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leenaevilin · 4 years ago

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[Personal/HELP/Request] NEW Shin-chan PROJECT ~SHINJAS around the world will cure Shin-chan!!~

some of my followers might already know that one of my favourite stage series (beside the tsukipro series) is ANIDOL... so I got a ticket for the new stage at the end of next month (stillwaiting for an answer if I can move back by the time... s*c*r*e*w you corona!!! anyway... even if I can’t make it back in time my friend will go for me instead, though...笑)

I’ve been thinking about all kind of nice presents for Shin-chan (he plays one of the characters in anidol^^) this time... but the idea for a really great present came to me while listening to todays twitcasting!!! buuut I need your help (again)^^ (ps: the 1st pic is the result of the January project~♡)

some Shin-chan facts first:

◎ his fans are called SHINJA (慎者) ◎ he thinks that his fans are like a pinky (小指) [because a pinky is cute, is important and supports you] ◎ he loves fishes!!! 🐠🐟🐡🐋🐳🐬🦈 (he can watch them for hours!!!) ◎ he went to Canada as an exchange student for a month during high school (→ he understands simple English sentences!!) ◎ he likes cooking, to a degree that he even did a cook with me live awhile ago ◎ if he would cross-dress he would like to wear traditional (women) cloths from all kind of countries 👗🥻👘 ◎ he wonders if people would buy his shashinshuu if he would release one (shooting in a foreign country → at all theaters he worked before??)

→ the last one really got to me... he never really said it out loud but in the past few twitcastings it really sounded like he is worried that people are only interested in him playing a popular character and not in him as an actor/person... so he kinda worries if people woud actually buy his personal fan-goods (if he would release them) or attend a fan-meeting

PROJECT:

I would like to make a photobook with picture taken by foreign SHINJAS to show him (again) that even if most of us can’t see his stages live or go to events, our support is as strong as the Japanese fans support (if not stronger 😂)

more details under the cut^^

since Shin-chan won’t be able to travel to a foreign country for a photo shooting any time soon, I thought it would be nice to bring all those foreign countries to him^^ and that’s where I need your help!!! because all I can do right now is deliver some pictures of a small city in Germany🤣

PLAN:

◎ Title of the photobook: SHINJAS around the world will cure Shin-chan (→ in Anidol Colors! Cure Stage... every single person in the audience is a manager of the idols and must ‘cure’ them if they turn into animals^^)

◎ take pictures of some famous (your favourite) spots of your city/town

◎ if you have an aquarium, pond or any place where you can see fishes close to were you live, please take a picture as well (including the fishes 😂)

◎ if you have some kind of traditional clothes in your closet and would like to see Shin-chan wear it... a picture would be nice^^ 👗🥻👘

◎ include your pinky in all pics (if possible like ↓↓↓)

◎ if you have a traditional dish you would like to show him... take a picture 😁 (if it’s not too complicated... you might wanna add the recipe^^)

◎ if you feel like it... please write a little message to him (if it’s in English, please use simple sentences^^)

◎ please tell me your favourite animal!!!

→ there is no picture limit, send me as many as you want!!! everyone get’s at least 1page!!

→ please refrain from taking pictures where your (or others) face is visible... I’m not sure if Shin-chans agency in particullar has something against it... but I know of other agencies... and we all don’t want the present to be denied, right^^

edit: if you are like to draw something... feel free^^ (please don’t forget that his character will be 金森碧叶 Kanamori Rikuto... not 宗像廉 Munakata Ren^^)

※ I know it might be difficult with corona and everything but I would really, really appriciate it if you would be a part of this project!!! (btw. being part of the project is free!!! I will pay for the book^^)

※ please contact me here on tumblr (ask if we aren’t mutuals) or on twitter via pm (as soon as possible so I know how many people might want to participate^^)

※ deadline for the pictures (+ message):

JULY 18TH, 2020 ~ 12am (MESZ)

→ I might need some time in case I have to send the photobook to my friend

※ goal: at least 15 participants!!!😅 (currently 12+ \(^^)/... including me🤣)

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please help me with this one🙏🏻 let’s show this little guy how big the foreign 2.5jigen fandom is!!!!

ps: reblogs are appreciated!!

#personal #植田慎一郎 #ueda shinichirou #help #fan-project #fun-project #spread love

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daysswithyou · 7 years ago

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With love,

Characters: DAY6 Jae x OC

Genre: fluff, slice of life, romance

Words: 2.6k

Description: penpal!jae – when the flame of love rekindles

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"From: Jae."

You raised a single eyebrow at the letter, surprised that this even appeared in your mailbox. You definitely weren't expecting him to write to you so soon, if not at all. But you couldn't deny that a small part of you was excited to see what he had written - he was a rather funny character. Tearing the slit open, you were greeted by a whole bunch of capital letters and haphazard punctuation - he clearly wrote this in a rather unclear (and possibly drunk) state of mind. You tried your best to decipher his scrawly handwriting (which was rather hard in all honesty) but by the end of the letter, you were laughing to yourself, the little drawing of Chicken Little at the end as he signed off tickling your funny bone. You immediately flashed back to how you met Jae on a school exchange program, the first moment you met him already proving to be rather diabolical.

"Y/N your partner is..."

The teacher scanned the classroom for a certain someone before heaving a deep sigh.

"Jae, who's late."

Right at the moment, the door burst open, revealing a geeky boy with a sharp mohawk hairstyle and brown glasses hanging skewed off the bridge of his nose.

"Jae, you are exceptionally early today." The teacher's voice dripped with sarcasm before fixing an admonishing look upon his student. But the cheeky youth was clearly unfazed by the scolding (or the attention) and instead merely shoot his teacher a wide grin before defending himself.

"Sorry Mr Franklin I had to take time to look extra good today for the exchange students." He then winked at his teacher whom simply turned back to address the class; it was quite obvious that he was rather used to such situations from the boy. Jae then turned to you, finally aware of your presence.

"Hi are you my partner?"

"Yes."

"Hi my name is Jae. Sorry for being late, I actually overslept."

"It's alright, my name is Y/N."

"Yea I know."

You found out later from him that he had chosen you as his partner because of your interesting name, which he had described as 'pretty like you', causing you to turn into a tongue-tied mess. He didn't say that to flirt, he had meant that a geninue comment.

For the rest of the day, Jae led the pack, a natural orator that had managed to captivate all the students as he went on raptly about your school. You spent the next five days getting to know Jae very well, especially during lunch break where he led you away from the crazy lunch crowd towards the band room where both of you talked endlessly about everything ranging from America's history to embarrassing childhood stories. Time flew fast when you were having fun and before you knew it Jae was sending you off at the airport. You had just said goodbye to him and had just only turned towards the transit area when he called you again.

"Y/N wait! Could you...give me your address? I'll like be...erm...penpals ya know?"

He then passed you a marker but no paper.

"Jae do you have paper now?"

"No?"

"Give me your hand."

He stuck out his arm and you quickly wrote your address on his palm.

"I'll write back. Bye Jae!"

You then took off past the gates but little did you know that Jae's skin was still tingling from your touch.

You kept your promise and continuously wrote back and forth to him, both of you sharing your troubles and successes with one another. But the most memorable one had to be the one with the ring, the one where he suggested flying to meet you.

"Since you've been to California before, I thought I'd use the summer break to visit you in New York. The ring is for us to identify one another just in case our looks have changed too much since the last time we met HAHA. Let me know what you think about it?"

Of course you were ecstatic. You couldn't wait to see Jae again and you drove out to mail your letter even though it was 12am at night.

But a letter never came back.

You tried writing many more letters to him but you never got one back. It was as if he had dropped off the face of the earth. After a year, you simply stopped hoping for a reply and soon Jae slowly faded to the back of your memory as you got busy with being an adult.

But somehow, you still kept the ring, wearing it faithfully each day.

"Go to this concert with me?" Your childhood friend, Janice, that was currently living in Korea had pleaded with you using her famous puppy eyes, anticipating your rejection.

"Ok. But who are they? And what kind of group are they?"

"They're a band so they play their own instruments. And the name's DAY6!"

"I've never heard of them before so I'll give it a go."

"Yay! I'll pay for your ticket!"

"Really? How much must you like them to want to pay for me? "

"You'll see."

Indeed you will.

That night, you wore the ring on your middle finger as usual. When you entered, the hall was already crowded with fans, the excited buzzing had already began. Fans were wearing white wristbands as you were and they were also holding cute handmade banners filled with words of encouragement. You smiled at the adorable sight and felt this small bubble of joy growing within you - so this was an inkling of what it felt like to be able to see a band that you loved so much. You spotted six different instruments on stage: someone was on the rhythm guitar and another on the bass guitar. Someone would be playing both the synths and keyboard, an interesting combination for a band. The drums look majestic sitting at a spot higher than the rest, granting the drummer a greater view of the adoring crowd. Last but not least, the electric guitar. War flashbacks of Jae playing the electric guitar in the band raced through your mind and for a moment you could hear his laugh and see his infectious smile again. He quizzed you on the different instruments and you got most of them correct as you did now.

Jae would be proud of me I suppose

Before you had time to think further, the lights around the hall dimmed as the stage lights illuminated the 5 different spots on the stage. The members filed out one by one and Janice squeezed your hand particularly hard by the drummer came out. Manly body with boyish features: a man with dual charms; clearly he was her style. But when the electric guitarist came out, you felt your heart stop beating as the world came down to just you and him.

Jae was standing on stage right in front of you. He still had that same wide smile with straight teeth and he still wore his glasses wherever he went. The only difference was the blonde hair and weight loss; his baby fats in the cheeks were gone, giving his face a much more angular look.

Different look, but definitely still the same person.

His eyes scanned the crowd quickly as Sungjin did the opening mention. When he reached your area, you swore his gaze lingered on you a little longer, the gears in his head rapidly doing the math to calculate the probability of that being you. But before he could make up his mind, Dowoon's drums started off 'How can I say', giving him no time at all before he had to rock out on his own. For the rest of the night, Jae belted out song after song effortlessly but whenever they had breaks in between songs or special interaction with fans, he would always try to search for you amongst the thousands of people but his eyes showed that he wasn't sure. As for yourself, the same could be said. You weren't sure if you'd want to reveal yourself to Jae. But perhaps you were afraid of his reaction. Would he hate to see you? Would he remember you? But worst of all, would he pretend that he didn't know you when you knew he could? A million thoughts ate away at your mind throughout the concert, and you couldn't focus on anything much except for Jae. When the concert ended, you decided to flee before you did something stupid or had your heart broken by Jae.

"Y/N where are you going? There's still the fansign."

Oh right, she got VIP tickets for me too.

That means you'll have to face the inevitable: Jae. As the line in front of you got shorter and shorter, your face got redder and redder from many illogical things at once: embarrassment, anticipation, awkwardness. You thought of the worst case scenario that could happen later when you got to Jae, whom just had to be the last in the row. First was the bassist that looked ridiculously cute followed by the leader that spoke with a thick accent. The shy drummer could barely hold your eye he signed your poster for you and the adorable pianist gave you the sweetest, widest smile.

When you finally got to Jae, you said the lamest thing off the top of your head.

"Hi Jae. It's been a long time."

"Hi Y/N I've missed you."

You nearly cried there and then.

Jae POV

It's her. I swore it was her. I could recognise her from a million miles away. I rushed off stage once the concert was over to find her but Sungjin pulled me back before I could even take a step off stage. Then that's when I see her towards the end of the snaking line, her hands trembling slightly as she chewed on her nails, and that's why they say old habits die hard.

When her name fell past my lips now after so many years, she almost cried, her eyes turning red instantly. The staff was rushing her and I hastily signed her poster (across my face by accident) but before she could leave, I had to do something. Grabbing her arm like she did to me, I quickly wrote a message to her before letting her go.

"Meet me backstage later." - the note said.

What do I do now? What's he going to say?

"So how was it? Were they fantastic?"

"Absolutely."

"So who's your bias?"

"Jae."

"No wonder you lingered so long at his spot."

"Yea haha, hey would you mind waiting for me a little? I need to use the washroom."

"Sure. I'll wait for you at the entrance."

Once you were safely out of her sight, you took off in the backstage direction and before you could locate him, you felt a hand reach out to pull you into a storage closet.

There, surrounded by floor cleaners and mops, you met Jae again after so many years.

"Y/N there's so much to say to you but there's so little time...how do I even..."

"Slow down Jae. I'm going to stay in Korea for some time, we can always meet again to talk. It's just so good to see you again."

"It is. I'm sorry for disappearing so many years ago, I tried so hard so find you after that-"

To prevent him for rattling on, you grabbed his hand lightly.

"It's alright Jae, you can tell me all about it in future. For now...I'm just glad to see you again, that's all I can say."

You felt him twisting the ring and when you looked down, you found him wearing the same ring on the exact same finger.

"I can't believe you wear it after so long..."

"I could say the same."

"I wear it as a reminder to fulfill my promise to you."

"Well, I guess fate has given us a little push now."

"And I love it. Oh and sorry about the poster, I signed on my face in a hurry."

"Well, I won't be needing the poster much since I'll be seeing the man himself soon."

Jae smiled widely at your statement, holding onto your hand tighter so that we won't lose you again.

Epilogue

It was Christmas season but here you were hunched over your laptop, typing out the last few segments of your report for submission in 2 hours time. You were shivering badly in the cold; today was unnaturally cold with heavy snowfall and the heater was broken. You tried to ignore the biting cold and focus on the task at hand. Right at the moment, Jae walked over with a snuggie and draped it over your shoulder.

"Stay warm baby."

"Thanks Jae." You kissed the back of his hand before letting him go. Despite the additional layer, you were still shivering and you had to breathe some heat into your palms every few minutes to prevent your fingers from going numb.

"Here baby." Before you could register what was happening in your slow mind, a weight was lifted off your shoulders. Jae now had a regular blanket wrapped over himself as he wriggled his awkward body into the space between you and the couch. Spreading his legs out, he pulled you into his embrace as he wrapped his arms around your frame. The finishing touch was his head upon your shoulder as he stared ahead at your laptop screen. He was essentially koala-hugging you.

"Jae?"

"I'll keep you warm as you finish the report. Just write." He then kissed your temple before closing his eyes to rest whilst squeezing you slightly. Finding your way out of the thick blanket and his long arms, you rapidly typed out the last few segments and managed to hand in the report an hour early.

Closing your laptop softly, you turned back to Jae to slowly rouse him. Rubbing your thumb along his cheek, you mumbled against the side of his lips.

"Babe I'm done. You can wake up now."

"So fast?"

"Hmmm"

"That's great..." The end of his words dragged out as he let out a yawn, rubbing his eyes and stretched his hands above his head.

Taking advantage of his unguarded position, you decided to have some fun after a long day. Spotting the thin strip of his soft belly that was peeking out from underneath his blue stripped pyjamas, you launched a tickle attack, successfully catching him off guard. Jae yelped before bursting into laughter, completely unable to defend himself as he slowly deflated from laughing too much. Your mistake came when you decided to be nice; Jae immediately attacked from the sides and this went on till both of you somehow ended up on the couch with you on top of him. Once the giggles faded away, you looked down at the beautiful man that was now yours and some wire in your brain decided that now would be a good time to kiss him. Leaning down, you placed your lips on his and it made you giddy with happiness when you felt him smile into the kiss.

Breaking away, your hands went to play with soft hair, running your fingers through them. All this while appreciating the beauty of this man that you can now call yours.

"You should probably get some sleep, it's late."

And so you did. You fell asleep that night with your head tucked under his chin, your arms wrapped tightly around his torso.

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totallylesbians · 7 years ago

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1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?Lately it’s been, in no particular order…-There’s Nothing Holding Me Back by Shawn Mendes -Curious by Hayley Kiyoko -Follow You by Bring Me The Horizon-Fuck You by Sleeping With Sirens (pop goes punk cover)-Perfect by Ed Sheeran -Just the Girl by The Click Five (All but Hayley are on my drag list, which is what I’ve mostly been listening to…)

2. If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?Probably Alycia Debnam-Carey, honestly

3. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. Charlie bit Alex’s shoulder through her coat. “Just admit you love the…” line continues to “city in winter.” From KL Hughes’ The Art of Us

4. What do you think about most?I don’t even know, dude. My mind is so fucking random and scattered. It’s probably not good stuff if I really think about it.

5. What does your latest tattoo from someone else say?“Still”

6. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?I sleep with my boxer briefs on. That’s it though. Unless I’m on my period or sleeping with someone else or at someone else’s house.

7. What’s your strangest talent?I don’t know really. I can manipulate my voice a bit. It usually makes people laugh or be like “what the fuck?” I can bend backwards and make my feet touch my head too. So there’s that.

8. Girls…(finish the sentence); Boys…(finish the sentence). Girls…are strong and beautiful and need to realize they need someone to tell them that for it to be true. Boys…are strong and beautiful, too. Both need positivity and to be kinder to themselves and others.

9. Ever had a poem or a song written about you?No. My first girlfriend said she wrote a poem about me, but what she read me was actually what she wrote about her ex. That was kind of awkward.

10. When is the last time you played the air guitar?Earlier today. So like…3-4ish hours ago

11. Do you have any strange phobias?Not that I know of

12. Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?Not that that I can recall. Maybe chopsticks or a pencil when I was a kid but that’s about it. And I’m not even sure I did that.

13. What’s your religion?I don’t have one

14. If you’re outside what are you most likely doing? Walking. Or going for a run, if it’s nice out.

15. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?Behind it. Definitely.

16. Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?I’m going to have to go with Pvris. They saved my life. Other bands have too. But I have to say them.

17. What was the last lie you told?Probably “I’m okay.”

18. Do you believe in karma?Something like that, yes. For sure.

19. What does your URL mean?Essentially, that is blog is gay as fuck and contains anything lesbian related.

20. What’s your greatest weakness? Greatest strength?Weakness: stubbornness Strength: loyalty

21. Who is your celebrity crush?I have so many dude. Ryan Ashley, Eliza Taylor, Alycia Debnam-Carey, Kristen Stewart, Anna Kendrick, etc

22. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?Not that I know of

23. How do you vent your anger?Usually through violence and aggression. I yell. I scream. I throw things. I hit things. It’s the only thing that truly helps me. I can write and draw but it doesn’t help much at all.

24. Do you have a collection of anything? Movies. That’s the only thing that comes to mind.

25. Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Neither honestly. But if I had to choose…maybe talking on the phone.

26. Are you happy with the person you’ve become?No. But I hope to be someday.

27. What’s a sound you hate? Sound you love?Hate: high pitches like nails on a chalkboard and similar sounds Love: the sound of rain

28. What’s your biggest “what if?”What if I had been there when he died? What if I had gotten to say goodbye to him? Would I still be mourning him the way I do? Would it have made a difference in how/who I am now? I’ll never know. And it kills me.

29. Do you believe in ghosts? What about aliens?Yes to both. I’m not sure I’d call either of them that. But I definitely believe in both. I’ve had experiences that I can’t explain. And I find it hard to believe that out of the entire universe, we are on the only planet that has life.

30. Stick out your right arm, what’s the first thing you touch? Do the same to your left. Right: the arm of the couch. Left: the folded body pillow that we keep on the couch

31. Smell the air. What do you smell?The candle during. Lilacs.

32. What’s the worst place you’ve ever been to?The only place that comes to mind immediately was my ex’s mom’s house.

33. Choose: east coast or west coast?I’ve only ever been on the west coast

34. Most attractive singer of the opposite gender?I’m not sure exactly. But my favorite male singer would have to be M. Shadows from Avenged Sevenfold. I love his voice. He’s got nice tattoos and a great smile.

35. To you, what’s the meaning of life?I’m not sure I’ve found it yet

36. Define art. I don’t think I can. Art is subjective. Describing it depends on the piece. It depends on the person viewing the piece. I believe art is meant to make someone feel something though. It’s meant to express what the artist feels in some way. Whether it’s pain or beauty and anything and all in between.

37. Do you believe in luck?Something like that

38. What’s the weather like right now?Calm. Somewhat cloudy skies. Maybe a slight breeze.

39. What time is it?Currently, as I reach this question, 12:08am

40. Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?Not legally, yet. But I have crashed. Just about everything I’ve ever rode/driven. At least once.

41. What was the last book you read?Published book: The Art of Us by KL Hughes

42. Do you like the smell of gasoline?Not really

43. Do you have any nicknames?Spiffy is my most popular one. A few call me Midget. And family members call me one too, but I’m not saying that one.

44. What was the last film you saw?I’m currently watching Salt. But the last one I watched through and through was The House

45. What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?Probably whatever happened to my wrist. Considering it still hurts over a year later

46. Have you ever caught a butterfly?No. But I remember raising one from a caterpillar in elementary school and releasing them as butterflies.

47. Do you have any obsessions right now?Not that I know of

48. What’s your sexuality?Gay/lesbian

49. Ever had a rumor spread about you?I’ve had quite a few spread about me. I think the ones that effected my life at the time the most was that I was pregnant or that I was trans.

50. Do you believe in magic?I’m not sure

51. Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?Yes. Absolutely.

52. What’s your astrological sign?Taurus

53. Do you save money or spend it?A bit of both, but more so save it. I spend it on necessities for the most part and save the rest.

54. What’s the last thing you purchased?A smoothie, a lemonade, two bags of chips, and two boxes of donuts.

55. Love or lust?I’d rather have love

56. In a relationship?No

57. How many relationships have you had?4, technically. One only lasted like two weeks and was long distance so I don’t count it. One with a boy, 3 with girls.

58. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?Nope

59. Where were you yesterday?I know it’s technically past midnight but I haven’t slept yet so I’m going to say that it’s from the 9th. And I was at work.

60. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?Yes. My stuffed dog I’ve had for as long as I can remember

61. Are you wearing socks right now?No

62. What’s your favorite animal?Probably otters

63. What’s is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?I don’t know. I don’t think I have one. I don’t care if people like me or not.

64. Where is your best friend?Probably in bed at home. I don’t know.

65. Give me your top 5 blogs on tumblr.Some that come to mind are @eatmeoutnowbabe@ericajonorris@perksofbeingalesbian@yourgaydarisonpoint@youknow-me-not-my-story

66. What is your heritage?I’m Native American

67. What were you doing last night at 12am?Laying in bed

68. What do you think is Satan’s last name?Probably something cheesy and harmless sounding

69. Be honest. Have you ever gotten yourself off?Never

70. Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?Kind of. To an extent

71. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?Save the dog. Fuck my boss. I can find a different job. That said, my actual boss, wouldn’t do that to me

72. You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. A) do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? B) what do you do with your remaining days? C) would you be afraid?A. Maybe a few people, but not everyoneB. Live my life to the fullest that I canC. I don’t think so

73. You can only have one of these things: trust or love?I think this is a trick question. I think they go hand in hand a bit. But I choose trust over love.

74. What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?Not sure really. Maybe Goodbye Earl by the Dixie Chicks. It reminds me of some good times in my childhood

75. What are the last 4 digits of your cell phone number?7260

76. In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?Open communication. Trust. Honesty.

77. How can I win your heart?Can’t win what I don’t have

78. Can insanity bring more creativity?Maybe to an extent

79. What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?Getting Dexter

80. What size shoes do you wear?Depends on the brand and style. But anywhere from 5-7

81. What do you want to be written on your tombstone?“I’m not easy to kill…fuck”

82. What is your favorite word?Fuck

83. Give me the first word that comes to your mind when you hear the word; heart?Less

84. What is a saying you say a lot?“It is what it is”

85. What’s the last song you listened to?Follow Me by Uncle Kracker

86. Basic question: what is your favorite color/colors?Black

87. What is your current desktop picture?I’ll reblog a picture of it. I posted it before

88. If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?My mom’s ex-boyfriend’s son

89. What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?I’m not sure, honestly

90. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find out you are surrounded by mummies. The mummies aren’t doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?Tell them to fuck off. Or kill them. Depends I guess

91. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with a superpower of your choice. What is that power?Transfiguration/shapeshifting

92. You can relive any point of time in your life. The timespan can only be a half hour, though. What half hour of your life would you like to experience again?Any time I had with my best friend before he died. I don’t care if it’s us playing. Or sleeping. I just want one more moment with him

93. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?Nothing. My past has made me who I am. I am a product of all that I have been through. I may not like myself, but this is who I am. If something hadn’t happened, I may not be the me I am now. It’s up to me to change and become the person I want to be with everything that’s happened.

94. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music celebrity of your choice. Who will it be?Probably Lynn Gunn. Maybe Lauren Jauregui

95. You just got a free plane ticket to go anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you going to go?I don’t know specifics. Somewhere where no one knows my name or my story. Somewhere where I’m free to be whoever I want to be 96. Do you have any relatives in jail?Probably. I think my cousin is in prison. Looking at like 25 years I think.

97. Have you ever thrown up in a car?Not that I remember. But I heard that I did when I was black out drunk a few years back

98. Ever been on a plane?Yes. Quite a few times. But only for visits to two places.

99. Answered

#anon #ask me

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goddesssword · 7 years ago

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14, 67, 82 for asks.

(Ask game)

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Going for a walk and listening to music, probably. Maybe heading out to one of the islands if it’s nice? A couple of times I went out to the islands so I’m away from wifi to force myself to work on Greyscales instead of getting distracted by tumblr and Salmon Run and stuff, lol.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

Actually sleeping like a functional human being somehow??? I think it’s cause my sleep schedule got so fucked up these past few days it actually looped back around to a proper one haha

82: What is your favourite word?

I… A favorite word. Shit. That’s uh. Fuck. See now, I could tell you my current favorite song or whatever even though that changes every five goddamn seconds, but favorite word? Shit. I don’t really think about that??? Uh. Hm. Fuck I’m trying to think of one from a song I’ve been listening to lately and I’m lowkey drawing a blank??? Unless I want to uh. Hm. Shit. Yeah, alright. Screw it. I’ll let my hyperfixation and my shit taste in music win this time and say ‘remix’ because it’s relevant to both right now. Goddammit. Hey can somebody tell me why it’s always the antagonists that catch my interest more than the protagonists or even just random NPCs? And also why my hyperfixations are almost exclusively on games for children?

Thanks for the questions :0c

#ask #ask game #half of this is just my way of saying I'm in splatoon hell

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johnnyrebuniverse · 7 years ago

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Let’s Get Personal Challenge

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

Jealousy(Robert DeLong) Genesis(Armors) Tennis Court(Lorde) Fool’s Game(This Century) Drive(Glades) Thorns(Luna Shadows)

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

I would meet my Grandmother. I never truly got to know her because she was in a hospital bed and could never speak to me. So I would meet her.

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

“A hero among commoners, Bacon nonetheless was an aristocrat who simmered over his lack of access to the governor’s inner circle.” (A Patriot’s History of the United States.)

4: What do you think about most?

I think about all the ways I can say hello and goodbye the next time I see her...

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

“Yeah tbh…”

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

Depends on how depressed I am. (No judging.)

7: What’s your strangest talent?

I can describe interpersonal struggles to a person’s life by merely looking into their eyes for at least 15-17 seconds.

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

Girls make better sweaters; Boys make rocks out of feathers.

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

Yes actually. I was touched.

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

Just now. I always end up doing it when I listen to music.

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

Hmmmm, I’m terrified of holding someone's last words forever in my mind. Does that count?

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

Never. Q-Tips, are totally natural objects.

13: What’s your religion?

I am a follower of The lord Jesus Christ. :)(Christian) Religion is relative and subjective.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Running or working.

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Yes. Just yes.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

Gaah. Probably This Century.

17: What was the last lie you told?

That I was okay when they asked me how I felt about being stalked by my ex.

18: Do you believe in karma?

I believe in justice.

19: What does your URL mean?

It’s from the Civil War era, a common jock made by Union to Confederates soldiers.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

What kind of weakness? Okay okay...fine. W-1: Giving too many second chances, loving too hard. S-1: Singing to bring people together, people, and running fast. W-2: When she runs her fingers through my hair(imma be honest) S-2: When she smiles at me and says I’m strong enough for both of us. :)

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

Oooooo! Emma Stone or Lorde(Ella Marija Lani Yelich-O'Connor.) :) #EmmaStoneandLordeisbae

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

Nope.

23: How do you vent your anger?

Guitar and singing or running...for a long time. It gives me time to think of how dumb I am.

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

Hmmm, I have a collection of loose leaf sketches I’ve made over the years.

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Talking on the phone.

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

I’m happier with him that who he was, but still striving for better.

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

Sound I hate: Crying(breaks the heart) Sound I love: Laughter or piano bar jazz.

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

What if… I became all the things I swore to never be. Would I be loved?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

I believe in certain spirits and the Holy Ghost. I like the idea of ghosts and aliens though.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

Right: Nothing Left: Corkboard.

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

Book paper, wood and coffee.

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

Downtown Ohio.

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

East.

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

Lorde. (Ella Marija Lani Yelich-O'Connor)

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

To love, live, and strive for good things and give glory to God no matter how hard life becomes.

36: Define Art.

The expression of beautiful things through poetry, music, lyrics, painting, drawing and dancing.

37: Do you believe in luck?

No… mostly because i’ve never had any. lol

38: What’s the weather like right now?

Night. Hot. Florida… hot.

39: What time is it?

9:31 pm.

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

Not legally. Lol And yes.

41: What was the last book you read?

“Strategies for Academic Success.”

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

Yeeessss.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

I have a few. :)

44: What was the last film you saw?

Despicable Me. (I got bored...very very bored.)

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

Broken heart. Lol (no but really) Dent in my forehead(still there) from a bike wreck.

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

Yup. it was kinda terrifying.

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

Yes...Her… Journalism. Lorde. Making people smile(it counts)

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

Heterosexual.

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

Yup, it wasn’t fun...at all.

50: Do you believe in magic?

Not unless chocolate cake counts.

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

No actually. I just have a lot of sadness for them.

52: What is your astrological sign?

Gemini/Virgo (I have two cause I’m special lol)

53: Do you save money or spend it?

Yes.

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

Mountain Dew.

55: Love or lust?

Yes.

56: In a relationship?

In heart, mind and spirit.. Waiting in body.

57: How many relationships have you had?

Two “relationships.” but no real ones.

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Heck no.

59: Where were you yesterday?

School.

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

Yes... There is something pink on my wrist.

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

Always.

62: What’s your favourite animal?

Wolf, fox, hawk and J-raff’s. lol

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

What? None that i am aware of. Ask other people. lol

64: Where is your best friend?

I have few in many places.

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

@haileyisradsauce @champasaurus @toonimated @snarkies @kuvshinov-ilya

66: What is your heritage?

40 acres of land and a beautiful sky to share with someone special one day.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

Writing.

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Bound for hell.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

What?

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

Not sure. I know me and I know my bad sides.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Save the dang dog and show up with it to work, turning in my things and collecting my last pay check.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

Probably only a few people. B. Hold her for all of them. C. Death is afraid of what comes after it. I am not.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

Love is trust.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

Jealousy by Robert DeLong

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

HA! I don’t own a cell phone, ask my friends… h-hang on, let me e-mail’em real quick for you.

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Trust. And little reminders of how valued they are in your life.

77: How can I win your heart?

Pick the pieces up after it breaks. Or hold me… heck, touch my chin, with your index finger, run your fingers through my hair and whisper all kinds of stuff(if we’re being honest).

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

Yes.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

For her. Yes. But for me it’s driving me nuts cause i wanna just freaking love her out loud.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

10 ½ (That whole “foot size” thing isn’t true by the way *cough* living testimony.)

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

“Overrated and Underpaid.”

82: What is your favourite word?

“Lackadaisical” (Lazy)

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

Two hands holding a chipped heart over a cardboard box filled with newspaper. Huh…?

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

“You right” and “I got you”

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

“Holy Ghost” by BORNS. (<3)

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

Whichever creates a more beautiful illustration of my thoughts.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

My working E.P. Album cover.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

My mind.

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

“Why do you love me?” Because I’d be terrified if i didn’t tell or show you enough. Having to tell or show how truly i love you would break my heart for you and me. Every kiss would be held by a tear.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

Stare...drool…. Fall back asleep and hope it was a dream.

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

Shape shifting.

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

July 19th 2017 11 p.m.

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

None. They’ve made who I am.

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Are we legit sleeping? Or “sleeping”? If we’re actually sleeping then I’m throwing a lock-in with Andrew Garfield. lol

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

Well, I’m gonna go to her house and take her to Europe.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

Not that I know of.

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

When i was like seven or so. Best pair of black corduroy overalls i ever had...ruined.

98: Ever been on a plane?

Nope.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

“Testing...testing?”

#fun #games #life #stuff #challenge

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mountain-soul · 7 years ago

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Like so many of those questions..u should do them all if ur up to it

get toknow me

i know i dont really talkto you guys but i want you to get to know me. so heres 100 questions you canask me, just send a number or make up your own questions.

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

· Just A Phase by Adam Craig

· Round Here Buzz by Eric Church

· Heartache on the Dance Floor by Jon Pardi

· Déjà vu by Lauren Duski

· Either Way by Chris Stapleton

· It Just Wont Quit by Meat Loaf

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, whowould it be?

· Emma Watson or Sophia Bush (I cant choose)

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page23, give me line 17.

4: What do you think about most?

· Getting myself out of debt

5: What does your latest text message fromsomeone else say?

· “Headphones!!”

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

· Giant T shirt

7: What’s your strangest talent?

· I can pick up a lot of things with my feet

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finishthe sentence)

· Girls kinda suck

· Boys kinda suck

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

· No

10: When is the last time you played the airguitar?

· Lol I couldn’t even tell you

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

· Airport security

· Masked creatures like the Easter Bunny

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

· no

13: What’s your religion?

· protestant

14: If you are outside, what are you mostlikely doing?

· Sitting on the patio drinking and hanging outwith friends

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera orin front of it?

· behind

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favoriteband?

· The Doors

17: What was the last lie you told?

· “Im not mad at you”

18: Do you believe in karma?

· I believe in justice

19: What does your URL mean?

· That the mountains are where I belong

20: What is your greatest weakness; yourgreatest strength?

· Weakness: I trust and forgive far too easilywhen I love someone

· Strength: I love to prove people wrong

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

· Julian Edeleman

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

· Yes

23: How do you vent your anger?

· I usually just lock myself in my room and stayaway from people for awhile. Or I’ll go see hot bartender and go line dancing at my favoritecountry bar

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

· Pretty big vinyl record collection

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone orvideo chatting online?

· Phone call

26: Are you happy with the person you’vebecome?

· A lot happier recently

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

· Hate: anything that sounds like nails on achalkboard

· Love: thunderstorms

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

· What if Im not good enough to be someonesfirst and only choice

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How aboutaliens?

· Ghosts: yes

· Aliens: unsure

30: Stick your right arm out; what do youtouch first? Do the same with your left arm.

· Either side of my desk

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

· Freshly printed paper

32: What’s the worst place you have ever beento?

· Honestly, not a huge fan of NYC. Too muchgoing on there

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

· East Coast for sure

34: Most attractive singer of your oppositegender?

· Sam Hunt

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

· To leave people better than you met them

36: Define Art.

· Whatever makes you feel something, be itmovement, writing, picture, drawing

37: Do you believe in luck?

· Not really

38: What’s the weather like right now?

· Rainy, which is okay because im home from work

39: What time is it?

· 6:01 PM

40: Do you drive? If so, have you evercrashed?

· Yes, and Ive been rear-ended

41: What was the last book you read?

· TheGirl on the Train

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

· Yes

43: Do you have any nicknames?

· Nicki, Nic, Princess, Pumpkin

44: What was the last film you saw?

· Shutter Island

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

· Well I fractured my ankle when I was 10 and shouldvegotten a cast and didnt so still dealing with that 13 years later

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

· yes

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

· Cold brew coffee

· The Bachelorette

· Reading

· Candles

· Old time radio shows

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

· Straight

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

· Lol, lets count them all

50: Do you believe in magic?

· Part of me does

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against peoplewho have done you wrong?

· Lolololololol yeahhh

52: What is your astrological sign?

· Taurus

53: Do you save money or spend it?

· I try to save. But I do save to spend

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

· A salad

55: Love or lust?

· Depends on the person Im with

56: In a relationship?

· Uhhh kind of

57: How many relationships have you had?

· 4

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

· Nope

59: Where were you yesterday?

· Work

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet ofyou?

· My pig pillow pet

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

· Always

62: What’s your favourite animal?

· An otter

63: What is your secret weapon to get someoneto like you?

· Playing hard to get

64: Where is your best friend?

· Far away

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs onTumblr.

66: What is your heritage?

· Portuegese, English, Swedish, French Canadian,and Mohawk Indian

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

· Watching The Fosters even though I should havebeen asleep

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

· Lololol I think he has too many

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

· Damn straight

70: Are you the kind of friend you would wantto have as a friend?

· I think so

71: You are walking down the street on yourway to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street.Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do youdo?

· Save the dog dude!

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she hasjust informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tellanyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remainingdays? c) Would you be afraid?

· I would tell my parents, and S.O.

· I would try and do everything I’ve ever wanted to do

· Id be terrified

73: You can only have one of these things;trust or love.

· love

74: What’s a song that always makes you happywhen you hear it?

· That’s What I Like by Bruno Mars

75: What are the last four digits in your cellphone number?

· 6504

76: In your opinion, what makes a greatrelationship?

· Respect, communication, trust, admiration

77: How can I win your heart?

· Corgis

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

· Or more insanity

79: What is the single best decision you havemade in your life so far?

· To not get another restaurant job

80: What size shoes do you wear?

· 8

81: What would you want to be written on yourtombstone?

· “Love her, but leave her wild.”

82: What is your favourite word?

· Love

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mindwhen you hear the word; heart.

· ache

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

· Bless

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

· Objects in the Rearview Mirror by Meat Loaf

86: Basic question; what’s your favouritecolour/colours?

· Gray, very light purple

87: What is your current desktop picture?

· A quote that says “Do what makes your soul happy”

88: If you could press a button and makeanyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

· Lolololol too many

89: What would be a question you’d be afraidto tell the truth on?

· Are you over him?

90: One night you wake up because you heard anoise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. Themummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed.What do you do?

· Go back to sleep

91: You accidentally eat some radioactivevegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you withthe super-power of your choice! What is that power?

· Invisibility

92: You can re-live any point of time in yourlife. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your pastwould you like to experience again?

· The last half hour I spent with my Buppa

93: You can erase any horrible experience fromyour past. What will it be?

· All the bullying I experienced

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with themusic-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

· SAM HUNT

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere.You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

· English countryside

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

· Surprisingly no

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

· Oh yeah

98: Ever been on a plane?

· Yes

99: If the whole worldwere listening to you right now, what would you say?

· To quote Cinderella “Have courage and be kind”

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my-mystic-messenger · 8 years ago

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Are requests open?? Could you do a HC or write a little scenario where MC is childhood friends with the RFA and they haven't seen each other in ages, so they don't recognize them at first when they show up in the chat? I'd love to see this written in your style! Thanks so much :D

Hello everybody and so sorry I’ve been awol again. However, I wasn’t completely useless as I established some MC’s so everyone has their own girl with their own personality as they do in the game. You can get to know the MC’s and check out my Masterlist

|| REQUEST ARE (ALWAYS) OPEN!! ||

♬Zen♬

“You’resinging it wrong.” Despite the words having been spoken gently Hyuntensed with shock, instantly spinning around to see whom had spoken.Usually he’d been uninterrupted when staying behind after class topractice singing. He told his parents that he was staying late tostudy, which in itself wasn’t a lie, he just wasn’t studying forschool. Apparently the silence had lasted too long as the girl’sfriendly smile wavered a little and she cleared her throat. “I’msorry, I didn’t mean to startle you, but you had a little twist inwords”, she continued, chuckling nervously. It was such a sweetsound, Hyun noted. Her voice was very soft and pleasant and it madehim wonder what she sounded like while singing. “Why don’tyou sing it to me? I learn best by listening.” She blushed but gavea quick nod before clearing her throat and proceeding to sing. Tothis day Zen hadn’t heard a voice like that. Despite it being atraditional and complicated song the girl didn’t miss a single note,capturing him to the point he could merely stare in wonder. “W-whoare you”, he’d asked, cheeks reddened. “My name is Macy Cain”,the girl had replied, bowing to him politely. “And you’re Hyun.I’ve been listening in on you for a while now. I’ve never heard sucha pretty voice. I was really looking forward to hearing you performat the summer festival, but it turned out you’re not in the choir. Iwas wondering why? It’s such a waste for you not to be.”

UsuallyZen kept to himself but something about that sweet, little girlcaptivated him. That evening he told her about his parents and hisbrother, opening up his heart for the first time. Macy listened tohis every word, never once judging or even interrupting. By the timethe sun had started to set the two of them had talked for hours andHyun felt a lot lighter around the heart. They talked like that everyday, singing together in the empty classroom, a sacred moment sharedbetween only the two of them. For three years their friendshiplasted, until their ways parted when it was time to go to highschool. That entire time though Macy never missed an opportunity tosupport and encourage Hyun. “You have to promise me something, yes?Follow your dreams and never give up. Your talent belongs on a stageand one day…one day I want to see you up there with the big ones.”

♬

“Everyone,gather around. The live performance is starting”, Jaehee announced,getting all the members attention. Zen smiled down at you lovingly,offering a hand to help you up. You graciously accepted it, followinghim to the dance floor where everyone was gathering. You’d hired aband for the RFA party and they were about to open the dance floorwith their first performance. Zen had already wrapped his arm aroundyour middle, holding your hand in his when the woman began to sing.The two of you froze at the same time, both of you turning your gazeto the front. Zen’s eyes widened as he stared up at the stage, hissilent gasp slowly turning into a smile as memories started to floodback in. Ah yes, that song, he’d heard it before. Zen closed his eyesfor a brief moment, letting the music sweep him up. It was a sweetreminder of a much simpler time.

Thatis when it hit him. The faint sound of a familiar voice barelyaudible over the loud performer using the microphone at the front ofroom. It had changed, of course, matured over the years but it wasnevertheless that sweet, gentle voice that had lulled him into safetyall those years back. As he opened his eyes and turned to you thefloor seemed to have been ripped away from under his feet. You weresinging, lips moving as the melody fell from your mouth as easily asit did all those years ago. He couldn’t believe it. “Macy…”,Zen gasped, getting your attention. You stopped singing, turning yourhead to smile at him knowingly, just as gentle as you did in middleschool. “It’s nice to see you again, Hyun. I’m so happy that youkept the promise you made to me. You really belong on the stage.”Zen laughed then, tears of joy gathering in his eyes. Who would havethought his first love would turn out to be his last.

★Yoosung★

Yoosungwas shaking with excitement, eyes constantly shooting between theopen LOLOL server and the clock on his wall. It was two minutes tomidnight which meant two minutes until his online friendKillingInSpanish would come online. They’d met about four years agoduring a big raid. Amidst all the fighting Yoosung had spotted theusername AlmostEvil665 and burst out laughing for some reason. Overthe years they’d changed their username according to whichever memethey currently found amusing, but Yoosung still called them Evilwhenever they talked. Back then Yoosung’d been only twelve years oldand LOLOL was a relatively new game. Therefor he’d been more thaneager to find friends and form guilds and after watchingAlmostEvil665 slay an entire team he decided that they were a goodstart and attempting to chat them up.

Atfirst talking turned out to be a lot more complicated than expected.Neither of them was really fluent in English, but AlmostEvil665wasn’t from Korea so English was their only option, really. Luckilythe language wasn’t that hard to learn and it wasn’t like they werediscussing philosophy and foreign politics. However, languagebarriers weren’t their only problem. Yoosung didn’t know exactlywhere Evil was from, but their time difference wasn’t definitely ahuge issue. For a good month or so the two of them constantly seemedto miss one another in their log-in times. On top of that Evil wasonly allowed to use her computer for one hour a day, which made awise choice all the more important. Eventually they’d settled onmidnight to one in the morning and from that moment on Evil andYoosung chatted every single day for four years without miss.

Actually,it was mostly Yoosung chatting at Evil. They never really talked muchabout themselves. Yoosung still didn’t know their age, gender or evenlocation. While he talked to most people via Skype call, Evil wasnever able to join. Still, they always laughed about his jokes andnever let him down, so he considered them a friend. Finally the greencircle appeared beside their username, indicating that they wereonline. KillingInSpanish: Yo, have some gd newsSupremeYoosung:Rly? What?KillingInSpanish: M movn 2 koreaSupremeYoosung:srsly?!KillingInSpanish: yaSupremeYoosung: cool!maybe we can meet?KillingInSpanish: nah, man. be busy withuni n shit. + god knows where w rSupremeYoosung:tru. still sad :(KillingInSpanish:don’t be a baby. at least you won’t have to wait till 12amSupremeYoosung:lololol I do dat anywayKillingInSpanish:srsly? IdiotSupremeYoosung::(KillingInSpanish:dnt have time for yo crybabying. cmon, raid is waiting.Yoosungwas a little disappointed that he wouldn’t get to meet his friend,but he still felt happy knowing that even thought he didn’t knowwhere they were exactly, the two of them would be closer togetherfrom that moment on.

★

Whenyou logged into the chat the topic was yet again Yoosung’s LOLOLaddiction. You sighed. Either you were being compared to his cousin –which, incest much?! – or you had to defend gamers all over theworld because Yoosung was giving them a bad name with his horrendousgaming habits. Goddamn it, you played LOLOL too, but you knew whereto draw the line. You sighed, reading through the messages from Zenand Jaehee, rolling your eyes when Seven joined in as well. Strangelyenough, he said some things you actually agreed with. “I can’tbelieve I’m saying this, but I think Seven is right”, you wrote,earning yourself a surprised emoji from Seven and a crying one fromYoosung. He’s really cute and somehow you’d fallen in love with him,but sometimes he acted like a huge child. “I only play a singlehour a day and I’m still ranked third on the Shooting Star server, soreally being good doesn’t take a lot of effort.

“Holdon, you’re SediLusiVic”, Seven wrote in reply, followed by aseemingly endless streak of lolol’s. “Yeah, problem?” You weresurprised that Yoosung had grown silent all of a sudden, but figuredhe was just busy with yet another raid or something.“Not at all,dude. It’s just that I’m Hacker God and Yoosung is SupremeYoosung. Wehave the three best players in the world in one chat. Kinda funnylololol.” In that moment you realized why Yoosung had grown sosilent all of a sudden. He was probably trying to digest the sameinformation as you were. You’d been friends with Yoosung for the pasteight years. You’d been the one he’d whined to, the one he made jokeswith, the one he’d waited until midnight to game with. You’d beenwondering why he made you feel so safe and comfortable from thestart! Then you laughed. “Hahahahahaha Yoosung once cried himselfto sleep cause I got an item and he didn’t!” Eight years ofembarrassing stories to share with his friends. Perfect!

♨Jaehee♨

WhenJaehee first picked up Judo it was mainly because she’d seen a moviewhere someone did it and fell in love with the strength…and thepretty uniform. Yes, such thoughts were immature, starting a sportfor the uniforms sake, but in Jaehee’s defense, she’d been only sixyears old at the time. It wasn’t easy at first, since Jaehee wasn’treally the sportive nor the particularly aggressive type. She sooncame to understand though, that Judo was much more about getting toknow and control your body as well as defense more so than offense.It was like a dam had been broken inside of her and a whole new levelof enjoyment was added to the sport. From that point on she gave ither best, improving rather quickly. Merely two years into hertraining she was already fighting with the older children, somethingshe was extremely proud of. It was also then that she met Myung-DaeChang for the very first time.Myung-Dae was different. Forone she tended to not come to practice as regularly as everyone else,something that Jaehee could not stand. On top of that she constantlyseemed distracted. Even when the teacher tried to show them a newmove she was often found staring into the air, mindlessly playingwith her long, wavy hair and smiling at everyone like some sort oflunatic. For years Jaehee tried to keep a distance from that girl, asMyung-Dae tended to freak her out. That was until the teacher pairedthe two of them up and Jaehee had no other choice but to fightagainst her. For all the times she’d assumed Myung-Dae to beirresponsible for not paying attention, thinking to herself thatshe’d easily be defeated in a one on one, Jaehee was proven wrong.

Myungdefeated her so easily it was almost crushing. It all seemed toeffortlessly, the way she moved and reacted. Jaehee didn’t even seethe movements coming and then she was on her back. After the trainingsession she went up to the girl, telling her that she’d done well andwhat her trick was. Myung had turned to her, smiling easily as if thewere friends already. “You take everything too serious, Jaehee.Relaxation is key. If your mind is on edge then so is your body andthat makes you more vulnerable than anything else.” Sadly, shenever got to test out Myungs way of living her life, as soon afterher parents died and Jaehee moved away leaving the dojo and everyoneincluding Myung behind.

♨

Whenyou see Jaehee at the party for the first time you cannot believeyour eyes. During the chat she’d already seemed familiar –everything from the way she talked and acted to the looks – but youcouldn’t have been sure. Not when the pictures were so tiny and hername wasn’t particularly rare. However as she stepped onto that stagethere was no second guessing on your part. This was the young girlthat even back than had been so entirely lost in being perfect andpleasing everyone that she’d gradually killed herself. It hurt toknow that from her teenage years up to that point she’d been stuck inthat very same routine. You’d tried to help her as good as you couldand you were happy that she’d quit that job that made her so unhappyand took years of her life, but at the same time you were worriedabout her future. That was until she pulled you aside and gave you akey that felt more like a key to her heart than it did to a simplecafé. How could you say no?

“Iam so glad that you finally understand what I told you all theseyears ago”, you said, smiling down at the key in your hand. Whenyou looked up Jaehee was frowning at you in confusion until you gaveher that very particular smile and realization dawned on her. “Myung?Your hair and your glasses! You look so different!” You laughed,amused and wholeheartedly. “I could say the same thing about you,funnily enough. But let’s not dwell on such things. Just be happythat it is me you asked to join your team because let me tell youthat I studied art and if there is one thing I can do better thananyone in the world than it is coffee art and decorating a cake.”This time it was Jaehee’s turn to smile, beam actually, and it meltedyour heart. “I can’t wait to see.”

♛Jumin♛

“Asyou know, beneficial relationships are the core of every business ”,Chairman Han said, kneeling in front of his young son so the two ofthem were on eye level. Jumin was uninterested, sitting in his chairas straight as a stick, hoping that his father would finish hisspeech quickly so he could return to reading the book he’d startedthat morning. “You met someone new”, he assumed aloud, neithershocked nor particularly moved.“Something like that. There is abusiness partner of mine coming to town. He’s looking to expand hisbusiness to Korea and maybe settle down here. He’s bringing his wifeand daughter. The girl is your age. I was thinking about invitingthem over to dinner. Maybe you could get to know her a little bit,make a new friend.”

Jumin’sinterest was peaked then. Not because he cared for girls, but becausehe could tell his father did. This was trouble and he knew it. Still,Jumin could hardly deny his father so he’d merely nodded and mentallyprepared himself for the worst. By the time the family arrived he wasin his finest tux, the food being prepared by the best of chef’s withthe house having been cleaned to the point of sterility. Jumin hadexpected a lot of things, but he hadn’t expected her. MadeleineCampbell was well-mannered, quiet and seemingly rather patient.Despite having been forced into the same room, their parents notminding them whatsoever, neither of them really talked. ActuallyJumin mostly ignored her. That was until she sat down beside him, oneof his books in her hand, and began reading herself.

Heforced himself not to look but after some time he couldn’t helphimself, glancing over to see that the book was in English. “Areyou from England”, he’d asked in slightly broken English. Madeleinehad looked up, smiling at him with a nod. “Yes, I am”, she’dreplied, voice melodic with the authentic accent Jumin only everheard in movies. It was amazing. “Will you read the book to me? Ilike the way your voice sounds.” She’d nodded eagerly, beaming atthe boy before beginning to read. It was hours later that theirparents came to check up on the, finding both of them asleep,Madeleine leaning against the headboard with Jumin’s head in theirlap. From that moment on, the two of them were inseparable. So muchso, that their parents arranged a future engagement. Sadly, it nevercame to that as the two families lost touch when Mr. Han met a womanthat did not approve of such ties and ordered them cut. Jumin neverheard of his friend again.

♛

“Myfather will love you, I am sure”, Jumin assured his fiancée, awarm smile curling about his lips. You’d been nervous about meetinghim the entire day now. Actually, you’d been nervous about meetinghim for a week. Jumin had asked you to marry him without asking hisfathers permission first and while he’d assured you that even withoutit his feelings for you wouldn’t change, you couldn’t help but worry.After all, their relationship had already been strained thanks to allthe drama with the Choi sisters. Having him turn up with a suddenfiancée couldn’t possibly be helpful. Still, Jumin insisted and youweren’t capable of denying him anything, really. Especially since hewas more than willing to gave you the world and some more. As youwere lead to your table you saw a familiar face sitting at one ofthem by himself, coming to a sudden halt. “Mr. Chairman,how are you? I haven’t seen you in over a decade”, you said,getting the mans attention. The man instantly got up, shaking yourhand and beaming at you. “Maddy, dear, what a beautiful young womanyou’ve turned into. Don’t tell me it’s you my son told me about”,he said, laughing lightly. That is when your face fell, turning tolook at Jumin who was looking at you with a small, knowing smirk inreturn. “Hanny?!” Back then Jumin had introduced himself as HanJumin, leading you to believe his name was Han, resulting in thenickname Hanny. Your childhood friend, the one your parents hadwanted you to marry to begin with, was now your fiancé Jumin. Well,life sure was ironic. “Hah, I knew the two were a match made byheaven. Call your father. He officially owes me a 10.000.000 Won.”Needless to say that you had Mr.Han’s full and wholehearted blessing.Jumin had never been that delighted over a silly bet in his life.

☼Saeyoung/Seven☼

“Ialways see you after mass, praying by yourself when everyone is longgone. You seem…sad?” The voice, however quiet, surprised him,causing Saeyoung to turn around and look for the source only to finda girl about his age. “I can’t really do much but when I feel sad Igo in there”, she continued, pointing to the confessional. “Youcan tell an adult your worries and he’ll make it better, take awayyour sins.” Saeyoung frowned, looking over at the thing she’dpointed it. To him it was just like the closet his mother tended tolock him into sometimes when she got mad. There was nothing in theworld that would get him to go in there. He shrugged it off, shakinghis head. “I don’t believe in these kind of things. I thought thatpraying to God might help, but so far it hasn’t. It’s illogicalanyway, to believe in God.”

Thegirl blinked then, turning her head to the side and musteringcuriously. “Well, that might be true”, she replied, obviously inthought. “but praying to God is not like a magical cure to yourproblems. That isn’t how it works. God won’t solve your issues foryou. What he can do is give you strength though, to solve themyourself. If that’s not enough, you can ask me for help. I’mdefinitely real so…”, she said, shrugging. She seemed so sincereand Saeyoung seriously wondered what she got out of it. He wanted totell her off, send her away, when suddenly his stomach began togrowl. A little ashamed off it Saeyoung frowned, looking away quicklyas to hide his blush. There was a tap on his shoulder then before asandwich was being held out to him. She put it into his hand andclosed his fingers around it so it wouldn’t fall, smiling sincerely.

“Miyagi,come on. We have to go home, sweetheart.” It was her mother,Saeyoung assumed. Miyagi, so that was her name. “Well, I have to gonow, but I’ll be back here tomorrow. I’ll bring you something betterto eat then. Bye bye.” She ran off and Saeyoung was half convincedhe would never see her again, the thought leaving him strangely sad.He was proven wrong. Day after day she came to him after mass,bringing him increasingly more complicated and delicious food. Henever thanked her properly and when he left to work for the agencywithout a word of goodbye he hated himself a little for it.Especially when heard that mere days later her parents died.

☼

WhenSeven wrote down his real name in the chat your eyes widened.Saeyoung Choi. You’d heard that name before. Now many people wouldargue how over twenty percent of the Korean population shared thesame surname and that Saeyoung wasn’t rare either, but you knewbetter. The name Luciel should have tipped you off already, but nowyou were a hundred percent sure. You dropped your phone and jumpedoff the bed, running out to the main room where Seven was stillsitting in front of the PC, frowning down at the phone after you’d soquickly fled the chat. “Saeyoung Choi? Saeyoung Choi?! I cannotbelieve that you are Saeyoung Choi. We went to church together untilone day you just disappeared. I thought you were dead!” That iswhen Seven put two and two together as well, staring at you with wideeyes. “You? You’re the little girl that brought me food every day.You changed your name!”

Youfroze, tilting your head to the side in confusion. “No, I did not.Mi-Hi Cha.” He shook his head. “No, I remember your mothercalling you Miyagi.” You blinked before bursting into laughter.“Idiot! She called me Mi Agi. It was the pet name she gave me.Miyagi isn’t even Korean.” You couldn’t stop laughing about howsilly of a situation it was to meet your childhood friend that wayand apparently Seven agreed as he joined in. “Damn it. All theseyears I thought you were some nice Japanese girl.” For a while thetwo of you laughed until it eventually died down, the atmosphereturning serious. With tears in your eyes the two of you closed thedistance, pulling each other into tight hugs. Neither of you had everforgotten the other, instead spending a life long worrying only toreunite in such a manner. “I never got to say thank you or returnthe kindness you ave me”, Seven whispered. “So from now you,please accept my body and soul. Agi…”

*Agiis a Korean pet name us as baby (actually meaning toddler and infant)

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Oh! Your blog is alive! Welcome back! Answer all the odd number questions?

Well hey! I didn’t realize how long it had been since I posted here haha. I’m alive and doing well. Most of my energy toward this site goes to reblogging stuff to my side blog @stufftoshowcrow (I guess this is sort of a plug but by no means do you all have to check it out)

And I’ll get to the questions later today! I’m out with a friend for the day but I didn’t wanna leave you hanging. Thanks for asking!

Time for those answers! (under the read more)

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most? Dancing’s Not a Crime by Panic! at the Disco, Irony of Dying on Your Birthday by Senses Fail, Instant Crush by Daft Punk, Somewhere in the Between by Streetlight Manifesto, Your Love by The Outfield, and Shut Up and Dance by WALK THE MOON (these are just recent ones on my mind)

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. The closest book was my sketchbook and it’s got a drawing of Sonic, Tails, and Knuckles on it that I think I referenced from somewhere. I may post a picture later if there’s any interest.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say? “Ok I should be home in about an hour” from my dad

7: What’s your strangest talent? I’m pretty good at chugging alcohol but stuff like hard sodas or rum and coke. And that usually only happens when I’m already a little drunk and want to maintain it.

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you? Technically (said by my bf). He said it was never finished so I never heard it

11: Do you have any strange phobias? I’m slightly afraid of escalators and elevators. Elevators is because I hate when they rock and I’m afraid they’ll fall and escalators is because when I was a kid, there was an escalator at the local book store that seemed pretty steep and I felt like I’d fall off when I was young and it sort of continued on into adulthood. It’s not as bad now but it’ll pop up sometimes.

13: What’s your religion? I was raised Catholic, went to a Methodist church from middle school to high school, and now I’d consider myself Agnostic. I was never officially Methodist so yeah, I’m not really religious.

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? It’s a bit of both. Being an artist, I like to dabble in a lot of different art forms and one of those being photography. I love photography and I’ve even gotten into making my own videos. So I know my way around a camera and I’m used to being behind the camera but I like when I get the chance to be in front of the camera. It may be a little vain but I really like photos of myself and seeing myself at different angles.

17: What was the last lie you told? Oh shit, I can’t really remember. I know the funniest lie I’ve told recently is I convinced a coworker of mine that one of our other coworkers is my brother because we look sort of alike.

19: What does your URL mean? I went with Novakid-Outlaw because I really enjoy the game Starbound and the Novakids are my favorite race. They’re sort of like cowboys so that’s where the outlaw part is from. It used to be “Novakid-Bandit” but I figured Outlaw sounded better.

21: Who is your celebrity crush? Brendon Urie

23: How do you vent your anger? A lot of it is spent yelling at terrible drivers in my car. Some of it is directed at my coworkers who don’t do their job and I’m already done with the day. I try to use some of it on artwork, I know one time I smashed a TV for a friend doing a photography project. That was a lot of fun.

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Video chat because I like seeing the other person’s face. But talking on the phone is also nice if I want to talk to that person (so like talking to my BF verses my dad. My dad is weird to talk to sometimes).

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? I hate the sound of nails scratching one of those holographic cards that has that terrible texture. I love the sounds of cats purring (and my boyfriend’s voice).

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Ghosts are iffy but for sure Aliens. Space is too big for us to be the only living organisms.

31: Smell the air. What do you smell? I’m in my room so nothing. I’m too used to the smell.

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast? East Coast since I live nearby and the most I’ve done on the West Coast was go to Vegas and it was stupid hot.

35: To you, what is the meaning of life? Doing what I love with the ones I love.

37: Do you believe in luck? I guess because I’m the luckiest girl to be dating the best guy in my life. He’d disagree but I do love him a whole lot and he’s made my life a lot better.

39: What time is it? I got this ask around noon and I’m getting around to answering it at 11:12 PM (as I’m typing this answer)

41: What was the last book you read? I guess Scott Pilgrim. I haven’t read a book in a while. It’s sorta sad

43: Do you have any nicknames? Many

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? In recent years, I burned my arm at work and it hurt like a bitch. I still have a scar. In middle school, I broke both of my wrists (not at the same time but only a month had passed when my first wrist healed and I broke the other).

47: Do you have any obsessions right now? Okami

49: Ever had a rumor spread about you? Not really cause I’m not that interesting that people talk about me.

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? If it’s a big enough wrong. I’m still upset at my ex but that’s justified.

53: Do you save money or spend it? I spend it. I need to work on saving money.

55: Love or lust? Love

57: How many relationships have you had? 3

59: Where were you yesterday? Work and home

61: Are you wearing socks right now? Nope

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? Jokes and slight teasing

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. Aight, that’s too much work, nope

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM? Playing Okami

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off? Yes

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love. (I have both but) Love

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? 7815

77: How can I win your heart? No chance because someone already has my heart

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? Giving my current boyfriend a third date those 2 years ago.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone? She died doing what she loved most. (*boyfriend’s/husband’s name here*)

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. Love. How cliche

85: What’s the last song you listened to? Your Love by The Outfield

87: What is your current desktop picture? Bulbasaurs

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? If my mom ever asked if I’ve lied to her recently because she made me promise her once that I’d never lie to her again.

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? Shape-shifting

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? My first instinct is to say my last relationship but I know it sort of helped to shape me. So I guess I would say I’d avoid dating the last guy but I wouldn’t avoid him entirely.

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Germany

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car? Yes. When I was a kid, my mom took me to pick up my brother and his friend and she brought mini cupcakes along. I ate a bunch of the chocolate ones and I threw up on my brother’s friend when they got in the car.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? Let’s be real, I have no clue.

Finishing this up at 11:39 PM and I’m super grateful to anyone who’s read all of these! I hope these are entertaining to read and I hope everyone has a wonderful day/night!

#j talks #ask j #anon

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jess-oh · 7 years ago

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Reflection

I recently arrived in Chicago! And I was right. It didn’t fully hit me that I’m moving back to Chicago until I actually got to Chicago. And now I know. This is my life for the next 16 weeks. And I am glad that it is. I talked and bonded with Marlena today over pizza. I should ask to venmo her for the food tomorrow, if she has venmo. I also need to deposit the $100 from grandma. I know I should carry some cash on me but honestly, I think I would rest a lot better knowing that I have $550 in my account instead of $450. And I need to buy my two textbooks that I know I for sure need tomorrow and get everything else in order. I got to draw the month of September, design the new layouts, figure out when my meetings are, what needs to be done, etc etc. I have a lot to accomplish tomorrow. Oh! And I need to buy the two small rulers for myself and my sister. I can’t believe she never realized that I both stole and lost her ruler, HAHAHAHA. But I have most everything that I need to do written in my journal so hopefully that is enough. I still need to figure things out with Hangook and definitively decide whether or not I want to stay on board. Because even though “The Squad” is no longer a student organization, there’s still a lot to do and honestly, I’m a lot more passionate about that than Hangook. But I also don’t want Hangook to totally die because they lack leadership and keep putting all the pressure on their advisor instead of putting in the work themselves. But it is also not my job to do their dirty work and pick up the slack. It’s on them. I shouldn’t feel the need to step in and fix it. If I do everything, then they’ll never learn.

But back to Marlena! I didn’t really know what to expect or how to act but things have fallen back into place and I’m really glad that they have. Before, I think I was a lot more uncomfortable with talking about sex and drugs and alcohol and parties. But now, because of Andrew, I’m a lot more open to it. And I’m still not entirely sure whether that’s a good or bad thing. But it’s how it is now. I think it’s good in the sense that I’m more open minded but bad that I’m more prone to temptation now. I just gotta keep myself accountable! >:D But yeah, I was pretty worried that we wouldn’t be friends anymore since I’m come back to Christ and she leads such a worldly lifestyle. But I referenced my pastors and involvement at church and she was fine with it so, I think it’s okay. I just need to work on leading a more Christlike lifestyle so that she’ll hopefully be influenced by my passion and desire for the Lord and come back and meet Him for the first time. She’s my best friend out here so I do really care about her salvation. I need to decide on my Sunday plans as well. And go to Lakeview a few more times as well as check out the other churches that I’ve heard of. I do want to invest there but… I’m still not positive. It felt more like I was forcing myself to stay more than me actually wanting to. But I was also out of options. So, I’m hoping that I can commit to checking out these other churches and seeing if they’re a better fit. Hopefully. But I also feel like I betrayed Lakeview….who knows?

Oh man, it’s 1:12am here but only 11:12pm there. Or maybe it’s 1:12am there? I think it is. I don’t think my laptop has changed timezones. I was right. I just changed it. It is currently 3:15am here. So I guess it isn’t that surprising that I’m tired after all. I had so much fun with Andrew and David this past summer and now, I find myself constantly excited for him to message me. I don’t think this is a crush thing. I think it’s a stability thing. He was an integral part of me back in high school and I thought I lost that last year. But this summer showed me that I hadn’t. And sure, our dynamic has changed but he’s still my friend. I thought about it on the plane and I think we’re the type of friends that can just freely vent to each other. We can be mad together. We can cry together. We can laugh together. And even though we don’t have a lot of common interests, we’re still there for each other when it matters. I’m sure if we went to the same school it’d be different. But I am glad that he is my friend. He does mean a lot to me, at the end of the day. And I do wish we could’ve spent more time together before I left. I know he only brought sex up to tease me and purposefully make me feel uncomfortable at first but then it became a part of casual conversation and I was still really out of place and uncomfortable. But on the plane ride, I thought about my likes and dislikes sexually and how it could potentially affect my future relationships. I do think it’s a good conversation to have before marriage because what if we aren’t sexually compatible? I have thought a little bit about it before but never to this extent. So I guess I have Andrew to thank for bringing this topic up and making me more comfortable with it. But this has opened up the chance that I won’t be a virigin before marriage. Which is a commitment that I want to keep. Because I committed it to God. Not because it’s right or wrong. But I promised the Lord that I wouldn’t have sex until marriage so that’s what I intend to do. I don’t think I’m against BDSM(?) bondage, basically. Nothing to hardcore or extreme but I think I’m into that “scared and horny” feeling. But to an extent. But if, for example, my hands were chained above my head to the bed frame and I was vulnerable. I think I’d be extremely uncomfortable but also strangely aroused at my inability to do anything. But at the same time, I imagined a scenario where my significant other tried to pretend kidnap me and put me in that situation. I think I’d be waaaay turned off by that. The fear would far outweigh anything else. I would just want to get the heck out of there and leave. Even if I later found out it was all a plan, I would still feel way to terrified. Thinking for even a moment that I could’ve been actually kidnapped and/or raped from my own home. That. Is scary. But consensual? I’m open to the idea.

There was more that I wanted to write in my journal for my entry on the flight today but I really wanted to keep it clean and contained within one page so I didn’t add anything more. But I kind of wish that I did. Maybe while I type it, other things will come back to me.

Oh, back to Marlena though. Right when I got off of the plane, I saw McDonald’s and honestly, my heart kinda sank, knowing that I couldn’t stop by because I had to hurry to the Dwight because Marlena was tired. But I hurried to the baggage claim and irritatedly waited for my bag to come out. And honestly, I don’t know if I was just full of adrenaline or what but once I realized my bag was in front of me, I picked it up by the top handle with one hand like it was nothing and just hurriedly wheeled it to the subway. Everything went fine on the subway but I did realize that I forgot the order of the stops for the blue line. I kind of knew where everything was in relation to each other but my memory was still pretty cloudy. I totally forgot about Jackson. I knew it was Clark but forgot about Washington. But once it hit Monroe, I knew I was two stops away. But I couldn’t remember what was in between. Jackson! I even questioned if there was a stop between Monroe and LaSalle at one point. The stairs weren’t too bad this time and I kept hoping that I chose the exit closest to the Dwight. AND I DID. BUT THEN I FORGOT WHERE THE DWIGHT WAS. I started walking towards the University Center, remembering that the Dwight was nearby. But once I hit Dearborn, I knew I was going the wrong way. So then I google mapped it and honestly, it didn’t really help. But then I spotted the “Park” sign that I know all too well and found my way to the building. But before entering, I noticed that Subway was 24hrs! But I thought Marlena needed to rest more than my hunger so I just decided to go in. But after settling in, she offered to take me to Subway and I happily agreed. So then we went to the Sky Lounge and just talked about her mono and how she’s been dying in more ways than one recently while I ate my Subway sandwich. Then, we decided to order pizza. I was about to add toppings to half the pizza at first but then I asked if it’d be more expensive and immediately retracted. We decided to head to the first floor and talk there until our pizza came. And then we feasted once more in the sky lounge and continued to talk and make plans for the near future. Sounds like I’ll be doing a lot of heavy lifting tomorrow but she’s dying so, I don’t mind. And plus, she seemed to be genuinely asking for help instead of just expecting it like my mom and sister :/ And then we part ways and now I’m in my own room on this massive bed with no sheets or blankets. But I do have my body pillow and a normal pillow which is more than I could ever need, HAHAHA. I only have to sleep like this for a couple days! On September 2nd, I can move into my own dorm and finally unpack.

Now Im chatting with Andrew about photography ^_^

#reflection

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