#it just sucks to be proud you were a pioneer and now feeling unappreciated in the fandom i helped revitalize on her | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

arabaka · 8 months ago

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once again, feeling lonely on this site. it's devastating to see my works (Reigen's particularly) under 20 notes while others get above 100s. sighs. can't do anything about it but hope im good enough. i just feel like shit.

i don't want to sound entitled but. man does it sucks to feel unwanted. its like when i left all over again.

ok I feel like a fool and I'm better again :'))) ty everyone for reaching out and helping me shoo the nasty feelings away!!!! much love

#im not even going to sugarcoat it. the fic community for reigen was dead before i started churning out works ever week back in october 2022 #im not gonna say the community wasnt active before bc ao3 has always been awkward but on tumblr?#the last fic when i started was months old. and it doesnt help that some writers are taking MY ideas and rewriting them.#it just sucks to be proud you were a pioneer and now feeling unappreciated in the fandom i helped revitalize on her #like why am i having to embarrass myself with self reblog after self reblog. its not fair honestly.#im just... upset. i hate that i feel this way.#im just gonna cry and breakdown. wwhats the point of working hard.#love that i make my own graphics and others can slap on a gif and that gets them 100s of notes #yes im bitter. im sorry.#i just wanna go home and cry. whats the point #not awkward in the earlier tag. ACTIVE

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