#it took me until THIS YEAR to memorize my FATHERS birthdayDHQKSJQK

[lycankeyy]

I think the only thing I fear and have inferiority about in terms of friendships and stuff is my continuous amnesia. Sometimes very rarely something manages to stick in my brain and it fluctuates I have good days where remembering things is easier but like. It is inevitable I forget things. Even important things. I forget how and when I met people. I forget important conversations. I forget birthdays and anniversaries. I forget things I've already forgotten about before and have to be reminded again. And people rarely get on me about it but all I see in media is people being mad about you forgetting important dates or crying because the amnesiac doesn't remember an important moment and it's like fuckkkk I don't want people to feel like that because of me

Think this is hitting me bc im recovering from a Big Stress so remembering is especially hard right now. Tried thinking abt friends bc im feeling sentimental and like all the Feelings are still there but trying to remember any specific Thing is like trying to see through extremely dense fog and hear through deafening white noise. Some days it just has to be enough that I remember that I am loved and that I love and I hope that's okay