#it’s like a trust fall but infinity more vulnerable and intimate

[friendofthesharks]

Not romantic or platonic but a secret third thing (improv partners)

[haik-choo]

what the haikyuu boys teach you in relationships

tsukishima teaches you that love is sometimes slow. love is sometimes hesitant, scared to burn too bright and fizz out too fast. tsukishima is cautious: his hands take time to hold yours, his lips hover over yours with shaky breath, and ‘i love you’ is only said in his most vulnerable moments. but his love is strong, unbreakable, and he’s willing to give you his all. it just takes time, and as far as he’s concerned, you both have all the time in the world.

kageyama teaches you the simplicity of love. he doesn’t have to pick you up and spin you around when good news come. he doesn’t have to text you every second of the day. the sigh of relief he makes when he sees you proves his love for you. the way he puts all his weight onto you when he hugs you proves his love for you. love isn’t complicated with him, it’s quiet, it’s simple. ask him if he loves you, and he responds with one word: “always.”

oikawa teaches you that you can have more than one love in your life. he was living proof that you can love many things at once; but most of all he loves you and his career. but even with two lovers taking up time in his life, he never neglected you. he made time for you, cared for you, kissed you, loved you more than anyone ever before. to him, loving someone didn’t mean giving up on your dreams. if anything, you became a vital part of his dream; he couldn’t see a medal or a future without you by his side (and if he's being honest, he loves you a little more than volleyball).

akaashi teaches you how intimate privacy is. he doesn’t have to be over the top to prove his affection for you; no one has ever seen him kiss you, no one has seen his loving smiles when he wakes up, you laying beside him. no one knows akaashi in private, only you know the taste of his lips and messy bed-head he harbors. only you have ever seen akaashi with love swimming in his eyes. knowing that you will be the only person to ever see him in such an intimate light doesn't take away any value; it simply serves to make your love that much more special. 

atsumu teaches you the necessity of passion. love is something you should crave from your lover -- your lover should be someone that makes you feel like you can breathe, like if you didn’t have them you’d drown. love should be all-consuming, no exceptions. atsumu needs you like a flower needs sunlight, he craves you like his hands crave the textured feel of a volleyball. you are not a want to atsumu -- you’re a need. without you, there is no oxygen to fuel his fire.

yamaguchi teaches you what complete and unconditional trust feels like, and that you should never settle for less. there’s an unspoken understanding between you two that you both put your absolute all into the relationship and that trust will never be betrayed. no lying, no secrets, no sneaking behind each other’s back, no doubt -- honest love is all you get from him, and honest love is exactly what you give back.

kuroo teaches you that it’s the little things that bring value. it’s him remembering your favorite drink and bringing it to you during your work break, it’s always eating dinner together no matter how busy you two are, its the feeling of his arm wrapped around your shoulder as you brew your morning coffee. they're small, especially in the grand scheme of your bountiful love, but they add up, slowly but surely, and their sum is greater than infinity. 

bokuto teaches you shamelessness. he’s never been ashamed of how strongly he feels for you, nor will he ever be. there’s nothing embarrassing about loving the adrenaline rush your smile gives him, there’s no reason to be shy at the red that floods his cheeks when you kiss him. there’s no reason to hide his happiness when you visit him spontaneously at practice. he’s not ashamed of his emotions -- he’s proud of them. he has pride in how much he loves you. and bokuto is in love with everything that you were, are, and ever will be.

kita teaches you that loves needs constant care. you don’t plant a seed and forget to water it, or simply not tend to it at all. love is work, it’s compromise, it’s never giving up, and it’s falling all over again when it blooms. kita doesn’t mind tending to your love; he waters it by giving you affection, he pulls out the weeds by fixing problems instead of fighting -- he loves you so deeply that it’s second nature to care for you. in the end, the work is always worth it, because seeing your love bloom right before his eyes, he realizes, is all he’s ever needed. 

terushima teaches you that love should be fun and full of joy. there’s no reason that loving someone should be completely serious and perfect; imperfections make love real, they make love unique. his impulsive way of loving you is uniquely him; he loves you deeply, and diving into that pool of bottomless love he has for you from the highest diving board with no lifeguard near sparks more joy in him than should be humanly possible. he falls in love with how fun it is to love -- with how fun it is to be in love with you. 

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[wangxiandecoded]

Episode 10

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(Spoilers for the whole show ahead!)

Going to draw a heart over Wangxian to keep track of every time the camera shows someone third wheeling them from now on.

Wei Ying uses his Binding/Bonding talisman on Xue Yang to show Lan Zhan it’s a dynamic tool that doesn’t deserve to be named “Boring”. Even though there’s a serial killer on the loose, Lan Zhan’s opinions on his inventions matter a lot to him. Standard Wei Ying stuff.

Wangxian’s Mirrors

At this point of the show, I could not believe there was a couple who directly mirrored Wangxian. And surprise! They were two men who dressed in black and white and came together for their common vision exactly like Wangxian did. Wei Ying cannot help but connect the dots and Lan Zhan is already aware of their eminence.

Xue Yang Fancies The Yiling Laozu 

Xue Yang’s introduction makes the story take a darker turn but also a gayer one. The homoerotic subtext between him and Wei Ying literally jumps out of the screen.  

(This episode had a lot of moments that were just begging for alternate dialogues to be written. I just wanted to have fun with the subtext that’s already present.)  

Wei Ying doesn’t want Lan Zhan to waste his precious breath interrogating the bad guy. He protectively steps up (something he does quite a lot) and puts some distance between the both of them.

But he wants Lan Zhan to hold his sword while he does that.. and if that act wasn’t necessarily considered to be intimate or romantic before, it just became that after Lan Zhan refused to do it in front of everyone.

Wei Ying has uttered many conspicuously gay things on the show but most of them are with reference to Lan Zhan. Therefore, this is possibly the gayest dialogue he has ever said in a strictly non-Lan Zhan context.

His tone is all, “Honey, you've been existing for 5 minutes, I'm the queerest person the cultivation world has seen in a millennium. You think frisking a guy is going to make me feel scandalized?” This is nuts to me because Xue Yang is arguably the most blatantly coded gay character on the show.. and here is Wei Ying all but saying he can outgay him. That he shouldn’t come after his job. And Lan Zhan just looks like..

It is curious how Lan Zhan says no to something that would require Wei Ying to go near Xue Yang again.

We get it, Lan Zhan. It was hard to see your guy giving attention to someone who wasn’t you.

When Lan Zhan is unsure what's happening back home, the first person his eyes seek is Wei Ying, his source of strength and reassurance.

SongXiao Help WangXian Fall Deeper In Love

Wei Ying is euphoric to meet another pair of Soulmates™. (The same kind of glee that queer people feel when they meet a celebrity queer couple.) His relationship with Lan Zhan just gained supreme validation and a boost to the power of infinity!

He sees everything he has with Lan Zhan reflected in SongXiao’s relationship. He admires them and is delighted that people like them who aren’t concerned with clan drama can walk the wider path of justice, and also lead successful, honourable lives. He looks to Lan Zhan for confirmation but Lan Zhan doesn’t seem too eager to publicize the super sweet promise they made at the lantern ceremony or the fact that he’s been secretly enjoying Wei Ying’s companionship on this expedition. And let’s be honest, it would’ve been more shocking if Lan Zhan did confirm any of that here.

Cheer up, Wei Ying! Lan Zhan will get plenty more opportunities to prove his love for you and he'll ace every single one of them.

No one asked for this but thank you NHS for declaring your ideal type is beautiful gentlemen who fight crime together and unapologetically go their own way.

The parallels between the two pairs write themselves. More importantly, it is while watching SongXiao leave together that Lan Zhan stumbles onto an epiphany.

This is such an underrated moment in the show. The sorrowful music and slow-motion shot of Lan Zhan looking at Wei Ying with vulnerability all over his face once again drives it home that Wei Ying is The One for him, and he is his. He was already getting tired of denying that Wei Ying is his soulmate in every sense there is, and he feels his pain and sadness in this moment. It is enough for Jiang Cheng to feel sorry for him and move on but not for Lan Zhan who feels all that his soulmate feels. 

It is overwhelming and brand new information to Lan Zhan himself that he can feel it because Wei Ying is not in impending danger right now, so this need he feels to protect him and be there for him can only mean that he loves him beyond the shadow of a doubt. Wei Ying seems upset thinking about his mother and Lan Zhan gets it, without Wei Ying having uttered a word the whole time. His face shows a kind of defeat in this scene; he surrenders to everything he has known and felt for some time now : He's in love with Wei Ying and would tear down the universe without a second thought if it means it would rid him of his unhappiness. And he isn't able to do that in this moment. But thanks to Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen, he’s found comfort in the truth they have each other at the end of the day, even if they have nothing left in this world. He cannot give back to Wei Ying what he has lost but he can accompany him in his sadness, and it will have to be enough. And it is, because Wei Ying can overcome just about everything as long as Lan Zhan walks by his side.

Wei Ying Says Lan Clan Deserves Rights

Wei Ying has many nice things to say about the Lan clan who he found exhausting a few months ago. Love brings about miraculous changes in a person, y’all.

Wei Ying gravitates towards Lan Zhan as if it's second nature to him and it really is.

Jiang Cheng spends a lot of time trying to get Wei Ying to spill the Top Secrets about the Yin Iron and Wei Ying is like, "Sorry, I’m bound by the Soulmate laws to tell you absolutely nothing."

Wei Ying is already embracing the idea of controlling the Yin Iron and people are rightfully getting offended by his suggestion.

What did you expect, Wei Ying? Not everyone is your lifetime confidant to give you the benefit of the doubt and reciprocate it with compassion, trust and open-mindedness.

Wangxian’s Temporary Separation

What was that, Wei Ying? Did we hear you admit that the Gusu Lan roof is softer than the one in Qinghe? Could this have anything to do with a certain law enforcer in Cloud Recesses you fell in love with at first sword fight? 

There is a delicate, bittersweet air to this separation, and even the casual watcher is going to be wondering, “When did I get so invested in Wangxian that WuJi makes me want to cry?”

It's cute how Lan Zhan is like, “Okay, I’ve seen the love of my life for one last time, I’ll quietly take my leave so he doesn’t know I was waiting for him to come back.”

Turns out, "I'll sleep on your roof tonight," is one of the most romantic things we could tell the person we love. Isn't it brilliant that just few seconds ago Wei Ying had said he will take whatever ground he finds as his home for the night, and how utterly beautiful is it to have followed it up with this dialogue? “Lan Zhan, I'll sleep on your roof tonight.” Because the world is big but my home is wherever you are. That’s where I’m happiest, I'll sleep on this rugged roof and walk through thorns if it means I get to be by your side. I won't mind it at all. And how unbelievably romantic is it that Wei Ying makes a philosophical statement about life, which ends up being about Lan Zhan?

Lan Zhan hears the implications in his voice. And he openly yearns to stay behind a little longer and commit to his memory what Wei Ying looks like when he is drunkenly proclaiming his love for him under the moonlight. It is pleasantly surprising that Lan Zhan is willing to express his emotions when he knows he is safe from Wei Ying hearing them, that he doesn't mind telling him goodbye when he thinks Wei Ying won't remember it. 

But the audience can hear his voice and we are going to remember it. How, "Wei Ying, I have to go," is uttered in a cadence so sweet we did not know Lan Zhan was capable of before this. And the choice of words do not simply mean that he’s going to leave, but that he has to, and most certainly not because he wants to. And how it really means, “I’m worried about everything, but especially you, and I'm sorry I have to go. I have to trust that we'll both be okay on this path. Please know that I don't wish to leave you, and forgive me for it. Wei Ying, I love you."

Even their temporary separation hurts so good. If they were meant to be best buddies, this scene wouldn't have been shot so poignantly. But we got used to seeing them together and every frame is designed to dig deeper into your heart and instil the fact that these soulmates are parting, and we don’t know when they’ll see each other again. This is the melancholy of a man who does not wish to be away from his lover but is forced to for the sake of the greater good. Anyone can see that.

The rooftop and moonlit night come as a callback to their first meeting, only Lan Zhan no longer wants to point the tip of his sword at Wei Ying, it gives him far greater satisfaction to place Wei Ying behind his sword.

I haven’t counted the number of times people acknowledge Wangxian’s relationship and/or know that they are inseparable, but it’s safe to say almost every character does that at some point. And some even know how to exploit their weakness, that in order to hurt one of them, the surefire way is to simply aim for the other like Wen Chao does here.

To summarize, Episode 10 saw Lan Zhan showing us his true colors : When he isn’t occupied with being the esteemed, intimidating Lan Wangji, he’s busy being a regular, sweet, romantic guy in love. And Wei Ying did that. He single-handedly exposes the soft side of Lan Zhan that nobody sees to the audience now and the world later on. 

This episode also gave us this : Two soulmates chilling shoulder to shoulder zero feet apart because they’re falling in love.

[marcusssanderson]

Romantic Couple Quotes To Inspire More Love and Affection

Looking for inspirational romantic couple quotes for the ones you love, that remind you love is really all that matters in life?

Love and affection are two things that mean very different things to each of us. As a couple, it is important to know what your partner’s needs and views of these are, as well as to express your own thoughts and feelings to have your needs met.

Most importantly, it is essential to always make an effort to express and inspire love and affection towards each other as a couple, as this is what keeps the love alive, and keeps the two of you emotionally intimate.

Below you’ll find our collection of inspirational, cute, and romantic couple quotes, couple sayings, and couple proverbs, collected from a variety of sources over the years.

Heartfelt Romantic Couple Quotes for Him and Her

1.) “You can talk with someone for years, every day, and still, it won’t mean as much as what you can have when you sit in front of someone, not saying a word, yet you feel that person with your heart, you feel like you have known the person for forever…. connections are made with the heart, not the tongue.” ― C. JoyBell C.

2.) “I wasn’t actually in love, but I felt a sort of tender curiosity.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

3.) “Owners of dogs will have noticed that, if you provide them with food and water and shelter and affection, they will think you are god. Whereas owners of cats are compelled to realize that, if you provide them with food and water and shelter and affection, they draw the conclusion that they are gods.” ― Christopher Hitchens, The Portable Atheist: Essential Readings for the Nonbeliever

4.) “We all know him to be a proud, unpleasant sort of man; but this would be nothing if you really liked him.” ― Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice

5.) “I had not intended to love him; the reader knows I had wrought hard to extirpate from my soul the germs of love there detected; and now, at the first renewed view of him, they spontaneously revived, great and strong! He made me love him without looking at me.” ― Charlotte Brontë, Jane Eyre

6.) “I knew you’d kiss me.”

“How?” I say. Because I didn’t know myself.

“Because I am in pain,” He says. “That’s the only way I get your attention.” ― Suzanne Collins, Mockingjay

7.) “We cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection.

Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves.

Shame, blame, disrespect, betrayal, and the withholding of affection damage the roots from which love grows. Love can only survive these injuries if they are acknowledged, healed and rare.”

― Brené Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are

8.) “You know the reason The Beatles made it so big?…’I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ First single. Fucking brilliant. Perhaps the most fucking brilliant song ever written. Because they nailed it. That’s what everyone wants. Not 24/7 hot wet sex. Not a marriage that lasts a hundred years. Not a Porsche…or a million-dollar crib.

No. They wanna hold your hand. They have such a feeling that they can’t hide. Every single successful song of the past fifty years can be traced back to ‘I Wanna Hold Your Hand.’ And every single successful love story has those unbearable and unbearably exciting moments of hand-holding.”

― David Levithan, Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist

9.) “We were not a hugging people. In terms of emotional comfort it was our belief that no amount of physical contact could match the healing powers of a well-made cocktail.” ― David Sedaris, Naked

10.) “I like the scientific spirit—the holding off, the being sure but not too sure, the willingness to surrender ideas when the evidence is against them: this is ultimately fine—it always keeps the way beyond open—always gives life, thought, affection, the whole man, a chance to try over again after a mistake—after a wrong guess.” ― Walt Whitman, Walt Whitman’s Camden Conversations

Inspirational Romantic Couple Quotes About Love and Respect

11.) “Oh, Lizzy! Do anything rather than marry without affection.” ― Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice

12.) “He wasn’t the type for displays of affection, either verbal or not. He was disgusted by couples that made out in the hallways between classes, and got annoyed at even the slightest sappy moments in movies. But I knew he cared about me: he just conveyed it more subtly, as concise with expressing this emotion as he was with everything else.

It was in the way he’d put his hand on the small of my back, for instance, or how he’d smile at me when I said something that surprised him. Once I might have wanted more, but I’d come around to his way of thinking in the time we’d been together.

And we were together, all the time. So he didn’t have to prove how he felt about me. Like so much else, I should just know.”

― Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever

13.) “There are three possible parts to a date, of which at least two must be offered: entertainment, food, and affection. It is customary to begin a series of dates with a great deal of entertainment, a moderate amount of food, and the merest suggestion of affection.

As the amount of affection increases, the entertainment can be reduced proportionately. When the affection IS the entertainment, we no longer call it dating. Under no circumstances can the food be omitted.”

― Judith Martin

14.) “We are not people who touch each other carelessly; every point of contact between us feels important, a rush of energy and relief.” ― Veronica Roth, Allegiant

15.) “If equal affection cannot be,

Let the more loving one be me.” ― W.H. Auden

16.) “Love is made up of three unconditional properties in equal measure:

Acceptance

Understanding

Appreciation

Remove any one of the three and the triangle falls apart.

Which, by the way, is something highly inadvisable. Think about it — do you really want to live in a world of only two dimensions?

So, for the love of a triangle, please keep love whole.”

― Vera Nazarian, The Perpetual Calendar of Inspiration

17.) “Had I been in love, I could not have been more wretchedly blind. But vanity, not love, has been my folly.” ― Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice

18.) “True friends are those who came into your life, saw the most negative part of you, but are not ready to leave you, no matter how contagious you are to them.” ― Michael Bassey Johnson, The Infinity Sign

19.) “First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity.” ― George Bernard Shaw

20.) “I wonder if you know yet that you’ll leave me. That you are a child playing with matches and I have a paper body. You will meet a girl with a softer voice and stronger arms and she will not have violent secrets or an affection for red wine or eyes that never stay dry.

You will fall into her bed and I’ll go back to spending Friday nights with boys who never learn my last name. ”

― Clementine von Radics

Inspirational Romantic Couple Quotes From Poets and Authors

21.) “I have been used to consider poetry as “the food of love” said Darcy.

“Of a fine, stout, healthy love it may. Everything nourishes what is

strong already. But if it be only a slight, thin sort of inclination, I

am convinced that one good sonnet will starve it entirely away.”

― Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice                              

22.) “There is nothing like wounded affection for giving poignancy to anger.” ― Elizabeth Gaskell, Wives and Daughters

23.) “I touch her cheek to slow the kiss down, holding her mouth on mine so I can feel every place where our lips touch and every place where they pull away. I savor the air we share in the second afterwards and the slip of her nose across mine. I think of something to say, but it is too intimate, so I swallow it. A moment later I decide I don’t care.

“I wish we were alone,” I say as I back out of the cell.

She smiles. “I almost always wish that.” ― Veronica Roth, Allegiant

24.) “Laughter is more than just a pleasurable activity…When people laugh together, they tend to talk and touch more and to make eye contact more frequently.”

― Gretchen Rubin, The Happiness Project: Or Why I Spent a Year Trying to Sing in the Morning, Clean My Closets, Fight Right, Read Aristotle, and Generally Have More Fun

  Cute Couple Quotes About Love and Respect

25.) “I’m telling you this for one reason and one reason only: No matter how sure you are of someone’s love, it’s always nice to hear it.” ― Mike Gayle, Turning Thirty

26.) “Oh, I love hugging. I wish I was an octopus so I could hug 10 people at a time!” ― Drew Barrymore

27.) “Love — not dim and blind but so far-seeing that it can glimpse around corners, around bends and twists and illusion; instead of overlooking faults love sees through them to the secret inside.” ― Vera Nazarian, Salt of the Air

28.) “It is a severe cruelty inflicted upon women…that we should be the ones who so desperately need love…affection…acceptance.And yet, we suffer…many of us, for lack of it throughout our entire lives.”-Shackles of Honor” ― Marcia Lynn McClure

29.) “The very condition of having Friends is that we should want something else besides Friends. Where the truthful answer to the question “Do you see the same truth?” would be “I see nothing and I don’t care about the truth; I only want a Friend,” no Friendship can arise – though Affection of course may.

There would be nothing for the Friendship to be about; and Friendship must be about something, even if it were only an enthusiasm for dominoes or white mice. Those who have nothing can share nothing; those who are going nowhere can have no fellow-travellers.” ― C. S. Lewis, The Four Loves

Inspirational Couple Quotes About Looking For Love

30.) “Most women go through life looking for love, and looking for someone to treat them like a queen. For some women finding real love seems to be something that will never happen. I believe that finding love is not as hard as people make it seem. The reason that some women can’t find real love is because they look for more than just real love.

A lot of women know what they need in a relationship, and thats for a man to love that woman with all of his heart, and to treat her real good. Most women have guys in their life or guys that try to get with them that could really love them and treat them real good. Those are usually the guys that get forced into that friend zone or rejected upfront.

See those guys could give them what they need, but not what they want. “Wants” can be anything from a woman wanting a man to have certain materialistic things, or she could want him to look a certain way, those are a few examples of the things that some of them want, but they vary depending on the female. What some females don’t understand is that none of the things that they want has anything with love or how that person will treat you.

You could find a man that looks perfect, has a house and car, he can be a college graduate with a good job, and you could still end up being with a person that doesn’t truly love you, and will treat you like shit. What I am trying to say is that the person who could treat you good and really love you could already be in your life, but you could have been blinded by the things you want in a man so you overlooked the person that you were really looking for. And by the way there are men that do the same thing; I just wanted to be clear on that.”

― Taisen Deshimaru

31.) “[L]asting love is something a person has to decide to experience. Lifelong monogamous devotion is just not natural—not for women even, and emphatically not for men. It requires what, for lack of a better term, we can call an act of will. . . . This isn’t to say that a young man can’t hope to be seized by love. . . . But whether the sheer fury of a man’s feelings accurately gauges their likely endurance is another question.

The ardor will surely fade, sooner or later, and the marriage will then live or die on respect, practical compatibility, simple affection, and (these days, especially) determination. With the help of these things, something worthy of the label ‘love’ can last until death.

But it will be a different kind of love from the kind that began the marriage. Will it be a richer love, a deeper love, a more spiritual love? Opinions vary. But it’s certainly a more impressive love.” ― Robert Wright, The Moral Animal: Why We Are the Way We Are: The New Science of Evolutionary Psychology

32.) “People who throw kisses are hopelessly lazy.” ― Bob Hope

33.) “It’s true that nothing in this world makes us so necessary to others as the affection we have for them.” ― Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, The Sorrows of Young Werther

34.) “I’ve come to think that flourishing consists of putting yourself in situations in which you lose self-consciousness and become fused with other people, experiences, or tasks. It happens sometimes when you are lost in a hard challenge, or when an artist or a craftsman becomes one with the brush or the tool.

It happens sometimes while you’re playing sports, or listening to music or lost in a story, or to some people when they feel enveloped by God’s love. And it happens most when we connect with other people. I’ve come to think that happiness isn’t really produced by conscious accomplishments.

Happiness is a measure of how thickly the unconscious parts of our minds are intertwined with other people and with activities. Happiness is determined by how much information and affection flows through us covertly every day and year.”― David Brooks

35.) “It was a lesson most people learned much earlier; that even friendship could have an undisclosed shelf life. That loyalty and affection, so consuming and powerful, could dissipate like fog.” ― Jennifer Haigh, The Condition

36.) “When I heard about these lessons, I thought they would be a dreadful waste of my time. I pictured two very silly girls uninterested in any sort of instruction.

But that describes neither Miss Gray nor yourself. I should tell you, I used to train younger Shadowhunters in Madrid. And there were quite a few of them who didn’t have the same native ability that you do. You’re a talented student, and it is my pleasure to teach you.”

Sophie felt herself flush scarlet. “You cannot be serious.”

37.) “I am. I was pleasantly surprised the first time I came here and again so the next time and the next. I found that I was looking forward to it. In fact, it would be fair to say that since my return home, I have hated everything in London except these hours with you.” ― Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Prince

Inspirational Romantic Quotes To Uplift Your Spirits

38.)“I have found it is surprisingly difficult to remain sad when a cat is doing its level best to sandpaper one’s cheeks.” ― R.L. LaFevers, Theodosia and the Last Pharaoh

39.) “Intelligence and education that hasn’t been tempered by human affection isn’t worth a damn.” ― Daniel Keyes

40.) “If the guy likes/loves you, he won’t care if you are a good kisser or not. He should like you for what you are – not how you kiss.” ― Meg Cabot, Princess in Love

41.) “My lovers suffocate me! Crowding my lips, and thick in the pores of my skin, Jostling me through streets and public halls…coming naked to me at night, Crying by day Ahoy from the rocks of the river…swinging and chirping over my head, Calling my name from flowerbeds or vines or tangled underbrush, Or while I swim in the bath….or drink from the pump on the corner….or the curtain is down at the opera…..or I glimpse at a woman’s face in the railroad car; Lighting on every moment of my life, Bussing my body with soft and balsamic busses, Noiselessly passing handfuls out of their hearts and giving them to be mine” ― Walt Whitman

42.) “[I]t is not by being richer or more powerful that a man becomes better; one is a matter of fortune, the other of virtue. Nor should she deem herself other than venal who weds a rich man rather than a poor, and desires more things in her husband than himself. Assuredly, whomsoever this concupiscence leads into marriage deserves payment rather than affection.” ― Héloïse d’Argenteuil, The Letters of Abélard and Héloïse

43.) “A true friend doesn’t have guts; they beat you up and later plead with you to beat them back.” ― Michael Bassey Johnson

44.) “I am not sure if women are attracted to genius. Can you imagine the wise wizard winning the woman over the gallant swordsman? It seems rather otherworldly in more ways than one.” ― Criss Jami, Killosophy

45.) “Then stay with me a little longer,’ Madame Olenska said in a low tone, just touching his knee with her plumed fan. It was the lightest touch, but it thrilled him like a caress.” ― Edith Wharton, The Age of Innocence

46.) “Outwardly, other than her hair, she had not changed much. She was still more or less the same cool, aloof w

[ladyofthewoodandlight-blog]

Wasn’t even that great.

There is a lot I like, appreciate, and enjoy about him.  But he doesn’t want to open up, said it himself.  He can’t handle the fact that I have emotions.  I’m not mad, we both knew it wouldn’t last but dragged it out anyway.  I guess I am mad, at myself.  I just cling to emotionally unavailable men.  I just get this feeling like I can make anything work, as long as they are coming from the same mindset.  And they give me all the signs that they aren’t invested and I fucking ignore them.  I’m so tired of putting up with mediocre.  I’d rather be single forever than settle.  And I do care about him and I know part of him cares about me, but he’s so emotionally stunted.  He really has no desire to form deep connections with people.  Maybe I actually did want to “save” him by loving him.  Still haven’t figured out what this all means about me.  I just want to have learned my lesson already and be over with it.  I want to fall in love, mutually.  I DO want passion, he was right, of course he was right.  I am glad we are over, I wanted so much more with you, but I was trying to force something from you that you didn’t want.  It was hard for me to reconcile that you didn’t have the same goals, since that was what we initially bonded on.  I think we just didn’t communicate thoroughly and we both heard what we wanted to.  You didn’t like communicating either.  But when I pressed you, you would open up.  But often times you were cryptic and closed and that was EXHAUSTING for me.  Just something I can not deal with when I’m not getting emotional support in return.  I felt like I was taking on my own emotions along with yours and T’s.  And I think you’re too stuck on your ego (individuality), and you’re attempt to take your power back and keep your power.  I know you’re hurt, and you’ve turned into such a beautiful human being and that’s part why I (platonically) love you.  You ARE strong, you’re one of the strongest people I know.  I think you’d be even stronger, like level infinity, if you were vulnerable, too.  Trust people sometimes, it’s quite rewarding.  Fear is the mind-killer.  Love is the only thing that matters. 

I think I was using you a bit to fill my loneliness and to serve as my guide.  The very things I ridiculed T for I did myself, I leeched on to you.  That doesn’t feel like me, and I’m sorry that you didn’t get the best version of me.  As awesome as I am, I am also so much more awesome than you’ve had the privilege to experience.  Just as I deserved more from you, you deserved more from me.  We are not compatible people and we are not looking for the same things out of a relationship.  Even though we had more turmoil than I care to have in my life, we did enjoy the heck out of each other :P  

I wonder if we will remain friends.  I think I could use a break from you soon, but honestly part of me thinks I’d be ok with a more casual friendship just so I could still see the fur babies.  Part of me does feel like we could have a deep meaningful friendship, even if you never decide to open up more.  I think on the friendship level we do have more to gain from each other, and maybe that is why we are drawn to each other, even though we both know we do not work as a couple.  Maybe we’ll be good for each other as friends.  Or maybe this was all just toxic and it will turn into a dumpster fire.  Or maybe 5 million other possibilities.  

But I don’t feel like we wasted time.  I started to freak a bit and think I was just fucking around and making huge mistakes for no reason again.  But nothing is for no reason.  And this especially, I may have not been my best me but I certainly wasn’t the worst me.  You’re girl is going to be fine, even if I’ve been having some minor panic attacks.  Fuck PTSD.  Part of me did feel guilty for even having PTSD when you experienced so much worse.  But I also know it’s not about who experienced worse, but I do think you were insensitive.  I didn’t even feel like you were talking about me, I felt like you were reminding yourself when you would say “it’s all about how you handle the experience, you’re pain is up to you.”  But I felt like you didn’t respect my pain.  I’m trying so hard to heal, everyone handles and heals differently.  It also feels hypocritical coming from you when you don’t deal with your own emotions.  You constantly say how even keeled you are but you’re moody AF.  I’m not sure why you deny it or if you’re just trying to positive think it away.  But damn that made it hard to talk to you.  

I think I might just stop and submit right now without reading because this just took a lot out of me.  But I also feel like I just saw some energy in the house.  I think I might do a cleansing for me AND the house.

One more thing, whenever you talk about how I’m the most similar to you person you’ve dated (even with all our glaring differences) just b/c we have similar interests and we can talk about nerdy things (your words), I find it really interesting and telling.  You’ve never been open at all in a relationship, and you’re not even into sex.  So you do your own thing, don’t talk about your interests, and don’t even get intimate with your girlfriends.  What DO you do?  What do you want from a relationship?  I’m still not even clear on that.  It’s just strange to think that you’ve been my rock the past few months and we don’t even really know each other.  I want deeper connections.  

I still long for you to open up more, I think you enjoyed being a little more open with me and will continue to look for that, I think you are on a good path.  

I think I did fear you judging me too much, though to be fair I’m not used to your style.  I still believe that is a habit and not your personality though.  That is that ego thing I mentioned before.  That’s another lesson I hope you’re open to.  Hanging on to your identity is toxic, you are not your  thoughts or your behaviors.  You are simply you, ever fluid.  Don’t worry, I forget this a lot, too.  It is a work in progress.  Your mind is something you need to work out, just like your body.  We are both working on ourselves, it is quite beautiful, even when we fail, because we learn and grow from our failures.  You are a good person to be around, just not for me to date.  (yes I am repeating myself because I’m still discovering some thoughts and feelings.)  My mind has been on OVERDRIVE for months now, I’m trying to quite it again.  

I love you in the non-scary way ;)