#it’s hard to communicate honestly when the people ur talking to don’t necessarily expect or trust direct language to have no hidden meanings

[naisaa]

as someone who used to be an any pronouns bitch and is currently a firm he/him bitch, i did actually appreciate when people made an effort to not only use the default she/her pronouns bc it felt like they made an effort to acknowledge that i wasn’t a cis woman in some way. but that’s mostly bc my any pronouns phase was my “i’ve accepted that i’m not cis but i’m still desperately clinging to denial about what i actually want bc it would be Too Difficult (medical transition and being perceived as a Man™️), maybe i can be vaguely nonbinary as a compromise” phase. so i wasn’t a true any pronouns bitch at heart u__u

my experience is obviously not universal, but a lot of my nonbinary any/multiple pronouns friends have also told me it often feels… weird when (cis) people only use the default pronoun. as if they take “any pronouns are fine” as permission to basically pretend the person is a cis woman/man by only using the default she or he. so i do try not to only use the default pronoun, and i think the sort of people that correct themselves often do it for the same reason, being With It enough to have heard some trans people complain abt this phenomenon, and awkwardly wanting to signal that they’re aware the person in question isn’t cis.

idk think it’s mostly the well intentioned principle of “listen and believe people when they’re telling you what is and isn’t fine for them” colliding with the knowledge that “people often lie about what’s fine actually out of politeness, so which is it.” Many such cases.

the silly thing about being an any pronouns bitch and making it very known in my workplace that I'm an any pronouns bitch is that people will still act like little clownlings about it for no reason.

like, listen: I know that there's a pronoun most people want to default to when they look at me. we can all acknowledge that. I only look androgynous to very specific kind of queer person, which most people aren't. and I am, explicitly, giving people permission to use the default pronoun and saying it's fine, you're not going to hurt my feelings if you use that one.

and still I will watch very well meaning people use the one pronoun, then verbally stumble and correct themselves to say they/them instead. like they're exactly With It enough to remember that neutral pronouns exist but not With It enough to comprehend that there's no need to "correct" themselves. any pronouns are correct for me; you aren't doing anything by changing your she/hers to they/thems.

idk I'm not mad about it at all, it's just always fascinating to see how people react to any pronouns users, particularly when they needlessly overcomplicate it.

[frillshark-fr]

How do you get people to always buy your dragons? Genuine question

i was gonna say something like “haha i have no fucking clue” but that would be a lie i think about this a lot actually so i might have some insights i’ve been breeding dragons as my primary activity on FR since i started playing FR (in 2014...) and people have only started actually buying dragons from me consistently like, 5-6 months ago, despite 2-3 attempts at running a genuine hatchery onsite that always died due to lack of interest & not really being worth the effort. 

so ive thought a lot about what the hell is happening now and why my dragons are suddenly consistently selling and I think ive come down to these being the main points of advice i can give: 1. make friends! be friendly! don’t be weird! be a cool and fun person to interact with! 2. post consistently. post your dragons consistently. post about other stuff consistently. just be an active member of the community 3. POST YOUR SHIT IN THE “#FLIGHT RISING” TAG. THIS IS PROBABLY THE ONLY TRUELY HELPFUL THING I SAY IN THIS POST 4. make pairs that are sexy as hell and be openly proud of them. make dragons and pairs that you like, not what you think will necessarily sell. people can tell when you like stuff and being genuinely passionate about something, whatever the fuck it is, will get other people passionate as well longer versions/explanations under the cut because man this got a mile long. i wasn’t kidding when i said i think about this a lot and i am so sorry if you wanted something concise and useful

1. to be a little glib. i am mutuals/friends with more clout in the FR community than I do kjdshfdsfdhjhkfdf shoutout to everyone who draws their dragons really good on a regular basis because i am riding on your coattails to sell my dragons. i love you this was never my intent, obviously! DO NOT BEFRIEND PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU WILL GET STUFF FROM THEM IT’S JUST A REALLY BAD THING TO DO TO PEOPLE!!! i wouldn’t be friends w/ people if i didn’t genuinely like and get along with them! no amount of pixel cash is worth putting up with people you dont like or abusing people you admire!  but i’d also somehow feel wrong to just... neglect mentioning this factor. idk it’s probably a self-esteem thing sjdkgfhdsf i just Don’t feel like my #success has been totally out of my own effort because its not like im #hustling or whatever i just posted dragons and stuff happened

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2. being consistent! just. posting consistently! posting Every Hatchling I Have and Talking About Them On Tumblr!  Once I had a couple nests just sell super fast likely due to aforementioned clout, i was emboldened to just post more of my nests more often and I swear this has more effect than anything else. i just needed the self-esteem boost to Start Doing That posting consistently makes ppl follow u for ur content which gets even more people to look at your dragons which gets more people to buy your dragons.

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2a. Also just post a lot in general, even if you aren’t necessarily posting about your dragons for sale. it definitely helps! just be friendly and active and people will come

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3. post your shit in the tag. not in “#dragon-sales” or “#fr-dragon-sales” or anything weird like that because I don’t know if anyone actually looks at those, but people definitely browse “#flight rising”. no matter how many followers you have, more people will see your content if you post it in #flight rising than if you just chuck it into the void. 

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3a. however! do not put links into the post if you want it to actually show up in the tag. tumblr is cool in that it doesn’t actually matter that much when you post something, the same way it really matters on twitter bc twitter has algorithms that decide for you what it thinks you want to be seeing whereas tumblr just shows you everything in chronological order. if you post something into the tag at 1am... it will still be there at 2pm when people log on and start scrolling.

the only thing tumblr seems to consistently hide from a tag (and possibly a dashboard, but idk) are posts with links in them, as a half-assed attempt to limit spam. instead of linking to your sales tab/to the dragons directly in the post, reblog it with the links instead. to reduce latency between a post going up and the links being available, i type out the links in the initial post, cut them, post the thing into the tag, then very quickly reblog, paste the links, and post the reblog jdhfsdf. i don’t know if that benefits anything really? but it can sometimes take me a while to type links, so if i posted, pressed reblog, typed up all the links, then posted, it’d be like ~15 minutes where someone may see the post, think “oh i would like to buy those dragons”, then can’t find the link, think “oh well, i will just find it later”, scroll on, and just... completely forget about it. so uh. go quick?

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3b. the armchair sociologist in me also thinks self-reblogging has the added benefit of like... you know how people are more likely to tip a barista when a dollar is already in the tip jar? or how people are more likely to take one of those little tabs on a flyer if one of them is already missing? i think that works with notes, too. i don’t know why i think that or why it happens i just swear once a post gets 1 note, suddenly it gets Even More Notes, and if it doesn’t get any notes for a while it will sit at 0 notes until the end of time. so giving yourself 1 obligatory note makes people more likely to interact. i think

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4. all of these are hard to quantify but this one is especially so: have cool and unique dragons. make your pairs sexy as hell. don’t put all your eggs (hah) into the one basket of selling dragons that are technically “popular”. we have all seen triple white/triple obsidian/triple orca/triple any other popular colors and cherub/pere/stained or wasp/bee/glim pthahlos or whatever. they’re pretty! we get it! but everyone has had one and everyone has had those pairs and market for dragons like that can be super oversaturated. try to break free from that and sell dragons that people can only get from you. I can’t tell you what to do though bc that rly depends on you. make pairs that you find exciting or interesting and people will feel that. i have a very specific theme and aesthetic that i don’t feel like is especially common on FR and i am genuinely very enthusiastic about it. marine shit is my Thing:tm: both on and off FR and dragons are one of my many ways of expressing that   if you have a Thing:tm:, either some fr-centric aesthetic (like being super into plague or earth or light or something) or something more general (such as any of the -punks or -cores)... just fuckin roll with it honestly. if you’re goth? make got h dragons. like scene stuff that looks straight out of a middle school in 2010? rock that hot-topic lair. outdoorsey type? make dragons that look like you’d meet them on a hike in the woods. it really works with anything!  people can tell when you really love something and i know that seeing someone really love something, even if it’s not necessarily MY thing, makes me really excited too!! 

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4a. never show fear. people can smell fear. never be like “well this one isn’t that good” because suddenly now you’ve planted the idea that it’s ugly in other people’s heads when they may have really liked it had you not accidentally suggested to them that it’s an ugly dragon. people are EXTREMELY suggestible to even VERY minor cues so be always a little bit bolder than you think you should be you’d be surprised at how many times ive been like “eh, this one’s kind of a dud, i’ll probably have to exalt this one when the auction expires” and then that hatchling is the first to sell. never ever ever ever decide what other people like for them. always act like your dragons are the hottest shit in all the land and Believe It. this is what people mean when they say “fake it till you make it”

- 4b. also, idk if it’s true of everyone but it’s really off-putting to see someone having serious pity-parties for themselves, on sales posts or otherwise. ive had bad experiences with people who are uncomfortably quick to self-depreciate (because they were using their genuine self-hatred to manipulate me or my friends), so i might be a little more trigger-happy about avoiding this behavior than others, but don’t weaponize your sadness to guilt people into doing what you want. it’s really not cool.

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okay i think that’s my entire manifesto on how i do dragon selling. anon i am so sorry im sure you were expecting like “believe in yourself :)” and here i am dissecting dragon selling like it’s a frog in a science class

edit: AFTER ALL THAT I STILL THOUGHT OF ONE MORE THING. It’s not really a Point, just a Reminder:

i don’t post about all the times i have to exalt dragons that don’t sell. you are seeing me being very selective about what i post. you dont sit and stare at my lair or click through offspring lists or check old sales posts. there are a lot of times where someone just doesn’t sell. even now when i’m selling stuff pretty consistently i will still sometimes have dragons that don’t sell for seemingly no reason. even dragons I think are sure to sell will sometimes just... not. and that’s ok! you gotta just be.. ok with that. it’s par for the course. i typically list dragons for 7 days on the AH, give them a couple more days after their auction expires (partially because i forget, partially to give them a grace period for people to pm/ask me about them), and then exalt them after that point. w/ some dragons that i don’t think got a fair shake for one reason or another (such as the sales post not showing up in the tag or something) i do a little clearance (like the halloween dragons i recently posted) but for the most part if they don’t sell, i just exalt them. 90% of the time i don’t even bother to level them up i just press the exalt button and call it a day. it’s fine

[7hyuns]

sf9 as doms or subs;

warnings; nsfw, mentions of multiple kinks 

a/n; this is just a lil something while i use the free time i have to make a bunch of stuff for my drafts so i don’t have to leave u all in a drought like this again ! for this reason, i’m re-opening my requests again for a lil while so i can have more requests to choose from !! 

inseong; 

overall; 

ah the enigma

honestly? probably a dom

but he has switch tendencies……

so maybe i’m wrong

anyway the worst thing about inseong is that he’d be really confident even before you slept w him for the first time

like he doesn’t really have any worry because he knows he’s good in bed :///

but ur just like “haha ok sure i guess”

then when you first sleep with him you’re like…ok….ok. message received.

i feel like inseong is really in-tune with other people just in general

and as he always likes to remind everyone, hE’s VeRy iNtElLiGeNt

so he’d always pay special attention to what you’re reacting to

having said that he’s probably into experimentation

overall. idk whether he’d even really have a placement on the dom/sub line

he’d kinda just go with whatever both of you was feeling right at the moment

but i think, in conclusion, he’s more inclined to be dominant

kinks; 

honestly? who knows

i know these are My Brand but inseong is just so odd

probably wants to try all of them though

except! i really don’t think he’d be interested in any *extreme* ones

but if you were i think he’d try them out just for the experience

if he had main ones i think it’d probably be

overstimulation (giving)

mocking. n i don’t mean degrading i just mean he’d straight up mock you sometimes

punishments;

if he had any i feel like he’d try and keep it creative

or at least he’d try and keep you on ur toes with them

he honestly just wants to do ones that you’re still gonna get off to

like he would pay such close attention to which kinks you reacted to more

so he’d be like “what if i used one of your favourite kinks as a punishment. haha forget it. unless…”

so if you liked overstimulation. that’s what ur getting!

tbh i feel like any punishment that’s not being done directly for you just wouldn’t do it for him  

aftercare;

he’s definitely gonna wanna snuggle

n maybe give you a couple smooches

but he’s so cute :(( he’d probably wanna go all out if either of you had tried out a new kink

if he’s taking care of you, he gets you food, he gets you a drink, he’d probably wash ur hair for you if you needed him to

(a big thing for him would probably be you both being clean before going to sleep so :// good luck if ur lazy)

if he’s being taken care of, he’d just wanna have a drink n be cuddled. like he is officially baby and just wants to sleep and do nothing else

youngbin; 

overall; 

you know what it is!

he’s a dom. that’s it. that’s the tweet

he just exudes dom energy

but i think he’d mostly be a soft dom :)

just wants to take care of you n make you feel good !!

i don’t really think he’d be too pressed if you wanted to top him though

as long as he knew he was still the one making you feel good he doesn’t care how it’s happening lmao

always trying to control the pace no matter what

mfing laughs when you push his hands away

even when ‘s trying to be a cool, hard dom he can’t but go （￣ε￣ʃƪ）whenever you do something cute

my main point. even when he is being rougher or more dominant he’s a Soft Boy at heart and you could literally always get around him

kinks;

he loves hand holding bitch that’s his brand

neck kisses (receiving)

lowkey, but marking (giving)

not really a kink but he loves holding you up against a wall just to flex

i think he’d wanna have gentle n sweet vanilla sex sometimes |(￣3￣)|

praise!!!! compliments!!! hyping each other up for literally nothing!!!

light choking (giving)

punishments; 

honestly if you ever actually annoyed him enough for him to feel like he had to

it’d just be something he already knew you liked lol

he just genuinely doesn’t see a point in doing something that won’t get you off?? idk

if you really, really liked spanking he’d do it but honestly?? he doesn’t see it as a punishment

to him it’s just indulging one of ur kinks lmao

but he’d probably use overstimulation most of the time tbh

because then he gets to do his favourite thing ever – get you off multiple times with an easy excuse!!!!!!

doesn’t really like edging or orgasm denial because :// what’s in it for you

aftercare;

mwah you’re his baby!

would tuck you into bed if you wanted him to

gives you lil kisses and praises you

wants you both to just go straight to sleep

but he’d probably wanna go shower so if ur gonna go to sleep it’s gotta be without him until he’s clean again ://

(he doesn’t really like that though because he loves cuddling w you)  

dawon; 

overall; 

the most chaotic of the switches

says he leans more towards dom but is that really true?

it’d probably be pretty clear cut

but he’s also more lazy so sometimes he’s not into having proper roles

or sometimes he just wants to have giggly sex where he doesn’t need to think abt it too deeply

but when he’s a dom, he’s going for it!

probably more of a crackhead dom than a big tough mean one or even a (✿ヘᴥヘ) soft dom

like that meme of;

sub: does something they’re not supposed to do

dom: when will you learn?????!!!!! that your actions have cOnSeQuEnCeS????!!!!!

yeah that’s just how he’d be

but as a sub he’d just constantly deny that he was, indeed, a sub

you could be all sexy n say something like “who’s in charge here?”

and he’d just be like “me lol”

is crackhead sub a thing bc he’d be that too

kinks; 

body worship (receiving)

mocking (giving)

teasing !!! (giving and receiving)

restraining (giving)

begging (receiving)

biting (giving and receiving)

punishments; 

he’s not really into them too much

wouldn’t really have punishments for you unless you particularly wanted him to

but no punishments would go on for very long because he’s a lil impatient

but if you wanted to punish him it’d have to be something like overstimulation because he’s sEnSiTiVe

aftercare;

just wants 2 sleep

n maybe be the little spoon for once. just for comfort

gives you lil kisses

and mumbles praises that you can’t actually hear

then he would just fall asleep lmao he’s Sleepy

juho; 

overall;

big dom energy

i’m not too sure he’d ever particularly wanna sub but sometimes he’d be cool with you going on top

as long as he was still in charge of the pace and everything

but overall he’s quite stoic as a dom

mostly because he doesn’t know how to react but that’s not the point

he communicates with you mostly through Looks

and you’ll have to learn the further you get into dating him what each look means

but mostly he has a vague outline of rules for you that you’d kinda pick up pretty quickly

including a big thing for him would be: if u tease him in public he is now, legally, allowed to fist fight you in the parking lot

i think if anyone looked closer to you both they’d probably be able to see the dynamic he’s not subtle

but yeah in general i’d probably say he’s a lazy dom

kinks;

vocal command!!!!!! (giving)

choking (giving)

restraining (giving)

begging (receiving)

degrading (giving)

having his fingers in ur mouth

oral (receiving)

dirty talk (giving)

mocking (giving)

punishments; 

he’s a big fan of the old classics

mostly spanking because idk it indulges the pain kink he doesn’t wanna own up to having

he’d make you count each one

gets soft if you thank him

he thinks orgasm denial’s fun too but mostly just because it makes him feel like a Super Cool dom getting to have that much power

he doesn’t mind overstimulation but he’d rather use it as a reward than a punishment you know? he just doesn’t see how that could be anything other than good for you  

aftercare;

he’d be very organised

has a drink ready for you

probably wants you to shower or something but understands if you don’t want to

really he just wants to make sure you’re feeling good

as much as it flusters him he’d still wanna talk about what you liked/didn’t like especially earlier on in the relationship

will actually tuck you into bed if that’s what you want him to do

he’d probably be quite tired but if you wanted to stay up he would as well

mumbles that he loves you just as you’re starting to fall asleep  

jaeyoon;

overall;

if he breathes, he’s a thot!

but yes that is his placement on the dom/switch/sub line

he really isn’t too bothered about who’s doing which

he wants to try everything once

and if that means he’s being the sub, that’s fine with him!!!!

if it means he’s being the dom, that’s also fine with him!!!!

i think he’d be more difficult to handle as a sub because he wouldn’t ever necessarily feel like a sub

so he’d kinda just be in the sub position so he gets to have those experiences

which means you can’t expect him to react very much to you attempting to Actually Dom him

i feel like it would be a similar situation if he was being the dom

but he just slips more naturally into a dominant role (see: stage presence) so he’d be more comfortable that way  

kinks;

hm. his top ones would be

biting (giving and receiving)

teasing (giving and receiving)

praise (giving)

body worship (giving and receiving)

roleplay

sensation play (giving and receiving)  

bondage (giving and receiving)

lingerie!! (on you)

punishments;

none for either of you!!

aftercare;

his favourite form of aftercare is talking

not about your day or his day because you both already know that

because he’d get quite clingy after sex

so he’d probably wanna move to the living room where he’d left drinks out for you both

and then you would have to Discuss different topics he’d bring up

and that could go from “do you think the dinosaurs turned into aquatic creatures yes or no” to “i have found an unsolved crime case and today we will be solving it”  

rowoon;

overall;

i’d say he’s more inclined to be the dom

but honestly if you wanted to be the dom he’s not gonna be against it

his natural reaction is just to try and take care of you lmao

which means if you’ve got a pain kink he’s gonna get into an internal struggle

because on the one hand his biggest goal is to indulge as many of your kinks as possible

but then he’s :// because he’s literally terrified of hurting you

as a dom he’s probably very lenient and lets you get away with practically everything

he just thinks you’re so cute that nothing you do really bothers him lol

you could do something he directly told you not to do and he’d just be like “omg i can’t believe you did that :// anyway which kink am i indulging tonight”  

kinks;

is getting you off a kink? because he has it

praise (giving)

hand holding

love

oral (giving)

overstimulation (giving)

idk you getting whiny and desperate is a big thing for him

he’s probably got a size kink too man have you seen how Big he is

punishments;

he’s the type to say he’s using overstimulation as a punishments when he’s really just doing it because he’s got a kink for it

honestly very rarely punishes you

if you got him mad enough for him to spank you you’d probably have to have been annoying for a long time

aftercare;

you’re baby.

he’d do everything for you

gets you a drink, gets you something to eat, gets you clean clothes

is up to do anything you want to do

whether that’s taking a shower with you, changing the sheets while you took a shower, even if it was just making sure you had a drink and a warm blanket

he’d do it!!!

if you wanted to stay up, he’s prepared to sit up even if he’s falling asleep every time he blinks

if you wanted to go to sleep (he’s grateful) he’d let you lie on his chest and he’d make sure to stay awake until he knew you were asleep first

taeyang;

overall;

i know everyone sees him as a sub but. he’s a switch

i see him as one of the kinkier/more experimental members so i think it’d come naturally to him

he likes being the sub because he gets to feel cute and do less work

and he likes being the dom because he gets to feel cool and see you look cute

unlike the other switches in sf9, i think he probably gets quite into both positions pretty easily

and he goes all out for both of them

as a sub i think he’d be more on the well-behaved cute side of things

as a dom he’d just do everything he could to look Hot and make you flustered. that’s his brand baby

either way i think it’d be quite intense with taeyang

also i know this is off topic but he’s the best at oral in sf9. i don’t make the rules i just enforce them

kinks; 

choking (receiving)

making out. is that a kink? doesn’t matter he has it

overstimulation (giving)

orgasm denial (receiving)

teasing (giving and receiving)

praise (receiving)

marking (giving)

dirty talk (receiving)

eye contact

sensation play (giving and receiving)

temperature play (giving and receiving)

light pain (receiving)

lingerie (on either of you)

punishments;

if he was punishing you it’d be all about overstimulation

because it’s a big kink of his + technically a punishment so it’s a win-win situation

for himself i think you’d have to go with something like overstimulation as well

because if u spank him it’s just gonna indulge his pain kink and if u deny his orgasms it’s just gonna indulge that kink for him

but! he doesn’t particularly like orgasm denial so you’d have some luck there

aftercare;

would just wanna hold your hand and cling to you if you tried to move around and do stuff for him

if he’d been the dom he’d just be very attentive with you and not leave you alone lmao

depending on what you’d been doing he’d might make you take a shower with him

but if it’d been more chill he’d be happy to just go straight to sleep

if you wanted to stay up, he’d just come to wherever you were and put his head in your lap so he could go to sleep if he wanted to and still be with you

hwiyoung;

overall;

another switch!

not that he’d ever admit that he’d always just say “i’m a soft dom!!! never have i ever been a sub”

but he’s a liar so who cares

as a sub i don’t think he’d necessarily be extremely submissive i just think he’d find it very Hot when you took charge with him

as a dom i think it would take him quite a while for him to grow into the idea of actually being dominant rather than just being on top

as he gets more confident in your relationship he’ll get more comfortable in both positions

he’d kinda fall into the role of being a dom pretty easily because he’d just view it as taking care of you in a sense

but then again. he just really likes when you top him. he doesn’t really have an explanation for it other than “it’s hot :)”

kinks;

light choking (giving and receiving)

hair pulling (receiving)

finger sucking (giving and receiving)

praise (giving and receiving)  

body worship (giving)

oral (giving and receiving)

overstimulation (giving)

punishments;

he likes spanking but mostly because he thinks it’s hot

he’d use it as a punishment (only when he got more comfortable with being dominant) but honestly. he’s winning here too

i think he’d probably consider bondage a punishment for himself

because then he doesn’t get to touch you which is :///

and being blindfolded for him is a big downer because then he doesn’t get to even see you :///

aftercare;

he kinda. doesn’t really care about it if you made a mess

very much wants to relax

maybe not even sleep but he just wants a little while to recover lol

gets quite clingy

wants a lot of kisses

which would usually turn into a makeout session

and then you’d have round two because he has no self-control

and then maybe after that he’d wanna sleep

i think it would mostly depend on whether he was the dom or sub

if he was the sub he’s gonna want everything done for him lol

if he was the dom he’s gonna want to do everything for you

chani;

overall;

another enigma

probably more of a dom just because he’s impatient and likes having things happen on his terms

he wouldn’t really mind you being the dom as long as you did what he wanted you to do

by that i mean he has a big no for teasing

and for being mocked?? if you make fun of him even once he’s gonna go crazy go stupid

he’s quite lazy so he’d prefer to have you on top most of the time

but he’d always have his hands on your hips controlling the pace because he likes to know you can’t just stop or slow down to tease him at any point

very quick to get bitter if you try and tease him public or anything along those lines

he doesn’t really get too into the dom/sub thing he just kinda does what he does

only very occasionally would he be rough (see: when he can be bothered) 

kinks;

choking (giving)

oral (receiving)

light degrading (giving)

he likes hand holding but ur not allowed to tell anyone

dry humping

praise (receiving)

light restraining (giving)

punishments;

he’s not too into punishments

sometimes if you annoyed him he’d overstimulate you

or if you’d teased him public he’d probably deny your orgasms for so long you’d think he was never gonna let you get off at all

instead of punishments i see him being more of the type who’s rough with you when he’s annoyed

aftercare;

he clocks out man

he’s falling asleep as soon as you’re done

would pull you to his chest n press a few small kisses to your forehead

if he’d been particularly rough or used any degrading he’d mumble a few quiet praises and a few i love you’s

doesn’t really wanna move at all but he will if you particularly want to

would just lie in your lap and go to sleep if you made him stay up with you

[kinkymagnus]

Henlo!! I love your blog so much 😍 it gives me life and makes me happy when I have a bad day. I was wondering if you had any headcanons about Malec’s first time or something where Magnus is a nervous wreck cause he has to tell Alec that he’s trans? Thank you and sorry for the bother 😭♥️

y’all it is a CRIME how long this has been in my inbox, im really sorry and ur not bothering me at ALL i just love this ask and wanted to do it JUSTICE 👏

also im!!! so flattered!!! aaaaaAAAA im glad my blog can cheer u up :) 

okokok so trans magnus + malec’s first time + magnus being nervous about coming out lghkjgfh

ok i have no fucking idea why but i’m making this twi malec. i’m just. in the mood for twi malec i guess. fuck it amiright

magnus is just. he has a lot of secrets. there’s a reason he hasn’t gotten close to anyone in a long time, there’s a reason he only talks to two or three people who actually know him, there’s a reason he hasn’t been how he used to be--out and about, flashy and showing off and wearing armor made of glittering beauty and colorful silks and bold makeup, instead of comfortable cardigans and twitching hands and quiet. 

speaking of which: def headcanon twi magnus wasn’t always the way he is in that episode. he was a lot like canon magnus once upon a time, charismatic (well, he’s still charismatic, but like, in that bold flashy way, you know?) and open (closed off, but with the illusion of having all his cards on the table) and bold

anyway. there’s a reason. lots of reasons. mostly all the secrets he hides.

the fact that he has magic, that he’s immortal, a dusty relic of a time long gone, of an age past, clinging on past his due date. he feels like he doesn’t belong in the modern world, like he should have died with the shadow world, like he should have been sealed out with all the other demons.

the fact that he is a prince king of hell, son and slayer of the greater demon asmodeous himself. even tho he’s sealed it all away, he has a huge amount of power, both from just. originally being the son of such a powerful demon, a fallen angel, and also from managing to kill one.

i don’t think it fits with canon twi lore but i don’t care, i’m saying twi magnus was involved in the sealing of the realm, and he managed to kill asmodeous and basically absorb his power, so a) he actually did this huge incredible feat that changed the whole world, whether on purpose or not i’m not sure yet (it has something to do with asmodeous, but i’m not seeing the whole picture yet) and b) he’s actually. more powerful than canon magnus. it’s partially why he sealed away his magic for so long, he was afraid of what that power could do. 

honestly i dont have this super well thought out but i like the potential

but anyway! barely related to this! let’s get back on topic!

and. the fact that he’s trans. a decidedly more mundane secret, but still one he keeps close to his chest. he’s lived through a lot of eras with bad very transphobic times? like he’s lived through places/times with very accepting atmopshere, but he’s also lived in like, victorian england, you know? and canon magnus had a chance to be more out of his shell and open in the modern world but this magnus has completely closed himself off. he mostly talks to people other than his close friends to give them a tarot reading. he’s not like, totally cut off, i can’t imagine him like. not helping people. you know. idek. but the point is he’s more isolated. canon magnus was closed off in a lot of ways, but still surrounded by people. he had a job to do, people to protect, and parties to attend. not to mention going to pandemonium and stuff. twi magnus isn’t really doing that. man i really went on a tangent here but the point is i feel like that would contribute to how he feels about being trans. feeling isolated, having less friends to be open with and to help him you know? in my experience it’s a lot harder to feel like. valid? without that sense of community. even with a few close friends, it’s hard. if you’re “passing”, which magnus is, it feels like a secret. 

the point is! i am getting so off track! magnus has got layers and layers and layers protecting him, both literal and metaphorical (he doesn’t wear the more flashy and revealing clothing canon magnus occasionally favors, preferring thick and comfortable sweaters and cardigans and stuff like that. bonus headcanon: whatever happened that ended in asmodeous dead and the walls of the world sealed, it left magnus with more scars. not to mention top surgery scars he may have, or even just hiding a binder, or using thick layers to disguise small tiddies since binders are great but you can’t bind all the time or every day for centuries and still be like, healthy. anYWAY) 

and when he starts dating alec despite that little cautious voice in his head insisting he needs to not get attached, alec begins to just. effortlessly peel those layers away

he’s so blunt and honest, unlike people who have lied to and manipulated magnus in the past (CAMILLE, anyone? i feel like she’d still be a thing in the twiverse. also asmodeous, albeit in a different way) and he’s gentle and loud and bold and he’s funny and sweet and he just. fucking cares about magnus.

when he finds about magnus’s magic he’s like “oh my god that’s so cool” he just fucking accepts him so easily!!! 

and even when magnus ends up tearfully confessing he may or may not be a literal king of hell (or, one of the hell dimensions) alec’s like “damn, i’m dating royalty?” and maybe makes a joke about not everyone getting to make a king scream with pleasure and magnus is just so relieved???

but that’s later

anyway

they haven’t had sex yet and magnus is just like. he feels like inevitably this relationship is gonna fall apart. he has too many secrets, too many hidden parts of himself that if he ever shed light on, alec wouldn’t see him the same way

and as much as he wants alec to fuck him, as much as he wants to be in bed with alec and cuddle with him and have sex with him and show him everything, he feels like he can’t, it would be the beginning of the end

he keeps pulling back just as alec begins to initiate, and alec never pushes but wonders if he’s doing something wrong, or if maybe magnus is asexual, or just doesn’t want to have sex for other reasons, and eventually he broaches the topic with magnus and magnus is so surprised alec noticed something is wrong (he expected alec might confront him over not “putting out” but alec doesn’t seem to care about the sex--he makes sure to emphasize while he is attracted to magnus and would lvoe to have sex with him if that’s what magnus wants, it’s by no means a requirement--but more about. magnus. and communicating with him.) that he just blurts out i’m trans. 

and alec kinda blinks at him. his beautiful, wonderful, nervous and scared boyfriend. and he ends up blurting out oh thank god. because he would be more than okay with magnus not wanting to have sex--he’s super gorgeous and absolutely smoking hot, but alec doesn’t ever like, want to have sex with him unless magnus wants to. obviously. but he was honestly worried it wasn’t magnus but him, that he’d done something wrong or wasn’t attractive or something, and honestly worrying about something being wrong with him was not a feeling he was used to. then he realizes how bad that just sounded, and he’s like, aaaaaaaAAAA WAIT and ends up panickedly rambling like i mean sorry i just was kind of worried i was doing something wrong but like, i love you so much and you being trans changes nothing about that, and if you never want to have sex that’s totally okay and i love you, but if you’re worried about me still being attracted to you that’s not a problem, but-- and magnus is like y-you’re not?? but you’re gay! and i’m-- and you know that feeling of like. internalized [insert form of bigotry towards yourself, in this case transphobia]. where you think something bad about yourself. and if you think about it you’re like “no that’s transphobic i would never think that about anyone else” and your brain is just like “yeah it’s true about you tho” that’s this. magnus is like. i’m not a real man, how could you be attracted to me? and alec (not to be all Cis Savior, but look, magnus deserves a loving supportive boyfriend who comforts him and shit, okay! i am PROJECTING) is like yeah i’m gay and you’re a gorgeous, beautiful, stunning man? 

and they end up talking it out and get it sorted that yes, magnus does want to have sex, but it would be okay if one of them didn’t want to, magnus being trans does not make alec unattracted to him, it’s okay, they’re okay, because malec are Kings of Communication,

ANYWAY

ACTUAL FIRST TIME

probably not the same day, that day they cuddle and talk 

but like later

>:)

alec is just so gentle and reverent y’all. like. them big hands on magnus’s body, all warm and gentle and magnus is like oh fuck this is nice

they do have to kind of communicate boundaries--alec’s asks if there’s anywhere magnus doesn’t want to be touched because dysphoria (or any other reason) and vice versa, magnus trying to be like “you know if you only want to fuck my ass or have me wear a strap-on or anything like that it’s fine, i understand you’re not necessarily attracted to those parts of me” and alec’s like “we’ve established that you would enjoy me eating you out and i WANT TO EAT YOU OUT” 

their first time probably is pretty simple, “vanilla”, idk why but im thinking they just exchange oral sex tbh like magnus blows him and then alec eats him out 

also magnus cums pretty fast bc he hasn’t been touched like this in a long time and he’s very embarrassed about it but alec is like “damn that’s hot can i try to make you cum a few more times” 

ok but imagine their first time it’s just alec holding him down and eating him out until he sobs and squirts? yes

anyway tho they have like, lots of “other” first times too like. first time alec fucks his pussy. first time alec fucks his ass. etc. 

first time alec slides that Thick Dick balls deep into magnus’s cunt he’s for sure immediately on the edge of orgasming he’s so full and it feels so good--

and alec’s like holy SHIT bc he’s warm and wet and tight and he clenches every time alec praises him or dirty talks him and it feels amazing

first time alec fucks his ass is also very fun for both of them ;) 

it’s just a good time all around folks communication and magnus getting pounded the way he deserves :’) 

not to mention when they first start getting into kinks 

alec, carefully broaching the topic of bondage: how would you feel... about handcuffs?

magnus, barely looking up: mm, padded or not? and what kind of padding? the normal kind hurt my wrists after too long and not really in a nice way, so i like padded. furry can get a little itchy sometimes but they look real nice. also, are we talking above my head to the bedpost, and if so, am i on my stomach or back? because stomach is a little uncomfortable. or like, behind my back? especially bent over, mm. good view for you ;) 

then he like looks up and realized he’s said all of this very casually and alec’s looking at him with 1. shock and 2. lust 

like. “i wasn’t expecting this, but i really should have, and now i want to bend you over and tie you up and fuck you hard” 

and he blushes just a lil bit like o shit i just said all that and alec’s like “padded it is. behind your back or above your head... hm... both have potential, but maybe the latter? i love you on your back under me, i can see so much of your beautiful body and all of your gorgeous face :)” 

and like TOYS 

aaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAA ANYWAY

[bisexualamy]

hi ren! i think you're so cool and soft at the same time!! how do u do that!! teach me ur ways!!

I’m not sure what you mean by soft in this instance? I’m a little skeptical of soft as an adjective for trans men because I feel like it’s always used to infantilize us (like the uwu cute soft trans boy stuff).

If you mean soft as “in touch with my emotions/emotionally vulnerable” (which I think you do) that is something I can definitely touch on because it is an aspect of my personality I’ve really tried to cultivate. In terms of cool, I don’t really think I’m cool. I appreciate that you think I am! I don’t really known what cool means? Why is one cool? The best analogous thing I can see for it in my own life is “confident” and “does/makes interesting/fun/creative things.”

This is a lot of preamble to get my thoughts out, but I do actually have some advice in both of these instances! I’ll try and be brief, though I probably won’t succeed in that. And like, obvious disclaimer that I’m speaking from my own life experience.

EDIT: very long. All of this is now under cut. This was a good post and I’m happy I wrote it, so thank you! Feel free to reblog it!

IN TERMS OF “COOL”: the best advice I can give to you is put things into the world you care about. This manifests itself for me in the art and writing I produce. I became a lot happier and more confident creating work that I actually cared about existing. I get a lot of joy and drive out of filling voids that I see as necessary to be filled. A concrete example of this has been the work I’ve been doing (that I recently won an award for) in regarding to documenting and creating around the stories of different LGBT people of faith. 

And this can be anything! This doesn’t even have to be necessarily “creative” work. There’s joy to be found in STEM fields, like building or doing math or science. It can be cooking or redesigning your bedroom! I find that always having a project to work on, no matter how small, gives me purpose that helps me do the other things in my life that I don’t want to do. Also!!! This doesn’t have to be “original.” I find that a lot of the hangups people get tend to center around filling a void that’s never been touched. My favorite professor I’ve ever had once told me: “don’t worry about doing something original. Just do something well.” I really like that and try and keep that in mind when I create.

I’ve noticed that when you’re working on things you care about it often creates drive, which looks like confidence. In my experience, people think I’m cool because I’m driven to do things I care about. I’m not like, cool in the sense of calm and collected, but I think I’m cool in the sense that I’m interesting. The other bit of advice I have for this is surround yourself with people who you feel safe and supported by. This also goes into soft as well, but your progress as a person is often hindered by unsupportive and harmful environments and people. Those two are often difficult to escape or avoid completely, but building up relationships in your life where you feel safe, where you feel supported, where you feel allowed to make mistakes, were instrumental in building my confidence and giving me the drive to stop settling for “this is the way things are.”

IN TERMS OF “SOFT”: Like I said above, a lot of this comes from being allowed to be soft in the first place. From being in environments and with people that don’t try to squash that softness. For me, I’ve made a conscious effort to be open, to be vulnerable, to be “soft” as you put it. I made this effort because I knew it helped people, and I get a lot of value out of helping people. I’ve been told that my openness about mental health, about emotional vulnerability, about LGBT things, has helped others when I see that I can be open and also succeed. That’s the reason I started this in the first place.

This mentality was very difficult for me to foster initially. I used to be very closed off and have many issues with trust, and I sometimes still do, but I’m working on self awareness. I started small and gradually adopted more and more emotionally honest practices and those grew into larger ones. The overarching theme to these is give yourself permission. Give yourself permission to be happy, to feel your emotions, to be in a world that makes you happy. Here are some of those specific things I worked on (not necessarily in this order):

When someone asks you if you’re okay, or how you are, answer honestly. Unless you’re speaking in passing to someone you don’t really know, answer truthfully. Don’t be afraid to answer “how are you” with “I’m feeling down” or “I’ve had a pretty bad day” or “I’m really angry.” This helped teach me that my emotions aren’t bad. I don’t need to hide them. I just need to be in control of them and know how to regulate them.

When you’re feeling a very intense negative emotion, stop. If you’re very sad, or very angry, don’t do anything. Stay still. Write down what you’re feeling. Talk to someone. Make no decisions in this headspace. Distance is important when assessing your own emotions. Distance will teach you what your reaction is saying. If you get very angry at a friend because they’re late, why? Did the situation hurt you, or is there something larger at play? If it was the situation, you’ll be grateful you didn’t over blow it. If there’s something larger, now you have the calmer headspace to figure out how to fix it.

Let yourself feel bad. I try to be a generally optimistic person, but acknowledging my negative emotions, and not shaming myself for them, really helped me get better control over them. Sometimes you feel shitty! It’s okay to feel shitty! Let yourself feel bad, acknowledge the badness, and then let it go when you’re ready. Don’t let yourself wallow, but don’t suppress your bad emotions. Letting myself feel everything helped me gain confidence in being vulnerable.

Tell someone if they hurt you, even if they didn’t mean it. This is not supposed to be an accusation, but being an open communicator has changed my life. If someone upsets you and you don’t tell them, it may fester and turn into something nasty. I tell my friends that if they have an issue with something I did or said, I want them to tell me so we can talk about it in a calm, open, non-accusatory way. I feel much better once I’ve talked through something that hurt me, because I usually learn the other person’s point of view and it feels less like a slight.

Be upfront about your expectations. People can’t read your mind, and expecting people to is wrong. For example, one of my biggest pet peeves is having my time wasted. There are many people who view meeting times in flux. For them, it’s okay to shift appointments around, to double book, to be a little late. That’s another way of viewing the world. So, if someone is historically late, I might say “I really need you to be on time to this specific event” or set a precedent of “it’s okay if you’re late, but you have to let me know ahead of time that you think you’ll be late so I can account for that.”

Trust your gut. Don’t doubt yourself. Self doubt has always bit me. You can typically get a sense of when something is awry. Don’t be afraid to trust your instincts.

Lay out healthy priorities. I try and prioritize my health and well-being above everything else. If a topic is triggering for me to discuss, if an environment is a significant detriment to my mental health, if someone is hurting me, I try and fix the situation, and if it won’t fix, I leave. From there, my priorities are in flux. Sometimes I prioritize people, sometimes schoolwork, sometimes self care. It depends on the scenario and the time. Prioritizing your health is not the same thing as not doing anything that you dislike, or that makes you uncomfortable. We have to do things we dislike all the time. You know within yourself what’s unhealthy and what’s just unpleasant or annoying.

Learn how to fail. Admit when you’re wrong. I used to have a terrible time admitting I was wrong. If you’re in a healthy environment with decent people, you won’t be shamed for admitting your mistakes. In this way, change your behavior if you’re wrong! I often have unrealistic expectations of people. When that’s been brought to my attention, I’ve adjusted my expectations. Also, I’ve tried to remove “I told you so” from my vocabulary. I don’t shame others for failure. And, understand that partial successes are not failures. 50% successes are okay! Anything is better than zero. Sometimes, you will hit zero. Sometimes, you will fail. Learning how to learn from failure, from not seeing failure as a reflection of my self worth, gave me more freedom to try my hand at creating things I care about. First drafts are supposed to be awful! Just start! Once you start, you can often work off of momentum.

Take time to be introspective and understand yourself. What are your values? What’s important to you? How do you typically respond to certain scenarios? What is something that makes you consistently happy? Sad? Angry? Journal, blog, talk aimlessly into your phone, talk to other people, talk to a therapist if you’re interested. Often, you need to get to know yourself like you’d get to know another person. Once you gain this sense of self, you’ll better understand a lot of what you do, say, and how you react out in the world. For me, this is an ever-evolving process. I change, I grow, and I need to consistently reflect. I think constructive and position self reflection is very important.

I know that was a long list. This took me years and years, and I’m still working on these. The path to emotional softness and regulation is often not linear. Learning to forgive myself, learning how to understand myself, learning to be gentle with myself, was hard. I see a lot of “be gentle to yourself!” positivity on here without any concrete steps are principles. These are a bulk of mine. Employing these steps helped me to foster those safe communities, and be safe in my own vulnerability. Softness tends to follow work and action.

[sirengenerator]

odd numbers for a baby of ur choice... or many babies... it is up to u

thank u for the ask!! i’ll answer these for troye and florence.

1. Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

troye is the youngest of nine sons, and thus the baby of the family even as a grown man. he’s closest with his second-oldest brother joey, who is an arts student and a Good Brother™ to troye, always ready to support his endeavors, even though troye isn’t really sure what he wants to do with his future.

florence has a twin but that situation is a big mess. antoni is one big repressed memory, but if florence was aware of who they were she’d probably consider them closest to her. achilles is sort of a sibling figure to her, in a best friend way. and honestly florence would love if they were actually her sibling.

3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

troye has a good relationship with his dad! there are very clear similarities between the two, (gail is like an Old Dad version of troye) and they’ve always gotten along.

florence never really got to know her dad, since her family situation was sort of loosely defined and cult-ish. he was moreso the guy who helped sire her rather than an actual father. florence doesn’t really have any relevant parental figures.

5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

troye: peppermint-flavored gum, his keys, his wallet full of pictures of his girlfriends, his phone, and probably a crumpled receipt from any store he’d been to that day.

florence: lint, a dollar coin. some quarters, and a cool rock she found on the sidewalk.

7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

troye: losing loved ones, being forgotten. at several points he’s had a nightmare where he was inflicted with laila’s siren curse and it really messed with him. a lot of his nightmares take place on beaches at night and in other dark spaces.

florence: being abandoned, being betrayed. the latter is a relatively new fear for her, since she didn’t really allow herself to trust others until she started seeing laila and troye. ever since, she’s kind of paranoid that they might betray her someday, though she realizes it’s kind of an irrational fear.

9. Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

not really! when he was growing up his parents would often be tight on money since raising nine kids isn’t the easiest on the wallet. nowadays, he isn’t super well off but he manages fine. he’s a bit of a compulsive spender.

florence wasn’t worth much as a kid and she isn’t worth much now considering she has no job and is also low tier scalie.

11. In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

laila has thrown herself into danger several times and troye never stops being afraid for her. it’s bad for his blood pressure, honestly. as for a specific situation, i don’t really know in terms of what scared him the most, but probably something related to laila’s Blind Overconfidence.

florence was most afraid when her tribe was split apart, not really knowing what to do without them or how to really grow out of the rhetoric she was taught. she’d learn to adjust later, but that was a big point of confusion for her.

13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

troye really hates the sight of blood, but doesn’t really react much aside from a lot of discomfort and disgust. he thinks things inside your body should stay there, ideally.

florence doesn’t care about and is unfazed by blood. being a man-eating monster’ll do that to ya.

15. Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

troye believes money and happiness are fundamentally separate, and while he appreciates having money because it’s pretty useful when it comes to living and all, he thinks happiness really boils down to having people you care about, not how much you’re paid.

florence loves material possession and owning things, especially if her things are the shiniest out of other things. at the same time, she doesn’t really understand the concept of currency and generally just likes having nice stuff without realizing that nice stuff costs $$$

17. What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

troye didn’t get attached to any toys but he did get really attached to his childhood blanket, which he brought everywhere. it’s lilac and remains in a closet in his childhood room.

florence didn’t really have any childhood toys.

19. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

troye’s biggest flaw is that he’s kind of a pushover and he has a hard time saying no to anyone, and he hates to disappoint people. this leads to a lot of relationships that are really imbalanced.

he also gets really committed to people really fast, and while it’s not necessarily a bad thing it does tend to make a relationship seem rushed and when he reflects on it, he realizes he put a lot of expectations on said relationship.

florence, on the other hand, has a really hard time putting her trust in others and commitment is a really scary concept to her. because of this, the closest she’s really had to a “relationship” before laila and troye are a couple unrelated and meaningless flings.

she also didn’t really believe a relationship between a human and a siren could possibly sustain itself without falling apart before she started dating her partners, so that was kind of an obstacle.

21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

troye’s first instinct is to think he did something wrong, and he has a hard time accepting it if the blame falls on someone else close to him.

florence is quick to blame anyone else for anything that happens to her, which leads to a lot of misplaced anger and grief. to be honest, anything truly traumatic most likely becomes one of florence’s repressed memories.

23. What does your character dislike in other people?

troye doesn’t like when other people have an inability to communicate in a relationship, a lack of respect for others wishes, or when people are extra-pessimistic.

florence doesn’t like elitism, which is kind of funny considering she grew up in a purity-cult. she also doesn’t appreciate when people are rude to her at all, and she holds grudges easily because of that.

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

troye has a really hard time blaming other people, especially if he knows them really well. if he becomes suspicious of someone it usually has to be based on really convincing evidence.

florence is always quick to place the blame on someone, though her suspicion is often based on gut instinct.

27. How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

troye’s first instinct when it comes to confrontation is to try and talk out whatever it is the disagreement is based on. he doesn’t like violence at all and tries to avoid it when he can.

florence deals with confrontation via fists. meet her in the pit if you have a problem. ideally, if fists aren’t an option then maybe she’ll consider talking it out.

29. What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

as a little kid, troye dreamed of being the long-lost prince of a mysterious and vaguely european country. he also entertained being an actor with a for a while as an older kid with a more solid grasp of “realistic aspirations.” neither of those dreams really panned out.

currently, he’s kind of undecided in what he wants to do with his future.

florence really just wanted to be happy and carefree when she was older. this dream has come true, sort of. at least, after she got over all the complications of her life on the surface.

31. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

concept: troye is sitting on a couch with his gfs, watching a dumb romantic comedy. laila is loudly eating popcorn and making blunt commentary on the contrived elements of the movie. florence laughs at any and all physical humor. he is very in love with the both of them. he can’t stop smiling.

humorous concept directly lifted from florence’s charahub page: florence, sitting on a throne. she is being fanned by two admirers, and worshipped by two more. she is eating a raw onion, and no one questions it at all.

actual concept for florence: she’s spread out on the couch, comfortably wrapped in blankets. laila hands her a hot chocolate and gives her a quick kiss on the cheek. she isn’t wearing terrible and oppressive construct known as pants.

33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

troye had a big problem with being self-deprecating for a long time and nowadays he tries to focus on getting better instead of putting himself down, and takes criticism best as he can.

florence is either super defensive or super unaffected based on what is being criticized. if it’s something she’s legitimately insecure about, she becomes very defensive, but typically her inflated sense of confidence keeps that from happening.

35. How does your character behave around people they like?

troye is absolutely giddy hanging around his crushes, and he’s incredibly obvious to anyone with eyes. he tries his best to be subtle but “being subtle” in troye’s vocabulary is limited to not confessing his feelings on the spot. lucky for him, laila couldn’t read someone’s feelings for her if a brick was thrown at her detailing them, and florence shows interest from day one.

florence actually gets really frustrated if she genuinely likes someone. she finds it kind of scary, letting someone have any amount of sway over her decisions or infatuation.

37. Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

troye is more concerned about defending his honor, i think. he values his good reputation and doesn’t want people to think bad things about him.

florence couldn’t give a rat’s ass about what people think about her if they aren’t a close friend, and she doesn’t have much of a status to begin with, but she’ll defend herself to the people closest to her.

39. Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

troye was bitten by his family dog at age ten and cried for hours about it at the time. it didn’t really have any lasting affects though, and he loves that dog to death.

florence is regularly bitten by mosquitoes but otherwise she hasn’t been bitten by like, an actual mammal or anything. she was once stung by a jellyfish and it made her kinda pissed. how dare this evil bag sting her.

41. Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

troye believes he should earn the things that he wants, and doesn’t want things to just be handed to him.

florence loves handouts, but she doesn’t pretend to deserve any of them. she kind of believes life is very luck-based, and she is very new to actually earning good things rather than just stumbling upon them.

43. Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

i can’t really think of one for troye, actually. i feel like he definitely had big influences in his life based on his relationships, particularly one with a boy he’d been pining over for a while that didn’t work out, but i don’t think there are any big names.

florence’s dependent figure is achilles, who is a very good friend to her and someone she really trusts to know the best for her, or at least advise her on how to live a healthy life.

44. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

troye is jewish and has a sort of ambiguous on the idea of an afterlife. ideally, he’d like to believe that there’s somewhere huge and beautiful and grand that he’ll go after he dies, but he also doesn’t really know if that’s his actual belief or just what he’d like to happen. death doesn’t really scare him, but the permanence of it is sort of unnerving.

florence doesn’t really connect herself to a religion, but she was taught a belief in the greek gods and has an ambiguous belief in them. her belief in an afterlife isn’t very well-defined and a big part of her is suspicious that after she dies she’s probably just. you know. Be Dead. she isn’t really scared of it at all. it’s the natural course of all living things. she’d prefer to enjoy her life on earth while it lasts.