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I’ve become fixated on Interview With the Vampire to the point that I’m doing painting studies in my sketchbook. I will post those once I have the time to scan them. In the meantime…

Sad Cartoon Vampire Armand

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I thought I’d made a mistake by doing this eye-searing magenta for the ground, but I’m liking it.

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I thought I’d made a mistake by doing this eye-searing magenta for the ground, but I’m liking it.

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Caela by Liturgy

72"x13.5", synthetic and natural fibers, vinyl tubing, 2024

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This piece came about as an attempt to visually depict how I experience music. Possibly due to my Autism, I do not seem to listen to/experience music the way other people I have discussed this topic with experience music. I recognize that there is an underlying meter, a rhythm, a beat, that allows a person to "follow the music;" the beat is also what people follow when they dance. I can force myself to identify and follow a beat, but it requires significant concentration on my part, is not what comes naturally to me, and is not how I enjoy listening to music. My attention often skips back and forth between different sounds, following the bass sounds for several moments because I enjoy that specific section, then switching focus to the crescendo of a violin, to the sound of the singer's voice, the drums, back to violin, bass, voice, a new sound.

By connecting colors, patterns, and material to specific aspects of a musical piece, I have attempted to create a depiction of my experience of the music.

(I also decided to leave the edges of the different photos I took, to give an impression of the number of images needed to create a decent representation of this weaving.)

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Like a Big Cat Purring

36"x20", mixed media weaving, utilizing a crochet shawl made by my late cousin, before her death, 2024

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Any artists who have their own domain name and sell art thru their website have recommendations of hosts and payment services that are okay with adult content?

I haven’t done much explicit artwork in a long time, in part because the freely accessible websites to share and sell such artwork continue to dwindle. If I’m gonna go to the trouble of setting up and maintaining my own website/shop, I want to be able to sell ALL the kinds of things I make.

Subscription service platforms aren’t suitable for me, because the timeframe in which I make and complete different kinds of art fluctuates so much.

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Hello dear.. Please don't skip my message My name is Mohammed, from the afflicted and destroyed Gaza Strip, where life has become impossible and tragic, and where we see death and pain every moment and every day. Our children suffer from hunger, pain, deprivation and lack of medicine. The war deprived them of playing, school, and their most basic rights. They are now suffering from woes and tragedies. 😭😭 During the war, my wife gave birth to a child and I could not find any milk for him Our conditions are tragic, and we live in a shelter that lacks the minimum requirements for life and is plagued by diseases and epidemics Please help me save my children from the hell of the Gaza Strip and provide them with a decent life 😔 Your assistance, no matter how simple, is enough to ease the burden on us and help us overcome our crisis. Please sympathize with me and donate to me or contribute to sharing the campaign and spreading it widely

please give if you can and share

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considering Etsy’s recent policy changes regarding allowing the sale of AI-generated works and the ban on selling sex toys, I will probably deactivate my Etsy store in the next month or two.

Eventually, I will look for another platform on which to sell my art, but there might be something of a hiatus inbetween. So if you want any of my stuff in the near future, you should probably go order it now

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I’ve decided this will actually be my test weave... gonna start the whole thing over because I have brainworms.

All this work and I’ve concluded I’m gonna have to cut it up to harvest some of the yarn for the next one! The custom multicolor yarns that I made. The issue is those plain weave sections are uhhhh almost 4 ft long. If I reduce the number of picks, I can reduce the length of the plain weave section by half and have a lot more room for cool stuff.

Doing insane shit with string today

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Because the rigid heddle loom rolls up the cloth on the front bar, you can’t see everything I’ve woven, so this diagram is the best way to demonstrate how increasingly unhinged this weaving is becoming.

Doing insane shit with string today

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Doing insane shit with string today

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Second panel of fabric. Next step involves getting out my sewing machine so I’ve been avoiding it and fucking about with others projects instead.

First stage in a multi-step project. Hand-weaving fabric which I will then use to sew the body and limbs of a marionette doll.

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First stage in a multi-step project. Hand-weaving fabric which I will then use to sew the body and limbs of a marionette doll.

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Reblogging my own work for combo Easter/Trans Day of Visibility

Ecce Homo

18x24, acrylic paint on cardboard, 2024

This painting, one of my figure studies, my comic book "Act Well Your Part" and my two zines, "Slap Your Cheeks For Color" and "Step Out Into Your Short Shorts," will be on display and available for purchase at "Slip Gallery.

Opening reception is March 8th, 6-9pm, and a closing reception will be held on March 30th, 7-9pm.

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I rarely reblog my own posts unless there's a specific update, but that means I'm also not very good at promoting where you can actually purchase my art!

You can get three digital (PDF) versions of my comics, "Queer Code," "Emet," and "Seven Hundred and Seventy Eight Days," and two SECRET EXTRA COMICS here: LINK

(The secret extra comics are the "R. J. Hill: Therapist" comics and the "Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest" comic.)

"Queer Code," "Emet," and "Seven Hundred and Seventy Eight Days" are available as individual PDFs.

"Act Well Your Part" and "Emet" are available in print.

I have a limited number of my risograph illustration collections "Slap Your Cheeks for Color" and "Step Out Into Your Short Shorts."

Currently, I don't sell prints of my paintings because -- in all honestly -- there's been little demand for them, even when they were available through a print on demand website. If enough people express serious interest in prints, I'd consider trying again in the future.

I'm also thinking of creating color covers for print versions of "Queer Code" and "Seven Hundred and Seventy Eight Days," but that's kind of a back-burner idea at the moment.

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If you are 18+ and make, purchase, or enjoy artwork with nudity (especially depictions of "non-normative" bodies) or sexual activity, I encourage you to join this list.

SESTA/FOSTA and the restrictions of payment processors are the primary reasons that places like Tumblr, Instagram, Patreon, Squarespace, Gumroad and Etsy (with varying ways to get around the rules) will not sell products or even host images of nudity or sexual acts.

Since I started selling my own artwork online, almost 20 years ago, the number of sites where artists can post and sell anything that merely has a NIPPLE visible has been drastically reduced. If you're aware of the disparity in censorship on sites/apps like tumblr, insta, and tiktok -- all of which have documented trends of censoring images of visibly queer, fat, and/or disabled bodies, regardless of sexual content -- then you can understand how these additional limitations further restrict the arena for creative works by marginalized communities. And the ways you can directly, ethically support adult content creators/porn stars/sex workers.

Patreon, Squarespace, Gumroad. What do all these online spaces have in common? A monopolizing payment processor. My hand slipped and I contacted the ACLU, the FSC, and the MA Bar Association for legal assistance. If you’ve been fucked over by draconian nsfw bans please join my Mastercard Injury Mailing List.

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Ecce Homo

18x24, acrylic paint on cardboard, 2024

This painting, one of my figure studies, my comic book "Act Well Your Part" and my two zines, "Slap Your Cheeks For Color" and "Step Out Into Your Short Shorts," will be on display and available for purchase at "Slip Gallery.

Opening reception is March 8th, 6-9pm, and a closing reception will be held on March 30th, 7-9pm.