#it was hard to read a fic where a was friends with b but romantically with c

[lululawrence]

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[wangxianficfinder]

In the mood for...

June 12th

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1. Hi! For ITMF, is there a fic where JGY try to kill WWX not only because JGS ordered it, but because WWX noticed something/have information that can destroy everything he built/too smart for his own good? Bonus if his family and friends try to save and help him @idontknowwhattowriteforusername

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2. hey admins! itmf long post canon fics that's over 100k. thanks! :)

Twelve Moons and a Fortnight by stiltonbasket (M, 290k, WangXian, Humor, Slow Burn, Post-Canon Fix-It, Long-Distance Relationship, Epistolary, Love Letters, Family Feels, a-qing lives, teenage romance, Adoption, Romantic Comedy, Happy Ending, Weddings, Case Fic, Parenthood, Politics)

🔒 Silver & Gold  by beeswaxing  (E, 162k, wangxian, post-canon, de-aging, fluff & angst, happy ending, fix-it of sorts, family bonding, established relationship, non-sexual intimacy, BAMF WWX, pining, protective WWX)

Between The Lines by Witch_Nova221 (M, 153k, WangXian, LSZ & WWX & LWJ, WWX & OCs, Epistolary, Romance, Eventual Romance, Fluff and Angst, Letters, Falling In Love, Love Confessions, Love Letters, Long-Distance Relationship, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Loss, Canon-Typical Violence, Post-Canon, Idiots in Love)

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3. hiii admins, thanks for your hard work! any fics of wwx being bssr's disciple? bonus if wwx and lwj end up together. thanks!

Become Tomorrow by ShanaStoryteller (Not rated, 39k, wangxian, BSSR/LY, Alternate Universe, a story full of tragic pining gays, and one chaotic gremlin, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, WWX is BSSR's disciple)

Going on charmingly by scribbet (T, 21k, WangXian, Teenage LWJ, Cloud Recesses Shenanigans, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, WWX is BSSR's Disciple, Genius WWX, Petty LWJ, Meddling LXC, What if LWJ didn't have an excuse to instantly write WWX off?, Canon Divergence, JFM Doesn't Adopt WWX, WWX minus canon sense of obligation, but still with an inability to shut up around LWJ, I swear LWJ's inner voice was no quite so snarky when I started this, JZN is unfortunately present but only to lose face, LQR's inconsistent adherence to the Lan clan precepts, writing the effective Lan education you would like to see in the world, Technically pre-relationship, but in the typical Wangxian way of them being in deep but just not acknowledging it yet, POV LWJ)

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4. hello! good day! im here for itmf. it has been several days since i last read anything, and i recently encountered a fic with a sentient golden core 'confusion.' A) can you suggest something similar to this story? it can involve: a) sentient golden core, b) immortal cultivators, c) both.

B) 2nd, something about doctor lwj

C) 3rd and lastly, any fic that you would recommend that is more than 10k words.

thankyouuuuuu'all for your hardwork :)))]

4A)

Never Again by Hauntcats (T, 67k, WWX & WN & WQ, JC & WWX, wangxian, graphic depictions of violence, major character death, Canon Divergence, Angst, Golden Core Transfer Fix-It, Time Travel Fix-It, Not JC Friendly, Dark, BAMF WWX, mentions of abuse, Not Everyone Dies au, XY doesn’t have a happy ending) WWX develops a sentient golden core due to time travel weirdness

4B)

Anginal Equivalents by fakeplasticlily (E, 23k, WangXian, Modern, Medical Residents AU, Childhood Friends, Mutual Pining, Oblivious WWX, Sexual ContentPodfic Available) LZ is a neurosurgery resident

Year Of Night Call by ailuridae (abigailnicole) (T, 22k, WangXian, JYL/JZX, What If Cultivators Were All Surgeons AU, surgery AU, Our Boys Are Trauma Fellows Now, The Lan Babies Are Surgery Interns, trauma fellows share a call room, and there was only one bed, hospital au, Medicine AU, instead of spiritual cultivation there's just medical training, if you're not good with blood watch out, there is a lot of unexplained medical terminology sorry) he's a trauma fellow

Come Around and Stay by trippednfell (M, 160k, wangxian, modern, slow burn, kid fic, found family, it gets worse before it gets better, PTSD, blood and injury, dissociation, trauma, angst w happy ending, musicals, alternating pov, JC & WWX reconciliation, hurt/comfort, panic attacks)

4C)

Lay my body down by tawaen (M, 48k, WWX & WQ, WWX & WN, wangxian, WWX & JYL, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Rogue Cultivator WWX, Eventual WangXian, No Golden Core Transfer, Not Cultivation World Friendly, Canon-Typical Violence, Not JC Friendly, What if WWX saw the first siege of the burial mounds and said Nope to the war, OCs, OC point-of-view for one chapter for plot reasons)

Something Yet to Learn by Glitterbombshell (T, 16k, WangXian, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Light Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff)

Weep You No More, Sad Fountains by athena_crikey (T, 48k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Fix-it fic, Whump, Curses, Fever, Delirium, Stabbing, Loneliness, Confessions)

We Meet at the Thousandth Step by Admiranda, Rynne (T, 316k, WangXian, CSSR/WCZ, Canon Divergence, No Sunshot Campaign, CSSR & WCZ Live, Rogue Cultivator WWX, Different First Meeting, Night Hunts, Genius WWX, Inventor WWX, Plot, Romance, Drama, Fluff, Strangers to married, Unresolved Sexual Tension, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Everyone Lives, Developing Relationship, Minor Violence, Case Fic, Mystery, Flirting, WWX's Canon-Typical Flower Flirting, Arson, There Was Only One Bed, Getting Together, First Kiss, Meeting the Parents, Resolved Sexual Tension, Resolved Romantic Tension, WWX Is a Good Big Brother, New Relationship Bliss, Chinese Mythology & Folklore, Blood and Injury, Yiling siblings, Married WangXian, Honeymoon, Wangxian's Baby Fever)

Ghosts Shouldn’t by ShanaStoryteller (Not Rated, 15k, WangXian, Grief/Mourning, Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending)

Hear a song this deeply by so_shhy (T, 87k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, modern cultivation au, Kind of academia AU, Music, Kid Fic, Action/Adventure, To An Extent, Original Character(s), Slow Burn, Fluff and Angst, Happy Ending)

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5. In the mood for a (modern au prefered but not strict too) fic where there's something going down. Like WY has a stalker, or Su She is up to no good. If you've read, fics like Red Chrysanthemums for Wei Ying, or For a good time, call or Coincidence is Another Man's Fate...fics like that. Drama filled, angsty, a mystery etc. Sorry, I'm absolutely terrible at explaining my brain 😐 @yllzchair

Post Mortem by Cataclysmic_Calamity (E, 178k, WangXian, Psychological Horror, Modern, friends with benefits, they’re both fucked up but they love each other so much, Slow Burn Mystery, Unnegotiated Kink, Dom/sub, Anal Sex, Consensual Non-Consent, Stalking, Drug Addiction, Serial Killers, in WWX’s desire to critique the ‘final girl’ trope he accidentally becomes one, Angst with a Happy Ending, meta commentary on the horror and true crime genres) WY has a stalker, beautifully written, one of my absolute faves

Marks of weakness, marks of woe by Song_of_Storms (E, 48k, WangXian, WIP, College/University, Modern with Magic, Dark Academia, Rivals to Lovers, Dark LWJ, Slow Burn, Eventual Smut, Murder Mystery, Minor Character Death, Familiars, Fencing, Nonbinary NHS, Poison, Aftermath of Poisoning, Tagged Explicit For Later Chapters, LWJ's canonical inability to distinguish between immediate hatred and immediate attraction, furthering the LWJ/JZX/Mianmian friendship agenda, Heavy Angst, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Intrusive Thoughts) if they don't mind WIPs

once upon a time, 很久很久以前 by gentil-minou (Flyingsuits) (E, 69k, WangXian, LSZ & WWX, LSZ & LWJ, WIP, Modern, Canon Divergence, Transmigration, of the townwide variety, Amnesia, of the nearly everyone variety, Mystery, of the shenanigans variety, Not Everyone Dies, Single Parent LWJ, except a-yuan runs away to find his other dad, Fluff and Angst, Slow Burn, Mutual Pining, Minor Character Death, Angst with a Happy Ending, Once Upon a Time Fusion, Curses, part of the fun is figuring out how to make these characters as miserable as possible :) )

A Soft Storm by AvoOwO (Not Rated, 47k, WangXian, Hurt WWX, POV LWJ, Protective LWJ, SS Being an Asshole, SS Bashing, Car Accidents, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Heavy Angst, Stalking, Implied Sexual Content, Sexual Harassment, Crying, Soft WangXian, WWX Needs a Hug, WWX Needs a Break, LWJ Needs a Hug, Hurt LWJ, Blood and Injury, Blood and Gore, Concussions, Possessive LWJ, Modern, Major Character Injury, LWJ is a Mess, LWJ is Not Okay, WWX is Not Okay, LWJ is So Done, Sassy LWJ, WWX is So Done, Angst with a Happy Ending, Protective LXC, College, Sad LWJ, WWX is Loved, Slut Shaming, Insults)

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6. hiii admins! any lwj groveling fics? thank uuu :)

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7. Hi itmf for wangxian first times where their not magically experienced in the world of sex? just awkward fumbling and figuring out what to do together. Can be any trope im not picky 😁😁 @yesibest

In Deep by phonciblepbone (E, 6k, WangXian, Modern, Pool Sex, Anal Sex, WWX thinks he's scaring a straight man, LWJ thinks he's being propositioned by a sexually liberated WWX, Pining while fucking, Getting Together, Demisexual WWX)

Fentao-laoshi’s Guide to Cut-Sleeve Pleasures by occultings (microcomets) (E, 31k, wangxian, canon divergence, pining while fucking, friends with benefits, first time, cloud recesses study arc, practice kissing, sharing a bed, jealousy, getting together, confessions, happy ending)

Nothing But Trouble by brooklinegirl (E, 60k, WangXian, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Modern, JC mooning over WQ, getting wrecked sexually, WWX's single brain cell, Practice Kissing)

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8. Itmf: what is ur fav diverging au? Esp if it diverges in an atypical place, and why?

The Fierce Corpse Incident by GoschateWabn (T, 8k, WangXian, JYL/JZX, WIP, JZX Lives, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, Humor, Fix-It) In it Jin Zixuan doesn't die and it's honestly so hilarious I really recommend reading it

❤️ kick at the darkness ‘til it bleeds daylight by AlfAlfAlfAlfAlf, tardigradeschool (T, 75k, WangXian, Hurt/Comfort, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Eventual Happy Ending, Getting Together, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, Inspired by The Parent Trap (1998), Kid Fic, teen shenanigans, two a-yuans, Fluff and Angst) diverges by giving Yuan a twin and by Wei Wuxian secretly surviving the siege of the Burial Mounds. I love the creativity involved in this one!

A Thousand Things by tickertape (M, 108k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, WWX Isn’t Adopted by the Jiāngs, Developing Friendships, lots of OCs, miscommunication and misunderstandings (they’re idiots your honor), Nightmares, Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks, Cloud Recesses Shenanigans, Slow Burn) both diverge by having Wei Wuxian found by someone other than Jiang Fengmian and I'm fascinated to see the repercussions of that.

what builds a home by Stratisphyre (T, 45k, WangXian, MY & WWX, Canon Divergence, Adopted WWX, POV Multiple, warning for JGS behaving exactly as expected, child endangerment, Brother Feels, Minor Character Death)

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9. Itmf: what is ur fav fic that was translated out of a language you don't speak and into one you do? And/or one that you love that has multiple translations available?

Hanlong by micratus (E, 282k, WangXian, Case Fic, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, But not only Cloud Recesses, Slow Burn, Oblivious WWX, Drunken Shenanigans, References to Drugs, Canon-Typical Violence, Action & Romance, Eventual Smut, Reincarnation, WWX Protests Too Much, Humor, This is a translation, Modern with Cultivation, Some guys find redemption here) was originally a Russian fic but was translated into English

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10. Itmf: a fic u really love, for an element that's not included in the tags? Not asking for major spoilers, but tags and summaries can be hard. So what's a fic with a cool element to it that you think should be highlighted more than it is?

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11. Itmf: who is your favorite fic writer(s) and why? Is there a story of their's that really stands out to u?

Keep Me on Your Pillow by catbrainedschemes (E, 42k, WangXian, Fantasy, Pillow Book AU, high immortal, LWJ, red fox WWX, Pining, Angst, Fluff, Eventual Smut, Slow Burn, Feelings, First Meetings, Misunderstandings, Happy Ending, Sharing a Bed, First Kiss, Oblivious WWX, Oblivious LWJ, Sexual Tension, Hero Worship, Falling In Love) Anything by this author Cat rainedschemes is SO good i love their style of writing and unique ideas

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12. Itmf: you're having a really bad day and need something to relax/feel better, what is ur go to fic or author?

Love Cats series by so_shhy (T, 14k, WangXian, LXC & LWJ, Modern, Meet-Cute, Fluff, WWX is wet and adorable, in a tree, With a Cat, LWJ had no chance, Don't Try This At Home, First Dates, LWJ likes ducks, WWX does not like dogs, No plot at all, They just have a nice date, This is the level of fluff I need in my life at the moment, picnic dates, Falling In Love, LWJ is briefly less than graceful, there is a spider, but like barely there, and totally harmless, LWJ Loves Rabbits, Office Party, LXC is a Good Big Brother, WWX is an excellent boyfriend, POV Outsider, they are in love, the world is full of joy, Everything is Beautiful, except for baby coots)

take me home (where i belong) by scarletwanlian (E, 153k, WangXian, Slice of Life, Modern, College/University, PTSD, Trauma, Dissociation, Music, Strangers to Lovers, Friends to Lovers, Depression, Running, Hurt/Comfort, Recovery, Injury Recovery, mental recovery, Mental Health Issues, Non-Sexual Intimacy, AND sexual intimacy, Literal Sleeping Together, and sleeping together, First Time, ace characters, also aro characters, and aroace character, Families of Choice, Car Accidents, Found Family, Flashbacks, Nightmares, gore elements somewhat, descriptions can get a bit gorey at times, Eventual Happy Ending, Sad with a Happy Ending, Healing, Character Study, Grief/Mourning, Survivor Guilt, Whump) One of my underrated favorites

The stuffed bunny, the beautiful nephew, and other gifts from Lan Qiren by deliciousblizzardshark (G, 8k, WangXian, LQR & WWX, Modern AU, Single Parent WWX, Good Uncle LQR, Accidental Uncle Acquisition, Found Family, Fluff)

Only Fools Rush In by vesna (mrsronweasley) (E, 27k, WangXian, Modern, Woke Up Married, alcohol use but no sex happens while drunk, Mutual Pining, Getting Together, what happens in Vegas etc etc)

through a window softly by impossibletruths (T, 14k, WangXian, Modern, College/University, Neighbors, Music, They Play Music Together But They've Never Met, It's very romantic, Graduate School, WWX Is Doing Music Education and LWJ Is Doing Composition, Music As Love Language, Just A Whole Lot Of Classical Music In General, Podfic Available, Spanish Translation Available, Russian Translation Available)

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13. ITMF fics where a-Yuan is Wei Wuxian's bio child? Maybe with Wen Qing, or anyone really. But Wei Wuxian still has to raise him alone, and maybe later he meets Lan Wangji and Lan Wangji joins the family? Thank you!

Across the street to another life by danegen (M, 99k, WangXian, Modern, unleashed au, Family Fluff, Set in America, Hurt/Comfort, Past Child Abuse, Addiction, Crime, Amnesia, Ableist Language, another fridged mother, POV Alternating, past wwx/ofc, past wwx/omc, Medium parent YZY, A-Yuan is wwx's biological son, Musicians, Happy Ending)

hot for teacher by attackofthezee (noxlunate) (M, 8k, WangXian, Modern, Kid Fic, Getting Together, Mutual Pining, Teacher LWJ, Single Parent WWX, Fluff, vaguely set geographically in the us)

my little love by mellowflicker (T, 54k, WangXian, Modern, Single Parent WWX, kindergarten teacher LWJ, Kid Fic, Hurt/Comfort, Domestic Fluff, Pining)

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14. hey admins! looking for any fics with wwx and the juniors. thanks!

❤️ The One-Body Problem by metisket (T, 29k, LJY & WWX, LJY & LSZ, wangxian, possession, cohabitation) WWX accidentally possesses LJY

🧡 don’t threaten me with a good time by livinginaworldofnoise (G, 60k, WangXian, Modern AU, Great British bake off AU, Script format, Fluff and Crack, Reality TV, Social media)

Only Fools Rush In by justpeace (M, 22k, WangXian, Slow Burn, College/University, Modern, ah the liberal arts, set in MA but aside from one background masshole you can't really tell, Bisexual Disaster WWX, LSZ is a girl bc gender is a construct, WWX's elaborate booze anti-heists, JYL had to take a break from college due to health issues but now she's back baybee, Asian-American Character, Asian grocery stores are the bomb dot com, WWX does a lot of cursing, LWJ's buns, LWJ & WWX have opposite flirting strategies and its tough, Everyone is some version of Chinese-American, WWX has feelings about being Chinese-American, Humor, Banter, Flirting, Fluff, Humor, Getting Together)

🔒 hills and rivers are waiting by LtLJ (T, 15k, wangxian, Post-Canon, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst, Domestic Fluff, Family Feels, Canon-Typical Violence, the family that hunts demons together stays together, and doesn’t murder each other, Case Fic, BAMF WWX, Mojo’s post)

🔒 Not Yet (There As Needed) by sunrise_and_death (T, 13k, LSZ & WWX, JL & WWX, JL & LSZ, WangXian, Post-Canon, Family Feels, Family Bonding, POV LSZ, This Fic Has Everything, even more yearning, WWX & LSZ figuring out wtf their relationship is, Dramatic Revelations, JL being the contrary lil bean he is, all the juniors thinking WWX is the greatest thing to ever happen to them, and in case you missed it yearning)

See Me, Feel Me (Listening to You) by Ghost_Honey (T, 29k, WangXian, POV WWX, WWX Needs a Hug, WWX’s Abyssmal Self-Esteem, Emotional Healing, Angst, The Juniors love their Senior Wei, Curses, WWX is an Unreliable Narrator, JC & WWX Reconciliation, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Platonic Cuddling)

🔒 The Absolutely True Story of the Yiling Patriarch: A Manifesto in Many Parts by aubreyli (T, 19k, WangXian, In-Universe RPF, Romance Novel, LJY's sense of justice, OYZZ's sense of romance, Featuring a surprise appearance by WWX's oft-absent sense of shame, Look the ducklings just want their sort-of dads to be happy okay?, And it's not like WWX or LWJ are doing a good job of ensuring their own happiness, LJY rejects canon reality and substitutes his own, highly relatable actually, Post-Canon Fix-It, primarily drama-canon with cameos from novel-canon, Podfic Available, Russian Translation Available)

爱不释手; never let me go by yiqie (E, 68k, WangXian, Case Fic, Blood and Injury, Demons, Body Horror, Mystery, The intrinsic horniness of wound tending, Yearning 2: The Electric Boogaloo)

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15. ITMF fics were in the 13 years where Wei Wuxian is dead, his name is cleared. So the juniors are raised hearing good stories about WWX, not evil/villainous stories. So when WWX comes back to life he runs thinking he is still being hunted, but in actuality he is no longer being persecuted and the juniors just want to get to know him. Thank you!

hey, don’t you wanna go? down this road and never come back? Series by comforting_monachopsis (M/T, 25k, WangXian, Diary/Journal, Golden Core Reveal, Canonical Child Abuse, Canonical Character Death, YL WWX, Grief/Mourning, Dysfunctional Family, Angst and Tragedy, Canon Divergence, Fluff and Crack, Yúnmèng Siblings Feels, Twin Prides of Yúnmèng Dynamics, Good Sibling JC, Good Sibling WWX, Yunmeng Bros Reconciliation, Good Kid LSZ, Misunderstandings, Idiots in Love, Good Uncle WWX, Good Uncle JC)

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16. Hello!!! In the mood for fics where all of WWX's injuries catch up to him. For example, this may happen when WWX is purged of resentful energy which had been holding him together and so after the resentful energy is gone all his injuries re-emerge. I am looking for fics where especially other characters are faced with the extent of WWX's injuries if/when this happens, please! Thank you so much!

❤️ three surgeries and a mercy kill by MarbleGlove (T, 11k, medical procedures, fix-it, Demonic Cultivation, Canon Divergence, Fix-It, Self-Indulgent, WWX Has a New Golden Core, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies)

🧡 decay by antebunny (G, 15k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Angst, Misunderstandings, Miscommunication, Fix-It, Angst with a Happy Ending, the fluffiest ending, Hurt/Comfort) Lan Sect purges WWX of resentful energy, which is pretty much all that's keeping him going

The Core Issue by Hauntcats (T, 21k, WangXian, Angst with a Happy Ending, Not JC Friendly, Canon Divergence) WWX stops relying on resentful energy to grow a new core & has to heal from past injuries as he does so

The worth of a life with no regrets by SnowdropsAndDreams (Not Rated, 38k, JC & WWX, WangXian, JC & WWX & JYL, WIP, Time Travel Fix-It, Canon Divergence, Everyone Lives, Twin Prides of Yunmeng Feels, Twin Prides of Yunmeng Dynamics, Yunmeng Siblings Feels, JC & WWX Reconciliation, Post-Canon Fix-It, Angst with a Happy Ending) It's a very good time travel fix it fic where somewhere after the middle it's revealed just how many injuries WWX is currently keeping together with Resentment. Not quite succumbing to them yet, but the shock aspect is there iirc

Impermanence, Transience, Permanence by Best Bepsy (BepsyGray) (E, 39k, wangxian, canon divergence, unplanned pregnancy, mpreg, gore, sunshot campaign, assumed miscarriage, medical procedures, childbirth, golden core reveal) might work, as wwx is depicted attempting some recovery from the Burial Mounds during the SSC

they who refuse to be blessed by sysrae (E, 7k, WangXian, JC & WWX, Canon Divergence, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Whump, Golden Core Reveal, Developing Relationship, wwx can have a little scurvy, as a treat, Bathing/Washing, Confessions, Sharing a Bed) might also work? Though it's more lwj taking care of wwx immediately after finding during the SSC, lwj notes some of the damage and helps wwx recover from it

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17. Hi! Im in the mood for a fic in which lwj gets tired/exhausted of his responsibilities and then wwx helps him or something? I want it to be during the crsa but anything is fine tbh! @menimimimeni

I’m Going Out (Gonna Make A Name For Me And You) by cosmicmilktea (T, 16k, wangxian, post-canon, chief cultivator LWJ, Mentor WWX, intersect relations, slow burn, sickness)

the only way out by cafecliche (T, 12k, WangXian, JC & WWX, JC & LWJ, Post-Canon, this is one part character study, one part comedy of errors, and one part fix-it, WWX is a people pleaser in this essay I will, my event planning experience rearing its head again, Podfic Available)

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[thelaughtercafe]

Impactful Intervention

Tea Type: Half and Half (Fluff with Hurt/Comfort)

Potential Triggers: Eating disorder talk(anorexic leaning), and self-deprecation though it’s not super explicit in either case!

Pairing: Bakugou, Kirishima, Izuku, Ochaco, Mina, Denki and Shinsou/Reader (Can be read platonic or romantic)

Length: 2.1k+

Summary:  You get reminded you’re not nearly as alone in your struggles as you like to think.

A/N: Sheridan here! This is super self-indulgent so I banged this out when struggling with the exact issue in the fic when I didn’t want to eat 😅 This is a continuous series with this as the first fic! Not much twording this is just pure hurt/comfort and fluff really, with some minor twords! I’m tagging it as a tlc: fic rather than a tword fic, but it will be tword series in 2 chapters, so I hope you all look forward to it!

“Why don’t you eat more often?”

The question was blunt and close enough to your ear that it tickled, making you flinch away from Todoroki with a squeak. 

His question registered and you swallowed nervously under his perceptive gaze, shoving a fry in your mouth before faking as bright a smile as you could.

“I eat plenty! I just had a big breakfast.”

The familiar lie fell all too easily from your tongue. 

Todoroki sat across from you with a reluctant hum of acknowledgment along with Kirishima and then Bakugou, as Deku and Ocacho sat on either side of you.

The quiet now that had overtaken the table was uncomfortable and you were feeling jittery under several gazes.

“S-So anyway-

Deku spoke up before you could change the subject. 

“You’ve said that to me before too; Todoroki is kinda right. Every time I offer you a snack you always say no.”

He was pouting and your smile widened nervously as you waved him off.

“You’re worrying too much! Really, I promise I’m eating enough. I wouldn’t be able to train as hard as I do otherwise right?”

Deku’s eyes were still worried but he nodded in agreement after a moment’s thought. 

“Yeah, I suppose you’re right.”

Most eyes looking at you turned away after that and you breathed a sigh of relief, your smile losing some of its anxiety. 

You didn’t expect to look up and meet Bakugo’s stalwart gaze. You nearly flinched in surprise but caught yourself; instead looking away quickly and rushing to shove a chicken nugget down your throat. 

Given his eyes still hadn’t left you, you couldn’t very well throw out your tray. So, you crafted a hasty excuse, checking your phone and making a show as your eyes widened before you hopped up, grabbed your bag, and dashed off with a rushed. 

“Sorry guys I totally forgot I have to return this book to the library today or it’ll be late!!”

Once out of the cafeteria you found you could breathe again; heart pounding a mile a minute. That was too close. Your friends didn’t need to share your burdens. They were your stupid hangups and deficiencies. No need to pile more on than they already definitely had. 

You made your way back to your dorm and tried to relax as your stomach growled. 

Later that day; burgundy eyes scanned the library’s sign-in book and narrowed as his fist met the wooden stand harshly. 

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The next day you headed to class and it went as usual. You felt you could finally relax; joking easily with Deku, Denki and Mina like any other day. It seemed that yesterday’s heavy conversation had all but been forgotten. 

Until the end of the school day. 

You trailed after Bakugou as he dragged you by the wrist after him protesting weakly. 

“B-Bakugou! I can walk you know! Just tell me where we’re going first!!”

The fiery blond was uncharacteristically silent and a chill went down your spine. What was causing him to act like this? Was everything okay?

You quickened your pace as best you could. 

Bakugou shoved you in front of him into his dorm room and you typically would have demanded to know what was going on…but the worried eyes and the way all mumbled conversation stopped when you entered made it all too clear. 

It had been too easy yesterday after all. 

You turned without a second thought but Bakugou was already ahead of you, leaning too casually against the exit with his back and foot against the door and staring you down impassively. 

You gritted your teeth but tried to keep your anxiety at bay. 

“What the Hell is this?”

“Don’t get so cagey; we just want to talk."

You reluctantly turned your gaze from the door to Todoroki, ever the mediator. 

Your smile was obviously forced, unlike yesterday. 

"Little hard not to be when I get dragged halfway across the school and have the exit blocked like I’m a wild animal.”

Your voice was not shaking. 

“We tried to talk to you yesterday but you just…brushed it off. We wanted to do it in a more intimate setting where you’d hopefully feel safer with fewer of us.”

Deku clarified, fidgeting nervously with his fingers as his gaze flicked between your eyes and his hands. 

“We just wanna help.”

Your answer was instant. 

“I don’t need help. Can someone please tell me what we’re doing here?”

A snort from behind you made you glance back and you tensed at the intensity in Bakugou’s expression, defensive, more so than you already were. 

Kirishima must’ve sensed it too since he moved to stand and held his hands up placatingly.

“Hey man don’t-

But it was too late. 

Bakugou was already closing in on you and your breath caught as he easily cornered you against the edge of his bed, tall frame towering over you. 

When your eyes instinctively moved to look away from his he hissed and grabbed your chin, his touch gentle but firm. 

"No. Look at me. I have one very simple question for you, nerd. And if you lie to me? Consider our friendship over. You got that?”

Your vision was blurring but you nodded shakily. Despite his tough exterior, you’d grown close to him. Were friends with both him and Deku respectively. So for him to threaten something so serious when you both know he’d follow through…needless to say you were petrified. 

“Why did you lie about having a book to return yesterday? And I’ll save you one potential lie. I checked the sign in sheet after school yesterday. Think carefully before you answer.”

He grunted before releasing you, turning on his heel and returning to his place at the door where he continued staring you down. 

You felt helpless. What else could you say? You’d been caught red handed. 

“You…you really lied? But you hate lying!”

You smiled bitterly at Deku’s words, but nodded in agreement. 

“You’re not wrong there. But I…”

You took a deep breath and moved to get comfortable on Bakugou’s bed, knowing you’d need to sit down for this. You were half facing Bakugou and Kirishima who was now at his side by the door and the others who, now that you somewhat had the guts to look, consisted of Deku, Todoroki, Kaminari, Uraraka and Ashido. You flinched a little as you noticed Shinsou in the corner, so quiet you would’ve missed him if he hadn’t been watching you so intensely. 

That settled it for you, there really was no choice here. 

You closed your eyes as you felt overwhelmed and jumped at the feeling of an arm wrapping around your shoulders, reluctantly opening your eyes and looking to see Ashido smiling cheerfully at you. Kaminari wasn’t far behind as he hopped up onto your other side and joined your makeshift hug. 

You hadn’t even realized how much you’d been shaking until then and luckily their touch was grounding, helping you to breathe better and focus. 

“Shit…okay. Um…”

Your eyes went to the floor and you hated that they were already stinging.

“I just…I d-don’t really like eating in front of people? That’s how it started I guess. I-

A deep exhale escaped your lips and your eyes jerked between your friends in worry.

"Oh God what if I trigger you guys? This is why I didn’t want to tell anyone I don’t want to burden-”

“Hey.”

Shinsou’s voice was gentle but clear and at it you instantly quieted, meeting his gaze in surprise.

“We’re all here because we want to be and we care about you. Every single one of us has noticed the signs. If we weren’t prepared for it; we wouldn’t be converging like this.”

As usual, his words were nothing but unblemished truth and you let out a shaky half laugh. Even when you were on the verge of a breakdown he could stop you from spiraling. At least some things hadn’t changed. Still, you nodded and got ready to continue. 

“Okay.”

Deep breath.

“I’ve kinda slowly just…not wanted to eat really?”

Your voice was little more than a squeak before you rushed to continue.

“I mean!! I do eat sometimes! I snack now and again but I mainly have 1 meal a day and it’s highly unlikely I even finish that.”

You rolled your eyes skyward and looked at Bakugou’s ceiling finding it much easier to talk when you weren’t looking at anyone. 

“I lied because…It’s not any of your problems. You’re dealing with so much already; who am I to pile on or complain ya know? Besides, it doesn’t matter anyway. It’s really not that bad.”

Your dismissive words finally triggered a roar that had Kaminari and Ashido both rushing back towards the main circle as Bakugou lunged.

“Not that bad!?!”

“Eep!”

You squeaked as he easily pinned you down while straddling your waist holding your wrists with one hand while gesturing wildly with the other as he ranted. 

“Now you listen to me and you listen good! First of all; you can and damn well better come to us! We’re all here for you and you can bet your ass I’m sure we’re all going to help you overcome this. Something you left out but I’m sure you think; you’re not fat.”

Oh, look! Just like that, you’re crying. 

Deku had puffed his cheeks up and he hopped up and bounced over to nod energetically at you.  

“Kacchan is right! You’re really nimble! One of the fastest in class in fact!”

“And also one of the weakest.”

You thought your mumble would go unnoticed but Shinsou startled you by running his fingers through your hair and shaking his head, fondness in his gaze. 

“Dummy. You’re one of the strongest people I know. You have an emotion-based Quirk and still manage to keep up with your hero friends. You’re a badass.”

Well, now you were blushing and crying. Gosh, you felt like a hot mess.

“I second that! And you’re always looking out for us when we have any issues! You bake the class sweets all the time, always listen attentively whenever any one of us has a bad day. Heck, you even tried to help Mineta learn how to talk to girls.”

Kirishima chuckled. 

Uraraka giggled at that, making your blush darken. 

“Which is extra cute considering how blushy and stammery you’d get around all the boys but especially Bakugou at first, remember?”

Ashido joined in with a laugh of her own. 

“Ohmygosh that’s right!! Even with us girls, she was shy and hard to get to open up. She was still the class sweetheart even then though~”

You groaned, hiding your face in your arm. 

“Don’t remind me. I couldn’t help it!! It was my first time being around attractive guys; I had no clue how to react!”

“Aw, you think I’m attractive?”

Bakugou smirked down at you and even as you were sure you were a tomato by now you stuck your tongue out at him playfully. 

“Don’t let it go to your head hotshot~”

He snickered as Kaminari strode over to poke your cheek, grinning as you tried to bite his finger.

“Hey! Brat!”

He chuckled before rubbing the back of his neck nervously. 

“Anyway; you probably don’t know but you’re not alone with what you’re goin through. I dunno about the rest but I’ve struggled with eating stuff too. If you need me to remind you or someone just to talk to those who’ve been through it?  My dorm room is always open.

Todoroki raised a hand at that, shy but supportive. 

"Mine too.”

You found yourself misty-eyed but nodded sheepishly.

“I… I’m willing to try, then. If you guys don’t mind helping and it’s not a pain-wah!”

You jerked as Bakugou squeezed your side to cut you off with a grumble despite the quickly growing smirk on his face.

“Stop. Putting. Yourself.  Down. In fact…”

An idea lit his eyes that already made you squirm as he turned to face the others. 

“I say we tickle her anytime she says anything self-deprecating or when she apologizes for no reason. Sound fun?”

Your eyes widened. Bastard!! That was supposed to be a secret! He promised! 

Seeing the look on your face he snickered. 

“Consider this my payback for lying. Lucky you you’ll get to have 7 more lers to go to now~”

With that he pulled back, grin all the more wicked as he looked back at your apprehensive friends. Sensing what he was about to do, you whined. 

“Baku don’t you fucking dare-”

But he was already speaking over you. 

“Don’t look so nervous; she’d sooner die than admit it but she actually loves it.”

Well if you weren’t a tomato before…

As your friends all closed in with giddy grins quickly mirrored by you you couldn’t help but think how lucky you were to have such amazing friends. 

…You were still gonna kill Bakugou for this later though.

[indiaalphawhiskey]

Hii! First off I absolutely adore your writing and I'm super excited for your upcoming fics, but I was wondering what are your favorite go-to fics (by other authors) that you want to read again and again?

Hello, love!

I did this once, but I can’t seem to find the post (go figure) so I’m happy to do it again. ❤️ I actually have a folder on my Kindle titled Comfort Fics and these are what’s in there. (I also have a bunch of fics from the same authors, but I thought it best to rec one per author. Check out their other stuff if you haven’t already.)

Most Re-Read Fic

🏈 Soft Hands, Fast Feet, Can’t Lose by dolce_piccante

This fic has, without a doubt, my most favorite version of Louis ever written. But more than that, I think that this is just a very nostalgic fic for me, because it was released about six months into me falling into the fandom, and so it kind of reminds me of that time where I was discovering fics and fandom and Larry for the first time. I feel like whenever I go back to it, it feels like that slice of time all over again. Epitome of a comfort fic.

Snack Fic Re-Read

🌬️Fugue by iwillpaintasongforlou

This is just the most perfect single-sitting fic ever. It has everything you need to feel like you’ve read something full and all consuming. I’m a really big fan of the romantic build up, and I love that this has that, even in what is technically an established relationship trope. Love, love, love.

Fave Bedtime Re-Read

🕊️ Counting the Steps Between Us by zarah5

I keep crawling back to this fic like a long lost lover. It’s just written in such a way that hits the spot every time, with the perfect amount of tension and storytelling for you to feel like you’ve earned it by the time they get together.

Best Smut Re-Read

🫦 Hike Up Your Skirt (and Show Your World to Me) by Brooklyn_Babylon / @twopoppies

When this was being written, I told @twopoppies that it was going to overthrow Are You Gonna Be My Girl? by LoadedGunn as my holy grail smut fic and I wasn’t wrong. I mean… this fic’s reputation precedes it. It just gets the job done in the most delicious, dark, dirty way. I get that the themes might not be for everyone, but it’s definitely for me. If you’re specifically looking for something that can only be described as delectable debauchery, you’ve found it. (Read the tags!)

Specific Mood Re-Read

🪐 Saved Tonight by Anonymous*

Harry's the world's most persistent seduction-baker, a questionable dog-sitter, and Louis' biggest fan. Louis hasn't written in years, is trying to pass loneliness off as cynicism, and absolutely hates his fans. It's probably destiny.

This fic is just really, really special to me. It’s soft in the most weird and wonderful way, and I’ve not found another fic that makes me feel the way this does. I think the best way to describe this is that it’s a fic that envelopes you in such a specific setting that you find yourself going back to it to live in that place for a little while.

*The author has since taken it down, and I don’t know by what username they prefer to go by, so I just listed it as Anonymous.

A/B/O Re-Read

🐺 Where You Lay by HamPalpert

When Louis's upcoming heat threatens his success at his new dream job, he asks the best (and only) person he can think of to help him through it: his best mates' best mate, Harry Styles. Harry reluctantly accepts, and together the two navigate a strange friends with benefits relationship that quickly turns complicated.

A/B/O is my most favorite trope ever, but because there are a lot of different permutations of the “rules”, it’s often hard for me to find an A/B/O fic that includes everything I really really really love about the trope. This is that fic for me.

Best Soft Re-Read

🎵 Make Your Words A Weapon by HelloAmHere / @helloamhere

The way Harry is written in this fic is everything to me. This fic is soft in the most lovely way, and there’s something so healing in the way it discusses trauma without ever sacrificing the romance in the fic. This has a piece of dialogue that I think about nearly monthly, but I won’t share it cause I want you to experience it for yourself first.

Holy Grail Re-Read

⏳my heart is breathing for this moment in time by usedtothebeach

Let me start off by saying this fic is an investment, but Jesus is it worth it. This is just the most unique blend of canon and Larry lore ever, and it just does it so, so perfectly. If you’re looking for a fic that will make you see Larry’s love story as the most perfect insider version of it ever, this is the fic. It’s so good that I never want to read/watch the original Time Traveler’s Wife. As far as I’m concerned, this is the original. (Don't forget to read the companion piece feel myself fall, make a joke of it all.)

Honorable Mentions

(I haven’t re-read these yet only because I feel like I’ve just finished them and I’m giving myself some time to miss them so much that it feels like the first time all over again.)

🗽 Mine Would Be You by @crinkle-eyed-boo

An exes-to-lovers for the ages. This fic is painfully beautiful, and there’s something about these characters that have stood (and will continue to stand) the rest of time. I think this is a gorgeously mature fic that deals with the complexities of love and romance in a way that’s rare. This is one of the most realistic depictions of Harry and Louis that feels true to who they are in every era.

🦋 of the divine by @thedevilinmybrain

Harry in this is literally ethereal, but also, the way the romance is layered over religious themes is just done in such a fulfilling and delicious way. I love fics that manage to marry such specific knowledge with a story that’s still romantic and wildly sexy. This is a journey, and just thinking about it makes me want to pick it up immediately.

[kingsansa]

Writing questions, when you start a new story do you mostly have it planned out or do you sort go with the flow? Do you know the beginning, middle and end and all the in between is changeable/movable? How much time do you spend on the characters before you start writing?

I love your writing and I'm always so impressed by how you manage to adapt them into you stories, I feel like they are how the characters would be in the time/setting for each of your stories.

Thank you for writing and sharing your stories.

Over the years, I’ve definitely gotten more neurotic about my writing process. In this sense, writing fic sort of gave me training wheels in a way and I’d say I’m more confident in my ability to lay the foundation for a story than I was five years years ago. With that being said, I’m still half of the belief that there is a such thing as over planning. There are times where I’ve written so much that I feel like I’ve already written the story and I have no interest in it anymore. So I tend to stick to these three steps.

where are we going? I’d say that I spend more time immersing myself in the setting than I do with the characters. When I say setting, I don’t just mean the country and city they live in, but the world they exist in, the circumstances that have led them to where the story starts. Sometimes I’ll write a timeline of precanon events. Sometimes I’ll create a Pinterest board. Sometimes I’ll make a playlist. Sometimes I’ll do all three. But some settings require more work than others. I prepped for IY by watching the proposal and rereading the wall of Winnipeg and me. I prepped for pp by watching spinning out on Netflix and reading a book about a girl who got pregnant as a teenager. The last three one shots I’ve been workshopping are all set in England in some regard, so I’ve spent a lot of time watching British shows. The goal is to lay a foundation solid enough for me to build the rest of the story on.

Who is all gonna be there? - I don’t spend a lot of time on the characters before I write beyond choosing who I’m going to write. During the hiatus after s6, I probably rewatched the show fifty times. I have all the books on audible. I even have the interactive editions with the maps, the character glossary, and the art. I have f&b and twoiaf. So I guess all that was my character work? I’m not claiming to be the number one asoiaf fan (it’s not even my favorite fantasy series) but I am a die hard stark loyalist, so I like to think I know those characters very well. But, with the exception of Robb and Rickon, they’re POV characters. We don’t have to draw conclusions about their personalities and motivations and hopes and dreams. We know them. For me, the more interesting character work lies in the characters that manage to make an impression without having a POV. We know Jeyne Poole is dramatic, irrationally romantic, and has a bit of a mean streak. We know Edmure is a lot more intuitive than people give him credit for, a hothead with a heart of gold. We know Mya is beautiful, brave, and wears her heart on her sleeve. I also like using what little we know about them to draw conclusions. Myranda and Mya grew up together, so it’s more than likely they’re friends. Benjen and Edmure are around the same age and share siblings by marriage but couldn’t be more different from each other. How much do you wanna bet they butt heads at family functions? Brandon was fucking anything in a skirt. Did he learn that from Rickard? Arianne had feelings for Oberyn, was in talks to betroth herself to Edmure, and was once betrothed to Viserys. That’s three different uncles! Is she an uncle fucker? These are the questions that keep me up at night! And I love finding ways to fit these different characters together in my stories. Myranda, Mya, and Theon have more in common than their age—they all have daddy issues, a flirtatious disposition, and are secure in their sexuality. Why wouldn’t they be friends? Or lovers? Robert has 16 children—and those are only the ones we know of—there’s no way all of them are white. Theon likes milfs and Cersei likes pretty boys that flatter her. They would definitely hook up. Jeyne is Sansa’s best friend (and possessive of that title, judging from her friction with Arya) she would DESPISE Margaery. Catelyn and Alerie are both southern girls that love popping out kids. What if they were in the same sorority in college? I’ve come up with ships you guys have probably never even considered based on as little as one shared trait. I have an entire tik tok collection dedicated to Mya and Waymar. Why? Because it’s fun! That’s what character work is for me more than anything else, having fun.

How are we gonna get there? - after I establish where the story will start and where it’s gonna end, it’s just a matter of getting there. With that being said, my outlining process can be fickle. I like to do three outlines. The first outline is extremely sparse, just a list of events I want to happen in no particular order. In the second outline, I rearrange these events I see fit. The third outline is where I break these events down into scenes. For every scene, I write down what I need to remember for when the time comes, including bits of dialogue. This is the skeleton I use to write. Sometimes, when I’m writing, I find that what I wanted doesn’t actually work on the page and I have to go back to the drawing board, which is the first outline. Hell, I’ll even start over from scratch, which calls for three more outlines. But with wips, my second outline is my Bible, so on a macro level, I try to keep everything static. The things I do end up changing and rearranging are never drastic.

Hope this all made sense. Thanks so much for reading!!!! 💗💗💗💗

[otaku-girl-ao3]

Bullet Train Masterlist | Otaku_Girl | AO3

Bullet Train (2022) fics from Otaku_girl on AO3. Predominantly featuring Tangerine, Ladybug and Lemon.

The easiest way to follow my work and get the latest updates on all of my fics is via Archive Of Our Own - subscribing via my main Otaku_girl. 

🔥 smut writer 🔥

Please for the love of Blorbs do not read my AO3 if you aren’t 18+

I just wanna see you (be brave)

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Dark?: ❌ (Iike brothers not brothers) Status: Chapters 17/17 Pairings: Tangerine/Ladybug, Tangerine/Lemon, Tangerine/Ladybug/Lemon “What the hell am I supposed to do with him?”

“It’s really not that bloody hard, mate. Just keep him locked in his room. This job shouldn’t last more than another day. Three at most.”

“Three? He’s fucking gone into rut, Lemon. How am I supposed to keep him calm and—”

“Oh, there’s no chance of that. Yeah. He’s just gotta work it out of his system. Leave him to it; I’ll help him when I get back. Oh, and Ladybird?”

“It’s LadyBUG actually—”

“It’s heat, not rut.”

⭐Recommended⭐ Non-traditional a/b/o dynamics | Disaster Ladybug | Everyone lives nobody dies

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A certain satisfaction (in a little bit of pain)

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥  Dark?: ❌ (Iike brothers not brothers) Status: Complete | Chapters 5/5 Pairings: Tangerine/Lemon Lemon pressed his knee lower against the swell of Tangerine’s arse, waiting patiently for his struggles to die down once more.

“Is this actually helping, Tan? Because I can keep this up all night. So why don’t you stop being a little bitch, and run through your safewords for me like a good fuckin' boy so we can get started.”

After a job goes bad, Lemon knows what Tangerine needs. If only he can get Tangerine out of his own head long enough to give it to him

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A moment in time

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Status: Complete Pairings: Ladybug/Tangerine

Tangerine and Ladybug spend a night together after months apart.

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Baby, I can explain-

Rating: Teen Status: Complete Pairings: Tangerine/Reader “What the fuck are you doin’ comin’ to my home?”

“I thought friends could drop in on friends!” Ladybug wheezes, hands rising to pry Tangerine’s fingers away from his t-shirt. “And how was I supposed to know you were living with a civilian? I thought I’d run into you or Lemon! Does she even know what you do for a living?”

Your partner’s ‘colleague’ drops by for an unexpected visit. Chaos ensues.

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Breathe

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Status: Complete Pairings: Tangerine/Reader

“Nice and steady for me now. I want you to focus on the sensations of me filling you. Of me sliding deep inside and owning you completely. Can you do that for me?”

He nods, the words too much for him to say.

This isn’t the first time that he has visited you. You know better than to ask questions you don’t want the answers to. Answers that might make your time and company seem less like a little luxury — an occasional indulgence, if you will — and more like a risk where the pay-off no longer seems worth the reward.

⭐Recommended⭐ Domme reader | submissive Tangerine | sex work

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Honey, I don't wanna know

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Status: Complete Pairings: Tangerine/Ladybug

There’s something familiar about the voice coming from the glory hole at Tangerine’s local pub…

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Late night surprise

Rating: Mature Smut? Suggestive Dark?: Under-negotiated kink (happy ending) Status: Complete Pairings: Tangerine/Ladybug, Tangerine/Lemon, Tangerine/Ladybug/Lemon

“Just fuckin’ stop. I don’t need you fussin’.” Tangerine allowed his eyes to slip shut for just a moment, embarrassment burning in his cheeks. He couldn’t believe how spectacularly his plan had gone wrong. “I don’t see why you’re soddin’ pouting at me. You’re not the one with a head injury!”

Tangerine could feel the anger in his chest faltering for a moment. He wasn’t the one in the wrong. Ladybug wasn’t the one with a bleeding forehead and a split lip. Ladybug wasn’t the one whose plans for a romantic albeit kinky night of passion after almost three months apart had gone up in flames. Ladybug wasn’t the one who felt like a right bellend.

Oil on water

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Dark?: ❌ (Iike brothers not brothers) Status: WIP  | Chapters 3/? Pairings: Ladybug/Tangerine/Lemon

“It’s just an app. There’s absolutely nothing to be scared of. What’s the worst thing that could happen?”

After signing up for Grindr and hoping for a good time, Ladybug runs into two unexpected faces from the past.

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Touched (for the very first time)

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Status: Complete Pairings: Tangerine/Ladybug

Tangerine lets slip that he's still technically a virgin. Ladybug offers to help out.

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You don't have to say

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Dark?: ❌ Status: Complete Pairings: Tangerine/Ladybug

“Have you forgotten who’s in charge?” The hand around Tangerine’s throat tightens in warning.

Tangerine shakes his head.

“Then why are you behaving like this? Did you miss Daddy that much while I was away for work?”

Tangerine’s heart rises to his throat. He thought he had been careful enough.

“Use your words, baby. Tell Daddy what you need. You know I’ll always look after my good boy.”

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You say it best

Rating: Explicit Smut? 🔥 Dark?: ❌ (like brothers not brothers) Status: Complete Pairings: Ladybug/Lemon/Tangerine

“Bit early for all this, ain’t it? What, you couldn’t wait for me to get back?”

“Oh, that? Don’t mind him. Tangerine and I just had a little… disagreement.”

“Mate. If this is what you do over a little disagreement, remind me never to get on your bad side, yeah? What’d he do this time?”

A little argument between Tangerine and Ladybug leads to an interesting morning together.

[starry-nights12]

Romantic Homicide

Read on AO3

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Relationship: Ekko/Jinx (Timebomb)

Word Count: 4,401

Tags: Angst, Ekko Needs a Hug, Jinx Needs a Hug, Mutual Pining, Kidnapping, Hurt No Comfort

Summary:

Jinx is on the run and has to flee the city. But before she does, she has a few parting words to tell her dear old friend, Ekko.

Author's Note:

The title is from d4vd song. The song fits them so well!

This fic is for @redrum-alice! This whole fic is based on their idea!

Big thanks to @su-univeralai for editing it!

Fic's playlist🥀🖤

Steam filled the bathroom and billowed out the hallway through the cracked door.

Ekko stood under the shower and let the hot water wash over his body. It was nearly scalding but the little bit of pain felt good.

He cupped his hands under the water and then splashed his face. He couldn't close his eyes without seeing hers gazing back at him.

He couldn't do it.

He thought killing her would solve his problems and be the end of it.

Her smiles used to be full of joy, and her laughter was contagious. Now, only her smiles were wide and sadistic at the bloodshed she caused.

But for once, her smile was wistful. Her eyes gleamed with unspoken apologies.

It was Silco's fault for destroying their lives.

It was Jinx's fault for choosing Silco and willingly working for him.

It was Ekko's fault for not saving her.

He didn't kick the bomb fast enough. His ankle was sprained but he tried moving her. His broken hoverboard couldn't even carry two people anyway.

And now she's dead.

He sat under that bridge and cried for her after he heard Silco leaving with her.

I keep trying to do right by her, but it never works out. I'm just a fucking failure.

He sighed heavily as he turned off the water. He stepped out of the shower and grabbed his towel.

He was drying his face off when he felt a hard whack to the side of his head.

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He groaned when he came to. His head throbbed and his vision was blurry.

Wherever he was, the room was only dimly lit by candles. Shimmer-colored eyes stared back at him. "You're awake."

Holy fucking shit.

He knew whose voice that belonged to.

"What the fuck? Jinx?!"

"That's me," She sings-song in a monotone voice.

A cacophony of emotions brewed inside him. He was confused, relieved, and even happy that she was alive. But he was mostly shocked at seeing her.

"Oh my Gods. You're alive?"

"Am I alive?" She scoffed. "You would have liked it if I died, wouldn't you?"

"What? No!" He answered earnestly.

"Don't lie to me," she removed PowPow from its holster and loaded it with bullets. "I fucking hate liars. They make me sick."

"I wouldn't lie to you. I would never-"

"People will say anything to not get killed." She cocked her gun.

My bat.

I need my bat.

He couldn't move his hands. He couldn't move anything except his head.

He looked down at himself; he was clothed. He remembered getting out of the shower before everything went black.

His arms, legs, feet, and chest were tightly bound to a chair with rope. He surveyed his surroundings and realized he wasn't in his room.

He struggled to break free from his restraints to no avail. "Where am I?"

Jinx huffed. "Back to where it aaaallllll started," She droned.

She didn't need to elaborate. He could never forget. He was the one to follow Silco and informed Vi of where he was holding Vander.

The canary by the docks.

He should have never told her. Or at least try to help. It was all his fault.

"Why did you bring me here?"

"You're so rude," she twirled her gun around her finger. "Can't two old friends just catch up?"

He rolled his eyes. "Cut the bullshit. You just came to kill me."

She hummed in consideration. "That depends on how much you piss me off, sunny boy," She drolled.

"But I have good news. My name will go down in history as the woman that killed the council!"

He didn't care about what happened to Topsiders but that news still surprised him. "You did?"

Jinx beamed, "Yes, sir-y! I'm going to be famous even when I'm good and dead!" She bubbled.

"But being famous comes with a price. You see, if the Enforcers don't kill me first, then those losers at Stillwater will try.

Killing the daughter of an infamous drug lord would rack up the bragging points, ya know? So, I'm leaving. I wanted to talk to you before I left."

"Talk to me? But how did you know I was even alive?"

Gods, she hated being weak. It was the reason that the little girl's bloated, decomposed body was floating in the well.

But she was never going to see him again so it wouldn't matter.

"I thought you were dead. I was going to Benzo's shop for old-time sake," She admitted.

"And what did I see? You, waltzing inside like nothing happened." She shook her head at herself. "I should have known. Nothing ever stays dead," She grumbled.

What she omitted was that she made a metal bouquet of flowers.

She hid in an alley and watched him enter. She couldn't believe that she was crying over him yet there he was.

She threw the bouquet in a nearby dumpster and stormed towards the shop.The door was obviously locked.

The shop had been boarded up for years. Nothing but bittersweet memories of her ex-friend and his father figure.

But unfortunately for him, she remembered his secret entrance. They used it when they wanted to eavesdrop on Benzo and Vander or Benzo with his customers.

"I was in the shower when you kidnapped me," He noted.

Since I was distracted, she was able to use it to her advantage and took the opportunity to pistol whip me.

"Yep," She shrugged nonchalantly. "You aren't special. I did the same with that Enforcer chick too."

She didn't have time to leer or gawk at him. She had to get him dressed and out of his home before he became conscious again.

Caitlyn?

Ugh. No way. She would rather have her eyes bleached than see that mess again.

Ekko?

Well...

Under different circumstances, she wouldn't have minded seeing the Boy Saviour undressed.

His eyes widened.

Caitlyn? She was with Vi the last I saw them.

His heart wanted to plummet out of his body as panic arose.

No. No, no, no, no, no. Oh Gods, no.

"What did you do with them? Did you kill Vi?"

Jinx rolled her eyes and sighed.

Oh, right. He's still talking.

"You see, big sis and I haven't gotten along since she started dating that demon," She said. "So, maybe! I'm just chock-full of surprises!" She giggled.

"You're not funny, Jinx," He admonished.

"No. I'm hilarious," She smirked at her quip.

She stood in front of him with her arms crossed. She wanted to get a good look at him one last time.

His hair was down, and he wasn't wearing his usual face paint.

His brown eyes were glaring at her, his cute wide nose scrunched up, and his mouth was twisted in contempt. Yet, his full lips looked very soft.

Again, under different circumstances, she would have loved to kiss him. She always wanted him to be her first kiss.

She would have loved his mouth to touch other places on her body.

He had no right being this pretty and making her heart swoon the way he did.

She reached out and brushed a stray, damp dreadlock out of his face. His hair was as soft and white as the clouds she saw in Piltover.

Ekko cringed and turned his face away from her.

Sometimes, he had dreams of them being happy and he felt her tender touches, smiling warmly at him as she did.

But he didn't want it like this. Being held against his will in a dilapidated building where their lives were irreparably ruined.

Out of everything she's done, this sudden act of affection was bizarre.

Her heart squeezed painfully as she retracted her hand.

Even my touch disgusts him.

He thought he saw something flash in her eyes...was she hurt?

He yelped when she backhanded him. He suppressed a groan from the stinging pain in his cheek.

She cackled and pointed at him.

She was being nice to Ekko for the first time in years, and he didn't even appreciate it.

She felt immense joy when she slapped Sevika awake. She even sighed in content from hitting that ogre that always looked down on her.

She wanted to hurt him like he just did to her. She should have felt better...but she didn't. 

He heard her laugh while they fought. It was shrill, filled with unbridled satisfaction as she shot at him and his gang.

His eyebrows furrowed, and he turned his head to her. Her pupils would dilate from the high of mowing them down with her bullets.

This time was different.

Her grin didn't reach her eyes. Her laugh almost sounded forceful; adding faux glee in enjoying his pain.

At least he hoped so.

"What happened to you? Why did you take shimmer?"

Yesh. He sure asked a lot of questions. It's not like we're friends. It wasn't any of his business anyway. It's not like he cares.

She grabbed the sides of his chair and leaned close to his face. He ignored how the proximity made his heart skip a beat, and his cheeks warm.

"Because I thought it was juice. It looked yummy," She innocently smiled.

"Instead of trying to destroy it, you and your wannabe street trash should try it. It tastes as good as it looks." She grinned widely while shaking his chair.

Jinx laughed when Ekko's lip curled in disgust. He was always so serious.

He couldn't reason with her. He tried so many times in the past, but she wouldn't listen. She liked how she turned out.

He sighed dejectedly, "You're so talented and smart. You wasted everything, Powder."

"My name is not Powder!" She threw a chair with enough force to smash the wood into pieces as it hit the wall.

"You and Vi keep calling me by a dead brat's name! It's Jinx! J-I-N-X! Jinx!" She shouted. The utensils clattered with every banging of her fist with each letter.

Her eyes glowed brighter in her fury. Her teeth gritted into a snarl and growled, her chest heaving with every ragged breath.

His whole body froze.

Holy shit.

He wishes there was a way to get out of here. He wanted to go home, but his location had been compromised.

The Firelight Base. Did she know where that was? Gods, he prayed she didn't find that out, too.

He released a breath he was holding. "Jinx," He quickly corrected. "It's Jinx. I slipped up. It was an accident."

She turned her gaze at him. For the first time that night, he sounded startled.

She had the gun loaded when she broke into the shop. When he was unconscious she took out the bullets and then reloaded when he gained consciousness to scare him.

Her display of strength from her outburst wasn't planned. She slowly grinned, and her giggling turned into peels of maniacal laughter.

Not so tough now, huh?

She sighed happily when her laughing subsided.

She walked around his chair with her finger tracing the wood.

"You know what else is funny?" She yanked his shirt and sneered. "How you got everything to lose while I got nothing.

Why does the universe favor you so much? I went through the same thing, but I have nothing to show for it." She said bitterly.

He stared at her for a moment.

So that's what she thought of his life? That it was somehow better? That everything in his life was carefree with zero problems?

"You think I have everything I wanted? That my life is so fuckng easy and perfect compared to yours?" He chuckled sardonically.

"Yeah, I have new friends. But every time I step out of my home, I have to worry about you or Enforcers killing them!" He seethed.

"I lost everyone! I saw Benzo get killed! I lost Mylo, Claggor, Vander, Vi, and you. All in one night!

It has nothing to do with the universe. It's your shitty decisions that got you here! It's why you're on the run now!

We went through the same shit together! But you wanted to be coddled and let Silco turn you into what you are now." He exploded.

"And what is that? Hm?" She challenged. "A monster? Yeah, real-"

"A corpse!" Ekko spat, his voice broken slightly. "He turned my best friend into a corpse of what she used to be!"

Her eyes widened. She released his shirt and backed away. Her chest suddenly became tight and it was hard to breathe. Mylo liked that and was laughing at her.

A corpse.

Something that was slowly rotting away, in front of his eyes for seven years.

Someone that should have been dead but was still staggering around acting alive and well.

He sounded hurt; the tears sliding down his face providing evidence of his feelings. As if seeing her grow up into what she was now has caused him excruciating pain.

She swallowed a big, painful lump down her throat but managed to chuckle, shaking her head.

He and Vi thought they knew everything. Silco didn't create her. She had dormant traits laying within her that she discovered with him.

She was going to tell him that, but Ekko had more to say.

"I had no one else to go to. You were all I had left. But after Silco adopted you, you left me. You turned your back on me for him and I was alone.

You said Vi abandoned you, Jinx. But you wanna know how I felt? That you abandoned me too."

Her heart stopped beating, all the air sucked out of her.

Her ending their friendship to embrace her new life with Silco felt like a betrayal to him. So much so that he felt abandoned by her.

Abandoned.

No.

How dare he?! She wasn't like Vi.

Was she?

Her stomach churned at the comparison.

I'm not like Vi.

I would never do something like that.

No.

No, no, no, no, no, no!

Jinx pointed the gun to his forehead. "You're lying!" She stormed. "I could kill you!"

He was emotionally drained.

If she killed him, then at least he was able to tell her everything he wanted to say to her for the last several years.

He would miss everyone at his base. His best friend, Scar, was second in command. At least his community would be safe in his hands.

He pressed his forehead against the barrel. "If you think I'm lying then do it. Kill me. This will be the last time you'll keep hurting me."

Her gun stayed there for two minutes. She trailed it down his face, jaw, and chest.

In a better world, it would have been her hands caressing him. He would look at her in adoration as if she was something to behold and treasure.

But this was reality. Not a stupid, childish fantasy.

Her finger was dangerously close to pulling the trigger.

She used to have everything.

They scrapped for coins and struggled to get by, but she had a loving family and her best friend was her first crush.

Her inventions failed but she had Vi encouraging her. She believed in her when she didn't believe in herself.

Now she had no one.

Her birth parents were murdered.

She killed Vander and her brothers.

She killed Silco.

Vi went with the Enforcer.

Her ex-friend felt like she betrayed and abandoned him. He wanted her to kill him.

She truly was alone in this world.

'Do it,' Mylo encouraged. 'Then we'll finally have someone better to talk to. Besides, he was our friend too.'

No.

'No?' Mylo scoffed. 'You're never going to see him again. If you missed him so much then make him join us. It's the only way he'll ever talk to you again.' Mylo mocked.

'He hates you. If he hated you before he hates you even more. You're nothing but a mistake. A Jinx,' A smile crept along his face. 'A corpse.'

Her anguish and rage escaped her body into a roar.

Gunshots rang out into the night, crows cawed and flew away.

Smoke emitted from the barrel of her gun, she breathed heavily, tears brimming her eyes.

Silco's eyes were wide in shock when she shot her before they eventually closed.

Vander, Mylo, Claggor, and Silco.She killed everyone.

Ekko's eyes were still open too. They used to be filled with warmth and his presence comforted her.

All she felt was his cold, gaze bore into whatever was left of her damaged soul.

He was glaring at her. He didn't flinch from the shots she fired in the air.

She let her gun slip from her hands and dropped to her knees; gut-wrenching sobs tore through her chest and she covered her face with shaking hands.

Her sorrow strangled her until she heaved for breath and coughed.

She couldn't do it.

She desperately tried and wanted to forget about him over the years, but she couldn't. Her crush on him still lingered. She yearned for how things used to be. 

She missed their friendship. She missed him.

A part of her cared for him even though there was no chance that he felt the same.

Ekko leaned his head back on the chair, closed his eyes, and listened to her cries.

He felt empty. Tonight had hollowed out his emotions but a single tear managed to escape his eye.

Why did their lives turn out like this? They always seemed miserable around each other.

You can't change the past and have to move towards the present. But time doesn't heal all wounds.

He missed what they used to be. He wanted to make her happy. He wanted both of them to be happy one day.

They didn't deserve this. They deserved better.

Ekko opened his eyes when she stopped sobbing and stared at her hunched figure. Her hand slid down her face and she stared back at him.

Her eyes were red with black tears staining her face. She snorted and wiped the snot from her nose.

She stood and took out a switchblade from her pocket.

He eyed the knife in her hand, looked at her face, and braced himself.

She didn't shoot him but probably wanted to stab him instead.She wanted his death to be more painful than a quick gunshot.

She wanted to feel the knife plunge into him, his blood running down her hands, choking on it while watching as he slowly succumbed to his stab wounds.

Instead, she slashed her knife across the restraints.

Without the rope around his chest, he was able to breathe deeply. He sighed his exhaustion then rubbed his wrist.

"When things got really bad, I used to remember how you were always there to comfort me." She shook her head with a sad smile. "Now all we do is hurt each other."

"We can still go back to that. We can still try."

"No. We can't. We changed too much." She grabbed her backpack from under the table.

"Where are you going?"

She had to leave this cursed city. She didn't know where she would hide but she knew for certain where she was heading after all this.

She put the straps over her shoulders and smiled weakly. "To hell." She sniffed and wiped her cheeks.

She was going to leave again. She was going to slip through his fingers again and lose her forever.

"We don't have to end it like this," he stood up. "We can figure something out."

She shook her head. "It's too late. Everything between us is tainted, Ekko. You're twenty. You're too old to be playing hero. You-"

Jinx's eyes widened when Ekko enveloped her in a tight embrace.

A reasonable person would have high-tailed it out of there. But she used to be his childhood friend and his first love. 

As fucked up as the situation was, she still is.

Only her.

She was going to disappear, and he wanted something good to remember her by.

She hadn't had any physical affection since Silco and Vi. She should have pulled away but there wasn't any fight left in her.

The two of them slowly sank onto the floor. He was so warm, his strong arms around her lithe frame.

She kidnapped him, slapped him, and threatened to murder him, yet he was being so tender with her.

After everything she did, this sudden act of tenderness was odd.

But it was welcomed.

She clung to him and buried her face into his shirt. Can you feel euphoria from a hug? Because this felt amazing.

"Please stay," He pleaded.

Stay? After the torment she put him through tonight he wanted her to stay?

She shook her head. "I can't. I'll get you killed. Not you. Anyone but you," She rasped.

"It won't happen. Things can be different."

"You don't know that. It'll all come crashing down and you'll blame me. Killing people is what I'm good at," She sniffled.

"You don't know that either. We won't know if things can turn out better if we don't try," He beseeched.

"Why are you doing this? Why do you want me to stay?" She whimpered.

"Because I'm tired of fighting you. I never enjoyed it. I just want peace. I want my friend back. Please, P-Jinx. I'm sorry. Please, Jinx." He nuzzled the crook of her neck.

He was so naive. So desperate to ignore the fact that he couldn't save everyone. His hero syndrome wouldn't let him believe otherwise.

"You have to let me go."

She didn't even want to let him go. His hug was welcoming and brought her comfort.

His arms tightened around her. "You're not a jinx. I'll protect you. I'll be happy that you stayed. I want you here." His hand cradled the back of her head.

She thought she ran out of tears, but he was able to make more fill her eyes.

Oh my Gods.

Her insides felt warm and fuzzy, her surroundings became a soft blur of pink with hearts everywhere.

Only him. She wanted to cradle his head and keep him there.

She savored the slow caresses on his back while the other traveled to his head.

Only-

No.

Her eyes shot open and her hand stopped at his nape.

You can't stay. You'll only hurt him again. You'll only cause him more problems. You have to leave.

She rapidly blinked herself out of her daze, her hands tightly gripping his shoulders.

Gods, what the fuck was she doing?

"Let go!"

She roughly shoved him away, his back hit the table with a grunt: it nearly toppled over with the glass cups and plates shattering on the floor

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to!" Her hands reached out for him but she held them to her chest.

Mylo rolled his eyes. His little sister was so predictable.

'You're hurting him again. That's all you're ever good for.'

She scrambled to get up and sprinted to the door.

"Jinx, please!" 

His big, teary, brown eyes pleaded with her when his words couldn't.

She couldn't look at them anymore. The pain constricted into her body and clenched her heart with its razor-sharp talons.

She squeezed her eyes shut and gripped the straps of her backpack tighter. "I'm sorry, Little Man. For everything."

A flash of blue and a trail of magenta bolted down the hallway.

"Jinx!"

He ran after her, but she already vanished.

Out of the corner of his eyes, he noticed a piece of paper on the floor. It must have fallen out of his pocket.

He kneeled to unfold it, the letter was written in blue and pink markers:

Dear Ekko,

I'm sorry.

You always knew how to make me feel better when we were kids. Before the incident, you were always my favorite person.

You still are.

Goodbye,

-JINX

Her favorite person.

The confession made his heart soar yet shatter him at the same time.

He wanted to tell her that she was his favorite person, too.

What the hell is wrong with me? Why do I still love a woman that breaks my heart?

He sat on the floor and then held his head in his hands.

She was gone.

His sadness simmered and boiled into anger.

Nothing he said worked, and his pleading fell on deaf ears. Someone from his past that he wanted to have but couldn't.

He was useless when it came to her.

He failed her.

Again.

Always letting her down.

That was all he was ever good for, right?

----

Jinx was exiting the canary when she heard him scream. She whipped her head around and gasped softly, "Ekko?"

She wanted to go back. Take him up on his offer that things can be different.

She didn't want to be alone, and he was giving her a chance even after everything that transpired.

Ekko gave her hope. She wanted to be happy. With him. She longed for that so much. She wanted her dreams to become a reality.

She wanted a friend. He was all she had left.

She took two steps forward in the doorway when Silco appeared in front of her. His pristine suit was riddled with bullet holes and stained with blood.

'You shouldn't go back, dear. He's not worth your time.' He advised.

"But he's-he was my friend."

'He refused to accept you. Just like your sister. He'll be with you for ten minutes before he rejects you again.' Silco said.

Jinx frowned. "But he said-"

'He lied. Everyone does.' Silco reminded her. 'I'm your family. I would never steer you wrong. Have I?'

Jinx's eyes dropped to the floor as she shook her head.

'This is about your survival, child. I'm not there to protect you anymore. You have to do what you must to make it in this world. He'll only slow you down and hurt you again. Just like everyone else in your life.' Silco stated.

Jinx looked past him and into the dark hallway.

She didn't want to hurt Ekko anymore. She wanted to show him that she was capable of doing more.

Silco's features contorted into an irritated scowl. His daughter was smarter than this. Why was she hesitating for some boy?

'You need to leave him, Jinx,' He said sternly. 'Now.'

Her eyes glazed with fresh tears and her lips trembled.

A lone firelight flew past her as she ran away.

[rebuke-me]

bich for the ask meme

when I started shipping it if I did:

okay. i don't know when. i don't know dates don't ask me about dates. BUT. it was a few years ago bc i think they're cute

my thoughts:

a) i was tired of rich only being shipped with the guys bc bisexuality means both and mlw relationships are just as much a part of bisexuality as mlm or wlw. but also b) the idea of them NOT being paired together in canon was wild to me? like theyre both the "second in commands" to their best friends who are dating. ur telling me they didn't end up on pseudo-double-dates. that they didn't make out at LEAST one time. ur wrong actually.

What makes me happy about them:

they both have. such potential to be so sickeningly cute. the seconds finding solace in each other. forced hangouts while squipped turning into rekindled friendship afterward and then realizing that while their friends were the "couple" that they work better together. brooke loving the more "nerdy" aspects of rich and rich liking her jokes and her passion and her personality sans chloe. look. they have such a potential.

What makes me sad about them:

the entirety of their relationship before the play. like. they don't like each other because they're both pretending to be someone they're not. but once they let themselves be who they actually are, they find they have more in common than just friends. but they dont get that for YEARS so they don't even see it.

things done in fanfic that annoys me:

i haven't read enough of them. shocker. i don't. read a lot of fic actually. but in general i hate when people make rich either a) too much of a dick or b) too much of a. not a goofball. but too. passive? and i hate when people make brooke too passive too. let them be little petty bitches please sir.

things I look for in fanfic:

ideal bich fanfic is them never talking about their feelings because its really fucking complicated, and then something dramatic happens where they have to find solace in each other. i will not say the other thing bc its an idea thats rattling around in my head i kinda wanna write.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: 

i like brooke with christine and sometimes jeremy, but only in specific circumstances. i don't... love rich with anyone else really? i don't see him as romantic with any of the bmc guys bc of clashes in personality. (not that i don't see him with a guy at all. just not Those Specific Guys.) and the other girls are also incompatible with him imo. tldr brooke is cute with other people, rich is a special case.

My happily ever after for them:

they would have the most fun goofy wedding that all their friends are invited to. i think they'd be that couple who has like 4 dogs of varying sizes that goes on hikes and vacations a lot and posts sappy corny instagram posts of each other. they r the only bmc ship i have that i see getting married.

who is the big spoon/little spoon:

they swap, obviously. two bisexuals in a relationship? they are not making a decision. also they're of similar heights in my head so i think they'd be good.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity:

as previously mentioned. i think they'd really like hiking? not like. super long hard hikes but like walking trails and talking a lot. for some godforsaken reason i also see them having a podcast. don't ask me why.

[azriona]

For the fic title:

Song for the days long past.

and/or

To whit, therefore, I've been.

Okay, so To whit, therefore, I've been is so definitely a crackfic I can't even. Like, I can almost taste it, honestly. It's something to do with a group of friends and they're trying to convince A to go out with B and also vice versa. A doesn't seem inclined to ask B out at all and B's not that much more inclined and so they're putting the two of them in stupid ridiculous meet-cute-type situations in order to force a romantic entanglement but nope, neither of them are going for it. And then they get to the end of the story and it turns out that the two of them have been secretly married the whole time already? Cue laughter and end-credits kiss.

(I'm seeing Winterhawk, for some reason, but really, this probably fits most fandoms where it's a group of people.)

Song for the days long past. I want to say this is a melancholy thought piece (like, Steve being all morose about Bucky or Bucky being morose about himself) but that's just low-hanging fruit. So let's go with the way more intriguing ALTERNATE DYSTOPIAN REALITY where Hydra's won the day and Insight actually took off and the Winter Soldier was put on permanent ice because who needs him actually, we have lasers from space now acting as the Thought Police. Fast forward a bunch of years and he defrosts when his cryo-freeze malfunctions but no one's around because Thanos STILL HAPPENED and guess what, it's really hard to keep up those dystopian ideals when half the world is gone and hey, look, no Avengers to save the day and bring everyone back.

So now we have a defrosted Bucky who is wandering and trying to figure out what the fuck is going on and everything's all bleak but there's signs of hope and no one knows him or can find out about him really (no internet, no communication, go read Station Eleven by Emily St John Mandel, guys, this is basically what I'm thinking of) so they're actually helping him and by helping him, they're healing him. Oh, and he's got this sense that he's being followed, it's very ominous.

And at the end he's remembered who he is and who he was and what he's done and what was done to him, and that's when we (and he) realize that he's being followed by Steve and maybe a couple of others who went to ground after Insight, or maybe they've been with him all along and he just didn't see or recognize them? I'm not sure if that's bittersweet or just sweet, you tell me.

[jennycalendar]

buffy/giles? jenny/cordelia? angel/cordelia? spike/anya? dawn/xander? willow/kennedy? kennedy/anya?? (i know i'm late to this game but i want to hear all your opinions)

buffy/giles:

oh, man. my take on this is a little different from most. starts out like i have a certain position, but prepare yourself.

buffy/giles is so divorced from canon! the story itself took so many steps to remove the possibility of buffy and giles ever becoming a romantic relationship -- the Six Inch Rule is often cited in a lot of b/g fics (yes i read them. i read everything.) and it's very very clear that the show has placed giles in a paternal role. a lot of the b/g ship arguments seem to suggest that giles doesn't actually want to be buffy's dad, but i think that omits the rest of that sentence -- giles doesn't want to be buffy's dad because he feels like a good dad would not be sending their kid out to die, and he believes that the ultimate act of paternal devotion is to Not Be Buffy's Dad. and buffy herself CLEARLY wants giles to be her dad! this is a point of contention between them!

i have read some b/g fic because i am always curious, and the bulk of the fic that i HAVE read just absolutely refuses to engage with the canon messaging, instead choosing to say "all of the rest of you are reading canon wrong, giles and buffy have never had a father/daughter connection, and there's always been romantic potential here." i find this incredibly boring. i think that any exploration of buffy/giles HAS to incorporate that, at one point, she saw him as her dad, and HAS to explore how those feelings changed + the weirdness/messiness of this entire dynamic in the first place.

i am not gonna be one of those people who pearl-clutches -- buffy/giles is a long-established part of this fandom and i do not think that it does us any favors to pretend that they didn't build so much of the incredible giles content/infrastructure that's out there! even if it's not my thing, i can respect it. but part of the reason it's not my thing is bc i do not see a lot of it that actually engages with canon. much of it intensely mischaracterizes buffy AND presents giles as the Perfect Man Who Is Perfect, which, again, soooo not interesting to me. write some weird shit where the daddy issues are addressed instead of shaken off and shoved into a closet! that is literally what fanfiction is for!!!

jenny/cordelia:

iiiiiii can't see it. they're way too similar. i've read a couple of fics where cordelia has a crush on jenny but honestly just cannot buy it. i think cordelia wants to BE jenny (cool confident assertive lady with a geek ass little boyfriend, is not bothered by what people will think of her for dating said geek ass little boyfriend) which is a little different.

angel/cordelia:

14 year old celia will never not be crying about them. neither will 22 year old celia. the most perfect thing to ever exist. they invented friends to lovers. i truly think there's nothing like them in the entire buffyverse -- the people that they start out as are so fundamentally incompatible, and then the people they grow into through heartbreak and supernatural situations become SO ENTWINED!!! i love the idea of a second, enduring love that you grow into -- something that is not fated. of all the couples in the buffyverse, they're the ones who are actually, canonically best friends who enjoy each other's company w/ the love stuff blooming FROM THAT, and that will never not kill me.

spike/anya:

hot in the short term/for a fwb situation, but i think they probably work best as friends. i don't really have anything to justify this position, Simply Vibes.

dawn/xander

i am totally ambivalent. i understand that it happened in the comics, but it's so hard to look at them and imagine it when he's such a big brother to her in canon! on principle, though, i respect the idea of the dynamic shifting as she gets older, because i love the narrative notion of relationships evolving and changing shape as time goes on -- i actually really love this one fic i read where she's obsessed with this idea of becoming a Cool College Student and wooing him with her new attractiveness, and it doesn't SEEM to work (she even brings it up to him and goes "haha wasn't this so funny and stupid of me to think it could happen?") but there's a suggestion that his perspective on her might be gradually changing.

willow/kennedy

people hate kennedy so much and that makes me love this more. out of spite. 1) this was so clearly not a long-term thing, and 2) this becomes so fun to watch if you look at kennedy as Baby Jenny & recognize the subsequent implications of this.

kennedy/anya

a recipe for disaster, i think. they both wanna be in charge and spoiled by their partner. they would get into SO MANY FIGHTS.

[pocketramblr]

I tend to avoid hanahaki aus for a lot of the reasons that I avoid soulmate aus but I will forever think about the first hanahaki au I ever read where it wasn't about the love being requited it was abbot the love being confessed as well as there being a surgery to cure the disease but it would also remove all positive feelings that you had about your crush and like i unfortunately cannot remember the name of the fic that concept has stick in my brain for years

Yeah I've seen the surgery option too and like. That's part of why I do not Get why confessing is still the worst option- because as someone who's done it, surgery sucks. Like, surgery sucks so bad, and recovering was really not fun either. Not even thinking about the "lose your feelings." Confess because it changes nothing- you knew the answer was no before, and it's still no now, you are simply saving yourself the hundreds to thousands of dollars surgeries or funerals cost.

But also I don't know. I guess if your friend loves you so much that they are trying so hard to get you to Not Be In Pain from the flower, trying to figure out who it is so you can confess, terrified you'll die or go through painful surgery and recovery and lose something dear to you.... And you don't tell them? For what? You can't accept their love unless it's the same flavor of romantic as your own? Wack. You'd deprive them of a friend because they're depriving you of a lover? Bro that's not how the character i wanna read a fic about would act. (I mean, it is how some of them would act, but those characters aren't the ones getting their own fun evil mind games hanahaki aus. Which. Ugh. Ok put that one on the pile too it could be fun.)

Anyway if the au specifies that the flower can be from requited or unrequited love then I do get it more. Because the scariest part for me is the unknown, and that brings that element back in. But also I dunno. Maybe because I've seen enough premises where it's supposed to be unrequited but actually as soon as person B finds out what they are, for lack of a better term, missing out on now that person A is dead or has surgically removed the chance, ohh noo they realized they loved them all along. So I guess person B can get hanahaki too now. Ok well if that's true then why did you tell me it only happened when it was unrequited. Commit to your bit. It's better when the authors are honest about the unrequited aspect or lack there of, at least, like you said.

[quartzguts]

Trope rating game

i'm putting this as its own post instead of reblogging to avoid having a super duper long post on my blog. thank u @rinn-e for tagging me!

rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic? -10 -> very dissuaded 

0 - don’t care either way 

+10 -> very enticed 

nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged.  Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

Age gap: +10

YEAH YEAH YEAH. pretty much all my recent major ships have had age gap (ardynoct, askefinn, sladin, etc). i've figured out recently that i find it kind of boring when the two characters are on the same level, and age gap is an easy way to effect that power imbalance.

Codependency: +10

yep yes and always. love when two people are each other's world. love when they would do anything for each other and that's a bad thing. love when they destroy themselves for each other.

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: +7

see above lol. this one gets a lower score because jealousy can get a little annoying. i actually like it when characters AREN'T jealous... like, A trying to make B jealous and B doesn't care, because they know A will come crawling back to them sooner or later.... nice... if the jealousy is warranted (like an above situation w flirting/cheating/etc) then that crosses the line into love triangle which i'm not big on, and if it isn't warranted it gets annoying. i like obsession and possessiveness a lot but jealousy doesn't necessarily have to be part of that.

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): 0

eh, it's okay. i prefer it when two characters in a ship are shockingly similar, even if they have completely different values/motives/goals, whatever. opposites can be cute but it's not really my thing.

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: +9

i started writing a paragraph about how i prefer enemies to remain fucked up and awful even if they get into a relationship, but then i remembered all the crying i've done imagining soft sweet Wales endgame askefinn and i was like yeah, let's not lie today LOL. both are good.

Friends with benefits: -5

where's the ROMANCE? where's the DRAMA? where's the OBSESSION? it's not like i hate it but i typically want a more substantial emotional attraction y'know. also, a lot of the fic i've read recently does... not really involve the characters in question being friendly lmaooo.

Sex to feelings: 0

this is a difficult one to rate because it can be very very different depending on the existing dynamic. are we talking about two strangers who keep hooking up and develop feelings? two enemies who feel nothing but hate for each other, but their relationship starts to change once they have sex? i guess this trope is more the former, which isn't something i would actively look for but isn't something i dislike either, so it gets an even 0.

Fake dating/relationship: +6

god i used to read this trope so so often. i'm not huge on established relationship because i want to see the relationship grow (rereading this i realize it makes me look like a tool because i've written a bunch of established relationship recently but like... I KNOW how they got there ok. my city now), but i also love cutesy romantic shit, so fake dating is right up my alley (along with arranged marriage and soulmates for the same reason). bonus if the faking is very uncomfortable for one or both characters. put those blorbos in a psychologically stressful situation where they have to pretend to be happy 👌

Friends to lovers: +3

yeah it's fine. see above, i like my ships terrible and fucky. this trope doesn't usually facilitate that. if it's awful friends to awful lovers i'm all over it.

Found Family: -9

not gonna lie, i wasn't big on found family in the first place and kingdom hearts fandom utterly destroyed whatever little interest i had in it. while i like platonic relationships in original fiction, for fic i rarely if ever read gen fic. it's shipping or bust for me. if they aren't doing the nasty (physically or emotionally) i'm not interested.

Hurt/Comfort: +8

ohhhhh yeaaaahhhhh babyyyyyyyy i'm all about that whump. love it when a blorbo is harmed and another blorbo has to help them. i can go for hurt/no comfort too sometimes but only if i'm in the mood for it.

Love Triangle: -6

yeaaaah no. this is another area where i like them in original fiction but am not at all into it in fic. i like my ships with two characters (who preferably have no interest in anyone else).

Poly, open relationships: -5

i do have some multi character ships (pyra/mythra/rex/nia is the one that immediately comes to mind, though i don't typically read xenoblade fic) but i'm not usually a fan, for the same reason i mentioned for love triangles. a lot of times i'm only here for one or two characters in the relationship so anyone extra feels unnecessary and distracting.

Mistaken/hidden identity: +5

i probably would've given this a lower score if i wasn't in my sladin revival era. superhero secret identities are perfect for conflict.

Monsterfucking: +8

gave this an 8 because when it leans too far into furry/bestiality territory that's when i'm out. generally love monsters of all kinds though, and all the hentai-esque tropes that come with it.

Pregnancy: -8

hate kid fics. god do i hate kid fics. this only gets a -8 and not -10 because unwanted pregnancy fics that do not end with a kid being born can be pretty angsty, which is nice.

Second Chance: +6

second chance for... what? as in a redemption arc? sure i'm down for that. also down for a character getting a second chance even though they have not earned it, because another character refuses to give up on them/let go. second chance time travel where a character gets to go back and redo something is also top tier.

Slowburn: +1

this one was very hard to rate. i've read some slowburns that i absolutely loved. i'm currently writing a slowburn where it's 20k in and the mfers haven't even held hands. but i also get bored easily and if it's TOO slow it begins to feel like the fic is dragging its feet. to keep me interested i usually like if there's another element going on, like fake dating, enemies to lovers, heavy whump, etc.

Soulmates: +9

YES. YES YES YES. LOVE THAT. again, it's a way to have both relationship development AND immediate sex/romance. especially good when the soulmates are enemies or otherwise not suited to each other in any way whatsoever and this is surely the work of a god with a very shitty sense of humor. i have written and read many soulmates fics and i intend on writing and reading many more.

Tagging all of my lovely mutuals!! qwq some of u have already been tagged so i will save u the trouble of tagging u twice!

[hearteyesmcgarrett]

is it weird to just answer the ask meme questions without actual asks? probably, but i want to yell about fandom shit rn so you can't stop me

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. its obvious that im in a grimm fixation rn, so i have to say nick/monroe as a romantic ship (or nick/monroe/rosalee), and the whole gang as a platonic relationship. For SGA, i'm always a mcshep fan but i honestly enjoy any pairing of AR1. Anyone that has followed me for an extended period of time knows that im a mcdanno (H50) and leverage ot3 truther as well.

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind. hmm, not sure? OH some folks doing the sga kinkmeme have mentioned john/cam and im very intrigued

C - A ship you have never liked and probably never will. Rodney/Jennifer :( I love Jennifer, but the writers consistently changed her characterization and that relationship felt forced and weird (SGA)

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t. John/Elizabeth. I'm sorry! maybe its just because im gay af but to me their relationship felt like bffs, not romantic (SGA)

E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom? If so, what? I made that stargate cinnamon roll meme, if that counts

F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom? ~10 years

G - Have you ever had an OTP? If so, do you remember your first one? Who was in it? i'm a multishipper for sure, but one of the first ships i remember really clearly was eric/ryan from csi miami (circa age like 12)

H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., TV shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)? TV!

I - Has Tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why? I dont know that it was entirely tumblr, but yeah, Voltron. The fandom was truly fucking awful

J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.) uhhhh, like every show tbh. 99% of the shows i watch came from tumblr or online friends

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc? Eliot Spencer (Leverage)

L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves. hmm, I guess Adalind counts as a character who isnt one of my faves. She's a complex and interesting character, and its clear that a lot of her decisions come from a place of trauma. After having Diana it really shows that she does want to protect her and keep her safe (grimm)

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend. Ronon (SGA), Hardison (Leverage), Teal'c (SG1), etc

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom 1. men showing emotions!!! (grimm does this well, thankfully) 2. on a similar note: depicting how the shit these characters get up to is traumatizing and how that impacts them long term 3. literally any canon queer rep. can we PLEASE have a show like stargate or grimm where one of the characters (especially a man) is canonically queer? is that so hard???

O - Choose a song at random. Which ship or character does it remind you of? Forfeit by Rise Against always makes me think of ascended Daniel/Jack (SG1). Oh and ever since i saw a gifset with lyrics from it, Timberwolves at New Jersey by Taking Back Sunday makes me think of John (SGA)

P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas). one of these fuckin days i am going to write a baseball SGA AU

Q - A fandom you’ve abandoned and why. As previously mentioned: Voltron because the fan base was toxic and awful

R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom? all my favorite fandoms are themed around found family so this is so hard lmao. Nick & Hank (Grimm), Eliot & Harry (Leverage Redemption), Harry & Breanna (LR), Don & Charlie if brothers count (Numb3rs), etc

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon anyone who reads my H50 fics knows that i will fuckin die on the hill that Danny has an anxiety disorder

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending?  besides anxious danny, I'd say John having ADHD (SGA), and Monroe being bi (Grimm) are two right off the top of my head

U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites 1. Steve McGarrett (H50) - he's been through so much shit, but he's still so damn loyal and protective and kind. He's such a good dude who is just traumatized beyond belief. 2. Charlie Eppes (Numb3rs) - besides the fact that i am CONVINCED he has ADHD, he's just so fucking loving and passionate about his work and the people he loves. he balances out the hardness of Don and the gang with the sheer size of his heart 3. Eliot Spencer (Leverage) - basically the same reason as steve. I have a type.

V - Which character do you relate to most? this is tough. probably Daniel (SG1) - esp early seasons - because of similar worldviews and interests and personalities, and Danny (H50) because of similar personalities

W - A trope which you are virtually certain to hate in any fandom. MISCOMMUNICATION!! its so frustrating.

X - A trope which you are almost certain to love in any fandom. im a big ol softie so i love stuff like mutual pining, hurt/comfort, etc.

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms Good Omens is a big one rn lmao. I've read the book but haven't watched the show. Also, Daredevil probably. I watched at least the first season years ago, but haven't seen anything beyond that. I still enjoy seeing people's posts about it and i read fic sometimes

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go! im so cranky rn about the lack of depiction of trauma/mental illness/neurodivergence/etc in fandoms where its to be expected. like with Grimm rn, you give Nick PTSD and sensory enhancements but then suddenly forget about them?? that's not how that works! Or why is it always just hinted at that characters are ND? why is it so hard to just be like 'yeah no x has ADHD (or whatever)'? i want to be able to actually have complex/tough/interesting/etc protags that are ALSO neurodiverse. if we're all reading John as having ADHD (SGA) or Parker being autistic (leverage) anyways, why can't these things just be intentionally part of the character

[beansterpie]

B, D, J, L, T, U

Thanks for the ask moth!! <3

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.

LMFAO Agohiru from ES21 😂 I remember when I first got into es21 back in highschool, Hiruma was my fav, but I didn't think much of Agon other than 'wow what an asshole!' and didn't like him. (Also I was a big Hirumamo shipper at the time, and I'm the type who clings onto One Ship for a character and isn't too interested in anything else lol) It wasn't until I got back into it in the last couple of years that I've come to appreciate how much fun it is to bat that asshole around, and just how loaded Hiruma and Agon's ~history~ is.

Though I guess no one person specifically changed my mind, unless you count past me vs present me lol. OH actually, what changed my mind was the fic "Independent Variable" on ff.net. I think I got back into es21 and was like 'you know, hiruma/agon totally has potential' and so was looking up fics of that pairing, and then I read that fic and was lost.

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.

Hmmmm oh, Merther (Merlin/Arthur) lol. Their set up as a ship is extremely juicy (two sides of the same coin?? fate ties them together??? conflict because their initial world views are diametrically opposed????) and there's soooo much fic for them, but. I just. I don't like Arthur 😭 Like, I mean, he's FINE. But the writing of the whole show is so inconsistent and there's entire seasons where he's just so shitty to Merlin for no damn reason in a way that I'm supposed to take as funny and silly which pisses me off more.

J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.)

I mean, most shows that have mainstream popularity that I never checked out lol, though I think one that I've seen a lot of shipping art for on my dash is Star Wars? I've seen the main movies, but I think this is from.... Clone Wars, or the Obi-wan show or something. I see a lot of Obi-wan shipped with... one of the clone guys I think lmfao.

L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves.

Hmmmm this isn't even a character I dislike, but whatever-- Judeau! I like him a lot tbh but I also find him shady 😂

I like how his 'friend who gives good advice and just has your best interests at heart' vibe is subverted by his personal biases and emotions, even if he'd probably deny that lol. He's flawed and it colors the advice he gives, and he even has moments that I'd argue are kind of judgy. It's what makes him interesting!

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

Yes! Main one coming to mind rn because I've been thinking about Hiruma (ES21) a lot, is that Hiruma is on the ace spectrum! I'm usually pretty take-it-or-leave-it when it comes to sexuality headcanons, like I can buy most interpretations but I generally don't feel strongly about them, but with Hiruma I really struggle to see him as anything else.

U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.

OOHHHH. Well in Berserk, it's legit a tie between Guts and Griffith. I wouldn't like either one of them as much without the other in their orbit, and Berserk is one of those rare stories where both characters are really complex and compelling in their own way, and bring a lot of significant baggage into their dynamic lmfao. With Guts I love how sensitive he is, and the various ways in which he subverts and deconstructs the Macho Male Power Fantasy™ archetype, how at the end of the day he just wants someone to care about him and find worth in his existence. With Griffith, I love his ideals and his fragility in the face of the sacrifices those ideals demand from him, I love how much he cares and how much he gouges himself for caring, and how all of his stress and guilt and obligation still aren't any match for his love for Guts. And with both of them, I love how their upbringing informs their decisions so well to ruin everything even though they care about each other so much :')

w/ ES21, it's Hiruma lol which might be basic because he's everyone's fav, but for good reason! He's just fucking fun! I love how unhinged and demonic he is, I love the borderline slapstick loony-tunes tyle antics he gets up to, and I love his shamelessness. But I also love how accepting and realistic he is about his limitations, and how that doesn't stop him from striving for the top and going for what he wants. And like, for such an anime-level strategic genius type character, I love that such a core part of what makes him great is that he brings people together and uses teamwork and creativity to overcome everyone's various limitations. He's just-- so much fun!

And because this list is depressingly male lemme throw in a wild card-- Chase from Midnight Furies! It's a webcomic that I recently read for the first time, and Chase is the deuteragonist and a Hiruma expy lol. Which you can definitely tell, they both have the unhinged vibe and shark teeth, as well as the mysterious past and having a lot of cards up their sleeve, but I also think they're quite distinct. Obviously, Chase is a butch lesbian (which really does just add to her cool factor), but also I feel like Midnight Furies is a more grounded story compared to ES21, despite there being supernatural elements lol, and so Chase feels more grounded and realistic as a character. She's a bit more raw in her relationships to other people, and she shows vulnerability more, but she's also much more of a direct physical threat than Hiruma is. Because of that, she has moments where calculation gets thrown out the window in favor of a good ol' beat down, which of COURSE I love to see. And I think she has the capacity to be more ruthless. ANYWAY, awesome character, A+++ (please read Midnight Furies)

[alphabet ask meme]

[carolperkinsexgirlfriend]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @devondespresso <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

twenty-two!

2. What is your total AO3 word count?

161,121

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Lately, it's been stranger things, but I've published fanfic for The Magicians, The Untamed, Sweet Home, Alice in Borderland, Naruto, The Penumbra Podcast, and I Am In Eskew.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

the path to peace (is paved with good intentions)

Hearth-Warmed Chakra

rinsed vision and second chances

Secrets Never Meant to Be Kept

I could say grace was a woman with time on her hands

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Usually!!! Sometimes, I'll get behind by not responding for like a year though, and then I'll be like.......it's been too long.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't necessarily do angsty endings, but probably "a matter of going through" because it ends with heavily implied reconciliation that doesn't quite get actualized.

7. What the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I ALSO don't tend to do like, cookie-cutter happy endings. Usually I go for the, everything's still hard but we'll get through it together, endings. But probably, the path to peace (is paved with good intentions).

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I got that one weird anon I mentioned for the Upside-Down AU, and then I got one person on one of my fics where a pizza delivery driver falls in love with a customer telling me that it was problematic because the driver has no agency. And I was like, lol this is fanfiction and I AM a delivery driver.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I've written exactly ONE unpublished smut fic for Alice Quinn from The Magicians in which her evil counterpart came through the mirror and they fucked about it. I'm thinking of doing a one-shot smut fic for the Upside-Down AU though.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Closest I've gotten is me and a friend plotting out the unholy union of I Am In Eskew and The Penumbra Podcast (Juno Steel).

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Thankfully, nope!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yeah, my most popular Naruto fanfic was translated to Russian!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope! I've never gotten past the fucked up world-building stage with friends. Could be fun though.

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

As an aromantic person, the platonic ships are usually more important to me. First ones that come to mind are platonic stobin, and from the Untamed, Jiang Cheng & Wei Wuxian who are brothers. Honestly, I usually get sucked into romantic pairings because I'm like, wow, sure would love to see these two interract more! And then all the fanfic is romantic, so that's what I read!!!

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Definitely my one where Jiang Cheng from The Untamed sees ghosts. If you've watched that show, you understand how this would be both hilarious and deeply fucked up.

16. What are your writing stregths?

I think I'm pretty good at little moments. Like when everyone is having a meal together etc, small, contained scenes.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Getting from point A to point B, like, how do I skip through time without if seeming weird????? So, joining sentences?

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I've never done it, but I think it can serve its purpose. Unless you speak the language though, I think it can veer into offensive and clunky unless you get a translator.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

The Magicians, which broke my soul enough that I wrote a crack fic about it.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

My favorite is always my current obsession, so Upside-Down AU lol, but from what's published, it's definitely two million naturally occuring sweet things which is just a tretius on grief masquerading as a soup recipe.

tagging: @wynnyfryd @rogueddie @steddierthings @altschmerzes if any of you want to do it!

[squibstress]

Fic Stats Tag Game

Rules: Give us the links to your fic with the most hits, second most kudos, third most comments, fourth most bookmarks, fifth most words, and fic with the least words.

Stats. I have a love/hate relationship with statistics. I sucked at any kind of math in school, but wouldntchaknow I ended up having to deal with stats in my erstwhile career as a medical writer. As in, I developed passing aquaintance (read: ability to fake it) with them in order to sound less like the total ignoramus I was (and remain) when I was talking to researchers. I learned to love them in an asbtract kind of way as a language of truth that everyone could speak. So, anyway, OF COURSE I keep track of stats for my fic, and pretty much everything else in my life. Thank you to @perverse-idyll for tagging me and giving me an excuse to trot them out.

Given that I write mostly rarepairs featuring Minerva or sometimes the other old folks of the Potterverse, my stats aren't especially impressive when compared with the others doing this game, but they're mine, and I'm quite happy with them. Fact is, I write mostly for myself, and if anyone else is interested in my scribbling, I'm as chuffed as a Niffler in Cartier's.

Most Hits

Epithalamium (Minerva/Albus, 181k words), with 10,145 hits on AO3. Makes sense, as it's my longest fic, and one of my earliest forays into writing fic (and it shows.) Mostly written because a) I still love this ship and b) I couldn't find much fic about them that made any kind of sense to me. Most of what was written before JKR told us about Albus's grand amour with Grindelwald seemed to portray Albus and Minerva as adorable opposites, with Albus making extravagant romantic gestures to woo a Minerva who bore only a passing resemblance to the one in my head. (According to Fanlore, one of the early nicknames for this then-semi-popular ship was "HMS Frivolity and Felines". Shudder.) I take my Minerva/Albus with a side of toxicity.

Second Most Kudos

The Peculiar Resilience of the Refugee (Petunia & Rosmerta friendship, 7,777 words), with 218 kudos. I was pleasantly surprised at how much people seemed to like this fic, since it's gen and Petunia-centric, but I'm so glad. I loved exploring Petunia a bit more deeply and giving her (and Dudley) a shot at a happy-ish ending. It was also fun to fill in Rosmerta's backstory a bit.

Third Most Comments

Till 'A the Seas Gang Dry (Minerva/Albus, 55,110 words), with 48 comments. A sequel to Epithalamium, and one of my fluffier efforts, written for a friend who is a die-hard Minerva/Albus shipper and enjoys happier fare for this pairing than I am wont to give them. Travelogue as fic, with Venice as the star.

Fourth Most Bookmarks

Epithalamium, with 27 bookmarks.

Fifth Most Words

Because It Is Bitter, and Because It Is My Heart (Minerva/Severus 34,874). My problem child. I started this around the same time as Epithalamium because I (kind of) knew where I wanted to take that story, and I was eager to get to the oh-so-bitter end. I reworked it a bit a couple of years ago because I disliked how I handled some of the non-con in the story. I think it's better now, but still not my best work, although I think it has some good moments.

Least Words

Requiem for a Spy (other characters talking about Severus, 100 words) A drabble, written for Snape100 drabble community on LiveJournal. The prompts were the wondeful words "etiolated" and "lexicon".

Anyone else want to play? @ladyvoldywrites @kellychambliss?