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austonm--atthews · 6 years ago

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my only one//auston matthews

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based off of my only one by all time low

chapter 20 june 26, 2016 aus’ pov “good morning beautiful.” i wrap my arms around jack, pressing a soft kiss to her cheek. “good morning aus.” jack smiles, tilting her head to look at me. “you excited to go home today, sweetheart?” i ask her. “yeah, i had so much fun with you though. are you excited to go home?” she flips over on her side to face me. “yeah, i miss home, but i had a great time with you.” i smile, looking into her beautiful hazel eyes. “me too, baby.” she smiles back. “we should get ready.” i tell her. “yeah, you’re right.” she agrees and gets up. we get changed and grab our stuff. we go to my parents hotel room and leave for the airport. i go with my dad to check in. i look around the airport, my eyes landing on my mom talking to jack. i walk away from my dad and sit next to jack and my mom. “i had a lot of fun, but i’m ready to go home. i can’t thank you guys enough for inviting me.” jack smiles at my mom. “we couldn’t just not invite you! it was my idea, actually. he was complaining about how much he’d miss you. i guess he didn’t realize he could just ask you to go, so i suggested asking you to go with us. he’s dumb like that sometimes.” she laughs. “hey!” i pretend to be offended. “i mean, she’s not wrong.” jack teases me. “hey! that’s not nice!” i try to act offended, but end up laughing. “and neither am i.” jack smiles spitefully. “you’re lucky i love you.” i wrap my arm around her shoulders. “aw, you guys are so cute! stay just like that, i need a picture of you two!” my mom gushes. “but moooom.” i whine.

“smile!” she says, snapping the picture. “i hope i look okay.” jack laughs as she looks at the picture. “stop it, you always look great.” i compliment her. “aw, we look so cute together.” jack gushes as she looks at the picture. “you’re right about that, baby.” i smile as i look at the picture. “i’m so glad he wised up and chose a girl like you. that might be the only smart thing he’s done.” my mom says to jack with a laugh. “i mean i can’t say you’re wrong.” jack laughs. “it’s definitely the smartest thing i’ve ever done.” i smile, looking down at jack. “i would agree.” jack smiles back. just then both of our phones go off. “oh, i sent you guys the picture.” my mom tells us. “aw, thanks.” jack smiles. just as my mom’s about to respond they call our flight over the loud speaker. jack and i still had our tradition of touching the plane as we got on for good luck. we got on the plane and got to our seats. “i think i’m gonna take a nap once we get up in the air.” i say as i take jack’s hand in mine. “yeah, me too. i’m actually tired for once.” she laughs. she had the cutest, most adorable laugh. “wow, you’re tired? that’s new.” i tease her. “yeah, at least we can just nap on the plane.” she agrees, looking at the window to watch the plane take off. “yeah, you’re right.” i agree, resting my head on her shoulder. “aw, hi.” she smiles, ruffling my hair a bit. “you’re so cute when you do that.” i smile. “aw, really?” she smiles. “yeah, it’s adorable.” i compliment her. “i might have to do it more often then.” “i would never tell you not to.” i press a sweet kiss to her cheek. “aw, you’re too cute.” she leans her head against mine. “thanks baby.” i wrap my arms around her tightly as we watch the plane get ready and take off. “you ready for that nap?” she asks when we get in the air. “yeah, i’m so tired.” “you don’t mind if i lean on you, right?” she asks me. my heart melts at how cute she is. “of course not, my love.” i smile. “good, i just wanted to make sure it was okay.” she says as she leans her head on my shoulder. “of course it’s fine. it’s you.” i pull her closer and press a cute kiss to her forehead. “goodnight, i guess.” she laughs lightly. “goodnight.” i close my eyes and fall asleep.

i wake up to the sound of the captain telling us we’re landing. i look over to see jack is still asleep. “baby, wake up. we’re here.” i whisper quietly as i gently shake her awake. “thanks for waking me up.” “no problem sweetheart.” i wrap my arm around her, pulling her close. “so, what do you wanna do when we get home?” she asks. “i don’t know honestly. i guess we’ll figure it out.” i shrug. we get our belongings and get off the plane. we finally reach home. since jack and i are leaving for training camp soon, we decided to hang out with both of our families until they decided to go home. “so, what do you wanna do now, austy?” i look to my left to see jack looking up at me, the cutest smile on her face. “the guys did text me saying they need one more player for their game in a half hour. do you wanna go with me?” i ask her. “of course i do! i love watching you play.” she smiles. “aw, that means a lot to me. really, it does.” i press a cute kiss to her forehead. “aw, i’m glad it does.” she smiles. “we should head up to my room so you can change if you need to and i can get my stuff.” i suggest. she nods in response. i take jack’s hand and we go up to my room. “yknow, the only reason why i started playing hockey was because i wanted to spend more time with you.” she tells me as she goes in my closet to find a jacket. “really?” i asks, shocked. “yeah, i had the biggest crush on you and i wanted to be near you all the time. then you taught me how to skate and i asked my parents if i could join the same team you were gonna be on.” she continues as she puts on one of my zip-up jackets. “i had a huge crush on you too. i was so nervous when i was teaching you how to skate. i was always so nervous around you. i still am.” i admit, pulling her into a hug. “if it makes you feel any better, you still make me nervous too.” she laughs. “at least we both make each other nervous.” i laugh lightly. “you’re right, desert boy.” she teases me, making me laugh. “anyways, we should get going.” i suggest. “yeah, you’re right.” she nods, unwrapping her arms from me. i grab my hockey bag and she holds the door for me. we walk out to my car and we leave for the rink. as soon as we get there i sling my bag over my shoulder, then taking her hand in mine. “i’ll see you after the game, my love. i love you.” i lean down to peck her lips. “i love you too, cutie. good luck!” she calls out to me as she walks away from the locker room. the guys come out onto the ice and i immediately find jack. i smile at her like i always did before games. i skate around, shooting pucks into the net and talking to the guys. the first period goes by without any scoring. as the guys get off the ice, i notice jack and send her a wink. she winks back, making my heart skip a beat. soon enough, the second period starts. a couple minutes in i found the back of the net. i always found jack in the crowd and winked at her. the game goes on and the score ends up being 2-0. jack’s pov “hey baby.” he emerges from the locker room, his hair a mess but a smile playing on his lips. “aus! baby! that goal was amazing! i’m so proud of you!” i pull him in for a tight hug, not caring that he’s a bit sweaty. “are you sure you wanna hug me? i’m kinda sweaty.” he laughs. “i don’t care. i can just put this in the wash.” i shrug as i pull away from him. “yeah, you’re right. you ready to go, my love?” he asks me. “sure.” he takes my hand and we walk out of the rink and to his car. the drive home is quiet, but comfortable. he laid out his arm on the arm rest, meaning he wanted me to rub his forearm. i rubbed his forearm, something i usually did while he drove. he pulled into the driveway and parked the car, both of us getting out. we walk into his house and go up to his room. “i’ll be right back, baby. i’m just gonna take a quick shower.” he pecks my cheek, then leaving the room to shower. i look around his room to keep myself occupied. there’s pictures of us recently and us as kids in frames around his room, along with family pictures, which also included me since i was considered family. i walk over to his bed, feeling my foot hit something under it. i look under the bed to see what appears to be a photo album. i pull it out from under the bed and put it on the bed. the cover reads “auston + jack”. my heart stops. he made a photo album for us? this is possibly the cutest thing he’s done, so far. i flip the cover over, but then he comes in. “did you miss me?” he smiles at me, then going into his drawer to grab a shirt and pants. “eh, not really.” i tease him. “you’re so mean to me.” he sighs, pulling a shirt over his head and pulling pj pants over his legs. “that’s my job.” i smile spitefully at him, earning a sigh from auston. “so, what do you wanna do now?” he asks as he sits down next to me, wrapping his arms around me and putting his head on my shoulder. “i found this under your bed so we could look at it.” i point to the photo album. “i meant to give that to you for your birthday! i must’ve forgot.” he laughs. “that’s okay! at least i found it.” i roll my eyes at him. “hey! don’t be mean!” he pretends to get offended. “i mean you did forget.” i joke. “true.” he agrees. “anyways, let’s see how ugly you look and how cute i look.” i say sarcastically as i open the photo album. “wow, i felt that.” he fakes hurt. “you know that i don’t think you’re ugly right?” i check with him. “yes, baby, i know you’re just kidding.” he smiles. “okay good.” i smile, then looking at the photo album, “you still look the same.” i poke fun at his appearance. “you’re the one who thinks i’m cute, so who’s the real loser here?” he jokes back. “i mean, i do tend to like ugly boys so...” i trail off. “you mean, you had a tendency to like ugly boys until you fell for me and my charming good looks!” “oh yes, it was love at first oink.” i poke fun at his pig nose. “my pig nose is cute and you know it!” he defends his pig nose. “i hate that you’re right.” i pout. “sorry i’m just cute.” he shrugs, causing me to sigh and roll my eyes. “anyways, we should look through this.” i point at the photo album. “yeah, you’re right.” he agrees. i flip it open. we look trough all the pictures of us. they’re adorable to say the least. “you still have the same adorable face.” i look at him, smiling. “you do too, baby.” he kisses my cheek. “what should we do now?” i ask. aus’ pov “yknow, we still haven’t played nhl16 together.” i look at her with a smile. “oh, you’re right.” “do you want to?” i ask her. “sure! i don’t see why not.” she smiles. “i’m so excited to play it, especially since it’s with you.” i smile at her. “aw, me too, aus.” she smiles. i set up the game and hand her a controller, laying next to her up against the headboard. “you ready to get your ass kicked?” i tease her with a laugh. “no, but i hope you are.” she jokes back. “ugh, shut up.” i roll my eyes at her. “like you’d want me to.” she teases me, nudging me with her elbow. “stop being right all the time.” i sigh, laughing lightly. “sorry, i can’t help it.” she shrugs. “why don’t you come over here and lay with me, baby?” i smile as i look over at her. “you want me to lay with you?” she asks me. “yeah, you can lay your head on my stomach while we play the game.” i suggest. “aw, that’s so cute. of course i will.” she smiles, moving to lay her head on my stomach. “aw, you look so cute like that.” i gush, causing jack to look up at me. “aw, really?” she smiles. “yes, of course you do.” i smile at her. “aww, thanks cutie.” she smiles, wrapping her arms around my torso. “aw, you’re too cute.” i smile, wrapping my arms around her and pulling her close. “i love you.” she tightens her arms around me. “i love you too.” i pull her closer. “we should probably start the game.” she looks up at me, laughing lightly. “yeah, you’re right. you’re so beautiful i forgot about everything else.” i look at her with a smile. “ugh, shut up.” she giggles. “it’s the truth, baby. i still get caught up in your beauty after all these years.” i smile at her. “aw, stop it.” she waves it off as her cheeks get red. “aw, is someone blushing?” i tease her. “no i’m not!” she defends. “yeah you are! you’re so red!” i tease her again. “ugh, fine. i’m blushing, but only because of you.” “wow, i still make you blush?” i pretend to be shocked. “yeah! all the time!” “aw, that’s so cute. you still make me blush.” i laugh softly. “believe me, i’ve noticed.” she teases me as she looks up at me. “ouch, i felt that,” i joke, “we should really start the game. we keep getting off track.” i laugh. “yeah, you’re right.” she laughs with me. “i hope you’re ready to get your ass kicked.” i tease her. “the only one getting their ass kicked is gonna be you.” she teases back. i finally start the game. it’s back and forth the whole game, but jack ends up winning. i look down at her to see she’s crying. “baby, what’s wrong? why are you crying?” i ask her, scooping her up in my arms. “i’m so proud of you. i’m so so proud of you. i love you so much. it’s overwhelming how proud of you i am and how much i love you. you’re everything i’ve ever wanted and more. i love you more than anything in the world. i would do anything just to make you happy. i would hate to see you as anything but happy.” she looks up at me with tears in her eyes. “the fact that you’re proud of me means the world to me. i’m always trying to impress you, even though you’re already mine. i’m always overwhelmed by how in love with you i am. i couldn’t ask for a better girl to spend the rest of my life with. i promise you there’s nothing you could do that would make me fall out of love with you. i’ll always be so in love with you, baby. i’ve always been in love with you. ever since i first saw you, when you moved in next door, i’ve been in love with you. all i could think about was you, you’re still all i think about. i’m always thinking about your beautiful face, your gorgeous smile, your amazing eyes, i could go on for hours. i love you, jack, so so so much.” i say just above a whisper, taking her face in my hands. i lean in slowly as she does the same. “i love you too, aus, so so so much.” she smiles as she looks into my eyes, tears still in them. “aw, cmere baby.” i open my arms for her. she immediately buries her head in my chest, wrapping her arms around me. “i’m so glad i met you. i was so mad when my parents decided to move me from new jersey to arizona. i loved it there and i didn’t want to leave. then i moved here and met a cute boy who ended up becoming my best friend. now i’m so glad they moved me because i met you. i don’t know where i would be without you.” she mutters against my chest, then making eye contact with me. “i’m so glad they moved you here. i would be lost without you. at first when my parents told me someone moved in next door, i didn’t care, but then i saw you outside. i knew i had to talk to you. something about you made me want to get to know you. i’m so glad i went up to you and got to know you better. that was the best decision i ever made.” i look into her eyes, smiling. “awwww, that’s so cute.” she smiles, hugging me tighter. “i try baby, i try.” i hug her back. “i just had a great idea! we should get sushi!” she looks up at me with a beaming smile. “that’s a great idea!” i smile. “then let’s go babey!” she smiles and gets up. “hell yeah babey!” i get up and take her hand. we go out to my car and she takes the aux cord. she was careful not to blast it until we got out of the neighborhood since it was 12am. once we left the neighborhood, she turned it way up, both of us screaming along to the story so far. before jack i only listened to rap, but she introduced me to all of her music and i grew to love it. i looked to my right to see jack bobbing her head up and down and moving her arms too. she looked so adorable it made my heart melt. we finally get to the store and get out of the car. i take her hand in mine as we walk into the store. “hey babe, i’m hungry. can you stop looking like a snack?” i say with a wink. “sorry, aus, i can’t help that.” she smiles spitefully. i roll my eyes in response. “so, what are you going to get, babe?” i ask, looking down at her as we approach the sushi. “hmmm, maybe a california roll?” jack says, unsure of what she was going to get. “shut up, i was gonna get the same thing.” i laugh. “ugh, you just love to copy me, don’t you?” she laughs, sighing. “why wouldn’t i want to copy the girl i love the most?” i smile, looking down at her. “ugh, shut up.” she waves off my compliment. “ha! you’re blushing again!” i tease her. “well, yeah! i still blush! so do you!” she defends. “you got me there.” i sigh in defeat. “i think i’m gonna get this.” she grabs the package of california rolls. “why don’t you get the bigger one and we can share it?” i suggest. “oh, you’re right! i wasn’t thinking.” she giggles, grabbing the bigger pack. “i guess i’m the brains of this relationship.” i tease her as we go to check out. “i guess so,” she smiles up at me, making my heart speed up, “ha! you’re blushing!” she teases me. “well yeah! you smiled at me!” i defend with a laugh. “i still have an affect on you? that’s so cute.” she smiles. “of course you do. you always will.” i smile at her, pressing a quick kiss to her forehead before backing out of the parking spot. “aww.” she sighs happily. we finally get to my house, heading up to my room to hang out. jack goes into my closet and steals one of my flannels. “you look so cute when you wear my clothes.” i wrap my arms around her from behind, resting my head on her shoulder. “aw, you’re too sweet.” she smiles at me. “only to you, my love.” i smile. “aw, stop it.” she smiles. “i can’t, baby. i love you too much.” i smile at her. “aw! you’re too cute!” “so are you, my love.” i flirt. “you’re way cuter than me though.” she insists. “no, you’re cuter than me, sunshine.” i insist. “ugh fine, i’m cuter than you.” she rolls her eyes. “finally!” i laugh lightly. “we should probably eat, aus, i’m starving.” she points out. “yeah, you’re right. i know this is cliche and you hate cliche things, but maybe we should feed each other?” i ask jack, hopeful she’ll say yes. “i mean, i do hate cliche things, but i’ll do it for you.” she smiles. “wow, you really love me, huh?” i laugh. “of course i do. but, who’s going first?”jack asks. “you want me to go first?” i ask her. “sure.” she smiles. i grab a california roll and feed it to her. she has trouble eating it, causing both of us to laugh. “aw, that was so cute.” i gush over her. “it wasn’t as cliche as i thought it would be. you were cute trying to feed it to me.” she smiles. “aw, i’m glad, but now it’s your turn.” i smile. “yay!” she exclaims. she tries to feed the sushi to me, which is the cutest thing ever. my heart melts at her cute facial expressions and giggles as she tries to feed me it. we continue to go back and forth, taking turns until all of the sushi is gone. “as cliche as that was, that was so much fun.” she admits. “awww, jack enjoys cliche things.” i tease her. “shut up.” she rolls her eyes and laughs. “so, what should we do now, princess?” i ask her. “we could just cuddle?” she suggests. “you know i could never refuse cuddling with you.” i smile at her as we lay down and i pull her into my arms and she puts her head on my chest. we lay in silence for a minute, her hand on my chest and my hand rubbing her back gently. “aus?” she asks, looking up at me. “yeah, jack?” i respond. “listen, i don’t want you to change because you got drafted first and now you’re getting all of this attention. please don’t let all the attention and fame get to your head. i don’t want to lose the auston that i know and love. i don’t want you to forget about me, and i don’t want to lose you.” she looks into my eyes with tears in hers a serious look on her face. “awh, don’t cry. i promise you i won’t let it get to my head. i promise you i’ll never change. i’ll never forget about you, my love. you’re my baby, i could never forget about you. i promise you i would never leave you behind. i’ll always take you wherever i go. you’re the love of my life, and i would never even think of hurting you in any way. i would never cheat on you or leave you or do anything to break your heart.” i say in a comforting tone. “you promise?” she holds up her pinky. “i promise.” i link my pinky with hers. “it’s silly, but it made me nervous.” she laughs it off. “it’s not silly, honey. i get it, but you have nothing to worry about. i won’t forget about you or leave you or cheat on you or anything like that. i could never hurt my baby.” i hold her tighter, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. “that means so much to me, you have no idea.” she smiles against my chest, holding me closer. “aw, i’m glad it does. you mean a lot to me, love. you really do. you’re my girl, and i’d be lying if i said i didn’t need you. i need you because you keep me sane, you make me forget all of my worries, you make me laugh until i cry, and you make me the happiest guy alive. i really love you with all of my heart, my love.” i bring her hand up to my lips, pressing a kiss to it. “aw, aus, that’s so sweet. i need you too. i love you with all of my heart.” she holds me tighter. “awww, you’re too sweet.” i smile. “i try.” she shrugs with a smile. “i just had a great idea! we should play just dance!” i laugh. “yes! i love playing that with you!” she says excitedly. “me too, baby.” i say as we get up and set up the game. we pick a song and the dancing starts. somehow i fall over, taking jack down with me. i land on her with my chest to hers. “wow, you’re even more beautiful up close.” i flirt with her, a smile tugging at my lips. “ugh, you’re so annoying.” she rolls her eyes jokingly, sighing. “you know you love me.” i wink. “ugh, shut u-“ i interrupt her, pecking her lips. i pull away. “sorry, i couldn’t resist kissing you any longer.” i wink again. “ugh, get off me before my lungs collapse.” she rolls her eyes. i push myself up and get off of her. i hold my hand out to help her up. she takes it and gets up. she immediately wraps her arms around me in a tight hug. “i love you i love you i love you.” she repeats as she hugs me tight. “aw, i love you too i love you too i love you too.” i repeat as i pull her in for a kiss and wrap my arms around her. “aww, that was so cute.” she hugs me even tighter somehow. “aw, thanks baby.” i hug her tight. “we should probably get back to the game.” she points to the tv. “yeah, you’re right.” i smile. we dance for a couple more songs, laughing and fooling around with each other. we sit down on the bed and try to catch our breaths. “do you wanna cuddle again?” she asks. “i could never say no to cuddles with you.” i kiss her cheek. “me neither.” she smiles as we lay down. i pull her close to my chest and she wraps her arms around me. “do you wanna watch a movie?” i ask jack. “yeah sure.” she nods. i put on a movie and lay back down with her. next thing i know jack grabs a pillow and hits me with it. “ow! what was that for?” i turn to look at her. she grins mischievously as she looks at me. “pillow fight!” she yells. i grab a pillow and wack her with it. she hits me back and i hit her again. it keeps going back and forth, both of us laughing and giggling. she ends the fight with a kiss to my nose. “how are you so cute after beating me up with a pillow?” i look into her eyes. “i could ask you the same thing.” she smiles. “do you wanna watch a different movie? this one is pretty boring.” i ask jack. “yeah, it’s boring. you can find something else if you’d like.” she says. “you wanna watch a comedy?” i ask her. “aw, i’d love that.” she leans forward, planting a kiss on my nose. i get up and put on a comedy, then crawling back into bed to cuddle with jack. “yknow, your bun is in my face.” i tease her. “yknow, your bun is in my face.” she imitates me. “ugh, you’re so annoying.” i jokingly roll my eyes at her. “you’re so mean to me.” she sighs. “no, you’re mean to me.” i argue jokingly, rolling over and pinning her down. “no, you’re mean to me.” she rolls over and pins me down. “no you’re mean to me.” i roll over and pin her down. “you’re just mad because i can out skate you!” she rolls over and pins me down. “aw, that’s cute babe.” i smile up at her. “it’s cute you think that’s cute.” she smiles back. “of course it’s cute, it’s you.” a smile spreads across my face. “i love you.” jack presses her forehead against mine. “i love you too.” i smile into the kiss. jack lays on top of me, her head on my chest and her arms around me. “babe, would you wanna go on a walk to get coffee?” i ask her. “of course i would!” she smiles wide. “then let’s go!” i smile. we get up and walk downstairs, going to the front door and walking out. i take her hand in mine as we walk out of my house. jack’s pov auston and i were walking down the street to get coffee when she appeared. she meaning his ex girlfriend. i felt my blood boil at the mere sight of her. auston looked at me, knowing i hated her more than he did. i was hoping she would continue walking, but no. she had to stop and talk to us. “auston! congratulations on making it to the nhl!” she smiles at him. “thanks.” he smiles awkwardly in return. “how’ve you been?” she asks. better now that you’re gone, i think to myself. “pretty busy, but good. you?” he asks, as if he actually cares. i knew him well enough to know he didn’t give one shit about her. after all, she broke up with him. “i’ve been good.” she says. “good.” he responds. “we should do something tonight, if you’re free. my dad owns the best restaurant and bar. he’d be able to get us free drinks” she winks at him. “i don’t drink.” he says awkwardly. “oh, sorry. i didn’t know.” she says. “it’s okay.” he sounds extremely uncomfortable. ”have you been working out? you look more buff than you did the last time i saw you.” she flirts with him. it was taking everything in me to not knock her out. “um, uh, y-yeah i’ve been working out.” he stutters, rubbing the back of his neck. “aus, honey, we should probably get going.” i butt in the conversation. “matty, who is she?” she says in a snarky tone. “this is jacquelyn, my fiancée.” he wraps his arms around my shoulders, pressing a kiss to the crown of my head. i stare her down. “oh, so this is the lucky girl who gets to marry my matty.” she smiles mischievously as she looks at me. “yes. it was nice seeing you, janet, but jack and i should probably get going now.” auston says awkwardly. “bye! i’ll see you around!” she smiles at him. “bye.” auston replies in a dull tone, taking my hand and walking away. “i’m really sorry about her. i had no idea she’d be so flirty. are you okay, baby?” he asks me.

aus’ pov

“i’m okay. she just pissed me the fuck off. i don’t know how i didn’t fight her. she’s such a bitch. how you went out with a bitch like her is beyond me. if i see her again i swear to god i’ll fight her. she had the audacity to say my matty. fuck off, he’s not yours and he never was. she has no right to flirt with you.” i look over at jack to see her jaw clenched, something she only did when she was angry.

“someone’s jealous.” i tease her. “of course i’m jealous! did you hear how she was talking to you? did you see how she was looking at you? she basically eye fucked you! she was undressing you with her eyes! the whole time she was looking at you like a piece of meat!” i start to laugh at her ranting. “why are you laughing? that is not funny at all? she’s lucky she’s still alive, fucking janet. who names their daughter janet? why would you willingly date a girl named janet? ugh!” she rants. “wow, you really love me that much?” i ask her. “well, of course i do! you’re MY matty,” she pauses, “but god, out of all your exes, she was the worst. granted i hated all of them, but i hated her the most. i was so happy when she broke up with you, but it was weird because you weren’t upset.” she looks at me with a confused expression. “yeah, i realized i didn’t like her that much. i was planning on dumping her anyways.” i shrug. “oh you were?” she asks me. “yeah, i was gonna ask you out.” i smile at her. “aw, really?” she smiles. “yeah, i realized i loved you.” i look down at her, smiling. “aw, you did?” she holds onto my arm as we walk down the street. “yeah, i realized i kept ditching her for you. you gave me this feeling i couldn’t shake. i didn’t feel anything when i was with her.” “aww, baby.” she holds my arm tighter. “don’t worry about her. she’s got nothing on you.” i wrap my arm around her shoulders, pressing a quick kiss to the top of her head. “no, aus, i’m not worried. i completely trust you and i know you would never do anything to hurt me. i don’t like it when girls flirt with you. that’s my job, not theirs.” she continues to rant. “damn right it is. you’re my girl.” i pull her close to me, squeezing her. “aw, you’re the cutest.” she squeezes me back. “no, you’re the cutest.” i boop her nose. “shut up, we all know you’re the cutest.” she rolls her eyes. “not true.” i disagree. “ugh, fine. we’re both the cutest, which is why we’re together!” she looks up at me, smiling. “god, i’m literally the world’s luckiest man. i get to live out my dream of playing professional hockey with my dream girl by my side. i don’t know what i did to deserve this, but i can guarantee that heaven can’t be better than this.” i pull her closer to me, smiling down at her. “please cactus i’m going to cry.” she laughs softly. “no you won’t.” i laugh. “do you see these tears?” she looks up at me, pointing at the tears rolling down her cheeks. “awe, look at you. still pretty even when you cry!” i look her in the eyes. “shut up. you’re lucky you’re cute.” she smiles shyly. “oh yeah? what are you going to do about it, short stuff?” i tease her. “guess someone doesn’t want any cuddles or kisses.” she smiles spitefully. “what? that’s not fair!” i get flustered. “yes it is!” she says. “but.” i look at her with a pout. “no.” she looks away from me. “please.” i move so she can see me. “no.” she looks me in the eyes. “but baby.” i look her in the eyes again. “auston, i swear to god.” she tries to be serious, but ends up laughing. “pleeeeease.” i almost beg. “fine, if it’ll get you to stop, i’ll do it.” she gives in with a sigh. “yay! thank you baby!” i give her a kiss on the cheek. “ugh, shut up.” she sighs jokingly as we walk into the coffee shop. we go up to the counter and order our drinks. both jack and i ordered iced coffee since it was hot out. “do you wanna stay here and people watch?” i ask jack. “sure.” she smiles. we find a table next to the window. “babe, look,” i tilt my head towards an old couple, “that’s us.” i look over at her. “well, one of us is getting there.” jack points out the old man, who just so happened to be bald. “hey!” i pretend to be offended. “i’m not wrong and you know it.” she smiles spitefully. “true.” i agree. “hopefully i can put up with you for that long.” she rolls her eyes. “hopefully i can keep you for that long.” i sigh. “not with that hairline you won’t.” she mutters. “hey!” i pretend to be angry. “you had it coming.” she shrugs. “true.” i sigh. “i still love you though so it’s okay.” she leans over and kisses my cheek. “aw, i love you too. do you wanna get going now?” i ask her. “sure.” she smiles and gets up. we walk back to my house and go up to my room. “do you wanna watch the x-files?” jack asks me. “i’d love to, sweetheart.” i wrap my arms around her from behind. “i’ll put it on then.” she smiles. i go over to my bed and sit down as i wait for her to do the same. she sits in my lap, my legs crossed. i pull her in close and attack her with kisses on her shoulder and neck. “auston! stop it!” she says through laughter. “auston! stop it!” she says again as she starts to laugh. “nooo!” i squeeze her tight, pressing one last kiss to her shoulder. “you’re too cute.” she kisses my cheek. “aw, cmere baby.” i open my arms for her. she lays her head on my chest.

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i really hope this isnt too intrusive but i was wondering if you have any tips on keeping up a good relationship/friendship as someone with aspd? ive gone through so many friends and partners over the years and i always end up alone like i am right now and im honestly lonely and my therapist doesnt really understand because he just said its for the best because abusive behaviour is common w aspd which made me scream and i dont know anyone who actually has aspd either :/

long answer so under a cut

ive kept this in the inbox and stared at it over and over again because of that fucking last bit like

fuck your therapist like deck him in the face. aspd etc people arent inherently fucking abusive thats not how that works. we have a really hard time connecting with people due to low empathy and have low tolerance for bullshit at least imo

oh also dont worry i dont find many things too intrusive. frankly, if anybody wanted to know how to keep a sex life nice, id answer that shit. like i have 0 concept of too intrusive lmao

also if youre lonely id honestly start out with a pet or two. that sounds really weird but if you get used to some asshole who cant communicate living with you, you start to tolerate others more. plus less lonely so win-win

THIS IS GOING TO SOUND HELLISHLY BIZARRE BUT TRUST ME WHEN I SAY THIS: try dating sim games. this isnt to make you less lonely but to help you get better at communicating with others. like this is an actual scientifically studied thing. i cant remember where i found this out cause my memory is bullshit but hubs pointed me to it. its how he managed to keep my attention for so long. he knew how to properly engage with me and keep my interest through practice via dating sims. and when things are stale, he goes back to the dating sim textbook. like brings me flowers or goes back to wooing me AND IT WORKS

thats not to say his feelings arent genuine cause they absolutely are. these dating games just let him interact with me romantically easier for him. especially because hes like the human embodiment of golden retriever puppy with sunshine out its ass and he can EASILY come across as waaaaaay too much and these sims taught him how to tone himself down. whereas for people like us, theyd help us to play ourselves up so to speak. or just generally interact with partners easier

now if actual interaction isnt your problem, that you make friends or get partners easily but have a hard time with the maintenance, now thats a different problem and requires a different solution

first, find people you find interesting. it's so much easier to pretend to give a shit about people when you find them interesting because you actually listen to them when they talk to you. and this sounds like bullshit like ugh why do i have to pretend. well you do. you have to with everybody until you make a connection. the key is to find somebody interesting you dont mind listening to

make sure they dont mind listening to you either or they at least pretend to this is because relationships whether romantic or otherwise all rely on communication and listening to each others problems. ive had a few "friends" who expected all kinds of emotional labor from me but would turn tail or come up with excuses if i needed them. those arent friends tbh. those are leeches and dont keep those people around. also dont be one of those people cause emotional labor should go both ways

communicate. communicate. COMMUNICATE!!! ALWAYS!!! EVEN IF ITS PAINFUL!!! even if opening up is the last goddamn thing you want to do. in order to connect with people and to keep connection alive, you need to open yourself up and be vulnerable. and it can suck! it really can! but you dont have to cut yourself open just for a connection. basically share what youre comfortable with at first

later, once youve established honesty (and honesty is the key here) later, if youve got an issue with them? you can bring it up and be like hey it bothers me that you leave your socks everywhere. or i hate that you seem to only need me when your mom is being shitty. this lets them confront you too about things that make them uncomfortable. and, yknow, change when they mention something (so long as its not ridiculous like you drink too much coke or i hate that you have blue eyes)

AND ON THE HONESTY THING be honest about your dishonesty. what that means is letting the other person know you lie if youre a chronic liar like me. you have to be like ok so i lie a lot and usually its about stupid stuff and heres how you can tell. anybody who gives an actual shit about you will be like oh ok thats irritating but ok. just dont EVER EVER lie about big shit EVER like cheating or something like that (i mean dont cheat in the first place but you get my point)

ive had like an empty bag of chips in my hand and hubs will be like "did you eat the chips" and i'll be like "no?" and it kinda goes back and forth like "i see the bag in your hand right there!" "no you dont" until about half an hour or so later im like "sorry i lied about the chips" and hes like oh its fine i get it. but he knows that while id lie about that or brushing my hair, etc i wont lie about if i took my meds or not etc etc. like be honest about your dishonesty dont hide it or itll create problems for later

let the other person know when you need space. because we all need space at some time or another. be like hey imma need to flake for like a day or so my life is a clusterfuck and i need some time to myself. or, like with one of my partners, im like do you mind if i just chill in the other room with video games/books/netflix/whatever for roughly x amount of time. i let them know its not them (even if it sometimes is at which point, i do let them know later what the problem was) and that i just need to be by myself. and yknow what? its made us all so fucking close when we've told each other when we need space

be honest about needing connection too. sometimes your life just goes all to hell and you need a cuddle buddy or somebody to go to coffee with. its scary making yourself so vulnerable and admitting that but honestly? the payoff is awesome because you have somebody there for you who will hold you through those times. and if they wont? walk the other way

and if it werent already clear, YOU HAVE TO MAKE A RECIPROCAL EFFORT because its not fun to be on anything one-sided. you dont have to magically develop empathy or wanting to be around people 24/7. you just have to make the same effort you expect with others

anyway those are the basics to making things work imo. IF NONE OF THIS IS HELPFUL or not the case for how to make things work for you, message again with specifics and i’ll do my best on the advice thing. just your ask was kind of broad so i answered it broadly

i hope this helps!!

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the-innocent-papyrus · 8 years ago

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It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Gyftmas, Part 12

((Sleepy kid is sleepy. Leftovers are divided up and Spade convinces Undyne to make fish puns.))

((Muses:

Roan and Orion, from here

Dread and WD, from @the-dread-papyrus

Undyne, from @the-hcroine-appears

Zax, @holdusfast

CB and Slob, @coolskeletonsdontcry and @slobbyseconds

Ace, Spade, and Delta, @acetheskeleton, @spadetheskeleton, and @deltagaster

Lazy, @sans-nyan))

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 WELL!!! I'D SAY THIS WHOLE PARTY HAS BEEN A ROUSING SUCCESS!!!

Zax 👽 [Returned to his half asleep state.]

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 I'M GLAD YOU ALL CAME!!! IT'S BEEN GREAT SEEING YOU ALL!!!

CB & s 🐝 THANKS FOR HAVING US OVER!! IT WAS FUN!!

🐽 even if we were kinda last minute an' late, heh.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 NYEH HEH HEH, THAT'S OKAY!!! I'M GLAD I FINALLY GOT TO MEET YOU!!!

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 "yeah, was a really nice little party here. fun, gave us somethin' to do. even if spade didn't do much."

He huffed, shooting a glance at Spade.

🍹 Spade was still stood in his spot by his drinks, having gone through quite a few bottles by now. He blinked at Ace and rolled his eyes, shrugging.

🍵 "I am. Also quite glad I was able to attend, as well! I really do appreciate It, um. You allowing me to come over, I mean. Thank you."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 WELL, IT'S BEEN GREAT HAVING YOU. EVEN IF SOME OF YOU DIDN'T DO MUCH, NYEH HEH. YOU'RE ALWAYS WELCOME BACK HERE!!!

lazy 😺 "same. it's been neat actually meeting-- most of you, actually."

CB & s 🐽 yeah, nice meetin' you when i'm my normal self, hehheh.

lazy 😺 [LITTLE GRIN.] i've been pretty excited about meeting you when it's just you, so to speak. you and bones were sweet as bob.

CB & s 🐽 hehheh, bein' bob was pretty fun, not gonna lie. also not gonna lie about how it's kinda funny i still got, like, an inch or two on you, heh.(edited)

lazy 😺 well, to be fair, it's hard not to be taller than me.

CB & s 🐽 pff, i mean. i can say the same? i only know, like, three other sanses shorter 'an me.

🐝 [Meanwhile, CB knows zero Papyruses shorter than him. And only a couple that are the same height.]

Zax 👽 [Maybe someday I'll be taller than the skeleton that taught me the word fuck]

lazy 😺 true. i guess i only know-- one, i think? there's a sans i think i'm friends with who's four foot even. and i've heard rumours of a sans who is like... two feet tall? but i don't believe it. i don't want to believe it. 😺 WAIT. NO. THERE'S CARMEN. carmen's four foot five, i bought him heels so he'd be taller than me.

Zax 👽 [He's up. Shuffling over to Lazy. Looking up at him with those big eyes... He opens his arms. He's going to go to bed but, perhaps, a goodbye hug first?]

CB & s 🐽 oh damn? i didn't think he was shorter 'an me, too, heh. i'll have to pat 'im on the head, if i ever hang out with him.

lazy 😺 [oh cute... he bends down to hug zax.]

Zax 👽 [Purr. Little small nuzzling. Happy alien] 👽 [Shift back. Peering up at Slob with the same expression.... Will you also hug this alien?]

lazy 😺 i'm like, running off of some old info. but i'm pretty sure he's a little shorter. ...i think he and i are dating, but-- i'm like, not totally sure. it's a weird limbo. but yknow.

CB & s 🐽 [Oh god he gets hugs, too? What the heck did he do to make this kid like him? Slob goes ahead and holds his arms out. Yes he'll hug this alien.]

Zax 👽 [Content alien purring. Yes, very good] "Good night.... Thanking you for come ta my mamas party."

CB & s 🐽 [Happy little squint.]

🐽 heh, sleep tight, kiddo.

Zax 👽 [Smile!!]

[Waves and heads over to Orion. Bedtime story and he's sleeping in your room tonight.]

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne ⭐️ [Orion wipes his face off and holds his arms out to the kid. Would he appreciate being carried upstairs?]

Zax 👽 [!!!]

[He latches on pretty much instantly. Being carried is the best.]

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne ⭐️ [Up he goes, and off to Orion's room they go for story and bedtime.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace watches the kid get carried upstairs with a little chuckle, that's cute. He messed with his scarf and took out his phone to check the time, humming softly. Yeah, things were really starting to wind down. He should probably nab himself some sweets before he and Spade actually left, though. Definitely.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne [There are still plenty of sweets left. They're going to be having cookies for dinner for days to come.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace smiled a little and got up, stretching. Yeah, he'd probably go and do that real quick, maybe help Roan clean up some what too. Was the least he could do. He went off to the table and got a plate, piling it with what sweets and such that he could before going off and making Spade carry it. Not like he was doing anything else anyways.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 😬 [Roan and Dread start cleaning up as well, gathering up discarded wrappers and putting them in the trash.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace gives them a smile as he starts to help out too, picking up whatever trash and such he can. As well as all of Spade's bottles, there are seven empty one's and he's drinking yet another beer. Geez.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 [Undyne glances over and realizes just how many beers Spade has gone through.]

🐟 "Geez, dude, you planning on finishing off that entire pack or something?"

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade blinked at her and grinned, shrugging.

🍹 "was plannin' on it, but. took it slow tonight, what with it bein' a gyftmas party n' all."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 [Undyne laughs.]

🐟 "Geez, that's your definition of slow?? I'd hate to see how fast you usually go, then!"

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade laughed a little at that, taking a drink.

🍹 "yeahhh, well. y'probably really wouldn't wanna see that. sides this is just beer, i've drank a heck of a lot more of all the stronger stuff. and y'know. a lot of pretty much all drinks in general."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 "Heh, what, you some kind of alcohol connoisseur or something?"

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Another chuckle, then Spade just shook his head.

🍹 "nnnope, just an alcoholic. which, i guess could be considered some sorta fuckin' connoissure of alcohol, but. y'know. i drink ta drink, don't care if it tastes good. that's just a bonus."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 "Ha, fair enough! Though personally, if I'm gonna drink I'd rather it taste good, y'know? May as well make the actual experience of drinking halfway decent."

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Another shrug, another drink.

🍹 "well, i do aim ta drink stuff that tastes decent. i mean. if it tastes like actual shit, that just ain't fun. depends on where i am i guess, how lazy m' feeling at the time. cause like. i can't be bothered to go to the bar every time i need drinks so i settle for what's around n' the house, an. ace brings weird tastin' drinks back home sometimes."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 "Well, guess you can only hope he brings back something that happens to fall on the palatable side of weird, huh?"

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade shrugged with a nod.

🍹 "yeah and i mean, a majority of the drinks ain't bad, but as you can tell, i drink stuff fast. so sometimes y'just get left with the weird stuff and you ain't got no choice but ta drink it. so y'know, it's kinda somethin' that's inevitable, heh."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 "Ha! Yeah, I can see that. I'd make a joke about you drinking like a fish, if I weren't actually a fish and knew better, ha ha."

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade laughed a little at that, shaking his head.

🍹 "oh c'mon, you're a fish! if anythin' you've got more of a right ta make that joke than i would, heh."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 "True, true! Though I think if I start in with the fish puns, our gracious host will murder me."

🌹 I WOULDN'T GO THAT FAR! I MEAN. AT WORST YOU'D JUST SIMPLY BE LEAVING THROUGH THE WINDOW.

🐟 [Undyne laughs.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade laughed a little more at that, taking another drink.

🍹 "heh, you should totally start up with fish puns. that would be actually great."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 DON'T.

🐟 "Ah c'mon, you don't reely mean that, Paps!"

🌹 [Roan lets out an exaggerated groan and rolls his eyes.]

🌹 THAT ONE ONLY REALLY WORKS IN A WRITTEN FORMAT. IT DOESN'T WORK AS WELL VERBALLY!

🐟 "Okay, okay, I'll give you that one. I'm shore I can come up with betta ones, though."

CB & s 🐝 [There's a GROAN from over here, as well. He's been trying to help pick things up with the others.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade actually snorted a little as he laughed more, covering his mouth with his hand a little.

🍹 "hehh, man this is great."

🍯 Ace was chuckling a little himself, but gave CB a sympathetic look. He shook his head and looked over to Roan.

🍯 "y'wanna start puttin' the food up in the fridge, or do you wanna leave it out a little longer?"

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 [Roan taps his chin thoughtfully, pondering the question.]

🌹 I THINK I'D LIKE TO LEAVE THE CEREAL OUT. IT'LL MAKE IT EASIER TO GET BREAKFAST TOGETHER IN THE MORNING. THE REST CAN GO IN THE FRIDGE, IF WE CAN GET IT ALL TO FIT.

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace smiled with a nod, throwing away the trash he had in his hand.

🍯 "well, i'm gonna go grab myself some cookies from the fridge too before we do that. just give me a sec."

Then he's off to the kitchen for the meantime.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 FEEL FREE! IT'S NOT LIKE WE'RE GOING TO BE RUNNING OUT ANYTIME SOON.

🌹 [A thought occurs to Roan and he turns to Dread.]

🌹 HEY DREAD, DO YOU AND WD WANT TO BRING SOME COOKIES HOME WITH YOU?

😬 THAT'S OKAY WITH ME. ANY OBJECTIONS, BROTHER?

📖 [WD gives a thumbs up with one of his summoned hands.]

CB & s 🐽 could always take some of the other stuff off your hands, too, if there still a space issue, heh.

🐝 SLOB, DON'T BE RUDE!

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 IF YOU WANT SOME, FEEL FREE TO HELP YOURSELVES!

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace hums as he returns with about five cookies and sets them on the plate that Spade is still holding. He's got one to much on for the time being though, looking over to Roan and Slob.

🍯 "y'can just tell me whatcha wanna take n' i'll leave it here."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 [As he speaks, Roan grabs a handful of cookies for himself. He hasn't really had much of an opportunity to partake, after all.]

CB & s 🐽 aw, but i'm supposed to be the lazy on- oh wait you're an orange, too. heh, shit, almost forgot.

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace rolled his eyes and shrugged, chuckling.

🍯 "m'lazy when i wanna be, heh. so c'mon, whadda wanna take?"

CB & s 🐽 little bits of everythin'? heh...

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 🌹 [Undyne snickers, Roan rolls his eyes. Of course he takes the lazy way out.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace blinked and rolled his eyes again, laughing a little more.

🍯 "well fine, heh, i'll getcha a little bit of everything. anyone else gonna wanna grab somethin' before it's all put up? might wanna do that now."

He grabs a plate and starts putting on some of everything on it and, yeah. He's probably gonna need more than one plate honestly.

🍹 Spade watched him and chuckled himself. Oh look at him, goin' out of his way like that for Slob and Ace's 'not-boyfriend-quite-yet' CB. Nerd.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 😬 📖 [Dread grabs a plate himself and starts shoveling stuff onto it for him and WD. The two of them somehow fall into a mostly signing conversation, mainly just discussing what they want to bring back and how much.]

CB & s 🐝 HONESTLY, SLOB! YOU COULD AT LEAST GET UP AND GET SOME, YOURSELF!

🐽 aw, but then ace'd have no one else to pile a plate up for, hehheh.

🐝 THAT'S THE IDEA!

#!papyrus talks to people #!sans talks to people #!the brothers together #!off tumblr rp logs #!long post #!it's beginning to look a lot like gyftmas

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