#it really does always start with being addicted to the music first before i know anything about the band doesn't it

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

how did showaddywaddy make its way to #4 on my long term top bands already, what

[rainba]

This is very random– BUT I wanted to talk a little bit more about Luka and his obsession with his darling. ((I'll be posting the Luka kidnapping Kairos and darling fic next. :3c But I wanted to get this out first.))

In most posts, it always sounds like he’s uncaring about his darling– being mean all the time– and only likes the thrill of chasing them. But…

Deep down, he truly is madly in love with his darling. He’s just… Horrible at expressing it sometimes.

tags/TWs: light mentions of stalking, yandere, slightly creepy/obsessive behaviors.

reader is GN

Luka isn’t used to feeling such strong emotions. Throughout most of his life, nothing has really made him feel much of anything. Getting perfect grades? Whatever. Going out on dates? He just did it because he could, not because he had any real interest in people. Winning a competition or getting into fights? A little exciting, sure, but the feeling fades pretty fast.

But when it comes to you..? He feels something indescribable. And it’s intense.

At first, he doesn’t really understand it. Why is his heart tightening in his chest? Why does his face feel so warm? Why is it hard to look you in the eyes? Why are you constantly on his mind?? He’ll never express these things to you, he’s amazing at hiding it, but his feelings for you are making him go crazy.

In the beginning, he’ll start stalking your social media without realizing it. Every time he’s at work and has a moment to spare, his hands will instinctively pull out his phone and open your profile. He checks to see if you've posted anything– and if you haven’t, he’ll settle for rereading your conversations, if you’ve ever had any with him. Honestly, it’s embarrassing, but he just can’t stop himself. It’s addicting. His heart skips a beat when he sees that you’ve shared something.

…Again, highly embarrassing for him.

Then the next stage rolls in: he gets your pictures printed and frames them in his house and on his work desk. Seeing your face always calms him down and makes him feel warm inside. The more stressful days at work now hardly affect him, all thanks to you… And now he doesn’t feel so disheartened when he returns to his empty home.

Then the third stage rolls around: he needs to see you multiple times a week. It’s similar to the way he checks his phone; he doesn’t realize it as his legs instinctually start to carry him wherever he thinks he may find you. He needs to know if you’re safe– needs to know that you’re happy and nothing bad is going on… Those are his excuses, anyway. He’s not exactly sure why he loves watching and following you, but he just does. He also does genuinely love the idea of being your protector, though.

Possessing you, protecting you, spoiling and loving you each and every day… He wants to do it all. Just for you.

But deep down, Luka’s constantly fighting himself. He has to learn to control his urges and manage his emotions… After all, since he’s never experienced such intense feelings before, he’s never learned how to cope with them. Seeing you being around other men makes his blood boil; he’s had to research ways to cope with his rage. Now he just listens to music and goes on runs, trying his hardest to not seek revenge on the innocent people you talk to.

Luka has never yearned for something so badly before. When he goes to bed at night, he finds himself longing to have you in his arms… It becomes almost impossible to sleep. 

How cute it would be to see you wearing his clothes to bed… How nice it would be to see you crawl next to him and give him a kiss goodnight as he wraps his arms around you, holding you close to him. How nice it would be to feel the rise and falling of your chest as he thinks about just how lucky he is to have you.

And Luka thinks to himself: “...Is this what it means to be in love?”

Deep down, he didn’t really think he’d ever feel it– he almost thought love was just a myth. When people told him that love is a wonderful feeling unlike any other, he thought they were lying. Now he doesn’t want to let you go… He can’t, he just can’t. He doesn’t think he could feel this way about anyone (or anything) ever again.

Once Luka has finally realized that he needs you more than anything, he’ll stop being ashamed of his actions. He will have already been a little bit close to you– he talks to you sometimes, but he’s remained somewhat distant up until now. He can’t keep the gap between you any longer.

Luka will do whatever it takes to get you the “natural way” first. In order to start things up, he’ll create a bunch of fake chance-encounters. Like, oh… You’re here ordering some food, too? How crazy! You’re also on your way to shop for some clothes? Wow, that’s also crazy, because he was just about to go out and buy himself a new leather jacket. So… You don’t mind if he tags along, right? (He tries his hardest to be nonchalant about it. Doesn’t want to look like he’s trying too hard..)

After that, he’ll start to ask you out on dates, buy you anything you’d like, ask you about your interests and let you ramble on about anything you like… He already knows all your interests, but he just likes the way your eyes light up as you talk about them. (Also, Luka sort of just adopts your interests too, as he doesn’t really have too many of his own.)

When Luka first tries to court you, he’ll be an extreme gentleman. He always pays all the restaurant bills, holds doors open for you and drives you everywhere. Although, to be honest, he does this even after the beginning stages… He just likes to spoil his darling in general.

In the end, he wants you to basically be his ”mate for life.” He wants you to be his one and only, the most important and special person in his entire life. You’ve shown him what it’s like to feel love, and now he yearns to know what it’s like to be loved in return. Luka won’t stop until he gets what he wants.

[onmyyan]

Caspian NSFW ABC'S

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Three words, attentive, bubbly, and clingy, he needs that skin-to-skin contact immediately, no matter what, Cas checks in with you after he manages to get enough air in his lungs, gets you whatever you need faster than the request can leave your lips.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He likes his eyes, the reason being one day you told him just how pretty you found them, Since then he can't help but see the beauty in himself, and his favorite of yours? Asking Caspian to choose a favorite body part is impossible, but, he'd always be a special kind of weak to your smile.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Need I remind you of the MASSIVE breeding kink this mf has?? Good because I will. He's happy to cum anywhere you'd let him but deep inside will always be his favorite.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Has on several occasions cum into your food, it scratches this, hidden, primal need to have some part of him with you at all times, and he deep down liked that you were none the wiser.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Caspian has had a few relationships before and it's in his nature to please, he is a munch your honor, that is to say, while he hasn't been in a lot of relationships, he's always been a pleaser and learned to read his partners quite well.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

So our boy loves to be as close to you as possible right? and there's something about having your soft thighs tightly locked around his waist in missionary, with those nails clawing into his back pressing him even further into you, yanking at his hair as if holding on for dear life, it makes his eyes roll back.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Depends on your mood really, he follows your lead. If you're giggly and playful? He matches the energy, not in the mood for games? Bet. He can read you like he has a pamphlet

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Light grooming doesn't really care much, darker shade of his red hair, although he started growing out his happy trail when he saw how you reacted to it.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Very very romantic, mood lighting, and music if you're into it, Ol' house-husband over here makes it feels as meaningful and special as the first time, everytime. Worships every inch of your body, constantly praises you in the most meaningful ways.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

You'd think with how often you two screwed he'd be satiated but nah he's a fiend who jerks off to your selfies while you're away and humps your pillow.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Huge size kink, Overstimulation, Feeder Kink

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Anyplace no one will see you, his blood pressure spikes at the mere idea of a mf seeing you come undone.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

BABES WHAT DOESN'T- but fr you doing something as mundane as reading a book or one of your hobbies he finds absolutely marvelous, one second he's admiring the way your skin looks in the light of the warm day, the next thing he knows he's kissing up your legs because he's so overwhelmed by his love for you.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Can't degrade you, Nope. Sorry. He just can't be mean to his baby!!! It's not happening.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Certified MUNCH, If he had a beard it be red if you pick up what I'm putting down lmao. He'd rather go down on you but he's not gonna say no if you offer, just know he will get impatient and flip your positions eventually, too addicted to the taste to be patient.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He likes to take his time with you no matter what, but in terms of pacing, by the time he finally sinks inside, his mind has turned off any other function than to please, meaning if you twitch a little more when he rolls his hips slower? He's doing it. If you go all starry-eyed when he fucks into you like a jackrabbit? Then he's shaking the headboard.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

If the area is secure enough he'll do it, although he'll always prefer getting to take his time with you. His stamina is monstrous so he's ready to go when you are lmao

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He's game to experiment if that's something you need but he is also a creature of habit.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Minimum of two rounds, max four, but they last hours, he wants to soak in every moment with you so if he can he's gonna take his time.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He doesn't use toys himself, but he does get a evil lil kick outta using yours on you, making you squirm and buck against him, type to fuck you and use your vibrator on your clit at the same time, after all, if it made you squeak like that how could he not use the tools to his full advantage?

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease) He's a little bit of a tease in the build up to sex, very touchy and lots of heavy stares, the way he looks at you is impossible to ignore and always manages to light that familiar fire in your tummy, during the actual act he's far too into giving you EXACTLY what you want and need to deny you even for a few teasing moments.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.) Very loud, lots of deep, choppy moans, he's whining out all his appreciations and praises, your name is all he can say sometimes, physically unable to do anything but fuck into you as deep as he could.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Secretly has this fantasy of you getting his name tatted and the image of cumming all over that permanent mark has made him cum in his boxers before.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

7.5 and thick, and between you and me his tip is dummy sensitive

This mf YEARNS, he craves you, always, constantly, he'd be happy just existing in your space but you bless him by loving him, and all he wants to do is show you how much he appreciates all you do for him, this devotion comes out in many ways but the main is fuckin till the room stank 💀🤚🏼

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

It takes him a while, despite having just cum so hard he saw white for a moment, his heart pounds too hard to rest, he's giddy, buzzing in his place, arms wrapped around you like a second skin, he'll only fall asleep after he gets in a good hour of watching you sleep ofc.

[sunraies]

OH I LOVE YOUR WORKS SM I REALLY READ THEM EVERY DAY ITS A ROUTINE TO ME

my request is kook!reader who gets along with Camerons very well. tutores to Wheez, gives her old study notes to Sarah, chit chats with Rose etc. and Rafe is adoring her. but they have some problems lately like Rafe's friends behaviours or Rafe's addiction or something about her idk really. and all these little problems becomes a big one and they finally have a fight. BIG. at Camerons. Wheez worrying, Rose is confused and Sarah is like 'finally, Rafe dont deserve you.' idk end however you want.

actually to me FULL ANGST. but however you want to end it honey. whether fluff or angst i am sure id love it. love you.

Oh my god! You are gotta make me cry 😭😭😭🥰. I love you too x

I hope this does your request justice. I tried to make it angst filled, but I'm such a fluff girl!

Goodbye

Rafe Cameron x Kook!Reader

Warnings - Angst. Some fluff. Drug, alcohol and addict behaviour.

Your lifelong friendship with Rafe started to break slowly, but when he learns that you are leaving, it hits breaking point.

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You spent as much time at the Cameron's as you did your own home, if not more. Your family lived next door, having moved there when you were young. Being neighbours meant growing up closely together and having Rafe Cameron as a best friend was a rollercoaster.

From the moment you first met Rafe, he adored you. The little blue-eyed boy with a wicked smile didn't know what hit him, literally. One minute, he was pulling your hair, and the next, you were punching him in the stomach. When questioned what happened, neither ratted the other out. It was you and Rafe against the world.

As you grew, you were always there for each other. He was there for you when Hank Harrison broke your heart and you were there for him when his mother left, leaving behind a broken Rafe, a small Sarah and baby Wheezie.

Your lives were tangled and waver together so tightly that you never thought it would break.

It started to fray after senior year. With the pressure of the future, you noticed a change in Rafe.

He had always loved partying hard, the girls and the booze, but no matter how far he took it, it never affected his daily life or how he treated you. You were his VIP guest to every party. It wasn't until he met Barry and a friend in the form of white powder that you had your first small fight.

You had been dancing with Sarah most of the night, having a good time until you became tired. You found Rafe surrounded by people, some you knew like Topper and Kelce but others you didn't. He was trying to convince Topper to take his first bump.

"Rafe," you called over the pounding music. He frowned before giving you a lopsided smile and pulling you into his lap, earning a few glares from the girls sitting around him.

"There's my girl." He grinned and wrapped you in his arms. "I missed you,"

With you, he didn't care if people saw him soft. You were his sweet other half. You brought out the softer side in him. He never admitted it to you, but he was sure he had loved you since the age of 5.

"I have been here all night," you said softly, seeing his pupils blown so wide, broke your heart a little. "I was coming to say goodbye,"

"Goodbye?" He frowned as you ran your hand through his hair, making him sigh. "The party's just started,"

"It's 3am."

"Stay, have some of the good stuff." He offered you a sip of his beer before grabbing a rolled up bill for you.

"Rafe, I don't want that,"

He groaned and loosened his grip on you, rolling his eyes and throwing his head back "Don't be so fucking boring"

"Good night, Rafe," you whispered, moving out of his lap and heading for the door. You heard him calling after you, but you didn't go back.

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The next slightly bigger argument you had was when you and Wheezie found him, drunk and high in the kitchen. You had been over to help Wheeze with her French homework. Being completely flunt, you were the best person to help.

You had gone to the kitchen for snacks, finding Rafe stumbling, slamming cabinet doors as he muttered away to himself. Something about hidden money, that his dad must have a stash hidden in the kitchen.

Ward had stashes in every room of the house, and you were sure of it but never thought of looking into the theory.

"Rafe?" Wheezie asked softly. He span around to her and sighed.

"Have you seen any of the money, dad hides?" He asked but Wheeze shook her head "Fuck"

"Why do you need it?"

"Cause, I fucked up Wheeze" He groaned "I fucked up big time!" He took a swig of the open whiskey bottle from the counter top before offering her some.

"Did you really just offer me, booze?" Wheezie frowned. "I'm 13"

"Shit, god. I'm sorry, Wheeze." He covered his eyes with his hands and groaned again. "I'm so fucked, but I'm gonna fix it"

"Go upstairs, Wheeze. I'll be up in a minute. " You fixed one of her braids, and you watched as she hurried up the stairs before turning back to Rafe.

"What you do this time?" You asked, arms folded as he looked over at you. It was like he had just noticed you were there.

"Why does it have to be something I did?" He asked, frowning as he took a drink again

"Is it Barry again?"

He laughed "No it's not fucking Barry. Just get off my case"

"Rafe, you just told your 13 year old sister, that you need money and offered her whiskey" You pointed out "Now tell me what the fuck the problem is"

He looked you up and down. "My sister. Exactly. It's a family problem. Don't worry yourself over something that isn't your business"

You tried not to take it to heart. He was hiding the fact that he was in trouble by cutting you out. It wasn't the first time he'd been in debt to Barry, but it was the first time he didn't admit it to you.

"Rafe" Wheezie whispered from the door way. She had a small bundle of dollar bills in her hand "Will this help? It's all I've got for now"

She received a small allowance from Ward, something all the Cameron kids had. Being the youngest, she didn't get as much, but she saved it all, claiming she wanted to buy her own first car.

"Shit," Rafe muttered as he suddenly broke down in front of you both.

You hurried over to him and cradled his head to your chest as he sobbed. Poor Wheezie stood helpless as she watched her big brother crumble in your arms.

Later, you found out that all the money Rafe paid Barry back had been stolen by Sarah. You hoped that day would be a wake-up call to make him stop, but it only got worse.

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You hadn't seen Rafe for a few weeks when you sat in the Cameron's kitchen, munching grapes as you sat on the kitchen island, speaking to Rose as she made a pot of coffee.

"I'm so proud of you." She smiled. "I can't believe our girl is going to Paris!"

You smiled back. You had come round to pick up Sarah for a shopping spree and told Rose the news that you had been accepted to a collage in Paris.

"I can't believe it either." You popped a grape in your mouth. "I honestly didn't think I would get in."

"Of course you would. I mean, look at you. They would have been stupid, not too. "

"Not to, what?" Rafe stumbled into the kitchen, his hair messy from sleep as he wore only sweatpants, he smelt strongly of the night before and had a light sweat on his brow, clearing in the middle of a come down.

"Not accept her to their collage." Rose smiled as the kettle boiled.

Rafe nodded and grunted as he grabbed a cup before he paused. "Collage? What fucking collage?"

You had told him a million times that your dream was to go to Paris. Collage was the perfect way to have the chance to live there.

"Paris," Rose answered, slightly oblivious to the tension building in the room. You flinched as Rafe dropped his cup down, harder than needed on the side.

"Paris?"

"Yes, Rafe. Paris, " You muttered. It was meant to be the most exciting news to share with him, but with the way things had been, you hadn't got the chance.

He stared at you as you stared back. He was waiting for the punch line. It had to be a joke. You were leaving him.

"Rose? Have you seen my white Converse?" Wheezie asked as she entered the kitchen before looking between you and Rafe.

"No, honey. Maybe in the sunroom?" Rose suggested before going to look with her.

"Fucking Paris?" Rafe frowned

"Yes, Rafe fucking Paris" You said back, in a even tone.

"So you were just going to up and leave me?"

"No, I told you about this before. Not that I'd been accepted, but I've been wanting to go all year"

Soon, you were yelling at each other so loudly everyone in the house could hear.

"Just fuck off to Paris, then!" He yelled "I don't fucking need you anymore! Always dragging me down!"

"Oh, I'm planning too!" You snapped back. "Sorry to have been such a downer. I'll be gone in no time!"

"Good! I'll be fucking free!"

"So free! Have fun fucking the girl you have up stairs!"

"Wow. Jealous?!"

"Nothing to be jealous of," you said calmly. You never insulted him back before. Normally ending the arguments quickly but this time you were done "Just a drunk, drugged up dickhead"

He stared at you, "Fuck off" He muttered

"That's the plan." You didn't want to leave him behind, but you needed to go after your own future.

"Ready to go?" Sarah asked, looking between you. The looks you were throwing it each were deadly.

"Yeah. I'm done here." You pushed yourself off the island and left Rafe to watch you go, smashing the cup against the countertop after you left.

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You checked your passport, ticket, and flight number three times as you stood with your family and the Camerons, minus Rafe. Everyone hugged you goodbye. You subconsciously glanced around as you had the heavy feeling of something missing.

"You don't need him here," Sarah said softly as she pulled back from a long hug. "I'm sorry, I know you want him here. But you don't need him."

You nodded, knowing she was right. You didn't need the Rafe you'd seen recently, but part of you wished you had your Rafe there.

The one who gave your first kiss when you were worried you would never get one. The one who snuck into your room with your favourite ice cream after punching Hank Harrison and spent hours holding you. The one who checked in on you at parties. The one who took you to prom, claiming he was the only date worthy of you. You knew he'd threatened anyone who tried asking you, but at the time, you didn't care. You had your Rafe.

After a long goodbye and a final call for your flight, you made your way to the gate when you heard him calling your name over the sound of the music in your earphones.

You frowned, turning around slowly as Rafe Cameron ran towards you. He was completely out of breath when he made it to you, but he looked different.

His eyes were clearer, those gorgeous ocean blue again. He smelt of his cologne and not of the night before.

"Don't you dare tell me not to go." As a part of you was happy to see him, another was worried.

He shook his head and gently grabbed your arms. "No, no. I would never"

You raised an eyebrow at him. "I'm going to miss my flight."

"I'll make it quick. I promise." He moved his hands to your cheeks when you didn't move away from his touch.

"What is it?"

"I couldn't let you go without saying goodbye," He whispered before slowly moving closer to you. "I'm so sorry, baby."

You sighed softly and nodded. Your heart rapidly beating in your chest.

"I have to go," you whispered, but you made no move to leave as they announced your flight again.

"I know, I know." He breathed as his lips made contact with yours.

You whimpered against him, unable to control it before deepening the kiss. The airline announcing they were on last check-in broke you apart.

"I love you," He whispered against your lips

"I know, I know." You breathed, pulled back. "I love you too."

"Go on, baby." He smiled, nodding towards your gate as the last few people walked through the doors.

You gave him a quick kiss again before hurrying away. Leaving him to watch you go with a smile on his face.

Just as you were setting your phone to airplane mode, you received a message:

'I'm getting clean. I mean it this time. I love you, I'm sorry I didn't say it before. I promise you, baby. I'll see you in week' Rafe sent a picture of a plane ticket he just purchased.

[luvyeni]

DLMLU; LEE FELIX

pairings. toxic!felix x lovesick!reader

wc. 821

warnings. gaslighting, cheating, mentions of sex, THIS IS FICTION PLEASE RUNAWAY IF SOMEONE TREATS YOU LIKE THIS

authors note. based on the song dlmlu by stray kids, i've been thinking about making something since it came out. THANK YOU FOR 1K FOLLOWERS 🎉! i can't believe i gained so many in such a short time, thank you for reading my works <3!

with that gaze of yours, full of hurt

"you're home?" you sat on the couch in the apartment that you shared with your boyfriend, who was currently walking through the door, looking like he clearly out doing the same thing he always did, this time he barely hid it. "you smell like whoever she is this time."

he sighed, tossing his keys to the side, rubbing his temples. "don't start this okay, you don't know what you're talking about."

you stood up, scoffing. "really, do you normally go out smelling like— what is it this time? cherries and vanilla." your voice cracking as you began to tear up.

"you, promised."

"i'm sorry." you laughed, that's you could do, it was comical really. "sorry, you're sorry, if you were sorry you'd fucking stop, you wouldn't leave me here for days on days without a call or text." you yelled.

"you're making this a big deal, she didn't mean anything." he yelled back, tugging at his hair in frustration. "please just listen."

"you said it didn't mean anything the last time, or the last time or the fucking time before that, how many times is it not gonna mean anything felix, how many!"

he saw the hurt in your eyes.

please, run away before i end up breaking you

he knew you were right, he was wrong to keep doing this to you , hurting you like this.

you and felix met when you both moved to korea years ago, you both were new to the country, so you had a lot in common, so you relied on each other, being away from your familes you leaned on each other for everything.

your friendship quickly turned into a full blown relationship, and next thing you know you two are in love and moving in with each other.

you two lived happily , you going to school and him recording music with a few other people he met here in korea, that's when it all went to shit, when his band began to get known in the under ground scene...

the different girls that would throw themselves at him, at first he rejected them, he had you, he didn't need anyone else. but good one night, and a few drinks later, he was crawling out of some girls bed, ready to beg for forgiveness.

you forgave him, heartbroken but you still took him back, and he promised not to do it again.

then came another, and another and another, and you took him back each and everytime, and felix realized something— there was reason why you kept taking him back.

you didn't have anyone else, you only had him, you didn't want to live without him, you truly did love him. of course, he did love you back don't get him wrong, but something about how you'd still look at him with heart eyes, packing him his lunches every morning, coming to his concert when you could— you did everything for him regardless of what he did... felix loved that power more, he was addicted to it.

don't let me love you, don't let me love you

"babe, im sorry she didn't mean anything i swear." he was being truthful, he couldn't even remember the girls name, it started with a b or something.

"it was a mistake, you have to believe, i was drunk and it just happened." he gave you those same doe eyes, the ones that made you fall for his charms every single time. "i love you, you know that." he cupped your face.

"you keep breaking my heart." you whispered, tears falling from your face. "it won't happen again, i swear." he wiped the tears. "you just have to trust me."

you wanted to say no, you did, but you really did love felix, and you knew he still loved you, or at least you wanted to hold on to the hope that he did.

"fine, one more chance, im giving you one more chance, felix you better not fuck it up." he smiled, kissing you. "thank you baby."

"i really promise this time will be different."

escape before the pain fills you up

he knew it wasn't gonna be that last time, but that didn't stop him from whispering empty promises in your ear as he thrusted into you, telling you how he's gonna stop while he kissed your neck, soaking up all your precious moans.

this happens everytime, you yell, he plays his games and you forgive him, and you have make up sex, knowing it will only be a week or two before you're right back at were you started, you sitting on the couch watching him walk in the apartment.

he knows he's know good for you. he knows he should let you go find someone who will treats you right, but he can't help but keep you on his life.

he needs you as much as you need him.

don't let me love you

©️LUVYENI

[respectthepetty]

For a show that is so simple as Live in Love, I sure do have a lot of wild ass theories about these color-coded folks (in love?) after only two episodes.

First Theory: Boss Likes Kla

Kla, the main character, is a Blue Boy.

And last week, the series showed that Kla seemed to have had a crush on his friend Boss in high school, so when they met in the present, it was awkward, but Boss is now dating the female friend he liked from before, so . . . why does Boss have blue over his heart when he meets Kla again, ALONE, and offers him a job?

Sus, Boss!

Second Theory: GL Sides

Cake, the main love interest, is a Pink Person.

He has a lovely family comprised of a color-coded brother, an adorable mom, and the dad from the Thai Addicted Heroin.

Kla likes this Pink Person.

He likes him so much that he wasn't even terrified of Cake showing up to the live looking like this.

And he gets jealous when Cake goes out with his friends since he knows Cake is so adorable and will catch all the attention.

Because Kla wants to eat Cake.

Which is why Khing tries to be like Cake.

She wears pink.

And she makes treats for Kla.

But because I want a GL side couple, I think Khing doesn't go well with Kla since she isn't really a Pink Person.

Because, often, she seems to actually balance out Gina!

So . . . they're already in bed together. How much effort would it be to kiss?

Third Theory: Tim & Amp

Cake's little brother, Tim, is a Green Guy.

And he has been shown to be kinda . . . rude. Even when Gam was having a crisis in his house about his feelings for Pon, Tim basically told him to get over it and (appropriately) believed eating would be the remedy.

So although he should be a chill guy, he has shown he has some aggression in him, which could be why the red appears with the green on him.

Like even his sweater with "Pancakes" written on it in green has red text underneath it.

But maybe the red isn't just for him, but for the Red Rascal who he is supposed to berate for hassling his brother then eventually fall in love with!

Tim already bumped into Amp at orientation when Tim made Amp apologize to him, so give me this couple where the smaller one is the mean one and the taller one is the gentle one RIGHT NOW!

Not a Theory: I hate the live streams!

I like Gam and Pon, and I like that they showed up together in Kla's dream.

So when Pon showed up in real life with Dol, I was kinda pissed!

Because even if Yellow Yal Dol is there, Orange Oddity Pon must always have Cyan Cutie Gam (thanks @twig-tea) by his side like the fairy godparents they are.

And Pon finds all these small ways to constantly touch Gam and be near him.

So I thought it was hilarious that Kla consistently called out his friend for being oblivious.

And both Cake and Kla talked smack about Pon being ridiculous (because couples who gossip together, stay together).

So I was thrilled when Pon started getting jealous that Gam's entire existence doesn't revolve around him.

And I was even more excited that Pon lost his color while Gam lost his temper!

But I hated that Pon decided to start his confession ON A LIVE STREAM!

I know the name of this show, so I know I'll continue to get live streams, but if Cake and Kla's first encounter IRL is magically live streamed next week, I'm gonna riot!

Put the phones and musical instruments down!

[lightsoutletsgo]

mimi congrats on 500 <3, sending this for your event!!! (1) ship pretty pls :3 i listen to everything? mostly fall out boy, joji and the cure <3 i am a graphic designer. kinda hate dessert but i am addicted to energy drinks HEH. i love traveling to big cities! so very anti beach ❌. i’m lowkey introverted but very very extroverted online 😭 HEDJSIFKS dream date???? museums!!! very very into staying in but not against to going out? i’m very passionate about the things i like? but kinda sensitive to every other thing HEHEHE tysm! congrats again!

awi!! omg omg omg hi sweets!! tysm for sending this in - I'm so excited to do it for youuuu! (I got your other request about the nsfw bit dw) happy reading! mimi 🤍

MAX VERSTAPPEN ᝰ.ᐟ₊ ⊹ - calls you schat or liefje - has an obsession with your legs. loves having them in his lap when you're cuddling or wrapped around his waist - his love language is physical touch! he's a man of few words so it's small touches like a hand on your back or a quick kiss to your hand that let you know he's there and how he feels - max will do anything for you and he cannot help but spoil you. you barely have to mention something once before he's driving to the store or ordering it online for you. nothing is too big or too small for him to get for you.

max's music taste is... limited? so anytime you're driving anywhere, he's more than happy for you to have aux! he loves discovering new artists through you and with you and anytime you make him a playlist he always listens to it pre-race. of course he has to let everyone know that his amazing love made it for him. to which they usually reply "we know max, we heard the first time." (really they think it's sweet that he's so dopey for you)

he literally supplies you with all the redbull you could ever want! sometimes he 'jokes' that you're only with him for that reason but a quick kiss to his cheek has him blushing and flustered and the thought has left his head. speaking of blushing and flustered, max loves when you play dangerous games with him. sliding your hand higher and higher up his thigh at dinner before sneaking off to the bathroom with him.

max is obsessed with watching you come apart underneath him and he puts as much determination and passion into making you cum for him as he does into his driving. he loves how fucked out you look and he can't get enough of gently holding your throat and telling you to open before spitting, relishing in the way he feels you swallow under his hand. he also can't get enough of watching you in the mirror. bending you over the sink, putting you on your hands and knees on the bed, bending you over against the hallway wall; anywhere there's a mirror, max is sliding into you from behind and whispering filth into your ear as his hips roll into yours.

he loves jetting off to city breaks for the weekend with you when he can; new york, paris, seoul, budapest, prague, tokyo, florence, krakow, chicago, seville, nice; your passport is full of stamps and stickers from your trips with him. you've started a scrapbook together with a postcard and a polaroid of the two of you in every city you've been to!

he loves taking you to various art galleries and museums in the countries and cities you visit and he's become surprisingly good at being an instagram bf and taking aesthetic pictures of you in galleries and exhibits. max loves watching you as you look around, the way your face scrunches when you're focusing, the way your lips move as you read the placards, the way you excitedly tell him all you know or you've read about the exhibit and the way you're moved by the things you see. cosy date nights are a must with him whenever he's home and most nights (whether wild nights out or dinner dates at home) end with you cuddled into his side on the couch and the cats on his lap. it's his ideal evening and he won't tell you yet but he plans on hopefully making it a permanent fixture in his life soon.

max loves your passion for life and your passion and drive for the things you love, even if he doesn't love them in the same way or understand them. he learns so many new things through you and with you. he loves the way that you light up his life and make him feel warm. max swears he could never win another race for his whole career and he'd still get that world champion feeling just by looking into your eyes.

"schat, what do you think about going to paris next weekend?" max asks. you giggle and look at him leaning against the bedroom door frame as you lie on the bed, with jimmy curled up on top of your feet and sassy cuddled into your side, "max!" you point at the still half-unpacked suitcases at the foot of the bed, "we just got back from prague!" he shrugs, seemingly un-phased by your argument, "your point is?" "we can't go away again! what about the cats?"

max sighs and crosses the room to plop down onto the bed next to you, sassy glaring at him as he accidentally shifts her from her cosy spot at your side, you stroke her back absentmindedly as she takes up a new spot on your stomach, "we can ask lando to cat-sit!" you roll your eyes with a smile, max is grinning like a child, "you've already booked the tickets haven't you?" "nooooo..." "max." "maybe..." "baby!" he pouts at you and you can't help the way you laugh, leaning to kiss his cheek, "you're trouble, you know that?" he gently pushes sassy and jimmy out of the way and they almost huff at him before stalking out of the room as he rolls on top of you, pressing a dangerous kiss to your neck, "you love that I'm trouble liefje..."

[fluloa]

my headcanons for the sully family

JAKE:

- has an apron that says ‘kiss the chef’

- has thought about getting an ear piercing and would like to

- always itchy, like will be constantly scratching at a random part of his body during a casual conversation

- had a loner phase when he was in middle school

- doesn’t like fuzzy things, he hates the texture and the way it feels on his skin, gives him a bad type of goosebumps

- adhd. said what i said

- flexes his big dad muscles every chance he can get (good for him tbh)

- finds it so relaxing when neytiri plays with his hair

- is a big purrer, to the point where it’s embarassing and he HATES it but he can’t help it

- cries every single time he watches the start of finding nemo

- hates watching reality tv

NEYTIRI:

- loves watching reality tv

- bites off her toenails (sorry not sorry)

- really likes apple juice

- loves the song cover me in sunshine by pink, every time she plays it, lo’ak screams out in agony

- a sad beige baby mom

- makes weird faces when feeding babies and does the sound ‘nom nom nom’

- loves cats. jake got one for her for her birthday and he doesn’t think she’s ever seen her happier

- wine lover and proud (especially with these little shit of a kids)

- has a collection of perfumes and jewellery that she only touched like once or twice. poor girl just forgets about them bc of all the stress she’s holdin

- the type of mom to demand every kid’s room is clean when somebody is going to be over. lo’ak is always the one to say “they won’t even be coming into our room!”

- lo’ak gets a whooping for that

NETEYAM:

- asks jake for his old band t-shirts

- loves water parks and will say weeee when going down the slides

- lets tuk put makeup on his face. but that stopped after she used some cheap shop makeup on him and he got an allergic reaction from it

- sometimes he wears belt with his jeans and it is funny

- always forgets to knock before opening doors. once caught jake butt naked and has never been the same again

- his favourite color is purple but he says it’s blue so that people don’t make fun of him

- loves playing laser tag even though he sucks ass at it

- he’s a fan of marvel and he’s always first at the cinemas when a movie comes out

- likes to skateboard. surprisingly very good at it since he’s only used it like ten times since he got it for 12th birthday

- for some odd reason, he really likes helping neytiri out with grocery shopping? also a guilty pleasure to pick out some of his favorite snacks and being the perfect little son that he is, neytiri always says yes

- brushes his teeth DAY AND NIGHT without a skip

KIRI:

- definitely plays my singing monsters

- had a monster can collection phase (will not admit to it although)

- that being said, had an ‘indie kid’ phase and begged norm for a couple of unused cds so she could paint them

- listens to mitski and lana del ray and flexes it to people and attacks them if they say they don’t know who they are or they don’t like their music

- wants her septum pierced but by neytiri’s words, “i’d rather die.”

- does her own hair, hence why it’s so messily beautiful

- neytiri cuts her hair though, as much as she doesn’t like to admit it

- would really like a tattoo, but neytiri has said no obviously

- tried asking jake for the tattoo, but jake was terrified of neytiri’s expression so he said no

- then tried to do a stick and poke and it failed miserably (rejected from her skin a week later)

- weirdly insecure of her nose, sometimes she likes it, sometimes she doesn’t

- jumps on the trampoline with tuk until she’s passed out from exhaustion

- plant lover. like seriously has a dozen in her room and will panic if she hasn’t gotten the time to water them for a day

LO’AK:

- plays mortal kombat and has an addiction to it. will yell out fatality when putting neteyam in a headlock

- begs neytiri for waves (she always says no, thank god)

- has got led lights in his room that are stuck to the wall with shitty sticky tape. you can easily see it, too

- always facetiming tsiyera but half of the time she doesn’t answer

- the type to lick chip dust off of his fingers until the last speck is demolished

- SATURDAYS ARE FOR THE BOYS

- has a pet fish and secretly adores her, her name’s shelly and will go into deep detail if you ask about her

- favorite food is doritos and takis

- was a ‘all girls are the same’ type before he met tsiyera

- wears his worn ass jordans religiously

TUK:

- has a pink ipad

- makes her own fake youtube tutorials on said ipad. kiri sneakily watches them when she’s sleeping

- can do an impressive amount of tricks on the trampoline and each time she learns a new one she yells out, “DAD!!! DAD, DAD, DAD, COME WATCH THIS!!!! DAD!! DAD!! DAD!!!!”

- her heart broke when jake with a few drinks in his system decided to jump on the trampoline on a party night and ended up tearing a massive hole in the middle of it

- has a CRIPPLING obsession with slime and neytiri absolutely hates it. always searching up ‘how to make slime no borax no glue’ and always makes a mess of wherever she makes it

- SHE LOVES DISNEY and her favorite princess is moana

- begged neytiri to let her dye the ends of her hair purple. neytiri used one of those ten washes dyes in a box and didn’t bleach her hair before because “no way am i putting bleach in my daughter’s hair” when it didn’t work because tuk’s hair is literally pitch black, she cried

- she literally loves the low space buns hairstyle and will forever ask neytiri to do it for her. but will end up crying because of how hard neytiri pulls her hair (it’s not even that hard)

- has a huge collection of squishmallows (jake got her them all)

- doesn’t actually like chocolate but loves candy

- the type to bounce on neytiri and jake’s bed to wake them up

[deesseshesca]

PAC : Life update 

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Good evening,pretty souls, let’s check out your last run around the block before you go back to being responsible. 

Choose the image that’s speak to you and allow yourself to soak ONLY what’s reasoning with YOUR SITUATION 

Rules and Disclaimer 

I am the type of tarot reader to say as it is. Nothing is sugar coated but everything is sent with good intention. If you are not ready to face some truth, you should vagabond somewhere else. 

TW: DV,Addiction

PILE 1 

What’s going on inside your mind ? 

Star (reverse), Ace swords (Reverse),1122

STOP PLAYING THE VICTIM 

You guys are overwhelmed with everything that’s going on in your life. You need to work towards a happy life. I’m hearing, ‘’ BUT I’M ALREADY DOING IT !’’. B*itch calm down. You are not doing it. You are so used to sadness that when nothing is happening in your life, you choose to fill that void with sad music, gut wrenching books or trauma full movies. Even in times of peace you CHOOSE to feel bad and the fact that you can’t even recognize how mess it is. Just show how deep in the victim mentality you really are. 

STOP MOVING GOALS 

Stop following that unexpected willpower at 3 am. Is probably a manic episode but anyway… I digress, stop thinking you can change your life overnight. You need to go one step at a time. Wake up and schedule what you can do. Not what you want to do. And allow grace to be with you, because even if you fail just know you are actively working towards something great. Then just that on its own is worth a standing ovation. 

What does the heart want ? 

You are dealing with a super bad person, I felt like punching him/her a couple times through my screen. Him/Her cheated on you, broke up with you and expected you to stay faithful. How the heck on this green earth does that F*CKING work ?!

Ace swords, Tower (reverse) 

Open communication 

Your relationship may be facing challenges (alter ego: YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS IN THE GUTTER) and you need to allow yourself to speak up (alter ego: what are you.. a dog ? Why do you have to ask permission to speak). Right now, you don’t speak. You are even scared to voice your emotion because you are scared he/she will flip on you. Which usually ends up withyou  running in the bathroom crying and then him/she yelling like an animal. He/she abuses you verbally. You know, they know, I know you are one fight away from them connecting their fist to your face. Instead of leaving, you are reminiscing about all the time you have spent on this relationship. Babe is time to choose. You OR this relationship (Alter-ego: Girl/Boy that’s no relationship, that’s a toxic mess. They deserve to feel my wra-)

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PILE 2 

Check in: You have big boobs. Way bigger than normal and you love it. Most people in your situation may wish to have a reduction but you love it there. If you are an owner of a ‘’d’’, you may have a big d. That’s it,that’s all. 

What's going on inside your mind ? 

9 cups (reverse), Ace Pentacles (Reverse) 

Not everything that glitter is gold 

There is a contract that’s going to be presented to you. First you do deserve recognition. You've been putting in the work, the hours and you BEEN patient. Now is finally time to reap what you sow but be careful the same way you know your potential. The same way others see it and see big profit. Before you sign your life away in a slave contract that’s going leave you broker than broke, plz read all the little characters on the paper. 

You act like you are better than everyone. Nothing is ever good enough and nobody can seem to please you. You are full of yourself. You are so F*CKING immature 

CUT ! You have a very toxic family and that’s what they think of you. If you were looking for confirmation, here u go 

What does the heart want ? 

King pentacles, Hierophant 

You are in a happy and secure relationship. They are generous, dependable and very protective over you. They don’t care about anyone except you. They've been telling you that your family is your number one enemy. You refuse to take their opinion in. They want to get married, have children and fill out taxes with you and only you. Go ahead Pile 2, send them that pinterest board with all your wedding requirements, they will love it ! I sense that you are as possessive with them as they are with you. Awww, I love some equally possessive couple. Plus, they will do anything to have you and KEEP you. 

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PILE 3 

What’s going on inside your mind ?

Ace cups , 3 cups (reverse) 

You might be a functioning addict. 

GO GET THAT PREGNANCY TEST 

Plan B failed. Trust me babe, better now than later. Clench your coins and go check on the 2 bars. 

NO MORE ‘’Get it Sexyy’’ 

You might be trying to run away from  the truth but Pile 3, you need to stop and sober up. You have an alcohol/weed addiction. You are so exhausted. Just to keep up, you were pondering on trying some other drugs. Stop babe. Right now you don’t like the people you are surrounded with but you lost all contact with your family. Making amends with them is your best bet, I know it can be hard. But better you spend time trying to get better than wasting it away unhappy knowing damn well you have too much to offer to the world. 

What does the heart want ?

Ace cup (Reverse), knight wands, 

They STILL and FOREVER want you 

You know you f*ck up. They loved you. Treated you well and just because they question your commitment a little too much to your liking. You went out of your way to show them you did not need them. I feel like you guys were at a party or the club and you kiss someone randomly. Now there is no contact. There is no official break up but there’s no communication going on between y’all. This is prime self-sabotage. You know damn well all they wanted was some communication, just to prove that they matter to you. They feel like you treat them like a simple sneaky link and it ain’t fair. Especially when you know they are the only ones in the corner. You know, they know, I know: they are going nowhere. They are so attracted by your independence and charisma but you keep using your quality against him/she.

 

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PILE 4 

You worked very hard to finally enjoy the life you have right now. Going on trip, exclusive pool party and twerking your a*s with your ratchet friends. You always save from pregnancy scared. Damn girl, you are lucky. If you are a man, you know damn well you should not be hitting it raw. But you did it anyway, lucky for you no pregnancy and no disease. 

What’s going on in your mind ? 

10 pentacles, Death (reverse), 3333, 

Keep working hard and playing harder. 

Expansion is on the horizon . I’m talking to the nail artists that love creating crazy drawings in all types of fonts, hair stylists that excel in dying hair, lash tech that are always book and mua that finally got their social media success. Is time to dream big. I'm talking about your own studio, your own lash equipment, your own hair care or even your own 1:1 teaching class. 

Kill the devil 

Don’t let the bad thoughts make you doubt the legitimacy of your success. Babe you did ! YOU ! All on your own. 

What does the heart want ? 

King wands (reverse), 8 pentacles (reverse), ‘’Yes! I cheated’’ 

Y’all are messing with the baby daddy of someone. At the time you did not know and did not care. As of now, you still don’t give a f*ck. Like that’s not your business that he cheated on her with you. All you care about is to have a good much. And he is, so he stays in rotation. If you are a man, you don’t care that she has a boyfriend at home. If she wants to suck your nuts then be it. Is not your fault she’s begging for it. Might as well make her dream come true. 

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[buttl0rd]

Do you have any Stan headcanon??

i have a few!!!! stan's been one of my favs since season1 and i really love his character. i mostly adopt hcs from other people because i'm not very creative with them, but here are my thoughts

stan's questioned his gender since the cissy episode and he does a lot of experimenting with his gender expression and pronouns in his teens. he identifies as nonbinary but keeps using he/him pronouns and masc expression for a number of reasons (mostly because he finds it hard explaining to people), but when he's in a safe setting with other queer folks he feels more comfortable expressing his gender identity. kyle and wendy are his biggest supporters. cartman rips on him for it but ALWAYS used stan's preferred pronouns throughout his experimentation

stan is a bisexual DISASTER and finds everyone attractive. he's a flaming pussy though so he never scores. he's just like, [person] is super hot, and that's the end of it, he's already moved on. which brings me to my next hc,

his fucking commitment issues!!! stan has a crippling fear of long-term relationships, and this likely sprouted from his depression. he didn't see himself living past the age of 20 so he avoided committing to anything long-term. he most likely went to therapy for it and got a whole lot better. he committed to marrying kyle in the end. good for him

i hc stan as being a music production major or something in college. i like to think he dreams of having a world-famous rock band

we know he has addictive tendencies, it's part of his character. he's canonically seen drinking, smoking, hoarding and spending all the family's money on that mobile game. his addictions start ruining his life so the guys have an intervention and get him to rehab before he fucking dies. he gets better :) might relapse but dw about it

stan's been wildly in love with kyle since the dawn of time. he's always on his mind. the 'thinkin about kyle 24/7' type of love. he's so afraid of confessing to kyle to the point it makes him sick, his biggest fear is ruining their friendship. it's not until highschool kyle starts picking up on it and returning the feelings. there's no big confession, just a passionate and life-changing kiss on stan's bed after school one day. stan cries immediately afterwards because he's so happy

some extra lil silly things i hc:

he likes coffee, the goth kids got him hooked on it

he's cursed with a baby face, keeps any facial hair he can grow to make him look less like a little baby man

chubby.......

goes thru So Many phases of being vegetarian but always misses cheesed ourger and breaks his veggie streak whenever he gets sad

quarterback in highschool???

he's a real heavy sleeper. he snores and drools and tangles himself in blankets. kyle struggles to sleep in the same bed as him at first (light sleeper), but slowly gets used to it

he's kinda creeped out by cats. he's a dog person thru and thru

[ilikelookingatthings]

some thoughts about trolls 2 that came to me after watching trolls 3.

like...I get it had a big metaphore about how pop kindof takes over everything and forgets the origins of where those songs came from....and the contrast with how the pop trolls books said everyone started to not get along/became less tolerant of other's musics...while the space alien funk trolls said that everything was fine butthen the pop trolls wanted to take overand everyone seperated to protect their strings from the pop trolls...but I kindof lowkey wonder if it was a bit of both? like there werecracks were they were becoming less tolerant and in a poor attempt to bring everyone together the pop trolls thought pop was the best way like barb and poppy kind of did?

but I kind of feel like they gloss over that the pop trolls were isolated and separated from the forest or ways to meet the other trolls? them not knowing there were other trolls and forgetting about the origins of their music makes WAY more sense because they were isolated and being abused and eaten by the Bergens for ages.

So on one hand...I understand its a metaphor for how pop has worked in real life because its so popular and becomes a ear worm...but it also feels a bit unfair because pop always feels like because its so popular it gets isolated out on purpose....

like Poppy feels bd not knowing the true history....and that apparently the pop trolls history lied about a bad thing they did which cause the split......but I also cant help but wonder..wouldn't it make sense for the pop trolls to not have a complete history anyway if they were forced to all live in one tree/garden? if so many of them were being eaten/killed? did any of them escape and try to ask for help? wouldn't it make sense if they had lost a good section of their history because they were literally being harvested? and isn't that a bit unfair then to judge them losing/not knowing the origin of their music/where it came from under those circumstances? I mean were hear them calling themselves just trolls with not being aware there were other types....I mean sure they might not have expected how popular the first movie would be so he different genre idea was added later..and they found a place they could hide from the bergans and still stayed isolated til the second movie.

I keep wondering....did the others trolls know the pop trolls were being eaten by the Bergens? If they did... why didn't they ever try to get the Pop trolls out? and if they didn't why did they all seem to know what pop was and dislike it? if other pop trolls had escaped the tree/the Bergens on an individual case basis...did none of them rely to the other trolls about all the trolls in a desperate situation in the middle of Bergen town?

Were the pop trolls being punished for having attempted to take the strings before? we know that the Happier the troll the sweeter they taste aparently...and in the third movie just absorbing the talent of a pop troll seemed to be kindof addicting.....did the other genre's of trolls let the pop trolls stay captured because it had the Bergens stay around certain areas and not go out to try to find/eat the other genre's of troll...like some type of sacrifice?

like...I lowkey kindof wish we saw some of the trolls ask if there were other trolls why they never came to help them? let the pop trolls be the most consumed because they were the most popular.

also does anyone ever thing the pop trolls and their over positivity at times is a bit of a trauma response o trying to move on from what happened by not adressing it properly?

also does anyone else think maybe pop trolls are addictive? and that the Bergens were so sad and grey after the loss of trollstice because they were also dropping from with withdrawals since they had be cautious not to eat too many because it would dwindle the supply? and why it was only after so long without eating a troll that it seemed possibly to really address that happyness wasn't just something you get from eating a troll?

and why the chef was so insistent to get the king to eat one so she could make him addicted to it?

but also if the other trolls let the Bergens be distracted by the tasty easy to consume pop trolls then the Bergens wouldn't come after them and their genre of trolls? make a comentary about how we judge Creek for not wanting to eaten personally even if it meant sacrificing everyone else to the Bergens...but if all the other troll Genres sacrificed/jusfied leaving the pop trolls to the Bergens in a similar way only with the idea it was saving more trolls after all...I'm kindof curious how they would adress the morality of it.

I also have questions of the pop trolls had escaped the Bergens in maybe two groups(the one at the golf course who were also really isolated) and the ones in the forest...I wonder how certain pop songs made it to the other genres...like the rock trolls.

if some individual pop trolls escaped and would pop in every once in a while with pop music....it just goes back to the question did they ever ask for help?

I mean we know John Dory thought everyone had died/didn't know about the escape plan. Clay ended up with the trolls that got seperated/cut off in the other tunnels...but its unclear if he was the group that got separated or he came across them later while he had escaped the tree at a early point and had heard about the escape from viva....so seemed to think branch had gotten away with Granny.

Did the brothers just wander around andcome across the other genre's on their own? or did the info spread while Barb's tour was happening?

like...sure they couldn't find the pop trolls who has escaped for ages(even more due to the foliage and deadly nature of the forest...but Bergens are also huge..and they never mentioned the other genre's of trolls either...were the Bergen's unaware of the other troll genre's?

[recollectionblue]

hey there ! leon here (26, he/him, est) with moon seonjae, (26, he/they) with the ability of second sight (precognition), settled in unit #301 to be closer to his (less cool) twin (eunjae !). he works at nite rite convenience and is just Trying His Best while overcome with the Visions and the weight of the future but hey, he's Trying ! i have a discord if you'd prefer that for plotting, so let me know, and i'm also over with bo gyuri (@contoursilver) but i'll be messaging/following from here for plots ! im super excited to meet/plot with you all !

tw substance abuse, addiction, anxiety/depression, brief period of being homeless below the cut !

THE BASICS . . . !

26 years old, born in '97, he/him, they/them, either/both is fine !

twin to moon eunjae, finally back together in #301

works at nite right convenience, usually the really late/morning hours

find him online @ FLASHDRAGON for his music, usually angsty/emo/rock guitar vibes if you're into that..

ability of second sight (precognition), he receives visions of his own future (at any interval of his life), but also whenever he touches people/objects with his skin he receives visions of Their future (also at any time period, he has no clue When!)

his eyes go completely white when he's overcome with a vision, and he usually just. Stops wherever he is until it's over, he usually can't hear/see anything But the vision so. only talk to him when it's over or he will Not hear you!

he also has the ability of clairvoyance, which allows him to locate people/places/objects through Intense Concentration that are not close to him and/or just to See their immediate environment. usually better if he's seen it himself in person, he can Try if he's given a photo, he's just usually pretty off or just plain wrong !

he is Always wearing gloves and usually is all covered up, and physical contact is just a big No ! for him out of his fear of getting triggered for a vision

usually pretty quiet/keeps to himself/is always listening to music because it is one of his Comfort Things and if you do see him, he's either using suppressants/substances to numb himself in order to avoid the Visions but it doesn't always completely get rid of them, anyways, but his distance/general spaciness is probably because he is just Out of It !

THE BACKSTORY . . . !

as soon as he develops his powers it's very much Not Okay. the weight of seeing things happen in intervals where he either doesn't know 1) when it will happen or 2) seconds before it does renders him completely frozen in his decisions. he witnesses them change three, four, ten times in different forms of visions and gets so swept up in it all he often confuses visions for memory, memory for visions, as he always sees them in first person

he doesn't tell anyone at first, but it starts small, he doesn't want to go to school, doesn't want to go outside. he starts shying away from physical touch and affection, and limits conversations. starts wearing clothes that cover all of his skin, and gloves, and it isn't long before it starts causing Issues because he can't just completely Stop Everything to hide in his room

the only thing that really brings him solace is listening to music, and so he starts writing/making his own to kind of explore his thoughts/experiences, because the noise fills up his mind in a way that feels better than empty/just full of visions. it's the only thing that doesn't cause it to happen for him, most of the time! he starts posting his music online under the alias FLASHDRAGON, but he's really in and out about it, doesn't really pay attention to if anything kicks off (though some of it does!)

since they develop around middle school, it becomes evident really quickly that seonjae is convinced this is more of a nightmare than the blessing his parents think it is, and by the time he graduates high school his mother is Done with having to accommodate him/the fact that he can barely do anything or talk to anyone and sends him to be with his aunt, farther out from the city and away from everything he's known

he's felt like a burden for years, and figures it's probably better even though leaving his twin eunjae behind is one of the hardest things he's ever done, even though he's convinced its the better thing to do

things with his aunt go well for awhile until they don't, and his aunt really wants nothing to do with him, either. he doesn't help around the house, doesn't make money, and doesn't go out, either, and fed up from years of just Being a Burden and Knowing It, he ends up leaving in the middle of the night

up until then, he's been pretty adamant on finding something to take to suppress his ability to try and function, but it doesn't always completely take his visions away, maybe lessens the frequency of them at best, but he still can't touch objects/people without usually at least getting one

they're expensive, and usually if he can't get his hands on something to nullify his ability, he usually turns to absolutely anything else to try and handle it, and doesn't care about the effects as long as it makes it easier to deal with the Visions

sometimes he pays for it using his clairvoyance to find something/somebody for those he's getting it from, but it's all he has to go off of as he kind of works his way around/surfs couches/sleeps on park benches. he can't keep jobs and he can't keep a place without any money and he needs it for the suppressants, so he does what he can to get by

he's like this for awhile until eunjae finds him one day and brings him back to the second chance collective, and he's so happy to be reunited with her after being away for the several years it's been that he convinces himself he's going to not mess This up too, and agrees to letting his information get shared to lessen the amount of money for the apartment so he can be close to her again

so he's in therapy! and he gets a job at nite rite convenience because of the late hours/limited human contact to try and make some money for his continued habits because he isn't too convinced he can handle his visions completely sober and hasn't done so in years, anyways and he's Scared !

and he's back to making music, now that he's got his own room again! its the only two resident complaints he's gotten in the three months he's been here, was that he was playing his music too loud to drown out the Horrors :/

THE PLOTS . . . !

you've heard/listened to his music and he's literally never met anyone before that's heard it and he's like . surprised that you relate/like it, and he's never shared it before with someone so it's just Personal, but he shares like, music he's never posted b/c he didn't like it, etc, it becomes an Activity that he shows you new stuff of his !

you just like listening to music in general and you'll listen to music with him in Silence and you both share music back and forth and it's very Nice, and he appreciates just the simplicity of communicating through music because it's the easiest way he knows how to connect with others !

you come into nite rite convenience so often he knows your name and what you usually like to get. you make small talk, it's easy, maybe you both figure out you live at the collective but you just hadn't run into each other before and it goes from there !

if you are looking for .. substances ,, he is willing to share . anything to avoid the horrors he Gets it .

if YOU have substances or you know of someone who does then . he is saving contacts !!

he accidentally brushes up against you/touches an object of importance to you and gets a vision of your future and so he feels like he Has to tell you, and maybe he's afraid of what he sees/has never spoken to you before/is nervous about your reaction but he can't not tell you, and so he tries to figure out how to do that without looking Crazy that he knows this about you / you even believing him in the first place .

you are looking for someone/something and you come to him to see if he can find out where they are/see how they are but you only have a photo/object of theirs and he keeps getting it incredibly wrong but he's sticking it out with you to keep trying until you do

anything!! enemies, friends, they keep bumping into each other wtf, he crashed on your couch once, you have beef with him because once he didn't pay for something/has a debt with you and he owes you and he remembers he Promises, he's going to get the money soon !!

anyways long ass intro but like this and we'll be in your dm's soon (seonjae sees it in your future ooo), let me know if you'd rather discord and we can move there, thanks for reading <3 !

[paras1t1c-squ1dd]

Hi guys! Since it won the poll here's my REAL first ever Pizza tower au! It's more of a fan project since they don't really look like their Pizza Tower counterparts but :3c

Let me introduce you to.........

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PUREE PILLAR!!

I've waited so long to show this AU to you guys I'm so excited!!!!!

Puree Pillar goes along with the usual pizza tower lore, owner of a business gets threatened by a giant sentient piece of food that wants to blow up their building yada yada yada....

BUT‼️‼️

The main character ain't no ordinary peppino no siree

Instead, they're basically entirely different!! They look... Nothing alike probably.

Let me introduce you to the characters!!

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Susie! (Peppino) : Susie is a not-so-young (he's old as shit) woman running a small beverage shop called Susie's Smoothies! (You will never guess what she sells. /j) Yeah, he has a smoking addiction she can't get rid of, but that doesn't stop her from kicking ass!!!!! (He is very depressed) AND on top of that!! She's a war veteran!! Crazy right!! She had a group of 3 other friends that had passed away during the war. Poor Susie can't catch a break... But on a lighter note, she rides a motorcycle! Woah!!

Next up we have..

Mia!! (Gustavo) : Mia is Susie's best friend and has been since they were wee little children! How adorable!! They've been with Susie through thick and thin, always helping each other out! (But Mia is not in fact, a war veteran like Susie.) She works with Susie and helps her run the shop. They care a lot about each other!! And her giant pet hedgehog Pebble!! :3c

(God this is getting long)

Berry! (The Noise) : Berry is a circus performer along with his girlfriend Drupe! Him and Susie are rivals, always getting into fights those two.. Berry is his stage name! What's his real name you say? I have no fucking clue

Drupe! (Noisette) : As stated before, Drupe is Berry's girlfriend! She runs her own little bakery somewhere in the pillar! (Or well, tower)

The Assailant. (The Vigilante) : He's a sentient glop of smoothie that anyone who dares to break the law must answer to! He's quite a fancy fella, but if you break a law.. Pray! Cause your ass MIGHT die!!! And he thinks he's a real human being! What a weirdo (/j)!!

DJ Apple! (Pepperman): DJ here is quite a cool guy! He makes sick beats that everyone enjoys! So much so they might break a hip from dancing too hard! Where did he get that chunk bit out of him? Why is his hand missing? ..... Who knows! But he still manages to make some good music!

Fake Susie! (Fake Peppino) : Whatever this thing is, it's creepy! How did it get in here! Why does she look so much like Susie? It's weird!! It's entirely made of smoothie, kinda like The Assilent! But why is she not as intelligent as him? Sometimes she can be found in vents! How the fuck did he get in there get him out

(I'm pretty sure you know what the purpose of the ingredients ((toppins)) are so I won't write about them)

Mr Trick! (Mr Stick) : Mr Trick here is a scammer!! Watch out!! He's very greedy, and would choose money over anything!

Nate! (Snick) : It's him!!

Orange Head... (Pizza Head) : He's the big bad of the pillar! The one who started it all! Boy I hate this guy! He knows... Strangely a lot about Susie... I wonder why!

Orange Face... (Pizza face) : He's a giant floating hunk of junk made by Orange Head! It's only that big so he can fit his fat ass inside!! Orange face chases Susie out of the levels once the timer reaches 0 so she can't get out! But Susie is usually too fast for him.

And last but not least...

Jerald! (Gerome) : He's the janitor/plumber of the pillar, the only one that has the key to special rooms!

GOD THAT WAS A LOT

anywaysss I hope you guys will enjoy this au as much as I do! Which is a lot!! This is basically my main au since I've been focusing on it a lot lately

But yeah!!! Holy shit!!! I can finally share this!!

[citylighten]

🖊️ 🎶 💘 🎂 🍝 😊 😥 for rosie and 💯 🔺 🐈 🍎 🖤 🍸 🧐 for pietro <3

This took me SO long to answer but that's because the questions were so good!!

🖊️ BALLPOINT PEN — does your oc have any tattoos? Do they want any (more) tattoos?

Rosaria has a tarot card tattoo on her arm and a rose tattoo on her thigh. The latter came a bit before she started her first college semester. It was her 17th birthday and her sister insisted that she needed a tattoo before her college journey began. Since Sonia is a tattoo addict and Sal also has a handful of tattoos (I need to make more of his but I'm lazy shh) for Rosaria to get one was like a ‘rite of passage.’ Either way, she likes her thigh tattoo because she thinks it looks like an intricate design when she puts on stockings. But the downfall of this is when she wears stockings with intricate designs, her tattoo is still visible and throws the design off. The tarot tattoo is more recent and it also serves as a display for how much she loves colored tattoos rather than black and white ones. Rosaria has seen some really cute tattoo ideas of flowers at the ankles or a kitten hugging the moon, and she would love them on her but, because of her career goals she thinks they could be very unprofessional or at worse, look immature. 

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?

She has a nostalgic love for 80s rock and 80s pop due to her parents always playing it when she was little. Beyond that she grew up in a house with all sorts of music: Sal loved rappers, Sonia loved rock! Rosaria found herself leaning towards indie pop and indie rock. Because I’m the sort of person who has to know what sort of music my OCs listen to so I can get into their headspace, I’m gonna name off some musicians! Tennis, The Bird and the Bee, Florence & The Machine, Lana Del Ray (she got into her during like, 2014 or 2013 tumblr. same with Florence), Mitski, Steve Lacy, and Toro y Moi.

💘 HEART WITH ARROW — what and/or who do(es) your oc consider the most important to them?

Her immediate family is very important to her, because it feels 'small and fragile.' Her mom died when she was going into Middle School, her dad began living his life self-destructively soon after therefore, Rosaria consequently grew up worried about her siblings dying young in addition to herself dying young. Her cat Briscola is also very important to her, because Rosaria feels like domestic animals depend on humans and consequently, if something happens to them its her fault and she's a failure in some way.

🎂 BIRTHDAY CAKE — when is your oc's birthday? how old are they? what are their sun, moon, & rising signs (if known)? what about their tarot card, ruling planet, & ruling number (if known)? do they fit the typical traits of these sun, moon, & rising signs? Rosaria’s birthday is March 26, she’s 28 going on 29 and her sign is Aries which hopefully puts every one of her confrontational scenes in a better context 😂 I’m gonna be honest and say Rosaria’s behavior is based on my grandmother who is also an Aries who switches from being a diligent worker, a sweet, pleasant, caring person, then the most combative person ever.

🍝 SPAGHETTI — what is/are your oc's favorite food(s)?

Grilled chicken wraps, tortellini with ricotta and spinach.

😊 SMILING FACE WITH SMILING EYES — what are your oc's career/general life desires? what do they want to get the most out of life? When Rosaria was a kid she wanted to be the President. Looking back, Rosaria recognizes she always wanted to make the world a better place, because in addition to fixating on history, she was obsessed with how the creation of laws and rules were formed. When she learned that people in government made laws, that’s when Rosaria decided: “oh! I want to be President so I decide which laws exist!” ‘cause you know, kids simplify logic like that. She wanted to be a lawyer in Middle School and High School, but by High School she felt like her family wasn’t likely to put her through Law School due to their low finances. Once she was in college, she majored in Communications because she felt like she would graduate quickly with some sort of [dead-end] job to satisfy her family. Rosaria still wanted to make the world a better place though, so she would always participate in activist rallies and protests.

As she studies to be a lawyer now, Rosaria still aspires to help people. [Unaware that Raphael allegedly wants her to be a consigliere.] I consider middle-aged Rosaria, in the Sink or Swim AU, to be an Immigration Lawyer which ties into her passion about helping others have a better life.

😥 SAD BUT RELIEVED FACE — is your oc prone to getting stressed out, or is it easy for them to keep their cool?

Rosaria is prone to anxiety. In a mild case she’s overthinking a situation, but in a severe case she’s having panic attacks. High levels of neuroticism runs on the father’s side of her family. But beyond that, a good deal of Rosaria’s general stress comes from her overworking herself and setting high expectations for herself. To receive bad feedback in college, or work, can send her into a brief depression.

💯 HUNDRED POINTS SYMBOL — share three random facts about your oc that others may not know. 1. Because he immigrated at seven years old and was thrust into English-speaking schools he struggled reading, writing, and speaking. Because this school was [shitty] and underfunded, apathetic teachers would consequently place Pietro in Special Education Classes that did not help him either. Dissatisfied with school [and seeing it as a place where he would just be humiliated] Pietro would stop going at fourteen years old. 2. His English gradually improved because his big sister, Donatella, would take him to the local theater every Saturday and they would watch movies. It was more of a listening experience than anything else.  3. Pietro was coerced into a sexual relationship with Daciano’s mother, Maria Falcone when he was twenty. Neither Ernesto or Daciano are aware of this. But, Pietro was residing with Ernesto and Maria at the time. Ernesto and Maria were splitting up, and Maria frequently made passes at Pietro wanting to fulfill a personal fantasy of having a young, fit guy fulfill her needs. As a result, Pietro felt to secure the fact he had a roof over his head, he had to sleep with Ernesto's wife.

🔺 RED TRIANGLE POINTED UP — does your oc know how to use any weapons? If it was required for Pietro to cut up a man, he could do it with expertise. This is because his father, Umberto, made his living as a butcher and had his sons assist with the shop. He knows how to cut chickens and remove their innards and just the same he knows vital spots on the human body. Frankly, he would prefer to use a gun to kill. 🐈 CAT — does your oc prefer a wide circle of friends or a few close friends? Pietro is a man with a few close friends. However, he feels it’s good to be sociable and know others: because when people think that they know you, they can be resourceful in times of need. Prison taught him the importance of keeping his circle small, but even as a child and teen Pietro was a quiet, observant boy. He could be in a group of people, only making a meaningful connection with roughly three or four other kids.

🍎 RED APPLE — where was your oc born? do they still live in/around their place of birth or do they live somewhere else? how do they feel about their birthplace? Pietro was born in Sicily [Tartosa] and now he resides in America so he is nowhere close to his birthplace. He misses Sicily, although he isn’t quite sure if he romanticizes his home country or not. Either way, Pietro isn’t fond of city living. Apartments terrified him as a kid - it’s too much noise and it didn’t seem right to stack people on top of each other. Houses located in busy districts are just as worse as the noise persists. He would rather live in quiet, unassuming suburbs where nothing happens or the countryside. However, living in the countryside means the commute to work would be too long, so Pietro settles for suburbia.

🖤 BLACK HEART — has your oc killed or seriously wounded anyone before? have they broken someone's heart and/or broken someone's trust? Hurting others comes with the nature of Pietro’s occupation. However, an instance of Pietro harming someone within Sink or Swim can be seen when he and others pummeled Mendel the dentist. Pietro has broken hearts and trust more on a profound level when it comes to his family. And that is something we will dive in later within this story’s narrative.

🍸 COCKTAIL GLASS — what is your oc's favorite alcoholic drink, if they can drink? Bourbon!

🧐 FACE WITH MONOCLE — is your oc more logical or emotional? Pietro is sneaky, but he is also logical and level-headed. He analyzes situations and he is a reflective thinker. He is capable of becoming emotional in certain situations, but it’s because something he really loves is on the line or something he cares about is at stake. Sometimes, you can get away with jumping and doing something risky when wrapped up in your emotions. But sometimes you can’t afford to. 

[junhour]

We weren't meant to be..

khshsgshsg I'm so addicted to Junhui! My god he is so fine... I'm in loveeee~ Just look at him! I love him soo much he is wrecking me so hard!

btw this is my first story! So there are gonna be a lot of mistakes in it! I'll improve in my other works! Anyways enjoy..... heheh

Tags- Angst, fluff, one-shot cheating partner,non-idol fic (i guess that's all? If there is more do tell me!)

Character's- Y/N and Jun (ofcourse duh) best friend's Jeonghan Joshua and Wonwoo!

Everything in bold is what the character is saying. That means you will see bold letters to represent someone speaking..

Baobei means love or baby in Chinese!

Word count- 4,459 words

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7:25 pm

He's late, he told me he will be here by 7.

7:40 pm

He's still not here.

8:00 pm

He'll be here soon he promised me...

You believed in him. Stupid You.

8:25 pm

It's going to rain soon you murmured to yourself as you look up and see those dark clouds and you were wearing a dress he bought for you because you knew how much he loved seeing you in that dress...You knew this dress couldn't help you in this situation in any way... But there you were waiting for him.

8:50 pm

You let out a slow giggle, remembering the playful cute guy you fell in love as you saw a couple probably younger than you, running and twirling in the rain, soaking wet, with a smile on their faces... It was like you could look at them and know that they were in love

I'd give so much to be like that again

9:30 pm

U sat there on the bench waiting for him to come because you believed in him way too much. A man who had just passed by you gave you his fur coat and asked you if u needed his help but you denied him saying you were waiting for someone and off he went. I'm stupid... very stupid... I shouldn't have come bu-t he might still come no? you thought and decided to wait for him.

10:00 pm

The rain has stopped but there you were waiting for him. You couldn't take it anymore

That's it. I can't... l-l-ike what wrong thing did i do that he had to keep me waiting here for him? if he was caught up with some work he could have just told me couldn't he? I shouldn't have waited for him this long h-he is- before you could complete your words tears started running down your face. There were few people around few of them came to ask you what happened and if u needed any help but you denied them softly telling them that it's okay you are okay. It was a lie but you loved him... You still do!

10:40 pm

You have no idea why but you stayed there waiting for him waiting for the person who kept ignoring you... Because you thought he probably got busy or something... stupid girl.It was too much now and you told yourself that you will not wait for him anymore and go back to your house but for some reason you wanted to know if what you were thinking was probably a lie. You don't really do this but you decided on doing it either ways.

You dialed Jeonghan's number being Junhui's girlfriend most of his friends were your friends especially Jeonghan Joshua and Wonwoo the four of you had a special relationship as the four of you were friends even before you met Jun,it was them who introduced you to Jun. In one ring Jeonghan picked the call up Hello?You there? What happened?You fall on your knees crying.

11:30 pm

You're still crying as you reach home, Jeonghan driving. The drive to your home was silent and Jeonghan looked very worried throughout the whole drive he knew if he asked something you would cry more so he thought being quiet right now would be the best for both of you.

11:40 pm

You decide to take a long shower. You think about how foolish you'd been to sit there thinking that he'd show up. He never did these days... He was always busy doing this and that, sometimes it even felt like he was ignoring you...

The music playing in the background does nothing to calm you and you fall apart again

10:00 am

You think back to try and figure out how u ended up on the bed, curled into a ball with the music still playing from the bathroom...

All the emotions flood back into you as you remember everything that happened

10:10 am

You go downstairs to get some breakfast and find Jeonghan sleeping on your couch. You wonder if he has been here since the night and suddenly a wave of gratitude washes over you.

You go over to the kitchen and try to find something to eat. You seem to be lost. All the emotions you're trying to contain inside you are too much.

Jeonghan comes into the kitchen,woken up by all the noise. He understands you are looking for something to eat so he tells you to go outside and wait, he'll get both of you breakfast. You accept his offer happily as you had no energy to do anything right now.

10:20 am

So how is it? Jeonghan asks you with a smile on his face as you dig into it.

Its amazing I love it! Thank you so much for all this Jeonghan! I don't know how to thank you..

Soo..How are you now? Are you okay now?

Oh Jeonghan it's just that- Me and Jun we have been fighting a lot these days I don't know why yesterday he promised me that he would come to the park and it would be a date! But as usual he didn't come i waited for him like a stupid girl and you see these days i-i feel like he is ignoring me i'm just like a ghost for him i don't know Jeonghan d-did i do something wrong? His heart sunk as you said those words.He wanted to say something when he saw your tears. He couldn't believe that his friend could be like that...He sat next to you and held you hand telling you to let it all out scream cry or do whatever but don't keep it in you... You can't keep pretending that everything's okay anymore... You finally can't control it anymore.

Me and Jun had planned so many dates but guess what? It's always me who is there and he'll just send me a text saying he got busy some work came up and all. Am I a... a toy or something? It feels like h-he uses me when he wants to and j-just throws me away when he wants. Jeonghan I don't k-know about anything right now i don't k-know anything a-about me and j-jun. I just... I just d-dont know. As soon as you finished you broke into tears and he hugged you.

It's okay everything will be okay. Jeonghan assured you.

You kept on crying on his shoulder till you had no energy left in you. He let you take it all out.

11:40 am

You wake up on your bed and you wonder how you ended up here. That's when everything that had happened came back to your memory. One side of you felt like dying but the other side felt happy and relieved to know that you had such good friends,who were there for you whenever you needed them the most.

Soon you went downstairs just to find your friends sitting there on the couch. Joshua saw you as you stood there on the staircase and he signaled everyone that you were here. Soon you find yourself sitting between all of them on the couch. Their expressions explained everything to you that they knew what had happened and everything going between you and Jun.

Wonwoo broke the silence saying Y/N we understand what you are going through don't keep everything inside you now on,let it all out don't keep it in it will just hurt you more.

Those words were so comforting and for some reason it made you feel so relaxed and relieved. Everyone nodded in union to what Wonwoo had said.

Thank You soo much guys! I can't believe i got to have such amazing friends like you all!How you all are always there whenever i need you guys the most! I just have no words for this I'm just so thankful to all of you! This time you didn't feel like crying but you felt ever so happy you were glad to have them in your life .

All of them smiled at you and told you that this is what friends are for! The room was now silent but the silence was comforting and relaxing.

Your door bell rang suddenly, everyone's head shot up to the door.You told them you will go and get the door.

You went and opened the door just to find your boyfriend standing there with a pastel coloured bouquet of carnation flowers,your favourite flowers.You suddenly remembered the time when he bought you this exact bouquet when he proposed you. You were standing there. Jun looked at you with such a warm smile as he held the bouquet as if all of this ruckus wasn't created because of him.

Baobei what happened? Yes I know I couldn't come yesterday and im very sorry for that baobei. I'll make it up to you,did you cry because of me? Yes indeed did cry because of him. I'm really sorry,don't be so upset now. Today I will spend my whole day with you we can do whatever you want to baobei!Here I bought your favourite flowers! You stood there motionless and that's when everyone came to see what was happening here and they definitely did not expect something like this.

Ohhhhh,you guys are here?!!! I didn't know you called them over baobei you could have told me but whatever it's okay as they are also here now we will have loads of fun and again I'm soooo sorry baobei! He said as you took the bouquet in you hands.

Nobody has uttered a word ever since he came.

Ummm guys?What happened?Did i do something wrong? Like i know i did wrong by ditching her in the date but I'm so sorry i got caught up with some work.

Junie nothing is wrong okay? Don't feel sorry about it i understand baby. Its just that we didn't expect you right now nothing else so don't take tension and thank you so much for the bouquet!

He smiled I'm so lucky to have someone like you in my life!

Others were confused but they understood that you don't want him to know not now.

So they all agreed upon what you said. Jun had also bought you your favourite snacks and eatables so you told all of them to go and you will bring it all but Jun insisted on helping so in the end he did help you. As you guy's sat down and started talking, you were missing this old version of Jun the cute giggly and loving side of his. Whenever you would fall ill he would stay with you the whole time and would never leave you.He was always there whenever you needed him he was your back bone but look at the two of you now. It seems like all you guys do is pretend to be happy in front of everyone. You miss him... You miss the old him... The loving caring bubbly and giggly him.. You miss 'we'...

6:00 pm

It was late evening when everyone left. Now only you and Jun were there and there was this awkward silence in the room while in the background the sounds of the Television kept coming. Jun broke the silence saying

Baobei?

Yes Jun,what happened?

I-umm I'm very sorry i ditched you yesterday,I'm really very sorry but please don't ignore me...

Junie I'm not ignoring you okay? It's just that ah- leave it we can talk about all that later right now it's just you and me so let's have some fun and sorry if I made you feel I'm ignoring you baby!

Hmm okay! Soooo...Now that we have all this time left watcha wanna do baobei??!! He smiled as he asked you.

You returned the smile and pinched his cheeks as you found him way too cute!

Well...we can go out to the cat shelter? There's a new cat there i was waiting to go there with you!So we can go there now and I'll cook the dinner when we come back!

Ofcourse let's goo! But- I will cook the dinner not you okay? You just help me because you know I suck at cooking I'll do the rest yea!

Oh god just don't burn down the house Junie!

Awww man I'm not that bad at cooking! Anyways come let's goo!

Yes yea give me a second let me just- And before you know he had dragged you out! You laughed at him at how excited he is to go to the cat shelter,he loves cats so much! You wished you guys could have been like these always, happy always. You wish.

8:00 pm

When you guys visited the shelter you both got so immersed in it you did not even notice how the time went,there were just so many cute lil kittens there and the both you thought that you will adopt a kitty soon. On the way Jun insisted on eating those street food and ofcourse you couldn't deny it!

Baobei let's go and eat Tteokbokki!!

Ya ya ofcourse baby! I love it!

Gosh it's delicious-

I know right it's so-

There was a little shop on the way back to you house you both went there to have look

Juniee look at that! The ring looks soo cute doesn't it?

Ofcourse it does it will look so good on you

Hehhe thanks! You grinned at his comment.

Hey baobei look at those couple rings, it looks so good we should buy it shouldn't we?

Awww,it's amazing let's buy!

The old lady that worked there looked at the two of you and smiled and said You two look really good together!Be like this always!

You blushed when you heard her say that and Jun smiled warmly at the comment.

9:00 pm

It was so fun baobei!

I know right,we went somewhere together like this after so long .

Yea i know that! He smiled saying those words.

You wished that the two of you could have been like this always and you hoped those bad days would just disappear.

You went to get fresh and as soon as you came back you found Jun in the kitchen already.

Y/N ah come here look I'm trying to make Chow Mein

lol i chose something easy but I'm a bit full already and I know you probably are full too from all that street food we ate so i thought maybe this would be good but oh god it's not easy okay?I need help please?

Oh god Junie ofcourse I'll help you! Let's get this done quickly!

He nods in approval.

You arranged plates for the two of you on the table and sat there watching Jun cook,soon the thoughts you dreaded the most came to you mind as you started thinking when this kind of things were very common for you, you would be so happy and basically everyone adored the two of you.

Y/N girlie where did you get lost? Look here is the five star Chow Mein just for you!

You snapped out of it as you heard Jun.

Sheesh so cheesy you are Jun, anyways let's eat!

Hmm i can't wait!

Pabo~

Oh god Jun it's just amazing you are not a bad cook after all baby!

Hehe thank you but you did help me though-

All i did was some chopping and stuff baby!

Yea yea whatever. He chuckled.

You had finished dinner, Jun had insisted on doing the dishes so you just let him do it. You went and sat on the couch and wondered if all of this was a dream,if the things won't be the same tomorrow what if- your thoughts were cut when Jun sat next to you.

Hello? Earth to Y/N,you there ?

Oh yea yea i just got lost anyways what are we doing now?

What do you want to?

Hmm I'm tired so maybe we go to bed, cuddle and sleep?

Good idea Y/N. Let's go!

He picked you up in bridal style and you blushed.

Ohhh~looks like someone is blushing eh?

Oh god stop Wen Junhui!

Awww your Chinese is pretty cute!

Yea yea!

The night went like that the two of you talked for a while before drifting off to sleep... You just couldn't stop wondering if tomorrow won't be the same but you knew it won't be the same it won't be. You thought to enjoy it right now because it's never ever gonna be the same.

8:00 am

The sun shined brightly from the curtains making you squint your eyes from how brightly the sun was shining directly into your eyes.

You turned just to see Junhui sleeping ever so peacefully,he looked so beautiful so ethereal.You swear you wanted to kiss him but for some reason you didn't,then you saw the time are realised it's 8o clock already and Jun probably had office today so you crawled out the bed and went straight to get fresh, you got out as fast as you could because you knew he doesn't like being late. You know Jun must be awake probably,you were right because when you went out Jun was on his phone smiling as he texted someone not that you want to interfere his personal life but those thoughts of him cheating on you?!! They always had scared you to death. Leaving all those thoughts behind you went to the kitchen and started cooking breakfast. Jun had seen you but he was so busy in his phone texting someone.

You flipped the last pancake you made for breakfast. And arranged them on the table. Soon you heard Jun coming down the stairs,you were sitting there waiting for him to come so you can start with the breakfast and maybe just know that everything were the same as yesterday or did they really go back to normal.

Good Morning baby!

Good morning Y/N.

You had no idea how to continue this conversation as you understood from his 'im not so interested in this conversation' tone that things were not like yesterday anymore.You wondered how things were so magical and just so good yesterday you thought maybe he had a good day or he felt bad for ditching you? Or something good had happened and he just had a good mood? You had no idea but you wished everything could have been like yesterday forever but it won't be like that,now you know it won't be.

He kissed you on the cheek before leaving to go to the office. And there you were sitting in the couch once again and you understood yesterday was a dream a god damn dream that you wished was real.

You sat there motionless you just sat there thinking about the two of you,your relationship and how everything right now is going down hill,you really want confront him about it but you can just can't you can't...But you can't just ignore all those signs the signs that confirmed he was drifting away from you,he wasn't yours anymore. When he would in his phone hours texting someone, smiling you let it pass away saying it might be his friends. When he came back home and he had this fragrance that wasn't his you know the perfume he uses you know it's fragrance, especially this was women's perfume and you were sure it wasn't yours again you let it pass saying probably his co-worker. The time when he told you he is at office and he will be late,so you went there just to check him up but guess what he had left a hour ago only and once again you let it pass saying he probably got busy or maybe his friends came over. You weren't ready to lose him,you weren't ready to not being able to call him yours.So you kept on lying to yourself you kept on ignoring all these signs and look where it has gotten you....

2:00 pm

You had cooked the lunch already, suddenly you heard the door bell ring so you went to open the door and it was none other than Jun.

Hey Y/N! I came home early today,boss said I've been working a lot.

Oh that's great! I didn't really expect you i mean ofcourse i wouldn't have anyways you are just in time as i just finished making the lunch..

Oh i have already ate.Im so sorry Y/N ah i had no idea hmm. He said he hung his coat and removed his shoes, keeping them properly in a corner.

Oh,it's okay I'll just eat my lunch you go get fresh..

He hummed in response.

He went upstairs to get fresh and you went and sat on the table,you got your food and started eating.You were hurt very hurt but probably he didn't care. You finished you lunch already,you were doing the dishes right now and then you'll head to the bedroom to get fresh...

3:30 pm

He was there laying on the bed while again texting someone he was smiling throughout,you wished it were you. You went to take a shower,you heard him laugh.When he was standing there at the door you smelled the same women's perfume again and you saw a mark on his neck. It was all too much you can't just hold it in yourself,you are going to confront him right now because you can't keep it in yourself for long because in the end it will be you who is hurt no one else.

You get ready and go outside and stand infront of the bed.

Junie?

He glanced at you and that's when he saw your eyes,you had a look which made him hurt he got anxious and kept his phone away..

Baobei? Y/N ah what happened? Is there a cockroach in the bathroom again? I swear i don't know where they are coming from,I'll take-

Jun drop it.

W-what? What do you mean?

Jun since when?

huh?Y/N what do you mean-

I asked since when?!! You asked with a straight face but it was too hard to control those tears..

He understood,he understood what you meant,he understood that you know it,you know about it now and there is nothing left to hide anymore.He never wanted to hurt you never ever but it just happened even he has no idea how,he wanted to tell you about all this sooner but he could never because he saw it in your eyes he saw the love he saw how you were always happy with him. It stung him,it hurted very badly but he knew it was nothing compared to the pain he has made you feel...

C-couple m-months. He said so slowly it came out as a whisper.

Couple months i see.. B-but why didn't you tell me? You asked with such a calm voice as if nothing was hurting you, he could not even have eye contact with you and he looked like small child in front of you...

I-i did w-want to tell you-but i couldn't i-i don't know. He was holding his tears back. He knew he has given wounds that will never be healed.

Oh- i see.B-but Junie why? Why? was i not enough?Did i do something wrong?

It hurt him even more now,how you were blaming yourself because of him.It all happened because of him but here you were thinking all this happened because you were not enough for him? Noo you were more than enough for him,you were his everything but somehow it just happened,how he slipped out of you, everything.

no baobei it's not because of you!Its all happening b-because of me and y-you are blaming yourself?I'm sorry I'm very sorry I'm such an idiot I'm a fool i know I'm so damn s-sorry love I'm sorry.Im so sorry for everything I'm sorry for ruining whatever we had,how i destroyed our whole relationship it all happened because of me not you!Dont blame yourself please please I'm so sorry I'm just-im a idiot.

He fell on his knees as you looked at him so calmly but you eye's and tears spoke other ways. Those tears that were flowing down your cheeks are because of him.He knows he realised it late and he also knows nothing can go back to normal now, in the end you and Jun will be strangers just because of him and his stupid heart.

Ju-nnie baby,don't blame yourself,stop crying my love stop. I love you and I will always love you,you are my first love and you will always have that special place in my heart.. I know it's hard but it's for the best.

With that being said you went towards the closest and packed all your things,you saw this frame of you and Jun from you first date.You smiled remembering those days..You took it with you.

You went towards him and saw him crying he looked so small so helpless..

You went towards him and held his face so gently and planted a kiss on his lips.. You whispered 'I love you Jun forever and always'. It killed him even more..

Baobei I'm sorry.

Jun it's okay it over for us for good my love. Find someone better than me for you love I'm not the one for you probably.We can't change the things that are meant to be, you know I love you and i will always love you but it's for the best of both of us,maybe we weren't meant to be. Maybe in another parallel universe we get to be together and happy,but not in this one my love.Its over we are over let's end this. Let's breakup Jun.

Those three words stabbed him in his chest.He felt like dying,both of you were a crying mess right now but again it was for the best. He saw you going out the door. He knew it's all over finally it's over between the two of you.

Maybe you were right you both weren't meant to be at first place.. It broke him whenever he saw all those pics,the times when the both of you were so happy...He wished he wouldn't have been so stupid to hurt you so much.

Well... It's over now it's over between us now. I'll always remember you Y/N my baobei you'll always be my baobei... Jun said as he broke down again on the floor..

It's over between us Junie baby,we are done i know it's very hard but i know we will go through this and find someone better for us but you will always be mine forever and ever,you will always be in my heart love. You said as you stood outside waiting for Jeonghan to come and pick you up...

Its over between you two....

[nova144]

i will always find ways to understand you, and although this shit hurts, you make this shit so fun

“i did bad things to good people”

not tryna to convince you that its your fault, because its not

THIS SHIT IS WAY TO FUN

happy again, to feel again, listening to your album, your music is now going to be my time machine. I know exactly how i feel when im around you.

I become so happy, thank you for sharing yourself with me, for that this might be a kindle of surprise that i dont want this to end,

I’m happy when im with you, and ive allowed you to open all the doors to reach…me

your being is beautiful, ur art is profound, thank you for enticing me with your words to now it no longer works

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS

…hmm

is that so, how does it feel to love

my love

you are everything

everything i dreamed of when i see you in your artistic zone, locked in to the feeling of what it means to be alive

a natural performer

i watch you, i watch u over and over again.

I thank you, constantly thank you for teaching me to love myself first

to love others lasts

for that love prevails when one understand its only nature of true love lies within the vessels of human skin underneath the surface of it all

better off than sorry can i say wow u really know how to make your mark,

your mark on me is infectious its addicting and i like it

lay on top of me and tell me that u miss me and that u meant every word you said, right

kiss me slowly, real slow to where its only me and u against the world

, hold every ounce of me

what we have is not human, yet its never been so disconnected than ever before

we know our love persist and it’s there for one another

you push urself to be the greatest and i love that

hold yourself accountable bc we all make mistakes

go into habits bc i guess it works that way, for that the more and more u get distracted the less u become invested into your art

you can see it when u perform

its no longer there

mistakes will arise

i feel ur scent on my body,

cuddle on my skin, safe

( content )was the word

remember

lets talk about it

make the first move, dont wait for me

lets talk, lets see, lets find out

for that its not as bad as u thought it would be

you said it urself, i am healthy

i am healthy to find peace in my situations

situations that i cannot control

communicate

actions speak louder than words

take the actions.

start talking

dont tell me what u NEED to do,

dont tell me that u are GOING to do it,

just be; exist….

for me and see how happy it can make u…

it can make u be U

YOU: what is the definition of that, the definition of U

goodnight, i hope you made it home safe

LOVE WILL ALWAYS PREVAIL