#it hasn't gotten to “I fucking quit” levels yet.

[lilirot]

Perhaps one should expect that in a game about kissing demons (literal) that the company behind it is also ran by demons (figurative).

[yawnderu]

hi, i've only discovered your writing recently but i can't even explain how much i love it 😭 it's like that one anon who i think said that it feels very real, like you're getting 4k ultra hd 8d view of the scene lol 🩷

i really like your bimbo reader posts but i also sort of enjoy seeing them from this point of view that's like.... "this is not his gfs """"constant"""" style but he just lets her be in this kind of persona sometimes because it's relaxing to let him do all the work and thinking for her from time to time".

i hope this makes sense 😭 thank you for writing something that's this cute and wholesome i just love it

Thank you so much sweetheart, this is really lovely!! 😭😭😭<3

Yeah!! I totally get where you're coming from!! She's not exactly dumb, it's actually quite the opposite. I'd like to hc her as a girl who managed to get into a very good university and is studying astrophysics simply because she liked watching stars as a child. She's not dumb— just a girl who grew up extremely sheltered and hasn't seen the world through the eyes of someone who has had a difficult life, like Simon.

There's certain naivety that while it can be dangerous, she's been learning more and more about with Simon's help about stranger danger and trusting her instinct, but the girl is always surrounded by people who enjoy seeing her thrive and always teach her the things that her parents didn't.

I'd say in general she has a very good life, and now paired with Simon, someone whose entire soul wants to see her thrive?? She gets to turn off her brain and simply let him take control— he sometimes picks her clothes for her, dressing her up to the best of his capacity even when he's not a fashion guy.

This man has studied all her Instagram pictures because she's mesmerizing and he loves her that much, yet it also gives him the chance to more or less know what combinations she likes to wear. He still remembers the time she looked at him like he grew a second head for trying to make her wear dots and lines— but he never made that same mistake again.

They work surprisingly well together despite basically being on complete opposite sides of a spectrum, and at the end of the day, they work this well because they're both equally in love with the other.

Simon is level-headed and that gives her the chance to simply be herself without worrying about anything, he gives her a sense of security that she's never gotten with anyone else, while bimbo!reader gives Simon the love and affection he never even dared to think about. The main thing is that she looks and treats him like he's worth something how good of a soldier he is. Hell, she doesn't even know he's a soldier, she simply found the most brooding and intimidating guy and fell in love with him before she even knew it.

They both spoil each other a lot. Simon buys her things, treats her with patience and love, and generally treats her like the princess that she is, while she takes care of Simon like no other. She does face masks with him, gives him massages, does his manicure (trimming and cleaning his nails, putting lotion on his calloused hands), and is overall as patient as they come.

They're a pretty wholesome pair and quite honestly I enjoy writing about them a lot, the love they have for each other is fully pure and it makes me happy. :')

Sorry for going off here HJBEFJBHKFEHBKJEFHBJK I wrote too much but God, I love this pair SO fucking much

Bimbo!Reader Masterlist

[stargazer-sims]

⭐ I'd like to know the whole list for Mishka and Nikolai if you're still up for it!

Thanks for another epic set of questions @honeyjars-sims! Some sections didn't really apply to Nikolai and Mishka, but I did my best!

Again, this is under a cut because it's super long.

Nikolai Pavlenko and Mikhail (Mishka) Vasiliev

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? If anyone is going to raise their voice, it'd be Nikolai, but that would be a rare event. Neither of them likes raised voices, and neither of them feel good about raising their voices, particularly with each other.

Who threatens to leave but never actually does? Neither

Who actually keeps their word and leaves? Neither

Who trashes the house? Neither

Do either of them get physical? No. They're both very gentle people and could never imagine putting their hands on each other in that way.

How often do they argue/disagree? They rarely argue, but they often disagree.

Who is the first to apologize? Usually Nikolai, even if he's not necessarily in the wrong. He just hates seeing Mishka upset. Mishka will apologize first if he knows he's in the wrong, though.

Sex:

Who is on top? Who is on the bottom? I'm combining these two questions because both Nikolai and Mishka are sides (men who find fulfillment/pleasure in every kind of same-sex sexual act except penetrative sex). They're both bisexual and they've each had experiences with women, so in those relationships they were "top" by default, but between the two of them there really is no top or bottom.

Who has the strangest desires? Neither of them have particularly strange desires, but Mishka does enjoy making love outdoors and Nikolai enjoys intimacy in the water

Any kinks? No

Who’s dominant in bed? Mishka would say it's Nikolai, but neither one of them is particularly dominant

Is head ever in the equation? Yes

If so, who is better at performing it? Mishka says Nikolai is better, but he's managed to make Nikolai literally cry with pleasure, so we have to go with Mishka as being the better performer here.

Ever had sex in public? No. Mishka would be mortified at the mere thought of sex in public. Nikolai has done it in a public place with a different partner, but he knows Mishka would never be okay with that level of risk-taking, so they keep it limited to their home or anywhere else they know they'll have privacy.

Who moans the most? Mishka. That was alarming to Nikolai the first time because he'd never heard another man moan and whimper the way Mishka does, and he was scared he'd accidentally hurt him somehow. Once he realized Mishka was just really enjoying himself, it was all good.

Who leaves the most marks? Neither of them

Who screams the loudest? Neither of them screams

Who is the more experienced of the two? Nikolai. He's had plenty of partners, both male and female. Although he's also bisexual, Mishka was only ever with women before he met Nikolai and he'd only had a few different partners.

Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? They make love. Neither of them could imagine referring to it as fucking. When Nikolai thinks about fucking, he invariably comes up with a mental image of his ex-wife Anya, and it's not a pleasant association for him.

Rough or soft? Always gentle and soft with these two. Anya liked it rough and Nikolai had no idea how soothing and satisfying it could be until he met Mishka. He loves the way Mishka touches him, like he's the most precious and beautiful thing alive. Mishka likewise appreciates that Nikolai understands he's happiest when they're moving slowly and softly.

How long do they usually last? They like to take their time, so they can go on for quite a while.

Is protection used? No

Does it ever get boring? It hasn't gotten boring for either of them yet.

Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? In a tent and in a lake. They like to camp in the middle of nowhere, and they've taken advantage of the solitude to "enjoy nature" shall we say.

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? They don't have children and they're not planning on any.

If so, how many children do your muses want/have? n/a

Who is the favorite parent? n/a

Who is the authoritative parent? n/a (although if they did have kids, it'd probably be Nikolai who made sure all the rules were followed)

Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? n/a

Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? n/a

Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? n/a

Who goes to parent teacher interviews? n/a

Who changes the diapers? n/a

Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? n/a

Who spends the most time with the children? n/a

Who packs their lunch boxes? n/a

Who gives their children ‘the talk’? n/a

Who cleans up after the kids? n/a

Who worries the most? n/a

Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? n/a

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? They both love to cuddle. Most of the time, they'd rather just cuddle than make love. They definitely enjoy lovemaking, but they're happy with lots of non-sexual intimacy and don't always feel the need to do more.

Who is the little spoon? The "little" spoon is actually Mishka. He loves to be held, even though the positioning is slightly awkward. Nikolai likes to tease him about not realizing how big he is.

Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? This would be Nikolai, and he always has to remind himself that Mishka would be horribly embarrassed if they crossed too far over the line of what Mishka considers appropriate in public.

Who struggles to keep their hands to themselves? Both of them. Mishka has massive anxiety about being in public spaces and he wants to be in near-constant physical contact with Nikolai when they're out in public, whether it's holding hands, letting Nikolai take his arm, walking with their arms around each other's waists, or letting their foot or leg touch the other person's when they're sitting down somewhere. It's not unusual to see Mishka hugging Nikolai from behind while they stand in line for their coffee in the morning. Nikolai doesn't object to any of this, of course. He's perfectly content to touch and be touched pretty much any time.

At home, Nikolai often gives Mishka little reassuring touches at any point throughout the day. As for Mishka, he can never resist the temptation to touch Nikolai's birthmark whenever he happens to catch Nikolai with his shirt off. Nikolai's birthmark is heart-shaped, and Mishka is fascinated by it and can't seem to leave it alone.

How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? They can cuddle for half an hour or so at a time, unless they're in bed where they could comfortably cuddle for hours. Nikolai is usually the one who becomes uncomfortable first, mostly because Mishka can't conceptualize his own size and seems to think he can fit on Nikolai's lap or otherwise drape himself all over him.

Who gives the most kisses? Nikolai

What is their favourite non-sexual activity? Holding hands. These two are constantly holding hands, so much so that almost everyone notices it. As for actual activities, one of their favourite things to do together is to go camping.

Where is their favourite place to cuddle? In bed. This is the easiest and most comfortable place for them to cuddle, especially considering their size difference.

Who is more likely to playfully grope the other?  They're both equally likely to do this when they're alone at home and they're in the mood.

How often do they get time to themselves? More or less whenever they want. They live together and don't have any children or roommates, so when Nikolai isn't working, they can be together as much as they want.

Sleeping:

Who snores? Both of them

If both do, who snores the loudest? Mishka does

Do they share a bed or sleep separately? They share a bed

If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? They like to cuddle together, and sometimes they'll stay curled up together even after they fall asleep.

Who talks in their sleep? Neither

What do they wear to bed? Nikolai will often sleep in just his underwear, sometimes with a tank top or t-shirt and sometimes without. In the coldest part of winter he likes to wear PJ pants or sweatpants to bed. Mishka sometimes just sleeps in his underwear and a t-shirt as well, but he likes pyjamas, especially in winter.

Are either of your muses insomniacs? No

Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? No

Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? They like to wrap their limbs around each other

Who wakes up with bed hair? Nikolai, although it's kind of hard to tell since he looks like he has 24/7 bed hair.

Who wakes up first? Nikolai. He's a morning person.

Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? Nikolai

What is their favourite sleeping position? They both like to sleep on their side

Who hogs the sheets? Mishka

Do they set an alarm each night? No, because Nikolai is really good at waking up on his own. The only time they set an alarm is if Nikolai is travelling with his students and wants to make absolutely certain he doesn't oversleep and miss a flight.

Can a television be found in their bedroom? No

Who has nightmares? Mishka

Who has ridiculous dreams? they both do on occasion

Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed?  Mishka, but he doesn't actually have to sprawl to take up most of the bed. He just does that anyway due to his size. He thinks they need a bigger bed, because a normal double bed doesn't feel big enough for him.

Who makes the bed?  Mishka

What time is bed time?  Nikolai's bedtime is usually around 10:30 p.m. (he routinely gets up at 5:00 a.m.) Mishka will often go to bed with him, but he doesn't really have a bedtime and sometimes goes to bed earlier or later than Nikolai.

Any routines/rituals before bed? Nothing special. They'll just do typical hygiene things like showering and brushing their teeth. Mishka will take his contacts out, if he's bothered to wear them that day.

Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? Mishka. He's not a morning person and he'd stay in bed until noon if Nikolai would let him.

Work:

Who is the busiest? Nikolai

Who rakes in the highest income? Currently Nikolai does, as he's the only one with a job.

Are any of your muses unemployed? Yes, Mishka currently doesn't work. He used to be a professional hockey player, but he finally retired from his athletic career at age 35, and is now recovering and trying to figure out what he'd like to do next. At the moment, he's enjoying being a stay-home partner.

Who takes the most sick days? Nikolai, by default, since he's the only one with a job, but he rarely takes a sick day.

Who is more likely to turn up late to work? Neither

Who sucks up to their boss? Neither of them has a boss to suck up to.

What are their jobs? Nikolai is a figure skating coach and Mishka used to be a pro hockey player

Who stresses the most? Mishka. Even unemployed, he's highly susceptible to stress.

Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? Nikolai absolutely loves his work, and Mishka enjoyed most aspects of his.

Are your muses financially stable? Yes

Home:

Who does the washing? Mishka

Who takes out the trash? They take turns doing this

Who does the ironing? Nikolai's mother or Beth-Anne lol okay... it's Mishka these days, because Nikolai is literally like, "What is this 'ironing' of which you speak?" and he would totally take things to his mom or Beth-Anne to iron for him. But now he has someone at home who actually likes to iron.

Who does the cooking? Nikolai

Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? Neither. Mishka is sometimes nervous about cooking, but he knows how to use all the appliances safely.

Who is messier?  Nikolai

Who leaves the toilet roll empty? Nikolai, and Mishka gets super annoyed about it.

Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? Nikolai

Who forgets to flush the toilet? Neither of them

Who is the prankster around the house? It would be Nikolai, but he's learned that Mishka finds practical jokes upsetting.

Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? Neither of them

Who mows the lawn? They take turns mowing the lawn.

Who answers the telephone? They each have their own phone

Who does the vacuuming? They take turns, but it's mostly Mishka

Who does the groceries? Nikolai

Who takes the longest to shower? Neither of them take particularly long showers

Who spends the most time in the bathroom? Mishka. He's way more concerned about his appearance than Nikolai is.

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? No

How many cars do they own? two

Do they own their home or do they rent? Nikolai owns it

Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? They live on the coast. In fact, they can see the beach from their yard.

Do they live in the city or in the country?  They live in a bedroom community of a medium-sized city

Do they enjoy their surroundings? They love it there. Nikolai and his ex-wife Anya chose the house specifically because it was in a quieter area outside the main part of the city, and Nikolai still values the relative privacy and quiet of the area. Mishka loves it because it's got lots of green space for his garden and his animals, and he also likes that it's quiet and that it's so near the ocean.

What’s their song? A Thousand Years - Christina Perri

"And all along I believed I would find you; Time has brought your heart to me."

What do they do when they’re away from each other? They absolutely do not like being away from each other. When Nikolai travels with his students for competitions, sometimes Mishka comes too. When Mishka is not able to come along for whatever reason, Nikolai usually arranges for Mishka to stay with his parents and grandfather, or with Beth-Anne, because Mishka hates being alone (he had a roommate before he moved in with Nikolai). While Nikolai is away, they'll call and text each other multiple times a day, and Mishka meets him at the airport when he returns.

Where did they first meet? They met at a pub

How did they first meet? It was Nikolai and Natascha's 30th birthday when Mishka and Nikolai first met. Nikolai and Natascha and some of their friends were having a small get-together for the twins' birthday at a pub in the city, called the Dockside Alehouse. While Nikolai and his friend Hunter were up at the bar getting another round of drinks for everyone, Mishka happened to wander in. He was clearly lost and looked like he was on the verge of panic.

Mishka had only arrived in town a couple of days before, as part of a mid-season player trade, and he was staying at a downtown hotel until he found a place of his own. He'd decided to go out for a walk, managed to get his directions confused (typical for Mishka), and couldn't find his way back to the hotel. He'd stopped at a nearby convenience store to ask for help, but no one had been able to understand him, and the only other place open nearby was the Dockside. Because his English was so limited, he was having trouble making himself understood by the bartender at the pub too.

It was a case of being in the right place at the right time, as far as Nikolai was concerned, because he happened to recognize that in between bits of English, Mishka was speaking Russian, which is also Nikolai's first language. He decided to help him. Nikolai and Hunter invited Mishka to join the birthday party, and afterwards Nikolai took him back to his hotel.

Nikolai and Mishka continued to see each other after that, and eventually their friendship developed into a relationship. They were together for four years the first time, but decided to separate for a number of factors, not the least of which were Mishka's crazy travel schedule and the interference of Nikolai's ex-wife.

They always said they'd try to find their way back to each other if their lives ever stabilized. After six years of separation, during which they had semi-regular contact and a handful of short-term relationships each, they finally did find their way back to each other. This time, they're not letting go ever again.

Who spends the most money when out shopping? Mishka. He loves clothes and jewelry.

Who’s more likely to flash their assets? Neither

Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? Neither one. Mishka gets upset over the smallest thing happening to Nikolai, and Nikolai is super protective of Mishka.

Any mental issues? Mishka has Generalized Anxiety Disorder and he's prone to panic attacks.

Who’s terrified of bugs? Neither

Who kills the spiders around the house? They don't kill spiders. Mishka catches them and takes them outside.

Their favourite place? Their favourite place is actually their back yard.

Who pays the bills? Nikolai

Do they have any fears for their future? They don't, really. Their biggest fear is one of them losing the other because of an accident or illness, but even this is more of a nebulous fear than a specific one.

Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? Nikolai

Who uses up all of the hot water?  Neither

Who’s the tallest? MIshka! He's 196cm (compared to Nikolai's 173cm)

Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? They're equally likely to hop into the shower with each other. Nikolai would do it because he wants to play, and Mishka would do it "to be more efficient... but actually I missed you."

 Who wanders around in their underwear? They both do, but Nikolai tends to do it more and to not be shy about it.

Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? Mishka, and he's really good.

What do they tease each other about? Nikolai often teases Mishka about not realizing how big and tall he is, and says Mishka is like a Great Dane who thinks he's a lap dog. Mishka likes to tease Nikolai about his ever-present bed head. Nikolai's hair cannot be tamed, and he's given up trying, but Mishka still thinks it can be done with enough hair product.

Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? Mishka is more likely to cringe at Nikolai's fashion choices. Sweatpants/athletic pants are a wardrobe staple for Nikolai. He's perfectly comfortable going out in public wearing exactly what he'd wear at the rink or around the house. Although Mishka can admit that Nikolai does look very good in form-fitting athletic pants, he's a little embarrassed to be seen with him wearing them to the grocery store or to a dentist appointment. Mishka always tries to encourage Nikolai to dress up a bit more for errands and appointments, to at least wear jeans and a nice shirt rather than sweatpants, a hoodie and sneakers.

Do they have mutual friends? Yes. Nikolai's student Eden and his partner Haru are their mutual friends, as well as Beth-Anne and her girlfriend Peace. They consider their elderly neighbour Michael Nelson to be their friend. Nikolai has friends who Mishka is friendly with, and Mishka likewise has a few friends who Nikolai knows and is friendly with, but their shared circle of friends is actually quite small.

Who crushed first?  MIshka. He had an instant crush on Nikolai (his hero!) that very first night at the pub.

Any alcohol or substance related problems? No

Who is more likely to stumble home drunk at 3am? Neither. They're both usually in bed at 3:00 a.m. If anyone's going to stumble home drunk though, it's Nikolai. Mishka has a shocking alcohol tolerance and can drink Nikolai and most of their friends under the table.

Who swears the most? Nikolai

[junebugwriter]

Tiring night. I work overnight as a hotel night auditor, and a lot of that is a pull between customer service and managing certain accounting tasks for the next day, which is a pretty easy job all things told, as long as the "customer service" variable is relatively manageable. However, it was a Friday night, and those are usually rough. Phones ringing off the hooks, guests lining up in front of me, you know the drill. It can be maddening.

I get the feeling it wasn't supposed to be like this. None of this is supposed to be like this. The more money people have to blow, the angrier they seem. I'm doing a the job of a supervisor for the pay of an entry level worker, and I've done so for six months, since the time the last overnight supervisor quit. I've just... kind of done it. Nobody asked. I've trained several people in that time. I've applied for the supervisor job, too. I've been told for a month now that any day now, the "promotion" will be mine. My pay hasn't gone up. My authorization hasn't gone up. I'm still just doing the same thing I've always been doing, for not nearly enough money.

But my story is hardly unique, isn't it? Companies don't do anything unless they are forced to. Management doesn't care about the workers until they are made to care. But I'm isolated. There are three (3) total overnight auditors at this hotel with service for over 600 rooms. We should have at least 6 people doing this job. But we don't. Because we've gotten by without it for so long, the management seems to think it's going to be fine forever. I've told my direct boss, who is fine and who gets it (tm) because she was a front desk worker not long ago and deals with all the front line bullshit on a regular basis. She's been fighting for me. But management has never responded to any email I've ever sent. They've never corresponded. I've only ever seen the current front office manager twice. In five years. Once was on accident as I was leaving. The other time was when he had just started working here. I had been here for three years at that point. I've outlasted three rounds of management hiring and firing.

From what I can tell, though, this is how it is EVERYWHERE. Every time I talk with other hotel staff, or with other service workers, or hell, even with OFFICE workers, people are being over-extended. This goes well beyond burnout. I mean, I'm burnt out. I know I am. But I'm managing doing this job full time, while writing a PhD dissertation... and now managing gender dysphoria and beginning transition, too. It's all so much. Everything is just happening so fast, it feels like the world is accelerating so fast, and nothing will ever slow down, get easier, or get better.

I don't know of any person my age who has hope things will get better any time soon. Unless we all do something about it, nothing will get done. I tried a union, but the anti-union work is very real around here. Also, I work with max 3 other people a night. I don't see the bulk of the work force, so organizing isn't exactly something I'm primed to do. Not that "organizing" is a thing I'm at all good at anyways.

I just feel so fucking fried, so tired. I know part of it is my disability, but I also just know that this isn't how things are supposed to be, either. Nobody should have to do all the shit we have to deal with. Nobody should be paid pennies for working at a place you could never in a hundred years reasonably afford given our wages. Yet here we are. And the worst part? Management keeps finding new, stupider ways to scam people out of their money, which makes customers madder because they KNOW that they're being scammed--and take it out on the service workers!! As if we're in any position to do anything about the pricing that was decided by the upper levels of everything! As if we don't already know that the hotel is garbage, overpriced, and only this expensive because we're in a tourism town!

I work all the fucking time, to the point where I don't want to do anything on my days off because I need the time to recover. But recovery never comes. Just more anxiety, more worry, more work. And it seems never ending.

It shouldn't be like this. This cannot continue. But it will, until we have a broad and connected working class to push back against the powers that be. I know, I'm isolated, disenfranchised, and disenchanted intentionally, that's how capitalism works. But goddamn, each day feels like we're all squealing into the next on bald tires and broken brakes, but if we stop, we starve.

This cannot continue. It all has to burn, so we can build a better world in the ashes of the old.

[atanx]

i just had a silly little scenario in my head but like imagine instead of nishiki having his little villain arc due to literally no one giving a shit about him and always comparing him to kiryu, nishiki quits being a yakuza (though he prolly wouldnt canonically lol), gets a new stable job and life, and then when kiryu gets outta jail nishiki immediately comes to see him just to give him the biggest, well-needed hug 😔 i may or may not sound delusional but this is the ending i need, i just want a happy ending PLEAAAAAASE

i feel u so hard we need a good ending for our koi boi </3

honestly i feel this could happen in a nishiki gets very horribly drunk, has a mental breakdown at a bar, gets therapy-talked / pep-talked by an equally drunk stranger and wakes up the next morning having resigned by the yakuza by insulting kazama's drip until kazama was too tired to deal with his shit XD

this is a very crack-y promise, but angst can ensue! :D nishiki being confronted with the fact that he has neither money nor qualifications for acquiring a job! maybe working as a host until he's saved up enough to be able to do other shit.

since this would have to be inbetween yuko dying so that he can still lose it and attempting suicide / murdering matsushige, he hasn't gotten revenge on the doctor yet, so that could be a motivating factor in what field he wants to work in.

he'd probably do well at working in the nightlife industry, as a host or manager of a cabaret / host club. keep some underground ties, maybe contribute to this whole honest living thing by helping yakuza get a proper job (i think i read that he did stuff like that at some point on his wiki article but im no longer sure)

oor the popular idea of nishiki going into fashion. which i don't know nearly enough about fashion to comment on any of that but nishiki does have drip (potential) especially if he's not at 2005-box-suit level yet.

ooooor the idea of nishiki working as an independant investigative journalist with the primary goal of making the doctor's life a living hell. somehow he ends up involved in scandal after scandal and people soon fear him for how thoroughly he exposes corrupt businesses / politicians / whatever. his reporting has steadily been getting very good and he delights in the political power his articles and the populace's favour have gotten him. he is also very hard to get rid of because HE WAS IN THE YAKUZA AND HE CAN FIGHT.

i'd also honestly live for nishiki just not knowing what to do and attending university and finding a good friend group and getting the love he fucking deserves.

i'm actually now really into the investigative journalist idea asdfghjkmjnbvcfgt i blame the judge eyes series because this idea of investigative journalism i have has an overlap with detective work and DAMN JUDGEMENT IS SO GOOD.

anyway so because in this world, nishiki isn't plotting to murder kazama, he has a clear conscience and goes to pick up kiryu when he's released and reacclimate him into society. (also nishiki totally knows everything about what's going with yumi and jingu etc and can relay that to kiryu)

yo sorry for rambling so much the plot bunny population in my brain just starts increasing exponentially whenever i get to ramble about stuff <3

[qvid-pro-qvo]

okay but what about sereshace + somebody having to study for some kind of exam + whatever song applies from your shuffle 💜 (pls & thank you)

6. top of my school - katherine lynn-rose. this got long, sorry, but hey, full fic?

And some people know that they're destined to fly I'll go all out Ace every test No doubt Outdo all the rest Don't pout Or settle for second best

Bradley hasn't heard from Jake in a while. And while normally it wouldn't be an issue, there's a nagging feeling in the back of his head that tells him it might be good to check on him.

Of course, he won't admit to anyone that's what he's doing at 10:00 PM on a Friday. As far as most people are concerned, him and Jake are bitter rivals, and Bradley doesn't contradict them. They have been rivals, seated on opposite ends of every class they've shared since the freshman year. While he and Natasha Trace found an alliance in each other (mostly due to their intense love of Red Bull and flight mechanics), he and Jake seemed to only claw at each other's throats, much to Nat's chagrin.

"Boys, you're both pretty," she'd often lament when the inevitable group projects paired them together (never by choice, of course), "and I've got a caffeine headache. Please, please, shut up and pick a variable."

But something changed this year. Maybe it was the level of coursework and the shared realization that any focus on a competition only took away from the fact that their lives were now destined to suck. Maybe it was the group projects, too many nights crashing on each other's couches after arguing about propulsion systems to truly hate each other. Maybe it was Natasha, who despite their constant bickering seemed to like the both of them (and yet would never admit it, even to their faces).

Anyway, Bradley feels the need to check on Jake Seresin. He hasn't gotten a text from him all day (not even one bragging about solving the practice set), and so by 10:00 his worry has built to uncomfortable levels. He texts Natasha, too, to see if she's heard from him, but her response is a quick you're worried, too? and a promise to meet him in the engineering library.

They get there at around 10:30. Backpacks shouldered, food in hand. With a shared look the two of them scale the stairs, moving in sync to the spot that started off at Bradley's and then Nat and Bradley's and then Jake, Nat, and Bradley's.

And of course, as expected, there he is. Jake Seresin. In his spot. In their spot.

Looking... rough.

The grip on his pencil is white knuckled as he mouths out formulas. His punching at the calculator is aggressive, and Bradley winces as he curses and shoves it aside. A few moments later, the two of them watch as he writes down something, erases it furiously, and then shoves the paper aside with... force.

Bradley has an inkling that after class Jake came straight here. Crumpled paper is piled up in the trashcan by their table, and the whiteboards look less than white with the amount of rubbed out dry erase. He recognizes the problem, the one assigned earlier that day. The one they said they'd work on together tomorrow.

"Seresin?" he calls out. No response.

"Jake?" Natasha says, a little louder. Still no answer.

Jake doesn't even look up from the table. His brow is furrowed so intensely that Bradley shares another look with Nat as they listen to the squeak of the Expo marker. Her eyes narrow at him, before walking up and placing the bag of food on the table right over Jake's paper.

"Evening, hotshot," she says, as he's jolted from his concentration. "Food break?"

The sudden movement makes Jake jump, and he looks up with anger at them. "What the fuck, Trace?" he snaps, moving the food off of his paper. "You're gonna get burger grease on my goddamn problem set."

"Our problem set, don't be selfish," Bradley retorts, smirking.

"I got a head start, Bradshaw, all right?" Jake grumbles, and crosses his arms over his chest. "Wanted to look it over. My... head didn't quite wrap around..."

And then he clams up. Mouth slams shut, and he hunkers down. Avoids their gaze. Bradley sees the bags under his eyes, anyway.

"I thought we said we'd get it done tomorrow," Natasha asks him, moving to sit at the table and poking at him. "What happened to teamwork makes the dream work?"

"Yeah, and ignoring the fact that Natasha dreams about us," Bradley jokes, which earns him a sharp kick in the shin, "it seems straightforward, right? If we all put our heads together..."

Immediately Jake seems to deflate, and Bradley realizes just how much his foot has gone in his mouth when Natasha glares at him. "I mean, it's certainly advanced -"

"Whatever," Jake says, shoving back from the table, away from them. His hand tosses his pencil onto it. "Can you guys just leave me alone?"

"We can help," Natasha counters, pushing closer to him. Bradley steps closer to, even as Jake scowls at him. "We can. What part doesn't make sense?"

"Trace -"

"Seresin. Just spill. What don't you understand?"

And then... something cracks. Jake's eyes blink at her, and then Bradley, and he squirms in his seat for a second before biting his lower lip.

"All of it. I don't. I don't get any of it. I... I don't get astrodynamics. It's... it's hard."

It's said with such defeat - like it's the worst thing he could've admitted to them. A shame seems to spread to every part of his body, as he slumps and avoids their gaze, fingers gripping his own sweatshirt with the intensity he held on the pencil.

There's a guilt that lingers in Bradley's gut, as he looks from Jake to Nat to Jake again. How did they not realize how much Jake was struggling? Sure, he always seemed to stay later in class, never seemed satisfied at the end of study sessions, but that was just Jake. Always chasing the goal, always pushing for the top spot. Jake worked and grinded and made it look easy.

And maybe that was the problem - looks can be deceiving.

Finally, Bradley sits down on the other side of Jake. Sighs before nudging the food to him.

"Of course it's hard," he finally tells Jake, whose brow furrows again. "It's a 4000-level course. It's meant to be. It's fucking tough, and Dr. Simpson is an ass. But if you're having trouble, Nat and I can help. You don't have to struggle through it alone. God knows I need all the help I can get... sometimes."

Jake raises a brow at him. "You both hit the top of the curve every time. When have you ever not gotten it by slamming your head into it, Bradshaw?"

Bradley shrugs. "I mean. We both have had struggles. Nat really hated Thermodynamics. Sophomore year was rough."

"And you should've seen how much he pulled out his hair during Solid Mechanics," Natasha says, smirking toward Bradley. "Never shaved because of stress and now we're both stuck with that ridiculous -"

"Hey!" Bradley yelps. Kicks at her, and ends up hitting Jake, who jumps up as Nat chuckles and leans back, satisfied.

But it works. Finally Jake smiles. The tension in his shoulders drops. The furrow between his brows loosens, and Bradley can't help but notice the way that smile lines seem to suit him so much better. "Stuck, huh?" he asks, raising a brow at them. "With both of you?"

"Yup," Nat says, popping the 'p'. "Like glue."

"Both of you are certainly tacky," Jake shoots back, which earns him a pinch from Nat and a snort from Bradley.

"Bad jokes mean you don't get the spicy fries," Natasha tells him, smiling at Bradley as he reaches for Jake's paper, looking over his work. She starts to dig in the bag, passing out the food to all three of them. "Ready to eat?"

"Don't tell me you're staying," Jake says, mouth falling open.

"No more peace and quiet. We're beating astrodynamics into submission," Bradley says firmly. He offers over a fry from his own bag. "Unless you... really want us to go."

And when Jake smiles, it's a full grin. Leans forward and eats the fry straight from Bradley's fingers. "Nope," he says. Popping the 'p'. "You're both stuck with me, too."

"Good," Bradley says. "Now shut up and eat your burger."

[troglobite]

two thoughts

first i currently feel like i'm dying & don't quite understand why or how so i'm naturally panicking about it which is making me feel worse (i'm using mild hyperbole here)

and second i think i really need to be less afraid of trying to kill my players in the miss frizzle campaign.

e.g. under the cut (don't read if you are one of the players in the campaign)

one of the players got swallowed by a beastie last session on sunday

it required 30 damage in one hit and a failed DC 14 CON save from the beastie in order to spit them back out

i had an npc manage to do 29 damage in one hit

and i said to myself "eh that's fine, that's good enough"

i don't remember if i even had the monster roll the CON save or not

all i did was make the character take 15 acid damage while being spat out.

i should've stuck to my guns.

they could've gotten there. they're all level 10. even though there are only 4 of them on this mission/class session.

case in point, our deeply, scarily, freakishly overpowered druid cast a fireball and did 30 damage like literally the very next turn. i didn't need to fudge the damage there. i could've let the player sit in the beastie's mouth for another turn or two, or even another round.

and if i didn't get so overwhelmed while running combat (i SERIOUSLY need an assistant to help with combat) i could also be doing the fun Extra stuff to make things even scarier and more intense.

but--a player did note. "we're probably not gonna die. we're with miss frizzle and nemeia--it's why they're here."

and that is true, and i didn't confirm nor deny it. i haven't said it out loud. but that is absolutely true.

i mean. up to a point.

once again if you are in the campaign stop reading.

but i have

plans

so it'll be interesting to kinda slowly turn things around them

"ah yes miss frizzle keeps you all safe" get them feeling like. Confident in their security, right?

i've currently laid the groundwork for "wow something fucky is going on in the world, i wanna know more"

and miss frizzle is bouncing back now after the attack on the festival and so we're getting into the swing of things and it's more like her normal classes

and i'm gonna get everybody used to that

and then when things start getting...deadlier

well. y'know. that'll be interesting.

but legitimately if anyone wants to help me run combat during these games i would be forever grateful

i can track: conditions/recurring saves and rolls, locations, everyone's movement and reactions, rounds, hp for beasties, etc.

you would track: monsters/combatants, npcs, do their turns and rounds for them, strategy, lair actions and effects, custom rules for critical hits, etc.

bc it's so silly--as a player i was ALWAYS tracking that stuff^^ that i listed as stuff that i can do. idk why. it was second nature.

as a player i'm always like "hey don't forget your ability" or "is that concentration?" or "it hasn't been a full round yet"

as a dm i stg i'm like "wait what happens? fuck thank you for the reminder. oh god what's going on?"

bc i'm panicking trying not to take forever to make npcs and the beasties take their turns and make their moves.

i wish i could hire someone who was good at running those elements of combat bc it's the most difficult part for me--

and it's also the stuff where, when i get overwhelmed, i just fudge things in the players' favor and i really fucking shouldn't bc i need it to feel deadly and like there are consequences!

anyway like i said i feel kinda like i'm dying so my arms hurt in really strange ways so i should stop typing and try to find a way to stay awake i'm. freaking out. lol

[pigeonfancier]

Medical shit:

Generally, I'm used to racism issues popping up with medicine! Welcome to America, etc etc. But - heart condition means that all of my immediate family gets free genetic testing to make sure they also don't have this. My father, sister and mother got tested around the same time.

My test took about a month to get back - sent it in mid-July, doctor signed off his read at the end of August, I got it back sometime during October.

My mother's took one fucking week. My father and sisters' are both still processing - at least, my sister's reads as "processing", I don't have my father's log in to check.

But SURREAL.

Also surreal, my mother:

I waver between being very angry at my parents, sometimes, over all of my medical issues that I'm having to deal with now, and sometimes just not really giving a shit! They had a ton of medical bills when I was a kid - my mother had an aneurysm and a stroke, I had several throat surgeries, the heart issues, and then dyslexic ball of issues on top of that, the economy was bad, it's all very whatever.

But it's very grating that all of my cardiology issues - despite going to a cardiologist repeatedly! - got largely dismissed as my being a huge hypochondriac, or a sign that I had gotten myself too wound up and overexcited, or as a sign I was on a growth spurt.

I was like 4'9" at 13 years old, I was not on a growth spurt, lmao

I figured out by the time I hit 19 or so that the best method of dealing with that was just not to mention health issues, except to my sister.

I still abide by this! My parents get information if it's relevant to them, or if it's going to impact me enough to be noticeable to others. It's whatever. So, they got informed about the heart shit, my mother got tested, her test is already back, and.. she has it! Terrible! Hate that for her! But semi-expected, because I got it from her side of the family, much like every. other. fucking. health problem. I have.

Yesterday, in the course of one two hour long, largely-her-monologuing conversation, I was reminded why I do not talk about medical shit with her, because:

Her: oh, poor [niece's son] probably has this heart problem, too! he was out playing soccer, and he got winded, and everyone said it was fine, but that's really quite alarming, so I told her that she needs to get him checked!

Her: well, just because you have the gene doesn't mean that you have any symptoms or issues from it! It could just be that you're having problems due to your diet. Or maybe your heart problems are just from your pancreatitis?

Her: everyone always said my heart issues were from rheumatic fever, but this would actually make a lot of sense if they were symptoms of this!

Her: And [niece] always had to go and take a long nap after she attended PE class, so I wonder if she has it? And [sister] has always gotten very tired, and very winded after doing things..

Her: well, you get very winded, but that's probably because deconditioning! we don't exercise enough, so if you exercised more, you'd probably stop getting winded after you exercise.

Her: oh, it also said that people shouldn't get stressed if they have this! I guess I'll have to watch my stress levels, haha!

Her: what cardiologist are you using? I'll ask [GP] for a referral to him! or, well.. you have to get a referral, but I can just walk in and get an appointment. So I guess I'll do that! But you need to get a referral. He hasn't sent you a referral yet, right?

I am the only one in this family that has had it confirmed I have this, have symptoms from this, and need to be assessed on the severity of this, but okay, lmao.

At least bluntly ignoring her whenever she tried to bring up "have you considered just trying to eat more meat to cure your pancreatitis? I know you say you can't really break down proteins well, but your brother suggested --" has lessened the diet talk on the whole, but guess it had to sneak back in eventually.

I am glad I'm dealing with this now that I'm older, though, instead of in my early to mid 20's, haha. I used to take her POV a lot more seriously, because she used to work in the medical field. But thank fucking god for ageing, and remembering that she largely views anyone else's health problems through the lense of how much of a bother they would be for her.

[plntymre]

Woah, it's been a while. I don't even know where to start or what to say. I guess I'll start here, right now and in the present because none of my past failures matter.

I've been intermittent fasting for 10 days straight and I can see the difference, I've also been working and trying to be more active for the past 5 days and I'm so excited to see the results. I just know it's going to be amazing. There are certain things, little things that I notice a huge difference in, and it's only been a few days. I'm deciding on whether or not to do weigh-ins, though I haven't gotten on the scale yet to truly see how much of a difference it made I feel like I'll be discouraged if I see that the number hasn't dropped much. I like noticing the little things like being able to see my neck and how certain things fit.

I've given up social media, I'm struggling a bit, especially with finding ways to occupy time and feeling lonely at night. I never really notice how much time has passed while scrolling on TikTok, I swear once I put my phone done the world stops spinning. I also noticed how the people on TikTok filled a quiet void in my life, though I didn't know these people in real life, they felt like my friends helped fill the silence in my room at night. I told myself that there are a million things I could be doing instead of being on my phone but somehow, I always end up scrolling on Pinterest or through my emails. I'm excited to see how this positively impacts my influencer career.

Right now, I have only a few cents to my name, I quit my job irrationally, and because I was going through the wrong thing. The money was good, but the worker and management were just really fucking with my mental. I just wished I saved more money and I out all my checks up for times like this. I've sabotaged myself with a few jobs claiming not to be ready yet or that I couldn't handle it, but the truth is.... I was just being lazy. Now I am in dire need of a job because Christmas is coming up as well as my birthday and I don't have a drop saved. This is my 21st birthday, it has to be big - wrong. My biggest gift and flex for myself isn't going to be my fit or my hair, it's going to be my mindset. I'm leveling up to somewhere a lot of people don't reach until 25+ years old. My hair and my nails will be done but I'm not aiming for a certain look or aesthetic, I'm coming as me.

-L

[cocotaetae13]

Yay you're back! I missed you! I checked in on your blog a few times.

It's so good! Thank you! (And thank you for the dedication! Sorry for the pressure. But it turned out so good!) MIN YOONGI! I love you! (even if the poison hit mc after her marriage proposal. How mean TT) It's cute that she seems to know these bts memes. Is her knowledge of this stuff the same level as the boys'? I'm thinking that she knows through their live streams? Idk. Yoongi's personality here is so good. “Come here.” I was excited near the start here. I could imagine him being stoic and authoritative omg. “You’ve accepted these negative emotions as a part of who you are and that you have to deal with them." King! Part 4 of me trusting the boys and being confused on what's real or not with them lol I got flustered when he said he understands her. Is that true? He's such a mean tease here omg. Him making her beg and her submitting! It's so good and satisfying. Man, I really thought he helped her not overfeed but nope. Ahh Jin next! I am so curious on how they'd interact. Now that mc has learned that they all have ulterior motives. And since he seems to hate her. (Also, I'm kinda hoping for somnophilia with him)

-🖤

I am back!! Thank you so much for waiting for me <3

I am so happy you enjoyed Yoongi's chapter! I HAD to dedicate it to you y'know. Your feedback has been greatly appreciated and motivating for me to continue.

She's definitely in the know about the bts memes. She's been to quite a few live streams herself but of course only they can see her. It's a great way for her to get hate comments to use as ammo against them when they're alone.

Stoic and authoritative is exactly the vibe I was going for, ah! I'm happy you picked up on what I was trying to put down. That quote was the best way I could sum up a conversation he had with someone about overcoming/dealing his depression (and I can't find where I read it/saw it) and how he stopped fucking up his cuticles/fingers.

I am so glad the dynamic hasn't gotten old for you (and other readers) yet because it is something I worry about! I originally planned for each chapter to be read as a standalone from the prologue (and I think I may have put that in the A/N in the prologue) but it kind didn't turn out that way lol.

I'm looking forward to hearing from you with Jin's chapter, it was a doozy for me to write since I felt the least confident about him. I didn't have any somnophilia planned unfortunately, but it is a topic I'd love to explore at a later time. Keep whatever idea you have for that for later, once I finish up all the stories I've got planned or if I need a break from something I'm already writing, I may take requests :)

Thank you so much for writing me and continuing to read my story <3

[bylightofdawn]

Today was... a day. A very long, agonizing day. Started with driving to another town to visit my GP. Talked to him about wanting to try and figure out if I DO have ADD or not and also about a new sleep med since my sleep schedule is fucked.

Because that vertebra in my neck was out and I couldn't pull my head back so it was forcing my head forward in a weird posture this caused all the supporting muscles to start spasming so the pain just escalated from there. But because I was driving I couldn't take any kind of muscle relaxer. So by the time I got to my chiropractor and they put me on the table face down, it shoved my head back into a regular alignment which then caused all those muscles to go into a nuclear meltdown. I don't think the chick who was checking me in quite understood how much pain I was in but by the time she'd gotten to the massager I was fucking CRYING from her pushing my shoulders down with her body weight and it just fucking sucked big donkey balls.

My chiropractor came in and suggested I do combo therapy cause there was no way she was going to adjust me when my muscles were that tight and spasmodic. That's an extra 25 bucks which...sucks but at point I was trying to not bawl like a child in the office and it did definitely help a lot. I have a TENS unit but that ultrasound machine is like a new level. I've seen them online for a couple hundred bucks and if I didn't live alone and had someone who could help me reach my back I might seriously consider buying one but for now I'll make due with my TENS unit.

Thankfully, my chiropractor was able to adjust my neck but fuck me I am still so sore and in so much pain, it's not even funny. I am SO GLAD I requested the entire day off because of my doctor's appointment, I don't think I could have worked even after getting adjusted. Tomorrow is my regular day off and I really need to just suck it up and make up the hours but NGL? I'm still super sore and in a lot of pain so I don't know if that's going to happen. I think I'm going to work half a day and see how I feel then. I could always make up the other 4 hours on Sunday.

I'd prolly fucked up my sleep schedule even further because I came home around 4 and slept for four hours. But I was just so wiped out from the pain and the lack of sleep last night.

I caught this week's episode of Mandalorian however and I need to watch the Bad Batch because people are freaking out over Crosshair on twitter so I think I'm going to do that. I'd like to write a little more but that might be too optimistic on my part.

I deal with chronic pain all the time but holy fuckballs I don't think I've screwed up my neck that badly in years. I couldn't think clearly, couldn't <I>talk</I> because my mind kept blanking on words and I know I was a fucking zombie all day long. Bruh, that fucked me all up.

And I think it kinda concerned my doctor because he wants to see me again in 2 weeks. :/ We did switch my muscle relaxer to zanaflex which I have been on in the past so I guess we'll see how that goes. I haven't picked it up from the pharmacy yet and will try and do that tomorrow.

One good thing that happened was I found out the Game Stop in seguin has the Tobirama funko pop I was wanting and I bought that. Annnnd I might have bought the bad batch set cause it was on clearance as well. I thought about getting the Hashirama but meeeh. I don't like him nearly as much as Tobirama. My three Naruto blorbo were Tobirama, Shisui and Iruka. I might actually perish if Shisui got some love from the US market. There's some REALLY gorgeous and outrageously expensive status out of Japan which I'm not spending my money on. Though NGL I am honestly shocked and disappointed Iruka hasn't gotten his own funko pop yet. Like WTF, I know he's just the most mid ninja ever who is completely overshadowed by everyone else with their stupidly overpowered abilities but STILL. SMH

Okay, time to watch TBB and pass the fuck out time now.

[connorhasaknife]

THEY HIT THE FUCKING PENTAGON THEORY

i deeply, truly apologise for two theories in one night. i was not prepared. i posted the episode 3 evidence overview and i was thinking about how there wasn't really anything for door and i iii was talking with a friend. big fan of world of darkness he certainly knows more than me. showed him the previous theory he had an idea. and he. he came up with this. i helped. it's.. a behemoth of a theory that comes in two main parts. please, please stick with me on this one. all of this is completely, 100% serious, and i 100% believe that my final conclusion on this one will come through and be completely true as POSSIBLY the final conclusion to this story- which really goes to show how SKILLED the ogre poppenang is when it comes to writing and setup, especially when you can somewhat predict the endgame of your story when it hasn't even kicked off yet properly. without further ado; THEORY PART 1A; DOOR IS A US ARMY VETERAN door is very, very patriotic. it's a clear part of his personality, even to comical levels. this is consistent with someone who would fight and die for his country, SPECIFICALLY someone who fought in a recent war. obviously people can be patriotic without being vets, but specific other circumstances around door make it far more likely that this is a result of either trauma or conditioning- even more so with active military service. but that comes in the second part of the theory PLEASE bear with me door is very, very skilled with guns- and even more so with explosives, as seen by the minefield laid out in front of kitten's house. he's clearly taught boy how to use them well, too, considering how boy uses proper safety techniques whilst operating a pistol, as well as how boy is able to hit a moving target whilst hidden in bushes at quite a distance away. he's extremely skilled at getting a message across without much fuss. particularly, he tells kitten that he's getting his old mining equipment- previously, we've assumed that door is talking about actual mining operations. like in the ground, but i'm here to propose that he isn't talking about that. he's talking about bomb defusal- he wears a bomb defusal suit that says us army into a minefield to fight pyotr.

(for the uninformed, EoD refers to explosive ordinance defusal) all of this combined, particularly the last piece of evidence, leads me to believe that door is a us army veteran specialising in the defusal of explosive armaments. him referring to his old mining days is him covertly telling kitten to lure pyotr into the minefield, using the stilts to distract him from looking down. marckus isn't aware of this, because marckus wasn't told. door is a pragmatic man and marckus is also always just absolutely fucking up. this is important i assure you THEORY PART 1B; WHERE DID HE SERVE?

so, we've established that door is a us army vet. where did he serve? it's logical to assume that door served in the most recent war. this would be the iraq war, but this doesn't line up for a few reasons. firstly, the iraq war is going on as the series happens- importantly, it started in mid 2003, meaning door would still be on a tour of duty when the series happens. marckus also mentions that the family has been in england for a period of time, making this more unlikely. door would likely have moved with them for a couple of reasons, specifically the fact that they're all hunters and hunters tend to clump together canonically. this means that door would have had to have gotten out of the army in some capacity by 2002 at least, considering that the series begins in 2005. this means that it is more than likely that door served in the gulf war. this would make sense for other parts of the theory, too- the gulf war took place in the area surrounding jerusalem and ancient mesopotamia, something very very important for the next bits of the theory. explosive armaments were also heavily used during the gulf war period, which would make sense for door specifically. so we've established that door is a us army veteran who served in the gulf war, giving him ties to the american government and areas around jerusalem. this is very, very important, not just for character, but for the next parts of the theory. let me explain THEORY PART 2A; WHAT IS A BLANKBODY? in order to explain the next part of this theory properly, i'm going to need to explain a few things lore wise. the second inquisition is a massive globespanning organisation dedicated to hunting vampires. it started in the united states after the 9/11 attacks, when NSA and CIA agents stumbled across evidence of vampires in their ranks after surveillance in the US stepped up. before this, only the vatican knew of the existence of vampires, but was too weak to do anything to stop them- in the middle ages, however, the catholic church had a society called the uhh society of leopold that fought vampires within the catholic church and in wider society. it was recanonised in 2005.. the same year HTP takes place. the society of leopold and the second inquisition work very, very closely with the second inquisition and FIRSTLIGHT, the second inquisition's branch in the US government. the second inquisition uses very specific terminology to refer to vampires. specifically, they call them blankbodies. who else calls vampires blankbodies? door. who knows the most about vampires in the team? the easy answer is d and kitten, but kitten is guessing. kitten is learning fast, sure, but he's focusing on bloodlines and powers and all that. not the important stuff. door, on the other hand, has the good sense to create a basement able to contain vampires, knows of the inherent dehumanisation being a vampire brings, plants mines in the front yard, teaches his son how to fire a gun, keeps his old minefield gear handy JUST IN CASE.. he doesn't know specifics about vampires. or, rather, he's not repeating stuff he knows in case it isn't true. we the audience know that pyotr was telling the truth, but door doesn't. none of that matters, though- what matters is that door doesn't find the vampire threat fascinating, or cool, or interesting. he takes it seriously. door fought in the gulf war, and it's implied he lost a lot of people to it in the first episode. the interesting bit, though, is that he doesn't seem to blame the war for it- he blames VAMPIRES. it's possible that door actually lost his team to vampires whilst operating in the jerusalem region- the ancient homeland of vampires. the nsa also cracked the nosferatu internet in 2004, one year before the events of HTP. that's interesting- even more interesting is that door is in london, the supernatural hotspot of the world, directly after this happens. hmm.

THEORY PART 2B; WHATS YOUR POINT, CONNOR? MY POINT IS.

"The traffic in intelligence does not go only one way: the Entity now incorpo- rates the newly re-canonized Society of St. Leopold, which provides FIRSTLIGHT and others with records from the last Inquisition and important perspective on the “blankbody” threat."

this is a quote from the official hunter sourcebook. the entity and the society of leopold needs veterans with experience with vampires. why? in 2006, wod timeline, london is entirely purged of vampires. entirely. one year after the series happens. what i'm saying here is that door is the VETERAN THEY NEED. door is scouting out london so that the purge can happen flawlessly. door went to jerusalem, saw the resting place of malkav, got his team fucked over, and is now working with the second inquisition and the society of leopold to put them down permanently. i don't know why he's cooperating with a fae and a bastet. i don't know if he knows what the implications of boy being a feral child are. i don't think he knows, and i think it'll go very badly if he ever finds out. the series will end with the purge of london, and i dont think it'll be shot in a positive light. i guarantee it. mark my fucking words. let me know if anyone has anything to add

[lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks]

some towns up north from me have gotten fully flooded out, like up to the roof of double storey houses level of flooding

and that storm is now headed south

my neighbourhood is prone to flash flooding if the storm water drains and creeks get clogged, my parents check the creek and drains in my street every time we get a lot of rain and they'll pull out any garbage they find

the creek was clear a few days ago, but it's still swelling terrifyingly quickly regardless

on a normal day, you could stand in this creek and your head would barely peek over the banks

and this is only the beginning, we still have days worth of heavy rain to go, the worst hasn't even touched us yet

my house is a few steps above ground level so last time we flash flooded it didn't quite reach the doors (everything in the yard including our garage, shed, laundry and outdoor living area was fucked)

but now the garage has been converted into my sister's granny flat, and it's at the end of a driveway that slopes downward, there's a small runoff gap between the concrete and the door that saves her from regular rainfall, but if the yard swells up that runoff will overflow and her house will be flood city

we've sand-banked her doors and she's putting anything valuable up high, and thankfully my parents considered this possibility when building the place so all the power points were installed high on the walls

but considering we haven't even gotten the worst of the storm yet and have days worth of even heavier rain to go, and the creek is already overflowing into the street, I'm not super confident that we'll get out of this without some damage

thankfully I don't think the layout of the land here will allow for the level of flooding they got up north, but it doesn't take much to ruin your furniture

pray for me lads 🙏

[mineonmain]

KINNPORSCHE EP 11 (Spoilers, duh)

gawd I know I'm so late but life happens. It's literally like 12 hours before the next ep drops, but better late than never right? anyways here's my usual recap of highlights from the ep, random shit that stood out to me:

Kinnporsche: ok fine. tooth-rotting sweetness. almost too much for me to watch at times. both of them admitting to each other's families (EEEEEEEE) that they love each other. floating hearts everywhere. So lost in themselves that they seem to have forgotten mafia duties, big brother duties, friend duties, or literally any other duties other than getting their dicks wet. To think we haven't gotten the pool scene OR the 'i'm on your side' scene yet...fear.jpg

Kimchay: Kim you are so close to being on my shit list. I've said it before, but the only reason you're on thin ice but not in the sub-arctic waters is because I love Jeff. The thing is, I'm sure that Kim said that to protect (??) Chay from whatever shenanigans he's up to, but he better start resolving it soon. It's been there as a B plot/C plot since the early episodes, but it hasn't really progressed, and also it hasn't been made clear to the audience why we should care about whatever he's investigating. What impact does it have on our protagonists, other than the fact that it involves the Kittisawat parents? Also, we haven't seen much from Kim's POV so far, we need to see that there's a private side to him that isn't his cold facade, that he cares for Chay and struggled with his decision to let him go. (People who have read the books, this is not an invitation to slide into my DMs and explain, this is me critiquing the show's writing and storytelling technique, i'm not asking anyone to explain the actual plot to me lmao)

VegasPete: Oh boy oh boy oh boy. Vegas' sadistic side was probably born out of him needing a release from the violence his father inflicted upon him, him needing an outlet for all that pain. Understandably, he wanted someone else to feel the pain that he felt. In a way, every time Vegas has tortured someone, it was him calling out to the universe begging to be seen, to be heard, to be understood. He obviously didn't know this himself, how would he. He's suppressed any part of him that involves self-reflection, except the awareness that he's Fucked Up. His entire personality is a combination of Please Dad, Protect Macau, Piss Off Kinn, and Fuck the World Up. What I find so interesting, is the parallel between Porsche and Pete. They are both beacons of light in a world that's perpetually shrouded in darkness, and they are both bright sparks despite the shit they've both been through, making them ideal partners for Kinn/Vegas. They can help them out of the darkness without being idealistic, because they can understand what they other's been through. Vegas wanted to be seen, and Pete saw him, and saw right through him. Vegas tried to break him down the way his father has constantly broken him, but Pete broke through Vegas' walls instead. Vegas realises this, and knowing that in turn sees Pete properly for the first time. Not as Porsche's shadow, not as just another (head) bodyguard for the major family. And after their first real conversation, Vegas is going to go through a paradigm shift - it's already started, in fact. In his mind, Pete is elevating himself from the position of prisoner to someone on an equal level with Vegas mentally, and consequently Vegas is going to want to do things to Pete not because he likes seeing Pete in pain, but because he likes pleasing Pete and Pete himself is going to want it and enjoy it. It's about time Pete starting living for himself. I'm sure I could write a lot more about just their characters, and the symbolism around levels in the different scenes between their characters and how it changed throughout the episode, but I can't quite put it into words. This is enough already.

Things I need in the next ep:

KinnChay interactions A S A P

KinnKim interactions, why are they literally never in the same frame??

Kimhan. Mr. Kimothy. Sir Kimlock Holmes. If you don't explain yourself, both your actions towards baby Chay and also what all investigative spy work you've been up to, or so help me god i'll let Tankhun loose on you

VegasPete is going to follow their natural progression of events, so the next new conflict has to arise - Kim's info on the Kittisawats in connection with Korn??

P.S. I refuse to entertain the idea of ChayMacau. Absolutely not. I haven't read the book so I don't know but the little Macau that we've in the show is like, even more childish than Chay. I don't even want to see them talk to each other. If this makes me salty and petty so be it. I've said before that I'm not the biggest fan of JeffBarcode (as a pairing) but I will not think of any other pairing other than KimChay, and that's on that.

[ofspvrta]

If things had gone according to plan, she wouldn't be here now, she would be resting, eternally, in Elysium with all the ones she left behind. But man, man always has a way of making things worse for themselves. It seemed neverending, there was always conflict and war somewhere. And war... it never changes. The only thing that does is man gets so much better at killing each other and look at where it's gotten them now? If she weren't immortal she should have been dead or one of those ghouls by now and yet...

And yet...

She found herself outside of Diamond City, heard that things have been doing better since the new mayor took over and she thought she'd have a look around. Why not? To be quite honest, she was tired of roaming the country, practically stranded because the world had shut down. Boat travel was still possible, but she needed to find a crew of able-bodied people and word was parts of Europe had it worse. America was her best bet for now. Great. Oddly the staff hadn't been pinging too many locations either, causing her to wonder if the nuclear blasts had any effect on the artifacts. But what matters is she needs a place to stay for a while. Somewhere where the radiation levels were low, she hated the constant feeling of her body warding off the radiation poisoning. Some areas had her constantly exposed as her Isu markings were glowing in reaction.

This woman is the mayor, seems like every new person coming into Diamond City needs to be checked, to make sure they aren't a raider or something. Fair. She's got a fire in her, that's for sure. "I get that, but all I'm saying is there are some things I'm not quite at liberty to say about myself. Just know that I'm not a Raider, I don't belong to any faction or group. I am just a weary traveler looking for a place to hunker down for a while. I'm tired and my feet hurt. There hasn't been much smooth ground for days." She hopes that's enough to get her in. Diamond City has been the best chance she's heard of being able to rest for a while and be relatively safe from being disturbed by too many outsiders. All she wants is just a fucking break. Eternity is relentless and she's been enduring this life for over twenty-five hundred years.

"the truth is often a terrible weapon of aggression." - for piper because why not

some prompt from here , always accepting , @ofspvrta .

aggression is the word and the memory that always appears in the forefront of piper's mind with that word is simply the way her father was lying lifeless in his own pool of blood. to this day she doesn't quite know how he was shot or if he was even shot. she couldn't stomach it. she just turned around , grabbed nat and never once entered that sheriff's office ever again.

THE TRUTH KILLED THAT MAN ... and it has always partially been her fault. but she has to live with that because if she didn't tell him or anyone about the betrayal , the whole entire settlement could have been sadist fodder for the group of raiders. his death merely meant that the rest of the settlement chose to believe a teenager and her ramblings about a traitor. he deserved better than to be a stepping stone in an overall aggressive story. HE WAS A GOOD FATHER.

" aggression is going to be the weapon no matter the cause. if someone wants to be aggressive , looking at them sideways could be the reason they were searching for. ain't nothing going to stop the truth but if you want to keep it out of the aggressor's hands and into a safe space that's why you gotta tell it first , goldie. you or the raiders? " and nothing in that retort statement would ever give away that she mourned her father and the LOSS OF HIS LIFE because of the truth. brown eyes stayed trained on kassandra , one hand raised , flying around with all the emphasis of someone who's absolutely animated and outgoing. THE TRUTH IS THE RIGHT THING.

[sunlightandsuffering]

mikasa lowkey giving up on bodyguard eren and going on a date not taking into account that he’d have to be there. he thinks it might just be one of her ploys and it’s not gonna work on him until he realizes just how serious she might be and gets to see her act more naturally. a lot of the time he thinks she’s under facades but now that he’s gotten a better glimpse of her personality, it’s got him thinking how sweet and thoughtful she is, maybe even a little funny and definitely pretty😳😳sorry i just love pushing the eren starts realizing his feelings for mikasa agenda😁

AWW!! no it's so cute i completely agree!!!

What the fuck is this? Eren is sitting at the booth behind his target, listening to her chatter away about her passion for knife throwing, and he wants to crack skulls. He's got a white knuckled grip on the gun under the table, and he's ready t pull at a moment's notice, any sign that this asshole is taking advantage of his target, even the smallest of things, she's out of here.

But as the guy compliments her, makes her laugh, that pretty high pitched giggle, the sound of genuine enjoyment of his company, he kinda wants to pull his gun right now, for absolutely no reason nd completely sabotage her date. he doesn't know what it is, it's not like he LIKES Mikasa right?

She's just the target, a pain in the ass one, but still, just his target, just the girl he has to take care of until her daddy marries her off and she's no longer his problem.

And yet, he knows, in all his experience guarding pretty young heiresses he's never been quite this angry, not about a fucking date at least. But it seems Mikasa is the only one to provoke this level of emotion in him, it's a theme with her. Whether its because she's escaped yet again and he has to go and haul her ass back from the palace gardens, or chase her through the labyrinth of halls or the underground tunnels, she's always evading him, always keeping him on his toes. Always making him feel something, something he hasn't felt in so long in his cold dead heart.

Or worse, teasing him from her bedroom, knowing he can't leave his post outside her door, she taunts him with music she knows he doesn't like and talks to him endlessly about nothing. All the stuff she's saying to this douche canoe of a date right now is information Eren already knows, intimately.

Who is it that taught her how to throw knives? Who is it that stood behind her and corrected her stance, guided her through it a million times until she was perfect, just as good as him.

He glances back over his booth for a moment, it's gone quiet for too long, only to see them both leaning in, it's clear what's going to happen over the candle light, with a chocolate dessert between them. But Eren won't allow it. He knows it'wrong and it break all his rules and more, but he can't help it as he stands abruptly, thighs bumping at the table in his rush to get up. He's at their table in seconds, just before their lips meet, he's ripping her from the boy's grasp and leaving some cash down for their meal. "Sorry, there's been an emergency, and then he's pulling Mikasa through the restaurant while she whines that she wasn't finished. After, she finds herself with his back pressed against her, between him and the bike, no escape and she's pouting obviously. But Eren has no remorse, especially not when she feels so good tucked in front of him, his little heiress all to himself, he thinks maybe he should think about breaking his rules a little more often. Maybe it's worth it to feel something in his cold dead heart, especially since she's about the first person to actually ever escape him in the first place. Eren has always loved the chase.