#it hurts and I can’t make it stop
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#I can’t take this#I want to tear my skin off#why does it physically hurt my entire body to just be tired#it hurts and I can’t make it stop#I’m scratching again#it’s the only way to kinda make it stop hurting#and it distracts me from being so tired#I’m so sick of all this#I want to sleep at normal times#I want to be not tired during the day#I want to sleep at night#i want the insomnia gone#I want a somewhat normal sleep shedule#I still don’t understand why everything hurts tho#I can’t focus on anything#I keep zoning out and it’s nearly impossible to zone back in#I want this to stop for good#I want to scream and shred my skin into a million pieces
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I literally cannot stop watching House MD right now please send help
#episodes of house be like#house: *drops cane on patient’s groin*#patient yelps in pain#house: hurts doesn’t it. maybe if you didn’t sleep with Em#you wouldn’t need an MRI!#*door slams open*#a woman enters - followed closely by cuddy#mystery woman: dr house? you’ve been served#house: served? as if id let anyone serve me at this hospital. the food here sucks#cuddy: not food - papers!#house: paper? the only paper I see is your paper thin SHIRT#Cuddy: *makes Cuddy face*#no but really why is this every episode#and WHY can’t I stop watching#House MD#house m.d.#Allison Cameron#my art#doodle of the day
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Gojo gets so drunk off of you whenever you ride him. You think it’s because he’s spoiled, he says he just loves you a lot.
It’s something about being able to lay back, watch how your hips roll against his, how your clit rubs against the white pubes at his base, how your chest heaves with every moan. The way your hands never know what to do with themselves, gripping his shoulders and chest before gripping your own, touching yourself between your legs, holding his cock at the base whenever it slips out.
He feels intoxicated every time you get on top. The only downside about it is—is he can’t really control himself, either. If he doesn’t hold your hips down and take over, then he’s trying to ward off a too early orgasm. Gojo can’t help it, really, everything about you is just so addicting.
Like now—your mouth is pressed against his, your hands are tangled in his hair, your hips slowly grind against his own. It hasn’t even been long enough for that familiar feeling to twist in his lower stomach, for his balls to twitch so soon. His warm hands try to pull you off of him, but you pull them away from your skin, instead pinning them on the headboard beside his head.
“Oh, cmon,” Gojo whines, albeit playfully despite the concerning way his cock begins to throb inside of you. You shake your head at him, lids lowering as you focus on grinding against him, his cock nudging something soft inside of you to make you moan.
“Lemme take over, so you don’t have to do all the hard work.” Gojo pleads, bottom lip pouting at you. But you ignore it, leaning forward to instead nip at his lip, squeezing his wrists in your hands. He could break away from you easily, but it’s something about the control you’re exerting over him that makes his tip leaky.
“Shut up,” you huff softly, hips starting to pick up pace. Gojo twists a little underneath you, biting at his bottom lip as he tries to stave off his oncoming orgasm.
“Baby—“
“I’m not fucking finished with you, so just sit back and take it.” You bite at him, eyebrow screwing up as you try to angle your hips to get some friction against your clit, hands squeezing his wrists tightly. You glare up at him from under your lashes, and Gojo, the slut, has a moment of awakening when you lock eyes.
He cums almost instantly, with a punched out sound emitting from his throat, head thrown back as he gasps out your name. His cock kicks and spurts inside of you, filling you up to the brim and you can only moan at the warming feeling of it. Gojo is loud with every rope inside of you, bright eyes falling closed behind his lids as he leans forward to rest his head on your shoulder.
He catches his breath after a few seconds, and speaks against your sweaty skin.
“Think I might’ve discovered something about myself.” He whispers, circling your waist when you release him to pull you in closer to him, making you both hiss.
“That was nothing new for you, Satoru.” You sigh softly into his hair. He laughs at that, and doesn’t deny it. He thinks he might be more transparent than he realized.
#I’ve had this had written for like seven weeks now#that’s damn ridiculous in my opinion#anyway my teeth hurt so fucking bad but I can’t stop eating Welch’s I fear#I hope this makes sense tho 🤞🏼#trying to get out of this writing rut so I might start a one shot later today too!!#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#gojo treats! 🍬
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i really do think the desire to paint ten as unambiguously The Worst™️ when it comes to his relationship with martha is out of this desire to uncomplicate their relationship. to decouple them as friends and people who profoundly impacted each other’s lives. it’s just an easier narrative to swallow: that ten was Awful to her and then martha kicked him to the curb when she realized she was too good for him. easier, maybe, then dealing with the troubles of unrequited affection don’t have to be anyone’s fault, or that ten shut martha out in a lot of ways but let her in in others that he wouldn’t let any other companion near, or that they were still friends, they still wanted to see each other and be around each other, even though it was messy and sometimes hurt. you know?
#sometimes the doctor is shitty. this is not news we know this. this is part of the package. its what makes their relationships with their#companions so interesting so important.#like. how do i put this. i see posts sometimes about how ten was ‘leading martha on’ implying that he was taking advantage of her feelings#to keep her around. and. okay. so. putting aside how that’s a weird thing to say about anyone period.#its also just. from my viewing experience. not true?#the doctor is just sort of Like That. he’s too intense he’s too quick to grasp for emotional intimacy he’s too messy.#but he’s not leading her on. he really is just Like That.#like i feel by getting caught up in the fact that martha is hurt by being compared to rose and is hurt by the fact that the doctor can’t or#won’t return her feelings. and like. yeah. of course that hurts.#but in being caught up in that. i think what im saying is that it feels like people sometimes forget that he’s. not required to do that.#like just because she has feelings for him doesn’t mean he needs to get over himself and return them or else he’s using her. that’s. that’s#not how relationships work. people can have romantic feelings and still be friends and not have anything come of it and that’s not a#terrible outcome. thats just how friendships are sometimes.#thats the core of it to me. they’re friends. the way people post about ten & martha sometimes i wonder if everyone’s forgotten that they#are friends. that they last parted as friends. that martha doesn’t hate him or secretely resent him for how he treated her.#like. she’s got complicated feelings about the whole thing. but they didn’t stop being friends.#i tell you what: if the doctor was in trouble and called for help. you could be damn certain that martha jones would be one of the first#people to answer. that’s what i know.#doctor who#the doctor#tenth doctor#martha jones
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Am I aware that adderall can’t do its job if I don’t get enough sleep?
Have I utterly failed to make use of this knowledge?
Am I, an entire adult with a wife and a salary, hoping “you wouldn’t want to disappoint HP, would you?” is the thing that finally motivates me to go to bed before two in the morning?
The answers to these questions will probably not surprise you!
#one of the worst parts of adhd#is the way it collapses everything from ‘five minutes in the future’ to ‘five years in the future’ into one The Future#‘the future isn’t real. it can’t hurt me.’ does make it a lot easier to deal with anxiety#but on the other hand#‘if I stop doing [activity] I won’t get to do it again until The Future. which is basically like never being able to do it again.’#‘sure I should be getting ready. but I don’t have to be there until The Future and that’s not for a long time.’#‘I am hungry. but making food takes several minutes which means it’s in the future and unrelated to Present Me.’#I would describe all of these thought patterns as A Problem#and adderall helps but not 24/7 and not if I’m chronically staying up late#which can feel a lot like needing a key that’s locked inside a box in order to open the box’s lock#so here we are. help me make better life choices fictional character. fictional character please motivate me to make healthy choices.#sleepless domain
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why is it so hard lol. how does anyone do this. how do people just Not Give In To The Demons. how does anybody do fucking anything without going fully insane. how.
#op#genuinely and honestly i am at my fucking limit#everything hurts I don’t have fucking money i am soooooo close to doing serious crimes#having a child is genuinely the only thing keeping me from saying fuck it and doing massive fraud#I’m fucking tired I can’t fucking do this anymore#I can’t fucking do it and yet I will#of course I will#I’ll just be miserable the entire time because feeling safe is a luxury for the rich#I escape into regression isekai daydreams because if I could do it over again I would finally feel safe#I could help my loved ones#I could make a difference#I wouldn’t be in pain#every fucking day is pain#please god make it fucking stop#CANADIAN GOVERNMENT DNI
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“you get the weirdest choice so you’d probably get taro milk” who’s gonna tell phil that taro is one of the most common, popular, safe, and classic teas to use for boba
anyway, drop your go to boba orders in the tags/replies.
my go to is jasmine green but i also get taro a lot. always happy with thai milk and oolong. and matcha.
and in a mango smoothie.
ok i like so many i’m the wrong person to ask (no one asked me) but tell me yours lmao
#what would a normal choice be if taro milk is the weirdest#royal milk?#english breakfast tea?#can’t think of any other incredibly mild teas#anyway this video hurt my feelings because why did they make me watch them drink boba when i don’t have any#i could make some i guess but that’s a lot of work#i’ve done a lot today ok (read: i have done absolutely nothing other than have a few breakdowns and cry into my cat)#but nothing can stop me from riding my bike and getting some taro milk tea tomorrow (read: anything could stop me i hate going outside)#dnp#dan and phil#phan#yeet my deet#daniel howell#amazingphil#phil lester#danisnotonfire#dan howell#yeet my deenp#bubble tea#danandphilgames
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i kind of knew in theory that all my hobbies involved my hands but i kind of just ignored it n was like oh well im sure id manage
top ten pics taken seconds before disaster
#tldr a lot of drawing + my dorm desk is Really Bad for my wrists and i didn’t realize has kind of fucked me up bad#i don’t do basically anything all week until it stops hurting and i draw a tiny bit and it goes back to hurting#i have literally nothing to do w myself bc brain doesn’t want to do anything but draw write or game and i Can’t Do Those Things#and even when my wrist stops hurting i have to basically exchange any time i’ve earned to do my classwork#leaving no time for myself and my own work unless i say fuck it and gamble more strain#i don’t want to say it’s depressing me bc it feels. pathetic? but as someone who Has to get ideas out lest they start rotting him#it’s… not great#on top of some irl frustrations it’s made for a kind of glum few weeks#oh well. back to laying on my side watching youtube i guess#sparks speaks#vent#? yeah i guess#“i’m not depressed” says the guy who wakes up feels his hand twinge and immediately almost starts crying#like. lame ass behavior but it’s not like it’s a choice#i just wish it didn’t make me so mean. i’ve started avoiding ppl cause i’ve been getting mad rlly easily#which is not helpinggggg
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Armand’s treatment and how it impacted his life.
(‼️ Spoilers for Wakfu Season 4 and its first four episodes ‼️)
One thing that saddened me a lot when I was watching episode 4 was how Armand revealed to Amalia that he had wished he could go on adventures with her and the brotherhood sometimes.
This surprised me at first but I soon realized that it made perfect sense.
Armand was always jealous of her but I initially thought that it was only because she had the most attention from people, even their father. But Armand is the type to keep his thoughts to himself which would explain why despite how we see him looking at Amalia with a disapproving look, we never really got to hear him express his thoughts to her. His reason for wanting to go on adventures with her is also made clear: not only does he want to explore the world because it seems like fun since his sister always felt happy because of it, but the major reason is that he wants his father to look at him just like how he looked at Amalia.
When he finally tells her all of his thoughts and what he wants, we can’t help but feel like what he wishes to have can no longer be granted. Their father died not long ago, it is now too late to do anything.
Armand could’ve spoken up during all those years Amalia went to go on adventures. He had all the time in the world because he was always beside his father at all times.
But no matter how close he was to him, Armand never had the strength to speak his thoughts just like how Amalia dared to do so. It’s ironic really, Armand had the time and the moment to tell his father everything and yet, he didn’t because he didn’t think it was in his right to speak about himself and what he wanted to try.
The years of constantly seeing how his sister was getting loved by the people, how she was being viewed and called a hero by the very same people he was working hard to protect in his own way, how their father kept praising her constantly for whatever she did, how she kept getting adoration for adventuring and risking her life to save her people, while he was instead cooped up in the kingdom learning and practicing how to become king, left him in a position where he believed Amalia always had the upper hand on anything even when he wanted to express himself.
He had learned that every time he proposed an idea or even said some of his thoughts out loud during a particular situation, he would always get shut down by either his sister or his father, sometimes even both (the time when he decided to use a barrier of vines to block Ogrest’s tears but his father told him that his attempts were just “alright” when they were actually very effective for some time, the time where he told Amalia that she can’t leave while his father is terribly sick but his father supports Amalia and encourages her to go with Yugo, the time when Armand stated that none of the rulers had come to support them but his father cuts him off by saying that the queen of Bonta at least brought Joris to them which made Armand’s words sound minuscule and not as serious as the prince intended, etc.)
Granted, sometimes he deserved it (like the time when he got slapped by Eva when he was disrespectful to Dally in the OVAs or the time he did not listen to Amalia’s warnings when she told him Nox was coming and when she tried explaining who Yugo and Adamaï were back in Season 1 but not being listened to despite having Eva to back her up) but the majority of the time, he was trying his best to please his father and barely got a good comment for it.
So it wouldn’t be far-fetched to think that Armand never spoke about what he wanted to his father because he had a strong feeling that the answer wouldn’t be a good one.
As if things couldn’t get any worse for him, when his father takes his last breath and Armand was the only one there for him, who has been by his side all this time, who has devoted his entire life to training, learn and work hard to be like his father, he had only words for Amalia.
To hear his father only speak about his youngest sister and not mention him at all, must’ve terribly broke him on the inside. Even when his father was on his deathbed, he did not address everything that Armand did for him.
And it’s sad to see this happening.
Even though his relationship with his father and sister was mostly shown in the background, it was pretty obvious that their family had some issues that no one wanted to address in the room.
I feel like, in a way, we can somehow relate to Armand.
To feel like we can’t speak our minds properly because of a sibling or a figure in our lives who has shown to be better than us, even when we do work very hard to get noticed we barely get any comments or praises of the same size as theirs, to feel like we don’t matter as much as them so we should just stop talking and let them have their spotlight at all times.
And when we finally get the chance to gain our confidence or get into a position where we don’t feel as self-conscious as we used to before, we come to find out that it’s already too late to express ourselves to the people we’ve been waiting to truly be honest to, because they’re already gone or have moved on from you.
Armand’s case is a bittersweet and albeit depressing one.
What could have been a story of adventure, even if just for one day, was never realized. What could have been an experience that could have felt like a lifetime never happened. What could have been an adventure where he finally has his fun and gains a unique brotherly sisterly duo bond in combat would never become a reality. And what could have been a special moment in his life where he gets to personally know his sister’s friends would always stay a dream.
If only he knew that even a brotherhood member, Evangelyne, has a sister, Cleophee, who had her fun in the group. And even if it was just for a few days, a few moments, Eva’s sister had cemented her place in the Brotherhood and became an official member. To think that even if he had stayed a bit in the group, he would have not just become a part of their lives, but also become a part of their brotherhood.
But despite it all, Armand kept his chin up and looked forward to the future. He did not wallow in his sadness or blame Amalia for his silence during all these years. Instead, he pulls her up and tells her to not be saddened by their father’s departure, especially in front of his tomb tree, and consoles her as they hug.
Unlike anyone else, I believe Armand was able to push his selfish thoughts away (which involved blaming his sister for everything) and instead behaved like a king, someone who, despite not gaining everything he wanted in life, kept going and faced forward for what was to come.
Even though he has not been abandoned by his family, he did feel like he might've been behind everyone else at some point in his life.
He may have not been a part of the brotherhood but he’ll always have a place in his sister’s heart after what he did for her.
And I believe that his competence and his will to protect his kingdom without leaving for adventure would make him get along greatly with a certain white dragon.
#this ‘what if’ can’t stop pulling on my heartstrings 😭😭#i never thought i’d make an armand analysis#and yet here i am#he’s so freaking relatable that it hurts#this makes me wanna read a fic where armand actually goes on an adventure with the group because of an emergency where he had to join them#i just feel like armand would join the group for a specific mission cuz i feel like if he’ll never say he wants to go out out loud#then a mission should be able to make him go out as a ‘duty’#wakfu sadida#sadida#wakfu sadidas#wakfu#sadidas#wakfu armand#wakfu amalia#wakfu amalia sheran sharm#amalia sheran sharm#ankama#krosmoz#wakfu season 4#wakfu s4#wakfu season 4 spoilers#wakfu s4 spoilers#wakfu s4 ep4 spoilers#wakfu season 4 episode 4 spoilers#wakfu s4 ep4#wakfu season 4 episode 4#wakfu analysis#wakfu analyses#wakfu armand sheran sharm
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I was watching lilo and stitch and that “you can never belong” scene came on and I got this idea in my head for that, but with ROTTMNT. So since I don’t do edits or draw, I wrote it out instead. Don’t think too hard about the logistics. :)
It is cold, when Leo slips out of the lair. He can feel Mikey’s gaze on him as he leaves, raising goosebumps over his flesh. He can’t bear to turn back, knowing that his resolve would crumble immediately if he did. His footsteps are too loud in the loneliness of the sewers. His heartbeat pounds in his head. He keeps expecting to hear a voice calling out for him, or the soft sound of footsteps following him.
But of course it never comes. Mikey had been so hurt. So sad. Of course he wouldn’t follow him.
When Leo finds a portal into the Hidden City, he doesn’t hesitate to throw himself through it despite the danger it puts him in to be there. The sounds and the sights are familiar to him, yet nowhere calls to him as loudly as the lair had. It’s only been two weeks since he was first brought into their home. They hadn’t even wanted him there, and yet the urge to go crawling back is so strong. He had messed everything up from the moment he’d manipulated his way into their lives. Of course they wouldn’t want him.
(Why don’t they want him?)
Leo wanders the back alleys and the side streets, letting his feet guide him to nowhere in particular. The picture he had swiped on his way out of the lair is stored safely in the pouch tied around his waist, and between steps he’ll reach in to slide his fingertips over the stiff paper. Just to make sure it’s still there. It soothes him.
He doesn’t stop walking until he’s far outside the city, tucked away in the scraggly rock forests that surround the Hidden City. The aching in his chest has turned into more of a twisting knife, the small knot of sadness becoming more like a gaping chasm. An open wound. A bottomless pit of longing and loneliness that he had never felt before he forced his way into the lives of the Hamatos.
He hadn’t had anything to lose, before. He hadn’t known the kind of pain that loving something would bring. He wishes he could go back to not knowing. He wishes he could return to a life of never having to make the choice to walk away, to spare them all the pain his existence brings them.
Leo settles on the ground, curling into himself, shoulders trembling under the weight of everything. When he closes his eyes, the image of Mikey’s face as Leo made his choice haunts him. Donnie’s quiet voice rings in his ears in the silence of the forest, you ruined everything, again and again. Raph’s soft squeeze on his shoulder lingers like a phantom. Leo trembles, tucking his knees to his chest. Then, he pulls the photo out.
Raph, Donnie, and Mikey grin up at him. It’s almost mocking, how happy they look here. A reminder that they are better without him around. He hadn’t seen them smile like that since the first five minutes they’d found him, back before they learned the truth of how much of their lives he can ruin.
He runs a careful finger over those smiles, then he squeezes his eyes shut and holds the photo against his chest. His throat burns, and the ache in his chest feels like a black hole that will swallow his body whole. He does his best to breathe through the pain and when he opens his eyes again, the light speckled ceiling overhead is blurry and indistinct. It reminds him of the stars they had taken him to see, wind tickling his skin as they sat on the rooftop of the tallest building of their strange human city and stared upwards at something beautiful.
“Lost,” he whispers to the open air, and he can almost imagine that single word floating upwards, towards the city and the sewers. Finding its way into the only place he’s ever found that might have one day held happiness. But only for him. Not for them. There was only danger if he stayed.
“I’m lost,” he repeats, words like some trouble confession, and hot tears roll down his cheeks.
Some small, selfish part of him hopes they’ll hear. He wants them to come for him, and to bring him back home. It is a stupid, foolish wish. It’s better for everyone that he stays gone. He can’t hurt them this way.
He falls asleep with tears drying on his cheeks, and body curled tight around the only evidence he holds of a dream he knows can never be.
When he wakes hours later, it’s to the sound of heavy footsteps over gravel. He jolts upright, heart pounding, eyes wide, and for one foolish, terrible moment he really believes that his family has come for him.
But no. Of course not. When Draxum emerges with a weapon pointed at his head, Leo can’t find it within himself to feel surprised. He stares back blankly, shifting slowly to stand, halfway wishing that Draxum would just take the shot and get it over with. He doesn’t think he has the energy to raise a hand to defend himself.
The gravel has left his legs peppered with indents and marks from where they’d pressed into his flesh as he slept. They sound like something breaking as they shift and crunch beneath his feet. Draxum’s eyes dart between those markings and Leo’s tear streaked face, before his expression twists into something complicated. Almost pitying.
“Don’t run,” he says, voice low. If Leo hadn’t heard what true kindness sounds like these last couple weeks, he would have said that’s what he hears in Draxum’s tone. “Don’t make me hurt you. You were difficult to make. No need to ruin a perfectly acceptable specimen.”
Leo shuffles, eyes darting between Draxum and the stacked stones surrounding them. He makes a sound low in his throat, hurt and uncertain, but he does not bolt. Draxum smiles, already assured of his victory, and steps closer. Leo watches with wide eyes.
“Yes. Yes, that’s it,” Draxum murmurs, careful and soft, like he’s trying to soothe a scared animal. “Come quietly.”
“I…I’m waiting,” Leo admits, and he watches Draxum’s brow crease. His head tips, curious. He’s not used to this side of his creation — quiet, yet resisting his orders. Leo shuffles a half step back, heart pounding so hard in his chest that he feels a little dizzy.
“For what?”
“For…for my family.”
“Aahhh. There is no use in doing so. You don’t have one. I made you.”
Leo shakes his head, hands trembling, photo creased from how tightly he is clutching it in his fist. The thought of ruining the only evidence he has hurts, but the fear of Draxum getting his hands on it, of him finding out about the others, it terrifies him in a way he’s never felt before. He can’t let Draxum know about them.
“Maybe…maybe I could—“
“I don’t know what yokai fool you found, or what nonsense they’ve been filling your mind with, but banish the thought of family from your mind.” His voice has lost that careful, gentle farce. It is harsh and cutting now. A familiar sound that Leo had hoped he’d left behind forever when he ran away. “You are built to destroy. You can never belong. Now, come quietly and we can begin your reeducation once—no! No no, don’t run, don’t—!”
His voice fades as Leo darts through the towering stones, vines curling at his heels and snapping at his shell as Draxum tries to recapture him. The picture flutters from his fingertips as he trips, lost amongst the shadows of the stone forest. Leo sobs, but he does not turn back for it. It is better if it is lost; at least then, he may be able to move on.
#Rottmnt#my writing#sort of a separated au?#There’s no real bigger story here#But basically the thought as I was writing it was#Draxum has leo and believes the other 3 experiments died in the fire#After 14 years leo decides to run away#He’s destructive and aggressive and also desperately lonely#Stitch style#And when his brothers find their presumed dead sibling mikey welcomes him with open arms#Raph is hesitant but affectionate and open to bonding#Donnie wants nothing to do with him but might possibly warm up to him over time#Of course any bonding he might do with his brothers is all ruined bc leo keeps messing things up#Hurting people#Ruining belongings#Etc etc etc#but he is beginning to love his family so so much despite how he can’t stop himself from hurting them#And when he hears that draxum is looking for him he makes the decision to leave#Mikey lets him go thinking that leo is making the decision on his own#Not realizing he doesn’t want to go#Anyways yeah#this idea put me in a chokehold and i wrote it in like 30 minutes at 1am#So i’m not thinking too hard about the logistics#rise of tmnt#rottmnt leo
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one thing about drawing the posties is that (at least in my designs) raven and jill are wearing the most flamboyant brightly colored impractical outfits ever. then you have michael. dude in tshirt and jeans with a flannel jacket
#shaperaverse#trying to work on my asha design… she’s the only one i don’t have a good picture for. also william but he can kinda be whatever lol#an old childhood friend of mine was named asha and i can’t stop thinking of irl asha when talking about shaperaverse asha#trips me up when doing character designs lol#same problem with Jill but I wasn’t around my irl Jill as much as irl asha#Han’s problem is that I know EXACTLY what she looks like I just can’t draw it. same with lloyd. I hate his hair#shoutout to raven though. easiest character to imagine easiest character to draw. that simplicity makes up for how fucking complicated his#accessories are lol. at least he’s better than molly (cr). drew him once and my hands hurt for days#raven and molly should meet. that would destroy reality I think but 1) it’d be so so funny snd 2) they would enjoy the sex
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because I carry it well, doesn’t mean it’s not heavy
Dirk Gently
#dirk gently#dirk gently’s holistic detective agency#dghda#dirk angst#moodboard#aesthetic#hurt#corgi#black tea#past trauma#detective#detective agency#dirk gently moodboard#dirk gently aesthetic#project blackwing#protect dirk gently#literally the loml#even though i can’t stop making him angsty#psychic#holistic
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Charbee Prompts Part 7
(im going to number these now)
What if Bee never left the garage?
What if Charlie decided to not go to work
What if Charlie watched over Bee after the police chase?
Bee was never found. After a year of no results, the government got impatient and killed the Shatter and Dropkick and destroyed any trace of their presence, not even daring to use their technology out of fear of the Soviets getting their hands on them. The Autobots still arrive on Earth but Bee was missing, unable to be contacted and traced.
For the past seven years, Charlie and Bee were inseparable. Charlie didn’t want Bee to be cooped up all his life so after she went to trade school for auto mechanics, she decided to spend the next few years traveling the world with her best friend, taking side jobs as a mechanic.
While visiting a few countries in Europe, Bee sees the beacon from the transwarp key. Realizing that only Bee could see it, the two hopes that there are other people like him. Bee searches for any sign of the transwarp key and follows the sign to Peru. They look around and detects Cybertronian activity on two terribly disguised humans, Elena and Noah, sneaking through a parade and into an underground temple. Charlie follows them into the cave which the Autobots take notice.
After Noah and Elena finds the key missing, Charlie accidentally reveals herself and is held at gunpoint. Noah tells Mirage that someone followed them so Charlie runs away. Noah and Elena chase after her before all three being cornered by Primal. Mirage arrives, aiming his blaster at Primal and Charlie, who realizes that there’s more robots like Bee. When Mirage gets tackled, Bee comes rushing in to defend Charlie.
The rest of the Autobots arrive, overjoyed and shocked to see Bee alive but Bee doesn’t recognize them. Arcee scans Bee, realizing that he has no memory. Optimus assures Bee that they will come to no harm to Charlie and after some convincing, he alongside the Maximals stand down. Although, Bee is wary about the Autobots.
The bots reveal that Bee was a scout named B-127 and that their species in a middle of a war. Prime expects Bee to come back but Bee doesn’t want to leave, wanting to stay with Charlie. It starts tension that leads to an arguement that Charlie tries to calm down. Optimus, in his rage, blames Charlie which leads to Bee accidentally activating his gun out of protection and nearly shooting Prime. In his shock and fear, Bee storms away.
Bee apologizes to Charlie who knows that he didn’t mean to put her in danger. He feels a bit uncomfortable, wanting to go back to the status quo. Charlie says that Bee has to leave because he has people who needs him even though Bee doesn’t want to. Neither does Charlie but she doesn’t say anything.
The Terrorcons then attack and Bee helps fight them while the humans run away. Charlie sees Noah trying to destroy the key but she tries to convince him not to and confesses that she loves Bee so much that she wants him to return home. Optimus and Noah hears this and Noah changes his mind. Charlie and Elena gets captured by Airazor but while Elena gets dropped, Charlie is taken away.
Bee is furious but doesn’t want to fight, having no collective memory on how to. Optimus is understanding and allows him to sit out so they can save Charlie.
The usual fight happens. Scourge holds Charlie captive and Mirage saves her, telling her to run through the vents Noah and Elena are using. When Noah is caught, Charlie tries to protect him, leading to Mirage sacrificing himself for both of them. Mirage turns into a suit for Noah and gives Charlie a blaster to defend Elena with.
Bee is back with the natives and debates to go. He doesn’t want to be in a war but remembers Charlie’s words and at the same time, the Energon blast erupts, giving Bee his memories again. Bee arrives at the fight and the movie ends as usual.
Bee and Charlie both prepare to part ways, hugging and confessing, until Optimus says that the Charlie can help Noah rebuild Mirage, allowing her to stay a little bit longer.
#transformers#transformers rise of the beasts#bumblebee#charlie watson#noah diaz#charbee#rise of the beasts#rotb#transformers rotb#bumblebee 2018#charbee bad mood rambles#pls ignore the tags#this is just me ranting#im sorry#i hate how everyone in my family is miserable#i hate how everyone is dissensitized to their trauma#it should be a good thing but it hurts knowing you’re so used to pain that you can’t feel it anymore#i hate how i have a prosperous life but it’s not a good one#i want my family to be happy#so why does it feel like everyone makes it their mission to make everyone miserable#i hate it here#i feel useless#im the privileged one and i hate it#im a bully and i want to stop#my existence only hurts people#i can be as nice as much as i want and i still can’t do anything#my funeral will be only filled with people i have lied to#but im not strong enough to die#not yet
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I love having something going on that has been greatly impacting my quality of life for YEARS but knowing that if I brought it up to my doctor it wouldn’t be followed up on at all.
#I am so fucking sick and tired of being absolutely drenched in sweat in 45 degree weather#when it starts getting cold out my hands feet and pits are never NOT wet#I will be furiously shivering with cold and I’ll still be sweating#my hands will be stiff and hurting from the sweat making them colder and it STILL WONT STOP#but it can’t be hyperhydrosis because I sweat a normal amount in warm weather#not excessively#so it’ll just be another thing for my doctor to hear about and go ‘uhhhhh idk sorry bye”’#I'm so frustrated#delete later
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I reread your fic where wukong dies and macaque mourns for him, and it was very sad the first time. And it's still sad, but the second time I just had an image of macaque dying himself (no direct suicide, but being reckless in fights and throwing himself thoughtlessly in danger, and just not dodging or not doing moves that he knew would put him in an advantage). Then wukong somehow returning, dragging macaque ear bc he wasn't allowed to die again
see, in those fics, Wukong dies because he gives up his final and first attachment (his immortality) for the sake of those he loves. and Macky wouldn’t know how to reverse that (also the kings weren’t dead in the making of those fics lmao)
Macky dying????? not on Wukong’s fucking watch. because it’s not that Mac wants to die (he wants to live. he wants to live so much and see where this life goes), he is just at a point where he would put his own life on the line for Wukong and MK’s sake. but Wukong cannot allow it. he will wreak havoc once more, go into the Diyu and drag Macky back kicking and screaming if he has to (dead kings or no)
#idk i just think they need to chill tf out lmao /j#in those fics Macky won’t drag Wukong out because this was SWK’s choice whether or not the outcome was faster than it was supposed to be#does that make sense?#in the fic my intention was that SWK’s immortality was already dwindling and he didn’t stop it bc of his love for MK#and Macky didn’t stop him or fight it out of respect as much as it hurt him#BUT! Wukong is a giant hypocrite#he will be all for giving himself up for those he loves bc he is immortal and can’t be hurt#(or bc he’s lived long enough that death is welcomed)#him losing his personal attachments/friends/loved ones?????? out of the question#he WILL lecture you about it after forcing his rank and power to revive you#and for Macky????? someone he lost that he maybe wasn’t aware was lost/dead????#yeah that is a ‘i am not letting what happened before happen again and fix it this time’#lmk sun wukong#chill OUT my guy#shadowpeach#asks#lmk
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can’t keep my fucking plants alive
#fucking hell#makes me so SAD#stop DROOPING you were doing so WELL#YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO LIVE#YOU WERE DOING GOOD#angry at myself for overwatering this FUCKING CATNIP#I was SO HAPPY to find that catnip it made me feel happy and now it’s drooping and I can’t do anything but guess what’s wrong and hope I ca#fix it#like it’s PROBABLY OVERWATERED but it could be underwatering WHO KNOWS#Overwatering makes sense because it was in a fucking cup of water waiting to be repotted doing really well#but then it’s leaves started curling (overwatering??) and so I potted it and now it’s all limp and drooping#FUCK#why am I so sad about this#my chest is all heavy I don’t LIKE IT#and I can’t do anything about it#my own fault somehow. feelin not-good-stabby now. wanna hurt. but nope#my spider plants have all died#don’t know why#soil probably had shitty drainage#why did I put the catnip in the same fucking pot that the spider plants used to be in#was the only one I had available I guess#the other spider plants that the others water are doing fine why is it MY PLANTS that are dying#sun speaks#i guess#ignore this#sorry if you see this moots. pardon the swearing.
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