#it could've been a lot worse
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hello!! i am alive !!!!
how have y'all been? i've definitely been better lol
so... i can explain. or maybe not. i've never been good at talking about things but i'll do my best
under the cut bc a bunch of things happened and this'll probably be very long:
honestly where do i even start?
it has been a very rough almost month and a half for me, it was as if whatever god or entity out there went "lol wouldn't it be funny if we made this person go through several bad things all within the span of a few weeks" and then did just that
in early august i got a call from my mom that my grandmother had passed away. i had just gotten home from class at the time, but i immediately went out again and took the soonest available flight back to korea for her funeral. losing her hit me pretty hard honestly, she was the one i turned to when things were hard, and was also the only one who was generally supportive of my identity and sexuality. she didn't really get it, but she never made homophobic or transphobic comments, and was always kind and unconditionally loving. chuseok this year will be difficult without her around but at least she is in a better place i hope.
i took two weeks off from school to stay with my family after that. when i got back i was mostly catching up on all the classes i missed so i had very little time to do anything else. the stress coupled with all the physical exertion and everything else lead me to have the worst asthma attack i've experienced as of yet, it could've gotten a lot worse if it weren't for my kind neighbours who rushed to help me when they saw me struggling in the hallway
then in late august i got into a car accident. i was driving home from campus (which is an hour away), it was raining very heavily and i guess i lost control of my car. i am not sure what exactly happened honestly, one moment i was driving peacefully (and at appropriate speed for driving in the rain) and the next moment my car was spinning around and hitting the guardrails before crashing. it sounds cliché but everything was in slow motion and i literally saw my life flash before my eyes. i'm really thankful that the highway was basically empty, so no one else was affected. i somehow came out of the accident with only a concussion, a badly sprained arm and neck and some cuts and bruises. those will surely heal with time but the trauma of it will probably stay for quite a while.
so that's what happened. my mental health has not been great but i've been feeling a bit better lately! so that's good. i've been too physically, mentally and emotionally drained to do anything haha.
i probably won't be able to draw for a while thanks to my injury so you won't be seeing any art from me for at least another month or so,, to people i still owe commissions to, i will have to give you an IOU because again, i can't draw rn but also because i lost basically all the art that i haven't backed up during the crash, which unfortunately includes the commission sketches :( i'm so sorry, i'll redraw them as soon as i'm able to. i really wish procreate had an automatic cloud backup system so at least the sketches i did were saved but we can't always get what we want i guess,,
thank you to everyone who reached out and asked about my wellbeing and i'm really sorry for ignoring your messages and tags. i'll get to them as soon as i can!
tldr; my grandma passed, i had a bad asthma attack and i got into a car accident but i am okay. not really but i'll be okay maybe. lmao.
#this is why we wear seatbelts kids#it could've been a lot worse#life updates with hayden lol#i really need to catch up on cop#i've missed my silly lil prince#and also the new book; dirty little secrets was it?#idk i am out of the loop#oh and blades!! that's out too i heard
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I decided to be very silly and keep rolling on the weapon banner. Got my mistsplitter in the end but 0/10 do not recommend
#it could've been a LOT worse#my second calamity queller came home at like 67 and then i had full fate points so they got my ass#but i was like. okay ONE more ten pull with the genesis crystals ive had sitting around for months#and mistsplitter came home at pull 3#so all's well that ends well. sort of#i still have enough to guarantee baizhu if i want#but if i don't win my 50/50 i might just skip him because im not suuuper set on getting him#genshin impact
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I'm a little bit insane about how in novel canon the whole xiyao ending where Jin Guangyao wants to die with Xichen, who accepts, which then makes jgy change his mind and pushes him away at the last second isn't actually explicit. A lot of adaptations chose to make it so but in the novel this is all VERY up for interpretation.
Here's what actually happens in the text: Lan xichen stabs jgy, jgy moves away from lan xichen, xichen follows him, wwx realizes jgy is about to open the coffin and calls "watch out!" to lan xichen. Jgy unseals nmj, pushes xichen away, nmj kills jgy and they are both dragged into the coffin which is sealed again.
Here's what wei wuxian, our narrator, thinks is happening: Jin Guangyao wanted to lead lan xichen to his death out of revenge for stabbing him. Lan Xichen, unaware, simply followed Jin Guangyao to try and stop him from getting away. Wei wuxian's warning came too late, but Jin Guangyao- for an unknown reason- changed his mind at the last second and pushed lan xichen out of danger before lan xichen had any idea of what was going on.
Here's what most fans as well as the teams behind several adpatations think is happening: Jin Guangyao leads Xichen to nmj's coffin to die with him, Xichen accepts, because of this acceptance, proof xichen still cares for him, Jin Guangyao pushes him out of harm's way. Wei Wuxian just doesn't get that gay people who aren't him or Lan Wangji exist.
Here's what ALSO MIGHT BE HAPPENING: Jin guangyao wants to die in a different way than he is currently dying. Maybe he's afraid of what'll happen to his body after his death like he was scared for his mother's, maybe he wants to confront nmj one last time now that there's nothing more for him to lose, maybe - if he can't take her body with him- he'd at least like his final resting place to be where he buried his mother. Lan Xichen thinks he's trying to get away and follows but Jin Guangyao, who despite everything doesn't want him to die, pushes him away. Xichen doesn't know what happened until it's already happened. What he would've wanted if he had known remains up in the air.
Or, alternatively: Jin Guangyao's reasons are as above, but unbeknowst to Wei Wuxian, Xichen DOES know what jgy is about to do and either misinterprets this as an invitation to all die together, or inidividually decides he, too, is done, and wants to join his sworn brothers in the grave. To Jin Guangyao this has nothing to do with Lan Xichen, and he still doesn't want him to die, so he pushes him away against Lan Xichen's wishes.
Every single one of these interpretations is unhinged and they are all supported by the original text. It's like a choose your own adventure of tragic gay endings.
#mdzs#mdzs meta#meng yao#jin guangyao#lan xichen#nie mingjue#3zun#xiyao#rs: i wish it could've been you#honestly which is worse for xichen. Being denied his wish explicitly or only realizing he wanted it after it'd already been denied for him#OR genuinely not wanting to die but being forced to live with the fact that even after he essentially killed him jgy still saved his life#just another way he's in his debt#like no matter what he's not coming out of here okay#i switch between a bunch of these all the time but actually favor the last 2 because they're very underexplored in my opinion#I like it when 'i never even thought about hurting you' remains true to the bitter end. He never even considered it#also I just... have a lot of feelings about that being his mom's coffin#do you remember that in the novel the coffin was so heavy only sect leaders could bear the weight?#so for the burial a group of sect leaders had to be the pallbearers... the SYMBOLISM GUYS!! THE SYMBOLISM!#jgy dies in infamy but despite everything it's the highest of cultivation society who carry the coffin he's buried in#he's in the same coffin as a great sect leader!! As nmj!! After a whole life fighting an uphill battle finally in death they are equal#it's not justice and it's not fair but it's... something#wwx's interpretation is the one i favour the least. sorry bro you remain an unreliable narrator to me.#it feels rather uncharitable towards jgy which makes sense for wwx's pov but makes it not my favorite#there's an alternative version of that intepretation where jgy THINKS he's doing the coffin trio pact and thinks xichen accepts.#and has the same realization of oh no he still cares I don't want him to die and pushes lxc away#meanwhile lan xichen hasn't actually processed any of this because it all happened in about 0.4 seconds#i like that one slightly more but it's still not my favorite#there's tragedy in the misunderstanding but it's a bit convoluted.
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critical role c3e90: a story told in captions
#it wouldn't be a bells hells mission without at least one chaotic catastrophic incident let's be honest#or even a dnd mission tbh#although it also could've been a LOT worse so#this was around the 3 hour 10 minute mark if anyone's curious#also if anyone has ways to improve the image description please let me know#i did my best but i also have no experience with alt image ids or screen readers#critical role#bells hells#critical role campaign 3#cr spoilers#critical role spoilers#ashton greymoore#taliesin jaffe#fresh cut grass#sam riegel#cr3#c3e90#matthew mercer#matt mercer#dnd#dungeons and dragons
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Portrait of Cadence for @slugfishh for artfight!
#duck.png#not my oc#artfight#team stardust#i had a lot of fun figuring out the ffilger of this one...#it could've been better. but it could've been worse. looks good though...
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Gasleak year aside, I want to thank season 4 for giving us as much trobed content as it did. I mean, we got Jeff and Britta referring to them as boyfriends. We got Conventions of Space and Time. We got Basic Human Anatomy. We got the puppet episode and every post ever about it is just "yeah, Abed had a secret and he said he's in love with Troy". It showed that Britta and Troy didnt work as a couple and broke them up. We got "you were out there and you weren't looking for me?". It was trobeds season
#also I'll fully admit that i think s6 is worse than s4 so i dont even hate it as much#but i get that the episodes are still not that great#tbh i think a lot of the s4 episodes could've been good if they were just developed more and didnt have weird character moments#imo several episodes feel more like early drafts than finished episodes#anyway i doubt anyone needs my full review of s4 lmao#nbc community#troy barnes#abed nadir#trobed#community nbc
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Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?
actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.
my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.
#sci speaks#i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me.#i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men.#i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring.#also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life.#this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed.#lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??”#“why are you together??????????”#i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror.#i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better.#the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified#but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships.#just an observation.#i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but.#of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does.#it makes a difference. it does.#which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body”#im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me.#i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have.#my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here.#sorry this went off on a tangent.#but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues.#i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous.#i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got.#once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that!#couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.
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I find it so ironically funny when hardcore Debbie defenders use the defense that she was just a victimised teenage girl (agreed) and then proceed to slander Fiona and express their hatred for her character and lack of sympathy
as if being an adult magically absolves an individual of the horrifying trauma that precedes them and screws up their mentality and actions
funnily enough these people get mad at others for "expecting Debbie to be an innocent angel and hating on her for acting out as a result of trauma" (also agreed, debbie does deserve more sympathy, she can't be expected to grow up to be a perfect saint when she's been through so much) yet seem to hold Fiona to the same unattainable standards and put her on a pedestal as if she wasnt a child that was forced to intensely grow up while never actually being raised
like lets put this into perspective and remember that fiona grew up surrounded by corrupt morals and insanely screwed up behaviour yet still emerged as messed up, yes, but surprisingly good considering the situation she was in??? she had to navigate basic things such as morals and being a good, responsible person on her own. imagine how difficult it must be to lead a bunch of kids, including yourself, with no previous role model or good example of your own to follow. most of the time, she always tried to do what she thought was best and would have the most desirable outcome
#listen a lot of the time debbie defenders make good points#is debbie my favourite? no but she does deserve more sympathy#im really unserious on here and ive made some dumb meaningless jokes but at the heart of it i have sympathy for debbie#so no its not the debbie defense i have an issue with#its the way these people claim to be#1 understanders of shameless women and their complexity#top defenders#including of the women who have said and done worse than/just as bad as fiona#and then proceed to spew all this vitriolic lack of sympathy regarding fionas character#they always talk about fiona making the choice to be their legal guardian#as if the situation wasnt complex and 1) she felt pushed into an inescapable corner#2) that doesnt change the fact that she'd have strong feelings about her baby sister choosing to have a whole baby???#she claimed legal guardianship over HER siblings she did not foresee any other children being added to the mix#so yes she went about it harshly at times when she made debbie raise franny independently#but its not surprising considering her exhausted life?? her history as a TEENAGE GIRL and CHILD of raising kids???#there are actual mothers who'd be worse about this situation and fiona wasnt trying to be nasty#it was tough love and it could've been shown in better ways#and im not putting all the blame on debbie cause she was so young and vulnerable#but at the end of the day she made a choice and fiona was trying to help her understand the importance of consequences to your choice#and navigating adulthood when you choose to behave like one#of course debbie was often put in situations where she felt like she had to be a grown up and that is not her fault#but its not fionas either. theyre all just trying to survive. and fiona tried her damn hardest to preserve debbies childhood#so how do you think she'll react realistically to the whiplash of debbie purposefully getting pregnant#ultimately theres a lot of complexity and flaws and nuance to these situations and i find it weird when people criticise#others for putting so much blame on debbie#and then do the same to fiona as if shes not a victimised product of her environment too#you can show sympathy to debbie while understanding Fiona too and being critical in a mature#nuanced way#im not being a hater to anyone btw im just sharing some thoughts and letting it out. all im saying is#most of the shameless women deserve sympathy and understanding and its strange to deny fiona of that
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there was an active shooter situation at work today god bless america
#nobody was hurt in fact the dude didn't even actually fire the gun but he did pull a pistol#I didn't see it happen but I heard him screaming obscenities loud enough to hear through the entire store#I followed the guy to try and get a better read on the situation because at the time I didn't know for sure if he had a gun or not#in retrospect this was an incredibly stupid thing to do but nobody was telling anyone shit!#our fitting room lady was freaking out trying to page management and they weren't answering#I wanted to see if I could get people some better information!#I also led a bunch of customers out the front door (the same direction the guy went)#which was another really dumb thing to do that could've gotten a lot of people killed if the situation had been worse#and honestly I can't defend this one. it was the heat of the moment and I guess I wasn't thinking straight#at least I stayed relatively calm and didn't start screaming for everyone to get out like that one associate did#jesus. what a day
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i was gonna make another 'woe is me' post but instead im gonna focus on the positives of the past 12 hours bc while my phone IS malfunctioning I:
Didn't cry about it (very brave)
Troubleshot it myself before deciding to take it to a shop
Found my way to 2 different shops by only using a map
Found my way back to my cousin's house w/o getting lost even once
The tech said it might be ready by tomorrow
I don't need my phone urgently
While I am trying to save money cuz I'm still looking for work and an apartment, I do have enough in my savings that I can afford a few hundred dollars that it's probably going to cost.
#personal#just so yall don't think the only thing i do here is bitch and moan#this situation could've been a lot worse#i am lucky that i have my laptop#ol reliable
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that line eiji says that's like "if I had the chance to help someone within my reach and didn't extend my hand to them I'd regret it for the rest of my life" left a much stronger impression on me than I thought :(
every time I realize I can (and should) help a patient I start panicking and freeze up and then I feel really guilty afterward which isn't anything new but what IS new is that in my mind I see eiji being disappointed in me for not taking action and somehow that worsens the guilt
#khytal.ks#there was an older patient who came in to get a crown done#and they were super. super anxious about it#and they clammed up after saying they weren't sure if they wanted to go through with the appointment#and having been in that exact situation several times I was going to offer them paper and a pen#so they could write down their thoughts#but I fucking froze up#and then I'm pretty sure the doctor made the situation *worse*#(as he does but this is not about him rn)#and I feel awful bc I HAD A SOLUTION THAT COULD'VE HELPED THEM FEEL MORE AT EASE#AND I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING....#there is obviously a lot I'm omitting from this story but essentially I'm not proud that I ended up being a bystander#I just. uahgh.
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it's been 8 years, and i still couldn't be bothered to draw lavi properly
original drawing
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#i also haven't really drawn anything in about 3 years because i killed my wrist#so this could've been a lot worse#sarah draws things#daisya barry#daisya barry appreciation club#just don't look at this too closely#also i packed all my drafing tools so this is completely freehanded
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bruh desmond miles has to actually be your guardian angel, good you're okay but please stay safe
oh my god this has to be the funniest reaction i got but yeah, it Is a christmas miracle i'm unharmed, but it's also karmic justice since it's actually my DAD'S car that got hit he swapped/stole OUR car that was supposed to be the one we were driving this vacation so. lmao
#ask#don't want to make light of a situation where things could've been a lot worse and i or others could've gotten really hurt#and i don't want to stress people out talking too much about what happened esp since things are better now#but hey if it's my Dad suffering esp for his actions that put us at risk the fucker gets what he deserves LMAO
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Optimus is sharing his misery via snark. Which Blitzwing is taking as encouragement to keep going. The lecture includes diagrams of what purple prose in prewar smut actualy means. I imagine Shockwave is using wide band broadcast of the recording as propaganda and psychological attack. Maybe have it blare on every screen and comm for a few hours on loop before Longarm Prime can get it taken down. Because this is clearly being recorded.
Oh Starscream is very much treating this like class discussion. Mentions important acts and positions or at least ones he feels are important for any idiot to know. But the worst is when he winks at Blitzwing over the Autobot's helms and starts listing random items. "Now now lord Starscream zat is too advanced for ze little autobots." Niether Blitzwing nor Starscream know how you would use those items to interface but "ze mech with the chin seems to be having ideas."
The poor Jet twins are so confused, and Sari is just comparing notes like oh your smutty novels sound like earth smutty novels. Down to the same crappy sword and spear metaphors.
Ratchet: Sari you are to young be reading those sorts of novels!"
Sari: What?! I bypassed the parental controls years ago. There's so much worse on the internet than bodice rippers.
Optimus: We are not having this conversation!
Oh no
Oh no Oppy you have merely encouraged the tankjet
sHOCKWAVE NO (Shockwave yes)
Starscream you lovely menace, you're doing this on purpose
oh sentinel :)
Sfgfdd sari honey sari honey sari honey...
Ratty's just done with this shit, has been done with it. He's right, but he's so done with this situation.
UPDATE I HAD NOT EVEN CONSIDERED THE JETTWINS, ohh.
#maccadam#transformers#tfa optimus prime#tfa sari#who is also a menace in her own right#tfa blitzwing#tfa starscream#tfa ratchet#tfa sentinel prime#who's imagination is absolutely taking him places#dude might believe in a lot of the bullscrap that the Autobot Cause™️ puts out but we know. we knowwwwwww.#tfa shockwave#tfa jettwins#suggestive#mildly#sure everyone's coming out of this discussion with their audials burning but objectively it could've been worse#lugnut tries to relax later that night with his Megatron body pillow and Blitzwing's lecture just pops into his helm at the worst time#he ends up yeeting his faux-Lord.
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Got up and my kitchen was flooded how was your morning?
#I had put some towels on strategic places because they had already told me this tends to happen when it rains a lot but sgdhsvfn#the towels are drenched so I guess it could've been even worse 😂
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