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seungkw1 · 3 days ago
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safe haven — ljh
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♡ pairing: neighbor!jihoon x fem!reader ♡ theme: fluff, hurt/comfort ♡ wc: 3.9k ♡ warnings: post-breakup dynamics, cheating (from ex), swearing, mentions of food ♡ a/n: written as part of the Winter with You collab put on by @camandemstudios - make sure to check out the full collab masterlist here!! give all these talented writers some love <3 and big thanks to @lovetaroandtaemin for beta reading!!
As if your fiancé leaving you for another woman wasn’t enough to make this the shittiest week of your life, now you’ve managed to lock yourself out of your house during an incoming blizzard. At least your next-door neighbor is home, and he’s kind enough to offer you shelter from the storm. You barely know Jihoon, only having spoken to him a few times - but soon, you discover you have more in common than you initially thought.
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Five days ago, you made the innocent mistake of picking up your fiancé’s phone when you thought it was yours. You noticed immediately when you saw the lock screen - it was a photo of you and him from last December, posed in front of a Christmas tree, taken minutes after he proposed. In it, you’re smiling ear to ear, enthusiastically showing off the beautiful engagement ring he bought you. The photo has been his wallpaper ever since. “You look so happy,” he told you a couple months ago. “I can’t bring myself to change it.”
You go to set the phone back down, but a notification catches your eye. You take a closer look, discovering a string of WhatsApp messages, all from somebody named Kelsey. 
Huh, that’s weird, you think to yourself. I didn’t know he even used WhatsApp. 
Normally, you’d think nothing of it - but something feels off. You hesitate for a moment. You know each other’s passcodes for the sake of convenience; you’ve never felt the need to go through his phone, and you feel bad about even thinking about doing it. But, your gut is telling you to investigate.
You input the password and open the message thread. You’re not quite sure what you’re even looking for, but two seconds of scrolling tells you all you need to know. Dumbfounded, you read the particular message three more times before it sinks in: 
Can’t wait for our vacation next week baby, I really need to get away from all of this right now. 
Your stomach lurches as if you’ve just been punched in the gut. He told you he was going on a business trip next week. He told you that months ago. 
Get away from ‘all of this’? What the fuck is that supposed to mean? Does he mean… me???
Blood rushes through your ears as you read through the never-ending series of sexts, nudes, notes more romantic than anything he’s ever said to you before, an entire paper trail of all the times and locations of the evident affair - until you feel like you’re going to be sick. 
No, it’s not real. It can’t be. There’s no way…
Paralyzed, you stand there in disbelief, but as several more minutes of scrolling pass, it becomes clear that this is actually happening. Tears start to well in your eyes, but you quickly bottle it up, converting the energy into anger instead. You take the phone and march into his office to confront him - ready to shut him down when he tries to deny it. 
But, he doesn’t even try to deny it. He doesn’t even care.
“Well, it’s about time you found out anyway,” he tells you nonchalantly.
“Our wedding is in three months!! How fucking long were you going to wait to tell me??”
“I was gonna tell you soon, I just needed it to be the right time.”
“The right time??!! When is there a right time to dump your fiancé???”
“Listen, y/n-”
“Don’t tell me to fucking listen!!” you raise your voice at him. “In fact, don’t say anything else. Get the fuck out of my house.”
“You can’t tell me to get out, this is my house too,” he replies, with the sheer audacity to have a tone of annoyance in his voice.
“It’s MY name on the fucking papers. Get. Out.”
And so, he left. Didn’t even give you his set of keys back. Didn’t even say goodbye.
Now, you sit here parked in your driveway, the howling of harsh winter winds whistling over the melancholy tune playing loudly from the car radio. The volume is cranked all the way up, but despite your best efforts to drown out the outside world, the sharp whooshing sounds persist. Looks like the incoming storm is going to be as bad as predicted - if not worse. The blustering begins to jostle the whole vehicle. You stare aimlessly out the front windshield, watching chunks of snow flying erratically through the air as the winds pick up further. With a sigh, you turn the ignition off, the engine and radio going silent. If you're going to sit around moping, might as well do it inside where it's warm. You reach for the garage door remote clipped on the visor above you, but your hand only hits the soft padding. Right, you think to yourself, still gotta get that one replaced too. 
You drag yourself out of your car, hastily throwing your coat on and stumbling through the wind toward your front door. Flipping through your keys, something feels off. You look down, assuming your frozen fingers are just too stiff to pick out the correct one. You stare at the collection for several seconds, but your house key is not there. 
“What the fuck?” you mutter to yourself in confusion. Then, a horrible realization sets in: you never put your new key on the keyring after getting your locks changed. 
You brace yourself against the wind, trudging through the pile of snow accumulating in your front yard. As you reach the window, you lean over the bushes, peering through the partially-shut blinds into your kitchen to see a set of gold keys, sitting upon the center of the countertop. 
“You gotta be fucking kidding me.”
Your stupid ex-fiancé isn’t even around anymore and he’s still finding new ways to make your life miserable. If he had just returned your damn keys, you wouldn’t be in this situation right now.
Tears start welling in your eyes - and this time, you surrender. The droplets begin to freeze on your face almost instantly, but you let yourself cry. After several minutes, you’re feeling slightly better - but you’re getting quite cold. You decide to head back to your car, at least turn the heat on while you try and figure out what to do, no need to stand here and get frostbite-
“Um, excuse me…”
You jump at the sound of the voice coming from behind you, whipping your head around to see a very bundled up man. You can’t see much of his face, but he looks to be in his late-twenties, with dark hair peeking out from under a thick beanie. It takes you a moment, but you realize it’s your next-door neighbor, Jihoon, whom you've met approximately once.
“I just wanted to check if you were okay,” he says loudly, doing his best to speak over the noisy wind. “You’ve been standing out here for a while.”
“Oh,” you reply, also speaking up. You wipe the tears off your cheeks with the back of your gloves. “Um, I’m kind of locked out of my house.”
“Is the lock frozen?”
“No- well actually, I don’t know, it might be, but I don’t have my key,” you explain, gesturing through the window. “It’s in there.”
“How did you manage to do that?” he inquires, not being condescending, but genuinely asking.
“The front door locks behind you when you leave.” 
“Ohhh. Well that’s no good.” He pauses for a moment, looking at you curiously, before continuing.
“Um, well I know you don't know me very well, but if you need a place to wait while you call somebody you are welcome to come in,” he tilts his head toward his house. “I don’t want to make you uncomfortable or anything, but it’s really dangerous to be out in this storm.”
Normally, you’d be standoffish to a man you barely know inviting you into his house - but, something about him tells you you can trust him. He looks and sounds sincere, and you really don’t have anywhere else to go. Plus, you’re fucking freezing. You nod at him.
“I would really appreciate that,” you shout over the wind. He nods back, gesturing for you to follow along. He walks with you to his front door, the both of you taking large steps to trek through the several inches of snow that has already accumulated. He turns the knob and ushers you inside, following quickly and shutting the door behind him. 
The sounds of the howling wind abruptly stop, the door creating a barricade between you and the heavy winter storm. Your ears ring slightly, but as you adjust to the quietness of indoors you pick up on a familiar tune playing from the other room. 
“Is that En Bateau I hear?” you ask as you unlace your boots. 
He’s in the middle of unwrapping his scarf from around his head, but he perks up at your question. “Yeah! You know Petite Suite?” 
“It’s one of my favorites,” you reply warmly as you take off your coat. You try to avoid letting the jacket’s heavy dusting of snow fall to the floor, without success. 
“Dammit, I got your floor all wet,” you inform him with a sigh. You realize you’re shivering - the house is warm, comfortably so, but standing out in the cold for however long you were out there certainly chilled you to your bones. He takes your coat from your hands, shaking off the rest of the snow before putting it on a hanger for you.
“Don’t even worry about it,” he tells you, grabbing a neatly folded towel from the closet and mopping up the mess. “There’s some blankets on the couch, you should warm yourself up.” 
The prospect of a nice cozy blanket sends you speedwalking into the living room. You spot the stack of blankets, also neatly folded, and grab the thickest one you see - it’s plush and velvety, dark red in color, and gigantic. You wrap the soft fleece around your whole body, plopping cross-legged onto the couch, practically turning yourself into a cocoon. Immediately you start to warm up, your poor frozen extremities finally relieved of the painful cold. As you defrost, your brain begins to work again, processing your surroundings. Though you’ve never been inside, your neighbor’s abode feels very homely - the decor is largely cream-colored, accented with warm earth tones, doused in low lighting sourced from a few lamps placed strategically around the room. Though a plain, warm white, the walls are flourished tastefully with various unique artworks - nothing you recognize, but all very pleasing to the eye. Not that your ex was a slob, but you’ve never known a man to be so neat and tasteful. Refreshing, you think to yourself.
You hear soft footsteps from behind you as Jihoon enters the room. You turn to see him bearing a glass of water, a piping hot mug, and a small metal tin. 
“I don’t know if you like tea,” he starts as he sets the beverages on the coffee table’s coasters. “But I thought you might want something warm to drink.”
“Tea sounds great, thank you so much,” you reply as you wiggle your arms out of the tangle of blanket surrounding you. Reaching for the tin, you pull out a bag of Earl Grey and place it in the mug to steep.
“It’s y/n, right?” he asks as he sits in a nearby armchair.
“That’s me,” you reply. “And you’re Jihoon, yes?”
He nods to confirm. “I know we met once a while ago,” he adds, “but I wasn’t sure if you remembered.”
"Of course I remember, I accidentally stole your packages,” you say with a laugh. “I felt bad about that for months.”
“No harm done, it was an honest mistake,” he replies with a calm smile. 
The tea is nowhere near ready, but you take a sip anyway. The hot liquid sends a wave of warmth through your whole body, making you instantly feel much better. Now that you’re not freezing and in tears, you can finally think straight, and you remember why you’re here in the first place.
“I should call the locksmith, god knows how long it’s gonna take them to get here in this storm,” you state as you look around for your phone, but it’s nowhere to be seen. 
“Oh, I think my phone is still in my bag.”
You start to get up, but Jihoon is faster.
“Here, I’ll grab it for you.”
He disappears from the room in an instant, returning a few moments later with your bag in hand. Thanking him politely, you rummage around for your phone until you find it. You open Google and type locksmith into the search, calling the first one you see with good reviews. 
“I’m sorry ma’am, due to the storm we aren’t able to send anyone out until tomorrow.”
You try another one, but it’s the same story. A third one, no luck either. Nobody is able to come out until tomorrow morning. Dejected, you go ahead and schedule an appointment for 7am the next day. You do your best to remain calm, but you’re too exhausted to hold in your tears.
“I don’t know what to do,” you say to Jihoon, burying your face with your hands.
“Hey,” he replies softly. “It’s gonna be okay. You can stay here as long as you need.” 
“I don’t want to be a bother,” you sigh.
“You’re not,” he assures you. “I promise. You’re welcome to take the guest room.”
“Are you sure?” you say with a sniffle, wiping the tears from your eyes.
“Of course,” he nods. 
“Thank you so much,” you tell him sincerely. “You’re a lifesaver.”
“No problem at all,” he says with a soft smile. “Also, are you hungry? I have some leftover stew I was going to heat up, if you’d like some.”
You didn’t even realize that you were hungry, but the mention of food makes your stomach rumble. 
“That sounds amazing,” you reply. 
Jihoon spends a few minutes in the kitchen, returning with two steaming bowls of a hearty-looking beef stew. 
“This is delicious,” you remark as you scoop another chunk of potato into your mouth. “I’m gonna need your recipe.”
“Oh, thank you,” Jihoon replies humbly. “I’m glad you like it.”
Several moments of silence pass between you two as you enjoy the meal, the music of Debussy’s piano filling the room in lieu of conversation. But instead of it being awkward, you feel peaceful, replenished from the food and the warmth of Jihoon’s home.
“Is there anything you want to watch?” he eventually turns to ask you. “I like having something on while I eat, but if not it’s okay.”
“Sounds good to me,” you reply. “What are you watching right now?”
“Oh, um, I like… anime,” he says sheepishly, turning slightly pink with embarrassment. “But we definitely don’t have to watch that. What do you like?”
“Have you seen The Great British Bake Off?” you respond. “It’s on Netflix.”
“Never heard of it,” he admits, but he already has the tv remote in hand, opening the app.
“I haven’t seen the new season yet, if you want to start there.”
“Will I understand it if I haven’t seen the other seasons?” he inquires, causing you to giggle.
“It’s a reality show, each season is different,” you fill him in, proceeding to explain the premise. He listens earnestly, but his facial expression tells you he is skeptical. 
“It’s really good, I promise!” you assure him.
“I don’t really get it,” he admits with a confused look on his face. “But if you say it’s good, I’ll take your word for it.”
He puts on the first episode, letting you explain the different challenges to him. About halfway through the episode, he turns to you.
“So… what exactly do they win?”
“A cake stand,” you answer. The look of bewilderment on his face makes you laugh again.
“So they don’t even get any money from it??”
“Nope,” you reply, cozying up under the blanket again. “That’s why it’s so wholesome.”
“Ah, okay,” he says, still unsure about the whole thing. But by the end of the first episode, he’s hooked.
“How do they do that??” he remarks at each contestant’s fanciful cake in the final challenge, his eyes glued to the tv. As soon as the credits start to roll, he clicks the Next Episode button.
“See? I told you it was good,” you say with a sleepy smile. The combination of the satisfying dinner, the warmth of the blanket, and the relaxing nature of the show is quickly making your eyelids turn heavy. You lean your head against the back of the couch, determined not to doze off - but within a few minutes, you are fast asleep.
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The soft light of early dawn glows through your closed eyelids as you begin to awaken. You’re so warm and comfortable that you don’t even bother opening your eyes - instead you just lay there, relaxing under the blankets. As your brain slowly wakes, last night’s events start to register in your mind - you grimace as you recall the bitter cold of being stuck outside your own house, having a breakdown, feeling utterly helpless until-
Your eyes pop open. Sleepily adjusting to the morning light filtering in through the windows, you see that you’re still in Jihoon’s house, on the couch. You turn your face to see a pillow underneath your head that wasn’t there previously, and an extra knit blanket draped over the red fleece one that was already wrapped around you. Jihoon is nowhere in sight, presumably still asleep. You wonder what time it is - when suddenly you remember the locksmith appointment you made for 7am. Panicked, you bolt upright, searching for your phone amidst the blankets, until you spot it laying upon the coffee table, plugged into a charger that isn’t yours. You snatch it up, your heart sinking when you see the time: 7:34am.
“SHIT,” you grumble to yourself. You hurriedly unravel yourself from the tangle of blankets - it’s still warm in his house, but a chill hits you in the absence of the cozy covers. Sitting fully upright, you feel your feet bump something as they touch the carpet. Looking down, you spot a pair of slippers - light beige in color, women’s, brand new with the tags still on. For a moment you feel a bit weird about putting them on (Why does he have these, anyway?), but you’re cold, and at this point you don’t care. You slip them on, the comfort of the fluffy interior immediately making you  glad you did. They feel high quality - luxurious even, and now you feel nice and toasty. Rising from the couch, you grab the top blanket and wrap it around you. The inviting scent of coffee suddenly hits you - you follow it into the kitchen, where Jihoon stands before a brewing coffee pot. Noticing you have entered the room, he turns to greet you.
“Good morning,” he says warmly. He wears a pair of plaid pajama pants, seemingly with a matching top underneath a dark fleece quarter-zip. You note that he also has slippers on, not too dissimilar from the ones currently on your feet. As the coffee finishes brewing, he grabs two mugs, gesturing to you with one. 
“Would you like some coffee?”
“I’d love some,” you answer. He takes the pot and pours the piping hot beverage into your mug.
“Cream and sugar?” 
“Yes, please.”
He fixes your drink and hands you the steaming mug. You take a small, careful sip, your insides instantly warmed by the smooth brew.
“Delicious, thank you,” you tell him, taking another generous sip.
“Of course,” he nods.
“Guess I missed the locksmith,” you say with a sigh. “I should’ve thought to set an alarm before I passed out.”
He turns, reaching for something on the counter. Turning back, he extends his hand to you, your keys laying in his palm.
“Already taken care of,” he says with a smile.
“How did you…” Your words trail off as you take the keys, your fingertips lightly grazing his warm skin. 
“I met the locksmith and explained the situation,” he explains. “He picked the lock in like, one minute.” He gives you an apologetic look as he continues. “I’m sorry I went into your house without asking you first, I felt bad, but I didn’t want to have to wake you and drag you out into the cold.”
“Don’t apologize,” you reply, shaking your head quickly. “I really really appreciate it.”
“I’m glad I could help,” he tells you with a soft smile.
“Thank you for the pillow too,” you add. “And the slippers, glad you had these laying around,” you say with a grin. His smile fades slightly, glancing away for a moment. 
“They were supposed to be a gift,” he says as he looks at you again. “But I didn’t need them anymore. You can keep them.” He smiles, but despite trying to hide it, his tone is tinged with sadness.
“Oh,” you say softly. “You sure?”
He hesitates slightly, unsure whether to tell you.
“They were for my girlfriend, but she left me a couple weeks ago,” he admits. He looks down at his coffee, stirring it aimlessly with the spoon. A pang of sympathy hits you. 
“I’m sorry,” you say gently. “I unfortunately can relate. My fiancé left me five days ago, for another woman.”
He perks his head up slightly in surprise. “Oh wow, what an awful week this must be. I’m sorry, too.”
“Yeah, quite honestly, it fucking sucks,” you say, staring off into space a bit. 
“I was about to propose,” he adds, unsure exactly why he’s telling you this. But you both are feeling a newfound, unspoken kinship in your aligned misfortunes. “But one day she just told me she didn’t love me anymore.”
“Jesus, that’s terrible, I’m so sorry,” you empathize. “I found out my fiancé was cheating on me and confronted him. He didn’t even give a shit so I kicked him out, haven’t seen or heard from him since.”
“Wow,” Jihoon says with wide eyes. He lets out a sigh. “I had already bought a ring, too. She didn’t know, but I had the whole proposal planned out.” He shrugs, shaking his head. “I guess it’s for the better that she left before I even bothered.”
“Yeah, doesn’t make it any less painful though.”
“Definitely not. And I wasn’t even able to return the ring.” He laughs, letting out an incredulous huff. 
“Oh my god,” you react in bewilderment. 
“It’s alright,” he says calmly. “Maybe I’ll be able to use it someday.”
His eyes linger on you slightly too long as the words roll off his tongue. The moment is brief, fleeting - but it’s enough for you to notice. 
“Would you like any more coffee?” he asks before you can fully process anything, nudging the pot in your direction.
“I’m alright, thank you,” you reply, finishing the last bit in your mug. 
“Here, I’ll take it.” 
“I better get going, now that I can actually get into my house,” you announce with a smile. “I’ll get out of your hair.”
“You weren’t a bother at all,” he assures you. “But I’m sure you’re dying to go home.”
Jihoon walks to his entryway. He gathers your things for you, taking your coat from the closet and helping you into it.
“I truly can’t thank you enough,” you tell him sincerely. “You really saved my ass.”
He smiles at you. “You’re very welcome. It was nice to finally properly meet you, y/n.”
He hands you something as he opens the door for you. You take it - it’s a blue sticky note, with his name and phone number written neatly on it.
“You can always call me if you need anything at all.”
“Thank you,” you smile warmly, folding the note and tucking it safely into your pocket. “I will.”
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seat-safety-switch · 2 days ago
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People love to say government doesn't do anything. They point to little inconveniences like potholes, systemic corruption, or troops marching in the street during a violent and unprecedented junta, and tut. I can't stand this kind of Negative Nancy pessimism. There's one thing government does just fine: getting rid of bears.
Not far from where I live is a small provincial park. In case you're from a country that doesn't have provinces, just think of it as a park. No adjectives, and nobody gets confused. In this park is a lot of protected wildlife. We have the occasional problem with raccoons in our garbage bins, feral coyotes coming up to nip our kids, field mice eating holes in our wiring.
Bears are not that big of a problem usually, but we had a really cold summer and those dudes are hungry. So they wander a little further than normal. Right into my neighbourhood. Someone got really upset, possibly because a bear tried to eat their kid, and called the cops on them. I don't think this would have happened if it were a polar bear, but I'm not going to go around shaking that particular tree.
The province responded by putting up a bear trap. In case you're unfamiliar (I was,) a bear trap consists of a box that the bear goes into and then is trapped. On the side of it, just to make sure that no dumbasses get trapped in there, is the wording "DANGER BEAR TRAP" in two-foot-high red lettering (bears are considered largely illiterate.) And on the inside is a fine new steak, at a time when steak has become incredibly expensive. I'm not going to lie to you: it has been a pretty hard year, and a bit of porterhouse would go a long way to making it better for me.
I headed on down there, ready to retrieve the steak that my tax money had paid for, and found something else entirely. My neighbour, Carl. He had decided to ignore the urgent warnings of the bear trap elite and make his own decisions in life. For his effort, he was able to get a free steak. A free steak, and also to be surrounded by a group of starving, angry bears, which I scared off as I approached using my mobility scooter (a 1988 F-150 with fog lights that look suspiciously like the runway lights that went missing from the airport last month.)
Carl was lucky that the trap managed to keep bears out as well as keep him in, until I figured out the prominent "release bear" lever on the side. Even so, if I had shown up a few minutes later, he'd probably have been ursine chow – bears these days are smart.
The ride home was awkward, with me not wanting to ask explicitly for the steak I felt I deserved for saving his life (the ancient Japanese custom of isshō sutēki) and him not wanting to admit that he had in fact been defeated by the very same government he thought incompetent to shovel driveways. Bears remained uncaught, sure, but nobody was expecting a whole lot out of this initiative. Surely it was none of our faults.
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shurisneakers · 23 hours ago
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unsolved (vii)
Summary: Bucky doesn't even believe in the paranormal. So who the hell thought it was a good idea to stick him in a series about everything haunted for the internet's amusement? With his loose-canon of a teammate who has no concept of subtlety or shits left to give, to make things even worse. (Buzzfeed unsolved AU)
Warnings: swearing, frustrated bucky, obnoxious reader, mentions of hauntings and the paranormal.
A/N: hello. i am late again. i almost gave up but we are here. for better or for worse. i will most likely go back ad edit the second half again ok love u guys mwahmwah
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Only after hours, nay, a full day of hunching over his desk, eyes red-rimmed and burning, four crushed cans of energy drinks next to him lending to him the nervous energy of a chihuahua, Bucky realises that there’s no beating it.
He absentmindedly takes another sip of the RedBull, flinching when the taste registers. Either he’d reached his threshold or the medicine flavour had begun morphing into something else entirely. The caffeine didn’t even work on him, so really, he was just placebo-ing himself into having energy. 
Every site he’s visited has had a vastly different interpretation; ones that don't match what he thinks has been happening, or the context past his past provides. Others are simply blatantly wrong based on the additional research he, in his infinite wisdom and totally accurate self-assessment tendencies, has been gathering in the last 3 days. 
The Star. Six of Cups. The Hanged Man.
Bucky knows he could ask someone in real life about this, someone who possibly had more experience than a simple website whose code broke every time he tried to scroll to the bottom. However, that would mean that he had to tell them his dead sister was probably haunting him out of her spite and hatred for the very fibres of his being.
Also, Bucky may be haunted by his dead relatives, but he’s not haunted enough to actually leave his room over it. 
Video consultations were also an option, but he’s convinced that if word got out that Bucky Barnes was half-convinced ghosts were following him around, it would make headlines for a mighty long week. 
Therefore, he resorts to shady, online websites that demand he pay up before giving him the results of the readings they’ve done for him. 
The “lady” that he paid to talk to using Steve’s credit card on mistytarot.com types for a very long time before a message comes through.
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The thought bubble disappears for another half an hour, and Bucky thinks hat either she is a complete scam, or it’s run by someone who is about as technologically proficient as Steve was. 
But a message does in fact come through, and it’s enough to have him be covninced that the 20 bucks he blew on Steve’s card was worth it. 
Lady Lilia 
Considering that you think you’re being haunted, The Star could represent the absence of hope. Do you feel like you’re being trapped in darkness? As if you are being abandoned by the universe and with no room for healing?
B. Barneswell i forgot about it until now
Lady Lilia If your sister passed away a long time ago, the reason The Six of Cups may have presented itself is because you may be feeling like you're ensnared in the past, constantly reliving moments that hurt or confuse you, rather than finding peace. 
A frown grows on his face. 
Lady Lilia If you’re haunted by a person who used to be in your life and it is reminding you of past mistakes, The Hanged Man could be because feel like you're stuck in a cycle of stagnation, unable to move forward, as if these spirits are keeping you suspended in a state of emotional paralysis. 
However, if the cards were upright–
Bucky slams the laptop shut, inhaling and exhaling sharply through his nose.
From the corner of his eye, his phone lights up with the fifth missed call in the last ten minutes, but considering that he keeps that thing on silent, he never even noticed.
Shoving aside whatever he may be thinking for the moment, he checks the caller ID, only for feelings of confusion and despair to be immediately replaced with annoyance, or disgust even. 
He calls back anyway, preparing for the worst. 
“Did you drink all my RedBull?” Clint booms the second he picks up.
“No,” Bucky lies smoothly.
“Fucker, I know it was you. Pay me back. With interest.”
“No.”
Clint switches to whining. “You know I need that shit to stay awake at night. Some of us don’t have superhero cocaine in our system.”
“I don’t care, go to sleep at a normal hour.”
“Say, did you drink every last one?” Clint instantly switches to a curious tone for a second. “Because one of them’s not like the others.”
Bucky looks at the cans that littered his bedroom floor. “Why?”
“I can’t tell you what it is over the phone.”  
“Why?” 
“Let’s just say it’s not exactly allowed in the country, but–”
Bucky cuts the call and tosses it onto the bed. 
He runs a hand through his hair, softly exhaling while contemplating whether or not to continue the chat. Steve wouldn’t miss another 20 dollars, he had the wealth of a small prince with all that army back pay bullshit. In fact, Steve should ideally be funding more of Bucky’s endeavours. 
There comes a knock at his door.
Bucky immediately leaps off the bed, sprinting to the door, because he fuckin knows that knock, goddamn it–
He throws open the door before you get the chance to full body slam against it.
“Oh.” You blink, relaxing away from your stance. “Hey. How’d you know–”
“You do this every week,” he breaks in. “You do this multiple times a day.” 
“Don’t you dare say I’m predictable,” you warn, raising a finger. “I’ll start crying right here, then you’ll have to deal with that. You wanna see snot running down my–”
Bucky slams the door shut again, waiting to turn around. 
“Can you take me to the doctor?” Your voice is muffled through the solid wood.
It’s enough to make him hesitate, hand on the doorknob.
“What’s wrong with you?” he inquires.. 
“Nothing, I’m perfect,” you reply instinctively, before course correcting, “Wait, no, I’m sick.”  
He lets his head drop against the door. “Go to the fucking infirmary.”
“The infirmary told me to go to the hospital. Can you just take me?” you bug. “They won’t discharge me unless I have someone with me to drive me back.”
“You have a head injury?” Bucky asks, before following it with, “Actually, that tracks.”
“Rude.” 
“Ask Nat.”
“Nat’s in Lagos.”
“Ask Sam.” 
“Yoga.”
“Clint.”
“Really.”
“Glad to know I’m your first choice,” he mumbles, opening up the door. 
You send him a blistering smile. “You’re my favourite choice.” 
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“You gotta take this turn,” you instruct, too close to the actual crossing. 
“The nearest hospital’s five minutes away, what the hell are you talking about?“ he points out, eyes on the road. 
“We’re going to the one on King’s Road,” you read off of Google maps. “Take that lef-– well, you missed that. Now you gotta make a u-turn.”
“What’s the problem with Chastain Park?” he demands. “King’s Road is half an hour away.”
“This one’s got all my files,” you insist. “Otherwise I gotta start over and it's so much effort.”
“Aren’t you in a database?”
“Yeah, but not a medical one.”
Bucky lets out something akin to a growl and a groan. “What's the time?”
“Like eight thirty?”
“What’s the time,” he emphasises, because he most definitely had another email due from another lady on the internet who he had sent his cards to a few hours ago. 
“Fine, it’s eight twenty two,” you shoot back.  “Did that make a big difference?”
“Yeah, it did actually,” he fires indignantly, “My life is radically different. You have no way of knowing.”
“Liar. You’re a lying liar, who lies.” You scoff. “And details are for losers.”
“Losers can drive all the way back to drop you off at the infirmary and let them deal with you.”
You relent, flashing him a grin. “This won’t take long.”
“You say this every fuckin’ time,” he groans, before complying and taking a u-turn anyway.
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“You’re fucking joking,” he states. 
“No, it’s actually called lying,” you correct casually.  
“Is this an abandoned hospital? What the fuck?” Bucky asks, staring up at the huge decaying building.  
The outside looks run-down, with cracked, weathered brick walls and broken windows. The entrance is blocked off with rusted gates, some sections of which have fallen over. As the car rolls up, the air is thick with a musty, damp smell, mixed with a faint odor of decay.
“Yes,” you say simply, opening the trunk of the car and pulling out all the supplies you had from last time. “Video time. Let’s go.”
“You didn’t have to lie,” Bucky mumbles. “I’d have showed up.”
You give him a deadpan look. “You famously never do.”
That’s fair, but also, that was the old Bucky. The new Bucky circa this week is a bit more… invested. He feels the need to gather some more information, and unfortunately, the only opportunity to do that is here.
So for the time being, he decides he will hang on. For purely selfish reasons. 
“Just tell me next time,” he grunts. 
You observe him for a second like you're about to call him out on something, but instead you simply say, “Okay.”
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Bucky grabs his usual stuff– the spirit box, a lapel mic, while you levitate the camera. 
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“Hello?”
You both look beyond the camera at the same time to someone stalking up to you.
“Who’s there?” demands a middle aged woman with straw blonde hair, wrinkles decorating sunburnt skin, and a navy blue jacket. 
“Uh–”
“Who are you?” she asks, cautiously stopping a few feet away.  
“We’re here on a video shoot,” you inform. “Just wanted to check the place out.”
“Oh, you’re one of them camera folk,” she says, ponting her flashlight at you. “Those ghost hutner types.”
“That’s us,” you agree, flinching from the bright light. “We're from The Graveyard Shift.”
“Who are you?” Bucky cuts in, because why should only the both of you explain. 
“I’ve been working security here for the last thirty years.” She shines her flashlight at the musty place. “Name’s Brenda.”
“Why does an abandoned hospital need a security guard?” Bucky inquires. 
“Management just underwent a shift. White collars are setting up a mall here, so they bought up the whole place, fired everyone and now they’re gonna build an all year ski world or something in there.” There’s a tick in her jaw as she draws it out. “Whole damn place is cursed. They better hope it only burns down.”
“Okay,” you drag out, giving Bucky a sideways glance. “Anyway, we’re gonna go check out the place. See if we can find some ghosts.”
“Oh, you’ll see ‘em, alright. Everyone who was collateral damage in the buyout is still in there.” Her voice is distant, arm coming to rest on her hip.  “You’ll have to hit up specific rooms. Y’all got a floorplan?”
“No, figured we’d just wing it.” You pause. “Hospital wing it.”
“Shut up,” Bucky replies on instinct. 
“You’re gonna be spending a lot of time in there if y’all dont know where youre’ heading. It’s a maze,” she continues, ignoring your brilliant joke. “I can show you the rooms, but I can’t guarantee that it has ghosts in there.”  
“Uhhh—” you begin. 
“It’ll cut down your time in half.”
“Deal,” Bucky says immediately, sticking out his hand for a shake.
Brenda sticks out her hand too, only to wince immediately, following it up with a curse.
“What’s wrong?” you interject.
“Damn back’s killing me,” she mutters. “You’d think death would stop the pain, but it’s not let up yet. Come on then.”
Both of your eyebrows knit together at her statement, but she leaves no room for a reply as she marches inward, one hand on the small of her spine. 
Bucky elects to use his phone flashlight, as if he keeps that shit charged above 40% at any given point of time. If anything is not going to make it out of the night alive, it was that thing. 
The air inside is stale and heavy, filled with the scent of mildew and old, rusted metal. All three of your footsteps echo in the silence, reverberating through empty halls with each cautious step. The moonlight  in conjunction with the flashlight casts long, unsettling shadows. The faint taste of dust lingers in the back of Bucky’s throat that he cannot get rid of. 
“Y’all gonna sleep in here tonight?” Brenda pipes up, swinging her flashlight around.
You look at Bucky with a grin that’s alarming.
His face immediately pulls into one of “What the fuck”
“No, we aren’t,” you announce instead. “But do people do that often?”
“You’d be surprised,” she comments. “You’re not the first folks we’ve had here with those fancy shmancy gadgets.”
“That explains how you have a tour all planned.” 
“We get a bunch of you every couple of months.”
“Who is ‘we’?” Bucky cuts in.
She pays him no need. “Y’all run a podcast?”
Bucky looks personally affronted. “No, we do not.”
“We run a YouTube channel,” you offer instead. “It’s for ghosts and stuff.”
“I see,” she considers, tone thoughtful. “So, this will go up online?” 
“Unfortunately,” Bucky murmurs.
“Have you caught ghosts before?”
“Not even one–”
“Several,” you chirp. “And we have a witch cat. Her name’s Alpine.”
Bucky narrows his eyes at you. “Since when is her name Alpine?”
“I gave her a bunch of options and she told me she liked that best.”
“The cat can’t talk.”
“To you. She and I chat shit everyday,” you dish back. “She hates that stupid fern in your room, she says it smells.”
That fucking fern was not even his idea. But Sam got it for him when he moved in, so there was a zero percent chance it would be leaving any time soon. 
“Tell her to fuck off.”
“Y’all got a large following?” Brenda interrupts.
“Building towards it.” You look at her before looking at Bucky. “Once we hit a sizable amount and Bucky becomes an official internet boyfriend, we’ll stop the series.”
He sends you a withering look. “We’ll be doing this till I die.”
“Nonsense, everyone loves you,” you dismiss. “You’re a pretty boy and extremely irritable. They think you’re hilarious.”
 His nose twitches, and he feels the need to clear his throat. 
“Your camera records ghosts?” Brenda asks again. 
“We’ve got a bunch of devices. We’ll catch it,” you sound confident. 
“Great, because here’s the first stop,” she says, pressing her shoulder onto a double door.
The door groans as she pushes, its hinges protesting with a long, rusty screech, the cold metal heavy under her hand. A stale gust of air hits your face, carrying the faint smell of rot as the door finally gives way.
She steps back with a small huff, stretching her back with a small, “Shit.”
The pale blue walls had turned greenish, wallpaper peeling away. Counters were covered with a thin layer of dust. Old tools laid unused on the surgical table, once stainless steel but now rusted. 
“A lotta deaths happened in this operating theatre,” she imparts after a bout of stretching. “They thought this place was cursed for a while.” 
The sterile, tiled walls are cracked and chipped, and the old surgical lights hang dim, their bulbs long burned out. The air still lingers with antiseptic that’s long since turned sour.
Bucky feels a little too acquainted with this setting. 
He doesn’t even realise his silence is palpable until you nudge his side, drawing his attention sharply back to you. 
“You doin’ okay?” you whisper.  
“Fine,” he says, tearing his eyes away from the tools and towards you.
It only twists his stomach a little. It makes him think of how different his reactions used to be even a few years go. 
“Old, dingy hospitals may not have been the best idea,” you admit to him, using the flashlight to shine a light in the corner. 
It occurs to him a second later once he forces himself to compartmentalise. 
“You okay?” he asks, voice low. 
“Yeah,” you reply, slowly looking around. “Just looks like my nursery.”
A small crease forms between his eyebrows. 
“Not gonna lie, mine was way prettier. Lot more mould on the walls,” you continue, tone light. “You know, timeless decor.”
His nose lets out a small exhale in the form of a laugh. “Leviathan not into blood stain wallpaper?”
“Couldn’t afford it. Fuckin’ place kept referring to itself as Hydra’s sister org but had none of the budget,” you say, swiping a finger across the dust. “You’d think that at least some of the people that left would give alumni donations, but no.”
Bucky snickers at jokes literally no one else would laugh at. It feels good for once, not to feel the need to censor himself to make others less uncomfortable. 
You take a step forward, camera following behind you. 
You shine the flashlight around the room, noting all the surgical trays piled together. 
But something flashes on the ceiling. 
You swing your flashlight toward it immediately, only for the table beside you a few inches away to start rolling, making a loud whining noise as it did, snapping your attention towards it.  
By the time you finally bring the light back up towards the ceiling, it’s gone. 
“What the–” you mumble. 
“What?” Bucky asks, looking up from where he was scrolling through his phone. 
“Could’a sworn I saw–” you frown at the empty space now, only an old defunct looking camera staring back at you. 
“Red eyes?” Brenda inquires, looking at you. “Yeah, that happens.”
Bucky glances up at you, and then the wall. “Probably just the lens glare.”
You scrunch up your face at her. “How’d you know it was red eyes?” 
“That’d be the spirit of ol’ Doctor Damon, chief of neuro,” she says. “You’ll find him here or his cabin, but that’s a few floors away. He never liked climbing the stairs.” 
“Right,” Bucky acknowledges monotonously. 
“When he worked here, he spent so long in surgery that his eyes were always bloodshot. One day he just dropped dead from exhaustion,” Brenda explains. “So his spirit walks around here, red eyes, wheeling surgery tables waiting for the next patient.”
“What’s he doing on the ceiling?” Bucky questions, going back to his phone. “He did his surgeries suspended midair?” 
“Are you trying to gatekeep the ceiling?” you scoff. “Have you never seen Spiderman hanging upside down for fun?” 
Bucky finally lifts his sight from the phone. “The doctor is not an insect superhero, he would have no reason to be hanging upside down–”
“How would you know if he’s a superhero or not? What if he was bitten by a bat?” you challenge. “Like a bat…guy. Batman.”
He jeers. “Then he’s got a stupid codename.”
“Oh, and Captain America is poetic genius.”
“At least Sam has a codename, where’s yours?” 
You narrow your eyes at him. “Maybe you should have paid attention when your mother was screaming it las-”
“Shall we move on?” Brenda asks calmly. 
“Yes,” the both of you reply simultaneously. 
She doesn’t even bother looking at you, almost as if she’d seen it all in her lifetime. 
“Besides, sometimes you can see him sitting on one of the operating tables. He doesn’t just hang out on the ceiling like… bat…man,” she explains, leading the way back out. 
“See?” 
“See what?” you ask. 
“Nothing,” he replies. “There’s nothing to see. That’s the fuckin’ point.”
You shove him lightly. 
Bucky bites back a grin.
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The morgue is silent. 
The ceiling is low and chipped, streaked with stains of old water damage, the paint fallen away in patches. 
Against one wall, old, disused morgue drawers stand open and half-broken, the once-sleek stainless steel now speckled with rust. Some of the drawers are bent out of shape, while others are stuck, sealed tight from years of neglect. Inside some of the open drawers, tattered, yellowed tags hang loosely from the handles, swaying gently as the chill air moves through the room.
“This room’s self explanatory,” she says. “Sometimes, you can hear spirits still trying to claw their way out of the drawers but they never open.”
“Skill issue,” Bucky mumbles under his breath.
“Shut up, oh my God,” you whisper-yell, still mouth pulling into a thin line to stop from laughing. 
“What?” Brenda asks, suddenly from near the drawers. 
You had no idea when she even went there. 
“Nothing,” you reply, before thoughtfully asking, “Bucky, truth or dare?”
“No.”
“Dare it is.” You shine a flashlight at one of the closed drawers. “I’ll give you twenty bucks if you get in one of them for a few seconds. Let’s see if the ghosts come at you.”
“You're deranged,” he replies, incredulous. 
“It’s for science,” you insist. “How else will you know for sure?”
“I’m sure it’ll be comfortable,” Brenda quips. “Like a coffin.”
The both of you look at her together in silence.
She shrugs. “It’s what I’ve heard from them.” 
You look at her for a second more, before turning to Bucky. “Anyway, if you want I’ll come lie in there with you.”
“How does that make it better?” he exclaims. “I am not lying in the morgue.”
“Even if I’m in there with you?”
“That’s even worse–”
There’s a loud knock from one of the drawers on Brenda’s side. She looks down at it, almost like she was expecting it. Soon, there are further loud thuds that come from inside the remaining drawers. 
“Hey, Magda,” she calls, before more knocks come from inside. “You’ve got visitors. Say hello.”
You grab the spirit box from behind Bucky’s ear and hold it in the direction of the wall. Nothing registers.
“Animals,” he answers the question hanging in the air calmly. 
“The spirits?” Brenda replies. “They’re not gonna like that.”
Sure enough, a few of the drawers start rattling on their own accord.
You look at Bucky with an eyebrow raised.
“What?” he carps. “I’m not gonna go lie down in there, if that’s what you want.”
“Come on, take one for the team,” you whine. 
“You take one for the team.” 
“I’m literally the one pulling all the weight around here. You do it.”
Bucky doesn’t agree with you on the last part, but the first one is undisputably right. He makes a mental note to start contributing a fuckton more if he plans on continuing on in the series. 
The rattling around comes to a halt eventually. 
“If none of you want to get in there, should we move to the next one?” Brenda points to the door. 
“Yes, please,” you confirm, sending Bucky a glare.
She leads the way up the stairs while you both follow, bickering and shoving lightly.
Once upstairs, Bucky glances down the hall, only to  see a large double door that is noticeably different from the rest you’ve seen so far. There’s a fading rainbow drawn on the front, little footsteps painted onto the floor leading towards it.
Bucky hesitates, steps faltering. “Is that the children’s ward?”
“Yes,” Brenda looks over her shoulder briefly. 
For a second, he wonders. Whether it was worth a shot. He hadn’t heard from her since the incident at the house, and the tarot cards have been suggesting nothing but reasons to believe she may actually be there.  
“Are we going to check that out?” he asks. 
“No, there’s nothing there,” she shrugs it off. “No spirits. I’ve asked the others too.” 
Bucky shifts uncomfortably. “Are you sure?”
You shoot him an odd look that he refuses to meet. 
“Yep. Next stop’s the other way.”
Bucky spares the doors another long look, before traversing down the hallway with you. 
“Why do you wanna go to the children’s ward?” you query, voice low. 
“Just thought it was worth checking out,” he replies, voice steady.  
“We can always make a run for it and go check.”
“No,” he says, giving you a curt shake of his head, “it’s alright.”
“We’re right down this way,” Brenda calls, turning a corner and disappearing out of sight.
“Coming!” you call back before spinning to Bucky. “Hey.”
“What?” he responds, moving at his own brisk pace. 
You tug him back with you with force. 
“What are you doing–’ he hisses.
You link your arm with Bucky’s, pulling him along with you as you walk, shutting him up. He eyes your elbow looped with his and the proximity with which you walked beside him and all of a sudden, the back of his neck feels quite warm, extending down to his chest.
“I think Brenda’s a ghost,” you tell him casually.
Bucky stops in his path, drawn very much back to reality. 
“Keep walking,” you grit through a smile. “I’m pretty sure she’s dead. Why else is she totally chill with the ghosts here-”
“Because there aren’t any. It’s animals.”
“Why is she saying coffins are comfortable? Why is she talking to the ghosts and knowing exactly where they are and aren’t?”
“I can make shit up too, look,” Bucky comments enthusiastically. “Oh, down the hall is the isolation room. You’ll hear heavy breathing because that’s where the tuberculosis patients were–”
“That’s one of the isolation rooms,” Brenda’s voice echoes down the hall. “It’s next up.”
You yank your arm away from Bucky when he blinks, a bit surprised himself. 
“Are you dead?” you whisper-yell.
“Only ‘cause the government declared it,” he sighs. “Do you know what a fuckin’ pain it is to get undead.” 
“Come on.” Brenda beckons to the both of you with her flashlight. 
With a slight shove, the door to the room swings open easily, but the smell of old paper and mildew floods your senses. 
The bed is now a rusted, sagging frame, the thin mattress long since torn and discolored with age. The once-clean sheets have yellowed and frayed, with remnants of old stains. Thin, brittle blankets lie in a heap on the floor.
The walls are bare, save for a few faded medical charts and broken instruments that were left behind in haste. The small window that once offered a faint glimpse of the outside is now cracked and filthy. The weak, filtered light that struggles through the dust-covered glass barely illuminates the room. 
“Patients who were highly contagious were quarantined here. Some of them died without family by their side, so you can still hear their cries. Some of them have problems breathing, so sometimes you’ll hear it through the vents,” Brenda explains. 
“I bet,” Bucky drags out, sending you a “I fuckin’ told you so” look.. 
Down the hall, something makes a loud sound, almost like something had crashed into the floor. 
All three of you turn towards it. 
Brenda’s face flickers for a moment before turning back to its regular calm. 
“I think someone’s angry,” she decides. “I’m gonna go check it out.”
“Do you want us to come with you?” you offer.
“I’ll be okay, I’ve known these people all my life. We’re friends,” she comforts. “Oh, sometimes if you look out the door, you’ll see shadows of people in the waiting room down the hall. They’re just old families lingering around, hoping for better results but they always leave upset.”
“Is there no way to get them out of here?” you ask.
She shrugs. “Unless you find a way to fix their disappointment, I doubt they'll leave. They’ll stick around until something improves or changes.” 
Bucky’s eyebrows furrow at the implication. If that were truly the case, and not just something he concocted in the deep, self hating crevices of his mind, then he had to figure out which part of the fucked up mess that he was had pissed his sister off enough to come back to let him know she was disappointed. 
You nod at her and she nods, spinning on her heel to exit the room, but not before she stops for a second, hand on the doorframe as she catches her breath, and one hand on her spine.
“Are you okay?” you sound genuinely concerned.
She flashes you a thumbs up, leaving without so much as another word. 
“She’s gonna come back with some bullshit about the hospital canteen staff dropping their pans or some shit,” Bucky remarks.
“Yeah no, that was me. I just wanted her out of the room so we could discuss something,” you wave it off quickly. 
Bucky stares at you.
“What? I dropped a cart. It’s not a big deal. Anyway, listen–”
“She’s not a ghost,” he states resolutely.  
“But what if she is,” you insist, a wicked grin on your face. “Imagine saying we got a ghost tour. By a ghost.”
“I can imagine saying that, yes. I have a very wide and limitless imagination.” 
“Ugh, what if we’re meant to help her find her way back?” You peer over his shoulder to see if she’s walking back. 
In the distance another crash sounds through the empty hallways. Bucky stares at you.
“I’m just making sure, it’s not like I’m hurting anyone” you insist, dismissing it. 
“You could've just closed the door,” he says, extending one hand behind him to slide it closed.
“Don’t do that,” you blurt out.
He stops, eyebrow raised.  
“I don't like when doors are closed,” you shrug it off. “Anyway, back to the point. We should totally figure out how to help her exit this realm.”
He slides the door back open slowly, narrowing his eyes at you. 
“EVen if she were a ghost, which she’s not– she seems happy here. Maybe,” Bucky comments, taking a seat on the worn out bed. “I can’t really tell.”
“She can’t be. Imagine being forced to roam the same hallways over and over again till the end of time.” you shudder. “Sounds miserable.”
Bucky shrugs, poking at the pillow, watching a cloud of dust fly up from it. “Routine sounds fine to me.”
“I’d hate it,” you counter immediately. “I hate routines. Fucking inescapable once you get stuck in one.”
Bucky watches you curiously as you shift up and down the small room. “How do you get anything done?” 
“I can get things done without a routine.” The camera follows your command, checking outside the window or the door occasionally facing Bucky. “Why?”
“Just asking,” he replies, checking the time on his phone. It’d been a while since Brenda had gone to investigate.
“And having a routine totally makes you an easy target. Haven’t you watched any assassination movies?”
“No. I didn’t like bringing work home.”
You look at him in surprise before your face splits into a smile. 
Something makes a noise from the wall adjacent to the door. 
You both look at each other, and he gets off the bed to go see what the deal is. The door is adjacent to the wall, giving him a clear look into the hallway that was still empty. 
A faint wail sounds through the vent above his head. You take quick steps towards where he was, and the camera follows suit, pointing at the grill on the wall.
You stand underneath it, spirit box raised as close as you could get it, but the damn thing picks up nothing. 
Another noise comes through, almost like someone was wheezing, before the vent rattles, stopping altogether.
You stare at it, before taking a gigantic inhale and exhaling obnoxiously, forcing all the air out of your lungs with a wheeze. 
“What the fuck are you doing?” Bucky stares at you like you're insane. 
“Well, you can’t just back down,” you argue. “I’m gonna breathe louder than that thing.”
“Jesus Christ,” he mumbles.
You give another gigantic inhale and exhale, rattling all the bones in your body, and the faint noise from the vent stops too. 
“We win,” you beam 
 “You’ve completely lost it.”
“Uh, no, I didn’t. I totally won.”
“That’s not what I–” Bucky starts but stops himself when you grin at him devilishly. 
He sighs, asking instead, “Should we go looking for her?” 
“I guess so,” you shrug. “We’re not exactly cut to be her saviours right now. I’m pretty sure she knows the layout of the hospital better than we do if she’s been haunting it for fifteen years.”
“Where did you get that number?” he demands. 
“Does it matter?” you urge. “Didn’t realise you’re a valid ghost only if you have a certain number of years in haunting.”
Bucky ignores you, taking off down the hall. 
“If you had to haunt a hospital or a ship, what would you choose?” you quip, matching his pace. 
“Hospital,” he answers without thinking much.
“Why?”
“I spent a lot of time in them,” he tells you, voice clear. “Steve’s mom was a nurse. We’d meet her there a lot when he got his ribs broken or his nose busted.”
The memory, though faint, is enough to pull a smile from him. 
“He also used to be sick a lot, so I used to come pick up his medicine for him,” he adds. “They used to know us by name because we’d be there nearly every second day.”
You exhale a small laugh. “Every hospital in the state of New York has a chart for Steve even now.”
“Fuckin’ guy just dosn’t learn.” Bucky shakes his head with affection-laced irritation. 
The hallways stretch out endlessly, dim and wide. A few doors line the walls, some ajar, revealing only darkness inside. The silence is unnerving, broken only by the soft sound of you and your footsteps.
Bucky looks over at you. “What about you?”
“What about me?” you hum, small smile still on your face. 
“What would you haunt?
“Ship, I guess,” you reply. “I’ve always wanted to be a pirate.”
“Should be your next job.”
“You gonna come with? We’ll turn it into a vlog.
“Fuck no.”
“Well, thanks for taking the time to really consider it,” you sing, not really offended. “Way to let me down gently, Barnes.”  
“What? It’s got nothin’ to do with you.” Bucky clarifies still, pausing before letting out, “I get seasick. Can’t be on water for more than five minutes before I’m throwing up all over the place. You want that in your vlog?”
It’s enough to elicit a laugh from you, that in turn makes the corner of his lip curl.
“We could always–
Right in front of him, something moves darts across the wall at the end of the hall.
It cuts you off mid-sentence too, the both of you glancing at each other before turning towards it again.
Against the glare of your flashlight, another shadow darts across the wall. 
“That’s what she was talking about,” you whisper, slightly in disbelief that she wasn't wrong. “Shadow people. Do you think they got to her?”
Bucky rolls his eyes, continuing to walk on ahead. 
“Um, hello?” you scramble to catch up with him. “Where is your self preservation?”
“Against what?” he asks stoically. 
“That,” you say pointedly at the wall, when another figure darts across the wall and disappears out of sight. 
Bucky rolls his eyes. “It’s a shadow, the fuck’s it gonna do?”
“Haven’t you heard of shadow demons? Succumbing to darkness?” you chastise. 
Bucky stops walking, standing solidly in the middle of the hallway.
“Okay,” he says, refusing to budge. 
The hall goes silent, no movement other than the steady rise and falls of your chest. 
You stare at him. “Now what.”
“I'm waiting for them to do something,” he says. “I’m waiting to succumb to the darkness.” 
“You’re so annoying,” you bite, dragging him along with you. “And I’m tired, we’ve been walking for like, eight hundred hours. Let’s go.”
“We’ve been here for two hours,” he reminds you, taking a turn into the corner that the shadows disappeared into. “You did this to yourself.”
“Fine, next time I’ll bring an electric scooter with me.” You huff. “And I won’t even let you use it.”
“Where’d Brenda fuckin’ go?” Bucky mumbles, eyes squinting into the darkness to see if there are any clues.
“Where are you guys going?” Someone pipes up from behind you, sending the hairs on his neck up. 
The both of you spin around instantly, arms clenched in a fighting stance. 
“Sorry, it's a habit to take the scenic route back.” She chuckles, unfazed. “Not a lot to do when you’ve been here so long.”
The both of you lower your hands slowly, letting out an exhale.
“Y’all ready to head out?” she inquires, coolly. “I think it’s time we all get some rest.” 
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The walk back is relatively quicker, ater she leads you down a path she calls a shortcut. 
The only thing that slowls you down are the occasional stops you had to make for her back ache.
Right by the entrance of the hospital, she holds onto the door frame again in the midst of explaining who was haunting the basements. 
After a particularly hard exhale and a clamour to stand back up, Bucky awkwardly clears his throat to ask, “Have you tried this stretch?”
“What?” Brenda asks, eyes curious. 
“Learnt it in physio. Doesn’t cure it, but it helps,” he explains, craning his neck to the sides, before taking a step ahead towards her.  
You watch him in thinly veiled delight as he shows her exactly what joint to bend and in which angle, and the degree to which she had to pivot.
He even uncomfortably guides her shoulders in the strangest yoga session you’d ever witnessed. 
“Should help,” Bucky mumbles, taking a step away. 
She raises her shoulders and drops it, lips pursuing and bows raising in a look that seems impressed. The small hunch she carried wit her seems to have disappeared too. 
“Let’s go,” Bucky doesn’t wait for a thanks or anything, taking a step away from her and towards the exit. 
“Now that you’ve fixed her back ache, how do we fix her haunting the place?” you ask lowly. 
“She’s not a fuckin’ ghost, she’s fine,” he whispers back. 
“Nothing about what she’s said tonight is normal,” you argue.
The night is clear and cool when you step out, the musty scent of the building dissipating almost immediately.
“Just say bye, we’re fuckin’ leaving,” Bucky shoots. 
You sigh loudly, giving him a glare at his lack of helpfulness before plastering a smile on your face and turning around. 
“Well, thanks for everything, Brenda,” you say, turning around to stick your hand out. “We sure couldn’t have–”
But she’s gone.
“Holy shit,” you say. 
Bucky looks over his shoulder at the disturbance, before turning around fully. “Oh, fuck off.”
“I told you she was a ghost,” you gush. “You fixed her back ache and now she has crossed over to the other side.”
“Shut up,” he replies, looking all over the place for a sign of where she could have disappeared to. 
“You did it, Bucky, you helped a lonely spirit,” you cheer. 
“I did not.”
“Hey!” Someone shouts from afar, commanding your attention to the gate again. 
“Not again,” Bucky mumbles, eyes snapping shut. 
“More ghosts,” you point out excitedly. “Come on, Charon, ferry those spirits–”
“You ferry your own spirits, I’m going to sleep,” he interjects, fully intending on ignoring the person at the gate and simply getting in the car.
“What are you guys doing here?” A man pants, jogging up to the both of you before Bucky had the time to leave. 
“We were just taking a look around,” you say, sticking your hand out, much to Bucky’s displeasure. “We heard the place was haunted.”
“Ah, I see,” he replies, taking in your appearance. “Podcasters?”
“No,” Bucky replies instantly. 
“We were just leaving,” you cut in. “We already got a tour by this ghost, and Bucky totally sent her to the afterlife.”
“I did not,” he seethes. 
“She disappeared after saying ominous shit this entire evening, what do you call that?” you challenge. 
“Going home,” Bucky responds, frustrated that he was clearly not afforded the same privilege.  
“Uh–” the guy holds up his finger. “--not to intrude, but you got a tour by a ghost?”
“Yes,” you bubble over with excitement. 
“And this ghost… did they have a backache?”
Bucky’s interest piques, the irritation giving way to intrigue . 
“You know her?” you puzzle.
“Uh yeah, that’s Brenda,” he admits sheepishly. “She’s very much alive.”
Bucky would have sworn he had never been this elated in his life, but unfortunately he realises very quickly that he simply does not care.  
 “She said she was a security guard here– wait, who are you?”  you tilt your head at him, seemingly not upset at all. It reduces Bucky’s non-existent triumph even more. 
“Travis Dowell, Labyrinth Inc. representative,” he says, shaking your hand. “We’re–”
“--the company that bought the place,” you complete, eyebrow raised.  
“Yeah.” He nods. “Brenda was a security guard here for nearly thirty years. We had to let go of her when we bought the hospital. We’ve been trying to turn it into an apartment for years, but there’s a lot of red tape that we have to get past because of healthcare reasons.”
“Yeah, she told us that it got bought,” you follow along. 
“Hospital was in the worst financial situation possible. There was just no way out.” He shrugs. “But she was super attached to this place. She didn’t take the redevelopment plans well, so she’s taken it upon herself to make sure it never happens, I guess? I don’t know, she spends a lot of time here convincing people that it’s haunted so that people don’t build anything here. She’s got an apartment close by so she knows when someone’s around. You’ll probably find her there, if you want.”
“You guys know about her?” Bucky questions, crease between his eyebrows.
“Uh, yeah, we do,” he says, rubbing the back of his neck. “We sorta ignore her. Her schtick’s annoying, but it’s not the reason we haven’t demolished this place yet. Once all the zoning issues get cleared up, the building’s coming down. And besides, all the PR’s just gonna have people pay a shit ton to stay here. You know, novelty of it being haunted, and all that.” 
“How’d you know we were here?” you ask pointedly. 
“We’ve set up motion sensors in the place?” he replies. “You may have seen them. The red lights in the operation rooms. We know she takes people there.”
“Oh, that’s what that was,” you turn to Bucky who simply shakes his head lightly. 
“Yeah, she really goes the extra mile.” Travis shifts from one leg to the other. “There’s raccoons in the morgue that start running around if she hits the door. What else… oh yeah, she’s made a hole in one of the isolation rooms to make noises through the wall.”
Bucky wonders what will happen of all the footage now that none of it was essentially real. It made sense why she kept trying to find out where the video was going to be posted and how many people were going to view it now, as if a large number of views were going to save her beloved building. 
“So you’ll just let her do whatever until the demolition happens?” you question. 
“If it gets her to stop vandalising our office downtown.” He shrugs. “It doesn’t make a difference to us either way.”
“Right. So the real horror…” you say. “...is capitalism.”
Travis stares at you, before raising and dropping his shoulders. “Sure.”
“Alright.” You blow out an exhale. “Well, was anything about tonight real?”
“I mean, she really does have back pain,” he adds helpfully.
You turn to Bucky. “Net positive, then.”
Sure. Why the fuck not.
“Okay, Travis, thanks for this. You’ve been an immense help,” you say aloud, hoisting the camera onto your shoulders. “You can watch us on The Graveyard Shift, if we can figure out what to do with all these videos now.”
“Sorry about that,” he replies, shoving his fists into his pocket. “Good night.”
You watch as he turns and jogs away to his car that was parked a bit closer to the gate than yours was. 
Bucky plucks the camera off your shoulder and places it under his arm, even though he’s well aware you can carry fifteen of them at once.
“That was fun,” you tell him, seemingly over it already. 
“I’m fuckin’ starving,” he replies. 
Bucky should be glad then, that he didn’t bother with the children’s ward, if nothing about tonight was real–
“Travis, wait,” you shout all of a sudden. “What about the shadows?” 
“What shadows?” he calls back, confused. 
“The shadow people moving across the hall from the isolation room?”
He raises his eyebrows. “We haven't heard reports of that.”
“Fuck’s sake,” Bucky mumbles.
“Hell yeah,” you reply, knocking into his shoulder. “Haunted hospital, baby.”
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When you walk into the dining room, you don’t really expect anyone to be there that late at night.
But fiery red hair pulled into a ponytail and an oversized t-shirt perched at the kitchen counter catches you off guard, dulling the arguing between you and Bucky as you argue the logistics of Brenda having a hand in the shadow demons. 
“Took you guys long enough,” Nat keeps her mug down on the counter before hopping off the chair. You note that it’s the same one you got her a few weeks ago from the flea market, the blue ceramic one.
“Oh, hi!” you smile wide, when she pulls you into a hug. “I thought you were in Lagos.”
“I was,” she replies, pulling away. “Got done early.”
“Of course you did. Overachiever.”
In the end of the common room, Bucky can hear the faint sounds of late night infomercials play through the TV. Clint’s legs hung off the couch as he lay snoring in front of it, blanket dropped on the floor in a heap. 
“Hot chocolate?” she offers. 
“I’m good, we went to the drive-through before coming back.” You beckon with your shoulder towards Bucky. 
She finally turns to him. “Hey.”
Bucky gives her a curt nod, glad that she’s back safe. 
“Why were you out so late?” She gives him a onceover, before raising an eyebrow. “Together.”
“Hospital date.”
“Video shoot,” he says at the same time, glaring at you. You shrug. 
Nat’s lip trails up into a smirk. “Put on your big boy pants and finally admit your crush?”
Bucky drags a palm down his face. “I do not have a crush.”
“If you say so,” she concedes innocently, eyeing him over the rim of her hot chocolate.  
“Are you all in on this? Do you have a quota to reach?” he groans. “Why’s everyone asking me this?”
“Who is ‘everyone’?” you sound delighted. 
“If you don’t want people to call you out on our shit, maybe don’t walk around with heart eyes,” Nat comments.  
Buck’s look is ice cold, but Nat just gives him a wink when you laugh. 
“Hey, I needed to talk to you about something.” She turns to you. “You free for a second?”
“Always,” you reply in earnest. 
Nat leads you a few steps away, hand on your shoulder.  
Bucky takes his seat at the counter, stealing a sip from Nat’s mug. Of course, it was fantastic. Overachiever.
He tunes out intentionally, focusing on the fact that Clint was splayed out on the couch with the TV on a low volume. He knows for a fact the blonde was asleep, and probably would wake up with the worst neck pain in his life, but this was the life he chose.
After watching Clint nearly fall off the couch twice, he looks away, not intending on prying on your conversation but vaguely watching the interaction out of the corner of his eye.
He frowns at what he sees. Nat’s face has turned solemn while she talks to you in hushed tones. Your eyebrows were pulled together, arms crossed over your chest. 
Bucky feels a shift in the air, but he’s not sure what exactly has gone down. 
Nat finally tells you something surely, and you nod. She cups the side of your face and you force out a smile at her, before her hand drops.
The both of you make your way back to him. He turns his gaze back to the counter. 
“You owe me a hot chocolate,” Nat tells him, before giving him a quick kiss on the temple and stealing her cup right back. 
“I barely drank any,” he retorts, eyes still trained on you.
The TV clicks off and she drags a half asleep Clint back down the hall to his bedroom while the man rubbed at his shoulders, trailing behind her obediently. 
Meanwhile, you grab a glass of water from the tap, drinking it slowly as you head towards the elevator.
“G’night, Buck,” you tell him, passing by him.
“Hold on,” he says, voice less gruff than before as he watches you, face tight, “What’s going on?
You observe him for a few long seconds, but he gets the sense you aren’t exactly looking at him. Your eyes are slightly glazed over, and your mind is… elsewhere. 
“What do you do when people refuse to let go of something you’ve already escaped?” you ask finally.  
“What do you mean?” Bucky’s eyebrows knit together tighter.  
“Do you feel like everyone’s eyes are on you?” you say, voice strange. “Like there’s nowhere to go?”
“Where is this coming from? What’d Nat tell you?”
It seems to snap you out of whatever funk you were in, at least partially. “It’s probably nothing.”
His frown only deepens. “Is someone threatening you?”
“No, nothing like that.” You shake your head. “Don’t worry about it. It’s gonna be fine.” 
Bucky stares after you as you press the button to the elevator. He isn’t really sure what to make of the what you just shared. He isn’t even sure he should ask Nat about it later on considering that she didn’t want him listening in now. 
He watches the light above the elevator light up before a ding sounds through. 
“Just so you know–”  
Bucky’s eyes snap back to you, one step in the elevator. 
“I had a codename, too,” you tell him. “I just never liked it.”
Bucky is only left staring as you disappear into the elevator, leaving him in silence. 
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repulsive-manwhore · 2 days ago
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PREVIOUS CHAPTER HERE 🔗
why are you such a stupid fucking cunt?
"PLEASEEEE! please, i'm begging you... i'm fucking begging you please let me out!!"
"i'm not letting you out of there... not until you tell me what the fuck you meant by that. what do you mean you know who i am, huh? HUH?!"
BANG! BANG! BANG!
"PLEAAAAAASE!!!"
"you're not getting out of there, i put a fucking chair under the doorknob. besides, if you broke out what are you gonna do? i have a gun, you stupid bitch."
"...what do you want?"
"i want you to tell me the truth... tell me my name."
god dammit...
"i- i don't... know your name..."
"y'know i have to ask, just for shits and giggles... do you think i'm a fucking retard or something? who says 'i know who you are' and DOESN'T mean that? hmm?!"
just come clean, there's no point, you're just pissing him off further. he knows that you know. you have to tell him... but maybe...
"...okay, i'll say your name... under one condition..."
"you really think you're in the position right now to make conditions? no, tell me my fucking name. right now."
"you tell me why you're stalking me."
"...why the fuck does it matter?"
"i wanna know. i have to. otherwise i don't care you can just kill me right now, i don't care."
"that's a lie."
"no it's not."
yes it is.
"i can make your life a lot harder you know, the same way you just made my life harder tonight. dragging me into a fucking mu-"
"DON'T... don't say it out loud."
and there it is. leverage. you can tell he didn't wanna kill that cop. you saw it in his face when he first walked into that motel with you. he doesn't need more blood on his hands, he wants you, he HAS you. and now he's stuck with you, because he can't kill you. he stalked you for a reason... why would he throw you away?
"...your name is Ryan."
"go on, don't be shy. i have a last name too."
"...Matherson. Ryan Matherson..."
it got quiet. reaaaaal quiet. oh fuck, the doorknob...
CREAAAAAAAK.
...why is he just standing there? what's he gonna do... why am i fucking wet right now? oh that's right, because you're crying on the floor looking up at this absolute monster of a man, and for whatever fucked up reason you just always have to fall for me the fucki-
"get up. let's go."
"...why, where are you taking me? are you gonna ki-"
CLASP.
"I SAID, NOT OUT LOUD!"
"mmmmph! mmmmph, mhm, mhm..."
yes, yes i promise i'm sorry! i'm sorry, i'll fucking listen to you... god, your hands... your big, strong, calloused, veiny ha- stop stop stop stop stop... stop that. just nod.
"good. i don't wanna fucking kill you, alright? i never wanted to, this was NEVER supposed to happen... but we gotta get out of here, okay? and if you try to run i have to... you know what i fucking did, to you, to him. you run and tell and i get locked away forever. i won't let that happen, even if it means i have to do it to you... i don't want to... please?"
he does have a heart... somewhere at least.
"i promise... i won't run just tell me what to do."
"good... good. i can't take you to the front desk like this. i'm sorry but i have to keep you locked in here."
"what? no! why can't i just wait in your car or something?!"
"again, do i really have to ask if you think i'm an idiot?"
he's right, your dumbass would try and hotwire that motherfucker while he checks out and you'd just end up in a ditch somewhere in rural Wisconsin if he left you to your own devices.
"alright fine! just... can i maybe have a snack please while i wait for you? i'm really hungry..."
"i'll get us some food when we go. in the meantime, eat the fuckin complimentary toothpaste for all i care. it'll be like 15 minutes, you'll live."
SLAM!
wow, thanks asshole. lemme guess, if i'm thirsty i can just drink out of the toilet right? you'd probably like that too, sick fuck... okay that's definitely projection cmon now.
"you said 15 minutes right?!"
"yes... 15 minutes. just hang tight. promise, i'll be right back..."
"okay... and you better tell me why you kidnapped me okay? DO YOU HEAR M-"
SLAM!
UGH! fucking jerk... alright, fine, you're all alone now. just wait for him... you really shouldn't be alone right now you know. you always get so sad when you're alone. he should be here with you right now...
...fucking your little victim brains out.
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ledesaid · 2 days ago
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Billy has a fever🌡️
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Well, it's official. He doesn't have much luck today. Well, he hasn't had much luck in recent years. He was barely eleven years old (ten years and seven months) and was delirious, alone, in his small corner of the world.
Billy had been proud of having avoided getting sick until this point because he already knew what would happen next: he would have to turn himself in to social services so they could take him to the hospital and then he would escape again. Complicated. Not many had luck in that last part of the plan; he had friends who, after that, couldn't escape the system again.
The problem was that he barely had enough strength to move an arm, he couldn't get up, much less go out into the streets in search of a police officer or a precinct. This left him with two options: call the League on his communicator or use his chalk to open a portal.
The cold December wind whipped against his window hard enough to drown out his thoughts. But one broke through strongly enough to make him decide.
How was he going to bring one of his colleagues to the little hole he tried to call home?
Well, is the portal.
Billy had an emergency circle that would take him to a beautiful island hidden somewhere in the Pacific Ocean. Titan Gaia had entrusted him with that place if he fell ill, and now was the time. He could barely distinguish the symbols the chalk left behind, but he was sure he had written beloved caretaker of green life. What he wasn't sure about was if he had properly delimited the spatial jump.
Maybe that's why he was looking at a redheaded woman before passing out instead of a thirty-foot-tall humanoid mountain.
"Well, this isn't something you see every day... Who are you, kid?"
Billy can't respond, and the next thing he knows is that he wakes up in a warm room, fortunately without windows being battered by intense snow. Very clean, clear walls, drawings of plants on the walls, but it wasn't the hospital.
Then he notices that he was in a bed shaped like a giant bunny, no, it really looked like a giant bunny plush with a mattress in the middle of it. A little madness.
A soft, warm, and fluffy madness.
By this time, Billy notices his fever has disappeared. Yes, his head hurts slightly and he has an IV connected to his arm, but he feels strong enough to patrol for a couple of days.
"How do you feel, little fern?"
Billy: Little fern?
"We've taken care of you like a fern, and Harley wanted to nickname you that until we knew your name."
Billy: Thanks, I'm Billy.
Pamela: Good, I'm Pamela, and soon you'll meet Harley, she's my wife. She's a bit energetic, so I apologize in advance for the noise, but that's how she shows her affection.
Billy doesn't know quite what to do or say. If the portal had failed and brought him in front of this woman, it would be hard to explain how it was possible, and escaping would be a bit complicated until he could call the captain.
A wonder indeed was his situation.
Pamela: Don't think too loudly, Billy, we're not going to turn you over to social services or the police.
Billy: Really? * he said a bit confused * Why?
Pamela: We're not exactly lovers of that side of the law, but we know how to recognize a kid in trouble who needs a hand.
Billy grabbed the soft, fluffy sheets that covered him tightly. It was time.
Billy: Thank you very much, really. If you give me a couple of hours, I'll be gone and you'll never hear from me again. I promise.
The woman raised an eyebrow in disbelief, possibly, Billy wondered if he had said something wrong, but he didn't understand exactly what. Was a couple of hours too much? He could really leave in just twenty minutes.
Billy: But I can leave earlier if...
Pamela: Sorry, kid, but it's too soon for you to get out of bed. You came to me with a 103° fever, delirious...
Before Billy could ask about what he might have said, a door was heard slamming not far from the room where Billy had slept and, a few seconds later, a sing-songy and shrill voice made them look. Blonde with a high ponytail, the one and only Harley Quinn. Billy finally put the pieces together, so that's why the names and appearances seemed familiar. Don't blame him, he didn't associate Pamela with Poison Ivy, maybe because he associated the color with Martians... it was strange. He was so exposed to extraordinary and impossible things that he was indifferent to being excited by mere skin color or an ex-supervillain in front of him.
Harley: I'm glad you're okay, little lost boy.
Billy: Uh... Th-Thanks.
The black-haired boy was being hugged tightly by the blonde woman in one of the sincerest embraces Billy could ever remember.
Pamela: Let him breathe, love, Billy still has the IV...
Harley: Oh, right! Sorry... Is your name Billy? Hi, I'm Harley Quinn. Do you want a big plate of waffles with ice cream, toast, strawberries and cream, and maple syrup?
Maybe it was the residual effects of his fever, the hunger of possibly four days, or the warm hug, but Billy nodded his head in affirmation, feeling that if he opened his mouth, he wouldn't be able to avoid crying in front of this warm couple.
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memento-morri-writes · 13 hours ago
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Dream goal is make some progress (any progress, honestly) on a real, true wip that I'm writing completely from scratch. Ideally it would be Divinity WIP, or maybe High Fantasy WIP (they take place in the same world, I'm pretty sure), but at this point I'll take literally anything. As much as I adore my dnd writing, I miss writing a story that is completely 100% my own.
But I really am going to have my work cut out for me. Divinity WIP is currently just a big pile of concepts and themes with no plot or developed characters, and High Fantasy WIP is literally just vibes. I don't even have the faintest idea what kind of characters I want, not to mention the complete and utter lack of any kind of plot whatsoever. So even just doing character work and worldbuilding would be good enough for me, but I'd love to also get the ball rolling on some plot ideas for one or both of these stories...
If I can't manage that, then I'd like to write more of my dnd character snippets, especially ones that aren't just session scene rewrites, be they backstory vignettes, AU / what if things, or just fun little character exploration.
✨ What are your writing goals for 2025? ✨
This can be anything from “write one sentence” to “publish a book!” It’s all valid!
#speaking of dnd writing last night at 3am I got a fucking PHENOMENAL idea of what to do w/ the guy who sold Rook to Wolf in the first place.#and I can't WAIT to make it happen. The dialogue ideas that popped into my head were so good I'm losing my mind#*slaps Lanny's death scene* This bad boy can fit so many themes and parallels and so much characterization in it!!!#in two weeks someone remind me to do a write-up and share it with commentary on why it makes me lose my mind so much.#cause I could talk about how much stuff is going on in this scene for at least 15 minutes.#Divinity WIP has been floating distantly in the back of my mind since late January or early February when I finished playing WotR#and I really want to make this vague concept a bit more of a reality.#the problem is that both High Fantasy WIP and Divinity WIP are going to be *very* hard to write from a technical standpoint#I just don't know if my skills are there yet to do either of these concepts justice.#morrigan.text#writing goals 2025#my writing goals#writing goals#for some reason I've tricked myself into thinking my dnd writing doesn't count as ''real'' writing.#probably because it's just a bunch of unconnected scenes.#but I've never ever managed anything more than that even with my well over 20k words for ATQH back in 2021-2022.#I need that post with the certificate that says ''write whatever you want forever'' and the one that says ''all writing is real writing''.#need to hammer those into my head until I really believe them.
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lexirosewrites · 2 hours ago
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Since we did Christmas theme last slick Sunday I’m gonna do a new years theme this week
So canon events happen EXCEPT when they first go to reefer ricks they find A!Eddie in a stress induced rut since he watched chrissy die. A stress rut/heat can be very stressful (hence the name) and last up to 5 days unless you have someone to help you through it, then it mostly just lasts 12-24 hours.
When they get there the whole bottle to the neck thing still happens but after O!Steve and B!Robin figure out what’s going on they send the kids outside and Steve and Eddie agrees to spend the rut together to make it pass faster (this is a dream come true for both of them but they’re not gonna say that). Steve lets max drive them back because there is no fucking way he’s gonna let Dustin drive his car and Robin has never driven a car so she’s not an option. Once they’ve left and it’s just Steve and Eddie alone together they get it going ya know 😏. They make a stupid “let’s not kiss” rule that lasts approximately 5 minutes and then they kiss (and fuck) each other stupid for 12 hours.
While they’re still tied together by eddies last knot Steve shyly asks if maybe Eddie would like to go to dinner once this is all over and he happily agrees. For the rest of the UD fighting they keep close and scent each other for comfort because fighting monsters is terrifying.
Eddie still gets half eaten by bats but Steve gets there in time to carry him out and drive ALL OF THEM to a hospital (everyone in this stupid group needs to be checked out you cannot convince me otherwise). Steve is extremely distressed while Eddie is in surgery but that’s his alpha! Of course he’s distressed. They give him eddies shirt while Steve gets his wounds looked at so he’ll calm down.
Once they get the news that Eddie makes it through okay Steve collapses from relief and the nurses put him in a bed in eddies room (because while most of the town might think Eddie’s a killer they know this alpha and omega need each other and they’re not gonna separate them because that would be fkn stupid).
They go through eddies recovery together because they’ve upgraded to courting by now (Eddie had to ask hopper and Claudia for permission to court their pseudo son and that was an interesting conversation).
Since so much has been going on Steve doesn’t notice until at the beginning of June how he’s having some weird cravings and is feeling kinda nauseous most days.
And while Eddie is his boyfriend and Robin is the platonic love of his life they tend to overthink and overreact and be dramatic so he goes to Claudia because she’s a nurse (and his mom) and if he’s sick he’d rather talk to a professional. So they’re sitting in the hendersons kitchen drinking tea while he’s explaining all his symptoms and Steve starts to get worried because Claudia has tears in her eyes but before Steve can overthink she just gathers him up in a hug and tells him she thinks he’s pregnant. They get a test, Steve takes it and five minutes later they’re both crying on the Henderson bathroom floor because he’s going to have a pup!
Claudia drives him to Wayne and eddies new house so he can tell his alpha and celebrate. Eddie is so happy he takes his first steps without a cane since he got hurt and Wayne is just smiling big because his boy is so happy!
(There’s another conversation with hopper where he has to come to terms with the fact that his grandkids father is gonna be the guy he buys weed from)(he gets a family discount now)
Months of relationship bliss pass where Steve and Eddie really get to know each other and become a family.
They get to celebrate Christmas with a heavily pregnant Steve and he goes in to labour 2 hours before midnight on December 31st. They celebrate their first new years together in the hospital and Eddie sneaks a new years kiss from Steve between contractions. At 4:07 am on January 1st 1987 their daughter is born happy and healthy and Steve steals a late new years kiss of his own but instead of kissing Eddie he’s kissing his first pups cheek while Eddie lovingly watches.
Who knew that week from hell could give them everything they’ve ever wanted: the love of their life and a pup to start out the new year!
Okay this got way longer than I thought but oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ hope you like it and happy new years!!!🧡
YAY A SEASON 4 FIX IT🥰
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bloodyinkandquill · 3 days ago
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Venomshank x hawk-hybrid pet Reader
ok i actually asked katz-ke for help on this one because like the last one i had no ideas sorry requester, however they helped and gave me some good ideas that definitely gave me more motivation and ideas for this one in general, so thanks again katz!!! you’re amazing i adore your stuff id anyone here doesn’t know who they are go check them out, anyways onto the hcs
- How did you end up here? No genuinely you went from a pet to a deity to instead dating said deity, you’re out here living some simps dream
- You’ve always had an unusual power, hybrids weren’t rare, winged hybrids were on the rarer side, usually only stemming from receiving a blessing from one of the deities, but you were, and on top of being an avian you also could transform into an actual hawk, which was basically unheard of, you also had a rather unique coloration when in bird form, darker then your average hawk with an interesting pattern on your wings
- Which is how you ended up one day in your hawk form, chilling and enjoying being a bird, what? It’s nice to escape the responsibilities of adult life for a little while and you can eat bread a shit, you were chilling when suddenly another bird flew up next to you, at first you thought it was a crow but that didn’t seem right, a raven? No it wasn’t that either, it seemed an odd mix of both corvids but larger and, almost a dark green rather then black, but living in Crossroads you see odd shit a lot so you didn’t dwell on it
- Well that bird seemed to want you to follow it a few minutes later and it lead you to a dropped container of fries, aka the jackpot, you happily started eating them but noticed the other bird wasn’t doing anything, you shrugged it off, probably just already ate its fill and was letting you have yours, after eating you did some sort of appreciative dance, you weren’t fluent in bird language let alone weird corvid language so you hoped it conveyed your thankfulness, you were about to fly off when suddenly the bird changed into a demon, no that’s not it, into one of the Swords
- Holy shit, was all you could think as he scooped you up and started flying away with you but now in his demonoid form, alright this was happening, you must have intrigued him as a bird if he was taking you somewhere, you just let it happen and pretended to still be a regular old bird, maybe if you seemed normal he’d get bored and let you go
- Nope you were now in his temple in a, rather fancy, bird cage, this was not on your weekend itinerary, for a few days it went that he or one of his temple workers would feed you and give you toys and enrichment, you could sort of fly around the cage but it wasn’t big enough to transform back and therefore display you were not a bird, least Venomshank seemed kind enough
- After a few days stuck inside the cage he appeared and said, basically talking to himself, that he should let you out for a good fly, the second he took you out of that cage you transformed back into your demon form with an almost traumatized look on your face as you turned to look at him and his horrified expression, after a conversation he was apologetic about taking you as a pet since he didn’t really you were a demon not an actual bird, you said it was fine but gods you missed having arms
- From there you agreed to live at his temple, you had nowhere better to live and he was offering a free room in exchange for taking care of the birds that resided in the gardens surrounding it, this was one of his smaller temples but it was surrounded by gardens and therefore lots of birds, he’d stop by and check in with you and the rest of the happenings every once in a while, he slowly started to check in more and more until one day suddenly you were dating, you weren’t complaining you just weren’t fully sure how you got there honestly
- Oh my gods you never knew the wonder of preening, you’d never gotten close enough to another demon to preen your wings when in demon form, and definitely not close enough to a bird to preen you in bird form, however now that you had someone who had wings in demonoid form and could also become a bird, he knew exactly how to preen you in both forms and it was heaven, you of course preened him back which he was thankful for, with not seeing Sword as much as when he was a kid he didn’t get a chance to be preened as often so he was so thankful to have someone to help him preen again
- Maybe you didn’t quite have the corvid bird brain of gifting shiny things but you still did have a slight bird brain to the point that you did enjoy collecting and gifting small trinkets and sparklies, and Venomshank being some weird version of a corvid had that instinct but stronger, so you both end up gifting each other small things you find, especially when you go flying together in bird form, which is basically your go-to date, if either of you notice something interesting while flying you’ll dive down and grab it, give it to the other who turns demonoid for a moment to put it in their pocket then back to bird form, luckily the items don’t disappear neither of you know where any of your stuff like clothes or items go when you go bird form but you mutually agreed not to question it
- With the flying dates you also enjoy flying through one of the regions or preferably Crossroads and finding the tallest building around and flying onto the roof to look at all the beautiful lights at night, maybe you’ll switch back to demonoid form but sometimes you prefer to stay as birds where everything looks so much brighter and shinier to your bird eyes, its beautiful and it’s nice knowing that you two are maybe the only two people to ever see the views with a demon brain but bird eyes
- With living in his temple you went from a regular room to the best room in the temple, technically speaking it’s supposed to be his room but before you he almost never spent enough time in that temple to need to use the room, so it became yours and his, which does mean it’s full of a few of his things, which with your slight bird brain only means one thing, nesting, on the floor you set up a nest big enough for both of you to fit in full of pillows, blankets, clothes, and some of the items you gifted each other, and on the desk and actual bird nest, slightly comfier, still sized to fit both of you but this time in bird form, it’s less used but still nice to have
- Since he’s well, Venomshank one of the swords he has to leave for occasionally weeks at a time, which makes you more thankful for the nest to have something with his scent and feathers in for when your missing him, once he returns from his duties you’ll be in that nest for at least the next two days together, not that you mind but if anyone walks into the room they’ll see a mess of feathers and the occasional body parts making so many freaking cooing sounds
- Speaking of cooing sounds both of you make bird noises in and out of bird form, it’s more common in bird form but it’s still not uncommon to coo or squawk in demonoid form, you coo and trill with each other, make squawks and chirps, sometimes it sounds like a gods damn bird sanctuary when you’re both around, you also can sort of communicate with the bird noises which is nice as well
- He gives you a necklace or earring, with just one of his feathers, it takes you a moment to realize it’s his shiniest best feather, not quite a proposal but more of a promise ring, you wear it with pride and do the same finding your best feather to give him in exchange, he puts it in his hat and somehow when in bird form you now both have a feather, not attached to you but buried into your feathers so it doesn’t fall out, of each other’s, he has one of your hawk feathers and you have one of his… corvid feathers, neither of you understand the logistics of how that works but again you have up questioning it
hope this is good again thanks so much katz-ke for the help!! this was fun to write once i got into the groove of it honestly, alright i made a deal with myself once i wrote this id let myself reread a fanfic i love so im off to do that toodles
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as-a-creww · 1 year ago
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I’m so mad I’m shaking. WE WERE SO CLOSE! Our clownery wasn’t unfounded. We really were getting an announcement. And they just let it fucking drop.
https://x.com/thecozypirate/status/1745641563403771912?s=46&t=hlyEMD5zVK_HL1eoyYeONA
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kurthummeldeservesbetter · 1 month ago
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I feel like something that should have been explored more in Arcane is that despite the dangers and pretty much horrific conditions, Zaun children seemingly grow up a lot more caring and have a larger understanding of family in comparison to Piltover children. And if such a reflection of the real world in a sense.
The kids of Zaun seemingly grow up with a lot more adult support. Ekko is easily welcomed under Benzo’s wings. Vander adopts 4 kids (two of which we learn he knew of before their parents death, two of which we can’t be sure of). Silco, despite all what happened, and his ulterior motives, shows no problem adopting Powder/Jinx. In the alternate universe it seems as though he’s still played a part in the kids lives. Jinx adopts Isha easily and Sevika cares for her as well. Hell, even Mr. War Crimes Against Humanity does well with little Viktor (until ya know, the animal abuse).
Hell, up until Vander dies (the first time) there seems to be a large understanding of if there’s an orphan or a kid in need of guidance, take them in! (And certainly don’t inform them of your plans to turn a giant pink salamander into drugs and be confused when a nine year old doesn’t understand). If a kid wants to be your apprentice, let them! For the most part, until things all went wrong in the end of act 1 of season 1, the worst parts of Zaun seem pretty typical for any city in poverty.
Match that with what we see with how Caitlyn and Jayce grow up. Caitlyn is given adult support, yes, and it’s clearly a good adult mentor, but it’s not entirely by her choice. It’s been chosen for her. She’s safe, but there’s a lack of freedom of choice. Meanwhile, when Jayce gets older, and that same accident in Act 1 happens, the family that supported him and his mom turns their backs. His own mom doesn’t support him either, because she’s afraid of what he’s talking about, but also because he’s damming them to being outcasts.
Conversely, Vander is more than willing to take the fall for what Claggor, Milo, Vi and Powder did. He’s willing to go to prison for a long time, in order for them to have a better future. Despite Vi’s best efforts, he’s not going to listen to her (she is just a kid) and he’s not letting his family go down and get hurt.
Meanwhile, a man who grew up in this mentality, where there’s a wide sense of family support from people who aren’t your biological family, is the one to go to Jayce, a stranger, and tells him he believes in him. It’s why it’s such a shock to Jayce; his own family and family friends denied him. They didn’t support him.
I think that’s what makes all the difference. Piltover and Zaun have wildly different understandings of family and forgiveness. For Piltover, it shuns and damns the lives of those who upset the balance. For Zaun, it provides safety and never ending understanding.
Just. I’m thinking.
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freakinator · 8 months ago
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its been 7 hours in the poll so far and i saw the who ppl want to win coming but i wasnt expecting the who they think will win ngl, like i was expecting it to be a little more even but nope lol
#mine.txt#lifesteal spoilers#< jic#wanted to keep my opinion to myself until the poll ended to prevent influence or whatever but realized that was stupid so here it is#personally i want zam to win but i think theyll come to a stalemate#i want zam to win causeas cute as it would be to give zam a redemption arc and esp by minute of all ppl i just dont like that idea very muc#i want his redemption arc if he ever decides to have one to be long and gruelling and full of setbacks and last for seasons#i want him to keep failing and building himself back up and all over again through the influence of multiple ppl and experiences#i dont want it to start and end all cause of one guy#and with ppl as stubborn as those two it would not surprise me if they reached a stalemate#esp since they seem to have completely incongruent mindsets regarding the nature of lifesteal#identical yet opposites those two#zam may think hes more determined than minute but i dont think thats true i think theyre a lil more even#like not to bring up kings but they both went looking for nether fortresses for hours in the first session#they both kept farming and grinding even when the odds are stacked against them#even when they lose hope they keep going anyway for that tiny sliver of a chance that Something happens#like theres a reason minute looked up to him in s3 and i think its cause he saw a lil bit of himself in zam#or at least what he could be if he set his mind to it#but honestly i dont really care who wins or loses that much#all i ask is that the season ends in an interesting way regardless of if its in peace or chaos#characterwise; plotwise; possibly even metawise#just give me something to chew on and ill be happy
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sskk-manifesto · 9 months ago
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Atsushi's back in the game!!! ۶( ˆ o ˆ )
#And Kouyou!!!!#Also. I can say Steinbeck is kinda 👀👀👀#King of the specific category of “I forget I like him until he's on screen”#I'm seriously unlocking memories with this rewatch. Like I haven't thought about it in two years–#but I just know when I was watching the anime for the first time I was being like#“Of COURSE the villains need to spend several minutes each episode explaining in detail how their own superpowers work so that the–#protagonists can get a perfect idea of how to best counter them. Why are villains made so freaking stupid in this show” aljhvwslchvqliyqwb#But. Eh. I guess that's just bsd to you.#Alsoooooo random thought of the day: I don't really favour how Tanizaki's ability was adapted in the anime.#I very well understand they were going for this green Matrix-like illusion effect‚ but every time someone says “... Snow?”#I'm like please explain where do you live that has snow glowing green.#Aamsjgvfaskjhfv sorry this is me being very. Cranky and nitpicky and having terrible audience etiquette in refusing to–#engage in suspension of disbelief. It just bugs me akvakcvqkyb I just feel like... Green is such a non-snow color–#that quite of completely disrupts the Light Snow / Sasame Yuki aesthetic. I would have liked it much better light blue or simply white.#What else. The way the Guild just goes on at stereotypes still troubles me a lot. The “usamericans can't be touched by laws–#because they use money to corrupt anyone” “foreign criminal organization come in our country to corrupt our pure and untouched soil”#Idk. Maybe all of it is true. Can it still be deemed a stereotype when it's objectively something that's happened before–#and will probably keep happening?#I suppose I'm just not a fan of the constant hostility against any foreigner. Idk.#This situation besides is extremely ironical. If you meet me irl it probably won't take long to see me being very outspoken about–#how much I despise usa cultural colonization of all other countries. It's something that really bothers me‚ how rooted and pervasive–#their influence is. So in a lot of ways I can relate to the author's sentiment#I just feel that. If you start treating them as stereotypes and ignore the complexity of a country and the wide spectrum of causes–#that contribute to its attitude in international relations. You end up practicing precisely what you're trying to criticize.#Okay this is the last time I'm getting into the politics of the Guild arc lol#random rambles#This time I took watching the episode slow I feel a little late
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anotherpapercut · 5 months ago
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personal vent post/diary entry incoming:
I've struggled on and off over the years with varying degrees of agoraphobia and in the past like year or so I've made massive strides and got to the point where I was able to regularly attend social or otherwise crowded events. since breaking my foot I've gone backwards so much. I'm like terrified to leave my apartment even for work and have missed a lot of it. I've only tried hanging out in public places a handful of times and haven't gone to a single show since I got hurt over a month ago. it's extremely fucking frustrating having so much progress completely lost in a fucking instant
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eggmeralda · 7 months ago
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I need a massive sudden hyperfixation shock to happen again
#that era when i'd just got out of the onceler divorce of summer 2021. and then listened to everywhere at the end of time in october#and it was ruining my life and i couldn't sleep and there was nothing really good happening#like it wasn't Bad bc at least i wasn't depressed anymore like i was in the summer but it was still just dead. and i couldn't get#the last 6 minutes of eateot out of my head#and then. suddenly. got shot with the *blurry screenshot of stan and kyle as adults* beam#south park post covid trailer released. everyone who had ever been in that fandom was awakening from their graves#it was like 'future episode??' 'why have they got noses' 'what the fuckkkk' 'is anything real anymore?' etc#it was such big news that it instantly shocked me out of my existential crisis and reawakened that hyperfixation for the 9347384th time#and i vividly remember going on tumblr the morning after it aired and trying to avoid spoilers bc i hadn't watched it yet#but i accidentally saw a sentence something along the lines of 'kenny's a billionaire philanthropist now' and. ok i had to see a picture?#so i did and he looked like the epitome of a cool uncle#and then i was walking to uni that morning probably looking like i was crying or something bc like. kenny successful future#and the whole thing just brought my general mood up so much?? so by the time it was 2022 i was absolutely fine#and then 2022 was so good. up until like august and september#and things got a bit dangerous again like my mood was alright but the slightest thing could bring it down#and then my best friend/housemate got a girlfriend and it was that whole drama and her existence basically ruined my last year of uni#and since then i've become so bitter and cynical and all victimy and it's so annoying and i don't even realise i'm doing it#so now i only ever notice negative things happening and have done since like the end of 2022#and i just need one of my old hyperfixations to do something insane again. like sp post covid.#i need. idk victor hugo to come back to life and publish notre dame de paris 2. or something#or for pip to come back to south park. that would actually fix me forever tbh#or the golden ratio to announce they're touring the uk for free. okay no ykw that would fix me#orrrrrrrrr idk. secret history made into a film but it's actually good#anyway. the south park kids as adults with noses set off an entire like 8 months of Pure Optimism in 2022 and i need her back more than ever#ramble
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steviescrystals · 5 months ago
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i’m fr gonna lose my mind :)
#been a minute since i’ve ranted in the tags on here hi hello#so i have this friend who is driving me absolutely insane#we’ve been friends for about a year or so and when we first met we clicked right away and got super close and hung out all the time#we met at work but neither of us works there anymore and it feels like our whole friendship is falling apart now that we don’t#i literally have not seen her in person once since the last time we worked together (march)#and even before that we didn’t hang out outside of work since december of last year#and i have grown very used to having friends that just do not put the same amount of effort as me into our friendships and it’s sucks#so i was starting to make my peace with the fact that we just weren’t really friends anymore#but then a few months ago she started texting me asking me to hang out all the time and she seemed way more like her old self#and immediately i got sucked back in and was all excited to see her again and have her back in my life fully#but she completely flaked on me three times in a row (not even cancelling our plans but waiting until the next day to give me an excuse)#which like i said i’m unfortunately used to but she literally was the one who invited ME to hang out every time#like why are you initiating plans with me and then ignoring my calls and texts when it comes time to actually hang out#then a few weeks ago she texted me again saying we should go to a concert together bc we hadn’t in a long time#and there happens to be a concert i’ve been wanting to go to on the 31st but had no one to go with#she said she was totally in and really excited and i bought the tickets a couple days later and texted her to tell her i had#got zero response for almost a week and then she texted me yesterday saying we should hang out this week#so i said yeah let’s do it but also this concert is literally in 2 days are you still coming with me#and no response! again! so now i have 2 days to try and find someone else who can go last minute bc it seems unlikely that she will#and i’m just so fucking confused bc why do YOU keep reaching out to ME just to flake out at the last minute every single time#like at this point it feels like she’s doing it on purpose just to see if i’ll keep tolerating her bullshit#and part of me wants to just cut her off bc she’s been a terrible friend to me for months at this point#but i can’t bring myself to do it bc i miss her so much anyway and when our friendship was good it was really fucking good#like i considered this girl one of my best friends and now it feels like she’s just playing games with me bc she’s bored#which sucks extra bc last year she was there for me when literally none of my long time friends were#like it’s bad enough that it seems like our friendship was conditional on us being coworkers#but it hurts more and more every time she reappears in my life just to ghost me again like genuinely why would you do that#so i’m really upset and pissed off rn and i have no idea wtf to do about the concert bc idk anyone else who likes the artist enough to go#vent#lj.txt
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strawberryclementine · 1 year ago
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Monster Screenshot Dump - Episode 19: The Monster's Abyss
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