#it’s honestly so silly to say there’s a ‘kpop community’

[bandzboy]

the thing is like no matter who was announced for coachella people would say “[insert group name] deserves it more” and it’s sad because i just hate that people can’t celebrate the fact that these groups, who always do amazing performances, get to perform at one of the biggest festivals ever just because it’s not their faves performing

[floral-sacrifice]

vk being on dti is going to make me insane like it’s gonna make all these 12 year olds look it up and then do their whole “yOUrE prOblEmAtIc” thing and send death threats and force bands to disband from harassment like what happened when mm got popular on tiktok. and the subculture is gonna be either watered down or ruined for like a while. because of these children who are just so convinced of their superior morality that they think it gives them an excuse to behave without any sort of online etiquette. we need to fire those rent-lowering gunshots again because what the fuck ???? honestly ddrm fans are already kind of there like the amt of posts i see abt them online that are just like “omg he’s so silly!!! he stuck out his tongue!!” as though these grown ass men are little anime characters or kpop idols, and it’s literally impossible to interact with any sort of online vk forum without these idiots coming in and derailing the discussion. also like a side effect of this being on dti is that idiots r gonna see whatever wins and think it’s visual kei and then they’re gonna spread misinformation about the subculture like these freaks do for everything. roblox unironically has been the downfall of so much good stuff because it’s a hotbed for chronically online children

dti in general pisses me off for no reason because these idiots are never on theme and then i have had people literally say to me “anything black is goth” like as if wearing a black lululemon tennis set makes you goth. and i mean the goth subculture has been obliterated by tiktards and everything but it’s getting worse again. most of the largest alternative subcultures (punk, emo, goth) have had their definitions watered down or flat-out changed, with no regard to history (“punk is about being nice to everyone!!” “emos are all about self-care!!”) (i’ve heard both of these several times) because of tiktok influence and the popularity growing online, and malicious actors impersonating members of the community or pretending to be experts because they can read a wikipedia article. but i think visual kei especially is more vulnerable because of how small it is (relatively) and because people have never heard of it, they are more inclined to believe falsehoods because they haven’t heard anything else.

[insanityasides]

hi! i’m sera, all pronouns. this is a sideblog for some of my fandoms and other miscellany, enjoy your stay :D

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[here4theheartbreak]

I can’t imagine there being a gay bar here hosting monthly kpop nights. In fact, I can’t even imagine there being a gay bar...!  😅

The cup sleeve itself looks so nice, and so do those pretty decorations! I'm so glad these events are a thing. I think it really builds a sense of (wider) community. 💕

Bouncy definitely has a 'kpop' vibe. The first time I heard it, it felt simultaneously like the least/most ‘Ateez’ Ateez song to date. But I know that was their plan. They’ve been saying for a while that they want to try and capture the interest of KR at large — whilst also being themselves and respecting what they already have. Which, honestly, I think they’ve done. It’s a nice song to just ENJOY and have fun with. 🌶️🔥🐐🥊🤠 

That’s a lot of songs you made your way through over the weekend! I’m impressed. There were a few songs I wasn’t sure about at first...but now I’m actively adding them to my playlists, soooo yeah... 🌟✨

A miniseries would be great!! I’d love it if it was like the MV’s and the teasers — where there are just subtitles and sometimes voiceovers. That’d be pretty cool. I hope they do it. Or that they do something similar! KQ are clearly not afraid to splash a little cash on locations and cinematography. 

Ohhh, I read the new Diary storyline/pages on twitter somewhere. It’s definitely on there if you don’t want to wait!

The Atiny and Ateez relationship is sooo good. Surprisingly good, actually. We’re really lucky that nothing significant has happened to create distance. Especially given how some fans are so invasive and overly familiar sometimes. Still, I think Atiny are mostly chill, and there’s not much guilt involved in supporting them either. Not everyone can vote every single time, or stream all day long. From what I’ve seen, it’s always just been a case of if you can, please do. And, yeah, it doesn't always work out. There have been a few heartbreaking losses on music shows, for instance (the one where they all had glasses of orange juice on stage to celebrate, but then they didn’t win, springs to mind 😭). Still, it’s like San always says, we can support Ateez with our whole hearts, but we should always be the most important people in our own lives!

JFC. YES. THERE'S SO MUCH CONTENT. I can only wish you luck because that is quite a mountain to climb! 😅

Wanteez is so good! I especially loved the latest drinking episodes! Poor drunk San! Someone save him, our tipsy tomato~!

Ah, I also love Woosan! ��☂️⛰️ I love their energy. I love that they bicker. I love that they cling. I love that they have matching friendship tattoos. I love: 'we're not always good, but we always choose each other.' I love: 'the best luck I have experienced in my life was meeting you.'

They’re super cute, and silly, and funny~!

I’m really glad that San is someone you can have as a bias — even if it felt impossible for you at first. He really has such a good heart! Just like Wooyoung!

Honestly, I think people often forget that about Wooyoung, because he’s loud and he’s hilarious. I mean, yes, he's always messing with the members and causing chaos on screen and on stage.... but he’s incredibly kindhearted.

Hongjoong literally said that when Wooyoung gets hurt by other people, he blames himself rather than them. He blames himself for trusting them in the first place, rather than them for what they’ve done to him.

Alsoooo, when that whole Ateez vs Vata dance plagiarism thing happened he was so visible in standing up for their team. Adding the 'driving' move to his The Real dance breaks. Calling out the copying. What a guy.

And then there's that time he called out a sasaeng for continually phoning Jongho when they were doing a vlive together. He's not afraid to speak up and it's such a strength.

Oh! Annnnnnd there's the fact that he cried after Yeosang's ending ment last year because he'd overheard Yeosang talking to his mom about a surgery she was having.... but YS hadn't told anyone in Ateez about it, including WY even though they'd been friends for 8 years. And WY had been so worried about YS's mom but he didn't know how to ask him about it. So, he ended up in tears when YS brought it up on stage.

Really, Wooyoung cares so much. I could list soooo many different examples of him feeling so much, and caring so much, about those around him.

In fact, I could probably do that for all the members! 😂💖

(/you have reached the end of my unplanned Wooyoung rant 😂)

Ahhh yeah, absolutely none of them can stay in their lanes. They're always swerving all over the place. Right now, Yunho is coming for me. The way he laughs shyly into his hand? Let me live, puppy~ 😩

Since day one, my bias has been Kim Hongjoong! I saw our tiny captain rapping with his pretty hair, looking full of passion, painting his clothes and his nails, telling off the younger members like a stressed-out dad, and I was like 'ahhh, there he is. He's the man for me!'

My bias wrecker is Seonghwa. So, I'm all about Matz~! 😂 But I literally love them all so much!

Well, I recently got an Ateez tattoo- lyrics from Promise. So, I recommend the Promise video from 2019 - although the 'Band Live Concert' version is the one I actually like the most, the 2019 one is just the one from when I first got into them, so it has nice memories attached to it!

Don't Stop is a great MV that people sometimes miss because it's not on KQ's channel.

I still recommend Treasure Film because they have to do a bunch of fun tasks - Jongho has to arm wrestle guys at a gym, Yeosang has to conquer his shyness and say hello to people on the street (🥺) etc etc. And there's a really sweet section near the end where they have to call their moms and tell them what they're thankful for. It's so good because they're actually exactly like their moms! 💖

There's also their cover of Black Cat Nero. Both the Immortal Songs stage and the subsequent MV are good!

And there's the song they did for Pepsi with Monsta X (and others) - Summer Taste. It's worth a glance. Changkyun coming in after Hongjoong?? Yessss, please. 😍

Talking of MX, Choi Jongho has got to be the most successful Monbebe of all time! What a king~!✨

Sorry about this being an essay length ask.... 😩😂

Honestly the production quality that KQ has when it comes to their mvs is insane! Right away I asked my friend who owned these guys - given the horrid history with certain companies, there’s some I’m just not comfortable supporting even in a small way - when she said they were fully indie I did not expect much at all - so I was absolutely FLOORED. They know where their cash cow is and they treat them well, it seems.

I actually ordered another copy that should be here sooner of the diary version! Should be here next week I think, so sooner than mid-July lol; I have a friend who is getting into the group with me so I’ll just gift them the extra copy (they don’t collect PCs or anything, so I often end up passing along my spare copies of albums that I don’t wanna tangle with selling 😂)

I sat down today and tried to go and make a list of all their different variety shows and things they appear often on (like their hello82 stuff, etc) and I was floored by just how much there was. Every time I thought I completed the list I scrolled and found yet another show or mini-series I had completely missed 😩 - how does this group have so much?? Do these kids SLEEP? 🤣

I have seen clips of the drinking episode and am so tempted to skip forward to it because it looks so genuinely hilarious, who the hell let them get that drunk 😂

My God I can’t talk enough about Woosan. I’ve always been preferential to bias pairs who have that tom and jerry soulmate energy but I genuinely haven’t had a pair that embodies it SO perfectly. The people you look at and you’re like, yeah, those two were always meant to find each other, it wouldn’t matter how many miles separated them, they’d wind up stumbling over each other in some way. 
“We’re not always good, but we always choose each other.” - the way I almost burst into tears, I watched that episode just last night actually. Or the recent show - when San was asked if he regretted the tattoo and just, entirely unhesitating “never” even tho they’d been sniping at each other all day 😭😭😭

And truly! I didn’t think much about Woo at first; I kinda assumed he was just another dancer/visual type but since San wouldn’t let me breathe without Wooyoung RIGHT THERE I ended up looking more into him and he’s so sweet. My God, he’s such a caring, gentle person. Definitely the embodiment of more than meets the eye in so many ways. And he’s so mindful of all the members, he knows exactly how to play with each of them, even if sometimes it’s a little chaotic, you just know he’s always gonna be the one there if they need something.

I heard about the Vata thing! That took some real nerve on his part, calling him out so publicly - good for him though, there needs to be more people in the industry like him, it might become a little less corrupt and nasty if there were. If more weren’t afraid to call out the bullshit maybe people would be more mindful of not starting this shit.

And frankly his TALENT. Jesus. When I told my friend I’d picked him as my split bias for sure, she explained some of his past and being picked on by other fandoms, etc - it was heartbreaking - he’s got so much talent and deserves the world 😭

I mean honestly - all of them; I’ve never seen a more shining example of a group of just genuinely well meaning people who try their best to do the right thing, and so talented on top of it - like… How did I miss them for so long??? I got into kpop as a whole literally six months before they debuted?! I could have picked them up from day one! The way I’m kicking myself for it 😩

Yunho! Jfc that guy. He was the member I didn’t really notice right away but this comeback and as I watch more variety shows - he’s so cute?! And he’s got such a funny personality, bahh- I figured I’d be safe from him but nah, he’s climbed right up there. Instead of a list of 8 places 1 through 8 this group is more like 1, 2, 2.5 — Woosan; Yeo and Joong; then the other 4 - there’s no least favorite 😭

Ah! Tattoo! That’s so cool; I love it; my friend has an Ateez tattoo from Star 1117; I’m thinking I will probably add one to my sleeve as well, I’ll wait until after I go to a concert, maybe, unless I’m super inspired. I haven’t seen that video though! Another one to add to my list lol - but I have seen Don’t Stop! That video was insane, I loved it sm and the song was great. I remember sending it to my friend when I watched it with the comment “the sweet little criminal mastermind pirates” (honestly the number of nicknames this poor group has ended up with - my favorite was for Jongho, “the softest insurrectionist you’ll ever see” - and I stand by that. 😂)

Also omg Black Cat Nero - so this video is funny (in another I’m kicking myself square in the ass way) bc I’ve seen it pop up on my dash ever since it came out (the Halloween m/v specifically); and every time I saw it I almost clicked on it bc it looked interesting with San’s makeup… And I didn’t because it wasn’t a group I was into so I just… Ignored it. For two years YouTube has tried to hand me this damn group.

(Also no need to apologize for the long asks lol - I’m sure my non-atiny friends are so so sick o hearing me ramble for hours about these guys so I 100% do not mind 😂😂😂😂

[hpdfag]

Hi!! We’ve both been less active but I’m sure we both are still missing each other…how have you been, once again? I’m sure it’s very stressing to think about the idea of wedding now, it’s probably very frustrating too. I can’t confirm much for you, but I really hope and pray in my own way that someday you can fulfill that need, even if it’s not in the way you now wish it to be. These days are an example of that for me! I’ve always wanted to be a ballet dancer since I was a child (became an irl of a ballerina, you know!) but my mom could never afford or be able to bring me to classes, which frustrates me; I always wanted to be a professional dancer. Well, these days I got my first dance class! In fucking kpop!! And maybe it’s not what I wanted and maybe it’s not the career that I’ll have, but it still gave me so much happiness; it wasn’t exactly what I wanted for, but in the end it fulfilled and satisfied the little child in me. Ranting aside, I think that’s possible for you, too. Maybe the “picture perfect day” won’t be as you wish now, as you dream of; but maybe it’ll bring you just as much happiness you know? Wether it’s not a wedding, wether you fall in love with someone else in this reality, or even something else, I think it’s possible for you to find that happiness, somewhere, somehow. I can assure you! When we’re in the shit as teenagers we’ll always be scared, thinking that this truly will never end. But it does! Trust me, it does. I hope you’re feeling better now! About the uni thing I asked some days ago…damn I just remembered you’re America and you guys have to pay for your Universities and </3 I am so sorry?? If you could maybe move to Europe in the far future to study medicine maybe? I don’t know, but if I had a dream like that I’d want to chase it at all costs…but you should do what makes you happier and safer now! We’re young, we have time to dream. To change! This was a bit of a messy ramble honestly, but I’m still glad I put my thoughts out about this to you :} and I hope it brings some light to your ongoing day too!!

- 🧶

hi, im doing alright, just exhausted,, and i get what you're trying to say but i can't imagine myself falling in love with anyone else, let alone to the point of marrying them. even just considering it makes me feel sick, like im betraying hinata. i'd rather die

i've just been in the grief trenches the past few days, hence the elevated levels of complaining (my dad passed away 9 years and 3 days ago now, so its just. a rough time of year. it comes in waves)

and yeahyeah haha uni is EXPENSIVE here especially if you want to go to a good one, thats why im starting at community college and hopefully getting financial aid as well. the state im living in has a grant that pays for your full community college tuition if you get approved for it, which would be a LIFESAVER since the job search is taking for fucking ever /silly

and yeah, i could at some point move out there for med school, but i'm content with my current path in life i think. i can still work within the medical field even, working on in-house software and IT management and stuff like that. it's not what i wanted to do as a kid, but it's what i think will make me happiest. i cant handle being in charge of someone elses life, it'd burn me out too fast

im so glad you got to do your first dance class though!!! whether it turns into your career or you just end up doing it for fun, i hope you continue to have a wonderful experience.

[frzngrapes]

whoever the fuck these are, pt.1:

Keycie

Recently, I have invented these... I would say OCs, but they're not part of any story. I think it would be more accurate to call them personas, or avatars idk. (i vent and introspect a lot in this, i low-key wrote this for my therapist, she keeps asking me about my characters and imaginary friends)

Physical appearance: we have the same face (picture a pretty black girl... yea that's me. maybe a bit paler) All of these little characters do. Except Cherry. Cherry doesn't have a face. But Keycie has a bigger afro. Really really long hair, she gets asked if they're real often. And they're purple! she has braces with rainbow elastics, and oversized round glasses. You can picture her with sparkling purple fairy wings, or not.

Fashion style: maximalist and inventive. lots of colours and sparkles. Sparkles and rhinestones are a VERY big part of her fashion. she loves anything frilly, her favourite fashion item is tutu skirts. heavy decora and scene influences.

colors: purple, rainbows, neon colours, anything sparkly, animal patterns

TV show: Monster High, Project Runaway

tunes: Keycie's playlist

gender: none (any pronouns, prefers she/they/it/doll)

age: 15

zodiac: Leo sun, Aries rising, Gemini Mars

art, mediums and techniques : aquarelles, collages, crayons, clothes and furnitures, amateur music

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Anyways, meet the coolest person ever: Keycie! Keycie the person I thought I was going to be, when I was a child. If a few things went differently, I'm sure I would've became her. What should I explain firsts... maybe her name?

I never identified with my dead name. When I was a kid, I wanted people to call me Keycie. Because pronounced in English, that's what my initials were: KC. Also because it sounded like the name an American cheerleader in a Disney Channel show could have, and I wanted to be a cheerleader (and a Disney Channel character). So that became my alias on literally every online game for young girls (moviestarplanet, amour sucr��, shopaholic and the list goes on), and on my 3DS

okay, so Keycie lives in an alternate reality, she obviously doesn't exist here. We communicate by sending each other letters, she's wise, and honestly smarter [when I was a kid, people told me i was smart all the time. i got good grades easily and my mom would tell me i was better than the others, and should be n°1. tbh, 8yo me though she was a genius, and more mature than others (i would literally ask my mom to make me run an iq test, i was persuaded it would turn out higher than average lmao (i never took the test)... but now i feel so dumb, behind, and incapable, how ironic.] than me, so she gives great advice, but she's a bit clueless. She doesn't know much about our reality, I have to explain everything to her, in great details.

Now let's move on to her life! The key part is that Keycie does a lot of things. She does rhythmic gymnastics, and theater. She sews her own clothing and when she doesn't, she customs things from the thrift store. She runs a fashion blog and post her outfits on Instagram, because she doesn't care what her classmates would think about it. She loves learning kpop dances and posts her covers on Instagram, she doesn't do things to be good, she does them to have fun! She knows how to sing and posts her covers on YouTube, because she isn't scared of being made fun of. Actually she makes her own music too. She makes silly little tunes on garage band, and she is in a band. She plays the drums there, but she also knows how to play the bass, the guitar, the piano and how to sing [nothing related to my childhood, i just think it's cool. Oh! but there's an instrument i wanted to know how to play as a child!]. She plays the violin too. I don't actually think it's that possible for a human being to do that many stuff with their lives, but if 10 years old Vi saw me doing absolutely nothing he would be heartbroken. Oh, she loves reading, she spends hours and hours reading, whole afternoons, she reads until 4am. She writes fantasy and dystopian novels. they're not that good but she's getting better and better. Also, she's weirdly knowledgeable on science, she does well in physics, chemistry and biology class, actually she loves them!

Keycie is 15 years old. She doesn't know what she wants to do in the future (profession wise) yet but she has so many options because she loves so many things. She loves going to school, she absolutely loves finally being in highschool! She has top tier grade because as a kid I would've never imagined the effortless As i used to get would lead me to not knowing how to work, how to learn and how to study yk. Growing up, she learnt how to put in the extra work, that separated being naturally good and "avoir des facilités" (being "gifted") from being the best. Her mom and dad are proud of her. because She is finally fixed, time fixed her: she can focus on a task, she doesn't forget to do things, she doesn't procrastinate, she can manage herself properly, be organized, have a clean and clear bedroom. When she has a project she takes it to the finish line. She got into that selective design section in high-school, she did.

she has no actual irl friends and she thinks she's ugly. she never fell in love. She doesn't go a day without asking herself why she is in the world. What does she have to bring? she wants to change the world, or maybe to disappear, because she thinks if she can't leave an impact, there's no point in existing at all. She tends to lack empathy. I don't know how to explain it but she is so very disconnected from others,, she's literally not part of our world, she's in her own and She doesn't care about the real one. the fantasy of a kid that manifested into some reality, She might as well be a fairy or have psychic powers. if you get to talk to her, she will be clueless about what you're saying and probably answer something completely unrelated. She can be... idk, insensitive? when I first started sending her letters, she would reply things like "well, It could be worse". but overtime she learnt how to be a good listener :)

I feel like she used to be me in some way, up until some point, but without knowing I lost her. You know how she's very talkative? these days I'm very quiet. I kind of lost the sparkles. If primary school me saw me last year, she would think (aside from some details): "Yup, that's me makes perfect sense. Not too surprised I turned out like that". I was still partially Keycie. And I guess she would recognise me when i'm with my best friends. But if she saw me any other time (aside from when i'm making art, playing bass, or taking walks in nature), she would be so confused. Because I lost Keycie. do i make sense? before, I used to know who I was, and I miss that. This character, and the letters I write for it are a way for me to honour the person i used to be, and the dreams i had

I know it's normal that I'm not her. It's normal to fail, it's normal to change, it's normal to deviate from the path, to be deceived by the world, to struggle and to grow up. But i don't want to. I guess I have to suck it up, to evolve even if it's to be someone else. And I'm sure as I heal, I will find bits of her back. Keycie isn't perfect, and I can't be a kid forever

I forgot to mention: she has a cat and a well decorated bedroom with many plants and a Monster High dolls collection.

[marshmellobunny64]

A3 eng news rambling ignore me

(Ignore the typos and bad punctuation n stuff if you actually read im so bad at writing. Im bad at words i know)

Bro i had the biggest crying fit finding this news on Twitter last night I literally had a hard time sleeping. I spent most of the day today thinking about it so i need somewhere to dump it all out and i feel less exposed on here venting.

I honestly can’t believe that its ending so soon.

It sucks being able to only read in eng/spa. Even then i can only really read eng cause i never really read things in spanish. Like man its nice being bilingual but i wish i was multilingual and knew every language that ever existed. Theres so many things im missing out on and it frustrates me that i cant learn things quick enough ; n ;.

Whats hecking me up even more is that im losing the thing that’s literally been what’s been fueling me to draw for these past almost two years.

Im not joking when i tell you ive got so much stuff still packed in my wips. Like its crazy not even my kpop art matches up to the amount of stuff i churned out for a3 and ive been drawing that for way longer. I never even managed to go past like 5 days on a prompt thing ever but i somehow got to get to 22 thanks to this game.

The last time I had something make me go crazy making art like this was vld but it wasnt even close to this tbh

This game is really special to me so it’s really heartbreaking to lose it. Like i feel like i was literally growing up together with it which is kinda silly to say but its true i did grow with it.

Ngl almost feels like im losing a super close friend because they suddenly have to move away.

Im really gonna miss it.

Im so glad I decided to play this game though like i don’t regret a single moment of it (maybe gem buying i do kinda regret lol) but yeah no i regret nothing.

I feel extremely lucky being able to play such an amazing game and Im truly thankful for a3 eng.

Im def not gonna give up drawing a3 fanart anytime soon thats for sure. Nor do i want to leave the fandom yet cause bro the entire a3 community is so wonderful 😭. Ive literally never been in such a chill/kind space with so many nice people if you get what i mean.

Im not gonna quit trying to read after they officially close the server either. I cant let go of these characters just yet especially with how the jpn server is still ongoing. Gonna have to rely on translations now cause i gotta see everyone bloom no matter what >:’U ❤️

Ok i think ive emptied my brain enough. Sorry for all my nonsense. Ill be ok. I hope you all will be ok too. Im not good at sending comforting words but im sending hugs to those who need it.

[dulce-pjm]

get to know me tag game !!

tagged by the lovely @hauntedlilies !! thanks sweet m! these are always fun :))

as usual i rambled and got a little personal with the answers so you know all you followers keep building up the blackmail material i guess LOL

When is your birthday?

january 15!

What is your favorite color?

ahhh it’s always changing but rn i’m vibing with purple, pink, green, and yellow :))

What’s your lucky number?

7, 10, 15 :)

Do you have any pets?

yes !!! two cats and two dogs and i adore them !!!

How tall are you?

5′8″ (watch out jimin!! based on the evidence i have seven years left to outgrow you !!!)

How many pairs of shoes do you own?

i haven’t a clue

Favorite song?

my go-to answer is always seesaw but tbh it’s so hard to pick !!

Favorite movie?

agghhhhhh how do you choose???? i’ve mostly been watching animated movies recently bc it comforts me so probably your name or monster’s inc :)

What would be your ideal partner?

...park jimin?

LOL in all seriousness... i tend to like extroverts and just people who are super passionate about something !!! both romantically and in any relationship!! honestly oikawa tooru is the template i would drop everything and marry him he is a precious petty idiot and i love him the most

Do you want children?

fjdslgkhsdlkfjlsd not right now !!!! i tend to not answer this question too directly because i have plenty of time to think about it and i don’t want to tie myself to any direction !!!

Have you gotten in trouble with the law?

lol no but i think after a quick scroll through my tumblr you could have guessed that 

What color socks are you wearing?

no socks !!! unless it’s winter and i’m freezing sleeping in socks is a crime >:( but earlier i was wearing pink and purple socks !

Bath or shower?

depends !! but i never feel clean after a bath and still end up showering, the bath is just for me to chill 

Favorite type of music?

hmmmm kpop, musical theatre, minecraft music LOL

How many pillows do you sleep with?

four !! SLFKJLDSGH lol

Which position do you sleep in?

depends !!! i used to sleep exclusively on my stomach but i’ve changed a bit and honestly any position is possible! but no matter what i am cuddling a pillow (with the other three piled around me) and probably holding my own hand LOL 

What don’t you like when you’re sleeping?

being cold :( i can deal with hot but being freezing is terrible !! i like to spread out but when you’re cold you have to like curl yourself up to preserve heat

What do you have for breakfast?

cold leftovers are the ideal breakfast <3 i used to like breakfast foods but most of them just make me nauseous now so i end up just eating leftovers or coffee/tea 

Have you ever tried archery?

like once? like literally did one shot. was not good 

Favorite fruit?

strawberries !!!! yum yum yum (after that probably mango)

Favorite swear word?

i don’t know that i have a favorite but i say fuck the most LOL

Do you have any scars?

yes !! i’m clumsy so i have many burn scars on my hands from cooking or curling my hair (the biggest one was very creatively named Mark by my bestie and beta reader @delayedimperfection). i also have several scars from my psycho/lovely cat on my arms and hands (and then i went in the sun after getting several of them and yeah they probably will never go away it’s fine)

Are you a good liar?

nope !!! especially if you know me i think my tells are just easy to pick up on!! i rarely win as imposter in among us :( tragic 

What’s your personality type?

infp-t!! i think that’s what this is asking

What’s your favorite type of girl?

all !!!! 

Left or right handed?

right !! my left hand is useless <33

Favorite food?

sushi !!!! it’s filling but a lot of food makes me nauseous nowadays and i never feel that way after eating sushi 

Are you clean or messy?

messy !!

Favorite foreign food?

well i guess sushi LOL but i am always down to try something new!

How long does it take for you to get ready?

depends on how greasy my hair is!! anywhere from five minutes to an hour-ish

Most used phrase?

lol probably “oh my gosh” and “oh my god.” i also say this phrase that’s like from a specific city but i honestly do not even know to spell it it’s like gibberish i don’t even know

**update (not that anyone was asking) but i did some research and the phrase is jeezle petes!! it’s not exclusive to the city i picked it up from but that one city is how i learned it :))

Are you a good singer?

lol i’d like to hope so !!! i did musical theatre for several years so if i’m terrible well whoops? lol

Do you sing to yourself?

of course !!! 

Biggest fear?

ummmm idk i am such a scaredy cat so i’d say most things spook me !! i guess i’d say abandonment as a serious answer and ghosts as a silly(ish) one 

Do you like long or short hair?

i generally like shorter hair (on myself and other people) but i mean different hairstyles suit different people !!

Are you into gossip?

idk i don’t like to speculate and i try to always give people the benefit of the doubt but !!! if it’s me and my mom in the car well then no fucking mercy 

Extrovert or introvert?

introvert !!!! if you message me first i’ll love you forever (also hence why i love extroverts, they balance me out !!)

Favorite school subject?

i love love love chemistry and any kind of science !!!! (definitely haven’t projected that into any of my fics no no no...)

What makes you nervous?

being in unfamiliar places !! i hate feeling lost or feeling like people can tell that i’m lost

Who was your first real crush?

fjdlsghsdlk idk... i have such a hard time expressing and processing romantic feelings that i’m not really sure that i’ve had one !!! my best guess is probably my best friend a few years ago but honestly i don’t really even think i had a crush, i was just trying to reciprocate how he felt SJLDGKJLSDGKH this is soooo personal anyways~~~~~

How many piercings do you have?

i used to have three in each ear but due to some unfortunate circumstances two (in each ear) grew in :( i plan to get them re-pierced soon though !!

How fast can you run?

GJLSDGHLDKF idk ????? i’d like to think i’m relatively fast because i have longer legs but honestly that’s such a lie i have to be in fear to really be fast LOL

What makes you angry?

hmmm!! tbh it takes a lot to make me mad, i’m pretty chill and usually i get sad/upset rather than actually angry! but the quickest way to make me mad is to like expect something from me and never communicate it!! i can’t read your fucking mind i’m the biggest people pleaser i know and would probably bend over backwards for you if you just told me GJSLDKFHL yes this is about a very specific set of instances <3333

Do you like your own name?

yeah, actually !! naomi is an alias, i chose it just for fun, but i like my irl name too :)

What are your weaknesses?

my crippling self doubt :’) also i’m so ticklish it isn’t funny. hmmmm i also tend to put other people’s needs before my own and then let them take advantage of that GHLSDKFJS it’s fine. AND i need everyone to like me all the time especially when they are mean to me (which makes me easy to manipulate unfortunately flsdkghdlskfj why am i giving out this info)

What are your strengths?

i think i give okay advice and i’m good at teaching other people things !!! i’ve also been told i’m very genuine and honest :)

What is the color of your bedspread?

grey !!

Color of your room?

lol grey, white, and then honestly just an assorted bunch of colors

this was fun !!! tagging @softbobamilktae, @moon-write​, and @jtrbluv !!!

[peekbackstage]

Hello and thank you for your blog. I really agree with you in many aspects. And to be honest, I was so excited to learn some things from ent industry. Thank you for sharing your experience and insider opinion. I wanted to ask you as I was silly enough recently to try to talk to a toxic solo fan or maybe just anti of BJYX, I can’t say exactly. So e main point was (as usual) that only because CP XZ and YB will never be able to cooperate even as colleagues and costars. I think it’s more about the incident and toxic fans with antis who drew too much attention to the incident as I guess no one took CPF and their stuff seriously, can I say shipping was always considered by society as “marginal” thing. I mean there was always such things as shipping, fanfics, arts, right? I mean I still remember when I only learned about asian entertaiment through kpop (in further 2013 as a western person I was a little surprised to learn such thing😅) and still remember that many kpop groups mostly boy groups did this cp fan service. If I remember right Super Junior had even a show where they made a bl drama for fun. So shipping existed long ago before BJYX right? Did it somehow affect someone’s career? What do singers and artist think about it? Do they see it as a fun? Or do they get pissed off? I hope I managed to clearly show my question. Sorry if I made mistakes, English is not my native language. Thank you in advance.

Disclaimer: The following post is informed by my personal experience in the music industry. 

While I will not be commenting on anything in regards to BJYX anymore on this blog, I can answer your question more generally! 

LET’S TALK ABOUT HISTORY REDUX! 

In Asia, real person shipping (RPS) can largely be attributed to the emergence of BL in the 1970s in Japan in the form of manga, doujinshi, and other goods that paired same sex male characters from various manga/anime together.

RPS can be traced as far back as the 1980s with the rise of visual kei in Japan. Visual kei was a huge cultural revolution in Japan, introducing wild glam rock hair, makeup, and costumes into the popular mainstream, smashing through gender norms and challenging the status quo. 

During this period of time, visual kei bands such as X-Japan, LUNA SEA, and Buck-Tick regularly engaged in fan service on stage to the absolute delight of their fans. Artists such as Yoshiki, the leader of X-Japan, would engage in “outrageous” stunts such as dressing up in a wedding dress and parading out on stage to flirt with the vocalist, Toshi.

When visual kei artists weren’t up to antics like that, they would do stuff like this on stage:

(Pictured: Imai Hisashi and Sakurai Atsushi from Buck-Tick) 

Surprisingly, most visual kei artists went out of their way to play up fan service and the shipping, and it was not only widely accepted, but also encouraged - a tradition that still continues today! 

Some artists are so amused by the idea of shipping, as recently as 2009 at a concert in Taiwan, X Japan got back up to their old antics and put Yoshiki back in a wedding dress again and shipped him with their lead singer:

Much the same way the idol system moved from Japan and proliferated through Asia, fan service and shipping also did the same, taking root in both Korean and Chinese entertainment.

HISTORY LESSON OVER!

In my personal experience working with artists all over Asia, none of the artists that I ever worked with ever had an issue with shipping. They are all very much aware that it’s something fans like to see and are equally as aware about the fan communities out there that engage in shipping them together.

Overwhelmingly, most artists tend to be quite amused by the idea of being shipped with their bandmate. (I only ever encountered one artist - a Kpop idol - who at first didn’t really understand shipping, but when I explained to him what it was, he was suddenly very fascinated and amused about the idea of fans producing all of these transformative works shipping him and his bandmate.) 

For the most part, shipping doesn’t usually affect an artist’s career and is considered a sort of harmless, fun thing that fans do. It also doesn’t usually interfere with their lives. (So what happened with XZ is honestly kind of unprecedented.) 

[dead-end-street]

I already watched all dramas you mentioned. So maybe some romance drama recs if you watch them.

Ooh romance! :D I definitely have some recs for that! Just a note: I tend to stay away from the love triangle or second lead trope if I can help it mostly cus it's almost always handled poorly and it's annoying and everything could be solved if they were bi and made a throuple. But here are some recs for some fun romantic dramas:

- Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo. Honestly one of the cutest couples on a drama. They're silly and young but super adorable and sweet. It’s got a wonderful friends to lovers plot, and actually almost an enemies to friends to lovers line if you think about their first meeting LOOOOOL They have their own separate storylines and journeys but together they're just wonderful. Slight trigger warning for anyone that may have issues watching stuff about dieting and losing weight. I personally felt that storyline was unnecessary and they could’ve changed his brother’s profession to literally anything else and it could still work, but overall when I think back, I almost forget that even was a storyline on the show so all the other parts sort of make up for it. I loved NJH in this because he’s the cutest lovesick puppy. He also has an opportunity to show his more vulnerable side and there’s some scenes near the end where my heart broke for his character and he acted so well in them. If you like sports dramas, this one is nice and fun and light for the most part. It also helps that Lee Sung Kyung and Nam Joo Hyuk were dating at the time to make them extra cute together. 

- Because This Is My First Life. This show is about 3 best friends and their very different relationships and how they navigate through them. One is in a long term relationship, one is more of an independent woman trying to make it in the super misogynistic corporate world, and the other one (the lead) is a drama writer who is struggling to build her career while also secure housing instead of moving back home. This show has a fun fake dating/fake married/forced cohabitation plotline for the main couple, which are alway entertaining tropes. One thing that really stuck out for me was some of the dialogue and more serious scenes on the show. There's one in particular with the male lead speaking to the female lead's mother on their wedding day and lemme tell you... I BAWLED so hard listening to the mother's monologue. OOF it was so good but wow. There's a few other poignant scenes like that in the show that really stayed in my heart.

- Her Private Life. Okay I recently watched this one and it was so ridiculous but SO FUN. There were times when I was laughing so hard I had to pause. It also hits close to home in terms of fangirling and being in fandom. I'm not a kpop idol stan but I definitely have been in fandom enough to relate to that storyline. Basically if you've been on tumblr for more than 5 years you get it. The one thing I love about this show is that the main couple's relationship is grown up and more mature. Yes they do some silly things and they still have lots of fun but it's not puppy love that's easily swayed by the smallest of inconveniences. They communicate well and genuinely want the best for each other. Park Min Young is a romcom queen and she's so cute in this. There's fake dating in this, which is one of my favourite tropes. Also, Ryan Gold is fuckin hot and wants to fanboy his gf and I just love him so much.

- You Are My Spring. This one is newer and another more 'mature' relationship. I’d say this one is more of a healing drama with romance and then... murder???? Lol the two genres were kind of jarring when they’d flip back and forth between them. I wouldn’t say it was done in a bad way but you’d be watching the cutest romantic scene and then BAM murder is happening the next scene with no warning. XD But yeah another wholesome couple and one of my fave side characters, Ga-young who you’d expect to be the jealous ex ready to ruin their relationship, but NOPE she’s just here for a good time and wants to hang out with her new besties and not be ignored. Truly a hilarious and awesome character. Actually many of the side characters are hilarious and chaotic. This show really reminded me of a more grown up version of Run On, which is probably why I enjoyed it so much. The main couple both have trauma to deal with but it’s wonderful how they heal together and it’s one of the more healthy relationships I’ve seen in a drama where they accept each other as they are.

- Doom At Your Service. If you like tropes this show has got it all. It’s literally a fanfic lover’s DREAM with some fantasy to pull it all together. There’s the red string of fate, cohabitation, mandatory hand holding, fake dating, noble idiot, amnesia (some ppl don’t like it but it was done well!), and I’m sure several more that I can’t remember right now. [Side note: the second leads and their wack ass love triangle storyline is tHE WORST THING I’VE HAD TO WATCH IN A LONG TIME. I literally fast forwarded through most of that mess, which was sad cus I wanted to know more about the second female lead and her friendship with the main character but instead they stuck her with the most toxic storyline with a jerky man baby and a manipulative creep who treated her like a prize to be won (they legit made bets about her and acted like she was their property to control... one of the guys told her she couldn’t check her schedule to see if she was free cus he was her boss now and had a contract with him so she’d do what he said so she would be successful). Anyway if you wanna keep some brain cells, skip all that trash and focus on the main plot and couple.] Park Bo Young is THE cutest. It was the first thing I’d seen her in and I love her so much. She was such a delight and her character was so wonderful. Seo In guk UNDERSTOOD THE ASSIGNMENT, whatever it was for that episode, whether it be acting as a terrifying being who has the ability to control death or being a lovesick bf who just wants to make out with his gf. The way he played up the ‘immortal being that doesn’t understand how things work cus he’s too cool for it all but is humbled by this tiny woman who could devastate him if she wanted and falls head over heels for her’ was excellent. A+++ for portraying a man in constant agony over the woman he loves. We love to see it xDDDD

- Crash Landing On You. I feel like this one is on everyone’s list and for good reason, but I’m sure you’ve seen it. It was my first kdrama and probably a good gateway show to get me into it. I’ve also never cried so hard in my life for like an hour and 40 min cus kdramas don’t let you rest LOL

Hope this list helps and that you maybe haven’t seen some of them! :D

[mostlycompetentwriter]

i’m just glad you’re an adult bc... sometimes i wonder if it’s silly to be invested in idols (though we’re similar ages) but your writing and excitement for skz is comforting bc most stays i see online are like 12-17 😭 idek if i’m making sense but anyway u know,, thanks again -moonlight

I honestly feel the same way sometimes, and I agree with you (especially when I’m on another social outlet). It makes me feel better to connect with other adults who like Stray Kids, and I’ve met some people who aren’t even in school anymore. I’d say we’re a niche community, and I’ve seen articles about Kpop describing their fans as young teenagers and yeah that’s probably a majority, but I love Kpop music. I’m also glad that I can be a source of comfort, so let’s stick close together as adult fans 😂💙

[kihyunswrath]

Ah knets. I've seen them tear someone down so bad to the point of no return but they never learn. Some do but it's like their past time, digging someone's past then revealing it so they can feel better about themselves. Thing is, a lot of countries are like this but I've never seen this kind of dedication from anyone else (except UK ig)

My understanding of this is that Koreans have this strong sense of communal control that justifies people punishing each other even before actual law enforcement has anything to say about the matter. Koreans don’t trust their own law enforcement much, but seem to place their own understanding of morals, social norms and etiquette above that. That creates this “masses know best” effect, which in turn makes it possible for them to start protesting against something rather seamlessly - aka. if they think something threatens their common interests. So they’re good at defending themselves against common enemy, but their biggest threat comes from within their group, from individuals who defy the norms of the group and therefore disturb their peace and unity. It seems to be the biggest possible crime you can think of: breaking the implicitly agreed social standards and norms in a very public way. See Wonho’s example: everybody was fine with him having a “shady” past (or whatever) as long as it wasn’t ever explicitly talked about. They were totally cool with him doing a bit of this and that as a teenager, but becoming a public role model and then being exposed to the last detail, years after? Considering the reactions of Koreans it was almost like he fucking murdered someone, and it was suddenly everybody’s literal civic duty to express their utter disdain, shock, mock and disbelief, even though everything he was accused of just made me... scratch the back of my head, at most, because of how meaningless it literally was.

Like honestly just a few days ago I had a knetizen waltz into my inbox (I literally don’t know how they even found my blog and how deeply involved with uselessness they had to be to find it) and used like literally the strongest possible wording to imply that Wonho absolutely cannot come back ever “ 근데 니네 오빠 절대 못 돌아올꺼야 “ and I was like... why the hell do these Koreans have to be so dramatic over something so insignificant we might literally be talking about ass hairs at this point. But no, to them it’s a communal rule being very visibly broken and they’re now flipping tables and seat mats and bowls of bibimbap and yeah, well you get the point. 

And the stupidest thing about that whole phenomenon is that it’s not about anyone actually breaking any rules. The accusation is enough, because that alone brings up disturbance of peace. Allegations are enough of a dealbreaker, because according to this logic, conformity, unity and upholding the status quo is the only thing that truly matters. “If you had been good enough, no one would accuse you of anything anyway, right?” No smoke without fire kind of logic. Except that there might have been no smoke, either, just one one-sided confession that had questionable motives.

And I mean? I wouldn’t mind if Wonho had been accused of something... well, actually criminal. I’m ready to take the potential victim’s side if it’s about rape, murder, sexual harassment or other serious assaults, because catching the real perpetrator in that case is more important than trying to maintain an individual’s reputation. But there was just a weird controversial statement about singular weed use and then false rumors on top of that? Allegations that apparently had been waiting for six convenient years to be brought up, now that all the proof had for certain disappeared? Lord miss me with that bullshit.  

But obviously this is also about a bunch of sasaengs showing twisted and childish solidarity to their own favourite groups. Like. Obviously undereducated teenagers who have paid fuckton of money to support their own oppas and eonnis are going to literally pee their pants from happiness if a powerful group like Monsta X is removed from their way and they can continue to try to... well what ever they’re even trying to achieve. Like yeah, kpop groups are trying to beat each other in the same exact game, overpower each other in the same  music genre, trying to win the same exact prizes, find concert venues in a very limited list of suitable places... so their anti fans would love to create scandals and crises so that their own morally pure group could then shine in stead and rise over all the others. 

But I mean, that shit is going to hit their own group at some point, too, so it just proves they’re very short-sighted, instant-gratification-seeking childish twats. Also? It’s very, very Korean to think only the most, most popular groups ever even deserve to exist. Most less popular groups have a relatively steady fanbase internationally, but they are not at all visible in Korea, because Koreans only count those who can constantly break records and become number ones in literally everything. Which, yeah, stems from their general culture, where everything and everyone is ranked. Universities are ranked, students are ranked, restaurants, stores, skincare products... and it’s embarrassing to admit you’re not getting A+ scores in your every single exams you’ve ever done. It’s embarrassing to not be graduating from SKY universities. It’s embarrassing to not be the first in everything, because only number ones can ever be celebrated or praised. The entire culture is encouraging everyone to be extremely competitive and gamble through their entire lives in order to gain social currency (hence those silly little games in every variety show or fucking trying-to-decide-where-to-eat videos idols release). 

So... as a foreigner, it just feels stupid, awkward and unnecessary, because obviously the game is going to become more and more intense and serious the more players are in it and the longer it continues, which then means the smallest flaws and mistakes in the game can suddenly gain such enormous proportions. And here I am thinking I literally do not give a single fuck whether my own fav group becomes as popular as BTS because there’s only one number one but billions of competitors and it’s a waste of time, money and effort if only one position in the entire planet is enough to satisfy you. 

Then again? If knetz literally choose to make their own life paths as hard and unforgiving as possible, there’s nothing I can do about that. It’s going to hurt them the worst at some point, and I can’t say I’d necessarily run out of my way to help them when it’s their time to take in all the hits. 

[daebakinc]

Amber Gone Rogue Tour Fan Account

There’s so much so I’m just going to bullet point it instead of a write up.

-First thing that happened when it was my turn for the meet&greet was Amber pulling me in for a hug&asking how I was(SHE IS SO THIN TINY BUT STRONG). When I replied cold, she gave me another hug&rubbed my back. She was so silly during the pics and then when I told her thank you for supporting the LGBTQ community, she just waved it away and gave me another hug.

-She laughed and cooed over the llama keychain I got her and as I was leaving yelled at me to go eat and if I was legal to go drink alcohol to warm me up lol, silly llama.

-I was front row AND NO ONE PUSHED ME THE WHOLE TIME!! Way to go, Amber fans!

-Justin is sexy af and knows it but also adorable damn him. After his stage, I overheard a bouncer telling another that he’d planned on having his earbuds in the whole time but that hadn’t even lasted one song Justin was so good.

-When she took a break to talk, Amber had to remind herself how to speak English lol. Then she told us she had two rules for the night: #1- this was a be yourself zone and a time to relieve stress, and #2-apologize if you hit someone.

-She yelled at Justin for making the micstand too tall and told us to learn the toss dance(?) because it’s applicable in so many situations.

-“If you ever feel alone or shitty about yourself or everything, it’s taken me along time to realize I can change that. I was talking about the set and one thing that hit me is I’m still putting these things together, I’m not perfect, I’m still figuring it out. Honestly when I meet you guys, you guys say thank you. Thank you for letting me be who I am. You let me be who I am and I’m trying to be a help if anyone needs it. Thanks you. If you guys are fighting a battle, a boss, girlfriend, boyfriend, parents, friends, you’ll get through this and be stronger and become yourself.”

-Before Amber sang 3 million years, she told us about how her friend Tiffany got engaged and she was going to be a bridesmaid(had to show us of her butt because she’d been doing squats in prep for the dress). Said the song was, “Totally cheesy. Embrace each other, no I don’t know. At that time I was seeing someone. If you’re single with your dog, goldfish. I can sing this song during rehearsal and can’t sing during concert.” She then proceeded to giggle and cringe while she attempted to dance through most of the song.

-Talking about her song “Beautiful”: This was written 6-7 years and what hit me when I was recording it was how much it’s so hard to kinda hold on to your you and I hope that if you’re going through something or had something for awhile that you continue to remind yourself that you’re beautiful as you are (she facepalmed when someone called her beautiful) and whatever complecities and issues you have that’s beautiful too.”

-Talking about “Get Over It”: “So you know those people who’re really *yuck sounds*, okay I get you, we’re not agreeing that’s cool, let’s move on. Those people. You just kinda wanna move on. Stay in your line, I’ll stay in my lane. Words hard right now! Agree to disagree. You need a mix of everything to be beautiful. This next song will help you get over it.”

-Talking about singing “All I want for Christmas is You”: “I kinda dug myself a grave with this song. I thought ‘Oh, I should do a Christmas song? Yeah, we’re going to figure everything out. I couldn’t sing it though when I was recording back up vocals. Wait, why can’t I sing it? Oh, right, because every time I sing it, I’m drunk at karaoke. Holidays are coming around so let’s bring some holiday cheer!”

-In conclusion, Amber is a lovely, humble, amazing person. As a friend I made at the concert said, “She’s transcended “Kpop idol” and become an artist.”

[aharris00britney]

ASKS 09

random stuff, some facts about me, some sims questions, video requests, hair sneak peaks, umm and other stuff too…. also I am 10 candies from being able to evolve that dumb fish so wig

Anonymous said: Do you have a car?

Nope!

Anonymous said: Hi wcif the shirts in your coming soon in June update ps I love your cc x

hey! for any WCIFs for that stuff, I am probably going to wait until the posts for the hairs are up because I know that people won’t check when the hairs are posted for my old wcifs.

@angelamariacalle​ said: you could make a WIP the eyes that you use in your post with ice cream?     

i have no idea what you were trying to say ;-; the eyes I used are my default ones which you can download here

@ayoshi-sims​ said: Once you get this SHARE 6 facts about yourself and send it to your 10 favorite blogs ✨

I still play pokemon go (fight me)

I think that pop music was the best in 2007-2011 (One of the Boys, The Fame/The Fame Monster, Circus/Blackout, Animal/Cannibal, The best damn thing)

I am a super middle child! (two older siblings, and two younger ones as well)

I keep all my kpop albums on my dresser, with my Red Velvet one hanging in a red/white flower crown I own :)

My favorite food to snack on is either a tuna kit, or pickles

I am a bottom XD

Anonymous said: When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then, send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously. You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity!

aaaaah okay um

my kpop girlies i stan

my angel rocky (my old af pug)

my friends (irl and online <3)

the concept of love is always something that makes me happy omg i know that is cheesy but like… imagine finding someone that is perfect for you will always be there when you need and like just GOD I NEED A MAN NOW

charli xcx music umm yeah it’s 5 in the morning

Anonymous said: Hello, I was wondering if you have your sims on the gallery? Thanks for your time. :)       

Yeah! I have a few sims for download on my origin which is SPOTHARRIS I also have them for download on this page

Anonymous said: Hello!! Just wondering wicf the freckles from the discontinued model in your older posts (e.g. momo buns) thank you!!! BTW I love your stuff soo much! :)

Hey! I no longer have that file or even know where I got them from :( Here is an OLD af wcif I answered of them though

Anonymous said: Where are you from?

I am from Virginia, which is on the east coast of the United States :)

Anonymous said: Hi!! I feel like this is such a silly question but oh well I’m a noob. If I use your Quartz eyes V2 will they be inherited in the next generation if my sims have kids? Same with your hair colors as well?

I honestly have no idea how any of that stuff works :( I’m sorry! I assume it should but also maybe not? ;-; again, sorry!

Anonymous said: omg the hair with the flowers in it! *-* i love!! will you also make a version without the flowers? I also wanted to say I’m really happy your life is going well and congrats on the 30k followers

thank you so much!! and I the hair will obvi have no flowers :P the flowers should be accessories if everything works out. There are some clipping issues rn but I think it is fixable :) here is a pic without the flowers. If you guys have any recommendations about then pls send them my way

Anonymous said: Would you ever consider doing really long curly hair like the singer Sza’s?

I personally don’t like super long hair in TS4, it just doesn’t look well with most clothes and has clipping/weight issues :( I’m sorry!!

Anonymous said: Do you know what happened to SimpleSimmer?

I don’t, no. But I am sure she is fine :) sometimes people just take breaks

Anonymous said: Hi! So, i really love your sim with the dark brown hair (for your hair cc) and i was wondering if you could ever share that sim! Because she has a beautiful face. Also i am wondering which skin overlay (etc) you are using! You can find me in the gallery under the name: xThisGirl (if that is an easier way for you to respond :)

Hey! You can find her download here, along with all my other sims :) I am glad you like her <3

Anonymous said: Hey! I know you probably won’t read this as fast but I wanted to ask, how do you shift the hairline to the side or any of that? Like your daisy hair, briana hair, and that one wip you had in a tutorial video of yours! I really want to do that but I just don’t know how :(

I will maybe record something for this! No promises bc I have to get someone to edit the videos for me and I don’t wanna bug him but I will see if he can edit it for me if I film it :) It is pretty simple to do once you get the hang of it

@sims4storiesandstuff​ said: I just wanted to say, your hairs are the shit! Absolutely stunning. I rarely use the EA hairs anymore! I think you deserve every follower you have.            

Thank you so much!!! I really appreciate stuff like this <3 I don’t play the game myself much so it makes me happy knowing that my hairs make other peoples games so much more enjoyable uwu

Anonymous said: hello can you make please a video when you make a hair and upload it?

I would like to! I just do so many random things while doing a hair like showing pictures to friends and getting their advice. So I will have to see, would you guys mind if the video had conversation stuff in it? As I said earlier, someone edits the videos for me so I don’t wanna get him to do more work for it by editing them out :( I will look into it for sure though!

Anonymous said: That hair wip in your lil video tutorial is absolutely beautiful!! Can’t wait until it’s released !! 🧡🧡

thank you so much!! Here are some more pics of it:

Anonymous said: are you korean? If not, how can you like kpop if you dont understand it?

I am not korean haha, but music is about more than understanding. It is about the feelings it vibes you get from it and the moods it puts you in. People love screamo music even though it is hard to understand, and music like instrumentals and dubstep heavy are just… what the music makes you feel. I listen to ‘normal’ pop, kpop, instrumentals, artists like grimes that mumble their songs a lot with production heavy stuff. I think that as long as the music is something you enjoy, you shouldn’t be judged for liking it. I know you aren’t trying to be rude with this ask so don’t think I am attacking you please! I am just trying to give you some insight into why different music interests people :)

Anonymous said: I’m so happy to see that you’ve made a patreon account! you really make amazing CC and that’s such a gift to the community, I’m happy that now I get to feel like I can give something to you haha :) have a great day/evening!

thank you so much! and thank you for supporting <3

@lesyatim​ said: Hello,  it’s not ask. I only want to say that you make very beautiful hair and  THANK YOU! I Love You💕💕💕💕💕 P.S. I’m from Russia and I don’t now English very well♡)

thank you so much!! Спасибо большое (that is suppose to say thank you in german lmao)

Anonymous said: When did u make a skin?

it is a hidden gem :P It is mainly to fix the collarbones bc I use multiple skin overlays so I that is why is was never posted :)

Anonymous said: Congratulations i hope you have a happy family 😄

ummm?? I GOT IT I GOT I GOT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT

@dangerouskindofmind said: I actually don’t have a question! I just wanna say you are one of my favorite sims 4 creators out here. Your hairs; snatched. Your clothes; beautiful. Your sims; amazing. And your personality looks just as good lol. I’ve probably downloaded like 99.9% of your content and I just wanna say thank you for all you do to make my sims 4 experience loads better. I also hope you’re having a great day

thank you so much!!!! I appreciate it a ton, I love that my content makes people love this game more <3

Anonymous said: Just wanted to say that literally all of your CC is beautiful and from what I’ve seen, I absolutely adore your personality. Keep it up my dear, you’ve got crazy talent. Much love <3

thank you, thank you!!! My personality irl is kind of shitty lmao I am really shy and like reserved ;-; and it is just memorizing how to do some editing to hair meshes, not much talent involved <3 thank you so so much again though!! I love getting these kind of messages

Anonymous said: Are you gonna make an outerwear cc pack when the seasons expansion pack releases?

I don’t make much clothing CC so I highly doubt it. I am working on a swimsuit that I might post later this month though! We will see what happens though :D

Anonymous said: thank you very much for a playlist that you shared with One Shot,Two Shot,I’m totally in love ur the best

yesss BoA is such a queen, listen to the full mini album if you can! It is one of her best releases in my opinion.

Anonymous said: aharris00britney awnsered me,cuz I remember my question and it’s on the asks recent post AND i’ll shake this print in all my enemies face thx,I asked about the patreon and I’m doing it right now bby <3            

hehe thank you!! <3 you show them enemies

– just so the eating ass juicy booty ask so yep that is all I have gotten in the past month that I can answer :P

[fyrapartnersearch]

After easing back into writing and regaining my inspiration, I’ve decided to begin another dedicated search for partners! Name’s Troy, but online-wise, I go by Noeul (honestly, almost every person so far has pronounced it in a different way but my favourite so far has to be.. “newl” lmao!) and a myriad of other nicknames. I’m 20, located in the US, Central Timezone. Huge lover of Kpop (primarily EXO), movies, anime, video-games, photography and travel! I consider myself to be very friendly and laid-back, and maybe even a bit too loyal for my own liking haha. 

Before I get into the important details of what I’m looking for and my general set of rules and whatever else, I want to address one thing that has unfortunately become a problem recently: please, please do not communicate with me if you are going to up and leave without any sort of indication. Already from my former ad(s) on here I’ve had people ditch and ignore me despite my attempts to figure out the cause, and not only does this waste my time, but makes me feel like I’ve done something horrible. We’re adults and we should act like it, yeah?

And to add, while writing is a passion for me and it helps me deal with a lot of my personal issues, I am not looking for critique or constant negative remarks and ridicule aimed at me. I am still dealing with past harmful encounters and I ask that if you have a penchant for being critical (even in sarcasm) of your partners, you should move on from my ad.

Okay, so now to the fun stuff–

I have ten years of writing experience, and I write in third person past tense only, multi-paragraph to novella style. I am that type of person that really likes to get into my characters’ heads, and I really enjoy laying out their thoughts in detail. I don’t like pressuring anyone to do the same; if you want to write just a few paragraphs, that is perfectly fine! As long as the story progresses I am cool with whatever length you reply with. Generally, I can be expected to send out replies within a day, but sometimes I may only be able to get one out every few days or once a week if my life gets hectic; I’ll always let you know if I think a reply isn’t going to get sent for a bit. 

 I enjoy communication outside of the RP and would love to get to know each other; I love sharing moodboards, aesthetics, playlists, silly memes that remind us of our characters, anything and everything to do with the stories. I’d rather it not be just ‘two strangers exchanging words but not actually saying anything,’ you feel?

I write all genders but predominantly lean to male/non-binary, and I favor fantasy/modern supernatural/dystopian/sci-fi/futuristic genres with a dislike of slice of life (unless there’s a twist). Unbothered by mature themes and pretty lax with most topics; your limits are my limits so please do tell me of any triggers you have before we begin writing. Not looking for smut/romance-centered plots, but I am totally cool with sexual themes, innuendos, stuff like that. That being said, I am looking for adults around my age.

I don’t really have a giant list for pairings, plots, settings whatever else at this time. But some things I am NOT interested in are: Mafia, very base supernatural, medieval, Hunger Games, and some magic-type plots. As much as I like the concept of a fandom-based story, the only thing that really interests me is MCU, but I’d prefer a crossover or canon x OC type of thing.

I’d prefer to have multiple characters involved in the story; not too hip with roleplay lingo, but I think it’s called doubling? Anyway, sometimes I like to add in interesting side characters or main characters if we agreed on it, because sometimes I can get a bit burnt out on continually writing the same character for one story. I can write any and all gender pairings, but fair warning that I really don’t like straight cis relationships. Sorry. 

One last thing– I really prefer writing over email, and communicating via discord! Tried Google Docs but found it just too confusing for me, and discord makes it easy to reply back quickly since my phone notifies me!

So I believe I covered most of the essentials, but knowing me I probably forgot a thing or two /eyeroll. If you think we would be a good match then please do contact me! I look forward to meeting new people! ^^

Email: hellsparkle@outlook.com

Discord: noeul#9589

[weedstoner]

I'm like not gonna apologize for liking something deemed silly or ridiculous by ppl who only listen to like unintelligible bullshit lol I'm so over feeling guilty for liking something ppl on tumblr deem "embarassing" like if I'm being honest my life sucks right now and it's really nice to have something to genuinely care about and I've found really nice amazing friends through liking BTS/kpop in general and I mean people who are actually nice and give a shit about me unlike 90% of the other mutuals I have on here tbh....like I'm just at a time in my life where this kind of community is really something I need and its cool to have that community be based around ppl who I genuinely think have a lot of talent and are good ppl in general

really and truly just let people enjoy what they enjoy....I'm just honestly unfollowing ppl who only have negative shit to say bc I'm sick of it and I just want to talk to positive friendly people who care about the same things I do! at the end of the day that's all I want and honestly finding this community probably saved me from a really bad mental spiral so I'm just thankful! and if you dont like that then honestly fuck you I dont care anymore if I'm gonna be friends w tumblr people might as well be friends w the ones who are actually nice and have like the emotional capability to care about others no tea no shade but so many of you are like empty shells of humans and its exhausting to be around that type of energy