#it was more like. seeing it made me realize how much i actuallt wanted to graduate and was j too overwhelmed w the prospect of continuing

[ilostyou]

it’s so funny telling people that seeing pictures of taylor swift at nyu’s graduation is quite literally what made me realize that i want my own graduation and decided not to drop out of school because. that’s literally what happened

[70swizards]

random wolfstar headcanons

remus usually never initiates cuddling or any physical contact, he’ll just stare at sirius till he does it

sirius: what? what do you want?

remus: *says nothing till sirius comes and cuddles him*

remus “don’t touch me” lupin = the cuddliest when sleepy

sirius the blanket hog™️

they both cant sleep without their plushies. remus had had a little teddy bear since he was a child, and sirius a black dog that james had gotten him a few years back

remus prefers sleeping in pajama pants and short sleeves shirts while sirius prefers to toss himself into any of remus’ shirts or just sleep in his boxers

if one of them has a bad day, they’ll sleep in the same bed and shut the curtain and talk about future plans like making flower crowns thag weekend, or how remus wanrs to take sirius to the beach one day, show him the waves at sunset and just listen to the gushing waves that drenched the sand

after remus becomes prefect, he and sirius tend to fall asleep in the warm bath rhay smells like vanilla and shea fogging up the mirrors

or when sirius comes back from a long practice, remus would help him take his equipment off

“moony my head is stuck help”

“yeah uhm...i cant fix that, love”

“hELP ME YOU TWAT”

so instead of actuallt helping him when he needs it, remus would lift his shirt and give him a little peck on the nose and let him struggle

remus is always fixing sirius’ blouse underneath his robes because the unevenness of it bothers him, plus sirius can’t fix the collar for the life of him. sirius just smiles

one christmas, when james was away and sirius hadn’t moved in yet, he stayed at hogwarts alone. it was insanely quiet. sirius did not do well with quiet, and most of the time, that’s what it was like when you were almost alone in a castle. sirius felt like he was suffocating

when remus comes back, he begins to notice how sirius had become more on edge, he wanted to help. he’s not the best at “humaning” but he’d do anything for sirius

so one day, while passing by the empty library, he sees sirius who was sat on one of the benches towards the end, hugging his knees, slightly shaking

instinctively, remus wanted to help, but didn’t know how. before he could think about it, he was hugging sirius and rambling about how athena once turned someone into a spider

soon he realizes that siirus was starting to shake more, he panicked, thinking he just made it worse, until he heard a little giggle escape sirius’ mouth. remus looked down at the boy in his arms, sirius was looking up at him, red eyes, puffy from crying, but he was laughing

remus sighs in relief, sirius just hugs him tighter whispering “thank you, moons. i love you so much”

remus introduces sirius to face masks and to say the least, he now forces the marauders to follow his routine. face mask every friday after school, snacks and a movie on lily’s laptop

“sIRIUS STOP MAKING ME LAUGH MY FACE IS CRACKING-“

everyone just laughs at that, and yes, remus’ face does end up cracking

[kirislut]

Hiiii, it is me 😎✌️ I had this request in my mind for a while, and when I found ur page I was like, I feel like you’d write it perfectly!!!! The request: Bakugou or Todoroki having a very tough day, then when their S/O tries to bring them like soup or smth, they throw it on the floor, and the glass cuts the S/Os hands and they try to hide it while picking up everything, and when the boy sees their hand w a bandage later on in the day, they feel SO GUILTY!! Also, w fluff at the end pls! Thank u!

a/n: heyyy 😎✌️, first, thanks for this request! second, i don’t know if i can write it perfectly but i hope you like it absksj. definitely don’t feel any pressure 😳 (i got too excited and wrote a lot....whoops)

warnings: bakugou(swearing), mention of getting cut, mention of blood

Katsuki Bakugou

bakugou is an angry guy, everyone knows that. but today he was especially pissed off. he had gotten into a heated argument with kirishima after training. usually he didn’t care but this time he knew he was wrong but was too damn stubborn and prideful ever admit it.

so instead of working it out with his best friend he was just extra pissed off today. which was unfortunate for you.

when he came back to the shared dorms, you were busy cooking some spicy ramen for the both of you. luckily you had finished training earlier that day, so you and time to surprise your boyfriend!

stomping feet could be heard as you dished yourself and bakugou up, and hearing the stomping meant you knew he was close by. lucky for you he was actually sitting at a nearby table, grumbling to himself about something. you didn’t know what however.

excited to surprise your lover, you practically skip over to the angry blonde. “katsuki! i made some spicy for you~” when you set the bowl in front of him he just grunted and swiped it off the table. “leave me the fuck alone.”

he didn’t even spare you a glance as you just gawked at him, what had you done wrong? gulping nervously you’re just turned to start cleaning up. you used napkins to pick up and wipe up the spilled ramen then started to pick up the broken ceramic.

you didn’t notice that a particular piece was sharp, grabbing it caused you to feel a stinging situation in your palm. so when you pulled away it dragged, creating a now bleeding gash in your palm.

a whimper escaped from you, quickly applying pressure to the wound to delay the bleeding. you moved to the kitchen and used paper towels to clean up your bloody palm, all while bakugou sat there blissfully unaware.

as you cleaned yourself up, the still extra angry male got up from the table and stomped off to his room. he scolded you to leave him alone, because he was actuallt considering apologizing. that thought was pissing him off, and not to mention thinking about how to be kind for once was a slight challenge. only because he was stubborn in this matter.

by the time bakugou was in his dorm room, you had finished up cleaning and were now wrapping up your hand with some gauze because a bandaid wouldn’t suffice. even if bakugou didn’t eat the ramen, didn’t mean you would let it go to waste.

but as your began to ate, you were replaying the situation to try and figure out what went wrong. sure bakugou has a bad temper but this was a different kind of anger which you haven’t seen before. you were absolutely certain you didn’t do anything wrong, so why was bakugou upset?

quickly finishing up your meal and putting away your dishes, you went to bakugou’s room because you were worried about him. it was honestly kinda crazy on how you weren’t even angry or upset with the male, just worried for him because you loved him that much.

everyone has their moments and slip ups were they release their anger on to someone else unintentionally, and you knew that very well. because of a certain boy.

standing in front of your boyfriends door, you knocked. when he didn’t respond after a few seconds you just opened the door and proceeded.

“oi! who said you— oh.” his angry expression faltered when he saw you standing there. lucky for you he was able to calm down after thinking it through and developing a plan. a perfect plan to be precise. nothing less from the ambitious guy himself.

“about earlier, are you okay? you haven’t eaten yet and i know you’re angry.” you shut the door behind you and join bakugou on his bed. bakugou lets out a sigh, leaning back against his headboard and staring at the ceiling.

“you a stalker or something? how can you always read me so well.” bakugou let out another sigh, this time more of a huff as he patted the space beside him. signaling you to sit by him.

as you scooted over to place yourself by him you responded, “i’m your lover katsuki, i think it would be bad if i didn’t know you well wouldn’t it?” the blonde glanced at you then did a little nod. he knew you knew him well, and he kinda loved how sometimes you could practically read his mind.

“i got into a fight with shittyhair, i don’t want to say more because i know i’ll get mad again.” as the spiky blonde explained, he noticed the gauze around your hand. he immediately grabbed your wrist, being gentle, and brought you hand up. “what happened.”

hearing bakugou’s stern tone made you gulp, “i cut myself that’s all! just need to be more careful.” even though you were playing cool bakugou also knew you too well as well. he thought back to when he spotted you in the kitchen, you didn’t have this before. even if you thought bakugou didn’t spare you a glance, he would always look at you once. whether you notice it or not.

his jaw clenched when he realized that he was the cause of this, great today he fucked up twice with two of the people he valued deeply. his silence was definitely worrying you, was he going to yell? you weren’t sure what to expect for once.

his next move you did give you a bit of a surprise. your boyfriend leaned forward and pressed such a soft kiss against your forward. you never knew his kisses could feel so gentle yet loving. “i’m sorry.”

even if his apology was simple, it was all he needed to say. the rest was communicated with his actions. you smiled brightly at bakugou, reciprocating his actions, you pressed a loving kiss against his lips.

the rest of the night was filled with lots of kisses and a plethora of cuddles.

Shouto Todoroki

there is no beating around the bush here, todoroki was having an absolutely terrible day. he was supposed to visit his mother but his father visited him instead. he lectured his son about how he needs to focus on becoming the number one hero, not messing around with a lover. this led to an agruement which also stopped him from seeing his mother because visiting hours had ended by the time he got there.

so when he came back to the dorm, after an entire day basically going garage. he was not happy, in fact he was quite pissed. he didn’t even try to hide his scowl as he passed by you.

“sho? hey sho what’s wrong?” your boyfriend stopped to look back at you. “(y/n) i’m fine. just a little tired.” todoroki went to turn, but you grabbed his hand.

“are you sure? you should eat dinner before going to bed at least. i even have some left over cold soba!” before he could reject you you dragged him off into the kitchen and served him the left over soba you made for yourself not to long ago.

“(y/n) i’m not hungry.” he replied simply. but you weren’t going to let him get off that easily. “sho please eat.” you insisted.

this turned into a banter of back and forth between you two. you kept insisting he ate, whike todoroki kept refusing. he was losing his patience with each time.

as a last cause resort and grabbed his hand and placed the bowl in it, “shouto you need to eat!” your tone was raised and more stern this time. you weren’t angry but just concerned and worried.

but this pushed todoroki over the edge. his hands trembled for a moment before he chucked the bowl at the ground, “(y/n), you don’t need to act like a parent. i can do whatever i want.”

the fact that todoroki didn’t even raise his voice at you, yet it held so much anger, made you tremble in fear. you stood there frozen in shock as your boyfriend proceeded to walk away.

your fists clenched at your sides, now you were getting upset like todoroki was. how could he just throw the food on the ground? besides he was never one to act like this. sure he got angry, as everyone does, but it was another level.

you crouched down and started to pick up the broken pieces of the bowl. trying your best to be careful. but as you reached for a piece of ceramic, another piece of the broken bowl dragged along your finger. immediately you pulled your hand back, cringing at the stinging sensation. there was another piece of bowl beside the one you were reaching, which had a sharp edge sticking up towards you.

you swore under your breath as bleed started to leak from the wound, getting up to take care of it before you finished cleaning up.

on the other hand, todoroki was cooling off in his room. and now starting to feel guilty for what he had said and done. he knew he shouldn’t have been so harsh with you. but you just happened to push him over the edge.

he wasn’t angry with you, no, mostly at himself. he knew he should’ve informed his father himself that he started dating you, but he never got around to it. which led him to finding out on his own and the previous agruement to occur.

but even if his father disagreed, there was no way he was going to lose you. he would prove that you were no distraction, and in fact motivation. before he could prove that, he need to apologize to you first.

leaving his room, he went back down to see if you were still in the kitchen area. but you weren’t, so he went back up to the dorm rooms.

when he got to your room, he didn’t bother knock and just opened the door. “(y/n)?” hearing todoroki’s voice made you look up from your phone. you were just scrolling on social media to take your mind off you little fight with your boyfriend

“shouto, do you need something?” you watched as he came into your room, shutting the door behind him, and going straight to you. he sat himself down across from you, looking at his lap as he thought of how to say what he wanted.

“i’m sorry for throwing your soba. i’m sure it was amazing, but i was just angry. before i was able to visit my mother, my father stopped me give me a scolding about how he disagrees with our relationship.” todoroki looked up at you as he finished, surprised to see how sad you looked.

“but (y/n) don’t worry, i’m not letting him stop our relationship. i can never give you up, please remember that i always love you.” he reached out and gently held your face in his hands, not wanting you to think that he would ever let someone like his father get in the way of you both.

your frown was soon replaced with a smile, honestly you were slightly embarrassed to let yourself think that todoroki would give up on your relationship just because of his own dad.

nuzzling you’re face into his touch, you reached up and covered his hands with your own. but as you did so, todoroki was quick to notice that your finger was covered up by a large bandage.

“was that from me?” todoroki asked as he frowned, letting go of your face and carefully taking your hand so that he could look at your finger.

“no sho! it was my fault, i was careless.” you watched as todoroki lightly shook his head. “no it’s my fault my love, i’m sorry again.” he brought your hand up to his face and placed a warm kiss against your bandaged finger.

watching him made your heart flutter, how did you end up with such a caring boy? todoroki didn’t stop kissing just your finger. he kissed the back of your palm then moved forward to kiss your forehead, then your cheek, then finally your lips.

you smiled happily against his lips. you just so happy to know that nothing could get between you and your beloved. not even his father. and not even a bowl of soba.

[jellyluchi]

I hope you know I’m living for your sims updates rn omg 👀 I’m kinda screaming over prosciutto getting into fitness I love it

Oh my gosh really? I'll give you some more! I'll post screenshots later this is from last night it was my first time playing sims ever in my life and I was having so much fun LOL it's not going to be my main run but I kinda wanna keep it but basically...

Focaccia wanted to get into cooking but I was like NO her thing is literally not being able to cook 😭

I had to grind their relationship I didnt realize it takes so much to get the relationship up so they date but it turned out cute bc Pros sees her as a close friend and a romantic partner he actuallt fell for her first for some reason (maybe bc I kept making them talk about life goals ?) And focaccia eventually liked him when he started getting flirty so it feels like their Canon relationship a little bit 😖

Prosciutto's work schedule is so bizarre but it's still more consistent than canon Pros it's form 8 pm to 3 am I think at some point it was 5pm to 12 am but focaccia comes home at 5 so they would not be able to spend time 😭

When I made focaccia move into Pros house she brought her books she has the book worm trait and now both of them are always reading JXJJSJDB

Oh yes Pros already prepped to her last night but I don't have emoney for a wedding JJCJSD

I didnt do anything with their house bc idk how but eventually I'll make it look better and post pics !!!

My pros model is so fuckin ugly I made it myself me and my brother were making fun of him if anyone has a link to a good Pros model I AM BEGGING pls send it my way 🙏🤲

[goldylockswriting]

Straykids reaction to when their s/o gives them unexpected skinship

Ofc you can this request is so cute TT I hope you like it ❤️(I made it gender nutural so everyone can enjoy I hope you don't mind)

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Bangchan:

He'd first take a second to realize you are actuallt hugging him out of no where and sharing skinship with him which you normally don't do fast

Almost instantly wrapping his arms around you

Would chuckle thinking you're being adorable

"I'm glad you're so happy to see me" he'd say with a soft laugh.

Would place a soft kiss on your lips

Woojin:

"wahhh you're being so cute"

He cant help himself ad he fanboys a little

Would tease you a little bit with it

But more in the way of saying things like "y/'n you're so cute" and not wanting to shut up about it

You'd literally make his heart skip a beat

Minho:

First and most foremost he'd find you adorable

Wishing he had a camera to record your cute actions do he could watch it again and again whenever he'd feeling down

Would be love it if one of the members walked in so he can brag about it a little (all cause of love sweetie)

"ah jisung look how cute y/'n is!! Isn't she adorable"

Your biggest fanboy ever (but he will try and hide it from you and fail in doing so cause he just can't hide it XD)

Changbin:

First be confused if it's actually you

"woahh y/n you're hugging me"

Be all surprised but like super happy

This bright smile would instantly appear on his face

He'd softly kiss your forehead

Would cup your face if you blushes right after showing him affection telling you how much he loved it (and you)

Hyunjin:

Would tease you about it but cutely

"wait wait y/'n can you do that again I just wanna look at your cuteness one more time"

Asking you to kiss his face again cause he loves it to much

Pull you into a hug not letting you go soon even if you whine to be set free

Would try and make a picture of you as you kiss him/hug him for his background

Jisung:

Be super surprised and just watch you while blinking

"am I dreaming? Please Pinch me so I know I'm not"

Immediately pout and say "auch" when you softly his his arm cause of his jokes

But then his cute chuckle would make you both smile again

He'd ask you why you're so happy

"you're happy cause of me right?" he'd say with a cute wink

Felix:

He'd immediately hug you back smiling from ear to ear.

You'd make him so happy he wouldn't let you go

"please just one more hug y/n"

Would fo anything and everything to make you hug and kiss him more

Cause it will just feel so special to him he wants to feel like that more often

Especially on hard days

He's smile so much for the next day the members would ask what's going on

Seungmin:

Immediately open his arms for you

Giving you so much love in return

Doing some cute eagyo or like softly petting your head telling you how cute you can be sometimes

Correct himself and make it to all the time instead

Would tell you how he loves your random cute moments

Jeongin:

A soft blush appear on his face cause you startled him a little,

Eye smile

Would cling on to you as he hugs you back

Hiding his face so you don't see his blush

Would try to act normal after but he'd won't be able to hide his happiness

Small dimple attack

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Wahh I wrote this so fast I really enjoyed writing it. I hope you enjoyed reading it❤️

Thank you @petalskook for your request feel free to request again any time ❤️😇

[kjs-s]

No time for pain

Pairing  Steve trevor x reader

Fandom Wonder Woman

Summary  The reader tries to hide an injury from Steve during their mission

Prompt  “Because I am a lady. That’s why.” The Aristocats

Word Count: 1353

Warnings: mention of gambling and injury

A/N: This is my entry for @thefanficfaerie 3000 follower Disney celebration. It was inspired by my ankle injury. I hope you like it and sorry it took me so long. I actuallt started writing this on Wednesday.

Modern AU Diana is his boss and Etta is another spy in this one.

‘’And after all that failed, I just had to think about what my mentor would do. So, I hit the guard on the head with the briefcase. Not exactly the way Diana would have gone about it then again, it worked.’’ Etta was filling you in on her latest mission. You loved hearing her stories since she always found an interesting way to get out of difficult situations.

‘’Maybe, except your ways are funnier for when I have to read your reports. Not to mention way less lethal than some of the other agents’. Same goes for (Y/N); in just a few months, she has caught more criminal than any other rookie has. I am so proud of both of you.’’ You could tell Diana meant it and that there was no condescending tone in her voice. She recruited you with Steve and immediately spotted your potential.

You continued talking while waiting for Steve to arrive. Diana had summoned the two of you to her office for a new assignment. Being early in the morning you figured your partner would be late to get there. Therefore, you invited Etta to gossip a little about her latest successful apprehension. Listening to her talk was one of the best stress reliefs for you.

As soon as Steve arrived, you were briefed about your new mission. You were still new and having your boss trust you to accompany Steve was unbelievable. It made you want to impress her even more than the first time you met.

‘’ Now that Trevor is finally here, we can start.’’ She gave each of you a file and put the picture of the man on the screen behind her. ‘’Meet Christopher Anderson. He is one of the sons of Margaret Anderson, you might know her as the queen of diamonds. She has the most successful stores all over the United States and Europe. Many organizations believe that she or her sons are smuggling diamonds but they have failed to find any evidence.’’

‘’And you want us to spy on the son in the hopes of finding out the truth?’’ Steve hoped for a mission like that for so long. One of his friends used to work at one of the stores until she was fired for pushing a client to stop him from touching her. From that moment on, Steve started to hate that family.

‘’Not quite. My friends from other agencies overheard that Christopher has a bit of a habit. He liked to gamble all over the globe. He is not actively trying to hide that although every casino he is at has doubled the security while he is there. Lucky for us the casino he chose this week is the Empire. In addition, since I am aware that Steve’s uncle works there I arranged for you to enter the high rollers poker game.’’

‘’Do you think he might talk during the game? Or that he would have something illegal on him?’’ You asked not even thinking that you have no clue how to play poker. You like watching it since you find it oddly relaxing but you weren’t any good at it.

‘’Neither. Steve will make sure to sit beside him. You would be his ‘’good luck charm’’. Just find an opportunity to put a bug on Christopher and then leave. We will take care of everything else from here. John will be waiting outside to drive you back here when you are done.’’

The mission seemed easy. However, you knew from experience that everything could go wrong. Especially knowing Steve’s bad luck with missions. He has never been caught but he has come close too many times to count.

‘’Do you have a plan about the game? Do you even know how to play?’’ He looked at you with a shocked look realizing that he actually didn’t.

‘’Do you? Maybe you can teach me or something.’’

‘’ Sorry to disappoint you, Trevor. I have only watched poker. I bet you can read about it and try to play on your laptop a bit. I will come with you so we can establish when you think you might need me. I can come over at the beginning of every round hoping that our target wouldn’t suspect anything.’’

Despite the plan being solid you still found yourselves running around in the casino trying to escape from the guards chasing you. You were still lucky that it was just your target’s guards and not the casino ones as well. One of them noticed you looking at him for too long and thought you were trying to cheat. Fortunately, you still managed to put the bug on him before being made.

‘’(Y/N) we need to hurry. I already informed John to wait for us by the entrance so all we have to do is to make it there. Are you ok? Can you even run in these shoes?’’

‘’I’m fine Steve. Don’t worry about me.’’ You tried to hide the fact that your feet hurt like hell. In the attempt to avoid the guards you took a turn and hit the heel of your right foot on a column. However, you wouldn’t allow Steve to see you in pain. He is too overprotective of you.

‘’This is the second to last door but it’s locked. Do you want to do the honors of kicking it open?’’ Steve loved how you always react to doing small things that you have seen in movies and he always offered to let you try anything.

‘’It’s fine Steve. You go right ahead.’’ You still managed to sound calm in order to fool him until you made it to the car.

‘’But why? You love things like that.’’

‘’Because I am a lady. That’s why. Just kick the door, Trevor.’’ You yelled at him while looking around for the guards.

He was startled by your outburst yet he remained silent. When you finally made it to the car waiting outside, he turned to you.

‘’Can we talk about what happened earlier? You never talk to me like that. If you were refusing to kick the door due to the shoes or the outfit you are wearing I understand. It must have been difficult to manage it.’’

You tried to answer him except he was sitting too close to you that when you tried to sit up you winched in pain.

‘’What’s wrong, partner? Are you hurt?’’ He looked you over trying to see any bruise or cut.

‘’It’s just my ankle. I had sprained it a couple of weeks ago and now I must have twisted it again. It’s not a big deal. I just didn’t tell you anything not to worry you. And because I knew you would react like that.’’

He was already examining you and putting his jacket under your ankle. He was always caring like that with his friends and even if you thought it was sweet sometimes it became too much.

‘’I will alert Diana to prepare a nurse to check on you. And I will take care of you with everything you need. Let me start by removing your shoes.’’ Resisting his care would be futile so you let him massage your injured ankle. By the time you reached the headquarters, a doctor and two nurses were ready to see you. Apparently, Steve had made it look like you were dying.

The doctor advised you to rest for some days. All your friends made sure you wouldn’t be bored while bedridden. Diana informed you that the mission was successful in stopping the smuggling operation and brought you some crosswords to spend the time. Etta came by to entertain you with her stories. And of course, Steve was there all the time checking on you and not letting you forget why he was the best partner. You felt so lucky having those people in your life and couldn’t wait to get back to working with them.

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[draftsofcertainties]

We had dinner last week! I was a bit overwhelmed by the fact that he took a leave from work just so we could meet. I thought he did it to take a rest and to make time for his extra project. But eventually he told me his priority was to see me over the weekend, that he got sad when I asked if he had other plans just in case I backed out. Also, my noob brain thought that since we're supposed to be just 'friends with benefits,' it would be inappropriate for us to meet without the fun part, you know. But he said it's okay, he just wanted to see me and hug me. Jeez. My tiny brain almost took it as something more that it should be, but I soon realized that maybe it was just one of the "benefits" aside from physical intimacy.

Anyway, I still had work in the morning until afternoon on the day he took leave, so I said it's better to meet some other time. He said he'd just go to a friend's place to consult some engineering work instead. The day came but his plans were cancelled because his friend was worried about the number of people coming over. Apparently, some of his friends wanted to go too, so his friend got a little worried about the crowd and the virus it may tag along. Yeah. So I jokingly said, "sayang, ang lapit pa naman samin," and then he immediately asked if I still wanted to meet for dinner. I said yes. To be honest, I wanted to meet him again too that day. I was just scared that it might be awkward to go to a dinner date with him. I mean, it's not the setup I was expecting. It wasn't really a big deal. It's just dinner. Maybe I was overthinking the label I established when we just started talking. The first time we met wasn't also the way I imagined, but it wasn't something I regretted. Anyway, we agreed to go after my hospital duty.

It was around 6 in the evening when we arrived at the mall. He arrived a few minutes earlier than me. I had a little struggle commuting. When I saw him waiting for me at the end of the escalator, I got a little too excited so I rushed to hug him. Then he hugged me back. 😌 We couldn't kiss because of the stupid face shields we were wearing. Then we looked for a ramen place since he wanted to eat ramen for dinner. I found it cute that he actually searched for a good ramen place around the area (I usually had to do that before). He asked me if I wanted to try Hanamaruken, and of course I said yes. We started searching for the place. We were holding hands while walking around, and it just struck me while writing that it was a careless move, since there's a good chance someone I know would see me with this new guy in this area. But honestly I didn't care at all. I liked the feeling when he holds me. Sometimes he would bring my hand to his chest when he feels I'm already tired or shaking.

We finally found the ramen place. We ordered their best-selling Happiness Ramen. It sucked that we have to be seated a few feet apart for social distancing, even when we were just holding hands when we entered the restaurant. But it's protocol so we followed. He sat across me, a little to my right since we couldn't eat while facing each other. Still, protocol. Finally, we could put our stupid face shields down. I watched him remove his mask so I could see his face again. Ah, what a sight. He has a pair of gentle deep-set eyes that crinkles when he laughs. He has a small face that is accented by the apples of his cheeks, and a cute hollow on his chin. I like looking at him. Don't get me wrong, I like looking at people, tracing details of their faces, hands, eyes, other body parts. Maybe it's innate to me as a doctor. It's not something new to me. But I like the feeling of looking at him, it's satisfying. 😊 Maybe because when I look at him I remember the intimacy when we're alone. Then I removed my mask and I saw him looking at me and it made me super shy. I mean, he stared at me -- the kind of stare that makes you melt and giggle. ☺ He looked at me with that silly smile for a good few seconds, long enough for me to think that maybe he thinks I'm pretty 🥺 (despite him literally telling me many times already). Our order has finally arrived! Damn, those were huge bowls of ramen! I knew immediately that I couldn't finish it. It was a soy-based ramen, not too big on flavor, but still nicely balanced to satisfy our palates. I just hoped we could decide on the firmness of the noodle, I preferred mine a little bit softer. I taught Edwin how to use chopsticks but I asked for a fork just in case he gives up. But he didn't, even after some clumsy attempts on eating the tamago using chopsticks. 😂 He finished his bowl while I was struggling to consume half of mine, until I said I couldn't eat anymore. He placed his bowl aside to give space for mine, after a few lecture about him feeling guilty towards unfinished servings of food. The ramen was good, but I still preferred Ramen Kuroda which has a creamier broth. We'll try there next time.

After getting our tummies filled with hearty bowls of noodles, we decided to have coffee. I suggested to go to Strabucks at the mall rooftop, so we could have our coffee al fresco. There were a few seats outside the coffee shop but we sat down by the little staircase facing the glass panes hovered against the dimly lit inside of the mall. If we weren't in a pandemic, it's supposed to be busy with movie-goers since it's the Cinema floor. We sat down next to each other, drank our coffee, talked about random stuff. Overall it's just an ordinary conversation but I appreciated the moment because nothing felt forced between the minutes we spent together. I was actually holding back too much because the familiarity was too scary for me. There were a lot of questions I wanted to ask but didn't. A part of me wanted to know him more but another part of me didn't want to get involved too much. I felt too afraid to get attached to anyone or anything at this point. I've changed. I thought I wasn't entitled to know anything from anyone, I was just to accept whatever someone's going to share with me. I was told I shouldn't know everything, so that's what I had been doing. I stopped being too curious, too interested, too involved, too thoughtful -- it would get the best of me in the end. But this person seemed to be one of the good ones, not purely in a romantic way, but as someone I could really trust. But I wasn't ready to open up yet beyond what I could handle if broken this time.

It was quiet and breezy, a way I didn't expect I would describe a mall to be. We were seated right next to each other, no space between us. Our hands interlocked except when we had to use our phones. I couldn't remember all the things we talked about, some were too normal to be remarkable. There were moments when our eyes would just meet and we would kiss, and then it would become apparent that we were craving for more of each other. Again. Always. But a kiss was all we could do. To be honest, I liked the way we kiss. It was always passionate, even the short sneaky ones. Oh, he still had to meet the friend I mentioned, but this time it's just him going alone to avoid a crowd.

It's actually our first time to go out without sex involved. He just missed me so much that it's okay if we didn't do anything beyond kissing. And it turned out well. On our way out we were joking around saying we could do it at the fire exit. 😂 But that's too adventurous and dangerous as well. Maybe next time? 🤔 Anyway since his friend's house was a long my route, we took the same ride home he was just dropped off before me. We kissed before he hopped off and then I took the rest of my way home. The nexy day he told me he talked about me to his friend and I think that was cute. Actuallt I've been being introduced to a number of people in his life and I hope it's fine that way.

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This might be the one angle in the story arc I actuallt accept without too much resistance. Loki’s transformation through out the series makes more sense given the ending (but did feel very forced in the process). The juxtaposition of hurt and giving up sets Sylvie and Loki quite well on opposite sides, giving the reason for their fight among themselves. We’re lead to believe throughout the series that our version of Loki has been taking pause and viewing his own inner workings (at what point and in what condition is the key why it feels so weird) and he has come to realize that the ruling over others has probably never been his ultimate goal (which we already hear him saying all the way back in Thor ”I never wanted the throne, I only ever wanted to be your equal”)

Sylvie being the hurt child she is can not see past her rage at the possible outcome of her actions, which for me seems very plausable. She just wants to react, do what she has thought of all these millenia, and have an end to this. Where as Loki, whose quest has been transformed to being Sylvies helper and his sole goal is to see her happy (which seemed very plastered on in the series as to why this happened but hey, grasping at straws is fine when you’re exhausted) sees the wisdom in perhaps taking a beat to think this through since he sees it might possibly result in an even bigger issue than it already is.

He’s not advocating to take control and doesn’t like either option. All he wants is to take a minute and talk it through. He is in the moment thinking more maturely than Sylvie, which makes perfect sense given their individual backgrounds. And this ofc leads to what is truthfully a very talented portrail of inner juxtapositions - IF we accept the premiss that Sylvie and Loki are variants of the same individual.

The reason why this DOESNT work how ever is that the path leading here was at times very forced and we as a fandom have true difficulties in accepting why Loki made the decisions he did. And this is to large part due to the lack of show instead of tell, where Loki seems to be narrating his inner workings in a manner unsuited to the character we’ve grown to love.

But then again, this is just my thoughts right now. Could be rewatching I find a diffrent take.

Loki is the literal God of Mischief and Chaos though… so none of this makes any sense at all