#it hurts writing this tbvh ;-;

[athousandbyeol]

heartlore. [forcebook fanfic]

kasidet thinks jiratchapong is breathtaking—or maybe it's the wine talking. but possibly, he's not the only one trying—because jiratchapong knows it's never enough—wanting.

chapter 1. / chapter 2. / chapter 3.

[aphrodite1288]

But do you think sm will let ji go just like that? What about your opinion on this? I mean on ji's contract renewal. Is there a huge possibility that he will renew or the other way around?

Tbvh I never wanted to answer these kind of questions, The admins told me to avoid Them. because before all this happened we knew everything we got rumors about CBX and Chanyeol conflicts with SM and Jongdae's issue with SM that they don't give a fuck about him and stuff, even about Ksoo.

But the issue is! Those were all rumors the admins said if they shared them and something doesn't go as they said then that would harm their credibility. So I don't share some stuff just because some fans here are so hateful and wait for the smallest slightest chance to jump on the admins and talk shit and attack them ( from what I've saw in the 1500+ asks in the asks box) . I still can see in the asks box hurtful and hateful asks talking shit (to the other admins). So I play it smart and don't share anything except KAISOO related and if I'm sure from it, because at the end of the day no one appreciates the efforts and they just bash you for providing info if it doesn't go well with their fantasies or imagination or what they heard! Sometimes the issue is so controversial you can't share anything about it.

I can't know Everything! Nor could the previous admins. Of course sometimes I and them just say our opinions on an issue ! And I saw from last posts, sometimes they shared just mere rumors they heard and they clearly mentioned as : "It's just a rumor" or " this is just my opinion" but people think of it as a fact! As a confirmed info from your side! And they hold you culprit for it if it doesn't happen ! Hello? It's just a rumor they clearly said it in a disclaimer.

Sorry not sorry for the rant.

Back to Topic, I was told by the admins that this is how I should write in terms of separated paragraphs as the " full length no spaced paragraphs" tend to get overwhelming and hard to read. I was taught to write the same way they did because this is what this audience was used to and they know how to consume and read the content of this page like THIS. I was asked to write in colors and bold characters when it's an important point . I even get my posts reviewed at first haha . Am I being recruited or what?

Back to the topic again, 😅 I just noticed I didn't go the topic earlier.

They won't let him go. They still want Exo as a group! Which is why they set this stupid condition in their exclusive contracts that if they want solo activities under another company it should be a company they made themselves or in a company of each other. For example Ji can make a Unit with Ksoo under Ksoo's company D'You get it?

So this is why I think he can do something under Ksoo's or Chanyeol's or Baekhyun's or His own company. Which brings us back to the point of "Yes! There's hope and room for Kadi Unit" but IF Ksoo's company wouldn't be only focused on managing his acting career.

When a band members leave the company there should always be someone under that company to ensure the safety of the Name of the band and the brand of the band and handle projects and profits and solve problems and issues related to the " band and the company" 's older conflicts upon unpaid shows or unpaid promotions or unfinished projects etc... to settle everything down before all of them leave if they all want to leave (which is what I think Exo would do) though Suho is still studying Business management on a larger spectrum he's engraving himself in the business world on a deeper scale he's meeting with big companies CEOs and shareholders and managers and businessmen in SM and in the industry to get the skills to build an empire of a Company. Suho is very smart ! He's not leaving until he's ready 1000%. Ji is the same he's given the best projects and deals and promotions when he asks for them, SM has no plans on Letting him go him and Baekhyun.

But Ji still has the choice to leave when his contract ends, I mean no one can stop him when it's officially expired! Unless! They give him a very very tempting and convincing Deal with Immense profit. And his exclusive contract that he signed last year after the original 7+3= 10 years contract ended will be frozen for two years due to military so he ain't going nowhere for the time being. Seeing that SM said only one member didn't sign the contract and that was Ksoo. So his exclusive contract he signed with the members last December will be frozen until he comes back.

[moonawrites]

tbvh? fuck the losers in the reblogs and replies ignoring the point of the post and going on about "fuck ecofacists" bitch fuck YOU. i'm not an ecofacist. i posted in a moment of extreme grief and rage watching unconscionable atrocities be committed against an occupied population while the entire fucking world demonized them and prayed for their occupiers instead. sorry my heart hurt. y'all are so damn nasty like if you can't relate to the grief i feel then good for you, fuck off my post and rant somewhere else. this is not a safe space for your bullshit, this is an expression of grief and frankly i don't care if you think it's dramatic, i think y'all are pieces of shit for not having enough compassion to at least give people space to feel their pain when you don't feel shit yourselves, and on top of that have the audacity to preach your moral superiority on our posts.

while you psychopaths have been busy on tumblr telling grieving people to "fuck themselves with a cactus" (like do you not realize what an absolute piece of shit you are commenting THAT on a post like THIS?) i've been out protesting every week, writing to my government representatives, posting every update on my instagram so the people i know are aware of what's happening, going to fundraising events in my city etc etc maybe y'all should take a break from being pretentious emotion police on tumblr and go outside to be a human being too

when you look back on atrocities in our history, all the genocides, and think "how did people let this happen?" and then you see israel bomb a children's hospital with white phosphorus and wipe entire family trees from existence and level entire residential neighborhoods in seconds but it's those of us saying palestinians are human beings that get threatened with losing our livelihoods and you're like, oh yeah. like this.

humanity is a failure and some global catastrophe wiping us all out would be a mercy.

[thepixelelf]

Changmin is so hurt im going to cry, everythings falling apart ( it has been for some time but idk) 😭😭

:')

[jae-canikeepyou]

Im looking for good Jaehyun angst and I stumbled upon your blog (thank god through Heartstrings) 😚 I read the rules too so can I request a prompt with “There’s only one me, you can’t find anyone else like me.” Thnaks!

prompt title: hold on

a/n: heartstrings is probably my best work for angst 😚 anyway, you’re in time bc i’m in the mood for angst ;-; hope this fits your liking.

[14:24] “there’s only one me, you can’t find anyone else like me.”

the proud, happy, bragging but sweet sentence from you had jaehyun grew weak. he was just talking with you minutes ago as you drove on your way to meet him. ears ringing to a silence when it might be your last ever words.

his chest heaved in deep, slow inhales and exhales whilst he tried his best to walk through the plain and bright white corridors. his pained heart hammered so hard he felt like he was going to explode. johnny and doyoung followed him from behind, in support if ever the dimpled man collapse in shock.

she can’t be.. he repetitively told himself, staring at the endless square tiled floor beneath him as he walked quickly to find you. there were too many to recognise you. a stretcher then was rolled in at the entrance and jaehyun was in a state of panic and hysteria.

“a female in her early twenties, b.p 90 over 40, another car crashed into her.”

“get an intubation kit and help me move her on my count.”

grief spread his body as fast contamination would. he didn’t want to believe it was you, but it was confirmed when the label wrote out the letters of your precious name. just like anyone would act, he hesitated to step forward, but then he had to because he wanted to know if you were alright, if you were hurt.

or worse, if you weren’t breathing.

“jae, she’ll be fine.” johnny comforted his best friend, who was now breaking in tears seeing your unconscious body with a brace and dressing wrapped around your neck and head respectively. tissues upon tissues damped with your blood, changed and changed by new ones as soon as they got in contact with your skin. medics on call tended to your wounds, saying terminologies jaehyun couldn’t understand.

his friends watched him touch the glass, the only thing separating the both of you. the rest of them asked him to sit down, but he couldn’t stay put. your voice was the only one entering his mind, following the screeches of the colliding vehicles and metal meeting metal. there was silence for a while, yet jaehyun knew the air was quickly changing when several more staffs had entered the room.

“okay what’s her status?”

“her pressure’s dropping. we did an ultrasound but we need to get her to c.t now.”

“got it. i’ll tell the o.r. we’re heading there.”

all sorts of emotions had struck jaehyun in the most strong impact yet. he bit his lips and held the windowsill, it was slowly kicking in, the reality of all this. you both had everything planned; build a family, grow old together, little did he know it was going to be cut short.

doyoung stood beside him, his hands rested on his shoulders. “jaehyun, y/n’s a strong person. she’ll fight through this. the doctors said to wait and sit-”

“i can’t sit down! i can’t lose her..” he combed his hair in frustration, later groaning in small sobs when he saw his friends softened their eyes. “i’m sorry. i just- i- she’s everything to me-”

beeps from the machine made their heads turn to you, the staff already doing the c.p.r as you were unresponsive. jaehyun’s lips wavered and tears started to fall. he tried to enter the room, yet was stopped soon he took the first step. “doc, save her, please! i can’t lose her-”

“we’ll do the best we can sir, but please step back from the entrance so the staff can have access.”

he looked back at your figure. fear injected him when they continued pumping your chest. chants of ‘stay with me’, ‘clear!’ and ��keep bagging’ didn’t give a glimpse of hope or signs of life.

“hold on baby.” he let go of the door frame, johnny and doyoung just right behind him. after few minutes of waiting and pacing back and forth, he wanted to muffle out the distress of the staff and the electronic sounds of the equipment, but it was soon replaced with a long monotonous ringing he wasn’t hoping to hear. at this point, his world came crumbling down. surroundings turned into white, just how his face turned pale. other than sadness, blame was all he felt. his voice struggled to escape, unaccepting the reality.

he shouldn’t have called you.

[certifiedceraunophile]

Hi! A fan of your writing here. I just love the way you write Caroline. An Avoidable Heart is my comfort fic and I am constantly in awe with the way you write and craft the dynamics in that story. Caroline's inner monologue is just priceless and God! I just love that intro scene where Caroline is walking into the Mikaelson compound with vampires and hybrids in the surrounding ready to pounce on her.

I would love to hear how you would have visualized Caroline crossing over into TO or not? Like in what season and why? How it would have likely gone?

Thank you!

First of all lovely anon gimme a moment to breathe, asdfghjkl why are people so lovely 😭😭🥺✨ It means sooo much to me that you’d take the time to jump into my inbox and send these kind words, like please I’m not worthyyyyy, But you make me smile and feel really freaking warm so *handcuffs your hand to mine* you aint leaving 💖✨💞🙃

But OK ALSO oh my god dude THAT CAROLINE WALTZS INTO THE COMPOUND AND TAKES ON A COUPLE HUNDRED VAMPIRES BY HERSELF SCENE???? Ughhhhh I’m sorry but I have SUCH a boner for Caroline in that, like my badass -I admit kinda op- QUEEN IS HERE and she’s fucking shit up, I’m sorry but I love that scene so much it’s so dear to me I was killing myself over how self-indulgent and grossly Over powered Caroline is but like idgaf man it’s such a hot scene and Caroline is practically invincible and we just love to see that, so seriously lovely anon, you telling me you LOVE that scene??? Puts the biggest smile on my face and reassures me a LOT bc I was whining and cribbing over how absolutely unbalanced that scene is to literally everyone BUT LIKE YOU JUMPING OUT OF NOWHERE and pointing that exact scene UGHH…...meant to fucking be the both of us 💖💞✨

And ALSO Caroline’s monologue is quite honestly the easiest inner monologue out of the three voices I wrote for that work, Klaus’s is the real pain in the ass tbvh like it is NOT easy writing pretentious besotted losers with a Kardashian complex especially when you need to make them sound cool when they’re the lamest OP dude bros to ever exist - and no I don’t hate Klaus although I seem to try my darndest to convince ppl I do- I just personally believe that a feral fucker like that with a thousand years of existence under his belt can grow a pair and graduate from his kindergarten level of emotional maturity to adult sometime soon, But then on the flipside he’s so grossly adorkably smitten and feral for Caroline plus hella horny for her all the time that its usually easy to write the trashed and devoted idiot he is into something pretentious and powerful and potent when relating to his unflappable arrogance and his narcissism, but sometimes I also need him to be *deep* and ffs profound for the sake of the plot and jfc my muse just wont work with me on that, she’s like I’m sorry I’m not about to bust my ass to make this mongrel intelligible like no sir all I wanna do is make him uncomfortably horny for Caroline and leave him like that.

So smh yeah the struggle is real….but lmao Caroline is just so precious and fiercely protective and just so achingly lonely in that story, so desperate for connection and trust and intimacy yet so guarded and impervious to everyone like it hurts me to write her like that but it really challenges me as an author to balance out her inherent light with the “void” I create in her and through her, so yeah it’s a very fulfilling task and I wouldnt change it one bit, and also I had to balance out her physical op-ness w half a millennium of the ugliest emotional trauma lol so I guess that figures, but the point being….once again I am overjoyed knowing that you liked a facet of the story that I tried so hard to make as authentically Caroline and achingly real and moving as I can and I cannot possibly feel more accomplished than rn for it so ty ty ty ty for reaching out to me and telling me *tackle hugs* It makes me GIDDY knowing that you enjoyed that particular part of the story like ugh stab me please you're too sweet.

And ok NOW, coming to The Originals part of the ask, (also please note that when I say TO headcanon; Hope does not exist, Hayley is a dead in a ditch and ofc Klaus will stop being that lil bitch they tried to pawn off as Klaus in TO) 

HEADCANON 1

Honestly my biggest headcanon when it comes to TO crossovers somehow always include non-humanity!Caroline like it’s just so perfect to me?? The opportunity to make shit BLOW UP b/w them like imagine the DEBAUCHERY, the heat, the SEXUAL TENSION, the repression of one Klaus Mikaelson, the EXPLORATIONS, and omg the role reversal when Klaus has to be the voice of moral reason between them and not bc he believes Caroline would not be able to stand herself if she does something heinous and monstrous but bc he wants her to be completely and utterly herself, and yk *aware*, when she DECIMATES ppl to the ground and is in full-on predator mode, like he wants her monster to come out and play with him when no part of Caroline is locked away or suppressed, so obviously when she is w/o her humanity KLAUS exercises restraint on her behalf, like can you imagine that, Klaus restraining himself and being the vague, extremely broken and just largely inaccurate moral compass between the two of them for ALL the wrong reasons- and the entirety of NOLA just standing there watching him herd this baby vampire who seems to be intent on riling him up and angering him when all she is doing is giving him a massive hybrid hard on, like IMAGINE THE GOODNESS of non-humanity Caroline wrecking NOLA and Klaus letting her wreck it bc he is helpless in the face of Caroline Forbes and also bc he is quite honestly *enjoying* the debauchery himself so why put a damper on the festivities.

-I might wanna add that I favour this headcanon a lot bc I genuinely do not even remotely *like* the idea of NOLA as Klaus's chosen place to set his roots so like I would love Caroline going to NOLA and destroying everything there just bc I detest NOLA and the storyline behind it in TO. (yes is it petty? Obvi, but like I am a petty soul and I make no apologies ma’am)

HEADCANON 2

So yeah that’s my main TO headcanon, but my other one being, one I talk about very frequently, scream about in tag rants to an obsessive level, and like this is a cracky one but still very valid, where Caroline rolls up to NOLA humanity intact and all, finds Hayley preggo and is just laughing her fucking ass off bc anybody ANYBODY, with half a brain and a two minute convo w klaus would know how UTTERLY stupid the entire baby shit is especially when it’s with an immemorable one night stand, and Caroline’s just losing her shit about how like an entire city is obssessed w this baby and she just straight up tells Klaus he’d SUCK as a dad (which he really does tho like he was a shitty fucking dad canonically too) and Klaus is just like *sigh* girl tell me about it. I mean basically he’s finally relieved that someone is on his side about the whole baby thing and how he definitely does not want his entire millennium of life to finally sum up to this one squalling leaking stinky infant/unicorn Hayley is apparently baking in her oven, and I say this headcanon is cracky bc klaus would never have put up w this mess long enough for Caroline to come in and sort it out, there’s this preferred method of disposal of his called heart ripping that would've been employed quite early on and honestly saved us all a lot of brain cells and minused years of life, bc let’s be real any Klaus who’s NOT a lil snivelling bitch wearing a Klaus skinsuit would’ve yeeted the baby and the mama first chance he got, and that’s just how I see it.

Lmao I really hope I didnt scare you away w my *strong* opinions Ik they can be a bit much but I enjoy having them so theyre not going anywhere, anyways this ask answer got WAYYYY too long but I’m hoping I answered your question well with this or atleast left you slightly confused and bemused over my feral screaming....either ways I’m really really really happy to have got your ask and the chance to rant so much bs, Twas cathartic and honestly I had nothing to do today so I was more than happy to dish this baby out for you. Thank you so much sweet anon for putting a smile on my face today I am absolutely HONOURED by your words you’sa cutie 💖💞✨🗣🗣

[vixenpen]

Tbvh shawty, i dont think I'd move 😭😭 plz stay here with us‼ i promise it'll get betteerrr

Nah. It’s to the point where people are throwing around accusations of pedophilia and being a predator and at the end of the day I’m a grown ass person who has to pay my bills and watch my reputation online because I have at least two businesses that I’m running and my face and name are attached to this work and it’s not something that I am ashamed of that I write on here but at the end of the day people feeling so comfortable with calling people who write for certain fandoms predators can ACTUALLY harm us as adults if it gets into the wrong hands

I know I’m not a predator, but it hurts to see those suggestions especially when I feel so passionately about children and their safety.

[dastardlydandelion]

what fic ideas are you MOST EXCITED to write (hopefully. maybe. if we're lucky) for Fear Street? what ideas do you want to see, but don't feel up to writing for one reason or another i.e. too much research involved, not the right genre for you, etc.

ahhhh!!! shiit, dude. i'm gonna answer this under the cut bc some of it's nasty, ngl.

i would rly like to write the ruby movie u know we're prolly not gonna get but ngl, that would defo take a shit ton of research. that would take me forever and i am already buried in wip.

obvi i'm only attached to like 10 versions where both berman sisters survive. that's already been written a couple times tho. i'm p busy rn so i haven't read those fics yet, but oof!! they're defo on my list!!!! i'd be p excited to write that if i had a version that was distinct enough...which ig i'll know after i read the existing ones.

ziggy getting killed by ruby. u know me and my gory sensibilities. i also think it'd be a neat angle, since another user on here pointed out, she's p close with ruby's mom.

pre-1978 cindy/alice having a rly mean and brutal argument that evolves into angry + angsty sex.

ziggy/sheila gritted teeth enemies to lovers where they team up against nick, torture him to death, and then have passionate sex on top of his dead body. it's gross, yes, i'm a gorror fan, i am gross sometimes. i'm thinking in this 'verse somehow ziggy figures out it was nick summoning the devil and this time, sheila's ass is actually grateful that ziggy saves her. she body worships ziggy during sex and submits to some srs spanking and erotic sadism to apologize for being a bully. this fic would be total porn. nothin deep, just porn for porn's sake.

super angsty fic where one berman sister has to kill the other. i'm thinkin they both survived nightwing 1978 where tommy is still the killer but later, after being rejected by ziggy, nick purposefully picks cindy's name to hurt her. soo cindy gets possessed and ziggy gotta kill her. maybe resuscitation is successful tho, soo no bummer ending? idk. i have a couple different versions in my brain. i'm not *usually* one for downer endings, but also, grief oriented horror resonate big w me, so.

lighter platonic fic of ziggy + nurse lane bonding. ziggy venting her frustrations of being ignored and snubbed by her older sister and bullied by her peers. mary finding solace in the company of a young girl bc her own is gone and her grieving process is complicated by the circumstances.

day in the life of martin at work. housekeeping and custodian-ing are not identical and his position involves more maintenance work than mine (not that mine has none, esp not at my old place where they p much called me for any maintenance nonsense whenevs the actual maintenance guy was ??? well idfk where he was, i stg that guy was hungover half the time) but it's p similar in certain aspects and i 10/10 guarantee that man has seen some shit. literally. martin hanging out with ziggy after long day at work, maybe they go dance on nick's grave or smth.

yes, i keep returning to the idea of alice being the killer in nightwing and running wild with a chainsaw. i just. see it. and yk me, i love my gory messes. chainsaw camp slasher = big bloody mess.

hmm...not much for deena or sam in my mind rn, so u'd think that means i don't like them but it's honestly just the opposite?? i love them and their story was so perfectly done in the canon proper that i don't feel any need to add onto it or explore it from another angle, or alter it for my own purposes. tbvh i feel fully satisfied with their narrative in canon in such a way it brings me inner peace...but if i think long enough, i'm sure i'll come up with some kinda au for them i'd be interested in.

whew!! what one am i *most* excited for? pervy me rly wants the alice/cindy idea, sensible me would be excited to write the 1978 sequel where cindy's the next killer. in an ideal world where i already knew more abt errday life in the 60s and didn't have a guaranteed 10+ hrs of research before proceeding, i'd be most excited abt writing ruby lane's possession. but at present the sheer amnt of research that would take me when i've already got much other work and the tory + max werewolf fic a perfect but demanding undertaking, like...oof. i can't rn.

[athousandbyeol]

i know. [forcebook fanfic]

kasidet overthinks when he can't feel as much. and it's somewhat crazy that jiratchapong knows just how to find him again.

[howdoyousleep3]

OMG ok ok lets be real rn!!!! daddy!steve just noticing how bucky keeps secrets from him BUT in actual fact bucky hid the fact he got his nipples pierced from steve bc he was scared steve wouldnt like them!!! cue bucky being insecure asf but then steve has a few secrets of his own,,,,, tbvh i feel like steve would hide the fact he has a few tatts or piercings of his own just bc of his job but he aint shy however worried of how bucky would react to it OK THIS WAS WAYYYYYY TOO LONG BUT ILY!!

HI I have been thinking about this for so long now and I don’t have time to write out an entire fic (😥😥😥) but here are my random ass thoughts ( THIS IS SO LONG I AM SO SORRY):

I think this would all start out because Steve loves playing with Bucky’s nipples, loves how sensitive his sweet boy is, loves to pluck at them with his fingers, loves to use his teeth and his tongue and his lips

Has mentioned in the heat of the moment that “baby we should get these pierced” and Bucky just...can’t stop thinking about it

He can’t stop thinking about Daddy being the only other person to know this little dirty secret of his, that he got his nipples pierced all for Steve, all for Daddy

He can’t stop thinking about the possibilities, of how sensitive he would feel, just the simple brush of a t-shirt against the nubs making him whimper

So he does it one day

He goes with Nat and gets his fucking nipples pierced

Nat hypes him tf up and he knows Steve will love it but he’s so hesitant because he doesn’t have Steve’s permission, doesn’t like keeping things from Daddy

But it’s a surprise, right? A present for Daddy?

Right

It hurts like hell and Bucky thinks a lot about how much he liked how it hurt afterwards but he has these simple cute silver bars with little cute studs and honestly he...he thinks they look great

He’s a little achy and he’s trying to ignore how he’s chubbing up in his pants and he’s trying not to make little noises when his shirt presses and glides against his body

He lays on the couch until Steve comes home, tries to pay attention to the television, tries to not touch himself, tries to distract himself as he scrolls through social media

He’s in the kitchen when Daddy gets home, pulling some grapes out of the fridge, is trying his hardest to act like absolutely nothing is wrong, when Steve’s arms are wrapping tight around his waist, one across his chest, a typical Steve hug

But his forearm rubs hard against Bucky’s chest and therefore his nipples and he bites his lip in an attempt to not cry out but damn that hurt, that is overwhelming

Steve immediately notices something is wrong, makes a questioning soft noise, spins Buck in his arms, “Sugar, what’s wrong? Are you alright?”

Bucky is quick to recover, tries shaking his head and huffing out a few cheap giggles, avoiding eye contact, “Nothin’ nothin’, quit it”

Steve immediately knows something is amiss, squints his eyes a little bit, tilts Buck’s chin up with the back of is fingers, tries to look at the younger in the eyes and when he avoids it is confirmed--

“You’re not tellin’ me somethin’...”

He pushes Bucky back into the counter, arms caging him in, brings a hand up to clutch hard at Bucky’s chin, kisses his lips softly, forcing eye contact

“Babyyy, you hidin’ somethin’ from Daddy?”

And nonono that isn’t what Bucky is doing, it is meant as a treat, as something to surprise Daddy with

He doesn’t know why he thought he’d get more than a day without Steve noticing something is wrong, didn’t think through how they are intimate in some way every single day

“Daddy, no. No, I...I just wanted to surprise you.”

He sees Steve relax a bit, makes a small cooing noise, kisses him a few times again

“Oh? What’d my sweet boy get for his Daddy? I thought I was the one who is supposed to spoil you?”

Bucky huffs, giggles some when Steve nips and nuzzles at his neck, below his ear, grips his hips tight in both big hands, Bucky feeling himself melt a little like he always does in Daddy’s grip

When he starts to shyly bring his hands down to the hemline of his shirt, Steve looks at him curiously, his eyebrows raising as he steps back a little to watch Bucky’s hands, gives Bucky a little space

Bucky gets to right below his nipples, feels the fabric of the shirt drag against the pointed nubs, stalls a little and looks up at Daddy

Steve’s neck gets flushed, his eyes go dark at the dots connecting in his brain, and he takes over for Bucky, lifts his shirt up, cups it with both hands under his armpits

Steve is quiet for so long in Bucky’s mind, makes him so nervous but he can’t look away from Daddy’s face, can’t look away from the wide array of emotions that play out

Steve’s mouth is open, ready to ask questions, his hand comes up to barely brush a finger across his right nipple, touches the piercing, and Bucky wants to melt through the floor and squeal

“Ohh, sweetheart look at that” is all Steve says real hot and low, a growl of a breath, his fingers brushing and tracing across his chest, around his nipples

Bucky is breathless

“Wanted to...wanted to surprise you. Wanted to keep it a secret but didn’t like the idea...oh god...the idea of keeping something from you.”

Steve purrs, pushes his body in tight against Buckys, hands at his waist, lips at his neck, groans and presses his erection into Bucky’s hip some

“God, the prettiest thing there ever was, that’s what you are, holy shit, baby. Fuck, the things you do to me. So sweet too, not wanting to keep secrets, even with a surprise and a present like this.”

And then Steve is pulling back, tugging Bucky with him, walking him to their room and Bucky has absolutely no idea what is going on but he just wants to come now, is all keyed up as Steve pushes him to sit at the edge of the be

Steve walks over to the dresser, opens the top drawer, “Wanna show you somethin’” is all he says, grabs something, closes the drawer

He sits down next to Bucky and opens his closed fist and...

Is that...?

No

“Is that...? That’s a tongue piercing?”

Steve just nods and Bucky gapes at him, looks down to his mouth and back up to his eyes, back and forth

Bucky can’t think, can’t process. Steve has a tongue piercing? How has he never noticed before? He’s quite acquainted with Steve’s tongue. How had he missed it?

But then--oh GOD, Daddy has his tongue pierced

Steve chuckles, take the bar from his palm, unscrews a ball, opens his mouth, puts the piercing through his tongue, screws the ball back on, and--

“Holy shit, Steve.”

Bucky is hot all over, feels a little shaky with how aroused he is, moves forward to grab at Daddy’s jaw, Steve showing him the piercing, playing with it before chuckling again, grabbing at Bucky and yanking him up and around to sit in his lap

“Got it pierced when I was in college, got lucky and it never really closed up. Just wanted you to know since you said you didn’t like keepin’ things from me. Don’t wanna keep things from you either.”

Bucky barely hears what Steve is saying, is openly staring and gaping at Daddy’s mouth

As he talks this new shiny piercing peeks out, alters Steve’s speech a tad, and...and Bucky needs to touch it

With his mouth

He doesn’t even wait until Steve is done talking, just grips his face in both hands and dives in, immediately going for Daddy’s tongue. Steve expects it, stays still as Bucky moves slowly, stroking his tongue along Steve’s hesitantly, feels the cool bar with the tip of his tongue

Bucky makes a gutted noise, can’t help but roll his hips, dick about to burst out of his pants, and Daddy’s hands on are his back, pulling him in close, groaning alongside the younger

Bucky loves Daddy’s tongue piercing

Loves the way it feels on his lips and tongue, is weak for when Steve slides it in before sucking Bucky off, comes faster than normal when Daddy eats him out with it on

He isn’t even sure if it is the sensation or if it’s just how fucking hot Steve is with that slim piece of metal resting on his tongue

It only comes out every once in a while, when Bucky really wants it, begs Daddy for it

Steve knows it’s coming too because Bucky has spent the day staring at Steve’s mouth, every kiss shared is deep and Bucky chases his tongue, searching for that piercing

He’ll climb into Steve’s lap all whiny, maybe has the courage to because of a glass or two of red wine, tugging at Daddy’s shirt, pouting, asking Daddy to put it back in for him, wanna feel it

Steve will feign consideration, click his tongue and pull Bucky in tight, asking aloud if he think Bucky deserves it, if he’s been a good boy, his own finger coming up to rub at Bucky’s nipple, feeling his own little piercing

Daddy always gives Buck what he wants though

JESUS this was so much fun and ended up being so long I’m so sorry but I hope you enjoy!!! ILY. 😘😘😘

[imaginexsa]

Dynasty (Pietro x Reader)

A/N: Hey guys!! So this is a song fic and tbvh, I have never really been very good at writing song fics and i apologise😓 I’m also really sorry to the person who sent this hahah, sorry I took so long and I hope my take of this song is okay...anyways, enjoy!!

Request: @princess-unicorn124: hello💕I was wondering if you could do a pietro fic based on the song Dynasty by MIIA. Your writing is completely amazing.

Warnings: death, angst

You stood there in the rain, Steve holding an umbrella between both of you as he shielded you from the rain. You felt empty as you stared at the hole in front of you, numb to everything after having something that played such an important part of your life being ripped out.

Some days it's hard to see If I was a fool, or you, a thief Made it through the maze to find my one in a million Now you're just a page torn from the story I'm living

~

You froze a few of Ultron’s robots before shattering them into pieces with a hammer you made with your ice powers.

“Thanks, Y/N,” Wanda said as she protected the core.

“I’m not leaving the both of you here,” Pietro said, looking at both of you worriedly.

The three of you grew up together, Wanda and Pietro being twins as you were their childhood friend. Ever since the disaster that happened, the three of you volunteered for human experimentation and that’s how all of you got your powers. 

“I can handle this,” Wanda replied just as a robot ran towards her. She used her powers and crushed it. “Come back for me when everyone else is off. Not before. Understand?

Pietro walked towards you as brought you in for a short hug, kissing your temple. “Stay safe, I love you.”

You grinned as you nodded and hugged him back tightly. “I love you too. Now, go.”

Pietro took a step back and waved to his sister before he ran off. You stared at where he left. The two of you always had a special connection, he was your one in a million and you loved him dearly.

After fending off more of the robot, you noticed Wanda stiffen up, a single tear running down her face as you felt your gut twist. Wanda let out an anguish cry as her powers wiped out every robot in the vicinity.

You quickly ran to her and held her shoulders as she sobbed, only one head in your mind now. Pietro. 

~

And all I gave you is gone Tumbled like it was stone Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up

You watched as the casket was being lowered into the ground, hearing a broken sob escape from Wanda as Clint held her. Your heart clenched as the casket was fully in the ground.

~ 

“When we come back, we’ll find our very own place that we can call home,” Pietro said as he tucked a lock of your hair behind your ear.

You smiled. “Is it that simple?”

He nodded with a grin. “With you by my side, everything is doable.”

Reaching up, you rest a hand on his cheek and watched him turn to kiss your palm before leaning into your hand. “I trust you.”

~

Everything seems to be gone now, your plans, your future. You felt as if you lost everything. He was your everything. You felt like an empty shell now, you’ve given too much and now it was all ripped away from you. You watched as they filled the hole, your gaze unmoving.

The scar I can't reverse When the more it heals the worse it hurts Gave you every piece of me, no wonder it's missing Don't know how to be so close to someone so distant

As the hole was filled, you felt Steve putting a hand on your shoulder. But you ignored him, staring at the grave stone in front of you.

‘In loving memory of Pietro Maximoff.’

Everyone was slowly leaving the area but Steve still stood beside you, holding the umbrella, not saying anything. You took a step forward, everything becoming real to you now. He was gone.

Pain crashed down on you as you dropped to your knees, sobbing. You didn’t care that your clothes were getting mud nor if there were anyone looking at you. You didn’t care about anything anymore. 

It all fell down, it all fell down, It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down, it It all fell down, it all fell down, it all fell down

Steve’s heart went out to you when he heard your heart wrenching sobs, he wanted to comfort you but he couldn’t. Comforting you right now was not what you needed, it wouldn’t stop the pain. All he could do now was protect you from the rain.

He turned to look at the gravestone before bowing his head slightly, giving respect to a fallen soldier. Pietro was brave and risked his life protecting people.

And all I gave you is gone Tumbled like it was stone Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up

You felt your body shudder as your sobs died down. Kneeling on the ground a while more, you forced yourself to stand up, feeling tired all of a sudden, feeling broken. You looked to the gravestone one more time before turning away.  

Slowly you took one step, your body feeling heavy before you started to walk away. Steve following beside you. You never looked back as you could still feel that you were on the edge of crumbling.

Goodbye, Pietro.

It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down, it It all fell down, it all fell down, it all fell down It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down (and all I gave you is gone) Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up

Tags: @sammysgirl1997, @melconnor2007

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ALL OF THEM. @mun meme ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

@deceptivetreat || mun q&a                      

                            ━━━━━━━━━▼━━━━━━━━━

||you are. the bane. of my existence. 

☯ Is there a muse you’ve always wanted to play?

hmm ig i’ll go with canon for this one because i have many ocs, but uh i really wanna write for seto from fragile dreams. i used to have an ask blog for him back in the day but that died quickly seeing as how dead the fandom is so- but i do love him with all my heart and i would love to be able to someday write him or something

♣ Is there an author(s) that you look up to with your writing skills?

rick riordan, marissa meyer and michelle rowen. i’ve read their books throughout middle school and high school and i still find myself going back to reread their books because i just love how their words flow as well as how engaging their plots are. i honestly hope i can reach rick riordan levels of skill whenever i get around to finishing my own novel!

♧ Is there an RP partner(s) that you credit for becoming a better writer?

one would have to be an old rp friend that we sadly don’t talk to anymore since she was the first one i started writing with a lot more back in high school as well as the one who would give me advice on how to improve and just be patient with me when i go stuck with writing our threads and also mikey (@snw-cnvs) since he also supports me outside of rp’ing to get me to write actually fiction drabbles. i just wish i could finish them lmao

♥ What’s your favorite ship with your muse?

all of my ships with mikey no i’m joking lolol i really love my ship with haneul because i’ve had him for two years now and he’s grown a lot because of his ship. he’s someone whose never believed that love was real and sure their relationship is a little rocky, but they both don’t really have the proper understanding for love until waaaay later. i also really love how whenever he’s with obe, he’s able to pull out this different side of haneul, someone whose so overconfident and quick to words, becomes at a loss for words and questioning himself a lot. i just love them best otp 

♡ Would you ever write a poly ship?

sure, i’d be down for it as long as our muses have the right chemistry as well as if i know both muns pretty well and if they’re also comfortable with it.

♦ What’s an AU that you’ve always wanted?

answered

♢ What’s an AU that you think just won’t work with your muse?

any au that causes too much of a shift in my muses’ personality. i’m usually willing to try any au but if it becomes too much that my muse basically becomes a different person i don’t like it. 

♔ What’s your opinion on teacher/student verses? Do you have any of these as threads?

eeeeh i dont really care, but i work at a school so the thought makes me like uncomfy because i don’t wanna think about work lolol but its also like fiction and i’m able to tell the difference between fiction and reality so yea. also no i don’t have any threads like that

♕ Do you like magic!anons? Why or why not?

not really. it became too much of a thing to deal with back in the day. i just like the simple things

⚜ What is the best time to write for you? Why?

nighttime because i’m fuckin nocturnal even tho i have a day job rip my sleep schedule and ever growing eye bags

★ What type of historical AU would you like to do one day?

Victorian era, or the prohibition era don’t ask me why i like them i don’t even know myself i just know i wouldn’t mind

☆ What type of fantasy AU would you like to do one day?

all of them. i’m a huge slut for fantasy in general. its one of the best things i love the most. 

☄ Do you think your muse would have liked going to high school sports games? Do you or did you go to high school sports games?

haneul: no, he’s not into those things, but also he was home schooled until he went to college

eiji: he used to play soccer in high school so yea

reese: do magic tournaments count? cause if so then yes

sage: no, i was the loser who hung out at the library with friends to sit around and read books and manga 

☾ Do you like writing smut? Why or why not?

okay, if it wasn’t obvious i used to rp back in middle school through high school and on tumblr and i have done my fair share of the sin once i turned 18. nowadays i’m pretty much like eh, but ig i could try again if the need arises, but it also depends on my mood ig? i’d have to write it with someone i’m completely comfortable writing with but also even then it’s gotten to the point i’m more like ig we can just fade to black yea? 

tbh i feel i got all the urges to write sin outta me when i was on my old en blog lmao i had so many smut threads on there i’m ashamed 

☽ Do you like writing angst? Why or why not?

yes god i love being able to break my muses because it’s so fun. like yea it also hurts because that’s my kid i’m hurting but i’m okay with that. it’s just something that adds realness to them because the world sure as fuck ain’t rainbow and sunshine

☼ What’s an FC that you’re dying to use? Why?

i have these icons that i squirreled away for awhile now and i really wanna use them but my brain is too dead to figure out who he could work for. like he was my first thought for reese but he didn’t really give off the right reese vibes so maybe i’ll dig around my oc bin and see who looks the closest to him 

or i cave and just make a brand new oc for him

☀ What’s an FC that you desperately want to play with? Why?

i’m not really picky about what fc write with tbh 

☁ What’s an FC that you refuse to play with? Why?

not really refuse to play - more like i’m eh with. if only because en used to be my main chara for a long time like, i was so deep into the magical boy lore that a good chunk of my headcanons became canon. but also it just…leaves a bad taste in my mouth even more so since the drama that happened in that fandom left me filled with fear and hesitance to rp for a good chunk like before. it just brings back bad memories and i thought i was moving past it when i was thinking about using him for reese but alas. some memories don’t leave

maybe one day i’ll either get to write en again or i can use his face as fc but we’ll see

☂ How does your muse spend a rainy day? How do you spend a rainy day?

haneul: he loves the rain and he’ll spend it either under an umbrella or just sitting there in the rain just letting it wash away his thoughts and fears for a little bit 

eiji: he’d spend it indoors playing a video game or playing with seto

reese: he’d prob be dumb and splash in the puddles because he likes to enjoy the little things. other times he’ll just ignore it and stay indoors either hanging with friends or studying and practicing his magic for his school’s next tournament 

sage: i like to spend it just lookin out my window with my kitty on my chest. i love the sound of it against the sidewalk and streets. 

☃ If your muse was cartoonized, what would their FC be? Why?

uh idk how to answer this tbh 

☺ What’s a character that you desperately want your muse to play with? Why?

toshi @ haneul *stares at @snw-cnvs* and also reese @ momo *stares at @deceptivetreat* but also i just want everyone to bother my boys i love them so much. 

☹ What’s a character that you refuse to play with? Why?

idk i’m pretty open for any character

☢ Are there any ships that you would like to write for one day? Any that you wouldn’t?

uh dunno. i’m open for any ships that have the right chemistry tbh just not haneul since he’s already taken

☣ What’s one thing that will make you drop a thread?

useless drama and or if i can’t seem to figure out where the thread is going for our muses. like if they don’t clash well i don’t wanna give tryin to grasp at straws. but i’m always down to try again unless it ends up the same than welp

♨ What’s a muse that you wished had lasted, but didn’t?

aaaah my supernatural brothers!!! i love them so much but they didn’t last and i’m not sure if i’m goin to add them on here or leave them in the void. 

❀ Do you like reblog karma? Why or why not?

i’m gonna sound old but i don’t know what that is hold on. *googles* oh okay yea no. that seems like too much pressure to do and i have too much anxiety to do that i’m sorry. 

✿ Do you have a mun FC? If so why did you choose that as your FC, and if not who would you choose?

yes. because i have so many icons it’s not even funny, but also before i got my  hair cut she looked the most like me and also i thought it’d be fun to be able to tell the difference between me and my boys 

see, back in the day i was the loser who would make ooc posts that included my muses and it was easy to have mun fc so you could do that and it was a lot fun, but it’s somethin i won’t so nowadays.

♪♩♫ Does music inspire your muse? What’s one song on your playlist that reminds you of your muse?

haneul: mirror part II

any of weiss’ songs work for him tbvh

eiji: rpg

reese: havent found one that works for him yet, so come back later

✂ Do you like to format your posts? Why or why not?

yes it’s all for the aesthetic 

✆ Other than RPing, what’s a hobby of yours?

i love to write and draw. lmao sometimes i don’t write drafts so i can write more of my novel or little drabbles that’s for friends. 

✉ Do you RP on any other platforms?

nope

❤ Have you or are you currently in love?

answered

❥ Has something ever happened for you to hate a ship? Why?

uh nope can’t say there has been.

ツ Who has been your favorite muse to play so far? Why?

haneul, eiji, lifty and shifty, and en

han and eiji because they’re both my ocs and it’s so much fun to see them develop and grow their characters more. 

en because i was able to write a lot of different aus, headcanons, and just develop a canon character until he pretty much just became my own character

lifty and shifty were my roots. i started in the htf fandom and had so much fun writing those lil shits. it was just my go fuckin crazy shit. i still have their icons and their old blog is still up and i do kinda miss them some days.

回 Which muse was the worst to play? Why?

i used to have an oc named harley who was a living doll and i haha came to hate him because i made him around the same time i created haneul and i always loved haneul because i put a lot of effort into him and not much in harley and i got annoyed and jealous that back then everyone seemed to love harley more him. so i pretty much tossed him to the curve adfhsdkfjh

sorry harley but you were also hard to write because you were too sweet and cliche for me 

✘ People come in a group. If I were to look on your blog, who would I see you interacting with the most?

@snw-cnvs and @deceptivetreat

ღ Do you have a personal blog? Do you share it with your followers or do you keep it private?

nah i haven’t used tumblr in years until now. i do have one but i don’t use it so idc it’s called @shouyoutheworld but again i don’t use it it’s…v old

▼ Do you keep your character in character even if they are one of the worst people in the world?

yes. what’s the point of writing and creating said character if you’re gonna sugar coat them?

▽ Why did you create this muse?

haneul: i wanted an oc who was really jaded and brat. i wanted to see him grow into something more even if its difficult 

eiji: i pretty much wanted a muse that i could dump all my useless game infos on

reese: i wanted a witch oc who had a rival that they both hated their guts for and eventually fall in love I’M SO RR Y THAT’S REALLY WHY HE WAS MADE FORGIVE ME BUT NOW I DEVELOPED HIM A LOT MORE FOR RP’ING PURPOSES BUT Y’KN OW

[kaisooficrec]

childhood friends kaisoo? preferably ones with a lot of pining please :)

Hey sugarcube! Childhood kaisoo where they are friends/best friends then grow up are quite many and I also found some that are really awesome even with less pining!

childhood friends with pining:

A Different Morning - youtube au! jongin is a well-known youtube vlogger and vlogs everything and everywhere, but also kyungsoo, his best friend since they were kids. even their friends complain they don’t get the special treatment ksoo has! pining, comedy and fluff ^o^

goodbye summer☼ - THE childhood au tbvh! kid kyungsoo wants to sell as much lemonade as possible to save up for a trip to korea to meet his best friend chanyeol and jongin is determined to help so he buys his lemonade. this goes til they are grown up and along the way, jongin realizes that he doesn’t want kyungsoo to leave him for his best friend :’) hello pining and i love this so muuuch

What Happens In Vegas… - Kyungsoo goes to Las Vegas with ex-boyfriends turned enemies baekyeol, and his childhood friend and current crush Jongin. entertaining, complicated, dramatic, sprinkled w mutual pining on top ohh yea

Through The Midnight Streets - a classic and my all-time fave! jongin grows up in the Do family household due to sad circumstances and he already learns at the tender age of thirteen where crush ends and love begins. but will kyungsoo accept? this beauty is one huge pining and longing and aaaah just amazing 💓

You Are My Heart - slice of life, hurt comfort. bestfriends for life make a promise to each other that if they reach a certain age and both are still single, they’ll marry each other. but jongin doesn’t know that kyungsoo has always been in love with him since he could remember and kyungsoo can only watch him being happy in the arms of someone else, until one day jongin comes back to their house with a broken heart and much worse. this is a trainwreck oh em gee i lov it too fjgjfhj

Boy Next Door - Kyungsoo’s madly in love with Jongin, his childhood best friend and neighbour but there’s one problem. Jongin has a girlfriend :o

How to not get over your childhood crush - wolf au with older omega kyungsoo and young alpha jongin. jongin has a big crush on soo but he’s only 12 while soo is 18, so jongin wants to wait till he is coming of age to prove he’s worthy to court his his omega

kiss me once, kiss me twice (kiss me once again) - fashion designer jongin creates artistic pieces inspired his muse and his feelings jongin has for him for years, his childhood friend kyungsoo

Wounded Hearts - mystery/crime, detective au. detective kyungsoo investigates a corruption case of a powerful ceo and his company. but the ceo’s son is his childhood jongin and kyungsoo has always had feelings for him. (beware possible warnings). sighs i love eeeeet 

Miscommunications - soft and slight angst! just very oblivious kaisoo and their frustrated friends! which is forever legit and will never get old kfkdf

Il M'aime, Il M'aime Pas -Kyungsoo is seven when he meets the new boy who moves in next door and he crushes on jongin but isn’t sure if jongin likes him or not

childhood friends:

I Hate You (I Like You) - childhood friends go camping together ;D except kyungsoo reaaally dislikes jongin so what will happen when they’re forced to spend their time together? enemies to lovers ooooph

Don’t love me unless forever comes with it. (kaisoo social media au) - another enemies to lovers where kyungsoo can’t stand his childhood friend jongin, a now successfull supermodel. he’s coming back to their town to a reunion so seeing each other there is inevitable

Twisted - psychological/mystery au, Detective Jongin Kim is bent on catching the famous serial killer D.O, but soon he finds out that D.O is none other than his childhood friend. ohhh okay, beware possible warnings! i like it though, kinda dark and psycho ;)))

Transparent Smile - dentist au jsfjsfdj this is so cute and funny! kyungsoo reunites with his childhood friend and crush in the worst situation he can imagine - in a dentist’s chair and jongin examining his teeth (also an awkward boner appears) ahfhf

Murmurmaids - kyungsoo’s hobby is writing but he calls it murmurmaids and his childhood friend jongin knows about that, too and they always reminisce their childhood days whenever they see his writings

Be (Only) Mine - jongin and kyungsoo have always celebrated their birthdays together but as they grow up he only wants to share their bdays with soo and with no one else

Afterlight - celebrity au, kyungsoo was a child actor and now he’s a famous celebrity and jongin is just very happy for him, although living a different life

Love Parallel - genderbend girl!soo (jongin has a crush on his childhood bff but he wishes soo was a girl instead)

In The Town of Ais - magic, demon au.As soon as traveler Jongin returns to the town full of his childhood memories, he is accused of attempting to murder his beloved Kyungsoo.

you can also find more childhood fics in the older requests ~ if anyone knows more childhood kaisoo that hasn’t been rec’d, pls tell me here in replies and i’ll list them too!

- Admin J

[upsetbiscuit]

23.

I turned 23 a month ago. 

The past year has been nothing but a rollercoaster ride - yes, I know I said this every other year:

Studied my ass off for my last semester in uni.

Cried while writing my dissertation.

Submitted dissertation on time, not sure how.

Cried again while studying for exams, did my papers with a high fever. 

Informally graduated from uni.

Had a sudden realisation that it’s been 4 years since I properly dated anyone and started panicking; don’t really want to be an old lady with 10 pets. 

Tried to put myself “out there” but was terrified of getting hurt so I stopped.

Had a mental breakdown.

Stopped feeling sorry for myself and started looking for a job. 

Got a job.

Love the job - don’t really want to say this tbvh cause I’m scared I’ll jinx things.

Learnt a little bit about my capabilities and weaknesses.

All in all, I’m pretty content but still an anxious being. 

And yes, not because I’m not over things; Happy (belated) Birthday, you.

[chillihansol]

Get To Know Me Tag !

tagged by @starshua,, tbvh i almost threw the laptop across the room when you tagged me bc :’’’) it’s an honor,, and a privilege to have you stalk my blog ages ago <: ily

rule: tag some other tumblrs that you wanna get to know better

tagging @overreactions101 and @kwan--nie bc i wanted to get to know more of them !! hehe

name

hanni

gender

female ♀

star sign

aquarius  ♒

what’s your middle name?

oooh, id rather not say it bc it’s a bit personal sorry hehe,,

height

162 cm !!

put your music library on shuffle. What are the first 6 songs that popped up?

Ah Yeah - SEVENTEEN 

2U (cover) - Jungkook (BTS)

일곱 번째 감각 (The 7th Sense) - NCT U

Blank Space (Live Cover) - Hey Violet

Waste the Night - 5 Seconds of Summer

Fix You - Coldplay

grab a book nearest you and turn to page 23. What is line 17?

“the team because I wanted to get as far away from the dance as” (Maybe One day by Melissa Kantor)

ever had a poem or song written about you?

i wish !! i have a friend who’s really fond of writing poems,, and she tends to write one for someone’s rlly special to her during their birthdays,, i hope she writes one for me too hahaha

when was the last time you played air guitar?

just last night bc i was too bored and i was thinking of making a cover !!

who is your celebrity crush?

WOAH OKAY, seventeen aside, Sam Claflin is on top of the list. Rena Lovelis is my girl crush ajspakp,, but let’s get back to svt,, Xu Minghao everyone bc i still have a hUGE crush on him !!! 

what is a sound you hate? love?

i hate it when ppl talk toxic oH GOSH,, and i love love love squeaky sounds alodjowija,,!!

do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

yeah!!,, “humans are not alone in this vast universe” -Xu Minghao 2k17

do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

noooo i dont drive >:

do you like the smell of gasoline?

weird but yess! haha, but it depends on what kind bc some actually kills my lungs

what was the last movie you saw?

Thor: Ragnarok at the Cinema,, Trolls at the television HAHAHA

what’s the worst injury you’ve had?

oKAY so this btch is unlucky on EVERY staircase,, idk why asoajsoi so last year i fell and skipped two more steps and had my ankle injured,, like it was swelling so much jasdpjs it frking hurt i will never forget it

do you have any obsessions right now?

omg im pretty obsessed with piano covers lately !! they help me write and concentrate,, and with xu minghao bc duh 

do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

this is very terrible but yes,, i try not to,, but im naturally prideful. i try to keep my pride down and be humble but it just dont work.. i feel bad as well that i hold grudges but i rlly couldnt help it >:

are you in a relationship?

yes with xu minghao no,,

[spacemomalex]

Hey yeah just going to rant here about the callout culture for “pedophilia”. So might be a good idea to skip over this post folks.

My biggest problem with tumblr’s ‘anti-pedophile’ crusade is that as good as it is to stop pedos, the people I usually see being attacked are other survivors. Whenever they pass around those ‘pedos should die’ posts, I can’t be sure if they mean actual pedos with no remorse for what they do to innocent pre-pubescent kids, or underage who don’t know any better or csa survivors who are working out their problems in the only way available to them at this point in time*.

Especially when it comes to fic writers! There most definitely are pedos out there, writing fics, but attacking anyone who writes their favorite ship with characters who ages are undisclosed?? Fuck that noise. And even if they’re aware of the ages, the vast majority are more than capable of tagging it as ‘underage’ for anyone who isn’t into that. And even if they don’t, then they’re probably a kid who is just starting out and might not understand. In any of these cases, it is of the utmost bullshit and manipulative honestly abusive behavior to just attack these people! 

The people who write fics like that, generally speaking they know why it’s wrong, but lots of them are working out personal issues and/or exploring something unsavory in a safe environment they are in full control of. People are, and should be encouraged to!, work out their problems and dark fantasies in an environment that isn’t harming a real person. That so they don’t internalize it until it explodes out of them and actually do hurt someone else without meaning to.

(*for those of you confused as to what I’m going on about, I mean there are a lot of survivors who don’t have access to resources like therapy. Either because they’re still stuck in an abusive situation or don’t have any money. These people NEED to help themselves and they have no where else to go and you’re putting them in danger, either to themselves or the people around them by attacking them over shit that isn’t actually a problem.)

Not that I haven’t heard ‘but it does hurt people!!’ before and you’re right, it absolutely can, but, here’s the thing; That is literally not the fault of the fic writers.

If people honestly believe that fics between fictional characters that are a pure fantasy from someone’s mind are a guidebook on how to live your life, then here’s a list of things that fault belongs to;

- Your abusers (Aka; the person trying to convince you that underage relations are healthy in reality, your parents for isolating you from the world/not teaching you properly about the danger, ect) - Possible mental illness - You’re probably the abuser tbvh

A fic writer is absolutely not responsible in any way shape or form responsible for you. That may suck to hear, but it’s the truth. We fic writers are not responsible for you! You are responsible for what you read and what media you consume. That’s the bottom line! There’s a reason fic writers put up ‘don’t like, don’t read’ on fics that have darker themes. They are telling you to avoid dark media if you don’t like it!

And if you want to bring legality into it, I’m sorry but you literally don’t have that. There are a ridiculous amount of *PUBLISHED works that portray these exact themes, but I don’t see you going on about how they actually are **normalizing unhealthy relationships through mass marketing. It is not illegal for fictional seventeen-year-olds to have a relationship with people over the age, our society of normalizing pedophilia (especially these days with one as our president), does not allow for it unfortunately. The difference? Fic writers aren’t trying to normalize anything, they’re just having fun in a safe environment. Or trying to at least.

(*Does anybody want to talk about how Game Of Thrones has women falling for their rapists or incest out the wazoo- including a child of incest???? No? Congrats you actually don’t seem to care. In fact! Dany looks like, and I think she actually is, utterly underage when she’s wed to her husband. So if this was really about normalizing pedophilia, how come I never see antis foaming at the mouths about dany not only falling in love with her rapist after an arranged marriage, but LOOKING underage while at it? Clearly something is wrong.)

(**Fic writers literally can’t normalize something unhealthy because most of us have a following of maybe, a couple hundred people? At most. We can’t normalize something if we can’t mass market it, especially since most of it clearly isn’t trying to pass it off as something people should aspire. Or did none of you read ‘completely self indulgent!’ or the comments about how fucked up the writer new it was? Or the commentary about how fucked up whatever their writing is and their agreement of that?)

So just, it’s really aggravating because I want to agree with making pedophiles stop being pedophiles, but harassing and bullying fic writers doesn’t help anyone and creates a toxic environment where no one wins ever. And it’s so hard to trust people’s good intentions as long as things so on like this.