#it wasnt on purpose i had just lost my debit card at the time and was feeding myself with dimes and didnt know what a calorie deficit
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does anyone know who this guy is
#like a year and a half ago now?? lookjing at old pics of myself is like a vertigo feeling#whos that dog in the mirorr is that me is that my face im gottdamn real im alive?#id already rlly started dropping the lbs in these pics the second one my head manager that had like looked me up and down and said I looked#great. you were supposed to be my DAD#i was eating like 2 walmart hot dogs and a pack of peas a day. retard diet for mac and cheese autism havers#it wasnt on purpose i had just lost my debit card at the time and was feeding myself with dimes and didnt know what a calorie deficit#was until it was too late#walmartmaxxing#I dont wear striped shirts anymore i used to love ugly striped shirts it made me feel like a default animal crossing character
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It's not what it seems
The divine is real, but is beyond human interpretation of what real is. Just because one cannot see it, doesnt mean that it isnt there. And no matter where you look for it, You still wont get to see it unless you look with the right eye, and that eye is not visual.
Yesterday I decided to go to the rollercoaster park in Montreal. After some time, I have noticed that I didnt have my phone with me anymore. Indeed, it was either lost or stolen. This event was an actual test of the divine to see if I would react, and to make me understand that one should live in the now, and not be so much on phone. Absolutely everything happens for a reason, and there's no such thing as the concept of good and bad. I didnt react to it. Instead, I remembered the wisdom and connected with the divine, which has brought me to an amazing sunset under the bridge with a breathtaking landscape I wouldnt have got to experience if I have had my phone with me. This event made me enjoy the present moment without my phone, and not worrying about it was a test. Absolutely all of my cards were in it's case. Debit, credit, driver's license, everything. I somehow had the intuition that everything was fine and that I had nothing to worry. I have left and slept in my car half way back, woke up at 3 am where I drove back to my place and ''coincidentally'' had enough gas for that long drive home.
Today I have left home at 5:55 to see my mother, who then told me that ''I must really be protected by angels'' because I received a call from a friend saying that someone called her, and that my phone will be mailed back to me. She was surprised that I wasnt surprised. Indeed, today I have meditated and asked consciousness to give me my phone back, since I would see clear through that whole event, and that the lesson was learned.
In my life I sometimes blamed life for ''being cursed'' or ''unlucky'' that I would never get to have what others have, because I wouldnt understand that there was a reason for it. That I wasnt brought on earth to live a life based on personal desires and needs, but for a higher purpose. How could I not see the message ? How could I not see that many times I have been divinely protected from death, and have only suffered in order to be pushed into spiritual awakening, and that I was being carefully taken under the wings of the divine ?
I wish for spiritual growth, good luck and miracles to everyone that read these words, letting you know that to worry about anything is only based on a misconception of what reality is. Anything that ever happened to us is for a greater good even though we dont perceive or experience it this way at first, maybe ever. You dont have to believe me, you can figure anything out yourself by turning within.
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