#it’s been two months… but it feels like we’ve known eachother forever

[jaiette]

treacherous heart 💔🌹✨

for my incredible partner @peachykeencat

[cass1dyyy]

bad idea!

was such a bad idea, im totally fucked.

request by @lovetaylorrussellgrr

contains: fluff, angst a little bit

summary: when childhood bestfriend!mattheo wants to make his ex girlfriend jealous, and fake date you, you decide to go along with it. however, his ex might not be the only jealous one…

warnings: swearing (as usual), kissing, i dont think anything else??

“please?? can you just do this one favour for me? we’ve been friends for like, forever!!!” mattheo whined to you.

you were in the library, putting away some books you had used for your revision.

“no way! im not fake-dating you so you can date pansy again.” you say, finding the idea ridiculous.

“pleaseeee?” he suddenly grabbed your shoulders, shaking you roughly as he begged over and over again.

“oh my god, fine!” you say, as he lets go of you.

“you’re such a dick.” you put your final book away, walking out of the library, as he follows beside you.

“you know you love me.” he prods you, smirking smugly, as you roll your eyes.

“whatever. how are we gonna play this out? i mean, are we just going to make out infront of everyone or something?” you ask.

“okay, here’s the plan.”

you’re hanging out with enzo, draco, theodore, mattheo, and blaise in the courtyard, just before your first period. its not unusual to hang out with them, since you’ve known mattheo for such a long time, and theyre his best mates.

you fidget uncomfortably, listening to lorenzo’s new ludicrous story that happened to him one time, as thoughts race through your head.

how is mattheo so comfortable with this?

isnt it weird to him? i mean we’ve been bestfriends since our childhoods..

is he as nervous as me?

this seems like a bad idea..

you snap out of your daze, once you realise its time for class. you walk towards mattheo, your nerves fizzing and popping inside you like fireworks.

“hey, i’ll see you later okay? i gotta get to class.” you stick to the “script” as mattheo calls it, and lean in.

then, you two kiss. it starts off soft and slow, before he wraps his arms around you as it becomes more passionate. time seems to slow down as you become entranced in the embrace, before you come back to your senses and pull apart. that was definitely not part of the script..

“what the fuck?!” enzo shouts.

“jesus, you didnt have to eat her face off, she’s just going to class!” blaise exclaims.

“when did this even happen?” draco chimes in. the plan was working.

mattheo gives you a smile, with a glint of a smug look in his eyes as he nods his head to the side. you follow his gaze, and see pansy parkinson glaring at you both, as she stands with her new boyfriend. you feel glad that the plan is working, as you walk off towards your class.

it had been a month since you and mattheo’s “relationship” started up, and god, word spreads FAST in hogwarts. the whole of slytherin and gryffindor knew by the first day, ravenclaw and hufflepuff following behind after the second day, and the teachers on the fourth day. you had gained a lot of popularity and attention, and you didnt mind it most of the time, but sometimes it made you feel uneasy.

that month was full of makeouts, holding hands, going on dates (making sure pansy was where you guys were of course) , hugs, and lots more. and it seemed to be working!

you were sitting at a table in the great hall, during a study session with snape. you sat next to mattheo obviously, and the rest of his mates. you wondered if it was too obvious, what with how much time you’d been spending with him. you’d had like no break with eachother, every day was spent together.

“hey, matty?” you whisper, in order to not get caught by snape, who was in a bad mood (as usual).

“hm?”

“dont you think we’re being too.. obvious?”

“you’re just anxious, y/n. trust me, everything’s fine.” he whispers back, placing a hand on yours, as butterflies fluttered in your stomach.

you startled at the feeling, trying to shake it off.

this was your bestfriend, that you’d known since you were 5… there was nothing going on between you and him. and you didnt have feelings for him!! you couldnt… right?

you frowned. it seemed like the only thing he cared about was getting pansy back. this was the deal though, and you had to go along with it.

“y/n?” mattheo whispered again

“yes?”

“theres a party in the slytherin common room tonight, and we should both go, is that okay?”

“yeah, sure.” you reply, before a book slammed down on both of your heads, as you winced. snape swiftly walked away, and you both looked at eachother, stifling a giggle.

green lights blinded you, as music played at an ear-splitting volume, while you pushed through the crowd, trying to get to mattheo. you had another script you had to act out, and you took several shots of the probably very strong alcohol on display before it.

the thing is, you’d.. caught feelings. you knew it, and the only way you could push them away was being totally consumed by alcohol. that way, the sting of being broken up with in a fake relationship would hurt less to you.

every slight touch, every entrancing kiss, every fiery makeout made your feelings build up until you couldn’t take it anymore. you had to remind yourself that this was all an act, it meant nothing to mattheo. and.. that hurt. this whole thing was such a bad idea.

to be honest, you’d always known he was your crush. i mean, how couldnt you? he would always hug you when you were crying, and watch films with you whenever you wanted. you’d both fall asleep together, tangled up by the morning. he’d buy you your favourite foods and cravings when you were on your period, and kiss you softly on the forehead everytime he left the room or hugged.

and you guessed you’d been his crush. you were wrong.

you reached mattheo, shaking the thoughts and memories off, and he looked kind of.. unsure? his demeanour had changed a lot, and he seemed like he wanted to leave.

“okayyyyy, letsss do this.” you slur your words, grabbing him so he faces you.

“y/n, are you drunk?”

“i’m breaking up with you!!” you shriek, not caring to answer him.

he doesnt answer. he just looks at you plainly.

has he forgotten his script? you think.

“i just dont think its working. im inlove with… lorenzo!” you say in your drunken state.

the room erupts in gasps and hushed whispers. enzo whoops and high-fives blaise behind the crowd, before they come closer and see who is actually speaking. his jaw DROPS.

suddenly, pansy rushes forward to mattheo, crashing her lips onto his, as he’s taken by surprise. your eyes widen, and you frown, not processing the situation, since youre hammered.

“and you’re cheating on me?!” you scream.

you snatch a drink from someones hand next to you, throwing it all over him, before dropping the empty cup and walking out of the room, satisfied. you take some water with you, and sit down in an empty corridor, taking a few sips and sighing.

half an hour later, you hear the click-clack of footsteps getting closer to you. you’d sobered up quite a bit (after throwing up in the bathroom nearest to you), and looked around the corner expectantly.

“what the fuck, y/n? most of that wasnt part of the script. and why were you so drunk?”

“can you stop calling it that? im your girl- bestfriend, not an actor. anyway, you’ve got pansy now. im just tired of being dragged around and told what to do all the time.” you blurt out, praying he wouldnt catch the slip-up.

he sat down beside you.

“im sorry, y/n. i basically used you, and im a dick.”

“told you that already, many times.” you say, as you both laugh.

“i realised that at the party. i wanted to call it off, but you started saying stuff. i also realised something else-“

“im inlove with you!” you shriek. you didnt even know where you’d gotten that confidence from.

that was such a bad idea, im totally fucked.

he just sits there, dumbfounded. you fidget uncomfortably, wanting him to atleast answer you.

then, he puts his hand on your cheek. a soft kiss follows, and you can feel the love in this one. it wasnt like one of his put-on ones for pansy. no one was looking here. it was real.

“i love you.”

“really?” you ask.

“yes, you idiot.

“i love you too.”

“i mean, could you not tell?? all those films we watched, all the snacks i bought you, the valentines gifts that were ‘friendly’, etc etc. ive loved you since i was little.” he kisses your cheek as you smile.

“maybe this wasnt such a bad idea.”

[teeztheflag]

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Ateez! Reaction to getting intimidate with you while the members/ a member are/is in the same room

warnings: some of them behave like fu*kboys/di*kheads, argument, disrespect, alcohol, strong language, suggestive, teasing, doing unholy things in a church

a/n: this turned out so dumb I am sorry anon but I finished it lmfao also they’re more like teasing? because I cannot get my head into people fu*king in front of others and not caring about it 😂

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k i m h o n g j o o n g

Hong Joong always has been a mixture of someone who liked to show off his girl and keep her to himself so you weren’t really shocked when he started to kiss down your exposed neck at a gathering at their mansion that night.

First you were really flustered and giggled but the sexual tension quickly arose when he took a good hold on your hips from behind breathing hotly down your cleavage.

You gulped unsure of what to think about the situation and gasped when you saw Park Seong Hwa standing at the other end of the room a glass of wine in his hand and a mischievous smile on his face.

Was he watching you?

You frowned trying to stop Hong Joong in his motions but quickly realized that he already saw the other one seemingly enjoying the scene.

You turned around and hurt took over your features.

„I am not a cheep whore Kim Hong Joong. Whatever you and Seong Hwa have going on don’t ever dare to involve me in it again.“ You hissed out trying to push away the tears and stormed away.

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p a r k s e o n g h w a

Seong Hwa‘s birthday was known to be the biggest event of the year in his hometown. As the bachelor always threw the most outrageous and glamorous parties it was his friends this time that wanted to prepare something special.

They booked you: a student with little to no money but good dancing skills on the pool.

You started your show and even if Seong Hwa first wasn’t into the idea at all while he sat down in front of you on a single chair the moment he layed his eyes on you his heart skipped a beat.

You personated everything the young rich loved; you were so beautiful he got flustered and tried to hide his reddening cheeks.

The dress on you was way too short and the show went on with the cheering from his guests that the young bachelor zoned out completely by now. He felt himself shuddering and becoming nervous when the young lady started walking to him with confident steps but a deer like gaze.

You sat down on his lap your arms casually wrapping around his shoulders and he cursed lowly at the sweet scent you gave off when you leaned down to whisper in his ear.

„Happy Birthday, Mr. Park.“

You were about to dance on him when he stopped you in your tracks and you were panicking if you did something wrong. Seong Hwa looked you into the eyes and clenched his teeth.

„I swear you don’t know what you’re doing to me right now so stop.“

„Y - you’re joking, right?“ But the desperate look in his eyes told he was more than serious about this.

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j e o n g y u n h o

You just couldn’t look away. It was always something you wondered about. And not only you... definitely your whole circle of friends.

You really didn’t want to look but your gaze just seemed to magically find its way down to Yun Ho‘s crotch where - wait a sec. Is it what you think it is?

Gosh, you had a drink too much. When you looked up you weren’t really sure anymore if this was the reality but on the other side of the room on the couch Yun Ho caught your gaze and suppressed a smirk.

Since it was embarrassing you quickly averted your gaze back to the movie hoping the two of you would just forget about the incident.

„Another round? I am getting shots!“ The others agreed and you got slightly nervous when Yun Ho came back with a tablet and handed everyone a shot.

„I am suggesting brother shots because we’ve all been so busy lately!“

„Why do you sat down next to (y/n), then? Very calculated don’t you think.“ Jong Ho eyed the latter suspiciously and Yun Ho sent him a kiss.

You were so dizzy that you were thinking about what brother shots were again when Yun Ho already linked your arms and drank. Right in the moment you remembered he already placed a cherry tasting kiss on your lips.

You couldn’t hold yourself back to lick the remaining droplets off while Yun Ho watched you eagerly.

„How does it taste?“

You frowned at him still progressing what a wasted night this was. Suddenly Yun Ho wipes away the last droplets off with his thumb and brushes it also over you bottom lip.

Your mouth opens but no words seem to leave your lips while he smiles mischievously.

„G-good... too good.“

„Ah, you want another one?“

You debate and your gaze drifts to the others around you but they seem much too intoxicated themselves to notice.

„Yes.“ Yun Ho chuckles and you close your eyes waiting for his lips to finally touch yours again. When a cold material instead meets you your eyes shoot open and you see Yun Ho laughing at you.

„I meant another shot, (y/n).“ He winks and you roll your eyes pouting at him for getting the wrong ideas...

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k a n g y e o s a n g

Yeo Sang‘s family and yours were good friends since ages and it was a must to attend the sunday‘s service together.

Like usually your families sat next to eachother again but Yeo Sang tended to sit next to his friends in the last row this day. Just when you went up to get to your parents a voice stopped you.

„(y/n)! Come sit with us!“ You turn around and see San smiling at you and also the other boys were together. You just grew close to them a while ago and you didn’t see a reason to say no.

When you realized Woo Young made place for you between him and Yeo Sang your mood quickly changed. You frowned at the boy exactly knowing what you told him a month ago when you were drunk - that you had a crush on Yeo Sang since forever...

Problem was... Yeo Sang probably has been asexual or simply ignoring you for his own sake. As you expected he didn’t even greet you but just relaxed further into the bench.

The service started and the boys next to you seemed to fall asleep one after another while the priest was really into his game. You also weren’t the biggest fan of it but you knew how to be respectful.

It was time to pray with your eyes closed when you suddenly tense up. Your eyes immediately shoot open and your gazes drifts to the site where Yeo Sang is watching you intensely.

You are frozen and not able to move a muscle while he digs his hand further into your tigh. You quickly look around to see if someone notices but stop when you hear a giggle coming from right next to you from Woo Young.

Yeo Sang starts to draw slow circles into your skin and you recognize how warm his hand feels against your exposed flesh. You don’t know how to put it but your body tells you to invite his touches rather than scold him and retrieve his hand...

When he leans down you flinch and close your eyes uttering the last words of the prayer hoping to not die at how hard your heart beats against your ribcage.

His breath tickles the hairs on your neck and you can smell a strong perfume coming from him before he whispers.

„(y/n)... you’re a little whore squirming like this in a church...“

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s o n g m i n g i

„Well, a bet is a bet.“

„Min Gi, you aren’t serious about this? I thought it was a joke! If I knew you would be a dick I wouldn’t have obliged!“

Min Gi let’s out a laugh and drags you back inside the karaoke room where your friends were partying like there’s no tomorrow.

He sat you down next to him and brought his arm over your shoulder to keep you close so you couldn’t escape. He side glanced your form and smiles to see your arms crossed and a pout adorning your face.

„Cute.“

„What?“

„Oh, nothing. Just enjoying the view.“ His eyes turn into crescents while he grins at you.

Times flies by and you know your boyfriend good enough that he wouldn’t let his price slip. So when your food arrives everyone gasps when you start to feed Min Gi like he was the king of South Korea.

„Damn, what the heck are you two doing?“

Some couldn’t control their laughter and you feel like sinking into a hole of embarrassment when Min Gi explains that you just realized how he should be really treated.

Everyone knew you were sassy and didn’t take any shit and so it has also been with your boyfriend. Min Gi loved to tease you endlessly and he knew that having you serve him in front of your friends was something you wouldn’t like. He took it as a revenge for you making him jelous the last week and a dangerous glint appears in his eyes thinking back to the evening.

„Mh, my love. I have some sauce on my chin...“

„So what?“

„Lick it away.“

„You are unbelievable!“

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c h o i s a n

San always has been an affectionate person that needed a lot of attention from his s/o. You on the other hand liked to stick to simple holding hands in public and a little peck here or there but nothing too exaggerated.

San knew you were shy but sometimes he couldn’t hold himself back to tease you openly so people would see who you belong to. No, that wasn’t the only reason he liked to show off he was just fully engulfed in your form and needed to touch whenever he could.

This caused you scolding him from time to time when he did inappropriate things in the different areas.

For example in a car. With Jong Ho and Seong Hwa in the back. You were standing at a red light when you felt San‘s hand sneaking up your thigh leaving a tickling sensation in the process. The boys were tired but you were sure they were still awake in the back.

Quickly you try to retrieve San‘s hand but his grip just strengthens and the nerve this boy has! When you glance to him he’s just sheepishly looking outside acting like he does nothing. He always messed with you inside his car but this time it was worse because there were your friends in the back!

„San!“ You whisper-yell to your boyfriend who looks up to you for a second before leaning in to your side.

„What?“

„Stop!“

„No!“ Then he leans back and when you try to forcefully pull his hand back you’re suddenly with a clap to your thigh leaving you flushed and aroused because of the mixture of pain and pleasure.

„Mh... are we already there?“ Oh, Jong Ho probably actually fell asleep.

„Five minutes.“ San ignites with a big smile to the back.

After you drop off the two San suddenly locks the car and leans over so his arm is around the lean of your seat. Out of reflex you lean back clearly intimidated by his posture but also confused what he wanted to do now.

„Did it hurt, baby?“

You shyly nod and your gaze falls to your lap where you’re playing with the hem of your skirt. San’s tongue pokes out to wetten his bottom lip and a low chuckle leaves him.

„Can you whine like that for me again when we’re home?“

„San!“

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j u n g w o o y o u n g

Jung Woo Young meant danger; that’s what everyone knew. You couldn’t deny the fact that he intrigued you beyond everything that was appropriate... meaning you fantasized about the boy way too much. Everything about him was perfect.

If you just could have a taste of his lips once in your life... It was just a little joke and daydreaming for you; nothing serious. And maybe his image also helped you to relieve some stress in lonely nights but really nothing more.

Although you didn’t expect this houseparty to be too spectacular things actually spiced up when you saw the boy and his friends entering the party. You suddenly felt more excited and thanked god you decided to join your friends this night.

You saw Woo Young quickly being accompanied by a girl and immediately your face fell. Dammit... Just stop dreaming of somebody you will never have!

„(y/n)?“ Oh, yes! You were currently playing beerpong and it was your turn. Well, if you didn’t get the boy you would at least just win this game. And you did. With a big crowd around you the other girls cheering for you because you won against the best of the boys in this game.

With a big grin and clearly tipsy by now you dragged your friend inside to dance accompanied by the others. You swayed your hips, laughed and had a lot of fun. Until you felt someone’s hand sneaking around your waist to level your rhythm up to his.

You turned around and saw no other than the Jung Woo Young eyefucking you shameless.

„What are you doing?“

„Getting revenge for my friend; but in my own way.“

You look over to Yeo Sang the one you just managed to destroy and see him winking at you from afar.

Your eyes quickly drift to Woo Young’s chest and you mumble to yourself. „This would be more like a prize...“

Woo Young is able to hear your words because instead of you he didn’t touch a single bottle tonight and because of that he decides to take things a little further. Suddenly the boy leads you out of the crowd upstairs to a secluded room where he’s quickly placing hungry kisses over your exposed collarbone.

You’re feeling like paralyzed both of the boldness and the pleasure.

Your eyes open wide when you hear a chuckle coming from the other side of the room and you frown seeing Yeo Sang sitting casually in a chair enjoying the show.

„Like you said. Your prize and our revenge.“

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c h o i j o n g h o

Another one of those boring business nights with Jong Ho and you were quickly deciding to roam around the big mansion you landed in this time.

Gosh, how rich was his boss again? This house looked more like a palace to you and made you again wonder; what the hell was Jong Ho even working?

You turned corner after corner and whined knowing you got lost.

„Dammit... I am so stupid!“

„Here you are. Mrs. Choi we‘re missing your presence!“

Choi san comes out of the dark with a smile on his face and a hand tugged into his pockets. He looked ravishing but you guessed he already knew that by the way he always held himself. For you, San was a friend. A good one because he helped you and your husband in more than one way.

You puffed out some air and rolled your eyes. „What could be so interesting that you would need me?“

„Tsk, always so sassy... Jong Ho is currently leading in the game you should join us.“

„How much?“

„That’s for you to find out.“ A chuckle leaves you and with quick steps you get to San and link arms so he can guide you back.

The room was dark and huge with a single poker table in the middle where only three very young and dangerously looking gentlemen were still deeply engulfed into the game. Woo Young who stands next to the table winks at you and you try to hide the uneasiness he’s causing you every time with his little flirt attempts.

Hong Joong and Yun Ho still played with Jong Ho and being the bold human you were you emerged the table with confident steps and sat down on Jong Ho‘s lap to make your presence very clear to everyone.

Jong Ho immediately maneuvered his hands so he could sneak one of his arms around your waist and adjust your position; what the hell...

You were practically sitting widespread on his right thigh now but Jong Ho only seemed to be interested in the game.

They played silently while the others were casually getting drinks from the bar. You on the other hand were busy in understanding the game and Jong Ho‘s cards. You shuffled your body and position from time to time trying to not put too much pressure on your husband‘s thigh.

After a while with a lot of struggling Jong Ho groaned out annoyed and gave your hip a squeeze only to push you down on his thigh stronger than before.

„Fuck!“

All eyes were on you immediately and you know you shouldn’t have teased him so much...

„You want to distract me or put on a show for my friends?“

You were flustered beyond everything and just looked down to hide the embarrassment. „Neither.“

„Neither what?“

„Neither, sir.“ It was only a whisper but everyone clearly heard the word coming out of your mouth.

Jong Ho smiles triumphantly at the others knowing he not only won the game when he shows his cards but also that he would teach you a lesson in a few minutes.

[footballxwrites]

ANOTHER TIMO ONE 😂😂

Basically, you two are bffs but everyone can see you like eachother (which u do) and so his teammates do little things to get you two to get together and eventually it works 🥺🥺❤️ Thnx loveee!!

(And also thnx for fueling imagines for all my fav guysss 😂😂🙌)

You and Timo had known each other only a few months, since he first joined Chelsea as you were a physio there and from the first training session, the two of you just clicked and instantly became best friends. Obviously it was a new country, never mind city, for him and you took it as your job to show him around the place a bit, seeing as you were born and raised in London so you knew the streets off by heart, giving him the grand tour of the most iconic sites, and when I say you’ve never had as much fun as you did that night, I mean it. It was from that night onwards, you both started spending a lotttt of time together, outside of work hours, having movie nights or going for late night walks and early morning runs, and you knew there was more to it than a friendship, but too scared to admit the feelings; What you didn’t know though, was that he felt the exact same way...

I mean it was unbelievably obvious how much you liked each other, even though yous would always state you were “just friends and nothing more” which fooled no one. With you being his best mate, it meant you often saw the Chelsea lot and they would tease the hell out of you, nonstop talking about how good you would look as a couple, every time you just brushing it off and acted like you didn’t care, although the flushed red cheeks did you no favours. The lads were determined to make you a couple, having a few tricks up their sleeves, knowing one way was bout you work. They started off quite causally with the putting you next to each other on the team bus or switching up the order of treatment so you would always be Timo’s physio, and it started, slowly but surely, to work. They then went bigger, and would invite yous on night outs, them with their girlfriends, to go clubbing or to eat fancy restaurants, and to most people, that would feel uncomfortable or like you were on a double date, but to yous it wasn’t, it just felt so natural and right and edged you that little bit closer to spilling your feelings towards one another.

After a month of the little odd things here and there, the boys knew they had to step up their game if they were serious about this, so one day during training, whilst most of them were out on the pitch, Tammy stayed behind for a couple of mins and managed to pinch Timo’s phone, and knowing his passcode, he sneakily texted you asking you to meet him outside by the, what you called “south pitch” before placing his phone back in his bag and joining the lads. Of course you instantly read the message and made you way there, only to find a picnic laid out on one of the tables and a couple of wine glasses next to the basket, butterflies grew in your belly as you stolled over, a huge gleaming smile on your face loving the effort he went to but at the same time confused as to way he’d do this. Anyways after the quick training sesh, Tammy let Timo know that you wanted to see him so he gathered his things and went out to join you, also being confused by the sit when he got there.

“Hello there” you grinned as Timo sat next to you, “hello hello, what was it you were after?” He said and it was your turn to pull a confused expression, “what are you on about, you texted me asking to meet here remember” you replied, both quickly whipping your phones out your pockets and opening the messages to show each other, Timo letting out a small laugh. “You know I think we’ve been set up” Timo whispered, coming closer to you, placing a hand on your knee before nodding towards the door where all the team were gathered which made you giggle, seeing how much they wanted you together, “well I think they’re eager for us to get-“ you began, before being interrupted by Timo’s lips crashing against yours as he placed a hand on your face, cupping your cheek and deepening the kiss, and wow it was passionate to say the least, that amazing you wanted to stay in the moment forever. After your minute of madness, you both pulled away to regain some breath, immediately hearing cheering coming from the doorway and a few shouts of “ask her” and “go on lad nows chance” in the distance, “if you couldn’t tell, I like you a bit more than a friend so Y/N, would you do me the honour of becoming my girlfriend?” He asked as you replied with a small and simple “yes yes yes”before going in for another kiss.

“Well it only took me six months the grow some balls and ask you” he smirked as you both burst into a fit of laughter, eventually you thought to yourself, you and him, together as boyfriend and girlfriend, it was perfect ❤️

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[ibelieveinharrystyles]

Chapter Four: Little One

Forever? Masterlist

I hope you are enjoying the series so far! this part is a little bit shorter than the others :)

“I’ve done something really stupid.”

“That’s not like you Styles.” Ashley replied, chucking another tube of pringles into her trolley, part of the many essentials she had been sent out to get for the office, “You haven’t gone back to Kendall again have you?” 

“No, it’s not that,” Harry sighed.

“”Well then what is it?” she asked, grabbing several bags of chocolate off of the top shelf.

“I don’t think I can tell you over the phone.”

“It can’t be that bad H, I’m the queen of doing stupid things, I got pregnant on a one night stand remember.” She reminded him.

“I’ll have to show you, can I meet you at work before the scan instead? that way we can drive and you don’t have to get the tube.” Ashley had asked Harry to come with her because if for some reason she was going to face receiving bad news, she couldn’t bear the thought of facing it alone.

“Fine! this better be good Harold.”

Carrying heavy bags of shopping up three flights of stairs was never exactly easy but being twenty two weeks pregnant, Ashley found it even more difficult, so luckily for her Roman was also returning at the same time as her, “I saw Harry the other day.” He told her as the two of them made their way to the little kitchen in the corner of the office.

“Oh yeah? How was he?” She asked, munching on a handful of chocolate buttons.

“He seemed happy, he couldn’t stop talking about you and the baby, he said he’s looking forward to being an uncle.” Roman told her, helping himself to some of Ashley’s chocolate buttons as they placed the carrier bags down on the counter.

“Trust me, I know, he keeps asking if I need anything, he’s coming to the scan later too.”

“He’s not the dad is he?” Roman asked.

“Fuck, no, that would be weird, we’ve known eachother for years, we’ve always looked out for each other, speaking of which, I better make a move, he’ll be here soon.” 

“Well I hope it goes well.” Roman smiled as she left the office.

“What’s with the hat?” Ashley asked as she climbed into Harry’s car, “that's what you couldn’t tell me over the phone isnt it?”

“Please don’t laugh.”

“I’m sure its fine Haz.” She pulled that hat off of Harry’s head, revealing his new, shorter haircut.

“It’s bad isn’t it?” Harry sighed.

“No, I like iit, besides you can’t play a world war two soldier looking like the Rapunzel of the music industry.” She replied.

“Anyway, how are you?” He asked, driving the car out of the car park and onto the main roads of London.

“I’m alright, work’s going well at the moment, I sent Matt a message about the baby, Niall gave  me his number, but he says he doesn’t want anything to do with me or the baby.” Ashley told him.

“Oh Ash, I’m so sorry, are you alright?” Harry asked, glancing towards Ashley as they stopped at the traffic lights.

“If anything I’m relieved, I didn’t want to have to fight him for custody.”

Ashley didn’t enjoy trips to the hospital, she had distinct memories of visiting them as a little girl when her dad was dying. The smell of hand sanitizer and the sound of various machines beeping reminded her of the weeks of her life she’d rather forget forever. “You okay?” Harry asked as they sat on the cold green plastic chairs of the waiting room, he knew exactly why Ashley was nervous, she had seen a lot of loss in hospitals and there was always a worry at the back of her mind that something could be wrong with the baby. Ashley felt bad for bringing Harry with her, he didn’t mind going, even with his dodgy beanie on she could tell people were looking at them both, recognising Harry and assuming that he was the father. 

“Ashley Hanson,” the midwife called, inviting her and Harry into the consultation room.

“How are you today lovely?” Deena, her midwife asked as Ashley hopped up on the bed. 

“Not bad, this one’s been moving about quite a bit,” she glanced over at Harry who stood awkwardly by the door, “You can sit down Harry, I’m sure Deena would rather you did to be honest.” He awkwardly shuffled over to the plastic stool beside the bed, “He’s the baby’s uncle, he’s new to all this.” Ashley explained.

“Well then shall we see how your little one’s getting one?” Deena asked, gesturing for Ashley to pull up her top to remove her perfectly round bump, after squeezing the cold gel onto it. Deena remained quiet for several seconds, the sort of quiet that increased Ashley’s anxiety. “I’m going to go and get Doctor Fitzgerald, I won’t be long.” Deena said before swiftly leaving the room.

“Why do they always do that? They know something’s wrong, but they don’t tell you what, it was the same with dad.” She began to tear up, thinking about the possibility of losing her baby.

“Hey, you can’t think like that,” Harry whispered, taking hold of her hand, and stroking her hair with his free one.

“Hi Ashley, I’m Doctor Fitzgerald, Deena has asked me to just check your scan, alright?” He explained as he made his way to the screen, “You were right Deena, Okay Ashley I don’t want you to be alarmed, your baby is a little bit smaller than we’d like it to be, what this means is that we will need to do scans more frequently, just to be sure everything’s developing as we’d like it to.” 

“So apart from that everything’s okay?” Ashley replied, her voice wavering due to nerves.

“As far as we can see, this shouldn’t lead to any further health complications, we just need to make sure baby gets as close to full term as possible. Now on a lighter note would you like to know what you’re having?” He asked.

“Yes please.” Ashley smiled.

“You’re having a little girl.” Dr Fitzgerald told her.

“A girl? Harry it’s a little girl.” she turned to her best friend who sat beside her, his eyes fixated on the screen, clutching Ashley’s hand in his.

“I’ll leave you to get cleaned up and then Deena will book you an appointment for two weeks time.” Dr Fitzgerald told her.

“What do you want to do now love?” Harry asked as the pair climbed back into his car.

“I’m scared H, I’m really scared.” She whispered, ignoring his question.

“Hey, love come here,” he turned to hold her hands in his, “You heard Dr Fitzgerald, she’s just a little bit smaller than usual, that doesn’t mean she won’t be healthy, you’ve got to stay strong for your sake and the baby’s alright?” he held her hands close to his lips kissing them softly, “I hate seeing you like this petal, is there anything I can do to make it better?” 

“I’m meeting your mum and Gem to go shopping in around two hours, so we can go for ice cream before that.” Ashley told him, cradling her bump.

“Do I get to come shopping?” He asked, fluttering his eyelashes to try and cheer her up.

“I’m not sure you’ll be of any use when it comes to breast pumps and maternity bras H.” She replied.

“Oh Ash you have no idea.”

Ashley and Harry found themselves at her favourite ice cream parlour, down a little street in Notting Hill. Ashley went for raspberry ripple, whilst Harry chose a pistachio ice cream, they found a table in the corner of the pastel decorated parlour, tucked away in a booth. “So when do you leave for filming?” 

“Next month, we’ll be in France for several months.” Harry explained.

“So you’ll have to meet the little lady when you get back.” 

“Or she might be so naturally tuned into the absence of her number one uncle that she waits for me to get back before she pops out.” Harry replied before Ashley took the spoon from her ice cream and wiped it across Harry’s face, shortly before he did the same. Any chance of their visit being kept under the radar was gone as the two of them laughed hysterically.

“Excuse me I’m really sorry to disturb you but could I get a picture please?” A teenage girl asked from beside their table, looking at the floor, clearly incredibly anxious.

“Of course!” Harry replied, wiping the ice cream from his face.

“I think I’ll head off H, I need to get to westfield.” Ashley told him.

“If you give me a couple of minutes I can drop you.” He insisted.

“Don’t be daft I’ll get the tube, it’ll be quicker that way anyway.” she assured him.

“Only if you’re sure.” he replied.

“Harry I’m twenty two weeks pregnant, I’m not about to keel over.” 

“Let me know you get there okay.” he wrapped an arm around her, kissing the top of her head before she disappeared into the busyness of central London.

“Hello love how are you?” Anne greeted Ashley as she arrived in mother care.

“I’m good, how are you both?” 

“We’re both well too, the train down from Holmes Chapel was a bit of a trek, your mum said to say hello.” Anne told her, “Anyway let’s get down to business, have you got a list?” 

“Yep.” Ashley replied, waving a piece of paper.

“So where do you want to start?” 

“In the girls section.” Ashley smiled.

“No way! congratulations!” Gemma huffed her, swaying her from side to side.

“I found out today, Harry came with me.” 

“That doesn’t surprise me.” Gemma replied as they browsed the shop, “He won’t stop going on about you and the baby, he’s taking being an uncle very seriously.” 

“I think he feels bad, Matt’s made it clear he doesn’t want anything to do with me or the baby, which doesn’t bother me, but Niall introduced me to him, so in some odd turn of events I think Harry blames himself.” 

“That’s Harry all over, he cares a lot about everyone.” Anne replied

“And that’s because he has such a wonderful mum like you to bring him up.”

[namjoonsyoongi]

blurred lines | namgi

summary: what’s a few blowjobs between friends?

rating: M

word count: 4610

genre/tags: friends to lovers, friends with benefits, university au, comedy, crack, fluff, angst 

ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/18663031

Namjoon and Yoongi have known eachother for as long as they could spell their own names, but that wasn't enough to keep Namjoon from wanting to slap his friend upside the head sometimes.

What did keep him from doing so were the little things. The song Yoongi wrote him for his seventeenth birthday, a last minute rap that lasted all of fifty seconds written on a crumbled sheet of lined paper; A song that Namjoon wouldn’t be able to remember even if someone put a gun to his head and told him to recite it. The way that he could read his mind on any given day and act accordingly, and how they’d have a conversation with one another through brief glances and raised eyebrows alone.

Yet he still managed to discover a way to be utterly infuriating.

The other night, the all too allusive Min Yoongi, cat-eyed and full of indifference, crawled into his bed in the middle of the night. Have you ever watched the flicking tongue of a snake as it slithered toward a mouse, and then looked away before it could swallow the mouse whole? That's what Yoongi was to Namjoon on nights like these, intruding into the covers and tangling himself in Namjoon's longer limbs.

Namjoon wouldn't have any issue with a few nighttime cuddles, Yoongi's was just one of the many affectionate boys in their group of friends, and wasn't anywhere near the worst of it. Jimin could be more attached to him than his own skin, and Taehyung was like a puppy in the way he needed constant verbal and physical affirmation to make sure they were, in fact, best friends forever.

Yoongi's not like that, not most of the time. He came with a purpose.

"What's wrong?"  

"Nothing's wrong," Yoongi was simply laying by Namjoon's side at this point, before rolling over into him. "I'm just annoyed with this project. I texted my lab partner, Seungwan, and she’s more lost than I am. I'm never gonna finish this dumb fucking -- stupid fucking -- fuck this project. I'm getting pissed just thinking about it."  

"You should have never took engineering."

He really shouldn't have, but Namjoon knew why he did. He'd spent enough time at his house growing up to know of the expectations his parents had for him, as did every parent. Namjoon had almost fallen into the same trap, on track for medical school until one day, with the lyrics of Epik High's Fly on loop in his head, something stirred in him to stand up and say no. Namjoon spent his first year as a music major estranged from his parents, while Yoongi spent it as the epitome of the perfect son, and unhappy.

Namjoon spoke again. "On the brightside, only one more year."

"Shut up, please."

That was not the first night, where everything was different. Where those lines between friendship and lover blurred, for just an hour, sometimes two.

Yoongi, rather than sulk and complain, opted to release a kiss onto Namjoon's neck - and then another.

"Mm."

He keeps going, further and further, and Namjoon never tries to stop him, even when he knows he should. He palms the bulge in Yoongi's track pants, which seems to be exactly what he wants, and gets to work, going for just long enough until the warmth was enough to burn away any remaining irritation.  

Namjoon never went all the way with Yoongi, but it would probably be pretty nice.

Yoongi's lips had that sweet taste of rum the first time, and it calmed the bitter flames of the vodka present in Namjoon's throat. He couldn't say for sure who made the first move, but he could perfectly recall the pleasant fuzz that clouded his senses, and the way Yoongi moaned as if no one could hear them, as if Jin wasn't in the next room over.

When Namjoon awoke, the faint memory of Yoongi's weight in his mattress was all that remained. Any semblance of permanency floated into the air like dust, he greeted a smirking all-knowing Jin the next morning and went to class none the wiser. A dream, he chalked the whole thing up to, just a weird dream.

"Can I be honest?"

"Go off."

"I'm starting to think Yoongi isn't exactly straight."

Silence.

Like a choir, Hoseok, Jimin, and Taehyung burst into loud, screeching laughter, accompanied with celebratory hand clapping and Hoseok throwing himself into Namjoon's lap because he can't keep his balance with the sheer humor of it all.

"-And you just realized this!?"

Namjoon swallowed something stuck in his throat.

It's during a brief period of peace with Yoongi, who's laying sprawled against Namjoon's chest, when he asks about it. Namjoon had meant to approach such a subject with the utmost eloquence and thoughtfulness - You can trust me with anything you know, sometimes I feel like you tell the others things you won't tell me. I never would have judged you if you told me you like more than just girls. Do you even know how much respect and appreciation I have for you? That I'll always have for you?

But what came out of Namjoon's mouth is, "Do you give all of us blowjobs?"

Yoongi didn't answer immediately. Namjoon lifted his neck, but all he could see was the black waves of hair on the top of his head, leaning against his chest. The air in the room fogged with the added tension, and Namjoon could only guess what Yoongi's face looked like.

He said nothing. Nothing . He shuffled out of the covers and away from him, leaving the room with the mundane click of the door closing behind him.

That was something Namjoon had always known about Yoongi, his silence was louder than anything, he never had to yell.

"Fool me once? Shame on me. Fool me twice? Shame on you. Suck my dick a third time and 'no homo' is officially off limits." Jin yelped into laughter at his own joke before Namjoon could even process the words.

This was why Namjoon came to Jin for absolutely nothing.

"You're not funny."

"You're gay," Jin said, practically basking in the glare he's earned from Namjoon. "-No excuses, you sucked his dick."

Namjoon rose from his seat. "Don't tell the others."

"Why not? The rest of us admitted we were at least a little gay freshman year, we've been waiting for your coming out for years - years!"    

So you knew about Yoongi too? Namjoon wanted to ask. There was something humiliating about the fact people who Yoongi had known for three years knew more than the one who knew him for fifteen; An anchor of shame dropped silently into his empty gut.  

"Not about that," Namjoon said instead, digging into the fridge for a can of beer. "About me and Yoongi, what we've been...you know."

"Oh no, I won't. That'd scar Jungkook and you know it, that's like when you find out that your mom and dad have sex for the first time."

He tossed the can of beer in his hand, not caring enough to see where it landed, if it smacked against the handsome face that was the older's pride, or broke something along the way.  

"...I don't."

Namjoon detached from him, and Yoongi groaned once the cold air met his wet length. "Wh-What?"

"I don't give the others blow jobs, you're an asshole for saying that."

"I know, I'm sorry. Really." Namjoon, about to dip his head back under the covers, stopped to continue his thought. "Also, It's really hard to have a conversation with you while your dick is in my mouth." He moved to go under for a second time, and halted again. "Also, neither do I."

"Neither do you what?

"Give the others blowjobs."

"Good."

Shards of glass could cut you so easily, a sharp end that sinks deep into your skin, yet you don't immediately feel it when it does. That was the thing about them, he and Yoongi; Their bond was like glass, clear and delicate, it could break at one wrong move, with the simplest of words that hit the other in just the right place.

With someone as clumsy as he was, who has broken more than enough glass made objects, a connection like that was futile. Or that's what he thought, cause no matter how bad the fall, no matter how worse the cut, they somehow put themselves back together as if it had never been touched.

"Joon, your cup!"

Snapped forcefully from his reverie, the weight that had been steady in his hand slipped out before he could save it. The jarring sound of shattering glass cut out the white noise that had been playing as a soundtrack to his own thoughts.

He cursed, watching the reflective shards twinkle menacingly on the tiled floor. "Shit."

"You know, sometimes me and Jimin talk about getting a plastic set just for you." Jungkook jokes, it wasn't anything new to him.

"Let me guess! Namjoon bumped into something again." Jimin calls out, turning around the corner to be met with the new mess decorating the floor of his kitchen.

"He spaced out, I think."

"The last time you did this shit, I was stepping on tiny - like I swear microscopic pieces of glass that we couldn't clean up."  

Jimin ushers Namjoon out with mumbled reassurances that everything was fine and the two of them would clean it up. Today was one of their regular get-togethers, but it'd be the last one before they'd return home for the holidays. Jimin thought it appropriate to replace their soft drinks with alcohol, alcohol which Namjoon had just spilled half a glass of onto the ground, along with the cup.

In the living room, sat the rest of them, gathered close around Jungkook's flat screen. Namjoon could hear the muted yet very present sound of crunching as Jin and Taehyung shared a bag of chips. Hoseok lounged in a recliner, leaning back and huddling into his blanket, mindlessly flicking through Netflix.

With midterms having marched to and fro and subsequently ruined their lives, Yoongi had been a bumbling mess of yawns and naps for the past month. All both Jin and Namjoon had seen of their roommate was him fast asleep on their couch and drooling on his study notes, and glimpses of him going to and from the school before locking himself in his room.

He wasn't here, Namjoon's shoulders slumped.

"Where's Yoongi?"

"Canceled," Hoseok muttered with a deep-set pout, not looking away from the screen.

"Since when?"

"Five minutes ago."

"Hobi's still pissed." Jin chimes in, the bag rustling as he picked it up and held it out to Namjoon.

Namjoon took a handful of chips, and watched as Hoseok’s pout only deepened, a rare darkness in his eyes that only appeared when you had truly committed the worst of his friendship sins. "I wouldn't be if it weren't for this being our last night here, or if he weren't ditching for Seungwan. I would never...we would never!"

The room lapses back into a silence, as if they imagine Namjoon can understand every word and name that had just left their mouths.

"Seungwan?"

Despite everything, Yoongi was always the one to initiate things. Even when he wore his favourite black skinny jeans, and Namjoon's eyes became glued to the gentle curves of his thighs and the belt that hugged his waist. Even when, just like that snake, he wanted nothing more to devour him whole - he didn't, he waited for him.

It felt strange to take what he knew wasn't truly his.

Then came those past two months, where Yoongi tiptoed around Namjoon, as if coming any closer would break him. Namjoon thought it all in his head, Yoongi was busy, he was an engineering major, he just had to focus. Namjoon thought he was the one who could always make him focus, rejuvenate him, perhaps he was wrong. He was fine with that.

In reality, however, there was Seungwan. Pretty girl Seungwan, with her delicate face and cherry coloured lips. Slim and yet plump just where it mattered.

Jin's words hit so cold that icicles could have formed from his lips. "Seungwan and Yoongi have been dating for the past 2 months."

Why didn't you tell me sooner? Namjoon wanted to yell back at him. Why didn't any of you tell me sooner? Why didn't Yoongi tell me sooner? His heart raged against his ribcage, it wanted to scream and shout too, it wanted to run away from the man child it was stuck in, and who idiotically decided to fall in love with his best friend. The best friend he didn't know was gay until he found his way into Namjoon's sheets, the best friend who never spoke about their moments of passion in the day, the best friend who couldn't care less.

"I'm gonna go get another drink," he said instead.

And so he moved on, moved forward. Swallowed the feelings and let them dissolve somewhere in his gut. The next time he'd see Yoongi, with Seungwan hanging off his arm, he'd smile graciously and greet the both of them. Observing Yoongi as he'd mask on a disinterested demeanor when he did something thoughtful for her. He'd welcome Seungwan like the morning sun, he'd laugh at the jokes she'd quip about all the little ticks Yoongi had that Namjoon was long accustomed to and support her when she’d eventually come to him with questions like “what type of food would Yoongi want me to get?”, “Do you think Yoongi would like this as a gift?”. He'd listen attentively to every word, as if she wasn't just echoing the thoughts and feelings that had planted into his very being like a weed, sprouting once again every time he thought he’d picked it out.  

Or at least that's what he would have liked to say happened, and that's what would have happened, had it not been for the long road trip he was stuck on the morning after Namjoon found out about her.

A blanket of mist settles across their driveway like smoke. The overnight storm pelted away the flames of his intoxication, but the subsequent hangover pounded just as relentlessly.

By the car, a phantom stood, posture hunched. Yoongi looked like he was sinking into a black hole with his oversized winter coat, it was almost endearing.

Cute. Adorable actually.

Yoongi smirked. "Wow, who hit you with a bus?"

You.

The grey scarf flew from his pocket as he wrapped it around his neck and up his face, until all but his swollen eyes showed. "Let's just get this over with," He uttered, voice muffled.  

It wasn't a ritual more than it was convenient for Yoongi to drive him back home for the holidays. Their houses were five minute walks between each other respectively, and Namjoon, with his immense lack of grace and poise, has never dared touch a steering wheel in his life. Yoongi liked to say he was his personal uber, then again he also liked to complain about how annoying that was.

On the passenger's side, his eyes catch a rip edged into the cushion with the tiniest of threads holding it together - How is this piece of shit car still alive, honestly? There he sits down stiffly, another place he has essentially spent the past several years making a home of, and the two set off.

The nausea was already striking, and not just from the hangover. Something boiled unwelcome in his chest, and ran all the way down to his abdomen.

Apparently he isn't doing a good job of hiding it, cause Yoongi speaks up and says, "Don't throw up in here."

"I won't. " He snaps back.

Fuck.

He used to think he was better than this, better at setting emotion aside in favour of the overall peace that'd remain instead. Lips zipped shut meant tranquility, and Namjoon valued that; Especially with him, he who he hates more than anything right now.

How...how? How did he fall for this badly acted charade, of course Yoongi never wanted him - like that - if he did, he would have said so.

Stop. Shut up. It isn't that serious.

His jaw locks.

But it really is.

Namjoon's an atheist, but for the first time in years he prays.

He prays that this ride will proceed in silence, because if not, the emotions he didn't have enough time to bury will overflow and drown whatever was left of he and Yoongi's relationship.

Fortunately, the prayer is answered, though sparingly. Identical looking streets pass by wordlessly, with Yoongi twisting and turning through roads and towns that Namjoon can't recognize. His eyes are too exhausted to focus on anything, not that there was anything worth looking at; Every building becomes a blur of mild colours, and the sky is as gray and dull as watching cement dry.

"We're close," Yoongi says.

Namjoon hums, along with the engine as the car slows down, going up a soft incline into a gas station.

The driver's side door opens, Yoongi huddling into his coat as a gust whistles into the vehicle. "I'll be right back."

Don't come back. Just leave me in here to shrivel up and die.

When Yoongi returns, rushing into his seat before shutting the door and ramming the engine again, he says nothing. But Namjoon can hear him, his indifference, a quality which he once admired.

He'd cut his tongue out if it meant he'd keep his mouth shut, but all he can do is sink his teeth into his bottom lip, deeper and deeper as the car pulls out.

"...Yoongi?"

"Yeah?"

Don't say it.

"What am I to you?"

The engine whines, filling the emptiness of the car.

"My best friend."  

The nonchalance cuts Namjoon to the bone, until his lungs are clinging for life. His labour breathes repeatedly stab through the silence, and all he can do is stare, unanswered questions overflowing in his skull.  

They've never talked about - them, what they were and what they did. Any conversations that went past platonic stayed in Namjoon's room and Namjoon's room only. Which is why now even implications of their deeper relationship felt forbidden, his lips clipped shut when the vaguest of words pass his mind.

But Namjoon doesn't have to be the one to say it.

Yoongi laughs, scratching his ear. "Maybe a best friend with benefits?"      

The sharp edges of his eyes go a deeper shade of red, the hurt settling into the crevices. Acknowledgment, shouldn't that satisfy him?

"Still?" Namjoon asks, his voice barely a whisper.

The pink that dusts over Yoongi's cheek is rare. The sight nearly makes Namjoon's heart swell, until he's hit with the thought that Seungwan is on the older man's mind.

"I mean..." Yoongi clears his throat. "Yeah...if you still want-"

"And what about Seungwan?"

His brows furrow, almost offended. "What about her?"

The response boils in Namjoon's ear, like an off key note.

"Can't you be straightforward with me? Like you usually are?" Namjoon says.

"I am."

A snap cuts out his next thought.

They return their attention to the windshield, and watch as the wipers twist unnaturally before flying off the car into the highway, making a couple vengeful scratches across the windows along the way. All that's left of them is two little useless black nubs, which twitch as they try to operate without their second half.

"Aw, shit!" Yoongi curses, a veil of white particles smudging onto the windshield. The flight of snow has accelerated, rushing to the ground and with nothing to push the snow off their windshield, their view of the road is being eclipsed in white at an alarming rate. "I've gotta pullover."

The gravel hisses as Yoongi's car pulls over into the side of the road, coming to a full stop and leaning into his seat with a groan. "The wind must have been too harsh, they completely snapped off. I'm gonna have to call my parents to pick us up, we can't drive like this."

"Are we just leaving the car?"

"We'll lock it and probably get like - I don't know - someone to pick it up. That's gonna cost a shit load."

Namjoon expects the older of the two to pick up his phone and call his parents, but he doesn't and favours sulking back in his seat, hands rubbing his eyes and grumbling to himself. The stare catches onto his peach lips, and the way he's nibbling on his bottom lip.

"Yoongi..."

"Hm?"

"You looked stressed."

"Do I?" He remarks sarcastically, a grin pulling his lips.

Thoughts of Seungwan sink into the very corner of his head as he stares at his companion, someone who he truly has loved so dearly for as long as he could remember. He just wants to pretend he’s his, and hold him so tight that the mere thought of him ever leaving can’t cross Namjoon’s mind.

I just want to be with you, even if it’s only for a second.

"Do you want me to help?" Is all he says.

There's a pause, one that sucks all the air out of him. Yoongi almost laughs, a giddy smile on his face. But slowly, agonizingly, Yoongi's hands tumble down his face until they settle onto his neck. His eyelashes hover, and Namjoon follows them until they finally open and take in the eager and desperate man right in front of him. Yoongi's eyes, so deep and dark, swirling with a curious lust that the other is sinking into.

He doesn't speak, he nods earnestly, as if it was the question he’d been waiting to be asked all day, He leans into Namjoon's space, until their gazes tangle together. His lips, slightly chapped, barely brush over his, testing him.

Namjoon says yes; His large hands envelope his thin wrists, and pulls him forward so that their lips connect. Starting from the soft plump surface, the fuzzy feeling that alcohol can never recreate the same way runs into his veins, and he feels his heart already urging him forward with the strong and abrupt ache that develops.

He goes further, deepening the kiss as Yoongi's arms find their place around Namjoon's neck.

He doesn't know how long the kissing last until he manages to groan out a husky "c'mere," between the mess they're becoming. He breaks the kiss, waiting for Yoongi to come to him as the smaller tries his best to crawl onto Namjoon's lap in the cramped car. It's in that quiet moment that Namjoon realizes both of their coats are already off and probably somewhere in the backseat, lost to the heat of the moment.

He can already feel the growing bulge in the Yoongi's jeans, and the man impatiently moves to pull down his own zipper before Namjoon halts the action.

"Let me." He demands, voice husky and out of breath. His fingertips barely graze the metal, and stay there, playing with the sharp criss cross that leads up to the metal tab and enjoys the way the other fusses. Yoongi's head scurries into Namjoon's neck, biting in some kind of retaliation.

"Yoongi..."

"Godammit, what!" He exclaims, huffing warm breaths onto his neck.

"I want to go all the way - well, I wanna fuck you, I guess is the proper way to put it."

He feels the way Yoongi tenses up, and thrives in the flustered tremble that sticks to his voice.

"Y-Yeah. Then...Okay."

Finally, he pulls the zippers down, and helps Yoongi to raise himself up and pull it down to his ankles. Namjoon's hands strokes the newly exposed skin of his thighs, pale and covered in goosebumps.

Yoongi's hands in the meanwhile, begin to fiddle with the leather belt looped around Namjoon's own jeans. His eyes glazed with steam, like fresh mocha. Namjoon, for a first, lets him have his way as he loosens the pants and fights to pull them down.

"-And one more thing..." Namjoon whispers, leaving a kiss on the shell of his ear.

"What?"

"I love you. You know that right?"

"I love you, too." He says, adding the last part after a hesitant pause. “As more than...best friends. A lot more, actually.”

Namjoon smirks, lips trailing down the length of his neck.

"...Then prove it."

"Do you think it worked?" Jimin's voice flutters into the air; His chin is on the young Jungkook's shoulder, watching as his nimble hands maneuver a paint brush across the canvas, lips tight in concentration as he adds a strike of black.

Snowflakes dance gracefully across the glass window to their side, the ice that had once tangled into the earth leaving a mild frost in its wake. Nothing but whispers of the raging winter night was left.  

"Of course it did. It was my idea." Seokjin declares, hands on his hips as he views the large gallery in Jungkook's workroom. He's bullied the youngest more than a few times about having a useless major, but his collection of artwork never ceased to amaze him. Maybe he won't be a beggar on the streets once he graduates afterall.  

"What if they hate each other after this?" Hoseok says, a pout weighing down his face, a real one this time.

Seokin's broad shoulders shrug. "Then you'll have to live with the guilt, couldn't have done it without your A plus acting. Can't wait to see you at the Oscars next year."

A furious slap from Hoseok lands right on his upper arm, and Seokjin cries out as if he's just been stabbed, doe eyes wide and flickering with false innocence.

Taehyung grins, linking arms with Hoseok. "Don't worry about it too much, Hoseokie. Namjoon and Yoongi aren’t stupid, it won't be that long until he figures out Seungwan and Yoongi were never dating."

Is that so...Because they also spent the last year certain that no one but Seokjin knew about their frequent late night rendezvous, something Seokjin quickly learned was quite the opposite.

"Can someone remind me why Jin said they were again?" Jungkook chimes in.

"Jealousy makes the heart grow fonder, Kookie." Seokjin claims, the eldest always seemed to have wisdom to pass on, even if such words of wisdom fell on deaf ears. "Or I guess, more possessive."

"Why can't people just say they love someone when they love someone, it's not that difficult." That was easy for him to say. Jungkook's one and only crush throughout his first years of college was currently leaning over him and giggling softly into his ear, arms hugging his center.

Whenever he recounted he and Jimin's personal love story, it was a few short sentences, and went something along the lines of "met him at orientation and I thought he was cute. Became friends, then I told him I wanted him and we've been going strong ever since."  No one in the room could even imagine a world in which Jungkook's desire could be rejected, or not returned back tenfold, let alone by lovestruck Park Jimin.

The pause in conversation lasts too long, and Jimin pipes up. "They're probably fucking in the car as we speak."

The room bursts into a series of gasps, boos, and broken laughter. The ringing that follows is barely audible, but Seokjin feels the phone buzz in his back pocket. He hushes the rowdy group, before picking up the call without much as a second thought.

“Hello~?”

There's a shuffling of clothes on the other side, but Yoongi's exasperated voice eventually comes onto the line.

“Each and every one of you are so fucking dead to me.”

[tok3r]

News Punch

I Was An Alien Abductee – What I Have To Say Will Shock You

 Sean Adl-Tabatabai

3 years ago



An alien abductee has come forward and publicly revealed the plan extraterrestrials have for humanity in the next few years.  After being abducted by aliens for the last 17 years of his life, the anonymous abductee says he wants to share his experience with the public so they can learn the truth about extraterrestrials. 

In an online post on a popular conspiracy forum, the alien abductee reveals:

How aliens are able to communicate via telepathy with eachother and humans

The secrets about Earth’s history hidden from us by our rulers

How the universe came into existence (it was NOT the Big Bang or ‘God’ according to these beings)

What the future for the human race holds

Full Disclosure: Revelations of an Extraterrestrial Encounter.

My name is [redacted]. I’m [redacted] years old and I’m going to let you know right away, there’s a whole lot to digest about who I am, why I’m here, and what I’ve gone through in my life.

The thoughts that will go through your head as you read this have kept me awake hundreds of sleepless nights in my life.

I’ve questioned my sanity many times over, but I assure you, in every way possible, I am quite sane.

I’m not endorsing this story, or saying it even really truly happened. I’m only saying I believe this happened to me.

I could be crazy. I could be getting used to spread distraction. I don’t know. I’m just going with what’s gone on in my head over forty years, and saying it like it is.

Just keep in mind If i was telling this for any other reason than a true love for this planet, I’d be telling it to a Hollywood agent or book publisher and charging you money to read it. I’m not.

We all have our reasons for being drawn to the esoteric. Mine was UFOS.

Not my interest in them, but their interest in me. It started when I was only 4 years old. And it’s gone on ever since.

My first experience was a face to face meeting with a strange little Being. We communicated by telepathy and that connection remains today.

It’s a one way kind of communication. I’ve asked a million questions but never really got an answer to any of them.

Well except for one I suppose. I guess she must be able to hear me. The one question I asked the most was answered. It just wasn’t the answer I wanted.

Naturally I wanted to know what was going on…and I always heard the same response. “When it’s time, you’ll know.”is

I’ve gone years with no interaction but she always comes back. Yes. The Being was female and quite motherly in her communication with me.

She tells me things. About myself and about them, and about this planet. And it’s history.

Seems I’ve been at this for quite some time too. I’m a very old soul. She’s recently told me a bunch of things that in all honesty, I already knew, sort of.

I know one thing for sure. Amongst other things, i’m a warrior through and through. That I didn’t need to be told. But just how much of a warrior, I had no idea.

Unfortunately having the heart of a lion only gets you so far. And for me, it’s never been far enough.

That’s why I’ve learned to fight with my mind this time. Even though I spent a lot of my life in a subculture of violence this time around, I see now I had to be there to unlearn the ways I’ve always handled my confrontations. In this life too, but more so in my past lives.

I really am tired of all this. It’s been long enough. Too many people have died thinking we could beat them (the elite force controlling the world) in a physical confrontation.

They didn’t start actually “abducting me” until I was 31 years old though. And I prefer to think of myself as “taken” not abducted.

For the last 17 years it’s been an on and off again thing. I’d just gone 5 years without any contact or communication incidents, but in Aug 2016, (like 4 months ago) things got very serious, very fast.

Life was as normal as I think it’s ever been for me. I was right where I wanted to be, and comfortable with everything my life was becoming. Mine has been a life of constant rebuilding and change.

I went to bed one Saturday night just like any other night. But Sunday morning was not anything like any Sunday I’d been through before.

I woke up and realized immediately what happened. I was freezing. And soaking wet. And I felt like I was in a dream. Have you ever been under anesthetic? Same feeling when waking up. It’s like coming back from, hmmm, i don’t know where, but It’s the telltale sign.

But this time there was more. I had a head full of ideas and an absolute NEED to search out and connect to people just like all of you.

And, she was back. Like never before. And she had a lot to say in the last three months. Wow!

What I’m going to tell you was revealed to me, a bit here, piece there, over my lifetime. It really never made much sense to me though, until now. Now I have the whole truth.

And I do apologize to the people I’ve been difficult with, but you can’t imagine the pressure I’m under with this.

It’s really, really hard to listen to theories I know are incomplete or distraction, while having no ability to present what I know until right now. I was told not to tell anyone.

So, before I go any further, I need you to understand something. Read this next line as many times as you need to.

We, aren’t what we’ve been taught to believe we are! Not at all. Nothing!

What I’m going to tell you may change your life. In what way is entirely up to you.

I see it one of three ways, you’ll hate me forever, you’ll embrace this and know me forever, or you’ll call me crazy.

The reality is there’s been some very big lies told. And I’m going to do my best to explain the who, want, when, where, and why that surround these secrets.

So here it is, the real story as I understand it.

This planet was not the result of a Big Bang or the creation of “God” as we understand Him. The Universe came to exist because of The One.

The One is neither alive or dead, male or female good nor bad. IT just is…

The One is responsible for creating all the framework which functions to provide an environment for everything to exist in.

IT created this planet, and all the other planets, stars, moons, and everything in between.

Unlike the story we were told, “God” does not work alone. The One had some help.

The One created several intelligent races of benevolent Aliens that function to serve The Universe. Like The One, they are Immortal and never die. They are tangible Beings though, just not in the same way we are.

These Aliens are the craftsmen tasked with maintaining the integrity of all The One had created.

Planet Earth was seeded with life by a race of immortal Aliens called Centaurians from a planet called Eden. It’s located in the Centauri star system.

And when I say life, I mean ALL of it. Especially us.

The Centaurians are part of the immortal workforce that service The Universe. They are scientists and geneticists. It was theiru job to seed life throughout The Universe.

There is one exception though. The sector where The Six Headed Beast ruled.

Using a master set of plant and animal DNA supplied by The One, The Centaurians genetically engineered a vast living library of life.

Earth was their seed bank and it was called The Garden of Eden. Easily it was the most beautiful of all the planets. The One had really done a wonderful job.

They used a process called gene splicing, and did this work in labs on Eden.

Each new plant or animal prototype they created was then taken to Earth where it was cultivated.

Not all planets have the same conditions or type of atmosphere. So it also had to be determined which species could exist in different places.

This planet was designed to support many different types of environments and climates that mimic conditions around the universe.

Once these new products were studied, logged, and samples were stored, they were distributed to the planets throughout the universe best suited for each species.

However, in the face of all The One had created, even IT was not perfect. The One had made only one mistake. But it was a big one.

I’m not going to even pretend I understand it. But in the beginning, when The One was the only thing in existence, IT became “lonely”.

To combat this problem, The One divided itself by 25% to create another, lesser version of itself.

This new Number Two later realized that’s exactly what it was. Lesser. The One could have split in half and made them equal, but IT didn’t.

And when The One finished what IT had set out to do, which was create the Universe, and the immortal work force to help complete it, Number Two took offence.

Number Two realized The One had provided no role whatsoever for IT to contribute to all that was created.

Upon realizing the sole purpose of IT’s existence, was to keep The One from becoming lonely again, Number Two decided to leave.

At the time, Number Two didn’t realize it, but the choice to leave, introduced some new things to The Universe. Conflict. And Free Will.

Number Two took up residence in a far off corner of The Universe. It didn’t take long to realize though, IT was all alone.

As The One had divided itself to solve the same problem, so too did Number Two.

But Number Two didn’t want to face the same dilemma, so IT divided into 6 equal individuals. And they quickly set out to develop this corner of The Universe into their very own version of what the rest of The Universe would be like.

The result was a galactic society of miscreants lead by what would come to be known as The Six Headed Beast.

The division into 6 individuals had corrupted key bits of knowledge and understanding from the consciousness of the whole.

This lost knowledge was the reason all the creatures that were created to reside on the planets in this sector, had no soul.

Some of these creatures were worse than others, but none of them could actually be considered good.

They are flesh and blood creatures who only live for a certain length of time and die one day.

We were created the way we were, with a soul, for a reason. The Centaurians wanted to create an intelligent worker who would live on Earth and be responsible for maintaining the integrity of The Garden of Eden.

Tending to this garden would be an extremely delicate, and sometimes dangerous program. They needed leverage to ensure compliance to the job.

Also, since free will and conflict had come into existence when Number Two left, it was decided that from this point forward, immortality would have to be earned.

So it was decided that a promise of immortality under certain conditions, would help motivate this creature called a human being, to serve its purpose to the best of its ability.

A unique approach that would allow human beings to exist as two separate halves of one entity, had been successfully designed by an amazing team of scientists on Eden.

And quickly this design and reasoning for it, was approved by The One.

One half of the human would exist on Eden. The other half would exist on Earth.

The two individual halves of the human being are connected by something called a soul.

Inside the body of each half of the humans, flows a pure form of energy that binds both parts to one another.

A telepathic connection that allowed the two parts to communicate back and forth was also a very useful feature for completing the work projects tasked to the humans.

The half which existed on Eden would work in the lab as a genetic scientist to create new life forms.

When these plants and animals were cultivated on Earth, the process would be conducted by the Earth halves of the scientists whose team had invented the specific species.

This way the scientist and the botanist or biologist could share information to ensure a well cared for and properly designed product was the end result of their efforts.

This telepathic connection was also a way to never forget home and in times of struggle, a voice of reason to offer advice. A friend, so no matter what, no human would ever be alone, like The One had once been.

You likely won’t believe me yet, but that voice in your head, your conscience, is actually what’s left of the telepathic connection to our counterpart on Eden.

Of course today we are raised to believe thinking anything other than “it’s your own voice” will get you locked up in a psych ward.

Big threats to protect big secrets. And big secrets are certainly being kept from us about how and why that connection was lost.

To become immortal, the humans had to live by guidelines and rules and show the intelligence, loyalty, and desire to be a productive, honest, contributing member of the Galactic Society they belonged to.

A series of tests, and lessons would be incorporated into their lives that would determine when they would be ready to achieve immortality.

On Earth everything living has an expiration date, meaning one day it dies. This applies to everything except for one thing, the human soul.

When a human died on Earth, the soul ascended to Eden for evaluation. If it was decided the soul was ready, the two halves would merge into one immortal being.

However, if it wasn’t ready, the soul would experience something called reincarnation where it was sent back to Earth in a new body.

The human would then encounter a more difficult path designed to address the issues that kept it from achieving immortality.

This complex two part creature would be the prototype for a whole new approach to the concept of being alive. If successful, humans could be placed all over the universe.

As The Centaurians hoped, the evolution of The Garden of Eden, and its new occupants, was a great success.

After nearly a hundred thousand years of evolution, only one major change was made to how this system would operate.

It was originally the plan to allow unlimited reincarnation and guaranteed immortality eventually. However, there were unforeseen issues that arose from that idealistic view.

The result was a decision to permit ten chances to get it right and earn the reward of immortality.

By limiting reincarnation to nine times, the decision to populate some of the other planets that had been seeded into life with humans, had passed the scrutiny of The One.

By the way, I told you which star system Eden exists in without feeling like I’m giving up a secret.

Unfortunately, there are people here on Earth right now searching for it, and they already know where they should be looking.

The Kepler telescope made a discovery this year not six months ago in August of 2016

There is one particular planet quite close to Earth. Like close enough where the technology here will allow a probe to make it there in the next 25 years or so.

It’s not Eden. But it’s one step closer. So they really need to be stopped before they get there.

As I said before, I’m an old soul. And I’ve tried more than once to stop those responsible for what I’m trying to tell you, during several of my past lives.

Obviously, I’ve never been on the successful side of any of the battles that have taken place in an attempt to gain control of our own destiny.

I’m sure you’ve realized something must have gone terribly wrong someplace along the line.

Earth is quite obviously not being used by The Centaurians as a living library anymore. It’s being exploited, polluted, and soon enough, will be destroyed.

If you don’t know, there are several tyrannical groups of very rich, very powerful, business men, political leaders and Church officials with questionable ties to each other.

They belong to groups such as The Illuminatii, The Roman Catholic Church, The British Monarchy, and The Freemasons to name a few.

It’s widely accepted that these Billionaire Boys Clubs are up not on the up and up and exist to serve ulterior motives.

They have created, implemented, and enforced a system of corruption, greed, control, and hostility for thousands of years.

The roots of these shady organizations have been traced back to the time of Jesus.

The last attempt to confront these corrupt, power hungry, tyrants was in the early 1300’s.

A very wealthy group called The Knights Templar, that was aligned with The Roman Catholic Church, had found out some extremely sensitive information about Jesus, and the Bible.

Having expressed concerns to a trusted government official about The Church withholding the secret knowledge, The Knights Templar were betrayed and for the most part, disbanded and killed brutally for going against The Pope.

And ever since then these elite tyrants have taken full advantage of the fear they instilled in anyone who may oppose them.

Their stranglehold on the resources and human lives on Planet Earth grows stronger every single day we choose to do nothing.

The Knights knew what I know. Unlike me, they never got the chance to tell though.

Once you know why, and what is at stake, you’ll understand why I’ve made it my choice to suggest we confront these men, end these lies, and try again to rid this planet from their control.

The elite tyrants who control us using money, work hand in hand with the ones who destroy some of us by taking our soul.

The Roman Catholic Church is the real controlling influence behind those running the world, enslaving mankind, and destroying this beautiful planet.

There is no one more powerful than the guy with the funny hat, The Pope. None that are human anyways.

The Pope is always chosen from a secret, and very long list of bloodlines that go back thousands of years to a time when giants roamed the Earth.

Yeah I just said that. But it’s gotta be said. And someone had to say it. And that’s always been my role. To sound the alarm.

But this time the call, MY call, will be heard. This time, the world is ready to hear it. YOU, are ready to hear it!

The age of information has brought a new dimension, one we have never had available before. If you haven’t realized it yet, she told me, IT’S TIME!

This time, we have the ability to UNITE World Wide!. And we will. And we are.

I can feel the soul of every warrior who ever lived and died at the hands of The Elite. All of them. They’re all here.

Some already know it, most don’t, but you all will. The universe will not let you rest until you accept the responsibility of fixing what we have ALWAYS allowed them to do to us.

The Elite aren’t exactly like us in case you haven’t noticed. There is an empty, void, hole in all of “them”.

The world really is an US vs THEM situation.

You may believe “we are all one” and some spiritual awakening is on the horizon, but please, know this: There are TWO different SPECIES living together here on earth. Humans. And Half Breeds.

And no, they are not shape shifting reptilians. In all ways they are identical to us, except for one thing.

They don’t have a soul!

When they die, they are dead. That’s it. No more. They are manufactured.

These soulless shells i’m talking about are The Elite. And they know what they are. Predators. Nasty, sick, twisted, Predators.

There is another group of people who also suffer an impairment of their soul but they have no idea anything is even wrong with them.

At least they have a soul, even if it has been shut right off. As long as it’s there, all hope is not lost.

It’s imperative if we want to experience any kind of freedom again, we begin working together. All men. All for One Cause. One World United.

United, we can move forward into a new Age of Enlightenment.

United, we can be free from all the pain that’s been our lives here on planet Earth.

It will not be easy. But nothing good ever is. Just be certain, if we continue to fall for the tactics that keep us divided, once again, we will fall short. Divide and Conquer will defeat us like it has before in past lives.

The Elite have slowly divided the entire world into divisions so small, they feel confident that it’s just not possible for us to lay aside our differences or seek a new perspective on our beliefs.

I’m hoping that deep down inside though, you feel it! You’ve always felt it. You probably didn’t understand that feeling was your other half calling out to you. And your home. Eden. In all ways possible, they both need you now, more than ever.

For some of us, the connection to our other half is starting to be established once more. I’ll explain why later.

It’s the ones caught deep in this web of lies I worry about though. The ones with the soul affliction.

Things on Eden have taken a very long time to fully recover from the Annunaki Invasion.

The reason is the soul affliction that has taken hold here on Earth lately, has nearly crippled the population on Eden.

The half of the human that’s born and exists on Eden, that’s attached to the people on Earth commonly referred to as Sheeple, (people who can’t see anything at all wrong with how the world operates) are basically handicapped.

They don’t contribute to the workforce, in fact, they take away from it, as they require constant care and supervision.

Despite all that has changed since humans came into existence, the soul still continues to develop properly and in unison with its Counterpart on Eden.

The changes to the minds of the humans on Earth however, somehow have caused the autism -like affliction of the mind running rampant on Eden.

So I’m here on a mission. I’m here to wake you up to what you used to be, to what you are.

And what you need to be, if we ever want to free ourselves from this nightmare we’ve all been tricked into living.

I guess tricked isn’t the best choice of words either. They didn’t trick us, they genetically modified us is what they did.

And what I’m about to tell you now, is where things get intense.

What you think you know about the history of earth and its many different inhabitants, are all lies. And it’s the job of the church, to protect those lies.

And the reward from protecting those lies, goes to the enforcers of the lie. The Illuminati. The Freemasons. The Elite.

Their reward is your life of servitude! And every man, woman and child belongs to them whether you admit it, or not.

Because the elite know they are soulless shells of what we are, they hate us.

Once I explain what they are lying about, and how far they’ve gone to protect the lie, you’ll understand just how much hate for us they hold.

The only other things that interest them are material riches and the thrill of feeling somehow superior as they treat us like garbage in a ruthless pursuit of the Almighty Dollar.

And we allow it because deep down we feel like our souls will live on regardless.

But that was the old way. Soon you will realize how, like me, you’ve avoided the trap and reincarnated here, over and over again.

Until we get this done, we will continue stuck in this loop, doomed to watch history repeat itself again and again.

And I’m going to tell you why.

There was an invasion on Eden, and they lost. The Centaurians are peaceful scientists, not warriors.

The Annunaki, a race of soulless creatures from the far corner of The Universe developed by The Six Headed Beast had come seeking knowledge.

They required technology to save the atmosphere of the planet they came from, Nibiru.

But Eden refused to help them. They were not in the business of cooperating with any of the soulless abominations created by The Six Headed Beast.

And the Annunaki replied in force. In the process of taking what they came for, they also discovered the location of Earth.

They left Eden in near ruins, and made off with some very sensitive, essential information about all life, and about Planet Earth in particular.

The Annunaki first arrived on planet Earth during a cleansing period.

Once all of the different species were properly sampled and classified, or if circumstances required it, the scientists in charge would initiate a cleansing. The eradication of the old, to usher in the new.

The idea being to repeat the same process with new varieties of plants and animals, as they were developed and created on Eden.

This particular ice-age was also to repair a structural issue with the drainage system. A series of massive trenches and gullies were needed and the only thing powerful enough to dig them were migrating glaciers.

The humans all relocated to Africa during that time, moved by ships sent from Eden.

Unfortunately this relocation turned out to be the very thing that gave full advantage to the Annunaki.

The Annunaki were quite pleased with initial test samples they took. This planet was rich with monoatomic gold just as the stolen information from Eden had stated.

The information from Eden provided them with the formula used to create, or repair, an atmosphere. Monoatomic gold is the key ingredient. And they needed a lot.

The next thing the Annunaki did was set in motion a chain of events which accelerated the melting process.

There was a large area though where life was thriving. Here The Annunaki found a creature they hoped could be used as workers for the massive job of mining the Earth. They had discovered humans.

However, these creatures were quite different than anything The Annunaki had ever encountered. They seemed intelligent enough, but they were impossible to deal with.

Nothing, not fear, not pain, not even watching their friends die would sway them to what The Annunaki wanted them to do.

It was almost like these humans had one purpose and couldn’t do anything else even if they wanted.

But it was love for their home and an outright refusal to damage, destroy, alter, or manipulate the Earth at The Annunaki’s request that kept them from conforming.

The Annunaki even tried, unsuccessfully, claiming they were the ones who created the humans.

However, at that time The Annunaki were unaware of the connection the humans had to their other half back on Eden. The humans knew exactly who had arrived.

The Annunaki were in fact, very intelligent creatures however. A series of genetic manipulations performed on the male humans would solve the problem, or so it was believed.

One by one, the male humans were captured and injected with a DNA upgrade that would eventually change the fate of the inhabitants of The Garden of Eden. It would just be a matter of time.

The Annunaki, having completed the genetic tampering, prepared to leave. They needed to give the melting process of the ice covered planet time to do its thing.

A small team was assembled and would remain on Earth to manage and maintain the breeding process of the humans.

This task was put into the hands of a top scientist named Enki.

Enki was a powerful member of the upper echelon of Annunaki hierarchy.

He was very interested in studying the progress on the rate of change in these creatures.

The Annunaki had an amazing gift bestowed by The Six Headed Beast which created them. They had the power to shape shift, or transform into whatever they needed to be. So they took on human form.

Enki stood among the humans and watched as the other Annunaki boarded their ship and left Earth.

At that point the changes to the human mind had not taken over yet, and as the ship left, a legend was born about the ones who came from the sky in black clouds that burned in the sky.

And in telling this legend, the first of the changes began to materialize in the hearts and minds of the recently injected men, as fear crept in and filled them with a brand new perspective on life.

This new emotion clashed heavily with the very limited emotional database humans had been living with up to this point.

It only took a few generations of reproduction for Enki to realize something had gone wrong though.

By this stage there should have been significant changes in the way this creatures mind worked. But the change was minimal at best.

These creatures were learning to simply adapt, and somehow they retained the sense of self worth they had always enjoyed.

Frustrated, Enki began a series of experiments on his modified humans. What he discovered, shocked, and amazed him

In ways he could not understand, it appeared this creature was in fact, two creatures.

Enki began to decipher a series of files that were part of his spoils of war from the invasion of Eden. And what he learned, he could not believe.

These creatures had something called a soul. Something he had never heard of. Something that made these creatures immortal. As far as Enki knew, only The Six Headed Beast was immortal. More than anything, he wanted that! In fact, Enki became obsessed with the idea of living forever.

So obsessed, he entirely forgot why he had attempted to change the humans in the first place.

All that mattered was finding a way to implant or replicate one of these souls into himself.

Experiment after experiment failed. And as these further modified humans got released back among the others, the more damaged the integrity of the humans became.

After several more generations, significant changes could be seen.

So much so that they began to change in their physical appearance over time, not only mentally as the modification was initially supposed to be.

The most significant change was the colour of some of the creatures skin. There seemed to be several distinct skin tones and physical attributes appearing.

Though Enki had yet to discover the secret of the soul, he was forced to turn his attention back to creating a workforce for the mining operation.

He was rather impressed with one particular group that stood out from the others. It appeared this group was going to be the dominant one.

This dominant version of a human had changed almost entirely in colour.

It began with deep dark brown skin like they all had in the beginning.

But now it had transformed to become pale and light coloured, very much like Enki himself.

Up till this point Enki and his crew had lived unnoticed among the humans. But it was time for a change.

It was now about 190,000 Earth years since the Annunaki had left in their flying spaceship leaving Enki and his crew behind.

Enki and his kind lived to be about 360,000 years old in Earth terms. Which meant if he was going to complete the actual mission he was here for, he would have to find success soon. His age was creeping up on him.

The ice sheets that had once covered the Earth had been greatly diminished by this time. And the redistribution of the humans could begin.

Enki had sent for The Annunaki to return. The first mission was to gather all the humans of each kind based on their skin colour.

Then, each “race” was strategically dispersed around the world to the locations that were no longer inhospitable.

There were 4 distinct races based solely on skin tone. Dark brown, light brown, yellow, and white.

The first three races were relocated in their entirety and kept together. The white race however was divided into three groups.

[fsouth-park-is-imaginative]

The Angels are Watching chapter 2: I want to taste dirty

Song: the lovers by nine inch nails, new dawn fades by joy division, and the voice inside your head that tells you youre a piece of shit. Both are moods for this chapter tbh.

warnings: mild gore, creepy thoughts, non explicit sex, New York accent

I sit at the peeling wood table with a pencil in my hand. I crouch above the white sheet, my hand equipped with a pencil as I run it along the smooth paper. The charcoal feels attached to my hand as I watch the paper like a tv addict watches the screen. There’s a digital picture of her on my phone. It’s not the best quality, but it captures her perfectly. The crooked nose, the slanted eyes, the fair skin. She looks so serene on the screen, but I know that if she had woken up her perfect face would be full of fear and confusion and betrayal. I’ve been in her position, photographs are only fun when you’re awake and fully clothed.

I draw like a madman, reducing her face to mere curves and lines. My hands move in a fervor as I draw the lines over her deep sunken eyes, her heavy lips.

I have a Polaroid camera to capture all of her moments. Every Emotion on her face, each way her body can twist of its own volition. I put the pencil down and grab them. I’ve got thirteen of them here, each beautiful. Each one of them.

She stands in one, leaning over her dresser. She has no shirt on, leaving her breasts open and free. The image captures the side of one, lamp casting shadows on the lumps of flesh. The underside is shaded by virtue of freedom from the light, which illuminates my vision. The oppressive lamp spreads its army of light onto her flesh, and all the light touches is my domain to look at as I see fit. I wrote with uneasy handwriting I want to be behind her hours ago, one hand with the pen and the other down my pants.

Here, in the dim light of my shitty apartment, I can think whatever I want, the world is free to my imagination.

I put one hand over my mouth and leaned back in the chair. The wood supporting my body from falling to the ground creaked in protest. I moaned softly to myself, eyes fluttering closed.

She comes to me with tired eyes. She looks at me through her eyelashes, intense and burning. She covers herself with a silk nightgown that hides her beautiful body from my view. But the light lets me see her, skin tinged pink from the cheap red lighting in the honeymoon suit. She doesn’t pretend to be nervous when she drops the nightgown. It falls to her feet and she is covered with a light pink teddy. She straddles me with two long legs, short in comparison to mine but when she’s on top of me they’ll feel ten feet long. Her breasts push up against my chest, lips close to mine, teasing me. She breathes erratically, burning with desire for my hands all over her smooth body.

My face is blushing, I can feel the blood rushing close to my skin. My hand strokes my cock as I try to stay quiet. It’s difficult, I bite my lip behind my hand.

She kisses me finally, and her lips tastes like cherry lip gloss and all things forbidden. She is the lather of expensive shampoo, the cloth of designer clothes. She is the ambassador to god and I am prepared to fully defile her. I wrap my hand around the back of her neck and guide her face up. I kiss the underside of her jaw as her lips part like a femme fatale. She holds my other hand with hers, entwining our fingers together. I kiss her once more, before switching our positions. She lays underneath me now, and I cover her tiny frame with mine. I take a knife from the bedside table and cut off her clothes, enough for me to gain access. I line myself up with her, and slowly press myself-

The pictures fall to the floor. Fuck, there goes my daydream. I pick them up and sit back down, perusing them. Perusing her body, all bound up like a present for me.

She could be a courtesan. I can easily picture her behind an alley bargaining her rate for an hour. She’d know I was there, watching her. And she’d give me a smirk as she takes her customer by the hand, leading him to a motel. She’d keep the window open, to let me watch as he pushes her down onto the bed, covering her breasts with his lips and blocking my view of her; his disgusting body on top of my angel. And I’d decide I’ve had enough, and kick open the door to save her from her own decisions. I’d pull him off her and beat him to a pulp. I’d push my fists through his skin and make him bleed all over me. I’d slit his throat and feel the warm heat of his neck over my hands.

And I’d take my knife still wet from his blood and press it up against her throat. But I won’t kill her, I won’t dare make the life drain from her eyes. I wouldn’t dare to make her body unfit for her beautiful soul. Because something gave her to me, she’s here to make up for my pain and suffering. I won’t hurt her, because she’ll love me if I keep her safe. And I’ll give her a twenty and kiss her lips and press the knife down on her stomach, and her breath will hitch and she’ll let me fuck her there on that crappy motel bed meant for her and someone else. And she’ll come home with me and I’ll own her and her beautiful breasts. She won’t mind the dried blood on us and she won’t mind the scars all over my body and she won’t mind my old soul that’s been recycled so many times with newborn bodies.

I shudder, hands gripping my dick so firmly I’d cut off circulation if death would finally give me peace.

My pencil hasn’t touched the paper for fifteen minutes. I’m still watching the Polaroid in my hand, waiting for it to move, waiting for her to turn her head and look at me with her long hair swishing and blue water under her skin to manipulate her limbs. I want her wire frame to cling to me as if I were a magnet. But she won’t move to me, she’s frozen forever, because this isn't her. This version of her has no soul, it has nothing to talk with. She can’t talk to me without a soul. I pick up another picture, one of her in bed. She’s cuddling a pillow I want to be that pillow. Another, she’s in her bathroom, which I barely got from outside her window. Her nude form is taking off makeup I wish she were taking off my cum. She’s taking off her shirt in another and I get a view of her plain nude colored bra love love love. She’s completely naked in another and I want to cum on her violin hips.

My lips are parted, all bloody from my teeth. A drop of blood drips to my chin. My hand keep moving as I fixate my eyes on her flesh. I love it, I love it.

Oh, fuck. She’s so fucking hot. It was a hassle to get these pics, I had to balance on top of the fire escape near an almost dead tree so nobody can see me. My Polaroid camera isn’t easy to climb with, either. At least she’s only on the third floor. I’d risk a death any day for her, but my camera was expensive and it’s got a near and dear place in my heart. It was worth it, though. She was so hot, and to top this whole thing off, she sleeps in the nude. Perfect, so do I. At least she won’t judge me when we’re married, that checks off a list, let me tell you.

I watched, nearly salivating for a full hour. She took off her clothes and went about naked. I watched her brush her teeth and take off her makeup. She put herself to bed and laid outstretched above the covers. She’s like an angel. A photographed angel.

When we’re married, I’m going to take tons of photos of her. I’ll create scrap books of her, the most mundane things will be forever captured. I’ll get a video camera and take videos of us making love, and she’ll look into the camera and mouth I love you for future me to enjoy when she’s sleeping and I’m horny. I’m always horny. And her moans will join mine and we’ll fuck forever all over the place. We’ll buy an old church and commit sacrament all over it. I’ll bend her over the place where the preacher used to stand and force her panties in her mouth. We can fuck among the old gravestones of people we’ve never known. We’ll create lives for all the dead names on the stones and defile eachother on top of their bodies… it’ll be necromantik...

“KNOCK IT OFF!” A loud male voice yells from next door. “If I have to come over there, I swear I will!” I move my fist from my mouth and slam the wall.

“Shut up yourself!” I yell at the neighbors. But his loud Bronx accent comes over the walls like fascists in Berlin.

“If I hear ya’ with another one of those floozies I’mma come over there and cut your dick off! We can’t get no sleep with you over there with your date moanin’ like a pornstar!”

“Just cuz’ your not getting any doesn’t mean we all have to suffer!” I yell back. My neighbor grumbles to himself, but doesn’t reply.

It’s a lie that I’m getting some, I haven’t gotten laid since my birthday six months ago. I was a cum and go for some asshole that dated me for a few weeks before dumping me the day after my birthday. However, the fact that he thinks I sound like a girl during sex is… disturbing. It’s not like I didn’t know that before. My friends used to rip on me for sounding so girly, but most girls think I sound hot. That, or they’re lying. It’s my naturally high voice, I sound like everyone else, but a few octaves up. Well, my voice is higher than a crack addict on payday, but I can still do that low chuckle all the girls fall for. Their panties drop like they’re at the top of the Golden Gate Bridge. I do need to get my moaning in check though, because what if Alice and I are fucking and she decides I’m no different than being with a chick? If Alice won’t date me because of my moaning I swear I’ll cut out my vocal chords and let her fuck the hole in my throat with a strap on. Not that letting her fuck my throat will put me as the pinnacle of masculinity, of course.

Fuck, now I’m soft.

(I’m such a loser, chin covered in blood and surrounded by porn)

[the-last-airbadger]

My 2017

The end of the year is in sight, and so it is time to, once again, write a long post in which I look back on the past year and get all sentimental and stuff. It’s fun! And since I’ve kinda made an annual tradition out of it, why the fuck not?

I’m gonna be using the same questions/categories as I did last year for maximum comparison (and so I know what to write about), so if you want to read last year’s post, I’ll link it here: (x)

The Beginning of 2017 vs. Now I definately think that there’s a huge difference between the beginning of the year and the end. When this year started, I was sooooo busy with school. I had multiple test weeks coming up and I was behind on almost all my subjects. The stress of all that stuff caused me to feel really unhappy, and apart from that my transition also wasn’t really moving forward. And now? Now I’m five months on T, finished with school, and even though work is still stressfull at the moment and I’m still not really happy, I can say that I’m a lot happier than I was at the beginning of the year. I also feel like at the beginning of the year I was kinda stuck in a negative mindset. I felt lonely all the time, and I had just started to realise that I was a very insecure person and I felt really lonely and busy and isolated and I just wasn’t in a good place, ya know? And I feel like in the past year I’ve become better at dealing with my insecurities and with jealousy, which has increased the value I have of myself, which has definately improved my quality of life. 

So, to summarise it: Since the beginning of the year I’ve reached multiple of my goals, reached some milestones and, most importantly, I’ve grown as a person.

Best things about 2017 So many good things happened this year! I don’t even know where to begin, so I’ll try to start with things that happened at the beginning of the year and just see where it leads me. I hope I won’t forget anything lmao.

Okay, so first of all, Voltron season 2, 3 and 4 were all released this year! Three seasons! That’s crazy! I didn’t really enjoy the last two that much, but damn, season 2 was really fun! Other tv shows that got new seasons this year were Stranger Things, Doctor Who (I can’t believe I’ve only finished the tenth doctors seasons this year! I can’t believe I’ve not been into Doctor Who for more than a year! It’s so much funn!!!!), Brooklyn Nine-Nine (which reminds me, I started watching “the good place” this year! Amazing show!), and Sense8! Speaking of sense8, I only started watching it in the beginning of this year, and it has easily become one of my favourite shows ever! I’m so glad I got to watch this show this year! 

Then in february, I discovered the band One Ok Rock, which is one of my favourite bands at the moment. It’s crazy to think I haven’t even known them for a year, because they’ve become such an integral part of my music library. And so have Lindsey Stirling and Ed Sheeran by the way! I went to a Lindsey Stirling concert in March and have become a huge fan of her latest album “brave enough” ever since then. And Ed Sheeran’s album “Devide” had some amazing songs on it that I connected with instantly and have helped me through some hard times. I really can’t believe I’ve only been listening to these songs for like nine months or something. It feels like it’s been forever. The same goes for a certain musical genre by the way, but we’ll get into that later!!

Then in may, two amazing things happened, first of all I got to perform on a huge stage with my choir, and met some famous dutch people there! Roel van Velzen for example! That was crazy! We were on TV!!! 

The second thing is, I finished my exams and was done with school! This made me feel sooooo much happier. I instantly just felt a lot better and suddenly had time to do stuff I liked, like read and write and play the piano. Honestly, those months (end of may - end of august) were some of the best months I’ve had in a loooong time. I wish I could go back sometimes lmao.

So yeah, I graduated, turned eightteen, went to Ireland for the first time. All of that stuff was amazing. Then, on the 28th of june, I went to the hospital and got one of the best surprises I’ve ever gotten. I COULD FINALLY, FINALLY, GO ON T! If I had to pick my best day of the year, I’d probably choose this day. Testosterone has already improved my life so much and I’ve only been on it for five months. I can’t imagine how much it will change me in the next year and I also can’t wait to find out!!

Oh, and after that, I GOT INTO KPOP! I started really listening to Day6 during my vacation to ireland, but around the end of august/beginning of september, I started to get really really into SHINee, and in extention, to kpop. Honestly, this might sound dramatic, but Day6 and SHINee have added so much to my life. Their music and just their personalities never fail to make me smile, and they bring me comfort when I feel down. Since a few weeks, BTS has also been added to that list. Their music and the members just really mean a lot to me, so I’d say kpop is definately one of the best things that happened to me this year. 

Then I got a job in september, and I can’t really remember if anything big has happened since then. The only thing I can really think of is I SAW JACKSEPTICEYE LIVE! That evening was such a fun evening and it was awesome to finally get to see one of my heroes in person and to be in the same room with him and see that he’s actually real, haha. I don’t think I’ve screamed that much anywhere else this year. 

Oh, and I also went to my first pride this year! Sadly, I couldn’t stay there very long because of work, but it was amazing and I can’t wait to go again!

I also started my youtube channel this year, which is cool. I really love making content for it, but unfortunately it takes a lot of time that I usually don’t have. I hope I’ll be able to keep it up for another year!

So, I think that’s it for this year. If you look at it like this it’s actually quite a lot of positive stuff! That’s always good.

OH AND HOW COULD I FORGET I went to london with my mom this year! It was only two nights but it was amazing and I had loads of fun there! 

And another thing I wanted to add is I feel like I’ve become a lot closer with my friends this past year. I guess that’s just what happens when you know them for a year longer, but idk. We see eachother a lot less than last year and despite that we’ve only become closer and I think that’s a really amazing thing.

OH, and I started to watch the You’re So Brave podcast by Chase Ross & Aaron Ansuini and oh my god have these dudes helped me a lot in the past year. Thank you guys so so much!!!

My resolutions for 2017? I haven’t looked at my resolutions for this year since I posted them last year... oops. But I remember quite a few of them and I believe I’ve achieved some of them so I’m just going to copy-paste them here and adress them all individually

Go on Testosterone, for real this time - Did that!! I went on T on the 28th of July 2017 and am now Five months and Three days on T!

Write more! - .... well I guess I failed that one. I wrote exactly four pages in the past year

Save money and buy new jeans, flannels and hoodies - I did save money, and bought my favourite flannel, hoodie and jeans this year, so I guess that counts

Finish School! - DID THAT

Read a lot of books! - Sadly, I didn’t manage to achieve my reading goal on goodreads. I only read 22 books this year when I wanted to read 35. Last year, I read about the same amount, so I’d count this as a fail.

Stay Hydrated! - Idek if I did this lmao. I did become more aware of what I’m eating and what I should eat more and less to stay healthy, so I’m going to count this as a win

Try to make my tumblr blog a safe and positive place for everyone - I’ll let you guys be the judge of that

Stay positive - I’ve definately tried this, so that’s good enough

Try to be the best person I can be - I’ve become a lot more self aware the past year, and I did find out what my flaws were and how to work on them, so I think I did this.

Fight my insecurities - As I’ve stated in the beginning of this post, I think I’ve become better at dealing with them, so I’d say yeah, I did that!

Reach 200 followers on tumblr!! - Did that! I’ve got about 280 followers now!!

So yeah, overall I think I did pretty good in the past year! Better than I expected at least haha

Expectations for 2018 Okay, let’s see. I’m expecting I’ll keep my job until around june/july. I’ll turn nineteen in june, and I’m going to see Paramore, Markiplier, Ed Sheeran and Dan and Phil live this year! Really looking forward to that!! Then in september I’m going to start university, and I think that I’m going to have Top-Surgery somewhere between september and december of this year. Apart from that I don’t really know what to expect. I think university will be quite easy for me education-wise, and hard social-wise, since I’m not good around strangers and might have some slight social anxiety. But apart from that I don’t really have a clear vision for the future. I am probably going to start learing how to drive so I might get my driver’s liscence this year. Who knows? It’ll be a mystery until I’ve lived it guys.

2018 Resolutions? I am feeling ambitious rn so I’m probably gonna set the bar too high but oh well who cares let’s do this

Finally decide what to study

Get Top-Surgery

Write at least 100 pages of a story

Accomplish my reading challenge on goodreads (I’m gonna try 35 books again)

Start University

Make new friends

Stop with my acting classes

Learn how to drive

Improve my drawing skills (maybe make a comic?)

Reach 300 followers on Tumblr

Get more than 20 subs on Youtube and consistently create content for my channel

Learn Divenire on the Piano

Dye my hair

Continue to shower every day (Hygene is important!)

Start working out/exercising regularely

Get new glasses

And yeah, that’s it! I hope you’ve all enjoyed going along on this journey through my past year with me. Looking back on the past year is always one of my favourite parts of new year’s eve. It’s so good to look back and see all that you’ve accomplished in a year and it just makes me really sentimental and stuff and I like that. 

Anyways, I hope you all have a great evening, and I’ll see you guys next year!

[lovelyevajacks]

It would be my honor

Summary: Feyre recieves news of being pregnant and tells Rhys about it Disclaimer: All characters belong to the genius Sarah J Maas. This is just a post acowar fanfic about Feyre telling Rhys that she's pregnant and I wanted to share it with you all. Also, this is my first time doing this so if the format for how fanfics are usually posted on tumblr is wrong, I apologize and please let me know. And I would also appreciate it if you gave me feedback on this and tell me what you thought, so without further ado: I already knew. I already knew deep in my gut, my bones about what was going to be confirmed by the court healer. Excitement bloomed in my gut as Madja opened her mouth and told me her findings. I quickly jumped up off the bed, hugged her, and ran off to find my mate. Walking through Velaris was a blur. I kept thinking about what's gonna come nine months from now and I imagined different reactions I would get from Rhys when I told him. Tears. A huge smile. Speechlessness. The images flicked through my mind as I walked up the hill to the town house where my mate and I lived. The town house where someone else will soon reside in as well. I listened to the heartbeat deep within me as I opened the door. "Rhys?" I called. "Up here," my mate called from our room. I walked up the steps, my heart thrumming powerful beats with each step leading up to the second floor. I passed a couple doors that led to empty rooms on my way to our own. The door was closed but I swore I could've looked through the door and see the glow of the somewhat gift I had made for Rhys and hidden inside. I opened the door and as I looked inside, I could almost see the decorations that would soon fill it for the arriving addition to our family. I closed the door once more and continued on my way I finally reached our room and looked inside to find the beautiful male standing before the window overlooking our home while flaring his wings. Wings I hoped would be passed on to our newcomer. I stalked up to him with near silent steps. I put my arms around his waist and hugged him tightly. "I have something to tell you." I said quietly, unable to stop the spreading smile on my face. My mate shifted in my arms to look at me with raised brows, "Oh really?" I nodded, biting on my smile. On the way here, I hadn't really decided on how I would tell him. Whether I should come right out or show him the moment of Madja telling me or by sending him an image of what the very near future would hold. I did know one thing though. It was that along with the announcement, he would also receive a painting I had made when I first suspected the news. All I had to decide was how to lead up to that moment. I looked into those brilliant violet eyes, my heart swelling with love and emotions I still am not sure how to convey with words, even after all these years we've been together. As I looked into my mates eyes, I let those feelings guide the words out of me instead of my brain. "Today I had an appointment with Madja. She told me something that I had known for a week or two, but I wanted to have it confirmed before I told you." Rhys' eyes filled with curiosity and interest. I smiled more at the look he gave me along with it. "I think it would be better if I showed you instead." I grabbed his hand and led him to the room I had just looked inside moments ago. Before opening the door I said to Rhysand, "Close your eyes." He obeyed, but I used my magic to create a makeshift blindfold just to make sure the little sneak didn't peek when I wasn't looking. Rhys felt the magic and chuckled, "Don't trust me Feyre darling?" "Not even a little bit you sly prick." He laughed a laugh that sounded like heaven on earth as I opened the door. The painting still sat on the easel it was painted on with a blanket thrown overtop it. I let go of Rhysand's hand and walked over to it to pull the sheet off. I looked back, making sure he still couldn't see and turned my head back around to observe the painting for a quick moment. It was a portrait of my mate and I holding something in between us. Our faces were the reflection of love and awe and pure happiness. Our eyes filled with wonder and affection and gentleness as we gazed down at what we held in both of our arms. Gazed down at the bundle of joy as he gazed back up at us with his violet eyes to match Rhys'. His face a perfect reflection of his fathers as his mouth curved into a smile that was identical to mine. Before I removed Rhysand's restrictions I sent a replay of my appointment with Madja down the mating bond. The bond that I cherished so much with everything inside of me. The bond I had come so close to losing forver, once upon a time. Soothing strokes against the wall of adamant built around my mind. I shook the memory from my head and watched the replay of my appointment along with Rhys so that I could know when to stop it. It went on for a couple moments longer and before he could hear the news, I removed the memory along with the magic blindfold. Rhys blinked his eyes open and they landed on me, eyes wide with anticipation. I met his stare and watched as his gaze roamed across the room until they at last landed on the painting I'd made to help me break the news. I watched as he studied the painting, eyes widening with shock, the intervals of the rising of his chest between breaths becoming shorter and shorter. My mates eyes darted back to me, then the painting and then darted to my stomach. I looked at him and didn't know what to say as he kept staring at my stomach for a long moment, as if he could see what was growing in there. When he finally met my stare again, his eyes were lined with silver. In two graceful strides Rhys closed the distance between us, grabbed my face with his hands and kissed me. Deeply, passionately. A kiss filled with love and happiness and a joy that couldn't be faltered by anything. My mate pulled back and I saw the most beautiful smile I have ever gazed upon in my long years of life spread across his face. A smile that words wouldn't be able to describe, for it would never do it's beauty justice. I saved the image in my mind and tucked it away to cherish forever and maybe to paint it one day if I was feeling up to the challenge of recreating the sheer beauty of it. Tears slid down his face, that beautiful smile unfaltering as he said, "We're gonna- We're having a baby?" I nodded. A smile forming on my mouth-our childs mouth- just as big as his. Rhys' breathing became shallow-uneven. His smile still stayed and his tears kept running down his face. "I just- I don't- I cant- I can't really... find the words to describe how happy and excited I am. How excited I am to add on to our family that we have and become a father to our child." I nodded again. The smile still on my lips and tears now sliding down my face. I took his hands in my own and said, "I know. I can't really find the words either." Instead of saying how he was feeling, my mate sent his feelings down the bond connecting our two minds. He was right. There really were no words to describe his feelings. It was like the perfect mixture of happiness, bliss, excitement, love... and a little bit of fear. This time my smile faltered, "Why are you scared?" Rhysand's face completely changed and his tears weren't those of joy, but of sadness as he said, "What if I'm not a good father? What if our son and the rest of our future children hate me? What if they see me as a monster like so many others did before the war with Hybern?" "My sweet High Lord. You don't have to put up that façade anymore, haven't had to for so many years. Why would they see you as a monster?" His mouth opened but I cut him off, "I have no doubt in my mind that you will be the best father our children could ever have. They'll see in you what our family, our court, and I all see in you. Your courage, and selflessness, and kindness. They'll see how big and unending your capacity to love is. How protective and funny and graceful you are. They'll see how you will let them make their own choices while also making sure that they have a long eternal life filled with happiness and peace and love. They will see all of that because that is the type of male that you are. Because that is the reason why I love you so fiercely, just like how our family loves you and how our son and future children will love you. They will love and cherish you and will never see you as a monster because that isn't who you are." The tears were steadily falling down his face now. He didn't bother to wipe them away as a small smile bloomed on his lips as he brought them down to mine. I pulled back and took my hands from his and wiped the tears off of his face as he had done so many times for me before. I looked into my mates eyes. The eyes of the person I love most in this world, the eyes of someone else who would no doubt have my heart as well. I smiled wide and cherished this moment that we were sharing. Rhys brought his eyes to my stomach and swallowed. He once again looked me in my eyes as he said, "It would be my greatest honor, Feyre darling, to have a child -and many more- with you, my mate." I took his hand once more and said, "It would be my honor to have children with you as well, Rhys." He grabbed me and our future son up in a hug and we held eachother there for what felt like hours. When we finally broke apart, my mate and I grabbed eachothers hand and walked out of the room. Walked out of the room and right into the next beautiful chapter in our story.

[sadromeo-blog1]

Hi

So its 2:28 AM CT. I am sitting here at my computer actually asking myself why I’m going to put my life on display like this but here it goes. My name is Rene. I’m 21 from Texas. I’ve lived here my whole life. I work for a well known bank although my position isn’t high at all and the job I do is very mundane and well...depressing. I’m gay. I am single and I have HIV. So yeah my life is a mess. 

I guess we will start with a bit of background about how I contracted this terrible virus. I met a guy on Grindr (yikes! I know) who seem’d to be pretty cute and well that’s about it. So i messaged him and he replied he came over we smoked a little bit of weed and then we fucked from about 8:00 AM until noon. You must be wondering how I lasted that long (by the way i’m versatile and yes I was on the bottom) and I myself don’t know how I even lasted that long. Lets just say the sex was amazing. So per usual anonymous Grindr hook-up I assumed that I would never see this guy again. Although we did exchange numbers, I myself didn’t think this would be a regular thing. How ever about a week or so later he texted me and asked me to come over to his apartment and hang out smoke and watch a movie....and of course squeeze a good fuck in there somewhere. So I went over. He lived in a one bedroom apartment not far from where I live on the north side of town. His apartment complex was a little far out but I didn’t mind the drive at all. When I arrived at his place right off the bat I knew something was just a teensy bit off. I asked if he lived alone and he said no that he had a roommate (red flag number one) and I asked “isn’t this a one bedroom though how do you have a roommate” and as per usual fuck boy response he changed the subject and said it didn’t matter. So I just went with it. We smoked and watched our movie and then we fucked long into the night. It went from the balcony of his apartment, to the living floor and couch then it went to the bathroom where we got in the shower and had some really great shower sex. If you are wondering, yes I was being safe. Yes we used condoms and lots of lube. At this point in my life I knew enough about HIV to know how to be safe. Mind you this is the second time we had sex and he had not yet disclosed his status to me nor did I know that he had it. As many of you may know HIV shows no symptoms or signs at all. It simply is a virus that attacks your immune system so there wouldn’t be any outward symptoms to show. So back to the story, we had sex blah blah blah, I slept over and went home around 9:00 AM the next morning. I didn’t hear from him for a couple of days....eh it might’ve been a week to be completely honest. At this point in time it is mid March of this year...2017 and I had seen him all of two times. So he hit me up again shortly after this second sexual encounter and asked me if I wanted to go out and have a few drinks. I was all for it I love a good drink and a nice social environment so we went to a local gay bar had a few drinks then went to a night club and danced until the club closed. It was great and I enjoyed myself. At this point we had been seeing eachother for almost 2 months. I walked him to his car and got in cause of course his pot head self wanted to smoke. He offered to smoke me out, I said yes why not and we just sat there smoked and talked about our life and goals and stupid corny first date shit. Then towards the end of our conversation the tone changed. He stopped me and said “I want to tell you something before this gets more serious.” I replied “yeah sure whats up?” My first thought was Holy shit this guy has a boyfriend and wants to leave him for me what the fuck. How ever that wasn’t the case, he looked me straight in the eye and said “i’m HIV positive and undetectable.” I was in complete shock. Never in my entire life had I slept with someone who had such a serious disease. A feeling of immense fear came over me at that very moment. It took me a minute to reply and as I was thinking in my head about whether or not I should continue this relationship, I remember that HIV doesn’t define the person. It doesn’t make them someone you shouldn’t date or sleep with. Mistakes happen. Little did I know. So I replied to him “That’s okay. I know enough about it to know that as long as you’re not fooling around and having unprotected sex with anyone else and we use protection, I will be fine. I can get on PrEP and everything will be okay.” However at this point I already had the virus inside me and it was simply a matter of time before I realized my life would be changing forever. The very next day I scheduled an appointment with my doctor to be seen to get tests done to get on PrEP. The appointment was a few weeks out in the middle of April. He and I continued to see each other although the sex had slowed down. We had sex maybe twice after he told me and one of those times the condom broke and I was very scared. Then about mid april the week of my appointment I get a phone call early in the morning from him saying that he had caught gonorrhea and that I needed to go get tested to make sure I didn’t have it. So that day I missed work and went straight to my local clinic to get tested for everything. A week later my results game back and I was positive for gonorrhea. I went in for treatment and thought all was well. Then the following week I get a phone call from a different city official saying that I needed to come back in and discuss some other test results that had came back. I was thinking maybe they didn’t cure the gonorrhea so that’s why I had to go back in. So I left work early and went straight to the clinic before they closed. Immediately I was seen by a city health department official and she took me to a small room that had LOADS of HIV literature all over. She wasted no time in telling me I was HIV positive and scheduled me an appointment to see a social worker and doctor. I was hysterical, I lost my shit very quickly. The first person I called was the guy who gave me this and told him I was positive. Now get this all he said was “I’m so sorry this happened if you never want to speak to me again I understand.” I was shocked not only did the guy not show any remorse for not only sleeping with someone else while also sleeping with me but he just nonchalantly basically said oh yeah sorry. It almost seem’d like he didn’t care. 

Now lets fast forward to now. June of this year (2017). We didn’t talk for a couple weeks and then we started to hang out again. I really enjoyed his company and liked to be around him. He did make it clear though that he wasn’t looking for anything serious and neither was I. Even when I met him I just wanted a regular fuck buddy. I mean let’s be honest now who doesn’t. He was vers. I was vers. It was great we could flip fuck and just have an all around great time. So we started seeing each other more often and I got to know him better he told me more about himself and how he contracted the virus and his family and what have you. We went out to dinner a few times and it started to feel like we were heading in the direction of dating even though that’s both what we didn’t want. But hey things happen? So one day when I was at his apartment after helping him move in and helping him get rid of a lot of old clothes I asked him: “hey, so since we both have this disease would you be interested in being my only sexual partner for at least a little while. You’re really the only person I feel comfortable having sex with at the moment and you shouldn’t be out having multiple partners because that’s what got you and I into this situation in the first place.” he said he would think about it and I gave him some time and then out of the blue he texted me saying that he was up for it but that it would just be sex and thats it nothing more. I was like cool awesome that’s great. We’ve had sex once since this happened. He call’s it an arrangement. Ever since this whole friends with benefits arrangement happened I still have this feeling that I can’t trust him. Slowly I’m finding out that he has slept with other guys that I have dated and know in the gay community and that he doesn’t really go out all to often because he’s....i guess for lack of a better word a huge fucking slut and sleeps around ALOT!!!

Things have been terrible bewteen us. It feel’s very one sided. I don’t like it at all. At this point in me typing this whole thing out I don’t feel like saying to much for fear that he might find this blog and might read this post and just know its about him. Lets just say im still trying to see where this goes. He has already told me that he doesn’t know how long this can last because he’s vers and wants to be topped but that he won’t let me top him because I’m not “his type.” When he told me that I asked myself is it really worth it? Is he just using me for sex? Am I just using him for sex? As well am I clinging on to this lifeless relationship for fear  of losing the person who gave me a disease that almost killed me because I know that it will be that much harder to find someone to connect with once I tell them that I’m positive? There are so many unanswered questions that I have for myself and him. I think ultimately what I want is closure and an apology. An apology for not being honest with me from the get go. An apology for ruining my life. An apology for taking complete advantage of me and then treating me like complete shit. Are all men like this? Do all men do is lie and be deceitful and vindictive in every way possible? What will come of this fucked up relationship? I sure as hell don’t know. Stay tuned for more updates. 

[forebodingowl]

i’m excited for my room and have been preparing for and taking care of myself and focusing on myself, and it feels good to finally love being alone and know i love myself and can take care of myself. i don’t feel alone even when i am. i’m great company. 

and.... and even though i feel generally happy and comfortable with myself, i miss both of my partners a lot. i miss their smells and how they feel. and how they laugh. they’re both so different and the time i spend with each of them is so different. but i love them both so, so, so much. in different ways. 

the love that i feel towards my long term partner feels old, and comforting, and like home. i can cry of joy thinking about how i found someone who feels like family to me. we’ve been through a lot of hard times together. i hope we can get through more. or don’t have to get through more. i hope we have many happy times together. i hope we stay close friends forever, no matter what does end up happening. they’ve been a huge support in my life the last 3 years. the person i can tell anything. the person i can rely on to always help me when i need it. the person who grew with me as i did. i miss them so much right now, being here. but i know they need their space, and because i love them so much, i’ll do anything. when i thought we broke up, i accepted it really well. we held eachother and said we’d always be best friends. and it wasnt just saying that to say that. we have such a deep and rich connection that i know in my heart that we will always be together, in some way or another. so i’m glad we didnt break up. i’m glad we are just going to live our lives independtly... but i still get to see them and have them in my life. and kiss them. bring them home. 

my newer partner - about 6 months now.... the love was so instant. as soon as we met. we both had such a strong attraction to each other. we both have the same opinions on almost everything. the same personality. the same humor and “craziness” that makes people so attracted to people like us. the same sex drive and the same tastes in the bedroom. he’s soooo handsome. i know that even though we’re together in other ways, that this will also become a friendship that will last a long, long time. we got so close so fast. i’m still learning new things of course... but i feel like i’ve known him forever. the same thing happened with me and my long term partner when we first met.

 i think these two people are people i have met before, in another life. and we’ll meet again, don’t know where, don’t know when. but i know we’ll meet again some sunny dayyyyy

[confessionsofatwentysomethin]

I know I always say they’re special, but I swear this time I mean it.

Niles Andrew Kiss.

Oh shit, she’s at it again.

I’ve been here for less than one month and I’m deathly afraid that I have already found the dumb rest of my life on dumb Tinder, and I didn’t even like him at first.

Of fucking course that would happen.

I FINALLY reached that point everyone said I would. I didn’t think I would ever reach a point where I “least expected it” let alone the point where “When you stop looking, hell, when you actively avoid it, love will find you”. As a true hopeless romantic, I never thought the day would come when I was actively avoiding falling in love, until Seattle. 

I finally reached the point where I was starting over and wanted nothing to do with dating or any of it, never mind the fact that when Christian and I broke up, I was pretty sure my heart fell out of my chest and never planned on coming back.

So, naturally, when a sarcastic dude who had pictures of himself climbing mountains on his Tinder messaged me, I didn’t think anything of it.

I started going out of my mind bored, not having anybody to hang out with out here, so when he asked if I would like to go pretend to like coffee with him sometime, I didn’t think about it, I just said yes.

We talked for a few days I think. For the first time in history, I don’t remember every detail, because I wasn’t writing an origin story in my head, I was just talking to some random dude and it probably wasn’t going anywhere.

Fuck was I fuckin wrong, man.

I drove to Teriyaki Bowl (because apparently Teriyaki and Pho are huge out here?) and we ate chinese food. He was nice, paid for my food, and looked at me when I talked. He talked about mountain climbing and snowboarding and I had so many other things on my mind that I kept asking myself why I was there. But there were a couple times I remember catching my mind wandering, I would look at him and tell myself to give him a shot because he was cute. 

There were zero cliches because I thought there was something about him that interested me, but I couldn’t figure it out and didn’t have the energy for a mystery, so I probably wasn’t going to see him again because I have too much shit to do.

So I made up some bullshit about how I had to get home, and he actually still wanted to hang out with me. I told him maybe some other time, and he asked if Thursday was okay (it was Monday) I said “sure”, thinking that was plenty of time to let him down easy, but here’s where it gets real weird:

Came time to walk separate ways, and I went to hug him. He gave me a really great hug, which caught me off guard. What caught me off guard even more was that he kissed me, and it made me so nervous that I hugged him again (so awkward) and literally ran away shouting “OKAY SEE YOU THURSDAY BYE” like a total freak. I don’t think a kiss has ever made me like that, ever. 

I still didn’t like him though. No energy for dating, remember?

So... Thursday comes around, and it comes time to blow him off. He texts me, and I decide I could probably benefit from being outside the house, so I tell him we can go get drinks because eating with me is a nightmare with my low calorie diet but I can’t eat chinese food every time we go out.

Didn’t catch myself talking about “every time” like I wasn’t just now deciding not to blow him off.

We started at Claim Jumper because I wanted to pick the place and the only place I knew was the mall and I had driven by, Too stuffy, two drinks in, and I start loosening up a little. I ask the bartender which bar is the shittiest dive in the area, and he tells me. 

I tell Niles that we should go, but he has to drive because I’m a lightweight. 

I decided that if this guy likes me, I might as well experiment with what it is about me that will drive him away. I tell him I have to smoke before we go, he kisses me even though I taste like vodka and cigarettes.

We went to a shitty dive bar and talked and I looked at him long enough to tell Treasure that he doesn’t suck. She calls him Joe Mountain, and that’s one of his many nicknames. hahaha

I told him I wanted to go back to his place to go to bed... I started having fun, he’s got an identical sense of humor to mine, and we’ve been ridiculous together since i met him.

We spent the next nights together because my aunt and uncle were out of town, inseparable. His smile, guys. When he smiles, his incisors come above his teeth, and he looks like a vampire and he looks at me like he could do it forever without saying one word.

He’s the real life version of all the bad poetry I ever wrote with his dumb jokes and his dorky laugh and the way he makes me nervous but so so calm all in one instant. 

He’s hilarious and weird and adorable and sexy and I can feel the magnitude he cares about me and wants to hear every thought that pops into my head as soon as it arrives.

I can tell he is as shocked by how well we fit right up next to eachother, but not as shocked as me,

I told him not to call me his girlfriend because I was in denial, so instead he calls me his boyfriend, and tells me he’s gay for me all the time.

We joke around during sex (which doesnt stop our sex from being easily the best I’ve ever had), and we just constantly make fun of eachother.

I’ve felt a lot of these things before, but they all feel different.

I’ve said a lot of these things before, but the one thing I have never said is that he is the fastest best friend I have ever made.

We call eachother bro and babe interchangeably, we say literally everything we think of the minute we think of it and we are so similar in all the right ways and we just... get eachother, like we’ve known eachother forever.

He licks the inside of my mouth when I have food in my teeth, and he kissed me so much in those four days that I had beard burn on my chin that didn’t clear up until he had been deployed for a week.

He’s been gone for two now, and he’ll be back in three. We talk every day, and he gives me at least one random fact every time we talk. Did you know the 6th largest pyramid in the world is in Memphis, TN and it’s a bass pro shop? because now I do.

He got me sick because we had a lung capacity contest to see who could blow harder into the other persons mouth. I won every time. And I would go through this sickness a million times over again because I never want to stop making out with him.

He’ll be back for a month before he leaves for three, and then he’s out of the navy.

We worry about each other, which seems to be new for both of us.

I am so excited for what this will be, and I can’t wait to do all of the amazing things I came to Seattle to do.. and I didn;t plan it but I guess he’s coming with me.

He’s my absolute favorite weirdo in the entire world and I’m going to make sure I give this a chance to grow into everything that it wants to.

♥

[batchaoticcollectionnight-blog]

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What model Acura Integra is the best for customization and performance And based on your answer what would insurance be (16 yrs old) and how much is the car itself.

Will my auto insurance cover liability if my friend is driving a car I rent?

During a vacation, my friend will drive the rental car I pay for. If we have an accident, will my liability/medical coverage pay off if she's driving? The friend has no car & no insurance and doesn't live in my house.""

Best insurance for a 2004 grand am?

what is the best, but cheapest insurance for this car. It is used and this is my first car. Does anyone have any list of insurances to look at? I really dont want to go over 200 for one month. Help? Please and thank you.""

Should the government ban gender discrimination for insurance rates?

Why is it legal for car insurance companies to charge males more than females when they have the same driving record, same age, same car, and same everything else?""

Insurance on a 2005 ford focus?

What would the average insurance for progressive be on a auto 2005 red focus with 70k miles. For a 17 year old and a 45 year old. Can I legally put my car in my parents name to lower insurance cost?

Rush Center Kansas Cheap car insurance quotes zip 67575

Rush Center Kansas Cheap car insurance quotes zip 67575

I need the best site for health insurance for a small business?

the insurance will be for 3 employees and needs to include dental and vision insurance

""Hai, i need to go to Muscat by car is it possible to get insurance from hatta border for this car which is registered under my friend's name?""

Hai, i need to go to Muscat by car is it possible to get insurance from hatta border for this car which is registered under my friend's name?""

How much can I expect to get back from a written off car?

I wrote my peugeot 206 off last week the insurance are sending out a settlement figure as soon as they have valued it etc I was just wondering what sort of pay back you get im not expecting much but am hoping to get a new car with some of the insurance money the value of the car is about 2,500 before the crash.""

Whole Life vs. Term Insurance?

People always ask about whole life vs. Term Insurance and the insurance salespeople always defend Whole life and trash Suze Orman (not a fan of her anyway)... But they fail to prove the point with real hard numbers. Show me how Whole Life beats Term with the additional premium saved being invested in a Total Stock market index fund or other no load investment at a Vanguard or other low cost provider.

What is the best car insurance?

What is the best car insurance company? Has there historically been one that really stands out for following through on claims/advice/help? Not so much just a question of price, but reliability...""

Where can I Find Reliable Cheap Life Insurance Quotes?

I recently started a home internet based business. When I was just starting out I went without insurance for a while. Now that things are going well I would like to buy a life insurance policy. There are a ton of life insurance sites, but most of them seem biased or focused on an individual provider. Where can I find a good life insurance quote site that is unbiased or gives me quotes from a wide array of services? Also, are there any good tips for saving money buying life insurance for small business owners?""

Can the insurance do this? Car insurance.?

I was in a wreck a few weeks ago. The lady who rear ended me has the same insurance as I do. I filed a claim and a fellow church member owns a body shop. I asked him to do the work, he agreed. But, the insurance claims that they will not give him a check until he can order the parts in advance. That is way too expensive and can they really expect him to order these up front? It makes me VERY angry that they could be so stupid and negligent to make him order them up front. He said that he does not have that money to be ordering my parts up front. Can I turn them in for this? They really are messing up.""

Can i get my car insured on my parents name?

i have recently passed my driving test and it is really expensive to get insured on cars i was wondering if i can get insured on my dads name until i reach a older age then it will be cheaper is it possible to get insured on my dads name?

Proof of Insurance for Driver's Test?

My Dad bought me a car about three days ago and the dealership said they will insure the car for 14 days while my dad gets insurance through his company. I might take my driver's test tomorrow and I want to use this car for it. If I show the dmv the insurance papers the dealership gave me, will that count as proof of insurance for my road test? Thank you.""

Car insurance... HAVE THEY GONE MAD?

Basically I am 16 and looking to buy a car that needs work, so that I have a car for when I pass my driving test. I have pretended I was born a year earlier which would make me 17 and eligible for insurance, but all the other details are true. I have also added my dad on the policy and the cheapest I got quoted was nearly 4000, and it's not like i'm going to be driving a rocket ship its a 1989 subaru justy 1.2l engine, which I have valued at 500 (double what its worth). Thus I am struggling to see why it costs so much?? BTW IT'S FIRE AND THEFT NOT EVEN FULLY COM""

Can you get life insurance if your already sick?

I have life insurance, and my children have the gerber grow up plan, but my husband doesn't have any and now he's sick. He's 21 - in case his age matters - he was tested for lymphoblastic leukemia last night - but no results yet. Probably because it's Saturday. If he ends up having this, can he still be approved by life insurance?""

What is the best and cheapest insurance when renting a car in America?

I have heard that when renting a car in America the insurance can be as much as the rental cost itself when organizing insurance through the rental car agency. I am traveling to the US and will be renting a car and am trying to figure out a batter way to get the collision damage waiver insurance other than paying the high insurance prices offered by car rental companies.

What is the best life insurance at best value?

which company offers the most life insurance at the cheapest rate

Which car in Canada has the lowest insurance rate?

I'm not talking about new cars btw, I'm talking about the old cars from 95-2002 the shitbox cars, I'm a student and I plan on getting my first car with my first insurance so I need to know what's a good starter/shitbox car with the lowest insurance costs. Thanks""

How much is a good deal for an old car insurance?

It is my first time getting a car in the US... Actually, I'll be getting it tomorrow, I know it's a Toyota 1989, don't know the specific model yet but I know it's a cheap one... it has papers and registration... I mean, quite cheap and nothing very good looking. I'm 20 years old, single, international student at university... how much do you think will I have to be paying? (approximately)... and should I try getting it online? first time doing this so I'm kinda lost""

How much should I expect to pay for car insurance?

I am a 16 year old male in Texas. Having a sports car, being a male, and a teen, approximately how much am I looking to pay a month? What would be the cheapest insurance to have?""

Does your insurance cover your new car purchase?

Example, I have insurance on 2 cars, but I just bought a new car and I have not added the car to the policy. Does my insurance still cover the purchased veichle?""

Why make a deduction for medical insurance?

I just started a new job, my first full-time job. I guess first thing first: is medical insurance the same thing as health insurance? And my employer handed me a form for payroll deductions. medical insurance is an option. Why would I have money deducted from my paycheck to go to medical insurance? And when the money leaves my paycheck where does it go? I know I could ask someone but weirdly no one else is in the office this week, but I need to fill it out before the new year. Thanks for any and all information!! Happy new year!""

""I was hit by an uninsured motorist, and I have an uninsured clause in my car insurance.?""

My car was totaled out, and since my car insurance had a non insured motorist clause then I just have to pay the deductible, and they will cut me a check. I was hurt in the accident, and I wanted to know if my car insurance (Progressive) will also pay out pain and suffering. I am considering taking this guy to small claims court, but if I do then I have no idea what the outcome would be. IF my insurance offers me a pain and suffering settlement then should I take it? can I negoiate for a higher settlement? Everyone is telling me to take whatever is offered to me because the guy that hit my car didn't have insurance, and could possibly claim indigentcy in which case I would most likely never see the money. I can get a pain and suffering settlement from my own insurance, but I believe that the person that hit me should have to pay it, and I am also assuming that I would get more money out of him directly than letting my insurance cover the pain and suffering. This is my first wreck that I have gotten into, in which, I was the party that was damaged (almost died), and the other guy only received a ticket. I know that life is not fair, but like I said before, this is my first car wreck where I was owed money and the other person did not have insurance. Any information will be much appreciated. Thank You Very Much.""

Do I qualify for federal health insurance?

My parents don't get insurance through their jobs, and they can't afford private insurance. My parents and I are currently enrolled in an assistance program through our local hospital. I go to a private university that requires for students to have some type of health insurance. If the student doesn't have health insurance, the school charges the student $1,000 for the school insurance. Since I am 19 years old, I no longer qualify for CHIPS, which I've had all my life. I am a full time student, I am a U.S. citizen, I am in Texas, my parents are low income, I don't have proof of a job (I'm a nanny and get paid in cash). Online resources are confusing. But is there any federal insurance program that I may be eligible for?""

Could you tell me everything i need to know about insurance in a simplified version?

About bills and insurance and all that?

Home business and home insurance?

What's the risk when running a home business if your home insurance provider (not business insurance) become aware of your home business operations. What will happen and/or can happen. If you have a business insurance can your home insurance premium go up as a result of having a home business?

""People that live in miami only, car insurance problem :(?""

me and my boyfriend r trying to move out, its really necesary because my parents r moving far and if i go with them i cant see him again, anyways we have enough money, we both have ...show more""

What is life insurance?

Life insurance is suppose to be used as a protection of income. In case you die, your family is protected from devastation of substantial income loss. But, many insurance companies are selling it as an additional source of income or as an investment, which is really is not. Therefore, many families who have life insurance are underinsured because these cash value life insurance are very expensive. If you are using life insurance solely for the purpose of saving up for a goal or emergency, why aren't you investing it in mutual funds or put it into an IRA? If you are afraid of the stock market, then open a money market account. If you are saving up for your kids education, then open a 529 plan. All these alternative ways are better than keeping your money in a life insurance because you never have to pay it back if you use them. As to life insurance, if you use any of the cash value, you will have to pay it back with interest.""

Insurance for Young People?

I'm 21 years old, I live in Northern Ireland (which is not covered by a lot of insurance companies) and I was wondering if it is possible to get reasonably priced car insurance. I'm sure anyone my age knows that insurance for under 25s is a nightmare! Is there a way to get round it perhaps? A type of car that is cheaper to insure? I would appreciate some suggestions on the matter. Thanks.""

Rush Center Kansas Cheap car insurance quotes zip 67575

Rush Center Kansas Cheap car insurance quotes zip 67575

""If I get in a car crash and my car is considered totaled, how much would insurance give me?""

Well I have a mustang but the blue book value on it is only like 4K, but I already have like 3k in mods added to it. How do they determine how much they give you? only by the top value of your car? I've heard of people getting more money then there cars were worth, and then they go and buy nicer cars.""

How much will my insurance go up? D=?

There was a misunderstanding and my car skidded against a 2009 Cadillac i unno what and left a mark. It wasnt even my fault but i kinda afraid of the man so... D=

Best place for cheap car insurance for young drivers?

im 19 make live in UK where is the best place to get cheap car insurance, any help appreciated""

What is the typical cost of motorcycle insurance in california?

What is the typical cost of motorcycle insurance in california?

Insurance Rate for a ZX6R !?

anyone know how much insurance would roughly be for a 17 year old 2007 ZX6R Motorcycle Course Completed In Ontario Thanks!!!

As a sixteen year old guy would a hyundai tiburon jack my insurance?

im about to get my first car. parents are worried that it will jack the insurance because they think it might be a sports car

Question about car insurance ?

i know car insurance has many factors to it. i want to buy another car in addition to the one i already own. i drive a 1999 chevy lumina and i pay 1,700 a year for insurance for it...thats just the least amount of coverage too. i want to buy a 1992 firebird and switch the insurance over to that one. should i expect to see a drop in insurance because the car is much older or is there a chance it could be higher because the type of car it is? just curious thanks""

What does this quote about Health Insurance mean?

(The Headline - 2 Calif. health insurers to pay $13M for dropping clients ) This fine sends the message that if you come into California to sell health insurance, YOU MUST PLAY BY THE RULES, said Cindy Ehnes, the director of the state's Department of Managed Health Care. [caps mine] http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/2008-07-18-insurance-settlements_N.htm""

Car insurance question?

If I am driving a company truck and lets say I got a ticket.. will my car insurance go up.. even though I am driving a company truck that is insured by the company..

Why pay for health insurance anymore?

The Community Organizer (Barry O) has made sure that pre-existing condition cannot be basis for refusal when buying health insurance. So why not just wait until you get sick to purchase insurance? Its like waiting until you get into a car wreak to buy car insurance. Barry's penalty for not having insurance doesn't kick in for another few years... so why have insurance before getting sick?

If i'm 17 and in the military can i get a discount on car insurance?

My mom has PGC insurance and with me added to it its another $1000 ever 6 months. I'm in the U.S. army. is there a way i can get a discount on car insurance?

How to get car insurance for less than 1000 for a 17 year old male?

Living in England, the most expensive country in the world, and being the most expensive group of driver to insure, yet earning only 50 a week is too hard! I can get no help from family or anything I have to pay for it all myself. Realistically I need to find insurance for under a grand in order to be driving in less than a year's time. I would really appreciate any ways anybody knows of getting the cost this low. I have heard classic car insurance is a good way, but you have to be lucky to find a classic car which is cheap enough itself to make it worthwhile. Also pass plus seems ok but it seems not all insurance companies care about if you've done it - I mean if its only the more expensive ones that end up giving discounts anyway then its not worth it.. Thanks""

Cheap to insure drift cars?

im 18 and trying to get a drift car. I looked at nissan skyline, however as the cheapest quote i could get was 37,000, i might not be able to get that, as that was without declaring mods. wondering if anyone that knows drift cars that are cheap to insure or how to get cheaper insurance?""

Car insurance in NY for a 21 year old? Please Help?

I would like to purchase a used car in NY. Im curious to know if I need to purchase the car before I get insurance or can I buy the insurance then decide what car I want. Im actually not sure what car I would like to get right now, but in NY you cannot register a car without car insurance. Also, I would like to know which insurance companies will give me the lowest quote for my age and despite me driving for years with a permit, I just recently got my driver's license. I haven't established any credit yet, because I know they look at that too but I do live on my own and im gainfully employed. Whoever gives the best answer gets 10 points. Thank You""

How can i lower my car insurance quotes? just turned 17?

i bought me a 1.4 polo and i dont know sh*t about insurance, can someone give me some tips on how to lower my car insurance?""

Car insurance ?????????

Which is cheaper to go in a car insurance office or over the phone or the net.

What is the cheapest motorhome insurance to purchase online?

I just bought an older 26 ft. class c motorhome and need to get insurance just to put a plate on it so the city ordinance officer cant screw with me because it is parked in my driveway.I live in Michigan.I wont be using this until fall and dont want to insure this yet through my regular insurance carrier.Does anyone know of a online insurance company thats fairly cheap?

How much would insurance cost?

I'm a 16 year old male who makes a's and b's in school and my parents just bought me a 2008 Gmc Sierra Denali and I'm currently driving without insurance how much do you think it would cost for me?

Whats a good life insurance plan?

I'm want to apply for life insurance for me and my husband but, what is a good life insurance plan? and where do I apply? I know gerber is good for kids do they have gerber life insurance for adults?""

Cheap car insurance for a 17 year old male?

I passed my driving test last month and did my pass plus last saturday. I'm now stunned to find that the lowest i've seemed to get my car insurance is 5000, I'm a full time 6th form student so how am I meant to pay that? Is there ANYWHERE where I can get cheap insurance for my car? (except gps box insurance with restrictions such as fines for going out past 11pm) any previous experiences? or recommendations? I understand that 17 year old males are higher risk to road users than others, especially newly qualified, but there must be some loopholes in the system which will enable me to get a cheap quote? Many thanks.""

Best Type Policy Life Insurance Quotes for Elderly?

Any suggestions on finding a reasonable life insurance policy for a man 54 about to turn 55 in a month with a spouse would be appreciated. He has a soon to expire term life insurance policy at the present. He wants the best for his money. Is a term insurance policy still the best type of policy or would another policy be better?

Does Aetna medical insurance cover fertility procedures?

Does Aetna medical insurance cover fertility procedures?

Do I need insurance to take my drivers test?

I live in North Carolina and I have my permit and I've taken drivers classes and I'm ready to take my test but I don't have a car or insurance. Can I use someone else's car? Will I need insurance?

Does a wet reckless charge always increase insurance rates?

I plead a DUI down to a wet and reckless for a reduced charge. This was over a year ago, and my insurance premium hasn't changed a bit. Does it have anything to do with the fact that i have minimum legal coverage, or do they simply not acknowledge this charge? Im asking because I want to switch to comprehensive coverage but im afraid that will trigger something in their system. I would call and ask but I don't want them to raise my rate in case they overlooked something. I'm with Mercury insurance. Thanks""

Whats the average car insurance costs for a 16 year old male in Florida?

Whats the average car insurance costs for a 16 year old male in Florida?

Rush Center Kansas Cheap car insurance quotes zip 67575

Rush Center Kansas Cheap car insurance quotes zip 67575

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[welltohouse-blog]

Young Love

Young love is something that sometimes seems as a waste of time since it always ends at some point. While that may be the case, at times, there are so many experiences one can learn from love, whether short or long. That’s what this story is really about. Young love. “No, I want to get food back in town,” says Nate. “Okay but then we’re going back to my house,” I said. “Deal!” Nate replied. We walked about a mile into a small downtown area in Chatham, New Jersey. It’s very small town but it has lots of food places from full scale restaurants to mom and pop small pizza shops. It’s nice, but I typically don’t prefer to go there. I’m more of an introvert, so I prefer to keep things to myself. Regardless, Nate’s my best friend so stepping out of my comfort zone with him isn’t the worst thing ever. He was in desperate need food so once we got into town we were going straight for the pizza place. On our way, we saw a bunch of people we knew so we said hi and went on our separate ways. But one person, one girl, one beautiful girl, caught my eye. As we got closer I felt like I needed to stop to say something. Corny right? Once I got within a few feet of her, I realized she was a freshman from my math class. We had only been in school for about a week, but her perfectly shaped face was very recognizable. She had these dark, mesmerizing eyes that were hard to look away from. Oh and her short, straight hair looked so soft. The top of her head came up to my shoulder! How perfect! A match made in heaven! She was with her friends but I needed to say something to her. “Hey, I’m Pat. I don’t know if you’ve seen me but we have math together,” I said nervously. “Hi! Yeah I do!” she said. My heart skipped a beat. I didn’t think many people would remember me since I look so average. Well I’m also six foot two so that might help. I wanted to keep talking to her but Nate needed food, so we said goodbye and parted ways. Nate and I walked down to Arminio’s, the local mom and pop pizza place. It was a small, dark room that served Nate and I’s favorite pizza. We got our pizza and dug in. After a few minutes of eating, she walked in. She was with her friends, laughing and having a good time. Naturally, I was pretty excited because I wanted to work up the courage to ask for her number. Unfortunately, I didn’t do anything. I was just too nervous. I decided that I was going to try a different way. I was going to ask her on Instagram. So, once I got home. I went on to Instagram to try and find her account. After about an hour of scavenging around, I found out her name was Sophie. I followed her and she accepted my request. While I was still contemplating whether to message her, she messaged me first. Another really good sign. We talked on and off each day, finding out more and more about one another. I really started to feel a strong connection to this girl. She seemed so genuine and amazing aspirations in love and in life. I did as well and I made those feelings very clear to her. We connected very easily and that came to a huge surprise to me. I don’t normally connect with girls very quickly. The more we talked, the less nervous I became while messaging. I’ve no better feelings in my entire life about a person. She was everything that I wanted in a girl. Everything. The first time we hung out I didn’t feel the least bit nervous and neither did she. We joked around about not knowing what to do that day. Eventually, we soon decided to get food. We talked more and more and I started to feel like I’ve known this girl forever, like we were childhood friends. On the second date, I decided to officially ask her out. She immediately said yes and we had our first kiss. Both mine and her first kiss. It felt so right. It felt so needed. I was in love and I knew it. Months go by and we’re still happy as ever. We’ve met eachothers parents and we’re even more comfortable. We’re stable and beyond happy. Homecoming was coming up and there’s no doubt in my mind that I was going to ask her. I wanted to ask her at the perfect time. I asked her to hangout the next day. She said yes and I immediately prepared for her to come over so I could ask. I spelled out “Homecoming?” on sheets of paper and held flowers waiting for her to come over. She pulled up to my house, got out of the car, and started to walk over to the door. My stomach was turning and twisting so much. I know in the back of my head that she’ll say yes no matter what but I was still beyond nervous. She walked and I can immediately see the realization on her face as to what’s going on. I saw her eyes light up and she said yes before I could even ask. I walked up to her and hugged her with everything I’ve got with the widest smile I’ve ever had on my face. Love sometimes gets harder as it goes on. At times it feels surreal and sometimes it becomes surreal. Not too long after another month of dating, we hid a huge roadblock in our relationship. She does something unforgivable. Something no one ever wants in a good relationship. I would guess actually it only felt good for me. After hearing the news, all of my memories flashed at once of her. All of it started to feel fake. I came to realize I was being ignrant and realized that she might not be as happy as I thought she was. I questioned what I was doing with her and if this was the best thing for me to be involved in. I don’t think I ever suspected something like this. I had always been overprotective and got a little jealous at times but I never thought those would’ve been my complete downfall. My friends came to my support and my sister as well. I had no idea what to do. I now felt like I did something wrong and maybe, in some way, this was my fault. I knew this deep down wasn’t the case but it made me second guess myself. This was the worst time of my entire life. A month goes by and I’m feeling better but not fully healed. I think about it everyday and it hurts my stomach when I do. Then, I realize something. I’m young and only in high school. I’m going to meet plenty more girls in my life so why let one get to me so badly? I will find that someone who keeps the knot of our bond tied and won’t ever cut it. In two years time I won’t remember this girl who has hurt me so tragically and I’ll have moved on with my life. I have wonderful friends and they’ll always stick by me and protect me. Young love is something so precious because it taught me that I can always recover. I’ll always have another opportunity so why hang onto the mistakes and the risks I took, instead I’ll cherish them as lessons. As the famous saying goes “There’s plenty of fish in the sea,” but I’d like to add one thing to that. There are plenty of fish in the sea so why not discover some of the more precious ones.

[naturalbae-23-blog]

another thing thats been bothering more recently is my friend..so we’ve “known” each other for a while now..we’ve dated off an on but most importantly, we stayed in touch..well, back in may/june, things between us got quite complicated..so i kind of became possesive (ig i could say that) over my friend. it was like over this long period of time we knew eachother, i developed more intense feelings for him; at that point (and even times before) i was deeply in love with him. so i felt like i could tell him anything and share literally everything with him..i finally felt like i had a friend for once, a real friend..so back in june i asked him a question (not going into details) that was out of line..and after i received an answer, i lost all control..to sum things up, i was being extremely disrespectful to him, which was something he didnt deserve at all. so after about a week of silence between the both of us, i decided to send him a message basically asking him to tell me what was going on (there were some unknown issues). i felt like this was okay to ask considering our relationship..so he finally told me his “story” (to say the least). after he finished laying out his life story to me, i began asking some questions and then began saying some racy things..the things he was telling me actually terrified me but he was my friend so i let that go; i was trying to understand him..but once again i went off on him..it became so bad that i told him not to ever speak to me again..i had never, and i mean never, hated myself so much before..i mean i had ruined the best relationship (other than my family) that i ever had because of my impatience..i felt like a fool. so after a month or two, i apologized and things seemed to be getting a little better. anyway, in between all of that, my friend found someone new. someone beautiful, and extremely talented; he found his soulmate..and to be perfectly honest, i had never felt so empty..and i still feel that emptiness to this very moment..idk for some reason i thought we were soulmates ( i cant really explain why) i just dont know..but its been about 7 or 8 months since then and im still trying to fill this void with a handful of unnecessary things that arent working. when i look at his soulmate (pictures of her talent of course) she’s so beautiful, i mean gorgeous, unlike me, she’s younger than i am, and she’s perfect for him and im just there..im still there in the shadows or on the back burner continuing to be there for him which really isnt my place anymore...so most times idk what to say to him so i choose to say nothing..i dont want to seem thirsty or become a nagging ex so i just stay away and stay quiet..but the more i do this, the more it eats me up inside. im literally falling apart day by day because of this..i mean even when i try to forget, i still have dreams about him, like every other night...its unbearable...and waking up only to realize that what we had is gone forever, it tears me apart..i wake up in tears, i revisit the dream throughout the day and i wish i could share my feelings with someone but i just cant..