#it was so hard and oughghg

[catinasink]

no good very very bad day today. falls over

[cheemken]

Been seeing all this drayton angst and im EATING IT UP!!!!! gamefreak was really cooking when they put the guy from opelucid "blasted with a giant ice beam" city in the snow biome of the terrarium, in a previous post you said he'd be at BBA at the time of the attack but what if he wasn't? What if he was stuck in the frozen town? (maybe trapped in his frozen over house)

He chose to station himself in the polar biome as exposure therapy because oh boy! he does not do well in the cold despite what he says about it not bothering him

I imagine he had a similar response to the cold/ice types like anime!iris does but of course less humorously and more traumatically!

He'd def mask his fear of the cold/ice types w/ jokes n such before skedaddling away "just because I'm not bothered by the cold doesn't I wanna stay here, it's not the best place for napping ya know"

DUDE YES CBMDBXDNND

Real shit he and his fam would have some sort of trauma over ice and snow and even the cold now for real, for fucking real. Opelucid really got the brunt of Plasma's attack, and I know that Drayden, Iris, and his parents told him to stay put, to hide inside the house, within the warmer rooms, just so he'd be safe. And like, he's young during the attack probs, imagine how that'd mess him up too, having to hide within the safety of your home while your family is in the front lines trying to save not only your city but the entire region. His sis especially, Iris probs hunted Plasma down, and had to made sure everyone else in the region was safe

But imagine if he really went out tho to at least try to help, what good is his strength as a trainer if he won't help right? And god just,,, him seeing the state Opelucid is in, how some people were frozen to death, some were struggling to warm themselves even w their pokemon, and there's still some Plasma grunts roaming around. His grandfather was fighting tooth and nail against the grunts, and even Zinzolin. The Frigate wasn't even around anymore, and he knows Iris is probably hunted them down to stop them too

Imagine how that fucked him up tho, that even after everything was settled, he hasn't forgotten abt the deaths, abt how cold it was, how helpless they all were

He doesn't interact w the pokemon in the biome that much, he hates how cold it is there, he's scared they'd use any ice attacks on him too. It didn't help, it didn't fucking help, Dragon types are weak to Ice. One good thing is that his Archaludon's Steel typing made Ice neutral, but sometimes that doesn't reassure him. There's always that lingering fear y'know, that Plasma will show up again and maybe attack the region again and he dreads the thought of it.

And even better bc in my hcs, Iris has Kyurem, she was the one who got him, the one who kept him. And y'know, as much as Drayton loves his sis, he absolutely hates how she has the pokemon that ruined their city. He knows it wasn't Kyurem's fault, he knows that, if anyone's to blame it's Team Plasma, but yknow, it's Kyurem's powers that made Opelucid a frozen hell scape

[cerbreus]

been playing death stranding since it came out in 2019 and i finally finished it for the first time aaaaaaa

[conceptofjoy]

I love the way you portray Dorkhell it's so. Oughghg. Thinking about their relationship getting better- Dirk slowly coming to trust Hal more- and it scaring her. Not because she doesn't want that, she really wants them to be Okay and for Dirk to trust her, but it's wholly untread ground for them. Also the classic Dirkism of being scared of being a bad person. Dirk has already just straight up told Hal that she's dangerous I think she'd internalize that a little bit. She knows what both she and Dirk are capable of after all

yess. if asked, hal would be like no im not a threat to society that is fucking stupid, but she’s internalized the idea that she is not to be trusted that it doesnt register that these r thoughts shes having abt herself in a subconscious level.

they both self-sabotage badly, i think she’d try to be better not doing the provoking negative responses from other people thing (yk as a way of striking first), but in return, idk if she’d totally understand that trying to get dirk to do things to understand shes not evil is counterproductive. but she does it bc its almost like expected of her to be up to some shit so it would be hard not to lean into that image despite not wanting to.

yeah it would fuck her up so bad if there were in a scenario where dirk trusted her with himself and she messed up. she’s human, but she doesn’t allow herself to be one.

[pookapufferfish]

oughghg artfight teams so hard to choose between...

blue and ocean are things i love...

but i love stars and space too... and isat fixation

gonna leave it to chance

[unknownarmageddon]

I am cackling so hard rn because , at the same time but entirely unrelated to your au , me and Nyx have made a Kross au that’s hellhound Killer x angelhound Cross . They both have designs and they are very gay

THATS AO REAL oughghg that’s so real dude as you should

[majjiktricks]

Kaz for the ask game? Every question. All of them.

oh dear this is probably gonna be long. some of these were hard…

1. Why do you like or dislike this character? i think mgsv was the second game i played (after mgrr) and i just. bro i fell in love with this guy almost immediately. hes depressed. hes full of rage. hes got sunglasses. hes even bisexual. more seriously, i think hes just really interesting. hes somehow one of the most reality-grounded characters (in a series with characters like ocelot and fucking. the pain/the rest of the cobras) while also being the guy who invented war-as-a-business and doritos. i find his story very compelling. child of war, doesnt feel he belongs in any of the places he could claim as home, so he fights to make a place for himself... oughghg... hes also veryyyy gender goals for me :3c

2. Favorite canon thing about this character? hes a NERD. he likes trains and hes a bit of a history buff, hes full of random facts (i know its mostly for game exposition reasons to tell the player, but i also like kaz just randomly knowing shit because its fun). in mg2 hes got all those fucking WEIRD tidbits to tell snake. like the spit thing. half the time i think hes making shit up to fuck with snake. but he does know things. i need fics and stuff to make him weirder.

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character? i dont think i really dislike any of the traits he displays in the games. yeah hes got flaws and hes an asshole and he commits warcrimes, but i think all of that is what makes him interesting. so rather than dislike something ABOUT him, i dislike what was done to him. its probably been beaten to death but im SO sad they killed him off in mgs1 and THEN decided to develop his character. like. cmon. they couldve done so much cool shit with him had he not been shelved so early in the series. or even- they bring back big boss TWICE. why cant anyone else come back 🥺 i love thinking about kaz being involved in the time around/between mgs1-4…

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in? ngl i dont think about crossovers much. i dont like them.

5. What’s the first song that comes to mind when you think about them? koi no yokushiryoku. its a fucking ridiculous song but it also makes me very sad. also diamonds by sam smith. thats a bbkaz divorce song to me.

6. What’s something you have in common with this character? i recently found out that my light sensitivity is not the normal experience for everyone ✌️ so ive been wearing sunglasses a lot lol

7. What’s something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like? i think its so funny that he gets shipped with basically everyone. its so good. i love it ^_^

8. What’s something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise? thankfully i dont see it much but i really cant stand the type of people who simplify characters down into basic stereotypes just for shipping purposes. ive seen a few things of essentially a bishie kaz in art (not in fic, bc i run for the hills at the slightest whiff). like. babes. you dont need to have one really buff guy and one feminine cutesy one for you ship to be good. please… hes not helpless nor is he very thin or boyish or any of that. hes almost 6' tall and fucking jacked in pw? i also hate it when people completely write off characters for being morally grey or for doing bad things. again, thankfully this doesnt happen much in my circles because i think ive curated a sane group of mutuals who like metal gear, but for anyone else who thinks this way? babe you came to the warcrimes series and didnt expect there to be warcrimes? where you play as the VILLAIN for 3+ games? i think the bad stuff makes him more fun :3c

9. Could you be roommates with this character? depends? does he let me hit it? 😏

10. Could you be best friends with this character? i would like to think so… if i met college-era kaz i think i would want to be friends with him… if he went on to be a business major and not a guy chasing death and combat around the world, yeah probably.

11. Would you date this character? i personally dont understand dating lol. probably? but if we could also just be friends/fwb thats fine with me 😂

12. What’s a headcanon you have for this character? i like to think about the mundane things a lot… if i do something and it reminds me of The Character. for example i like the idea of kaz listening to city pop while hes cooking. its a very chill kind of music and its a genre hes likely familiar with if he kept up with anything in japan during the 70s-80s. i also think he would often smell like methol and camphor. tiger balm is very useful when it comes to pain, and he probably uses it a lot post-gz because hes the stubborn-ass type to deny medical treatment and assistance, insisting on doing everything for himself. (the same guy who got back to work after like. only a week spent recovering at mother base. and refuses advanced prosthetics that could help him…)

13. What’s an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot? 😎 for obvious reasons. its just silly <3

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character. we only ever see him in uniforms/bathing suits, but i think he would be a high fashion man. slick suits in unconventional colors, barely there but somehow tasteful club attire, very carefully accented, subtle pieces of expensive jewelry. this guy likes money, he knows how to spend it too.

15. What’s your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn’t matter if it’s canon or not.) vkaz <3

16. What’s your least favorite ship for this character? i think ive only seen it once? but. kaz/zero. why. tbf i think its mostly that i just dont like zero. at all. crusty.

17. What’s a ship for this character you don’t hate but it’s not your favorite that you’re fine with? i like pretty much all other kaz ships ive seen aside from ^^ i think i was originally neutral on ocelhira but at this point i have been swayed into liking that too :]

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire? i find his relationship with solid snake really interesting. i wish we got to see more of it… he probably has very complex feelings about snake given their relationships to big boss and i just wanna dig my little claws in and inspect it bit by bit…

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don’t like? once again the only one i can think of is kaz and zero. and its less that i dont like it than i dont understand it. i probably should go back and replay peacewalker/watch the secret phonecall thing again. theres probably just a little piece im missing to make it fit into my brain.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn’t matter? we dont actually see kaz and amanda interact that much but man i would love more of that. they dont seem to be interested in each other at all, in the romantic/sexual sense, which i would want to see explored more. kaz is used to being seen in that lens by women and i want amanda to beat him up a little bit for it. i think shes one of few moral and sensible people in the series and i think kaz could've learned a lot from her. amanda also shouldve gotten more screentime in general. i wish she and chico were in gz or tpp somehow </3

21. If you’re a fic writer and have written for this character, what’s your favorite thing to do when you’re writing for this character? What’s something you don’t like? i want to see him taken care of <3 i will have him taken care of :]

22. If you’re a fic reader, what’s something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don’t like? i havent read too many kaz-centric fics tbh but i LOVE it when people write about the 70s for him. or any of the missing time between games tbh. i love to see what people think he was up to at the time. i havent found any consistent throughlines that i dont like yet. usually if i dont like a fic i dont finish it lol.

23. Favorite picture of this character? the model swap with quiet. you know the one. pouty kissable lips mfer.

but also so many others. theres so many good pics of him <3 this was just the first to come to mind ehehe

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them? actually, he reminds me a lot of one of my ocs LOL ive had an oc named maddox for something like 6 years now, who once i thought about it is very similar to kaz. hes got (one) fucked up eye, worked for a sketchy paramilitary agency, has a robot arm, is kind of a harlot, mellows out and settles down with his children later in life… theyre both involved with the leaders of said paramilitary agencies. they both train kids who were involved also with that same organization. maddox doesnt go and try to start his own military country LMAO but i do think the other similarities are really funny. like. no wonder i liked kaz immediately. i have a guy just like him living in my brain.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now? i had no context for who kaz was when i first met him in gz but i thought he was a funny little guy. and then when you rescue him in tpp i just wanted to take care of him…….. ngl i think that sentiment has remained, just now i am full of other feelings as well. i think if i ever get out of metal gear brain rot, kaz will be the character that sticks in my brain lonnnggg after.

[shameless-sol-apologist]

For the send me a character thing, Sol

haha you know me so well<—deranged

favorite thing about them

probably the Potential he has a character. like theres so much to be explored with his character. how hes consumed by his rage and hatred and grief that he rationalizes as righteous anger that any sort of guilt or regret has withered away. his refusal to heal and properly grieve, because healing, letting the fire die out, would be a betrayal to his cause, to what he sacrificed everything for, to the only thing that matters anymore. oh and dont even get me started on the sun/fire motifs-

least favorite thing about them

how his characterization has just gone down the drain. feels like lunime just forgot what his deal is. now hes just The Tutorial Boss 3: Tokyo Drift

favorite line

this fuckinf part of his monologue after you defeat him is just so. oughghg. i dunno i cant pick a single line from this its just. this game may be a burning pile of garbage but these line are p fuckign raw ill give lander that

brOTP

coru sol worsties real. ive been getting really attached to the friendship i just made up. i just think theyre the exact same kind of pretentious and arrogant and they should get drunk together in between destroying the fucking world

OTP

dont really have one since there arent a lot of characters that we know a semi-significant amount about to ship him with without going into crackship territory but uh. aqua/sol makes me sob and scream if i think about them too hard and raid/sol has both comedy and tragedy potential

nOTP

summoner/sol

random headcanon

reeks of alcohol and blood 24/7. not even creator powers can get the smell out of his clothes

unpopular opinion

cmon. this whole blog is an unpopular opinion. not a single person in this fandom is this mentally unwell about peepaw warcrimes over here. and i wear that as badge of fuckin honor

song i associate with them

epiphany from sweeney todd: the demon barber of fleet street

favorite picture of them

uhhh he has like 3 official artworks total and with two of them we dont even have the full versions now that gv is cancelled soo

this artwork by @mia-fit because hes Just A Silly Little Guy (would you have beef with A Silly Little Guy? for shame)

[ultimateplaylistmaker]

i dont think its exactly hard to break komaeda (like breaking him is easy, it's the process that isnt), it's more of the fact that he's in denial is what makes it so difficult, like instinctively he knows, he's smart, he knows his coping isn't exactly good but it's the only mechanism that he can do and he's stuck with it so now he doesn't realize there's other options.

so step one is just to build trust and a support network. give the guy a constant. an anchor. which is hard because of his luck but he needs something, needs to know there is something that he can believe will stay, that wont ever change and go away, by like, dying. this is just the first step, the crutch that he needs, of course this wont work in the long run but for now, he needs to learn that he can rely on such things until he's able to be independent again but in a more healthy way.

step two. you have to tell it to him straight. slowly, with facts, with evidence. never falter. never be swayed by his own words. you have to tell him that, "the world isn't fair to you. it's never been fair. you don't need to excuse the bad things thats happened to you." its going to hurt, this is why step one is important, he is going to break here, you need to be there to help catch the falling pieces of him.

step three. he's going to try and mend himself back together and no doubt, it's going to be the same methods he's used. don't let him do it. give him a better way to fix the cracks. he's going to say it isn't worth it but it is. keep telling him it is. there is nothing wrong with being broken, there's nothing wrong with needing to be fixed and healed.

step four. he's inevitably going to relapse, he's went for years using the same unhealthy coping mechanism, it's going to be difficult but you need to be there to stop him. oughghg the hard part comes with making him believe that he's worth something after this.

step five. honestly, if all goes well and things start looking up, expect things to go wrong. murphy's law and all that, komaeda's luck wont just go away, preparee for it to throw a wrench in your plans. expect any sunny day to come with rain. prepare for it. and if you can't prepare for it, then make sure the cottonhead doesn't blame himself, he's going to twist it and you have to make sure he knows that you don't think it's his fault.

these are just general steps, they're a bit interchangeable but gods have i thought about it a lot. he's going to be frustrating but you just need to be a bit stubborn

You really have thought about it, this is a really well put together plan

[slothfuljeremiah]

nezumi

21 bc i’m curious what could effect the iconic n32umi…

36

39

59

also you should’ve sent this in the server you whore

i have no idea if the numbers are intentionally that huge but it's making me laugh so much ilu. also you're so right i will correct my mistake swiftly

21. What’s one secret of theirs that could potentially ruin a relationship they have? this is hilarious to me because "i was in a kidnapping torture cult/tax shelter for the xmen espers" is a deal-breaker for literally anyone else besides 32. that + the hippa violations make him just as bad or WORSE so it's hard to imagine anything mundane getting between them...really the closest thing i can think of is finding out about The Curse Incident. similar enough to a terminal illness that 32 might have Opinions

36. What’s their favorite thing about themselves? oughghg this hurts. because they don't really like themself 🥲 but...i think they take a lot of pride in their honesty. they'll talk in circles and physically run away from confrontations, but nezumi rarely tells direct lies, and that's something they consider noble

39. What’s one skill they wish they had? physical strength/stamina. they have glass bones and paper skin which is fine when they're sitting in their office reading Evil Books all day but as soon as they need to put a duvet cover on a blanket it's all over. they WILL have a cardiac event trying to put together ikea furniture

59. What motivates them? ♥ Love ♥ ...but really. love for their family, for 32, for humanity (despite all actions pointing otherwise....) plays a huge role in their decision-making process. and while it seems contrary to the above, The Greater Good has its place in their moral code as well...they're not above making sacrifices for the sake of what's right, y'know, as long as the ones they love aren't caught in the crossfire. but also, what they consider an unacceptable loss may or may not be something YOU consider a loss, so even for their loved ones...watch out!

ty for the fun questions i'm sorry i answered them so late :''')

[panvani]

Your Vincent post is yess like when he said the way he's lived his entire life to be erased it's a statement of his depression but also like an expression of all of his behaviors, that he tried so hard to seem evil and to hurt the people around them because he thought that them hating him was a given and he wanted to give them a Reason to hate him and a Reason to be relieved when he went away like oughghg

You finished PH which means you get to see this

[moonwabbitt]

pop up show is tmrw!!! ahhhh,

i reached out to boardgame/dnd/place to talk about having my work in store via consignment they said they'd put me on a waitlist but haven't heard from em, wondering about if i should nudge and send another emial,,,,also looking at another 2 places to apply to,,,not setting all my eggs in one basket,,i keep trying, but scared, doing it while scared but also scared how it could affect disability and just oughghg urhghghgh making things, money going into it all and then seeing nothing? would kill me tbh, but im also just generally trying to stock up on things/do things for fun, its hard when you're always lowkey broke because half the creative things im like i could create xyz with this to sell! and just ughgh

i started off so positive but i started spiraling :(

[raidenloml]

oughghg ive been going asleep at 2am for like 2 weeks straight im struggling so hard i am not built for this at all 😭😭

[honkbird]

Oughghg I got a stomach bug I think, felt super feverish and nauseous BUT I GOT MY 3DS AGAIN FROM PACKING BOXES. It was stored with clothes, found it on Saturday I think, and today I remembered to actually bring it with me on campus between classes. I also got my new sewing machine yesterday, did a quilting block and I'm pepped for getting the hang of it. I might work on a sampler quilt (style where you use a bunch of different 'blocks' rather than an overall pattern)

Not my own quilt, but a great example of what a sampler is. It's a shame I'm so particular about the feel of various fabrics. I want something cozy but it's hard picking good jelly rolls oughgh. Though I could just make a nice looking top, and a comfy underside.

[malevolententity]

sometimes u have a girl living in ur head for 12 years and shes just soooo tired. she used to be so so angy and now shes just tired and running a gym in montreal hoping that the world governments dont realize that shes herself and her only friend in the world is a dude named bucket who is equally as hard to get a hold of but thats because everyones obsessed with his vast knowledge. and she just wants to exist without having to be ready to run at a moments notice because while she CAN solo and entire city that is exhausting and brings more attention so its easier to just slip away. and i miss her so much. but i have no situations for her shes just. THERE. shes not chilling but like. NOTHING to rotate specifically

i really need to make her a coterie so she can be in situations again but that means her not being autarkis or finding a few others and oughghg rotating my little lady so much i should give her some friends

rotating my girl.... rotating kalma soooooo much you all would not believe how fast she is spinning

[washilon]

i hate colours. so much. this is why i make designs with Blank Characters oh my GOD