#it bugs me that it doesn't mesh well but i still love it

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Reblogging cause you all need to really appreciate the absurdity of Winter Wonderwest

The Carnival changes with the seasons, but every so often they do a special event where they test out new ideas and concepts for bigger attractions. The horses are one of things they tested in the Carnival and they did fairly well so got given to Foxy for the Wild West attraction that would become the Raceway. The event doesn't necessarily have to be based on the wild west but like.

I love the stupidity of it lmao

Snowman Bandits and I dunno Sheriff Reindeer or something??? Fucking, "This town ain't big enough for the both of us..." *Gets snowballed in the face*

So I came up with special events for every season in the Carnival except winter and realised that the event with the horsies doesn't have a season yet. Wild Winter Wonderwest is so fucking absurd though and I kinda love it but also what would that even look like whadda hell

Fucking rodeos in the snow??? Barrel racing to Mariah Carey??? Christmas Cowboys??? Snowman Bandits??? Huh???

[blacklegsanjiii]

Okay okay youve awakend brain worms in me, hear me out:

Sanji escaping the dungeon a few weeks earlier causing him to be in the grandline instead of east blue and meeting none other than ✨Robin✨ maybe sanjis somehow being hunted by germa or smth so theyre both on the run and they make a pact to help each other (which is rocky at first cause they both have hella trust issues) but slowly opening up to each other more and more and being each others only trust person...

Idk!! Im reallt loving all your different sanji situations especially since i see him as a barbie character (he has so many jobs!! Lmao) and ive always loveedd his friendship with Robin since i imagine them both having a bit of a morbid humour

Fuck that's good. That's so fucking good ommmggggg.

17 year old Nico Robin picking up a starved and beaten 8 year old Sanji. Both of them flinching at touch no matter how kind or anything. After a year they're probably close and sharing beds/blankets/stuff like that. Doesn't mean it's not hard or anything. Sanji suffers from nightmares every night and is running on very little sleep most of the time. Robin doesn't know how to comfort him at first because sometimes when he wakes up it's straight into a panic attack.

Robin explains Ohara and the buster call, Sanji explains Germa and his issue with bugs from the mask. Robin pulls this impossibly tiny child to her and holds him as they both cry. This is the first time they really touch each other without flinching and such. If they're running from Cipher Pol or the marines or even Aokiji Robin makes sure to always hold the younger's hand. Makes sure to keep him with her at all times.

They spend a lot of time traveling and reading and Sanji gets better at cooking and feeding them and Robin only gets smarter. Sanji gets a bounty as well, guilty by association and the theft and everything else. He's got to have a name like Robin does but I don't know what.

Eventually they wind up in Alabasta working under Crocodile. Ms. All Sunday and Mr. Prince are excellent workers, highly skilled and still able to do what they love. I imagine Robin also taught Sanji to read the poneglyphs in case she dies. Sanji tells her about the All Blue. They have a pact with each other, if one dies the other will try to fulfill the other's dream. It's a lot of weight on their shoulders. Ohara and Germa, the government, the history they have.

When they ask to join the Strawhat crew Luffy lets them when he finds out Sanji can cook and Robin is an archeologist. They don't mesh well at first. Zoro trusts them on the Captain's word but he picks fight with Sanji because he doesn't use weapons and he and Robin are on edge.

When they run into Aokiji he looks at Sanji and Robin. Aokiji mentions off handedly that Sanji's bounty might be getting updated. They leave and Enies Lobby happens and Robin and Sanji are tense. They just are. It probably falls apart and Sanji says it should have been both of them at once because that way they wouldn't have hurt the crew twice, Robin agrees. Luffy yells at both of them for that, saying that they are apart of his crew and won't let them leave until they're dreams are accomplished.

Skipping ahead to WCI Robin goes with Luffy instead of Nami. Robin is dead set on bringing up what happened in Enies Lobby against Sanji because how dare there be a double standard. Even when she finds out they have Cipher Pol over them again. Then she finds out about the cuffs.

How dare Judge and Big Mom? How fucking dare they. Those are his hands, his greatest treasures and tools. Sanji explains that he wants to save his family and they do, Robin doesn't like it because she saw Sanji fresh out of the dungeon, a skeleton wrapped in paper skin covered in bruises and cuts. Robin will let Judge live but on the escape when Judge is saying that shit?

Robin pulls him close and traps him in her arms and threatens him. Devil Child Nico Robin is not one to be played with, especially when it comes to the only person she really truly trusts. So she makes it very clear that she is letting him live this time but if she sees him again? IF they even happen to be in the same town? He will be killed, it will be painful. Sanji is letting her because this is Robin's turn to be protective.

On the way to Wano they're sitting next to each other and Robin mentions that if she was allowed to she would have killed him then and there for how she found Sanji. Sanji nods and apologizes for the trouble and Robin frowns at him. Something akin to "Remember Enies Lobby?" where Sanji mutters that it still should have been both of them. Robin pulls him close and mutters that this should have been both of them too.

[woodsfae]

B5 s03e07 Exogenesis table of contents • previous episode

I try to pay attention to ships' names because they can give hints to the nature of a character or a thematic element, but today's is pretty oblique. The shuttle Dyson. Is it for Dyson physics? The interactions of quantum elements with physical matter from a quick wikipedia romp. Or is it another dyson that I don't know the reference for? Fun theorizing.

This newly minted Lieutenant seems plot-relevant!

Marcus the Ranger is hanging out on B5, it seems. I wonder if it's one of those times they talk about someone to remind the audience they exist, but they don't show up in the episode.

Yikes! The Dyson people are doing weird alien bugs melding into humans shit. Dr Franklin's probably gonna do more coke-fueled medical work.

Corwin the new Lieutenant is going to get Susan Ivanova's best subtle grilling as to his allegiances. Can't wait. But till then, some Marcus harassing a sleeping vendor by quoting the Scottish play to him.

And then a meeting with another Ranger who gives him the funniest information report imaginable. Not so much sharing information as making sly allusions to what may be. Funny and dramatic. It is interesting seeing Marcus work. He's like a local liaison, coordinator, recruiter, and information gathered all at once. I guess you have to wear a lot of different hats when you're in a small start-up with limited staff and a ever-widening scope.

I love the sheer medical garb and ppe, and also like the new mesh arm and shoulder layer Dr Franklin is modeling. Also like the 3d imager! The alien bug is now wrapped around the dead guy's spinal column and is imaged like criss-crossing threads. I enjoy this medical mystery for Dr Franklin. He could use some enrichment, and if there aren't mass causalities it might be almost relaxing for him.

Looks like Marcus's absent colleague/contact has fallen in with a new crowd. A crowd of people all infected with this new-to-Stephen parasite? What would a parasite's agenda even be? And the vendor who wasn't feeling well is missing as well.

Listen new Lieutenant. Listen to me closely. Susan Ivanova is not hitting on you right now. She is the second in command of Babylon 5. Obviously she wants to informally assess a new Lieutenant under her command!

Funny that Garibaldi was enthused about the idea of hanging with Marcus and inviting him to things, but now that Marcus himself is asking him to do something, he doesn't wanna hang. And I actually laughed at Marcus's clever wordplay. He didn't lie at all, but strongly suggested that Garibaldi cares a lot about the issue and is asking Dr Franklin to help Marcus. He must have studied at the same Aes Sedai school as Delenn!

Shenanigans are afoot at the old vendor's quarters! His shirt is all jacked up and his back is pulsing! I don't like that! Or all the parasite-distributers with guns.

Stephen and Marcus are asking the same questions I am. What are the parasites' motives? What are their aims? What are their actual effects on the humans?

Dr Franklin thinks the parasite takes control of their neural system. I wonder if they are trying to transport themselves somewhere, or survive somehow. Garibaldi's point about why they would be targeting people from Down Below is a good one.

Marcus is sassy! I like him. He's very roguish. He and Dr Franklin will be fine. I hope they enjoy their field trip together!

I hope Susan is fucking with this guy right now. Just tormenting him over the roses because he panicked and lied and said he found them lying on her doorstep.

An unsettling conversation with the person who says he "was once Duncan, but is now Vindrizi." And he says they are just trying to survive. dun dun! This still has the potential to be a mostly enriching field trip for Dr Franklin. And it's a great further introduction to Marcus. I like him tremendously.

Susan's testing the insubordinate waters is kinda sorta subtle. But she does get the necessary information. He would report another officer whom he say speaking or acting against Earthdome. They will have to work around him!

Oooooh, gossiping about Susan Ivanova! Franklin likes her. Marcus is concerned that she seems more distant now than when he first came on board.

Marcus: "I sense in her a key as yet unturned." Dr Franklin: "What does that mean?" Marcus: "I don't know, but I think it will be fascinating to find out."

dude is just saying allegorical things and then admitting he doesn't even know why he thinks that. Lol. But somehow it's charming?? What a little smartass (affectionate). Dr Franklin thinks so, too. And I love that they're failing the reverse bechdel test (I jest, I jest).

Stephen is right that Marcus is not Ivanova's type. We all her know her type is blond and telepathic with a tortured backstory.

This has been a very fun plot. Stephen has two patients in one, and Marcus just took out two guards in one plot! And got Stephen's Link and triggered a security protocol! Finally, some backup is on the way. There's just enough time for Marcus and Stephen to discover the aliens' tragic backstory and suddenly be required to negotiate for their safe passage to the recently-arrived security team. But they do have wrap up their little prison break first!

Aha! Information sharing! The person who was once Duncan says that all the humans there volunteered, and that they will all have a better life this way.

Aww, and they have a hell of a backstory! Less tragic, and more epic. Living histories. Less parasites, and more a holy order of record-keepers.

This is a wonderful little story. Very epic. Another of those cool details of worldbuilding. Also it's fucking hilarious how Stephen Franklin is like "I will only allow this if I get to medically oversee it every step of the way."

Oh, and here does come the tragedy. Duncan's…symbiote? left him so Duncan could convince Marcus and Stephen they were telling the truth, but the separation caused damage and he wouldn't be able to rejoin without permanent damage. But at least he feels inspired to go really live and see some amazing things with the rest of his life. And I think he's wise to say that we should all wake up and decide to be special.

Lol, Susan wasn't fucking with the Lieutenant Corwin about the roses. Inadvertently, that guy has played a hell of a prank on both her and Marcus! Hah!

Ivanova, throwing the roses on the bar: "Keep em!" Marcus, beaming and picking them up: "Thanks! I will!"

Really laughed hard at that one.

Alright, I'm starting to see where some of you acquired your crushes on Marcus! He's cute and charming! And very nonthreatening. I wouldn't mind being buds with him. He seems genuinely really an entertaining person to hang out with.

This was overall an interesting and fun episode. I enjoyed theorizing about it. I can't discern a connection between the name of the shuttle the symbiote record keepers arrived in and any plot. If you have thoughts on that let me know! It also isn't often you see symbiotic relationships with bug-like critters. I know now that DS9 was accused of lifting a lot of details from the original B5 pitch, but I wonder if this isn't a nod back the other way, especially since Trill symbiotes were introduced in TNG, which predated the B5 pitch if I'm not mistaken.

next episode

[fvriva]

🐖 thrandy thrandles throckmorton

thrandington below the cut, my dear

send an oc + an emoji (or order the WHOLE HOG)

✨- How did you come up with the OC’s name?

Technically this was Tony's doing I believe. He named Elthrandor Sessamine with the logic of "a name that fits his elven naming scheme", in a world where Ellie was raised by U'tlunt'a. If I recall correctly as well, this was where Thrandy came from in the first place!

🌼 - How old are they? (Or approximate age range)

Thrandy is the same age as Ellie, though minutes younger. She will tend to remain aloof about it and go "almost 14".

🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)?

In the campaign they got jokingly paired up with Log, a fankid of the two Animus Vitrum leads. Log's hardass personality simply meshed well with their prim and haughty tendencies.

In Exordium, their royal standing isn't as secure, so their personality isn't as pompous. Regardless they're set up currently to be dating Ida in the future, potentially.

🍕 - What is their favorite food?

Like Ellie, she needs to eat copius amounts of sugar because of her elf heritage. But she prefers spicy foods, especially savory types. She really likes her mom's shakshouka with some sweeter peppers and honey in the sauce.

💼 - What do they do for a living?

He's currently the crown prince of the kingdom of Musaphia, though it's kind of an honorary title because the place is in tatters on top of their present plight. So right now he's basically a wanderer. Isn't making much of a living.

🎹 - Do they have any hobbies?

She likes listening to music, podcasts, and collecting laemellograms. She isn't as cerebral as her siblings, but she still has a healthy appreciation for learning. She also enjoys keeping fit and practicing various fighting techniques. In Prophecy she also liked working on cars (specifically a fancy Night Court type of vehicle that was shaped like a bronze bug) and listening to jazz (covers of 90s music).

🎯 -What do they do best?

Of the triplets, she's the best at combat. She's been trained by the royal guards and by her mom, from whom she inherited a magical technique that lets her grow her fingers into long claws.

🥊 -What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?

Thrandy loves physical activities and adventure, stories and games, and seeking out all kinds of excitement. She gets bored really super easily and doesn't deal with it well. She does secretly like holding court, but only if there's going to be drama for this reason.

❤️ - What is one of your OC’s best memories?

It was after a particularly rough training session with his mom. U'tlunt'a patched him up but then took him out to the market as a special treat, as she very rarely leaves the palace grounds with her station. There was a big to-do and the endorphins were definitely helping.

✂️ - What is one of your OC’s worst memories?

Watching his mom sacrifice her life for him by trapping herself in a soul jar with a war machine. Then later watching Ida get herself cursed and being unable to help her.

🧊 - Is their current design the first one?

Nope! Their design has been a little all over the place. Their Exordium design has been a little but more stable but could also change in the future as I decide more of the world's aesthetic.

🍀 - What originally inspired the OC?

Originally, a silly roleswap au between Ellie and their girlfriend Nymra where Ellie was the suave royal-in-distress and Nymra was a goofy chuuni hero. Ellie in this au was an elf named Elthrandor, and the dm and I were in talks to try and canonically retcon them into being a half-fey changeling because we liked the idea so much. He surprised me with Elthrandor during the campaign.

Lately, it's been a lot of Olivier from Hello from the Hallowoods as well as Coco from Little Witch Atelier.

🌂 - What genre do they belong in?

I think high fantasy, but with a little more courtly intrigue such that the little extending claws are a more perfect spy type utility! Unfortunately this is an apocalypse story. Alas. They get to do this better in Skylands.

💚 - What is your OC’s gender identity and sexuality?

Thrandy is bi and genderfluid and uses she/he/they.

🙌 - How many sibling does your OC have?

He has two siblings but he doesn't know them, so he's very only-child about everything.

🍎 - What is the OC’s relationship w/their parents like?

She's very very close with her mom, Archmage U'tlunt'a Spearfinger. Her bio dad, Daeyim, is out of the picture due to Circumstances, but she's very resentful of him being absent.

🧠 - What do you like most about the OC?

I'm still feeling him out, which is the fun part. When I'm adapting an npc that exists for a specific goody niche for a serious character arc, the fun lies in finding where I can really make these characters squirm and suffer the most. I also like how much he works as a foil for his siblings, being an opposite in a lot of ways but a parallel in others.

✏️ - How often do you draw/write about the OC?

A bit less than the other two triplets but she does have the most written fic currently in Exordium.

💎 - Do you ever see yourself killing off the OC?

Not really. I just don't think I'd get much mileage from it currently.

💀 - Does your OC have any phobias?

They're a little squeamish when it comes to things like heights. And the dark, which is not great for the eternal night world.

🍩 - Who is your OC’s arch-nemesis or rival?

They butt heads with Lilibeth a lot but everyone does because she's got a difficult personality. They also are definitely going to be fighting both Ida's brother Goliath and Lili's mom, V'rylla.

🎓 - How long have you had the OC?

The au was created in late 2020. I don't remember exactly when they debuted in game but it wasn't too long after. This makes it about 3.5 years.

🍥 - What age were you when you created the OC?

I would've been 20!

[danganronpasurvivoraskblog]

About the new format

//So this will be how I will be extending my posts in the future.

//It's incredibly messy, and no doubt you guys hate it, but I just want you to know I hate it too, and would rather not do it. But while I care about your feelings, Tumblr doesn't, and this is the best I can do going forward to stop the web designers from limiting my creative freedom with these posts.

//And you know what I mentioned before about how there might be spies or bots in my followers who are seeing these posts and making changes to every format I do to stop me? I still don't fully believe that because such a notion is ridiculous, but in case it IS true, and they are reading this, I want to point something out.

//Every time I find a new way to bypass the image limit, it gets patched. The Tampermonkey app stopped working, and nothing I do fixes it, then randomly my reblog bug got patched out of nowhere and I couldn't use that anymore.

//If you do anything to stop this style from working, i.e. preventing reposts from passing a 30 image limit, then I hope you know you are doing two things...

//One: You are trying to destroy my blog.

//and Two: You are trying to destroy this entire website as people know and love it.

//These are technically separate posts all meshed together, each with their own rules and own limits. If you remove that or change that, you are nullifying the entire premise of reposts, which involve spreading posts, as well as allowing users to tag on their own images and memes to make threads.

//That's what this is. A thread.

//You would be getting rid of a primary function of this website if you tried to stop this.

//So consider the fact that I have done NOTHING wrong, and used no hacks or apps or anything of the sort with this new method. I am using Tumblr the way it is MEANT to be used, so if this gets changed, it will be definitive proof for me at least that Tumblr are trying to destroy it's user base, or this style of blog.

//I don't see that happening, and I really hope it doesn't, but still, just keep that in mind.

-Mod

[stelera]

I'm curious if anyone's asked this question, but what made you ship them?

I know cross shipping is a thing, but what made you ship them.

Once upon a time in 2009, in the darkness of the wings backstage of a school play, two highschool best friends wrote a very silly crack fic together in a spiral notebook.

No but for real back in highschool I met my best friend when we were both extras in a school musical (and we are still best friends now 14 years later). We were both part of the weeb crowd and while we had seen each other around the same social group we hadn't really talked or interacted much. We knew we both liked anime though, and turned out we both liked RP too, so we got a spiral notebook and started to RP together at rehearsals when we had downtime (and as chorus members there was lots of down time). The problem with this was that we didn't actually watch the same anime. I was rabidly into Naruto Shippuden and my bestie was very into Inuyasha.

I will admit I tried to watch Inuyasha to the best of my abilities at the time, but I didn't have a TV in my bedroom so I had to try and sneak out into the family room and turn the volume down super low and watch it on Toonami at 4am (wretched time), but I only managed to catch a few episodes this way before I gave up.

To solve this conundrum, we just... RPed with our favorite characters from our favorite animes and called it a crossover! My bestie figured out most of the initial time travel stuff and we just had a really fun time with it! Honestly it was a tough call between Inuyasha and Koga for my bestie's favorite character so our ship was almost Koga/Deidara but it's good it turned out the way it did.

Later in college after writing two sequels to the original fic, we re-wrote the original, but we really didn't have the skills to do it justice. I re-read that re-write back in maybe late 2021 early 2022 and just got bitten real hard by the nostalgia bug and started re-writing it. I've also revisited all of the source material (re-watched Shippuden and finally got around to watching Inuyasha twice now!) and really fleshed out a lot of the lore that was left bare-bones at best in our first couple passes. In doing so though, I really only made myself love the ship more.

I know it's just this obscure little crossover with strange and humble beginnings but honestly? To me at least... they're kind of accidentally great for each other. To Inuyasha, Deidara is someone who can keep up with him physically, who he doesn't have to worry about (usually) in a fight, who rolls with his temper and his banter without taking it too personally, who can be genuine with him and doesn't play mind-games with him, who doesn't see him as in any way lesser and doesn't treat his demonic heritage as an obstacle, who even admires him all the more for who he is without the desire to change him. To Deidara, Inuyasha is someone who makes him want to be better, who doesn't judge him for the darkness of his own past, who even shares in some of that darkness without letting it define him, who can roll with his off-color sense of humor while still being serious when necessary, who can care for him deeply and openly without strings attached, who can be someone he can heal with, who gives him the affection he's been starving for his whole life.

There are just... so many ways they mesh together well, if I sat here and kept waxing poetic about them, I'd have to open a candle barn.

idk if there's even a way to TL;DR this... they're good FeralXFeral energy. Rough, rowdy bros who fight hard, banter sharp, and love fierce, and whose jagged edges fit together surprisingly well.

[fallingsatellive]

If you have multiple kintypes: how are you handling it? Do your kintypes "mesh" well together, or are you struggling with having multiple identities?

When you realized you weren't human: did something trigger the realization, or did it happen organically?

I used to feel like I made no sense, looking all the folks who were like "I'm a wolf and a stag!" or "I'm a crow, a panther and a void being!" and thinking that everyone seemed to have some sort of vibe going except me. But just besides the fact that kintypes are just what you are and don't need to "mesh," I think having a completely disparate and nonsensical self-image is what my vibe is. Always been really consistent in my inconsistency. Being a giant ancient apex predator and a tiny scurrying thing at the same time doesn't require any kind of extra cogitation for me, it's all the same ecosystem even after all this time. There's no reason carnivorous inclinations and prey anxiety can't exist in the same brain... I mean, most animals are not at the extreme highest or lowest rungs on the trophic ladder -- even a mosasaur has dangers to be wary of. (Namely... bigger mosasaurs. But still.) Even an herbivorous bug has lifeforms it preys upon. And a lot of my 'types kind of complement each other to me... being Link and being an osprey, I can't explain it, but they're the same thing, and same for being a ghost and an AI or a ghost and a raven (but... not a raven and an AI? Idk). The only time I've struggled lately was when people were drawing all their theriotypes in one image and I had to admit the slater couldn't be visible if I still wanted to fit the big stupid ocean lizard.

Thing is, even though my Awakening was in 2016, I didn't realize I wasn't human until about a year ago. I've been an animal-human for a while, but something changed within me, either to become or to gain clarity, and the -human part got cut out. Just animal. Idk. Nothing triggered it. I just cascaded down a series of realizations and acceptances. It was kind of almost exactly the same thing as realizing I'm a man when I had been trying to be nonbinary for so long. Just thinking about what I actually want and like and what I really don't want or like, and now that I know the truth, dysphoria is going to hurt so much more, but being genuine with myself is worth it. No more half-assed halfways to get out of being painfully honest. "Oh yeah I actually am partially a woman so being forced into a feminine box doesn't feel cramped at all! 🥲" = "Oh yeah I'm actually totally BOTH human and animal so I LOVE being forced in a human box!"

[improvingtrainwreck]

Ig. All these posts w images I blog or reblog... they're manifestations of what I wish my own life to be and experiences I am deeply hoping and looking forward to expereincing.

They have to come true. They, have to.✨



🪄believe in life's magic, good karma from putting beautiful energy out into the universe, God's blessings, and the universe's will to manifest your wildest dreams n dream life. I love you universe, even though it's been mostly hard lately(lately as in the past couple or just the past years of my life- mostly). Even then I'm still holding my head up, believing, knowing it's going to get way better than I ever even wished for, or dared to dream...

Just as those ''The Alchemist" posts said

 “When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it.”(Coelho, 2014, pg.24)

Speaking of which I fell in love with the before ever having read it. I wasn't really a bug reader but I'm trying to get into it... Y'all but when I tell you luckily enough for me, the most random opportunity presented itself and I was able to borrow it from a sweet soul. I finally got my hands on a copy and when I tell you I'm about halfway through and the book's made me so emotional quite a bit of times already... ugh beautifull. Anyway it's been a lil bit I really needa finish it, I wanna finish it soon. Also I'm kinda on a sm break rn so it's gonna be interesting and growth inspiring seeing what I do w that time

And OHMYGORF

I ALMOST FORGOT. I wrote the most beautiful, moving poem the other day. Somedays I literally forget that I'm a poet. Like i often forget it's a big part of what makes me me. Like I am actually a full blown, poetic soft deep loving romantic soul having, poet. Just like these pros I'll see/ hear about on social media. That'ss why I can start writing abt literally the most mundane thing and it turns into a beautifully written, "🥹" ,long paragraph or twoo. Like I literally can't help itt. I don't necessarily like the process of actually writing/typing this long but it just happens. most. or. every. time. Then the reality really hit. I am. A poet. Isn't that interesting. It's crazy to think that for the rest of the point though that isn't exactly a selling point or somethin they'd love or cherish in a partner or peer. Really interesting to think abt, in fact for those who haven't exactly met themselves or the world that deeply yet, they'd probably just pull a u turn in fact. N ig while it's a little sad it's just kinda like repellant for souls that wouldn't exactly mesh well with mine sooo, blessing in a disguise? I feel like not many things feel better than meeting persons you truly connect with🥹.

Yeah and I know it sounds weird, like "how do you forget you're a poet?" ik ik, but it happens. Not that I have to explain delicate matters like this, oof the heart aka my art, w anyone but just on like a homie, transparent level... I think it's because after seeing the grand works of these truly talented, especially published poets out there and ig after subconsciously comparing my works and achievements or lack thereof (in the field) to them... it just doesn't feel the same ig? Sometimes when you're new to something, a field, career, area of study- whatever, it can feel and be really intimidating seeing all the well established persons and veterans in the are and not feel anywhere near them. Even if your talent is but you're just not as sugared or decorated yet. And I feel like it's also bc I've felt I've had to turn down the poet inside me for the day by day, either to not come off as weird or bc my deep feelings and writing or speaking lingo would standout way too much and tbh anything slightly different and we know how mean ppl can get. Anywho I'm getting over that now bc it's so evident how "trying to fit in or be 'normal' kills character", it's just been saddeningly hard trying to get back in touch with me. The me that was before society made feel weird for being me and learned all the way to fit in perfectly and be socially acceptable. Ngl, I've been on this 'getting back to me' path for a while now and it's crazy how you'll think all the work to undo the damage that was done, is done but then it's not and you'll always discover another way or area you missed. Like it's soo hard to uncap my personality and the entirety of my soul once it's been capped, esp for so long- so I can be at my fullest basking in self-love and existing entirely, soul without unclipped wings and radiating the most beautiful aura (that'll attract all the healthy beautiful souls aligned w me that'll bring love, great thing and reciprocated energy into my life🥹,) shining in all her glory as she should, and always deserved to be. Fully me unapologetically like I never had the chance to be before. I want that so muchh, I will not stop just lovingly working on it. I know it'll happen someday soon and it'll be the most wonderful. I already felt a glimmer of that sun peeking through a cloud the other day and it is divine, I can sense the perfect confidence🥰...

Ykw too, I swr every time I start writing these post I truly neverr expect them to be this long but then I start writing and my brain brings up more and more and I jus have to type it and so I end up with these reallly long journal type entries, with it's content deeper than expected fr. *satisfying sigh, turns head to the right, looks into space* I wouldn't change it for anything though...

Also as one of my signature touches to these posts... one of the really cool parts about it being online... here's the very recent masterpiece from 2 of my favs

What was I made for by Billie Eilish. Her writing along with Finneas' and his production🥹😭😭💗

I love that duo. I also find Jeremy Zucker's beautiful, lovee me some Ed Sheeran. Can't remember who else in this category for now, but trust me y'all. Every time Billie and Finneas make music I love it, feel something and relate to it somehow, they're like angels at this, I am truly in love with their work and their artistry.

My forearm is lowkey burning from all this typing chile oml, honestly pretty normal is the crazy part

Mémoire. Nora Attal photographed by Brydie Mack for Faithfull the Brand Summer 2020.

[luvwich]

a ficlet and a mixtape

well i wasn't planning on doing @silverv-week but i cought da bug and even made a whole dang playlist—

i will be posting silverv stuff on ao3 here!

august 4: dreams

"How about dreams, then?"

How'boutem, peaches?

Trailing a bit too far behind V like a disloyal hound, Johnny scuffs his boots on the pavement. Each drag of his heel whispers through her own feet in faint reduplication. She has grown to tolerate these constant echoes much as one gets used to the drafts of an old apartment building.

But she has not gotten used to how damned shifty he is. Getting a straight answer out of him feels like threading an eel through an eyelet half the time. For two people sharing a head, the gulf between them could hardly be wider. She sighs.

"When I'm asleep," she says, "where are you, precisely?"

Same damned place I always am. He turns his head to hock a volley of digital phlegm onto the sidewalk. You think I'm off lounging on a beach in Bali when you're down for the count?

"Christ, Johnny, what'd that pavement ever do to you? Anyway, I thought perhaps you'd experience my REM activity the same as I do." She shrugs. "It's no matter to me if you don't want to talk about it."

Eh. Yeah. Can get sorta a glimpse of what's going on in that little noggin of yours. Tell you what, it's nothin' worth tuning into most of the time. His stride shifts up a gear to catch up with her. It doesn't make sense that he has to do this, but he's overcome by the sensation of falling behind.

"Hm," she says.

She pauses to lean against the trunk of a street lamp, and he's just about to start giving her grief about wasting time, but she lights a cig and the gratitude stills his tongue. Together, they buzz.

This part of Westbrook is barely recognizable. Used to be a filthy bastion for artists, real bohemians, visionaries. Now it's all souvenir stands and false nostalgia. Johnny's disgust filters through the fine mesh of V's psyche and gets pulverized into curiosity. She grips the cigarette like it's a dart, casting her gaze down the bustling avenue.

"I wonder," she says, "what this street looked like when you were alive."

Looked like shit. But it didn't have your dumb ass standing on it, so in that sense, it was better.

She's smiling. Johnny knows she's smiling because he can feel it like a superstition. It is like when you look up at a clock and realize you knew exactly what time it was, somehow, before you looked. That's all she ever does when he needles her, when he scrapes and scuffs, when he's snide and unpleasant and himself. A dulcet little smile, untroubled, serene. He's even felt her do it while she's dreaming.

"Right, then." Smoke blooms from her nostrils. "If you're done being awful to me, we need to make ourselves some money."

They rejoin the crowds, stepping away from the question of dreams. And if he were the engram of someone more brave and resolute than Johnny Silverhand, he might be able to give her the real answer. If a better man were locked up in her mind, that man might find it in himself to admit, yeah, Vania, I see your dreams like I see everything else. I've seen the little flat where you grew up and heard the bells of the church down the road. Felt how much your mother loves you. Shit, that was nice.

He might add: And when things are really fuckin' bad, it's what I cling to. When we're in a dicey situation I find myself thinking, damn, sure hope I get to lay down in her bed again tonight, let those dreams wash over me.

Your mind's like a garden, V, he might tell her. It's all walled-up and overgrown and there's some weeds in there but it's like nothing I've known about being a person. Never knew it was possible to not be haunted. To just dream of things like trees, and perfume, and architecture. And your dreams are a chest of rubies and I wanna tuck myself away in there and never leave, sometimes, you bitch.

But he's indispensably himself, and won't say it.

Now he has fallen behind again. Feels her swishing ahead of him even though they're in the same body, barreling into the future with a hum in her throat. There's still a whole lot of eddies between them and Hellman; sleep is so far away for them both. Johnny rushes to catch up.

[risu5waffles]

Wintering DisconTENt

One of these finally fell on a day off. i mean, that has happened in the past too; i just haven't always seized the opportunity? i am so tired.

One of the biggest disappointments if the servers stay shuttered is that i never archived chronos' Demo series. i've got an old review of Demo (LittleBite-sizedPlanet 07/21/19 episode 144b), and we've played the three levels comprising it on stream many, many times; but i don't have dedicated LBsA episodes for them. This eats at me more than i care to admit, and i care to admit probably more than i generally ought.

As for D???, it's a very solid look at what Demo would have looked like if all of chronos' plans had come to fruition. We see a number of enemy types that come up later, and the bullet spreads, as well, will be repurposed. i really liked the way this one hits some of the main platforming gameplay biomes of Chapter Zero; it's a really neat look, and lets us see a bit more of them than we otherwise might have. i do note that we don't see Episode 0.2. Maybe chronos felt as wibbly about that one's look as i did.

And wrapping up Chapter Zero we have some cut content. It was really neat getting hands-on look into chronos' thought process wiv these. They're both pretty neat, but i can see why they eventually got scrapped. Episode 0.1(5) is just so very busy, and winds up being a lot more aggravating than fun, and while the gameplay in 0.3 is solid, it's got a poppiness to it that doesn't mesh all that well wiv the tone of the other parts of the Adventure.

i will point out, once again, that chronos has a lot of behind the scenes footage up on his YouTube

and they really make for a fascinating look into the brainmeats of an amazing creator. Am i selling chronos a little hard? i dunno. Maybe? i'll stand by every word tho'.

Ahhh LBP2, when everyone had a whole-ass passel of OCs, and couldn't wait to show them off to everyone. So... i guess tumblr wiv platforming? That probably reads snarky, and i really don't intend it to; i love seeing folx's characters, and being able to interact wiv them in the limited way that LBP provided was always a hoot.

i knew picked-punk from around this time, tho' we've long since been out of touch. My vague memories were of his being a pretty decent chap, and that i had a good time interacting wiv him. Wonder what he's up to these days. Hopefully nice things.

Awesome Gingers' Cardboard Garden (that misplaced apostrophe honestly bugs the heck out of me, but it's in the original, so i have to assume it was intended) is a fun, and pretty expansive metaplatformer(?). Maybe not meta, exactly, but directly referencing that there are Creator Curators (us) who are making all these community levels. i really liked when levels could play wiv that membrane, and still manage to pull off being enjoyable from a mechanical "i am a player interacting wiv this through gameplay mechanics" sense. i've played a lot that were just up their nose in the pretense, and kinda forgot someone would be experiencing this.

i really, really enjoyed this one; even if sometimes it could be a little difficult to track just where it wanted me to go next. Continuing wiv the conceit that this is Ginger's creation means that the level doesn't need to be completely tethered to making a cohesive environment, so you wind up wiv "realistic" setpieces strung together wiv more abstracted pure platforming bit, and that's always been a style i've enjoyed.

Fun fact, but the Yellow Sign sticker you can just see in the upper-right of the title card here? i made that. pickled-punk and i had done a sticker trade, and i used one of his stickers (now sadly lost) for a trigger in my Bloomin' Oni-ons level. i still wonder what that was supposed to get you. Probably a bunch of scorebubbles.

i am so glad i went back and grabbed this one. We'd played it on stream, and i had such a blast wiv it. Straight-forward, and not super-challenging, but extremely high on the charm scale, and all around a smooth, fun experience. Cookietovar put together some extremely solid platforming-for-platforming's-sake-but-still-enjoyable-to-look-at platformers, and i really should have given them more archive space. At least we got Roasting Oranges 2; that one was also a delight.

All three of these use a Mr Beaver Says No sticker switch, and for the life of me i could not figure out where the hell the trigger was. i'll tell you it bugged the living hell out of me, tho'. If i had to guess, and that's really all i can do, it probably triggered some form of fast travel, maybe a tetherless jetpack, to let Qugz get to the different setpieces quickly in Play Mode and making sure they were running properly. Wiv levels as expansive as these, getting to a specific point in them would be a lot; and wiv resetting logic being as fiddly as it was, Create Mode testing could be a real chore.

All the Maxed out levels are chock-a-block wiv neat ideas and mechanical bits, and really push the envelope on what we could get done in LBP1. Wiv the downside being they are fragile as all get out, and there was a lot of b-roll footage left on the cutting room floor of "ope, this bit is irreparably broken from some unexpected physics interaction, guess i'll have to play the whole damned thing over." i know we give the changes in engine and physics moving into LBP3 a lot of shite (some of it deservedly, but let's face it, the move from LBP1 to 2 didn't do a tonne of favours to some of the old levels either), but levels like these are a good reminder that things could just as easily get breaky as fuck in native LBP1; you can see how Qugz has included workarounds in the vehicles sections, so those bits must have broken so consistently that even they recognized there was a problem, but not enough of a problem to scrap the concept entirely.

We just talked about this one a couple of days ago. Are you telling me you've already forgotten a couple of days ago? i mean, fair enough. i have too. Don't feel too bad about it. But, like, do me a favour and just scroll back to Friday so i don't have to repeat myself?

Honestly? i kind of thought this one would do slightly better numbers. i know it was, by design, up for only a short window, but, like, it was on the heels of A Totally Reasonable Response (sitting at around 750-ish plays when the servers went down, and still getting plays on a relatively consistent basis). The last check put this one at something like 12, and i don't know how the LBP algo worked, clearly. Maybe it was the totally pants level badge. i was a bit pressed for time getting it published.

The fortune teller was a lot of fun in concept. i actually wrote out those kanji myself using the Move lolipop, and either my hands have gotten shakier, or it's a lot harder to get a straight line, and i just forgot. The actual logic behind it was a super pain in the arse, tho'. Originally it was set up to be just a one shot, and whatever fortune you got, that was it. The problem was, it would only show "Worst Luck;" something fucky wiv how i had the randomizer set up, i guess. In the end i had to do it so you could get multiple fortunes, and just leave it to the players' good will that they would only try it once.

i really liked the little environmental pieces, and was keeping them around to use in an actual level-level, but who knows how likely that'll be given the state of things right now.

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So. The penultimate(? maybe?) TENspot. Some really good levels in there. It'll be a shame if no one gets a chance to play them again.

i was doing the edits for b-roll on LittleBite-sizedPlanet 292 last night, and it really started to settle in that this might be one of the last times i do that, and it made me feel all kinds of ways. Yeah, not really that much more to say about it. Or at least not anything i really want to unpack right now. Just feeling pretty bummed out.

Gonna see a friend today, and we're going to a protest, which is one of those "good things to do, but i really wish we didn't have to do it" kind of deals.

[slade-neko]

Against my better judgement, I played the new Pokémon game! ~ My Initial Thoughts

I wasn't feeling Pokémon Scarlet & Violet before release. The games just looked off to me. The art style, the gameplay, the characters, the world design, all of it really. Now that I some hands on time with it well... ehhh, I kinda feel the same way haha. I'm typically a pretty easy going dude that can have fun in about any game I play, but I dunno, this game just doesn't do much for me. It doesn't feel like a true Pokémon game. I've been playing since Gen 1 and yeah sure Sword & Shield wasn't perfect, but I still had an enjoyable time with them. Here's the key points I noticed in my time with the game.

Character Customization:

Character customization is a HUGE driving factor for me in video games. Pokémon SwSh had amazing trainer customization aside from the gym battle uniforms. Now imagine being forced to wear the gym uniform through the entire game! That's Scarlet and Violet. In SwSh I could dress my character up in so many cool outfits and that was probably my favorite aspect of that game. In Scarlet & Violet, you can only change accessories and shoes, no changing your outfit... you're stuck with that ugly school uniform the ENTIRE game! All you get is 4 seasonal styles of the same school crap. I just want my leather biker jacket and ripped jeans, darn it!

Character Designs & Art Style:

Pokémon games always had hit or miss characters for me. Typically there's more characters that I like than dislike in a game, but not really the case for Scarlet & Violet's characters. Nemona's pretty cool though, I do like her, but lotta of them feel boring and fall kinda flat for me. And to be completely honest some of them give me nightmares...

Then there's the actual art style. I don't really think Pokémon needed alpha transparency hairstyles. The solid meshed style fits better in my opinion. Feels like they tried adding some realism to the graphics with alpha hairs and more detailed skins & eye textures, but its still kinda toony looking, so its like this off putting in between style.

The World:

From what I saw, the world didn't really feel very believable or all too well designed. Just tons of huge mountains and steep cliffs. Not necessarily the prettiest scenery in a 2022 video game. None of the towns or anything really stuck out to me neither. Again, the whole thing feels kinda bland.

The Pokémon:

Not much to say on the Pokémon as every generation has had some weird designs after all. Heck even 1st Gen had some weird Pokémon that I still question today. For the most part, I did like majority of the new ones. Wish the cat starter didn't stand on TWO LEGS though! Lets please try to keep them animalistic and less humanoid GameFreak. Oh, also I played Scarlet. I wanted to play Violet with the Tron bike Pokémon, but instead I had the Flintstones one... still don't understand why does it have wheels if it just runs with it's legs instead?

Terastallization?/ The Gimmick:

Every Pokémon game since 6th gen has to have a gimmick these days. 6th Gen had Mega Evolutions, 7th Gen had Z-Moves, 8th Gen had Dynamax/ Gigantamax, and now 9th Gen's got Terastallizing? Basically your Pokémon goes into a crystalized form... boring! My personal favorite is still Mega Evolution. Having your Pokémon transform into a powerful 4th evolution temporarily was awesome. It was basically Pokémon's version of Super Saiyan 4 and I loved it.

Rushed development?!

The game was rushed and the internet's been tearing it to shreds because of that. Bugs, glitches, a complete mess. Not much I can add to that. I don't put all the blame GameFreak for that, since I'm sure there's factors out of their control for pushing the game out within the given deadlines, but seriously I feel like Pokémon games are coming out too frequently. As Miyamoto once said, "A delayed game is eventually a good game, but a bad game is bad forever."

The Good/ Open World & Multiplayer:

Lotta negatives, but hey, some positive things too! The open world, I loved it. I love being able to immediately pick where I want to go right after I start my journey. Which Gym do I challenge first or if I even want to do Gym battles or pursue a different goal entirely like hunt down the Titans or wipe out Team Star. Now that I like! Also the Multiplayer! While I didn't get to check it out myself, I know how it works. Being able to form a group with friends and explore the world together. That's a huge step in the right direction and how I wished it was in Sword & Shield.

Final Thoughts

All-in-all, I wanted to give the game a chance and I'm glad I did, but it just doesn't hook me personally. I'm not trying to sound negative with the game, but I do feel like Pokémon is losing itself as a series. A trend I've been noticing more and more with each passing year. Not just Pokémon in specific, but tons of series that go on too long begin to weaken and water down with time. Ideas run stale, monotonous, and begin to lose their luster. Too many IPs are being milked these days until there's nothing left. That's why there's been so many remasters, remakes, and even reboots happening now. They need more spacing/ time between releases.

TL;DR Game's a bit of a mess, but knowing that it's still worth trying for yourself. Maybe you will enjoy it. I have friends who are and I'm glad they're having fun. For me though, I'll be passing on this one.

[wow-can-you-believe-this-gal]

Grazie <3

Name? I'd rather not disclose for privacy reasons :3 but you can call me by a codename like Lotus, for example, my favorite flower.

Pronouns and gender? I'm still questioning a lot, but I'm going by transfem she/they here

Sexuality? Doesn't really fit a label perfectly: I LOOOOVE women (femininity), and I also really really like dick :3

Country? suomi perkele

Top 5 fandoms? Zelda, Fire Emblem, Girls' Frontline, Fromsoft... and jer,a

What is your Most forbidden snack? I prefer sausages cold

Would you pet a bug? no because I'd be afraid of squishing it

Share a weird fact/story about yourself with the class. I collect bottles of a single specific soda of single specific brand. I've saved every one I've bought or acquired over some years now.

What does the color blue taste like? Like something that doesn't challenge you at all. It truly meshes with your tastebuds. You've never tasted anything better before, but you'll be sad once it's gone from your mouth.

What is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? The world (so those moments when I'm somewhere beautiful with loved ones and I get hit by a truck called "appreciation for life")

What is the stupidest thing you've ever done? Social anxiety

Stupidest thing you've seen/heard someone else do/say? I don't even want to think about it

Hyperfixation song? I've been looping Ashes to Ashes by David Bowie a bit

Is there any meaning behind your profile picture and/or username? I recently changed it to this Picrew because I wanted it to be a bit more personal than Geiru Toneido (even though it's catfishing lol). I just came up with the name when I made an account to try Tumblr for the first time. My typical names were already taken and I didn't want it to be connectable to me, so I just came up with this sentence lol nothing special. The last word was originally "guy" though, so I changed it when I came back for the 196 exodus (I made the account before my egg cracked).

Dream career as a child? Game dev, architect, janitor

Dream career as an adult? I'm going to have the papers of an IT engineer... my three main criteria for a dream job are 1) be able to help people / make a difference 2) be able to express myself / my creativity 3) something to do with tech. and I wouldn't mind making some money

Thoughts on cilantro? well, I won't eat it if you put some as decoration on top of lasagna

Have you ever been banned from a location and if so, why? don't think so

What is your cursed food combination? Cucumber and ketchup

Trans rights? live for them (and other equal human rights)

People time: @viktor-the-leshen @opathes @lordoftablecloths @clarificationsw @hanavesinauttija @sad-trans-girl @emo-56 @finnishwhiteboy @twinkenjoyer @afemwolfboy

“I just came from r/196” ask game

Saw another post. I think I should invite y'all to one of our longstanding traditions. Answer the questions then tag 10 (or more) people. I'll go first.

Name? Frankie

Pronouns and gender? he/they/it, transmasc

Sexuality? Lesbian

Country? USA

Top 5 fandoms? Bungou Stray Dogs, Cosmere, All for the Game, Fundiesnark (not a series but I'm too deep in it to not consider it a fandom), .....the tornado fandom? (they're my special interest)

What is your Most forbidden snack? The preserved bones at the Atlanta Bodies Exhibition. They looked so crunchy...

Would you pet a bug? If it's big enough, it is pettable.

Share a weird fact/story about yourself with the class. I like to drive around rural areas and photograph old, sometimes abandoned locations in the dead of night. I have been literally chased out of towns by foot and by car on two separate occasions. The second time this happened, "See You Again" by Miley Cyrus came up on shuffle and that's the soundtrack my friend and I tore out of town to. Also every "guy" I've dated except for my most recent ex (who has big egg energy) is a lesbian now.

What does the color blue taste like? Creme brulee

What is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? The appalachian mountains of Tennessee in the middle of summer. There's kudzu everywhere. On the backroads, there were several old, dilapidated Baptist churches barely hanging to the side of the mountain. I wonder how many of them were still in use.

What is the stupidest thing you've ever done? Short version: my friend's house almost got broken into by this dude who'd been stalking us for months while we were home alone. Instead of calling the cops, we decided to confront him with a bow and arrow (me), a hatchet, and a baseball bat (him). The plan was that if it went badly, we would simply throw his corpse into one of the many lakes in the neighborhood and let the alligators eat his remains (this was Florida). Why? Because we were afraid of having our home-alone privileges revoked. Luckily for us all, the guy fucked off and we never saw him again.

Stupidest thing you've seen/heard someone else do/say? My ex thought that Jackalopes were real. Also, a nurse I was doing rotations with apparently thought that "Witness Protection" was for Jehovah's Witnesses.

Hyperfixation song? Young Enough + Bleach by Charly Bliss

Is there any meaning behind your profile picture and/or username? Profile pic; I'm transmasc and I'm currently obsessed with TriStamp. Username; It was my fake internet name when I was like 13. I won't change it because I want my mutuals to recognize me, and because I do have a viral post associated with this name.

Dream career as a child? Doctor (funnily enough I'm now in nursing school)

Dream career as an adult? Professional Jester. Not a comedian. I just want to be some weird little guy who dresses silly and you can hire me to roast your boss at work parties.

Thoughts on cilantro? Delicious

Have you ever been banned from a location and if so, why? I honestly can't remember? Probably... but in recent memory I've mainly banned people from places.

What is your cursed food combination? Pineapple on a hotdog with grilled onions. It Slaps.

Trans rights? TRANS RIGHTS

Tagging: @rocket-mankoi @mostlymarco @atleast8courics @jazzlike39 @gemsweater72 @limbobilbo @ameliaaltare @redcrane112 @theoneofwhomisblue @twinkenjoyer @theultimatecarp and anyone else who wants to jump on

[topazshadowwolf]

Here is the first part of the Killer Soriel. There is indeed a second part to it. This is not a fic, just a mesh of thoughts and ideas. Just as a heads up, I see him doing best with a Fell Toriel. Someone who will put up with his sassy and give sassy back.

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Killer is a romantic, but he figures love is over for him since, y'know… he's an outcast. But then, one day, he and the others find this lost Fell Toriel outcode who needs help. So they take her home so Boss can take her to the OmegaTimeline. But Killer opts to have some fun while she's around and teases and flirts with her, figuring he might as well since he'll never see her again. Besides, she has the best reaction. She's not initially aggressive to him until he bugs her enough to make threats. And such fun threats they are! She's not scared of him at all!

Well, he'll miss her, but at least she's got a new home, right?

The thing is… she finds she doesn't like it there…

Everyone is just so happy. Even the other FellToriels and she doesn't want to be happy. She wants to be angry. HER HOME WAS DESTROYED! So she goes to Core!Frisk and is like, "get that slimy Sans back here. I want to live there if he will allow it." 

They call Nightmare in, and he is intrigued by this and says, "Sure, but you have to earn your keep." They make a deal for her to be a housekeeper and cook when Horror visits his brother.

Killer is thrilled. He is in love with the fact that she knows he could quickly kill her, yet she doesn't shy away from him. She's not scared or even aggressive unless he provokes aggression. And that is just so amusing to him! And he purposefully makes messes just so she yells at him because, to him, that's fun! 

So, he goes back to teasing and flirting with her. Most days, he's just hanging around her when he has spare time. She finds she doesn't mind. Now and then, he throws out an excellent pun that has her laugh so hard tears form...... he reminds her of her Sans... He used to make her laugh like that. But this one is more energetic and annoying… but not in a way that makes his company unpleasant.

Anyway, she finds that living in a castle is just a bit much, so she asks Nightmare if she can build a cottage in the woods. She would still do her job but doesn't like living in the castle... too many memories of her old life as queen. A time she'd rather forget. Instead, she would like to spend her free time in her own home and walk to the castle daily to work. He's okay with that and assigns the boys to help. Once her house is built, Killer is there nightly, keeping her company bugging her. She enjoys this time together tolerates this since he is Nightmare's son right-hand, and she doesn't want to upset her employer.

Then one day, Killer pesters her about sparring with him in the outdoor arena. He LOVES fighting and wants to see how good she is. Felli (her nickname for now) glares at him and says, "you are far stronger than me; we both know it." But he whines, saying he will let her have a chance, and promises it will be fun. She sighs, puts down her dust rag, and joins him. And with that, they fight. 

Killer loves every second of this, even if he's going easy on her, but he sees she's learning how to counter him quickly. He might be wrong, but she seems to be enjoying this too. 

He's not wrong; she is. She won't admit it, but this is so much fun, and then it dawns on her why. It is like they are dancing, and she loves to dance. So she waits for the right moment before just using her paws, grabbing his left hand and slipping her left behind his back, twirling him around, then dipping him.

Both are blushing at this... from exhaustion from the fight and this pose they are in. They remain in the dipped pose long enough to be awkward, but neither dares to move. Killer is speechless, too, a rare thing for him, but he honestly doesn't know what to think, let alone say. His soul is doing something it hasn't done before. It's not twitching... but pulsing like a heartbeat, and he can feel something that he hadn't felt in ages... what is that feeling?!

Love? Is that love?

As he's figuring this feeling out, Felli notices she is feeling tempted to kiss him. Not wanting to give in to that temptation, she drops him and walks away. Killer just lays there looking up at the sky until the others find him later since he didn't come for dinner. They are worried since he's just out of it and not being the pest he typically is. Nightmare knows, though... The training arena is visible from his library window... he saw the whole thing and calmed their worries while smiling a bit smugly.

[breezytrait]

hiiii!! i hope your day is going well!!! i love your recolor of the oversized jacket from the hs pack, but i was wondering if it was marked as a rare item bc its been breaking my game :/ i dont have s4s to check

hmmmmmmm good question! I don't really know, I didn't create the mesh. it was edited by sadlydulcet from the HSY pack and made BGC, I just recolored it. I didn't know clothes could have a rarity? I don't have this problem and I can't see anywhere on Google where you'd be able to edit cas items to be more rare in s4s :/ I'm sorry!!

I'll double check when I'm home that it doesn't break my game, but I don't think I had any issues when testing!!

You could try disabling the HSY pack (if you're playing w/ it) to see if the game pack is the issue? I know it has lots of bugs right now. :(

EDIT: Apparently it does have the rarity tag!! I had no clue 🫢 Still new to all of this. I’ll reupload this afternoon nonny<3 thank you for letting me know!

[obeymehasinfluncedmythoughts]

Sneak Peak

I have no idea when this will be finished, but I wanted to show what I'm working on, and see the general response to it before I full jump in.

It's a lot of work writing multiple stories at once and trying to juggle my crafts, and whilst I hate asking, if you're in a position to and do enjoy the content I produce, please consider buying me a coffee. Seriously, I hate asking, but it's a lot of work, and having revenue coming in allows for me to devote more time to these larger pieces.

It's not everyday you get blessed with an opportunity as big as this. 

Then again, it's not everyday you wake up with mud on your pillow and the smell of mold invading your senses. In fact, most of the time you're in your apartment, starting off your morning to the sound of an alarm instead of the sounds of equipment and heated discussions. The organized peace of your private life is much different then the organized chaos of your work life, and you aren't complaining. You wouldn't change this for the world. 

Sure, it stinks, and you haven't had a decent shower since you left home three days ago, but you can't possibly be happier. You're doing what you've always wanted to do; uncovering history! You're finding the mysteries of time, and getting paid to do it! Unfortunately all the mess and bugs come with the territory of discovering the secrets of the past. 

Besides, it's not the worst you've been through. For instance, when you were still in school, one of the first sites you'd done any sort of proper analysis on was located in Egypt. It's a lovely place full of a vivid and vast history, which is why you were incredibly excited to put your hands to work there. You could have done without the sand in your underwear though, and you didn't really need the abundance of mosquitoes either, or your professor's insistence on listening to the same CD for three weeks straight. Sharing a tent with one of your more immature classmates also sort of took the fun out of things. 

You're not in school anymore though. You're an adult, doing your job, with colleagues who surely know that using priceless artifacts of the past to play pranks is reckless and dangerous, and your own tent. At least, you hope so. You can never really tell when you come to private property like this, where it seems there's a hundred different people from a hundred different places analyzing the site and everything on it. 

In your experience the teams your boss tends to put together are rag-tag at best. You rarely ever work with the same people, and when you do it's incredibly hard to find someone you mesh well with. Of course, it's not just their fault. You don't need to be told that you aren't God's gift to humanity. That being said, you wish you could meet someone in the field who shares a similar viewpoint in regards to your job as you do and doesn't get offended when you get a bit snippy while working. 

Thankfully Simeon is great for that. The two of you haven't been able to work together much, but the few times you've crossed paths have been wonderful. Things go a lot smoother when it's like you got an angel on your shoulder, making sure you don't get hurt or clumsily make a mess of things. You wish he could be around more, but his specialization and yours don't often interact much. Not unless you end up at sites in need of both Biblical and medieval experts. 

Which is why you can't say you're super surprised to find him here, in the site of what you all assume to be a church. The structure is long gone at this point, with the only lasting print being a broken piece of stone that was probably once a floor. That doesn't mean the dig isn't interesting though. Every bit of the stone seems to have carvings piled on top of it. Some are intricate designs, others pictures with faded stories, but the majority are words that form what seems to be a never-ending spiral. You've been told by others that it isn't just one language either. Some of it is distinguishably Latin, which is relatively normal for this time period and context, but there's a range of text outside that which seems misplaced.

There's a few of your colleagues that are quite overjoyed with this discovery. They've been spending day and night in the mud and rain trying to get a good reading of what's been placed there, but you're not as keen on such research. Languages aren't really your best subject. Sure, you know the basics of many, it's hard not to in your field, but your main skills lay in artifacts. 

You haven't really found much yet, truth be told, but the three things that have been dug up are incredibly interesting. Two seem to be remains of statues that most likely sat at the door of the church, and the last being a small dagger nearly fifteen steps away from the initial discovery spot. The dagger interests you most due to its intricate design, with a decorative gem placed at the center and some sort of symbol carved into the hilt, it's truly a fascinating piece. You hope to find more like it the further things go, but this rain is making that process rather hard. 

You've woken up to it raining like this everyday for the past week. It never let's up, only getting heavier as time goes on, and so far three people have had to leave due to complications associated with the weather. Two of these have been involved with your latest interest; what appears to be a little cellar at the back of the church. 

Of course, you aren't exactly sure if that's what it is. All you do know for a fact is that it has one of those stone slabs on top of it, and after a few hundred years the ground must have been pushed away and allowed the piece to fall in. This could be written off as just a natural process, but you know you're not being presumptuous thinking something is underneath. According to some of your more Latin-savvy colleagues, the writing on top specifically warns of what is below. You can't help admitting that ever since you learned that, you've been dying to get inside. 

This weather makes moving the bigger pieces basically impossible though. You've been going at it for days trying to keep the mud from pooling in, but it never seems to stop, no matter what precautions you take. So, you've just been hoping for better weather, because no machines are getting through the sodden forest floor without complications. 

"At least we've still got something to do," Simeon says from your side, his boots sloshing as he gestures to the little table nearby, filled with cracked pieces of the stone flooring. Most of them are too small to hold any useful information on them, but piecing them together gives a better picture of what used to lay here once upon a time. 

You find that to be rather boring though, especially when there's such a tempting warning just a few feet away. 

[thebreakfastgenie]

I've started watching Leverage, and I think you're a fan, right? If so, could you talk about what you like about it? I'm enjoying it, but it doesn't feel like it's quite living up to what I've heard a lot of people say about it.

Ooh, yeah! I love Leverage! But I will say, I've never been especially interested in Leverage fandom, and it makes sense to me that it wouldn't necessarily live up to the way I've seen people talk about it on here when I wander that way. I got into Leverage when I was in late middle school/early high school and the original run was still airing, and I do think it was a different experience watching any part of it live once a week.

If you're still in the first season, I would say give it a little time. I LOVE the early episodes, especially on rewatch, but I think it does find its footing. Also, I'm not sure what the current streaming situation is, but when it was on Netflix the first season was listed in the original airing order, which is out of order. Imo the first season is much better in DVD order.

I love the characters! I especially love the found family, but I'm just in love with all the characters individually too.

I really love the writing, I think it's really good and it's also a style I happen to mesh with and was probably influenced by considering the point in my life that I watched it.

The premise really works for me, because it's this revenge fantasy about fucking up CEOs, but something the creators have talked about is the original run of the show happened at a very good time for that because the 2008 financial crisis was current. I haven't actually watched Redemption yet and I'm not entirely sure how well that translated to a different political and economic landscape.

It's funny. That probably more than anything else made me love it.

These have mostly been very generic, I'm trying to avoid specifics because I don't know how far you are, but I can tell you the specific moment that sold me in the pilot: "I found the transmitter!""No, you found the transmitter with the blinking light. We wanted you to figure some of it out." When I saw that transmitter I rolled my eyes like here we go, a classic TV conspicuous bug. When it turned out that was intentional I got very excited. It was a level of complex and smart writing I wasn't used it, plus playing with the audience's preconceptions which is great for a con show.

Also, maybe this is just me, but I think Leverage probably stands out a little less in terms of quality now. When I watched it the first time there were a lot of things I didn't expect to go the way they did based on what else was on TV at the time.

I'm glad you're enjoying it though!