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Books talk to each other. Mostly because practically every writer is also a voracious reader, but also because books arise out of times and places and we share a lot of our worlds these days. So it’s unsurprising that several novels I have hugely enjoyed over the past few years share the theme of the antiheroine who is past all giving of the fucks. Naomi Novik’s powerful dark sorceress kept on her own tight leash in the Scholomance books was a joy to follow; Xiran Jay Zhao’s Iron Widow slashed her way into my heart and now Sarah Rees Brennan’s Long Live Evil has added to a list of beloved antiheroines that probably started for me with Becky Sharp in Vanity Fair.

Coincidentally, when considering how to describe Long Live Evil without significant spoilers, I realised that it shared several major themes with Vanity Fair. Young woman unfairly treated by fate decides to embrace her slut era to survive a war zone – both very accurate and wildly inaccurate for both. LLE opens with main character Rae in a hospital bed, teasing her sister about a book series they both adore. Rae is taking refuge in the story they have shared over years because it is one of the few things they have left: she is losing her fight against cancer and has been losing parts of her life, family and memory as that fight has progressed.

My personal hospital experiences have all been to do with major traumas rather than illness, which I vastly prefer because if you don’t die in the first couple of days, you usually start mending and you can immediately make plans to make the best of whatever you’ve broken. Rees Brennan, however, famously wrote a very funny, very horrible, ‘Kids, you won’t believe what shenanigans your girl’s been up to now, it’s only stage four Hodgkins lymphoma!’ post on her Tumblr or LJ (someone who has been hit in the head with taxis fewer times than me will doubtless factcheck that in the notes) about seven or eight years ago and then faced the very serious business of trying to live. The hospital scenes are painfully authentic, as are the stories of people who have left Rae as she slipped further out of everyday life.

For Rees Brennan, a loving family and peer group were there to hold her as close as they could. For Rae, only her beloved little sister, Alice, and Time of Iron, their favourite fantasy series, remain. They read the books together, remember adventures cosplaying and watching the musical, they wonder about the final instalment; for Rae it’s a joy she can still share (even if she doesn’t remember as much as she should), for Alice, it’s her two greatest loves. When a strange woman offers a door into the world of the book and a possible magical cure to Rae, she wants it as much as she disbelieves it.

Stepping into Eyam, the land of Time of Iron, Rae finds herself in the body of a villain doomed to die the next day. No worries! She’s thought and fought her way out of worse scraps than this in her past as a head cheerleader, let alone while battling cancer. She can use her knowledge of the plot to change things! If only she remembered more of the books…

Portal fantasies are common enough, but not all play by the same rules. This isn’t Narnia, where the magical world is more real than our own, for Rae, the world of the book is nothing more a tool to get her hands on the cure. She doesn’t need to care about any of these people, they’re not real. Most of them speak in a formal language that relies on the conventions of fantasy literature (there is an ongoing, warm-hearted skewering of all Game of Thrones-esque texts running through both the story and the in-text ‘quotes’ from Time of Iron) and half the characters are known more by their descriptions rather than their names. So she will play the Beauty Dipped in Blood, with her questionable morals, impractical clothes and centre-of-balance-distorting boobs for the weeks that will pass until the cure is available. Whoever she has to shuffle in the plot to secure a place beside that cure, she will shuffle. While she’s not out to kill anyone, it’s not as though they were ever really alive. Not like her. If she has to be the villain to survive, she will be an impeccable one. The people will cheer evil on!

Obviously, little goes to plan. Rae’s illness has taught her cruelty, but she hasn’t forgotten what it is to be kind. Even as she manipulates her role into ongoing main character, she realises that’s not how anyone gets a happy ending. That’s not how she can live with herself. As she comes to think of the other people in the story as real, they become more so, both in how we read them and in how they impact the story. Rae remembers what it is like to make friends, which she never meant to, but, oh, the luxury after years of watching people slip away!

As in previous novel In Other Lands, Rees Brennan has a long list of fantasy tropes to embrace and undermine, and her deft touch with humour is as evident as ever here, but her publishers call this her first adult novel and there is a shift in tone from her previous works. Anger is more real and lasting. Consequences are more significant. Understanding is reached for, even if it’s bitter. One of my favourite things is that she lets her female characters rage, but never judges those who can’t, whether because they’re too powerless or just too tired, and her male characters are allowed to be people if they choose to be — which all but the most vainglorious do.

I hadn’t paid much attention beyond checking the release date for the book, so didn’t realise it was the first in a series. For me, it worked perfectly as a standalone novel, even with the unended threads, which would have perfectly balanced Rae’s unfinished life. That said, I am very happy to know we will spend more time with these characters in the future. I want more. I do want to know if there is a hope for Rae, if this is the fever dream of a fading life, if this is the story Alice has told to ease her sister from the world or something else. There are a dozen characters I hope for, at least three happy endings that would bring joy. But don’t wait for the next books: sink your teeth into this one and believe what it says about the importance of listening to stories rather than just falling in love with characters. Though if you find yourself cheering on Rae, or her servant Emer, the elusive Eric, Horrible Hortensia or almost any of the others, I am the last person who will judge you.

[daydreams-after-dark]

Hii can I request a Dom seungmin and jeongin fic (threesome) plzplz? Could be anything but pls I've been very thirsty for Dom vocalracha lately after reading this one fic of them on Tumblr having a foursome with reader+Felix and I very much died reading it

Plz make it extra rough but lots of praise, could be any scenario, just Dom seungmin and jeongin 🥰

Also unrelated ask but r u comfy with writing fics where reader is transgender? Ftm or mtf? Just asking, it's unrelated to the req dw

Have a good one 🎂

It’s a Jeongin and Seungmin story today 🤗

Not my usual characters, but it seems so many of you after-darklings (not sure what I should call you: suggestions are open) are getting really wet and/or hard for this pair. So I feel I must feed you all the goodness that is vocalracha.

Also, re ftm / mtf, absolutely open to this, but I don’t feel knowledgeable enough just yet.

MDNI // SMUT

CW: threesome m x f x m, rough penetration, oral sex (m rec.), collar and leash, choking, blindfolds, squirting, praise, pet names, creampie, pussy slapping, face slapping, spanking, hair pulling, overstimulation.

You knew when you received the voice message from Jeongin you were fucked. Well, going to be fucked. Rough, according to his message.

“You’re in a lot of trouble my sweet little girl. Avoiding me all week like that. Meet me at the hotel. You know what’s going to happen.”

You gulped. The hotel usually meant an extra level of unhinged, and oftentimes he’d bring Seungmin to play with punish you.

You put on your best pair of lace panties and matching bra, high heels and a short little dress and took a cab into the outer city where the hotel was located.

They were already there. Waiting for you.

Seungmin answered the door. “Pretty little pup.” He whispered, cupping your jaw and swiping his thumb along your bottom lip and smearing your freshly applied lipstick.

You allowed your lips to part slightly, an opportunity Seungmin immediately took. He hooked his thumb in your mouth forcefully and chuckled to himself. “I’ve missed you. Missed owning you.”

He spun you around and pushed you up against the door and nipped at your neck. You could feel his erection pressing against you.

“I’m gonna fuck you so good.” He whispered against your neck. His hands peeled your dress up and squeezed the flesh of your ass. One hand remained there while the other quickly unbuckled his belt.

Anticipation flooded your body, your cunt aching for his cock. He squeezed his length between your thighs so it slid against your pussy.

“Fucking wet already, hmm? Panties are soaked.” He kissed your neck passionately. “A filthy little whore. A perfect little pup.”

“Seungmin.” A stern voice came from the bed. “You’re not going to fuck her in the first five minutes. She needs to be a begging mess before she deserves our cocks.”

You whimpered. You wanted Seungmin to sink into you right then and there.

“Jeongin, needs for you to beg for it, princess. I need you to be a really good girl for me. You want my cock don’t you?” He nipped your earlobe.

“Y-yes… cock. Need your cock.” You choked.

“I know you do. All you need to do is exactly what we say, and I promise we’ll let you come.”

You nodded. “Yes. I’ll be a good pup.”

“Crawl to me.” Jeongin demanded in a cold tone. You swallowed hard as Seungmin backed away and you turned and dropped onto all fours.

You met Jeongin’s gaze as you slowly crawled across the floor, the hotel carpet rough on your knees. Better than a hardwood floor, you supposed. You knelt between his knees and waited.

Seungmin came up behind you and attached your favourite collar and leash, handing the chain to Jeongin.

“Stand.” He tugged the chain and you obeyed. “Take off your clothes. Leave your heels on.”

The two men watched you with hungry eyes as you pulled your dress down and stepped out of it. Then your panties and bra. They’d seen you naked plenty of times, but you still felt yourself blush a little, when their expressions were as though it was their first time seeing your naked form.

“Now undress us.” Seungmin commanded as he drifted his hand down your back and over the curve of your ass.

You took your time undressing them, marinating in the anticipation that had taken over your body. You were wet from just the thought of what was unfolding, your cunt ached knowing it was going to be abused shortly.

Jeongin settled on the bed. Head resting on the pillows, long, hard erection lying against his taut abs. Fucking scrumptious.

Slowly, you climbed up onto the bed and he grasped the chain dangling from your collar and tugged you so your face was hovering over his cock. He patted your head gently and smiled kindly.

Then his entire demeanour changed in a millisecond. His shy eyes turned deranged, his smile turned into a crazed grin.

Seungmin was quickly behind you bullying his cock into your cunt. You gasped at the stretch and then the depth as he slammed in the entire way.

“We’re not going to go easy on you. But we know you’re a good girl. We know you’re going to take everything we give you.” He grunts as he sets a brutal pace.

“Choke on my cock, pretty angel.” Jeongin whispered.

You took him in a hand and teased him with your tongue. You licked up the underside of the shaft and then slapped it against the flat of your tongue.

“Tsk tsk… that’s not choking on it, sweetheart.” Jeongin pushed the back of your head down over his length.

Seungmin snapped his hips hard, every impact of his pelvis against your ass pushed you further onto Jeongin’s length. You made a loud choking sound, and the two men chuckled.

“That’s our good girl. Pretty sounds.” Jeongin purred as you struggled to take him.

Suddenly, your arms were ripped from underneath you where you had been supporting yourself, and were held securely behind your back by Seungmin. With no way to support your upper body, you fell entirely over Jeongin’s cock, choking you even more. Your lips met his pubic bone and your eyes widened with fear.

Seungmin grunted and pinned you down by pushing on your arms where he had them in his tight grip.

Jeongin started to thrust his hips up to fuck your face. Your vision blurred as your eyes filled with tears and your mascara smeared on your cheeks.

You felt someone tug on the chain, lifting you up enough to catch your breath and then you were pushed back down.

Harder and harder they fucked you from both ends, you without any control over what was happening. They let you up for air, then pushed you back down to deep throat Jeongin. You weren’t sure how much longer you’d be able to do this. You could hardly catch your breath before your throat was being stretched with his dick again.

“So perfect. Look at you. Such a good little slut for us.” Jeongin stroked your hair affectionately. “Taking cock so fucking well.”

Without warning, Seungmin pulled out of your dripping cunt and yanked you off of Jeongin.

“I’ve got a fun game I wanna play with you pup.” He fetched the swivel chair from the desk in the the corner of the room and positioned it in the middle of the floor.

“Come. Kneel on this.” He directed you. Pulling the leash. You knelt on the seat of the chair with your arms resting on the backrest.

A blindfold was placed around your eyes and fingers were shoved into your mouth. At the same time a cock pushed its way into your needy cunt.

You could tell it was Seungmin’s fingers and Jeongin’s cock by how aggressive the hips were slamming into you and how rough the fingers were.

Your orgasm was building, your walls tightening. Yes. Yes. This felt so fucking amazing.

Then, you were empty and being spun on the chair, only to be penetrated again. They fucked you for some time before repeating the process. Again and again and again.

You became so fucked out that you lost track of who was in your pussy and who was in your mouth. All you knew was that you were in some sort of filthy heaven. A little cockslut for your favourite men.

They pulled and tugged your hair, their fingers were rough and unforgiving in your mouth. They fucked you for their own pleasure, not caring how deep they were hitting you. Not caring if it hurt. They slapped your ass, dug their fingers in. They even slapped your face every so often, which made your cunt clench.

You loved it when they were rough with you. You were so close, on the verge of shattering, when you found yourself empty once more. The blindfold was ripped off and you were laid on your back at the edge of the bed.

“Hold your fucking legs up, sweetheart.”

“Please…I need to come. Please…been good…please!” You were sobbing and begging for relief.

“Shhh… pup. We’ve got you.” Seungmin cooed.

He rubbed lyour pussy frantically, almost violently, slapping your pussy every now and then. Jeongin held his cock close as he spurted thick ropes of cum on your entrance. He pushed your legs back, pinning them in place while Seungmin relentlessly assaulted your pussy.

“Take it. You wanna come. Be a good girl.” He taunted.

You squirmed and writhed underneath them, your clit was too sensitive. But the pressure inside continued to build until—

“Fuck!!!!!!!! Nghhh!!!! Coming!!” You cried as liquid spurted from your core.

“Yes…make a mess…I know you have more.” Growled Jeongin and he pushed two long fingers inside you to attack your g spot.

It was too much. You had lost control of your voice, your thoughts - everything, and with what could only be described as a wild, primal scream you squirted more, spilling your juices all over yourself. You broke down, crying and shaking.

But they weren’t finished with you. Jeongin rubbed your juices and his cum all over your stomach and up to your breasts, massaging them in a rough way. Seungmin quickly pushed his cock back inside you and fucked your sensitive and used pussy some more.

“Gonna fill you up, pup.” He panted.

Jeongin’s hand wrapped around your throat and squeezed as Seungmin emptied himself against your cervix. Feeling Seungmin’s final thrusts whilst being choked had you seeing stars one more time.

You were addicted to this, and you made a mental note to be a brat this coming week. You wanted to see how far you could push them, what kind of games they’d want to subject you to.

But for now, the three of you were spent, taking your time to shower and dress, and eventually go out for a meal.

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NSFW Alphabet | Gaon/Kwak Jiseok

Gaon/Kwak Jiseok | WC: 1.8k Genre: smut Summary: nsfw alphabet game thing Warnings: this is just. PURE filth. I'm sorry. (No im not). NOT proofread, just straight up rambles. BRIEF mentions of degrading... I think that's it.. lemme know if I missed something! A/N: X is excluded bc i will Not be writing about him in that kind of detail <3 Thank u anonie for requesting this one toooo <3 The rest will come soon, I promise! Also... funny how my tumblr is Mostly jiseok content when i'm joo/seumi biased... LOL i'm having a lot of fun tho so it's all good <3

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Sweet hyper boy finally relaxes. He’d absolutely collapse next to you and breathe heavily, little chuckles leaving his lips while he pushed his hair away from his face. He is SO the type to reach out for you and just pat whatever he touches first, as long as it’s you - be it your still-shaking thigh, your stomach, hell, even your face, just so he could give you praise while you both caught your breath. 

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

I don’t know if I’d call it his favourite per se, but he loves using his lips for sure. Dragging them up and down your body slowly, teasingly, leaving small kisses and hickeys on your body - some where other people could see like your collarbone and others where only he could see, like your inner thighs… and don’t even get me started on the fact he would love seeing your wetness coating his lips after he ate you out…

On his partner… legs in general. Being able to grip your thighs whenever he wanted, rub his hands up and down your legs, knowing he could push them open whenever he wanted… yeah

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

In your mouth 99% of the time. The other 1% would be if he was feeling a little more needy and wanted to come on your face, but most of the time, he loves holding your head down on him, feeling himself twitch in your mouth before letting go with a shaky groan. He doesn’t have a preference on if you spit or swallow, at the end of the day he wants you to be comfortable, but the times you do swallow and clean up the remaining mess on his cock would always leave him shuddering with pleasure and admiration. 

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He LOVES keeping dirty polaroids with him. Maybe not in his wallet where anyone could see, but for sure with him at all times, either of the both of you together or just you… it’s a nice reminder for him of what’s waiting at home.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s experienced at a very basic level, for sure. He knows what he likes, but he isn’t an encyclopedia of how to make his partner come just yet… he’d need a little guidance, but the smallest bit of reassurance and help and he’d be a master at it after a few minutes.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Cowgirl and reverse cowgirl for sure. It’s not that he doesn’t want to put in the work, because he absolutely likes taking control, but he likes being able to grab you and watch you feel good; he loves watching you hold onto his shoulders or knees and ride him, swirling your hips and whining.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He’s serious but he’s fun. You couldn’t role play with him because he’d end up giggling and taking himself out of it, but he doesn’t see sex as something funny, if that makes sense. He always has both of your pleasure in mind, but that wouldn’t stop him from biting at you, spanking you playfully and making it a fun experience.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Say it with me, I keep it short and simple! He’ll shave it all off and keep it trimmed for a week before he just let’s it go again - an infinite cycle.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

He’s intimate but he’s not serious, you know? He loves being with you and feeling you, but he’s not about to make it a grand romantic gesture every single time. That doesn’t mean he won’t ever make it romantic, but he likes to keep you on your toes. In more ways than one, if you catch my drift…

J = Jack off (masturbation headcannon)

He’s part of the population that thinks that if you jack off with your left hand, it feels like someone else is doing it… and while there’s no telling if that’s totally true, the fact that he always jacks off thinking about your hand moving up and down his cock or how tight you feel around him when he fucks you gets him there every time, regardless of what hand he uses.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

On par with the polaroid thing - exhibitionism - BUT!! Not in the traditinoal sense. He would never take photos or videos on either of your phones (can’t trust technology, honestly), but that wouldn’t stop him from taking polaroids of you or using a video camera to film the two of you, getting a rush from putting on a show, even if its just for the two of you to see again at a later date together.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Home! But in “dangerous” places. What I mean is like, right next to the window where no one could see you unless they were really looking, but the idea that it could happen is such a rush for the both of you. Or even just with the windows open, that risk of being heard drives him wild. 

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Don’t confuse this with a marking kink, but knowing that you’re his and knowing that you trusted him enough to be at his mercy whenever he asked gets him so hard, it’s insane. He’d never push if you were clearly not in the mood, but if you were reciprocating, he’d immediately take control, reminding you that you belong to him.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn-offs)

He’s someone who also gives vanilla… so no extreme kinks. Honestly, I can’t even see him exploring “tame” kinks… the farthest he’d go would be anal.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Since he loves coming in your mouth, he’s absolutely more of a receiver, but he’d never turn down the chance to lay between your legs and let you make a mess all over his face, his tongue skillfully flicking, his lips suctioning on you, vibrating with the hums of his moans.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

You know… rough and slow and/or fast and sensual, depending on the situation. He’d absolutely slowly pull almost all the way out before slamming his hips back into yours, making you shudder with desire and need, and there are other times where he’d pull you against his chest and slam into you, his lips messily kissing and sucking on your neck and jawline, small reminders of “mine, all mine” being whispered in your ear.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He’d be down for a quickie for sure, but he’d still make enough time for aftercare, for the both of you. Both because he enjoyed being cleaned up by you, but also praising you and reminding you that you did so good and made him feel so good. So… I think the quickest a quickie would be for him would be the time it takes for him to come from just you sucking him off, noting that he would absolutely return the favor the next time.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

See above, with the window thing. I think he’d never put the two of you in real danger of being caught, but the risk of being heard through a door or a wall is something he will absolutely risk in a heartbeat.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Unfortunately, he is a one and done guy, but it’s not for lack of trying. You just make him come so hard the first time that he’s spent! I do think he would be down for a bit of edging every now and then, where he’d let you take some of the control where you’d bring him right to the edge then take your mouth away from him with a little pop, watching him writhe and beg for you to be good and let him come in your mouth.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Now!!! I personally think he would have quite a bit of fun with butt plugs. Not in himself, but for his partner. Having a small collection of them, some with heart shaped gems on the ends, some just solid silver, maybe a stray tail here or there… he’d love to watch you wear one around the house for a while wearing a skirt with nothing underneath, asking you to pick up something he’d “conveniently” drop so he could peek at the plug in you.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He teases, but not in a typical way. It’s always subtle, be it teasing remarks about how good your body looks in what you’re wearing, how he could tell you were needy by the way you rutted against his thigh when you were in his lap… little bites on your neck to remind you he could fuck you senseless if he wanted to.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He’s not a screamer but he’s not quiet, at all. The best way to put it is that the two of you could absolutely be heard through a wall if someone was really listening, but not loud enough to make out distinct words.

W = Wild card (a random headcannon for the character)

UMM Let’s talk about degradation :) I think :) he would be into that. But like… not badly, you know? Something gives me the vibe that he would like calling you dumb - but NEVER stupid, dabbling in some other things like calling you a slut :) that’s all :)

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

He is so the kind of guy to get a boner at the smallest thing, but that doesn’t mean he’s going to drop to his knees and beg for you. If you’re not around or not feeling it, he can think it off, but on the rare occasions he can’t, well… that’s what those photos and videos are for! 

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterward)

Within the hour for sure, but not immediately! He’d doze in and out for a bit, waking up to help you clean yourselves off, falling asleep after laying down in a too-comfy way, waking up again to get dressed and help you get dressed if you wanted to (he’d never protest naked cuddles, of course), and once it was truly all over and you were both cuddled up together, he’d be out. If there were things to do later in the day… good luck, because you’d have to be the one to wake him.

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Thank you so much for the tag @therealsaintscully!

How many works do you have on ao3? 48! 30 for BBC Sherlock and 18 for The X-Files.

What’s your total word count? 924,659 (whoa, that's a lot of words)

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? (Never) Turn Your Back to the Sea White Knight Incidents with Dogs, Curious and Otherwise Another Auld Lang Syne The Dead Detective

Do you respond to comments? Why/why not?

I try to. I'm not always as on top of it as I intend to be. I find comments tremendously meaningful and I at times get emotional while reading them. They are important to me. I reread them often.

I often fear that I'm a poor conversationalist and overthink my responses, which can tend to freeze me up.

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Most of my long fics have happy endings.

The Pillar upon Which England Rests is my ode to Mrs. Hudson. As she and John are grieving Sherlock's fall, she tells John all about how she and Sherlock first met. I don't think of it as a particularly sad story, but I suppose that ending counts as angsty, as Sherlock's eventual return is not addressed in the story.

I guess the shorter, more horrorish ones have angsty (or at least uneasy) endings.

Nothing Happened in Belarus has S4 Sherlock, in the throes of his breakdown, somehow briefly traveling through time and encountering S1 John, who cares for him. It's a brief reprieve for him in the midst of a personal hell, but there is no resolution. When he returns to his own time, he is still forced to face what's coming next.

At the end of Leaves, Sherlock and John have either successfully defeated the bloodthirsty plant that has invaded their flat, or they're being digested by it. I leave that decision up to the reader. :)

The Web has Sherlock returned from his time away and reunited with John, but there is a part of him that will always remain haunted and deeply paranoid.

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

Most of them, heh. I like to leave my characters in a good place after putting them through hell.

I guess I'd have to say White Knight? I still get a little giddy when I think about the way Sherlock proposes at the end of that one, and how happy and free they both are after the crushing weight of misunderstandings and grief has fallen away.

Whirlwind has a pretty joyful ending, too.

Do you write crossovers?

I haven't written a crossover, but I have done a few fusion fics. The Dead Detective is a fusion with Jumpin' Jack Flash. Whirlwind is a fusion with Twister. Out There is a fusion with The X-Files.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not really. Most responses on AO3 have been warm and supportive. I have gotten a few unnecessarily vicious comments on some of my ficlets here on Tumblr, but I do my best to ignore those.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Most of my smut tends to be of the R-rated variety, because I'm frankly just not very good at writing it.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes, sort of, but I don't believe it was done maliciously and I don't intend to call attention to it.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have not. I'm open to the idea, but I honestly don't know if I'm cut out for it. I think my tendency to wing things and my utter lack of a consistent writing schedule would drive a potential writing partner mad.

What's your all-time favourite ship?

Mulder and Scully were my first true fandom love. I love Sherlock and John equally as much, if not more.

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

There are quite a few WIPs on my hard drive that may never see the light of day. As far as posted fics, my Sherlock/Knight Rider fusion probably won't be finished.

What are your writing strengths?

I like to think that I'm pretty good at capturing character mannerisms, and writing from a perspective that lets the reader feel what the POV character is feeling.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I'm not all that impressed with my smut writing abilities.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I steer clear of it. Although Google translate can be helpful, IMO there are too many opportunities to make embarrassing or inadvertently offensive mistakes.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

The X-Files

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

I really enjoy the character dynamics between Hannibal/Will in Hannibal and Lestat/Louis in Interview with the Vampire. I think I'd have a harder time getting into their heads than I do with Sherlock and John, so I'll probably just continue admiring them from afar for now.

What's your favourite fic you've written?

This is such a hard question! I'm probably proudest of the work that went into Out There, but I have a huge soft spot for The Pillar upon Which England Rests and (Never) Turn Your Back to the Sea.

If anyone out there would like to share your thoughts on some of the things you've written, please do! I'll also tag @thetimemoves @arwamachine @raina-at @vulpesmellifera @iheardyou @totallysilvergirl @khorazir

[obsessedwithtlk]

𝟛𝟘 𝕪𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕤 𝕠𝕗 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕃𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕂𝕚𝕟𝕘 🦁💛

The Lion King has been my favourite movie for as long as I can remember.

I don't recall the very first time I watched The Lion King because I was still chilling in the womb 30 years ago and I was just one month old when it came out on VHS but Disney movies were constantly playing in our house thanks to my siblings.

However, every time I hear the opening score, I'm instantly transported back to being four years old, sitting on the floor of our blue-themed living room, watching The Lion King. I vividly remember the moment when the mother and baby giraffe step into the sun.

Nostalgia is powerful!! The Circle of Life, with its expressive music, serves as a strong trigger for my childhood memories.

Honestly, I struggle to get through the intro without shedding a tear. a reminder of how formative experiences and powerful storytelling can impact our emotions throughout our lives and we're only 4 minutes in! Yet those 4 minutes feature some of the most beautiful and well-crafted animation and storytelling ever, in my opinion.

The story of Simba resonated with me deeply. I was particularly drawn to Simba’s journey of self-discovery and the lessons he learned about bravery, grief, and responsibility. I admired Mufasa's wisdom and strength, and I found Timon and Pumbaa's carefree attitude both funny and comforting.

The Lion King was probably one of my first major hyperfixations.

When I was around 8-10 years old, my nighttime routine involved watching The Lion King and Simba's Pride before bed every night, always remembering to rewind the VHS ready for the next day.

It was around this time, I first gained access to the Internet. One of the first things I searched for was The Lion King. I discovered lionking.org and its fanart sister site, realising that many others also loved this movie just as much as me.

I was too young to really communicate with anyone at the time, but I admired from afar, which made me feel less alone. When I discovered Tumblr many years later you bet I created my own Lion King fan page which is still up to this day for archiving and memory purposes.

If not for The Lion King, I wouldn't have made some lifelong international connections and friendships.

Whenever I felt down, lonely, anxious, or afraid, The Lion King was there to support me.

The Lion King taught me many lessons about life and death, the importance of facing one’s past.

This movie didn’t just entertain me; it also shaped me.

Most people see The Lion King as just a cartoon for kids, I view it as a work of art, showcasing the beauty of animation, music, and storytelling. Beyond the visuals, the story behind its creation is a testament to the power of passion, dedication, and hard work.

Initially, many at Disney underestimated the film, doubting its potential. Many top animators chose to work on Pocahontas, believing it would be superior. The Lion King was crafted by junior animators who believed in the project, and despite the, it became a beloved classic.

It remains a timeless movie that I will always cherish, not just for its beautiful animation and music, but for the profound impact it has had on my life.

The Lion King taught me that it's okay for things to change and to grow older. It showed me that ignoring your past will only hurt you in the long run and that it's better to address and learn from it rather than pretend it didn't happen.

Ultimately , The Lion King is about finding one's place in the world, something I'm still working on.

It's been an absolute pleasure to grow up alongside this beautiful movie.

[zenkindoflove]

You already know half the story from when I rediscovered your beautiful work haha, but I'm almost certain my first Elucien fics on ao3 were yours. I remember stumbling upon I Think I Saw You In My Sleep and I loved it so much it haunted me... how attentive he was with Elain and how troubled not to take advantage of her UGH. And I'm pretty sure "I like to take my time" remains my favourite quote and something I look for in a future partner lmao. It altered my brain chemistry and I'm a different person entirely.

Then hit by an imense thirst for Elucien, I immediately jumped on Our Hearts Still Beat the Same and you managed to make me love Lucien more than I have in the books. You opened my eyes lmao. How you captured their awkwardness, vulnerability and 👏🏻tension👏🏻 sjxjsjsjss it made me feel so much Idek how to express it, so take this letter soup lol. I'm obsessed with the begining part in a story where the characters are reluctant or shy around eachother, still getting to know one another and I can't seem to find that exact feeling you gave me in other fanfics, which forces me to read yours again (not that I'm complaining), but I'm addicted and think the world needs more of that. Anyway, your writing style was exactly to my taste and what I was looking for!🩷

Omg you're so sweet 🤩🥰💖

When you left me those comments a few weeks ago and told me you had lost those fics and then found them again, it truly tickled me. Especially since we had been chatting on Tumblr for a bit 😂.

I really love those two fics. I wrote them after I took a little break from Burn Forever with Me to try my hand at some one-shots (even though they're still pretty long lol). I was listening to La Dispute's album "Somewhere at the Bottom of the River Between Vega and Altair" and the first and last songs on the album gave me ideas for both fics and they are named after lyrics in the songs that inspired them. So, I wrote them as sort of sister fics as they are sister songs. They are distinct stories of how Elucien might get together, but they're tied together by that feeling you describe - the newness of that early awkward, shy tension when a relationship just starts - both exploring the idea of how the bond and outside forces bring Elain and Lucien into a situation where they have to address the tension between them. I Think I Saw You in my Sleep is a little angstier/reluctant lovers trope and Our Hearts Still Beat the Same is cozier and more curious - which matches the vibes of the songs.

You're always so sweet and supportive! This ask really made my day 💕.

What fics brought you to my blog?

[hauntedandmurdered]

Clannibal

"Can't stop thinking about you"

A/N: PART 2! Make sure to read part 1 first to avoid confusion. Watch out, this is nsfw. Since Tumblr won't let me upload the entire Oneshot due to a word limit, I've added a link to ao3. Scroll down!

Read the preview here:

Before Clarice could even make a reply to submit to the purgatory in his glowing red eyes, the doorbell rang at her front door. They exchanged an alarmed glance.

"Are you expecting visitors, Clarice?" he asked with a hint of scorn in his voice, as if it seemed absurd to him that Starling had any other contacts. He wasn't entirely wrong in his assessment, but she wasn't going to begrudge him this triumph. Nevertheless, she hadn't the faintest idea who was standing outside the door waiting.

"It’s up to you, Dr. Lecter," Starling told him, walking backwards without taking her eyes off him. "Either you disappear once and for all, or you hide and we continue our conversation later. You decide.“

Then she turned on her heel, left the devil in disguise in her living room and took a deep breath before opening the door a small crack. She fervently hoped it was just the letter carrier who occasionally stopped by for small talk.

The face that literally beamed at her on the other side of the threshold belonged to none other than Paul Krendler.

"Hello, Starling. Nice to see you again," he greeted her in his whining voice. His eyes flashed.

"I can't say that back," Starling said curtly and was about to let the door fall back into the lock when he slid his foot between the door and the door frame.

"Hold on, that's very rude of you, Starling. Is this how you usually treat your guests? Then it's no surprise why you so rarely get visitors." Despite his words, he still wore the hideous grin on his face that disgusted Starling so much. "I just wanted to bring you a few things that you seem to have forgotten in your desk. The FBI can't do anything with your private property, you know. Here, last week's newspaper, a nail file, and - my personal favourite - your pack of condoms. For the sake of curiosity, may I ask when and with whom these were used during your professional career?"

Starling's gaze wandered from the box of contraceptives back to Krendler, who let out a hollow laugh. She wished he would choke on it here and now on her porch.

"Shall I tell you something, Krendler? You're a pathetic son of a bitch. Go home and jerk off there if you have to. If you bother me again, however, I'll press charges against you. Got me?"

"Don't be so hasty, Starling. I thought you might like to use up the remaining condoms in a quick fuck. We don't have to let the rubbers expire, it would be a shame if we did. We can do it in your kitchen. I was thinking of the kitchen counter in particular. Do you like it hard, Starling? I think you're one of those pussies who wants to be fucked hard."

As if to emphasise his words, he opened the packaging and grabbed his crotch. A sickening smile flitted across his lips before he drew in a sharp breath and held out the hand he had just touched himself with towards Starling.

With a well-aimed kick to his shoe, Starling banished him from the open doorway. "Maybe next time. Fuck off."

Then she pulled the door shut just a hair's breadth from his face and tried to swallow what she had just experienced. Not only had Krendler humiliated her in front of all her colleagues and put her in a bad light, but now he was turning up on her doorstep to harass her. How long was that damned bastard going to play this game? For a moment she had toyed with the idea of blowing the whistle on his short visit to the FBI. But then it occurred to her that the very people who had overthrown her were there. She tussled her hair and tried to push the repulsive image of Krendler's face out of her mind.

"Clarice," she heard a silky voice near her, fogging her mind like radioactive rays to which one was defencelessly exposed. When she turned around, Dr Lecter stood right behind her. His face mirrored the same anger that was depicted on her fine, subtle features.

“You overheard the conversation, didn’t you?”, Starling confronted him right away. He nodded.

“I can guarantee you that after today he would be better off always looking behind him. I'll do it for you, Clarice. With or without your consent.” There was something obscure in his voice that sent a shiver down her spine. His eyes darkened and white dots, almost like a universe of fading stars, danced in the burgundy red of his irises. In a way he looked threatening, but the danger was not directed at her.

[ilovecowpoke]

everything is cold.

tw; loss, grief, overdose, suicide, possibly unrealistic.

angst, hurt no comfort. honestly, sorry for this luvs </3

I walk into my house, there is no second person. There's no one to greet me at the door, no one who welcomes me. Everything is cold.

I direct myself to the kitchen and open the fridge. In a small tin box are month old leftovers from before the deployment. A small note is taped to the lid. 'Saved you your favourite - dein Lieber, König.' Everything is cold.

A silent tear falls down my cheek. I enter my bedroom, the very same one I used to share with the person I loved the most. I slide under the covers, his scent still remains. Everything is cold.

I roll around restlessly til the faint strings of sun begin to break the horizon. I stare at the orange casing on my nightstand. And in a brief moments decision, I grab it and empty what it contains onto the palm of my hand. Everything is cold.

I let the pills drop onto my tongue, the bitter taste soon engulfing my taste buds. I swallow, feeling it all pass through my oesophagus. Soon enough, I begin to feel faint. Sweat begins to drip down my forehead. Weakly, I crawl towards my window to watch the sunrise. In my final moments, I could only sense one thing; Everything is cold.

(this is my first and possibly last post. tips on how to improve my writing are welcome, as english is my second language. <3 also excuse any formattint mistakes, this is my first time using tumblr to post if it hasnt been made obvious enough)

[idle-brit]

10 Fandoms, 10 characters, 10 tags

Thank you @baepsrae for tagging me!! ♡( ◡‿◡ )

This is everyone's preemptive warning to skip past if you don't want to read a long and rambling post, I'm about to go wild lol. I'll also include the 5 people (not 10 oops) I'm tagging here at the top so they don't have to scroll; I'm interested to hear your answers but obviously there's no pressure to do it (･ω･)b

@koscheiy, @breitzbachbea, @runmild, @toffeeanddragons, and @yatzuaka!

1. Loki (Marvel)

My poor little meow meow. My silly rabbit. My sweet darling babygirl. Picking 9 other characters was honestly hard because there's few I truly consider a favourite like Loki. Between his 2011-2013 appearances in the MCU, the comics, and the pre-Thor high-fantasy-novel-esque fics on AO3, the ideal version of this character lives in my head rent free, and has done since 2012. I picked this gif from The Avengers because it was the moment that made me want to see the film again just for his scenes, and it remains the only film I've seen in cinemas twice. He's quite literally the reason I got Tumblr, for The Avengers fanart, and my very first post was some (bad) fanart of my own haha. While the rest of this list is in no particular order, Loki is absolutely my number one, for all time, always. I could talk about him forever.

2. Evy Carnahan (The Mummy)

I had to choose the scene I got my blog title from. While Loki might be my favourite character, The Mummy is my favourite film. I think I saw it at the exact right time of life when I was a kid in my Ancient Egypt phase, but also far younger than the recommended viewing age the film suggests lol. Ever since then I've rewatched this and the sequel (yes, sequel, singular. I said what I said) more times than I can count and further developed my interest in actual Egyptology. Evy is intelligent and an academic, kindhearted, a little bit clumsy, but uses her knowledge and quick thinking to be an absolute badass and save the day multiple times. I've always wanted to be at least half as cool as her and also marry Rick O'Connell.

3. L (Death Note)

Everyone here is lucky that I got Tumblr after the height of my weeb phase that started in 2008. Death Note was the first manga I ever read and I expected to enjoy it and move on, but as soon as I got to the Lind. L. Taylor event in volume 2 my young mind was blown and I was obsessed. One scene of L outsmarting Light kept me reading manga, got me into anime, introduced me to fanart, was the first fanart I ever drew, introduced me to fanfiction, and years later I would take Japanese classes at uni. L is an amazing example of a morally grey character, wanting justice to prevail but perhaps not for the right reasons, and no matter what it takes to get there.

4. Leon S. Kennedy (Resident Evil 4 Remake)

Okay I'll admit Leon is the first babygirl on the list who is mainly here for aesthetic reasons. I had a passing knowledge of the Resident Evil franchise but never took an interest because military-gun-shooting-series are boring as hell... Until RE4R came out last year and I saw this scene in a playthrough. Where do I sign up for him to do this to my neck. Then I learned Leon's backstory and actually appreciated his character too. He hates and distrusts the US government, he was blackmailed into service for them at 21, he's haunted by being used as their weapon, and he's the most cringe fail man who thinks he's suave when he says "Nighty night, knights" as he's killing sentient suits of armour. I need him.

5. Astarion Ancunín (Baldur's Gate 3)

Ah, a non-human in a high fantasy world, using knife skills and sharp wit to protect himself from a deeply traumatic past, but still good at heart and willing to open up to those who appreciate him for who he is, rather than living up to someone else's standards. Now where have I seen a similar character type before... When the game came out it shouldn't have been a surprise who my favourite would be lol. The whole cast does an amazing job, but the real draw of Astarion is the phenomenal work put in by Neil Newborn to really bring this character to life, and I don't think Astarion would be the same without him.

6. Kagome Higurashi (Inuyasha)

Inuyasha is one of my all time favourite anime/manga. It's got time travel, a historic setting, magic, action and adventure, and romance between a human girl and a supernatural being who's down bad. Basically all of the tropes I adore and still look for in new favourite series haha. And Kagome has been That Bitch from the start; arriving in a village that fears a half dog-demon, freeing him from his imprisonment to help her, and then ordering him to sit when he pisses her off, knowing he's wearing a magic necklace that forces him to obey. No one is doing it like her.

7. Elizabeth Bennet (Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen)

Yes this is a basic bitch pick, I'm well aware. But no matter if it's the book by Jane Austen, the 1995 BBC production, or the 2005 film by Joe Wright, I love this story so much! There's just something so romantic about it that no modern romance book can capture, and that's not without my trying to find one (just follow my trail of 1 star ratings on Goodreads). Elizabeth and Mr Darcy just read as complete and real characters, and I love how much Elizabeth cares for her family, refusing Darcy's first proposal in part because he insulted them and tried to separate Jane from Mr Bingley.

8. Lin Sukai (The Drowning Empire Trilogy by Andrea Stewart)

Now we're getting into the realm of books without adaptations so I cant use gifs anymore, and I honestly couldn't find any fanart of Lin either. Which is a crime! My girl is out here being extremely intelligent and driven (and badass in some of the later scenes), using her familial magic as daughter of the Emperor to try and dismantle his tyranny despite craving his approval, and trying her best to gain allies even though she was raised within the walls of the palace and is slightly out of touch, and she doesn't have a fandom here on Tumblr? And that's only in book one of the trilogy!

9. FitzChivalry Farseer (The Realm of the Elderlings by Robin Hobb)

I haven't even finished The Realm of the Elderlings yet (16 thick ass books, nay, tomes) but I already know this is my favourite fantasy series of all time, and Robin Hobb is beyond doubt a master of her craft. One of her main talents is writing the ultimate poor little meow meow because good lord, Fitz just cannot catch a break no matter what he does or who he's trying to benefit. The pacing of these books can be quite slow but I promise it's always worth the emotionally devastating pay off. (It's also a tough call between Fitz and The Fool on who my favourite Hobb character is!)

10. Sancia Grado (The Founders Trilogy by Robert Jackson Bennett)

The final one is also my most recent addition to this list, seeing as I'm only just starting book two after finishing Foundryside late last year. While that shows how much I loved Sancia after just one book of her, I also hope the rest of the trilogy delivers! So often books will state characters are masters of their craft and just expect readers to take their word for it, but Sancia gets to show off her skills multiple times on page, so you get the impression she really exists and belongs in this world rather than just being a set piece for it. Not only that, she defies the usual lone-wolf-asshole stereotype that's so common in these gritty fantasy books, and it's heartwarming to see the found family she's gathered by the end of the story compared to where she began.

So uh, thank you all for coming to my TED talk about all my blorbos, see you later!

(￣▽￣)ノ

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hey, it’s been awhile since I last did this, but I decided to go for as returning to Tumblr felt like a bit of a small nostalgia trip for me, so why not get back to one of my favourite MHA fan writers for old times sake and beside, a lot has changed since last time so why not….

Well anyways, as for the idea I’m going with, I am thinking of going with a remake version of my first Match-Up of an My Hero Academia and Genshin Impact Match-Up, if that is cool with you?

Things That Remained The Same: Of course, my name is still Mason, my zodiac sign is still a Taurus, as well as I still consider myself as He/Him and Straight, along with me having dark brown hair and brown eyes. I also still consider myself as a full blown nerd towards the things I am interested in, although now I am a mix of being a Marvel and DC fan as of currently, I’m still a fan of My Hero Academia though I left the fan base altogether because “MHA Fanbase being MHA Fanbase,” currently I’m looking for different shows that could peak my interest (Such as Zom 100 and maybe RWBY, although that’s because of one RWBY character I like and ticked that the writers killed her off kinda got me into the whole “I like this character, now I’m obsessed,” that being Penny Polendina.) I still do Graphics Designing although I mostly post on Deviantart rather than Tumblr lately, I still have trust and communication with my autism although thankfully it isn’t as bad now of days, as I am a bit more confident with my social skills but mostly towards the people I considered as friends. As of currently, those are all the things I would say that mostly remained the same, as while I get curious with different series and all that, the basic tropes I have such as being a Nerd who loves to do Graphics Designing remained the same. (Oh, and I’m also still doing the best person I can be, though now there are times when I questioned about the goal, but I still follow it as I believed it’s the right thing to do.)

Things That Changed: Alright, now we are getting to the nitty gritty on the things I considered to be pretty changed, I retook the MBTI Personality quiz and I ended up getting a mix of ISFP and ESFP due to the “E” and “I” being 50/50, and while I consider myself more as a ESFP lately, it could depend on my mood depending on the day. I unfortunately shrink down to being a 6’2, I’m planning on trying to get back to doing Voice Acting though I am planning on getting my main PC fixed before I pick up the prices for the plan, while I’m using my laptop to do the graphics designing while I’m waiting til I get the computer fixed up, as well as taking a similar path to trying to get back to writing. I’ve also been watching a lot of Instagram Reels just for laughs, as well as opening a new Instagram account for my graphics designing uploads, as well as moving to a new Photo Editing engine with more features that helped improve on the way I work on my Profiles and Thumbnails. I am also currently doing a bit more hard work to lose some weight, as someone I know personally ended up getting health issues and I didn’t wanna become like him, so I’m trying to be more active and trying to eat a bit more healthy, though it’s hard since I’m someone who likes food in general. And lastly, I am actually planning on growing out my hair to bring out more style to it, with a hairstyle similar to Diluc’s ponytail from Genshin Impact being my go to style if I reach to my satisfied length and width.

Overall, I think that is all the info I have for this one, this might be my biggest info dump I have ever given, as there are some that remained the same along with new things added and somethings changing in my life. I hope you enjoy and remember that you’re always a beautiful on the inside and outside!

Hi Mason! It's good to hear form you again. Getting an updated mutchup is something I think more people should do. Thank you for your request! I hope you like your matchups!

In My Hero Academia, I match you with...

The first matchup change. Although Uraraka would still be a close second, I think Tsuyu would better match you now.

I see Tsuyu as someone who would be surprisingly good at voice acting. It’s not so much that she can do lots of really different voices but she’s passionate and really good at putting emotion into her voice.

Enjoys working out with you. She always finds it more enjoyable when she’s got someone with her. That way they can hype her up and she can hype them up.

Very supportive of your efforts in trying to be the best person you can. Whenever you have moments of doubt, she’ll listen to your worries and give you her honest opinion.

Tsuyu is a firm believer that everyone should be the best person they can be. And she’ll do whatever she can do to support you in that.

Absolutely has one of your graphic designs as her phone’s lock screen. She likes how it looks, as well as how it reminds her of you.

In Genshin Impact, I match you with...

Yes, both of your matchups have changed! Collei is pretty similar to Amber so there not a while lot of difference in your relationship.

The main change is that Collei is significantly more reserved than Amber. While she opens up around people she knows, she’s pretty quiet around those she doesn’t know well.

You can both work on your communication problems and social skills together.

Modern au Collei definitely watches anime. I can see her as a fan of classic shows like Sailor Moon but she would also be into newer shows like RWBY.

Sends you so many Instagram reels. She’s on there all the time and loves watching anything you send to her.

Really good at knowing dietary tips and tricks so Collei is definitely the person to go to for information about eating healthier. If she’s not sure about something, she’ll ask Tighnari, who is sure to know the exact benefits of almost any kind of plant or animal you could ask about.

[2009hondajazz]

Albums not released in 2024 that I listened to a lot this year, in a loose order of my favourites

Accompanied by a YouTube link to my favourite track from the album.

Index

Favourite 2024 Albums

Honourable mentions

Albums not released in 2024 that I listened to a lot this year

JIHYO, ZONE (2023) NAYEON, IM NAYEON (2022) Jeff Buckley, Grace (1994) TWICE, Between 1&2 (2022) Laufey, Bewitched (2023) Laufey, A Night At The Symphony (2023) Chappell Roan, The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess (2023)

Parting thoughts for the year

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JIHYO       ZONE (2023)

Jihyo doesn't get enough flowers for how good this EP is, I don't think. Still, the EP did chart well, sell well, and Jihyo has gone on record to say that she's proud of this album, and that she did exactly what she set out to do with it. She was involved in the music and lyrics for all 6 of the B-sides.

For me, it's an EP that is made more beautiful and special for Jihyo's involvement. It hits harder when I think about how Jihyo mentioned in an interview that after TWICE, she'll probably just retire and rest. God knows she deserves it. Though, I can't help but selfishly hope that she'll continue to release solo music after TWICE.

A couple weeks ago, I was going 35km/h on my bike, the wind in my hair, sun in my face, 'Killin' Me Good' in my ears, the vibes were so good that I didn't want to slow down, and, predictably, I ate absolute shit on the bike path. I thought I'd broken my bike, and was a minute away from having to call my dad, but I fixed the brakes and reattached the chain, headed home, still listening to Jihyo.

I almost subscribed to Jihyo's bubble just to tell her I crashed my bike at 35km/h to 'Killin' Me Good'. Good times.

NAYEON IM NAYEON (2022)

Where NA is the EP I listen to more, IM NAYEON is the EP that I think is more interesting sonically. In the year of 2022, what do you do with bubblegum pop to make it interesting again? You give it to TWICE's Im Nayeon.

In 2024, this album holds up, and is, I think, Nayeon's current magnum opus. Only she could have made this album sound the way it does; it's the exact concept that brings out and heightens her charm, vocal colour, dance style.

My favourite track is 'Sunset', because it is such a sweet and simple song, though what makes it really stand out to me is the drums that come in at the 1:02 minute mark, after Nayeon croons, 'In my dream I just gave you my star / I feel silly when I look into your eyes,' and then continues to play throughout the song. It's perfect. I remember that the first time I heard it was in a car, driving on the freeway. I remember which stretch of road I'd seen as those drums played. That's how much this song affected me

Jeff Buckley Grace (1994)

When I was in Hong Kong in February this year, I listened this record on a loop while I did The Peak walking trail. Now that I'm remembering, I did actually play this record throughout my entire 3-month trip throughout Asia from November, 2023, until February 2024. So I probably also did listen to it while I hiked up Inwangsan Mountain in Korea in December last year, which remains, by and large, one of my favourite memories of that trip. I’ve put on this album while cooking dinner, the opening notes of ‘Mojo Pin’ settling me where I needed to be. It’s a perfect opening song to induce someone into a trance. Can you tell I went through a major break-up this year.

TWICE Between 1&2 (2022)

This EP is home to TWICE’s best B-Side of all time, but you wouldn’t know it because it plays right after ‘Queen of Hearts’, and it shouldn’t.

While I've made peace with the track order of this mini now, ‘Basics’ is the song I overlooked on each of my listens when I checked out Between 1&2 way back when it released in 2022. It’s actually only when someone posted about ‘Basics’ on Tumblr this year that I gave the song a listen and went—holy shit. How did I miss this?

I scoured the track list and saw the problem. There it was. ‘Basics’ is track number 3, sandwiched between ‘Queen of Hearts' and ‘Trouble’, two just really big songs that would drown out whichever tracks precede and succeed them.

Anyway. I want 'Basics' blaring on full blast as my coffin gets lowered into the ground.

Laufey Bewitched (2023)

Thanking Fate for finally knocking me over the head and making me like Laufey after I'd been lukewarm to her initially.

Laufey A Night At The Symphony (2023)

I heard ‘Let You Break My Heart Again’ on Laufey’s Tiny Desk performance, I cried, and it unlocked her music for me.

Chappell Roan The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess (2023)

Can I admit that this is towards the bottom of the list because I've only ever given it one proper listen, and on each listen now, I switch it off after 'Casual'? I very sincerely do love the songs from the album that I love, namely, 'Femininomemon', 'Red Wine Supernova', 'Casual', 'HOT TO GO!', 'My Kink Is Karma', 'Pink Pony Club'.

As an album overall, I'm not convinced by the track ordering, and I don't know if Chappell Roan does ballads well (though, well, 'Casual' is pretty ballad-lite, no?). 'Coffee' is misstep in a sequence of otherwise solid of opening tracks. It's enough of a misstep that, for me, stamps the record with a question mark that wouldn't otherwise be there.

It's funny, I gave 'Casual' a listen when I saw someone I was following on Tumblr—who'd become a Chappell Roan fanblog, and I couldn't remember who they were originally, and they've since switched to a different URL and I've no idea which this blog is now—raving about it. This was right while Chappell's audience was still mainly made up of lesbians/queers, and right before she was catapulted into the mainstream. I could have been part of the early wave and say I liked her before she became mainstream-famous.

But I... I admittedly have a bit of a traditionalist streak, and was scandalised by the lyrics of 'Casual'. I am someone who prefers to listen to music I can sing to, and I was not about to start singing, 'Knee deep in the passenger seat and you're eating me out / Is it casual now?' as a stone butch. Well. Catch me screaming the lyrics during car rides now. Huge L for me on all sides.

Still, I think I'll probably change my mind about this album over time. I want the experience that this album offers. I just don't think my heart is open enough right now for it.

Ryan Adams Demolition (2002)

I received news that my friend's remains had been found earlier this year, after almost 3 years of him being missing. An avid music lover, his family and loved ones compiled a huge Spotify playlist of songs he'd loved, and one of them was 'Dear Chicago'.

It's funny. I put on the playlist as I made a long, late-night drive back home. I don't have Spotify premium, so I couldn't pick and choose the songs to play.

The song came to me at a perfect crossroad of mourning for my friend and mourning for a long-term relationship that had come to a really bad and bitter end. It almost feels like fate that it played on shuffle.

When Adams sings, 'I'm gonna die alone and sad,' I really—I mean, yeah, the lyrics really resonated with me. And the way he sings it. I kept writing these lyrics over and over in my diary entries. Because that was the way I really felt. And it was the way I hoped my friend didn't feel when he passed.

Never in my life did I think I'd give Ryan Adams' music a proper listen, let alone actually like any of his songs, let alone like an actual album enough to talk about it publicly, but here we are. I really considered just leaving it off the list entirely, but I genuinely, unfortunately, I do like Demolition, and unfortunately, I will keep listening to it. My impulse to present something of an authentic self won out. This blog is meant to be my music diary, after all.

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Did one

Sorry it’s really messy. Click read more for my ridiculously long explanations of each ship.

OTP

Ryuga x King

I’m the creator of this ship. I wrote an entire fanfiction dedicated to them after growing fond of the dynamic in my “Bey-Mong Us” story, I commissioned its first piece of fanart, it was the first ship that pushed me to draw humans in order to draw some additional fanart, and to this day, I still love it. It’s the only one that could be my OTP. I know there are more popular ships for both characters but the dynamic of happy go lucky fanboy King who’s completely unaware of Ryuga’s dark past, just seeing him as a cool guy/strong blader and a completely baffled but secretly very smitten/impressed Ryuga who can finally connect with someone who won’t judge his past/could even relate to him a bit remains my favourite dynamic.

Love

Gingka/Kyoya

My first Beyblade ship, this one dates all the way back to five years ago during my second ever viewing of the show. In fact, I think it was my first rivals to lovers ship ever. These two always just seemed more obsessed with one-upping each other than any of their other opponents, especially Kyoya. He’s obsessed with specifically beating Gingka, even though others have beaten him too, and it’s so easy to interpret that as a crush. They’re rivals but they’re friends too, coming through for each other when it does matter and I don’t know, I love that.

Benkei/Kyoya

Another ship from five years ago. This one’s pretty self-explanatory, I see this one a lot on Tumblr and I very much agree, it’s cute. Benkei is definitely more open about how much he cares about Kyoya but it’s made clear multiple times that it’s not one-sided, Kyoya’s just less expressive with caring for others. I ship it alongside GinKyo as a polyship.

Tsubasa/Madoka

Last of my five years ago ships. These two were the only ones on Team Gan Gan Galaxy that weren’t fighting over custody of a braincell and thus, were next to/with each other a lot and seemed pretty chill together. It seemed to me that within that team, they were each other’s closest companion. Plus, there’s also legit ship-teasing between these two that I enjoy, like Tsubasa bringing Madoka a fruit basket to apologise and Madoka blushing when Tsubasa compliments her. Cute stuff.

Tetsuya/Tobio/Ryutaro

This one didn’t quite stick out to me until I watched the Sol Blaze movie for the first time in 2020, where they have more interactions and are treated more like a trio. They don’t spend that much time together in canon but I imagine they can bond over the shared trauma they endured in the Dark Nebula. And on a sillier note, they would be the most chaotic polycule on the face of the earth.

Reiji/Jack

This one’s just hilarious. They have similarities with their backstories (they were both brainwashed/used by the Dark Nebula/Human Despair Academy respectively) and could legitimately bond but the main reason I love it is the absolute chaos and horrors they would cause. I’ve written them in some personal works and god are they extremely entertaining.

Teru/Jack

I could be wrong but I think I came up with this? At the very least I’ve never seen it before. I ship this for the complete opposite reason that I ship Reiji/Jack: fluff. They’re both artsy boys, Teru with dancing and Jack with painting. They’d be the most fabulous couple bonding over each other’s art and doing each other’s makeup/hair.

Julian/Daxiang

I just really really love their battle and the way their arcs overlapped and contrast and the way they grow from each other. Gah, it’s so good. I had it in like when I first started writing this but no, I’m putting it in love. The banter in that battle and way they grow from each other is just that damn good.

Like

Splitting this section into two more specific ones

Would/Could Love If ____

Reiji/King

Oh, I’m gonna get in trouble for this. Let me explain: they were friends in Ryuga x King. King cluelessly runs into and befriends former villains all the time because that’s a funny dynamic to me. King looking at a semi-redeemed Reiji and thinking “aww cute shy boy who likes snakes” was funny to me. The only reason it’s in like and not love is because it gets overshadowed by other ships.

Masamune/Chris

This one I would probably ship more if I’d gone through with writing it way back when, but I was so burned out/unmotivated that it never came to fruition. As it stands though, I still like the idea. Someone needs to bring Masamune down a peg and he’d also annoy the hell out of Chris, which is funny to me. I don’t take Beyblade shipping that seriously. Some ships I just like cuz they’re funny.

Julian/King

The two bis with bi beys. If I remember correctly, Julian even based his bey on the Beyblade that later became King’s so Julian looking up to him for that and King looking up to him for being a strong blader as he does with everyone with the two of them still being competitve would be really cute. I would love to see this dynamic, even just platonically. Someone please. Please make it.

Chris/Kyoya

Always really liked the idea of this one: Chris is a really underrated character that I relate to a lot and I’d love to see what a dynamic between him and Kyoya would be. I’ve just... never seen it in writing or written it myself. I’d probably love it if I had, Kyoya is absolutely insane and everyman Chris would lose his mind over some of this shit this guy pulls.

Teru/Reiji

Honestly, in my private self insert writing, I introduced Teru and established Teru/Jack alongside established Reiji/Jack with the plan of making it a throupple I just... never did. Even though shy introvert Reiji and confident but chill extrovert Teru is a fun dynamic idea and they have... a single PMV from like a decade ago that I can’t even find anymore but it was good. Trust me it existed, it’s how I first heard the song Spellbound by Lacuna Coil. Anyway, the ship’s good, as is them with Jack as a polyship.

Chris/Jack

I had never thought of this ship before today, I think I either saw a post or randomly connected them on this graph and thought “huh, that might be cute.” Honestly, any Chris ship that has the dynamic of “Chris is a dude, his partner is insane” is great. We need more Chris shipping in this fandom, he’s one of the only normal people in this batch of psychos.

Tetsuya/Selen

This is just funny to me. They’re both scummy cheaters who live in a garbage can, they should team up and cheat their way through an entire tag team tournament. Love the concept, have yet to see it in action though. If I did, I might love it.

Just Like (aka “Like” cont.)

Gingka/Benkei

This is basically me turning the GinKyoBen vee into a throupple by shipping them all with each other. It’s mainly just an idea in my head though as I’m not as attached to the Gingka/Benkei dynamic as their dynamics with Kyoya. Still, they are good friends and I do like the idea.

Tsubasa/Reiji

I’ve never read the manga, but I see these two paired a lot on Tumblr, often with Yu as a little brother figure, so it ended up catching on in my own writing. I enjoy the idea of Tsubasa/Reiji romantically but have only ever written it platonically myself.

Masamune/King

Honestly, this ship is just... not really my thing. The fanart of it is cute enough for me to say I like it but I generally prefer “opposites attract” narratives so shipping wise, these two are way too similar for my tastes. Plus, they argue A LOT, which while entertaining, sounds a bit dysfunctional in a romantic context.

Kyoya/Nile

Again, they’re kinda just too similar for me, though I will say I prefer this ship to MasaKing as they are more different than those two. What drives Kyoya and Nile is similar so they can relate and feel comfortable around each other but Nile is clearly more level-headed than Kyoya, which leads to some funny scenes.

Toby/Zeo

These two seem closer to each other than either of them are with Masamune. That’s not Masamune slander, that’s just how I interpreted it and that, along with them often battling as a team in Fury, does make this ship appeal to me.

Hikaru/Madoka

Honestly I could just never fully settle on a Hikaru ship. I always headcanoned her as a lesbian but never passionately shipped her with any particular girl. This one has cute fanart/fanfic though so I like it.

Madoka/Mei Mei

This one I only saw pop up recently so I’m guessing it’s a new ship. Could be wrong about that but my only basis for it so far is someone on Tumblr pointing out Madoka blushing while spying on Mei Mei, which I never noticed before and thought was funny enough to mention this ship in the like category.

Team Excalibur Polycule (Julian/Sophie/Wales/Klaus)

I have no preference for who is shipped with who within Team Excalibur. They’re all super loyal to each other, Julian is a chaotic bi with a bi bey, why not make him a poly mess too?

Gingka/Hyoma

I agree that Hyoma being jealous as heck when he first learns of Gingka and Kyoya’s rivalry is really funny. I also agree Hyoma is gay as heck. Every time I see this ship, I nod in agreement. I’ve just invested all my “Gingka in a rivals to lovers dynamic” love in GinKyo for five years now and I don’t see that changing.

Gingka/Ryuga

Same thing here. I can totally buy Ryuga having very repressed feelings for Gingka during Masters and maybe Fury too and I always like seeing it. It’s a fun idea and I like the fanart.

Ryutaro/Teru

Okay, normal good boy Teru getting roped into the DSS polycule from hell in any capacity is just a hilarious idea. The only reason I bring up this pairing specifically is because they are both hecking fabulous. It’s not as good as Jack/Teru, because Jack is way more of a disaster, but it’s still fun.

Nile/Demure

Get these two some relaxation pills or something, their heart rates must be out of control after spending so much time around Kyoya.

Okay

(I don’t particularly like these but I don’t mind seeing them)

Madoka/Yuki

I kinda considered this ship during Fury since they’re the more analytical level-headed ones of the group (and Madoka has a type for smart people) but they don’t have nearly as much chemistry or moments as TsuMado, which I was already attached to.

Madoka/Gingka

This feels very much like an obligatory lead boy/lead girl shounen anime pairing and by those standards... it’s better than like half of the Yugioh ships of that category, right around the “I have no interest in this pairing whatsoever but I care so little it wouldn’t bother me if it was confirmed” territory.

Ryuga/Hyoma

I think this is a newer ship honestly? It’s new to me and it didn’t particularly interest me but eh, maybe give it time and I’ll warm up to this one. I certainly don’t have anything against it.

Sora/Masamune

I don’t really like either of these characters. I’ve softened on Masamune on rewatches but Sora is just such a pointless and honestly irritating character so this dynamic doesn’t appeal to me but I get where it comes from.

Ryuga/Helios

I also totally get where this one comes from and I really enjoyed writing their battle in L-Drago’s Return. Admittedly though, I’ve only seen the movie once and am really hazy on Helios as a result so I’m not really sure who he’d have the best dynamic with. My gut says it’s not Ryuga though, they seem a little too similar.

Masamune/Lera

These two would’ve been great rivals in battle if that dynamic had only been allowed to exist. Really, the whole Russian team arc was wasted potential but that’s besides the point. I bring it up mainly to say that if Masamune vs Lera had happened, it might be a fairly popular ship and I’d... have to see it in action to know if I’d be one of those shippers.

Aleksei/Madoka

I don’t ship it, but god do I find it hilarious that after spending so much time with Gan Gan Galaxy, Madoka got a crush on the first person she saw that had actual brain cells. I’m in this weird position where I very don’t ship this but their ship tease scenes are hilarious: the best parts of that episode for sure. I guess I accept it as a sort of precursor to Madoka’s less canon but still implied in my mind crush on Tsubasa. It’s evidence to me that she has a type for smart people if that makes sense.

Any of the Russian team with each other

I’m not particularly invested in any of these ships or any of these characters, besides Lera, so I don’t really have a preference for which of them are shipped together.

Aguma/Bao

This one could go in like. They don’t have a particularly interesting dynamic, they’re just together a lot and I do like Aguma’s story. Bao meanwhile is... kinda just eye candy? Really cool design but after the reveal of Aguma being the legendary blader, he doesn’t do much but support him. So I guess I’d say I like the ship, it’s just not very interesting.

Aguma/Dynamis

I never really considered this and their interactions in canon don’t really sway me one way or another. It’s another ship I’d have to see in action to decide whether I like it or not.

Kyoya/Hyoma

Both of them are more interesting with Gingka than each other.

Chao Xin/Mei Mei

They have the funniest dynamic in team Wang Fu Zhong (however the hell that’s spelled) and I do remember them teaming more than once so it’s safe to say they get along. Problem is I don’t like Chao Xin. :P

Chao Xin/Daxiang

Same thing, though these two don’t interact as much outside of Daxiang telling Chao Xin to get back to work. Basically.

Daxiang/Mei Mei

They’re fine, I just prefer Daxiang with Julian and never gave this ship much thought.

Platonic Only

(Not depicted in my visual, because it’s messy enough, but these are ships I cannot in any way get behind romantically but love platonically)

Ryuga & Madoka

They are friends in my Ryuga series, and I like that friendship a lot. It’s like TsuMado minus any ship tease, they are chill around each other and know Beyblade mechanics. I cannot feasibly see it as romantic because Ryuga is gay and there would be a huge power imbalance that would be really uncomfortable. Yeah, I know you can say the same thing about TsuMado but that ship never gave me the ick because it’s Tsubasa.

Kyoya & Madoka

Same thing, though I’m not nearly as attached to them platonically and it wouldn’t be as bad as the above, but it would still be pretty bad.

Hikaru & Tsubasa

These two both being equally tired of Ryo’s shit and doing things to spite him is a hilarious dynamic that I wish canon had given us considering the fact that they are coworkers, something canon never really capitalised on. Still, I can only see this as platonic since Hikaru in my mind likes women.

Guilty Pleasure

Reiji/Hyoma

Yet another take I’m gonna get killed for. Listen, this ship appeals to me for one reason: I know what it’s like to have romantic feelings for someone who traumatised me. Because... well... *gestures to Reiji* This ship is admittedly me projecting. A way of coping I guess.

making this has been in the back of my mind for ages lmao

woe be upon ye, free to use

here r a few of mine eecks dee

[qqueenofhades]

One of my favourite Sandman lore pieces I absorbed via tumblr is how, when Dream is having great sex, all the dreamers get to have glorious lustful dreams. Dream really is getting laid and making it everybody else's problem. Magnificent.

Dr. Robert Gadling is whistling an extremely cheery tune as he unlocks his office door -- which, if you had had the night he did, you would be whistling too, or possibly even clicking your heels like a demented leprechaun and wishing top o' the morning to everyone who passed. He's not doing that, but he's definitely feeling extremely good, and he sails inside, pulls up the blinds, boots up his computer, and prepares to answer some emails while he waits to see if anyone's actually going to come to office hours. It's always hit or miss, and then four days later they send a panicked question at midnight that they could have just, you know, asked. In person, in a timely fashion, when he definitely will not bite. He will never understand undergraduates.

Hob keeps the door propped open as usual, thus to project a warm and welcoming attitude, and after he's trudged through the first tranche of emails, he glances up to see one of his students loitering in the hall as if she's about to come in -- then, catching sight of him, turning scarlet and racing off at top speed. This is bewildering, since she's usually among the more talkative of the bunch, but Hob writes it off. At least until he sees several more students hovering in the hallway, who all vamoose the instant he sticks his head out to see if they need anything. This is decidedly peculiar, and he sighs deeply, grabs his mug, and heads down the hall to the faculty lounge, thus to raid it for a cup of coffee. Even more emails (and oh joy, expense reports) await, and he could use the fortification.

When he steps inside, his colleagues Bryan (Economics and Politics in Modern Germany) and Amita (Women, Caste, and Religious Practice in Precolonial India) both immediately turn bright red, clear their throats, and engage in a slightly too-loud conversation about the weather (which, given as this is London, is exactly what you think it is). Hob eyes them curiously, since while bizarre behavior is understandable from students, it is somewhat less so from lecturers. "Hey, guys," he says. "Anything up?"

"Er." Bryan is staring fixedly at the floor, while Amita has become unaccountably fascinated by the raindrops rolling down the window. "Nope. No. Everything normal, Rob. Entirely usual."

"Right," Hob says slowly, having the feeling of a man who has walked into a cave and found something large and furry that he should try not to disturb. "That's just me going, then. If I could sneak past you for the coffee pot, that'd be great -- "

He pours himself some coffee, departs in haste, and almost bowls over Philippa, Head of Department, in the hallway outside. They spring backward like a pair of opposing magnets, he manages to avoid dousing her in boiling hot coffee, and as he apologizes, notices that she is likewise determinedly not looking him in the eye and addressing a spot in midair over his head as she insists that it's fine. What the actual hell. Has everyone in Goldsmiths lost their bloody minds?

The insanely weird character of Hob's day, and the fact that even the clerk at Superdrug seems to cough unaccountably while ringing him up, remains a mystery until he gets home, finds an eager Dream Lord waiting for him already, and they get extremely distracted even before Hob can make dinner. Afterward, as they're lying half-clothed and decadent on the bed, Hob murmurs, "Well, glad you at least can stand to look at me, love. Had a very odd time of it today."

Dream's expression assumes a furtive, guilty quality. He rolls onto his back, head still pillowed luxuriantly on Hob's stomach, and stares up at the ceiling. "Ah," he says, after a very long pause. "About that."

(Two minutes of a deeply humiliating explanation later, Hob screeches, "YOU BLOODY DID WHAT?" Dream apologizes profusely and promises not to do it again. Hob does, of course, have classes and commitments for the rest of the semester, but hopefully it's not too late to change his name, once more fake his death, and move to Australia. Except, of course, they dreamed of him there too. Horrible.)

[sailxrmxrs]

hello i have blooming panic brainrot and this is the only way i could get some of my thoughts n feelings out of my head. do i have other things i should be working on? yes. is that going to stop me from writing this? absolutely not ignore ur responsibilities kids it's fun. i also wrote this with my cat cuddled next to me so i'm blessing ur day with cat love. also i haven't written fanfics on tumblr in a hot minute pls be nice to me i am fragile x

Mornings with Quest were usually too fast-paced to truly appreciate the moment with one another, responsibilities and office jobs looming on the horizon as you moved in sync. It was a dance of two bodies rushing about the kitchen, coffee poured and toast prepared for a quick meal before rushing out the door to drive for a day or working away at a desk. There was comfort in the routine, the companionship of sharing lives with another so closely. But there was no stopping the yearning for a momentary pause to real life, a chance to stop and truly savour the morning hours with someone you cared for so deeply.

But, after the long stretch of the working week passed, a blessing in the form of a weekend transcended upon the both of you. Alarms were abandoned, even staying up an hour or two later to truly make the most of the oncoming freedom. Then, as the sun began to rise, casting its golden rays and illuminating the world beneath it, you and Quest remained fast asleep, tangled in each other's embrace. A small gap in the curtain had light spilling into the room, painting the room in an orange haze as the sky slowly transformed from its inky midnight shades into a myriad of oranges and pinks, the slight tinge of darkness still lingering behind apartment buildings as the world slowly awoke.

Weekend mornings like this felt as though someone had managed to slow the clock, the world coming to a slow pace as you remained tucked under the warmth of copious blankets in Quest's embrace. His large build made you feel safe, at home, as though nothing and no one could come between the love that had blossomed from the moment you laid eyes on each other. It had taken you by surprise just how naturally everything came after meeting for the first time. There had been an underlying nervousness that maybe things wouldn't have worked after meeting each other. What if you looked different than through your discord calls? What if you couldn't talk for hours like you had for so many nights in the server? But the moment you heard those familiar dulcet tones calling after you, eyes meeting his, it had been instantaneous. The gentle care with which Quest gazed at you, held onto your hand, offered to carry your things. Then there was the way he'd made you laugh so effortlessly. Even as conversation abated and the two of you walked hand-in-hand down the city streets, it was never awkward. Silences felt cosy and comfortable. He was just so easy to be with. It often made you wonder how you'd ever thought your past relationships had been worth the time, when Quest looked at you as though you held the stars in your eyes and galaxies in your smiles.

Even in the haze of morning, as you opened your eyes to a bleary-eyed Quest, his smile was soft and gentle, filled to the brim with adoration. A hand would caress your cheek, pulling you out of your dream-filled slumber to the reality of the mid-morning hours. Quest's voice was the first you heard each morning, low and husky with the lingering tiredness that coated the sound. But that freshly awoken tone, lightly painted with a faint rasp was your favourite sound. It was home. He was home. And as the two of you lay there, the morning slowly passing by, all either of you could think of is how lucky you were to have this moment. This shared life with another being, souls bared to one another in the quiet morning light, only the far off sounds of birds chirping and cars passing by on the streets down below distantly sounding acting as the soundtrack to your morning.

Then once you've both fully awoken, relishing in the warmth of one another, your movements are synchronised as you change into comfortable clothes—uniform for a day in the apartment, no intentions of leaving or seeing anyone besides each other. You'd earned it, after all. Earned a day spent in each other's company. Perhaps you'd log in to the server to say hi but ultimately this was a day for you and Quest to catch up on missed activities together thanks to the demand of work. Quest unlocks his phone, connecting to the bluetooth speaker as he pulls up your shared playlist, full of songs that you both love, songs you overheard on dates, songs that reminded you of each other. It was the soundtrack to your happiest moments, your most intimate moments. And as you collected the ingredients for some pancakes, Quest would start singing along as he slice some fruits, poured juice, brewed a coffee or tea of choice. You'd join in, softly singing along so you could still listen to him. Then as you pick up the whisk from the counter, ready to mix the batter, a hand slides onto your waist, the other coming to your free hand as Quest continues to serenade you. He twirls you around the kitchen, breakfast momentarily forgotten. Your laughs filter into the music and singing, pure unadulterated joy as you chide Quest for his wandering hand. But it's times like this that you are glad you clicked on that link all that time ago, entering a completely unknown server only to meet the closest thing to a soulmate you'd find in this world.

And little did you know, Quest thought the exact same of you. He had never expected something like this could come from that server. Could happen to him after all that he had been through and seen. For so long he believed himself irredeemable of his past. Had come so close to writing off love and relationships and everything else that came with it. Who could love someone with a past like his? But you did. You saw him for all that he was—the good, the bad, and the pain that resided there. And you loved him. Truly, truly loved him. He looked into the depths of your eyes and saw a future. A shared future of eternal companionship. One that he still didn't entirely believe he deserved, but god was he going to appreciate it for the rest of his life.

[m00nchild-02]

Daisies | jjk (m)

pairing: jungkook x reader

rating: 18+

word count: 7.2k

genre: strangers to lovers, flower boy au, smut, fluff

summary: As a college student desperately looking for a part time job to earn some money you bump into the opportunity to work at a cute little flower shop nearby. Never did you ever think you would fall in love with the owner’s handsome son, Jeon Jungkook.

warnings: smut, oral sex (f receiving), teasing, praising, dirty talk, penetrative sex (Never forget to wrap that willy first before using it kiddos), fingering, very soft dom Jungkook (He’s a real gentleman in this story :’))

a/n: Hello, hello! This is your favourite autor here! This is my first story on Tumblr here (I’ve made stories on Wattpad before so I’m familiar with writing ffs) I hope you love my first jjk one shot on here and give it a lot of support.

enjoy reading!

masterlist

“Please Mrs Oh! I really need this job. If you want I can even come work at Sunday’s and Saturday’s!” You pleaded the woman in front of you, hoping she would give you another chance. After looking for a job for a good two months you finally found one at a local cafe but today it seems like you really fucked up.

“I’m sorry y/n but it has already been the 5th glass these past weeks and the second plate you’ve dropped just now. I know you’re a nice girl and have good intentions but a job as waitress just doesn't seem to fit you.” She explained to you. You sighed and looked down. She’s right. You’re not one of the handiest and you have dropped some stuff on the ground before. Maybe a job as waitress indeed didn't fit you that well. You took off your apron and gave it to Mrs Oh. “Sorry for the glasses and the plates..” You said softly, taking your defeat.

“I’ll pay you at the end of the week and I’ll give you some extra so you'll be able pay your rent this month.” You nodded. “Thank you, Mrs Oh.” You said as you bow at the older lady. “I hope you find another job soon.” She said.

You nodded and smiled at her before you walked towards the entrance of the cafe. “Me too Mrs Oh. Me too...”

And just like 3 weeks ago you started looking for a job again. You really needed a part time job. Your parents promised to pay your first year of rent when you went to college but you both agreed you would pay rent the remaining years following after. You had been in college for already two years, your third year starting next month. The first year you had to pay your own rent went very well. Your mom helped you to find a decent and well paid job at a bakery. But sadly the bakery went bankrupt two months ago so that’s why you were in desperate need of finding a new job. Then you found the sweet lady Mrs Oh but again you had to get fired. Not this time because of a bankruptcy but because you’re too clumsy when it comes to fragile stuff.

A week passed by and you still had nothing. You went to local stores, supermarkets, bakeries, butcheries, ... But no one seemed to need a part timer at the moment.

As you were making your way through the streets you decided to go take a break from searching and go for a drink at the old cafe you still worked at a week ago.

“If it isn’t our y/n!” Mrs Oh said as she walked over towards your table. “How are you girl? Already found something new?” She asked. You shook your head. “Not yet, but I’m looking.” You answered. “Aigoo,” She said. “I hope you’ll find something soon. You’re such a sweet girl. Now, what can I get you?”

“A latte, please.” You answered her. “A latte coming right up!” She said before disappearing to get some other orders and then go make your drink.

After a few minutes she came back with your drink. “Here you go sweetie.”  She said as she placed the hot latte in front of you. “Thank you.” She didn’t go away when you thanked her. Instead she went to sit down opposite you. “I would like to help you y/n. I know you’ve only worked here for two/three weeks but you’re a good person and you deserve to be helped.” She said. Then she took out a card and slide it over the table towards you. “Jeon’s Greenhouse..” You read aloud. “A flower shop?” You asked her. She nodded. “I know the owner, Mrs Jeon. She’s a nice woman but lately she get’s a lot of requests for bouquets and other stuff. I’m sure she could use some help. Maybe you could go check there?”

You looked at the card in your hands, nervously fiddling with the edges. A flower shop. It didn’t sound that bad. And from looking at the address it’s also pretty close to where you live. Maybe you could give it a shot yeah. “Thank you so much Mrs Oh. I’ll never forget your kindness.” You said as she smiled at you. “You’re welcome sweetie.” She said as she stood up and went back to work.

Once you finished your latte you wanted to pay but Mrs Oh refused to take your money, saying it’s on the house. You thanked her again for everything before going back home to your apartment. Once there you took the little card out of your pocket and looked at it again. There was also a phone number and email written on the back. “I’ll call tomorrow and see how it goes.” You told yourself. Today had been a long day and you sure needed some rest after looking for a job all day.

The next day you found yourself in front of the cute little flower shop. Jeon’s Greenhouse. You called the owner this morning and like Mrs Oh said, she was a really nice woman. She invited you over immediately after talking a bit on the phone, wanting to meet you in person. And so you ended up here in front of her flower shop.

You walked in, a little bell ringing as you opened the door. You walked passed the many flowers and bouquets before ending up at the counter of the shop. A few daisies put in a vase next to the till. You softy brushed your fingertips over the small flowers. “They’re beautiful aren't they?” You looked up as a voice spoke. A middle aged woman standing in the doorway behind the counter, giving you a sweet smile. You smiled back at her. “Yes, they are.”

“In a few weeks they’ll be everywhere in the fields on the country side. It’s beautiful to go watch and take some pictures there.” She said as she walked closer. “You must be y/n, right?” She asked. You nodded. “Nice to meet you y/n. My name is Mrs Jeon but feel free to call me whatever you want. Eomma, Ahjuma, ...” She said, shaking your hand. “It’s nice to meet you too Mrs Jeon.” You answered.

“So, I heard from Mrs Oh you’re looking for a part time job?” She asked. You nodded. “I am. I worked for Mrs Oh before at the cafe but the job didn’t really fit me.” You said thinking back at your little failures there. Mrs Jeon nodded. “I see.. Well flowers should be no problem. Can’t break that easy if you drop them.” She said, giving you a playful wink. “Just watch out with the pots then.” You laughed. “I will.”

“So, when will you be able to start?” She suddenly asked. “S-Start? Like in, I got the job?!” You asked surprised. She nodded, smiling brightly. “I can't see why not. I could really use some extra pair of hands here and you need the money so why not? And as far as I’ve seen and heard you’re a nice girl. I would love for you to work here.” She said. You smiled and went in for a hug. “Oh, thank you Mrs Jeon! Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you so much!” You said. The woman laughing while hugging you back. “Haha, you’re welcome my child. Anything to help a girl in need.”

“Now, I’ll need you on Mondays, Thursdays and Friday, if that’s alright?” She asked and you nodded. “And btw, do you know anything about flowers?” She asked. “Not really..” You answered as you nervously rubbed the back of your neck. “But I’m always willing to learn.” You said, hoping she wouldn't change her mind of hiring you just because your lack of knowledge about flowers.

“Good,” She said. “Tomorrow is Friday. You can start then if you want. My son will be here too. He always helps me out and Fridays and sometimes also in the weekend. You should meet him and he can also learn you a bit about the flowers here in the shop.” She said. You nodded, listening to everything Mrs Jeon had to say. She told you already a bit about the shop and the flowers and what kind of work you will be doing and about her son.

His name is Jungkook and he is 2 years older then you. Mrs Jeon wouldn't be at the shop tomorrow so her son will be giving you tasks and the knowledge about flowers that you need to know. He’ll also help you fill in the papers for the job, she said.

After a long but nice talk with Mrs Jeon it was finally time for you to go back home to get some rest so you would be fresh and well for your first day at your new job. You were already looking forward to it.

The next morning, just like promised, you walked into the flower shop. Ready to start your first day. You looked at the many beautiful flowers, standing still in front of the roses. They looked so good. Mrs Jeon must take really good care of all these, you thought. You walked a bit further and took a flower out of a water pot, smelling it. “They smell good don’t they?” You quickly turned around as the unknown voice spoke. You looked at the man in front of you with big eyes, the flower clamped between your fingers. The man laughed. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.” He said softly. “My name is Jungkook. I’m Mrs Jeon’s son.” He said afterwards, making you feel a bit at ease again.

So this was Jungkook. He was pretty handsome for his age, you must admit. Dark brown wavy hair, matching brown eyes. He was slightly bigger then you. He was wearing a white shirt, black pants and a grey apron with leather brown straps. The sleeves of his shirt were rolled up exposing his strong arms. He must have been working out to get all those muscles.

You looked back at his face and he gave you a sweet smile. “You must be y/n right?” He asked and you nodded. “Y-yeah, I am.” You answered. His smile widened more at your answer. He had such a beautiful smile. It gave you a warm and welcoming feeling. Just like with his mother. “My mom told me your knowledge about flowers is still lagging a bit. Let’s go fix that first and then you can go to work.” He said.”I’m looking forward to work with you y/n.” He said, smiling one more time before turning around and walking towards the back of the shop. He suddenly stopped and turned back around as he stood there in the door opening. “By the way,” He said. “that flower you’re holding right now is called a white jasmine. They have a really sweet alluring smell. You should smell them in the evening, then they smell the best.” He smiled. You put the flower back in his pot and then followed Jungkook towards the back of the shop. His smile making you smile too without you knowing. Behind the doorway there was a whole studio dedicated to making flower pieces, bouquets and so much more. Just like the front of the shop, this room was filled with flowers in pots.

“Do you like flowers y/n?” Jungkook suddenly asked. “I love plants.” You answered him. “I mean, flowers are nice. I don’t really got a special connection with them but it’s always nice to get some from the people you love and care about.” You told him.

He walked towards the flowers, stocked in water pots and then returned towards you. He gave you one flower. “Here” He said. You took the flower and looked at him confused. “Well- Thank you?” He chuckled at your response, thinking it was cute. “Every flower has its meaning. This one is a yellow rose. It’s a symbol of friendship. I hope we’ll work together well and become great friends y/n.” The boy said smiling. You smiled back at him at his sweet gesture. A yellow rose... No one has even given you roses before. It made you even blush a bit, only thinking about the thought of receiving one right now.

“Now,” Jungkook said, breaking your thoughts. “Let’s get to work shall we?” He asked and you nodded as he walked over towards the flowers, you following behind him. Today he learned you the names of a few flowers. He learned you what colours and smells fit the best together in a bouquet. You even made one together as an example. He also told you a bit about the history of the shop and about his family. To make the work a bit more fun.

He told you about the first part timer his mom hired one time and how bad he was at this. Always breaking the stems of the flowers or giving them too much water. He also told a bit about his youth and his little sister. He talked about his friends, the school band they had together. He even promised you he would take you with him one day to one of their practices so you could hear him singing.

You had such a great time with Jungkook. Listening to his stories, laughing together and getting to know each other. You were so caught up in it that you didn’t realise it was almost time to go home and say goodbye. “I hope you enjoyed today y/n.” Jungkook said as you were both standing at the counter. You aprons already hanging onto the hooks. “I really did Jungkook. Thanks for today and also a thank you for your mom to giving me this opportunity.” You said. Jungkook smiled. “You’re more then welcome y/n. Oh! before i forget. Mom told me the papers should be somewhere here.” He said as he went behind the counter to grab the papers out of a shelf. “Here they are.” He placed them onto the table with a pen. “So here is the money you will receive every month, They days you will work and here you can sign the paper.” He said, pointing out the things on the paper before handing over the pen. You signed the paper and gave then pen back. “So now you’re all set!” He said, taking the papers and putting them back in the shelf. “I’ll see you back next Friday y/n.” He said, giving you a smile. “See you next Friday Jungkook.” You said. You walked towards the front door as suddenly Jungkook shout out your name. “Y/n wait!” You turned around as the boy run over to you. “You almost forgot this.” He said, handing you the yellow rose he gave you earlier. You probably left it at the back of the shop. As he gave you back the rose your fingers slightly brushed. “Thank you Jungkook.” You answered. “Just call me kook or kookie, y/n. No need to be so formal.” He said. You nodded. “Ok. Goodnight kookie!” You said as you walked out. “Goodnight y/n-ah” He said in response. Little did you know how good he felt at you giving him that little nickname and how he was already slowly falling in love with you. And that after only knowing you for a day.

The next days in the flower shop you learned a lot. Mrs Jeon taught you some more stuff that Jungkook hadn’t and also gave you some tips and tricks. In no time you had to knowledge and techniques you needed. Sometimes Mrs Jeon would even leave the shop only to you, to go meet up with some costumers or bring some flowers for festivities. That’s how much she trusted you after working there for a few weeks. And about Jungkook? You guys became great friends and colleagues. Every passing week you became more and more comfortable around the boy. Sometimes you even fooled around with each other just like today...

 “Jeon Jungkook! Where did you hide my scissors this time?” You said, the boy acting all clueless and innocent. But you learned to look past that innocent bunny like face after a while. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I have nothing.” He said, betrayed himself by turning around towards the flowers, the scissors poking out of the pockets of his pants. You went to grab them but he quickly turned around, just on time to dodge your hand trying to grab it. “Not so fast princess.” He said, giving you a smirk.

“Yah! Just give me my scissors back!” You yelled at him, trying to grab it but he always seemed to know your moves and turned to opposite way so you couldn't grab them. You were practically almost hugging the boy as you were trying to get your scissors back. He suddenly grabbed them out of his pocket and held them up high as you almost caught them out of his pants this time. You jumped towards his hand and he laughed as you couldn’t reach them. Every time you jumped and tried to grab them he took a step back so you couldn't get them until he bumped against the work table, not able to move another step backwards. As you made a last jump for it and finally got them your noses slightly brushed when you came back down. Your faces were now just one breath away. You looked at him in shock, the scissors falling onto the ground. He looked back at you, as shocked as you were. He looked so beautiful from up close. Just like an angel.

Not only your friendship for each other grow in these past weeks but also something else... Little by little you seemed to catch feelings for the sweet boy. Always when you goofed around together or you would laugh together or he would pull some shit on you like he did to you now you would feel some kind of way towards him afterwards. He made your heart raise, your cheeks turning pink, making you lost of words sometimes. It took you a while before you figured out you were actually developing feelings towards him. And now seeing him up close... Oh god.

You broke the awkward atmosphere between you two by coughing and taking a step back. “I’m sorry for that.” “It’s ok.” He almost immediately answered afterwards. You both squat down the grab the scissors, bumping your head in the process. “Sorry!” You both said simultaneously, chuckling awkwardly afterwards before standing back up. You both felt the atmosphere was a  bit awkward right now but you just ignored it and went back to work. Jungkook working on decorating a flower blanket and you working on a few bouquets to put into the front of the shop.

“Mom asked me if I wanted to go visit the flower fields this Saturday.” Jungkook said, breaking the silence. “I... I was wondering if you maybe... wanted to join me?” You turned towards him but he didn't look back, his eyes fixed on his work. You admired him for a bit as he just stared at the flowers, not doing anything. Just staring. Did he really just asked you to go do something out of the shop? Together? He suddenly turned towards you, making you look away.

Why is she always so cute. Jungkook thought while looking at you quickly looking away, your cheeks turning a light pink. He knew you were checking him out and he knew a while ago you were feeling as nervous as he did when your noses accidentally brushed. How hard it was for him to not pull you closer and kiss those pretty lips of yours right there and then. Since a few days ago, well- actually the first day he met you, he knew there was something about you. Already from that first day he felt awfully comfortable around you. Later on the boy caught himself staring more at you, always smiling when he was around you every passing day. Slowly he started developing feelings for you. And he knew it all to well.

You really walked into this shop and stole a piece of his heart. That part only growing bigger and bigger every day until it would swallow his heart completely. When his mom asked him to go take some pictures of the daisies this weekend to hang in the shop he didn’t hesitate to go ask you to join him. It would be your first time together outside the shop and work hours. He really looked forward to it and was really hoping for you to say yes and join him. You could maybe even make a date out of it, he thought for a moment.

“So what do you say?” Jungkook asked again. You turned towards him and nodded, giving him a sweet smile. “I would love to go with you take some pictures of the flower fields Jungkook.” You answered him, looking how his smile grow bigger. “Great.” He said, getting all hyper and giddy, not trying to show it much. He has this kind of sparkle in his eyes he gets when he is really excited for something, betraying him a bit. You loved to see him happy and would do anything to keep it that way.

“I’ll pick you up Saturday afternoon then.” They boy said, standing next to you. “I’ll send you my address.” You answered him before you both went back to work the biggest smile showing on both of your faces. You couldn't wait long enough for Saturday to come.

A night and a few hours later and you guys were already making your way towards the countryside. Away from the busy city. You looked out of the window of Jungkook’s car, watching the tall buildings change into high trees and the many busy people into empty, far reaching fields.

“Wah, It’s so nice to finally be out of that busy, stressful place for once and go find some peace into nature.” You said.

Jungkook smiled at seeing you so happy and relaxed. It made him feel at ease. He was happy to take you away out of your busy life for once. So you finally could forget about all your worries for a while. Today would be just about you and him. No one else. “I hope you’ll like it. You really never went to the country side at the end of summer to watch the last flower fields bloom?” He asked and you shook your head. “I haven't. But i bet it’s beautiful. And I’m sure it will be even more fun with you there too.” You said, giving him a soft smile before looking back outside. He smiled at you, concentrating on the road and sometimes taking a glance at your face.

When you finally arrived at your destination, a little cute village with even still a few traditional old Korean houses, you got out of the car. The sun shining brightly onto your skin. As you walked through a few streets of the village Jungkook lightly brushed his hand against yours before grabbing it and holding onto it. You looked at your intertwined hands and bite your lip, blushing a bit. You looked up at him as Jungkook just looked in front of him. Admiring the small but beautiful houses around him. You smiled before looking away, also admiring the cute little houses. “It must be so nice to live here.” You said. “Away from all the noise and stress, cars that are always honking, people yelling at each other on the streets. How much I would give to live in a place like this.”

“You would love to live on the countryside?” Jungkook asked and you nodded. Smiling at only thought of living here. In the quiet peaceful village. Every morning waking up with the sound of birds chirping, leaves rustling and the sun lightly shining through the curtains warm on your skin. How good that would be... Before you knew it you arrived at the end of the village and at the start of a giant field covered with daisies.

You looked at it with wondering eyes, your hand slipping out of Jungkook’s as you went to take a closer look at the flowers. Jungkook went to stand behind you. He hesitated at first, wondering if it maybe was a bit to early but eventually ended up doing it. He softly wrapped his arms around your waist, his chin resting onto your shoulder. “You like it?” He asked as you both watched the sun set behind the field. “I love it.” You answered, leaning back in his embrace. You guys hugged before but never had Jungkook hugged you like this. And it made you weirdly feel awfully comfortable. Like you could stay forever in his arms.

After a few minutes he unwrapped his arms from around you to take his camera out and take the pictures his mother asked for. Sometimes he would even take some pictures of you without you knowing. He took a few of you just admiring the flowers and from you picking a few out. You said you wanted to try to make a flower crown with it.

A while later as the sun was still going down, you sat down in the middle of another field filled with high grass and some wild flowers. You trying to make a flower crown and Jungkook admiring you, now and then making some small talk with you or laughing at your cute behaviour. He loved how your hair would softly move as the wind blew through it or how you would bite your lip when you were concentrating on putting the flowers together nicely. His heart was melting at seeing you. From that moment on he knew he was completely yours.

Once you finished the flower crown you carefully put it onto Jungkook’s head. “How do I look?” He asked. “Like a beautiful flower boy.” You said, giggling. Jungkook laughed with you, a flower falling off of the crown. “It’s not as tight as I thought it was..” You said as you picked up the flower and tried to put it back onto the crown. You leaned a bit closer as you concentrated on trying to get it back in. Jungkook grabbed your hand and pushed it back down. You looked at him confused as he took the small flower out of your hand. With his free hand he brushed some hair out of your face before putting the flower behind your ear. “There..” He said, smiling as the flower held its place. He looked into your eyes and smiled. You smiled back at him. You didn’t realise, while you were smiling at each other you were also slightly leaning into each other. Jungkook changed his gaze from staring into your eyes towards staring at your lips. How bad he wanted to feel them against his. “Y/n,” He suddenly spoke. “Yes, Jungkook?” You asked, not leaning back but staying as close as possible to him. “Can I... Can I kiss you?” The boy asked nervously, licking his lips, hoping you would let him. You nodded softly and Jungkook took this as a sign, leaning in closer and connecting his lips with yours.

You leaned into his touch, kissing him back lightly. Jungkook’s hand went from next to him towards your face. His thumb softly caressing your cheek as he carefully moved his lips against yours. His heart was beating like crazy. He looked so forward towards this exact moment. The moment you would choose him, like his heart chose you.

He broke this after a while, his forehead leaning against yours, eyes still closed. Both of his hand fell onto your lap. You took his hands in yours and finally opened your eyes, meeting his brown ones. You smiled at him before leaning in for another kiss. This time you wrapped your arms around his neck while Jungkook sneaked his around your hips. He suddenly pulled you closer, making you gasp as you landed onto his lap. You looked down at him as he smiled up at you, giving you that boyish playful grin. “So does this mean you’re mine now?” He asked as he looked up at you, keeping you close. You laughed at his cockiness. “Only if it makes you mine too.” You answered. He grinned. “I was already yours from the first day we met.” He answered softly, before pulling you down again for one last kiss.

After your little moment in the fields you went back to the village, walking happily hand in hand as you strolled through the cute evening market. You stopped at a stand that sold some self made products. Things like soap, body scrubs, perfume, ... While you were choosing some products to buy for yourself you didn't notice Jungkook slipping away and buying something at the flower stand behind you. As you turned around Jungkook stood there with a red rose in his hand. “Previous time, I gave you a yellow rose for the start of a beautiful  friendship. I never thought it would turn out this way but I’m glad it did. And so I want to give you this red rose this time as a start of or love for each other.” He said, before giving you the rose. You smelled it before looking up at him, smiling brightly. “It’s perfect.” You said before taking a step forward and hugging the boy. He didn't hesitate to immediately hug you back, leaving a soft kiss at the top of your head. “I love you y/n.” He whispered. Where you on answered. “I love you too, my kookie.” He chuckled at you calling out his nickname. From the first day until now it made him feel things and he loved it.

“What would you say of making from this beautiful day an even more beautiful night?” He whispered in your ear, making you look up at him, your arms still wrapped around each other. “What do you mean?” You asked him. He smiled, playing with a strand of your hair. “What do you think of continuing this date at my house?” He asked. “We got the house all to ourselves tonight. My mom and dad are out of town for the night.”

You looked around you for a bit thinking if this wasn’t a bit too fast for a first date but does it really matter when you love someone that badly and know you would want to spend the rest of your live with him? “Let’s go to your house then.” You said, raising a brow and giving him a smirk. He licked his lips as he looked you up and down. “You have no idea what you’re getting yourself into.” He said, a seductive smirk playing on his lips before he smacked your ass and walked towards the car.

When you arrived at his home it was like you couldn't get inside fast enough. Jungkook had you pressed against the door, kissing you hungry as he tried to get the keys into the small opening. When he finally managed to open the door he opened it and pushed you inside, breaking the kiss for a second the close the door, before pushing you back against it, his lips crashing onto yours again. Shoes and socks were thrown off almost immediately as you were both so hungry for each other. A small moan left your lips as Jungkook pushed his tongue past your lips, discovering your mouth as he pushed his body closer against yours. You placed your hands onto his sides, slightly tilting his shirt up. Jungkook got the hint and broke the kiss for a second taking off his shirt and revealing his toned, strong body. You caressed his naked chest as Jungkook kissed you again, a groan leaving his mouth. He took a few steps backwards, pulling you with him until you guys reached the cough. He sat down onto it, pulling you on top. He reached for your shirt, pulling it over your head, unclasping your bra afterwards and throwing it away somewhere in the dark room. Jungkook admired you for a second, trying to enjoy this moment as much as possible. “You’re so beautiful y/n..” He murmured under his breath. “So beautiful and all mine.”

You leaned down and started kissing him again, his hands first on your sides but not for that long as you already felt them moving up towards your breasts.

His lips went from your mouth towards your cheek, your jawline, your neck and your shoulder. Making sure no part of skin is left out. You grind onto him as he peppers your skin with kisses, one hand grouping at your breast in the meanwhile. As his kisses got lower you felt yourself becoming very aroused and wet down there, making you grind harder onto him as he finally took one of your nipples into his mouth. You could already feel him getting hard as he sucked and played with is tongue around your nipple. “Fuck kookie-” You cried out, your hands buried into his soft brown locks. He unlocked his mouth from around your nipple for a second. “Say that again sweetheart. Who’s making you feel this good?” He asked you, his hips grinding up against your core, making you moan. “Y-you, Jungkook.” You answered him. He smiled at you, licking his wet lips before attaching his mouth this time on the other nipple.

You gasped as he suddenly picked you up and carried you out of the living room, up the stairs. “ Let’s take this upstairs, shall we?” He said before kissing you again, carrying you upstairs, towards his room. Once inside, the door closed, he placed you down on the bed carefully before crawling on top, never breaking the kiss. Your arms pulled his face closer, his body getting closer as well, his now full erection, poking through his pants and grinding against your already wet core. Jungkook broke the kiss and sat up between your legs. He smiled at you, breathing heavily from all the kissing, before unbuttoning your pants and sliding them down with your panties, leaving you completely exposed in front of him. Once he managed to get off your pants and drop them on the floor he admired your body again, making sure he has seen every little bit of it. “My beautiful princess.” He said as he softly started caressing your inner thighs. He looked down at your core for a second, noticing how wet you already are for him, it made his cock twitch in his pants, knowing he was the one having this effect on you. “Before I do something else to you, I wanna taste that sweet pussy down there first.” He said seductively. He looked at you one last time before leaning down and starting to kiss your thighs. He always started at one knee and then made his way downwards. He made sure he wasn’t going to fast, making you whimper beneath him as he savoured this moment. “Already whining and whimpering. You’re so sensitive love, so... sweet.” He said before dipping his tongue between your folds, licking up in one smooth stroke. You buckled your hips up at the sensation. Oh god, how good his mouth felt onto your dripping pussy. You immediately wanted more. He looked up at you, making sure you guys made eye contact before planting his mouth onto your core again. You whimpered, biting your lip as you gripped onto the sheets. Jungkook concentrated himself on his work, lapping you out at a steady pace. Sometimes he would moan, sending shivers down your spine and making your core pulsate.

Before you knew it he was sucking and flicking his tongue onto your clit. Your moans got louder as you felt your first orgasm coming near. If his mouth already wasn’t enough, he also added two fingers, pushing them inside of your tight hole, stretching you out and rubbing at all the right places as he kept assaulting your clit with his mouth. You clenched around his fingers. “I can feel you’re close. Come for me princess. Make me taste your delicious fluids.” He said as he kept his steady pace, making you cum in no time.

He took his fingers out of your core and slowly started to lap up your juices that were leaking out of your cunt. You shivered as he lapped you out, still sensitive from your orgasm. Once he was done he looked back up from between your legs, his lips wet and glistening from eating you out. “You taste so good love.” He said, pushing himself back up before leaning back over you and kissing you, making you taste yourself. While his tongue played with yours in his mouth he unbuckled his pants and pushed them off, leaving him only in boxers. He parted from your lips for a moment and leaned over towards his nightstand, opening the drawer and taking out a condom. He placed the condom between his teeth as he sat up to take his boxers down. But before he could do that he let out a moan as you were softly caressing the shape of his dick through his boxers. You bite your lip as you looked at it. only of seeing the shape through his trousers you knew he was big. He took your hand that was caressing over his dick and lead it towards the edge of his boxers. You placed your other hand on the other side and slowly started to slide it down until his member sprung free, standing tall and proud.

You licked your lips as you looked back up at him. He smirked, the condom still between his teeth. He took the condom out of his mouth. “Like what you see?” He asked and you laughed, nodding. “I love what I see.” You answered, sitting up and leaning close towards him, your lips ghosting over his, early touching. You gave him a seductive stare while taking the condom out of his hand and opening it. He kept staring at your lips as he suddenly felt one of your hands wrapping around his dick. He let out a soft, low moan as you started to stroke it. As you picked up the pace he couldn't hold it any more and leaned in closer, kissing you hungrily.

He pushed you back onto the mattress before getting up again, taking the condom out of your hands and rolling it over his length. “Ready for a second orgasm?” He asked, hovering over you again, one hand holding his dick and teasing your entrance with the tip. You whined as you pushed your hips up a bit, wanting him fill you up already. “I love it when your body is begging for me.” He said lowly, his lips ghosting over your neck. “Let’s give it what it wants then.” He said, before pushing in. He slowly slide inside until he was completely bottomed out. You let out a moan, satisfied of having him finally inside you, of having him fill you up completely.

Jungkook peppered your neck and shoulder with soft kisses while he let you adjust to his size. Now and then giving you little compliments, about how beautiful he thinks you are, how happy he is to have you, how tight you are and how you take him so well. “So good for me princess.” He said, peeking your lips this time.

“You can move now.” You told him when you finally felt like you had adjusted to his size. He nodded and softly started to slide out of you again before thrusting back in. And damn... It felt so good. While Jungkook kept a slow but steady pace you wrapped your arms around him, your hands clamping onto his back and shoulders. “Faster” You told him after a while and he did what you asked. He took up the pace a bit, moans rolling out of both of your mouths as you made love to each other for the first time. It was amazing. Both breathing heavily, hearts beating fast, heads leaned against each other as Jungkook kept thrusting into you. He kissed your full swollen lips again as he speed up some more. When he was at his highest speed you were both a moaning mess. Your kisses and thrusts got more sloppy as you both feared your orgasm. “Fuck y/n- I’m close. Please tell me you’re close too. I wanna cum together.” He said between groans and heavy breaths. You nodded, your own orgasm almost reaching it’s peak. “I’m close too.” You told him. “Good” He said, before giving a few final thrusts making you both cum.

He breathed heavily as he just rest his body on top of yours, his dick still pulsating now and then inside of you every time you clenched around him. You both were breathing hard as you just stayed still and laid on top of each other. You softly started to caress Jungkook’s hair as you both came down from your hight. He softly closed his eyes, listening to your heart beat and enjoying the soft caresses over his head.

After a minute of two his dick slipped out of you making you feel empty again. Jungkook opened his eyes and pushed his body back up. He gave you a tired smile, receiving one back from you. He lazily kissed you one more time before getting up, taking the condom off and throwing it into the bin. When he came back you both snuggled up against each other onto the bed. He played down on his back as you laid on your side. One leg placed over his and one arm wrapped around his chest. Jungkook wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you a bit closer, giving you a soft kiss on the forehead. “I love you y/n” He said. You smiled at yourself before looking up to him and saying it back. “I love you too Jungkook.”

“So... you’re ready for round two?” He suddenly asked. You looked at him in shock. How quickly had this boy recovered from the first round!? He chuckled and peeked your lips. “It’s ok love. I’ll let you recover first but I really want my round two afterwards.” He said, as you shook your head in unbelief. “Wish, this boy.” “What?Your body is just so irresistible.” He said, giggling.

And before you knew it, a round two became a round three and so on. To keep it short, you had a great night together and it wouldn't be the last one. How it all started with you desperately looking for a job and eventually ending up meeting the love of your life. Life couldn't get better.

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@marocato your ask made me curious about how many names ive used so i went to try and find as many as i could. the list is kinda long so its under a read more

slushii/icee/ice/rubie (all are oc names. slushii is the only one i still go by and it was the inspiration for my username but there have been some people who call me ice and thats okay :])

aaron (this was the first name i tried. one of my relatives is called aaron so i took that name)

shae (dont know where i got this from. either from a tumblr mutual arlyiahshay or from butyrospermum-parkii. either way i barely used it)

jay (one of the first names i tried out)

evan (from vanossgaming. i still use this name)

seven (was more of a nickname. i only used this to make a 7-11 joke despite me not being american)

mason (around the time a show made by some youtubers i watch called alpha betas released its pilot episode. i like the name and i still kinda use it)

robyn (first long-term name and i think the first name i began using in 2022. this was my main name for about a year; i still like it tho !)

hazel (started using at around the same time as robyn but this one wasnt in use for as long. i recently remembered it existed and now im using the name again)

eli (from elilikesrice, a youtuber who is somewhat associated with the banana bus squad, a group of youtubers i watch. this one didnt last long)

tyler (from wildcat, a member of the banana bus squad. also got it from a friend, who named himself after wildcat)

mizuki, ichika & kohane (project sekai)

max (when i was saving this document, i noticed that one of my files was just called 'names'. i opened it and it was a list of possible names from july 2022. one of the names was max and i had written 'I still kinda use this one but what if I made it a main name'. i dont know when i started using it but i never made it a main name nor did i ever use it again)

neptune (came from an inside joke between a friend and i but i actually started liking the name. it was another long-term name that i still dont mind going by)

eva, eve and ava (none of these lasted very long)

evie/evelyn (evelyn from stardew valley. evie is another long-term name that has, as of right now, remained a long-term name for about 7 months)

kou, kanae, lagrange, eto & saya (all from arcaea. none of these lasted very long)

luna (luna from arcaea and also the song by bombay bicycle club. it was my first favourite song ever and, as a result, it means a lot to me)

phoebe (phoebe twiddle from urbz sims in the city)

emma (emma hatch from the sims 3)

izabelle/izzy & theresa/terri (theresa bullhorn from urbz sims in the city. dunno where i got izabelle from. anyway neither lasted very long)

molly (molly french from the sims 3. ive liked the name for years and decided on using it recently. now its a long-term name)

carter (couldve been my birth name but wasnt)

euonia (a word one of my friends made up)

luka (megurine luka)

rena (member of hey violet)

freya (one of my ocs)

lynn (one of those names that popped into my mind and i went 'oh hey i like that name' and i decided to try it out. the most recent name i had tried out when i made this post)

maya (arcaea's lasting eden side story)

enya (not sure ?)

as of right now, these are most, if not all of the names i have used.

how many different names have u tried out /curious

a lot. i dont think i can list all of em because i dont remember them