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#icb am gonna say this but#am just proud and glad that i survived this week 😭😫#it was hella tiring than usual but it was okay i think#maybe more than okay lol but yeah am just glad it's over lol#also it's december now and somehow it made me think what the heck happened this year#time went by fast and idk...almost a year done again and yeah...i made it another year ig? lol#anyways i'll try to update a bit more starting today? hopefully lol#also am proud of you if you also survived this week! or another week 🖤#great job yeah? ^^#that's all so yeah...take care 🖤#have a nice day/night wherever you are(yes the ones reading this)#stay safe 🖤
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𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐒 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐀 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌— RODRICK HEFFLEY X BLACK!READER
ʚ 🍓ɞ including + warnings: rodrick being a nervous boyfriend, black!reader, toothrotting fluff, suggestive themes ʚ 🍓ɞ summary: what it’s like dating Rodrick heffley <3
next in the Rodrick series .
ʚ 🍓ɞ FIRST WEEKS DATING
HELLA SHYYY, despite putting up a ridiculous cool persona when it comes to being around you and your sweet smile all by himself he crumbles
Is scared to indulge in pda or physical intact with you because he’s afraid of coming off as clingy, but once you sit him down and let him know that you’re just as clingy if not more than he is, he starts to loosen up a little
constantly falls asleep with his head in your shoulder whenever around you and he gets tired
Starts looking out for you first in a crowd and gets visibly upset when he can’t reach you
Walks you to and from class no matter if he misses the bell or if your class is on the opposite side of the school. He values every minute he has with you <33
Thinks about giving you goodbye kisses all the time and almost did it once but chickened out and you thought it was adorable
Sends you hella couple TikTok’s late at night
Loves when you squeeze him when you hug, it makes his heart race
Adores all your protective styles but after you sent him a picture of your hair after wash day he was inlove
Damn near fainted when you called him baby on FaceTime late at night
It was 10pm and you were listening to Rodrick recount his day of tormenting Gregory as usual, you were growing sleepy as you listened to his voice lull you to sleep. “He’s such a little shrimp I swear- are you getting tired?” You shook your head no and said, “I’m still up baby.” You giggled as you saw your boyfriends face grow flushed, “You okay? Babyy?” You always got a kick out of seeing Rodrick lose his cool and this moment was just too precious, “Mhm! Y-yeah I’m great, totally fine.”
When he saw you the next day he was determined to make you just as embarrassed, but despite his best efforts when he called you doll all you did was giggle and call him cute after pressing a kiss to his cheek.
Rodrick once left a shirt at your place when he snuck over one time and saw you in it on FaceTime without a bra on he damn near drooled.
ʚ 🍓ɞ FIRST COUPLE MONTHS
Starts to get more comfy, cuddles with you when you’re alone and rests his head on your chest with his arms wrapped around your torso
Play with his hair and he’s like mush on top of you
Can’t get enough of hearing you sing, he loves it when you hum a song mindlessly in his presence, he thinks it’s the cutest thing ever.
Calls you bunny/bun or pinky pie
Walked in on you in just a bra and shorts one time, you didn’t see him again for another 6 minutes.
Had your first kiss in an empty hallway at school, you kissed him first<33
Whenever you do your makeup he insists on watching especially if you wear eyeliner, he’ll sit on your bed like a lost puppy as he watches his pretty girl in adoration.
Kisses you again at his house after he saw you cry over a Disney movie, he called you pretty and held you close to his chest until you had to leave.
Listens to old school music with you late at night over the phone
Said I love you for the first time out of nowhere on the phone, you were so starstruck he came over to say it to your face. He got in trouble for it later but he didn’t care, hearing you say it back was more important.
You have your first makeout session in your bedroom when you were supposed to be studying, the v neck shirt you were wearing complimented your double d’s and showed off the chain that held Rodrick favorite ring he gifted you. You looked so effortlessly pretty, so when you gave him a kiss for getting a question right he went in for another..and another..until your lipliner was smudged and you sat breathless on his lap.
Surprise bear hugs from behind when he misses you
Kisses your neck and messes with your hands when he wants attention
Your voice, your touch, your smile has Rodrick in a choke hold and hopefully the promise ring he’s saving up for with his mom bucks will show you how much he truly loves you <33
#rodrick heffley x black!reader#rodrick heffley x fem!reader#rodrick heffley x reader#rodrick fanfic#diary of a wimpy kid rodrick#rodrick x y/n#rodrick heffley#rodrick heffley x female Reader#rodrick rules#rodrick heffley x y/n#rodrick x reader
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Is it okay if I request a repeat of a prompt you already did? I loved the last one. Can I request Lycaon, Lighter, and Billy reacting to their s/o going missing for a month and coming back beat up?
Hello! That is totally fine if I do a repeated prompt but with different characters I don't mind at all but If I do a repeated prompt that has the same characters than I won't do it again but luckily you did different character but sadly I don't do lighter
Pairings -> Von Lycaon and Billy Kid x Reader
Warnings -> Mentions of being missing, Injuries
Note -> Reader has been gone for a month but comes back looking all beaten up
Genre -> Angst to Fluff
Von Lycaon
He would try his very best to find you, he wouldn't even get a wink of sleep until he finds you
He is worried by his face stays serious and professional
He would just think you would be sick at first but it turns into days until it turns into a month of not being seen by him
Until you were reported missing by your friends
Even though he has a job to do he still tries to figure out where you might of gone
Maybe into a hollow
Or maybe you gotten kidnapped
Or maybe worse killed
He couldn't stop thinking about the terrible things that might of happened to you
And he is willing to find you to see if you were okay and alive
It was a quiet evening without you as he was in his mansion in his room
He sat on the edge of the bed thinking of ways to find you
To get you back in his arms safe and sound
His ear flicked as he hear a knock at the door
Thinking it was just a random or a client or one of his members
So he walked down stairs until he reached the front door, opening it
Revealing you in a horrible state
He couldn't believe it
It was you
He quickly rushed you inside as you looked like you were going to pass out at any minute
He set you down on the couch in the living room as he went to get the first aid kit that Rina gave to him just in case
He gently patched you up
Now you were asleep on the couch while Lycaon stays beside you
Sitting on the floor near you as he strokes your cheek gently to not wake you up
He was glad you were alive
Billy Kid
Billy would freak out in only a day of not seeing you
He would go to the arcade to see if you were there playing a game or not
But nothing
The cafe?
Nothing
The video game store as you usually were there to help Belle and Wise with stuff
Nothing
Now he was really freaking out, making him smoke out form stressing too much
Nicole would have to try and calm him down as she instructed him to try and stay calm as she and the others would help find you
Nothing
They found nothing
No clues or hints on where you might be
Billy was hella worried about you
It has now been a month since you were missing
He looked in so many places to see if you were there
To see if he could see you joyful and smiling face once again
Now he was just sadly lounging on his bed as he sighed
Playing with a plushie that you gave him
His favourite hero Starlight Knight
He missed you very much and wanted to see you again
Until he heard a scream from Nicole telling him to get here quick
He hurried out of his room to meet face-to-face with
"NAME!"
You looked terrible and tired as you were grabbing onto your arm
Billy hurried to you as he led you to the couch to sit down on
He was beside you the whole time
Nicole was the one who patched you up and you were thankful
Now you were resting with Billy laying gently on your stomach as he watched you sleep
Not in a creepy way but in a relief way
-A<3
#zenless zone zero#zzz#zenlesszonezero#zenless zone zero x reader#von lycaon#von lycaon x reader#zzz von lycaon#von lycaon zzz#zzz billy#billy kid zzz#zzz billy kid#billy kid x reader
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ma’am i only found your blog yesterday but your ex hubby bakugo got me in a trance, and i hsjsksksksksk, but ill present you: ‘drunk ex husband bakugo’ i- i mean he would be so silly and calls you at 1am to tell you how much he loves you and the little one and how much he misses you, babbles away all the nonsense else, but the way he murmurs and mumbles silly things on the phone got you giggle at midnight (and sad at the time because holy hell you miss him too), then you have to talk him out of it to go home and sleep, he listens, he goes home, yeah, and 10 minutes later he shows up at your front door (still hella woozy) because he is just that stupidly drunk and he has always wanted to go home to you :((
ANON ??? OUCH ????? THIS MAKES ME SAD AKFJSODHAIA
i've always wanted to do drunk ex-whathaveyou bakugou that shows up at your door too late 🥺 but in this instance !! i feel like. you get a few calls in the middle of the night, but they're very short ?? like you wake up to your phone ringing and it's his number, so you're reaching for it, but it stops before you can answer. and you're thinking, "darn i must have slept through the first few rings," and as you're typing out a text to check in with him, he calls again for like two rings, and then it stops. and then he calls and it rings for one and then it stops.
and so now you're like — okay maybe he's butt-dialing me LOL but he tries again like 20 minutes later and you're so tired of the ring-tone that you answer it as fast as you can and just listen, waiting to see if you can hear his voice distantly, as if you're down in his back-pocket.
but he grumbles, "—the fuck? hello?"
and you ask him, "uh hey, have you been trying to call me?" but you're almost certain he doesn't hear you, because half-way through you are able to hear the loud background music and then the sound of shuffling, his grumpy lil "—the fuck off me, 'm—shut th'hell up—'m on the DAMN PHONE!"
clearly, there's a struggle, so you just kind of wait, worried you're about to hear your ex-husband get nerfed while on patrol maybe ?? but then the music drops away and is replaced by a barely-there scratchy wind, and he's breathless when he asks if you're still there.
"yeah, no, i'm still here. is...everything okay?"
he huffs, so heavy into the phone that the static almost hurts your ears. "whadda'you think?"
it's bitter enough that you blink in the darkness of your room, before glaring at the opposite wall. "excuse me?"
"fuck, 'm sorry, i—fuck." he inhales audibly, stuttering. "i'm sorry."
you frown, head turning; he sounds lazy, like he can't be assed to speak properly, and he's speaks impolitely on the regular — but it's never this bad. all his words sound curved, looped together, and he's shuffling too much on the other end, sniffing loud and mumbling to himself. almost like he's—
"are you...drunk?"
you're expecting an immediate no, even if evidence is proving otherwise, because he's not a drinker. occasionally, when he's out for dinner or at one of kirishima's backyard barbecues, but it's so infrequent that his tolerance is low, for someone of his size. it doesn't take much to have him a little sloshed, and he hates it, not only for the feeling the day after, but because his mouth tends to run. more than usual.
"it's that fuckin'—dunce head ass 'n his—stupid piano teeth, tape-face—"
kaminari and sero, you think. you think.
"'n i didn't want to fuckin' come to shit like this, ever. because they're so 'blah fuckin' blah, get over yourself', as if i'm—whatever. dumbasses." he pauses, and before you can finish piecing together what he's trying to say, he continues. "'n i'm not even like them, because they're fucking losers, and i don't—i don't even want that chick's number, okay? i don't fuckin' care, okay?"
your heart throbs dangerously, suddenly swollen and too tender, at the very thought of him and someone else, and you have to squeeze your eyes shut tight. "bakugou—"
"bakugou?" he cuts you off loudly, offended. "'r'you fuckin'—sorry, shit. bakugou? you're a goddamn bakugou—"
you have the throw the blankets off your lap so that you can hurry to your bedroom door, to shut it before hissing at him. "i'm not gonna sit here and get cussed out, katsuki. we're divorced."
"sorry! fuck, i'm—i mean—sorry, sorry. 'm not—it ain't at you, y'know? you know that, right?"
and you do. you do know that. it's just how he talks, he would tell you, and he would cut down on it for a little while before it inevitably came back and — it just hurts, at times. to be on the receiving end of his hottest flame.
"yeah," you tell him quietly, leaning against the door when he sighs. "yeah, i know."
"she—" he groans, deep and frustrated. "she fuckin'—god, sorry. she did that t'me all th'time, y'know? 'cut the fuckin' attitude, katsuki,' 'n then fuckin' SMACK!" you can hear the sharp sound of his slap, metallic, like he's against a lamp post or something. "but then she's comin' up t'my room, all like, 'y'know i love you' 'n—how 'm i suppos' t'know that stuff?"
he's never really spoken about his childhood; his parents, yes, through comments here and there about how they irritated him, but nothing serious. you've seen firsthand how tumultuous his relationship with his mother is, and she still smacks him around, but he's big now, much bigger than she is; you never considered what it was like for him, when he was younger.
even if he is drunk, even if he won't remember tomorrow — you still want to be there for him.
you realize he's waiting for an answer, with how long he's quiet, and you shrug to yourself before gently saying, "i don't know, katsuki. it sounds like it would have been very confusing."
"yeah, i mean—" he exhales slowly, though the end trails off into a growl, as if he's grown frustrated again. "i would never fuckin' hit you."
"i know that, katsuki, and i've never thought you would. and i would never hit you, either, y'know?"
"yeah," he repeats, and you can hear him swallowing, the sound so thick that you think he might choke. "i'd never hit you, or—or—hey, where is he? i wanna talk to 'im."
at the mention of your son, you peek down the hall to make sure his door isn't open, that he's not snooping around like you've caught him doing lately — but it's still mostly closed, and you don't hear any little feet against the hardwood.
you squint at your phone, blinded momentarily at the blue-light as you check the time. "it's the middle of the night, katsuki, he's asleep."
"did he have a good day?"
"yeah, he—"
"tell me about it. tell me th-the whole thing."
and — you do, as he listens and grunts and murmurs little things you don't catch. occasionally, he'll groan, really quiet like he's trying not to cry, and it's after the third time he asks to speak to him again that you finally decide to call him an uber.
and you put in his home address !!! but not thirty minutes later, you are sort of roused out of sleep because he's lightly knocking on your door, in the middle of the night, and you have to get up and go check so he doesn't wake your son up !!!!
and he's probably a MESS, all red-faced and SAD, rubbing at his eyes, almost tripping into your house because he was leaning against the door. it's not even worth arguing about getting him to his actual home because it's late and he's being a little loud, so you just give him some water and make him lay down on the couch and — he's out like a light right away LOL
but. you wake up a few hours later to him laying in your bed, on top of the blankets, his pants are on the floor but his shirt and jacket are still on LOL and he's not quite touching you, but if you jostle even a little bit, his face will press into your back 🥺 you don't know when he got up and came into your room, but he was sober enough to be quiet about it, and when you wake up in the morning, he's already re-dressed and sitting with your son at the kitchen table 🥺
WAAAAHHH i made this so sad. i'm so sorry akjfajfajaljfa he's such a BABY !!! god help me, bc if it really was me, i would take him back in a heartbeat LOL
#he looks like shit — well as shitty as someone as beautiful as him could possibly look LOL#and he's clearly so hungover but your son is eating breakfast and bouncing in his seat bc his dad is here 🥺#and kiri eventually shows up to get him and bakugou just awkwardly apologizes and promises he's never drinking again LMAOO#cw children#✿ willow writes#✿ ask willow#✿ thoughts: bakugou#✿ theme: dad bakugou#✿ theme: ex husband bakugou
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Wiggity wack yo(🍋Crewel x Fem! Reader x Sam🍋)
Real not click bait
OKAY AHHHHH so I was told by my boyfriend that tumblr is gonna think im a bot for a bit I can assure you I'm not so im offering this for peace
Okay uhm now back to the fic LOLO
♧CW!! Fem reader, fem pronouns, fem descriptions for body parts, sex with older sexy men yummy, READER IS NOT YUU!!!, reader is like staff or some shit idk make your own shit up i dont care, penis stuff, what stuff? Idk yet your guess is as good as mine, anal AND vagina sex, at the same time btw, threesome or however you spell it M/M/F, yeah you're getting them both at the same time crazy shit ik, I can take them both, what? In a fight? Who said anything about a fight? We get praised, bc my biggest kink is being loved, I love these two, im used to Ao3 im so sorry for how this is formatted, also I hella ship crewel x sam and they will be together in this fic dont you dare think they won't.
Okay so yeah the CW does have a lot of jokes in it but im nervous bc this is my first fic thats like this but it does have actual warnings btw so please read them
NOT PROOFREAD!!!
Okay now onto the fic. Enjoy, you horny goblin.
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♧It had been two months since you came to NRC for the first time.
Crowley hired you to be a counselor for the boys in the school. He decided that having a housewarden overbolt every so often wasn't worth the trouble and they needed a shoulder to cry on. And that just so happened to be you.
Crowley had made it apparent he wanted you, telling the agency you worked with that it had something to do with "women being better at comprehending emotion." You didn't mind, the pay was generous and the students were sweet enough to make you want to stay.
You already met most of the students by now, having all the housewardens in every other day just to express their family issues was something you had to deal with. Having the vice housewardens in afterwards wasn't very pleasurable either, but you had to make do. Sometimes Crowley would come in just to see how things were going, he'd say it was to "be generous", he brought you food Sometimes too.
You found yourself getting very close to the married couple of the school, Sam and Crewel. They were very sweet to you, complementing your style when you'd come in, hang out with you during break, Crewel would even bring you snacks from Sam's shop when he had the chance. You would hang out with them a lot, and though you didn't want to admit it, you did find both of them attractive, but you would never hurt their marriage.
Every once in a while, Crewel and Sam invited you over to their house. You'd have drinks, play games, get into really deep conversations about how Crowley sucked, the things friends do.
You didn't want to admit your feelings. You didn't want to admit how you'd slightly blushing when they were being nicer than usual. You didn't want to admit how your heart would beat out of its chest when Crewel would stand behind you, snaking his hands over yours to guide them to teach you how to make a margarita. You didn't want to admit how you'd get so excited when Sam would willingly buy your favorite snacks and have Crewel deliver them to you. It wasn't worth losing two amazing friends over two simple crushes.
You had just gotten done a long day of counseling all the first years, Ace and Deuce to get their counseling together. It was just as hectic as it sounded, taking up almost 4 hours of your time with other students coming and leaving when they realized how long the wait would be. You needed a way to relax and get your mind off this job. Luckily, Crewel came into your office at the end of the day and invited you over for drinks.
This was the perfect stress reliever, hanging out with your two amazing friends and having drinks sounded perfect after a long day. Crewel quickly noticed how tired you were, your disheveled appearance quaking from the little sleep you had. He decided to schedule the meet up for later in the day so you'd get some sleep beforehand. "We don't want you falling asleep on us, now do we?" Crewel gives you a small chuckle and a wink before bidding his goodbye and leaving.
Getting up from your chair with an exhausted sigh, you pack your notes into your bag and leave your office, locking the door behind you. Crowley said to always lock your office when you aren't there, something about the students being nosy and may snoop around. It didn't matter though, it was the end of the school day and the start of the weekend, who would spend their Friday snooping around in a counselors office?
Finally getting to the chamber room and walking through the mirror, you're at the part of campus where all the staff lives. Medium sized houses in a nice circle with Treins house being the biggest and in the middle. Unlocking your front door, you sigh and take off your jacket while laying your keys down on the table next to the door. Going upstairs and into your room, you take your bra and skirt off, climbing into bed after setting an alarm.
Crewel was nice enough to set the meet up back a few hours, scheduling it for 10. Giving you a nice 4 and a half hours to catch up on much needed sleep.
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After being asleep for around 4 hours, you awoke to your alarm going off. It was 9:25, giving you 30 minutes to get ready.
Getting out of bed you hop into the shower to get washed up. Using the lovely sugar scrubs you usually do and washing your (H/L) (H/C) hair with a wonderful smelling shampoo and conditioner. Getting out of the shower, blow drying your hair and figuring out what to wear.
You finally decided on a nice (F/C) dress, not too skin tight, but leaving enough to the imagination to make it desirable. Luckily it wasn't out of the ordinary for you to wear something like this, so they wouldn't think anything of it.
It was getting to the time of leaving, so you quickly pack your things and head out. Closing the door behind you, you walk across the empty street and make it to their door. Since they lived in the same house, you would often catch them walking out early in the morning. It was convenient to say the least.
Knocking three times before the door opens with enthusiasm, you're greeted with Crewels smiling face as he greets you. He holds the door open as you walk in, taking your bag and coat off and putting them on the hangers near the door. Sam greets you from the kitchen, beckoning you to come and see him.
When you do, he has a bunch of machinery on the counter. "Sam used to be a barista before he started working here. He stopped a long time ago, but his love for coffee didn't. We decided to invest in some machinery to indulge in his hobby. Expensive, but worth it to see him happy." Crewel says as he walks behind you and gives you a smile.
"I've always loved working with coffee, the pure smell alone is enough to drive a man, me, wild. Come here, I'll show you have to work an expresso machine!" Sam says with a huge smile on his face. Something tells you alcohol isn't being involved tonight, perhaps its for the better.
Walking over to Sam he steps behind you and guides your hands to the different cups and powders to make a shot of expresso. Did Crewel and Sam always have similar ways of teaching? They aren't like this to the other staff..
After making the expresso, Sam grabs some coffee he brewed earlier. Pouring it into a mug and the expresso on top, he starts the foam art. Watching him pour the foam in different directions was almost mesmerizing, and soon enough, you had a little foam kitty! How cute!
Sam had finished his and Crewels coffee and you sat down at the coffee table with them. They were silent, more than usual. Their eyes would dart across the room, occasionally landing on you but quickly shifting focus. It seemed as though they wanted to say something, but couldn't figure out how to put it.
"Is something wrong? You guys are awfully silent tonight, I hope I didn't upset you in anyway-" you trailed off, trying to figure out what was going on.
"No, no! Its not you at all!" They both practically shouted while jumping from their chairs, spilling some coffee in the process. Grabbing some tissues and sitting down, they clean themselves up.
"Look, we've been meaning to ask you something- its just- we don't know how to exactly ask about it." Sam says, Crewel still trying to dab some coffee off of the vest hes wearing.
"We think that, maybe, we can open our marriage, but, just to you. We want to try things with you, see what we like, experiment a little." Crewel adds with flushed cheeks. He must be pretty nervous about this.
Sam takes a nervous sip of his coffee before continuing on what Crewel had just stated. "We trust you. We think that you're the only person that could be fit for this, and we're willing to help you explore that side of you. The 'nastier' side, so I've heard the kids say."
Well that was a lot to take in, a bit too much actually. You had felt your entire face heat up as you realized what they meant. A sort of rush of adrenaline creep in. Was this actually happening? You've wanted it bad since you first met them, but you never thought it would actually happen.
Sam and Crewel looked at you as you completely space out. You could feel the tension in the air, their stares getting impatient as their cheeks formed new colors you'd never seen on them.
"We completely understand if you don't want to do this, we won't force you into anyth-" Crewel chimed in after deciding the silence was too much, but was then swiftly cut off.
"I'll do it. I mean- I want to, that is. I've been wanting to, I just didn't want to make you guys uncomfortable. I mean, you're always so sweet to me, I thought we just had something platonic going on, but I had no clue you guys felt the same." You say while practically being out of breath. Pressing your thighs together as an instinct, Crewel quickly switches his gaze to a lovely house plant as his cheeks heat up more.
"Are you sure you want to do this? We'd never force you into anything, but we do want your full consent." Sam practically sighs out. Crewel is still red, but now is occasionally sparing glances at you.
"Yes, im sure. You may do whatever you please." Chuckling, you say with a smile directed to them. Sam gives you a soft smile while Crewel stands up from his chair.
"I'll get everything situated. Sam, if you want to take her into the bedroom and get her situated, that would be appreciated, I'll be in as soon as I'm done getting everything ready." Crewel says while walking out of the room, giving you both a wink on the way out.
"Alrighty then! Let's get you ready!" Sam yells while taking your hand and leading you to the bedroom. When you walk in, you take in the beautiful scenery. Large king sized bed, beautiful red curtains, their bedroom is huge! "Dont be intimidated, Crowley decided to give us extra space. He says we're his 'little gay friends.' We're not even completely gay! Wiggity wack, yo!"
You were so grateful that Sam knew how to break the silence and make you comfortable you didn't even notice he had left your side to go to one of their personal cabinets. "We had been planning this for awhile, we just didn't want to scare you away is all. Crewel and I had picked up a few sets of lingerie for you. You can try them on while we wait for him to get back! No pressure of course. I just figured you may not have expected something like this to happen and you wanted to change into something more... fitting... for the occasion."
Then, it hit you. You were wearing such normal panties, it hurt! Shame on you, shame on you!
Going to the cabinet, you skimmed through the sets of lingerie. None really caught your eye, until you landed on a lacy white two peice with pearly accents. Sexy, baby!
"Oh, you like that one? Thats Crewels favorite. Hes gonna go batshit crazy if he sees you in that! Personally I dont give a shit what you're wearing, you'll be naked and in my arms by the end of the night so it doesn't matter." He says with a smug look on his face. Was that... a threat? Why was it sexy for him to say if it was? He was leaning with his arms crossed on the cabinet, looking for any sign that you were uncomfortable. They really were putting your needs above theirs.
"Go! Try it on! I wanna see Crewels face when he comes back!" He lightly shooshes you away with a hearty laugh that made your cheeks red. After showing you to the bathroom, he leaves you to the privacy of the semi cold, hard floor room. Getting changed, you heard the door open and Crewel walk in. Sam and him were talking about something you just couldn't hear what. Putting the panties to the lingerie set on, you had realized they untied at the sides. How convenient! Stepping outside, you felt their eyes practically rip you apart.
"Hot diggity dog! I'm so sorry, that sounded so weird oh my god." Sam slaps his face before cupping his eyes in embarrassment. Crewel sent him a death glare before looking back at you with wide eyes and completely red cheeks.
"Uhm.. we should uh.. go over safety precautions. Our safeword is going to be, 'blue', understood?" Crewels voice was shaky and he was clearly avoiding your gaze, but he did sound serious. Shaking your head yes, he continues. "Alright. Remember, any time you get uncomfortable, or you want to stop, or anything, just say the safeword and we'll stop immediately. As for everything else, I got some things for us. Just to make everything a smoother process is all. Lube, vibrators, simply just things to have your body relax. As for protection, both Sam and I can't have kids. In our defense we didn't think something like this would happen."
"In short, you're gonna be fine. We'll make sure you're treated nice and good, don't worry. Crewel and I are, as the kids would say, 'freaks in the sheets', but we'll wait until later dates to actually try those things with you. If you're comfortable, that is." Sam smiles at you. It was comforting to see all the precautions they're taking.
"I'm okay with anything really, I mean, I dont have very much experience but im willing to try things out! It's just, im a bit nervous is all.." Sam looks at you as though he's seen something so otherworldly gorgeous he can't explain it, and he gently takes your hands.
"Hey, dont be scared, okay? We'll go as slow as you want, and if at anytime you want to stop we will. We just want you to have a good time." Sam winks as he gives your hands a gently squeeze of reassurance. Crewel was silently taking off his coat all the while looking at the way the lingerie was hugging your body. Blush was covering your cheeks as you take your hands out of sams grasp and cup them together in a nervous fashion.
"Thanks.. its just this outfit im wearing is starting to be a bit uncomfortable." You say while looking away from their prying eyes.
"Well let's take it off then." Crewel says with a grin on his face while making eye contact.
"Mhm. I agree. If its making you so uncomfortable we should take it off." Sam says while giving you his signature grin. He takes your hand and leads you to their shared bed, sitting you on his lap in the middle of the comfortable mattress. Crewel followed and crawled towards the two of you, while landing front of you and spreading your legs gently.
Sam slowly leans into the crook of your neck, "I'm gonna take these off, okay?" He whispers in your ear as he places the strings of your panties in his fingers. Nodding in agreement, he gives the shell of your ear a soft nip, earning a small yelp from you, making the men giggle.
He slowly takes his fingers and pulls on the drawstrings, Crewel in front of you, watching in anticipation. Shyness taking over, you instinctively shut your legs close when Sam begins to take the peice of loose fabric off.
Crewel places one hand on your inner thigh and pries them open, clicking his tongue while shaking his head in light hearted dissapointment. "Ah-ah, no hiding sweetheart, cmon, you'll be begging to be touched more by the end of the night, we have to start somewhere, dont we?" Crewels voice was laced with last, you had never heard him act like this before, but God you wanted more.
You you began to crawl up Sams lap in a stroke of nervousness, to which he only gave a soft smile at. "You'll be a good girl for Divus, wont you? You'll be so good for him, let him eat you out, right?" Sam says from behind you in a teasing tone, while Crewel waited patiently for your response. Nodding yes, Crewel dove between your legs like a starved man.
A loud moan escapes your lips from the sudden burst of pleasure, earning a chuckle from the man behind you. Placing both hands on Sam's thighs in an attempt to keep your balance, you only ended up digging your fingernails into his skin. Leaving harsh, painful nail marks on his legs, Sam groans at the sudden pain. He takes his hand, interlocking it in Crewels hair and pulling him forward so he can reach deeper parts of you. You moan loudly at Crewel being able to hit spots no one else could, and Sam takes his hand out of Crewels hair and places two fingers on your clit, making circular motions with light pressure.
With all the stimulation, it doesn't take long for you to cum, which you do with a loud moan. Crewel licks all of your juices up and swallow them in a single motion. "Delicious, as expected." He says as he softly caresses your cheek for comfort. Sam begins to rub slow circles into the flesh of your thigh, giving them light pinches every word often.
Crewel begins to unbuckle his belt with one hand, the other still stroking your cheek. "Are you alright with taking us both at the same time? Its alright if not, we can take turns if you'd like." Crewel makes eye contact with you as he asks, making you swallow hard in anxiety. As you begin to think, Sam lays his head in the crook of your neck in anticipation.
"I'm alright with taking you both at the same time, its just please be slow, im a little scared is all... this is my first time doing something like this..." you say as a small chuckle comes from them both. "Of course we'd be slow silly! You're our main priority, so we just want to make you comfortable." Sam says as he kisses your neck and slowly retreats from his resting place on your shoulder.
"I'd suggest you prepare her for... well, anal. You're alright with that, right?" Crewel asks with concern in his eyes. Now THIS was something you didn't expect tonight, but not unwelcome.
"I'm okay with it! But please, please be gentle, I've never done this before." You say as you look behind you at Sam. He gives you a smile before ruffling your hair. "I know I know, I'll be gentle I swear." He says as he begins to let his slender fingers roam to you ass. "Get ready, okay? This is gonna feel weird and possibly hurt for a minute, but it'll get better."
Taking a deep breath, you nod your head. Sam takes one finger and begins to slowly inch his way in, letting you stretch out. You slowly grown out at the alien feeling, gripping Sam's thighs harder than you were before.
He begins to curl his finger in you, slipping in another one as you start to loosen up more. Crewel could sense the way it hurt, he leaned down and started kissing and rubbing your thighs gently, hoping it would help you ease.
Sam could feel you loosen from this, to the point he was able to slip a third finger in, earning a moan from you. He began to curl his fingers upwards as he kissed and sucked on the sensitive skin of your neck. With the stimulation, you ended up cumming after a few minutes.
As Crewel lapped up your juices again, but gently this time as to not overstimulate you, Sam began to praise you more. "Look at you, doing so good for us, taking us so well. I cant wait to have you coming undone on us." Sam said as he placed a light kiss on your cheek.
Crewel took the rest of his clothes off, leaving him in just his boxers, letting you stare in awe at how well built he was. He took your hand and let you sit in his lap. "Just a second doll, Sam needs to undress himself." He says as he buries his face in the crook of your neck, placing sweet kisses on it. After a minute, Sam was done and was also in just his boxers, guiding you back onto his lap.
"Which hole ya wanna take? Rock paper scissors? No, thats too cliche.." Sam rambles on. "I'm fine with whatever, what do you want, y/n?" Crewel tags into the conversation as he scoots closer to the two of you, holding your waist in the process.
"I'm okay with the position we're in right now, with you being in the front, Sam in the back.. it seems fine like this." The men smile at how genuine you're being, voicing your concerns, ect. Its cute to them. They nod and hum in agreement as Crewel grabs a bottle of lube.
"I reckon I won't have to use this as much as you will, Sam. Take it slow, hurt her and I'll beat the shit out of you." Crewel says with a smile on his face, sort of whispering that last part.
"I am gentle! I'm always gentle, some would even call me a gentleman!" Sam says with a playful scowl, taking the bottle from him. You begin to giggle as you see Crewel slowly take off his boxers, reveling his already, very hard member.
"Sorry love, you looked too cute, couldn't help it, yknow?" He says, giving you a wink as his breath speeds up. You feel Sam shifting under you and you feel him take off his boxers, throwing them to the side.
Oh no, they're both huge! Crewels is long, around 7-8.5 with reasonable girth, while Sams is 6.5 and a lot thicker. How are you gonna take them both at once?
"I know what you're thinking, you'll be alright. We'll take it slow, build up speed with time." Sam says as he places a quick kiss on your temple. He squeezes the lube on his hand, rubbing it together to warm it up before putting it on his cock. Earning a hiss from him, he sighs and places both hands on your waist. Lifting your body up, both him and Crewel line themselves with your holes, and wait for your confirmation.
Placing both hands on Crewels shoulders, you nod your head before they begin to slowly sink themselves into you, stretching you out more in the process. Moans from all three of you fill the room as they lower you down more and more.
Once they are fully in, they both huddle close to your body, singing you praise after praise as they wait for you to let them move. After a few minutes pf being out of breath and simply just panting you give them the go ahead.
"You can move, I'm okay now." And with that, they pull their torsos away from you and place their hands on your waist. Starting at a slow pace for you to get used to it, they slowly and gradually add more speed as they both bounce you on their cocks.
Sam rests his head on your shoulder, panting in your ear as his grip on you tighten and his muscles tense. Crewel doing the same, but while bouncing you, he begins to thrust upwards when you come down to make a larger impact, earning a loud moan that makes you tense around them.
Ssm gets jealous of how Crewel seems to be fucking you better, so he starts to do the same, meeting his thrusts with your timing. You were all moaning messes and by the looks of it, none of you could last very long.
Sam grits his teeth as his hands make their way to your tits, softly squeezing and pinching them. Crewel let's his hands wander to your pussy, taking his thumb and rubbing circles on your clit. You dont last long after they begin to do this, and cum for the third time this night, riding out your high as Sam and Crewel chase theirs.
You can feel Sams breath speed up and grow more hoarse as his grip on your thighs and breast slightly tighten. "Shit shit shi-" a loud groan erupted from his chest as he spills his seed in you. Crewel falling seconds after, cumming in you as he thrusts upwards, keeping it in.
You all lay on the bed for a few seconds, basking in eachothers presence while catching your breath. Crewel slowly pulls out, earning a whince from you. He walks into the bathroom and comes back seconds later with a wash cloth.
"Cmon Sam, you gotta get out." Crewel says as he looks at him, with a whine Sam pulls out too, letting both their juices spill out of you. "Such a good girl for us, keeping all our cum in her. You did so well for us dear." Crewel says as he cleans you up. Lightly dabbing the cloth on your now sensitive areas, he softly chuckles at the way your body reacts.
Sam walks to the other side of the room, going into a small fridge and grabbing three waters and a few snacks. "I've got waters for all of us and some chocolates for the girl of the hour." He says with a wink. Crewel is done cleaning you and goes to throw the soiled towel in a wash basket as Sam opens your water and chocolates.
Replenishing your thirst and munching on the surprisingly delicious chocolates, Sam picks you up unexpectedly and moves you to the front of the bed. "What, you didn't think we were gonna kick you out after this, did you?" Crewel says chuckling as he comes back from being in the bathroom.
"Honestly, im not sure what to expect from you guys anymore." You say with a chuckle. Both men chuckle aswell as they make it into bed with you, sandwiching you between them. Shifting the pillows and blankets around until you're all comfortable, you lay in a comfortable silence.
As you all say your goodnights as the lights in the room turn off, you can't help but think of what situation you're in. Having two men who just fucked you into oblivion now cuddling you goodnight? You could get used to this.
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A/N: im lorde yaya im lorde yaya
#twisted wonderland#twst#twisted wonderland smut#twst crewel#twst divus#divus crewel#crewel x reader#divus x reader#sam twst#sam twisted wonderland#twst smut#crewel smut#twst sam smut#need these men so bad wow#im down so bad for them#crying screaming rolling on the floor
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Trafalgar Law x Y/N ficlet
Fluff, general care, hella smooching, slightly toasty 👀, hand massage, Law being a softie✨️💖
A/N: Something I thought up after seeing @kittycatzuka post here, it gave me the feels and this is what my brain thought up.
I hope you all enjoy! ✨️💖
Also, I just spent like an hour beta-ing it so if you see any mistakes, no you don't. 😎 okay love you my lil tangerines! ✨️💖
Header by @baka-tsuki / @baka-tsuki-2 💖
It was supposed to be a quiet night for the captain. All the man wanted to do was finish his paperwork, read some Sora and pass out into a restless sleep.
Since Y/N showed up, it never seemed to work out the way Law wanted. Every night, she'd knock on his office door to say goodnight, no matter the amount of times he tried to tell her she didn't have to, that she could just simply go to bed and he'd see her in the morning for breakfast. It never deterred her, her smiling face always popping in through the cracked door with a small wave.
This night was different.
Law glanced over at the clock on his desk, frowning to himself as he realized you were late, not showing up around the time you usually did. He then paused, curiously irritated at realizing the fact that he was worried, immediately thinking the worst had happened you.
He let his pen drop to the desk as his other hand ran through his hair, his eyes closing as he took a deep breath. God, he was exhausted.
There was a soft thunk as ceramic hit his desk, his eyes snapping open to see you placing a fresh cup of tea right above his incomplete paperwork.
"Y/N-ya."
You cracked a tired smile of your own before hiding a yawn behind your now free hand, lifting your mug in a silent cheers to him as you sat in the chair opposite his desk.
"Saw your light was on, thought maybe you could use a little something," your voice was soft as you spoke, unable to hide how tired you were from his prying eyes.
"While I appreciate it, you should be in bed already. We have a big day tomorrow," he replied, gently picking up the hot mug with a sigh through his nose. Yeah, he definitely needed this.
"So should you, dear Captain."
He huffed gently, staring you down before taking a long sip.
"I'm not done my job for the day."
You cracked a grin at the sight of him complaining, his distaste for the job showing itself very clearly.
"I can give you a hand, if that'll help?"
He hummed in disagreement into the mug, taking another sip before replying,
"You'd only make it take longer."
While there was teasing in his tone, you couldn't hide the way your grin slowly slid from your lips, your eyes glancing down at the mug in your hands. He kicked himself as a pain clutched around his chest, hating that he made you look that way.
"... I appreciate the offer, Y/N, thank you. Your company helps more than enough."
Your eyes flickered back to his at his words, your cheeks tinting pink as you murmured,
"... glad to help."
It was only for a moment but it felt like ages, the way his eyes bored into yours. It was like you were a puzzle he was trying to slove and couldn't, his frustration showing in his gaze. Your heart jumped into your throat, your mind screaming at him to just kiss you, to say something, to tell you everything you wanted him to say-
The moment broke as he went back to his scribbling, one hand around his mug while the other scratched away. You made yourself more comfortable in the large chair, your eyes wandering his face, not knowing he could feel your very hungry gaze on him.
Pride washed over him, his ego flaring as a smirk ticked up his lips. He did have a feeling you liked him, but this moment here proved to him that he was right.
"See something you like, Y/N?"
There was a heavy silence as your eyes widened, unsure of how to respond so you remained quiet, simply watching him for any signs of a joking manner.
You were incredibly confused when you could only sense a serious air around him.
It took a moment to gather courage but you did finally respond, looking down at your mug for a moment before glancing back to him as you commented lightly,
"Surely it's obvious that I do."
The air was so thick it could have been sliced with a butterknife. You both stared at each other for what felt like ages before you looked away first, unable to handle the heat of his gaze on you like this.
"... good to know."
His response caused you to grin, pulling your bottom lip between your teeth as you bit back a happy sound, not wanting to feed his already giant ego. A more comfortable silence covered you both as he went back to his work, now motivated to finish it quicker than before.
You'd drank your entire tea by the time he finally finished. You'd been slouched lazily in the chair, glancing around his office with mildly bored eyes, having already taken everything in to the point you could name off each book and it's order on the shelf. He yawned loudly, rubbing his face with both hands before standing, placing his completed work off to the side before coming around his desk to stand by you, leaning on it for support.
"You should get some rest," you started, giving a yawn of your own and going to move before you noticed him massaging his hand. You looked up at him, his exhausted expression filling your chest with a ache you didn't enjoy.
You had to do something.
Placing the empty mug beside him, you then reached out and gently took his writing hand into your own warm palms, you began massaging his own, your thumbs pressing down to the point where he grunted softly.
"Yeah, I know it sucks but this is what happens when you don't take proper breaks," you murmured, focusing on doing your best not to look up at him, your cheeks burning so hot that you began to worry you gave yourself a fever.
A particularly illicit groan left your Captain when you pressed at one point, your eyes finally flicking up at him for just a moment and you couldn't help but smile at seeing his relaxed expression. His eyes were shut, his chest rising and falling as he took slow, deep breaths.
Your heart clenched - you wished he looked like this more, so quiet and tender -
Your thoughts stopped as you looked back to his hand, your thumbs working down to his wrist and forearm, not noticing him leaning closer to you to give you better reach.
It took only a few minutes, letting his arm gently drop to his side as you held your hands palm up out for his other one.
"Other hand, please!"
He was silent the entire time, lifting his hand to you as you did the same thing, starting at his palm before going to his long fingers, showing them love and stretching them before moving down to his wrist and forearm.
You were so focused that you didn't noticed his free hand coming catch your chin, his long fingers lifting your face gently. Your eyes met and your stomach churned, knowing your face was still bright red as he looked over your face. Your fingers had stopped, clamped gently around his forearm.
You couldn't place the look he was giving you, trying to convince yourself that he was not giving you bedroom eyes - the man was exhausted, for fucks sake! But you couldn't help how your body warmed at his touch, wanting so desperately to lean into his touch.
The sudden fear of rejection hit you like a ton of bricks. You must have made a face because his thumb brushed over your bottom lip, almost as if trying to comfort you.
"You look worried," he breathed out, his breath so warm and so close that it danced across your face. Your eyes were locked in an intense gaze, his dark and craving; yours wide and needy in your own right. Warmth pooled in your lower region as his eyes looked down at your lips for a moment, the air suddenly heavy once again as his gaze met yours again.
"I... I am worried," you finally whispered, eyes never leaving his. He moved closer again, so slowly that it felt like he was teasing you.
"Why?"
Not a question, a demand.
"... because I'm scared that you'll kiss me and I'll get attached."
A slow, wicked grin came over his features when you finally spoke.
"As if you're not already attached."
His words felt like a punch to your gut, causing you to gasp out softly before his lips consumed yours, both your eyes falling shut as he took what he wanted. It wasn't a soft kiss, but it wasn't demanding either. It held just enough emotion that you felt the anxiety of earlier wash off you like a wave, your shoulders unconsciously dropping though your hands remained on his arm.
When he finally pulled away, you were a mess. Your heart was pounding so loud in your ears, it felt like vertigo. Your eyes slowly reopened, confusion and hope written across your face like an open book as you stared at him. You were nearly breathless as you somehow got out,
"Um... Wow."
Law blinked a few times before he broke down, laughing so loud and hysterically that he pulled away from you, leaning over with his hands on his knees. You sat there blinking, feeling even more confused, wondering what the hell was going on. His laughter echoed in the room, and probably the entire sub but clearly he was gone, absolutely fucked up.
Just straight up bonkers.
When he finally calmed, one hand came up to wipe away the laughter tears as he leaned back up, a wide smile on his face as he took a moment to collect himself.
He finally looked down at you, your own almost nervous smile etched into your face as you waited for him to explain himself.
"You, Y/N-ya, are something else, you know? How you've flipped my life upside down."
The amount of sincerity in his voice immediately made you begin to tear up, you're heart leaping from your chest into your throat and stopping you from responding. You simply gave your own genuine smile in return, one hand quickly wiping away the few tears that slipped out.
A heavy hand landed on the top of your head, long fingers rustling your hair as Law gave another chuckle. Your smile remained as your swiped at his hand, his own grin turning cheeky as he lightly slapped your hand away.
There was a pause between you two, with him running a tired hand through his hair as you rubbed at your face, biting back a yawn. As he took in your exhausted form, he knew it was time for you both to hit the hay.
"You crazy brat. Go to bed," he started, moving his hands to grasp your own and pulling you out of the chair. He turned you and walked you to the door just a few feet away, opening it but holding you to him, his hands on your shoulders. You noted they were shaking slightly through hazy thoughts as his warm chest hit your back.
"I'll see you at breakfast. Save me a seat?"
His breath brushed over your ear, causing your skin to erupt in goosebumps. He didn't give you enough time to respond, giving you a quick shove out the door before closing it behind you.
You stared at the wall of the Tang, blinking a few times before your mouth finally started working again.
"What the actual fuck just happened?"
A/N: HEHEHEE we love a sly, flirty Law 🙈🙈🙈🙈 I'm gunna smooch him so hard, idk abt you guys ���😂🥵🥵🙈🙈 I hope you guys enjoyed this as much as I did !
Smooch smooch, be good my lil tangerines! 🍊💋
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Hi there! Can you do the continuation on The Pregnancy from TADC? I'm curious what Jax would be during the process and to his kids, you can do one by one! I don't mind,just don't pressure and get creative! Stay hydrated and happy!
Jax x pregnant!reader
I’m just going to do the pregnancy in general for now because I’m hella exhausted lately I’m so sorry ;^; I’ll write soon about them with their kids though! Don’t worry ^^ I’m just super slow as well, sorry D: Also only Jax, because this took so long
First part of this:
NSFW headcanons would make this way too long so I didn’t include them D: They aren’t too different from normal NSFW HCs if I’m honest
TW: No beta-read! Sorry! Some slight NSFW HCs, petnames
Jax
After the great news, Jax needed a few days to adjust to everything. He didn’t think this could be possible so he was… Panicking a bit whenever the conversation was raised.
As said, at the very beginning when you started having morning sickness, two things happen. Jax laughs at you and then throws up after seeing you do it.
It takes him days to finally get used to the situation AND more to be useful for you because he would still feel nauseous seeing you in that situation and would often gag while trying to hold your hair
But hey, he’s… He’s trying his best…
You also feel a lot more tired than usual in this first period so Jax stays by your side a lot. He isn’t really the most useful but he’s around I guess. You don’t really do that much in the circus anyways
Also expect him to throw a tantrum if Caine dares to make any single adventure that is slightly physical. He won’t say he’s protecting you but he will complain in all ways possible that he can imagine to make Caine change the adventure or cancel it if there is even the minimum chance of hurting you in any way or shape.
For everyone it is pretty obvious that the reason he’s doing this is to protect you but no one dares to say a thing because if they do, he gets pissed off and makes everyone's life a living nightmare. You being pregnant ain’t stopping him from being the asshole everyone knows.
Your mood was already starting to become a roller coaster so Jax started being a bit more careful after the first few times he upsetted you. He continues teasing you and joking but not as much as before because to be honest, he doesn’t want to deal with you mad at him at this important time of your relationship, Don’t blame him too much because he still upsets you a lot of times, he’s kinda awful controlling himself when it comes to jokes and teasing.
He doesn’t want to pressure you but he is worried when you start rejecting the food. Sure, you didn’t really need it. But deep down he was scared the baby could need it
But turns out you just started disliking a lot of the normal food there and started having some weird craves. That was definitely the thing he liked to annoy you with the most. You eating the most bizarre foods you could think of was amusing to him.
You realized since the first week that Jax started sleeping and cuddling with you letting his hand rest on top of your tummy. He kinda does this unconsciously but likes to do it to feel closer to the baby.
For the first months you both decided to stay quiet about the news. Pregnancy has higher risk to go bad in the very first months and you kinda don’t want everyone talking about your relationship and pregnancy, but rather keep it private for both of you
This basically causes everyone to be confused by the sudden change in Jax’s behavior. No one understood why he was being so overprotective of you suddenly when he used to be the first one making you pranks.
By the third month you both already feel good enough to tell everyone the news and suddenly everything clicks. You were successful hiding it from everyone.
As the second trimester comes, your sickness starts to fade away which is a relief to both of you. Waking up a lot of mornings to throw up was kinda annoying for both. Worse to you of course. But Jax wasn’t a huge fan of standing half asleep next to you in the bathroom holding your hair while you puked the awful 3D looking peas from last night.
Something Jax realizes way too fcking fast is that your breast grows and believe me, this motherfcker is going to celebrate it. He’s just testing if they are good enough for the baby he’ll say. He’s just sacrificing himself for the baby by burying his face against both of your boobs.. Yep, sweet nice protective dad and nothing else.
By the fourth month your belly finally starts to grow. And so do some of your insecurities.
And hear me out
Jax ain’t the best when it comes to talking about feelings. But he’s being 100% honest when he says he sees you as beautiful and hot as the first day. He ain’t joking. You won’t see his libido going down so you can trust his word. He’s as horny as the first day and won’t doubt a second to get between your legs if you’re up to it.
But Jax also notices that you’re out of breath quicker and sometimes you feel dizzy so he’s always next to you to hold you and teasy you how he’s so handsome he makes you lose contact with reality and makes you dizzy. He won’t let you fall but that doesn’t mean he isn’t going to annoy you, as always.
You also start to feel the very first movements of the baby and Jax gets pissed off that you get to feel them but the baby NEVER moves when he’s touching your belly.
“Hey, pipsqueaks? Daddy’s here, come on”. He’ll gently poke your belly but nah. Not working. But it’s still amusing to see him get jealous of something like that.
By month 6, sometimes you have cramps which is your body preparing everything for the baby’s arrival. These are completely normal. But here is the thing. None of you have a medic to tell you this. And Caine has no information about pregnancies so both of you are on your own
And Jax is scared
Whenever he sees you complaining about the cramps he is internally panicking about you having the baby so soon or something going wrong.
This fear continues for quite some time until the conversation appears with Ragatha. While she isn't a mother, she did know a bit about pregnancy and childbirth because she liked knowing that information in case she became a mother one day. She’s the one who tells you this is completely normal and unless something else comes with those cramps and they are painless, you’re both fine.
That doesn’t really calm Jax completely. He spends some nights looking at the ceiling in complete horror scared that something might happen to you and the baby. He often spends nights without sleeping worried about bringing a life to that world. But when he sees you next to him, those fears fade away. As long as you both are together, he is sure everything will be ok
As the third trimester arrives, things get more serious.Your belly is growing a lot and you both need to prepare for what’s coming. Jax seems to be a lot more nervous. He hides it pretty well for everyone else but you can notice he’s in constant panic worried something might happen and always checking on you by being by your side or around. Not that he’s controlling you, he’s checking that everything is going ok without actually saying it out loud.
At this point, you have catched Jax several times during the night caressing your belly or softly murmuring to the baby. You know he can be an asshole when you point something out to him so you let him do it faking you’re asleep. This is probably the cutest thing you have ever seen Jax doing. You can feel in his voice how happy he is to be able to have a baby with you despite the initial panic.
Caine helped you both to set a room for the baby, but Jax insisted for the baby to sleep in the same room as you both for at least the first days. He doesn’t like the idea of letting the baby alone even if your rooms are connected by one door. He barely sleeps so he likes the idea of being able to see the baby while being in bed and resting.
The room is decorated in a kind of neutral theme because, being honest, neither of you know the sex of the baby and neither of you actually cares too much. As long as they are healthy it’ll be fine. You don’t even know if you’re having a baby, a bunny or whatever can come out in this digital world.
Fun fact. You once had a bad cramp during dinner. Jax panicked and threw everything to the ground to prepare the table for you to have the fcking baby there. Everyone was in tears laughing but after Jax basically tied Gangle to a ball and threw her around the circus, no one really dared to make fun of him anymore about that situation but you. Still, everyone considers it peak comedy to see Jax in panic throwing everything to the ground while Caine screamt about Bubble’s food being thrown.
The last months Jax spends a lot of time cuddling with you with his head glued to your tummy. He smiles like an idiot whenever he feels the baby moving and talks to them even more often.
“Hey Peepsqueak, time is running out, is time to get out of the bed”, “Tiny pea, excited to see your amazing daddy?”
You thought the pet names he used to use on you were silly and sometimes stupid, but damn, now hearing the ones he was using for the baby you consider yourself lucky to be honest. It was still adorable though! And funny.
As the time for the birth was arriving, Jax became even more annoying to the rest. He was stressed and anxious and everyone could realize that. But he was also more demanding to Caine. Caine kept doing whatever Jax asked because it kept him distracted without annoying the rest of the circus and what he was asking for were not bad things.
He asked to decorate with you the baby’s room so he asked for a lot of plushies and stuff bunny related. I mean, you had no problem with it and it was suitable for a kid, all super adorable. So why not. And Caine thought the same and seeing you smile for the baby’s clothes was enough for him to be convinced so he spent a lot of days with you two creating clothes for the new member about to join the circus. Caine of course was so excited for something like that happening in his circus!
As your first cramps for childbirth started, you saw Jax look at you with eyes wide open.
This became too long and I’m kinda exhausted to do the childbirth here sorry !
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You laid down in the bed, tirelessly while softly yawning under Jax’s eyes. He was next to you with his head resting in his hand while looking at you. He knew you had one of those awful nights again.
After 8 months of pregnancy, reaching the due date, your belly was already big enough to cause you problems sleeping. Your little one was also moving a lot of times so that didn’t help either. But it was fun for Jax to see the little kicks every now and then. His laugh didn’t make it worth it but it helped (a bit). He always had a dork smile, looking all silly and dreamy whenever you two were alone in the room hanging out till the time came.
You already had everything prepared for the moment to come so you both just had to… Wait
Another sleepless night? - Jax questioned with his eyes locked on you. You knew he was worried, but his cheeky grin would fake anyone but you.
I’m afraid so. Our little one ain’t that small anymore. And he’s becoming really active lately
Yeah, no doubt he just wants to see his daddy already - he softly chuckled while putting his hand on your tummy. - Peepsqueak, when you coming out?
You smiled as Jax talked to the belly, but his smile grew wider as he could feel the baby moving.
I think they already have a favorite parent! - He looked at you with a mischievous smile, you knew he was teasing, but it worked every single time
Hey, no. Shut up. I’m the one carrying them. They just move because they want to kick you - you smiled proudly while he chuckled
He leaned closer to you and put the side of his head against your tummy. He closed his eyes peacefully in the embrace as you hugged him. He just wanted to cuddle with you.
So, are we going to name them Jack?
Your expression was the only answer he needed while he chuckled.
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Hate When We Fight
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Summary: Ellie comes home stressed and you guys get into a fight, you crash on a friend's couch before going back and making up the next morning. Kinda angsty but a happy ending:)
Cw: arguing with s/o
You could tell Ellie was stressed when she’d gotten home that day, you assumed a tough day at work. She'd kicked her shoes off quite aggressively at the door, which had you putting the dinner you were cooking on hold to go see what was up. Then as she walked past the kitchen, not even looking your way, she tossed her keys on the counter before taking a seat on the couch and reaching for the TV remote.
You furrowed your brows as you continued on with dinner, an empty stomach never helped with stress, so at least you could help with that. Everything was ready and you set up two servings, both looked equally good but you gave Ellie the one with slightly more food. Taking a seat beside her, you set her bowl down on the coffee table along with your own.
Scooting closer to her, you brought an arm up and around her shoulders and leaned into her. You were mostly shocked and decently hurt when she grabbed your arm and removed it from her shoulders, not that gently either. Taking that as your sign to back off, you scooted to the other side of the couch, curled your legs up onto it, and began eating your dinner.
Ellie started on hers as well, not even saying thank you. In fact, she hadn’t said one word since she’d walked in the door. You were beyond confused, and slightly worried.
“Ellie?” You hummed, “is everything okay?” you asked.
Slowly, you tried to give her a shoulder rub to help her relax. Immediately she stood from the couch, bringing a hand to her head as the other waved in the air while she yelled at you.
“Would it kill you to leave me alone for five fucking minutes!? You’re just making my shitty day even shittier!” she shouted, and the anger in her voice was more apparent than anything.
You stood as well, feeling small and defenseless when she towered over you. You brought your hands up defensively.
“Sorry…” as much as you tried to resist them, you couldn’t help the tears that began to stream down your face, “I think it’s best if I just go.” You were quiet now.
Now you were the one ignoring her as you pulled on your sneakers and threw your jacket over your shoulder. She called out your name, and a sorry, as you slammed the door shut, but you paid her no attention. Quickly, you got into your car and drove to a friend’s house, where you asked if you could crash on the couch.
“Yeah, of course.” She replied, bringing you inside with a hug.
“What happened?” She asked as the two of you went and sat on the couch.
“Ellie came home, and she was like hella pissed, I still don’t know why. I was just trying to give her a relaxing massage and she started yelling at me to leave her alone, so I left. She didn’t even say thank you for dinner. And she always says thank you.” You explained everything to your friend, your phone blowing up throughout your entire story.
You sighed, picking it up. Of course it was Ellie trying to get ahold of you, she’d already sent ten texts and called twice. You silenced your phone before setting it on the coffee table in front of you.
“Damn, that’s pretty shitty.” Was your friends comment on the situation.
You nodded your head in agreement, then yawned.
“Honestly I’m really tired, can I just go to sleep?” You asked, and your friend was more than happy to let you check out early.
She brought you a pillow and blanket, both of them nice and fluffy. You smiled as you thanked her, setting your coat and your phone on the coffee table before lying down and pulling the blanket over your tired body.
As you tried to go to sleep, you couldn’t help but think about what happened with Ellie. Sure enough, the tears started again, you cried yourself to sleep that night. All you wanted was to be curled up by Ellie’s side, like usual. Instead you were on your friends rather small couch, all alone.
The next morning you woke up to the smell of fresh coffee, groggily you stood and made your way to the kitchen for a mug. Your friend was filling up her travel cup, for work you assumed.
“Morning!” She greeted you, nodding her head to the cabinet she kept her cups in.
You grabbed a sage green mug, filling it with coffee and adding your usual mix-ins. You sipped it, it was some damn good coffee. A small smile made its way to your face.
“There’s my girl!” your friend shouted enthusiastically.
“Hi” you chuckled awkwardly, “I’ll probably head home soon.” You told her, before taking another sip of your coffee.
Your smile was wiped from your face at that thought, as much as you were dreading going back, you couldn’t just leave forever.
“Alright, well you’re always welcome here. Good luck with everything, I’ll catch ya later.” Your friend smiled as she left, making her way to work.
You sighed, going back into her living rook and taking a seat on the couch crisscross applesauce. Hesitantly, you picked up your phone and opened up last nights texts from Ellie.
‘Baby I’m so sorry.’
‘I can’t even explain why I acted like that, but I’m sorry.’
‘I’m am idiot.’
‘Fuck’
‘I’m so fucking stupid.’
‘Please answer.’
Those were all from a few minutes after you’d left, then she sent a few more closer to four in the morning. Which was shocking, since she was usually never up that late.
‘I’m so so sorry, I know I already said it but I want you to know how much I mean it.’
‘I miss you.’
‘I wish I could hug you right now.’
‘Goodnight. I love you <3’
That was the last message she’d sent before going to sleep, you assumed. Sighing, you tidied up the couch where you’d slept. After folding the blanket neatly and setting it atop the pillow, you collected your things.
You let yourself sit for a few minutes after you finishes your coffee, then you left. On your drive home, you blasted the radio, to drown out your thoughts if anything. As you pulled into the driveway, you dropped your head down onto your steering wheel.
Almost immediately you picked it back up, Ellie’s car was still here. Well that’s unusual, and worrisome. She should be at work right now, and she was not one to take a sick day.
You felt like your legs would give out at any second and you’d drop to the floor as you walked to the front door. You didn’t bother knocking, since it was your house and all. Confused, you kicked your shoes off at the door. All the lights were out.
Then you’d noticed the dishes from last night still sitting out, you furrowed your brows as you put them into the sink as quietly as you could. A frown fell upon your face as you spotted the half drank wine bottle on the counter. Ellie only drank wine under two circumstances. One, if she was bouncing off the walls with excitement. Or, two, she was downright depressed. You were pretty sure you knew which circumstance last night had been.
You couldn’t help but wonder what she did after you left last night, but your thoughts were interrupted by the sound of small sniffles coming from behind you. You turned and saw Ellie standing just outside your bedroom door, one arm was held tight across their chest while the other was holding their hand to their mouth as they chewed at their thumbnail.
“I’m sorry.” She choked out through her tears, her voice was quiet and shaky.
You chewed at your bottom lip, not even bothering to fight the tears swelling in your eyes. It made your heart ache to see her like this. She stepped closer to you, her arms now glued to her sides.
“I didn’t mean any of it baby. I promise.” she sniffled as even more tears poured down their cheeks.
Unable to just stand there any longer, you threw yourself into her arms. She wrapped them around you almost immediately, holding on for dear life as she cried into your shoulder. You’d wrapped your own arms around her waist, holding your hands together behind her back.
“I know. I know.” You whispered through your tears, pulling her even closer if that was even possible at this point.
“I hate when we fight.” You sighed, your voice slightly muffled by Ellie’s hair as you were smuggled into the nape of their neck.
“Me too.” she let out a wry chuckle, beginning to rub a hand up and down your back.
After a few minutes, you pulled away, but only slightly. Your hands remained on Ellie’s waist, and hers stayed glued to your middle. Smiling at her, you leaned in for a kiss. And, of course, she kissed you back. It was short and sweet, and left you blushing afterwards like always.
“Can we just go take a nap?” You asked, whispering, as you leaned your forehead against hers.
She merely nodded and then you held hands as you walked to your shared bedroom together, the bed had clearly been slept in as it was anything but made. You shut off the lights then waited as Ellie climbed into bed first.
You got in beside her, getting as close as you could and bring an arm over her stomach as you entangled your legs with hers. Your other arm rested so your hand was just cupping her cheek, she wrapped her arms around you with love and gave you a small squeeze then a kiss on the head.
While you still wondered why she was so upset yesterday, now clearly wasn’t the time or place for that conversation. It would wait until later, because for now you were just content as you laid your head on her chest and let your eyes fall shut. It only took a few minutes for you to drift off into a peaceful sleep.
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If you do non-pillar asks, could I request an Akaza NSFW alphabet? Have a splendid day/afternoon/night!
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A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)
Incredibly sweet and caring. He would be the type to serve your every whim, but he’s also the type that goes “it’s okay, we don’t have to do another round” because he sees that you’re tired. He’d gladly tuck you in or run a bath for you.
B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
For himself, he likes his thighs more so because he knows you like sitting on them. He actually doesn’t like his hands because they’re so rough and he knows that he’s done to them, so when he’s holding you he makes sure to hold you very gently.
For you, contrary to what he feels about his own, he really loves your hands. He loves to caress your knuckles, kiss each one, and just play with your hands if you’d allow him.
C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically)
Definitely the type to bite his lip when he cums. His hips stutter and he kind of freezes and next thing you know everything is so warm and it’s spilling out of you.
D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
He has a thing for when you were his clothes. Oh boy, does he get riled up when he sees you in them. He’s always like “you look good” but really his head is going, “you look good enough to fuck.”
E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)
Doesn’t have a lot. He probably had some quickies so he can earn money back then but other than that he’s been keeping it in his pants. He really doesn’t care that he’s not too experienced but he will get a little shy or bashful when it’s time to do it with you. He’s a little scared of disappointing you.
F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying.)
Definitely anything where can see your face. You riding him. Missionary. Sessions when you have mirror sex. He likes it that way so he can see your expressions and know for sure that you are enjoying it and you’re not hurt in any way.
G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)
Not really. He does smile a lot during post-orgasm though.
H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)
Has a good trim once a month or so.
I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)
Hella romantic, very emotional. He loves you and he wants you there. He holds you close to convey that he will be with you every step of the way, as well.
J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)
Doesn’t really do it much because he’s busy with other things and would much rather have you than pleasure himself. Besides, he can’t really stop thinking of you in the rare times that he does do it. If you happen to ask him to jack off together then he’ll give it a shot.
K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)
Bite him, scratch him, and tug on his hair and see just how much harder he pounds into you.
L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)
Not a lot of choices but he’d rather have it in a private place. An abandoned shed is usually the place. It’s not the most romantic but he makes sure you get a good dicking down to compensate for it.
M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)
You basically. The thought of you with him. The thought that you will be there once the morning comes.
N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
He won’t tie you up. Never.
O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)
Loves giving. Loves holding your legs up and moving his head in the same way you move your hips.
P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)
Slow and sensual most of the time but rough and fast if you’ve tried to make him jealous. He just can’t take that.
Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)
Not a big fan. He likes to take his time with you.
R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)
They take risks if and only if you are 100% sure you’re up for it. He’s pretty flexible so if there’s any position you’d want to try then he’d gladly inquire.
S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)
Oh. Well...a lot. He can go around 4-5 but he’d leave it at 2-3 for your comfort.
T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
Not a fan. He wants the heat of your skin against his and not just some toy.
U = Unfair (How much they like to tease)
It usually happens when you’re overstimulated and he teases you about how you can take one more.
V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)
Loves to hear you so he keeps himself quiet. Can’t help but moan and groan when you give him head though.
W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)
He always has your comfort in mind but there’s just something about standing sex or wall sex that riles him up. His grip is bruising and he loves to kiss those marks afterwards.
X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)
He can make it bigger for sure but usually he’s around 7 inches. Yes, it’s got the same lines.
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
Not high at all. Having you close to him is enough for him to know the connection between the two of you.
Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
Doesn’t really fall asleep easily. He just lays down with you in bed and nuzzles your shoulder, kisses your temple. He falls asleep to the thought that he’s satisfied you and you might even wake up earlier than him sometimes.
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Aether is the one that makes their food the majority of the time and is less impulsive than Lumine, usually there to point out flaws in her plans/ideas because if she executed them they'd have horrible consequences that she was aware of but didn't actually process.
Lumine has to drag Aether off of every tall tree/building because the rat won't stop climbing everything he sees and she's sick of it. She's thrown rocks at him to make him come down. She's also the one that made their clothes and the one who properly learnt how to fight and taught Aether how to do so (which is why she's a faster fighter than Aether, while Aether is a strong defender)
I like to think their wings, even if not physically attached to their bodies, are still very much part of their bodies due to it being tied to their powers. So they can feel and move the wings just like any winged creature. They also feel the subtilties in atmospheric changes with them and can easily recognize wind currents and where they're going (results in wings being very sensitive to touch)
Bodies are Much warmer temperatures because they're star creatures and also need the heat for when they're flying through space. They're both also pretty light for the whole flying thing.
I like to think that if they get Extremely upset/desperate, they'll full on unleash the raw power of a star on someone (unknown god) as a last resort, though it takes up a Ton of energy and tires them out greatly.
The glowing spots on their clothes (chest, wrists, knees for aether. Those things) are glow spots they have on their bodies because of the whole star people thing. Those areas are probably much warmer than the other body parts too.
Based on voicelines from characters and just how the game works; i also believe that Aether prefers to use sign language around people but will verbally speak if comfortable enough or when fully alone with someone he fully trusts (like Lumine or Paimon)
Sorry for the big text i just have a lot of thoughts about these two twins and saw that you do too and am now throwing them at you. I have more but brain is starting to lag
woah Woah WOAH HELLO THERE??? This is the first time anyone has sent their headcanons to me oh my god??? I’m absolutely buzzing this is fantastic! Hi!!
Okay okay I’m gonna answer this in sections cause this is a lot of writing. Im actually so excited to reply to this wtf
Food/Impulse
Okay this one fits in absolutely perfectly to my headcanons. Aether makes most of their food due to Lumine not having the patience for it. She can cook she’s a good cook but with her cooking it would turn into an episode of Gordon Ramsay Hells Kitchen hella fast.
Honestly it’s better to not have Lumine around when making food at all. She will try to take over and get really pissed off if everything isn’t done exactly how she would do it.
This is Lumine after Aether takes a fish off the fire exactly five seconds before she tells him to take it off:
Aether is patient. Aether can make a salad without almost breaking the bowl.
And I also agree with the impulse one! I feel like Lumine usually comes up with a lot of the plans for anything they do. Exploring a world, fighting something, escaping something yada yada.
Aethers the one who gives her a lot of advice for it and ‘polishes the plan up’ so to say. As you said Lumine is very impulsive and in the heat of the moment will go with the first thing she thinks about rather than giving it serious thought. That’s why Aether is there. He tries to help calm her down and tell her the flaws of the plan and what would/could happen if she went through with it.
And THATS why traveler Lumine gets into so much shit CONSTANTLY. Her brother isn’t around to be her fucking BABYSITTER. She stuck helping fucking aranaras constantly I hate those stupid aranaras.
Climbing/Clothes/Fighting
THE RAT HELP oh my god you’ve made me giggle with that. I absolutely love this headcanon it’s fantastic I can picture her throwing rocks at him while Aether hangs onto the branch of a tree like a stray cat.
Personally in my eyes they are both a HUGE chaotic duo when they are together so they would both be constantly trying to climb shit and probably getting stuck.
They see tall building and immediately look at each other like 😏
The amount of places they have been banned from for climbing shit is astonishing. It could fill up a small planet in itself.
Oh my god you know I haven’t properly thought about their clothes and I like your idea. I feel like she would of purposely given them inverted themes so they could be matching in a subtle sense while still going with both of their personal styles.
She tried to teach Aether to sew but he kept pricking himself with the needle 💔
Ooooh okokok right this is genuinely just stuff I’ve made up in my silly mind but okay so
I’m my little headcanon lore thingy they were both taught to fight by little guardians/teachers in a world (worlds???) they went to. Originally both being taught the opposite - Aether fighting and Lumine defending until they both started teaching each other their moves and excelled in the opposite things. I can 100% see Lumine teaching Aether to fight though.
Wings
Okay I don’t have much to say here other than i completely agree with absolutely everything you just said. Adding in that I feel like their wings were gifted to them by one of the first planets they came across and helped! This was eons ago so the two have gotten extremely accustomed to flying and feeling through their wings, though I feel like the two can make their wings disappear and reappear. Kinda like when the traveler throws the sword behind their back and it just appears in their hand then they are fighting.
Also! Aethers wings being made from sunlight and Lumines wings being made from moonlight 🫶
Oh my god imagine they made a little language through their wings if one or both isn’t able to speak? Like one flutter means stop, two means attack etc etc stuff like that!
Temperature
I deffo see this, though I feel like their bodies are way more adapted to the cold rather than the warm. It’s INCREDIBLY cold in space which is where the two spend the most of their time and where they technically live. Their bodies have adapted to the cold and can absorb heat from planets the go to and kind of store it?? Kind of like a little thermal radiator.
Power
Oh oh I like this this is interesting. What do you headcanon that to be like? Like what kind of power do you think they have when they get so desperate?
Language/Speaking
THIS IS SUCH A CUTE HEADCANON I have no idea why but I absolutely love this wtf?? I can totally see him doing that.
Okok my version of this IS the twins have their own language. They can both learn to speak other languages pretty fast, but it takes a bit of time. So in the meantime they (the traveler) allow Paimon to talk for them and translate it and only talk when necessary and when they know what to say.
I ALSO feel like around each other the twins have this kind of telapathic connection (you know what they say about twin telepathy and such) and so sometimes don’t need to speak to each other to talk. They can communicate through knowing what the other is thinking and feeling and through touch and stuff like that.
The two have deffo gone through days of not speaking and just talking through thoughts and such, when out of nowhere one of them will break it by just saying the most out of context shit and making the other jump out of their skin.
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No please do NOT apologise this made me so happy to answer! I love hearing any and all headcanons about the twins they are my BIGGEST hyperfixation at the moment. Feel free to send even more! That goes for absolutely anyone. Thank you so much for sending this to me :D
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Hellhound based off of the Great Pyrenees Name: Matulo (one letter away from spelling "Matulog" which means Sleep in tagalog/filipino, cuz I am very clever with names stfu)
Favorite nicknames: Mat or Mattie (or Tullie)
* Born in the Sloth Ring * Nonbinary (uses: They/Them)
* Eepy tired.
* Let them rest.
* Wears raggedy ass PJs/onesies 24/7 p much (except to Bee's parties) cuz their owner doesn't pay them enough to buy clothes (if at all)
* Whenever they DO get paid it's usually only just enough for either food or like- sewing material so they often just end up repairing their clothes or like- wear "hand me downs" from their owner or something-
* they do have ONE nice outfit they wear to Bee's party and its only reserved for then, but other than that they just wear their ripped, torn up, shoddy patchwork ass PJ's 24/7
* Constantly abused because they're lazy (really, they're just tired)
* Often goes days to a week without sleep cuz their owner is an asshole
* The only times they sleep (or try to) is at Bee's party, or Cade ( @tekedafox23 's hellhound oc) library when the noises from the party wakes them up or disturbs them too much
* Likes Bee cuz she's one of the only ones nice to them, and frequents Bee's party if their owner allows them to.
* Scared to death of Satan
* Likes Ozmodius too but also kinda sees him as a hypocrite, since he gives others shit (like Stolas) for dating an imp, meanwhile he's also dating one too, but overall they're "okay" with Ozzie, but doesn't respect him nearly as much as they do Bee
* Can and WILL take a nap whenever possible/allowed. Even on the fucking floor cuz hella sleep deprived
* Carries around a smol pillow everywhere so they can take naps
* Has the name of their owner basically branded across their back/by their shoulder blades- (Tried to draw them in Viv's artstyle and I think I did a somewhat decent job)
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took a shower, and actually brushed & fully dried my hair, and was feeling tired but p good about getting that done
the josh comes in with "do you wanna try making the bed on your own this time? so you can feel accomplished?"
bitch what
i was feeling kind of accomplished but i certainly don't anymore
"i just didn't know how gung-ho you were, if you were feeling up to it"
then just fucking ask that
i know he didn't mean anything by it but goddamn, dude
i was already feeling a little :( bc i had wanted to brush my teeth too but that just wasn't happening tonight, but now i feel very :(
in positive news tho, the last time i showered was less than two weeks ago so this was INCREDIBLY early for me to be showering again (for the last year or so there's been a lot more time between actual showers than that. like.. a lot, depending on my ocd. bc i didn't get the 'needs to be clean' ocd, i got the 'here are rituals for every second you're in the shower, you can't move onto the next step without perfecting the current one, and oh - this might go so badly you bleed. have fun!' ocd)
and i did brush my teeth saturday night, so comparing to *gestures at the last couple of years* if i had managed to brush them again today that would've also been hella early. so it's not the worst thing in the world that i couldn't manage it. but still.
going to order food and be lazy until bedtime. josh is off until monday, which i'm v happy about, but he still won't stay up much past his usual bedtime. hashtag grandpa.
oh and i've been kinda lowkey sick the last two-ish days but i think whatever it was passed?? my stomach is doing better at least and i think the major headache i had earlier was from not sleeping enough. but idk. we're not out of the woods yet, lads
oh! another positive! we went grocery shopping yesterday night! so we have snacks and stuff again finally. josh pointed out while we were checking out that our groceries look horrible, especially for two (2) adults. it looks like we only eat junk food and candy, and tbh he's not wrong. it does look like that. it also looks like we have the beverage taste of a highschool boy. BUT we do eat actual food. we just don't buy it (or rarely buy it) from the store. we don't cook (hi mental health hi) so most of the food items we get are snacks / snack-adjacent items. and like... sandwich stuff lol i'm just happy to have snacks again so i don't have to spend money on Actual FoodTM when i'm not that hungry y'know?? y'know
okay my head is starting to hurt again so i'm.. probably gonna change nothing about what i'm doing rn EXCEPT I STILL NEED TO GET FOOD
FUCK
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Okay, but hear me out.
Imagine FWB being a well paid lawyer or something like that and the surprise of Logan after waking up and seeing her in a black suit jacket to the middle thigh, some under it and classy definitely expensive looking heels.
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Usually he wouldn’t have stayed the night. Sunshine had been the only exception. But he was tired and had too many drinks, also finished their funny time rather lately so he just agreed to stay and get some sleep before coming back to mansion. Not really being fond of the idea of Scott giving him lecture about hooking up with some random girls in the bar again because “You should be an example for the students, Logan!” And other bullshit of Summers.
So that’s how he ended up, snoring on some random girl bed, his head deep in the cushions.
But then he felt the strong scent of perfume. He opened his eyes to look for the source of it, and then saw a girl in her late twenties or early thirties, wearing a pretty nice and definitely hella expensive outfit, putting on her golden earrings that matched the small necklace.
“Finally, I was beginning to think that maybe we got too far last night.” A chuckle left her lips, while she was fixing the lipstick.
He was confused, not being prepared to be meet with a casual business outfit on his last hookup that early in the morning. Honestly he had in mind that he would be the one who would wake up early and just sneak out. The confused face had to gave him away cuz she only shook her head and walked over to him. Sitting on the bed, and leading her finger on his chest. Dark red long fingernails: great, another sign of her not being a ‘normal’ girl dressed in more revealing and bold clothes, he last night thought she was. Definitely more like a business bossy girl.
“You thought that only students are partying and searching for quickies?” A look of doubt was sent to him and he felt even more dumbfounded. “As I told you before, I’m only looking for fun. More focused on career, pretty boy.”
Well that definitely made sense why she was so bossy and straightforward about everything. A woman that knew exactly what she wanted, having her priorities set right.
“Okay, dress yourself and I have to ask you to leave. I need to be in office in an hour.” A light double pat on his chest, like to make her words even clearer. “By the way I put my business card in the pocket of your jacket, since you didn’t ask for my age I assume sooner or later you can need the help of some lawyer.” She still had that smart mouth in the end, at least that hasn’t changed. “Also, had a lot of fun so you can text me when you gonna feel like need to de-stress a bit. Or if you wanna talk about that pretty waitress that I’m gonna push you back to.”
Another smart smirk left her mouth, while she got back to preparing herself in front of the mirror.
A long sigh left his mouth, while he got up to dress. Well, usually Logan hate when girls were bossing him around and trying to intimidate him. But this one? Maybe, in the end he can get used to having a friend like her…
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So yeah that idea was stuck in my head after reading that post about FWB. The thought of her having a stable life and having well paid job, not really searching for anything serious, maybe just a friend since she enjoyed the night and Logan as well. And also it definitely would benefit Logan to have someone outside of mansion, who doesn’t play with his bullshit, saying what she really thinks and scolding him but in other way than Scott or Charles. Some person like Julie is for Sunshine, but it’s FWB for Lo.
I hope you enjoyed it and also had a lovely holidays and rest a bit ❤️
Sof
Aaaaaaa honeyyyyy hiiii!🩷
FWB as a lawyer!? 😱 Wait, this is such a wonderful idea! 🥰
Scott giving him lecture about hooking up with some random girls in the bar again because “You should be an example for the students, Logan!” ASDFGHJKL the fact that I can hear Scott's voice 😂 Logan would be so rolling his eyes 😂
“Finally, I was beginning to think that maybe we got too far last night.” ASDFGHJKL I love how nonchalant she is and how she's like, not affected by his whole "bad boy" appearance 😏
“As I told you before, I’m only looking for fun. More focused on career, pretty boy.” PRETTY BOY-
SHE CALLS HIM PRETTY BOY🩷
Or if you wanna talk about that pretty waitress that I’m gonna push you back to.” She's a badass, she's a lawyer AND she's a matchmaker asdfghjkl😂
I think he would definitely become besties with FWB 😁 And they'll make such a fun team when it comes to friendship 😁
I absolutely loved this, thank you so so much honey! 🥰 Happy holidays! 🩷
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Thoughts on the Ahmed run (spoilers)
I know we're only three issues in, but I thought I'd ramble about the current state of the union
My main complaint is the memory loss story--it's a little disappointing. I was hoping that arc would go further and have a lasting impact on Matt; but he remembers everything so fast. Within the first issue he was back in the suit, and it feels like he moved on so easily from the trauma of everything.
Idk, I think it makes his sacrifice from Zdarsky's run feel a bit meaningless.
However, I'm willing to give it the benefit of the doubt, and wait for a while to see how it goes.
I'm loving Matt as a priest at the group home. It feels a little bit like a nod to the Netflix show, with Sister Maggie and the orphanage. Maybe I'm just reading into that, idk. I realize a lot of people hate when the comics start taking things from the show--but I don't mind in this case. Plus, seeing Matt interact with kids is always a win for me
And the religious overtones/dark imagery? The moral complexity of his head vs. his heart? The duality of what he does in the day vs. the night? Love it. give me more.
I do miss lawyer Matt, though. It's been a hot minute since we've seen that, and I'm really hoping Ahmed will take Matt back to his roots at some point.
I'm torn on the artwork. There are some BEAUTIFUL panels (this one is one of my favorites) and the coloring is so vivid and dynamic. And Matt is hella attractive in this run so far, so that's a big plus
but also, there's something a little too... like... shiny? About everything? Things look polished almost, in a way that's a little weird. Sometimes the faces don't feel very defined.
I also think there's less weight in the artwork. The movement is a lot less dynamic and fluid than the last run. Everything feels a little like it's floating, the punches don't carry much weight, and it just makes everything feel... lower stakes, I guess.
I don't know, I'm a big Checchetto fan, and his artwork felt really solid and grounded. So maybe I'm just still adjusting--I'll give Kuder some time before I really make a judgement call.
Because again, there's still some really beautiful and dynamic things here. He's doing neat things with panel placement/shape, which breaks up the page nicely and has cool effects on the pacing
I've also got mixed feelings about the tonal change thus far. Maybe this is a hot take, but I'm not into quippy Daredevil. I think he functions best as a character when he's really serious. He's usually got a gravitas that really informs the way he conducts himself. The quips in the latest issue take away from that, at least in my opinion.
Then again, Mark Waid made it work really well. Ahmed could very well be trying to do something similar. Again, it's something I'll reserve judgement on. I'm not against a lighthearted Matt, per se. I just think the darkness makes the storytelling so much more compelling and grounded (which is the reason I think people are also tired of the quippy humor in the MCU lately).
I hope the goofiness isn't going to be a long-term thing, but I feel okay about it for the time being. Especially since it's only every so often (at least so far). The run overall still feels fairly gritty and grounded.
I'm intrigued to see where he's going to take Elektra as the Woman Without Fear. I was pleasantly surprised by that arc in the Zdarsky run (wasn't much of an Elektra fan until recently, tbh) and I'm curious to see what's next for her. We haven't seen as much of her as I'd like so far, but hopefully that will change.
All that being said, I'm actually really enjoying this run so far. I'm not enjoying it quite as much as Zdarsky, but I still think it's really excellent. Ahmed's doing some interesting things with the character, and I'm really excited to see where he takes it.
Anyway, I'm curious to know if anyone else has thoughts on the run thus far. Opinions? Thoughts? Vehement disagreements?
(bonus picture because I'm obsessed with the priest vigilante look)
#and I didn't even mention Ben Urich!! Crazy plot twist#also im begging you Ahmed bring back Foggy Nelson#when will Franklin return from the war 😔#daredevil#comics#daredevil comics#Saladin Ahmed#Aaron Kuder#matt murdock
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WEDNESDAY MAY 25TH, 2011 ("world with empty eye sockets")
12:24 AM I think they’ve passed. I think we’re safe. ..I think I’m going to fucking sleep.
3:30 AM Donnie woke me up, she couldn’t sleep. Guess we’re heading off already.
3:41 AM Okay, I’ve put my CDs into one of those CD folder things. This is much easier to carry. I’ve got bags, I’ve got Tiger Stripes, I’ve got my Pot Noodles and my soda; I’m completely ready. Donnie, still tired, has got her share of snacks and drinks. She’s got a steel frying pan, too. And a T-shirt from something called “Bloomsday.” Isn’t that a department store? ..anyway, uh, we’re setting off now. Good luck to us?
3:45 AM Out of the neighbourhood. No sign of spidercats or anything yet. God, it’s bright for 4 in the morning.
4:18 AM We’re going towards the motorway. It’s the fastest way to London. ..I think. The high street is quiet, as always.
4:30 AM We’re nearing the motorway. Donnie’s quiet. Tired. I can hear a faint cawing noise. Like a crow.
4:42 AM The cawing seems to be getting louder.
4:59 AM Okay. I’m hiding behind a car. I don’t think the Big One saw me hiFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
5:01 AM It stopped. It’s turning back. What the fuck. YEAH YOU’D BETTER RUN. Okay, where’s Donnie, there she is, she’s behind that car, got it. We got everything? Good, good, good.
5:32 AM We’ve been walking down this motorway for a while now. We haven’t seen a single soul, just miles and miles of busted cars. I admit, I was kinda expecting to run into some other travelers or something.
5:50 AM Getting light. Very light. No sun, though. Just red.
6:13 AM We played “I Spy.”
6:38 AM Found a car, a big SUV, filled with good food and drink and whatnot. Time for a picnic!
6:40 AM “So why do you wear that.. outfit, anyway?” Good question. I dunno, really. I like to look distinguished, I guess. Makes me feel comfortable. And cool. Kinda like the Doctor or something! “Looks more like the Blues Brothers.” Yeah, there’s a bit of Blues Brothers influence, but that was really more of a coincidence. I wear the coat because of the slender man, and the hat’s inspired by Yahtzee Croshaw. But it’s all just influences, not really that important. “I think I’ve heard of Yahtzee. What’s the slender man?” Oh! Haha, the slender man! Goodness. It’s an urban legend, this tale of a man who’s seen in the backgrounds of photographs. He’s tall and faceless and wears a business suit and tie. Hella creepy when you read all about him late at night. Left a big impression on me. “Sounds cool. What does he do?” Nobody’s really sure. Usually, the people in the photographs with him go missing. Sometimes they’ll turn up later, disemboweled and strung up on trees. Sometimes they’ll turn up insane, sometimes wearing masks and being violent and unstable. Sometimes they simply won’t ever be seen again. ”..he’s not real, is he?” He’s not supposed to be. He’s entirely fictional; his creation was well documented on a Something Awful thread.
6:45 PM Moving out again!
7:02 AM We’ve still got a long way to go. I’d forgotten how tedious and monotonous motorways were. We’re probably gonna stop and rest soon. Maybe.
7:37 AM OH GOD NO WAY NO FUCKING WAY NO NO NO THAT’S IMPOSSIBLE THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE oh, it’s just a dead guy in a business suit. Never mind. Hahahaaaa, never mind. Nothing, never mind!
7:45 AM Donnie’s getting tired. I mean, she seemed pretty tired when we first set out, but now she just looks exhausted. And I admit, I’m pretty tired, myself. We’ll stop soon.
8:11 AM We just passed Croydon. We’re closer than I thought. We’ll rest iHOLY COCK
8:13 AM WHY THE HELL DOES EVERYTHING WANT MY POT NOODLES
8:16 AM OHHHHHHHHHHHH GOD THIS IS BAD THIS IS VERY VERY BAD WHERE’S DONNIE OH MY GOD WHERE IS DONNIE There she is, next to me, never mind.
8:20 AM …it’s gotten quiet, so I’m going to write. You’re not going to believe this. …actually, you might. We were walking along when all of a sudden, BAM. All the cars on the motorway started to move. They moved into one giant mass, and they have formed a giant motherfucking cobra. Made of cars. I’m going to call it the Carbra. Getting past this thing isn’t going to be easy. We’re hiding behind a tree.
8:23 AM Maybe we should try talking to it. “….you want to try talking to it.” ..okay wow that was stupid.
8:27 AM Okay. Okay. I’m going to make a mad dash for the next tree. Tiger Stripes, give me strength.
8:28 AM fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckmade it.
8:31 AM Okay, now Donnie’s got the courage. She’s gonna make the dash.
8:32 AM YOU MOTHERFUCKER EAT PLASTIC GUITAR
8:35 AM OKAY WELL EAT POT NOODLE
8:38 AM EAT MORE PLASTIC GUITAR YOU MOTHERFUCKEasdfgh I just got smacked in the face with a tire
8:43 AM We’re running we’re running I got Donnie and we’re running we’re running oh my god AHHHHH
8:47 AM We’re hiding. Behind a truck. I sure as hell hope this isn’t, like… the Carbra’s penis or something. I hope it’s just a truck. Either way, we’ve got more problems. Motherfuckers can fly now. The zombies. The motherfucking zombies can motherfucking fly. They have wings now. ..motherfucker.
8:49 AM God, the sound of their wings flapping where the hell can we go
8:50 AM Donnie’s got an idea. I’m following.
8:51 AM FUCK YOU FLYING ZOMBIES FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF RUN RUN RUN RUN
8:52 AM I WISH I HAD A FUCKING GUN
8:55 AM Donnie led me to a shed on a hill. She’s locked the door. I like where this is going. >w>
9:01 AM Sitting by the door, listening for the flying zombies to go away. Yeah, this isn’t quite where I thought it was going.
9:05 AM We’re both yawning several times a minute. I don’t know how much longer we can stay awake.
9:07 AM Now that I’ve gotten a chance to really listen to those damn things, I’m less annoyed and more.. unnerved. The sound of the wings, that is. The flapping.. it sounds like.. swishing. Liquid swishing. But it also sounds like breathing. I’m gonna try to zone it out.
9:13 AM ….she fell asleep and is now across my lap. Shit. I’ve never, uh.. looked up what I’m supposed to do now. Do I.. do I feel her up? Do I kiss her? ..why am I writing in my journal when I could be doing all sorts of— fuck it, I’m just gonna sleep, too.
5:59 PM Note to self: “You have nice pants” isn’t a good compliment. It’s a bit weird.
6:14 PM This place has a stove. Had a Pot Noodle. It was tasty.
6:32 PM Fucking shitcrabs, they’re still out there.
6:38 PM There’s a basement door in this shed. It leads to a long staircase. I think it’s a rabbit hole. I brought this up to Donnie, and I think she wants to check it out. She’s nervous, though. Never been down one of these before. Then again, it’s hardly like I’ve been down more than once.
6:43 PM Led us to a shed that looks pretty similar to the one we were previously in, though the front door is now large and steel. I’m gonna break it down.
6:44 PM We’re in a small blue room. There’s nothing in here. WHERE’D THE EXIT GO Okay, we might be trapped. I’m gonna see if I can break the walls down OH GOD FLOOR OPENED UP
9:40 PM awake ow hey donnie Eah. Hi. We seem to be in a void. A black void. In front of us, a good five or ten feet away, is a lone door. But directly in front of us is the void; there’s no floor. Well, there are, uh… patches? Patches of floor here and there. I don’t know how safe they are to step on, though. NO NO NO WAIT DONNIE DON’T oh. Kay, the ‘patches’ are very safe to step on. Kay, we can easily cross, then.
9:42 PM The door led to a small office. There are several doors around us.
9:44 PM Upon trying a door, I was presented with a long corridor. At the other end of the corridor, I could see a giant screaming face approaching me at terminal velocity. I quickly shut the door. I hate this place. It’s all so typical horror shit but I hate it all the same.
9:45 PM Donnie opened a door and found some rotting corpses. She wants to open any more doors, either. So what are we gonna do?
9:48 PM We’ve looked all over. There aren’t any other options. We’re gonna have to open another door. Fuck.
9:49 PM We drew straws. I got the shortest one. Okaaaay here goes.
10:01 PM We climbed out of a manhole. In a street.
10:05 PM LONDON WE’RE IN LONDON OH MY GOD
10:12 PM We found a stationery store! Oh my god, they have tons of journals! I am so taking one. Perfect timing, too. This journal was just about to run out of
10:20 PM I got myself a new journal. Fancy. Pretty. Huge, too. Nobody’s here, so Donnie and I thought we’d just.. take stuff. We’re gonna look for a map. HMV’s gotta be close.
10:24 PM This street’s pretty weird. I can hear the laughter of little children. YEAH I HEAR YOU GUYS, THIS STUFF WASN’T SCARY IN THE SHINING, IT WILL NEVER BE SCARY
10:27 PM Found a bus station. Had a map. It says we’re at the wrong side of the Thames. Fuck. I can see Piccadilly on here, though. Should be there in an hour, I’d say.
10:31 PM Donnie’s been awfully quiet. Then again, so have these streets. Where is anybody?
10:35 PM We’ve hit the Thames. Bridge nearby.
10:39 PM Donnie says she’s been seeing things. Strings around corners, nearby, moving. Personally, I’m pretty sure that strings are the least of our concerns right now.
10:40 PM Hit the bridge. Crossing the Thames.
10:42 PM God, the Thames is a huge river.
10:45 PM I just heard a splash. Donnie’s here, she’s okay. Looked over the edge, nothing.
10:47 PM strings everywhere in the corner of my eyes
10:49 PM Past the Thames, we’re on the wrong other side of London now, no strings anywhere.
10:55 PM …gotta admit. This sure doesn’t seem like the right side of London. At least we know where everybody is now: They’re all inside the buildings! Looking out at us from the windows! Most of them look like zombies. Let’s.. keep our eyes on the road. <:D
11:00 PM Graffiti says “HMV this way.” Thank you, hoodlums!
11:03 PM The zombies are definitely very creepy. They’re all standing in the windows, staring out at us. 11:07 PM Hit Trafalgar Square. I know this place. We’re close.
11:11 PM Did I say “close?” I meant “halfway.” I wish it wasn’t so far away, dammit. Hey, where’d that door come from? urp
(Attached: “I live in a world with empty eye sockets. Countries grope for light switches, assisted by no one. Nature calls this ‘politics.’ I call it 'aftermath.’ Then again, I’ve been called much worse. I carry, in my hands, a book larger than life itself. A god handed it to me as a sort of graduation present. We’ve passed the final exams and now it’s time to leap blindly into the real world. I have seen this book time and time again in my travels– one could almost say my coming of age, if one so ancient as I am could have a definite age– but never have I had the chance to read it. Now that I finally have it, my eyesight is long gone. It was taken in one of my moments of passion, a rare time where I dared step up to nature. Back then, I had only one name: Derek Taylor, the name I was born with. Now my names could fill a book of their own. If ever they did, and for all I know they might, I’d keep it here in my library for others to see. And if they ever asked me the time of day, I’d say to them the same thing I said to the gods when they dared call me 'eternity’s historian:’ Nothing at all. There is no time of day, not now that the apocalypse has come and gone. There’s only the sound of rain to assure us of our existence, and the faint approaching red shapes in the void that even we the blind can see.”)
(Attached, other side: "Disclaimer: The logs go down a certain path here. If you are not comfortable with unconsensual sexual themes, skip to June 18th. This is the cleanest way to do this.")
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there are ways of saying what everybody else is thinking that feel so so so so so good and it's usually when you take the step to reassure someone
like ok you've got an anxious acquaintance and you're in a situation where you can guess where the anxiety is stemming from. it takes nothing to say "I see what you're thinking, it's okay, I see why you think that, I can provide reasoning for why it's not accurate right now, and I'm here to comfort you either way."
ive got a burgeoning friend who clearly feels an incredible amount of anxiety every single time she cancels on me. she grew up catholic and they're all hella fucked up by the guilt-complex motivated Personal Responsibility To Everyone Else so i am guessing that she feels like she's Failing At The Right Thing every time she's too tired to show up for coffee. i am unbothered. i really do not care. she texts me every single time, she's got a stressful ass job with a ton of responsibility to children, and I don't think she'd endure the guilt of cancelling if she didn't actually wanna hang out. so i told her that outright. I told her that I literally do not think she's lying or making excuses, i 100% believe that she's giving me real and valid reasons for her actions, and I am not upset with her at all. I am in fact happy that she trusts me enough to not freak the fuck out on her to tell me what's going on and why she can't come. it's clear that a parental figure regularly freaked the fuck out on her
and that is what everyone else is thinking. everyone that knows this girl is like 'heart of gold, anxious as hell.' and you know what?? she would probably literally be less anxious if more people than me started telling her she's got a heart of gold and we wouldn't even be mad or worried if she was lying. i'd literally assume it was for a good enough reason to just go along with it. she doesn't have a mean bone in her fucking body why tf would I be concerned about her reasons to lie.
and yeah! a good part of this is rooted in what I would have needed comfort for at a previous time in my life. i didn't grow up catholic but i know what it's like to have a parental figure with demands of you they will extract without regard for your wellbeing. it was a different flavor soup, but it was the same broth in the end. and that's part of the joy isn't it? recognizing an unfulfilled need in yourself along with your own fundamental capability to fill that need for another person. to become the person you needed once upon a time. to stop a cruelty you've experienced in its tracks. to save the next person.
there is no better feeling than passing along the fucking relief. becoming the balm. trusting that someday it will get passed forward back to you
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