#it is actually hard to find them of him 💁‍♀️

[myriadxofxmuses]

"Do you know where I can find water?" ( @homelander-rp-blog for your Cooper!!)

@homelander-rp-blog

Cooper eyed the man silently a moment. He had water. Not a lot, but enough. He could help him. He could give him a drink or two. Build a bridge of mutual aid that was immensely helpful out in the Wastes. He could completely change the way he did things and try to be the Cooper Howard from before the bombs fell.

Then again, he was suddenly incredibly thirsty.

He pulled a flask from his pocket and drank the last of the water, sucking the last bits from his lips as he closed it back up and returned it to his pocket. "Afraid I'm all out," he told him unapologetically.

[nqueso-emergency]

Hi! I was not part of a fandom since Deckerstar happened (Lucifer) and I was excited when I found 9-1-1. I actually found it through Buddie shippers, and I was so dissapointed with them because I was expecting to see the things they were spreading, and as I watched the show I realized nothing was true and Eddie and Buck were just really good friends nothing more. I don't want them as a couple. First i was so confused also, because the photoshopped pictures of them kissing. It wasn't reality like I thought it was (my bad for not noticing💁‍♀️) and I guess that made me mad about the misinformation around the internet.

Then BuckTommy happened. I was so happy to see Buck hopefully finding his forever partner who supports him and shows up for him. And for him to be fully himself after discovering his bisexuality. He's my favorite character and I want him to be happy and enjoy this journey with him.

I hate the toxic shippers behavior and it sometimes ruins my fun, but I'm trying to ignore it for myself. It's hard to be honest, they are everywhere.

All I want to say is thank you for calling them out! I hope if Buck and Tommy are settled for life (moving in, marrige, kids ect 🤔🤫🤞🤞) they will stop watch the show for our and they sake. 😅 The insanity must stop.

(Side note: I hope you can understand what I was trying to say, english is not my native language.)

I understood you just fine!!

I feel so bad when people start watching because of Buddie edits because it has to be confusing af.

[poisonouswritings]

Some headcanons about M4 but pre-5 years of agony and pain. What were they like before the war,what foolish acts they commited,what were their relationship like etc. Just some wholesome Starsworn Gang headcanons that's all I ask for 💁‍♀️💕

Ohhoho the babies!!

I think they were all pretty close!! Out of all the other recruits, the four of them were their own little in-group. Even Sage and Rime. They argued all the time but I also think they definitely cared about each other. Rime's whole 'I never liked you thing' I think was a lie. Or rather, maybe he never 'liked' Sage, but I think they cared for each other in a different way. They were comrades in arms or whatever.

Felix always admired Anisa!! Rime would tease him about having a crush

Sage would bring Balsam and Lucan over sometimes!! They'd all sleep in Sage's room.

Tulsi had her first drink there!!!!

Tulsi had a crush on Anisa and would kinda tag along with her a lot. Anisa was oblivious. They were - and still are - close friends

The three would get drunk. Rime, as the healer, was almost always the designated babysitter. He didn't really mind. It was in his nature to keep everyone safe.

Felix wasn't technically allowed to have Stella so they'd all hide her in their rooms during inspections. Even Sage, though he always complained afterwards.

Sage teaching them all to play poker and blackjack??? Sage keeps trying to make it a strip game????? They actually do. Several times. Mostly when they're drunk.

They have to do chores around Fathom, like upkeep and whatever. They trade duties for favors all the time. It's their own little currency. Rime also uses blackmail but only against Sage.

Sage and Rime got into fights like,, every week. Everyone would stand around and watch and cheer for them. Except Anisa who was the only one trying to stop them.

I'm really upset that I don't remember where I read it but there was a post somewhere talking about the possibility that,, Gramme actually did die in the battle and LoS basically stole his form/body,,,, if I find it again I'll link it here but yeah it's really fucked up and I love it

Anisa and Gramme had a father-daughter relationship. Ow.

Felix would pull Earth things out of the Void and give them to Annie.

No matter how much they were fighting, if Sage ever got hurt Rime would chase him down to heal him. Felix would tease them both for it, thus leading to them giving Felix a double-noogie while Felix yells at them for messing with his hair

Sage would cook breakfast sometimes and Anisa would help him. He tries to teach her but I feel like she's a very 'use as many ingredients as your heart feels' person so it doesn't go very well

I feel like ilephtas - especially predator ones - prefer their meat bloody so Sage isn't allowed to cook steaks anymore

Rime would sing as he did chores.

Felix set up 'traps' (like bucket of water over the door type stuff) to keep people from entering his study without permission. He gets in trouble several times but continues doing it.

Sage is afraid of storms,,, thunder and lightening specifically,,,, so they would all pile into Felix's room (aka the biggest room) and have a sleepover. Felix always told ghost stories.

Someone bullies Anisa for not knowing who her dad is and the boys are Ready To Throw Down Because Leave Her Alone!!!

Whenever Sage would stay out late, Anisa and Rime would stay up to make sure he got back. Felix tried to stay up but always ended up falling asleep.

Felix does a dangerous experiment and Sage takes the blame for it so Fe doesn't get in trouble.

Sometimes Felix and Rime would just,,, leave. Peace out. They'd come back the next morning like nothing ever happened. They were totally fucking going on dates.

Sage and Felix making sure Rime and Anisa don't work too hard. Rime and Sage dragging Felix away from his studies sometimes. Anisa and Felix making sure Rime has a shoulder to cry on when he needs it. Rime and Anisa making sure Sage does his chores.

Friends

[ranhaitanisgf]

hiiii!! i hope ur doing alright, i rlllyyy love ur writing so here i am requesting 💁‍♀️ may i request a headcanon for draken and mitsuya with a clumsy sleeper s/o, where they just wake up with their s/o’s body draped over theirs or s/o’s foot is infront of their face. thank you!!! and make sure to take care of yourself youre loved!!

ryuguji ken [draken] & mitsuya takashi with an s/o who's a clumsy sleeper: headcanons

[𖤐] hi anon, and thank you for requesting!! i'm super glad you like my writing; you're so sweet!! this was such a super cute idea, but i'm sorry i didn't have as much to write about it!! i'm a pretty clumsy sleeper myself so this was relatable LMAOJHKDFDFG OKAY ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU ENJOY <33

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ryuguji ken [draken]:

✂︎ he honestly finds it really endearing that you’re a clumsy sleeper, but as much as he thinks it’s cute, he needs his sleep too, so he’s not going to be afraid to shove your limbs off of his face and whatnot during the course of the night. of course, it’s not going to be anything hard enough for it to hurt, but enough force so that you move, (he would never intentionally hurt his s/o).

✂︎ no matter how tired he is, if he ever sees that you’re sleeping in an odd position, he’ll lazily move you around so that you don’t wake up with a sore neck, and the same goes for if he sees that you’re about to fall off the bed; he’ll always be there to help you get into the middle of the bed again and not on the edge.

✂︎ definitely one to tease you about how your foot was in his face the previous night, and will loudly talk about how stinky they are, (even if they really aren’t LMAO). don’t worry though, you can just easily get him back with how loud he snores, and he’ll immediately shut up and change the conversation.

✂︎ he always finds it a bit amusing how sometimes he’ll just wake up to your arm across his face, or perhaps your leg drapes across his torso while you’re sleeping in the complete opposite direction you’re supposed to, (he really does find it pretty cute, especially when he sees your peacefully sleeping face while your body is tangled in all sorts of positions).

✂︎ if you ever fall asleep while the two of you are in public and you start to move around a lot, he’ll definitely be making up an excuse for the two of you to leave so that you can sleep on an actual bed, (and also not embarrass yourself in front of a lot of people). if this isn’t possible though, he’ll just let you sleep on his shoulder, and you can sometimes be seen sleeping with your limbs all over him in the middle of a diner while the two of you are waiting for mikey to finish eating.

✂︎ if anybody ever makes fun of the way you sleep though, he’ll get really passive-aggressive, and will immediately shoo the person off and tell them that they should worry about their own problems.

mitsuya takashi:

✂︎ when he was younger, he was pretty used to sleeping with mana and luna and would always keep a firm grip around them so they wouldn’t fall off the bed, so he’s naturally developed the ability to keep a grip on something even while he’s sleeping.

✂︎ because he has this, he’s going to be taking advantage of it and will keep a tight grip around your waist whenever the two of you are sleeping. he knows that because of the way you sleep, you will sometimes get a bit too close to the edge of the bed for his liking, so he’ll want to keep you close to him at all times so that you don’t fall off in the middle of the night.

✂︎ this means that he will have your limbs all over him for a majority of the night, but he’s pretty used to it because of his sisters, so it’s actually a peaceful routine since he won’t wake up from whatever you’re doing with your body, and he also makes sure that you’re not going to be falling off the bed.

✂︎ he thinks it’s funny whenever he goes over to your place to drop off some food and finds you sleeping in an odd position on the couch. he’ll be silently laughing to himself everytime he takes a look over at you as he’s heating up food for you to eat, and lowkey doesn’t want to wake you up because you seem to be very content with how you’re positioned.

✂︎ it might seem like a bit of a burden for other people, but mitsuya personally loves to have your limbs all over him, (except when it’s the summer months) because he loves the way it makes him feel close to you. his ego already gets a little boost every time you fall asleep around him because he’s happy that you feel comfortable enough around him to let your guard down like that, (even though you guys are literally dating LMAO).

✂︎ might be a bit confused when he first wakes up and feels your hand draped over his face, but once he realizes that it’s just you, he’ll lay there for a moment and laugh to himself about how cute you are when you’re sleeping. if he needs to get up though, he’ll cringe every time he moves one of your limbs off of him because he doesn’t want to accidentally wake you up, especially when you look so cute.

✂︎ mitsuya definitely has a few pictures of some of your odd sleeping positions on his phone, but he makes sure to never show you because he’s sure that you’ll try to get him to delete them. it’s not in a creepy way, but he just thinks that it’s cute, (and also sometimes impressive) the way you can sleep in almost any position.

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[ladymochawrites]

Hello!! Could i request some headcanons of what would include being dark choco cookie's best friend?? Please ^^

So what’s it’s like to be friends with Dark Choco Cookie and what are some of his qualities to obtain friendship…?

DARK CHOCO’S FRIENDSHIP WISHLIST ☽˚⁀➷｡˚

((Thanks to the help of @caeserfroggysalad ! She decided to give me some extra pointers with this one. Being the sweet and sensitive male cookie he is, we decided to go all ‘soft’ with this one. So I hope you enjoy reading this one! He will for sure definitely would want to be friends (: All texts were copied and pasted through our convos just so I can give the credit for this particular topic. ))

- He’s super respectful and gots lots of good manners treating you like royalty despite you trying to tell him it’s not a big deal

- He doesn’t talk much but he listens and remembers certain things about you

- It’s a special moment seeing him even crack a smile at you. He tries to joke and it works sometimes

- He trust you enough to get a closer look at his scar. As well as being touchy (his hugs are tender but not firm)

- If you’re overwhelmed dark choco will come to you soon as he can. A prince of few words knows how to reassure you things are gonna be okay.

- Super tall so free piggy back rides >:3 (THIS ONE WAS A CUTE ONE!! YES HE DEF WILL ENJOY THIS)

- Scary dog privileges personal body guard.

- Yes hair braided 💁‍♀️💁‍♀️💁‍♀️

- He likes reading a lot. Deep meanings in stories and if your lucky he’ll read to you

My POV:

I always also thought the timid boy he was for trying to express his emotions and thoughts to their friend. To think about, the typical darkness is what he prefers to be comfortable in, but at the same time it’s like anxiety, where his inner consciousness is trying to reject some of the possibilities of wanting to be friends with a particular significant other, therefore it kinda makes him hard to be vocal about what he wants to say or question. I think he is a very low, chill dude for having conversations with—especially because of the fact that he likes your company. He prefers to have someone to smile to and even has open-ended convos.

He enjoys fulfilled activities with you like definitely reading and braiding hair for sure!! He admits that he can actually bake a good dozen of cookies and cream cookies and the fresh mixture of sweet Oreo chocolate will definitely fill your senses and eat every single one of them, getting yourself to become full because he sees that you actually like them. Dark Choco is also serious about keeping your friendship protected. He will do anything to help you keep away from danger, especially the trauma that he could go through form moments in time, he feels bad for bringing your into it— you didn’t mind it yourself because you want to be the friend that finds the solution to its problem, even if it’s not the very best.

Oh! And didn’t I also want to mention…tea parties??? Yes, this will definitely put a smile on his face ✨ You need to take this man to a tea shop or throw a tea party and grab a few cookie friends to a garden tea party. He enjoys the cottage core aesthetic!

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[hanjisungs-bigtittyg0thgf]

I'm honestly appalled by how I was during my hoe days. Like wtf. Talk about unsafe. I would have them pick me up from my place. At the time I did live in a gated apartment complex so they wouldn't be able to find me anyway. But still, they were my ride. What if they just fucking kidnapped me. 💀 However, I've got some spicy stories if you wanna hear them lmao.

I went for a Deja Vu Seonghwa vibe. Leather pants and a blue long sleeve crop top with my girls hanging out oo la la. Not too much though. Gotta be a classy hoe 💁‍♀️

I was with the loser who didn't like that I was younger than his sister for a year. Waste of my damn life. He just up and left and went to med school across the mf country. Told me like less than 2 weeks before he was supposed to move that he was leaving. Like wtf. OK.

Oof. My PK friend. I called him a heathen but we were heathens together as teenagers. He was my first kiss at 15/16. I gave him his first bj 😂 (had no idea wtf I was doing but he still enjoyed it) lots of frisky business during church outings and even at church after youth group or service. We've had an on and off fwb for years. Last time I saw him was April 2021. I decided I didn't wanna continue fwb after that encounter. A decade later and he hasn't learned any new skills. Still that teenager who can't take off a bra and thinks squeezing the life outta my tits is hot. At this age, I need me a man not a little boy. Please.

wait that sounds hot oml i probably would’ve simped so hard if i saw you since i’m you know 💅🏻

HELPPPPPPP THAT WAS TOO FUCKING FUNNY OH MY GODDDDD

i didn’t lose my v card until pretty recently so i can’t say i know much about fwb but yikes on bikes man

tbh i never understood what the whole squeezing your tits thing did for anyone. like idk i’ve spent enough time getting elbowed in the tits by kids that i just don’t want them touched 💀

but yeah my lightbulb was kinda like that?? like she’d bite me and shit at church and was always trying to tease me. my best friend who i’ve been talking to for a year now actually fucking choked me in the fellowship hall with a piece of one of these fuckers

i was going somewhere with this but idk anymore so just have that story lmao

[punkscowardschampions]

China & Toni

China: did you see the next play’s sign-up sheet is out

Toni: Nah, when did you?

China: got music with Mullans rn so

China: it doesn’t sound crap this time

China: [the lil synopsis that’s been put up about it]

Toni: sounds worth auditioning for once

China: thought you’d like it

China: your sister had already got her name on though

Toni: right under your sister’s I bet 🙄

China: it looks like she signed them both up

China: not sure if America knows

China: I doubt she’ll get a part

Toni: ffs she’s so weird

China: know the feeling

Toni: but yeah she’ll never learn her lines properly, he won’t wanna give her a part

China: I don’t think they should cast anyone under our year anyway

China: no one wants to watch that

Toni: and if any of the parents do they need watching themselves for being creepy

China: or let them do some age-appropriate shitshow and let 4th 5th and 6th do this

China: Mullans isn’t having it though, no budget as per so 🤷‍♀️

Toni: he’s supposed to be creative, all they’d need is a dressing up box

China: right

China: Jake and Simon have signed up

Toni: What are you gonna do when you have to play against him as lead?

China: I’ve been in every play since I got here, he knows that

China: it’d look weirder if I didn’t, if anything

Toni: he does know that

Toni: maybe he wants you back

China: I can’t think like that

Toni: you can’t, but I can

Toni: I said he’d realise he fucked up

China: Are you going to audition or not, bitch

Toni: yeah

China: good

China: at least that’ll be one not terrible person to count on

Toni: What’s Mullans’ deal, do we have to audition with scenes from the play or do I have to find some bullshit Shakespeare?

China: not Shakespeare

China: do some Tennessee, he will LOVE that

Toni: Glass Menagerie it is

China: works every time ✨

China: I’ll do Streetcar

Toni: come over and run lines

China: okay

China: banish your sister, they aren’t copying us

Toni: I’ll send her to take my ma something to eat that isn’t out of a vending machine, she’s working late as per

China: bonus daughter points can never hurt

China: I’ll have to air mine, sending me texts ALL day about a family dinner, what family

Toni: 😬

China: exactly

China: Zsa won’t come if the latest boyfriend says jump, or ain’t saying jump and she’s 😰

Toni: I doubt America’ll run back either, her and Sean are basically surgically stitched

China: yeah, it’ll just be me, them and nan

China: fuck that

Toni: I’ll feed you, babe

China: Too bad it’s too late for uni for her

China: could do with some of that workaholic energy, she’s got too much time to think of stupid shit like this

Toni: get Archie to sign her up for open uni without her knowing, she obviously’d be willing to

China: 😏

China: is your mum gonna go proper mental if you don’t get into a good uni

China: as she’s so smart, like

Toni: not to my face, but on the quiet she’d definitely be losing it over my wasted potential or whatever

China: Hmm, better stop slacking then, bitch

Toni: which one of us has actually been doing the Italian work all term, bitch

Toni: I don’t slack

China: you don’t exactly work hard, either

China: I’m fine because as long as I go to Uni I’m beating them all, Zsa didn’t AND she ruined mum’s life so she didn’t go either 💁‍♀️

Toni: I work hard enough

Toni: who are you, garda for grades?

China: Don’t be pissy

Toni: I’m fine too, that’s all I’m saying

China: I didn’t say you weren’t

Toni: just that I’m a lazy 🐄

China: and you can’t handle that?

China: piss off Sam, see what happens, you’ll 💀

Toni: 🖕 I couldn’t care less you don’t have your facts straight about how much school work I do or don’t do

Toni: be a bit weird if you did know and I’d be asking myself why you’re so obsessed with me 😏

China: if being a nerd means so much to you, I’m SO sorry, like

Toni: yeah, that’s me 🤓

China: I’ve seen the glasses 😘

Toni: not everyone has 20/20

China: nobody’s perfect 💔

Toni: exactly

China: what lesson are you in

Toni: Geography

China: I’m going to record some sounds outside for my track

China: if you can get out for a cig

Toni: [show up again how you always do because of course that was easy for you the way everything is]

China: [clearly none of you take geography lmao, hand her one as we are actually doing this work rn, recording cars going past, convos from outside the classrooms etc]

Toni: [clearly Geography ain’t pretentious enough for y’all lol, just smoking and watching her, totally unselfconcious in her glasses because we know she looks cute af still, and totally unselfconcious about letting her know we think what she’s doing is kinda cool cos it is]

China: [record her saying that, like that’s not gay at all lmao, it is the kind of thing Mr Mullans would think he was so cool for so but we are enjoying ourselves so like yeah, even though we’ve blatantly come out to avoid Jake ‘cos he deffo takes music too]

Toni: [he really thinks he’s doing something at all times, oh sir, the awks when you probably have so many classes with Jake gal cos you’re so similar, soz for that, handing her some gum after you’re done with this cigarette because you like handing each other things]

China: [lowkey I bet most of you take music, y’all are those types so that’s fun, I’m sure, take that gum and ask her to check your breath purely so you gotta be in each other’s grills, ‘cos people used to come in STANKIN it’s not what you’re trying to do, so get the perfume out too for y’all]

Toni: [Sam BLATANTLY takes music too because she’s that bitch 100% soz that Toni is one of the few of y’all who doesn’t take music or art and she’s still cooler than most of y’all, obvs do some effortlessly cute sashay/twirl into the perfume because everything you do is just that energy, there is nothing gayer than the fact you’re gonna smell the same now]

China: [Mhmm, thank god she’s not so rabid with her hate that she’ll clock it like THAT’S CHINA’S PERFUME lmao, true secret gay drama, bet she’s doing SUCH a cool song for her final song, I like to think she thinks she’s talented but it’s real indie Halsey singing and it’s BAD, telling Toni as much about whatever she’s produced so far]

Toni: [gotta laugh cos we’re a bitch and we’re not loyal but also tell her any cringe stories you have from before China joined the squad because you’ve clearly been in it for ages so there would be tween gold, like I definitely imagine her trying to be in one of Jake’s bands]

China: [saving that for ammo ‘cos we aren’t above it baby, but also dying ‘cos of course she did, telling her how hard Mr Mullans is trying to get Sam NOT to take music ‘cos they do when you’re shit but they can’t say soz, you’re talentless hun x]

Toni: [‘least he can keep her away from the play’ fully implying here that we think she’s desperate enough to put everyone through a cringe af audition in an attempt to get a part and spend time with Jake cos lbr she’s obvs done worse]

China: [I like to think you literally didn’t make the cut, even Lucie got in like omg hun]

Toni: [he must HATE you girl cos America really does his head in acting up and even she got a part, love the way Toni is done smoking and all the aftermath but has not left]

China: [it tracks, you’re just that bitch clearly, would feel bad for you if you weren’t also being controlling and bitchy with it, we’re clearly stalling for time here too so we’re not moving, just recording more shit, being goofy with it like you blatantly won’t use you cussing Sam out but doing it anyway]

Toni: [catch our lols on that recording because it’s funny, though we do see you not joining in with slagging her off any more than you already have hun, instead just trying to pick a scene for your audition so probably just catching bits of that too as we’re trying it out likewise being silly]

China: [at least we can use that for bonus points, amazing Southern accents and all, which will really swing your respective roles ‘cos accent work baby]

Toni: [I like to imagine she’s also doing a Poirot accent and an OTT posh english one just for fun]

China: [honestly just having a lovely time, so rude that you’re just gonna go and ignore us at break next like cool cool babes lol]

Toni: [yeah and likewise if the lesson after is a core one that loads of peeps are in together]

China: [not at all confusing gal, or a knock to our self-esteem but anyway, you should’ve left your shit so you gotta go back before the bell]

Toni: [it’s actually really fucked up and upsets me greatly, but yeah agreed, China is actually allowed to be out there so there’s no need for her to take all her shit with her]

China: 🤞 I won’t use any of that as blackmail

Toni: If you want my leather jacket for keeps that bad, go ahead and try

China: bold of you to assume that’s all I’d ask for

Toni: rookie error if you don’t, it’s vintage

China: 😏 nice try getting out of the trouble I could put you in

Toni: what trouble’s that meant to be?

China: so far undecided

Toni: convenient you don’t have to answer now

China: you probably don’t want an answer, tbh

Toni: probably not after all the build up

China: ha, if you were having that much fun you wouldn’t still be hitting me up

Toni: maybe it’s your knack for making it sound loads more sordid than it is that keeps me coming back

China: I think that says more about you than it does about me, babe

Toni: you’re the only one bringing up blackmail like I’ve done anything wrong

China: I’m joking

China: I don’t play dirty like that

Toni: I know, we’ve met

China: 🤝

Toni: you’re not getting my jacket that easy anyway

China: I could get it easy

Toni: I don’t think so

China: you’re on

Toni: 😄 alright

China: you’re gonna regret not setting any ground rules there

Toni: I’m not my ma and if I ever regret not turning into her it’ll take ages longer than the 10 year reunion so expect a long as fuck 👵 drunk 💬

China: 😅

China: if I can still see to read it by then, I might text you back

Toni: I know just the place to sort you out with really cool glasses, if they’re still open by then

China: well, only if you get yourself a pair

Toni: oh damn, need to get myself a wheelchair after how hard I walked into that

China: it was too easy, so I won’t even gloat

Toni: you did only have to go back to Mullans, not close to a fair trade

China: yeah you’re so weird for that pick

Toni: you badly want me to get into uni

China: you’ll be drunk crying before 👵 if your ma is not angry but disappointed so

China: save me the headache

Toni: Don’t turn me into Lucie, however much we’re ALL gonna miss her when she goes

China: make it sound like you’re gonna murder her more

Toni: never done this before, am I not meant to go that method with it then?

China: thank god Mullans is gay 😏

Toni: thank god Rian’s far too busy to sign himself up bossing everyone round backstage

China: the one blessing

China: besides Sam having 0 talent and 0 chance

Toni: yeah

China: [wanna skipskop]

Toni: [totally, do you wanna skip to after auditions cos we know she flopped hers or when the roles are announced?]

China: [we could do after auditions ‘cos clearly you practiced together and weren’t terrible lol]

Toni: What happened in there?

China: You saw

Toni: I saw you practice too

China: Yeah well, it doesn’t always work out

Toni: I don’t get what changed between then and now

China: I had to go basically last

Toni: sir blatantly did that to make it fairer on everyone else

China: He blatantly had his mind made up on a cast before we even started

Toni: yeah, you and Jake as leads, but he can’t pick you now

China: He didn’t want to

China: I wonder if Jake told him not to

Toni: like you said, it’s your thing, I don’t reckon he’d try and take it away from you

China: If that was totally true he wouldn’t have auditioned at all

China: He clearly doesn’t want to play opposite me

Toni: I guess you’re right

China: Whatever, I can’t do anything about it now

Toni: I’m sorry, babe

Toni: this is shit

Toni: it was overrun by 2nd and 3rd years

China: If that’s who he’s casting, I wouldn’t even want to be in it

Toni: When are the roles going up?

China: Doesn’t usually take him long

China: Friday, probably

Toni: nice of him not to seriously milk what little power he has

Toni: some of us need to decide if we can still be bothered with the play

China: sure he’ll beg you to whatever

Toni: if I gave in to begging Archie would have been my shadow before she was America’s

China: their auditions were pretty crap, don’t know why they bothered

Toni: I don’t know why she does, like, 95% of what she does

China: sounds about right

Toni: my ma was embarrassingly happy we both auditioned, that alone is enough to make me wanna drop out

China: quite the dilemma

Toni: Has yours tried to reschedule family dinner?

China: it’s more of a thing than that

Toni: obviously

China: doesn’t seem like you get it enough to call it that, nah

Toni: I have to start somewhere with the 💬 that’s all

China: You don’t have to say anything

Toni: I know I’m not obligated to, bitch

China: Well I want to talk about my home life less than how majorly I fucked up and you were great so

Toni: I wouldn’t have any idea this school even did drama if not for [some previous role or roles she slayed that we genuinely think are cool thanks to her and aren’t just saying so to hype her up]

Toni: come on, you know sir’s gonna take that into account whatever Jake thinks

China: He should but I saw his face

China: He was pissed off, as if I did it on purpose

Toni: you’re not your sister

China: or yours

Toni: Mullans don’t know any different in my case, don’t remind me

China: Once Archie opens her mouth, you learn the difference, like

Toni: at least he’s not been teaching here long enough to make comparisons any further back, he’d definitely be giving disappointed face then

China: Yeah it must suck to have a talented family 🙄

Toni: yeah, cos that’s what we’re all known for 🤩

China: You won’t get sympathy there

China: Sza did enough for a lifetime

Toni: good, I don’t want it

China: sounds like it

Toni: 🙄🖕

China: Whatever, I’m over this shit

Toni: me too

China: Enjoy wrangling toddlers for the next [however many weeks]

Toni: You’ve made it sound too cool not to

China: You’ll get to do it with Sam if you reckon I was so shit

Toni: I told you what I reckon and it wasn’t you’re shit

China: I know I was

China: don’t need to call you a liar again either

Toni: you messed up your audition cos you’re stressed, it’s fuck all to do with talent, you wouldn’t mess up your whole role

China: yeah but I didn’t pull out all the stunts so fuck it

China: I know who’ll be getting my role, guarantee it

Toni: you’ll still get one though

China: I don’t want to be the aunt

Toni: sir don’t have the makeup budget to make you into some 👵 spinster

China: tah 😏

Toni: you can stop calling me a liar now,there’s the honesty you wanted

China: only if you stop acting like I obligated you to

Toni: Are you gonna stop acting like I suddenly do what I’m told just cos it’s you asking?

Toni: I can only take the 🤓 role so far for you, babe

China: Yeah, okay Luce, calm down

China: 🤣

Toni: Wtf was her performance while we’re on the subject

China: I can’t believe she did Rizzo

China: it isn’t a musical but literally any and every chance to sing at everyone

Toni: being able to sing better than Sam doesn’t give her the bragging rights she thinks it does, everybody can

China: Seriously

China: Aim higher

Toni: expose yourself as more of a Sandy as if we don’t all see you playing dress up everywhere

China: Cringe bitch

China: just admitting you like musicals if anything

Toni: sorry it don’t make you Mullans’ soulmate

China: She wishes [the sub I said she fancied] was still here

Toni: 😬

China: He was so

Toni: old

China: I was going to say tragic but you’re not wrong

Toni: neither are you

China: and boring

China: it doesn’t make him interesting just because he’s older

Toni: In fairness, how is she gonna keep someone who’s interesting interested in her?

China: 🥶

Toni: yeah well, I’m pissed off I’m gonna be stuck in rehearsals with her and my sister while you’re doing something actually decent

China: I thought I’d still be getting a role, bitch

Toni: you only wanna be the star so

China: idk

China: I might still do it

China: gives me somewhere to be

Toni: What about [whatever Pete’s record store and cafe is called] will you come after school if I swear I’m not gonna sing?

China: why don’t you have plans

Toni: it’s cool if you don’t wanna go, we don’t need to go through this every time

China: it’s really not but

China: the deaf kid doesn’t hang out there does he

Toni: I’ve barely ever seen him there

China: Good

Toni: didn’t expect to see him at auditions either though

China: like a prop

Toni: you should be buzzing he’s taking your advice about a social life

China: he was only there to make her look good, it’s not like he’ll get anything out of it

Toni: he’ll get to spend time with her, that’s obviously all he wants

China: He won’t get a role 😅

Toni: I’d sooner Bobby did than Archie

China: Good luck

China: he can’t speak and that’s all she does

Toni: Mullans could get in the shit if he don’t give him a role anyway, he’ll probably have to

China: 😷 gross

Toni: he gets left out of basically everything, it won’t kill sir to give him something to do

China: backstage, maybe

China: what’s he meant to do, give him a voice and working ears

Toni: like I said, he’s meant to be creative

China: get the wheelchair kid walking whilst he’s at it 🙄

China: he can’t do some shit, period

Toni: we don’t have time for every character to each have pages and pages of dialogue, I reckon he’ll have thought of loads of background ones

China: sure, anyone can stand there looking gormless

Toni: or drop a cup full of poison and lie there dead

China: too bad the killer is only targeting women

China: as if that’s a revolutionary plot he’s come up with

Toni: yeah, that’d be my first rewrite if he agreed to doing any, but whatever

China: He just writes more female roles ‘cos there’s not enough lads, that’s the truth

China: but the hero is a girl too so he can make it look progressive whatever

Toni: if Lucie gets her role I’m seriously dropping out

China: no one is going to wanna sit through that

China: he’s gotta know that

Toni: even my 😁 ma’d struggle to get to the end

China: tune in for your lines, think about fish the rest of the time

Toni: you’re not wrong

China: 😆

Toni: 🤞 I get some lines to snap her out of it 🤏

China: You obviously will

China: meanwhile I’ll probably have to go to a family meal instead and be lectured about disrespect and authority

Toni: you’ll be lying there covered in fake blood if nothing else

Toni: the whole point is pretty girls getting murdered

China: are you or are you not devastated that you don’t need to get in drag

Toni: I did my toddler and little kid years looking like a boy, remember

China: you’ve had a glowup, no one can deny that

Toni: Who’s trying to? 🥊😏

China: Lucie, probably

China: doubt anyone else is unless you’ve pissed someone else off

Toni: I haven’t done anything to piss Lucie off, she’s just mad everyone isn’t wowed by her

China: and Jake wouldn’t do a couples scene with her

China: heard her asking

Toni: mortifying

China: She shouldn’t be worried about you though

Toni: I doubt she is

China: Maybe warn your cousin

Toni: yeah, I should

China: 🔪🔪🔪 turns real

Toni: she did shove you off stage

China: She’s a bit more sly now

China: kind of

Toni: slight glowup

China: shutting her mouth long enough to play dead would be difficult

Toni: Between her and Arch I already have a headache

China: I hate everyone

Toni: let’s go next lesson

China: yeah

China: where do you want to go?

Toni: [make some suggestions of places you can go gal, I’m no longer an indie queen idk]

China: [I’m sure there’s loads of cool places in town]

China: we could go to the record place really, I don’t mind

Toni: I can get ☕️ [at another cool cafe] on the way to [wherever we are gonna hang]

Toni: I can’t be bothered to chance they might be playing [some band we don’t like that’s obviously just released a new album popping off rn]

China: Like everywhere else rn 🙄

China: they’re a shit imitation of [a band we do like in comparison]

China: and not as good as [a new band we also like that isn’t this lot]

Toni: exactly

Toni: thank fuck the play’s not a musical cos he’d think he was being so 😎 including them in

China: Too real 😆

China: I don’t think I could deal with having to be musical-level of happy right now

Toni: not without me there to cheer you, cos sorry bitch, there’s no way I’m getting a role I have to sing for

China: That being your favourite role, obviously

Toni: 😁

China: 🤓

Toni: [shall we do our skip to when we know what roles they have?]

China: [sounds good boo]

Toni: When were you gonna tell me it’s up?

China: Figured your sister would, she’s been shouting about her role enough

Toni: I guess she must be too busy doing that then

Toni: I had to hear it via Jake’s congrats

China: Congrats

China: It’s the role you wanted, right?

China: you don’t have to quit

Toni: and you’re not the aunt, so you either

China: It’s not the worst role

China: and I told you I knew Libi would get it so

Toni: bit of a weird choice on sir’s part if you ask me

Toni: I mean, her audition was decent but I wouldn’t have predicted it

China: I did

China: even if he didn’t want to do her stupid idea, still would look personal if he didn’t cast her when she’s SO enthusiastic

Toni: yeah but she could’ve had my role, everyone saw Louie’s enthusiasm for her

China: You mean you don’t want to be in coded love with Louie

China: shocker

Toni: I’m just saying if Bobby, all jokes aside, is 💘 this could help him realise and actually do something

China: or maybe you want to kiss him, actually

China: She had to kiss Louie and Jake

Toni: Whoever you mean out of that lad trio, I guarantee you I don’t

China: No one is kissing the deaf kid

China: unless Luce reckons it’ll make Jake jealous

Toni: I’ll have to warn Bobby too

China: yeah, right

China: it’d be a tragedy if he got a girlfriend he wasn’t incestuously intwined with

Toni: come on, I don’t believe you’d seriously wish Lucie on him

China: Why would I care?

Toni: 🙄👌

China: Literally why do you

Toni: I don’t wanna see her at the next family party

China: at least that’s a slightly valid reason

Toni: it’s extremely valid, she’d be straight up on stage and it’s not high enough to put her off finishing the song if I bothered pushing her off

China: got a chance to do that before then anyway

Toni: my only reason for signing up, obviously

China: lead role was just the 🍒 on the cake, yeah

Toni: if you want thanking for your help running lines, it won’t be hard to think of something else to make you 🙂

China: I don’t

China: and you can carry on thinking that 🙂

Toni: 😏 okay

China: you 😏 like you won’t have shit to say if I come anywhere near you when the rest are about

Toni: What do you reckon I’m gonna say?

China: fuck all, that’s my point

Toni: I don’t know what you expect me to, I’m not running the show, we’re not talking about roles in the play now, like

China: exactly

China: so if I was waiting for you to do anything to cheer me up, I wouldn’t hold my fucking breath

Toni: you didn’t want me to get involved when I offered to talk to Jake

China: We’re not talking about Jake

Toni: what we’re talking about is how out of the blue today you want me to stand up for you after telling me to shut up about and stay out of it for ages

China: I don’t need you to stand up for me, Christ, your ego

China: I’m saying when you’re with your mates, you won’t even acknowledge me, that’s the truth

China: so fuck acting like there’s anything I need from you, ever

Toni: I was messing around ffs, you take everything proper seriously

China: you aren’t funny

Toni: whatever

China: that’s a new one

Toni: You’re getting pissed off at me for getting lead in a play I tried out for so we could hang out more

China: I’m pissed off at you because everythings whatever to you

Toni: I’m not gonna give myself fake problems

China: you don’t give yourself any

Toni: I can’t help having no drama in my life

China: that’s how you want it, no matter what

Toni: it’s just how it is right now

China: 👌

Toni: be pissed off if it makes you feel better, there’s nothing I can do

China: tell yourself that then

Toni: tell me what you think I should

China: I’m good for that

Toni: and I’m good for this read you’re doing

China: like you give a shit

Toni: I’m not devoid of emotion, wtf

China: who said you were

Toni: you don’t think I give a shit about anything, so you did

China: I don’t even have the head space for this rn

Toni: then you shouldn’t have started it

China: ha

China: whatever, enjoy the spotlight if you can get any from Libi

Toni: Yeah, cos it makes absolute sense you think I’d care about that when you just said otherwise

China: you don’t wanna get into this, seriously

Toni: it wasn’t me who was trying to

China: I started it, and I’ll take that

China: but you’ve been trying it ever since

Toni: I’m not gonna sit here and take you coming for me that hard for no reason

China: no reason

China: k

Toni: no real reason

China: well if you say so, babe

Toni: I just did, yeah

China: forgive me for not giving a shit

China: you say a lot of things

Toni: except for when I don’t say enough, right?

China: it’s all just talk, however you wanna cut it

Toni: It’s not talk when you don’t wanna and I offer you distractions and somewhere else to be instead

Toni: like I did days ago

China: you’re keeping score then

China: alright, have your IOU for it

Toni: me?

Toni: you’re throwing back in my face shit from a tally you’ve had going loads longer than that

China: I don’t want anything from you

China: and that’s what I just said

China: so forget about being pissed off, I’m just pointing out how you are

Toni: Yeah, you don’t want anything or give a shit, that’s why you’re mad enough about how I am to keep pointing it out whenever you can

China: Sorry no one’s ever called you out on your shit before

China: must be nice

Toni: nice, if anything, that you’ve taken a break from joining in with the shit everyone talks about my family for once

China: you did in this convo alone, don’t act like it bothers you

Toni: don’t act like I’m the only massive bitch in this convo

China: you’ll give a fuck about them now it suits you

China: rest of the time you’re above it and everyone

Toni: it’ll never suit me to have to deal with fucked up stuff involving other people ages ago that nobody’ll stop bringing up to try and score points or get even cheaper laughs

China: you really think you’re special for that

Toni: I think I can’t be arsed with it, which is what I said, you’re the one saying I reckon it makes me special

China: you and your family aren’t the main characters of town, christ

Toni: glad you agree

China: 🙄

Toni: exactly

China: Later, Toni

Toni: or not, since I ignore you all the time

China: you want me to disagree or do you feel like you’re winning now

Toni: Winning what? I’m not against you that’s my entire point

China: I need to get on with this essay now

Toni: okay

[ravn-87]

So there was this guy that I had been talking to for the last couple of days. Claimed he wasn't juvenile, and had all these Dom/Sub content on his Tumblr profile. We got along nice in the comments, until he tried to DM my inbox. And he asked for my opinion on things. I can tell he was trying to find an online "match-up" and trying to get to the point of profiling me. He said he liked "hurricane" women and minds that are strong and intriguing....

So all I did was explain my POV about something in straight forward statements with no pushiness or attack mentality- just a conversation about my view....

He said I was shoving my views down his throat like a mommy spoon-feeding him, attacked me on statement formality, on vocal intonation, - which is straight up perceived in his head, because if I'm "yelling" at him, he must cry when he reads regular online articles and textbooks - on word usage, attacked me for using big words like "colloquialisms" and accused me of using them to be fake and being immature for using vernacular like "how I word crap." And then attacked me for having typos and using them as an attack point for not knowing what I'm typing and not understanding what I meant by "texting can be a volatile form of communication" - which it can be because it's hard to convey accurate vocal intonation when you're thinking peacefully and the page makes it come off as abrasive (or "dominating," as he puts it).

We butted heads last night like crazy, all he did was accuse me and get hung up on small details rather than just listen to what I had to say. I told to unfriend me and he said "I'm not juvenile, hun" (thank you for the condescension sir - call me Miss or Ravn.). So then we traded off commentary on various posts today and he particularly liked what I said on one and decided to try again which I was open for....and I explained why we could've clashed, y'know trying to hash things out? And all I did was offer one explanation....and he was all over me AGAIN...and blocked me.

No consideration whatsoever. Apparently hurricane women with actual individual minds were not what he actually wanted inspite of his claims. And he ran. Pffft. 🤨 Whaaaateveeer.💁‍♀️

Juvenile wench.

I've known far more well-developed conversationalists that don't take things so easily up the back-track. "Dom," my ass.

But I am kinda sad to lose his account. Even if he made me uncomfortable since I straight up knew what he was after 🙄🙄, he did post some really good stuff. 😒💁‍♀️ *Sigh* ah well. I knew his head didn't sound right. I kept talking about slowing down and being careful and he wasn't very considerate ...at. all. It was like if I wasn't ready to talk romantic crap, he wasn't interested. I feel sorry for the girl who winds up with him. Hopefully she can hold her own and show him a better mindstate to evaluate others with.

Lack of communication and willingness to try, along with lack of information and awareness is the bane of humanity.

It's always lack of communication and relatability, I swear.

I'm not perfect, but pissing him off was just waaaay too easy to do. It should not have been that way. It was absurd.

Talking is hard