#it’s been 17 hours

[thebibliosphere]

Migraine simulators should exist so that people who say “oh yeah I get headaches too. Just take a tylenol” can finally shut the fuck up.

[angelshizuka]

"He can get hurt?" (physical vs emotional)

HELLUVA BOSS 2.04 - Western Energy 2.08 - The Full Moon

[hell0jon]

“First one to leave has to read the next statement”

It’s been 48 hours

[dragondawdles]

the beastie <3

[sainthomura]

Is this anything

[nat-20s]

Honestly I get why narratively speaking they had a Super Mega Tragic Separation for Donna and The Doctor because you KNOW that if they hadn't been every single Doctor would've dealt with trauma by disappearing on their current companions to go have a movie night with the bestie. They straight up would've:

[vero-niche]

when the anime titled "buddy daddies" that you initially put on your watchlist ironically turns out to be one of the most heartfelt and well written original shows of recent years, tackling real social issues in japan, grief, domestic abuse, parenthood and the definition of family, all the while having realistic childen portrayal, strong comedy and its overall theme being healing, and now seeing 140k+ people are following the tag:

[sparklejumpropequeen1949]

It’s a tradition at this point

[thefirstknife]

The thing about the final lore tab is that, besides the fact that I'm devastated in ways I can't put into words, the way Saint was affected by this whole thing is unique.

This is obviously primarily Osiris' trauma that we can't really properly comprehend, but Osiris wasn't fully conscious for most of it. It fell to Saint to wait, and hope, that Osiris would be brought back and that he would wake up. There was no certainty for him there. And even before that, he watched "Osiris" being strange and distant and acting weird but obviously nobody could even begin to speculate that the person he interacted with wasn't Osiris at all, so the trauma went from there, from learning that he lost Sagira, then to the shock of Osiris being kidnapped and then the quest to bring him back and then him being brought back in a coma and then the 9 long months of waiting until he woke up.

The state of constant anxiety he experienced for almost 2 years total is nervewracking and gutwrenching. I don't think we can fully understand the impact of that on someone. And the best, or worst, thing is that Saint is infinitely patient. He is infinitely emotional and merciful and opts to be the better person and to wait and wait and wait. And hope that it can be fixed.

Except it can't. It can't be fixed. And not only can it not be fixed, but there will never be justice for it. It's impossible. There isn't a way to truly punish Savathun for what she's done. There is no relief or catharsis for Saint. While Osiris can mostly move on, Osiris did not really have to go through what Saint had to go through. Their traumas are different and Saint's is the type that no one can really understand and there is nothing he can do about it.

A younger Saint would've killed Immaru and then Savathun, 100%. But now he can't, because he isn't that person anymore. And yet, the grief and trauma remain and he has no outlet for them and nothing that can be done to enact any sort of justice. So he settles for pure rage, letting himself essentially vent that anger out, but still leave everyone alive. And there's really no true release here. He got a brief satisfaction of killing Savathun over and over, but at the end of the day, she will walk away and nothing will change and there will be no fix.

Which is why he comes back and just cries. As he said, this wasn't for Osiris, it was for him. It was his outlet for anger and nothing else. After that, there's nothing else left to do but cry. No one can really help him carry the burden of what he's gone through and besides: he's a Titan. He's the one carrying other people's burdens. Which just added to the trauma because for so long he's only cared for others, mostly for Osiris, and never really let himself fully grieve or talk about it. Saint never really processed the horrifying ordeal of constant concern for his loved one, then the realisation that his loved one isn't even with him, then the desperate search and then waiting for months and months for the hope that his loved one might wake up. Then Osiris is awake and we're forced to play allies with the person who traumatised both of them in an incomprehensibly terrifying way. Saint had no other way of attempting to make his peace with the situation.

Year of processing grief. I'm in shambles.

[sw4nfire]

[iliadicjasontodd-moving]

No because actually I can’t stop thinking about it like haha yes andrew has a much smaller presence in jean’s pov than in neil’s but like jean doesn’t actually not give a fuck about andrew. like. andrew Does Not Talk. he has no facial expressions and does not react to things much. obviously jean was not going to describe what he was doing most of the time. andrew once did not say a word for six hours and only neil noticed? but andrew still is a presence in jean’s mind. the fact that betsy helped andrew weighed on his decision to talk to her, he considers andrew part of the perfect court- his response to the reporter questioning andrew’s potential!!!- the way he pulled out drake’s name because it has weight to jean, because what happened to andrew has weight to him if nothing else, etc etc. like. jean is mean as hell and uncompromising as fuck but andrew, no matter the pet monster thing, does register to him as a factor in their collective lives

[thedreadvampy]

sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

[notnotravenpond]

family

other things

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

[1driedpersimmon]

My favorite ship is actually L x a good nights rest

[elizabethrobertajones]

ribs hurt enough I'm attempting contact with the NHS... It would be pretty damning on the state of the service if I had been wandering around with a broken rib for a month, huh? :P