity is deflowered. All that.

SO HERE WE GO, EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SHOW I'VE NEVER WATCHED:

The show started in 1963, and then was rebooted in 2005 and the showrunner was... Robert de Neiro? Idk all I know is he gives Pedro Pascal vibes. Like his name. His name is Robert.

There have been 15 Doctors so far. One is a lesbian and it is not Jodie Whittaker, it is actually the 12th doctor.

There's someone called the Master. I don't know what that means, or if it's some kind of BDSM thing, but he has intense sexual tension with the Doctor.

He's also emo and has bleached hair and is kinda babygirl. And is called Missy.

The Doctors all have intense trauma and the 15th Doctor kind of girlbossed it by leaving David Tennant intact when they binary-fissioned.

Donna is a person played by Catherine... Tate? Not Hepburn. And she knows less about Doctor Who than I do. And Donna is in a QPR with the David Doctors (there are two of them).

David Doctor loves Donna very much. And then he kills her. But doesn't kill her. And then they have dinner together with her husband and kid.

The original show had shitty effects. The new show does too, and everyone is happy about this.

Rose is someone the David Doctor is in love with and then she ends up with a human AU of him and he leaves and the fans are very divided and passionate about this.

The human AU is called Tentoo because y'all hate using W's. What the fuck is Tentoo. What is Nuwho. Why isn't it New and Two. Help me.

THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED THE TARDIS, IT IS BIGGER ON THE INSIDE, I HAVE HAD WEIRD DREAMS WHERE IT WAS A FUCKING AUTO-RICKSHAW WITH RIBBONS FOR SEATBELTS, AND IT IS BLUE AND NOT YELLOW BUT IT WAS YELLOW IN MY DREAM. Because of a Drarry fanfic that I misread.

The 15th doctor dances homoerotically with someone during the French Revolution.

The 9th doctor kinda vibes with like his head jiggling idk I've only seen one gif of him.

The 13th doctor keeps forgetting she's in a woman's body.

It is all very gay.

David Tennant's arms are too long.

The sexiest person is a head.

The Meep's pronouns are Meep. Meep is not friend. IF NOT FRIEND THEN WHY FRIEND SHAPED??????

A buttcheek skin talks or something yeah this is all I got.

have at it y'all @robinprinceofchaos @multidimensional-trashcan @wispedvellichor @queermarzipan thanks for the second hand brainrot

*sneaks away under the cover of night* i was never here

[kindchenschema]

& to the points you made in my other ask, yes, yes and yesss. LOVE what you said about maggie like so true. i get being territorial but the fans go past that and get viciously nasty and it negates any real criticisms. she’s my baby but im glad she’s free from the show tbh because they weren’t giving her anything to work with anyway.

and SLC forever! pls go on about puppy amelia if u want lol because on paper she’s exactly the kind of character i should live for but ive never been able to get into her? idky like even knowing her plot of private practice hasn’t helped. and i wanna get the hype i have fomo lmao

& to ur other ask where you outlined ur faves and potential ships, first of all, inspired choices love it. and second, you didn’t ask but i would add tedstina. didn’t see it for the first time but on my second watch they jumped out to me and they’ve been my main non canon ship forever. cannot believe the writers had them arguing over that man when they could’ve ditched him to go eat each other out and then cured heart disease or something. a shame lmao 3/3

i feel the same way, if you asked me to tell you what maggie did in her last 3-4 seasons on the show i would have to plead the fifth or something because i genuinely do not know 😭 but i do remember watching those seasons and being like damn i miss s11-12 maggie (the riggs drama between her and meredith was like contender for top 5 annoying things to happen on this stupid ass show and it pretty much went downhill from there)

puppy amelia... um okay 😶 well what do you wanna know 🤪

no um 😭 like ok idk i just love when characters are all "i love you please let me love you and please love me back" and the other person is like.. cold and lowkey hates them at first but reluctantly grows to love them.. and lets them sleep curled up at the foot of their bed or reaches out to pet their hair when they've had a bad day like OKAY !!!!! will never forgive the writers for forgetting about mermelia after s12 like it was genuinely the most complex, angsty, bordering on sadomasochistic relationship to ever happen on this godforsaken show okay stop I NEED TO SHUT UP NOW but like as i said . it was/is GENUINE brainrot.

(side note whenever i rewatch s12 i get this like. overwhelming instinct to protect and take care of amelia like i literally become a butch lesbian for her. my butch lesbian serve 💅)

(in particular i also think the whole "meredith forgiving amelia for being the wrong sister and the wrong shepherd" is so...... mitski washing machine heart "i know who you pretend i am".... much to consider)

ok now i will shut up frfr this is what happens when you ask me about mermelia and girl don't get me Started on addimelia because genuinely i'm Kind of deranged, but you know what, i love myself and that's all that matters ❤️

anywayyy 😋 yes you probably didn't see but shortly after posting that i went back to add tedstina because HELLO, how could i forget about tedstina (well i haven't rewatched their main seasons for a long time that's how), i don't know what those two had going on but it was definitely something homosexual. there was a man there for some reason but literallyyy cristina going on and on about how much she loves teddy (esp when you consider that her type is canonically tall and blonde *cough* izzie) and teddy being like wow cristina you're my best student you're so smart and talented and let's make out 🥰

thank you soooo much for these anons, they really make my day (even if i don't get to them immediately) and please stay in contact even though there won't be new episodes for a while <3

[mithliya]

I could definitely be wrong, but as an autistic person I honestly read the 'different language' thing as just an expression of how it feels to be autistic, not insulting your English. The way my thoughts connect to each other in my head and come out of my mouth is so different from the way they do for people who aren't autistic, and it really does feel like speaking a whole different language. Trying to get people to understand what I'm saying is very difficult and I do have to apologize and clarify a lot, and honestly, it does get exhausting, because a lot of people will refuse to believe what I actually meant because the words I said didn't translate into that for them the way it did for me and it's hard for them to understand that what obviously means one thing to them obviously means another thing to me.

Not saying macro is in the right here, but I also read you saying the part about things 'leading to the conclusion that' as you stating the conclusion as something that you believed to be true--in hindsight and after your explanation, I realize that was a silly way to read it, but it happens so often that I'm more wary of it. I don't think anyone here is intentionally misinterpreting words; this kind of misunderstanding isn't uncommon for autistic people. It's just a pile of misunderstandings.

I started talking way too much, but my point is, I think that was what the 'different language' thing meant--the child comment was uncalled for, but I don't think it was about your English at all. Again, though, I could be wrong.

Hopefully I worded all of this in a way that 'translates' properly. I'm a little tired so stringing words together is harder than it is normally, so if any of this came off wrong, I'm very sorry. I'm honestly not trying to take sides here, I don't feel like I know enough about the whole situation to make any solid judgments on it, I'm just trying to help clear up the misunderstandings because I'm very familiar with how easy it is for these things to happen. Also, I always enjoy seeing you on my timeline, you seem like a cool person and I don't want you to maybe feel hurt over something that came off wrong. (Though in this context, it really should have been worded differently.) Obviously I don't know how you're actually feeling about it, but, well, insults are hurtful. Sorry for stating the incredibly obvious there, like I said my words are not forming well.

Sorry for the very long ask. Hope you're doing well!

but afaik butch-reid'd is not autistic as well is she? i can understand though bc very often im saying things and it feels like people are somehow reading entirely different (which is what they just did to me, funnily enough) but i wish theyd perhaps avoid such comments with me bc seriously the amount of times this week alone that people have made weird comments to me about my english or language abilities is .. too much. i ignored it bc of that bc i was like what is up with this comment why do peopl keep saying things about my language abilities to me -_-

anyways im mostly frustrated now that even after explaining at least twice that i am simply saying that people reading ur words literally does not mean theyre out to get u and trying to misconstrue u and whatever else, & its ok to simply correct them and move on, theyre now intentionally misconstruing me to call me ableist lol. like im supposed to give everything they say the most generous interpretation ever, but even when im clarifying my words repeatedly i dont deserve the same.. its odd. especially when i dont think im saying anything unreasonable when i say "people arent intentionally misconstruing you by reading ur words as they are literally written, youre simply wording them unclearly & can clarify it and then move on. if it requires knowing u personally and already having positive feelings towards u to understand what ur saying as u intend it then it is simply unclear"

anyways thank u anon and i appreciate hearing ur input <3 im just baffled by how i was trying to politely explain sth to them and i got repeated insults in return