#it says something about me that i can list this many mitski songs and something about him that so many fit

[raspberryjellybrains]

RIP Morpheus you would've loved Mitski

[catboygirljoker]

i would like the luxucore songs

Allow me to offer Cop Car by mitski, startling from iron maiden, starlight by avantasia, sex on the ceiling, Arrow in the Wall, and I'm Your Treasure Box by marine/toby fox for other xigbar/luxu songs

the last one's a joke but also not really

A FEW SONGS FROM MY LUXUCORE PLAYLIST (non-comprehensive):

America, George Martin - "A Horse with No Name" only when i'm alone and separate from the world can i remember my identity and the world that's been swept away

Depeche Mode - "Personal Jesus" i am a religious figure and i will make myself very useful to you, just gimme a call whenever you need me /horny /not entirely good intentions [yes im aware depeche mode thinks this song is straightforwardly wholesome but. have you listened to it. theyre wrong]

100 gecs - "The Most Wanted Person in the United States" lmao i just killed that guy. everyone hates me and they kinda have good reason to. does it even matter. wooooooo!

Orville Peck - "No Glory in the West" fuck man you go through life and it sucks and its hard and you try to figure it all out and what do you get but dirt and sand

The Bravery - "The Spectator" "leave only footprints, take only memories" is a philosophy that can apply to existence, too

as for your songs:

COP CAR LUXU COMIC MY BELOVED. that ones already on the playlist <3 <3 <3 not sayin more about this bc the comic is sufficient to explain why this works for him lol

whatever the second track is on your list i dont think i was able to find it, sorry ;-; id be happy to give it a listen if you can clarify :]

"Starlight" REALLY works for me as a luxu song. i like thinking about why luxu would use space magic—since he clearly uses it before he's a Nobody, and i think you can just, study and use a kind of magic if you wanna—and i especially like thinking about him having an affinity for space that comes from being so isolated by his Whole Deal. many nights spent alone looking up at the stars, all those worlds, wishing for some guidance on this path hes been made to walk....

...im gonna go ahead and say "Sex on the Ceiling" is self-explanatory. yeah he can just do that. literally and metaphorically. really enjoying the vocals on this one, very sexy song. this one is also going on the luxucore playlist tee hee

"An Arrow in the Wall" i definitely understand on vibes. the song feels like theres Something Coming, a reckoning, apocalypse perhaps. with luxu, like, hes been around for a Really Long Time, anticipating the return of his master, and is finally about to see that come to fruition. but thats not a good thing. whatever's in that box, the direct parallels to pandora's box, luxu's shocked and horrified reaction to learning what's inside...none of that can mean good things! much too think about. i like this one, i like this kind of moody electronic indie stuff

id totally forgotten about "I'm Your Treasure Box" thank you for reminding me of it again lmao. toby fox is such a good producer. is this a joke about the eyepatch

[thewriterwhowritesnot]

Alucard Music Headcannons - Mitski

A/N: Trying to get back into my being in love with Alucard Groove, folks. Don't mind me ;).

I am a firm believer that Alucard would be a slut for Mitski's music. Here's a list of songs I feel he'd love and why:

Francis Forever - I feel like this song would speak to him in so many different ways. It reminds him of how young he feels in life and love no matter how old he gets. His feelings of loneliness and isolation from the living and the dead.

Crack Baby - It's the slow progression of the song. To him, it feels like descending into the thoughts he often does his best to ignore in his daily life. The thoughts of how unfulfilled he feels sometimes. The constant longing for more, for something that he can't always possess. He often doesn't know what he wants but he knows that he had it once and he knows that he wants it back.

I Bet On Losing Dogs - This song reminds him of how he feels as if he's in a hopeless cycle of giving his energy to things that will inevitably fall apart by his hand or the hands of another. He's tired and exhausted with pain, being wrong, and being let down but, he can never get himself to stop trying or to stop seeking. It's bittersweet but he keeps drinking from the cup because, without his humanity and his desire for love, he'll have no reason to continue on.

Once More To See You - This song reminds him of where he's been and who he's known and who he's loved. The secrecy of new love and the sweetness of intimacy. It reminds him of innocence in love and the desire for closeness.

Your Best American Girl - It's the REGRET, my dudes. The suffocating feeling of knowing there are so many ways he feels robbed by life and by the greed and pride of others and the mistakes he's made. This song encapsulates his feelings of wishing things were different and how maybe in love he wishes he could come with less baggage.

Pink In The Night - Let's be real...Alucard is a very intense man and when he falls for someone he falls HARD. So hard that they infiltrate all parts of his mind. This song expresses the feelings he gets when he loves someone and how it resonates in his bones. Overcome with emotion and the drug of love.

Washing Machine Heart - Reminds him of how often he's felt like the odd one out and how in his experience it was rare that he felt chosen in love. Meaning, he's so multifaceted and in relationships, there have been imbalances that have led him to feel unwanted or simply misunderstood and rejected in that. He's a soft-hearted strong individual and this affects him deeply

Two Slow Dancers - This definitely speaks to him in regard to his feelings about time and how it passes. He's immortal and the knowledge of that weighs on him in happy times (and sad ones) because of the knowing that there are many he will have to say goodbye to as he goes on. Many memories will remain longer than the people who were a part of them. This song represents his grief, his love, and his hatred of time and memory.

[kingofterrors]

Imodna / Southern Gothic Playlist

Feeling the brainrot in these post-Episode 65 days, so found myself wandering back to my Imodna playlist, which I've been gradually adding to over the course of a couple of years (October 2021 to be precise...). In the course of which I realised I really liked it. So in lieu of a new Laura Bailey playlist, here it is to share with you all! And a little word about each song, hidden under the cut for obvious reasons!

No Lights on the Horizon - Metric: "If it wasn't for your kindness / I think I might be dead / If it wasn't for the way you said / "Oh, stay with me instead". Pre-stream Imodna. We know Imogen was on the verge of giving up before she met Laudna. They face the future together.

Take Your Time - Martha Bean, Jon Dix: "When all seems lost / You’re frightened to death of it all / Hold my hand / I'll be sure you don't fall". Their wishes for each other.

Better Days - OneRepublic: "Every day is like another storm, yeah / I'm just trying not to go insane / Yeah, and the city's shining so bright / So many dark nights, so many dark days / But any time I feel the paranoia / I close my eyes and I pray". Both Imogen and Laudna have been struggling against the weight of the world against them - but together better days might lie ahead.

Waterbound - Fretless, Ruth Moody: An Imogen song - the sense of being ripped away from everything you've ever known and thrown into a new world.

Heat Lightning - Mitski: I'm not immune to Mitski for Imodna! This is so Imogen - yearning for Laudna with every breath, not sure how long she can keep it under wraps, and ready to surrender.

Talk - Hozier: We talk about Laudna not having "accessed that part of my brain" a lot, but I'm convinced that Imogen is very much in touch with that part of her brain. And equally convinced that she holds some of that lesbian guilt about feeling desire. She keeps it locked down. Laudna's not ready for it. Or as Hozier puts it: "I won't deny I've got in my mind now all the things we'd do / So I'll try to talk refined for fear that you find out how I'm imaginin' you".

Nightmares on Repeat - Emily Jane White: A Laudna song, for both lyrics and feel. Laudna doesn't know what she's feeling. She's been cut off from those feelings for so long. But she's sure feeling something. "Holding your hand, keeps me here / And all the ways you stand, keeps me here / For the light was not there / For years, upon years".

A Match into Water - Pierce the Veil: Episode 33. Laudna snatched away. This is all Imogen's grief and pain in song form.

Chasing Twisters - Delta Rae: Okay, I'm also not immune to this song for Imodna, even though I know it's on everyone's list. It just fits, okay?? Imogen's feelings for Laudna, her grief and desire to 'save' her one last time.

Autumn Rain - Rachel Sandy: Laudna's back, and Imogen is more aware of how she feels than ever. But is Laudna seeing something new in Imogen as well? "She feels like rain in autumn / Like the earth before a storm / Electric and deep-rooted".

Uphill - Lori McKenna: "When the road under your feet is dark and feels wrong / And you find yourself lost and all your confidence gone / And the stars over your head through the clouds won't be revealed / I'll walk with you, even if it's uphill". A new commitment to each other with this new lease on life.

Cold Water Swimming - Quiet Houses: Imogen's hope, but kept closely under wraps. "I’m still in love with you / But telling you is just too much of a risk".

Pockets of Stones - Charm of Finches: Both Imogen and Laudna realise their own vulnerabilities, their capacity to hurt. Their love becomes security and strength in the face of that.

Easy Silence - The Chicks: The strength both Imogen and Laudna have in the company of the other - the space they have for each other. Exandria is going to hell in a handbasket. But they make it bearable for one another. "Easy silence that you make for me / It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me / And the peaceful quiet you create for me / And the way you keep the world at bay for me / The way you keep the world at bay".

[freakyd1saster]

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[flieslikeamoron]

I have a playlist for Sleight of Hand and you can listen to it if you want. Is it at heart a conversation between Fiona Apple saying I'm too fucked up to love and Arctic Monkeys saying I just wanna be yours? Sure. But there are a lot of other songs too! I listed all the songs below for those that don't have spotify.

The Fic | The Playlist on Spotify

My Type - Saint Motel

And take a look around the room Love comes wearing disguises How to go about and choose? Break it down by shapes and sizes I'm a man who's got very specific taste

You're just my type Oh, you got a pulse and you are breathing

A Mistake - Fiona Apple

I'm gonna fuck it up again I'm gonna do another detour Unpave my path And if you wanna make sense What you looking at me for? I'm no good at math

Pick U Up - Adam Lambert

I'mma pick you up, I'mma pick u up We're gonna see where we can go This is how I live, this is what I give And you're the one I want to know All my life, I've been waiting Pass my time, procrastinating

Hey Pretty - Poe

I see a stairway so I follow it down Into the belly of a whale Where my secrets echo all around You know me now but to do better than that You've got to follow me Boy, I'm trying to show you where I'm at Hey pretty Don't you wanna take a ride with me?

When We're High - LP

When we're high Oh my God, you blow my mind So let's get high Live until we die You and I Let's just do it one more time (A million times) Let's get high Live until we die

R U Mine? - Arctic Monkeys

She's a silver linin', lone ranger ridin' through an open space In my mind, when she's not right there beside me I go crazy 'cause here isn't where I wanna be And satisfaction feels like a distant memory And I can't help myself All I wanna ever say is, "Are you mine?" Well, are you mine? (Are you mine tomorrow?) Are you mine? (Or just mine tonight?)

Temptation Waits - Garbage

I'll tell you something I am a demon Some say my biggest weakness I have my reasons Call it my defense Be careful what you're wishing You come on like a drug I just can't get enough I'm like an addict coming at you for a little more

Don't Talk to Strangers - Dio

Don't talk to strangers 'Cause they're only there to make you sad Don't dream of women 'Cause they'll only bring you down Run, run, run, run away

Indestructable - Welshly Arms

You're my blood rush Just out of touch Kills me inside But I feel so alive And now you got me like- I'm flashing like a red light But you know I'm gonna keep trying Why you gotta be so Indestructible Fire in your bones Nothing can touch you

Got Dynamite - Demi Lovato

Tell me what you've got to break down the walls Kick senseless my defense Tell me what your gonna do I need you to light the fuse Tell me what you've got to break down the walls You just might need dynamite

Stay Soft - Mitski

Just tell me what you want to do Tell me what you want To burn away 'Cause I could be your stoker

Open up your heart Like the gates of hell

You stay soft, get beaten Only natural to harden up You stay soft, get eaten Only natural to harden up

Left Alone - Fiona Apple

Oh, when I try to love I can love the same man in the same bed in the same city But not in the same room, it's a pity, but Oh, it never bothered me before Not 'til this guy, what a guy, oh God what a good guy And I can't even enjoy him 'Cause I'm hard, too hard to know

How can I ask anyone to love me When all I do is beg to be left alone

One Way or Another - Blondie

One way, or another, I'm gonna win ya, I'll get ya, I'll get ya

Straight Through the Heart - Dio

Never tell a secret with your eyes It's the eyes that let you down Tell a little truth with many lies It's the only way I've found

You Might Think - The Cars

You might think it's foolish This chancy rendezvous You might think I'm crazy All I want is you

Fast as You Can - Fiona Apple

O darling, it's so sweet You think you know how crazy How crazy I am You say you don't spook easy You won't go But I know And I pray that you will Fast as you can, baby Run, free yourself of me Fast as you can

I Want it All - Arctic Monkeys

Blind faith, heartache Mind games, mistakes My sweet fireball My sweet rigmarole I want it all

Runaway - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals

I hooked you with the beat The heavy heat gettin' out of hand And I loved you in a lonely bed The word you said made me understand That if I loved you, I would stay I'd never stray or runaway And I fall down, lonely night I can't fight but maybe I should pray Lord Give me the strength to stay 'Cause I always run away

It Will Come Back - Hozier

You know better, babe Than to smile at me, smile at me like that You know better, babe Than to hold me just, hold me just like that Don't let me in with no intention to keep me Jesus Christ, don't be kind to me Honey, don't feed me, I will come back

To Your Love - Fiona Apple

My derring-do allows me to Dance the rigadoon around you But by the time I'm close to you I lose my desideratum and now you

Please, forgive me for my distance The pain is evident in my existence Please forgive me for my distance The shame is manifest in my resistance to your love

I Wanna Be Yours - Arctic Monkeys

I wanna be your vacuum cleaner Breathing in your dust I wanna be your Ford Cortina I will never rust If you like your coffee hot Let me be your coffee pot You call the shots, babe I just wanna be yours

Never Be Me - Miley Cyrus

If you're looking for someone to be all that you need That'll never be me (hard as I try) That'll never be me (I play with fire)

Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys

(Do I wanna know?) If this feelin' flows both ways? (Sad to see you go) Was sorta hopin' that you'd stay (Baby, we both know) That the nights were mainly made For sayin' things that you can't say tomorrow day

Lights On - The Pierces

This won't get any easier now that your heart is beating in my hand And I'll try not to destroy you, baby, even though we both know I can Oh, you know I can

Make love with the lights on baby Tell me what you see Clear the bed to lie on darlin' Make a mess of me

FOOLS - Troye Sivan

And my hopes, they are high, I must keep them small Though I try to resist I still want it all

Little Bit - Lykke Li

Hands down I'm too proud for love But with eyes shut It's you I'm thinking of But how we move from A to B It can't be up to me 'cause I don't know Eye to eye, thigh to thigh I let go I think I'm a little bit, little bit A little bit in love with you But only if you're a little bit, little bit Little bit in love with me

Love Me More - Mitski

I need you to love me more Love me more, love me more Love enough to fill me up Fill me up, fill me full up I need you to love me more Love me more, love me more Love enough to drown it out Drown it out, drown me out

Raw Raw - K. Flay

You disarmed me, no defense My armor turned to sand It's hard to escape the wounds of the past Every time I feel something real, I wanna take it back

Sensitive, I'm peeling back my skin You got me raw, raw So emotional Raw, raw Oh, I feel exposed Chainsaw Buzzing at my throat Pressure building up inside my chest You pulled the stitches out again I feel the feelings creeping in You got me raw, raw

The One That You Love - LP

Try to be the fire for you, try to be the sun Try to be your home and the place that you come to Babe, I took my whole world and put it in your hands I'm really trying hard but I don't understand How to be the one that you love

Happiness - Black Keys

You got to do the thing you don't want doing Even if it's going to ruin what you had If what you had was bad Say the words you don't want saying Find the nerve to stop delaying Happiness

Respectable Dive - Rufus Wainwright

And baby I love you And I do not want to lose you But I'm not able to put my cards on the table And if you only knew of the hand that I'm holding You would be blushing And I am so far from bluffing

FistfIght - The Ballroom Thieves

They said love is grabbing blindly at a pit full of snakes And wait to feel the only heel among the rows of all the venomous teeth What did I do to deserve you? How did you find me? I was already halfway gone You were a bright light You were a fistfight

Tightrope - LP

We're just a step from fearless Reach out for me my dearest, don't you cry You don't know, you're almost near it

All this time You're just tryin' not to lose it You can always learn to fly You never do until you do it

Up high in the middle of nowhere Don't know but you know when you get there Walk slow and low on a tightrope Hope it lasts but you know, you never know

[starchild--27]

i was tagged by @artemiss-moonchild and @heartcravings in two different spotify-centric tag games - so i'll just morph them~ i am also high on finishing a book right now, so yeah, it's gonna be long and full of words i have to vomit out now because my brain is buzzing xDD

shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first 10 tracks,

Brand New City by Mitski ~ probably my favourite song of hers, i feel all of her music and lyrics very very much but this song...just hits different i dunno, i guess it is the closest thing i have to describe this restlessness i get sometimes

blue by keshi ~ every single word in this songs gets me and i am kinda giddy bc i bought tickets to his concert as a christmas present for my sister and me, hehe, i'm looking forward to that already ^^

Where We by Ryu Ji Hyun & Kim Kyung Hee ~ part of the OST of the drama Rain Or Shine / Just Between Lovers, it's on netflix, lee gangdu is my poor little meow-meow, i cried buckets and got wayyy more invested in this drama than i anticipated xD

I Don't Even Mind by Chen ~ it's my favourite track of his 3rd album, i like how his voice blends with the instrumental, i love how his voice is so clear, how it kinda floats over the tumbles of the guitar, it's like fog over a little creek

I Hate Everything About You by Three Days Grace ~ i stumbled over that one by chance not even a month ago, i knew the band existed and what their sound was like but never listened to their songs, so that one is the only one i know and what can i say...a girl feels conflicting feelings sometimes xD

Nothin' by EXO-SC / Chanyeol ~ i am really fascinated by this song because it has so many layers of sound, there is just so much going on on that track, like it sounds calm and spherical and like you are floating through a dark night, but you are driven by an invisible force, by thoughts and voices and echos. this song makes me fearless, it lifts me up when i am on the ground, it grounds me when my head tries desperately to fly away from my body, it was my no. 1 song in my spotify wrapped xD

Charmer by Stray Kids ~ ok this one is less deep xD it's just a cool, very vibey song, it really got me back into Stray Kids this year and wow it seems very unreal rn that Oddinary was a 2022 release o_o

Lithium by Nirvana ~ a classic, some would say. i can play it on the electric guitar so that's cool 👀✨️ to me this song is probably even more "nirvana" as Smells Like Teen Spirit - i dunno it captured their sound really well and i might sound very pretentious now but it is such a Kurt song, i don't know how to descibe it differently xDD

Words as Weapons by Seether ~ and sometimes a girl feels a very stubborn anger against the world and some people who have deep cuts. listening to this song is cathartic.

Universe by EXO ~ doesn't your heart just open up when they sing "I'll search the universe..."?? because to me it always feels like that, like something bright is opening up my heart, ready to search along with them (it's the way the melody just keeps rising, flying across the nightsky on that long high note)

then list 10 songs you really like, each by a different artist.

New Thing by Zico feat. Homies ~ this song... is just really, really cool. so cool. ahh. i love listening to it, it's always over way too soon xD

saudade, saudade by Maro ~ my Eurovision favourite this year, haha, their whole stage presence was so whimsical, they remained my favorites from start to finish. i just listened to the song a lot afterwards. the soft desperation in it is just everything, really.

505 by Arctic Monkeys ~ screaming crying throwing up about everything in this song. the musical built up, the breakdown, the lyrics - just ahhh everything about this song makes me go feral, especially the breakdown. i think i rarely show as much of myself to other people as i do when 505 comes on and i'm screaming "but i crumble compeltely when you cry"

Slump by Stray Kids ~ sad bop in three languages, made by the one and only Han Jisung who gave the sinking feeling you get when you realize you are somehow falling behind depsite your best efforts a sound. musical genius (but also are u ok bro?). anyway, i can do all the rap parts (in english because i am a chicken when it comes to korean let alone japanese and i really don't want to mispronounce stuff) in this song and i don't think it sounds cringy when i do it so that's what i've been up to musically these days xDD

RED by Survive Said The Prophet ~ the lyrics in this one are so great! it has such a raw power once it breaks loose, it reminds me of thunderstorms and a stadium full of people not minding the rain because the live music is just so good and everything fits, lights flashing and bass guitar and drums messing with your gut. it's full of so many different feelings that you sometimes can't tell apart but they make you want to move and run and run until your body hurts more than your heart.

Star Walkin' by Lil Nas X ~ this song is also so full of energy but a totally different kind. it's stellar, it's bright, it's almost delirious, it's testing out how fast you can run before you fall over your own feet, it's chasing the feeling of your stomach dropping when you go a little too high on the swings. it sounds really weird, but my first instinct when this song comes on is not to blink, not one second, because i could miss something at this racing pace. the verses are just floating in space, looking around, taking it all in, whereas the chorus is pure acceleration until the point where there is no more "faster", feeling it might hit anytime now but it just doesn't xD

Forgive Me by BoA ~ it's her recent comeback and i've never really gave her music a listen but i saw the teaser pics being absolutely my vibe so i checked it out and really liked it! there is nothing more to it haha. it reminds me a little of what i also would have loved to see Seulgi do on her solo album but it's not that big - both harmonize perfectly with their respective tracks.

Hurdle by Suho ~ he made theeeeee summer bop with this song, really. gosh, the way i freaked when i first heard this song xDD i took little notes about the Grey Suit album in my notebook back then so i know for a fact i was immediately obsessed with the funky bass line and the voice distortion and how dancable this song is.

Serenity by Xiumin ~ i've said it before and i'll say it again: this song is an early spring sunrise, when you woke up oddly early snd you go outside to catch the first glimpses of sunlight and the dew still hanging on the grass wets the hem of your pants, tickles your skin, the cold wetness seeping through your shoes but then the first rays of light hit your skin and the air is fresh and clear and everything feels better and new, like you have healed a little, like you can keep going with a new burst of energy now. this is how this song sounds like to me, i get that mental image everytime, dark greens and bright blues and even brighter white and yellow hues.

Checkmate by TheBoyz ~ again nothing all to deep besides the fact that this song is a total banger and i just go insaneeee over the whispering and member who-ever-it-is saying "you're never satisfied". my sister likes TheBoyz and she played it once or twice and that's how i know this song xD

list the first 10 songs played from my spotify wrapped/apple replay when shuffled!

Francis Forever by Mitski ~ this one somehow very quietly became my chanyeol-enlistment-song. it's all about missing someone, needing someone/depending on someone's presence, not in a full on desperate way (a little desperate maybe-) but in a way that is just like what the first lines say "I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do with myself now that your not here" kinda like you still need time to figure out how to handle things in the absence of something that has been very present before. it really got to me while Chanyeol was away (yk sorta-away because you really cannot get that man off a stage xD but the feeling has always been different than before) - in the end i think it's a lot about adapting after a change in the way somebody is present in your life.

Daechwita by Agust D ~ i am not the biggest BTS fan on the plant (thank god) but i have a sort of soft spot for their rap line because they simply are really good at what they do, especially yoongi. and daechwita, what can i say, simply a total vibe. i remember how i had this song and Lay's Lit right after on repeat a lot that year, they somehow belong to the same universe xDD Daechwita is all about speed and power and hot rage, Lit is all albout precision and force and a very cold attitude of supremacy - both have this very untouchable and dangerous vibe. they are neighboring kingdoms maybe, very peaceful with each other btw. they just come to destroy them haters xD

Raining by Chanyeol ~ this song it just a biiig loong sigh. it's taking a deep breath and exhaling loudly. the dark heavy piano really is like black paint in an artwork, it really gives the song that heavy atmosphere. then the sax soli are almost complaining, it's whining, it's telling you its story of misery with the heaviest sighs. this also reflects in Chanyeol's vocals, he also has this hint of exhaustion there, this song is just so dramatically done with everything, it just yk wants to have a drink and end this unfortunate day xD on some days i think this might be the best song of the The Box OST because they caught this very moody atmosphere so so well and it's not often done like that in populat music, i suppose (look i probably sound like i know what i am talking about but i really do not- xD)

GOTTASADAE by BewhY ~ again, nothing deep. my bestie sent me the song and was like "!!!! here listen !!!" and i was like "omg!!!!!!!" and then it was on repeat xDD

This Is How I Disappear by My Chemical Romance ~ so here is the thing, i knew about them for a long time but i never had this kind of "emo phase" in my teenage years but when they had their revival tour or whatever this year a lot of people i follow online suddenly were obsessing over them again, and when i like people a lot and they get invested in something, then i want to check that out too. so i listened to their entire discography in one weekend (coincidentally, the exact weekend they played in germany xDD) and This Is How I Disappear was the winner of the little favourite MCR song race i had in my head xD so yeah, i dig their music, especially this song. once again, very cathartic to listen/dance/sing to.

Snow (Hey Oh) by Red Hot Chili Peppers ~ i really like that i got this one on random! because it's the first RHCP song i actively remember hearing, probably in the radio and i was just really obsessed with it (in a way a child can be obsessed with a song it doesn't understand xD) and that just kind of lingered around and i eventually looked up the chords so i could play it on the guitar when i was 13 i think, leading to my dad showing my Californiacation and Under The Bridge and that's when i got more and more into their music in general. another weird fun fact: because i practiced the lyrics very hard back then i can now recite them in absolute inhuman speed, everytime i do it it annoys people to no end but i think it's fun xD

Shutdown by Moonbyul feat. Seori ~ (un)official sapphic anthem, let's gooo. this song is so so sexy in a very soft and casual and relaxed way. i love how their voices harmonize, i love how the melody flows, how you're just drawn into the song from start to finish. this song it somebody touching you very softly, very gently at your most secret, sensitive places. this song is knowing how to have the exact same effect on the other. it's dancing together with the smallest most minimal moves, bodies pressing impossibly close together. i just get this warm, seductive, soft, comfy, sexy feeling from this song.

Free Fall by Øzi ~ i am ascending every time i listen to this song, really. the chorus comes in like the ground beneath your feet rumbling and breaking apart, falling through the cracks. which might sound like a contradiction to what i said in the phrase before. but falling and flying are very easily confused when it's dark and you can't see the bottom. one of my favourite love letter songs <3

Tire Swing by Kimya Dawson ~ the simplicity of this song is so charming, really. it's nothing big, the melody sounds like a children's song but the lyrics tell the tale of the complicated matter that is really liking someone who is just so different from you that it's actually kinda impossible for things to work out well, at least not with anyone hurt. it's part of the soundtrack for the movie Juno (which i really like) and while the teenage romance is only a secondary part of the plot, i think this song was an amazing pick to explain the relationship between these two teenagers that lead very different lives and have to figure out how loving each other works. it's such an easy song and then again it is absolutely not.

Nothing Else Matters by Metallica ~ my dad once told me that metal musicians make the best love songs and then showed me Nothing Else Matteds as proof and, really, i could only believe him after that. i think, this song has had a huge huge influence on what i expect from a romantic relationship. it really shaped my understanding of romantic love to the point where i said (at 13 or 14) in my diary that if i ever got married it would be to this song, and i am still kind of in awe with this thought because that song remains to be very significant to me. how it's about always being together in a way, about sincerity of feelings, about trust, about getting to know the other better day by day and at some point getting to know yourself better through the other, how it's about sharing things openly, about living a life together, about having a companion like that who shows you the world you thought you knew in another light. it's about the enrichment you experience by having a romantic partner, that goes beyong anything sexual which is so often immediately associated with romantic love. and that just really left a lasting impression on me, so it's a fave ever since.

ok. this was long. and very uncalled for lol i am sorry for oversharing like that sometimes i'm just really in touch with how exactly music makes me feel and maybe i'm a little sloppy and a little too much in writing long paragraphs about it oops- ^^'

anywayyy i tag @kafkascupcake @byuns-coco @his-mochi-cheeks @cxsmicmyeon @nvwu @joon-rkive @simplypearing @xuoux @whisperingdoves if you guys wanna (feel free to pick the part you wanna do or simply ignore this tho, i am fully aware that this is a lot of time consuming text, so i won't mind at all xDD)

[tooclosetothestaars]

Dumb introduction post

Hi, my name is Liana :) I just post whatever I want on here. My thoughts, feelings, rants, vents, reblogs, stuff related to my favorite shows or movies or books or music, etc. My birthday is: November 27, 2007 (11/27/2007).

I LOVE music and fiction. I love TV shows & movies (that includes k-dramas, animes, etc) and books. Music is what I love the most in the entire world and fiction's second (sometimes I wonder if it's a tie lol). I wonder if I'll ever find someone I love and like as much as these things 😃

I listen to lots of different kinds of music, but I wouldn't say my taste has as much range as some people, who really have a diverse taste in music. I have favorite artists, but my music taste includes so many different kinds of songs that are from beyond the music from these artists, and an artist usually becomes my favorite when there are really quite a lot of songs by them that I love/like.

My favorite artists are: The Neighborhood (band), Chase Atlantic (band), Radiohead (band), Mitski (solo artist), Taylor Swift (solo artist), Madison Beer (solo artist), Cigarettes After Sex (band), The Weeknd (solo artist), Arctic Monkeys (band), Alex G (solo artist), Ariana Grande (solo artist), Lana Del Rey (solo artist), and probably more. But again, these are not all the artists I listen to. The amount of songs I love is...many. Not describable with words. I have some Spotify playlists if you're interested and want to check out:

Ok I just realized how many playlists I actually have. I'm gonna make a separate post for this, I don't have all of my playlists here. I have to add some songs to some of these playlists too

Anyway, so I'm actually currently working on making a list of literally all my favorite songs EVER. That's tough but I know I can do it..

One thing about me is that fiction impacts me very deeply, and so does music, but fiction just impacts me in very significant ways. I've noticed that the shows/movies/animes/books that are the saddest and cause me the most pain always end up being my favorites. I think I'm a bit of a masochist... I also actively seek out heart-wrenching shows and movies and books or whatever pieces of fiction and put them on my (numerous) lists. I have this enormous list of animes I want to watch where there are categories, and the category for sad animes is the longest. There are so many series' and movies I want to watch, books I want to read, music I want to listen to, and I have this desire to watch/read/listen to them ALL , even though my lists have a plethora of those things.

My favorite colors are: Blue, Green, Black, Gray, White, Purple, Brown, etc (I low-key love all colors...). I like the darker colors more, kind of. I love these colors so much, and I really love blue I think..

I'm an anti-natalist, I'm pretty sure (I don't exactly like to give myself absolute labels like that or "identify" with things, but this is the easiest way to explain something I think, or explain what/how I think about a certain thing; it just makes things easier so yea) which you can search about if you don't know what that is. I discovered this philosophical perspective through Reddit, and I had no idea this was even a thing, but I already had thoughts very similar to it. If you want to know more about it, I'd suggest you check out the r/antinatalism subreddit.

I'm an agnostic atheist too and I don't like religion (i.e: "established" religions, like Islam and Christianity), in fact, I may even hate it. I hate Islam and Christianity mainly and I have many reasons for that. I used to be a muslim when I was younger, or perhaps just a believer in allah, but not anymore, obviously. I also particularly hate the concept of heaven and hell and the rules in religion, and I have many issues with and arguments against the idea of "God" (the Christian God, the Muslim God, etc). I've thought about this so much and I realized the deeper you go into questioning the idea of "God", criticizing it, finding arguments against it, asking questions, etc, the more and more it just doesn't make sense at all. It's like one thought leads to another. Like the roots of a big tree. It's pretty complex I guess Basically, I have a lot of thoughts on this topic.

I have quite a lot of 'controversial', unpopular thoughts and perspectives. The more I learn, the more I notice this happening, sort of. Just for example, I think most parents aren't good parents. I'm not even sure there is such a thing as "good parents" anymore, thanks to a great comment I read in the anti-natalism sub, because bringing human beings into this world is not a "good" thing in the first place, honestly that very act itself can be considered child abuse I think, so, I don't know...☺️ But I agree. Probably. Yes. There's a lot to think about. I don't think there's such a thing as a "good parent". There are what I chose to call only 'better' parents and 'worse' parents, and most people are worse parents. But that's hard to explain to a person, right? So that was only one example that I have tons of more things to say about, and see how it led to more thoughts that sort of went in a different direction? Yeah, it's complicated

Basically, I have some unpopular thoughts. I've noticed I don't find it hard to accept new ideas/facts/information/knowledge unlike many others, if they're presented to me in an intelligent way, with proof/proper explanations, by someone who knows what they're talking about. Does that make sense? I'm only saying this because I noticed that for some reason a lot of people literally reject new ideas/facts/information even when they're presented with the 'correct' arguments for them, and even with evidence, etc by people who know way more than them on the topic they are talking about. There are many reasons for that, I know. I want to know why I'm not like that and why I find it easy. I also know I should question and critically examine things, too, and I try to do that, to the best of my abilities. I really learn so much from the internet, almost rapidly. It's like I'm constantly learning and gaining knowledge..

I'm very interested in psychology and philosophy. One psychology related topic I'm very interested in in particular is the 16 psychological types and the functions. I love @akhromant 's blog on this, big fan of it and I think that's probably the only blog I've ever read that's also my favorite.

I actually kind of have a whole story about this, I mean getting into MBTI, and I find it so funny lol but that's for some other time.

I have so much more to say and I already said too much on this introduction post and I don't think there's anything more significant or important to add here, so, oh wait let me just explain my username.. It's a part of a lyric from one of my FAVORITE SONGS EVER IN THE ENTIRE WORLD which is Reflections by The Neighborhood. I can't even talk about this. About how much I love that song and more by The Neighborhood and what it means to me. I don't just feel this way about this song in particular, but so many more. Maybe one day I can try to put it into words. But I can only ever try.

My asks and messages are always open, you can vent to me, rant to me, tell me anything, ask me anything, show me stuff, etc. By the way, I'm good at comforting people and I often end up in that position (or should I say put myself in that position....) so I can be your 'pretend therapist'. Feel free to reach out to me, I'm here for you.

Okay, that's it :) This was really long..but I have a lot to say I guess, and I end up explaining and getting into the details most of the time I think, I don't know. And if you, whoever you are, would be interested in being friends with me, message me 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️ :)

[jihyoruri]

”🎏 anon IS a new stan trying to pass as an og” I never said I was an og 😭😭I sent my first ask march 6.. i just showed up like it was the cat distribution system

second. aurelia clearly ur fanbase is mostly mentally stable than I am because I saw [“I don’t smoke” -richgirlyn] and promptly had a whole breakdown

for those of you who are not in the trenches..

“I don’t smoke” was a song released on September 29th, 2014, part of Mitski’s third studio album, Bury Me at Makeout Creek. It is (in my opinion) one of the best songs on that album, only beat by Texas Reznikoff and Carry Me Out

(although others may argue that Francis Forever and First Love/Late spring were the most impactful songs on that album, and they are also technically the most popular. fun fact! Francis Forever was in adventure time!)

the album contains many other AMAZING songs, such as : Townie, Jobless Monday, Drunk Walk Home (very popular!) I will, and Last Words of a Shooting Star (one of my personal favorites).

did I just list the entire track list? yes! Go listen to mitski’s albums.. they’re so worth it

i digress.. let’s get into what this spells out for richgirlyn.

everything that follows will be my interpretation..

i don’t smoke is about being in a toxic relationship that you can’t let go of— I see it as letting someone destroy and hurt you because you love them so much, or they’re all you’ve ever known— or maybe you’re just self destructive! The song is about letting someone hurt you, so that they can feel better even if it ruins you— it’s to make the person feel better, no matter how much it destroys you— you are there to make [them] feel better.

tldr: the song is about letting someone hurt you so they can feel better

now.. let me just guess here. let me just put these lyrics out and let them marinate. lemme do a lyric analysis real quick.

“I don’t smoke, except for when I’m missing you/to remember your mouth, how it tasted true/And I don’t smoke, except for after I’ve held you, baby/Being with you makes the flame burn good”

Smoking is clearly a destructive habit— it ruins your lungs and your health. The singer (who I’m gonna assume is richgirlyn, metaphorically) smokes to remember their partner (CHAEWONS STUPID ASS) who hurts them (emotionally or physically. we’re not sure. I believe in the context of the song, it’s emotionally)

the singer misses their partner that hurts desperately, so you can already tell this is a toxic codependent relationship. (maybe onesided codependency)

They smoke after they’ve “had” their partner so they will forever correlate smoking with the partner.. I wonder what this means..

“So if you need to be mean, be mean to me/I can take it and put it inside of me/If your hands need to break more than trinkets in your room/you can lean on my arm as you break my heart”

if this is what’s in store I am ruined. like, what do you MEAN this is what my #1 forever is going through… richgirlyn IS GONNA BREAK DOWN (internally).

anyway, this speaks for itself. The singer is offering themselves up to be a punching bag so their partner feels better, because they don’t want their partner in pain and want them to love them.

“I’m what’s left of when we swam under the moon/Now the rest of my days are just waiting for when/You’ve calmed down and tell me, ‘I was meant for you’/Baby, being with you makes the flame burn good”

based on the verse ‘I’m what’s left of when we swam under the moon’, we can guess that the partner was once kind to the singer

the line ‘Now the rest of my days are just waiting for when you’ve calmed down and tell me I was meant for you’ is.. obviously saying that the singer is waiting for their partner to come back to them, or revert to their previously kind self— this is why the singer most likely lets their partner hurt them, offering themself up to placate them in the hopes that ‘this’ll be the last time, and then they’ll go back to loving me’ or something in that vein.

The chorus repeats, and then the bridge:

“Just don’t leave me alone wondering where you are/I am stronger than you give me credit for”

Based on this line, I interpret it as the partner trying to distance themselves/leave the singer, so they can stop hurting them, and the singer clinging on desperately, saying they can’t take it, and to not leave them— they want the partner to stay so bad even if it kills them.

“If your hands need to break more than trinkets in your room/you can lean on my arm as you break my heart”

i always interpret this line as the final plea of the singer for the partner to stay— do I think the partner stays? No, not at all. This song feels like the progression of a toxic relationship, up until the very end.

it’s safe to say if this is what we have in store for richgirlyn, I will genuinely have to be put on some kind of watch.

like.. does she let Chaewon say hurtful things to her and just take it because she likes her.. like we know she gets defensive and fights back but she was like. vulnerable with chaewon.. does the things the members say (maybe not out loud, but she sees their looks..) does it all pile up before she just cracks? does she let them break her heart again and again because she loves them, and.. deep down does she think it’s true sometimes? IM GONNA ACTUALLY LOSE IT😭😭it’s so over for me. i love richgirlyn I’m so glad everyone’s giving her the attention she deserves I KNEW SHE WAS COMPLEX GUYS SHES LITERALLY SO ME😭😭

I’m gonna do a lyric analysis on how richgirlyn’s song is real men (by mitski) good luck I’m gonna go CRAZY😭

sorry for ranting it’s just that I am the #1 mitski fan ever I love her music so much I have her albums on vinyl and have an analysis for every song she’s created, written, or been featured in that’s not on an album (like this is a life, susie save your love, cop car, ego, and broken necks) ps. when I say the singer I am not specifically referring to mitski but what she is embodying. I don’t know anything about her and this is all my interpretation of the song 🙏

-🎏

WOAHHHHHHH THATS A LONG ONE (but I read it) some things ur saying are so correct about what’s going to go down but not all and it’s the way this isn’t even the chapter where she cracks that just proves that it’s gonna be so bad for her

[steviewashere]

🧩 and 🌿 for the ask game!

I'm answering this with blurry vision because I've removed my glasses, but don't want to get up to use them. So...If there are any errors, we know why, lol. But thank you for the ask!

🧩 "What will make you click away from a fan fiction immediately?" Before I answer, you should know that I will read basically anything. If it piques my curiosity, then I'll start it, but will click away if I end up just not being into it. So that's one reason.

But I don't have many reasons to click away, honestly. If the formatting is weird (like all the text is one single block), I'll close tab. Simply because I have a hard time reading already (see the thing about my glasses above, lol), but if I've got glasses on, I might try to read it.

I'll also click away if the grammar and spelling is way too all over the place. Like, I can get behind some minor mistakes or something because I get that not everybody uses English as a first language, or maybe not everyone has the best ability to do a grammar check, or they don't have a beta. But if there are just random punctuation marks in places, I'll click away. Again, I think this is just because it makes it hard for my eyes to actually see and read the text. Accessibility is important, y'know?

🌿 "Give some advice on writer's block and low creativity." Oh, boy. Okay. This'll be a long one, buckle up.

Personally, if I find myself hitting a wall, I just close my writing off. I walk away from my computer, give myself a twenty or thirty minute break. Maybe lay down and listen to some music or watch a YouTube video.

It's important to take breaks. I feel that the advice of "pushing through" is just the key to making writing as an art not enjoyable or fulfilling. Over exerting your brain is terrible. So take breaks. Take as many as you want, y'know? That's my biggest advice when it comes to writer's block.

Low creativity, though. I find spikes in my creativity from a lot of things. For instance, my fic Your Body is Warm Next to Mine came from another person's idea on Twitter. Wish You'd Bother Me, Since Week Two, and It's Just a Talk all came from Tumblr prompts in my ask box. In it For the Long Haul (And Then Some) came from a memory I had of my mom's own struggle with amputation.

Creativity comes from everywhere, if you know where to find it. Word generators are excellent, they make some good one word prompts. Maybe a song that you listen to and really listen to the lyrics, which is how I got Two Slow Dancers (my platonic Stancy fic); it's inspired directly by "Two Slow Dancers" by Mitski.

I also would recommend writing in short bursts. Like 15 minute free writes where you take a singular prompt, say the word 'Eggs', and type or pen whatever comes to mind. Sometimes, you'll find your brain doesn't even care about eggs, but the process of making them. Maybe you end up writing something about Easter and religion, y'know? When you find yourself running out of information to write for the prompt, start writing other shit. Write out your shopping list, or when you need to take medication, list your favorite movies and why, put down some loose ideas about ships or pairings that you like. Write until that fifteen minutes is done, take a break, read what you have. See if any of that inspires you. Words don't have to mean anything, it's what you can pull from the words; if that makes sense.

And sometimes, to be creative, you have to be kind of goofy and stupid. If you're low on creativity, but you think of something ridiculous and you think: that might work. Then, who knows, it might work. Write stupid shit. Write terribly, you know?

But, at the end of the day, give yourself breaks. Take a breather and step away. Fan fic writing, or writing in general, is not content creation. You're not a machine churning out ideas. You're just a person with a passion. And to nurture that passion, you have to not suffocate it. Cause that'll fucking kill it. Which always sucks. Creativity and words will flow to you if you allow your brain the ability to catch its breath. Burn out is no fun, brother. Sometimes you just gotta not light the candle, cut the wick a little bit, before you can make it glow again.

——— That got a lot longer, but I hope that this is good? I don't know, haha.

Writers Truth & Dare Ask Game

[canonicallyanxious]

Got a lot of free time on my hands rn [who could say why...] so i put a bit of effort into this year's top 10 lists by which i mean i stole canva's assets for myself and rubbed my gay little hands all over them pls enjoy

absolutely did not have braincells for a proper movies/shows list this year but i will have a special shows-adjacent list out at... some point idk

Full lists along with notes/ramblings under the cut:

Favorite 2023 Album Drops

10. Cherish - Vacationer

9. Phone Orphans - Laura Veirs

8. Praise a Lord Who Chews but Which Does Not Consume; (Or Simply, Hot Between Worlds) - Yves Tumor / this album is gender and no i will not be offering further explanations at this time

7. Red Moon in Venus - Kali Uchis

6. My Big Day - Bombay Bicycle Club

5. Metro Boomin Presents Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse - Metro Boomin, various artists / specifically the deluxe version which has some personal faves the og doesn't, like take it to the top and infamous

4. Unreal Unearth - Hozier

3. The Age of Pleasure - Janelle Monae / full disclosure this one is so high on this year's list because watching them perform this live did rewire my entire brain

2. The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We - Mitski

1. Javelin - Sufjan Stevens / the vinyl for this album comes with an art booklet made by Sufjan that includes 10 mini-essays about love, and reading them for the first time felt like putting my heart in a fucking blender. [you can also read them all here for free if you feel like doing that to yourself tonight]

HONORABLE MENTIONS:

SOS - SZA / the greatest mistake of my life was leaving SOS off my 2022 album list and it will forever haunt me. unfortunately it was also a big grower for me and was released too late in the year for me to realize its genius in time. can't put it on my 2023 list either but pls know it is number one album of the year. in my heart

Soft Machine - Arlo Parks / i think this could have ranked higher had i managed to get around to checking it out when it actually dropped but unfortunately my dumb ass didn't catch it until v late in the year so there you go

House of Groove - Roche Musique / compilation so technically there's a bunch of artists on this record, found this one a little late in the year but wanted to shout it out bc i really enjoyed every track i heard off of it, no small feat

Sorry I Haven't Called - Vagabon / i have no excuse or explanation for this exclusion, there were simply too many records i loved this year

Favorite 2023 Song Finds

(note: per tradition, not confined to 2023 releases, just bops i listened to for the first time this year)

10. So I Danced - DPR IAN (2023) / i forgot to include the year in the graphic and i am too lazy to change it soz

9. Angelina - Milo Korbenski (2021)

8. No Good - Young & Sick (2019)

7. Better Now - SebastiAn, Mayer Hawthorne (2019)

6. Liquid Love (Mr Jukes Remix) - Billie Marten (2021) / one of those remixes i like better than the og, and to be clear i like the og quite a lot. also as i was putting together this list i learned that Mr Jukes is actually the name of the solo project of Bombay Bicycle Club's lead singer so like the more you know!

5. Hair Receding - Xenia Rubinos (2013) / i heard this song for the first time in December which usually would put it at an unfair disadvantage compared to songs that i've had the full year to get attached to but listening to it shook my molecules so vigorously i had no choice but to put it on this list

4. Zero (JID Remix) - Newjeans (2023) / look i am fully aware this song is a blatant kpop ad for coke zero and the chorus literally translates to "coca-cola is tasty / coca-cola is tasty" but that doesn't mean it isn't a BOP. another remix i prefer to the og, i think jid's verse and subtle production tweaks really elevate it to something i never want to stop playing when it comes on

3. Been Thinkin' - Hikes (2019) / or: my most played song of the year! don't examine what this probably reveals about the state of my psyche too closely!

2. I'm Your Man - Mitski (2023)

1. Bruises - Angel Haze (2015) / though i was genuinely v surprised this one did not make it onto my spotify top 5, considering every time it came on this year a fugue state did overtake my whole body and did not dissipate until i had played it at least another four or five times

[corvuscrowned]

today marks one year since i posted my very first fic, The Disappearing Act, which i suppose makes it my fandomversary. i’ve written a lot of words since that first fic, but i’ve also made some incredible friends who have been exceptional support both in my writing and in life.

i wanted to take a second to thank some of the folks who have made my fics possible with alpha and beta reading. this is a remarkable amount of volunteer labor that i think sometimes goes unappreciated in fandom, and the folks who are willing to help each other out with writing are seriously the glue holding all of this together. many of my betas have worked on numerous of my projects with me, so here are some of the amazing friends who have alpha and beta’d multiple of my fics over this past year, and a cheeky little plug for some of their own writing.

@m0srael​, who was an angel who swooped in to beta my first longfic when i was just a fandom baby and made me feel welcome and supported when i needed it most, and has read many a word for me thereafter. check out: my remarkable erised gift To Vanish Into Something Better, as well as their amazing timey-wimey fic, Our Time, that I will never forget.

@thebooktopus​, an early fandom partner in crime who was a joy to learn the ropes alongside. oh, maddy - saver of endings, calmer of crows. where would i be without you? check out: the soft yearning of Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow, the scaldingly sexy What Have You Been Hiding Under Those Robes, Professor Malfoy?

@t4tvegaspete​, the love of my life, who has alpha or beta read the vast majority of the fics i’ve written this year (we’re talking over 250k of my words), and without whom i would unequivocally not be the writer or person i am today. check out: their sexy-spooky Deal With The Devil and their wistfully sharp A Problem For Another Time.

@cavendishbutterfly​, who has made my fandom experience so warm and memorable and who never complains when i slide into their dms to ask if they can beta something for me, “uhhh... by, like, tomorrow?” ugh, cav, i don’t have words to say how much brighter you’ve made my time in fandom. check out: their cozy mystery cluefest The Ever Changing Room, their flannel, mitski, and cat infused friends to lovers song from the morning birds.

@vukovich​, who is evil in the way i enjoy most, who was a guiding hand in my early days of fandom, and whom i will now stop saying nice things about because i know she’s allergic. beta’d my 80k erised in like a week like a fucking champ and caught every plot hole i crammed into the thing. check out: her sexy, evil Vis-à-Vis-à-Vis, and her sexy, bittersweet Fearfull Trill.

@sorrybutblog​​, who is currently alpha reading my longass 110k and growing WIP with exceptional patience and irreplaceable insights, and who has allowed me to send her even more thousands of words of rambling thoughts in dms without complaining once. a vision, a saint, should become emperor of the universe. check out: her age-bent, whip-sharp and characteristically poignant Not Nineteen Forever, and her comforting, enrapturing, and mysterious Heartlines.

@crazybutgood​​, SPaG wizard extraordinaire, who has beta read more words for me than i can count with remarkable turnaround time and the sweetest, kindest words of support. check out: her fluffy, origami-infused fangfest Heart On Your Sleeve, and this amazing podfic she did for T4T.

@moonstruckwytch​, who beta read almost all of my fearfest fics from last year and was a hell of a beta and spooky writing partner whose company made last october unforgettable. check out: their fast-paced, rivetingly romantic catch a break, and their spooky My Bloody Valentine entry iterum.

this isn’t even close to a full list of everyone who has helped work on my fics in this past year, and i’m sending every single one of you a bouquet of noncorporeal roses. thanks to all of u, and to everyone who has read anything i’ve written, looked at my silly doodles, chatted with me abt fandom meta, and made this space feel like a home for the past year. you guys are all the coolest.

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here are some of my Nico headcanons that nobody asked for!!

He collects things. Not just Mythomagic stuff like he did as a kid, but cool shells, and rocks, and weird glass figurines that everyone else thinks are terrifying, and books. He’s got them in jars or lined up on shelves and he just has so many things (Because for so long he had so few things that actually belonged to him that didn’t have to serve a very clear purpose, so now he just wants to keep whatever he’d like)

He reads SO much as an adult. A lot of it is nonfiction because he’s trying to catch up on what happened in the world while he was pulled out of it, but a lot of fiction too (not really fantasy though, that’s too close to home) and a lot of poetry. He can recite poems from memory and will just randomly quote them sometimes and it should be pretentious but it isn’t and his friends think it’s amazing (cue dramatically saying "till love and fame to nothingness do sink" anytime he's told he has to wait) (Also, he will rant about why Ted Hughes sucks at any point in time)

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again!! He is a Dungeon Master! He’s got a binder for all the notes for his current campaign and a notebook for ideas and special highlighters and pens that he only uses for D&D. Also, dice are definitely one of the things he collects and he keeps them in those clear, plastic bead containers with dividers and they’re sorted by number of faces and also ~vibes~ (for example, do a backflip D20 and life or death D20)

leather jacket Nico di Angelo? seen, respected, and appreciated. CARDIGAN Nico di Angelo? underrated! He has a couple oversized cardigans with buttons and big pockets that he adores. The first one he ever had he definitely stole from Will but now, whenever he comes across another similar one, he buys it. The pockets are filled with rocks and worn, mass-market paperbacks and pens. (Basically, I’m leaning hard into English Major Nico with his annotated books and glasses and cardigans) (Also, cardigan Nico and flannel Will but sometimes they swap)

He definitely cuts his own hair in the bathroom and he's gotten very good at it. He's had a range of haircuts, from long hair to a mullet to the shaved sides and fluffy top, but he always ends up back with a shaggy mop that Hazel likes to put little braids in (or sometimes pull the very back of it into two little pigtails) and with bangs that always end up in his eyes.

Sorry to reiterate the same point that's been made forever, but his wardrobe is pretty dark-toned. Obviously black, but he does like a good jewel tone, perhaps a maroon or an emerald. Anything really bright was either a gift or belongs to Will someone else. Also, gendered clothing means nothing to him. He wears what he wants to wear and he thinks it's cool as hell when he's wearing a skirt while sparring and it flares out dramatically as he twirls.

He's kind of picked up modern slang but he also uses a lot of slang from pretty much every decade he missed. It's also a 50/50 chance he's using it incorrectly. (examples include: 1) Leo says something that is definitely supposed to be funny and Nico stares at him, utterly emotionless, and says "Gag me with a spoon" in an alarmingly monotone voice, and 2) Anytime he says something snarky to Jason or Percy he starts it with "hey bestie..." and honestly, they're both just touched Nico called them "bestie" at all)

He adores Studio Ghibli movies and can be found humming the Ponyo theme song anytime he goes swimming (Will standing on the shore, looking around for Nico and he eventually spots him in the water. He wades out to Nico, all sunglasses that shouldn't look so cool and golden hair and chest, and just greets him with "Hey there, Neeks, how's my fishie in the sea?" and Nico can't decide if he wants to drown himself or kiss Will on his stupid mouth)

Speaking of movies, shortly after the Giant War, all of his friends (the Seven, Reyna, Will, probably Lou Ellen and Cecil, too) showed up at his cabin with blankets and snacks. They each brought their favorite movie or movies they think he needs to see to catch him up on the modern age. At first, he acts disgruntled that they're all there but he very quickly settles into the blanket fort Annabeth constructs and is quietly very grateful and excited that they cared enough to do this for him. They're all holed up in his cabin for a full day until they've finished every movie. (Percy brought Finding Nemo, Annabeth brought Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone, Piper brought Scott Pilgrim vs The World, Jason brought Captain America: The First Avenger (and Nico definitely says "that's gay" when Steve and Bucky say there "Until the end of the line" shit and everybody absolutely loses their minds), Hazel also is behind on movies but she brought either a very scary movie or Moana, Frank brought A New Hope (though he considered Brother Bear), Will brought Spirited Away, Cecil brought Back to the Future, and Lou Ellen brought The Princess Bride)

He can play the piano! He gets a piano for the Hades cabin and on nights where he can't sleep and the nightmares are really bad, he plays piano.

He will cry if he hears I Will by Mitski or Wasteland, Baby by Hozier, for different reasons but also kind of not (he wants to be loved)

Also, Nico and Dionysus being buddies! Nico jokingly says he'll host a bacchanal if Dionysus excuses him from certain camp activities and that's how Nico and friends end up wearing togas around a campfire, all very hesitantly holding cups of wine they aren't actually going to drink. It is definitely not a bacchanal, it's just a bad toga party (barely) but Dionysus accepts it and decides Nico is a Good One.

(Yes I did very badly make this stupid meme that somebody has definitely made a variation of before)

This is definitely not a complete list of headcanons but it's what I've got so far!

[dachshund-games]

okie what are some song recs you have for us? List as many as you want (pls explain why they are so amazing too!!!)

Oh babe you have unlocked something you probably shouldn't have buckle the fuck up

Pictures in my head from the Muppet movie- Out of all the songs on here this is probably the one I relate to the most. My insecurities tend to target my relationships with my friends, so when I feel really bad about maybe ending a friendship I listen to this (Also the amount of times I've imagined animatics to this song is unhealthy)

A Pearl by Mitski- I want to scream this song from the top of a mountain that is all

Dead man's party by Oingo Boingo- Honestly this song is just a bop

Passing Through by Kaden MacKay- Sometimes it's easy for me to feel like I'm just watching my life as a movie and not living it the way I should. I also go through phases where nothing feels real and I feel really disconnected from my body and this song helps me rationalize that feeling and help me overcome it

Best Friend by Rex Orange County- I can apply the lyrics of this song to events of my life and every time I listen to it I either jam out in my room for hours or lay on the floor and cry. There is no in-between

Talia from Ride the Cyclone- This song is so lovely. I've never seen the musical, but in this song he's talking about how much he loves his online girlfriend. He's also Ukrainian and some of the lyrics are in Ukrainian! It also goes from a soft love song to disco to soft love song

The Uranium Suite from Ride the Cyclone- The ending of this song is one you belt while standing on a cliff. The lyrics are good and sets up the show well. 10/10

Adventure is out there by AJR- Prefacing this by saying that AJR holds a special place in my heart. My best friend introduced me to their music and they were also the first concert I ever went to. This song speaks to me in a way I can't describe and it's just fun to listen to

Navy Skies by Egg- This song makes me feel capable of loving someone. The soft music and sweet lyrics combine to make a song that makes my insides feel like maple syrup

Time Alive by KC Katalbas- This makes me feel like I'm driving along a road beside a beach with my hair blowing in the wind. I've cried to it several times

Death of a bachelor by Panic! At the disco- This is so good and it was also my top song of 2021 :/

Lotta true crime by Penelope Scott- My bestie and I both went through a true crime phase at the same time and she introduced me to this song. I'm still a true crime fan but I'm not as fanatic about it as I used to me, but this song reminds me of her

Karma by AJR- The ending of this song makes me cry because I can relate to it and holy shit it hits me right in the insecurities

Lay all your love on me from Mamma Mia!- THIS SONG IS A FUCKING BANGER AND IF YOU DISAGREE I WILL BECOME A VERY VIOLENT INDIVIDUAL!!!!!!!

505 by Arctic Monkeys- Sometimes I just sit on my bed and listen to this song and when I do that is the only time I feel like a whole human being, not just a consciousness in a body

Introduction to the snow by Miracle Musical- This is one of the saddest yet most beautiful songs I have ever listened to. It makes me feel emotions I didn't know I had and has gotten me through some pretty rough times. Just.... *cries*

Lavender by Penelope Scott- The only way I can describe this song is "Spinning downwards very fast" and honestly it slaps

The campfire song from The lightning thief musical- This song helped me get through the worst chapter of my life because I could relate to it so much. I can also sing it from memory

[cherryatnight]

Me and My Husband - Giyu Tomioka

master list || asks

warnings - mentions of death, bodily harm (caused by someone else), thought of losing a loved one

word count - 1479

a/n - hello everyone!! if you couldn't tell this short story is based off the song Me and My Husband by Mitski. if you have any requests feel free to send an ask and let me know, i hope you're all doing swell <3

(2nd person pov, any pronouns)

"And I am the idiot with the painted face In the corner, taking up space but when he walks in, I am loved, I am loved"

Looking around, you realized all the Hashira were looking at you. You've made a fool out of yourself, everyone knew it, but they wouldn't tell you, no matter how much of an outsider you were. Although you were physically strong, you lacked the mental strength a Hashira should have, you could never communicate with others well. Ever since you joined the Demon Slayer Corps you had done everything alone, you survived the Final Selection alone, you can survive being a Hashira alone. Walking away from the group, you decided to sit under a tree on the other side of the garden, you didn't want to deal with the embarrassment that came along with being late to a meeting. Suddenly, you felt your sad aura change, quickly turning your eyes met Giyu's blue ones and the air felt crisper, like you could actually breath without the pressure of living up to any standards. The others either didn't notice or were too caught up in what they were doing to see that he had arrived, so he made himself comfortable next to you, leaning your head against his, you explained your mishap to which he responded with a light hearted chuckle.

"Me and my husband we're doing better it's always been just him and me"

After a long night, you walked into the garden all the estates surrounded, it was peaceful there, it always had been at night. Taking your Nichirin blade off your belt, you set it aside before laying down and looking at the starry sky. You heard someone walking into the garden behind you, but you didn't worry, you knew who it was. Giyu layed next to you, and without saying anything he gave you a quick but passionate kiss and you two let the silence engulf you. This had become a nightly routine for you even before meeting Giyu and slowly he followed that nightly routine. You slowly got up and Giyu went to follow, but you pushed him back down and took his raven colored hair out of his messy ponytail. He always said he hated you doing his hair, but before missions he always had you tie his pony a little tighter for good luck. You slowly start combing your fingers through his hair, he slowly relaxed against you and let you continue, starting to hum your guy's song. You had met him after he was taken in by your mentor, Sakonji Urokodaki. You both trained together with two other young kids, Sabito and Makomo, but you two were the only ones to complete the final selection without getting eaten by a demon. He never left your side after that, you had tried to get him to open up to you multiple times after losing Sabito, but he always just stayed silent or changed the subject.

"And at least in this lifetime we're sticking together"

The relationship you and the Water Hashira shared was never something either of you shared openly, you both loved each other beyond reason and would do anything for the other, but your remote and quiet personalities never lead you to need to flaunt it out, hell, you didn't even tell anyone the two of you were married. You were sure everyone knew, how couldn't they? Whenever you weren't on a mission or training youngsters, the two of you were glued at the hip, even if there were no words exchanged. In the beginning, some of the other Hashiras had tried to figure out your guy's relationship but dropped the subject after not learning what they had hoped to hear. Eventually everyone found out after Giyu had been injured on a mission and you can running into the Butterfly Mansion while pushing by the other slayers and holding back tears. He was minorly injured and would heal in a few days, but all you cared about was seeing him safe now and all he cared about was knowing there was one less demon that would put you in harm's way. After that, they all had the answer they had been wondering about for ages.

"me and my husband we're doing better"

Most of the time, you two never went on missions together, you assumed it was just the luck of the draw. One day, you two had been called to a mountain along with Shinobu, something about a Twelve Kitzuki living on the mountain. You didn't mind, the other two didn't seem to either, considering you all had defeated at least one of them before. As soon as you got to the mountain, Shinobu left to go coordinate the clean up and show how to administer an antidote to some wounded people. Shortly after, you and Giyu split up, promising him you'd be okay, you gave him a kiss goodbye and headed on your way to find the demon that had taken so many of your fellow slayers. Then you heard it, a young kid yelling about his sister, following the sound you were faced with the demon you had been sent to kill, a lower rank five. His white hair covered part of his eye, but you had been able to observe and figure out which of the twelve he was. You recognized the kid's earring's, Giyu had said something about his sister being a demon and how he just let them go, you had called him crazy in the moment, but later you knew you would've done the same if you were in his shoes. Trying to keep the kid in your eye, you turned to the demon and waited to be able to see his abilities. Spider webs shot out of his fingers and surrounded the kid in a cage that was slowly closing in, after quickly running and slashing him out, you turned to the demon, you could see the anger seaming off him. Running at him, you went to slash his neck and it easily came off with only half of your strength, odd but you weren't going to question it. You turned to the kid and assessed him damage, he seemed over exhausted, and probably had a few broken bones here and there, you knew he would be okay. Thats when you felt, the shivers down your spine you got whenever a demon was near, you turned around, but not fast enough, the spider-like demon had sent an array of webs your way, all you could think of was keeping the kid safe. You stepped in front of him and took the blast, very well knowing how badly you'd get hurt. Launching back, your vision got blurry and it was hard to focus on the demon, calming your breathing you charged at the demon before you heard a voice ring out and you knew you and the kid would be okay. Giyu was here, and within a minute, the demon was no more. He must not have seen you because he rushed at the kid and his sister first before seeing you laying a few feet away from the kid. At first he couldn't figure it out, but then he saw your front side, dozens of slashes scattered your skin from head to toe.

It was warm, the next thing you felt was immense warmness and a pressure in your left hand, almost like a hand. Slowly and painfully, you opened your eyes and looked at your hand, Giyu laid there holding your hand against his forehead. His ocean blue eyes looked up to meet yours and you could tell he was heartbroken, his eyes seemed dull and sad, even looking at you. Before you could say anything, all you heard were apologizes from him, from not being there to protect you, to allowing you to go off even though he knew one of the Twelve Kitzuki were there. Your heart broke at the sight, such a strong person was completely shattered at even the idea of you brushing death for a dumb call you made. You grabbed him and pulled him into a hug, it was painful for you to move in such a way but you didn't care, all that mattered was him, and him knowing that you were okay now. Apparently you had been asleep for almost two weeks, and not once did he leave your side, his missions had been put on a pause and he didn't even leave to eat, he just sat and waited. You knew that even if he didn't say it, you had scared him more then the surface showed, you two were all the other had and you'd bet your life to save the other. But it was okay, cause you and him were together and that's all that mattered.

[weafurry]

Grimm and/or PK for the ask game(I can't decide between them they're both interesting)

I'll do both because I refuse to shut up

For PK,

Favorite thing about him: INTERESTING LORE AND HOLY MOTHER OF MORALLY FUCKING GREY honestly something I find super interesting is, compare him to asgore. People are much more tolerant of asgore and I think that's because we see him alive, in game. We have an interaction with him with him verbally addressing us. We have a lot to focus on that isn't yk. Child murder. PK that isn't the case. And I find it interesting how drastically that changes the respective fandoms reactions to the two characters.

Least favorite thing: Again! Don't really have one tbh. I love all the characters in this game there's not really anything negative I can say. I mean. Of course I wish we could of gotten more lore or screen time for him. Maybe some stuff that gives a bit more context for his personality or something, but it's not at all needed. He's already a great character without that.

Favorite line: FUNNY ENOUGH, the "..." After he says "No cost too great". Just because, it adds so much of a tone? Implication? That he doesn't really believe it. I can't find a good word for it, but you probably get what I'm saying.

brOTP: him and Ogrim. They're best friends your honor.

OTP: Do I even need to say it, it's pale nightmare. Of course it's pale nightmare.

nOTP: besides any of the obvious ones, him and The Radiance. Just. No. I'm not gonna stop people, but, just. No thanks. I'd like to never see that please and thank you.

Now someone get me that memory erasing gun from Gravity Falls please/hj.

Random head canon: I HAVE SO MANY WHY AM I FORGETTING THEM ALL NOW- anyways. Wyrms kinda have their own language that other beings can't really speak just because their vocal cords can't really form the nessecary sounds. Wyrms have weird as shit vocal cords basically. What that makes them sound like is up to the imagination. When someone startles him or like absentmindedly saying something under his breath or something he'll just accidentally slip back into it. When he does curse, its probably in wyrm tounge most of the time and not something anyone around him could actually understand.

Unpopular opinion: was the vessel shit absolutely fucked up? Yes. Is he some horrible evil person who's not remotely morally grey with awful intentions and enjoyed doing the shit he did? Absolutely fucking not and I will throw hands with the people who make him unnecessarily awful just for the sake of angst.

Song I associate with him: HOOO FUCKING BOY. GIVE ME A SECOND TO FIND MY LIST.

Ship in a bottle by Fin Argus

Hyperdontia by GHOST

Honey I'm home by GHOST

Little Dark Age by MGMT

A Burning Hill by Mitski

There's more I'm forgetting but those are the big ones

NOW GRIMM

Just as a disclaimer my thoughts on him arent quite as polished.

Favorite thing about him: just. LOOK AT HIM. Hes so fucking COOL.

Least favorite thing about him: as always none

Favourite line: not much really particularly stands out in my mind, but if I wanna be a dumbass, the thing that I have been using to fuel my ride on the pale nightmare train for months

(Oh my god I just realized there's no capitalization on dear... THE PALE NIGHTMARE TRAIN JUST GOT MORE FUEL PEOPLE LET'S GO)

brOTP: I don't think I really have one for him. Like I said, my thoughts on him aren't nearly as polished as the ones on pk, hell I'm still fucking figuring out my head canons on how the nightmare heart works.

OTP: again, do I really need to say it? pale nightmare.

nOTP: the vessels or hornet. Just. Shipping him with any of them in one scenario where in another he'd be like a father figure to them, just. Feels ehhhh. No hate to anyone who does ship him with any of them. I just dont.

Random headcanon: the glow in his eyes will get brighter on certain sentences if they have a lot of weight to them or something like that. If emotions are especially high you can everrr so faintly see lighter red pupils, but you pretty much have to be squinting. Also this is a pretty common one but him and the radiance are siblings.

Unpopular opinion: I don't really have any I don't think.

In terms of songs I associate with him, I just have songs I think he'd like because I just think they'd be his taste.(I think he probably has a super wide music taste but these are just the ones I think would be his favorites) I do have songs I properly associate with him but those ones are super subject to change because of the whole, thoughts not being super polished thing.

So for songs I think he'd like, he'd definitely like pretty much any song by the arctic monkeys. (And cmon, who doesnt?) Also older songs like I'm still standing by Elton John, Gimme gimme gimme by Abba, Heart of glass by Blondie, and Everybody Wants To Rule The World by Tears for Fears. (No I'm not projecting because a large portion of my music taste is older then I am SHUSH) He'd also like the band The Orion experience.